For sure , for years and to this day a lot of people just think I'm lazy , being awkward plus having had and still having problems with substances , prescribed meds etc people just don't get it they think that I want to just be live the way I live by laying around for days on end in bed most times not even sleeping and people assume I'm high and being selfish when 99 percent of the time I'm just about existing with not much of an existence , sorry for the long ass comment ✌️
@@paulmcduff1930 you’re good! Yeah a lot of people, including my own parents thought I was lazy when I was younger. They still don’t fully understand that I have days where I just need to be left alone because I have no motivation that day. However, I don’t get crap for it anymore. There are even days where I feel very low and my brain has no thoughts and doesn’t want to work so I “shutdown” and lay in bed or sit in a chair. Unless you experience true depression, people don’t know how it stops your brain form working and letting you do things. I hope you can find a smooth path with your mental health and substance issues! I know it’s not easy, but don’t let it get you down.
I didn't know him in person, but he didn't seem like the type to go through with suicide if anything. He had more money than God, but still was not happy.. Sad, rip chester!! :(
@@LocalGamer69 he did want to be put out of his misery.. in a song. He did not want to leave his band members, his life, It was just getting good.. but he had to go.. he decided one day to just do it. His decision. I don’t discriminate. But he had kids, a wife, *ACTUAL* friends, an entire few decades of life ahead of him. But he took everything from the inside and threw it all away.
"How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year. We're running over the same old ground. What have we found,? The same old fears. Wish you were here."
I KNOWW how you feel and what your life is like. It is TRULY paralyzing. I imagine it even took a lot for you to type out that sentence because when you are THAT low, you don’t have much to say, don’t feel like discussing much of anything, and can’t focus long enough to even know how to answer how are you? Or a “yes” or “no” question… you’re just blank-just stuck- you’re beyond words. I’ve been suffering from ongoing just sort of low to mid level depression for decades AND I suffered from 1 clinically severe case for a number of years and the ONLY way to come out the other end is via the combo of the right anti-depression medicine and TIME. No one can talk you out of it imo. Anyway, no matter how deep and severe, eventually, somehow, time with med. it WILL lift. Best of luck and God be with you.👍
I admitted to myself that I relate DEFINITELY brings hope to hear someone else speak honestly regarding these awful symptoms.. The problem isn't going to get magically fixed ,the work is key & as far as Medication to each his own . Peace He's giving real advice. .RIP Chester Where is the sunshine?
I've fell into depression and had anxiety along with it. I was fortunate to come out of both on my own. It took 4 years but I made it alone! I know not everyone can do that. It's very hard but I'm thankful and don't give up!
Sad that you had to make it there alone. All the power to you and I'm really glad you got there, but I wouldn't recommend suggesting to people that the only way out is by yourself- friends, family and professionals are the best way if you have them.
As someone who has never been depressed, I can't imagine what these people go thru. All I know, is he was so loved by us fans. So sad he is gone. God bless his wife and children. RIP my friend.
Its not a battle. Its a war. None should have to face that war by themselves. Becoming numb and indifferent is a fate nearly as bad as death because you arent truly living. We all want "somewhere i belong" and feel we dont if we give into the demons. And not giving in is far more easily said than done
1 John 5 KJV 13 These things have I written unto you that believe on the name of the Son of God; that ye may know that ye have eternal life, and that ye may believe on the name of the Son of God. 1 Corinthians 15 KJV 1-4 Romans 3 KJV 24-25
Finding passion again is the hardest thing after a depressive episode, to anyone else out there who struggles with this, you can get out of it and find peace it just will take a lot of work and time.
Right, I'm fighting it though. Trying everyday to look above to God for my strength. Rest well Chester and thank you for all of the heart felt meaningful bangers you and the park have giving us.
It's when there is nothing that could bring you out of it, no amount of money, not anything in this world. If you can't imagine that being the case, then you're fortunate enough to have never truly been depressed.
Watching these is breaking me. The signs were there, but because he was saying all the right things ppl didn’t see it. If someone is chronically depressed then they go from their up & down to just up. They have made the decision. They are calm. Watching his last performance he was saying goodbye. It’s heartbreaking. I can’t imagine how the boys are feeling now looking back. He was such a beautiful soul. Who saved so many but we couldn’t save him, it’s tragic.
It’s why I smoke so much bud. Gets me more self control and to stabilize my emotions/mood. Not a cure but a temporary fix. I agree wholeheartedly with his wording and it’s like a loss of motivation completely even with stuff you usually enjoy and slowly gets worse. Wish I could’ve met him he’s my childhood idol, one of the first bands I actually connected with. Much love and rest in peace! You’re forever a legend
Me atm ! No sunshine. :( anxiety and depression is very real and I hate when people say just get over it or it will pass well i hope so cos so far its been off and on for 15 years . I have never experience absolute happiness if I am happy its flat line and below never those highs people get. And i guess this is why people self medicate. Feeling so many lows you would rather feel nothing at all than to feel like you want to die everyday .
Wow great way to explain real depression it really does not go away. We need more people to stand up for people like Chester who are very important to this world. Each person is important and deserves the right to live no matter what groups of peoples opinions that dislike them.
I felt bad for months until I realized that I was depressed. One try on Prozac and I've been okay for the last 30 years. Sometimes it's just a brain chemical imbalance, as I was. 3 days on Prozac and the sky was bluer, the trees greener. It's not always what you think it is.
Look what good the doctors did to him. As time progresses I get reassured that depression is invincible. You either quit or accept you're gonna live in pain. Sure there are bound to be some good moments if you decide to stick around, but don't fool yourself that there is such a thing as "beating depression" with medication and therapy. At this point advising people to see a doctor is just cope.
thats me. my entire life. its so bad rn. idk wat to do. medication doesn't help in fact it makes it worse. nothing makes me feel better NOTHING and i hate it. i just hate it. my life is so hard ive lost everything and i dont even have a car anymore driving was one thing i could do to feel better but i cant. excercising helped but my back is so bad i cant anymore. i just keep praying.
The shitty part is that you yourself rarely know if you’re just dejected or depressed on your own. Either it goes away or it screws things up and you gotta seek help before it makes things worse.
Totally understand, I suffer from depression, and have tried to end my life. I really hope someone who is reading this will remember how much they matter, and that their life is not defined by their depression. The moment of crisis will eventually fade, just take a breath... Much love ❤❤❤
I don't want to do anything either but i don't want to sulk in a pool of misery more. If you don't move yourself, you've already lost. If you take the meds, you still lose. Change your outlook, change your words, change your attitude towards everything. Be positive because negativity just slides you back into the pool of misery.
Chester was the sunshine to in our darkest days and he shine right through it. His songs really had a big impact on my childhood both positions and negative but it also brought back some memories too and I still listen to it whenever I can. We miss you buddy 💙
I came to a point in my life where his voice in "numb" is far more relatable than it was to me as kid that just liked the sound of the music. The message hits harder. Being depressed isnt about being sad. It can be apathy or as the song is named, feeling numb to what hsppenes around you
I have this. It really sucks. CBD helps. So does 2.5mg thc a few times a day. Vitamin D also seems important. These three put me in the same space as Sertraline did.
People like Chester live an unenviable curse, they have the power to help so many people but cant get the help they need for themselves. Linkin Park is one of my go tos when I’m really struggling.
For me. I will feel okay, and i start functioning again. I choose a life path, i and i move toward it. Then when it hits me, that life path is meaningless. And i forget why i ever chose to walk it. I become convinced that life is a monotonous sprint to the end. It hurts me because in those times when i feel okay. I try and drill it into myself via external media. I will video myself trying to hype myself up. I will write on my white board positive outlooks on life. When im depressed again, i refuse to look at those videos. And barely read my white board. Nothing but misery resonates with you when you are depressed. Mental disorders are all horrible, but considering depression is the one that ive lived with all of my life. I can say this illness denies you your full potential.
It sucks when people belittle or pick at you for not being active with desires and depressed. its being made fun of or picked on for feeling badly and it stacks.
I’ve been trying to explain this for so long . I truly am better then everyone at everything i do but i just can’t anymore , i have no desire to participate in anything . I barley eat , i attack my family for crossing me i hate everyone socially . I am broken not crazy . You guys are so overwhelming with the social media & canceling people its very sick & toxic & it effects people like me a lot . Life is already shitty & a lot of you guys make it worse .
There is no sunshine... Sums it up well. Personally, I was never a fan of his band. That being said, I've only heard a few songs of theirs that were played on the radio at the time. If anyone has any suggestions of some of their songs that I should listen to, let me know. Take care everyone.
Literally, all of them! Their music is free therapy that you don't even have to leave the house for. They have such a wide range of music, and all of their albums have a different sound. so if you like the harder rock type of music, try their "Hybrid Theory" Album, or "Meteora" Album. If you like the slower melodic type music, maybe try songs from their albums "One More Light" or "A Thousand Suns". They are so versatile that they literally have songs for everyone. On a bad day, I like to play "Given Up" as loud as I possibly can. Search for their "Live In Texas" full concert performance. A lot of great songs on there, and their live versions of songs are always better than their studio versions anyway
He was probably heavily medicated then because he was doing A LOT! I’m not depressed and I don’t want to do much and I wouldn’t even be able to do 1/8 of what he did! He made it look so simple and easy! I really don’t know how he did it!
I remember when he did this interview. It wasn’t very long after his last birthday and I THINK they were out of the country somewhere. He spoke about how great his birthday was and his birthday cake and ice cream were because he had spent his entire day in bed binge watching stuff and eating a great steak dinner and lots of cake and ice cream… ALL stuff he practically NEVER did-(you remember the incredible physical shape he was in!) Then, he went on to describe what severe clinical depression feels like and I, who have experienced that as well as an ongoing mid-level type , must agree with him. I think he gave an EXCELLENT description of it in the short time he had, and although : -what he did for his birthday -how he described depression - the way he proclaimed how good he felt about himself at that point , were all separate topics. And although I believe in the most STRONGEST OF TERMS, that Chester did NOTTT go on to later kill himself…, I DID get a sad sense from this interview when he spoke about spending his birthday alone. Perhaps I saw some red flags because of my own life experiences. I could sense that things weren’t well between he and his wife- at least that’s the impression I got… and it turned out to be true because it was later confirmed thru other multiple means and sources including Chester himself. So anyway, even at this interview, it struck me that things weren’t the way they should have been. However, many months later, (if you can find it because UA-cam has since removed the full episode and just left chopped-up bits) take a look at the Carpool Karaoke Episode with Linkin Park and tell me if you think someone who was in the throes of SUCH a SEVERE depression, that they had reached the absolute lowest and darkest depth of despair one has to, to not care about surviving anymore look like what Chester looked like in that episode? That episode was shot in his town just 5 days before he was found dead. You CANNOT fake being super happy when you are severely clinically depressed. You must be severely (something) other than happy to have the will to just kill yourself and nither Chester nor Chris Cornell were drugged up to do it.(Despite the lies and misinformation you may have heard distributed by both of their widows, of all people.😡(Despicable!) His and Chris’s deaths were soooo WRONG, and as much as I and the rest of the world want justice… we at least know one thing is guaranteed : Their deaths WILL be avenged, one way or another, whether it is here on earth or “there”… the perpetrators CANNOT escape accountability forever. THIS is the LAW of our CREATOR.
If someone wants you dead and you’ve been known to talk publicly about depression, they will probably make it look like a suicide, especially if it’s a hit. It’s the obvious way to gaslight those left grieving.
I agree with almost all you said. But the last part with Their deaths will be avenged here or there. There is no there. We get 1 shot at life and we live it. I will use my personal life as a example. I am part of the group of kids who was preyed upon by others. In the 80s or early 90s we had no movements like me2, no Cosby, weinsteins going to prison, court etc. It was something that adults either did nothing and it was hidden and not talked about and kids was told, Don't be around cousin larry by yourself or go here or there etc, or that person was blackballed and they wasn't around, Not like now. The only avenged or revenge etc would have to be done by me. There's alot of kids like me who grew up and just had to move on. Even though there's a big disgusting secret that is always on our backs. I'm not using this trauma as a excuse for mental illness, episodes, substance abuse but I feel like alot of ppl like him have had some kind of trauma. I'm glad that we live in a time where this isn't a hushed subject and it can be addressed, in some places that don't make certain words bad or censor them. It's a shame we can't talk open and freely about it. Then we could do more healing a move on without depression, terrible meds that do more harm than any good, and have people who can move on and live their best lives. They give us vets a bunch of meds and say here you go. That don't work. These ppl should still be here. We need more Cobains, Staleys, Benningtons, Cornells etc. I mean come on Staley died same day as Cobain, 8 years later. And both Chester and Chris died in strange ways. Not car wreck, heart issues etc. Either we get 1 chance at life or were reborn over and over to get it right. Either way ppl that are responsible for others being gone are still doing just fine. CL, Miss Cornell, Miss Bennington and Larry are living life. What about them? Us?
He never got out 😢. I think us men just wait till ours 30-40s thinking things will get better then realizing they will never change and it leave us with a choice. Does I really want to live like this forever I should I just end it all.
He was strong for so long, he explained this as if he was someone who made it through but “In The End”, it didn’t even matter...(I’m not try to make fun with the pun y’all...just trying to kinda make light of it because I kind of have anger towards him taking his life, I don’t want to follow Chester’s AND Chris Cornell’s decisions...) but life does fuckin sucks, I don’t blame them for ending their lives, I kinda want to myself but I have my family to live for so I’m holding on...for now
I may not know you but I’m glad you’re still here. When you get desperate, try to connect to the love you have within your soul. That’s a difficult thing to do, but after all, the most important person in your life is yourself. Once you start believing in yourself, the universe is gonna praise you for that, and surprise you with beautiful things at the moments you least expect it. Hold on tight, solider.
It is horrible to be alone with your brain. Nobody can help you. You need to bring yourself out of it. Find, what is neccessary to feel better. But our world makes it hard to come out of it.
I didnt know that what i feel is depression until today. Ive been feeling like this for 17years and i only think is this what it feels when you aged. Every night when i sleep i would wish that i will die sleeping. Kinda funny when i used to think that this what life all about 😅
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As someone who has actual depression, the I don't want to do anything is very real.
For sure , for years and to this day a lot of people just think I'm lazy , being awkward plus having had and still having problems with substances , prescribed meds etc people just don't get it they think that I want to just be live the way I live by laying around for days on end in bed most times not even sleeping and people assume I'm high and being selfish when 99 percent of the time I'm just about existing with not much of an existence , sorry for the long ass comment ✌️
@@paulmcduff1930 you’re good! Yeah a lot of people, including my own parents thought I was lazy when I was younger. They still don’t fully understand that I have days where I just need to be left alone because I have no motivation that day. However, I don’t get crap for it anymore. There are even days where I feel very low and my brain has no thoughts and doesn’t want to work so I “shutdown” and lay in bed or sit in a chair. Unless you experience true depression, people don’t know how it stops your brain form working and letting you do things. I hope you can find a smooth path with your mental health and substance issues! I know it’s not easy, but don’t let it get you down.
@@HollowWaterso thanks , your comment means a lot .
@@paulmcduff1930 And the 'laziness' makes you even more depressed too right?
You and everyone else
That is spot on. And getting out of it once doesn’t mean you will the next time.
This was the last warning😢 people like him and us know the struggle, some people just never will
SO TRUE!!!!!!!
Losers
What warning? He was battling it for more than a decade. Any of those years could have been it.
Rip Chester you are a legend wish you were here bro rest easy 😢❤🥺😭🙏🏻🤘🏻🎸😇🎤
I can tell you he not resting in peace
@@LocalGamer69 until you meet god stfu. If he is all knowing why did he create sin, lmfao dumbass human beings
I didn't know him in person, but he didn't seem like the type to go through with suicide if anything. He had more money than God, but still was not happy.. Sad, rip chester!! :(
@@LocalGamer69 he did want to be put out of his misery.. in a song. He did not want to leave his band members, his life, It was just getting good.. but he had to go.. he decided one day to just do it. His decision. I don’t discriminate. But he had kids, a wife, *ACTUAL* friends, an entire few decades of life ahead of him. But he took everything from the inside and threw it all away.
"How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year. We're running over the same old ground. What have we found,? The same old fears. Wish you were here."
That’s where I’m at right now.
I KNOWW how you feel and what your life is like. It is TRULY paralyzing. I imagine it even took a lot for you to type out that sentence because when you are THAT low, you don’t have much to say, don’t feel like discussing much of anything, and can’t focus long enough to even know how to answer how are you? Or a “yes” or “no” question… you’re just blank-just stuck- you’re beyond words.
I’ve been suffering from ongoing just sort of low to mid level depression for decades AND I suffered from 1 clinically severe case for a number of years and the ONLY way to come out the other end is via the combo of the right anti-depression medicine and TIME. No one can talk you out of it imo. Anyway, no matter how deep and severe, eventually, somehow, time with med. it WILL lift. Best of luck and God be with you.👍
I admitted to myself that I relate
DEFINITELY brings hope to hear someone else speak honestly regarding these awful symptoms.. The problem isn't going to get magically fixed ,the work is key & as far as Medication to each his own .
Peace
He's giving real advice. .RIP Chester
Where is the sunshine?
Just remember it can get better. It won’t always be this way. My nephew killed himself and I wish I could tell him the same thing.
lol
I know it feels like it’s never going to get better, but it can. ❤ Please ask for help, I wish I could be there with you.
I've fell into depression and had anxiety along with it. I was fortunate to come out of both on my own. It took 4 years but I made it alone! I know not everyone can do that. It's very hard but I'm thankful and don't give up!
What helped you
How did you get through it?
Sad that you had to make it there alone. All the power to you and I'm really glad you got there, but I wouldn't recommend suggesting to people that the only way out is by yourself- friends, family and professionals are the best way if you have them.
As someone who has never been depressed, I can't imagine what these people go thru. All I know, is he was so loved by us fans. So sad he is gone. God bless his wife and children. RIP my friend.
This is everyday for me I feel like an oil spill on the ground getting outa bed everyday and I can’t seem to find solace.
Im sorry you feel that way I hope you've been feeling better 🥺
Sending lots of love!
Its not a battle. Its a war. None should have to face that war by themselves. Becoming numb and indifferent is a fate nearly as bad as death because you arent truly living. We all want "somewhere i belong" and feel we dont if we give into the demons. And not giving in is far more easily said than done
i really hope you’re doing better
I know how it feels i mis u bro thanks for being here for me all these years later
1 John 5 KJV
13 These things have I written unto you that believe on the name of the Son of God; that ye may know that ye have eternal life, and that ye may believe on the name of the Son of God.
1 Corinthians 15 KJV
1-4
Romans 3 KJV
24-25
I can assure everyone after losing my father in 2021 I was as low in depression as one can go.
Medication is never the answer to your problems!
I feel like that most days since my son passed...I was always smiling before
Stay strong
My condolences
@@BasketCase420 I am feeling stronger lately. Thank you n God Bless🙏💜💞🌟
@@evilethos126 thank you from the bottom of my heart ♥ God bless🙏💜💞
I'm sorry.
Finding passion again is the hardest thing after a depressive episode, to anyone else out there who struggles with this, you can get out of it and find peace it just will take a lot of work and time.
So true
rest in peace Chester 🙏
Bruh loosing interest in things you like is real. He said it the cleanest way possible.
Right, I'm fighting it though. Trying everyday to look above to God for my strength. Rest well Chester and thank you for all of the heart felt meaningful bangers you and the park have giving us.
It's when there is nothing that could bring you out of it, no amount of money, not anything in this world. If you can't imagine that being the case, then you're fortunate enough to have never truly been depressed.
Make sure you check up on your smiling friends.
Such a genius analogy for something impossible to explain!!!
I've been like this for years. No therapy, no meds
I get what he says so well 😔
Miss him! The world lost someone so special
Watching these is breaking me. The signs were there, but because he was saying all the right things ppl didn’t see it. If someone is chronically depressed then they go from their up & down to just up. They have made the decision. They are calm. Watching his last performance he was saying goodbye. It’s heartbreaking. I can’t imagine how the boys are feeling now looking back. He was such a beautiful soul. Who saved so many but we couldn’t save him, it’s tragic.
If you believe in depression then it will control you, if you don’t believe in depression you give it no power 💯
If you’re reading this, I’m with you. It doesn’t get easier. Buckle up.
Absolutely right, excellent explanation.!!!
It’s why I smoke so much bud. Gets me more self control and to stabilize my emotions/mood. Not a cure but a temporary fix. I agree wholeheartedly with his wording and it’s like a loss of motivation completely even with stuff you usually enjoy and slowly gets worse. Wish I could’ve met him he’s my childhood idol, one of the first bands I actually connected with. Much love and rest in peace! You’re forever a legend
The most legendary in the whole universe CHESTER BENNINGTON LINKIN PARK FOREVER 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 🥰🥰🥰🥰
I hope somehow depression mental illness will have support from our government. There’s no health care. Unless your rich. Prays ❤
I'm trying to pull myself from the depths now
Me atm ! No sunshine. :( anxiety and depression is very real and I hate when people say just get over it or it will pass well i hope so cos so far its been off and on for 15 years . I have never experience absolute happiness if I am happy its flat line and below never those highs people get. And i guess this is why people self medicate. Feeling so many lows you would rather feel nothing at all than to feel like you want to die everyday .
God I miss this man 😞
crawling in my skin…these wounds, they will not heal…
Chester u sound so good in this video. I am so sorry about your continual issues!!!!
That's exactly how I feel.
I'm right there i know how he felt...such a terrible loss.
We MISS YOU
We all miss you Chaz Chaz.
Wow great way to explain real depression it really does not go away. We need more people to stand up for people like Chester who are very important to this world. Each person is important and deserves the right to live no matter what groups of peoples opinions that dislike them.
I felt bad for months until I realized that I was depressed. One try on Prozac and I've been okay for the last 30 years. Sometimes it's just a brain chemical imbalance, as I was. 3 days on Prozac and the sky was bluer, the trees greener. It's not always what you think it is.
the voice of one... speaks for millions!
Look what good the doctors did to him. As time progresses I get reassured that depression is invincible. You either quit or accept you're gonna live in pain. Sure there are bound to be some good moments if you decide to stick around, but don't fool yourself that there is such a thing as "beating depression" with medication and therapy. At this point advising people to see a doctor is just cope.
He's spot on 😢😢😢😢
I think everyone can relate
I have depression and it is hard but we can do our best yo try to help it not be so bad by going to therapy and getting meds and coping skills
thats me. my entire life. its so bad rn. idk wat to do. medication doesn't help in fact it makes it worse. nothing makes me feel better NOTHING and i hate it. i just hate it. my life is so hard ive lost everything and i dont even have a car anymore driving was one thing i could do to feel better but i cant. excercising helped but my back is so bad i cant anymore. i just keep praying.
The shitty part is that you yourself rarely know if you’re just dejected or depressed on your own. Either it goes away or it screws things up and you gotta seek help before it makes things worse.
Bless him
Totally understand, I suffer from depression, and have tried to end my life. I really hope someone who is reading this will remember how much they matter, and that their life is not defined by their depression. The moment of crisis will eventually fade, just take a breath...
Much love ❤❤❤
I don't want to do anything either but i don't want to sulk in a pool of misery more. If you don't move yourself, you've already lost. If you take the meds, you still lose.
Change your outlook, change your words, change your attitude towards everything. Be positive because negativity just slides you back into the pool of misery.
I hope there is sunshine where you are, like there was when you were here
Forever broken…🥀💔
No Sunshine. 😪☀️
Chester was the sunshine to in our darkest days and he shine right through it. His songs really had a big impact on my childhood both positions and negative but it also brought back some memories too and I still listen to it whenever I can. We miss you buddy 💙
Rip Chester.
I’m just hurting mentally and physically Chesters words make sense but I have tried to be positive but people find negativity in me 😢
I hope you find those that truly care about you. You need people in your corner.
That's very true
I have clinical depression he nailed it. It sucks bad.
I felt that.
I don’t have depression and never have but even I understand this, I think we have whole bunch of people who need to know these dynamics.
I came to a point in my life where his voice in "numb" is far more relatable than it was to me as kid that just liked the sound of the music. The message hits harder. Being depressed isnt about being sad. It can be apathy or as the song is named, feeling numb to what hsppenes around you
I have this. It really sucks. CBD helps. So does 2.5mg thc a few times a day. Vitamin D also seems important. These three put me in the same space as Sertraline did.
There have been days when getting out of bed was actually impossible because my brain literally had "Why bother?" on repeat.
TAKE NOTES. This is so fucking true.
Real as real can get..
People like Chester live an unenviable curse, they have the power to help so many people but cant get the help they need for themselves. Linkin Park is one of my go tos when I’m really struggling.
Thanks for the reminder. Im not alone.
For me. I will feel okay, and i start functioning again. I choose a life path, i and i move toward it.
Then when it hits me, that life path is meaningless. And i forget why i ever chose to walk it. I become convinced that life is a monotonous sprint to the end. It hurts me because in those times when i feel okay. I try and drill it into myself via external media. I will video myself trying to hype myself up. I will write on my white board positive outlooks on life.
When im depressed again, i refuse to look at those videos. And barely read my white board. Nothing but misery resonates with you when you are depressed. Mental disorders are all horrible, but considering depression is the one that ive lived with all of my life. I can say this illness denies you your full potential.
I choose when I die is the only mindset when I am in depression to coax me out of it. If only...
It sucks when people belittle or pick at you for not being active with desires and depressed. its being made fun of or picked on for feeling badly and it stacks.
He's so intelligent.
I’ve been trying to explain this for so long . I truly am better then everyone at everything i do but i just can’t anymore , i have no desire to participate in anything . I barley eat , i attack my family for crossing me i hate everyone socially . I am broken not crazy . You guys are so overwhelming with the social media & canceling people its very sick & toxic & it effects people like me a lot . Life is already shitty & a lot of you guys make it worse .
Situational depression and clinical depression
Not gonna lie… this man was the reason I beat all those feelings and it’s sad he had to endure them
Not gonna lie, you didn't have clinical depression if a rappy singer was what cured you.
@@lobotomyscam1051 music can definitely help with depression and stress. You need to not be so judgmental and disrespectful.
For me it's like being lost in the middle of an ocean. No sight of land no matter what
There is no sunshine... Sums it up well. Personally, I was never a fan of his band. That being said, I've only heard a few songs of theirs that were played on the radio at the time. If anyone has any suggestions of some of their songs that I should listen to, let me know. Take care everyone.
My favorite Linkin track is Runaway
Literally, all of them! Their music is free therapy that you don't even have to leave the house for. They have such a wide range of music, and all of their albums have a different sound. so if you like the harder rock type of music, try their "Hybrid Theory" Album, or "Meteora" Album. If you like the slower melodic type music, maybe try songs from their albums "One More Light" or "A Thousand Suns". They are so versatile that they literally have songs for everyone. On a bad day, I like to play "Given Up" as loud as I possibly can. Search for their "Live In Texas" full concert performance. A lot of great songs on there, and their live versions of songs are always better than their studio versions anyway
I typically like their harder, louder, more upbeat, songs. However, their song "Heavy" is probably my all time favorite song of theirs.
@@somebody19XX Thank you for your input. I will definitely listen to the songs you suggested. Take care
@@that.one.orchid Thank you. I appreciate your suggestion. Take care
He was probably heavily medicated then because he was doing A LOT! I’m not depressed and I don’t want to do much and I wouldn’t even be able to do 1/8 of what he did! He made it look so simple and easy! I really don’t know how he did it!
Rip chester
God I miss him
6 years later. I know what he means. Didn't know that great of a man suffered from something as horrible as this.
So sad..RIP
Don’t forget people we have a God and his just waiting for us to go to him 🙏🏻 He and our blessed mother can help us with anything including depression
Never had that feeling.
I'm drowning in it.
Thanks for posting
Theyre Sunshine Brothers and Sisters.
Dont give up.
After a dark night the sun will rise 🙂
Humans and the Life are not perfekt.
I remember when he did this interview. It wasn’t very long after his last birthday and I THINK they were out of the country somewhere. He spoke about how great his birthday was and his birthday cake and ice cream were because he had spent his entire day in bed binge watching stuff and eating a great steak dinner and lots of cake and ice cream… ALL stuff he practically NEVER did-(you remember the incredible physical shape he was in!) Then, he went on to describe what severe clinical depression feels like and I, who have experienced that as well as an ongoing mid-level type , must agree with him. I think he gave an EXCELLENT description of it in the short time he had, and although :
-what he did for his birthday
-how he described depression
- the way he proclaimed how good he felt about himself at that point ,
were all separate topics. And although I believe in the most STRONGEST OF TERMS, that Chester did NOTTT go on to later kill himself…,
I DID get a sad sense from this interview when he spoke about spending his birthday alone. Perhaps I saw some red flags because of my own life experiences. I could sense that things weren’t well between he and his wife- at least that’s the impression I got… and it turned out to be true because it was later confirmed thru other multiple means and sources including Chester himself. So anyway, even at this interview, it struck me that things weren’t the way they should have been. However, many months later, (if you can find it because UA-cam has since removed the full episode and just left chopped-up bits) take a look at the Carpool Karaoke Episode with Linkin Park and tell me if you think someone who was in the throes of SUCH a SEVERE depression, that they had reached the absolute lowest and darkest depth of despair one has to, to not care about surviving anymore look like what Chester looked like in that episode? That episode was shot in his town just 5 days before he was found dead. You CANNOT fake being super happy when you are severely clinically depressed. You must be severely (something) other than happy to have the will to just kill yourself and nither Chester nor Chris Cornell were drugged up to do it.(Despite the lies and misinformation you may have heard distributed by both of their widows, of all people.😡(Despicable!)
His and Chris’s deaths were soooo WRONG, and as much as I and the rest of the world want justice… we at least know one thing is guaranteed :
Their deaths WILL be avenged, one way or another, whether it is here on earth or “there”… the perpetrators CANNOT escape accountability forever. THIS is the LAW of our CREATOR.
If someone wants you dead and you’ve been known to talk publicly about depression, they will probably make it look like a suicide, especially if it’s a hit. It’s the obvious way to gaslight those left grieving.
@@sharmalarm 💯
I agree with almost all you said. But the last part with Their deaths will be avenged here or there. There is no there. We get 1 shot at life and we live it. I will use my personal life as a example. I am part of the group of kids who was preyed upon by others. In the 80s or early 90s we had no movements like me2, no Cosby, weinsteins going to prison, court etc. It was something that adults either did nothing and it was hidden and not talked about and kids was told, Don't be around cousin larry by yourself or go here or there etc, or that person was blackballed and they wasn't around, Not like now. The only avenged or revenge etc would have to be done by me.
There's alot of kids like me who grew up and just had to move on. Even though there's a big disgusting secret that is always on our backs. I'm not using this trauma as a excuse for mental illness, episodes, substance abuse but I feel like alot of ppl like him have had some kind of trauma. I'm glad that we live in a time where this isn't a hushed subject and it can be addressed, in some places that don't make certain words bad or censor them. It's a shame we can't talk open and freely about it. Then we could do more healing a move on without depression, terrible meds that do more harm than any good, and have people who can move on and live their best lives. They give us vets a bunch of meds and say here you go. That don't work. These ppl should still be here. We need more Cobains, Staleys, Benningtons, Cornells etc. I mean come on Staley died same day as Cobain, 8 years later. And both Chester and Chris died in strange ways. Not car wreck, heart issues etc. Either we get 1 chance at life or were reborn over and over to get it right. Either way ppl that are responsible for others being gone are still doing just fine. CL, Miss Cornell, Miss Bennington and Larry are living life. What about them? Us?
Completely agree
I’m in it right now
There is actually and he’s the author of the universe sadly though Chester never met him to keep him from doing what he did
song is in pieces btw
I wish I had just the one where u feel it for a moment I constantly want to jump 😥
He never got out 😢. I think us men just wait till ours 30-40s thinking things will get better then realizing they will never change and it leave us with a choice. Does I really want to live like this forever I should I just end it all.
True words…I fight it every day…
He was strong for so long, he explained this as if he was someone who made it through but “In The End”, it didn’t even matter...(I’m not try to make fun with the pun y’all...just trying to kinda make light of it because I kind of have anger towards him taking his life, I don’t want to follow Chester’s AND Chris Cornell’s decisions...) but life does fuckin sucks, I don’t blame them for ending their lives, I kinda want to myself but I have my family to live for so I’m holding on...for now
I may not know you but I’m glad you’re still here. When you get desperate, try to connect to the love you have within your soul. That’s a difficult thing to do, but after all, the most important person in your life is yourself. Once you start believing in yourself, the universe is gonna praise you for that, and surprise you with beautiful things at the moments you least expect it. Hold on tight, solider.
I've never heard nor listen to more than ten words that this guy has ever said.
Everything he is saying is so true RIP 💔
“When sun goes down”
The funniest part is EVERYONE watching either if they have clinical or not is gonna act like they do lol
It is horrible to be alone with your brain. Nobody can help you. You need to bring yourself out of it. Find, what is neccessary to feel better. But our world makes it hard to come out of it.
Let's keep it 100 he's crying out but nobody's listening
Chester/Pimp Linkin Park
I didnt know that what i feel is depression until today. Ive been feeling like this for 17years and i only think is this what it feels when you aged. Every night when i sleep i would wish that i will die sleeping. Kinda funny when i used to think that this what life all about 😅
I hate waking up.