As someone who has had 7 losses...I can feel your pain! Even though we know it’s not “our fault”...I will always feel some sort of blame because my body is the one causing the issues. I do want to say...do NOT lose hope! I am currently 31wks pregnant with our 🌈 baby boy after a loss in Feb 2019. My thoughts and prayers are with you and just know you are not alone! Much love and hugs! ❤️
@@nursemayra3897Yes! We ended up taking Clomid and using progesterone. After my son was born in January 2020…we got pregnant again in 2021 and had our daughter on December 23, 2021! Currently going through loss number 9. I also had one in August. We are going to do the same thing as before with my next cycle and pray for the best! 💖
@@nursemayra3897also wanted to note that my iron and vitamin D were both extremely low. Once we got those levels back in normal range…I carried easily. My ob said low iron can cause blood clots to form in the umbilical cord as it forms.
I am so sorry for your loss. You mentioned how it’s rare to have 3 miscarriages, but please don’t let that discourage you. My mom had 4 miscarriages, but right after that she got pregnant with my sister and then she had me 2 years later. All of that to say that things will all happen for you in Gods perfect timing, and while I know that doesn’t make the grief go away, hopefully you feel some comfort and protection in that. I think you’ll be an incredible mom one day. ❤️
Thank you for being an advocate for this community Kelsie. I'm tired of people sweeping infertility, miscarriage/infant loss under the rug...it has led to society being so ignorant about it unfortunately. Even my own mother ignored me after my miscarriage and literally yelled and me that she didn't want to have to hear me "blubbering about it because I wasn't that far along anyway." It makes people so uncomfortable and then we have to just accept their rude comments and attitudes when it comes to our infertility struggles and lost children. People need to be aware that not all mothers have their children by their side on this earth. I'm praying for you!
I'm sorry your mom acted like that. It's hurtful whenever it happens. I've just had my third miscarriage all between 6- 7.5 weeks and it gets harder each time. I hope you had or eventually have a successful pregnancy and better family support.
I agree. I had 2 miscarriages First one March 2022 @ 6 weeks 🦋 Second one February 16,2023 @ 9 weeks 🦋 - chromosomal abnormality trisomy 22, abnormal boy 😢 My husband and I were devastated and still coping with it. We are awaiting fertility appt. Both pregnancies were natural however after the first pregnancy we decided to see fertility specialist more so for a full work up. We were given option to try natural or consider IVF. Be opted to try natural but this happened 🙏🏼😢 The most comforting thing is our baby was thriving with a every weekly ultrasound and then we had a break for a few weeks then for the 12 week appt was told the baby stopped developing at 9 weeks :( Praying 🙏🏼🤍
Just had my 3rd loss. I can’t take it anymore. I remember thinking: “there’s NO WAY something will go wrong AGAIN, right?”…. It’s almost too much to bear. Thank you for sharing your story and motivating me to follow through with IVF. Lots of hugs and love sent your way ❤❤❤
You are so strong to share her story with us all!! Thank you for being so open. I’m praying for peace for you and your husband both during the preparations for your next transfer 💕
Aw Kelsie. Thankyou for sharing the news of your sweet little girl Brecklynn. How beautiful that you can honor her there! Your strength to continue to try and give her a sibling with another transfer is inspirational. Sending love.
There are no words to make any of this better. I just want to say thank you for sharing your story! You make a difference. No two infertility stories are alike, but you are so relatable. I am deeply sorry for your pain and grief. Thank you for bringing purpose and connection to this terrible thing. Prayers headed your way!
You have such a sweet soul Kelsie!!! You are going to be such a beautiful and great mother!!! Don't apologize for crying, those emotions are raw and real and that's what I love about watching you. Your vlogs are the BEST!!! I'm praying for you in every step of the way in your journey❤❤❤
The strength you show through this difficult journey is stunningly beautiful and powerful. Thank you for sharing your story and using your voice to lift up others. So many of us never talk about this, and your willingness to do so, even through the pain, makes others feel so much less alone. We just had our third loss in August. You found a beautiful way to honor your baby girl. Sending you deeply heartfelt wishes for a happy outcome ahead for you and your spouse!
Watching you cry just breaks my heart! Never meet but I just love you so much, think you are such a sweet soul. I’m praying for you every day 🙏🏼🙏🏼 for your heart, your uterus, your embabies, your husband, your journey!
Watched this as just had my 3rd miscarriage after 4 years TTC. My heart breaks for you. My heart breaks for me. We just need to keep moving forward ❤️❤️ So brave of you to share your journey and help many of us not feel so alone. The day I miscarried my younger sister was giving birth to her first so it is all bitter sweet. I’m kind of numb to it all at the moment 😔
Oh my heart. Thank you for sharing her. Her name is so beautiful and she is perfect. I’m so sorry for all this. You are so strong and she will always be with you Mama. Sending you hugs and prayers!
I’m so incredibly sorry for your pain and the loss of your precious little girl. I cannot imagine. You are in my prayers. I have been praying that you will have success in getting and staying pregnant. ❤️
Kelsie, there are no words to say how incredibly sorry I am for your loss. Like you, I also miscarried a perfect, chromosomally normal baby a month ago (also conceived through IVF), so I have some understanding of the complete devastation I know you must be feeling. Nobody can fully understand it unless they’ve been through it, and it’s truly horrific. Thinking of you and wishing you all the luck in the world for the next round xxx
Beautiful Brecklynn only ever knew your warmth, love, protection, and hope for her. She and her siblings were perfect and loved. It is a cruel world we live in where some mothers do not get to hold all of their children. I have two of my own that I hope to meet in the next life.
Oh kelsie, you have such strength. I'm so so sorry for your loss. Your ornament is such a treasure, so beautiful. You have the will and wishes of everyone behind you for the next transfer xxxxx
I am so sorry for your heartache and guilt. I cannot imagine the pain you are feeling from losing your darling girl. The pain of pregnancy loss is such a unique grief and often leaves you feeling alone and isolated, but it truly is a devastating loss. I know from my own experience that there comes a lot of healing with a successful pregnancy, it doesn't erase the pain but it does help to make sense of the journey. As always you are so brave and an inspiration to other women struggling. xo
Sending you love Kelsie ❤️ Your sweet Brecklynn will be with you always, tucked away safely in your heart. I had three miscarriages too. I found your channel after my first, when I was looking for other women who had been through it. You gave me so much comfort during that very dark time. Sharing your story (as hard as it is to do so) is helping so many. ❤️ My fourth pregnancy was my miracle pregnancy and brought me my little rainbow. I have everything crossed for you that four will be your miracle number too.
Crying with you. What a beautiful name for a beautiful little soul. I wish there was something to say to help lighten this loss but we both know there is nothing. Thank you for sharing your girl with us. Brecklynn will be in my heart and mind as will her Mama. Praying for your hearts and for your future children to join you earthside soon. 💖
Oh my goodness! I’m so sorry! I’m in therapy for self blame and it’s sooooo hard. People just don’t understand how hard that is. I know it’s hard finding out the sex of your baby.... but deep down I know you are so glad you did because you can talk about her and use her name and remind people that you lost your daughter.... you child that pain won’t ever fully go away, but one day you will have more joy and need more names❤️❤️❤️
Words can’t even explain how beyond sorry I am that you have had to go through all this it breaks my heart and you are so strong for sharing your journey with all of us I’m praying you are able to have your rainbow baby soon
Dont give up. Ive had 5 miscarriages all before 14 weeks I have an incompetent cervix. I gave up and miraculously ended up pregnant im now 23 weeks and been getting blow after blow but im still fighting.
@@heartofglod1042 Hi me too suffering for infertility for almost more than 6yrs... Got conceive but baby growth reduced so aborted, now again conceived but HCG level too low, unable to find placenta & baby, so doctor said may b chromosomal abnormalities... What to do??? Very much frustrated..
So sorry Kelsie, keep staying strong and never giving up, you’re so brave for sharing your story. You and your husband are fighters and soon you’ll have your little baby fighter here with you in your arms. Prayers for a healthy and strong growing babe, you were made to be a mom💕💕
I know it doesn’t feel this way, but she was with you on your trip and she is with you now ❤️ thank you for sharing your journey Kelsie. Praying for you guys!!
Oh honey I'm so sorry! I've been closely following your story and you are both in my prayers! I know the struggle. Been TTC for 3 years. We just had our second miscarriage (one from iui last year and last one was last week from our first fresh transfer). Gearing up for our next cycle. Can't wait to see you get your rainbow baby! Soo much baby dust! ❤🍍
Praying for you! The ornament at the end was just beautiful 💜 I think my husband and I will be going into IVF soon, nearing the end of our last IUI and I dont think it took.. I've appreciated being able to watch your journey 💜
My heart is with you!!! You are so brave and strong! May you and your husband find comfort and peace this holiday season as I know this time of year can be a struggle! You will be in my prayers!
Kelsie I'm so sorry. You literally had me in tears. You're right, there wasn't going to be a "right" result from the tests, either way would be just as hard as the other. I'm send you both ALL of my love. Crossing my fingers for your next transfer. ❤️❤️❤️ You guys deserve your rainbow baby.
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 you are so strong, Kelsie. I've been watching your videos for about 2 years now and struggling with my own infertility too. My oncologist is having me wait a year (I beat breast cancer this summer and finished up treatment in October). And then we are going to do a FET 🤞 I'm cheering you on from Pennsylvania 🎉💪💕💕💕
I love that you named your beautiful little girl after such a beautiful place. Praying that this new medication protocol is the answer! Infertility just sucks and the not knowing is the worst. I'm sorry you have to deal with that.
Thank you for sharing your story... I recently had my first pregnancy...first twins... and first loss at 12 weeks. Then my first D&C... its a kick in the heart but hearing others share their stories have made me feel less alone. On a happier note I love Breckenridge- I used to live in CO and would ski there all the time. I hope you enjoy your time there.
Prayers for you going up right now. My daughter in law lost her first few pregnancy’s and they found out she had the clotting disorder. They put her on blood thinners (she gave herself 2 shots a day) and went on to have 4 beautiful children. I am praying that this is your answer too. ❤️
Oh sweet pea. I am so so sorry. I have so much empathy for you. I have been there. Our 4th consecutive loss was chromosomaly normal baby girl as well. We have a LOT of the same issues. PCOS. Hashimoto’s, Asherman’s. Endo. I feel such a connection to your channel because of the similarities. We recently last week had our 6th consecutive loss. I am sending you all of my love, Hugs and prayers. ❤️😁
This has me tearing up. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby girl. I can't imagine what you are going through. A part of me was hoping to would be abnormal just so you would have an answer. I pray that the Lovenox is the answer and that in January you will carry to term and have a happy and healthy 9 months. You have been through so much and no one deserves to be a mother as much as you do! Sending lots of hugs and love your way.
Love you Kelsie. I’m crying with you. Thank you for being so brave to share this video. Praying for you guys so so much, that one day soon you’ll get to hold your healthy, beautiful rainbow babies in your arms and your grief turns to happiness. ♥️
You are very strong for sharing your journey!! Ik it's not easy talking about your losses, I struggle talking about my 3 losses my last being in September as well. I wish we would have done the test to see what caused my miscarriages but I couldn't. I blame myself as well because ik that it's me. It's a horrible cycle but it's just easy to blame our selves. My husband and I are keeping yall in our prayers that this coming cycle yall will get y'alls rainbow baby 🌈!! 💗💗
I’ve been through three losses as well, my most recent in Sept too. Ugh it’s just so hard I get it. But don’t ever apologize for crying, this kind of trauma is brutal and so unfair. Just know you aren’t alone and we are all thinking of you 💜
You’re so strong momma! My husband and I had our third loss in December 2019. We opted for a d&c so we could possibly find out what went wrong and the sex of our baby. Our baby boy had complete Trisomy 16, we named him Noah. It’s heartbreaking. So sorry for your losses.
I'm so sorry Kelsie. I have been following you for a while. I started watching because you had a great review of the ovosense and to learn about IUI. I've learned so much from you and your husband. I'm praying for your spiritual healing and for your strength to get through the next transfer. I'm praying so hard that you to have that rainbow baby.
You are amazing. You are sharing such a personal and emotional journey. I realize people may say things with great intentions but sometimes it may not be the right thing. It is okay to feel however you feel. And as a Nurse, wow those are significant medications. You and all women going through this journey are amazing
Shedding tears for you and for myself. Your heart ache is mine too. I can't tell you how much it means. I know the tears will be wiped from our eyes someday
I definitely resonate with grieving because you don’t know why your body is failing you. That’s how I felt during my ectopic. It didn’t make any sense and I’m terrified that my body is going to “sabotage” me again. Lots of hugs. You are strong.
You're so brave for sharing with us your journey. Sending you a prayer for you and your family ❤️ I hope that your next transfer is successful and finally become the mommy you hope for and deserve. 🙏🏻
You are so strong! I can't imagine having to go though what you need to go through. I've had the lovenox shots before and they didn't hurt at all, but they left awful bruises. I'm thinking of you and sending you strong twin energy for your next transfer!
I’m in tears with you... stay strong mamma ❤️ you’re an inspiration to many including myself through IVF. Sending you a big hug ✨ Your Angel Baby girl Brecklynn will be guiding you along the way.
I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby girl. Never apologize for showing your love for her and pain at losing her ❤My family is praying and pulling for you and your husband. I'm hoping to bring you just a little extra hope and faith today. My uncle and aunt went through many battles to conceive and then ivf with multiple heartbreaks like yours. Through years of faith and more grit and perseverance than I possess, they finally carried a beautiful girl to term, and a couple years later she became unexpectedly pregnant again with their son. This fall their daughter headed off to college. We are looking forward to seeing some of your pain tempered by joy when you finally get to hold your child in your arms after all this loss.
Lack of willpower? Friend. You are seriously one of the strongest people I've ever "gotten to know" (via the Internet of course). You are an inspiration. And I love that you named your baby (we named our losses as well). Her name is beautiful. Praying for your heart and your next transfer. ♥️
Oh mama, my heart hurts with and for you! Takes me back to my loses and just all the feels I had in that time in my life. Thinking and praying for you guys and your future! ♥️♥️ thank you for sharing your journey as hard as it might be!
I have been following you for a while now and I’m so sorry for your loss. I, myself have had 8 miscarriages. I have 4 babies now, 7, 4 (twins) and we just delivered our last baby, via ivf on October 7th. I had to be on lovenox and heparin throughout my pregnancies and 6 weeks after. I have factor 2, a rare clotting disorder that can cause miscarriages. I hope your new protocol works for you like it did for us. Brecklynn Hope is such a beautiful name and I pray you get your rainbow baby very soon! Prayers for your transfer in January.
Kelsie, I had tears in my eyes from this video. Even though I'm far away (all the way from the Netherlands) I feel you are close to my heart and I find myself thinking "how's Kelsie" from time to time, since I've been following you for quite some time already. If by any chance, you'd like to write (email, actual letter) with someone you're not familiar with, just to write down a few thoughts, be angry, vent every now and then, just let me know. I thank you for sharing your messages with us, being so very real and open about it all. HOPE is the most beautiful name, by the way. Sending you and your husband lots of love ❤️
Anja Beverwijk Same with me, all the war from Germany. I also find myself thinking „how is kelsie“ from time to time. Lots of Love from Stuttgart, Germany
I’m so sorry for your loss. She has a beautiful name. I’m currently on daily thinners. I know lots of people who have had success with them and I am rooting for you, your husband, and babies. You are right you can never be ready after experiencing loss.
Dont apologize for crying! I mean I cried a little watching this! Prayers for a bit more healing. One day...you will have your rainbow baby! I know it's hard as hell right now to think...but with each loss I think you get more information on how to try and sustain a pregnancy. Love and baby dust for January! ❤❤❤❤❤
Happy belated birthday 🎂 !!! Hoping that y’all enjoy your trip 🙏🏻💗. This infertility journey is one of the most challenging roller coaster rides I’ve ever been on to say the least. I’ll keep u and ur hubby in my prayers
Kelsie, I am so sorry. When you said the baby was genetically normal, my heart just broke for you. Sometimes...there just are no answers and it sucks. You're human, I don't think anyone can say they wouldn't feel as you do, wanting to blame yourself. But it won't change anything, all you can do is move forward. You're very strong. Wishing you the very best. ❤️
I was only able to hold back my tears until I saw the ornament at the end. 😢 Praying for you and your husband during this time & praying that you guys receive your rainbow baby in 2020.💜
My heart sunk hearing the results........ Crying with you all the way throughout the video. All I have to say it's I AM SO SO SORRY!! My heart aches for you. Not sure if saying what I'm about to say will bring you hope, but Lovenox was MY ANSWER! I was in Lovenox from 3 days before transfer, and stayed on it until 36 weeks. I'm a strong believer that it made all the difference for me. I also had 3 losses prior to caring on a full term pregnancy, so it just make sense to me. One last thing, which I have told you before... YOU ARE INCREDIBLY STRONG HUMAN BEING! Thank you for sharing your journey with us and giving each one of us strength to go after our dreams everyday! Hugs to you and Anthony!
Lidiana Dutra Beg I'm so happy to hear that it worked for u♥️ but may I ask u if ur hcg levels were normal and doubling in ur three loses or was it slow rising? I'm having trouble keeping a healthy pregnancy 😞
Kelsie I've commented a couple times, I haven't gone through the ivf like you have. But I just had my 3rd loss in oct 2018. For me I found peace eventually knowing their sex/gender. I proudly have 1 daughter and 2 sons. Haley Faith, Linkin Michael and Emerson Theodore. I felt I needed to give them their names because they were very real to me they were a part of me. For me I feel peace very personally because I still feel like a momma but to 3 Angel's and the I can be a mother to them by talking about them, talking TO them and not forgetting them. I am a mom of 3 they are just not earth bound with me. I just want to say your little girls name is so beautiful and no matter what you need to process and go through all of the feelings you and Anthony both. I'm sending so much love and hopefully some understanding peace and comrodery your way! Xoxox
What a beautiful name! She just must have been too perfect for earth! You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers! I also pray for your January transfer!! 💕🙏🏻
Oh, Kelsie 💖💖💖💖 you are stronger than you know. You have such fight inside you, even when you cant feel it yourself, it's there. No one can ever understand why someone peoples journeys are so long and bumpy, while others are not, just know, it is always leading you to where you are meant to go. I wish I could give you a million hugs 💖
I know exactly where you come from having 2 losses myself and having normal genetic and chromosome screenings for me, my husband, and baby. My heart breaks for you both. No matter how early or what those results would have been it was still your baby! You’re not only mourning the loss of a sweet blessing, but the life you planned to have after she got here! Praying for you guys ❤️
Happy Belated Birthday. I’m so sorry again.. my heart is broken with you. I understand the feeling of never feeling ready to try again but I admire your resilience and pray this next transfer will be successful.
Dont apologize for crying it means your a human that loves her child
As someone who has had 7 losses...I can feel your pain! Even though we know it’s not “our fault”...I will always feel some sort of blame because my body is the one causing the issues. I do want to say...do NOT lose hope! I am currently 31wks pregnant with our 🌈 baby boy after a loss in Feb 2019. My thoughts and prayers are with you and just know you are not alone! Much love and hugs! ❤️
Pray for me aswell I losses my 4 pregnancy
What did u do
Did you just keep trying?
@@nursemayra3897Yes! We ended up taking Clomid and using progesterone. After my son was born in January 2020…we got pregnant again in 2021 and had our daughter on December 23, 2021! Currently going through loss number 9. I also had one in August. We are going to do the same thing as before with my next cycle and pray for the best! 💖
@@nursemayra3897also wanted to note that my iron and vitamin D were both extremely low. Once we got those levels back in normal range…I carried easily. My ob said low iron can cause blood clots to form in the umbilical cord as it forms.
I am so sorry for your loss. You mentioned how it’s rare to have 3 miscarriages, but please don’t let that discourage you. My mom had 4 miscarriages, but right after that she got pregnant with my sister and then she had me 2 years later. All of that to say that things will all happen for you in Gods perfect timing, and while I know that doesn’t make the grief go away, hopefully you feel some comfort and protection in that. I think you’ll be an incredible mom one day. ❤️
Thank you.. this gives me some hope
Thank you for being an advocate for this community Kelsie. I'm tired of people sweeping infertility, miscarriage/infant loss under the rug...it has led to society being so ignorant about it unfortunately. Even my own mother ignored me after my miscarriage and literally yelled and me that she didn't want to have to hear me "blubbering about it because I wasn't that far along anyway." It makes people so uncomfortable and then we have to just accept their rude comments and attitudes when it comes to our infertility struggles and lost children. People need to be aware that not all mothers have their children by their side on this earth. I'm praying for you!
I'm sorry your mom acted like that. It's hurtful whenever it happens. I've just had my third miscarriage all between 6- 7.5 weeks and it gets harder each time. I hope you had or eventually have a successful pregnancy and better family support.
I agree. I had 2 miscarriages
First one March 2022 @ 6 weeks 🦋
Second one February 16,2023 @ 9 weeks 🦋
- chromosomal abnormality trisomy 22, abnormal boy 😢
My husband and I were devastated and still coping with it. We are awaiting fertility appt.
Both pregnancies were natural however after the first pregnancy we decided to see fertility specialist more so for a full work up. We were given option to try natural or consider IVF. Be opted to try natural but this happened 🙏🏼😢
The most comforting thing is our baby was thriving with a every weekly ultrasound and then we had a break for a few weeks then for the 12 week appt was told the baby stopped developing at 9 weeks :(
Praying 🙏🏼🤍
I did not heed your warning and I watched 😭😭😭 💔 Grandma loves you Brecklynn 💕
Leslie Weiser you were warned grandma ❤️ Brecklynn loves you!
Just had my 3rd loss. I can’t take it anymore. I remember thinking: “there’s NO WAY something will go wrong AGAIN, right?”…. It’s almost too much to bear. Thank you for sharing your story and motivating me to follow through with IVF. Lots of hugs and love sent your way ❤❤❤
You are so strong to share her story with us all!! Thank you for being so open. I’m praying for peace for you and your husband both during the preparations for your next transfer 💕
You are so brave for sharing your story with all of us. Infertility is so emotional and such a rollercoaster. Praying for you guys on your journey ♥️
Aw Kelsie. Thankyou for sharing the news of your sweet little girl Brecklynn. How beautiful that you can honor her there! Your strength to continue to try and give her a sibling with another transfer is inspirational. Sending love.
My heart is with you. You’re not alone with always falling into the lower statistic. 😔 I’m so sorry for the loss of your sweet daughter. ❤️
There are no words to make any of this better. I just want to say thank you for sharing your story! You make a difference. No two infertility stories are alike, but you are so relatable. I am deeply sorry for your pain and grief. Thank you for bringing purpose and connection to this terrible thing. Prayers headed your way!
You have such a sweet soul Kelsie!!! You are going to be such a beautiful and great mother!!! Don't apologize for crying, those emotions are raw and real and that's what I love about watching you. Your vlogs are the BEST!!! I'm praying for you in every step of the way in your journey❤❤❤
The strength you show through this difficult journey is stunningly beautiful and powerful. Thank you for sharing your story and using your voice to lift up others. So many of us never talk about this, and your willingness to do so, even through the pain, makes others feel so much less alone. We just had our third loss in August. You found a beautiful way to honor your baby girl. Sending you deeply heartfelt wishes for a happy outcome ahead for you and your spouse!
Watching you cry just breaks my heart! Never meet but I just love you so much, think you are such a sweet soul. I’m praying for you every day 🙏🏼🙏🏼 for your heart, your uterus, your embabies, your husband, your journey!
Watched this as just had my 3rd miscarriage after 4 years TTC. My heart breaks for you. My heart breaks for me. We just need to keep moving forward ❤️❤️ So brave of you to share your journey and help many of us not feel so alone. The day I miscarried my younger sister was giving birth to her first so it is all bitter sweet. I’m kind of numb to it all at the moment 😔
Oh my heart. Thank you for sharing her. Her name is so beautiful and she is perfect. I’m so sorry for all this. You are so strong and she will always be with you Mama. Sending you hugs and prayers!
I’m so incredibly sorry for your pain and the loss of your precious little girl. I cannot imagine. You are in my prayers. I have been praying that you will have success in getting and staying pregnant. ❤️
You and your husband are both so amazingly strong! It’s seriously incredible.
Kelsie, there are no words to say how incredibly sorry I am for your loss. Like you, I also miscarried a perfect, chromosomally normal baby a month ago (also conceived through IVF), so I have some understanding of the complete devastation I know you must be feeling. Nobody can fully understand it unless they’ve been through it, and it’s truly horrific. Thinking of you and wishing you all the luck in the world for the next round xxx
That ornament gave me chills! Praying for y’all! ♥️
Hugging you soooooo tight. Infertility is no joke and you’re certainly not alone. You’re doing everything you can. Sending so many hugs your way
Beautiful Brecklynn only ever knew your warmth, love, protection, and hope for her. She and her siblings were perfect and loved. It is a cruel world we live in where some mothers do not get to hold all of their children. I have two of my own that I hope to meet in the next life.
Oh kelsie, you have such strength. I'm so so sorry for your loss. Your ornament is such a treasure, so beautiful. You have the will and wishes of everyone behind you for the next transfer xxxxx
I am so sorry for your heartache and guilt. I cannot imagine the pain you are feeling from losing your darling girl. The pain of pregnancy loss is such a unique grief and often leaves you feeling alone and isolated, but it truly is a devastating loss. I know from my own experience that there comes a lot of healing with a successful pregnancy, it doesn't erase the pain but it does help to make sense of the journey. As always you are so brave and an inspiration to other women struggling. xo
Sending you love Kelsie ❤️ Your sweet Brecklynn will be with you always, tucked away safely in your heart. I had three miscarriages too. I found your channel after my first, when I was looking for other women who had been through it. You gave me so much comfort during that very dark time. Sharing your story (as hard as it is to do so) is helping so many. ❤️ My fourth pregnancy was my miracle pregnancy and brought me my little rainbow. I have everything crossed for you that four will be your miracle number too.
You owe nobody an apology for crying! Brecklynn Hope is a perfect little lady, and has so many who love her. Praying for you guys in this season. 💕
No apologies for crying Kelsie. You’ve endured the unimaginable. Always rooting for you and Anthony ♥️ And sweet Brecklynn will never be forgotten.
What a beautiful name for your daughter.❤️ My heart is with you and you’re both always in my prayers💕
You’re a strong woman for sharing this. x
Crying with you. What a beautiful name for a beautiful little soul. I wish there was something to say to help lighten this loss but we both know there is nothing. Thank you for sharing your girl with us. Brecklynn will be in my heart and mind as will her Mama. Praying for your hearts and for your future children to join you earthside soon. 💖
Oh my goodness! I’m so sorry! I’m in therapy for self blame and it’s sooooo hard. People just don’t understand how hard that is. I know it’s hard finding out the sex of your baby.... but deep down I know you are so glad you did because you can talk about her and use her name and remind people that you lost your daughter.... you child that pain won’t ever fully go away, but one day you will have more joy and need more names❤️❤️❤️
And yes names!! I fully believe in my heart that you will have more than one Earth-born child❤️
Words can’t even explain how beyond sorry I am that you have had to go through all this it breaks my heart and you are so strong for sharing your journey with all of us I’m praying you are able to have your rainbow baby soon
You’re so brave to share your story Kelsie ❤️ I keep you in my thoughts often.
Kelse, i just wanna send you a ginormus hug and thank you for bringing us along on your journey too. 💜
My heart hurts for you. I’m so sorry for all the loss you have had to endure. Praying for your time to come sooner rather than later. ❤️
Dont give up. Ive had 5 miscarriages all before 14 weeks I have an incompetent cervix. I gave up and miraculously ended up pregnant im now 23 weeks and been getting blow after blow but im still fighting.
@@heartofglod1042 Hi me too suffering for infertility for almost more than 6yrs... Got conceive but baby growth reduced so aborted, now again conceived but HCG level too low, unable to find placenta & baby, so doctor said may b chromosomal abnormalities... What to do??? Very much frustrated..
So sorry Kelsie, keep staying strong and never giving up, you’re so brave for sharing your story. You and your husband are fighters and soon you’ll have your little baby fighter here with you in your arms. Prayers for a healthy and strong growing babe, you were made to be a mom💕💕
I know it doesn’t feel this way, but she was with you on your trip and she is with you now ❤️ thank you for sharing your journey Kelsie. Praying for you guys!!
Oh honey I'm so sorry! I've been closely following your story and you are both in my prayers! I know the struggle. Been TTC for 3 years. We just had our second miscarriage (one from iui last year and last one was last week from our first fresh transfer). Gearing up for our next cycle. Can't wait to see you get your rainbow baby! Soo much baby dust! ❤🍍
Sorry for your losses and baby dust to you too
Praying for you! The ornament at the end was just beautiful 💜
I think my husband and I will be going into IVF soon, nearing the end of our last IUI and I dont think it took.. I've appreciated being able to watch your journey 💜
My heart is with you!!! You are so brave and strong! May you and your husband find comfort and peace this holiday season as I know this time of year can be a struggle! You will be in my prayers!
Beautiful name, I love it. ♥️ the Christmas ornament is precious. Praying for y’all.
Kelsie I'm so sorry. You literally had me in tears. You're right, there wasn't going to be a "right" result from the tests, either way would be just as hard as the other. I'm send you both ALL of my love. Crossing my fingers for your next transfer. ❤️❤️❤️ You guys deserve your rainbow baby.
Kirsten & Steven - The Cowbell Life thank you so very much 💜
Perfectly said
I don’t have words to heal but you’re in my thoughts, prayers and hopes
YOU ARE THE DEFINITION OF STRENGTH! You are a warrior ❤️
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 you are so strong, Kelsie. I've been watching your videos for about 2 years now and struggling with my own infertility too. My oncologist is having me wait a year (I beat breast cancer this summer and finished up treatment in October). And then we are going to do a FET 🤞 I'm cheering you on from Pennsylvania 🎉💪💕💕💕
You are so so strong 💗 what a beautiful name. Sending you so much love 💗💗
My OBGYN told me she had 3 transfers of IVF before the one stuck. You are so brave! My heart and prayers are with you girly!💜
What a beautiful name 💕 whatever your path may be, so many positive thoughts and prayers sent your way ❤️
I love that you named your beautiful little girl after such a beautiful place.
Praying that this new medication protocol is the answer! Infertility just sucks and the not knowing is the worst. I'm sorry you have to deal with that.
Thank you for sharing your story... I recently had my first pregnancy...first twins... and first loss at 12 weeks. Then my first D&C... its a kick in the heart but hearing others share their stories have made me feel less alone.
On a happier note I love Breckenridge- I used to live in CO and would ski there all the time. I hope you enjoy your time there.
My heart is absolutely breaking for you 💔 I'm so sorry for your loss 😔
Prayers for you going up right now. My daughter in law lost her first few pregnancy’s and they found out she had the clotting disorder. They put her on blood thinners (she gave herself 2 shots a day) and went on to have 4 beautiful children. I am praying that this is your answer too. ❤️
I’m so sorry hunies!! I’m so close to tears. Brecklyn is a beautiful name and your baby girl is a little angel!
Oh sweet pea. I am so so sorry. I have so much empathy for you. I have been there. Our 4th consecutive loss was chromosomaly normal baby girl as well. We have a LOT of the same issues. PCOS. Hashimoto’s, Asherman’s. Endo. I feel such a connection to your channel because of the similarities. We recently last week had our 6th consecutive loss. I am sending you all of my love,
Hugs and prayers. ❤️😁
This has me tearing up. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby girl. I can't imagine what you are going through. A part of me was hoping to would be abnormal just so you would have an answer. I pray that the Lovenox is the answer and that in January you will carry to term and have a happy and healthy 9 months. You have been through so much and no one deserves to be a mother as much as you do! Sending lots of hugs and love your way.
Continuously praying for you, your strength, and courage. You are beyond amazing and we all pray that you will be blessed very soon.
I’m so sorry sweetheart 😞💕 I hope you feel much better soon and keep strong!❤️
I have so much hope for you but I’m so glad to see you trying to find happiness during a difficult season of your life, I know it’s not easy!
Love you Kelsie. I’m crying with you. Thank you for being so brave to share this video. Praying for you guys so so much, that one day soon you’ll get to hold your healthy, beautiful rainbow babies in your arms and your grief turns to happiness. ♥️
This is so raw and beautiful. I cried with you... thank you for sharing your story. You are in my thoughts and I HOPE you get your healthy baby! ❤️
You are very strong for sharing your journey!! Ik it's not easy talking about your losses, I struggle talking about my 3 losses my last being in September as well. I wish we would have done the test to see what caused my miscarriages but I couldn't. I blame myself as well because ik that it's me. It's a horrible cycle but it's just easy to blame our selves. My husband and I are keeping yall in our prayers that this coming cycle yall will get y'alls rainbow baby 🌈!! 💗💗
I’ve been through three losses as well, my most recent in Sept too. Ugh it’s just so hard I get it. But don’t ever apologize for crying, this kind of trauma is brutal and so unfair. Just know you aren’t alone and we are all thinking of you 💜
You’re so strong momma!
My husband and I had our third loss in December 2019. We opted for a d&c so we could possibly find out what went wrong and the sex of our baby. Our baby boy had complete Trisomy 16, we named him Noah. It’s heartbreaking.
So sorry for your losses.
I'm so sorry Kelsie. I have been following you for a while. I started watching because you had a great review of the ovosense and to learn about IUI. I've learned so much from you and your husband. I'm praying for your spiritual healing and for your strength to get through the next transfer. I'm praying so hard that you to have that rainbow baby.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I admire ur strength and honestly. It's not your fault, or your body. Just pray !!
You are amazing. You are sharing such a personal and emotional journey. I realize people may say things with great intentions but sometimes it may not be the right thing. It is okay to feel however you feel. And as a Nurse, wow those are significant medications. You and all women going through this journey are amazing
I’m so sorry for your loss. I went through a miscarriage, and it is hard. It’s ok to cry and be where you are. We stand with you.
Shedding tears for you and for myself. Your heart ache is mine too. I can't tell you how much it means. I know the tears will be wiped from our eyes someday
I definitely resonate with grieving because you don’t know why your body is failing you. That’s how I felt during my ectopic. It didn’t make any sense and I’m terrified that my body is going to “sabotage” me again.
Lots of hugs. You are strong.
You're so brave for sharing with us your journey. Sending you a prayer for you and your family ❤️ I hope that your next transfer is successful and finally become the mommy you hope for and deserve. 🙏🏻
Sorry for your loss. You are indeed a very strong woman!
I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending love that your next little one sticks and stays with you. xo
I’m so sorry for your loss. Don’t apologize for crying. You’re a Momma crying for her baby. It’s completely understandable. Sending you a big hug.
You are so strong! I can't imagine having to go though what you need to go through. I've had the lovenox shots before and they didn't hurt at all, but they left awful bruises. I'm thinking of you and sending you strong twin energy for your next transfer!
I’m in tears with you... stay strong mamma ❤️ you’re an inspiration to many including myself through IVF. Sending you a big hug ✨ Your Angel Baby girl Brecklynn will be guiding you along the way.
I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby girl. Never apologize for showing your love for her and pain at losing her ❤My family is praying and pulling for you and your husband. I'm hoping to bring you just a little extra hope and faith today. My uncle and aunt went through many battles to conceive and then ivf with multiple heartbreaks like yours. Through years of faith and more grit and perseverance than I possess, they finally carried a beautiful girl to term, and a couple years later she became unexpectedly pregnant again with their son. This fall their daughter headed off to college. We are looking forward to seeing some of your pain tempered by joy when you finally get to hold your child in your arms after all this loss.
Lack of willpower? Friend. You are seriously one of the strongest people I've ever "gotten to know" (via the Internet of course). You are an inspiration. And I love that you named your baby (we named our losses as well). Her name is beautiful. Praying for your heart and your next transfer. ♥️
Oh mama, my heart hurts with and for you! Takes me back to my loses and just all the feels I had in that time in my life. Thinking and praying for you guys and your future! ♥️♥️ thank you for sharing your journey as hard as it might be!
I have been following you for a while now and I’m so sorry for your loss. I, myself have had 8 miscarriages. I have 4 babies now, 7, 4 (twins) and we just delivered our last baby, via ivf on October 7th. I had to be on lovenox and heparin throughout my pregnancies and 6 weeks after. I have factor 2, a rare clotting disorder that can cause miscarriages. I hope your new protocol works for you like it did for us. Brecklynn Hope is such a beautiful name and I pray you get your rainbow baby very soon! Prayers for your transfer in January.
Kelsie, I had tears in my eyes from this video. Even though I'm far away (all the way from the Netherlands) I feel you are close to my heart and I find myself thinking "how's Kelsie" from time to time, since I've been following you for quite some time already. If by any chance, you'd like to write (email, actual letter) with someone you're not familiar with, just to write down a few thoughts, be angry, vent every now and then, just let me know. I thank you for sharing your messages with us, being so very real and open about it all. HOPE is the most beautiful name, by the way. Sending you and your husband lots of love ❤️
Anja Beverwijk Same with me, all the war from Germany. I also find myself thinking „how is kelsie“ from time to time. Lots of Love from Stuttgart, Germany
I’m so sorry for your loss. She has a beautiful name. I’m currently on daily thinners. I know lots of people who have had success with them and I am rooting for you, your husband, and babies. You are right you can never be ready after experiencing loss.
Dont apologize for crying! I mean I cried a little watching this! Prayers for a bit more healing. One day...you will have your rainbow baby! I know it's hard as hell right now to think...but with each loss I think you get more information on how to try and sustain a pregnancy. Love and baby dust for January! ❤❤❤❤❤
Happy belated birthday 🎂 !!! Hoping that y’all enjoy your trip 🙏🏻💗. This infertility journey is one of the most challenging roller coaster rides I’ve ever been on to say the least. I’ll keep u and ur hubby in my prayers
I have chills. I have tears. I have no words, other than I'm sorry. Thinking of you and your beautiful family. xoxo
Continued prayers and hugs for you both. You are an amazing woman and you don't need to apologize Kelsi.
Kelsie, I am so sorry. When you said the baby was genetically normal, my heart just broke for you. Sometimes...there just are no answers and it sucks. You're human, I don't think anyone can say they wouldn't feel as you do, wanting to blame yourself. But it won't change anything, all you can do is move forward. You're very strong. Wishing you the very best. ❤️
I was only able to hold back my tears until I saw the ornament at the end. 😢 Praying for you and your husband during this time & praying that you guys receive your rainbow baby in 2020.💜
I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet Brecklynn. What a beautiful name for a beautiful baby ❤️ All the prayers for your sweet fam.
My heart sunk hearing the results........
Crying with you all the way throughout the video.
All I have to say it's I AM SO SO SORRY!! My heart aches for you.
Not sure if saying what I'm about to say will bring you hope, but Lovenox was MY ANSWER!
I was in Lovenox from 3 days before transfer, and stayed on it until 36 weeks. I'm a strong believer that it made all the difference for me. I also had 3 losses prior to caring on a full term pregnancy, so it just make sense to me.
One last thing, which I have told you before... YOU ARE INCREDIBLY STRONG HUMAN BEING!
Thank you for sharing your journey with us and giving each one of us strength to go after our dreams everyday!
Hugs to you and Anthony!
Lidiana Dutra Beg I'm so happy to hear that it worked for u♥️ but may I ask u if ur hcg levels were normal and doubling in ur three loses or was it slow rising? I'm having trouble keeping a healthy pregnancy 😞
Kelsie I've commented a couple times, I haven't gone through the ivf like you have. But I just had my 3rd loss in oct 2018. For me I found peace eventually knowing their sex/gender. I proudly have 1 daughter and 2 sons. Haley Faith, Linkin Michael and Emerson Theodore. I felt I needed to give them their names because they were very real to me they were a part of me. For me I feel peace very personally because I still feel like a momma but to 3 Angel's and the I can be a mother to them by talking about them, talking TO them and not forgetting them. I am a mom of 3 they are just not earth bound with me. I just want to say your little girls name is so beautiful and no matter what you need to process and go through all of the feelings you and Anthony both. I'm sending so much love and hopefully some understanding peace and comrodery your way! Xoxox
What a beautiful name! She just must have been too perfect for earth! You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers! I also pray for your January transfer!! 💕🙏🏻
Oh, Kelsie 💖💖💖💖 you are stronger than you know. You have such fight inside you, even when you cant feel it yourself, it's there. No one can ever understand why someone peoples journeys are so long and bumpy, while others are not, just know, it is always leading you to where you are meant to go. I wish I could give you a million hugs 💖
I know exactly where you come from having 2 losses myself and having normal genetic and chromosome screenings for me, my husband, and baby. My heart breaks for you both. No matter how early or what those results would have been it was still your baby! You’re not only mourning the loss of a sweet blessing, but the life you planned to have after she got here! Praying for you guys ❤️
Happy Belated Birthday. I’m so sorry again.. my heart is broken with you. I understand the feeling of never feeling ready to try again but I admire your resilience and pray this next transfer will be successful.
Keeping you in my prayers, infertility is awful, I’m sorry your going through this.
I’m so very sorry for all three of your losses.
So sorry for the loss of your little girl. Absolutely heartbreaking.
I pray you get your miracle baby 🙏❤️ So sorry for your losses! Beautiful name for your baby girl!
Sending so much love and prayers your way, sweet girl.