ahhh thank you!! i've been trying to drive a little at least every few days to ease myself into it. it's tough! i doubt i'll ever really like it but it's a necessity if i want to be an independent person
@@kaliwallaceart I used to be the same way with driving and had to pull over allll the time to have mini panic attacks lol but i think it's like any exposure where over time you're just used to the discomfort. It's a great way to get back into pushing yourself to do more erp too!!! I'm rooting for you sis
yeah, i'll be driving and doing okay but suddenly for seemingly no reason i'll feel my adrenaline shoot up and i start to look for a place to pull over, but mostly it's been okay. i did have to pull over to cry in a parking lot once though, lol. i'm sure that'll happen many more times before i really get the hang of it. but you're right, it becomes like any other discomfort you push through until you acclimate. we can do it! thank you for your encouragement!
Awesome vid Kali! You have a really great art style. This vid was very inspirational, watching you paint is motivating me to finish my own artwork lol.
thank you! haha, you can do it! i get inspired watching some really amazing artists here and on tiktok but if i watch too much i get discouraged, lol. it has the opposite effect i want it to have😅
Hey Kali, I'm late but stopping by anyway to say this painting is amazing, I love your art style and it is really inspiring to watch you paint. Also, congrats on driving again! I have my driving license for about eight years now, and I never drove, not even once. I just can't cope with the anxiety, so I don't even consider driving one day as an option. Oh well, I don't really mind to be honest, I get by okay using public transportation. But it's really great anyway to see you overcoming this in your experience. You go, girl ❤︎
you're not late, you're right on time! haha thank you though, i appreciate that. and trust me, i totally get it. i was pretty content with NEVER driving again, but the public transportation here is awful. i got a taste of independence in china where the public transportation is much more accessible (although it is pretty crowded and slow) and it was a hard transition to make going backwards when i came back to the states. honestly, i'd still be perfectly happy never driving again if i lived in a different place with better transportation, and i'd take that route immediately. people always assumed i didn't have my license so it wasn't a choice and that was why i didn't drive, because they couldn't really fathom anxiety being the reason for me choosing not to drive. anyway, thanks again. we're all working on something!
Wow your art is seriously amazing! And well done on driving! I went thru a period of time where I couldn't drive on my own because of my OCD and anxiety so I can relate and I know what an achievement it must have felt to have driven again.
thanks! yeah, i've posted a bit about difficulties driving in some ocd groups and it seems to be an issue that several people have had come up... part of me wishes i didn't let it go for so long because it's that much harder to get into doing it, but it's a must. i've still only driven on my own like 2 or 3 times, so i know how you feel. it can be tough!
@@kaliwallaceart Its definitely not easy so you can be proud of yourself that you have started the process of getting back to driving. It took me a while too but I did eventually get there. There are still certain checks that I have to do when I drive but I have learned to manage those so that my anxiety doesnt build up because of them. One thing I have learnt in my journey with anxiety, depression and OCD is that I have to be kind and patient with myself.
honestly it's been so helpful to hear from others here who have had similar issues because i feel like driving is just something most people take for granted, like there aren't many people i know in real life who understand why i'm not comfortable because it's second nature to them. what you said about being kind and patient with yourself is SO important, i often get really frustrated with myself but if it were anyone else, i know i'd be compassionate... so why can't i show myself that same compassion? i've been listening to a lot of people in the anxiety/ocd world talk about the importance of self-compassion lately, and it's so true.
It's so good to see a video from you again, I've missed you! Glad to see you FINALLY got internet back. For some reason Patreon hasn't let me comment on your posts recently. On the phone, there's no enter/post button, and then on my computer it won't even load the posts. What you said to Sun broke my heart! You have friends! I'm sad your other cats don't play with him though. Does Daisy?
it's good to be back, and to be connected to the outside world again, i missed you😭Okay i'm glad it's not just me that has constant issues with Patreon, the app is virtually useless so i was trying to navigate it on my phone's browser when i didn't have internet and that was pretty much equally as useless, lol. On my computer it's been okay but i've noticed it's down kinda often for such a big platform. It's so sad! Daisy does play with him sometimes, but she usually hangs out upstairs in one of the bedrooms with the rest of the cats while he tends to hang out downstairs. Coffee Cake was friendly with him but he passed away back in december😔When the other cats come down they'll rub up against him but they don't really play with him much, mayyyybe every once in a while. He doesn't seem to get along with one of them at all, though. From the day he arrived one of my girls, Cookie, has been pretty mean but it's less intense now.
Thank you for bringing us along on your China Journey. Early on you were so emotionally vulnerable which made for great 'reality tv' which is why it was so entertaining but by the end so worldly. You should be very proud. Can you recount your parents thoughts/fears of your trip?
thank you for saying this! i hope to have more adventures in the future, but i'm not sure if any of them will be quite as grand as me moving to the other side of the world for a few years (but who knows👀). once the dust has settled i would like to do some kind of video looking back on my time in china and how everything played out, but i can tell you for sure my parents were worried sick for 4 years straight. they were so proud but it was a big change. i imagine it was hard for them to be so far away and not really have anyone to contact if, god forbid, something happened. they never tried to dissuade me from going and saw it as a wonderful opportunity, but i know they probably would have liked it if i didn't go.
you can do it!! i'll be 30 shortly and i'm still trying to get comfortable, so don't rush. i got my license at 17 but i just HATED it and i didn't have good experiences driving with people who were considerate when teaching me. for people who drive like it's nothing, it's hard for them to anticipate what might be uncomfortable for you or what might be scary. try to find someone who is conscious of these things and work up to the scary things. i've watched some videos on driving fears and they all say to just get comfortable with the basics and set small goals for driving shorter distances at less busy times first and then gradually working up to longer distances at heavier traffic times.
You’re a very good artist, that painting is awesome.
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU FOR DRIVING!!!! That's such a big step!
ahhh thank you!! i've been trying to drive a little at least every few days to ease myself into it. it's tough! i doubt i'll ever really like it but it's a necessity if i want to be an independent person
@@kaliwallaceart I used to be the same way with driving and had to pull over allll the time to have mini panic attacks lol but i think it's like any exposure where over time you're just used to the discomfort. It's a great way to get back into pushing yourself to do more erp too!!! I'm rooting for you sis
yeah, i'll be driving and doing okay but suddenly for seemingly no reason i'll feel my adrenaline shoot up and i start to look for a place to pull over, but mostly it's been okay. i did have to pull over to cry in a parking lot once though, lol. i'm sure that'll happen many more times before i really get the hang of it. but you're right, it becomes like any other discomfort you push through until you acclimate. we can do it! thank you for your encouragement!
Awesome vid Kali! You have a really great art style. This vid was very inspirational, watching you paint is motivating me to finish my own artwork lol.
thank you! haha, you can do it! i get inspired watching some really amazing artists here and on tiktok but if i watch too much i get discouraged, lol. it has the opposite effect i want it to have😅
I’m glad I’m not the only one. That happens to me too lol
I love these videos of yours 😍💕
thanks, i've been trying to put more art in my videos since i've been doing so much of it!
Hey Kali, I'm late but stopping by anyway to say this painting is amazing, I love your art style and it is really inspiring to watch you paint.
Also, congrats on driving again! I have my driving license for about eight years now, and I never drove, not even once. I just can't cope with the anxiety, so I don't even consider driving one day as an option. Oh well, I don't really mind to be honest, I get by okay using public transportation. But it's really great anyway to see you overcoming this in your experience. You go, girl ❤︎
you're not late, you're right on time! haha thank you though, i appreciate that. and trust me, i totally get it. i was pretty content with NEVER driving again, but the public transportation here is awful. i got a taste of independence in china where the public transportation is much more accessible (although it is pretty crowded and slow) and it was a hard transition to make going backwards when i came back to the states. honestly, i'd still be perfectly happy never driving again if i lived in a different place with better transportation, and i'd take that route immediately. people always assumed i didn't have my license so it wasn't a choice and that was why i didn't drive, because they couldn't really fathom anxiety being the reason for me choosing not to drive. anyway, thanks again. we're all working on something!
Wow your art is seriously amazing! And well done on driving! I went thru a period of time where I couldn't drive on my own because of my OCD and anxiety so I can relate and I know what an achievement it must have felt to have driven again.
thanks! yeah, i've posted a bit about difficulties driving in some ocd groups and it seems to be an issue that several people have had come up... part of me wishes i didn't let it go for so long because it's that much harder to get into doing it, but it's a must. i've still only driven on my own like 2 or 3 times, so i know how you feel. it can be tough!
@@kaliwallaceart Its definitely not easy so you can be proud of yourself that you have started the process of getting back to driving. It took me a while too but I did eventually get there. There are still certain checks that I have to do when I drive but I have learned to manage those so that my anxiety doesnt build up because of them. One thing I have learnt in my journey with anxiety, depression and OCD is that I have to be kind and patient with myself.
honestly it's been so helpful to hear from others here who have had similar issues because i feel like driving is just something most people take for granted, like there aren't many people i know in real life who understand why i'm not comfortable because it's second nature to them. what you said about being kind and patient with yourself is SO important, i often get really frustrated with myself but if it were anyone else, i know i'd be compassionate... so why can't i show myself that same compassion? i've been listening to a lot of people in the anxiety/ocd world talk about the importance of self-compassion lately, and it's so true.
It's so good to see a video from you again, I've missed you! Glad to see you FINALLY got internet back. For some reason Patreon hasn't let me comment on your posts recently. On the phone, there's no enter/post button, and then on my computer it won't even load the posts.
What you said to Sun broke my heart! You have friends! I'm sad your other cats don't play with him though. Does Daisy?
it's good to be back, and to be connected to the outside world again, i missed you😭Okay i'm glad it's not just me that has constant issues with Patreon, the app is virtually useless so i was trying to navigate it on my phone's browser when i didn't have internet and that was pretty much equally as useless, lol. On my computer it's been okay but i've noticed it's down kinda often for such a big platform.
It's so sad! Daisy does play with him sometimes, but she usually hangs out upstairs in one of the bedrooms with the rest of the cats while he tends to hang out downstairs. Coffee Cake was friendly with him but he passed away back in december😔When the other cats come down they'll rub up against him but they don't really play with him much, mayyyybe every once in a while. He doesn't seem to get along with one of them at all, though. From the day he arrived one of my girls, Cookie, has been pretty mean but it's less intense now.
Thank you for bringing us along on your China Journey. Early on you were so emotionally vulnerable which made for great 'reality tv' which is why it was so entertaining but by the end so worldly. You should be very proud. Can you recount your parents thoughts/fears of your trip?
thank you for saying this! i hope to have more adventures in the future, but i'm not sure if any of them will be quite as grand as me moving to the other side of the world for a few years (but who knows👀). once the dust has settled i would like to do some kind of video looking back on my time in china and how everything played out, but i can tell you for sure my parents were worried sick for 4 years straight. they were so proud but it was a big change. i imagine it was hard for them to be so far away and not really have anyone to contact if, god forbid, something happened. they never tried to dissuade me from going and saw it as a wonderful opportunity, but i know they probably would have liked it if i didn't go.
Omg I’m learning to drive now, I’m 22 and it’s taken me long enough lol but it’s scary sometimes 😟 Thanks for being real!
you can do it!! i'll be 30 shortly and i'm still trying to get comfortable, so don't rush. i got my license at 17 but i just HATED it and i didn't have good experiences driving with people who were considerate when teaching me. for people who drive like it's nothing, it's hard for them to anticipate what might be uncomfortable for you or what might be scary. try to find someone who is conscious of these things and work up to the scary things. i've watched some videos on driving fears and they all say to just get comfortable with the basics and set small goals for driving shorter distances at less busy times first and then gradually working up to longer distances at heavier traffic times.
I was missed you♥️♥️♥️
thank you, it's good to be back online!