I Had A Mental Breakdown
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- Опубліковано 24 лис 2022
- I'm back! Here is an update on where I have been the past three months. Life threw me one serious curveball, one I am still recovering from. I am so excited to share fun and light hearted content on this platform again. I really appreciate your kindness, patience and support during this time.
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There's a concept in the US for college (i.e. university) basketball, called "survive and advance." You don't always need to be thriving to move forward in the basketball season, just survive and advance to the next round. I've taken this approach to my mental health at various stages and it works sometimes. (And other times it hasn't and I've had to have a therapist work with my on "grounding" exercises because she thought I was going to hyperventilate from sobbing so much during my session.) If it's helpful, take this mentality, "survive and advance," and use it where it makes sense. You're doing all the right things for you. I'm proud of you for getting this far.
I love this! I’ve unconsciously discovered this technique when I tell myself “just get through it, distress tolerance is not making matters worse”. So if you’re not making things worse for yourself or others, you’re surviving whatever it is you’re going through.
So happy to see you back on UA-cam! Missed you and been worried. Sorry to hear what you have been going through, sounds really tough. I know it’s hard to hear this when you going through it but you will come out the other side and you will be BETTER and STRONGER! You seem like such a resilient, positive and strong person before this and I do think you will look back and almost see the positives in this time. It’s really odd to say it but I am grateful for the mental health struggles I’ve had. I had a breakdown in my twenties and I regressed almost child like, I don’t remember a lot of it but my mum had to drag me to a doctor. But I’m grateful for it now. I’m a stronger person, my outlook and priorities in life changed and I know my triggers and how to look after myself. Take care Zanna, your loyal fans will still be here when you are ready. X
Oh Zannah ! Sending so much love, I got tears in my eyes at the bit at the end. I had an amazing ex who supported me through one of my lowest times and was quietly there just like Ant was when he came up and held you saying well done, it is the most beautiful steady thing to have. I'm going through a really tough time mentally too and have been for months especially since end of October - we got this. You're doing amazing, it's all about surviving>thriving and to me, you're thriving in your activities!
Sending you so much love and energy for healing - you are incredible and so brave for sharing this and committing to yourself during such a tough time.
Boy I’ve missed ya! So relieved to see you, I’ve been thinking of you. So happy to see a vlog from you, I’m sure the more you talk about it, you’ll feel the pain and path emerge. You will also discover how many of us have also been through our own journey of a mental health crisis ❤ Well done for getting the ball rolling as they say, sometimes I still have the odd moments and I use the fake it until I make it attitude and eventually the moment passes. There is a-lot of realisation in these moments, simplicity is so underrated, family & personal time is taken for granted at times. Our body’s so amazing & just says 🛑 stop! You do you, you are loved and are a very special human. You have the Great Anthony, Mummy & Daddy Van Dyke and you sound like you taking care of yourself with all the fabulous ways to reconnect with your mind, body & soul. Meditation, journaling, therapy and love! You’ve got this! This girl can and will ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I’m sorry to hear about your struggles, I send you so much love and light 🙏🏻 x
Much love to you. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Therapy can be tough but so transformative. You will get through this but take the time you need to heal. We’re all here supporting you and there’s no pressure to vlog. You come first. Xx
So proud of you for sharing this! I've been there before.I'm still going through the motions&applying tools I've learned in therapy.One thing my therapist said that stuck out to me was "take it one moment at a time bc sometimes a day can be too much." Keep putting yourself first,give yourself grace along the way and just know that each day you wake up&put one foot in front of the other...that's progress! Doing your best looks different everyday. Don't forget that❤️🙏🏾
Thank you so much for sharing! I fall so quickly into the mode of feeling like I'm the only one struggling from time to time. Blessings to you on your healing process xo
I was scared until you said you were going to therapy and that you won’t talk about it until you’ve fully gone through it. Good for you, these are signs of healing. Please also take any medication that you might need to help you through this period. We’re here for you.
Thank you for sharing... sending you lots of positive energy. Lots of us suffer quietly with this issue..... videos like this just lets us know that we are not the only ones out there struggling, and this is a BIG help. Thank you.
Sending so much love and compassion to you while you navigate your way through this difficult time. My daughter went through a similar breakdown which was massively challenging. I have a lot respect for you being brave and showing up here to share. 💕
So glad you wanted to share even this tiny little bit of your life rn, have been worried about you. You've always been so full of life & someone who knows how to make the most of it, and I'm glad that even now, you refuse to let the situation get the best of you, that you're still trying to live life to the fullest, while trying to get it back too. I truly wish you all the very best, and hope that one day soon you will be able to share more with us, for no other reason than that it will be a sign that you are feeling stronger. Good luck with your recovery. Sending you tons of love & good vibes! 🥰 Take care!
Hi Zanna, so amazing to see you back. Take all the time you need, and whatever content you choose to create and not create, it's a joy to engage with. Have a lovely holiday!! Sooo jealous
I too have been through not one but 2 mental breakdowns and I am just going to say take your time in recovering because I just pushed through my first breakdown and didn’t properly process things that lead to it which inevitably lead to a second breakdown. Take your time don’t rush let yourself heal and come back to us when you are ready we will still be here rooting for you xxx thank you for sharing it’s so refreshing and I hope you are being kind to yourself xxxx
Great to see you back, thank you for sharing your story with us. Sending love 💛
So wonderful to see you back on You tube Zanna. Sending loads of love and I hope you have a wonderful holiday. Keep being kind to yourself and giving yourself credit for how strong you have been to get through the days, whatever that might look like xx
Zanna you are doing great and you can be so damn proud of yourself for showing up each day despite everything going on.. even on the days when you don’t realise it yourself!! ❤
Thank you for sharing whatever feels right to share! I respect your thoughtful care of yourself and boundaries which of course need adjusting over time based on all sorts of factors. I’m happy to see you, Ant, and sweet Bella here!
Hi Zanna! Happy you are back and coping. Coping is the first step, and you will get through this. There will be a light at the end of the tunnel. Sending you so much love. I hope you and Ant have an amazing time on the trips.
Much love & support, sister. Thank you so much for sharing - we’re lucky to have you in this space.
Take it easy lovely 💜 and know that this community supports you (and loves you)! And have a wonderful holiday season 😊
You're an amazing human Zanna & we all love you for being you, not what you do. Having been through similar, I assure you you'll rediscover that pure joy with added wisdom & strength. Take good care, be patient, embrace acceptance & be as kind to yourself as you are to others. Big virtual hugs & good health vibes xx🥰
Sending you all the warm thoughts and positive vibes. I'm so glad you have a wonderful support system around you during this time. You've got this. ❤️
I can relate! Wish you all the best with your recovery - lots of love!!
Absolutely loved this video! Thank you so much for opening up to us. I've been really struggling mentally recently after feeling like I had everything together a few months ago and this made me feel less alone. Sending lots of love and healing vibes
Glad to see you again Zanna and thank you for sharing your struggles with us - wishing you healing and recovery ❤️
You’re such a strong person and I’m genuinely so happy about this update! I love your content and I think you should do what you feel like doing and what’s best for you. You got this❤
I have been feeling a bit rubbish today and watching this and seeing you be positive, prioritise your health and still have fun has made me feel a bit more positive inside too xx
I dropped out of uni when I had a mental breakdown, it was so isolating and I thought there was no way back to myself. But as you said, I’m not the same as I was but I’m much stronger and an improved version of myself!! You will get there ❤
Loved seeing a vlog from you again. Sending you all the love and compassion! Take your time babe!❤
Sending you a massive hug and a brushing teeth dance, take all the time you need, we are here for you ❤
I also have two mental health/processing disorders (anxiety and sensory processing) and have only in the past couple of years have I taken real, conscious steps to accept that, and to accept how my brain works. Medication has been a godsend. It is SO normal to have mental health struggles, and the way that a disorder or diagnosis affects you can change in different seasons of your life. I hope that you can find some peace and healing, and know that your viewers and followers support you!
Sending lots of love to you and wishing you the best with your ongoing recovery. It is really brave of you to share your struggles with mental health as there is still so much stigma attached.
Lovely to see you update on your youtube Zanna. Be kind and patient with yourself as you go through this unknown journey.
Sending you a big hug. Whatever you are going through, I hope it passes soon.
I'd like to share some kind advice: your Deliveroo may have been expensive, but you don't need to justify it because it is raining or Wednesday or anything. You deserve it because you deserve it. That's all. We shouldn't feel the need to qualify and quantify our worth, we deserve to be kind to ourselves because we deserve unconditional kindness. ❤️
It is so good to see you. It's like seeing an old friend that I've missed. I can see your bravery shining through and I know you're going to be different, yes. Reinvented Zanna will have an insight that only comes with finding the edges of oneself in hardship. Im looking forward to seeing you again when you're ready luv. Sending a massive hug to you!💕
Girl you are amazing. You do you and take all the time you need to figure things out. Take good care of yourself and welcome back!
So wonderful to watch your video. Can't wait for more when you're ready. You're brilliant Zanna :)
I'm so sorry that you have been going through this. I woke up at the beginning of September with exactly the same symptoms and have never related to a video so much. I know how hard the daily struggle is, you are not alone. Sending you so much love and strength
Love the stripe linen, it looks beautiful! Just wanted to say with your new journey, never feel like you have to explain yourself or your situation to anyone! Sending you lots of love!
Hi Zanna, you are doing so well. wishing you all the best for your recovery and thanks for sharing today.
You are amazing Zanna, thankyou for sharing this🫶
Sending you so much love, you have got this💛
Hey Zana :) Thank you for your honesty in this video, really appreciate that you decided to open up on this channel about how things have been this last couple of months. Loads of hugs and strength, we will be here for you when you feel ready and in the meantime... will continue enjoying any type of content you create, always so inspiring :)
I am always just amazed by the journeys u go on, the hiking up places that make me scared just to look at the picture! But we are all human and have to deal with things in life. It seems cruel that u have been going through such a rough time. Your a beautiful soul and seem to have a great guy by your side. You do what u r comfortable doing and do not push urself. Mental health is everything, and for those of us that follow u, will b here when ur ready…. You are an inspiration, thank u for being so honest. ❤
So lovely to see you Zanna! Just take your time and heal, one day at a time. Warm hugs and love 🤗🤍🤗
Praying you have better days ahead💕 you are strong and powerful. Be gentle and kind to yourself xxx
You are doing so great! And just so you know you don’t have to tell what exactly you are going through until you feel safe/good enough to do so❤️ I know the day will come maybe months or years later but we all be here supporting you! 🥰
Hi Zanna, I don't usually leave a comment but I had to say that you should be so proud of yourself for having the strength to do this video. My brother had a breakdown a few years ago and it did take him a long time to get to this point where he is now and he is thriving. He isn't the same person prior to the breakdown and I am so proud of him getting to this point in his life. You take all the time you need, there is no set time there is just love and support. I am sending all my strength and love your way! And with Ant and Bella by your side you have so much love! Take care ❤️
New subscriber. What a brave brave woman you are for speaking about your mental health. Sorry to hear that it happened, but you’ve such a great mindset and outlook about it and wish the heavy clouds lift for you ⛅️! Better things are ahead ❤
i went through something like this a couple of times in my life. i'm 42 now and i have, very luckily, found a combination of medications that keep me relatively stable and i'm finally at a point where i can say i'm doing really well, but i absolutely understand the struggle. i spent actual, entire years feeling completely at odds with myself; one time i took the birth control pill for 10 months and didn't connect it to the debilitating anxiety i also had at the time. anyway, don't feel like you need to share your story right now or ever, just know that there are people out here who have been there and are giving you support and love over time and distance. you do what feels right to do, whatever that may be.
My first introduction to your channel. Looking forward to being inspired to continue my journey in life.
Sorry you have been struggling. Most of my life has been up ,down , recovery. Never gets any easier but
I seem to always improve coming out knowing myself better.
So sorry for what you have gone through. I wish you well. Please be kind to yourself & take every day as it comes. You are amazing! I hope you have a restful Christmas break & wishing you strength & positive vibes. Xx
Gosh Zanna, I can see and hear that it’s really tough and difficult for you. Life is a journey and you should take all the time you need to figure this out for yourself. And you should share whatever you feel like sharing or not! Big hugs 🫂
So happy you are back! I’ve missed your videos. I struggle with mental health since I was a teenager, I know it’s hard ❤
Amazing to speak about, continue to follow you and your journey... take all the time you need and hope your enjoying the Maldives... one of my dream destinations ❤
Sending you all my love! So happy to see you!!❤️
Try not to stress over that you don't feel like yourself, accept what is and you will create a new awesome version of yourself🌟
So much love to you Zanna. You’re not alone. You’re brave speaking about your thoughts and feelings. Xx
You will most definitely come out on the other side and eventually be thriving! Take it one day at a time and take care of your needs the best you can. I also suffered from something similar in 2018 and it has indeed been a long journey of healing and rebuilding but i can honestly say that Ive never felt better than I do now. I think anyone, whether or not you've suffered a mental breakdown could afford to embark on healing journey. Yes at first, after my mental breakdown, it was truly difficult and I had to get on low dosages of psyche meds which bascially saved my life to be frank. The meds gave me the ability to work on myself and i've been doing so ever since. You will learn things about yourself you never imagined having gone through that and now im at such a good, self aware and self loving point in my life that in my heart I feel deeply that going through that hell was somehow a blessing in disguise. Thank you for sharing this truly vulnerable and raw truth you had to endure. It will help a lot of people to also get the help they need. Thank you!
Zanna I’m sending you ❤️ and wish you health, I hope you find the energies and strength to cope and get better .Missed you and I’m glad you feel well enough to post this video.
New to your channel - I’ve suffered with my mental health from a very young age - sometimes we just need to carve out some space and time for us to heal and recover - go easy, softly and gently with yourself hon. Sending lots of health from Sydney Australia xx
You’ve only recently come into my life and I’m so glad you did love your workouts and your chats sending you love and support hope you’re feeling better and adjusting ❤
Lovely to see you, this probably took guts too. Thank you for just being honest and hope you get to feel better soon xx
So glad to see you back, sis! Sending you love as you heal. Take care 🌻
Sending you lots of love! I went through several major depressive episodes but with learning coping skills I'm in a much better place. I say that to let you know there's hope in whatever you are going through. Maybe take some time to slow down...like actuallyslow down. Even when you take a break it seems like you have at least a hundred different plans going on...and thats not an exaggeration. Again sending you love!😊🧡
I hear ya. It’s very frightening. Thankyou for sharing. Your honesty is very helpful to me and I’m sure many others❤️🇨🇦
That's so brave that you are able to talk about it ,I am wishing you all the best in the world,one day at the time and focus on the positives ,sending you my love 💓 ❤️
BIG HUGS to you Zanna. Wish you a quick healing process. Keep smiling!!!
sending you the most love ever. u r so brave to share this online. wishing u the best in ur recovery
I completely feel for you and sympathise with you xx I had a mental breakdown 2 years ago and still take it day by day xx exercise definitely helps me and support from others xx you are not alone xxx
Hannah, totally understand what your going through. There are so many different types of mental health issues out there, so to me everyone is different and deals with it in their own way and what works for them. By talking to us about it you are helping not only yourself but others who maybe going through similar things. Sending much love to you, take care and enjoy your break away. Lovely to see you. ❤
❤❤❤❤ sending you all the virtual hugs for the past months and the ones ahead 😊 thanks for sharing your updates and what’s been going on, and love the useful content on insta! Especially recommendations and so, ordering some of the books you suggested last week! ❤
Great to see you! I hope things keep getting better 🙏🏻
Lovely Zanna - sending all my love & best wishes. I’m a longgg time subscriber/follower - and my respect & goodwill for you continually grows 💛✌️
Whatever you are going through is your superpower! Turn it around and make it ‘what makes you’! You’re amazing the way you are!
Darling, you are so brave. There’s no wrong way to express how you’re feeling. Our brains are the most important organ, and yet, because the brain controls how we feel and how we express ourselves, mental health disorders and conditions are those that we are the least able to vocalize about. What you are doing now, is exercising your healing muscles; all while sharing to help others feel less isolated in their own mental health-health. Brava, darling! PS; I’m a survivor of substance use disorder and Anxiety Disorder and can tell you from experience, that you have what you need to thrive - good professionals and good support. Keep rocking your (sometimes sucky) awesome journey!💯💕☺️✌🏻
Continue taking good care of yourself, it's good to see you but you need to put yourself first right now 🤗 Wishing you a restful December ❤️
I'm cheering for you Zanna. I love your vlogs and will look forward to each one. Do what you need to do to heal.
This felt the most authentic video of yours, it feels almost wrong to say how much I enjoyed it, it really comes from a place of appreciation for you, your bravery and your candour. And your love for the beings in your life. I'm looking forward to seeing how your recovery continues. Sending compassion and respect.
I've followed you for years and will continue to support you and your content through thick and thin. You're a real inspiration, Z. Just keep swimming 💙 xxx
Missed you so much Zanna! I've never even met you in person but I just know that you are one of the most strongest and resilient woman that there is. Every day is different and there will be ups and downs but you absolutely got this. Sending all the love your way. Thank you for sharing and for being you. You are AMAZING! and never forget that. x
Sending a lot of love ❤! Thank you for sharing. I had also a mental breakdown at the beginning of August. It’s not easy to get back in the saddle…. Take care and again thanks for sharing. Greetings from Germany!
So glad to see you zanna! Even if it's just once in a while! Hang in there
So nice to see you back on UA-cam again, hope you don't feel pressure with doing videos, life is more important, hope you feel better soon x
It's so great to have you back Zanna
Just found your channel today, wanting to look at my home county cause I've been away for a while. I have also had a similar experience to you, a few times. I promise things will get better, thanks for being so open about it! Your openness is a strength that will help you recover.
I am an avid mental health awareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my UA-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💚
It's really good to see you back here again. Having said that, the most important thing is to take care of yourself! Do what feels right and take all the time you need. 🥰
Zanna I have followed you for almost 4 years and I wanna say that you are not alone through this, we are many that are facing this, and It's so good to normalize this type of thing. You are now more strong that before, and I encourage so much because It's not easy, kisses from Spain💛
💚💚. You are doing great with your journey (MH journey can be hard, slow, uncomfortable etc mine certainly is) People don’t always need to know the in & outs of things. Just do what’s right for you!!
I just want to give you a big hug! You will get through it all, I promise 💛
You don’t know when these things hit you!! But with therapy, work and support you’ll get there. Sending you all the love, happiness and health xxxx
Sending you lots of love Zanna. Those who love the most also feel the most
A brave and raw blog. Sending positive and healing vibes. Big hugs x
Lovely to see your gorgeous face and beautiful smile hun. Keep looking after yourself 🥰 All the love and positivity to you babes ❤️😘 Xoxo 🇦🇺
Zanna, I am never usually one to comment, but I was so drawn too.
I am so so sorry for what you are going through right now, but I thank you so much for sharing even just these details in this video.
It’s relatable content that touched my heart more than I can even share ❤ It reminded me that I am not alone in mental health challenges/ journeys like this.
I wish you all the best and all the love in your process of healing ❤
So lovely to see you gorgeous lady, you do what you need to do, and we are here for you, we love all of your content, most of all, we want you to look after yourself, be well, be healthy, be loved xxxx
Zanna, I have followed you for years. I am so sorry you have had such an awful time. You are truly an amazing human! Please just take your time, we are all behind you!!! Sending you lots of love and the biggest hug XXX
u r brave. hope u can share soon as i am sure many also struggle with the same. take care and hugs
Hello Zanna, hang in there it will be okay. You have the support of the most important people in your life and are going to come out on the other side.