My relationship with meth/ crystal/ tina:

[@user-hj4bg6fn4y]

I abuse tons of different drugs as a daily user but I don’t tell absolutely anyone at all. I hold down a job, a rental cabin, etc. It’s been 2 yrs of this n I’m ready to quit. Thank you for sharing and motivation. :)

[@nikangel5362]

I hope you do, your in my prayers! You don't need it. Fentanol Is going around these days in drugs. Be safe

[@bernadetteallen6955]

There are so many "functional addicts" You are NOT alone!

[@iwatchtoomuchtruecrime]

Sending you so much love ❤️

[@W33ND3X_W1LCOX]

good for u bro. I really applaud those who can really do ANYTHING and keep everything else in check so drugs, booze, woman/men, WHATEVER. It shows great mental fortitude. Now u had ur time, ur ready to get out, and u acknowledge that. I have no doubt u’ll succeed in this endeavor. 👍🏽👍🏽

[@fromcompulsiontoconsciousn5862]

Please try not to look at drug from a should/ shouldn’t point of view. Wether you believe it or not, the drug is helping you to cope with life. There are certain internal needs you are not able to provide for yourself and the drugs are the mental crutches which help you to cope. And yes we all know it’s bad for you and you should stay away. But to recognize the drug as a coping mechanism helps me to realize that I do not need to live in shame and isolation because I needed it.
There are reasons why you abuse drugs. Try to reflect on your life and see what are you NOT trying feel by using drugs? What are the missing pieces in your life that urgently need your attention? Once you find the missing pieces and try to attend to them, drugs will naturally have less and less hold on you.

[@cook.b6285]

Addiction counselor from new england here. Methamphetamine is just starting to make its boom here. Thank you for the videos. People need to hear the sexual danger of methamphetamine use. I wish you the best in your recovery and life in general! Keep that strength youve been showing us that you have

[@joywebster2678]

That'd be a re boom. Many Americans post Vietnam used meth casually every morning to gain energy to do their phyiscal jobs. Then the returning soldiers were often addicted to a variety of drugs to cope with Viet Nam. So I'm not sure why a drug counselorcwould saybitsxnew to New England.

[@cook.b6285]

@@joywebster2678 because it wasnt really around until the last year out here. Like very scarce. Mainly coke/crack. I was never seeing it when i was in active addiction and rarely, if ever, saw people coming into rehabs i was in throughout the years prior to 5 years ago for it. And then my first year-2 years working in treatment. This is a year old comment and now i have them come in aaaalll the time for meth. you must not be from new england. Its officially prevalent here.

[@samsalamander8147]

I’m from Mass and a long time ago I knew people who were in the mafia in RI and they actually told me they do everything they can to keep meth out of New England but they also told me it was hard because people can just make it in thier houses in small batches it’s not brought in through imports like other drugs. It’s seems to me they are losing the battle now. I have personally seen it used in the past couple years. When I was an addict 15 years ago it was unheard of, it was super rare! People in my area smoked crack but never meth until recently. I have never done it myself but I know exactly what it feels like because I was on every single add medication ever and one of the first was Dexedrine that’s basically pure speed or methamphetamine, and I was like a small child. I hate the way tht class of drugs makes me feel. I was always more of a downer girl in my addiction, I used to smoke crack sometimes when I was drinking especially but it wasn’t really my thing as much as dope/heroin was but luckily I got clean before fentanyl was around because most of my friends didn’t and they are all dead now.

[@williamdon3442]

It’s bad here in Saskatchewan, Canada. Fent is really popping up. When I was in the Yukon it started out as smack than fent. Now back in Saskatchewan it’s fent

[@Tinylittledansonman]

Ah a rookie. Let me help you speed run this. Basically just legalize and regulate all drugs. Overdoses drop as well as harmfull drug use. No one touches things like meth, heroin, pcp etc once things like LSD, psilocybin, and cannabis are legal.

[@Princess-Jellyfish]

was randomly recc'd your video in the hospital, had to see if you were doing better. Happy to see you thriving, wishing you the happy life you deserve

[@elainew2230]

same... not sure why I was recommended that video. I assumed he'd be paralyzed for life. So happy that he's much better now.

[@AudreysBrains]

@@elainew2230 We can’t see his legs in this video- it makes sense that he can still use his hands with a T8 level spinal cord injury

[@frannyy9309]

You explain it really well. It takes years from drug abstinence for the brain to heal and learn to not crave drugs.

[@deez2569]

I respect your honesty so much and you are an amazing person for sharing this! Congratulations and keep on keeping.🖤

[@24tommyst]

Good to see you better! You're the first person I've heard who used like I did. I had a corporate IT job, car, condo, etc and would only use meth for sexual reasons on days off, holidays, etc every few months. Keeping that secret was so isolating and shameful to me and I don't wish those feelings on my worst enemy. Most people I knew just did it all the time and didn't care about keeping up appearances, which I honestly respected in a way. Anyways, thanks again for sharing. I feel a bit less lonely now.

[@candilease938]

I’m curious….did it make you feel more sexual in a sense? A more sexual being? Make u feel sexy? What was the cause ? Does the drug make u feel more confident and not care about ur appearance ….?? So in turn you’re able to be a more sexual being?

[@24tommyst]

@@candilease938 More confident, not really. It just makes you able to have sex for HOURS if not days. Give you both the drive and physical ability to go that long. It's a very scary thing. Just imagine the horniest you have ever been and then multiply that times at least five. Then imagine you have no need for sleep, food, etc. Then imagine you can restrain from cumming for hours no matter how good it feels. That about sums it up...

[@fromcompulsiontoconsciousn5862]

@@candilease938 yes it definitely has that effect, at least for me. It can turn off many voices in my head and just focus on sex. No doubts, no hesitations, no shame, no body image issues, just sex!!! You can see how powerful it may be for someone who has those issues.

[@fromcompulsiontoconsciousn5862]

Hello Tommy, I know exactly how you feel. Living a double life with two identities. Trying to balance between obligations and desires can be a very tricky thing over time. Instead of telling you what you should and should not do, I want you to know that there are certain internal needs within you that for some reasons you are not able to attend to them. The drug on the other hand, helps you cope without attending to those needs. As time goes on this behavior becomes addiction and people blame your life choices as if it’s something you can easily choose not to do. It’s not that simple!!! It has a hold on you because it helps you without you knowing it. Ask yourself, what am I trying NOT to feel by using the drug? If you can find the missing pieces and attend to them appropriately , then drugs hold on you will be less and less. Once I was at a point where I wasn’t able to be sexual without meth but that was not freedom, it was my coping mechanism. Do you want a life of freedom or a life with debilitating drug crutches?

[@madmartigan1634]

@@fromcompulsiontoconsciousn5862 Were you able to find those feelings you were trying not to feel?

[@jonathanhartgrove698]

Thank you so much for sharing your story! I too used meth to fill that lonely feeling and boost my self esteem. As a gay man, I never felt I was attractive enough and meth changed all that. It also ruined my life. I've been clean 18 months now, and things are improving everyday.

[@TanzytheglowupG]

Proud of u!!! Good job and please keep going .I ll send a prayer up for your strength 💪 🙏 ✨ ❤ 🙌

[@CharlotteRothmeier]

Well....you just woke me up...been hiding in my appartement for 30 years due to complex ptsd, never pushed myself, got early retirement over 15 years ago and I dont have a life at 44, just sit at home and watch Netflix and the same patern you have
At some point my outside will match my inside 2, I knew it you just reminded me and woke me up
Thank you very much
Greetings from Denmark
I also self medicate but i will stick to joints,I used benzodiazepines be2 to the point of dosing myself 80 times the recommended dose, cause I feel i cant life in this body

[@melodybrookeboyett175]

Much love ✌️💜💜💜

[@Sandra-ww6oz]

Charlotte I also have PTSD and have been struggling for 2.5 years and understand your pain and heartache. I feel like a broken mirror - that my life and brain are fragmented and I wonder if I will ever feel like a ‘real’ person again. I don’t have any real solutions for you or myself for that matter but please don’t think you are ever alone, that in Sydney Australia there is someone who is thinking of you, praying for you and wishing you well on a daily basis. 💗🤗🙏☮️🌺🐨🇦🇺

[@CharlotteRothmeier]

All the best from Denmark 💚 I know my complex ptsd will never go away, it's part of my personality cause my main trauma was my entire childhood, therefore my personality didn't have room to grow into what is was meant to...but its ok, I don't know any other way

[@karendalsadik7119]

@charlotte Rothmeier, I’m in the same boat. I started working 20 hours a week from home. However, I hate going out and many times can’t deal with the general public anymore.

[@fromcompulsiontoconsciousn5862]

It breaks my heart to read your story. Trust me, I have also been there and I know how it feels to be living in the bottom of the well. I do not know what happened in your childhood but what’s done is done. We cannot change the past but we can try to heal those open wounds from the past. Once healed, you can walk this life with a little bit less effort and a bit more strength. I learnt this from my spirit coach and can share with you if you want. You can reach me from Instagram alex_nie

[@candilease938]

To look at this man you would never assume he was a drug user!! Drugs do not discriminate.
God bless you and thank you for sharing your stories with the world I will promise u that you’re helping and inspiring many many people!!

[@c.b.5535]

I'm so glad you made it out of the hospital. It's so good to see you looking healthy.

[@susanhenke8441]

This is very interesting, my friend also had drug addiction to meth later diagnosed ADD/ADHD. Many drug users and have ADHD and not know it. Stay positive

[@voltatech7772]

Hope they are taking high dose Vitamin B complex. So good for the brain and nervous system and ADHD. A persons body with ADHD doesn’t assimilate it well. Best to you...

[@MonaYY_Rig]

Ty Alex for sharing this very important message. So glad you are well. You look great. Best wishes from Texas 🙏🏻💜

[@mallorytaylor6203]

Hi handsome!! I’m ecstatic to see how far you’ve come! Your transparency is incredibly refreshing. Thank you! I too struggled w/ drug use (opiates) and used to feel such shame exposing it publicly. However, videos like yours fuel my strength to share as I’m not alone. It’s therapeutic to expose my past bc it takes A LOT of the weight off that I continue to feel burdened by. The shame I’ve felt is crippling and I isolated from family and friends for this reason. Sending you endless hugs and prayers! ❤️❤️

[@addiegraves3]

Thank you for sharing your story, You're spot on finding the reason for drug use is the first step to recovery, You're a bright, beautiful, and well spoken, brought me to tears when you were talking about feeling alone. sending love to you

[@kristinesanta6971]

👋 Hello! Nice to see you. Glad you are sober. Keep it up! It's so much better. I have 7 years from alcohol and it was THE best thing I ever did! God bless you and prayers also!! 🙏 🥰

[@michaelconnolly931]

9 and a half years free from alcohol.
We do it one day at a time.
Well done and best wishes.

[@MissUnderstoodasAlways]

133 days off meth. Congrats to everyone celebrating recovery 🙏🏽

[@carynmartin6053]

Your story is opening so many eyes to this issue! Thank you for your honesty 🙏 You have found your greater purpose in life 🙏 ✨ ❤

[@beeiz5656]

I wish you much wellness! You have made incredible progress!

[@cindycardoza4717]

Omg hello I’m so happy to see you I’m FRM Dallas Tx USA your story inspired me you are so Brave Just listening to you brings me Joy👍🏼❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@gpants3633]

With a little fine tuning and speech “coaching”, you would be a dynamic speaker at conferences in the addiction and psychology field. Your honesty, intelligence and self reflection is fascinating to listen to. I wish you Godspeed in your further recovery.

[@richardhenry1969]

I've never messed with meth but I did destroy my life with heroin.
I know the strength it takes to tell everyone.
I've been clean now for years. The one thing I've learned from years of rehab and the revolving cycle of addiction. No scare is enough to stop it.
I hope you find something in your life you find joy in. That is the only thing that helped me. I turned my life to martial arts.

[@shannonly23]

You look wonderful!!! Thank you for sharing your experience. You will likely save at least one persons life. Stay strong and keep going. Sending love from Minnesota!!

[@jenniferrsmith2012]

I’m so happy to see how well you are. You are beautiful. You look so healthy. ❤️

[@misswiredatruecrimepodcast1456]

God Bless you ❣️keep thriving! You are a beautiful soul and helping many people with your truth!

[@purrfectnails2473]

You really give a great perspective on how you used drugs because you were longing for connection, and I've heard people say that before, but your personal experience gives me better understanding. I was addicted to marijuana for 6 years and I experienced the exact same thing. I loved connecting with other people to smoke it, and smoking it alone also kind of gave me what I was longing for. So much of what you said was very relatable.

[@deez2569]

Okay. I don't know how to say this, but...it is extremely disrespectful to compare marijuana to ANY other drug experience. Please just don't.

[@tina_marie80]

@@deez2569 Addidtion is addiction. It doesn't matter if its weed, dope, coke, meth, sex, food, gambling, etc. There's an OCD component to addition and the same part of the brain is impacted. You sound ignorant telling someone not to compare weed to meth. That person commented to make a point and you missed it. Educate yourself.

[@user-qq7pg6xe5v]

@@deez2569 not true. I’ve withdrawn from 15 fentanyl pills a day cold turkey and I can say weed is a challenging drug to quit and can have detrimental affects on someone’s life if they are dependent on it to function

[@user-qq7pg6xe5v]

I’m off fentanyl but still smoke weed and I wish I wasn’t so dependent on weed but I am.. it comes down to the pain we are in and if we use weed to stop pain then when it’s gone, well, the pain comes back so yes weed withdrawal + the pain we used weed for mixed with a psychology addiction is a perfect storm for depression and other things .. weed is a much more potent drug than people give it credit for especially with the high percentages of thc that it’s at today

[@deez2569]

@@user-qq7pg6xe5v Respectfully, I disagree strongly.

[@maxmoovin]

So glad you are up and walking, living life again to the fullest. My fun and very gay cousin 'Donald' had HIV too and before medication was available or approved by FDA, Donald succumbed to Aids from sharing needles in 1990. I see your skin glowing. I'm sure you are managing your life quite differently since paralysis. Blessings brother.

[@HenritheHorse]

Fauci was one of those people that pushed his friends deadly hiv mediction on market and prevented the ones that ended up saving lives.

[@mattkaz9604]

In my 20's I had some pretty big party nights/ weekends/ weeks. I'm glad that that was years ago and meth wasn't around me much, as I suspect I would have gone crazy on it if I'd started. Glad you are in a better place - I just stumbled on your video from the hospital bed and had to find a more recent video to see if you were better and it seems to be the case. Well done, keep it up.

[@moonshine394]

(YOU ARE PERFECT) I love the authenticity of your story I hope you are recovering from your injury God 🙌 bless Cali Girl

[@blackdove8809]

i love your energy. it seems so pure

[@lizzysimner7715]

You look truly amazing very lovely guy I hope you get back on track with life and Thankyou for warning others about the dangers of meth learn to forgive yourself and move on to find a happy fulfilling life

[@michaelconnolly931]

No shame!
It sounds like you really have put a lot of thought into this video.
You are so right talking about the need for human connection and loneliness.
You are out of that ditch now you have stop digging.
I like the fact that you said you had to go on this journey.To get to where you are now.
It’s important to have compassion for yourself.
Remember HALT.
Hungry
Angry
Lonely
Tired
You are in the solution today.
You may save a life with your sharing of your story.
Your honesty is inspiring!
Thanks for sharing.
X

[@MissUnderstoodasAlways]

Beautifully said 🙏🏽

[@cindycardoza4717]

Perfectly said Best Comment for sure Wow😊👍🏼❤️💪🏼👌🏼

[@jonholmes6551]

Yes there is shame, and embarrassment, and lies and the list goes on. It's very important to remember those things. Putting it all out there is part of recovery and an important step. Moral inventory

[@crystal3160]

Thank you for telling your story. You’re brave for sharing and I hope your spinal injury is healing!

[@brittaolson6550]

I was just watching, “Crystal City.” Great doc! Thank you so much for sharing some of your experience. I’ve been through the sadistic SW PNP scene and I still struggle with the aftermath and yet, somehow, still get drug cravings. It has gotten so much better in long term recovery. You are SO right…the shame and isolation really keeps us trapped in our addiction. When we start speaking our truth and find there are people who don’t reject us, the need to use can just evaporate. It’s crazy to find there are so many people who have hidden themselves behind drugs. We have all been hiding, together, all along. It is very difficult in the pandemic, though, to maintain connection. Thanks again! I’m subscribing and hope to hear more from you. 😊

[@allegorx58]

there is only THE truth.

[@alobo9937]

Thank you. 😊 I was always curious to why people chose meth. You break down the effects of it so well. I now have a clearer understanding of it therefore can deepen my compassion for those who are dealing with the addiction. 🙏🏽✨

[@livinglife9406]

So glad to see him SMILING 😃

[@SarahAngelOchoa]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience! You touched on some amazing points and brought up some ideas that I had not thought of, I have 2 1/2 years sober, addicted to Meth for well over 20 years. You are spot on when you speak of the not knowing how to cope with loneliness reaching for drugs to alleviate the desire for human connection. Please keep sharing your story

[@Ninabnina711]

Alex are you able to walk now? Happy to see you're doing better after the accident and injury.❤

[@fromcompulsiontoconsciousn5862]

Yes I am able to walk, I can try to jump but not very high hahaha. Still have tightness in my right leg but it will go away completely soon. Thank you for asking

[@Ninabnina711]

@@fromcompulsiontoconsciousn5862 ❤

[@fearlessmasters6678]

Thank you for sharing! You are helping others with your story and I admire your strength and courage. I’m following you on YT and I’m encouraging you with your positive goals because you are inspiring many! Sending you love, positive vibes and prayers🙏🥰

[@robbiePlanetaSano]

I was addicted to MDMA, I found it again at 60 years of age. Alcohol and mdma was a disaster. I ended up leaving both almost 2 years ago.
What woke me up was getting beat up by my neighbors, because I threatened them with a machete.
Leaving mdma was the hardest drug I ever quit. I had a month in hell waiting for my brain to heal so I could function again. No endorphins or positive brain chemicals …
I see you are physically recovering from the last video I saw of you.
So happy to hear your story , thank you for sharing ❤️ best wishes in your recovery ❤️

[@haveagoodday5737]

You're such a beautiful human I'm so happy you're doing better 🥰

[@nikangel5362]

I use to be a meth abuser too! It goes hand in hand with sex, then you feel shameful of yourself. Paranoid and dirty. I'm so glad I'm off of it and don't have to keep my life a secret anymore. So scared to try it again, cause fentanol Is in a lot of drugs now a days, and people are dying from it. It's so sad. Oh by the way, congrats on your recovery. 🙏🙏

[@anonymousfx486]

That's another thing.... Fentanyl is in a lot of stuff now... it's like Russian roulette with your life. Scared me straight.

[@BoringTroublemaker]

“Paranoid and dirty” that hits the nail right on the head

[@nikangel5362]

@@BoringTroublemaker yeah unfortunately, it does! 🙏💗

[@nikangel5362]

@@anonymousfx486 yes me too! Not worth it! 🙏

[@janycebrown4071]

Grateful that you are doing well 💙
Sending you love from Canada 🇨🇦❤

[@alipas89.]

I've been clean from IV heroin fent cocaine pills since July 25,2018 I'm proud of you

[@josephvargas3733]

You are so well spoken and interesting to listen to. Sometimes we are our own enemies and I can relate to your feelings. Just keep in mind that many people suffer these issues. I wish you the best and I hope you work on yourself because I see a beautiful soul.

[@abbycatlover2013]

I admire your pure honesty. It really will help with others in a similar situation. Stay Strong 🥰

[@jafa8697]

ace!! just subbed im a methadone and diazepam addict everything is exactly how u said it, its about building a support network that has the key withinit, variety is the spice of life, we are chemical beings my friend we exist in a constant state of reraction acient tibetan manadlas taught me that, im not ashamed of my out burst uses of drugs, i know i have to stop but as u said its the only fix in the current climate untill u find the the same chemical output from something natural, as u do with drugs u will always be damaging urself, untill u have little bits dont be greedy ennit :) u look amazing now! are u on ur feet?
love from uk
Jay

[@deez2569]

You're quite a fascinating person!

[@jafa8697]

@@deez2569 theank you mate, strange to some crazy to many were all valid, im sure you have an interesting story aswell man.

[@deez2569]

@@jafa8697 I'm writing my stories down now, don't know what I'll do with it but it feels good to put it on paper, kinda therapeutic. I don't mind being the weird friend, lol😏

[@Myha.Cherie]

So pleased and relieved to see you doing well!!

[@Lena-uh3ky]

Happy to see y t great! What a relief 🙂❤️

[@digitaltrain]

I have watched this again for a second time.I am so happy to see you are still progressing.I am ten years plus away from my last alcoholic drink.you are carrying a powerful message about connection.
stay strong.
X

[@sherylcrowe3255]

Thank you for sharing your journey 💕

[@tschandraheinze1680]

Happy to see you recovering and finding yourself again. Being so blunt and outspoken is so brave. Hope the best for you life truly can be such a beautiful amazing place. Love yourself always. Good for you.

[@heathertaylor8904]

I'm so thrilled to see you've healed so well!! ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 keep exploring yourself. That's what life is truly about! Exploring yourself, others, and this beautiful world while we're here! Much love!!

[@anonymousfx486]

I used to slam meth and heroin but I have one year and three months clean and I can tell you I don't crave it as much after all this time away from it. Whenever the thought creeps up of maybe using I remember the crash and racing heart and loneliness and shame...even suicidal depression it was so bad and scary. I HATE THE DRUG more than anything in this world. Replace with exercise and socializing with sober people and connection is KEY. Keep doing what you are doing it's the only way to not live a tortured drug existence.

[@moonprincess8934]

thank you for sharing your experience. i love your self awareness and how in-tune you are with your feelings and ur body aka temple. my partner, best friend, is dealing with meth addiction on and off for 8 years now. he says he feels disgusted and is tired of it. he uses it to escape the pain he deals with from iraq war. i will share your experience with him in hope of a better understanding.

[@ToxxicBunni]

You’re so amazing Alex! Thank you for everything

[@skyazullopez6726]

Thank you. Your vid 6 months ago introduced me to so many things. I am a nurse yet I am ignorant about sex drugs. After watching your vid, I began reading and researching... who knows one day I'd be encountering patients related to yours. At least, I have some knowledge. I am glad that you have recovered. Please take care. Stay safe.

[@bamb1n013]

You look amazing congratulations on your battle with methamphetamine,my uncle has been going through it for almost 20 years. To see you brings me faith in my uncles recovery,and the consistency and grit is phenomenal ❤️

[@BribriStrawberryCurls]

You’re skin is so clear and beautiful!!❤️

[@mattklem]

Wow Alex I didn’t understand what I was craving until you said it out loud. It’s almost as if I’ve known the whole time but I was ignoring it. Human connection always correlated with my use as well

[@sylviamiller9047]

Thanks for your story and sharing your experience and honesty!

[@highschoolbyeschool3908]

YOUVE COME SO FAR! Keep progressing you deserve all the happiness and self love. You couldn’t have been more on the point about drug use stemming from unhappiness and loneliness. I think what’s amazing about you and your story is you paid attention! You’ve taken the highs and lows and come up with a definite answer of who you don’t want to become. Be proud.

[@Lusee22]

So proud of you! Stay strong and have courage.

[@yinyang8811]

You have such great insight. You Are helping so many people with these videos. I am glad you Are recovering, and you DO have an important mission on earth. 🙏💙

[@ItsaRomethingeveryday]

Following up since the vid when you were in hospital, Stay strong and protect yourself/body from the impurities/drugs in life, I used meth one time and was instantly hooked, and for the next six years I destroyed my life, did things id never otherwise have done, some shameful some just out right corrupt,And I always regretted it, I lost my kids, my family, my partner, my job, my friends, when I got sober/clean all the people I used with more less turned against me, they were so paranoid cause I wasn't using and they were, and I thought to myself, omg I was just like them, shadow people, and car doors closing, zero self confidence except when spun,also never had the sex overdrive from this drug like so many others seemed to,, I had to change my playmates and playground completely to finally break free of the vicious circle, now I don't associate with those who use as it gives me the strength to always say no

[@maryreynolds5310]

There you are…I just watched your first video. I have to go do a few things and then I will get back to this. You are looking great by the way! See you here in a bit :)

[@lavamazda05]

It’s so beautiful to see you smile. Keep sharing and we will keep listening.

[@Ravenortara]

I LOVE you and I’d love to get to know ya (I’d be your friend!). I saw your original video and I ended up here. I used to be a meth addict… you describe it in a way I’ve always wanted to but couldn’t find the words. Meth is totally shame and it’s such a strong urge and it’s just a sick cycle. You’re so brave and I’m so glad you’re doing better!

[@sunshine4me4u]

Blessings to you for sharing your journey & speaking your truth❣️ You are a beautiful soul, I wish for you continued strength & health so you may live the life you deserve!!

[@LaemperatrizTheEmpress]

SELF LOvE IT IS!!! ♥️♥️
Sending you much love and light !

[@Narcoswing]

You explained the struggle of being alone so perfectly and for that I thank you you’re beautiful

[@Andromeda.422]

I can’t get over how handsome you are and how youthful you look ✨❤️

[@suzanneroche1243]

You seem much better since I saw you in the hospital! Congratulations! I know it’s hell and a disease. Don’t put yourself down. It’s hard to forget once you’ve done!😊😢 Best of luck for you! ❤

[@candilease938]

When he mentions being in his early 20’s and late 30’s etc I’m sitting here thinking “wait!! How old is he!?”
He looks very young still!!! Maybe 30!

[@Sandra-ww6oz]

Alex you are looking so much better and your honesty is so refreshing. You are so brave to be doing this and you have more support than you’d know. Love hugs and positive vibes coming at ya from Sydney Australia. 💗🤗☮️🙏🐨🇦🇺

[@katieohagan6082]

The truth will make the free thank you so much for sharing I have been sober for 24 years now only by the grace of God from alcohol and it is so true the shame and how we beat ourselves up we don’t need anybody else to do it I pray for God to use you mightily this is truly a conversation we should be having and because you have been so transparent I believe people will listen to you blessings to you

[@jonawesolowski-thecommunit9968]

Thank you for your raw honesty. My shame is different from yours but shame nonetheless. I used to steal narcotics (pain pills) from old ppl in my care. Trust that I hung my head low for a long time. I am 17+yrs so we n clean today. On this side, I am grateful for every step I went through.

[@kennithchapman9689]

Great to see you out of the hospital n doing good. Keep positive n stay strong. I can tell just by listening to you talk you feel way better now. Awesome 👍

[@EarthboundMistfitAmI]

You are looking SO MUCH better! Keep up your forward progress 👏🏼

[@JohnnyTasmania]

Good luck with the future mate…One day at a time is the only way to keep winning….I had a similar story but it involved in a brain injury

[@conniescrustycharredcooter2476]

I'm so proud of you

[@aranireland]

Even though meth makes the users horny in actual fact they are not interested whilst using meth in sex at all, it just so happen they are horny and they meet people but they actually cant connect as such with other users, it's at this point specifically about doing the drug.

[@auntlala4971]

So happy to see you 😍 looking so healthy ❤

[@awesomemom533]

Late 30’s?? You look so young! You have gorgeous skin. Thanks for sharing your story ❤

[@mollyschultz2331]

First time I saw your video my honest thought was man he is very looking and I like his hands and the way he moves and articulated himself. Then I saw the video in your hat after Cancun and you lookEd very dapper also. I wish you the best in sobriety. Sobriety has been great for me! Love from Cincinnati/ Kentucky! And the pattern of doing drugs over and over again and thinking we will have a different outcome is addiction. I hope you realize that. You can also it all by the big words and human connection lingo ect ect... but as you said it’s addiction to get high. It’s addiction for drugs and the pattern that goes along with them. Like people addicted to their needle more than the drug. It’s addiction. Point blank.we all lack human connection while using. It’s a revolving circle.
And viola ... when we get sober people want to be around us because we aren’t being shit hermit humans . & what helps us stop and say no... a program. Help. Community. Meetings. There is allot of hope and help. And no the drug never helped you! It’s never easy , never. But you got lots of excuses. Please see that .
You never needed a drug. I never needed a drug. What good did it do? Let you meet other drug users? Give you the HVI virus, break your back and almost make you a Vegetable. But no we do not live with drugs. Substance free will always be the problem solver. Therapy. Many things. You didn’t need this. And I was a drug addict from 14 on and very wild. Lots of residential rehabs. And I did it. But no you didn’t need it. It didn’t help you. Your an addict and that’s that. That’s why you kept using. Idk if I can watch anyMore of these. Telling people if they find the missing link it will show them why they use. No. Plz don’t spread that message. Plz don’t tell people using is okay anytime. 🤦🏻‍♀️ we are addicts . That’s why we keep going back or did.
And did you say your still using some? You should not speaking on this first off with the message your giving hut secondly not printing abstinence and using still is really bad. I hope your sober, I really do! I’ll pray for ya!

[@Carol-S]

You have the gift of self-awareness & honesty which makes you riveting to listen to. I know the PnP scene is huge & well done for stepping away ✊🏻💪🏻

[@soundofsouls2320]

Our past does not define you as a person stay strong and love yourself no one will love you the way you do❤❤❤❤❤

[@tammydeplata2526]

U remind me of my relative who compartmentalizes and suppresses feelings of rejection or anticipation of a rejection which much of the time were a consequence of her behavior. She has really low self esteem and never felt ppl genuinely liked her so she'd keep everyone at arms length. She never really seemed affected by breakups but then she'd always seem to unconsciously sabotage great relationships.
I hope u seek counseling and continue to grow in love for yourself.

[@kamomo808]

speedy recovery. keep on keeping on

[@jenniferrsmith2012]

Gay men experience a lot of insane pressure around body issues. I hope, now, you can see how beautiful you are- beautiful in every way.

[@uncle.d.]

Very interesting and well known to me, in many many aspects. I am addicted to opiates since more than 20 yrs and problematic crack cocaine use since 2020. I also think my addiction caused by self doubts, loneliness, sexual trauma. All the best to u, and may u be fully recovered very very soon.

[@amandarecoveryjones8216]

That's right. The key, the missing part ❤. When I learned i had an issue with codependency, a lot of my addictions began to slow down and end. Sometimes we cant see it at first. God bless you ❤❤❤❤

[@Reesiesworld]

You're such a sweet soul 💛💗💓💕💖❤

[@fuzzball4258]

Am I right in seeing you have some of your mobility back. I was praying to God and anyone who would listen to me to help you. My offer is still out there for you. Pen pal for life!

[@robgarder8162]

Would love an update! Hope you're doing well!

[@jimcowden733]

I came across this channell by mistake it’s very interesting

[@DEUTSCHLAND.007]

Thank you for sharing your story and inspiring us into searching within and living a more meaningful life. 🙏

[@tinamorgan7543]

Very proud of you for speaking out. Takes lots of courage

[@NeiFirstKilla]

Literally the only person I’ve ever seen on here who is educated and sober/regretful enough to help others with this specific drug. Someone needs to pay this guy for making these videos. Thank you for your honesty Alex ❤Che Che

[@soph7676]

I commend you for sharing your story so openly & honestly. I struggled with Addiction for almost 25yrs, but now work w people in early recovery a Recovery Coach. watching you heal & look inward has been an honor & thank you

[@kauiolikomoses-freitas5695]

You look awesome I am so happy for you God bless you

[@LuisMiguel-qe5pn]

It takes somebody strong 💪 to share that story 🙏 bless you my brother ❤️ and respect 👏