I Hate Everything I Create (And That's Fine)
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- Опубліковано 16 вер 2024
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In this video we tackle all things creative. As a filmmaker and cinematographer I suffer from Imposter Syndrome, and a feeling of not belonging. Every filming project I create, I can only see the flaws. In this Filmmaking advice video I run through what can be done, that these are totally normal emotions to be feeling, and how to stay motivated to keep going!
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I just love Mumbo’s voice. Like if he had a podcast I could just listen to it for hours.
Agreed
Mumbo guest on the Spawn Chunks?
yeah sometimes I just listen to the videos
its the fact that i read the word podcast in his voice subconsciously
Yep. Really relaxing.
I actually just got out of a really bad depression because I always feel like my friends are better than me because they can do everything that I can’t but i start to realize even though they can do everything I can’t I’m still the person they always come to for help so I’ve noticed my friends value me which means I should value myself
keep strong man, hope you are doing good
Stay strong and know you are appreciated and loved
Hey .. i wished could talk to someone like you ,
Wow this is deep
Awww beautiful words !
This video reminded me of something an artist wrote on a post of theirs on Instagram, "You will always hate what you create because you are comparing it to the perfect image of it inside your head, but everyone else will love it because they see what had been created out of nothing." Or something to that effect... it has been years since I read it and it has helped me out a little bit with my own drawings.
Love your works, Mumbo. Never stop doing what you love.
That's amazing
that's a great quote, thank you
If only the latter was true. Most of us have become incredibly jaded, impressed by nothing. Creating something from nothing isn't special to us.
Let's say I'm a professional jazz composer, putting my compositional magnum opus up.
Some Katy Perry fan happens along it, and they say it's out-of-key garbage. An amateur/school jazz band musician comes along and tells me what I should've done differently. A random troll comes along and calls it "old people music" and tells me to get with the times.
This happens across all creative fields anymore. It's like people don't seek these things out to enjoy them, but rather for an opportunity to form and give their all-important opinions and criticisms, framed as facts.
Thats actually exactly how I feel about everything I do for school as well
Same
Agree much
same
Same
A wise man once said compare yourself to who you were yesterday not who someone else is today
Dude, Mumbo, this is very inspirational. And super on the nose. I have creation paralysis over and over. I can't believe how much I make and delete before I can release. I've even gone back and purged previously released videos that were actually well received, simply because I hated them so much. I always think there's something wrong with me but this video helps me see that it's normal for creators. Well done sir. :)
If you’re not embarrassed by your past self, you’re not getting better.
Very true
true
That's true
false >:)
jk
oh thats a way to look at it, thank u very very much.
It's not just creative endeavor. I've gone from 0 coding experience to a Bay Area software engineer (I live in a 3rd world country) in 3 years.
I live and breathe code and its my passion in life. Yet I constantly punish myself, seeing all the flaws in my code and in the things I do.
But like you say, it's really important to remind yourself how far you've come. Impostor syndrome both propelled me forward and destroyed me. Its something everyone needs to learn to control and balance.
Coding is definitely a creative endeavour!
But yep, agree 100%
My communications professor said to me, “We are our own worst critic, but also need to realize that not everyone is looking for each and every single flaw.”
When I saw the title I was like... WHAT?!
I wasn't because I 100% relate. I think my stuff is so incredibly cheesy that I almost hope people don't see my stuff
@@brevortofficial yea me too. I always think my things r shit to other people.
I’m an artist and can’t thank you enough for these types of videos, please keep doing them :)
I’ve learned to stop hating my own work.
Work until the video is complete, give it at most 2 polishing passes, that’s typically how I do my videos, and live with the results.
Then again, I sometimes spend 3-5 months in preproduction...
And I still cringe at the mistakes.
But I’ve learned to appreciate that I did a good job.
Yeah MKBHD talked about this on his podcast at one point. I'll paraphrase since my memory is sketchy but he was saying that he's a perfectionist and could fiddle with the final video over and over and never actually release it so sometimes you just have to say "I'll set myself 2 clean-up passes and then it's going live". He definitely mentioned that once a video is live he'll compartmentalize it from his brain and try not to think about it, instead focussing on the next project instead
At the end of the day it doesn’t matter. If you’ve done something at all that’s awesome
You're basically describing imposter syndrome, and happens everywhere. I have 20 years of experience in my field and still feel it occasionally.
There’s over 7 billion people on this earth, your probably never gonna be the best in your field, and that’s ok. Dont do what you do to become the best, do it because it makes you happy.
Nicely said 👏👏
Facts!
Thank u :))))
thats kind
And remember 1 billion is 1,000 million. That’s a lot.
I think some of the best advice I’ve ever heard about when you do things the way you’ve always done them, but you hate the results is that it’s a sign that you’re about to level-up.
Also, even if you know you’re bad, don’t be afraid. Attempt the projects that scare you and you might just find that you’re better than you thought you were
I think hearing the reality of the creative process is such a vital thing to see. We often see this incredible content (like yours) and forget that it all came from a human- an inevitably flawed human. We love your work, and we love how honest and raw you are about it. Thank you Mumbo
Me: *gets excited because Mumbo talks about knitting*
Mumbo: *shows people crocheting*
Me: *tries not to be mad because he doesn't know the difference*
I was just shocked he put knitting in it. Knitting and crocheting are my passion. To put Mumbo and knitting in same video, it through me.
Good video. Good message. 👍
As a perfectionist, I want the things that I make to be absolutely perfect, but, as much as I try, I never seem satisfied with my work. I can always find some sort of flaw in my work. Even so, I see myself improving in hobbies that I want to pursue (like art or photography). Thanks for the video. It hit pretty close to home for me :)
Well Very thing that mumbo said is true, therre will be some1 better at something then others. Its better not to compare, and celebrat the proggress You made. That is the True joy of learning and mastering
We need this video to go viral, everyone NEEDS to see this.
I love these types of contents. It pinches me to wake up and see the things that I don't usually see or think about. Thank you, Mumbo.
More regular Mumbo videos... I appreciate this.
Also anyone who loves Alfa Romeos: tell me what’s your favourite
Kill me or not but i love the newer Giulia Quadrofoglio/Gta/GtaM models, although the 33 Stradale has to be one of the most beautiful cars i've ever seen
The 4c was amazing but by far my favourite is the alfaholics GTA - R. It may be about 150k but still, Dear Santa 🤤
These videos have become my therapy-
Thank you
This is very relatable. Almost everytime I build something and people say something like ‘Looks amazing’ I think about all the little flaws. But I think the trick is to look back, just like Mumbo said. If you look back, you see progress, and that’s nice. Anyway, have a nice weekend all!
It's amazing! Why think that? I couldn't tell the difference between "the best" and your films.
I can really relate to this because while I constantly improve my video production through self criticism, I need to find a balance and maybe not be so critical of myself.
I used to watch my my old riding videos or even my current ones and find every little mistake. Then I realized, you know what? I am a good rider. I love what I do. I still have a lot of work to do but I love what I do and I stopped comparing myself to others. Thank you for this.
It also helps to look at mistakes you see in your past (or past work/projects) as learning opportunities. Said perceived mistake is either something you have already learned from or can now learn from once you’ve noticed it.
*This was so inspirational thank you Mumbo baggins*
I’m really grateful for these little sort of inspirational videos you make on this channel because it’s so nice to hear that someone I admire has the same sort of struggles when it comes to creating things that I feel
Thank you
When you see someone doing something that you cannot, it is easy to be discouraged. Sometimes you need to remind yourself to simply be inspired instead.
Edit: The biggest takeaway I want you to take from this comment is that I advise you stop regretting and start reflecting. Also, I apologise if how I say all this sounds a bit assertive, it's just that you mean so much to me, it hurts me to see you being self-critical; negativity is a bit like a hole, you'll keep falling until you grab onto a wall, and you can't get out until you start climbing. I know that the overall message of this video is to let others know that this is normal to feel, I wrote this to help you and/or others out if you ever feel this way again, I hope it does help
@Diverted Cactus Studios Thank you so much ❤️
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I was literally just watching a youtuber called I hate everything
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"The greatest friend of truth is Time, her greatest enemy is Prejudice, and her constant companion is Humility." Charles Caleb Colton
"I'm currently where I want to be when I first started." I needed to hear that. Thanks.
There's always that one detail that can't be perfected. Any kind of art projects are never finished according to that important detail.
Without hate there would be nothing to enjoy
And when there is that one thing your proud of, embrace it
If there is nothing better, there is nowhere better to go.
this reminds me of a film maker (for the life of me I dont remember which film, sorry) who told a story about this amazing shot (I think it was a longtake) where everybody was super amazed at their work, but someone during production had forgotten to remove some bubble wrapping in the background, and now, as amazing as the shot is, every time he sees it he can't help but think "that damn bubblewrap!!!"
I personally have made some projects that even years later I'm pretty proud of (in huge part thanks to the team of hardworking people that put up with my BS to come together and make it), but about 90% of projects I ever made I can't bare to look at. (and thats the ones that got made, let's not even get started on the ones that didn't make it past the concept or writing stages).
I’d say my video making today is slightly above the level I used to delusionally _think_ I was at back in high school, which is a great feeling.
Mumbo : I hate everything I make
Everyone else : R/ReLAtAbe
🅱️elatable
Like i hate my son
(This is a joke. Please read this after you read the joke. I am not a father nor in a relationship).
@@ShrikeKach0wski and I hate my dog
r/me_irl
I feel this way about myself a lot. I'm a dancer and I know I'm good and have talent but when I watch videos of myself doing choreography I feel I look stupid. I get many solo parts and am often complimented but I feel I don't really deserve it. Like you said, it's important to take a step back and look at how far you've come before you beat yourself up over where you are now. It's definitely something I still have to work on but my imposter syndrome has gotten much better over time.
I resonate so much with this video. I play the cello and went to college to study music education. My cello professor’s favorite saying was “it could always be better” which was really hard for my perfectionist brain to deal with. To help, he would try to train our brains to look at the good as well as the bad. When we would listen back to recordings of ourselves he would encourage us to pick out at least 3 good things each time. That really helped my sanity. There is so much beauty to what we do as artists. We need to make sure we acknowledge the beauty as well as the flaws because if you looked at your work with the eyes of someone who has no skill in your field, your work is phenomenal ❤️ I have loved following you for years. We are the same age and it’s been great watching someone with similar interests’ journey in such a public space. You are amazing!
...I have no words.
This is a really precious piece of advise. Thank you
The same with woodworking, my dad always says, a good carpenter isn't one that makes no mistakes, but is the one that knows how to hide them
This is a bit random, but because the screen on my phone is quite big, most UA-cam videos I watch don't quite fit the screen, but your videos on here do! And it makes me soooo happy! 🤣
This is so true, like my carvings for example, I see all the mistakes I made and all it's flaws, whereas most people don't notice it at all.
Really inspiring video over a topic I’ve been struggling with for a while! Love your films.
Aww munbo!! I love your art!! I think you are so skilled and love watching your work. 🖤🖤🖤
Wow this is rl deep, props to u mumbo I feel the same way when i train for boxing and creative activities
Spot on, Mumbo! I feel this way too about pretty much every stageplay I've ever written, especially when I listen to one being read/performed by actors. I'm cringing pretty much constantly at all the places I could have written better. So much so, that one of the ways I know I've improved is if something I wrote a long time ago feels SO cringy to me that I can't even stand to finish it! ;-D
Something I find very helpful in combating this overly-critical view of your own work is to make a deliberate effort to name/articulate what you did really well or how you improved in addition to what you could have done better. Having that more balanced view is helpful for keeping morale up, and is frankly (usually) more realistic/accurate to boot.
Also been one of my favorite sayings for like six years! Much harder to live it than to love the saying, though.
I love how, just... plainly spoken this is. And because of that, you can apply this reminder to any passion, occupation, even day-to-day life.
As an aspiring graphic designer with 3 years of experience that is struggling (with ideas) and constantly overthinks and compares himself to designers who are much better with same or less amount of experience, I needed this. Amazing video.
This actually really helps me. I'm a dancer and recently I've been feeling very discouraged that I'm no good and I'm falling behind and I'm not good enough. This reminded me that you'll allways rate yourself lower than you really are, and that you improve, even if you don't see it. Thanks so much for sharing, it really helped me.
its ok mumbo we love everything you make
I'm used to think everything I made wasn't worth posting online. Then my harddrive crashed and I lost evrything. Since then I've been posting all of my college projects online.
This perfectly describes every filmmaker and artist’s perspective of their work! Thanks for the motivational boost that I’m not alone in scrutinizing and not liking my work. Comparing yourself to your past self is the best way to see growth. Thanks for the reminder!
Saying that what you do is not good enough is good for the progress, but not for your mental health. sometimes its good for your mental health to watch lower skills worth to understand how far you came...
(Love you mumbo!!)
Good that you showed Casey in this video. He can make the most boring things very interesting, like a ticket he got for riding his bike not on the bike lane. He makes me think of you. You can also make the most boring things very interesting, things like mining for a long time in a row. So please, enjoy the things you make. Keep doing what you are doing and you will have a black belt eventually (I think you already have it).
That's how I feel when I write code. I look back at stuff I've created 3-4 months ago, maybe even a year ago. Then, I tell myself "What drunk weirdo coded this?!?!" and laugh. I then commence to rewrite it with everything I've learned since then. Optimizations, tricks, tips, etc. So I fully understand your thought process, and how it feels to compare yourself, to yourself. You do great work Mumbo, and I feel you will keep striving to improve like all the other masters.
Here's something I learned. Sometimes, the greatest artists, aren't even doing anything special, they just know how to balance everything. Sometimes, being good enough is simply all it takes to be the best. So know your worth, know how good you genuinely are, and don't be afraid to be "good enough". You'll enjoy your work much better, and you might be the best at what you do.
Even if you cringe at the thought of my compliment, you still deserve one Mumbo. Great Job bro. I find that no matter what you do in life, if you have a passion for what it is you're doing, you will always be your own worst critic. And you are right in saying it is a good thing. It keeps you striving to do better and better. Just stop from time to time to find the good in what your doing so you don discourage yourself. anyway. You are a great cinematographer dude. trust me... it looks totally professional.
There can be only one person who is the best at something, so don't fret if you're not. You might not be the best, but you're still better than the vast majority of people out there.
Strive for perfection, but be satisfied with where you are.
Bob Ross used to say something along the lines of I hope you never stop hating your work because that means you’re always looking to improve
What's good about this, is that it also mostly applies to music production as well
And we are proud of you even more. It is such a pleasure to be able to see your projects and see the never-dimnishing improvement of those awesome videos you create.
This is spot on and a great inspiration to me. I am, by my own admission a "Jack of all trades", to which anyone that knows that term, it also has the next bit - "And Master of None." I feel like in my life there is another factor in the whole thing, that the more control I have in creating, the need to change and make things better happens over, and over. I used to be musician and had a fairly good studio in my home. This is back in the truckloads of gear days. I would write a song, and with my friends in the music business, would record them. That part was loads of fun, then came mixing it and singing on it. The fact that I wasn't paying for the studio time, meant that I could endlessly redo things. But prior to that, paying for a set amount of studio time, we would go in, record and mix down and I was satisfied.
Now I am a colorist and mentor a lot of younger new colorists and the one thing I tell them is to accept that you are finished. My other hollywood friends that are masters at color grading - actually most of the time, have no choice. Budgets and time allowance in production means that they can't go over and over. So as I mentioned, they in that respect can't control the time of budget, so they accept the results. If it is in you to get better, I can't see that feeling going away. Love your view on it in this video. Thanks for making me think.
I'm pretty proud of you, too
This is such an eye-opener.
I thought there was something wrong with me because I hate all the work I do, and people tell me all the time that they like what I do.
But if people like Ben Davis still struggle with it, it means it's completely natural.
Mumbo, thanks for this inspirational video. I was just striving to be the best game dev ever. I just hated my work and wasn't that ok with it. I now know being embarrassed by your past self is not a bad thing. It's just you becoming better and you see the flaws that you didn't see before. I have to say this was the best video I have seen on UA-cam, ever.
I was literally in a slump today over how far I have to go in becoming the level of surgeon that my mentors are. Now I am super pumped to jump back in and keep studying/training. Thanks Ollie/Mumbo
This is why I watch Mumbo, today i lost a game and got a little bit bullied and getting more and more sad, but after watching this i got a lot of hope of who i am. You are a true legend.^__^
Thank you.
I have recently started offering a creativity based service and it started out really well. I enjoyed doing it for like the first few weeks but then I begin to really question my work and if what I offer is fair because of my inexperience and incapability. I've stopped looking for new clients. I take far too long to submit current projects so I can really give it my all. I fell back into some terrible habits I've tried so hard to quit.
Thank you very very much for this. It's a good reminder and I truly appreciate it.
Yes!!! Thank you for sharing this so beautifully. I too hate my creative outflow, but am also learning to acknowledge and appreciate growth and wins. You’re great!
Really love your thoughts on this. The message to only compare yourself to your past self is so important. What matters is your personal progress. Well said, Mumbo.
I feel like this is so relatable as an artists, especially someone who started it young but never was taught it by many people similar to me with tutors and lessons while I have only been learning from people I know, my own trial and error, and the internet. Especially expanding to digital art media and animation, it feels so deflating with all these amazing works and me still learning. Anyways thanks for reading my rant if you did, have a good day :).
As an artist, I typically have artworks that I was really proud of when I made them but after a couple months-- I look at them again and immediately saw some flaws. This made me realize that I continue to improve and sometimes it just catches me off guard.
repeat cycle
it's nice to hear someone talk about this and recognise the feel that so many of us have, but its ok to feel like that
Haha I feel exactly the same !! Always watching high end DPs and feel both inspired and depressed.
This certainly applies to all mediums of art, whether its cinematography or architecture or basket weaving. As a musician, I can really relate to this because a large part of my creative process is sharing my works in progress and asking for feedback. Great video!
Absolutely feel this. I feel that hate for everything creative I do, but it's mostly because I know it could've been better. It's important to mark milestones though, I still remember my first time picking up a bass, it would've been gracious to call it "fumbling". Now I can play a fair amount of songs with a decently high 90% or better, realizing that level of progress helps me keep going.
I think the fact that perfection is unattainable is a nice thing.
Because no matter how much progress you make, no matter how good you get, you'll always have that goal still right there, and it aint goin' anywhere.
Aim for perfection, and you'll never lack a goal to strive for, just remember that it is a goal, not a requirement.
Mumbo you are truly an amazing kind hearted man and I greatly appreciate this video you've put out. Im currently stuck with what I want to do in my life and because of your positivity and realism I feel this will help me at the very least work towards one big passion and see if anything evolves from that. Thank you for all of your content mumbo.
Many people often tell us not to compare ourselves, but as humans, we are always comparing and as much as we try, we will never completely stop. I like how Mumbo uses that comparing as fuel to bring his work up rather than bring it down. I think thats something we should all do :)
Mumbo you are a wonderful person in side and out don't ever change your self we all love you just the way you are.
We are proud of you too, man. Ik we are just a bunch of rando strangers are the internet but it really is inspiring watching your journey.
A wise man once told me, "You are your own worst critic". Sometimes, you have to take a step back to look at your own skill, and take appreciation in it of itself.
mumbo, I’ve recently taken up crocheting, and this really helped me appreciate the progression of my skills. thank you
THIS is - by reaaaally far - the most inspiring thing I ever got to witness in my life up until now.
So I'm not really much of a video creator but I do engage in a lot of creative activities and honestly this is so painfully relatable. Like I'll create something and maybe be proud of it for about a second then look at something someone else made and it's utterly amazing and makes whatever I made look like garbage.
This video spoke to me on so many levels, thank you so much. This helped me a lot.
"comparison is the thief of joy"
wow! what a great start to a video. Good job, it was really motivating, and I was hooked from the beginning! great job!
We love you mumbo
Inspirational Mumbo is that morning coffee
I am so glad that you love BJJ! Most people think that it is just some martial art like karate with only some applications in the real world. But in reality, it is so much more and can bring people together like your channel did to millions.
It’s really interesting listening to the journey you are on, keep striving. I tell my teenage daughters all the time to aim to better than they were yesterday.
Thanks for sticking with the 21:9 aspect ratio. Videos like this make my ultrawide worth every penny.
Who said movies are the only ones allowed to have amazing framing + colours?
It is hard on every level of life. You making videos and me being a mechanic. Even I have the same struggles trying to find a solution to a manufacturer mistake. Some times the pressure to accomplish a task with in an allotted time is near impossible. But I got to remember to breathe an clear my mind to keep a clear focus so I don’t rush an make a huge mistake. Stay humble an do the best you can do an know this is the best you can at this moment. Time brings better things and bigger success’s. An the work is never done until you say it is. Love your videos bless you brother.
I feel the same with my school coursework and practical