Hello 20 year old me

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  • Опубліковано 20 вер 2024
  • original vid • Dear 25 year old me
    ooooof. btw please comment about my life respectfully! I read every comment so plz remember that :)
    main music channel: / doddleoddle
    vevo: / dodievevo
    twitter: / doddleoddle
    instagram: / doddleoddle
    the elevator music lol • Elevator music (royalt... my music is on all platforms like Spotify and iTunes! Just type in "dodie".
    I wrote a book about mental health and the lessons I've learned on how to deal with it. Also other things: www.amazon.co....
    business contact: josh@dodie.co

КОМЕНТАРІ • 5 тис.

  • @doddleoddle
    @doddleoddle 4 роки тому +10603

    for those wondering which channel hit a million it would be this one! this vid is on my second channel :P

    • @edanasue2589
      @edanasue2589 4 роки тому +40

      you are so beautiful dodie you glow from the inside out 💛

    • @Julia-hv7qh
      @Julia-hv7qh 4 роки тому +14

      Can I just say, you're so beautiful, literally so jealous! 🥺❤️

    • @madebymissy_
      @madebymissy_ 4 роки тому +21

      Looks like this channel is nearly at a million as well! 😌👍

    • @isuzuke
      @isuzuke 4 роки тому

      #8 on trending

    • @m4rz585
      @m4rz585 4 роки тому

      ❤❤

  • @emily-qe3yu
    @emily-qe3yu 4 роки тому +5321

    I was sat here thinking ‘wow 20 year old Dodie looks like a child’. Then I realised I’m 20. I’m a child

    • @claireh57
      @claireh57 4 роки тому +18

      exactly my thought

    • @Thtkoi
      @Thtkoi 4 роки тому +6

      Wow

    • @marcellisnam
      @marcellisnam 4 роки тому +4

      Mooooood

    • @kurootsuki3326
      @kurootsuki3326 4 роки тому

      mood

    • @tylerday7616
      @tylerday7616 4 роки тому +90

      @@kurootsuki3326 Every few years for a while you'll look back and realize you were a child the whole time. Puts things into perspective. Be patient with yourself, you're still growing.

  • @brooklyn__________
    @brooklyn__________ 4 роки тому +7413

    “So 25 year old dodie how are you”
    Dodie: *is crying*

    • @finnn9940
      @finnn9940 4 роки тому +13

      I saw this comment when it had 420 likes

    • @MO-gw7yp
      @MO-gw7yp 4 роки тому +12

      @@finnn9940 my drilla wanna go smoke a zoot

  • @scarlettlexi7484
    @scarlettlexi7484 4 роки тому +1726

    ‘ladies and gentlemen we’re going to take a quick short break’
    dodie: hyperventilating
    me: crying

  • @Exotixa
    @Exotixa 4 роки тому +5094

    I love how she's kinder to her younger self. I'd be cringing at how stupid I was. lolol

    • @sofiabravo1994
      @sofiabravo1994 4 роки тому +49

      Nicole Morel I am so critical of my 20-year-old self I am 25 now and I finally was able to retrieve all of my memories from when I was in my 20th year and the videos were just so hard to watch I thought I was actually being cute and quirky but it’s just annoying...I was still a teenager🤣🤣🤣

    • @Exotixa
      @Exotixa 4 роки тому +6

      @@sofiabravo1994 🤣🤣🤣 see that's what im afraid of

    • @temporaryphase
      @temporaryphase 4 роки тому +19

      I think you might be surprised at how youd feel about your young self. I saw a video of myself from 2014 and I thought I was a cringy ugly kid at the time but when I saw that recently I just looked like a nice kid..because u was a nice polite kid and I'm so sad i was so pointlessly insecure .

    • @hettyborinstein6516
      @hettyborinstein6516 4 роки тому +15

      Working on gentleness and care for your past self is really important! They were working really hard and helped you get to where you are now!

  • @mayae9864
    @mayae9864 4 роки тому +5097

    The elevator music during the sobbing intermission was a whole mood

    • @precioustime6635
      @precioustime6635 4 роки тому +6

      ua-cam.com/video/VjJRP-T0dSk/v-deo.html

    • @olaa4313
      @olaa4313 4 роки тому

      @@precioustime6635 Thank god I wasn't rick rolled lol

    • @danhhoang5947
      @danhhoang5947 4 роки тому +1

      Is it bad that I chuckled a little?

  • @grainneocruhuir6383
    @grainneocruhuir6383 4 роки тому +1245

    ‘I did take a pregnancy test the other day but I’m just really bloated’ is such a mood

  • @allergictoalliteration6033
    @allergictoalliteration6033 4 роки тому +742

    "We got...animojis?"
    **long sigh**
    "Alright."
    I felt that.

    • @alvareo92
      @alvareo92 4 роки тому +5

      Ruhi Soni lol I laughed when younger Dodie asked what phones were like now. Just the same, young Dodie, except bigger and faster. Cameras are better. That’s it

  • @femaleserialkiller
    @femaleserialkiller 4 роки тому +3450

    “I lived in Bath and I worked in Lush”
    I know Bath is a place in England but this sentence is so mf FUNNY like she lived in Bath and worked at a soap store

    • @GreenCarrot6
      @GreenCarrot6 4 роки тому +47

      i read it like 'lived in bath & body works and also worked at lush '(bc i didnt hear her say that bit)

    • @aprilwoods92
      @aprilwoods92 4 роки тому +14

      hahaha i didn't realize this until you pointed it out xD

    • @emilyspriggs1601
      @emilyspriggs1601 4 роки тому +7

      I could have seen her in there but I wouldn't have known it was her. Oof.

    • @rosieburvill9296
      @rosieburvill9296 4 роки тому +1

      @@emilyspriggs1601 ik samee x

    • @thelemonpolice
      @thelemonpolice 3 роки тому

      Ew why

  • @brooklyn__________
    @brooklyn__________ 4 роки тому +1334

    “I did take a pregnancy test the other day, I was just bloated” ME OMG

  • @zainasoliman8711
    @zainasoliman8711 4 роки тому +849

    me, in the midst of bawling my eyes out: *types “ask doctor about spironolactone” in my notes app*

  • @brooklyn__________
    @brooklyn__________ 4 роки тому +1674

    “Ladies and gentlemen we’re gonna take a quick break”
    Me at school when I have an anxiety attack

    • @emmynoether9540
      @emmynoether9540 4 роки тому +18

      relatable

    • @beth7132
      @beth7132 4 роки тому +26

      just hide in the bathroom and listen to dodie. that used to help a lot but then my anxiety got too bad so now i’m homeschooled 😍😍

    • @titimplants3520
      @titimplants3520 4 роки тому +4

      it’s a big boy boog mood

  • @kathryngray2546
    @kathryngray2546 4 роки тому +3619

    this really made me realise that I'm literally still a teenager. like I have so much room to grow, even if it feels like I don't

    • @lemoncucumber9832
      @lemoncucumber9832 4 роки тому +56

      Kathryn Gray same! Seeing how different she is, I can’t imagine who I’ll be.

    • @Evar0se
      @Evar0se 4 роки тому +16

      ok you didn't have to hit me so hard with this

    • @LieutenantSheep
      @LieutenantSheep 4 роки тому +13

      Yes yes the world is full of options at 20. Seize the day

    • @madebymissy_
      @madebymissy_ 4 роки тому +31

      I feel the same way. I’m a teenager and yet I continue to forget that my life is still at the beginning

    • @Cookie_Comment
      @Cookie_Comment 4 роки тому +3

      Yeah... I’m not even a teen yet and i feel the same

  • @ThomasSanders
    @ThomasSanders 4 роки тому +5446

    You telling yourself to "chill out"... that was amazing and such a mood. Ugh I love this

    • @doddleoddle
      @doddleoddle 4 роки тому +421

      Thomas Sanders Hahahah lOL we are our own biggest critics

    • @kylieyaussi9489
      @kylieyaussi9489 4 роки тому +29

      oh shoot it’s Thomas. Howdy!

    • @andpeggy1406
      @andpeggy1406 4 роки тому +11

      HI THOMAS I LOVE YOUUUU 😁❤️❤️

    • @notsotypical6202
      @notsotypical6202 4 роки тому +17

      I felt so attacked, I have the same fears as younger dodie and wow I really needed to hear both 1. It gets better and 2. "Chill out" LOL

    • @cocoleetos3295
      @cocoleetos3295 4 роки тому +11

      Some how I read this with your voice.. 😐😐🤷🏽‍♀️😂

  • @outdated-username
    @outdated-username 4 роки тому +575

    The human-ness is so cutting I don't even know the words to describe it

  • @isabelleb-l2699
    @isabelleb-l2699 4 роки тому +1939

    I think it's sweet that she talks to herself as if she is a younger sister

  • @lupevinado3087
    @lupevinado3087 4 роки тому +920

    “God, I wish I could play them for her” I’m sobbing?

  • @hvjcghi
    @hvjcghi 4 роки тому +410

    20 yo dodie: "no offense, sorry"
    25 yo dodie: "it's okay!"
    It really is :')

  • @isaacroot5459
    @isaacroot5459 4 роки тому +1550

    i feel like i now understand that it isn’t this way forever

    • @doddlevloggle
      @doddlevloggle  4 роки тому +423

      It really isn’t
      If one thing on this earth is true it’s that things change!

    • @ellw7830
      @ellw7830 4 роки тому +35

      The thing that brought that home the most for me was some of the more visceral stuff that has changed in 5 years-there’s a different house, different hair, and a whole album and tour that 20yo dodie hadn’t even dreamed of! Those are some big shifts, it’s cool to see how far you can go in just a short five years.

    • @isaacroot5459
      @isaacroot5459 4 роки тому +18

      doddlevloggle I- NAHDIDWOOSJDBDBWJOOSND OH MY GOD
      *deep breath* thank you for the hope you’ve given me

  • @orlagartland
    @orlagartland 4 роки тому +3280

    well this destroyed me

  • @gcan_t6814
    @gcan_t6814 4 роки тому +1354

    This is comforting for 20 year old me.

    • @angelinaarmy3761
      @angelinaarmy3761 4 роки тому +47

      Same I just turned 20 yesterday and I feel so old and sad and all I think of is my teen self and wishing to be young again...by watching this I felt inspired to live my next years to the fullest and do whatever I want instead of wishing to be younger every time and making myself sick😰😥

    • @nooraqueen2716
      @nooraqueen2716 4 роки тому +2

      @@angelinaarmy3761 same

    • @rat-in-the-void
      @rat-in-the-void 4 роки тому +3

      @@angelinaarmy3761 honestly same

    • @isabellerangel2308
      @isabellerangel2308 4 роки тому +1

      same

    • @thebtwc6499
      @thebtwc6499 3 роки тому +1

      Same

  • @katherine4916
    @katherine4916 4 роки тому +470

    little did 20 year old dodie know that 25 year old dodie would reply while in lockdown in the midst of a global pandemic

    • @sunnyc.612
      @sunnyc.612 4 роки тому +3

      Because dodie is holy

  • @callieperkins
    @callieperkins 4 роки тому +1582

    Its so weird that I watched "dear 25 year old me" when i was 15, and now im 20 watching "hello 20 year old me". I cant believe its been 5 years.. thats scary

    • @brunella_pucci
      @brunella_pucci 4 роки тому +6

      Same! I can't believe it's been 5 years, it doesn't seem that long! Xx

    • @Xplreli
      @Xplreli 4 роки тому +3

      Me too. Emotional.

    • @thosegreeneyes
      @thosegreeneyes 4 роки тому +5

      Omg same I’ve been waiting for 5 years

    • @Hyumifu
      @Hyumifu 4 роки тому +3

      Same... I can't stop crying

    • @helenayasmin
      @helenayasmin 4 роки тому +11

      same sis! I remember watching the original at 15 like woah when she replies I'll be 20 MAD

  • @kissingthimbles552
    @kissingthimbles552 4 роки тому +675

    when i saw this i immediately said "uh oh, the feels are comin"

  • @emiliew5553
    @emiliew5553 4 роки тому +1105

    the most genuine and real “reacting to my old videos” ever posted

  • @bluuebye1991
    @bluuebye1991 4 роки тому +2359

    this feels like the end to “secret for the mad”, in a better place than it started, still with some sad things to face, but hopeful and okay :)

    • @DisabledwithDiamonds
      @DisabledwithDiamonds 4 роки тому +7

      ellieleat okay YES SAME 1000%

    • @TS-um4jx
      @TS-um4jx 4 роки тому +7

      My heart

    • @jessicaharding1876
      @jessicaharding1876 4 роки тому +7

      This is ridiculously true, going to put it on repeat again for the next 3 days

    • @Alyssa__2115
      @Alyssa__2115 4 роки тому +2

      Ok was ok until i read this then i broke down

    • @triforceofevil
      @triforceofevil 4 роки тому +4

      ellieleat when she told 20 y/o dodie that it eventually got better i immediately though of secret for the mad and it felt like such a fitting song that 25 y/o dodie would dedicate to her past self i started crying it’s nice to know i wasn’t the only one that felt that way

  • @greenhairedhannah6089
    @greenhairedhannah6089 4 роки тому +459

    Dodie: is crying and trying to hold herself together.
    Also Dodie: OOP
    I love her

  • @poppyoconnor2649
    @poppyoconnor2649 4 роки тому +1962

    my aesthetic is dodie calling herself “babe”

  • @KessyMar
    @KessyMar 4 роки тому +1526

    I remember watching "dear 25 year old me" when I was 15. Now I'm 20 and i realise how fast time flies. I feel like 20y/o dodie in a lot of ways, mostly because i'm so afraid of the future and i feel like i'm getting older faster than i can realize, i just want to stop every moment to really live it, really experience it and capture the feelings. of course i can't do that and i feel like life is passing me by and i'm just standing there, barely realizing what's happening and just like that, time's gone by. anyway, this video inspired me to write a letter to myself to read in 5 years :)
    (no one will see this and that's okay lol, this is mostly for me. had to get it off my chest)

    • @musicsummer129
      @musicsummer129 4 роки тому +20

      I'm 22 and I so identify with the way you're feeling. Thank you so much for sharing this, and I hope we both find ways to stay present and just try to treasure the little moments, no matter how fast everything speeds along.

    • @KessyMar
      @KessyMar 4 роки тому +8

      @@musicsummer129 thank you so much for taking the time to read my comment! and thank you for being so kind, i hope we can both learn to enjoy the moment as it happens and I wish you all the best 💙💙

    • @beetlejubs
      @beetlejubs 4 роки тому +12

      gosh, i'm almost 20 now and i feel absolutely the same. it's kinda great to watch it now 'cause it's like she's talking to me about those non-specific topics and the things that go on my mind at my 20s. like a big sister, y'know?

    • @KessyMar
      @KessyMar 4 роки тому +7

      @@beetlejubs yes exactly! didn't realize it before but now that you've said it, she really is like a big sister in these videos

    • @chloeelimam3899
      @chloeelimam3899 4 роки тому +6

      I know exactly what you mean, sometimes I feel like a train is coming at me and I'm just putting out my arms to stop it and I can't do anything

  • @skssdeuvsdishartmann.3439
    @skssdeuvsdishartmann.3439 4 роки тому +1679

    OMG I CAN’T BELIEVE I HAVE WAITED FOR THIS FOR FIVE YEARS WHAT DO YOU MEAN FIVE YEARS?????!!!!!! HOW OLD AM I EVEN NOW WTF LMAO HOW TIME FLIES

  • @sammy.miller.music1
    @sammy.miller.music1 4 роки тому +3700

    I just realised she didn't answer the 'are you happy' question, she just sighed. My heart broke :(

    • @cephi
      @cephi 4 роки тому +84

      i noticed that too :(

    • @PeachPlastic
      @PeachPlastic 4 роки тому +306

      Eh, I mean, it's hard to set a momentary feeling as a universal life goal.

    • @joshk.
      @joshk. 4 роки тому +55

      @@PeachPlastic damn. haven't even thought about it like that. damn

    • @empiricus2211
      @empiricus2211 4 роки тому +18

      @@PeachPlastic I guess it's more about overall fulfillment then, I suppose

    • @josefineschueler
      @josefineschueler 4 роки тому +21

      We'll never be totally happy... all our emotions are holy and as worthy as 'happiness'

  • @kendallwert7640
    @kendallwert7640 4 роки тому +800

    Dodie’s reaction to being able to tell her 20yo self that she’s a musician with a band and hit songs is the wholesome content we need. 💜

  • @HiraLalani
    @HiraLalani 4 роки тому +412

    when she said depression was more of a friend now .. my heART

  • @abbyh.4777
    @abbyh.4777 4 роки тому +1995

    I love seeing her love herself here. The joy she has when she talks to “herself”.

  • @samihahamzayeva9113
    @samihahamzayeva9113 4 роки тому +2203

    “youre probably gonna feel like that for a while but then- then it actually does get better. genuinely. youll go through the worst of it ... and then youll actually come out feeling a lot better”
    “it is the BEST time! i cant believe you have that to look forward to. it will change your life”
    “some shit goes down, and everything changes but then everyones fine”
    “all of the mess and memories are gone. and everyones okay”
    “i think i was pinning a lot of happiness on sort of going back to the past and i think at some point, i dont know when, you learned to look forward for happiness”
    “its really not as bad as you think”
    “it will be so different and it will be okay”
    !!!!!!! this stuff made me tear up oh my god oh my god dodie is so wise and beautiful and amazing im literally so amazed to see how much shes grown its insane. this is so freaking amazing

    • @Emily-qk8ov
      @Emily-qk8ov 4 роки тому +18

      Same. Even reading this comment made me tear up again

    • @aydencourage
      @aydencourage 4 роки тому +6

      it’s incredible how much she’s grown and how positively and calmly she handled something this heavy.

    • @montannatilton9114
      @montannatilton9114 4 роки тому +6

      thank u for writing these up!! I loved her wisdom here too. I cried with Dodie in there. And now while I'm writing this lol. My parents divorced a few years ago and last year we sold the house I grew up in and got rid of all the mess and the memories so that kind of hit me hard. I'm only 22 and I still worry a lot about whether I'll ever be, like, okay. this video honestly gave me a lot of hope. I'm graduating from university soon so it seems a good a time as ever to write a letter to future me.

    • @samihahamzayeva9113
      @samihahamzayeva9113 3 роки тому

      happy slightly belated anniversary to the the day i got perceived by dodie

  • @michellemah2758
    @michellemah2758 4 роки тому +1209

    Did anyone else just absolutely burst into tears when 20 year old Dodie asked about Hedy and her parents, and 25 year old Dodie had to take a cry break?

    • @precioustime6635
      @precioustime6635 4 роки тому +5

      ua-cam.com/video/VjJRP-T0dSk/v-deo.html

    • @lucy-vo2lr
      @lucy-vo2lr 4 роки тому +1

      yes omg

    • @gimpystimpy5304
      @gimpystimpy5304 4 роки тому +39

      Michelle Mah i don’t know anything about her so what happened to her parents?

    • @goldnoodlelala
      @goldnoodlelala 4 роки тому +11

      i did man, even if i dont know what happened i could still sense the emotions through the screen and idek why i started crying too :(

    • @TheComment2011
      @TheComment2011 4 роки тому +1

      @@gimpystimpy5304 maybe they split or one or both passed away?

  • @danidisco284
    @danidisco284 4 роки тому +271

    "it'll be different, but it'll be okay"
    that's so powerful and I cried with you

  • @kale6623
    @kale6623 4 роки тому +1876

    I remember watching “Dear 25 Year Old Me” when I was 12, I’m now 17 and sobbing at how time flies

  • @peaarrllldiver
    @peaarrllldiver 4 роки тому +642

    it feels like yesterday that dodie had short hair and a fringe😔

    • @naia8191
      @naia8191 4 роки тому +14

      vending machine oreos honestly i remember i cut my hair short and immediately watched her video on short hairstyles for some inspiration. i was so excited

    • @agcitrusstudios1075
      @agcitrusstudios1075 4 роки тому +2

      sanaia ok lmao so did I except I got it cut like 2 months ago

    • @peaarrllldiver
      @peaarrllldiver 4 роки тому +6

      sanaia omg same dodie inspired me to cut my hair bcos her short hairstyles were all so cute🥺

    • @estherthebester
      @estherthebester 4 роки тому +2

      it really does

    • @naia8191
      @naia8191 4 роки тому +2

      vending machine oreos righttt i think the one that i immediately did was like the one with the two space buns up top

  • @alicepalmeira4887
    @alicepalmeira4887 4 роки тому +342

    dodie crying trying to talk about her family is me in every therapy session tbh

    • @doddleoddle
      @doddleoddle 4 роки тому +54

      LMAO CORRECT same

    • @ersaida
      @ersaida 4 роки тому +2

      I'm glad I'm not the only one lmao

  • @ellieo5451
    @ellieo5451 4 роки тому +324

    When she went “aw babe” I cried

  • @frecklefreckles
    @frecklefreckles 4 роки тому +1768

    "It's not as scary as you think, when it happens. It's just the way it is."

    • @lucyclark851
      @lucyclark851 4 роки тому +22

      I lost my childhood pet recently and I really wish I had heard those words before. It really isn’t as scary as it seems. It’s awfully tragic and horrible and sad but it’s also very serene and peaceful in a way that only death can be. Idk. Very weird and surreal, but yeah, not scary.

    • @KawaiiContinuum
      @KawaiiContinuum 4 роки тому +4

      I needed that quote. My cats are old and I have small flares of anxiety a few times as week as I think about losing them and always hoping I have more time with them. I know it will be heart breaking, but those words help ease my current worries

    • @nicb.7991
      @nicb.7991 4 роки тому

      I saw this as she said it.

  • @jaymeiliff4389
    @jaymeiliff4389 4 роки тому +1185

    dodie, thank you for not cutting out the entire bit of you crying and hyperventilating. I know you aren't nearly as comfortable with putting stuff online anymore but I really appreciated the authenticity. i think it's very grounding and comforting to see someone I admire still allow herself to be openly emotional. this is so bizarre for me to watch as well because I had JUST discovered you around this exact time 5 years ago following a really difficult breakup so seeing this made me see not only how much you have grown, but how much I have as well, and it's nice to think that we were on the journey to self-growth together.

  • @ijustshitmyself
    @ijustshitmyself 4 роки тому +1651

    "how's mom, how's dad,"
    ".... Ladies and gentlemen we're gonna take a short break"
    *Goes to sob in a corner*
    Most relatable and bittersweet thing I've ever seen
    Edit: hOLy sHiEt the likes wth

  • @pigeonsoccs5210
    @pigeonsoccs5210 4 роки тому +749

    dodie is so proud, but overwhelmed with emotions. her face when she looks at her at 20, it just says, “dodie, you did it. you didn’t think you could do it. we did it and we don’t have to worry so much. it was a ride, but thank you for powering through. i’m proud of you.” but..you can see, in her eyes, that question. dodie is wondering, about her younger self. “are you proud of me?”

  • @hannaha7084
    @hannaha7084 4 роки тому +445

    The fact that she’s not looking at the camera, it makes it seem like she’s doing an interview and talking to an actual person

    • @aniwaniwa427
      @aniwaniwa427 4 роки тому +4

      hehe true that, I viewed it as her addressing her 20yr old self :)

  • @jaybird1216
    @jaybird1216 4 роки тому +320

    Please tell me I'm not the only one who started bawling when 20-year-old Dodie asked if 25-year-old Dodie is happy? because just watching Dodie talk about growing over time and learning to be happy just made me bawl my eyes out holy hell

  • @evan
    @evan 4 роки тому +3104

    5 years sounds like nothing on paper but damn it's a long ass time
    crazy how far y've come!

    • @doddlevloggle
      @doddlevloggle  4 роки тому +308

    • @Mega365247
      @Mega365247 3 роки тому +6

      Absolutely, you can change and grow a lot in 5 years! Especially when you are young!! 😁

    • @Mike-jq9jo
      @Mike-jq9jo 3 роки тому +2

      Five years is spit in the ocean. It is very little. The human cortex isn’t fully formed until about age 25. You guys have a long time coming.

  • @aleenamirza910
    @aleenamirza910 4 роки тому +286

    "You're gonna fall in love,
    You're gonna fall apart,
    You gonna get back together,"
    . . . welp that hit me hard.

  • @renxiahh9462
    @renxiahh9462 4 роки тому +399

    dodie calling her 20 y/o self “babe” is evERYTHING

  • @caraliiina8453
    @caraliiina8453 4 роки тому +418

    25 year old dodie saying “god I wish I could play my songs to her, she would love them” to 20 year old dodie really GOT ME

    • @relaxolotl788
      @relaxolotl788 4 роки тому

      caracarota that's when I started crying

  • @fraserwhite2477
    @fraserwhite2477 4 роки тому +237

    Seeing this makes me realise how much stronger Dodie has become over the past 5 years.

    • @clemrose9720
      @clemrose9720 4 роки тому +1

      Fraser White she’s got a better back bone 🦴

  • @mollsack
    @mollsack 4 роки тому +515

    as a 16 year old watching this i cried very hard. my future has always been a scary thing to think about and i dont have many visions of myself past 20, so putting myself in your shoes here i felt all of the emotions you did.

    • @plestrange511
      @plestrange511 4 роки тому +27

      I'm 17, and i feel the exact same- its hard to picture being 20 or 25 and what things will have happened or not happened & where life will be. Its scary as hell. I think writing a letter will terrify me but also hopefully something to look back on and go yeah i did that.

    • @sickeninglysweetlikehoney9917
      @sickeninglysweetlikehoney9917 4 роки тому +10

      @@plestrange511 Oof, I heavily relate to the both of u. I'm turning 17 in two months and this video brought me to tears. The future is really scary, the past is cringy lol and a bit fascinating too. A lot of people here keep mentioning writing a letter so I might just do that aswell, it'll be an interesting experience to open it in a couple of years. Thank you, and I wish u both good luck in life, it's going to be alright.

    • @crowtalker
      @crowtalker Рік тому +1

      hey, you’re probably 18-ish now - hopefully you’re still around and you have a better vision of the future. if not, i just wanted to say that i was just like you all once; i’m now in my early 20s and i can say with certainty that i’m glad i’m here. the world moves on, day by day. the future is not some huge destructive force that will come in and crash down all at once. the future is tomorrow, and then the day after that, and the day after that. the issues you’re dealing with might still remain, but as you grow older you develop new ways of seeing the world and those issues as well - at the very least, you need only worry about tomorrow. it’s like when you’re in kindergarten, you look at the high schoolers and feel a sense of intimidation b/c they seem so big and smart; like omnipotent adults. but time goes on, over the years you grow and naturally you gain experience, and eventually you’re a high schooler and it all seems much more reasonable and manageable. i hope you’re well. keep pushing on. i was once a 17 year old who thought they wouldnt live past 20. i’m glad i did. im still scared of the future but i feel ready to take on tomorrow, and that’s all you need. take care

  • @sienflower
    @sienflower 4 роки тому +575

    when you broke down about your parents no longer being together but being in better places than they were when together made me breakdown ahhhhhhhhh! my parents are also separated, and my mom is in a much happier and healthier
    place with her new partner :)

    • @doddleoddle
      @doddleoddle 4 роки тому +70

    • @sienflower
      @sienflower 4 роки тому +1

      doddleoddle love u and your music so much and happy birthday again💞💞

  • @jaemiing
    @jaemiing 4 роки тому +1226

    I love how Dodie talks to her 20yr old self like a person in front of herself and gets excited for her

    • @GreekGirl102
      @GreekGirl102 4 роки тому

      I heard or read somewhere that there was a study where when people look at images of themselves from the past, the same part of their brain lights up as when they see other people, i.e. their brain identifies their past selves as a different person.

    • @jaemiing
      @jaemiing 4 роки тому +1

      GreekGirl102 ahh thanks for telling me that’s actually quite interesting

  • @Lucy.Valentine
    @Lucy.Valentine 4 роки тому +275

    "you learned to look forward for happiness."
    I feel like that's such a powerful statement.

  • @SuicideBunny6
    @SuicideBunny6 4 роки тому +995

    When 20 yo dodie started asking about Hedy and her parents and started crying afterwards, I felt that. I’m going through some challenging times too (divorced parents, change of home, first workplace and life in general) and it’s refreshing to see just how much can and will change in only 5 years.
    You’re such an inspirational and admirable person (even when you think you’re not) and it’s so uplifting to hear your story and how you’re able to look back on all that happened. I even might write down a note myself for a future me in 5 years and reflect on how things might change and will have changed by then.
    Thank you so much dodie! ❤️

    • @GymGirl88
      @GymGirl88 4 роки тому +5

      Sending support! My parents started getting divorced two years ago, immediately after I started graduate school. I just defended my thesis on Friday. You'll get through this ❤️. But I understand how you feel

    • @ilurvsharrypotter
      @ilurvsharrypotter 4 роки тому +1

      My parents got divorced two years ago, and thinking about the place I was in then or three years ago, I wish that I could tell myself how much growth I've made to now 💜 There is hope! Things do get better!

    • @helenjames6982
      @helenjames6982 4 роки тому

      ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @missoxymoronaddict
    @missoxymoronaddict 4 роки тому +252

    When you said “I wish I could play the songs for her” I teared up so extremely. There are so many things that I wish I could tell twenty year old me too. How special to have this video so you can see her again ❤️

  • @mynameis_jendrik
    @mynameis_jendrik 4 роки тому +466

    „this is the face of someone who is not ready to continue“ was the cutest, direct and most honest added text in there

    • @NikitaSamourai
      @NikitaSamourai 4 роки тому +2

      And she still did. It's like life, even when you're not ready for it you still get through

    • @precioustime6635
      @precioustime6635 4 роки тому

      ua-cam.com/video/VjJRP-T0dSk/v-deo.html

  • @thelittleprince7072
    @thelittleprince7072 4 роки тому +288

    dear 25 year old me
    did you make it to being a 25 year old?

    • @oriel7386
      @oriel7386 4 роки тому +42

      you will! this video is PROOF that life does get better but it can take a year or two until you recognise that you're in a totally different place, keep fighting and life will soon be okay xxxx

    • @sollll3767
      @sollll3767 4 роки тому +4

      @@oriel7386 youre so cute

    • @notroe2237
      @notroe2237 3 роки тому

      💙

  • @morganfelt4011
    @morganfelt4011 4 роки тому +1334

    “I’ve got a secret for the mad, in a little bit of time it won’t hurt so bad.... I promise you, it’ll all make sense again.” Wow this got me crying as I thought about who I was five years ago. I’m about to be 20. And 15 year old me hurt a lot. She was desperate to be loved because she didn’t know how to love herself. She got hurt by some people, and there were many times that she cried in the dark and hoped she would disappear by morning. But the sun still rose, and she continued on. She grew stronger, and she found more of herself. The more she found, the more she loved those fragments of self. Now, she’s still growing. But she isn’t hurting that way anymore. She still cries sometimes, but she’s learned how to love herself, and she’s the first one to come to her own defense, she’s the first one to protect. She doesn’t need some boy pretending like he can protect her. She learned how to herself. And now, she tries to protect others, who are where she was, all those years ago. She is about to embark on her greatest adventure, and it hasn’t happened the way 15 had hoped, but it’s happened in ways neither of them could’ve dreamed. 20 is excited. 20 has looked at 15 and said “I love you now, and I’m so sorry I didn’t love you then. You are worthy of love. You are smart, and kind, and good. You are talented. You don’t deserve the things that happened to you. And despite what you might think, they weren’t your fault. I love you. I love you.”

  • @spearl2498
    @spearl2498 4 роки тому +1003

    I watched dodie so much 5 years ago that “that” dodie is cemented into my brain, I don’t watch her as much but watching this video you can just see how much she has changed. She has become so sure and honest with herself. It is so beautiful to see. And I so related to that feeling of always wanting to be 15/16 again, but as the 25 y.o dodie knows - that feeling passes. I love this Dodie 💗

  • @jillstephenson
    @jillstephenson 4 роки тому +632

    This is so, so powerful. It gives me hope. Seeing Dodie now, she's so much happier and she knows so much more about herself. It actually makes me excited for the future, when I'm usually scared of it.

    • @kasia8306
      @kasia8306 4 роки тому +2

      yes!!!!

    • @hannahh8119
      @hannahh8119 4 роки тому +2

      I can relate to that.. but at the same time I'm still really really scared.

  • @strawwberryyy
    @strawwberryyy 4 роки тому +334

    I'm 20 now and I can't believe it's been 5 years since dodie looked like that. It's just so scary to me how quickly time passes and I feel like I missed out on a lot of my teenage years because of my depression :/ hope it won't be like this forever

    • @edenjensen6708
      @edenjensen6708 4 роки тому +9

      the earth is grateful to have you here, the tides will change for you at some point, and you deserve to be there when they do ♥️

    • @strawwberryyy
      @strawwberryyy 4 роки тому +1

      @@edenjensen6708 thank you ❤

    • @colourfulsouls
      @colourfulsouls Рік тому +3

      Hope things are better now
      imo life is a lot of ups and downs.
      Enjoy the better times and when things aren’t good, try to remember that it will get better and to be kind to yourself.
      It can help to try and focus on the positive things in our lives, rather than more on the negative side (a balance of both)
      Setting small goals can help, write them down to look back on later

    • @rodrigoferreiramaciel4815
      @rodrigoferreiramaciel4815 Рік тому

      Hey, life happens but things come and go and change with the time... I hope everything gets better someday and even tho the future is scary, it doesnt all happen at once, so take your time life the present :) really hope u are fine and with you a good week 💙

  • @louisaglen187
    @louisaglen187 4 роки тому +364

    Dodie: has a bit of a cry
    Me: also has a bit of a cry because I realise that I can relate to a lot of stuff dodie and the fact she got through it makes me more hopeful that I can

  • @its.dragaton
    @its.dragaton 4 роки тому +245

    "It's gonna be okay, but you know this.
    You're gonna write a book, you're gonna write EP's, you're gonna write albums, you're gonna tour the world, you're gonna fall in love, you're gonna fall apart, you're gonna get back together, find new friends, you will fade away from other things;
    and it will be so different, but it will be okay."
    i think this was exactly what i needed to hear in my own situation. life is changing & there are days when i feel like nothing's going to work out. but things will work out, and it will be okay. and i think, perhaps, in five years i'll be farther along than i ever could have thought possible.

  • @brooklyn__________
    @brooklyn__________ 4 роки тому +355

    Be honest your down here to distract yourself from crying, cause that’s me rn

  • @calipeacegirl1010
    @calipeacegirl1010 4 роки тому +150

    As a 20 year old who keeps looking back at 16, I needed this

  • @crickety6092
    @crickety6092 4 роки тому +3338

    The affection in her voice when she talks about Heidi brought tears to my eyes

  • @SophiaWilson
    @SophiaWilson 4 роки тому +194

    *main takeaway: **_things will get better_*

  • @erinmariecece
    @erinmariecece 4 роки тому +284

    I started crying with you when 20 year old you said “are you happy?”
    I’m 20 years old right now and I remember when that video was first posted. I was 15.
    I feel like I’ve grown so much with you and I’ve stepped into myself in the past 5 years and I’m glad you were there with me throughout them.
    I am happy now I think, I hope you are too.

  • @miji9013
    @miji9013 4 роки тому +133

    “It’s got cool new features tho.. it’s got like animojis!......”
    *thinks*
    “Alright.”

  • @eleanormaddock9603
    @eleanormaddock9603 4 роки тому +369

    “I got nose fillers though” ok here is my formal request for dodie asmr

    • @morgansymonds9080
      @morgansymonds9080 4 роки тому +9

      Dodie has a few asmr videos already! 😊

    • @wybersss
      @wybersss 4 роки тому +5

      ur in luck friend !! just search that shit and you’ll get some gold content from a year or two ago

    • @eleanormaddock9603
      @eleanormaddock9603 4 роки тому +3

      Morgan Symonds this is the happiest moment of my life

    • @eleanormaddock9603
      @eleanormaddock9603 4 роки тому +1

      Chloe 🥺 thank you!

    • @skylarsa
      @skylarsa 4 роки тому

      THANK YOU. I GOT ASMR THERE TOO!

  • @Matthew-oe2gp
    @Matthew-oe2gp 4 роки тому +558

    hearing the part about your parents. it hurt a lot. like Hedy, I was 11 when you posted this and I'm 16 now. I think I was probably 12 or 13 when I first watched it. if 11 year old me made a video like this, he would have asked how mom and dad are now. I'm not sure how I would answer him. my old house is gone too. my cat passed too. and my parents aren't together anymore either. I'd like to tell him it gets better. because it kind of does. but its gonna hurt him a lot. and some things will be worse. but its gonna be ok.

    • @bertiebotts6076
      @bertiebotts6076 4 роки тому +4

      For me ir hurt too but in a good way¿
      I'm just currently strruggling with my parents divorce so it felt like me from the future telling me it's going to be fine.
      I guess it gave me hope that i'll figure out how to talk to my parents about it and how to open up in general.

    • @beepbeepeddie8010
      @beepbeepeddie8010 4 роки тому +1

      ey i was 11 and 16 too

    • @ruetube
      @ruetube 4 роки тому +2

      same here. i'm nearly 16 n my parents formally divorced after being split for 5 years when i was 12/13. so much has changed in the span of 5 yrs. i remember watching this video in the midst of it. since then, my dad moved out; my mum who has schizophrenia is on new pills; she also had multiple operations on her bad leg from a car crash so she's more mobile; we got in touch w my dad's long lost half brother and stayed on his canal boat; my best friend moved back to indo; and, most recently, my gcses got cancelled due to a global pandemic.. it makes me wonder what else will have happened by the time i get to 25 :0

  • @kiarawentzloff941
    @kiarawentzloff941 4 роки тому +147

    "Hello 25 year old Dodie, im 20 year old Dodie" tell me why I immediately started crying

  • @claireshelnutt8230
    @claireshelnutt8230 3 роки тому +38

    Dodie, pink-and-white in 2015, you were so important to my messy adolescence. I made pink floral bunting for my walls and asked for a uke for christmas in high school- you were like a dear older sister to me, I wanted to be just like you. and woo girl i was right with you on the eyeliner lol (throwback to Paint with Hedi)
    but Dodie, green-and-gold in 2020, I have so much respect for you. I'm not quite as tied to youtube as I used to be, but you and your art hold such an important place in my heart. Watching you grow gracefully and untidily and beautifully into a buoyant adult gives me hope. You are familiar to me. Thank you, darling, for letting us grow with you.
    Thank you for looking at your precious 20-year-old self kindly. I loved her. I'm learning to love my 17-year-old self that well (and my 22-year-old self for that matter). You lead the charge.

  • @carbonarcade1233
    @carbonarcade1233 4 роки тому +328

    Cried a little at this, I think because I feel a lot like dodie in the 20yr old clip, (derealization, alwasy stuck in the past or future ect) and seeing someone being like "it got better" is what I really needed. I often see people saying like "it gets better" but it's something different seeing someone who went through the same hell and who got to the other side. Thank you.

    • @romycaverly4087
      @romycaverly4087 4 роки тому +1

      I was about to comment but you literally said everything I wanted to say. So...It's nice to know I'm not so alone

    • @carbonarcade1233
      @carbonarcade1233 4 роки тому

      @@romycaverly4087 your definitely not, we gonna make it out of this

  • @lauravalentinaburbanogarci904
    @lauravalentinaburbanogarci904 4 роки тому +967

    The most shocking thing for me was
    dodie: ~i have a mortgage~
    As a 20 year old who knows when I'll own a home in *this economy*

    • @peoplecallmeagoth
      @peoplecallmeagoth 4 роки тому +31

      Yeah I mean like, Dodie's job is quite lucrative compared to many other fields, so it makes sense. I'm her age and I'm def gonna be a renter for a long while hahaha

    • @monke5052
      @monke5052 4 роки тому +3

      I live in Spain and I definitely think I will be a renter for the rest of my life

  • @esmea3083
    @esmea3083 4 роки тому +212

    They say: if you are depressed, you're living in the past. If you are anxious, you're living the the future. If you are at peace, you're living in the present. Don't know why this vid made my think of this hmmm. Loved this video... it's like talking to that friend that completely understands how you feel and see the world XXX

    • @emmakelly3354
      @emmakelly3354 4 роки тому

      completely agree

    • @notsotypical6202
      @notsotypical6202 4 роки тому

      LOL VERY TRUE YIKES

    • @estherfichtenholz4838
      @estherfichtenholz4838 4 роки тому

      That's stupid, so much of my anxiety stems from things that happened a while ago

    • @emmakelly3354
      @emmakelly3354 4 роки тому

      @@estherfichtenholz4838 you've probably turned those past issues into fears about how the future will pan out. Like you view things differently due to the past and it's changed your expectations

    • @notsotypical6202
      @notsotypical6202 4 роки тому

      @@estherfichtenholz4838 yeah like they said, my anxiety are all caused because of things in the past but my fear is cored in the "what if it happens again?" Or even sometimes "what if people find out?"

  • @nathanalbrightmusic
    @nathanalbrightmusic 4 роки тому +133

    "I took a pregnancy test yesterday, turns out I'm just very bloated"
    LMAOOOOOO

  • @CosyTeddybear
    @CosyTeddybear 4 роки тому +532

    *having a mental breakdown while elevator music is playing in the background*

  • @33phi
    @33phi 4 роки тому +443

    11:30 when dodie said that she wouldn't go back, i felt so proud and happy for her. i could see SO MUCH change and it was really inspiring to me because she's a real life example of the light at the end of a tunnel. i feel such a deep connection because i grew up with dodie and i'm just gonna keep growing WOw

    • @jamien.5528
      @jamien.5528 4 роки тому +6

      Me too I feel so happy seeing her content with herself

    • @Marianne_L
      @Marianne_L 4 роки тому

      Absolutely! 💜

  • @444lfeiran
    @444lfeiran 4 роки тому +115

    I love how she looks up to the camera as if she was FaceTiming or sending a video message to herself 🤍🖤

  • @coramarie619
    @coramarie619 4 роки тому +82

    when dodie started crying, i literally started sobbing

  • @emilypinching1731
    @emilypinching1731 4 роки тому +366

    When you said “I wish I could play [my songs] for her... I wonder what she’d think” I started SOBBING and I don’t even know why! The thought of being able to comfort your past self is... a huge thing. (also I lowkey miss your short hair, like Feb 2017ish, but also I love whatever makes you happy

  • @MadilynBailey
    @MadilynBailey 4 роки тому +972

    This is the sweetest video! Why are our twenties so confusing?? Is it the "I'm not a girl not yet a woman" thing??

    • @shroooti
      @shroooti 4 роки тому +2

      Maybe😅

    • @Icarusrider
      @Icarusrider 4 роки тому +11

      Hormones, it will save you a lot of heartache sweetheart, if you can manage it and not wreck yourself and others while going through your 20s. cheers.

  • @Cathedralsinmyheart7
    @Cathedralsinmyheart7 4 роки тому +578

    "I did take a pregnancy test the other day, um, but I'm just very bloated" MOOD

  • @madjidbeddar9995
    @madjidbeddar9995 4 роки тому +92

    I hope she react to this video when she's 30

  • @geekjokes8458
    @geekjokes8458 4 роки тому +209

    looking at the thumbnail: "oh no the video is gonna get sad, dodie its ok"
    then you start the video and she *already has that face*

  • @PeachPearz
    @PeachPearz 4 роки тому +737

    I’m about to turn 18 soon and I remember watching “dear 25 year old me” when I was 13 and terrified of getting older, graduating high school, planning for college, trying to find love and dealing with my really bad depression, etc. Now watching “hello 20 year old me” and being just almost 18 is nerve racking but so exciting because I’m graduating in May, going to my dream college away from home with the love of my life, and managing my depression so much better than before is absolutely crazy to me. (Dodie saying her depression is almost like a friend now is something I really connected with) I’ve been watching Dodie for sooo many years and to feel like we’ve almost grown up together is something I cherish because she has gotten me through many tough times and she still does to this day. Thank you for reacting to this and giving me comfort and reassurance that the future doesn’t have to be so scary :)

    • @kinleyanne1124
      @kinleyanne1124 4 роки тому +4

      MeganKxy thank you this helped me a lot right now being 16 :)

    • @yummyfishes2809
      @yummyfishes2809 4 роки тому

      I had a very similar experience, I was 14, I’m 18 now and it’s so weird to see how far we’ve all come. I feel like I’d have a similar reaction as dodie did.

    • @mrdemoneyekyo
      @mrdemoneyekyo 4 роки тому +1

      I'm 14 now and im so scared but reading this is giving me a bit of confidence with the future

    • @Serpico_Digg
      @Serpico_Digg 4 роки тому +2

      Turned 18 in January and had like a moment of realization lol it was kinda weird like something clicked. Maybe it's a stepping stone thing so maybe it'll happen again at 21 I'm just gonna let time flow, you know bro

  • @goodnoodle-204
    @goodnoodle-204 4 роки тому +765

    Doddie getting surprised when something hasn’t changed is so cute. It’s like “Oh my god! I do that! Oh wait it’s me”

    • @kaley_kayla6914
      @kaley_kayla6914 4 роки тому +3

      Good noodle - 100th comment! Hello good noodle! love your name!

  • @oliviaplayer8039
    @oliviaplayer8039 4 роки тому +658

    That was a LOT of tears for everyone still being alive

  • @kinleyanne1124
    @kinleyanne1124 4 роки тому +200

    i’m crying because i’m 16 right now and time is going by so fast and i’m scared to grow up edit: thank you all for the kind comments

    • @bluuebye1991
      @bluuebye1991 4 роки тому +8

      Kinley Richards oh my god not to be cliche but that is exactly me time needs to sLOW downnnn

    • @kashalakasha2092
      @kashalakasha2092 4 роки тому +5

      Yeppp you’re not alone

    • @HextechHannah
      @HextechHannah 4 роки тому +8

      Growing up is scary. You'll crush it though!

    • @zephyr2266
      @zephyr2266 4 роки тому +21

      I'm 23 and it's hella amazing! I love my flat, I love my friends, I love my work and studies. You'll be fine, don't be afraid. There's a lot of amazing possibilities ahead.

    • @kinleyanne1124
      @kinleyanne1124 4 роки тому +3

      Ryan Straughan thank you

  • @averyschwartz519
    @averyschwartz519 4 роки тому +273

    when she was talking about being in tour around america, and being with wonderful people and preforming for them , i legitimately started crying. i cried almost as much as i did the night i saw her in concert. i saw dodie in colorado on september 28. it was literally one of the best nights of my life, and hearing her talking about performing on tour just hit something in me and i started crying. i loved every minute of the concert, and cried so much during When. the people there all comforted me and the atmosphere of that whole show was incredible. just let me sob for a minute and realize how much i actually need to see her again

    • @Macinizby
      @Macinizby 4 роки тому

      I was there that night!

    • @bloopbloop3491
      @bloopbloop3491 4 роки тому

      I saw her at The Depot in Salt Lake City on Monday, September 30. I've never cried herder in my life. I'd give everything and anything to go back and just live in those moments forever

    • @averyschwartz519
      @averyschwartz519 4 роки тому

      Maggie Bishop thats crazy! what a small world haha

    • @averyschwartz519
      @averyschwartz519 4 роки тому

      Bloop Bloop SAME

  • @matemeszaros9547
    @matemeszaros9547 4 роки тому +147

    I love the fact that 20 years old dodie wanted to be happy and okay in a way that 25 is and you’re happy in a different way that she couldn't think of. I cried when you cried bc I feel like you’re my friend bc of your music and videos but we have never met.
    You are literally therapy for me so thank you.

  • @mollygarcia8638
    @mollygarcia8638 4 роки тому +100

    I think I was around 14 when I watched your initial video, now I am 19. When I was 14, I watched you and listened to your youtube songs every week! Because of that, I associated you and your music with that hard point in my life. This is the first video I’ve watched from you in a very long time, I listen to your songs still, but whenever I see your face I can’t help but reminisce and picture my 14 year old self behind a laptop clinging to the internet for an escape. You were my safe space for a really hard time in my life, thank you 20 year old Dodie.

    • @reynareyes8249
      @reynareyes8249 4 роки тому

      i feel the same way right now. it’s wild

    • @nanicrash
      @nanicrash 3 роки тому

      Insanely relatable😌💕

  • @lindaellaware7879
    @lindaellaware7879 4 роки тому +107

    "have you written any good songs ??"
    me: *slams table* HECK YES

  • @xinamonbun9611
    @xinamonbun9611 4 роки тому +39

    20 year old dodie: *speaks*
    25 year old dodie: *sobbing*
    i love u dodie! so proud of ur growth

  • @pinksuiteheart6974
    @pinksuiteheart6974 4 роки тому +278

    "How's teenage Hedy?" *has a whole breakdown*

  • @MicahCate
    @MicahCate 3 роки тому +119

    I REMEMBER WATCHING THIS WHEN IT FIRST CAME OUT WOW
    I've been such a fan of you for so many years; I can't believe how far you've come and I'm so proud to say I've been there for most of your UA-cam years! I love you, Dodie! (Also I love your hair long, you looked so pretty in your I Kissed Someone music video) also omg I take spironolactone too