I’ve recently started going through this, my mains thoughts have been what if i’m gay? and thinking of killing someone even though i don’t want to? and thinking of killing someone literally made me throw up and it makes me sick to still think about, but i can’t stop it!
Stay strong! When I had my first harm ocd episode some years ago, I stumbled on your video's and it was so comforting to see that I was not the only one with this condition and I was so amazed by how strong you are to openly talk about it. You are an inspiration for many people!
It's really rough when your subconscious is out of sync with what you really want to do and value. I can understand why travel might freak out and over stimulate our stone age brains!
Do your intrusive thoughts ever present themselves as commands ever? I feel that my unwanted thoughts have come up as commands in my own voice and am questioning if this is normal. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing your panic attack in real time, something really similar happens to me when I go on trips with my partners and it was therapeutic to see you talk about it. It was also GREAT to see you and Mike talking together he is LOVELY and you should start a podcast together or something you both have a really great energy!!! 💜
ugh, i'm sorry you have had similar experiences. it makes doing things that should simply be fun and exciting really hard and scary. lol, i guarantee mike will read your comment and tell me allll about it😂 thank you though! we have fun!
have a look at content by ajahn brahm, and also alan watts if youre feeling extra smart. i think these channels could benefit you and help you understand the mind. the first is a strong recommend for you in particular. please go check it out. also you're very pretty, ... as is mike.
My harm ocd makes me feel afraid of even thinking. It can even make me feel anything is Real. After 2 months with this, today I accepted all this sht and felt so good for the first time in 2 months
Im so sorry you had to go through this. I have gone through some similar panic attacks. I have been dealing with harm OCD for maybe 2 or 1 months now and have constantly had unwanted obsessions, visions and images of hurting others, mostly the people I care the most about such as my mom dad sister and dogs. Its horrible and brings me a huge amount of anxiety to the point where I cant live my life normally. Im 15 and I worry that I might turn out harming other people because of my unwanted thoughts and no I dont want to do these things I dont want to hurt anybody and I rather end my own life if i get close to harming somebody. This ocd is horrible and its worse when it manifests itself as urges. Now the urges have started also happening with harming myself. Last day I bit a piece of pineapple and bad a inflated lip and whenever i bit myself the swelling would get worse so my ocd told me to keep biting myself. Sometimes i take extreme risks when on balconies and I always have the thought that if I jump nobody will get hurt and everything will be Ok. Sometimes I also have horrible images that picture me hurting others in extreme ways and i worry that i might be a serial killers but i dont want any of this to happen. I love my family and friends and even people and I dont want to randomly hurt them for no reason. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I have watched most of your ocd videos and they bring me extreme calm. You have no idea how thankful I am. You are like a sister to me… I hope you me and everybody with this horrible desease can overcome it together and have a prosperous and great life. Ocd is a liar in your head that tells you you will do bad things but you wont. Thank you and to all my ocd brothers and sisters dont listen ocd is a powerless voice in your head that benefits from your suffering. You will never act on these thoughts or obsessions, however they manifest themselves because it can also appear as urges and images. They are all false. You will be ok. The obsessions are not real. Other things that Ive had: Depersonalization and derealization as result of my anxiety disorder where life feels and people feel fake and im worried that I may act on my thoughts since life feels that way but then I figured out that: no life is real you wont do those things you just have depersonalization and derealization and your ocd is messing with you
I highly suggest you find an ocd therapist who is specialized in OCD and knows about ERP & ACT, my ocd started when I was 15 too, I am 19 now. Don’t be ashamed of your ocd.
When I have panic attacks, I always cry afterward and shake too, I think it's subconsciously out of relief of the panic ending too. It's horrible to feel like that on vacation and my heart goes out to you. You are so strong to document that journey and I believe you are helping so many people like me.
Kali i found your channel during the hardest time of my life, i was plagued with intrusive thoughts and really low. i owe a huge part of me getting my life back to you and educating me that i wasn’t alone. therapy and meds too haha but your ocd thoughts video was what started the uphill climb for me. i’m sorry you had a relapse. it’s not something we all like to think about but we got better once and we can do it again ❤
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I really like your videos, are you coming back to youtube?
I’ve recently started going through this, my mains thoughts have been
what if i’m gay?
and thinking of killing someone even though i don’t want to?
and thinking of killing someone literally made me throw up and it makes me sick to still think about, but i can’t stop it!
So happy to see another one of your videos !!
Good mike content in this video. I especially liked when he had the headband on.
I'll try to give mike more screen time in the future
This happened to me this morning. It’s awful. Harm OCD is hell! In the moment it sucks.
Hey, I wanna know if you are ok
Have you tried CBT, ERP ?
@NolaMaticillestDocs'504 bro chill, i have no time to look through her whole channel
@NolaMaticillestDocs'504 yeah all good man, if you are going through something and you feel like shit you can drop ur insta and we can talk
@NolaMaticillestDocs'504 umderstandable, i hope you are doing good as well bro
I really like your videos they’ve really helped me you are so relatable and we got this we’re strong and were gonna get through this!!!♥️✨
thanks, I'm so glad to hear they've helped! one day at a time💖
I miss your videos, hope everything is ok...
are you alive, kali wallace? hahahhahah not to sound creepy but i miss your videos. i hope you are doing ok and your ocd is not giving you hard times.
Stay strong! When I had my first harm ocd episode some years ago, I stumbled on your video's and it was so comforting to see that I was not the only one with this condition and I was so amazed by how strong you are to openly talk about it. You are an inspiration for many people!
It's really rough when your subconscious is out of sync with what you really want to do and value. I can understand why travel might freak out and over stimulate our stone age brains!
Yep, all those constant danger signals can really wear you out. It's not fun!
This just started happening to me at 39, I’m so glad I found your videos. It’s been the worst 2 months of my life
Me too bud, came out of no where. Made me think I was going crazy
Your videos inspire me so much!
Thank you! Keep on going🍀
harm ocd is living hell!!
you can say that again!
Do your intrusive thoughts ever present themselves as commands ever? I feel that my unwanted thoughts have come up as commands in my own voice and am questioning if this is normal. Thank you.
It can
Thanks for sharing your panic attack in real time, something really similar happens to me when I go on trips with my partners and it was therapeutic to see you talk about it. It was also GREAT to see you and Mike talking together he is LOVELY and you should start a podcast together or something you both have a really great energy!!! 💜
ugh, i'm sorry you have had similar experiences. it makes doing things that should simply be fun and exciting really hard and scary. lol, i guarantee mike will read your comment and tell me allll about it😂 thank you though! we have fun!
Mike is lovely 😍
have a look at content by ajahn brahm, and also alan watts if youre feeling extra smart. i think these channels could benefit you and help you understand the mind.
the first is a strong recommend for you in particular. please go check it out.
also you're very pretty, ... as is mike.
My harm ocd makes me feel afraid of even thinking. It can even make me feel anything is Real. After 2 months with this, today I accepted all this sht and felt so good for the first time in 2 months
Okay girl i need your help , how do i stop this thinking ? Im struggling .
What do i do ?
Im so sorry you had to go through this. I have gone through some similar panic attacks. I have been dealing with harm OCD for maybe 2 or 1 months now and have constantly had unwanted obsessions, visions and images of hurting others, mostly the people I care the most about such as my mom dad sister and dogs. Its horrible and brings me a huge amount of anxiety to the point where I cant live my life normally. Im 15 and I worry that I might turn out harming other people because of my unwanted thoughts and no I dont want to do these things I dont want to hurt anybody and I rather end my own life if i get close to harming somebody. This ocd is horrible and its worse when it manifests itself as urges. Now the urges have started also happening with harming myself. Last day I bit a piece of pineapple and bad a inflated lip and whenever i bit myself the swelling would get worse so my ocd told me to keep biting myself. Sometimes i take extreme risks when on balconies and I always have the thought that if I jump nobody will get hurt and everything will be Ok. Sometimes I also have horrible images that picture me hurting others in extreme ways and i worry that i might be a serial killers but i dont want any of this to happen. I love my family and friends and even people and I dont want to randomly hurt them for no reason. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I have watched most of your ocd videos and they bring me extreme calm. You have no idea how thankful I am. You are like a sister to me… I hope you me and everybody with this horrible desease can overcome it together and have a prosperous and great life. Ocd is a liar in your head that tells you you will do bad things but you wont. Thank you and to all my ocd brothers and sisters dont listen ocd is a powerless voice in your head that benefits from your suffering. You will never act on these thoughts or obsessions, however they manifest themselves because it can also appear as urges and images. They are all false. You will be ok. The obsessions are not real. Other things that Ive had: Depersonalization and derealization as result of my anxiety disorder where life feels and people feel fake and im worried that I may act on my thoughts since life feels that way but then I figured out that: no life is real you wont do those things you just have depersonalization and derealization and your ocd is messing with you
I highly suggest you find an ocd therapist who is specialized in OCD and knows about ERP & ACT, my ocd started when I was 15 too, I am 19 now. Don’t be ashamed of your ocd.
祝你生活愉快...
谢谢，朋友❤️
When I have panic attacks, I always cry afterward and shake too, I think it's subconsciously out of relief of the panic ending too. It's horrible to feel like that on vacation and my heart goes out to you. You are so strong to document that journey and I believe you are helping so many people like me.
Kali i found your channel during the hardest time of my life, i was plagued with intrusive thoughts and really low. i owe a huge part of me getting my life back to you and educating me that i wasn’t alone. therapy and meds too haha but your ocd thoughts video was what started the uphill climb for me.
i’m sorry you had a relapse. it’s not something we all like to think about but we got better once and we can do it again ❤