Depression
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- Опубліковано 6 жов 2024
- Thought I'd try and speak candidly about what I've been going through, and what it's like living with depression. I don't think I expressed my thoughts as best and as clearly as I could've, but I'm not sure I could sit down and record something like this again. At least not right now. I also want all of you out there to know that you're not alone, and we're all human. Thanks for watching my videos.
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Depression
The description speaks a little bit about where I was at when thinking about making this video. I hope this finds those that need it, and also helps some perhaps understand a little better what depression is or how it affects some people - and it affects everyone differently. I'm just tired, exhausted, and stressed. So I hope my rambling makes sense. Love you guys
Wholesome Fruit also !song also I'm pretty sure most people are fine if you don't pump out ultra consistent content and are hard on yourself, but good job uploading as much as you do :)
Beards nice but I still will never get pass that adorable baby face :D
Just take a day off
❤️
Always here for ya bruv
Love you forever dad
SHARKK_TOOTH we love you to daddy
Yeah, just living life trying to stay alive
We love u
Bro you should do a group video irl to make fruit happy when ever he sad
I love both of you
I love you dude. You are a strong human and we appreciate you
Same to u Mtashed
I read that in your voice
Ffs
Mtashed God Bless fruit
Rumble King?
1.3 million people have subscribed to your channel. 1.3 million people (including myself) subbed to your because you made them laugh, helped them with something or interested them. 1.3 million people love the work and effort that you put into your amazing content. We all love you Fruit, and wont rage if you decide to take a well-deserved break.
Also, what sick people would downvote this video????
@@peterbabich9141 plenty of disgust trash afloat in this world its actually not surprising
You ain't real one r u? XD
I will never be able to say it enough Fruit and I know you already know, but we love you buddy. We’ll support you no matter what you’re going through. You come first my friend.
Friends will always help friends no matter what.
Glad you’ve picked a supportive life partner, Mr Fruit. Your transparency is a humbling reminder for everyone to take care of themselves. You can’t fill the cups of others when your own is empty.
Maxwell Martin Well said. That last sentence... ❤️
Maxwell Martin best quote at the end
That's deep bro
Fruit,
As someone going through depression myself, I just want to say that you’ve been one of the biggest factors in my life that is helping me get trough it. Your uploads are often the only good part of my day.
I have not watched this video yet so I won’t speak anymore on the subject, but just know that you mean a lot to me personally and countless others as well.
I appreciate you being open about your issues, such as this, and letting me know that I’m not alone. So that being said, know that you’re not alone either. Don’t let depression get the better of you. Good things happen! You’re almost married for one! I know that depression is a chemical imbalance in many cases and there isn’t anything we can do about that... but just push through it. We love you.
Infinity did I go through the same thing it is true
@@noahczak8671 ur a kid you dont know what depression is
@@RebelliousWhale bruh I be in 10th grade and still no deprression but then this 7 year old has depression he aint even 6th grade 😑
IPLAYGAMES 56 then your lucky
@@JonGuttenburg you shouldn't talk about what you don't know man if you didn't got through it then lucky you but don't say that if you didn't got it other people can't get it.
This is just you being selfish
I come back to watch this video every few months. It really helps me keep in touch with how I feel. I hope things are looking better for you christian! Love you
You've got your family and then an additional 1.3 Million people who support u bro, #keepstrong
Doubt anyone will read this: But it is to anyone who's ever felt down and just can't seem to get out of it
I am autistic. I was heavily bullied in school, not just by the students either. Principal, teachers, strangers.
I have never truly met my biological father, he left when I was 3.
My dad, technically my stepdad, but the man who raised me (and to me is my father), was psychologically abusive to no end. It was senseless at times. Not only was he an alcoholic, he has literally stolen thousands from me. I never really noticed how much it was, until I added it up one day.
I have moved so many times. Because I am autistic, it is very hard for me to make friends. In fact, I have not dated anyone in over 4 years and really don't know how to talk about that anymore.
The theater that was shot up in Aurora Colorado, I don't even want to talk about; I can still picture everything.
My mother has left these abusive men thankfully, but has also developed MS. I literally watch her wither away before my eyes on some days.
At my new job, they make fun of anyone who is autistic. In fact they are proud of it. This is why I am afraid to tell anyone that I have autism
I am so messed up, that I get worried when things go right. Things HAVE TO go wrong. That's how it's supposed to be, that's what I'm used to.
Someday, I am sure that I will suck on a bullet, but that day has not come yet. There's a reason I will never own a gun; and I think.... I've been thru so much.... To just toss it away.... Why? What if these horrid experiences help someone somehow?
I do consider myself lucky though. I have the highest functioning form of autism and for most people, it just seems that I am shy.
My mother has helped me hide the fact I am autistic and as a result, I am more comfortable than most others with Autism.
All I can say, to anybody, is just give it one more day.
You don't know what the next day will bring. And you don't know but positivity will happen in the next day.
So whenever you think negativity, or you're down on yourself, or it seems like your depression is getting the best of you, or you think of suicide as often as I do, just think:
Give it 1 more day.
And after that day?
Give it 1 more day.
EDIT:
Thank you all for your kindness. I figured this might only reach 1 or 2 people; happy I was mistaken.
Edit 2:
Thank you all so much for your kindness. It's a rare commodity I hope you all continue to keep :)
Yoder023 Dude. Well played to you for keeping it up for so long. Your story is truly inspiring and people really should heed the advice you just gave. :)
Great attitude to have man...just remember, when things seem hopeless, remember your own advice, you are far stronger than you realize
Good luck brother
You are a huge inspiration
Don’t let others tell you who you are, don’t let your diagnosis label your entire life, you are who you are and nothing will ever change that. I’m not the only one who thinks this but I am proud of you for making it this far, having a job, making a better you. You make the definition of who you are not anyone else.
I get married next month. You’ve been in my life as long as her. Just give me the word and I’ll marry you instead.
Jk but thank you for all that you do. My fiancée and I love your videos and have bonded over games you’ve introduced us to. Stay strong, stay safe, you are loved!
congrats man. hope you guys live a happy life 😌💕👍
Hey, man I've been there and still there too. What helped me alot was meditation, hitting the gym and eating healthy. Just doing those 3 things will literally change your life. Once you get those down ya need to have a clear defined goal in life. Im studying to be a 3D Environmental Artist, its really hard but life aint suppose to be easy. A wise man once said to me "Don't talk about it, Be about it." Goodluck
Bro, thank you for talking about something that needs to be talked about more often.
im glad he did because i always thought you can just stop bieng sad and then you will be ok
Channel checks out
Thank you bud. Means a lot
Understandable. That's why it's always good to talk about
As someone who suffers from depression this really spoke to me. Thank you mr. Fruit 🍉
South Park puts it best for me
Well yeah, and I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad. It's like, it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt somethin' really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness. I guess that sounds stupid. -Butters
Butter's speaking real truth.
Beautiful sadness is a thing but remind yourself that someone is out there to make you life beautiful forever
Thank you for this
Honestly I get a large amount of my life wisdom from those messages South Park sends at the end of every episode. It really is ingenious how they can make it funny and incredibly smart at the same time.
Logic is Dead ik what makes you feel alive it’s your heart beating
The more details and additional explanations you added, each one seemed more and more relatable and I’m now 18 and I’ve never known what’s wrong with me. I’m not saying I am depressed but I think this might have given me more insight into what’s going on with me and my brain. It has always been an idea in the back of my mind but I have never explicitly believed I have depression. I am an anxious person but I’ve always felt like there is more than just anxiety. I tried talking to someone but I just didn’t feel like it helped me. I do in fact enjoy going to the gym, it helps take my mind away from everything else. I also use video games, music, and UA-cam to help distract me. Thanks for the content and helping me be happy. My little brother showed me you probably a little more than a year ago and he loves watching you but now we can have conversations about you and your videos. He might be your biggest fan, he looks up to you and truly enjoys your content. Thank you Mr. Fruit❤️
I’ve always seen you as just a goofy guy but after watching this video I have a new found respect for you. This is a very important message and I respect you for having the balls to put yourself in a state of vulnerability for the betterment of your fans. You are a great guy keep it up.
Afro Bro same
Your like cade6 fruit. Always acting like everything is okay and happy but in reality nothings okay. Keep up the great work. You inspired me to make my own name for myself. Like your mr fruit. My gamer tag is Suubway. Everyone calls me Subway and it feels good. So thank you fruit and your amazing
I struggle with Depression daily ever since freshman year of HS. What is hard for people to understand is that it just happens.
Some days I just wake up with it. Nothing specifically triggers it sometimes. It is just how the brain works for some of us.
Edit: Fruit, thanks for bringing this to light.
Same brother
Thank you, I constantly have friends asking. "Why are you depressed?"
I am exactly the same its just day to day ever since H.S.
Hey, I hope youre doing okay and that youre holding on, but i was wondering if you could tell me how you know you have depression?
@@ten1086 its really just a drastic change downwards that happens randomly or you just feel like your not in the mood to do anything, for me it really came clear when friends and family members started to notice and ask what was putting me off.
P.S. I am doing better with my depression like fruit its just a day to day thing where I just have to look at the positive
Hey, Fruit. I'm really glad you made a video about this. Throughout my life I've been struggling, too, and I was never really explained what exactly depression was. Sure, I was put on meds, but I wasn't told why. It was never clear. You helped me understand some of these things that I'm going through, and I appreciate you telling your story. Thank you, and good luck.
I'm pretty sure I'm depressed. At times I just feel... sad for reasons nobody knows. I'm at a crossroads, but it seems like all the directions are pointing backwards.
@@echo2121 I'm sorry for the late reply bud. If you want to talk, I'm here for you. I've experienced depression for about 1.5 years now (well, I've been diagnosed for 1.5 years), and I felt exactly like you. Not sure what I'm feeling, just knowing that it's wrong. The worst thing I did in that situation was let it build up to suicidal thoughts. When that happened, I came to my mom and tried my best to explain through my tears. Even though I let it out so late, I was still able to get help. If you're feeling like that, and it stays for a while, it's important you tell someone. Maybe a friend, teacher, or a parent. Just make sure someone knows, and keep them updated whenever possible, if it gets better or worse.
Every time you said “I don’t know” and looked down I just wanted to give you a big hug. It shows a lot of strength to talk about it and I’m so glad you did. Thankful everyday for your channel!
I deal with depression by saying "I'm going to make it to 20" then when I hit 20 I stretched it to 30. Now Im almost there and I will be honest my next goal is only 35. I have been dealing with this since I was 11. So I think making it this far is pretty good. I have no desire to live to an old age. I don't want to deal with this for another 40 years. So we will see at 35. I love you fruit stay strong. If I can make it this far you can go further.
LawfulNugget there are people out there that would love to see you past 35. Remember that
LawfulNugget if you’ve made it this far you must have people who care about you, people who’d help you and make it worth living past 35. You can do it
U shouldnt feel like u dont wanna live long.
@@swizy8644 that's not necessarily...helpful advice..
You talk about having a positive mindset, but yet you dont plan on living long. Surrond yourself with your loved ones, they will help. Stay positive on your good days and set a goal to live as long as you can
One of the reasons I began watching your channel is because you reminded me of one of my best friends from secondary school. He was just like you, had this unique personality where he would always seem happy and upbeat. I found put after awhile that he's had depression almost all his life and it amazes me how people like you and him can act so happy towards others even when you aren't happy. You're an awesome guy fruit :)
Kage101101 -3- just saying, depression isn’t exactly sad, as he said in his vid, you just have ups and downs, like everyone. The thing is, with depression, the down moments that everyone has in life are amplified.
"The brightest lights can hide the deepest shadows"
@@Jakepopper01 Yeah I know but I also know just knowing you have it can sometimes get you upset. I don't fully grasp the situation myself so I'm not expert. Just trying to share my feelings about it ^-^
Whats secondary school?
monster kid it’s basically high school
As a person who has dealt with ADHD and anxiety as well as chronic depression I understand Fruit, especially when you mentioned the melancholy of looking back on good times. There are times I want to give up and break down but, I know I have to forge onward so we're all soldiers in a grey scale army. You though are a beacon of hope to the rest of us and I hope you forge onward and upward towards a better place
(My goodness thanks for the support guys let's raise the banner for house fruit!)
I also have ADHD
DILLY DILLY
I’m also living with ADHD, Anxiety and Depression, I know what it’s like and it’s hard. I hope fruit can get through it.
Same as I, but my anxiety is a social one which I feel works against each other with my ADHD. I'm taking nootropics to ease my stress with my metal health.
Same
Im sure this was a tough video to make. But i really commend you for doing it. As someone who has depression myself I hope you get through this.
Always remember there are ppl worse off than you and so that is something to constantly be thankful for that your are not in their shoes and it will help you look on the bright side of things. For example i just saw an ad about art - I liked the image so I kept watching. Then I noticed the guy was paint while holding the paint brush in his mouth and then it hits the viewer - the guy was in a wheelchair suffering from a broke neck in pain and still finding the inner strength to stay alive and paint. You have an inner strength that is never ending and god given and you should always turn to that in your darkest sadest times and the faith will help you see that everything will be alright.
One thing to say. Serious respect for talking out
I'm learning about depression and mental health in High School rn. I'm in 10th grade. I just want to say that WE ARE HERE FOR YOU!!!!
I leaned about it last year a bit (I'm in 11th). It's a terrible thing. Like Aaron says, we're here for you, Fruit Leader!
I'm learning in 8 grade and I have it too
Ah yes I'm a freshmen
I'm in 9th grade am I just learning about it too
I learned in 9th grade and it’s pretty rough. People doing research trying to find out why teens are so depressed. I wouldn’t say I’m depressed, but close to it. I fall into self loathing and the loneliness (not physically alone just a disconnect from others) doesn’t help. Enough about me, depression is a big deal and I hope people who suffer from it to get better or just not struggle with it.
Mr Fruit I know this can’t cure your depression but it can help hopefully. If you are having a hard time and are feeling depressed and just having a bad week, day, whatever just pull up this video and read the comments. You might feel alone as an introvert and might feel like you are the only one feeling this way but if you read these comments you will see that you have millions of random people who (mostly) haven’t even met you yet and they love you more than most people they know. You have the your family, you have your friends ( love the dream team and friends btw), and you have us, the millions of people who love watching you and love just being able to have you to listen to. You may feel alone but because you made this video you are making thousands of people feel a lot less alone. If you are struggling with uploading and feel like it is work and we rely on you, you don’t have to upload!!!!!!! Remember you are super fortunate even though you might not feel like it this isn’t work this is exactly what it started with for you, just a release and a way to have fun, IT IS NOT MANDATORY, so remember you can take a break for as long as you need. We have thousands of your videos that we can rewatch and rely on so u don’t need to make more everyday. Btw you might think this video was stupid but I guarantee that you are helping thousands of people with this and helping “cure their depression” . I am fortunate to not have depression and am mostly happy, there are those days. But life is much better with you helping us feel like we are not alone. Sorry for the rant but I just can’t bear to see you feeling depressed and alone because we love you and couldn’t imagine life without watching you, hope you see this and it makes you feel better but I gotta do my homework before I procrastinate until 1 am. Love you and the dream team, and keep up the great CONTENT
Thank you so much for this man I have depression as well and it’s so hard to deal with and I searched how to deal with it and you saying those words so well has made my day so much better thank you!😔❤️
Aww, your comment and so many others are really nice to read, and it's heartening to see that he still sees new comments here! (just referring to him "heart"ing your rad comment 🙃)
Damn, I never would have thought you would have that problem, I’m sorry man. I hope things get better for you I really do.
Sounds like you have a similar problem to me. I have chronic fatigue syndrome. I’m seeing two therapists and the things you’re saying you do, are exactly what they’ve told me are causing my problems. There is a boom and bust cycle. You do certain activities that tire you out. Being mentally tired can be worse than physical exertion. But these periods of feeling worn out are usually delayed and so pinpointing what causes the serious fatigue can be difficult. But basically, you feel okay one day and do a lot, you then feel rough the next day because of that and do little. Over time, the delay of fatigue causes long periods of feeling awake and then long periods of feeling tired and depressed. And that sounds like a situation you’re in. So, the basic principle to improve that is to limit the amount you do something before you get too exhausted, allowing you to do it more often. So for example, I’m a media composer. I’ll have a good day and spend 4 hours at my computer writing a piece of music, and then if I’m feeling good spend half an hour doing weights or something and then something else and eventually end my day feeling good that I’ve got a lot done. But it could be a week down the line when I feel it, my energy levels are incredibly low and for several days I’m completely in a rut, feeling down and struggling to even walk I feel so rough. The plan I’m working on is to limit each activity. If I feel like I can do it for four hours, do it for half that time or less. And then do weights for only 10 minutes and then something else but keep the periods shorter. You create a sort of jigsaw of things that use energy in different ways. So I’m not exhausted physically or mentally the next day. And Then you’re able to do it again instead of needing to sleep. It sounds like it would be harder for you with your busy schedule but it might be necessary to take a step back, re evaluate how you work, and work on a plan that can help to sustain the level of work you do but in a more manageable way that fits in with your depression and prevents the boom and bust cycle. It’s hard to explain without being able to draw diagrams and stuff but maybe some of that was thought provoking and maybe helpful to you or someone else. A certain amount of predictability throughout the day is what everyone needs (that’s why getting a new job or moving etc can be so daunting, because it disrupts the predictability of our day). But you can’t be in a position where the predictability is forcing you to over work in certain areas (mentally or physically) to a point where your brain implodes and you become seriously down and exhausted for long periods.
videfluffy I’ve had serious sleep
problems since I was 14 and obviously poor sleep is terrible for depression. But on top of that I had to drop out of school twice, scrapes into uni but had to drop out of that too. I’m now 27 and still struggling. Just got to keep soldiering on dude. Gotta believe things will get better!
I’m so proud of you for speaking your feelings. We’re all here for you. :)
You know what? I feel like you are talking to me. You have no idea how much I relate. I never would have guessed from your videos. It’s hard feeling like I will live with this forever. Thanks for sharing.
Depression - lowest ground for the earth point 0.C
edit: thanks for love!
Dear Mr. Fruit
About a year and a half ago i was diagnosed with severe depression with a side of anxiety. I was 20 years old loving at home and single. I was at the point of suicide. My parents started noticing and told me i should see a doctor about this. Of course i was reluctant because i didnt want to admit that i was dealing with depression. After seeing the doctor i was prescribed some anti depresssants and thus started my journey of becoming mentally stable again. I took to video gaming. This gave me a a sense of self-worth and accomplishment. I played Spiral Knights, Destiny, and then eventually took on Fortnite. I made a bunch of friends that helped me forget about being depressed and finally on April 6th of 2018, I stopped taking my medication. I didnt need it. I had the friends by my side, a loving family, and God to thank for keeping me alive. Everyone just needs that one thing to keep them going. That one thing that keeps their mind in a happy state. I must say that watching your videos, knowing you struggle with the same mental illness i did helped me out the most. Thank you for all the hard work you do and I pray, someday your depression will subside and never come back. God Bless.
P.S. Dont ever tell yourself that maybe you shouldnt be telling us this because we may not care. We care about you. Everyone here cares. You mean so much to us! Please make more videos telling us how youre doing. We like them
P.S.S. Give Spiral Knights a shot, it would make my day :) Its free and its on Steam @Mr. Fruit
Jeremy Shirk 6
Congratulations! glad you're doing better👏👍👏👍👏👍
@@ooferboiz7587 Thank you :)
Fruit you are so good! I hope you get better!
Spiral knights??? Bro I still play that here and then with random guild friends, it really helped me escape some stages of depression at middle school, the happy tone and colors of the game and the themes just made feel relaxed and happy. I hope your situation gets better man and I feel you, I’m 17 and I had depression for 9Years and was completely alone on it, nobody knew about it and I aimed a gun on my head atleast 8 times and never pulled that trigger, cause I knew that wasn’t going to fix anything so I decided to stay strong on it even tho I was completely alone, just hope it all goes better for anyone having depression.
MR. FRUIT!!!!! Of course we care. Your channel has helped other people get through their depression. When I watch your videos I have so much fun, and I'm able to feel a connection that sometimes I can't feel with most people. THE CONTENT makes your fans happy, but I hope that making it makes you happy, that should always be your number one priority. We love you Mr. Fruit
Mr. Fruit, I just want you to know that every time I either open UA-cam or see a notification that you posted a new video, it really makes my day so much better just watching your videos! Honestly no matter what I went through that day you make me laugh or sometime cringe so much I laugh anyway😂. Thanks for everything you do to provide the CAHNTENT to your fans.
Hey Fruit, thanks for the video. I am a subscriber of yours since 2013... I am a 16 year old and struggling with extreme depression. I have never been to a therapist or taken medications, but nonetheless I am a restricted child w/out any social media sources or any gaming systems aside from a wii. I have lived with the eating thought in my mind that suicide is better than anything else in this world with my abusive dad, backstabbing friends; and my mom, sister, and brother's hatred toward my mere existence. I have never had anything given to me in my life for free, like a normal human being right? Right, but sometimes my dad, who is obsessed with sports, will not allow me to eat or drink ANYTHING until I workout for him so that my skills or athleticism will give him glory. I am a 200 pound 6'3.5" guy that is mostly bone skin and some fat from my childhood. Being so depressed the past 8 years of my life I have been slowly progressing from fat & chubby to bone skinny. I have not eaten breakfast or lunch daily as of this year from February 14 - July 28. But aside from all about me. You. You no matter your case: depression, cold, or work conflicts, Cristian, you have been the ONLY reason that I have not committed suicide. Each day I waited for your post of a new video. Your humor, and hilarious phrases such as “Sweet Baby Moses” or “Suck Me Softly” have made me laugh with some great joy that I have not felt since I was 7. Your TTT videos have continuously made me laugh to tears & side aches. As of this year I have cleaned up my act from eating properly like not too much or little. And I have been exercising daily What I told you at the beginning was my weight in July. I am still 200 pounds but I have extreme muscle growth and joy entering my life. Your videos are the reason that I am still alive. I have attempted suicide at age 10. Didn’t work but as I laid in the hospital my best friend Cyrus entered my room telling me that he found a youtuber for me to watch to have joy. He showed me you… Mr. Fruit, you are the reason i continue on. Your courage to propose to your girlfriend and post a video on it told me that all a man needs is courage, strength, joy, and confidence and you can do anything.. I just finished going to my first date since my 6th grade year. Thank you for everything, your family in my heart…
Sincerely,
Thomas
Hugs Mr. Fruit. I swear to the Norse Gods and to the Greybeards that what you're saying is so familiar. I'm a workaholic, so if I don't get work done it REALLY brings me down, which just is another part of the crappy depression cycle. But seriously man, I just want to give you the biggest bear hug my 6'3'', 280 lb frame can give you. I had depression in a Fundamentalist Christian environment, that didn't believe that depression was real. It was a sin problem. So I went through much of my adult life with it, never getting it treated. Until I left that environment permenantly about 12 years ago, started to get treatment, and my life GREATLY improved. I say all this because I Completely relate, completely appreciate your candid nature, completely love you and what you do. Dark clouds are insidious and just hit us at all the wrong time, and those of us that have depression know exactly what you're talking about.
Fruit, I sincerely love your work. I'm amazed at it each day. I don't know how you crank out what you do in the amount of time you do. It's truly amazing. To know that you suffer from depression makes it even more amazing.
Getting things done helps me so much with dark thoughts, things like a wood working project or getting a coding project done at work. Most of the time the project seems so huge though that I can't even get started. It's just too overwhelming. And ADHD doesn't help. BUT we all forge ahead, and each day brings more opportunities to create new stuff. And your stuff is a daily treat that I look forward to. I'm not kidding.
Thank you again for sharing Fruit. Truly.
If you can't fly,
then run,
if you can't run,
then walk,
if you can't walk,
then crawl.
But Whatever you do
You Must Keep Moving.
W1ndRunn3r_ 10/10 reference
What happens if you can move? Wheelchair👌
Proud of you fruit, takes a big man to accept his feelings. Keep going my man
I always appreciate videos like this. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and PTSD about a year ago and have been struggling a lot with both recently, I want to thank you for being honest with topics like this. It's nice knowing you're not alone.
haha get rekt by depression noob!
Atlas Von Marelok are you joking
PTSD is a total bitch sausage. I’ve been dealing with it for a while, and it gets better. Trust me on that my friend. You’re not alone.
@@lennylalamba5366 I cant tell if youre joking, but if you arent you are just a terrible person.
Atlas Von Marelok I love how you say “the world is a harsh place” as defense for you being a gigantic pile of shit. Maybe, and hear me out here, this might be a foreign concept to you. Maybe if you weren’t such an unbearable, obnoxious prick, maybe you might be be able to make someone feel better about themselves and simultaneously, make the world an ever so slightly better place. Do you notice how everyone else in this thread are being supportive and helpful and you’re the only one being negative, thus making it a “harsh place”? You’re the only pussy in here. Get your head out of your ass, and grow the fuck up.
Love you Fruit! I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression since I was 10. I believe mine is also hereditary. This video helped me a lot today and I’m sure it helps a lot of other people to know we’re not alone. You’re above all my favorite content creator because you can be so open and honest. Thank you for everything you do ❤️🍉
Depression is very real and quite honestly the worst feeling that you can ever experience in my opinion. Those who like to make fun of other people who say they’re depressed need to understand that. I would very much love to be back to being a kid since I never had to deal with these kinds of feelings. Mr. Fruit, thank you for getting this video out there. You’re a very genuine content creator that likes to show that you’re a real person going through real life stuff, and that’s something I can’t really say for a lot of other people on this site. I tend to see them try to cover these kinds of things up, but you went out of your way to explain what you’re dealing with, and I really admire that. This is exactly why you’re my favorite UA-camr, and I really hope things improve, and I say this to everyone else who’s dealing with depression. I’ve managed to get past it for now, and I want to say it’ll be gone at some point. Keep these amazing videos going, Mr. Fruit!
I'd say heart break is the worst you could experience because sometimes you never get over it and it can put you in depression
Damn Mr Fruit I'm surprised to hear this.
Well let me just tell you something. Your videos are always so funny. Anytime I'm having a bad day or really in need of a good laugh, your videos have always been a great source of humor. I mean that with all of my heart fam.
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You know I have depression and I was thinking about suicide about a week ago and I am in middle school. My friend helped me out of it and after watching you for a while and after finding out you have depression you probably dont know it but you helped me get through sixth and seventh grade so if you are reading this Christian then thank you for what you have done for me wether you know it or not. If you have made it this far down the comment then thank you for reading this. Lets go Mr. Fruit fanbase please like this so he will see this. Thank you people this is future me and I have gotten past it but thank you people.
Dont die on us little guy alright life gets better it probably wont get easier and depression isnt gonna magically disappear but it does get better make sure your around to see it through
people care abt you! dont commit bud
We all need people like this in our life, people to put our lives in perspective, peace and love my friends, peace and love
It's never easy but I've been through it and it comes and goes just hang on you have people like me that are willing to talk about what we go through and try an find the light no matter how dark it is.
Been following you a long time fruit. Love your stuff and I know your struggle. You're an inspiration and bring so many smiles to so many faces everyday. But depression has a way of making that mean nothing. Stay strong brother. Love u!
I wish I could say this isn't relatable but it is. I'm in the same boat as you bud, but tell you what, if we keep using the tools at our disposal, we will keep this ship sailing. See you in the crucible! ☠
*I can and cannot relate* , from what I know, I don’t have depression. But this past year or two there have been troubles with me and my family, or even life in general. I try not to think too much about it cause I get so deep into thought and start tearing up, but *sometimes I just have to sort it out in my head and I talk to myself about my situations* . I did not expect to write this much, but honestly, Mr.Fruit is the only channel that can actually make me happy. Him and his friends just make me smile....I watch old videos, new, recent- you name it. *This is my happy, safe place* :) 🚨
same. Don't feel like doing anything. I don't cry but neither get hurt (physically) or get motivated for ANYTHING! You put Forsaken with season pass, still, nothing. FRUIT HELPP ME xD
I'm shook cause you're one of the things that I always go to when I feel down man so I hope you keep fighting on cause what you do is goes father than just games... Love you fruit
Hey fruit. I’m Ethan and just a short 2 years ago I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I am 16 currently and still struggle with this today. I know exactly how you fell and started to feel this way when I was 13 in eighth grade. I was constantly picked on and I believe, however have no proof that, this could have been a stimulant to my disorder. I went through my last year of middle school and my first year of high school without the help of anyone or letting anyone know. Soon this crippling feeling fell to a point of despair and after about 3 months of constant crying in class and at home, emotionally drained to the point of exhaustion, I gave up and attempted suicide. I drank bleach and for some god seen reason, to very little effect. I dry heaved for hours with nothing. Eventually, with hours of tears in my eyes, I gave up and went to bed at 3:00 in the afternoon. My parents came home and woke me up. I still felt sick however was perfectly alive. I went to school the next day and didn’t say a word. The next week went on without any improvement and I thought of suicide again. When I turned back to the bleach again for a second time, oddly enough the bottle was completely empty with a hole in the bottom, being perfectly fine the day before. I sat in my bed during the weekend and did absolutely nothing. I got on Xbox without any will. My friend joined my party and started talking, I don’t remember about what, but finally I snapped. I started yelling at him, my body hostage to my emotion and overwhelming helplessness. My parents overheard me and tried to talk to me. I snapped again and told them what I did just a couple days prior. They tried seeking counseling for me, but with our worsening health insurance we couldn’t afford anything. I finally went somewhere and got help. I started to feel better after weeks. It hasn’t been as bad the past year, however my anxiety has gotten way worse to the point of hallucinations. I don’t want to get put on meds because I’m too scared to mess something up. I decided the cause of my anxiety comes from going into large social situations and my depression comes from being alone too long or leaving a situation where I felt happy for the first time in a while. I spent the whole video typing this and am on the verge of crying. Whoever read this I appreciate you taking the time to help others. If anyone feels similarly to me, honestly reply or something. I’m sorry to everyone who has experienced this or will in the future. Just remember there will eventually be a way to get out of it and just hold in there. I love you all and wish the best. Keep in there.
Hey buddy, please know that you're not alone. From the age of 9 to 12 I was being picked on and that also triggered my depression. I was so sad, crying a lot, wanted to run away, to hurt myself and I felt like nobody understood me. I found solace in games. I learned to live with these feelings and hide them, because I thought nobody cared enough to understand. It so happened that after I changed schools, things got a little better. I began working on myself and improving myself because I knew that's the only way to make this better. And in many cases I've failed but overall it's been a major improvement for me. To this day I don't think I can be as happy as other people are, but I'm not as sad as before either. So I'm okay with that and I've managed to learn more about myself and experiment and go in the nature and do things I never would've done otherwise. Really hope this helps you, you are more strong than you believe. :)
@@MolotovBg I learned from a young age that most people didn't get along with me. When anyone picked on me, i just started punching. Not advocating violence, but beating up your bullies is better than killing yourself and getting to the point of self-loathing. I just wish people didn't take these things to heart. My little brother is the same way and it kills me. He's 14. I only have 5 close friends whose friendships i really value. Find people you can talk to who deal with the same struggles. Go to meetings. See if there are any online anon chat groups (even better if you can find an actual place to meet). If you are feeling low, you need others to pull you out of it. When I was diagnosed with mild depression, they put me on a medication that made it 50× worse. I got so depressed that it literally took all my energy. I missed my own graduation party.The biggest thing that helped me was thinking about all the people that I would hurt by my leaving. And if you don't have anyone....FIND THEM! I didn't think I would have any friends. Very introverted. There are people like us out there that need one another. There are a lot of people out there who could really benefit from your company. I have told all of my close friends that I wish I met them earlier. Everyone has struggles and things that get them down. We are social creatures and the worst thing for people, especially depressed people....is being alone with your thoughts. if you need to talk to someone to talk to, I'm here for you. shoot me a message on youtube or tell me how I can contact you. You're not alone. Don't hurt yourself. Most importantly. You will only feel worse for it later. Love you.
You Are Never Alone
Achelees I'm really sorry bro but don't ever try anything like that again ok? it doesn't do anybody any good
i love you, i literally can't watch this till the end, im crying
Mr. Fruit,
The first thing that I want to say is thank you for making this video. It reminded me that you are a human being. I felt that I can connect with you more as person because I can relate to you. Ever since I was a kid in small town in Idaho, people have been saying the same things as “just stop being sad” or “quit being lazy” and “why you always so down”. I was always sad when I tried to force myself to do the things I saw others do naturally. When I was finally told by my psychiatrist that I was depressed, I didn’t even really know what that meant or entailed. It wasn’t until I saw a therapist that I was finally able to understand why I so somber. I was finally able to talk through it, for the better I would say. The fear of trying to explain to others that you are not just sad and are actually mentally ill, and having them think you are just making excuses is paralyzing. But when I found you on UA-cam, you had posted your “Draw me” video, and after watching it I was so happy to know that there was someone who was in a similar situation, and you seemed to be trying you hardest to make something you were proud of. I was inspired by your determination and it has led me to make more positive changes in my life since then. I know I’ve been rambling on and on, and I may just be a number, just a small part of an analytic, but I want you to know that you are perfect in your imperfection and strong through your shortcomings. Thank you so much for being a UA-camr, and thank you for everything.
Keep your chin up, and one foot in front of the other.
Talk to you in the next one, Fruit.
Thank you Fruit for all you do for me! You make me smile when I wanna cry and proved to me that you can accomplish and overcome anything if you put your mind to it.
Overall Christian thank you for inspiring us ❤️
Mr. Fruit,
I want to say thank you so much for talking about this. Your video came at the exact time it needed. My new roommate (we both moved in with each other cause having old roommate issues) suffers from depression and anxiety. We've been through a whole bunch of crap. I think we both needed this video. I'm so glad that I found you through overwatch(because of overwatch I got on my esports team with my roommate too), you're my favorite UA-camr. We love you!
@AssBurgers bruh why didn't you just not comment. She's just expressing her feelings to a good youtuber and how he came at a good moment, im personally interested in what she had to say.
Thanks dude.... I was feeling weird these days and i had no idea of depression and now i know what is happening. Thanks dude🙏
We love you mr fruit and we’ll always be here for you!❤️
Thank you for making this video Christian. I saw you tweeting about this and was hoping you’d cover this in a video as mental health is something that affects everyone, both viewers and content creators of course. Follow your passions and we’ll be here to support you all the way!
And again, congratulations on the engagement!
Shoutout to my man dark hero
Carlos javier Silva aye my man Carlos! 😁
I've struggled with mental health issues my whole life, I wholeheartedly support whatever you need to do to support yourself. The channel will always be here to support you, we're not here for your videos, we're here for you.
I just saw this video and I firmly believe that this popped up on my recommended for a reason. I recently have been in a real downward spiral and I needed a reminder that I am not alone in this. Thank you for sharing and showing your vulnerability and giving me a reminder that I am not alone in this. Thank you thank you thank you!
Mr. Fruit I know exactly how you feel even though I'm nowhere near as old as you I struggle with depression and anxiety. I have self harmed since the age of 11 and it's the worst route to go down. I feel comfortable saying such things through a social media device because no one knows me. To you I'm just one of the millions that love your videos. I'm not on anti depressants because people think it's not serious but no one knows how close I have been to ending my life. This is not an attention seeking comment I just though you should know that there are others like you. We are all here for you Mr fruit and trust me life can change in an instant.
Crazysam 100 you should definitely talk to someone, it's better to get help than to keep struggling, I can assure you that. It may be tough and you might get push back, but everything eventually falls in line.
Honestly if you need to rest REST. Uploading everyday is very very rough. I've seen it with about every UA-camr that tries to do it. All 1.3M subs are with you! 💞
Hey I agree with u I have depression in sixth grade I am still struggling with it I use video game to help me stop thinking of it I fell like the only person that really cares about me is my family and my girlfriend their the only people that can understand me
I went through a suicidal bit in 2nd grade. I absolutely hated it. I hated everything back then, now I’m a few weeks into sophomore year of high school and am jaded to hell when it comes to dying. I’ve never wanted to self harm, it was more of an all or nothing mentality. Exercise and friends have helped so so much and I’m so much happier now and to be honest, I’m stronger.
Edit: actually no I’ve cut my chest to self harm but never my wrists or anything
I keep coming back to this and the "wholesome" video, love them both
Mr Fruit! Christian my friend. I have watched your content since I found your channel way back in Vanilla Destiny. Your shotgun review was actually first videos I saw of yours. Anyways....I myself battle depression, and have been living with it since I was 14. I was molested as a child by an Uncle, btw I am a male...not that it matters. Anyway that is the root of my Depression. I found my solution in alcohol and substance abuse which didnt solve anything. However, i am now a 32 year old man who has 9 years of sobriety under my belt and honestly have a better life than I ever thought I would. Unfortunately, Depression is still there kicking my ass. Its a daily struggle for me but if I look at it as a daily battle and not a lifelong one I usually win. Not sure what I ment to say with all this but just know your subscribers are here for you. I know I am, and you have made my day numerous times with you light and humor. I love you bro, and you mean so much to me and all of FruitNation. Stay positive and moving forward my brother. God bless. P.s. sry for the text wall
Stay well friend
Congrats on the 9 years
Stay well ☝️
Stay well
Ik the feeling I feel u it's terrible
First off my boyfriend and I love your Destiny videos! ♥️ You've made us giggle and chortle so much! Second, I've been battling pessimistic and anxious thoughts/emotions for over five years. I've been stubbornly pushing myself. I refuse to take medicine or seek medical help. Because I feel like I want to win. I keep myself busy all the time, I work out, study, and etc. But.... even though I've reach the point where I feel like I'm doing my absolute best it's still not enough.... and I finally come to the realization that I might have to seek help after all. That something is "wrong with me". And I don't want the person I love to have to deal with it for the rest of our lives. I don't want to burden him or have it affect our relationship in a bad way. Even though I know he'll be there for me 110% I don't want to put it on him. So... it's been really bad the past two weeks and just steadily getting worse and worse. I feel like I've reached a whole new low after many years. And then this video came out and has brought me some comfort so thank you Mr. Fruit. Thank you for continuing to make me laugh and letting me know I'm not alone. That well... I'm not crazy. That me not being able to control my emotions no matter how hard I try is okay and not my fault. So... thank you very much. Sorry this was kind of a book. And I wish you all the best and that tons of smiles will be sent your way :)
Dude imma be honest I'm in the same boat most of the time. I get depressed a lot by usually being the outcast and never having time to do anything (work, college, etc). Since I started high school, you were the guy I went to watch videos on youtube since you were under 30k (multiple accounts until I made this one) and literally every time I watch a video of yours I get a smile on my face. People say things like Halo and COD were their childhood but this channel made my childhood. I couldn't stand myself if anything bad happened to you, seeing a couple of my friends who committed suicide changes you. You're the kind of guy that does work to feel accomplished, continue to make it enjoyable or even widen the spectrum of you videos! Laughing, being with family and friends, just do what you wanna do! Don't know your religion or whatever but I'm praying for you!
You taught me how to be the best,
Now show me that YOU ARE THE BEST!!
Love you bro if you need help we are here for you!!!
Thank you, I know this video is 2 years old, but thank you so much Christian! I hope your mental health has been in a more positive place lately. Depression is a bitch, and you're 100% right when you say it comes in waves/goes up and down. I needed this video, so thank you.
Fruit,
I found you through overwatch (cops and robbers) videos and I didn't know anything about you. But now I've been a fan for about a year and your videos make me feel calm and settled. I don't have to think about school or work, i can just relax. Thank you so much for that! You and your friends have made me laugh like crazy. My best friend also deals with depression, so I totally support you and can try to understand how you might feel. To you and anyone who needs it, I hope you have better days ahead! :)
I know how you feel Mr Fruit. When I was 17 my anxiety and depression was unbearable. I’m no longer depressed but I still have anxiety and OCD (mainly intrusive thoughts that scare me so much) and it bugs me that people think that OCD is just arranging and cleaning and stuff. I don’t have any of that, it is so annoying and my anxiety just makes it worse. Depression gets better, trust me :D
Excuse my ignorance, but what are the other affects of OCD?
And also with the intusive thought part, I deal with that too
Llama Wonka it’s ok, you’re not ignorant at all :) the other symptoms of OCD are overthinking, irrational fears (usually about becoming a pedophile or in my case I worry I will be a serial killer), mind pops (random memories or sentences pop into your had at random times), music gets stuck in your head a lot, obsession (for example I was so worried and obsessed that I would search up about serial killers for hours to see if I’m not like them), carrying out mental rituals to get rid of your unwanted and unpleasant thoughts and obsessions (these are known as compulsions) and intrusive thoughts (unwanted thoughts that are about doing something harmful or bad and is usually accompanied with guilt)
Armando Loera thanks, I’ll try that. Sometimes my mind feels foggy and confused and I think meditating would help a lot to clear my mind and relax me when I worry, thanks :)
@@SirSnipington ummm that sounds allot like me, but thanks for the info
I’ve been dealing with depression and anxiety since the 8th grade, and it’s always really nice to hear that another person (I know that sounds bad but I promise that isn’t how I mean it haha), especially a public figure is going through their own stuff as well. It just takes a little pressure off your shoulders knowing ‘hey, it’s not just me, I don’t have to do this by myself, I do have other people around me even though it may not seem it at times, so I genuinely appreciate this Mr.Fruit, it’s easy to get trapped inside your head, and keep things to yourself. I know I keep things to myself a lot especially when it comes to mental health, I haven’t really told many people but talking about it helps a lot. I appreciate you guys :)
I have schizophrenia, PTSD, OCD, anxiety, and depression and all I want to do is say thank you, I struggle daily with suicidal thoughts as well as literally seeing things that aren't there, your videos help me get through all of that on a regular basis, especially the odd ball games like golf and ttt, so for all of that I want to say thank you, I love everything you do, and I will keep watching you even if your channel dies, I don't care, I appreciate everything you do
Fruit. This is actually 100 percent accurate about what I’ve been going through. Thank you for making this video.
God bless you bro. I’ve been going through some depression this past couple of weeks myself.😢😭😢 You are in my prayer Bro. We will make it through together!!!
I feel ya man.. I know what it's like living with depression. So this speaks to me a lot. Good job talking about it! Can't always be easy. Keep up the good work man. Love ya
Fruit, you are the are the only UA-camr I have watched regularly for 4 years now. You have done so much more than I think you’ll ever know. Something I always remember that I think you need to know. Any issue you think you have is just god trying to nerf you because you are too good. This channel and your personality is one of the few things I can’t live without. Stay fruity
Mr. Fruit, it seems that you are almost a carbon copy of what I've dealt with since the 6th grade. I can't help but relate a lot to how you have been feeling. I have actually just gotten over a bad wave of side effects of different medications. My body does not accept the meds well and therapy is a good help. With you making this video, I will use this as a note when I go back into a low wave. Just, do the only thing you can and keep pushing. From experience, it's not always easy, but you can. Just keep on keeping on and thank you for the videos for the past couple of years
Mr fruit, I had no idea. You have always struck me as a positive guy. I’ve had my dabble with depression, having a huge medical issue in sophomore year, a falling out with my dad in junior, and having no motivation or support for all of high school. Honestly, what it took was writing in a notebook or what you would call a diary. It makes me feel productive and also cements my ambitions and hopes, and let’s me get in touch with my emotions and feelings. Negative people always make great comedians, they know and see a different side of things. And you are a funny and bright guy, and hopefully you come out of this enlightened. I hope you come around to seeing this, and I hope this small tidbit could help.
I’m 34 from Scotland and I have struggled with depression for the most part of my adult life. I have been addressing these aspects you have described. I’m so happy you have made this video and I want you to know your videos have provided a source of fun and happiness in my life. Thank you and I hope the struggle for you becomes easier. Much love xx
I sometimes feel like I am depressed, but I have had a friend commit suicide recently, so now every time I feel down I just think of what his passing made a lot of people feel. He was an extremely smart person who had so much potential, but that is where me and him differ. I always think down on myself because I’m not really good at anything, not even video games which I spend 90% of my free time on. I always think of how everyone talked about all of the amazing things my friend had done before he passed, and I always think of how little would be said about me. I have very few friends, and I am extremely antisocial, so I wonder, if I took my life, how many people would truly be affected. I can think of maybe 15 who would feel some sort of emotion but that much is enough to prevent me from taking my life. I always think to myself that I want to die, but I don’t want to commit suicide, because people might blame themselves for it. Another thing that stops me is, I know this may sound stupid, upcoming movies and games I’m excited for. I always remember things like “if I kms, I won’t get to see Avengers 4” or stupid stuff like that. I’m extremely conflicted on this subject so I absolutely hate when it is brought up or I have thoughts about it. If I sound like I’m looking for sympathy, I’m not, I just sometimes really need to write a comment like this to get something off my chest, no matter how many people see it.
Jakepopper01, You’re not alone friend. Best of luck, stay strong.
Jakepopper01///I get what you mean, I don’t have depression, at least I haven’t been diagnosed with it. I just always think about what life’s reaction would be if I just “wasn’t there”, yknow? Haha but I’m fine, I hope you’re fine too
Don’t commit bro u r probably such a great person and have so much potential. Just keep fighting
Dude I understand what you mean with the talents thing. My sister who has depression is really good at drawing, singing, and playing instruments. She tried to commit but we stopped her in time. But yeah I'm more or less the talentless one in the family. Sure I play video games like a lot of my time but I'm not the best. Also I'm not great at anything too much really. I only know my way around the computer but there are people better at that then me but even with all that. I'm not that sad witch I surprise myself. Sometimes I do have my big Lows where I almost cry in my sleep but then I remember my happy moments and that makes me happy. I'm just going on about myself but yeah. I do truly feel talentless but I'm surprised that I'm not mad about that. Also I never get mad at my sister I always cheer her on because I love her. She's an amazing sister and I sometimes play Halo with her which I love doing.
Jay Gonzalez
If you feel talentless try something new and you might be great at that, you never know until you try
That’s surprising because you’re so cheerful I feel. Now I have never suffered from depression but I’ve known people who suffered from it. So I understand what you’re going through. At least somewhat. I hope you can get better. I’m sorry for you, but I still love your videos. You’re loved by so many people; remember that man. We all love you and enjoy what you put out for us to see. I get that you want to keep things to yourself but sometimes you just have to let it out. You can talk to us and we’ll support you all the way through it. But I’m glad you’re acknowledging it, because so many people have it. I’m sorry if I just don’t understand because I don’t have depression and I have never have it. I’m glad you’re not thinking about hurting yourself because you have your close friends, your family. And literally millions of people who would be devastated if you ever left us. And even without depression life sucks sometimes. It happens. And I want you to know that I want you to feel somewhat better even if you can’t get rid of it. But I know you love UA-cam and I would never want anything to happen to you, but even if you have to take a break, we’ll support you through it, dude.
This was not a dumb video at all! You are speaking into the airways what millions of us are dealing with on a daily basis and using your platform for good. Thank you for sharing and we got your back! Don't second guess yourself, this was amazing.
Sidenote: If you are Mr. Fruit, are we the community fruit salad? 🤔
Stay strong buddy! ❤️
Matin Haso yes actually. His playstation community is called mr fruit’s fruit salad.
@@gilberito635 so I was right without even knowing it, awesome 😂
I’ve had 2 strokes last year at the age of34and they crippled and almost completely blinded me, this hit my family so hard and still does sometimes, i’m very agressive sometimes because of the massive brain damage and i’m fighting an uphill battle everyday but i’m still here and i try to apreciate what i stil have, accepting help is very important people, no matter what there’s always someone out there that has it worse than you, love, live, life, we can do this christian!
All praise the beard
Also take your time and do what you need to do, we are all human
It’s a shame that because the only real way to understand depression is to have it has created this taboo air around it meaning that a lot of people don’t fully understand it or grasp that it’s more than just a sad feeling or attitude.
Fruit stay strong man I love your content fruit I’m here for you
A friend of mine sent this video to me a while ago- recently I found your channel playing a bunch of games!! And I'm in love with your videos.... But I completely forgot about this video that my friend sent me a while ago- and now I watch you all the time...
Watching your videos brought a tiny bit of light into my every day life (I myself struggle with sever mental health issues to the point where they are disabilities haha) but a couple of weeks ago- I tried to take my own life... I was in hospital for 2 weeks- the doctor said it was a miracle and I'm so incredibly lucky to have survived because medically- I shouldn't have... But since I got out of hospital- I've been watching your videos a lot more and videos of others that appear on your channel and again, it brings a small light in a very dark time for me... So thank you, thank you for making this video and all of your videos. Thank you.
Fruit, I'm only halfway through this video right now and already to see you struggle with just trying to explain this.. I just feel you on a huge level. "Even with working out every day and taking the medication, I still have those days" I'm paraphrasing but I just.. relate so so much. I'm not taking medication, currently, for my bipolar disorder and with bipolar, you get manic highs and depressive lows. and the higher the high, the lower the low. And the depression always seems to go for much longer and hit me way harder. I just recently thought I was doing really well and I felt on top of the world but inevitably, I had that crash. And it feels like I'm just above rock bottom. and it's taking like all of my effort to keep my head above water right now. I'm not suicidal or thinking of hurting myself, I'm not there yet, I have been before, but goddamn there are those days.... It gets really hard and it is really comforting to have you share this video.
Anyway my point here is. You are an actual inspiration to me. You have so much going for you and yet you still suffer with depression and you feel like people just don't understand BECAUSE you have so much going for you and I get it. On a cellular level. I feel it in my soul, I get it. I appreciate this message SO MUCH. I appreciate you. I want you to keep doing what you're doing and keep fighting it. FruitNation cares about you. Love you, Fruit. Keep fighting the good fight with us
I’m bipolar too and it’s fucking horrible. The worse part is not knowing if you’re happiness is genuine or not. Or just waiting for that inevitable crash. You can’t even trust your own happiness because you know a crash is coming.
I’ve been managing it a lot better now, but yeah sometimes it really fucking sucks. I always tell myself “This will pass” every time I feel so down bc it will! We got this!
It's genuinely really inspiring to me that despite having depression you are as successful as you are (pretty damn successful from where I'm standing)... I've had depression come and go since I was in middle school. It's also familial for me, but I have a couple other risk factors. The past few years I have been REALLY having a hard time and to be honest contributing to my own problems. So here I am, with a good college degree, but having tanked my first few years of work history... I know that you have got where you are because you have WORKED at it. I know you've put in a crazy upload schedule, sometimes crazier than others. I know you've had trouble doing that work. Maybe that's inevitable for all of us with depression. But that doesn't mean we can't work past it. Learned helplessness has been my number one problem and this did really inspire me in that regard. (I don't get inspired easily and am usually a pessimist, which I think I will be working on.)
Anyway... I know you have trouble with not working, and if you do read this I hope it didn't mess with you in that regard. We're on different ends of that spectrum lmao. (If you really do need to force yourself to take it easier, have you tried thinking of whatever you need to do to help your mental health- like going and being social, or going somewhere outside for half an hour to relax, etc.- as a job? That's helped me a little, and I certainly don't have the work ethic you do right now... No need to take that seriously if it doesn't appeal to you at first glance.) But we're all rooting for you and hope you feel better, and I'm really glad you're working on getting better. Especially the medical stuff. People neglect that ALL the time.
Hope your brain stops pooping on you. I think I'm going to go work out.
I respect you so much for this. I think it's so great that you made this video to show there that it's ok to admit when you're "sick." Recommending all these solutions will definitely help tons of people. Love you Mr.Fruit and I hope you get better soon ❤️💚
I would say working out is very important like mr fruit says when it comes to depression, fatigued and anxiety
Brother, every single day I fight fight this feeling. This deep sadness that I can not control. And there isn’t many constants in my life other than a few things. School, work and your videos. My sadness was non-existent until earlier this year when I just felt alone and lost in this world that we live in. But with that sadness I wasn’t helping myself. I would listen to music that corresponds with my mood that would just bring me down more I would close myself off from the world not wanted to be bothered. No energy for anything though I would be swamped with everyone. The main thing that has helped me through this is you. Your videos. Your deep love for what you do and all of us. I know when 12pm eastern time comes around I can pull up the channel and there’d be a video there to bring me up from the depths of my mental state. You personally have done so much for me and we don’t know each other. The impact you have had on me and everyone else on this channel is so monumentally positive that I cannot thank you enough. I have no idea where I would be right now if I didn’t discover your channel. Thank you for bringing me up when I’m down and being there for me whenever I feel loneliest. You are NOT alone and neither am I. There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you Christian for being there for me when it feels like no one else is.
Idc if we're strangers I'll be ur bff or just a dude u can talk to , keep ur chin up love you bro no homo lol
Fruit you are amazing. Thank you for always puting a smile on peoples faces. You are such an amazing person and i am glad that i know about your youtube so i can always laugh and smile everyday. We all are here for you!
Dude we are all here for you if you need a break ever just take it I understand I have depression and it is really hard to get through but we are here for you Fruit love you Fruit :)
We here for you fruit
This is Fruit Nation and we NEED our leader go Fruit
When life gives you lemons use them for target practice (when life sucks you use them to get better and push on)
Thank you so much for this transparency. It is incredibly relatable for me and my own struggles with depression. (Yes, I am years late... I found your videos during Covid and they have been a comfort during lockdown.)
Thanks for the late night content froot!
Everyone in their life will eventually be impacted by depression whether its a family member, friend, or yourself. Its something that just can't be avoided unfortunately. Take it from someone who has lived with depression for 5 years and social anxiety and recently diagnosed with PTSD. Its a struggle but a struggle we can all overcome if we try and work together. And remember there is no such thing as too far gone and giving up is never an answer
Like myself, I am also an avid gym freak and an athlete as well who's closer to you're age (22 btw) and also someone who's been struggling with depression for years fruit. I can say that this the most relating and eye opening video I've seen on depression yet. I've tried many different medications for anti depressants , other drugs , seen different therapists and even tried getting back in touch with religion and old friends, yet depression still has its chains attached to me sometimes. .... but on the brighter side I'm also a graphic design major and I'm currently learning digitizing video game visuals and character details , and doing that and watching hours of you're videos and other content creators helps keeps most of my depression at bay ....so keep making the great content for us all struggling Mr. Fruit 🙏
Just please don't push yourself too far
hearing you speak about this gets me emotional, i have severe deppresion and anxiety and knowing others experience it too helps a little. making me know im not alone. im very bad with managing my mental health, but seeing you be able to live a fairly regular life and help others gives me hopes i can too. thank you❤
I love you Fruta. Will always be here ❤
Thank you for posting this.