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FromCompulsionToConsciousness
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Приєднався 27 вер 2012
I use this channel as means of recording my journey with spinal cord injury and recovery. With hope, excitement, fear and doubt all rolled up in my mind, I constantly try to rebalance my emotions and thoughts with many things I learnt from Sadhguru, and my spirit coach Ruowen Huang. These amazing human beings help me tremendously in this journey and I am forever grateful to their wisdom and life’s work! This injury, this devastation, this paralysis, this challenge and opportunity can be whatever and however I define it to be. I cannot control or change what happened to me, but I can try my best to control what happens within me! I am responsible for my emotions, my thoughts, my life and my karma. This is what it means to go from compulsion to consciousness and I hope this the journey will help me to get me there!!!
Procrastination from unrealistic expectations can be shifted to reward focused mindset
Procrastination from unrealistic expectations can be shifted to reward focused mindset
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Відео
Happy Chinese New Year from Thailand!!!
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Happy Chinese New Year from Thailand!!!
Be honest to your emotions and feelings before blaming for someone making you feel that way
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Be honest to your emotions and feelings before blaming for someone making you feel that way
My relationship with meth/ crystal/ tina:
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My relationship with meth/ crystal/ tina:
T8 spinal cord injury day 175: so many great things happening, excited about future and everything!!
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T8 spinal cord injury day 175: so many great things happening, excited about future and everything!!
T8 spinal cord injury day 119: recent updates!
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T8 spinal cord injury day 119: recent updates!
Giving myself credits instead of feeling inadequate
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Giving myself credits instead of feeling inadequate
Massage helps my spinal cord injury recovery!!!
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Massage helps my spinal cord injury recovery!!!
Bhairavi Sadhana Day day 5: Bukti yoga intensifies the sadhana experience!!!
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Bhairavi Sadhana Day day 5: Bukti yoga intensifies the sadhana experience!!!
T8 spinal cord injury day 107: flowers, walking, sadhana, design, need more time!!!
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T8 spinal cord injury day 107: flowers, walking, sadhana, design, need more time!!!
T8 spinal cord injury day 106: grateful for the good news about my kidney!
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T8 spinal cord injury day 106: grateful for the good news about my kidney!
Bhairavi Sadhana Day 2: total intoxication!!!
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Bhairavi Sadhana Day 2: total intoxication!!!
Do things that bring you joy, excitement, fulfillment; things that make you proud of yourself!!!
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Do things that bring you joy, excitement, fulfillment; things that make you proud of yourself!!!
T8 spinal cord injury day 105: hospital visit, long walk to lunch, flower arrangement
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T8 spinal cord injury day 105: hospital visit, long walk to lunch, flower arrangement
T8 spinal cord injury day 104: Bhairavi Sadhana, trip to Mexico, design progress, so exciting!!!!!!!
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T8 spinal cord injury day 104: Bhairavi Sadhana, trip to Mexico, design progress, so exciting!!!!!!!
T8 spinal cord injury day 103: stroll in Central Park then flowers, really amazing day!!!
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T8 spinal cord injury day 103: stroll in Central Park then flowers, really amazing day!!!
T8 spinal cord injury day 102: 8 floors of stairs today and Central Park tomorrow!!!
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T8 spinal cord injury day 102: 8 floors of stairs today and Central Park tomorrow!!!
T8 spinal cord injury day 101: Merry Xmas, cane updates, emotionally distressed, more progress
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T8 spinal cord injury day 101: Merry Xmas, cane updates, emotionally distressed, more progress
T8 spinal cord injury day 89: cane, grocery update
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T8 spinal cord injury day 89: cane, grocery update
T8 spinal cord injury day 86: updates for the past week!
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T8 spinal cord injury day 86: updates for the past week!
A conversation with my father, he pushes my buttons, he triggers me, I need to work on ME
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A conversation with my father, he pushes my buttons, he triggers me, I need to work on ME
T8 spinal cord injury day 84: kidney phlegmon, victim vs surviver mentality
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T8 spinal cord injury day 84: kidney phlegmon, victim vs surviver mentality
T8 spinal cord injury day 82: 5cm kidney infection, worried, stressed, scared…
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T8 spinal cord injury day 82: 5cm kidney infection, worried, stressed, scared…
Great experience with my life coach and really enjoyed our therapy session today!!!
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Great experience with my life coach and really enjoyed our therapy session today!!!
I realized my wish of not replying on wheelchair by the end of November 2021!
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I realized my wish of not replying on wheelchair by the end of November 2021!
Spinal cord injury day 73: 1 month since I was discharged from rehab, major milestone!!!!
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Spinal cord injury day 73: 1 month since I was discharged from rehab, major milestone!!!!
T8 spinal cord injury day 72: happy thanksgiving, out with no wheelchair, excited for future!
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T8 spinal cord injury day 72: happy thanksgiving, out with no wheelchair, excited for future!
T8 spinal cord injury day 70: less wheels more walker, cooking, gymming, spiritual practice
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T8 spinal cord injury day 70: less wheels more walker, cooking, gymming, spiritual practice
Sending love & prayers mate ❤ Hope the recovery is going well x
I had stimulant addictions when I was younger that could have easily killed or maimed me. I just got lucky. I hope you do well bro.
Would love an update mate xx
hugs ! Hope you are now doing better
Why are we teaching our kids about this mans lifestyle and glamorizing it? That substance is extremely commonplace in that community. These types of parties have been frequently practiced in that community since its inception. Why do we need to be reminded constantly about that community in every facet of our life? If this is one of the possible and far too common outcomes? This is who were having teach our Sons about sex? What on Earth are we doing, America?
Bruh. Imagine the coversation with his family after. Imagine what the guys he was with say about the event after. "Ya we did him so good he literally couldnt walk we broke his back."
❤ thank you ❤
Hello Alex , how have you been is there an update
Anyone know what's happened with Alex? I am sending good vibes that he is okay. Love watching his content.
People need to understand that FOMO is NOT about taking illegal drugs.
may you find full recovery n restoration
*Disgusting 🤢🤮 SODOMITE goyem.*
You made me cry. I want so much to give you a big hug! You are so very brave. Thank you for thinking of others! Best of luck with your recovery. ❤❤❤
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Great job on getting sober. Meth was truly a destructive force in all aspect of my life, I have a new lease on life ever since quitting. 6 months sober now
Hey man we all make mistakes . We all take the exam before the lesson. And sometimes we learn harshly.. It’s ok to cry but not for too long. How you deal with your situation is you tell your story to anyone that will listen to you. I listened, whomever doesn’t love you after sharing your story including family, F**k em’… It took a lot of courage to plaster your story out on the internet ✊✌️
Only spirituality and exercise can bring inner balance to us to get free from Meth addiction.
meth enhanced my house cleaning job
Wait they broke your back by fucking you ?
Im done….lololololl
Meth is a gey drug who would have that about it being demonic
Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder, got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
How on earth did his back break?
How brave you are bro … thank you for sharing this to all lgbtq 🏳️🌈 love from Philippines 🇵🇭… be cautious always life is so short ..
I’m so sorry this happened to you. You are very brave to share this. God bless you and stay strong.
God bless you 🙏🏾 You are an amazing spirit. You will come back from this. Thank you for your bravery.
Sending you love❤️I’m so sorry this happened to you. You are brave and wise. Wishing you so much peace ☮️ 🕊️
Wow that's a story and good on you for opening up. I'm a recovering addict used for 12 years its 4 years sober now and still sex is something I struggle with, meth adjusted my normal sense of sexual satisfaction and yes due to the substance I have done damage too due to the numbing effects of the substance. I've been a lonely person in my entire life being gay and being attracted to the opposite of almost all stereo types has left me yearning for connection, meth allowed me to do things I would not do when sober with people I'm not normally attracted to and hits myself of steam when I'm sober that I allowed myself to do those things. My moto of life "Be true to yourself"
God Bless you Dear. Time will heal you maybe slowly but you will heal. Thank you for sharing your story it must be such a weight off your mind hoping too that you may save someone out there that is doing meth. You are young and have a lot of good life left, try to stay positive Dear ,my prayers are with you.❤
Your Faith will heal you!
So, this paralysis happened from getting fucked too hard, right?
Believe it or not Alex, you are a blessing with your share that definitely is forcing many to stop or slow down on their spiral to tragedy. It's not a cliche but it takes a serious whopper of such dimension like your experience to wake many up from their slide of no return. Many blessings and you will triumph slowly but surely. Forgive yourself. We can only try our best in life. Stay strong. You matter. You are loved. Thanks for your gift of humanity, courage and sincerity. 😘❤️🙏😇
Oh' i think it is a global health issue since the 90+z we all say felt thiz way when we were my mate and i say back then chatting c my friend i would say impossible but that what happened may have been the toxins anyway we that chemist should sell that ect good luck
Meth is huge in the gay community. I’ve seen super straight guys go gay on meth as well
I pray brother is doing well and still is positive in the mind 🙏
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I'm pl3 please feel better soon don't cry it'll be okay
You are a very great man. I'm very sorry this happening to you.
If u r in pain and have spinal injury... u need some kind of drugs to help with the pain... LOVE SND PEACEFUL BLESSINGS TO U MY WONDERFUL PERSON ❤😊🤩🔥😘😘✌XX🛐🌻
God Bless you my brother. You have a great heart and promise this is going to help so many people. You have meaning you're still here trying to help people. You have a powerful voice and story. You all of my respect and from the comments many others.
I hope you are well, and I hope someday you will be able to update again! ❤❤❤
Sending you all the best vibes ❤
I'm so sorry ❤
Shoulda kept that one to yourself.
I’m confused … so his back broke and he went paralyzed from the strength of meth ? Or “ they “ broke it ? Bc I swear he said “ they “
I think your videos might have saved my life.
Damn this dude literally got his back blown out
If you still have residual nerve or other tissue damage you should definitely look into hyperbaric oxygen therapy, it can exponentially speed up tissue healing by inducing stem cell proliferation, angiogenesis, neuroplasticity degrade glial scars, reduce inflammation and provide O2 to hypoxic tissues.
You are a brave man. I appreciate your courage and honesty
Imagine getting screwed in the butt so hard that you get paralyzed.
dude hitler did meth why would you do that you wanna be like hitler????