“what in the world do we have a quarter to four” is different for me because at that hour in the afternoon I find myself bored and sad because my mind wanders to a person I love(d) and I wonder what we have anymore 🙃
i’ve always felt that “when you go quiet, i hate myself” was a representation of the overthinking and self deprecating thoughts that come to play when you’re beside someone that doesn’t seem to give you what you need or talk to you and let you in; therefore, causing you to overthink and feel as though you’re the problem. it brings out a feeling of self blame and unworthiness, incapable of being the person someone you love could confide in since they are just beside you dealing with their issues but not letting you in and leaving you detached from the narrative in a way
my senior quote this year was “i promise you, it’ll all make sense again” - i attempted suicide twice my senior year of high school and this lyric has extreme significance in my life. for my 17th birthday, my sister took me to a dodie concert in oakland, california. while dodie was singing, my sister held me close while i wept through the song “secret for the mad” - i plan on getting it tattooed on my foot when shops open up more. that lyric changed my life, it’s something i tell myself everyday.
that one has been great help for me too. there’s been so many times where i feel like im going to loose myself and this is it.. and that lyric among many others of dodies had just been so lovely.
You are so incredible, that tattoo is going to look so lovely on you and your beautiful self ❤️ I am so glad you are here and I hope you have a great day
Timecodes: 1:04 - If i'm Being Honest 1:47 - in the bed 3:46 - Burned Out 5:43 - Before The Line 7:30 - Four Tequilas Down 8:40 - Special Girl 9:32 - Cool Girl 10:06 - In The Middle 10:54 - Monster 11:19 - Human 11:34 - Sorry 12:23 - All My Daughters 14:46 - Hate Myself 15:36 - She
I know you skipped it, but the lyric “a dark politician will end up alone” is one of my favorites, so I wanted to say what it means to me. Someone who twists words and scenarios and does everything with the intent of getting something in return, at the end of the day, has no one. They spend time lying and bargaining and it amounts to nothing, never knowing love.
My Grandma was listening to In The Middle with me a year or two ago and asked "is this about a threesome?" And I was like "noooo, there's no way that's what it's about"... I guess I owe her an apology
@@doddlevloggle grammatical intervention can almost reverse the meaning from companionship to a hostage situation: "paint me in. trust, i'll be your best friend." just sayin
dodie mentioned it more than once, maybe regretting an unhealthy narrative in a lyric, but it’s very lovely that music lets you show all your worst thoughts and feelings w benevolence. some lyrics seem unhealthy, but you hold you hold the feeling’s hand and give that feeling a place
i like the imagery of holding a feeling in your hand and then letting it fly away, almost like a bird. i personify or objectify my feelings as a coping tool from therapy so that i can examine them, and i might try this. thank you kind stranger
thissss. i really appreciate whenever artists put their raw emotion no matter how unhealthy or silly it is. a lot of times there are people who have similar feelings. and if not then it allows others to understand it a little better.
The lyric “I’ll never be sixteen again” in “When” made me WEEP. I understand that you probably wrote that lyric when you were wishing to relive one of the best years of your life (possibly???, I could be very wrong sorry), but for me hearing that lyric now that I’m seventeen made me realise how much I missed out on when I was sixteen. I fell out with close friends, plummeted into a really bad mental state, and I just felt so lonely all the time, obviously this was all happening during the pandemic (and i got the virus in winter wuhay I guess we’re twinning, Dodie lmao). I feel so dumb writing this cause I know it could’ve been so much worse, but I just feel like I missed out on what was supposed to be one of the best years of my life. Hopefully the rest of the year is gonna be a bit more exciting than last.
I'm a few years past sixteen, and I can tell you that there's no timeline for any teenage experiences. Your "sixteen" could be this year, or maybe it'll be a few years of your life. Sometimes we get the rough parts first, then the time of our lives follows. No matter the age, you never lose the opportunity to have fun and enjoy life like you're sixteen. I'm wishing that you have a better seventeen.
"take the energy of anxiety and turn it into....horniness lol" -dodie Me: 👁️👄👁️ 🧐 🤔🤯 I don't know why this is so revolutionary to me lol it makes a whole lotta sense
i always felt really seen by "special girl" but for a totally different read than what was intended, i think? the line "hate me first, yeah, make me work, that's perfect" and "i found my worth in this world by proving i'm a special girl" struck me as musings from the inside of a gifted kid complex? like, if you did well in school as a kid, you feel this compulsion to be promising and special from every point of view. and when someone doesn't happen to think you're marvelous, you're like, "ah, yes. that means i must demonstrate my talent and *make you*." every time i listen to the song, it reminds me of feeling like, great! i'm going to get a good grade in being a person. something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,
it has nothing to do with the original meaning of the song, but All My Daughters holds a special place in my heart, cause at a time where i was feeling a TON of dysphoria and dealing with transphobia at home, being called someone’s “daughter” really meant a lot. p.s. love ya dodie! thank you for everything you do!
hey sister! i hope you're feeling better now and i'm glad that the song was able to help you during a tough time. i hope you've got heaps of friends and loved ones to give you so much love and support
“So just hold me like you mean it, we’ll pretend because we need it” i think is one of your most beautiful lyrics, it’s been stuck in my head ever since I heard it. And the way the music pauses before it continues really gives it that emotional pull, perfection.
That pause is EVERYTHING. It's like the whole world fades away and you're left in the solitary space with the two protagonists and their feelings bubble.
I interpreted "when you go quiet, I hate myself" as the end of a conversation in which I am revealing something abt myself to you, I secret I've kept. & you go quiet & I hate myself for ruining our relationship by telling the truth. I read your quiet as disappointment or horror or fear or hate abt the secret I've shared. Your opinion of me is changed forever & I hate myself for just not saying anything. I interpret it as this kind of anxiety-reaction to sharing your soul w/ someone & not getting an immediate reaction. My brain goes into overdrive & I have so much doubt. When really, the person I've shared with probably just needs a moment to process, to collect themselves, to think through a response. But, in that one moment of quiet, my mind becomes a storm.
i interpret it similarly, except that (partially because i’m neurodivergent) i have a hard time keeping conversation with people i don’t know well, so whenever even people closest to me go quiet, peacefully or otherwise, mid-conversation or -interaction, i end up blaming myself and plotting out a worst case scenario contingency plan.
I feel that. I just told one of my best friends that I might have a crush on them and now I wish I just never told them because it makes everything so... different
@@panda839578567659610 i am people pleaser and in a lot of occasions i have felt like i need to have my friends and my loved ones very close to me all the time to make sure they like me. When they go under the radar for a bit i question if they forgot or dont care about me / dont like me and then hate myself because of that emotional dependence on others. I also hate myself because i feel like i drive people away, good old fear of abandonment
Oh that’s interesting! I interpreted it as the end of a fight, you’ve said something that stuns them, in a bad way, and you hate yourself for not thinking before talking.
I've been listening to your music since I was 13... I'm 19 now and one line that has ALWAYS managed to make me tear up is "I'll never be sixteen again" I remember singing it over and over under my breath when I WAS sixteen and just starting to space completely out of my life. I wanted to enjoy it as much as I could, but failed miserably, and then it was over.
i always interpreted "hate myself" as the aftermath of an abusive relationship....like being punished with silence, never knowing what's right, the immense anxiety that comes with that
I never fully appreciated She until I had it bad for a girl who couldn’t love me back. It does feel oddly good to hurt…. As a supposed “daughter” personally I love listening to your music and watching your videos because I know you aren’t perfect. You have a transparency that most others wouldn’t be brave enough to have
Guiltless to me is about certain family members of mine witnessing my abusive childhood and not putting a stop to it despite their situational power. It’s a way for me to push all my resentment into that song, and then allow myself to forgive. The dark politician is a specific person, and there could not be a better description. Thank you for this song
I wanna draw venn diagrams of dodie song themes.... Sorry & Monster, Burned Out & All My Daughters, Before The Line & When.... There are crossovers between some of these songs that would be really interesting to explore.
“hate myself” to me is about anxiety and overthinking about the people you caring about liking you. seeing a shift in their expression and worrying you said something wrong, constantly trying to explain their behaviors by something you could have possibly done
me and my best friend bonded over your music, over our summer holidays we're both going to print out the song lyrics of build a problem and each listen to the album and annotate along with what specific lyrics mean to us and then exchange annotations and re-listen taking them in mind, to try and *understand* each other better u know, does this make any sense? This is so interesting to me, the lyrics on this album are so special and beautiful :)
6/10 holds a very special place in my heart- i first heard it when i was beginning to go through the self discovery reckoning that all young mentally ill teens go through and it's carried me through it all. it just helped me feel less alone and a little more normal when i felt like i couldn't stand out more. especially the bridge at the end of all the voices overlapping, feels like the epitome of a brain with social anxiety
always wondered ab “ignorant trauma in one afternoon”, feels like you experienced a traumatic event in a day when u were younger that u didn’t realize was traumatic until much later in life
it wasn't mentioned, but arms unfolding is probably my favorite song of yours and the reasons why have changed over the years. every time i go back and listen to arms unfolding it has a different meaning to me, and i just hold that song so close to my heart. i saw you perform live a few years ago and the show opened with arms unfolding and i was just bawling in the middle of the concert floor it was very classy :)))
I cried so hard when I saw her preform it and I sometimes cry when I hear it in general but I remember it starting and I was just crying so much and I was like “and this is only the first song” it was the best
“Seeps through the cracks and so I start to choke” actually inspired a painting I made about a year ago, and it looks a lot like the image you described!!
“It feels oddly good to hurt” us one of my favorite lines! I totally understand what you mean, I’ve always said to my long distance girlfriend that I love her with a deep ache in my bones. She’s wonderful we’re wonderful but our love has an achy heaviness to it too.
“But love was always something heavy for me. Something I had to carry.” - Benjamin Alire Sáenz, in 'Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe' is a line that has hit me over and over again since the first time I read it, because love IS heavy, isn't it? So "it feels oddly good to hurt" matches up beautifully with that
@@doddleoddle didn’t want to bring back any bad mems that’s all lol. i’ve found my own meaning for it and can relate to the song from my own interpretation so that’s good enough for me!
To me that lyric screams gaslighting by a parental figure - someone that’s supposed to take care of you is twisting your words for their own gain. But that’s also me projecting my own experiences and doesn’t say anything about what dodie’s intent was
fantasizing about a person when you know you should be trying to get over them. then "comfort and pain" reminds me of "it feels oddly good to hurt" in she - the pain that comes with love, especially when its over and thinking back is comforting yet painful
doddlevloggle that concept reminds me so much of stop making this hurt by bleachers. the lyric that repeats in the chorus is “stop making this hurt, just say goodbye like you mean it” and i totally think of it as trying not to hold on to the memories of someone when you know it’s only causing you pain (that’s not what the song is Actually about, but it still works)
I've always loved your lyric "they say they like my eyes but I've only ever seen them in the dark" from when. Something about it hits me so deeply, the idea of someone saying they love you but there's no way of them knowing you because you haven't shown them. Or if you interpret "them" in the lyric as your own eyes it gets interesting as well because it's saying that you don't even know yourself, you can't see what they love about you. The lyric just has always meant so much to me and your lyrics are so powerful and beautiful thank you 💗
whenever I hear "surely you know to close them instead" it reminds me of the imagery of closing your eyes when you kiss someone, like, stop worrying, just throw yourself into it, just kiss them - that line in particular reminds me a lot of I kissed someone (it wasn't you).
this past year i’ve gone on a bit of journey embracing my (possibly) being autistic, and ‘hate myself’ just perfectly expresses the difficulties i had with communication growing up honestly thank you for that song, cause it’s put into words something i struggled for years to
I've always massively related to Guiltless, it hits so close to home. The themes of a parent lacking in maturity and responsibility, resulting in petty arguments over nothing was something I'd never heard discussed in a song before but I so deeply related to it. For me, it helped me understand the process of learning to accept my life and family for what it is and who they are, and learning to that sometimes you just have to put up with people - eventually it's not worth having the same pointless argument over and over.
Four tequila’s down was painfully and beautifully relatable and caused a lot of reflection on why we make the choices we make and weather it’s valid to do so sometimes.
@@lolicdia oooooh Never saw it that way. I saw it as the pov of being a rebound. Cause that's what i felt like at that moment. I felt like he was only with me so that he can forget the one he actually liked or bcs he can't get her in the first place. Thus "Something in me says, that this is okay" means "I know you're using but it's alright cause your "love" feels good" for me. But i can see why it can be a song abt cheating.
‘build a problem’ came out during the lowest point of my life so far. ‘before the line’ specifically explained a lot of things i was feeling, and it helped me realize i was not alone in my feelings. that album was such a blessing, and was instrumental (pun intended) in helping me get better. so thank you!
My personal meaning of the lyric "A dark politician will end up alone". I imagine someone (like a parent or family member) sharing their "dark" almost threatening opinions on sensitive subjects, leaving everyone around them feeling uneasy and threatened. And everyone eventually leaves the "dark politician" and he is now left alone.
For me it had that meaning of being a very manipulative person that's trying to convince her that it wasn't really that important or they're not to blame or she's just making it too big of a deal idk. But I think it plays on the idea of politicians being convincing and deceitful sometimes
“black lipstick will never be a sin”!!! also just wanted to pop in and say that “when” means so much to me in its entirety. its such a lovely beautiful song and i loved hearing it when i was much younger and it came out but now that im older (and actually older than 16 lol) i can really Fully feel all the feelings its talking about and it holds a very special place in my heart :’) sick of losing soulmates will also always be a favorite of mine. idk how to explain it but the whole song just feels so beautifully delicate which is how i view the relationships it makes me think about in my own life. that being said all your lyrics are gorgeous!! ive been a fan since 2016 and its been such a pleasure seeing u grow in ur songwriting abilities
for meeee "black lipstick will never be a sin" means like you might wear things that others think are ugly/unsightly like black lipstick, "too much" eyeshadow, certain clothing styles that you'll cringe at later, but it'll never be a sin, it'll never be wrong, you were happy and having so much fun
PLEASE I DEFINITELY ASKED ABOUT “A dark politician will end up alone “ CUZ IT WAS THE FIRST THING I COULD THINK OF AND SHE WENT “Nah” AND THIS IS SO FUNNY
I think Arms Unfolding is one of your best songs. That lyric is so beautiful. I’m so happy for your success, my friend. I can’t wait to hear how you progress as a songwriter.
I got derealized when I was six, everytime I sing "gotta get it in my head / I'll never be sixteen again" there's this bitter humor to it because I can't imagine having sixteen whole years of clear memories
I can relate, not with derealization, but with being disabled, a lot of people are talking about the experience of a clear "before" and "after"(and that's super valid and their lived experience)but I can't relate, I don't have a clear "before" just dealing with the actual thing and the better spots and the worse...
"I hate the world and it doesn't care, we just sit there" is the best description of my depression I've ever heard, thanks Dodie, gonna go have a cry now
sorry is my favorite song atm, the lyrics are lovely and a bit sad but it’s honestly the instrumentals that make it my favorite. the way they build up can make me a little less spacey for a minute. a friend of mine described the build up as “like taking a breath” and yeah. i just love it sm ahhh that song
thank youuu especially for your vulnerability in “burned out” lyrics, ideation + smoke seeping thru cracks line. so grateful for you & your music dodie
This video feels so comforting! The lighting, the softness of the mic and the calmness of the notes being played. It just feels like a warm hug. I had to start self isolating the same day as dodie and ah it just feels nice to know someone is going through the exact same thing as me and lots of others xx
@@okaykatieokay For me Rainbow has always been more about being or feeling different and taking pride in that then particularly about being queer. Especially “So please step inside my soul. I'd love to watch you gasp. You'd understand in minutes. And I'd like to think you'd miss it. 'Cause so would I.” makes me cry very often cause…it’s true. I often say or feel like I hate my brain but in actuality I’d probably miss it.
Love hearing your thoughts behind the lyrics! My personal favorite from the album is Bite Back because it really describes to me that feeling of wanting to help someone you care for but they are too caught up in their own emotions so they shut you out and hurt you on purpose to make you stop.
I definitely relate to feeling like the friend who is open and vulnerable and ready to communicate. It's frustrating that some people feel the need to build walls to develop a mysterious personality. Granted, some people do it for protection. I love it and hate it at the same time.
I love “rainbow” because although i can see where you wrote it from, i see it as not needing to label yourself in any context, and the worry of being judged before you get to put a word in purely for that 1 label, and so you remain a bright and vivid but non-specific rainbow of your identity and expression.
I was struck by the fact that "When" was back and on this new album, it was my favorite song for a long time and it had for me a very special meaning (probably not exactly the one intended) and to hear it again (plus the videeeeeo of it in the car you guyys so good) after a while - after new experiences and life changing me - blew my mind ! everything sounded more right... the line "begging the past to stay, memories painted in much brighter ink, they told me i loved, teach me how to think" used to be the one i didn't relate so much to or the sentence i couldn't really "make mine" in the song but then, years after, i finally f**** get it !! I know that feeling now, so well ! and man to realize that broke me... Crazy how a song you know by heart can still surprise you....
Burned out for me is a representation of me wanting to leave my own life not in a suicidal way but more of leaving my current life cuz I feel so tired and the 'I am not cartoon' line feels like I'm not perfect and that people perceive me as a cartoon 'happy, approachable' all that
Fun fact I used to think the line in when was “kissing sickly sweet LIES cause they say they like my eyes” and as much as I love the actual lyric I still like to sing my version sometimes hehe
‘before the line’ makes me relate to the grieving of my mother’s death. ‘I’m still clawing for the strings, oh I’d do any fcking thing’, ‘and I am lying when I say it’s time to let her float away’, ‘I made a promise but I break it everyday’, and practically most of the song. it makes me feel the grief all over again, the same feeling I get when I listen to ‘sorry’.
I’ve always viewed burned out as someone in a toxic relationship/friendship and they have someone around them who’s causing them to crack and let the smoke deep in and the smoke is equivalent to depression and anxiety and just mental ick for me
Hey dodie, I don’t know if you’ll see this but I’ve been a fan of yours for so long and I want you to know how much the song guiltless means to me. I’ve never held a song so close and I completely understand not wanting to go into it just because I know the feelings that go into writing those types of lyrics. I cried so hard when I heard guiltless just because I understood, and It hurt that you understood too. I have always felt this deep connection to your music but guiltless really got me. I couldn’t believe the absolute strength it took to make that song, I still get strung out any time I listen to it. Just because it makes me remember I’m not alone In my pain. Thank you dodie. I understand the whole “this UA-camr that I barely know saved me” mentality but your music genuinely got me through so much. I remember listening to your music in the hardest moments in my life and it making me feel like there was a light at the end of the darkness, and even if I haven’t necessarily reached it just yet, there’ll be something beautiful to come out of it. I don’t ever mind the things you will do in life, and I never want you to feel pressured by my respect, but since guiltless, I’ve never felt closer to someone I’ve never even spoken to. I can’t wait till I get to meet you if you come to Australia again, just so I can properly let you know how much that song meant. Thank you for that song. I’ve never felt so seen, and I just really admire you. I understand why you took a step back and drew a line years ago, I myself have a problem with oversharing so sorry for this long comment, but I just really wanted a chance for you to see me, even if it’s only through a screen. Thank you so much. I really appreciate your beautiful songwriting and your ability to make a song that relates to so many people. I know I only see a tiny portion of you from UA-cam, but I genuinely love you so much, thank you for being you. Thank you dodie Elizabeth
“you blew me up like a big balloon, far to soon, im left a stuttering teen.” that line honestly cuts so closely to my heart because i feel the weight of it. being a child and dealing with things larger than yourself is terrifying
the line "i am burnt out I smell of smoke, it seeps through her cracks and so I start to choke" has always been one of my favorite lines ever since you first put up the song. It really resonated with me at the time bc I was going through a really stressful time in my life where I was spreading myself waaaaayy too thin and I was really unhappy and was having massive panic attacks all the time, but the lyric honestly always kind of calmed me like "it's okay, see other people go through this, you'll be okay, you just gotta take care of yourself and take some time to fix your machine that you overworked" and I ended up quitting a job that I hated and finding one that brought me joy, taking more time for myself and self care when I was feeling anxious, and became happier with myself and my life, so, uh thanks for that lil line, dodes.
dodie, literally every song of yours is a freaking masterpiece and i cannot wait to hear them in person for the first time at your europe tour!! you don’t have to feel responsible at all(for me at least), but i am glad to be your daughter and love you and your music as much as i do!!
I always thought the lyrics were “I am not *carton* ” and I always interpreted that as sort of I’m human you can’t just keep building me up like like an object or a building project
Burned out hit me so hard when you released it on UA-cam for the first time. Like that I might just leave soon felt like you were speaking my thoughts. It obviously means something different to me as someone who doesn't have a platform. But thank you for making this music. It does more than you know!
I love the way you write so much honestly. Your greatest curse of derealization actually makes the most wonderful combination for writing music. You write as if you’re in the outside looking in. Creating very magical and almost disturbing visualizations for feelings we have all felt but never had the words for. The way you write about personal issues and humanely things is so “romantic” in a sense. Man I wish I had a big enough vocabulary to explain how I feel about your writing style, but this is all so can do haha. It creates this warmth of being found and understood inside myself and in probably everyone else. Thank you for explaining your wonderful work to us! Being so vulnerable and open.
This kinda feels like someone explaining a joke after everyone already laughed. I feel like the intuitive understanding is already there. This music is so good. It’s almost magic. It was nice to be reminded of all the color that Dodie packaged in music. If I was her I’d brag about my genius too. She’s brilliant.
I went through something with a few people I was close to a few months ago and “Hate Myself” perfectly describes how I feel right now. I still blame myself for a lot and it’s nice to know that someone else has felt like that. “Secret for the Mad” has also been a pretty helpful song. Thanks Dodie
When I listen to cool girl I think of the relationship I have with my dad. It’s so interesting to me that we all apply our own meanings to Dodies songs and I’m so happy she lets people interpret her art 🥰
I adore "Baby I'm a funny thing/I'm walking if it doesn't sting" because to me it's about carrying on and being hopeful even if you're sort of broken. It's got a sort of self-acceptance to it which feels very optimistic
u have a way of phrasing things so perfectly like its emotions i can visualize i can feel like "hate myself" was one of the first songs where i was like oh my god ur in my head like "how can u not hear the whole conversation i have sitting still with a brain on fire" like just sitting through someone explaining its not u its them but ur thoughts are screaming that its u its u its u. idk u just itch a perfect scratch in my brain with ur diction i love ur words so much
this was such a treat thank you. like bruh your explanation for "something in me says that this is ok" made me pause and just .. BRUH. that's deep as heck.
i connect so much with the succession of songs on ‘build a problem’ from track 7 (‘?’) right through to track 11 (‘four tequilas down’, ‘.’, ‘sorry’, and ‘when’) so much. it reminds me of a time a few years ago when i was so desperate for love that i ruined a few close friendships to get what was fleeting and not real and not worth the sacrifice. i never got closure from any of the people involved because of how ashamed and embarrassed i was with myself, but these songs explain the situation from the very beginning to where i am now so perfectly and concisely. from the excitement of being with someone new even when you know that what you’re doing is going to hurt a lot of people eventually (‘who gives a shit, we’re messing around, she’ll never know’), to the regret and the shame for the hurt you’ve caused (‘i’ve known, i’ve always known, in the end i’d be sorry, but that’s all i am now, that’s all i can be, is sorry’), to questioning why you continue in these thought and behavioural patterns (‘never caught up in the moment, busy begging the past to stay’). sorry for the long post, i just really wanted to express my gratitude in finding music that feels like a complete stranger peeked into my brain and found the words to describe a situation that I haven’t been able to express x
whenever i listen to your songs about the pressures of being someone that people look up to like burned out or all my daughters i always relate to them so heavily. because i a lot of the times feel the weight and pressures of taking care of and being there for everyone around me even though i don’t have my life together
I've never related to Burned Out more than I do right now but not in the 'I have a public responsibility/platform,' it's more of an interpersonal relationship type of way and how my own mental health affects all of that. like the "I can just talk about it..." bit is SO GOOD cause it's so true, it's fucking hard to talk about it, even and sometimes especially to close friends. needless to say, it's my favorite song of yours. and Rainbow omfg!!!! I fucking love music!! especially yours because it's so,,,, RAW and charming and beautifully sad ;.;
I just love "She". Just the softness and, eh, wonder, the intrigue and just amazement over another person, "She smelled like lemongrass and sleep", my god that hits me in the heartroots.
I had been reading the line "when you go quiet I hate myself" to be about the burst of anxiety when you're texting someone and there's a pause in the conversation and you start to overthink and worry like "oh no I said something stupid and they're upset"
I noticed that you changed it from "I wail aloud/I need it back" to "Oh my god/I need it back" in all my daughters (I listened to the demo way too much lmao)... what spawned that change for you? was it just an aesthetic change or did you change your meaning/intent there?
the line "I am burnt out, I smell of smoke, it seeps through her cracks and so I start to choke." really speaks to me about the times, especially in my last year of high school, when my health was falling apart. My chronic illnesses were going untreated, I was acting as though nothing was wrong while running on empty, and this line would play through my head in the moments where the pain and fatigue physically prevented me from doing something and I would fall or trip or stumble and I could no longer hide how burnt up and poorly maintained the inside of my body was. Thankfully I'm doing better now and actually taking care of myself, but Burned Out was such a comforting resource for me in a very scary and painful time.
I love learning what artists meant when they wrote their songs!! I feel like there should be room for people to explain how they meant the line AND for the audience to have their own interpretations in their head :-)
i have been listening to your music for a while now and something that always fascinates me about it is how the song lyrics may change meaning depending on how im feeling. ive gone through my darkest moments with dodie, and my happiest with dodie, and theyre always the same songs. they really remind me how music can be so personal and unique to everyone. dods thank you for creating this little sanctuary for me to feel my emotions in all their glory
were you surprised by any lyric meaning something different to what you thought? is there one i missed? lemme knooooo :D x
“what in the world do we have a quarter to four” is different for me because at that hour in the afternoon I find myself bored and sad because my mind wanders to a person I love(d) and I wonder what we have anymore 🙃
Still curious about a dark politician 😪
It hurts so much how short how Air So Sweet is so short yet so soothing to hear in the album!! Love u dodes pls get weell! 💕
Some of them I think I understood but it was nice to hear you explain it when I couldn't fully? If that makes any sense at all lol
I always thought cool girl was about having a crush but now that I know what it's actually about it's so so much better
In the song “the flat’s a mess” I’d like to know the meaning behind the line “I borrowed your toothbrush the other day”
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LMAO😂😂😂 poor Evan
it means you need to get a new toothbrush evan
Holy shit what a throwback
dodie said “i’ll make my own genius interview” and i stan
She did two though. She explained party tattoos and human. Those videos are so satisfying she really breaks down almost every metaphor
she also did intertwined!
A better interview than ‘flossin’ will ever be
I believe Captain Sparlez did it too - like, factually actually... 😂
dodie's hair is sooo beautiful. whichever length, she always makes it work
she’s literally my celebrity crush
Indeed
i love the shift from rlly desaturated videos to rlly warm ones like this. it just makes everything feel so cozy :))
i actually lit this video lol i should just try more
thank u :') ♥
YES i'm watching at 3am cuz i can't sleep and... let me tell u, it's the perfect thing to watch at 3am
@@doddlevloggle omg yes please! This vibe is so so lovely. And I feel validated cause I guessed a lot of these meanings myself lmao
I feel like All My Daughters is the sequel to Burned Out...which begins a meta...because Burned Out could be the new daughter...where am I
hahah yes!
the dodie cinematic universe
@@bluuebye1991 omg yesss I'd like your comment but I wanted to keep it at 69😂
@@AjaM-c8n it never works fam 😔
i’ve always felt that “when you go quiet, i hate myself” was a representation of the overthinking and self deprecating thoughts that come to play when you’re beside someone that doesn’t seem to give you what you need or talk to you and let you in; therefore, causing you to overthink and feel as though you’re the problem. it brings out a feeling of self blame and unworthiness, incapable of being the person someone you love could confide in since they are just beside you dealing with their issues but not letting you in and leaving you detached from the narrative in a way
I completely agree!
Yes! I have felt this a lot. You put it so well wow
my senior quote this year was “i promise you, it’ll all make sense again” - i attempted suicide twice my senior year of high school and this lyric has extreme significance in my life. for my 17th birthday, my sister took me to a dodie concert in oakland, california. while dodie was singing, my sister held me close while i wept through the song “secret for the mad” - i plan on getting it tattooed on my foot when shops open up more. that lyric changed my life, it’s something i tell myself everyday.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️sending so much love
This comment made me cry. I hope you're doing okay.💛💛
that one has been great help for me too. there’s been so many times where i feel like im going to loose myself and this is it.. and that lyric among many others of dodies had just been so lovely.
You are so incredible, that tattoo is going to look so lovely on you and your beautiful self ❤️ I am so glad you are here and I hope you have a great day
Such a sweet comment. Glad you're still here, hope you were able to get your awesome tat!
Timecodes:
1:04 - If i'm Being Honest
1:47 - in the bed
3:46 - Burned Out
5:43 - Before The Line
7:30 - Four Tequilas Down
8:40 - Special Girl
9:32 - Cool Girl
10:06 - In The Middle
10:54 - Monster
11:19 - Human
11:34 - Sorry
12:23 - All My Daughters
14:46 - Hate Myself
15:36 - She
I know you skipped it, but the lyric “a dark politician will end up alone” is one of my favorites, so I wanted to say what it means to me. Someone who twists words and scenarios and does everything with the intent of getting something in return, at the end of the day, has no one. They spend time lying and bargaining and it amounts to nothing, never knowing love.
Yesssss 100% agree with this. Just like all the manipulative mean girls in movies who end up isolated at the end because of their actions
I see you've met my mom
I definitely didn’t have any problem with any lines in that song 😅 never had any questions there
just like voldemort
My Grandma was listening to In The Middle with me a year or two ago and asked "is this about a threesome?" And I was like "noooo, there's no way that's what it's about"... I guess I owe her an apology
Grandmas always know
You grandma sounds awesome.
HAHA
lmao dodie mentioned it at her concert and my mum looked at me like 😶
Omg I would die if my grandma heard in the middle 😭
I have "Paint me in trust, I'll be your best friend" tattooed on my back and I'd be really curious to hear how you wrote it
awwwww
i think i probably wanted to say like - coat me in trust! I just wanted to be everything for someone and those were the words that came up :)
@@doddlevloggle grammatical intervention can almost reverse the meaning from companionship to a hostage situation: "paint me in. trust, i'll be your best friend."
just sayin
dodie mentioned it more than once, maybe regretting an unhealthy narrative in a lyric, but it’s very lovely that music lets you show all your worst thoughts and feelings w benevolence. some lyrics seem unhealthy, but you hold you hold the feeling’s hand and give that feeling a place
😭 oh what a sweet comment
i like the imagery of holding a feeling in your hand and then letting it fly away, almost like a bird. i personify or objectify my feelings as a coping tool from therapy so that i can examine them, and i might try this. thank you kind stranger
love this
best comment
thissss. i really appreciate whenever artists put their raw emotion no matter how unhealthy or silly it is. a lot of times there are people who have similar feelings. and if not then it allows others to understand it a little better.
as a literature student this is like my crack
The lyric “I’ll never be sixteen again” in “When” made me WEEP. I understand that you probably wrote that lyric when you were wishing to relive one of the best years of your life (possibly???, I could be very wrong sorry), but for me hearing that lyric now that I’m seventeen made me realise how much I missed out on when I was sixteen. I fell out with close friends, plummeted into a really bad mental state, and I just felt so lonely all the time, obviously this was all happening during the pandemic (and i got the virus in winter wuhay I guess we’re twinning, Dodie lmao). I feel so dumb writing this cause I know it could’ve been so much worse, but I just feel like I missed out on what was supposed to be one of the best years of my life. Hopefully the rest of the year is gonna be a bit more exciting than last.
That line is so bitterly ironic to me when I sing it because sixteen was one of the worst years of my life and also one of the most spacey
Yup, 16 for me was taken by the pandemic so that line hits different now
I'm a few years past sixteen, and I can tell you that there's no timeline for any teenage experiences. Your "sixteen" could be this year, or maybe it'll be a few years of your life. Sometimes we get the rough parts first, then the time of our lives follows. No matter the age, you never lose the opportunity to have fun and enjoy life like you're sixteen. I'm wishing that you have a better seventeen.
@@h4ph4zrd thank you, :,) I’ll keep going so I can get the “sixteen” I’ve always dreamed of
That songs ALWAYS makes me cry.
"take the energy of anxiety and turn it into....horniness lol" -dodie
Me: 👁️👄👁️ 🧐 🤔🤯 I don't know why this is so revolutionary to me lol it makes a whole lotta sense
Bro same 😳😳
I recommend
Anxiousness ~ lustfullness magic
I always thought that song was so romantic just wanting to be with someone who comforts you to sleep but now-
We’ve all been there
i always felt really seen by "special girl" but for a totally different read than what was intended, i think? the line "hate me first, yeah, make me work, that's perfect" and "i found my worth in this world by proving i'm a special girl" struck me as musings from the inside of a gifted kid complex? like, if you did well in school as a kid, you feel this compulsion to be promising and special from every point of view. and when someone doesn't happen to think you're marvelous, you're like, "ah, yes. that means i must demonstrate my talent and *make you*." every time i listen to the song, it reminds me of feeling like, great! i'm going to get a good grade in being a person. something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,
Exactly!!! And then that whole crisis of how do you define yourself if you're not "special" anymore?
@@really-quite-exhausted Really feeling this too! (🥴)
god I love the second verse of before the line. especially "when can I come home." the most relatable thing ever to me.
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yesss
i swear, no matter the context, i always get this childlike feeling of homesick at that part... makes me cry everytime i dont rly know why
THAT CRISP CLEAR AUDIO QUALITY
i actually can't believe it's taken me THIS long to put a compressor on my audio
it has nothing to do with the original meaning of the song, but All My Daughters holds a special place in my heart, cause at a time where i was feeling a TON of dysphoria and dealing with transphobia at home, being called someone’s “daughter” really meant a lot.
p.s. love ya dodie! thank you for everything you do!
Sorry to hear you’re going through that, I hope you’re getting the support you deserve from friends and hopefully other family too
hey sister! i hope you're feeling better now and i'm glad that the song was able to help you during a tough time. i hope you've got heaps of friends and loved ones to give you so much love and support
@@glynrh8892 thank you so much, i'm definitely doing a lot better now!
@@caitlynsalter1885 thank you!! that really means the world to me
“So just hold me like you mean it, we’ll pretend because we need it” i think is one of your most beautiful lyrics, it’s been stuck in my head ever since I heard it. And the way the music pauses before it continues really gives it that emotional pull, perfection.
That pause is EVERYTHING. It's like the whole world fades away and you're left in the solitary space with the two protagonists and their feelings bubble.
Which song is this in? I can't seem to remember 😅😅😅
YES AH. this song is so raw and like truthful.
@@gracenelson2705 it’s from four tequilas down :)
@@soupiedog23 thank you!!
I just feel so peaceful listening to dodie talk, it's like chilling with a friend
i feel the same way!!!! makes me so happy
i know!! i absolutely love dodies videos. they’re so nice :)
I interpreted "when you go quiet, I hate myself" as the end of a conversation in which I am revealing something abt myself to you, I secret I've kept. & you go quiet & I hate myself for ruining our relationship by telling the truth. I read your quiet as disappointment or horror or fear or hate abt the secret I've shared. Your opinion of me is changed forever & I hate myself for just not saying anything.
I interpret it as this kind of anxiety-reaction to sharing your soul w/ someone & not getting an immediate reaction. My brain goes into overdrive & I have so much doubt. When really, the person I've shared with probably just needs a moment to process, to collect themselves, to think through a response. But, in that one moment of quiet, my mind becomes a storm.
YES me too
i interpret it similarly, except that (partially because i’m neurodivergent) i have a hard time keeping conversation with people i don’t know well, so whenever even people closest to me go quiet, peacefully or otherwise, mid-conversation or -interaction, i end up blaming myself and plotting out a worst case scenario contingency plan.
I feel that. I just told one of my best friends that I might have a crush on them and now I wish I just never told them because it makes everything so... different
@@panda839578567659610 i am people pleaser and in a lot of occasions i have felt like i need to have my friends and my loved ones very close to me all the time to make sure they like me. When they go under the radar for a bit i question if they forgot or dont care about me / dont like me and then hate myself because of that emotional dependence on others. I also hate myself because i feel like i drive people away, good old fear of abandonment
Oh that’s interesting! I interpreted it as the end of a fight, you’ve said something that stuns them, in a bad way, and you hate yourself for not thinking before talking.
I've been listening to your music since I was 13... I'm 19 now and one line that has ALWAYS managed to make me tear up is "I'll never be sixteen again" I remember singing it over and over under my breath when I WAS sixteen and just starting to space completely out of my life. I wanted to enjoy it as much as I could, but failed miserably, and then it was over.
I love it whenever artists break down their lyrics ☺️
i always interpreted "hate myself" as the aftermath of an abusive relationship....like being punished with silence, never knowing what's right, the immense anxiety that comes with that
When has been my lifeline in some of my darkest moments. Stay safe, Dodie! And thank you. From another dreamy girl who'll never be sixteen again x
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You'll become bigger and better than you ever were x
I never fully appreciated She until I had it bad for a girl who couldn’t love me back. It does feel oddly good to hurt…. As a supposed “daughter” personally I love listening to your music and watching your videos because I know you aren’t perfect. You have a transparency that most others wouldn’t be brave enough to have
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Guiltless to me is about certain family members of mine witnessing my abusive childhood and not putting a stop to it despite their situational power. It’s a way for me to push all my resentment into that song, and then allow myself to forgive.
The dark politician is a specific person, and there could not be a better description.
Thank you for this song
I wanna draw venn diagrams of dodie song themes.... Sorry & Monster, Burned Out & All My Daughters, Before The Line & When.... There are crossovers between some of these songs that would be really interesting to explore.
Thats a fantastic idea!!! You totally should!!
Or rather Monster and Human
Oh my god I feel like you’d see into my subconscious Lmao
DO IT
I always felt like Would You Be So Kind & If I'm Being Honest were related too
“hate myself” to me is about anxiety and overthinking about the people you caring about liking you. seeing a shift in their expression and worrying you said something wrong, constantly trying to explain their behaviors by something you could have possibly done
YES this is exactly what I thought when I heard this song.. not me being like this every day to come up with this interpretation haha
ahh me too!!! like anything even just a split second of silence or a specific word they say i’ll get stuck on. this song always reminded me of that.
me and my best friend bonded over your music, over our summer holidays we're both going to print out the song lyrics of build a problem and each listen to the album and annotate along with what specific lyrics mean to us and then exchange annotations and re-listen taking them in mind, to try and *understand* each other better u know, does this make any sense? This is so interesting to me, the lyrics on this album are so special and beautiful :)
Omg that sounds so cutee
That's so beautiful, I wanna do this with someone now
AW have fun!! that's so nice
That's so wonderful :)
WOW THAT SOUNDS SO FUCKING FUN!!
6/10 holds a very special place in my heart- i first heard it when i was beginning to go through the self discovery reckoning that all young mentally ill teens go through and it's carried me through it all. it just helped me feel less alone and a little more normal when i felt like i couldn't stand out more. especially the bridge at the end of all the voices overlapping, feels like the epitome of a brain with social anxiety
Human in particular has lyrics that to me are grotesque in a beautiful manner, like a bunch of beautiful blood and guts
i feel that way too! to me its like being so open to someone that ur just completely laid bare almost like ur naked or bloody like you said yaknow?
human always remains that one song where I just listen to it and bawl... lol 😭
You could almost say they’re… beautifully raw:)
always wondered ab “ignorant trauma in one afternoon”, feels like you experienced a traumatic event in a day when u were younger that u didn’t realize was traumatic until much later in life
it wasn't mentioned, but arms unfolding is probably my favorite song of yours and the reasons why have changed over the years. every time i go back and listen to arms unfolding it has a different meaning to me, and i just hold that song so close to my heart. i saw you perform live a few years ago and the show opened with arms unfolding and i was just bawling in the middle of the concert floor it was very classy :)))
YES! I cry every time I hear it. It came out right as I was working on mending my own relationship and it was exactly what I needed in that moment.
I cried so hard when I saw her preform it and I sometimes cry when I hear it in general but I remember it starting and I was just crying so much and I was like “and this is only the first song” it was the best
yess it’s such a good one :,)
“Seeps through the cracks and so I start to choke” actually inspired a painting I made about a year ago, and it looks a lot like the image you described!!
I felt such strong artistic inspiration listening to her talk about it!! Is there anywhere I can see your painting because I'd love to
@@kendradurham4716 It’s on my Instagram (@isaniart), although you’d have to scroll back a bit.
Thanks Dee and
@@kendradurham4716we are on our
“It feels oddly good to hurt” us one of my favorite lines! I totally understand what you mean, I’ve always said to my long distance girlfriend that I love her with a deep ache in my bones. She’s wonderful we’re wonderful but our love has an achy heaviness to it too.
“But love was always something heavy for me. Something I had to carry.” - Benjamin Alire Sáenz, in 'Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe' is a line that has hit me over and over again since the first time I read it, because love IS heavy, isn't it? So "it feels oddly good to hurt" matches up beautifully with that
hope you’re feeling better and covid isn’t getting you down too much!
also sorry for asking about the dark politician lyric 😬
lOLolOll no worries i was thinking about answering it! tbh i dont even know if i'm able to understand what i meant lol
@@doddleoddle didn’t want to bring back any bad mems that’s all lol. i’ve found my own meaning for it and can relate to the song from my own interpretation so that’s good enough for me!
@@HannahMairead
@@doddlevloggle I asked about the same lyric too. Hope it wasn't too triggering. I was thinking it might have been about Donald Trumpet. 🤣
To me that lyric screams gaslighting by a parental figure - someone that’s supposed to take care of you is twisting your words for their own gain. But that’s also me projecting my own experiences and doesn’t say anything about what dodie’s intent was
I’m interested to know what the lyric “Ignoring the danger just to feel you in my head” in let go means ?
it means like - when you think about someone you're trying to let go of it hurts badly and can hurt you long term but you do it anyway!
fantasizing about a person when you know you should be trying to get over them. then "comfort and pain" reminds me of "it feels oddly good to hurt" in she - the pain that comes with love, especially when its over and thinking back is comforting yet painful
@@karinamcevoy6542 mmmmmmmm yes
doddlevloggle that concept reminds me so much of stop making this hurt by bleachers. the lyric that repeats in the chorus is “stop making this hurt, just say goodbye like you mean it” and i totally think of it as trying not to hold on to the memories of someone when you know it’s only causing you pain (that’s not what the song is Actually about, but it still works)
@@doddlevloggle jajssjlsjs Oh No I Know That One
I've always loved your lyric "they say they like my eyes but I've only ever seen them in the dark" from when. Something about it hits me so deeply, the idea of someone saying they love you but there's no way of them knowing you because you haven't shown them. Or if you interpret "them" in the lyric as your own eyes it gets interesting as well because it's saying that you don't even know yourself, you can't see what they love about you. The lyric just has always meant so much to me and your lyrics are so powerful and beautiful thank you 💗
whenever I hear "surely you know to close them instead" it reminds me of the imagery of closing your eyes when you kiss someone, like, stop worrying, just throw yourself into it, just kiss them - that line in particular reminds me a lot of I kissed someone (it wasn't you).
this past year i’ve gone on a bit of journey embracing my (possibly) being autistic, and ‘hate myself’ just perfectly expresses the difficulties i had with communication growing up
honestly thank you for that song, cause it’s put into words something i struggled for years to
I'm going through the same thing and dodies music has helped me loads ;)
me too!! it feels good to see that others feel the same way about that song!
I've always massively related to Guiltless, it hits so close to home. The themes of a parent lacking in maturity and responsibility, resulting in petty arguments over nothing was something I'd never heard discussed in a song before but I so deeply related to it. For me, it helped me understand the process of learning to accept my life and family for what it is and who they are, and learning to that sometimes you just have to put up with people - eventually it's not worth having the same pointless argument over and over.
Four tequila’s down was painfully and beautifully relatable and caused a lot of reflection on why we make the choices we make and weather it’s valid to do so sometimes.
Do you see it as a song about cheating?
@@lolicdia oooooh
Never saw it that way.
I saw it as the pov of being a rebound. Cause that's what i felt like at that moment. I felt like he was only with me so that he can forget the one he actually liked or bcs he can't get her in the first place. Thus "Something in me says, that this is okay" means
"I know you're using but it's alright cause your "love" feels good" for me.
But i can see why it can be a song abt cheating.
absolutely love the line “when you go quiet i hate myself” bc boY DO I EVER #socialanxietythings
‘build a problem’ came out during the lowest point of my life so far. ‘before the line’ specifically explained a lot of things i was feeling, and it helped me realize i was not alone in my feelings. that album was such a blessing, and was instrumental (pun intended) in helping me get better. so thank you!
'sorry' really makes me feel some type of way like when it BUILDS ahhh dodie you musical mastermind
you singing the song along side honestly adds so much!!
My personal meaning of the lyric "A dark politician will end up alone". I imagine someone (like a parent or family member) sharing their "dark" almost threatening opinions on sensitive subjects, leaving everyone around them feeling uneasy and threatened. And everyone eventually leaves the "dark politician" and he is now left alone.
For me it had that meaning of being a very manipulative person that's trying to convince her that it wasn't really that important or they're not to blame or she's just making it too big of a deal idk. But I think it plays on the idea of politicians being convincing and deceitful sometimes
“black lipstick will never be a sin”!!!
also just wanted to pop in and say that “when” means so much to me in its entirety. its such a lovely beautiful song and i loved hearing it when i was much younger and it came out but now that im older (and actually older than 16 lol) i can really Fully feel all the feelings its talking about and it holds a very special place in my heart :’)
sick of losing soulmates will also always be a favorite of mine. idk how to explain it but the whole song just feels so beautifully delicate which is how i view the relationships it makes me think about in my own life. that being said all your lyrics are gorgeous!! ive been a fan since 2016 and its been such a pleasure seeing u grow in ur songwriting abilities
I second this!! I plan on getting a tattoo themed around those lyrics :)
for meeee "black lipstick will never be a sin" means like you might wear things that others think are ugly/unsightly like black lipstick, "too much" eyeshadow, certain clothing styles that you'll cringe at later, but it'll never be a sin, it'll never be wrong, you were happy and having so much fun
PLEASE I DEFINITELY ASKED ABOUT “A dark politician will end up alone “ CUZ IT WAS THE FIRST THING I COULD THINK OF AND SHE WENT “Nah” AND THIS IS SO FUNNY
I asked it as well bahaha T-T
@@tis_trinity HAHAHA what have we doonneee
i was so curious about that one Ah
I think Arms Unfolding is one of your best songs. That lyric is so beautiful. I’m so happy for your success, my friend. I can’t wait to hear how you progress as a songwriter.
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You emphatically saying “I’m really smart!” Is great to see!! I’m so glad you know your own genius capabilities
I got derealization at such a young age I literally don't remember a time before it. I know it exists, and exactly when it was, but it's so blurry.
I got derealized when I was six, everytime I sing "gotta get it in my head / I'll never be sixteen again" there's this bitter humor to it because I can't imagine having sixteen whole years of clear memories
@@reharm_reality I'm so sorry, that's horrible. I got it at 10, but I only found out about it this year, at 14.
@@theonlytails Aww it's okay! I'm sorry too, derealization sucks.
I can relate, not with derealization, but with being disabled, a lot of people are talking about the experience of a clear "before" and "after"(and that's super valid and their lived experience)but I can't relate, I don't have a clear "before" just dealing with the actual thing and the better spots and the worse...
@Farabee Pushpita if you don’t mind me asking, what made it go away? You absolutely don’t have to answer if you don’t feel comfortable
LOVE coming it to immediately hear WANKING it’s like a welcome home
"I hate the world and it doesn't care, we just sit there" is the best description of my depression I've ever heard, thanks Dodie, gonna go have a cry now
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this takes me back to analysis in english lit in high school but this feels so much nicer
sorry is my favorite song atm, the lyrics are lovely and a bit sad but it’s honestly the instrumentals that make it my favorite. the way they build up can make me a little less spacey for a minute. a friend of mine described the build up as “like taking a breath” and yeah. i just love it sm ahhh that song
thank youuu especially for your vulnerability in “burned out” lyrics, ideation + smoke seeping thru cracks line. so grateful for you & your music dodie
This video feels so comforting! The lighting, the softness of the mic and the calmness of the notes being played. It just feels like a warm hug. I had to start self isolating the same day as dodie and ah it just feels nice to know someone is going through the exact same thing as me and lots of others xx
idk if others feel the same, but “Don’t Quite Belong” seems like a neurodivergent/autism anthem tbh
i feel this about ‘hate myself’ and even ‘rainbow’ a bit (considering the autism symbol of the rainbow infinity)
Omg exactly. I was obsessed with that song before I was diagnosed and then I found out I was autistic and I was like welp lol
yes!! i feel this too
I have social anxiety and I relate to it a lot as well. I guess each of us have our different reasons to feel like that on some situations
@@okaykatieokay For me Rainbow has always been more about being or feeling different and taking pride in that then particularly about being queer. Especially “So please step inside my soul. I'd love to watch you gasp. You'd understand in minutes. And I'd like to think you'd miss it. 'Cause so would I.” makes me cry very often cause…it’s true. I often say or feel like I hate my brain but in actuality I’d probably miss it.
Love hearing your thoughts behind the lyrics! My personal favorite from the album is Bite Back because it really describes to me that feeling of wanting to help someone you care for but they are too caught up in their own emotions so they shut you out and hurt you on purpose to make you stop.
I definitely relate to feeling like the friend who is open and vulnerable and ready to communicate. It's frustrating that some people feel the need to build walls to develop a mysterious personality. Granted, some people do it for protection. I love it and hate it at the same time.
I'm proud of you for setting boundaries for us and for yourself! Love and Respect 💗
I love “rainbow” because although i can see where you wrote it from, i see it as not needing to label yourself in any context, and the worry of being judged before you get to put a word in purely for that 1 label, and so you remain a bright and vivid but non-specific rainbow of your identity and expression.
I was struck by the fact that "When" was back and on this new album, it was my favorite song for a long time and it had for me a very special meaning (probably not exactly the one intended) and to hear it again (plus the videeeeeo of it in the car you guyys so good) after a while - after new experiences and life changing me - blew my mind ! everything sounded more right... the line "begging the past to stay, memories painted in much brighter ink, they told me i loved, teach me how to think" used to be the one i didn't relate so much to or the sentence i couldn't really "make mine" in the song but then, years after, i finally f**** get it !! I know that feeling now, so well ! and man to realize that broke me... Crazy how a song you know by heart can still surprise you....
Burned out for me is a representation of me wanting to leave my own life not in a suicidal way but more of leaving my current life cuz I feel so tired and the 'I am not cartoon' line feels like I'm not perfect and that people perceive me as a cartoon 'happy, approachable' all that
after watching this i just want to write an essay on your songs they are incredible
I'd be happy to read it if it ever happened! I feel like i'm always learning new things in dodie's songs. Love the eternal feeling of new discoveries
ikr?? i feel like i could go on forever talking about her lyrics
I thought “if I was being honest” was about growing up and thinking you’d be in love with life- like the relationship of maturity you have with life
Fun fact I used to think the line in when was “kissing sickly sweet LIES cause they say they like my eyes” and as much as I love the actual lyric I still like to sing my version sometimes hehe
‘before the line’ makes me relate to the grieving of my mother’s death.
‘I’m still clawing for the strings, oh I’d do any fcking thing’,
‘and I am lying when I say it’s time to let her float away’,
‘I made a promise but I break it everyday’,
and practically most of the song. it makes me feel the grief all over again, the same feeling I get when I listen to ‘sorry’.
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"I made a promise but i break it everyday" hits differently for me because i once promised someone that i'd stay but then i left. So im breaking it.
I’ve always viewed burned out as someone in a toxic relationship/friendship and they have someone around them who’s causing them to crack and let the smoke deep in and the smoke is equivalent to depression and anxiety and just mental ick for me
Hey dodie, I don’t know if you’ll see this but I’ve been a fan of yours for so long and I want you to know how much the song guiltless means to me. I’ve never held a song so close and I completely understand not wanting to go into it just because I know the feelings that go into writing those types of lyrics. I cried so hard when I heard guiltless just because I understood, and It hurt that you understood too. I have always felt this deep connection to your music but guiltless really got me. I couldn’t believe the absolute strength it took to make that song, I still get strung out any time I listen to it. Just because it makes me remember I’m not alone In my pain. Thank you dodie. I understand the whole “this UA-camr that I barely know saved me” mentality but your music genuinely got me through so much. I remember listening to your music in the hardest moments in my life and it making me feel like there was a light at the end of the darkness, and even if I haven’t necessarily reached it just yet, there’ll be something beautiful to come out of it. I don’t ever mind the things you will do in life, and I never want you to feel pressured by my respect, but since guiltless, I’ve never felt closer to someone I’ve never even spoken to. I can’t wait till I get to meet you if you come to Australia again, just so I can properly let you know how much that song meant. Thank you for that song. I’ve never felt so seen, and I just really admire you.
I understand why you took a step back and drew a line years ago, I myself have a problem with oversharing so sorry for this long comment, but I just really wanted a chance for you to see me, even if it’s only through a screen. Thank you so much. I really appreciate your beautiful songwriting and your ability to make a song that relates to so many people.
I know I only see a tiny portion of you from UA-cam, but I genuinely love you so much, thank you for being you.
Thank you dodie
Elizabeth
I love how you vocalize taboo universal truths. Especially ones deep-rooted in trauma and mental health. i love it I love it.
“you blew me up like a big balloon, far to soon, im left a stuttering teen.” that line honestly cuts so closely to my heart because i feel the weight of it. being a child and dealing with things larger than yourself is terrifying
the line "i am burnt out I smell of smoke, it seeps through her cracks and so I start to choke" has always been one of my favorite lines ever since you first put up the song. It really resonated with me at the time bc I was going through a really stressful time in my life where I was spreading myself waaaaayy too thin and I was really unhappy and was having massive panic attacks all the time, but the lyric honestly always kind of calmed me like "it's okay, see other people go through this, you'll be okay, you just gotta take care of yourself and take some time to fix your machine that you overworked" and I ended up quitting a job that I hated and finding one that brought me joy, taking more time for myself and self care when I was feeling anxious, and became happier with myself and my life, so, uh thanks for that lil line, dodes.
dodie, literally every song of yours is a freaking masterpiece and i cannot wait to hear them in person for the first time at your europe tour!! you don’t have to feel responsible at all(for me at least), but i am glad to be your daughter and love you and your music as much as i do!!
I always thought the lyrics were “I am not *carton* ” and I always interpreted that as sort of I’m human you can’t just keep building me up like like an object or a building project
Don't pour milk on someone's breakfast
I am not carton
Burned out hit me so hard when you released it on UA-cam for the first time. Like that I might just leave soon felt like you were speaking my thoughts. It obviously means something different to me as someone who doesn't have a platform. But thank you for making this music. It does more than you know!
I love the way you write so much honestly. Your greatest curse of derealization actually makes the most wonderful combination for writing music. You write as if you’re in the outside looking in. Creating very magical and almost disturbing visualizations for feelings we have all felt but never had the words for. The way you write about personal issues and humanely things is so “romantic” in a sense. Man I wish I had a big enough vocabulary to explain how I feel about your writing style, but this is all so can do haha. It creates this warmth of being found and understood inside myself and in probably everyone else. Thank you for explaining your wonderful work to us! Being so vulnerable and open.
This kinda feels like someone explaining a joke after everyone already laughed. I feel like the intuitive understanding is already there. This music is so good. It’s almost magic. It was nice to be reminded of all the color that Dodie packaged in music. If I was her I’d brag about my genius too. She’s brilliant.
I went through something with a few people I was close to a few months ago and “Hate Myself” perfectly describes how I feel right now. I still blame myself for a lot and it’s nice to know that someone else has felt like that. “Secret for the Mad” has also been a pretty helpful song. Thanks Dodie
When I listen to cool girl I think of the relationship I have with my dad. It’s so interesting to me that we all apply our own meanings to Dodies songs and I’m so happy she lets people interpret her art 🥰
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I adore "Baby I'm a funny thing/I'm walking if it doesn't sting" because to me it's about carrying on and being hopeful even if you're sort of broken. It's got a sort of self-acceptance to it which feels very optimistic
I find her lyrics so human sounding. She explains feelings in these roundabout ways that make SO much sense to me
u have a way of phrasing things so perfectly like its emotions i can visualize i can feel like "hate myself" was one of the first songs where i was like oh my god ur in my head like "how can u not hear the whole conversation i have sitting still with a brain on fire" like just sitting through someone explaining its not u its them but ur thoughts are screaming that its u its u its u. idk u just itch a perfect scratch in my brain with ur diction i love ur words so much
dodieeee you seem so joyful when you talk about your music!! it makes me so happy to see your passion and enjoy those lyrics with youuuuu
this was such a treat thank you. like bruh your explanation for "something in me says that this is ok" made me pause and just .. BRUH. that's deep as heck.
i connect so much with the succession of songs on ‘build a problem’ from track 7 (‘?’) right through to track 11 (‘four tequilas down’, ‘.’, ‘sorry’, and ‘when’) so much. it reminds me of a time a few years ago when i was so desperate for love that i ruined a few close friendships to get what was fleeting and not real and not worth the sacrifice. i never got closure from any of the people involved because of how ashamed and embarrassed i was with myself, but these songs explain the situation from the very beginning to where i am now so perfectly and concisely. from the excitement of being with someone new even when you know that what you’re doing is going to hurt a lot of people eventually (‘who gives a shit, we’re messing around, she’ll never know’), to the regret and the shame for the hurt you’ve caused (‘i’ve known, i’ve always known, in the end i’d be sorry, but that’s all i am now, that’s all i can be, is sorry’), to questioning why you continue in these thought and behavioural patterns (‘never caught up in the moment, busy begging the past to stay’).
sorry for the long post, i just really wanted to express my gratitude in finding music that feels like a complete stranger peeked into my brain and found the words to describe a situation that I haven’t been able to express x
whenever i listen to your songs about the pressures of being someone that people look up to like burned out or all my daughters i always relate to them so heavily. because i a lot of the times feel the weight and pressures of taking care of and being there for everyone around me even though i don’t have my life together
I've never related to Burned Out more than I do right now but not in the 'I have a public responsibility/platform,' it's more of an interpersonal relationship type of way and how my own mental health affects all of that. like the "I can just talk about it..." bit is SO GOOD cause it's so true, it's fucking hard to talk about it, even and sometimes especially to close friends. needless to say, it's my favorite song of yours. and Rainbow omfg!!!! I fucking love music!! especially yours because it's so,,,, RAW and charming and beautifully sad ;.;
I just love "She". Just the softness and, eh, wonder, the intrigue and just amazement over another person, "She smelled like lemongrass and sleep", my god that hits me in the heartroots.
i always thought of all my daughters as addressing the younger versions of yourself, talking to your inner child
Awww
I had been reading the line "when you go quiet I hate myself" to be about the burst of anxiety when you're texting someone and there's a pause in the conversation and you start to overthink and worry like "oh no I said something stupid and they're upset"
I noticed that you changed it from "I wail aloud/I need it back" to "Oh my god/I need it back" in all my daughters (I listened to the demo way too much lmao)... what spawned that change for you? was it just an aesthetic change or did you change your meaning/intent there?
i always wanted to know this too!
yes yes yes this!! biggest question about the whole album. i wail aloud felt so much more personal. so curious.
the line "I am burnt out, I smell of smoke, it seeps through her cracks and so I start to choke." really speaks to me about the times, especially in my last year of high school, when my health was falling apart. My chronic illnesses were going untreated, I was acting as though nothing was wrong while running on empty, and this line would play through my head in the moments where the pain and fatigue physically prevented me from doing something and I would fall or trip or stumble and I could no longer hide how burnt up and poorly maintained the inside of my body was.
Thankfully I'm doing better now and actually taking care of myself, but Burned Out was such a comforting resource for me in a very scary and painful time.
I love learning what artists meant when they wrote their songs!! I feel like there should be room for people to explain how they meant the line AND for the audience to have their own interpretations in their head :-)
i have been listening to your music for a while now and something that always fascinates me about it is how the song lyrics may change meaning depending on how im feeling. ive gone through my darkest moments with dodie, and my happiest with dodie, and theyre always the same songs. they really remind me how music can be so personal and unique to everyone. dods thank you for creating this little sanctuary for me to feel my emotions in all their glory