Graphic Designer Attempts to Paint

yall im ngl I look really rough in this vid lmaooo like you can tell a ho was crying
anyyyyways heres me trying out painting in the physical form and not on an electronic device of some sort. omg i sound so old.
when I first started digital artwork, I found the whole process to be soooo difficult and annoying, I wanted to give up many many times. its funny bc now its hard to go back to doing anything traditionally, but I think i did a pretty good job.