not that i’m anywhere - cities aviv (instrumental loop) [slowed]

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  • Опубліковано 16 жов 2024
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    #slowed #instrumental #corecore

КОМЕНТАРІ • 901

  • @gaurdionz307
    @gaurdionz307 Рік тому +884

    This song plays in my head on repeat.

  • @hydrajones
    @hydrajones Рік тому +362

    I keep listening to this song and it really reminds me of how privileged we are to be alive.

  • @earninggoblin1537
    @earninggoblin1537 Рік тому +485

    “The Pain you are going through is Nothing compared to the Joy that’s coming to you “

  • @GENOVINTY
    @GENOVINTY 10 місяців тому +231

    THE PAIN ISNT GOING AWAY🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

    • @spedupsl0w3d
      @spedupsl0w3d  7 місяців тому +25

      it’s not even seasonal depression at this point its something worse 🥲 don’t give up in life though i promise better times will come

    • @Inorepotatoes141
      @Inorepotatoes141 7 місяців тому +3

      FR🔥🔥🔥🔥🗣🗣🗣

    • @flappy4792
      @flappy4792 7 місяців тому

      @@spedupsl0w3dreal

    • @Soul.8877
      @Soul.8877 7 місяців тому +6

      @@spedupsl0w3d I feel sad and depressed but in the same time I like it

    • @BigSmoke-xh5hi
      @BigSmoke-xh5hi 4 місяці тому +1

      @@Soul.8877 bro u are me

  • @kzs-
    @kzs- Рік тому +211

    Suffering in silence.

    • @davidtasca2972
      @davidtasca2972 Рік тому +9

      real

    • @avakadopubg3534
      @avakadopubg3534 Рік тому +13

      average real writer 😂🔫 (i can't take it anymore)

    • @xr6p
      @xr6p 4 місяці тому +4

      real shit

    • @Im_Tay
      @Im_Tay 3 місяці тому

      ​@@avakadopubg3534real

    • @HISTORYGUY18
      @HISTORYGUY18 2 місяці тому +2

      aye man just know we all know what you’re going through. and we all are going through it.

  • @HISTORYGUY18
    @HISTORYGUY18 2 місяці тому +10

    this song just. takes you back to the days you want back so badly but then you realize, life will always get harder and the world only gets sadder.

  • @isaacisstoop1d
    @isaacisstoop1d Рік тому +996

    I don’t know if I am depressed or just bipolar but I’m sick of doing the same thing everyday
    edit: doing better now, i’ve been working out and making a lot of friends. I love you all.

  • @saramilene4564
    @saramilene4564 Рік тому +115

    I recently got diagnosed with schizophrenia and I don't know how to feel about it. I knew that there were a lot of probabilities of me having it because a lot of people in my family do but to hear it from an actual expert is different.

    • @avakadopubg3534
      @avakadopubg3534 Рік тому +6

      real 😂😂😂😂😂

    • @jaden7454
      @jaden7454 Рік тому +7

      as long as you take your medication you’ll be able to live a normal life

    • @johnalphaeagle5882
      @johnalphaeagle5882 Рік тому +1

      What’s it feel like

    • @prabhdeep__
      @prabhdeep__ Рік тому +2

      God Bless you I hope you are able to manage your condition well. My thoughts are with you.

    • @mattialemboluscari8774
      @mattialemboluscari8774 8 місяців тому +2

      How are you now? All good Bro?

  • @StudioTesselation
    @StudioTesselation Рік тому +700

    I’m not depressed I just like this song

    • @agrnima
      @agrnima Рік тому +11

      fr man

    • @gayslut-real
      @gayslut-real Рік тому +21

      I am

    • @drewtherockstar
      @drewtherockstar Рік тому

      @@gayslut-realwell NOBODY ASKED 😂😂

    • @Cj2raw106
      @Cj2raw106 Рік тому +2

      Oh😢

    • @WarFloppa69
      @WarFloppa69 Рік тому +16

      I already suffer from depression and anxiety. 2 months ago I got out of the psychiatric hospital and I think I'm going back. 😂😂😂

  • @emmajean920
    @emmajean920 Рік тому +268

    this song makes me feel so many things i can’t explain

  • @endythefox
    @endythefox Рік тому +61

    This song is kind of like nostalgic. Sad but happy at the same time. Bittersweet. Like remembering the good memories of the past, and it makes me smile, in a sad way.

    • @expl0rermax
      @expl0rermax 7 місяців тому +2

      It gives me different emotions and motives at the same time. I want to help everybody and be kind of useful for society, but at the same time, I realize that no one is here to do the same thing towards me, which gives me a huge frustration, but I kinda got used to it.
      I just want everyone to be happy and cheerful as well as to live in peace. That's all.

    • @lil_Migger
      @lil_Migger 7 місяців тому

      life hits u hard bro, but always remember that the amount of sadness u get will be transformed to joy and multiplied by 100%, so what I'm sayin bro is dont be lost

    • @bitesthedust8233
      @bitesthedust8233 5 місяців тому

      This gives me a feeling of my own limitations, see the interesting lives of other people, and understand that I may not find my happiness, in the end I will simply get depressed and live a boring and boring life. but it's still pointless

  • @davidmckoy7645
    @davidmckoy7645 Рік тому +106

    ykw man Im so sick of living like this wake up, school, eat, homework, tiktok, sleep. Im not happy I want to conquer myself Im tired of tiktok Im tired of all the instant gratification I want to be proud of myself man I wanna become the best version of myself
    (I will change I’ll do whatever it takes.)

    • @Nimatemes
      @Nimatemes 7 місяців тому +1

      How are you now, All good bro?

    • @lasiaf6973
      @lasiaf6973 7 місяців тому +1

      Good luck

    • @SireRaMessiah
      @SireRaMessiah 6 місяців тому +4

      i deleted tiktok and all mostly all my socials to better myself and find God.

    • @defaultuser9925
      @defaultuser9925 6 місяців тому

      ​@@SireRaMessiahHave you found yourself yet

    • @SireRaMessiah
      @SireRaMessiah 6 місяців тому

      @@defaultuser9925 yaaa i feel great. life is good when u get out there man. life is too short for u to be moping around and being depressed n shi. talk to that girl, hit that new pr at the gym, make friends at church or school, and overall realize the potential u have as a human being 🫡

  • @glx404
    @glx404 2 місяці тому +8

    bro this album is a masterpiece and it's a shame that people only pay attention to this song

    • @floatingoliver562
      @floatingoliver562 Місяць тому

      yeeaah but I'm just glad that Cities makes a big bag off the hype.

  • @rajamarjan1828
    @rajamarjan1828 11 місяців тому +55

    "what happened Rick, i thought you weren't the good guys anymore"
    Hit hard

    • @juan_villaduque
      @juan_villaduque 10 місяців тому +8

      It ain't what you said? I'm better father than you Rick, I'm better for Lori than you man, 'causd i'm a better man than you Rick.
      You just came and destroyed everything

    • @ZiuXd
      @ZiuXd 7 місяців тому +2

      ain’t that what you said even right here right now u ain't gonna fight for it

  • @ev7d167
    @ev7d167 Рік тому +30

    I do everything right. I eat right, sleep right, workout consistently, do good in school, I have money, and I’m Christian, but I’m not happy. I make my parents proud, my friends proud, I inspire my friends to do better, but I’m still not happy. I’m not depressed or anything but I just don’t feel happy anymore. I don’t even know what makes me happy

    • @RackEssy
      @RackEssy Рік тому +4

      Pray more and adopt a dog it helped me so I thought it would help you too

    • @sh3fw-eli
      @sh3fw-eli Рік тому +1

      i don't either man

    • @JosiahTshiunza
      @JosiahTshiunza Рік тому +3

      then find a reason to be happy instead of saying you don't know only you can know what truly makes you happy

    • @dolliestolethecrown5220
      @dolliestolethecrown5220 Рік тому +6

      i was exactly like this before i started to get closer w God. He will help you through this rough stage in life, i promise u. from a christian to another. i'm a month late but i hope everything is okay for you right now. just remember that it's okay to feel like this but it's not okay to dismiss it. i'll pray for you, even though i don't even know your name because God does. He recognizes this emptiness inside of you, and you recognize it too, so let him and let yourself be in His hands. He is great and can pull you out of this. He is the missing piece to the puzzle you're desperately trying to solve.
      Romans 15:13 "May God, the source of hope, fill you with all joy and peace by means of your faith in Him, so that your hope will continue to grow by the power of the Holy Spirit."

    • @YouTube_M7md
      @YouTube_M7md 11 місяців тому +1

      Try something new in your life change up your routine, doing the same exact things for a long time can lead up to depression

  • @gustavobedollam
    @gustavobedollam Рік тому +74

    It feels like I have heard this song before in my life

    • @gbepaul1598
      @gbepaul1598 Рік тому +13

      i thought it's only me, when i first heard this song it felt so familiar

    • @Outlaw4Lifee
      @Outlaw4Lifee Рік тому +4

      fr man

    • @Stevensolp
      @Stevensolp Рік тому +1

      I swear its a sample from somewhere else, I just have no clue.

    • @lil_Migger
      @lil_Migger 7 місяців тому

      u have . Its from the voices in ur head.

  • @Ivette_Bear.
    @Ivette_Bear. Рік тому +25

    Just found out that the pastors husband passed last night, i cried to this song just thinking about how he wouldn't suffer anymore.. hes in gods hands now!. Sending love to the pastor she shouldn't go through this but, its just apart of our lives..we lose someone we love..

  • @woodengirl9807
    @woodengirl9807 Рік тому +12

    you made me feel safe even when you were hurting me the most

  • @Dimitri...
    @Dimitri... Рік тому +26

    This song is always playing in my head.

  • @paws9522
    @paws9522 Рік тому +7

    spedupsl0w3d is our savior! thank you for allowing us to listen to this masterpiece

  • @silvitisnotnicewithit
    @silvitisnotnicewithit Рік тому +18

    thx to everyone that writes helpful stuff down in the comments, like "You are going to get through this" and stuff, its a cool sight to see that people try to help others, although nothing really makes me happy anymore, it can sometimes make me happy to see that there are people who care about others, not even knowing who the other person is, its really nice to see that there are people with empathy in this world, that provide something to people who dont get it, such as me, although they dont help, it just makes me slightly happy that others care about another of whom they know nothing about

    • @ayaankhan-mp5uw
      @ayaankhan-mp5uw Рік тому +1

      I care about you, and to answer your question about why you are pondering here,u are pondering because you are here for a reason, you were never a mistake, u are important, people need people who are exactly like you, u are important to me, I genuinely fell for you as a person who used to cry them selves every single night and wishing it could all end right in the morning , I wanna hear a reply from you @notahappypersonhere7881:).[ I really hope you remove the “not” from your name]

    • @andreymartinez124
      @andreymartinez124 4 місяці тому

      Just search goggins man, it'll change your life bro. Also, Jesus loves you bro.

  • @joahabybatistabrasil4423
    @joahabybatistabrasil4423 Рік тому +66

    My smile just go away after 1 second of this music.

  • @maltazar977
    @maltazar977 11 місяців тому +274

    I am better father than you Rick!

    • @ariados1720
      @ariados1720 6 місяців тому

      I am better for Lori than you man!

    • @montgomeryjacob8889
      @montgomeryjacob8889 6 місяців тому +22

      What happened rick I thought you weren't the good guy

    • @Primilious
      @Primilious 6 місяців тому +2

    • @Namedeleted404
      @Namedeleted404 5 місяців тому +11

      @@montgomeryjacob8889ain’t that what you said?!

    • @HARD-R-247
      @HARD-R-247 5 місяців тому +9

      IS THIS TWD REFERENCE

  • @urgirlbert5507
    @urgirlbert5507 11 місяців тому +14

    it’s such a serious yet so beautiful song

  • @raymondwelsbi4805
    @raymondwelsbi4805 Рік тому +51

    This song always makes me think about me life and how I shouldn't take things for granted

  • @thenicehermit5036
    @thenicehermit5036 6 місяців тому +2

    I feel like there is this feeling, always near me, sneaking up at times before bed. Like a warm blanket around you, keeping yourself melancholic

  • @skyloss2036
    @skyloss2036 Рік тому +23

    I can literally remember all my childhood while listening to this song.

  • @feco5659
    @feco5659 Рік тому +47

    This is for everyone who wants to die: Everyone will cry if you die, everyone will miss you, even if no one is in love with you, just dont do it I love you all i hope you all gonna be fine!:)

    • @ericcomentalista
      @ericcomentalista Рік тому +8

      Ain't true

    • @feco5659
      @feco5659 Рік тому +9

      @@ericcomentalista Yes it is, bro. Everyone love you. Idk who you are, but you're a good people for sure:)! Good luck for life!

    • @zykunno1336
      @zykunno1336 Рік тому

      ​@@ericcomentalistatrust me bro, it aint over

    • @antosomignore8636
      @antosomignore8636 Рік тому

      who's going to cry 😂

    • @feco5659
      @feco5659 Рік тому +4

      @@antosomignore8636 Your Mom, Your crush, Your dad, Your brother or sister, Your friends, Your grandpa,Grandma, Your dogs, cats Will be sad

  • @d3arrhys
    @d3arrhys Рік тому +186

    i need someone to run on the beach with during a sunset

  • @SporkleSiege
    @SporkleSiege 11 місяців тому +9

    “What happened Rick I thought you weren’t the good guy anymore ain’t that what you said?”

  • @mf.sikey_
    @mf.sikey_ Рік тому +8

    this song stuck in my head

    • @gaurdionz307
      @gaurdionz307 Рік тому +4

      This song plays in my head everyday. I feel miserable. Everything feels foggy, cloudy, I feel lost. I don't know. This song is playing in my head on repeat, when I sleep, when I go to school, when I'm at school, when I'm doing something. This song is simply my life.

    • @h_suah14
      @h_suah14 Рік тому

      @@gaurdionz307 real

  • @GreysAnatomy601
    @GreysAnatomy601 Місяць тому +7

    Man i just wanna be loved and be normal. I dont wanna be depressed anymore, i dont wanna skip school anymore, i dont wanna be fat anymore, i just want my old friends back. I made a mistake...and im sorry.

    • @padd0ck
      @padd0ck Місяць тому +1

      It comes with work my friend but I know you can get better

    • @GreysAnatomy601
      @GreysAnatomy601 Місяць тому

      Thank you ❤​@@padd0ck

    • @padd0ck
      @padd0ck Місяць тому

      @@GreysAnatomy601 in your troubles Christ cares. Turn to him my friend, life may be a struggle and not so much normal but that he is true love. ✝️❤️

  • @zxraiiedits
    @zxraiiedits 6 місяців тому +3

    this version of slowed, compared to all the other “extremely slowed” versions, makes me realize that this song..kinda sounds more hopeful. it shouldn’t feel like a depressing song. it feels like, if i was listening to this as i was crying, that this song would make me stop and realize that if i pray to Allah and I’m a good person I’ll get the hope and the happiness i want. it feels like a call to me, like a call saying that I’ll be ok.

  • @Noa45418
    @Noa45418 Рік тому +27

    Im not depressed, its just that this makes me cry

  • @magicalnewsmaneditsbumpers4374

    This is nice for night biking

  • @krystaIIine
    @krystaIIine 10 місяців тому +2

    this makes me cry for no reason.

  • @MelonsBizarreAdventure23
    @MelonsBizarreAdventure23 Рік тому +7

    This song hits different when slowed

  • @lakakaboy115
    @lakakaboy115 Рік тому +2

    It’s like that we’re back in our day

  • @choochcuh
    @choochcuh 10 місяців тому +6

    This is 🔥🔥

  • @martindikov6665
    @martindikov6665 4 місяці тому +1

    I searched for this for so long🙏
    Finally found inner peace😌

  • @danielpineda9067
    @danielpineda9067 5 місяців тому +6

    My name is Daniel. Throughout my life, I have struggled with weight issues and faced bullying due to my body. Thanks to my own efforts, I have managed to achieve a healthier physique. However, I have recently been neglecting my health and gained some weight due to depression. Yes, I admit it, depression. I am feeling lost and scared about the direction of my life.

    • @chriswho2569
      @chriswho2569 4 місяці тому

      Make a schedule for everyday

  • @Kombative2
    @Kombative2 3 місяці тому +1

    The joy in the future will make up for all the bad times experienced in the past

  • @pepe.detras9232
    @pepe.detras9232 Рік тому +93

    Perfecta para ver como toda tu vida pasa por tus ojos

  • @insertname7504
    @insertname7504 10 місяців тому +1

    please never ever delete this

  • @Revbladi.
    @Revbladi. Рік тому +6

    that song makes me talk with my self

  • @nowenceo
    @nowenceo 15 днів тому

    this song makes feels the good old memories.

  • @ProfessionalNerd-pn4td
    @ProfessionalNerd-pn4td Рік тому +37

    Guys, i finally got to know someone, and I've never been more alive

  • @fizzypizzel6477
    @fizzypizzel6477 Рік тому +16

    I don't know if I'm heading in the right direction in life, everything seems so foggy and I feel like its too late to catch up with everyone else. (sorry if this is cringe just need to vent)

    • @Bleck72523
      @Bleck72523 Рік тому +5

      yeah man no problm its not cringe, its ok to feel like that

  • @Dbeco
    @Dbeco Рік тому +7

    Tá ai a prova que ele não é qualquer um 💙

  • @destroylazarus
    @destroylazarus 2 місяці тому +2

    this too, shall pass.
    -King Solomon
    I hold on to that quote daily

  • @chronic5443
    @chronic5443 Рік тому +10

    The sound makes me calm , ive got every reason to lose my sanity although when i hear this sound i can breathe and clear my mind and remind myself we as humans have a gift and thats our brain a blessing or a curse for you to choose, thanks be to the all mighty father 👆💪🙏

  • @somethingasian7574
    @somethingasian7574 Рік тому +1

    yoooo this song is fire🔥🔥🔥

  • @Ghost_Samurai88
    @Ghost_Samurai88 8 місяців тому +4

    All my friends have moved to college or are pursuing their careers, im the youngest and I'm still in my senior year of highschool. I leave in June for the army and will see them even less than I do now. I have never been more alone. I have nothing, no one. I'm not even depressed, I'm just angry at my situation and have no way to change it

    • @bdrlittleman
      @bdrlittleman 8 місяців тому

      hey man. its alright. i had no idea what i was doing with my life after senior year. i tried college, but it wasnt for me. i ended up joining the navy and embracing the path and the means to my future. im glad that you chose something bigger than yourself to pursue. just hold on a bit longer, youll be through soon.

  • @Someone..00.
    @Someone..00. 10 місяців тому +2

    The voices in my head are getting louder and louder day by day.. I just want to end it...

  • @zillaman1237
    @zillaman1237 Рік тому +6

    I just miss my grandpa man

    • @arleneg3193
      @arleneg3193 5 місяців тому

      I’m scared to lose mine he already lost his hearing a little

    • @breadsticks9246
      @breadsticks9246 13 днів тому

      Same here G

  • @Cj2raw106
    @Cj2raw106 Рік тому +1

    I love thisss thank u smmm😢

  • @Banna-ig3ni
    @Banna-ig3ni 2 місяці тому +4

    Cliff ahh song🙏

  • @noescapefromblade
    @noescapefromblade 8 місяців тому

    This song perfectly conveys how I imagine all our memories play as we die

  • @thus4113
    @thus4113 Рік тому +20

    i cant stop listening even though it's so repetitive

  • @JarrettSethSorensen
    @JarrettSethSorensen 5 місяців тому +3

    My sanity is being ripped apart faster and faster 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

  • @unknown-io8kv
    @unknown-io8kv Рік тому +45

    Im not fine. I am miserable. I need help. I dont wanna die i just want to disappear

    • @hoboisaac8948
      @hoboisaac8948 Рік тому +14

      You are loved, and remember that the thing you do on this would are not eternal no matter how big the mistake you made is there’s always a way to get over it
      Idk if you wanna hear this or not but having faith in Jesus has always worked for me anytime I’m feeling depressed he always has helped me out of it

    • @tedreal
      @tedreal Рік тому

      you want to kill something inside you and fill the emptiness of your life. go do something about it.

    • @finnwise
      @finnwise Рік тому

      @@hoboisaac8948well said

  • @luiscervantes1093
    @luiscervantes1093 5 місяців тому

    When Cliff pops up in my reels with this in the background i know he’s gonna cook!✝️🔥

  • @deniskener7486
    @deniskener7486 Рік тому +7

    It's gotten so bad that i didn't even realize that i manipulate my self into think I'm absolutely nothing

  • @Forcedss
    @Forcedss 9 місяців тому

    Remember man im proud of you im happy with you.. keep chasing your dream.. even if something stop you.. Just keep chasing.. i know you can one day.

  • @Playinwitfire
    @Playinwitfire 9 місяців тому +3

    WISH I COULD JUST DROWN🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣💯💯💯💯💯🔥🔥🔥

  • @_.fr3espiritaviaton._41
    @_.fr3espiritaviaton._41 Місяць тому +1

    "Good men are defined by the choices they make" -Hesh Walker

  • @feather._.
    @feather._. 11 місяців тому +3

    everyday is the same.

  • @Cj2raw106
    @Cj2raw106 Рік тому

    I love uuu for making thiss😢

  • @-chrizo-3720
    @-chrizo-3720 Рік тому +13

    I dont feel no need for shcool, money, economics. I just want a good future with a good home, and someone to love man. Im so tired of everything.

    • @fizzypizzel6477
      @fizzypizzel6477 Рік тому +2

      Same here.

    • @-chrizo-3720
      @-chrizo-3720 Рік тому

      @@fizzypizzel6477 fr man.

    • @passthebleach9745
      @passthebleach9745 Рік тому +3

      Hate to break it to you but you can't have those things while simultaneously not caring about money/school. You need to work hard to earn a nice home and a loving partner, yeah I get that society sucks but there's nothing we can do about it, just do the best you can with what you have.

    • @dethvrtx
      @dethvrtx Рік тому +2

      Focus on yourself, not others expectations of you but just on what you want. Your goals, ambitions, and how you want to live life. If you constantly have the desire for something but do not put in the work, did you truly deserve it? Take steps to living a life you know you can take pride in. Don’t live a meaningless life you’ve already gone through.. there’s a reason you’re tired of this, because you realize it’s a waste. Take care, and remember you live for yourself not for others. Comparison is the thief of joy.

    • @-chrizo-3720
      @-chrizo-3720 Рік тому

      @@passthebleach9745 ❤️

  • @OP-Razvan
    @OP-Razvan 9 місяців тому +1

    Cliffe owns this song tbh

  • @Unkownperson222
    @Unkownperson222 Рік тому +6

    Always will love this song

  • @FFIVE_ST4R
    @FFIVE_ST4R Рік тому +1

    One word will change someone's life

  • @seg_fault884
    @seg_fault884 Рік тому +5

    "you can't keep anyone safe, can you?"

  • @IRABECAUSEYES
    @IRABECAUSEYES 8 місяців тому +2

    Finnaly I found this song

  • @kitheguy5450
    @kitheguy5450 Рік тому +4

    I just want to be loved 😞😔

  • @Dimitri...
    @Dimitri... 9 місяців тому +1

    If I were a song I would definitely be this one... 💯💯

  • @shayan8412
    @shayan8412 4 місяці тому +4

    I don't wanna live in a hole anymore...

  • @loverboy20120
    @loverboy20120 7 місяців тому +1

    God is who we can always trust

  • @ImEmptie
    @ImEmptie Місяць тому +4

    man I’m so fucking done how many girls gotta break my heart before I go heartless.

    • @Micheal_stone
      @Micheal_stone Місяць тому

      Jesus is the only hope man

    • @ImEmptie
      @ImEmptie Місяць тому

      @@Micheal_stone no he’s not he’s a prophet

    • @padd0ck
      @padd0ck Місяць тому

      @@ImEmptieJohn 10:30 my brother. I’m praying you feel better and are able to find joy.✝️❤️

  • @haitam6533
    @haitam6533 9 місяців тому +2

    She will never leave you trust me 🪽🐒

  • @heyimgianna1350
    @heyimgianna1350 Рік тому +5

    ''i dont know how i feel like. i dont know who i really am. am i a normal person? or am i not? am i different from people or am i just overthinking? do i really care about how people feel about me? what is my real self? what is the real me? do i have a real personality? did i finally lose myself? how do i feel like? i hate being pitied. i dont know if i can be every type of person i want. i dont know anything. i dont even know anything about myself. i dont even know anything about my feelings. do i really dont feel anything or do i feel every emotion possible. i had never acted like my real self. would people like me if they saw who i really was? do i actually have a real self? i dont think that im depressed or suicidal or anything so why do i feel like this? i dont know if im depressed or have anxiety. i hate expressing my real feelings. do i have real feelings? i had been mirroring peoples personality and all just to be loved and i didnt even get the love i deserved. i love observing my friends reaction so i can copy their reaction because i dont know how to react. am i really dumb or is it just the personality im using right now? am i a cruel person to use people just to dont look ''lonely'' i dont really care about being alone i just dont want people to see me being alone and pity me. i only have friends so i dont look ''lonely''. why do i care about the stuff people thing about me? do people even thing about me? i want people to care about me, i just want to be noticed. the only thing i want in this world is to be loved. its not like im a ''hopeless romantic'' or something like that. i just want to see if there would be a boy who would like me. confess to me and love me. i dont really love boys or anything. to realize no one actually sees me as a important person. they dont care and i care too much. but no one really knows how i truly feel and they dont care. not like i know how i feel.'' Anyways. this was my first time expressing my ''feelings'' this is usually what i think in my mind when i think about my feelings. I dont know if this is truly how i feel. I dont even know if i just lied to myself about my feelings. I dont really care if people really reads this and if u just readed this please dont pity me. I didnt delete this because i want to see reactions. I normaly woudnt even wright or say anything like this cause people would pity me and look at me with sad eyes. But would they? Would they even care? I just want to see if anyone cares. Anyways if you actually readed this (u prob didnt) im gonna say again but please dont pity me. I dont think i had any traumas or anything and i dont if this is just bc i grow up and this is normal. Im 13 and i dont see my past self like me anymore. I dont really remember if i always copied peoples personalitys or it just started. If yall tell me to go to a therapist i would prob lie to them cuz i dont wanna get pitied, i dont know how i truly feel and i woudnt want anyone to know abt my real feelings. I have been feeling like this for a while know or am i just dramatic abt it? I just care abt what ppl think abt me too much. Anyways if u readed this actually or just skipped to this part ily. Bye bye and please tell me if u know how i feel and if u fell like this. I usually woudnt wright this cuz i dont wanna be pitied but anyways i think i keep saying the same things. Anyways i hope my comment doesnt get popular and people dont see. I said bye and still didnt stop typing cuz i know no one would actually read this. Well i have more things to say but if theres a person who actually readed this might be annoyed so im not gonna talk more. BYEEEEE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND TAKE CARE OF YOUSELF :3 (this was so hard to comment because this was the first time i expressed my feelings even tho its little)

    • @heyimgianna1350
      @heyimgianna1350 Рік тому

      i forgot to comment this but to realize i actually love people pitying me so times. because it feels like they care. but i hate when i fall or sum like that and they just stare while looking sad.

    • @somethingasian7574
      @somethingasian7574 Рік тому

      Holy shit

    • @somethingasian7574
      @somethingasian7574 Рік тому

      You good?

    • @somethingasian7574
      @somethingasian7574 Рік тому

      We can talk about it if you want I'm open

    • @bruhidfk02
      @bruhidfk02 Рік тому

      You say that you don't want anyone to pity you but the more I read your message it sounds like your begging for someone to pity you or be there for you

  • @STUTTGARTBROTHERSWORLDWIDE
    @STUTTGARTBROTHERSWORLDWIDE Місяць тому +2

    You've let us down kid...we had big aspirations about you.
    This is what you repay us with ?
    *FALL*

  • @RoxTakes
    @RoxTakes 4 місяці тому +3

    This song feels like limbo.

  • @Inorepotatoes141
    @Inorepotatoes141 7 місяців тому +2

    nah but fr though it feels like I've ruined myself with my own lies. like I lied about so many things to keep people happy and not concerned but in the end it ended up making things worse. yknow during this horrible journey I somehow got a girlfriend right? and I love her, she's so nice easy to talk to and pretty and she always cared about me but idk the longer and longer it went on for somehow I felt even more lonely? she's really busy all the time and I know she's not lying but sometimes my mind twists that into a ''I don't want to see you'' vibe so then I keep on thinking she just doesn't have any interest in seeing me anymore. and then I start to dig around thinking why they don't want to see me like ''am I not attractive?'' ''is it something I did or do?'' ''was it something I said?''
    and slowly but surely I become even more insecure about all those things thinking they are the problem. and as a result of this I start to feel increasingly more lonely. it's funny I dream about being around or hanging out with her and I usually don't remember my dreams but even the slightest bit of human affection or touch, and I won't stop thinking about it.
    For a brief period of time, about 2 months I had pretty much conquered the urges of suicide and self harm. But they came back. And I'm trying to fight them but they keep getting stronger. I just wish she had the time to see me.

  • @MiniMillieEmo
    @MiniMillieEmo 9 місяців тому +3

    Real.

  • @Merkdud
    @Merkdud 7 місяців тому

    I cant this anymore.

  • @c0rru9t3d6
    @c0rru9t3d6 Рік тому +5

    Pouring concrete at 2 am listening to this and wondering why I’m slaving myself when all these other people get things handed on a silver spoon

    • @nb99z
      @nb99z Рік тому +4

      Just the way of life my friend, the whole system is messed up. The one thing we can look forward to is having everlasting life in GODS kingdom, remember this temporary life we live is nothing compared to eternity, stay safe friend :)

  • @Inorepotatoes141
    @Inorepotatoes141 7 місяців тому

    THE FEELINGS ARE BACK 🗣🗣🗣🔥🔥🔥🔥

  • @syinari8266
    @syinari8266 Рік тому +8

    Fuck that shit I just wanna go home now bro .

  • @elliotisntaperson1606
    @elliotisntaperson1606 Місяць тому +1

    Thinking about 2023 study abroad, how lonely I was. Interesting times.

  • @constantinonapa3993
    @constantinonapa3993 Рік тому +4

    This song makes me remind on my dead friend.....

    • @feco5659
      @feco5659 Рік тому +2

      I just remember my dead grandpa and my dead dad. I love them but they are all passed away.. Im only 12

    • @razingfire_19_19
      @razingfire_19_19 Рік тому +1

      Im so sorry to hear that man, I know that type of stuff can really hurt at a young age. Stay strong bro 🫡🙏

    • @feco5659
      @feco5659 Рік тому +1

      @@razingfire_19_19 thx bro🫡

  • @Dbzm-speak
    @Dbzm-speak 6 місяців тому +2

    Um grito tem mais de 1000 palavras de sofrimento.

  • @jhoaoraul9640
    @jhoaoraul9640 10 місяців тому +5

    sus latidos se escuchaban mientras un silencio me invadía por dentro , el rico aroma de su cabello aun no sale de mi mente mientras acariciaba su pelo quería parar el tiempo, me cuestionaba en mis adentros ,quería que fuese eterna esa felicidad ,aquellos suspiros quedaron grabados en mi mente en una noche fria e incurrente ,ella y yo

    • @Lemon-kw8iu
      @Lemon-kw8iu 10 місяців тому +1

      beautiful words, i still remember her aroma too

    • @jhoaoraul9640
      @jhoaoraul9640 10 місяців тому +1

      ​@@Lemon-kw8iuestar con ella era una sensación única ,el tiempo pasaba demasiado rápido

  • @t_ye.
    @t_ye. 10 місяців тому +1

    "It will be over soon.. Stay strong.."

  • @faviyanmustafiz9702
    @faviyanmustafiz9702 Рік тому +14

    if you're having a bad day, its to say fuck it and laugh ig

    • @pixelcat4593
      @pixelcat4593 Рік тому

      It is what it is

    • @breezy4656
      @breezy4656 Рік тому

      real

    • @-mamo-8340
      @-mamo-8340 Рік тому +3

      Just remember, if you're having a bad day, it's just a day being bad, there's always a tomorrow, keep on going and stay strong

    • @elijahjohnson4666
      @elijahjohnson4666 Рік тому

      Fr

  • @noxplay4906
    @noxplay4906 9 місяців тому +1

    Cliff Knechtle owns this song

  • @Martyrdomministries
    @Martyrdomministries Місяць тому +3

    Jesus is our only hope

  • @lthatchx1370
    @lthatchx1370 4 місяці тому

    everytime this song starts playing my mouth drops and i start staring at some point of the wall while tears come out of my eyes, and i swear i don't know why

    • @amirtemur6872
      @amirtemur6872 3 місяці тому

      And try to distract yourself playing games or watching movies like the walking dead never give yourself to negative things bro if you gave yourself to negative feelings you’ve lost yourself even you lost yourself try to get up and come like strong yourself

  • @Aj.350
    @Aj.350 11 місяців тому +9

    "Glass aint dangerous until its broken." "Real ones would chose you over they girl" "Single today, Single tommorow, Shi might be single forever its hard to find real love in this generation" "I may be ugly or not known, but i still have a good heart in a fucked up generation" "You cant get up if you aint down"

  • @Chuscopez
    @Chuscopez 8 місяців тому +2

    ''La mayoría de las veces, el problema no es que los problemas que enfrentamos no puedan resolverse, el problema es que tenemos tanto miedo al fracaso que nos negamos a ver nuestros problemas desde una nueva perspectiva. Y entonces hacemos las mismas cosas una y otra vez. Y ahí, por supuesto, encontramos exactamente el fracaso que buscábamos. Tu vida siempre será una lucha y siempre tendrás problemas.''
    -Superliminal (Dr. Glen)