How I lost my memory at 16. | Israel Vlog 87
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- Опубліковано 6 лип 2024
- So this is something you don't really know about me.
But I thought that I wouldn't make it pretty or easier than what it actually is.
So here we go...here is my memory loss journey in a nutshell.
00:00 Guess who
02:10 Actually, this is hard.
02:46 My memory loss story
05:48 How my brain deteriorated
10:52 I'm obviously still not over it
13:58 How I dealt with it
16:07 What do I need to do?
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Oriel, God has NOT given You a spirit of fear! But a spirit POWER and of LOVE, and of a SOUND MIND❤ You are FAR to precious. Thank you so much for being so sincere and honest. You are an OVERCOMER..🙂
The scripture in Timothy is very close to my heart, as I’ve had to say this to myself many many times. Thank you for the reminders and the encouragement.
Praying for you. Seriously. Not just saying that. I really am every day. As well as for your family and Israel. Lifting you up daily, please know that.
Aww that I you so very much, honestly. 🫂 🎉🎉🎉🎉
I am, truly, SO impressed, and in AWE of GOD. The life that you have, the difference you make, the relationships you have been able to grow deep in, are NOTHING short of a perfect Testimony of the Redemption of God and the supernatural Hope and Strength He has put in you. Most people, with very standard, healthy childhoods and college degrees, never make the difference or form connections with human beings the way you somehow have, in the face of EVERYTHING you just described. Truly Oriel, you glorify God just by being.
I am truly sorry for the hurdles you are still facing because of it. I’m praying for you, as we all are, and I KNOW God has something so Redemptive in His heart.
Father do Your Good, pleasing, and perfect will in Oriel’s life! You open doors no one can shut, and You shut doors no one can open, and by the end of the story I know we will all be in awe of Your perfect leadership and intentionality.
Oriel, you are so precious to Him, and He does not take your story lightly. He is intentional with you, and your heart.
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Awww, thank you so much for all of that! I really is a thing that I need a lot of encouragement in and not that I’m asking or expecting that of the people who watch my video but when they do it really is super encouraging so thank you so much. it does take a lot to face our weaknesses, and I hope that even when I do, it can still be an encouraging factor for other people to be honest and not to hide what they struggle with because a lot of people hide a lot of things, and it never gets solved because of it, so this is me stepping out and trying. we will see what God does and how he does it. In the meantime, probably have to accept the fact that it’s not in my timeline. 😂😂 I hope you have a wonderful day and thank you so much for all that and for praying.
One step of faith at a time. My dad used to say "little by little you get pretty far" on the journey!
I love that phrase your dad used to say! Little by little get pretty far is very, very true. Thank you so much for sharing that. 🌸✨
Oriel I understand you so much bc as a kid/teen I also went thru major depression to the point that I would go to sleep cryin and askin God to not let me wakeup😔 My parents brought me to the US when I was 10 and I left my fam, friends, school behind, everything and felt so alone and kids would bully me for different reasons. I never told my parents bc they worked so hard I felt bad for them too. When I hear kids taking their own lives I just pray God gives them strength to overcome these things bc it will get better! Your story will help many ppl goin thru the same, see there is light at the end of the tunnel💖
Wow! I’m so sorry to hear all of that. It sounds very difficult especially when you’re such a small child to go through such difficult feelings feeling alone that you can’t talk to anyone about it. I hope that you have gone through a lot of healing since then and that your prayers Have turned into prayers of thankfulness and joy but again I’m very sorry because I know that feeling of just wanting to die and it’s a very difficult one. I hope that both our stories will help a lot of people. 🌸🌸 you are wonderful. Thank you so much for sharing. I’m sure it will encourage other people that read this comment as well.
Oh my goodness! Look at you! What a wonderful brave woman you are! You just did one of the bravest things I’ve ever seen! You have literally looked at yourself and shared what you saw honestly! Sometimes God has a plan that we don’t realize or see because our focus is on something we want so badly. I know about anxiety attacks. I had severe ones for 10 years when my kids were babies! I thought I would die! But I didn’t! And that’s the thing. I had them because I couldn’t cope with people, I didn’t know how to be a good mom and I hated myself. My marriage was not good but I stayed anyway. I was off and on in counseling periodically for years. We all have demons to rid ourselves of. I learned to cope and stand up for myself. I like you rely on our Creator because that’s the only way. I am not perfect and screw up a lot! But I see honesty and continual learning to move forward a struggle but I keep going. As I said before, you don’t know how wonderful you are and the wonderful things you teach us just by being yourself! How many strive for perfection and don’t even know it will never be reached! Why? Because if we were we would have no need for our Creator! You WILL be successful in what you strive to do! Your honesty, determination, bravery and faith will get you there. There’s always a possibility He has something else in mind for you! Take each day as it comes! You do not walk alone and you are loved and appreciated 🌹🥰
Mary! What wonderful words you have spoken. I’m so so heartbroken to hear about all that you went through as well. I’m sure that it’s taken a lot in you to make the right decisions to walk towards your healing and I think that is amazing in itself. I hope that everyone that reads your comment is encouraged and that they see and know that God truly is able to do everything through us. I’m happy to know that things have gradually gotten better for you and it’s true that therapy and counseling really does make a huge difference. We truly need God for everything in life and I’m happy to see that someone else shares the same type of faith. Hopefully, I will have some good news for you soon till then I hope you have a wonderful day!
Hey Oriel, when I was a child/teen you came to my congregation in tlv and told your testimony. I remember being so touched by it, as someone who also struggled with self loathing, and also being struck by how beautiful you were. You became a wonderful role model for me for overcoming trauma caused by bullying and I’m forever thankful. I know the Lord is using your journey to touch lives, encourage and inspire, especially when things seem hopelessly challenging.
I wonder if you’ve tried an appropriate tutor? I have a very severe difficulty with math (my brain really struggles with math concepts) and the only way I got my bagrut is through למידה מתקנת. And I mean, I just passed 😅 but I passed. I pray the Lord will lead you to the right path and the right people to help you
Hey! Wow, I didn’t even remember that I went to Tel Aviv to share my testimony. That is so nice to know that someone has a different perspective for me on the outside. Thank you so much. I truly have overcome a lot till now, and I can only thank God for it. I love your advice about a different approach to studying. I decided I will probably share this in another vlog, that I need to address my brain before I start any type of studies. I guess this is God’s way of helping me overcome what bothers me most. Some things take many more years to heal, and we would like them to. I’m so happy that you passed your studies and that that went well for you. Hopefully if that is where I’m heading, then I’ll be able to do something similar. Thank you for being so encouraging and for being here and for all of your support I really appreciate it. 🌸🌸🌸
Hello Oriel❤,....I love to listen to you telling the truth about your self. Wir humans are so fragile but in honesty so beauthiful Keep going and just be yourself. ❤❤❤
It’s so true, we are very fragile and it’s ok to show that so that we can grow and heal together and I’m happy to see how compassion and encouraging you are 🫂 thank you
Thank you Oriel for opening up about your own experience regarding mental health. It takes a lot of courage to speak about ones own struggles 🙏 You have gone through a lot in life but continue to fight to survive, you have gotten this far and that in itself is a blessing in disguise 🙏 it’s hard when you are in a point in life when you just don’t know what to do but situations will turn around for the better and questions answered maybe not today but tomorrow is another day. Sending you a big hug and prayers….keep the faith stay strong in it God has not forgotten you🙏❤️ you are Always in my prayers 🙏🙏🙏
Hey Dora! Thank you for being so nice with something so sensitive. It’s true that God will open up the door to wherever I need to be. I’m not worried. I think that way I will go on a journey to be able to bring my brain to its fullest capacity. Thank you for all of your kind words and I hope that you have a wonderful wonderful week ahead ✨✨✨
Oriel, I believe Yahweh will heal you! You're amazing, and you have a huge purpose.
Awww, thank you so much for saying that Joan 🌸🌸🌸 I pray for the same. I hope you have such a wonderful day.
I was pleasantly surprised that (at 14:10) you gave a shout out to Asher Intrater. Wow, this is a small World !
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I hope you read this.
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I heard Asher speak at a Pentecostal church in Texas, and I think it was August 14 of 2005. He spoke some about EZEKIEL 37.
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I had been suddenly baptized in THE HOLY SPIRIT about 6 or 7 weeks earlier. THE HOLY SPIRIT even healed my long-term back pain.
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As I was saying, Asher had spoken in front of the entire church that Sunday.
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After the service, people lined up at the front of the church, and took turns having Asher lay hands on them, while he prayed for each.
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I stayed in my seat several rows back.
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I was watching closely.
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While Asher was laying hands on one person, and praying, Asher’s eyes were closed while his face was slightly angled upwards.
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I saw the glory of THE LORD radiating from Asher’s face.
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Asher’s face did not look bright or shiny, in any natural or physical sense.
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However, any human or animal who saw what I saw would be profoundly affected.
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There was no ignoring it.
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There was no way to say it was not real.
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I was not terrified or scared. But I probably would not have walked any closer to him.
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It was awesome.
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I was speechless.
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No words can convey what I saw.
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Asher was probably unaware that the glory of THE LORD radiated from his face.
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Carefully meditate on EXODUS 34
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EXODUS 34:29, “When Moses came down from Mount Sinai with the two tablets of the covenant law in his hands, he was not aware that his face was radiant because he had spoken with the LORD”
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EXODUS 34:30, “When Aaron and all the Israelites saw Moses, his face was radiant, and they were afraid to come near him.”
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Interestingly, that church, which is now called Church in the City (Rowlett, TX) is approximately 4 miles from the ranch where the red heifers were born (Triple Creek Red Angus Ranch in Rockwall, TX).
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JESUS is the Messiah of ISAIAH 9:6 exactly as declared in LUKE 2:11
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That is so cool! Asher is a very gentle hearted and good man and has always been a good boss and spiritual father to me. He and his wife Betty you are very very loving people. Your experience is very cool and I’m not surprised that God uses the people that love him to show his glory.
Oriel, this is only the second video I have seen on your channel. You are an incredibly beautiful and intelligent woman. You will find what you need to keep moving forward. Your determination comes through very powerfully. I would love to be a witness to your journey. Love to you.
Thank you for being so kind! I’m so happy that I could share my journey with people on this channel, and I’m really happy to see how encouraging people are so thank you!
And thank you for opening up and sharing. Your honesty is going to help many others.
Thank you so much for being so encouraging!
Sweet Oriel…you are fearfully and wonderfully made. This breaks my heart for what you have been through. No one will understand unless they’ve walked in your shoes. I know you are trusting Yeshua, stay on His path. Wait on Him. ♥️ Just being able to share this deeply personal experience is, to me, a sign of healing.
Hey Victoria! How kind of you to say such kind words . thank you so much for sharing about your personal experience and an encouraging me as well. Hopefully we will see good things soon 🌸🌸🌸🌸🧠🧠🧠🧠
@@orielinIsrael. In 2015 I was diagnosed with ptsd from working as a police/fire/ems/911 dispatcher. My mind was broken Oriel but I didn’t even see it coming. I cannot imagine how scary it must have been for such a young one to see if happening. What I have been through is a drop in the bucket compared to your experience. One thing I do know…YHVH IS HOLDING YOU THROUGH IT ALL.
In 2015, I think…maybe ‘16, I attended a Seder led by your Abba in Cincinnati. Linda is a very dear friend, since the 1970’s. You may remember the year. I really enjoyed it.
Yeshua I ask that You would flood my little sister’s mind and spirit with the power and presence of Your sweet Spirit. Teach her to trust and wait on You. She has a precious and sweet spirit. Guard her please. In Your name. Amen
Oriel, you touch my heart. Hugs from Berlin.
I’m so happy I have someone in Berlin! I was at Berlin, and it was a very sweet city. Thank you for being so kind and I hope that you have a wonderful day.
Oh darling…. The biggest hugs to you. Wow you are so brave sharing this. This was really hard to listen too. I congratulate you in having the courage to speak of this. I can not believe how much I can relate to your story. It’s crazy you say you do not remember, after post natal depression with psychosis, I also attempted suicide, had constant suicidal thoughts, I was so sick, panic attacks, couldn’t sleep, racing thoughts, anxiety, this went on for a long time and I do not remember the first couple of years of my second sons life or my first born’s 2 and 3rd years of his life. I totally relate! The same happened to me and I still struggle 20 years on, it’s debilitating. I think you go into total shut down. Honey you are still intelligent, it is just about retraining these pathways and believing in yourself, your confidence is gone. You can achieve these dreams, I promise you. It’s exhausting isn’t it. Have you ever thought that this could not only be a mental health issue but the cause of this is an underlying undiagnosed ADHD ? I’m a nurse and it’s sounding a lot like it could be. Please do some research on ADHD, my son was first diagnosed and sure I’d learnt a little about it in nursing school, but I did a lot of research on it and everything made sense. I was diagnosed at 49! I’ll send you some links to look at xx You don’t need to go to school to learn, can you do short courses online to start with? ❤❤
Wow! I’m so sorry that you went through all that. I can’t even imagine what it would feel like to give birth and then raise a baby with all that that entails and also struggle with all of that. I hope that there is a way forward and I know that you and I can overcome, somehow we look back and we’ll see that we have made progress and taking big steps forward and seeing Victor in our lives. I hope that as your journey goes on life will get better and better for you. Thank you so much for sharing
Very strong lady!! Love from 🇺🇸
Thank you so much! You as well I hope that you have a wonderful day 💪🏻✨✨✨
Oriel, I'm deeply touched by your story, and as someone who has severe anxiety, I think I can understand at least a tiny part of what you've passed through and how terrible it is. I'm praying for you, for the heal of your traumas and that you may find a path in your confusion. You're feeling lost now (I know how hopeless and distressing it feels), but please don't forget, at times like these, the God who created a path through the sea, a way through the mighty waters, though his footprints were not seen. He's with you, and there is a way out of this storm. Best wishes from a friend in Brazil!
It’s so great to know that I have a friend in Brazil! Thank you so much for your encouraging words. I’m so sorry that you have struggled with anxiety I know definitely how that feels. I pray as well just as you have for me that you will see yourself getting through the most narrow of paths in the craziest storms to find yourself without anxiety. You have everything it takes. 🌸🌸🌸✨✨✨ we are all overcoming together, and I’m happy that I can share this journey and that you’ve shared that with me as well. Hopefully we will have good news soon. 💪🏻💪🏻
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Thanks for sharing your story. I will be praying for you and will be watching you through your journey. God has a plan and a purpose for you. A closed door is a good thing even if we don’t understand why… God has something great in store for you and He can turn all things around for the good. Don’t lose hope!
Thank you so much for your encouragement! It is true. God will open the door somewhere in whatever way he chooses, and it is always good to look at him instead of looking ahead to the future without him because without him, there is definitely no hope. Thank you for your kind words and I hope that you have a wonderful day ahead.
you are so sweet. You seem to have a gentle mind ❤️. wishing you blessing and lots of angels may embrace you
Thank you so much! That is very kind of you and I hope the same for you ✨✨
I am coming from India to Israel for construction work but I am scared because there is a war going on and I am praying to God that the war ends soon.
Hi Oriel -What an incredibly moving video. Talking about terrible events in your life, can make you almost relive those darkest moments. I’m so glad you’re going for therapy - hopefully if they can’t cure you, they can at least help you. I think this video might just help somebody out there who is struggling now, just as you did. I hope you find the path to writing that novel, be it through university, or some other way. Writing a novel can be a healing process (and sometimes a frustrating one!) And finally - congratulations on passing 150,000 views! 👏😸
You’re right it really doesn’t matter that we are honest even if we don’t necessarily have the solution yet, so I’m grateful to be able to say things out loud. I truly hope that writing this novel will be a healing process as well.. also thank you so much for telling me that I passed 150,000 views because I actually had no idea I never look at that 😂😂 thank you for all your kind words and I hope you have a wonderful day
You are so brave and so wise. Thank you for your honesty. God bless you. He loves you and has a plan for you and your future.
Hey Heidi! Thank you so much for your support and for your kindness. It truly is important to remember that he does have a future and a plan and that I don’t have to worry. Thank you so much and I hope you have a wonderful week with all the people that you love. ✨✨
Thank you for sharing your story. You got this.
That is super kind of you to say! Thank you so much. I hope that you have a wonderful week. 🌸🌸🌸
God bless you sweetheart 😢
How kind of you thank you! I pray you are blessed as well
Nothing like a good Labrador by your side during your trying times. 🦮
Wow, after hearing your story, it seems we have alot in common or should I say I too have been through alot of the same experiences.... Love your straight honesty even though it hurts you so much. 💪🙏🏻✝️
Hey there! I hope the things that we haven’t common are good things, but what we have in common in our difficulties that I am so very sorry 😅 hopefully life will get better.
@@orielinIsrael... Thank you... I understand completely... Bless you 🙏🏻... Strength is ours for our belief in him.... Have a Wonderful week 🙏🏻👍😎
I love that you said " we also have fun on this channel" that is so true because you're fun and wise and have so much insights to share!
Hahaha I’m happy that you say that because sometimes I think that I only focus on the negative so 🫠 but yes, it’s true. We do also have fun.
Sweet Friend, I wept with you. I relate to many things and understand your heart. Also, I see a strong woman in God…HE has carried you through much into victories, and MORE victories ahead. LOVE AND PRAYERS, dearest Oriel !
Sweet Linda! I’m so happy to see your name come up in the comments. You are so special to me and to our family. God truly has carried me and he will carry me through Moore. I’m sure that he is definitely with me. 🌸🌸 I hope you are doing well. I love you so much. Say hi to Tom. ✨✨✨
Your a wonderful woman God bless you ❤❤❤❤❤
That’s very kind of you to say! Thank you so much. I hope that you have a wonderful day. 🌸🌸🌸
I believe I had trauma also. Something that helps me is Luke 18:1-8, where Yeshua says never give up praying to be avenged. So make a habit of praying a few times each day regarding that. It might take time.
My hope, in my vengence, is for a good future. I forgive but pray God makes it right. Shalom from Canada
That is such a good approach to vengeance because we want God to make things right but we released the way in which it happens and I think that that is super healthy and super helpful to the heart. Thank you so much for sharing that and I’m sure that this will help someone else as well. ✨
Oriel, thank you so much for sharing your story. The journey you are about to embark on will be so helpful for so many people. I don't think you understand how valuable you are, to your friends, family and this little UA-cam community. Thank you for existing in this world❤❤❤
That is so kind of you to say! I truly have the best little UA-cam community that really do care and are super encouraging and you are part of it and for that I’m super thankful. I really hope that I can do some good in this world so thank you for saying all those kind words. I hope you have a wonderful wonderful week ahead 🌸🌸🌸
Love you sister! ❤ You are the farthest thing from stupid and incapable ❤❤❤
Thank you sister love you 😻😻😏😏
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Oriel, you are a daughter of the Most High, the God of Israel, your brother is the Saviour of the World, you are very special! Think about it and don’t ever forget that! I’ll remind you about Romans 8:28! All is under His control! The fact that you weren’t accepted in school could be for the best. You may not see it now. And you are not stupid. I’ve seen almost all your videos and you don’t come across as one like that! We don’t have to know everything and be good at everything! Be what God called you to be. You are very good at making these videos. People want to watch more than read books. If I were you, I would make every day a video about life in Israel. Random things! Most of us believers scattered around the world, would like to be there but can’t!😢 This way you bring Israel to us and you can make a living as well. You are amazing at doing this!
Pray and fast, ask our Heavenly Father and He’ll guide you! I’ll keep you in my prayers and I’ll look forward to seeing more of your videos! God bless you! All the best ! ❤
Thank you so much for all of your kind words and your encouragement. It is true that things happen for a reason and I guess I’m just at the place where I want to do what is right to do at the time that it’s asked of me whether that’s going to school or getting a GD or not at all whatever got asked for me. I do hope that I can continue to make videos and make people feel happy with the content that I create and I’m so happy that you are here to watch it with me. I hope you have a spectacular week. ✨✨✨
Thats some hard core stuff i suffer from depression its horible i ive had similar exsperiences ive had panic attacks and stuff im bad at maths to it was my worst subject ive have cats to i love animals very much they help alot hope everything goes well for you Bless you
I’m so sorry to hear of your hardships! I know depression and panic attacks inside out and so I’m very very sorry that that is your experience. I hope that you will get better with time. Animals really do help a lot. I can testify to that I have a cat myself and he’s been my companion through thick and thin. I hope you have a wonderful week ahead and thank you so much for sharing. I know that you’re honesty will go along way when other people read this comment and know that we can be honest about these subjects.
Thank you so much blessings to you and your family and all of israelmay your week be full of joy@@orielinIsrael
Do they still have GED in Israel? They just got rid of it here in Canada. But the thing about the GED is,if you pass some of the other subjects, you might feel a confidence boost,and then only have the math to concentrate on. Even if you take the math test ,over here most of it was multiple choice,and you'd get a sense of familiarity if you did the whole test and reproached whatever you didn't pass knowing what you're going into.
Thank you for your advice! We have a type of GD and it cost thousands and thousands of shekels. And that could be that some things I would pass but math definitely isn’t my strong suit. Hahaha for right now I’m sort of focusing on other things and until I know what I want to do. Thank you for your encouragement.
Hello there Sweetie- Everything will be okay in time. I know that's easy to say and hard to see sometimes but it will be. I have a son who is already in his 40s who struggles with severe anxiety and social phobia. He pretty much stays in his room and his world is his African grey parrots. He works from home. Point is, I have seen situations similar before. What do you think, is it really necessary to jump through all society's hoops to succeed in life, to have a happy and complete life? Do you really need the GED and degree to write? Is it possible to become a self-made writer and do it entirely your own way? What if you found a mentor or writing partner and you helped one another? We try to fit everyone into the same box and pattern and that's not realistic because each of us is unique and special. Maybe you could just see yourself as very special and gift yourself with your own specialized training program to take you where you want to go? These are just some thoughts. Instead of trying to overcome all your disabilities that people have identified, why not just step around them. There is this photo of some sheep on a beautiful green hillside that is lush and open. Yet these three or four sheep all are pressing their heads against a closed gate. The thing is, there is no fence keeping them out; it's an illusion in their brains. All they need to do is go around the gate. You are very creative and imaginative and can certain find a way around all that seems to block you. I have faith in you. Much love. And thanks for sharing. You are brave and awesome with a huge will and desire to live a full and colorful life.
I’m so sorry to hear about your son struggles I’m sure that is a very hard thing to witness as well as a parent because you care for him so much. It is very true that I don’t believe that you have to overcome everything in order to be successful in life but I do believe that the path forward to me doesn’t involve some kind of studying even if it’s not to do with the GED so I’m thankful for your encouragement and advice because it’s important to give space for all people and not just those that go the typical studying route. I hope that. Your son gets well with time. And thank you so much for being here. 🌸🌸🌸
Why do you think like this about yourself??? Your gonna ok.
Thank you for your encouragement! I hope that you have a wonderful week