Hey man I want you to know I really really really enjoy and appreciate your videos, and I just wanna tell you don't stop man, even tho growth may be slow and things like that there are people out there who really benefit from this content and are looking to support you in your future endeavors. When I can if you have something available like patreon or whatever I will definitely support you because you're one of my favorite youtubers just based off of your 365 days without weed vid and the self destructive beliefs tierlist; the algorithm blessed me w your content through that video as you can see it has like over 200k views lmao, but yeah anyway I'm just letting you know you're doing something right and I see too many creators stop due to low traffic or burnout whatever it may be so I just don't wanna see that happen to you yk. Have a good night/day to anybody reading this and remember the universe is watching with great interest!!!
Hey I want you to know that I really really really appreciate your comment. It's very encouraging and wholesome. Makes me feel how the numbers on the screen are a huge abstraction, but the impact on each person is very very real. It often feels impossible to grasp how much impact I am having, specially when a video has little views. So comments like these are the feedback that makes me happy the most. I can assure you this is just the start and I will be building something big with this channel and my life. And I want to push everybody upwards who is willing to join me on my way. The universe is creating with a lots of excitement! Thank you!
Loved the video! I'm a bit confused on one point though. I can't tell if you view death as nothing or a blissful experience, I feel like you cover both stark points in the video.
The process of dying likely isn't. But death is the dissolution of the self. Therefore the lack of all resistances. Creating harmony and bliss. This can also be realized during life when one lives more stoically and let's go of control. This is why meditation, psychedelic and a life with purpose where one works for something higher then oneself feels so good. Same with love. When we care for others more then ourselves we connect to something very profound and meaningful. Then there is ego death mostly described as extremely blissful, and people who describe their near death experiences usually say they feel like they merged with some all loving being-ness. So far all of this has been owned by the realms of spirituality but I am sure there are physical laws behind this. There is a core ground of existence that is made out of harmony, love and bliss. Our self obsession and survival instincts make most of us blind to it.
Yeah my acid experience was beautiful, and horrific. I unfortunately wasn't able to surrender my ego. Like you said I was shown and almost like implanted into my brain all these different truths, and concepts of who we are the creator and the created, quantum field of possibilities, lessons of love coming from all of forms even the bad events in your life to help forge you as a person, because true love means to accept all as is, unconditional, ect... But at one part of the trip it was as if "god" was so disappointed in my development, and annoyed that I keep asking questions and then not doing anything with the amazing valuable information I'm getting that it flipped the trip upside down and it felt like I was given all the emotional suffering of the world, I envisioned all kinds of humans sufferings and it made me realize how terrible I am as a person, the way think and talk to myself was all self hate, poor mannerisms, posture, and overall short with most people.(of course this bad experience could also be my ego freaking out trying cling onto identity.) after that experience I had some type dark night of the soul, ended up cutting my wrist 2 weeks later regretted it right away. Still in the dark, but I will never regret taking acid it has been the best most transformative experiences I ever had in my life. I was already suicidal before this, someone just lifted the blindfolds off while I was looking in the mirror and I was disgusted with what looked back is all. All I can do now is be better.
I haven't found Heaven yet, I haven't had the realisation that everything is made out of love but I think I can understand how letting go of the sense of self and accepting reality would make life a lot easier. I think this relates to the Buddhist teaching of the two darts, your mind adds to the suffering. It's interesting how reality is filtered through your identity. Your understanding of the self and the universe shapes the lens in which you perceive reality. Viewing the world through the lens of subject/object duality distorts reality because that view is an illusion. Personally I still feel like a separate subject though. What is your average daily experience like? Does it feel like the ego/self is in control (like you are choosing what to do), or does it feel like things are just happening? It's incredible that you can go from having anti-natalist beliefs to you current views.
I feel like things are just happening. Over my life, I have progressively lost my sense of self in ways that are hard to describe. In 2020, I would say I still had a rather strong sense of self. But afterwards, it was a faster progression into selflessness, caused by the mix of meditation, self-inquiry, and psychedelics. My daily experience is that 'I am a soup of sensations' and there is no local point of experience that I can point to and say, "Here, that's me." At least internally I can't. But if I create something or am in a group of people, I do sense I have a very strong character, and I tend to be quite direct and confident. So most people probably sense my ego clearly. Therefore feeling this flow and acceptance isn't about losing the ego entirely. It's more about cutting off the corners that make you feel inadequate. I, too still feel I am not good enough for many things or I sometimes am insecure about new situations. But there is a strong sense of acceptance and self-love when I feel these sensations, and it is as if I can observe these sensations as like "floaty things" that come and go, and not as something that defines me. This makes it rather easy to move outside of my comfort zone.
@@the.kleyko "I am a soup of sensations." I love that. Thanks for taking the time to reply. Learning about non-self has made acceptance and self-love easier for me as well.
@@the.kleykohey kleyko, with all your ideas you have, how do you keep track of them. Not just video ideas like all the spiritual ideas too. I thought about making a book to write them down because I have some ideas I somewhat forget as I have so many.
@@b-rice5008 That's a cool question. I use Obsidian. Has quite a learning curve to it but after 2 years of using it is really my second brain. But it took a lot to find a system that works. It evolves over time. But nowdays I couldn't live without it.
@@the.kleyko Hope this helps :) When I was talking to a friend I told her that I wanted to never lose friends. I want to have friends that would stick with me no matter what and so on. She said something like it isn't always bad losing a friend you can leave on good terms. And in my head I was so confused and a bit angry. Because this is what I want most to have friends for life and I fear most Is losing them. But after thinking for a while I realized that because I am so afraid of losing friends, I can't actually have a real friendship because I'm so afraid of what they think of me. (am I weird or do I make bad joke and so on) So basically the only way I could get friendships I was to make myself vunrable. If I want a hug I ask now even though I am still afraid to be rejected and so on. So after that she came back and I told her like omg your right. And now the more try things out things that put me out of my comfort zone the more confidence I get and the less afraid I will get abandoned. Thanks for reading :)
@@rob2540the way I say it is that you shouldn’t let fear or uncomfortability or bad feelings limit your life, limit what you really care the most about. And the way I’ve learned to deal with fear or uncomfort is to accept and tolerate that fear for periods of time. Let’s say someone is bad at being social and they are scared. Whenever they avoid stressful or scary situations they teach themselves to avoid and never face. But when you go do it even when you are scared and accept and tolerate the fear you teach yourself it’s okay and a new way forward and your actually doing something really crazy, which is you are becoming someone new and someone you want to be , your changing to the person you put your mind to. It’s all really about teaching your brain and your body, because fear comes from the brain. Don’t let fear limit your life and live happy my friend. This is all really phycology and isn’t as much as what kleyko was talking about in the video. But I guess phycology can tie into spiritual matters because meditation affects your mental state as well.
Hey man I want you to know I really really really enjoy and appreciate your videos, and I just wanna tell you don't stop man, even tho growth may be slow and things like that there are people out there who really benefit from this content and are looking to support you in your future endeavors. When I can if you have something available like patreon or whatever I will definitely support you because you're one of my favorite youtubers just based off of your 365 days without weed vid and the self destructive beliefs tierlist; the algorithm blessed me w your content through that video as you can see it has like over 200k views lmao, but yeah anyway I'm just letting you know you're doing something right and I see too many creators stop due to low traffic or burnout whatever it may be so I just don't wanna see that happen to you yk. Have a good night/day to anybody reading this and remember the universe is watching with great interest!!!
Hey I want you to know that I really really really appreciate your comment.
It's very encouraging and wholesome.
Makes me feel how the numbers on the screen are a huge abstraction, but the impact on each person is very very real.
It often feels impossible to grasp how much impact I am having, specially when a video has little views.
So comments like these are the feedback that makes me happy the most.
I can assure you this is just the start and I will be building something big with this channel and my life. And I want to push everybody upwards who is willing to join me on my way.
The universe is creating with a lots of excitement!
Thank you!
@@the.kleykoyou sure helped me❤️
I hope this channel blows up soon! Thank you for the great work you are doing🙏
Loved the video! I'm a bit confused on one point though. I can't tell if you view death as nothing or a blissful experience, I feel like you cover both stark points in the video.
The process of dying likely isn't. But death is the dissolution of the self. Therefore the lack of all resistances. Creating harmony and bliss.
This can also be realized during life when one lives more stoically and let's go of control. This is why meditation, psychedelic and a life with purpose where one works for something higher then oneself feels so good.
Same with love. When we care for others more then ourselves we connect to something very profound and meaningful.
Then there is ego death mostly described as extremely blissful, and people who describe their near death experiences usually say they feel like they merged with some all loving being-ness.
So far all of this has been owned by the realms of spirituality but I am sure there are physical laws behind this.
There is a core ground of existence that is made out of harmony, love and bliss.
Our self obsession and survival instincts make most of us blind to it.
@@the.kleyko beautiful response!
Yeah my acid experience was beautiful, and horrific. I unfortunately wasn't able to surrender my ego. Like you said I was shown and almost like implanted into my brain all these different truths, and concepts of who we are the creator and the created, quantum field of possibilities, lessons of love coming from all of forms even the bad events in your life to help forge you as a person, because true love means to accept all as is, unconditional, ect... But at one part of the trip it was as if "god" was so disappointed in my development, and annoyed that I keep asking questions and then not doing anything with the amazing valuable information I'm getting that it flipped the trip upside down and it felt like I was given all the emotional suffering of the world, I envisioned all kinds of humans sufferings and it made me realize how terrible I am as a person, the way think and talk to myself was all self hate, poor mannerisms, posture, and overall short with most people.(of course this bad experience could also be my ego freaking out trying cling onto identity.) after that experience I had some type dark night of the soul, ended up cutting my wrist 2 weeks later regretted it right away. Still in the dark, but I will never regret taking acid it has been the best most transformative experiences I ever had in my life. I was already suicidal before this, someone just lifted the blindfolds off while I was looking in the mirror and I was disgusted with what looked back is all. All I can do now is be better.
I haven't found Heaven yet, I haven't had the realisation that everything is made out of love but I think I can understand how letting go of the sense of self and accepting reality would make life a lot easier. I think this relates to the Buddhist teaching of the two darts, your mind adds to the suffering.
It's interesting how reality is filtered through your identity. Your understanding of the self and the universe shapes the lens in which you perceive reality. Viewing the world through the lens of subject/object duality distorts reality because that view is an illusion. Personally I still feel like a separate subject though.
What is your average daily experience like? Does it feel like the ego/self is in control (like you are choosing what to do), or does it feel like things are just happening? It's incredible that you can go from having anti-natalist beliefs to you current views.
I feel like things are just happening. Over my life, I have progressively lost my sense of self in ways that are hard to describe.
In 2020, I would say I still had a rather strong sense of self. But afterwards, it was a faster progression into selflessness, caused by the mix of meditation, self-inquiry, and psychedelics.
My daily experience is that 'I am a soup of sensations' and there is no local point of experience that I can point to and say, "Here, that's me."
At least internally I can't. But if I create something or am in a group of people, I do sense I have a very strong character, and I tend to be quite direct and confident. So most people probably sense my ego clearly.
Therefore feeling this flow and acceptance isn't about losing the ego entirely. It's more about cutting off the corners that make you feel inadequate.
I, too still feel I am not good enough for many things or I sometimes am insecure about new situations. But there is a strong sense of acceptance and self-love when I feel these sensations, and it is as if I can observe these sensations as like "floaty things" that come and go, and not as something that defines me.
This makes it rather easy to move outside of my comfort zone.
@@the.kleyko "I am a soup of sensations." I love that. Thanks for taking the time to reply. Learning about non-self has made acceptance and self-love easier for me as well.
Aye new video
Ayeeee glad yo see you are back! I will upload more regularly now. I am full of ideas ^^
@@the.kleykohey kleyko, with all your ideas you have, how do you keep track of them. Not just video ideas like all the spiritual ideas too. I thought about making a book to write them down because I have some ideas I somewhat forget as I have so many.
@@b-rice5008 That's a cool question. I use Obsidian. Has quite a learning curve to it but after 2 years of using it is really my second brain. But it took a lot to find a system that works. It evolves over time.
But nowdays I couldn't live without it.
I'm happy because I don't fear losing people as much as a I did before.
How did you stop fearing loosing people?
@@the.kleyko
Hope this helps :)
When I was talking to a friend I told her that I wanted to never lose friends.
I want to have friends that would stick with me no matter what and so on.
She said something like it isn't always bad losing a friend you can leave on good terms.
And in my head I was so confused and a bit angry.
Because this is what I want most to have friends for life and I fear most Is losing them.
But after thinking for a while I realized that because I am so afraid of losing friends,
I can't actually have a real friendship because I'm so afraid of what they think of me. (am I weird or do I make bad joke and so on)
So basically the only way I could get friendships I was to make myself vunrable.
If I want a hug I ask now even though I am still afraid to be rejected and so on.
So after that she came back and I told her like omg your right.
And now the more try things out things that put me out of my comfort zone the more confidence I get and the less afraid I will get abandoned.
Thanks for reading :)
@@rob2540 that's a very good mindset to have
@@rob2540the way I say it is that you shouldn’t let fear or uncomfortability or bad feelings limit your life, limit what you really care the most about.
And the way I’ve learned to deal with fear or uncomfort is to accept and tolerate that fear for periods of time.
Let’s say someone is bad at being social and they are scared. Whenever they avoid stressful or scary situations they teach themselves to avoid and never face.
But when you go do it even when you are scared and accept and tolerate the fear you teach yourself it’s okay and a new way forward
and your actually doing something really crazy, which is you are becoming someone new and someone you want to be
, your changing to the person you put your mind to.
It’s all really about teaching your brain and your body, because fear comes from the brain.
Don’t let fear limit your life and live happy my friend.
This is all really phycology and isn’t as much as what kleyko was talking about in the video.
But I guess phycology can tie into spiritual matters because meditation affects your mental state as well.
bpd?
How I’m not really familiar with that?