I truly believe that in order to be our strongest we must stand by our weaknesses. Showing vulnerability and transparency is without a doubt the most important thing for me to do, when I share my journey with you guys. It’s my greatest hope that you enjoyed watching this video. Maybe you learnt something from it or found it somewhat useful in any way. If so, then we both succeeded. I will continue to push myself and keep you guys in the loop. It’s not easy to cut down 7 days into a somewhat decent video. But I didn’t feel like I could leave out any part of it. Thank you once again for making this a safe space for me to share this part of my life with you. Now you tell me your goals and let’s achieve them together xx
Being transparent and open about recovery is the best thing to do! Once you begin hiding it is when the inner voice comes back. Letting people around you know whenever you’re going through the hardest times with that inner voice, and let them into your life to help you fight it alongside your side! Stay safe! Bliv ved med at tro på dig selv, og få opbakning fra kæreste og familie, og jeg er sikker på, at det kun kan gå opad bakke! Ikke den korteste bakke i verden, men toppen nås i sidste ende! Det lover jeg dig Katherina! 🙌🏼🙏🏼
first time on this channel and I am blown away by the amazing community that has been created here, truly. everyone is so helpful and sharing positive vibes only, so I thought i'd do the same! I absolutely loved this video, especially how raw and vulnerable you were. I've had my own disordered eating struggles but was "lucky" enough to have my body send physical sings very early on in the process... terrible acne, period loss right away, crippling pain. back then I hated that my body was smart enough to warn me so soon, but I am so incredibly grateful for it now. I wanna let you know that it does get better, but you really have to push yourself, and I loved seeing just that in this video. I am now very invested in your journey and I cannot wait to see you grow in front of my eyes. wishing you the best of luck girl. you got this! lots and lots of hugs from Amsterdam.
Hi dear. I’m lost for words and so happy to be a reading this comment. Thank you for your support, I truly appreciate - and this community too. Thank you for being a part of it xx
I would recommend taking a break from exercise as someone who almost lost their life to anorexia a couple of years ago. It allows your body some room to repair damage and helps your mindset
I truly understand your advice. Thank you xx but as mentioned in the video, it’s not possible for me to stop. Because then, when I return to exercising, I won’t be able to control it. it’s personally better for me to learn to control myself and not overdo it - but get a healthy perspective on it. Hope you understand :)
I get what you are saying but I feel like it’s a trick the mind plays on you, continuing to do it rather than knowing you are able to stop means you will never be mentally free, really if your body is struggling it would actually be healthiest to repair it a bit before breaking it down through exercise. You are determined, I believe you would be able to keep it under control if you took a break and slowly reintroduced it. I would also like to add that thee things re hard to hear and you are being absolutely mature and lovely about them I really appreciate that xx you are an amazing person and you deserve the best including full recovery. I’m sure you will get there! Xxxx
@@katharinaschneiderr as a someone who also recovered , a long period of no exercise is what will teach you and your brain that not exercising isn’t all that scary and nothing really happens
@@zebrasbean2385 I've gone without exercise for a very long time in the past - for years. And also recently when I travelled through south east asia. I'm not worried about what will / won't happen to me, but I personally think this is the way for me to feel the best. Maybe I'm wrong, time will tell (in an upcoming video actually:))
@@katharinaschneiderr okay just make sure you ask yourself before each time you exercise, why am I doing this? Do I want to do this because it’s fun or do I also want to change or maintain the way I look? Do I really feel like doing this right now? Am I exercising because I ate something that made me feel guilty? Do I feel guilty for not exercising?If there is even an ounce of Ed motive in there then don’t do it , this is how you train your mindset ❤️
when you came out of the doctor's office crying and said "It destroys me how I've destroyed myself" I felt so sad yet so connected to you. I, too, struggle with anorexia and exercise compulsions and am in treatment to recover. I have been going in the wrong direction and although I feel functional and my labs are normal, I am in a scary place. I don't recognize myself. My parents think residential ED treatment is the only answer but this would be my third time going...clearly something isn't working. I need to gain weight but eating more/following my meal plan's high intake on top of cutting out exercise is proving to be a monumental task. regardless, please keep documenting your journey to healing as it is inspiring to me. your vulnerability is beautiful
Thank you Erin. I'm so sorry to be reading this, as I recognize a lot of what you're saying to myself and my own ED behaviors.. But I believe there's a way out for the both of us xx
This comment really resonated with me. I feel exactly the same. It is so hard to increase food intake and stop all movement. I feel like the exercise helps so much with the anxiety and negative thoughts that come with the ED
This breaks my heart. This is so similar to my own story. I’m so glad you are seeking medical help now at 21. I waited until I was 26 and now I’m struggling with thyroid problems. Be gentle with yourself you don’t have to do anything perfect. There will definitely be bumps along the way.❤
I'm so sorry to hear about your situation and what this has done to you. I've been fighting this fight for so many years but I've never been more motivated to win. I wish you the best xx
this is an amazing & inspiring video! as someone quite far into recovery from anorexia i cannot tell you how much i relate to this video - but i can also tell you that this all gets easier. trust me! please please please keep up everything you are doing: eating when not hungry, eating late at night, honouring your hunger and cravings and i promise things get easier, better, you get your life back, your personality back, your hunger cues and your happiness. please keep pushing you are so strong
I am so unbelievably proud of you. Being kind to yourself is so important and your body will thank you so much. You are helping so many people. Keep pushing I love you ❤️❤️❤️
i love you so much for sharing this with us, for trusting us and being vulnerable. I've been struggling with body dysmorphia for a year now, it affects my mental health so badly.
Proud of you!❤ Reminder that bingeing is when you can’t control what you consume, in fact, what you thought was bingeing was you TAKING BACK control. Keep on fighting, it’ll just get easier from here. Go take your life back!
There is no youtube channel that I find as inspirational, important and comfortable with than yours. The filming, the content and the editing are on top. I love this so so much and I’m sending you all my love!! 🫶🏻
People don’t talk about exercise in recovery enough and how addictive it can be. Maybe because society sees it as being ‘healthy’. I went cold turkey because of my therapist and then I ran for hours after a month of nothing because I couldn’t maintain the habit of not running for any longer. At that point I was underweight and so needed to gain weight as well. Still recovering from bulimia, but I’m not addicted to exercise anymore. You’re amazing! Keep going!
I'm sorry to hear about your struggles but I feel that what you're saying is right. It's crazy how the way society, social media and other people view exercise can influence and even change our own perception on it (for the worse too). But I'm so proud of you for overcoming that addiction. It's tough xx
I'm so proud of you. I'm currently in ED recovery and it has been very hard to try and break through these rules that my mind has set for me, but seeing someone like you putting yourself out on the internet and embracing recovery so bravely makes me feel less alone. Please keep going, no matter what. And try not to feel too guilty about how you've treated yourself in the past- just focus all of your energy on the future. I believe in you
Katharina I just want to give you a big hug!! I completely understand how you are feeling because I have been exactly where you are now. I know how it feels when every doctors appointments ends in tears and you feel so ashamed of yourself for getting to such a bad place without even properly realising. I'm so proud of you for every step towards recovery you took in this video, and that you continue to take each day. Its so so so hard, one of the hardest things you'll probably have to do in your life but my oh my will it be worth it. I've been in recovery for a year now and its a very slow process, good days and bad days, sometimes it feels like you're going backwards but then you look at the bigger picture and eventually see how far you've come and thats the motivation to keep going. I also find it really hard to stay on top of eating on days that I'm working, but I pack lots of nut muesli bars to keep me going! It goes without saying, but you're so strong to be filming all of this and uploading it. You are going to help so many people around the world, including myself. Thank you
This has left me speachelss. Thank you so much. I truly appreciate that you share your experience with me too - then I feel less alone. It's rough but honestly the kick I needed to really make a step forward. So thank you xx And if you come to try that pizza, let me know.. It's (almost) worth the flight ;)
I just want to say thank you for being open and honest with your subscribers. For showing us that you can’t stay this way forever whilst traveling/living life to your fullest extent. I saw your content and wished I could be like you and while doing my own important life things but that’s unrealistic and this video makes me realize that you are also struggling like me. I hope you get better soon and we can both prioritize friends family and things that really matter!
Thank you so much for your honesty. I've lived with anorexia since the age of 15 and I'm now 34. I almost lost my life at 17 and ended up being admitted to the hospital. For me, overexercising is probably my biggest hurdle. My body is not doing good right now at all. Seeing you truly making an effort to better your life is a big inspiration and comfort to me ❤ I hope things get a lot better for you soon!
I’m so sorry for you. But I hope we can encourage each other to stay on the right path and motivated to keep going - it’s never too late to make the change. I’m rooting for you!!
Thank you so much for making this video. I’ve been trying to recover and gain weight which has been really scary since it’s the summer, but this has really helped motivate me to keep going :)
I committed to recovery 2 months ago, best decision! I've found it empowering to care for myself and chose myself daily. There comes a point when the ED destructs you more than it serves you and choosing recovery really is the only way forward. To anyone out there, recovery is inevitable but it is also temporary. Recovery comes with challenges but each day is one step closer to getting life and joy back. keep at it Katharina!
You’re such an inspiration. Know that with this video you are helping and motivating a lot more people than you think. thank you thank you thank you for posting this. Keep fighting against your demons! we’ll get through it! ❤
I would say its very difficult to recover whilst still exercising and gyming. When you are under nournished your body will have a hard time building muscle as all that energy needs to go into body repair from years of chronic depletion and stress and to fuelling and renourishing your organs to fully function. Working in ED clinics and having recovered myself, exercising like this is just not really part of the neural rewiring that needs to happen during recovery- removing the negative correlation and connection between body, food and exercise. Good luck with this, just some food for thought. I support you all the way.
You’re absolutely right, I don’t argue with you. It would be the best physically to stop completely: but Personally I just find that this is what worts the best for me in order to build a healthy relationship with exercising it general - and mindset too. Restricting myself completely is only going to result in a relapse to compulsive and excessive exercice. I know this because that’s what happened in the past when I was at an inpatient unit. And I don’t want it to happen again xx
Processed foods and high sugar ice cream won’t help you gain healthy weight, that’s actually a trigger food. Raising your blood sugar and insulin without anything to balance that right before back is insane. How about engaging a holistic health expert? Sugary foods are part of addiction, dear, pls reevaluate your choices, your addiction is fueling your choices and not helping you gaining HEALTH.🤯🙏
4:05, It is always once the consequences come around you start to realize what has been done. This is where you need to stay strong and don’t go down the depressive road! If you decide to look at the bad site of it all, and focus on the past, you’ll just end up feeling even worse. Focusing on WHAT CAN be done RIGHT NOW and onwards will lead you to a brighter future! One step at a time, and you’ll be fine 🙏🏼
You are so brave! thank you for sharing your story with all of us, it takes courage and self discipline to change anything and I am sure you will make it! lot of good vibes to you
It breaks my heart to hear you say the words that you've "wrecked your body". All I see is a strong and aware human who has done one of the hardest things of all: seek help for something controlling your life and wellness. Thank you for creating such authentic and relatable content for women and people who have experienced disordered eating. I hope that you are able to feel proud of all of the steps that you have taken in the direction of health and wholeness. Be gentle with yourself, Katharina. xxxxxxx
Thank you, thank you for sharing and being so pure! I don’t know you but I’m so proud of u!! You got this and you will also inspire so many others. Sending u love ❤
The fear of relapse is common in ed recovery especially if your challenging yourself. Limiting your movement entirely will not break you as a person but make you stronger. You have to believe that you can do it even though your ed tells you that you’ll fail. I had to stop exercising for 6 months to recover and it was FREAKING HARD. But about 1 month in I began to enjoy and reap the physical and mental benefits of resting and since then I can confidently say that I enjoy movement. Don’t give up on yourself if even you have already tried and failed in the past. Instead use that as an example of what not to do and try again! You got this and remember that challenges make you stronger! So run to them and not away from them! :)
hiii kat, just wanted to say that i'm very proud of you and everything you've done and accomplished.keep doing this for yourself and showing love for yourself in the entire process. rooting for you
I’m a few years recovered and the best thing I did was get rid of the scale. Your body is a vehicle to experience life you want to nurture it the best you can !!
wow this is helping me so much, you are so strong and you're finding a nice balance of treating yourself yet nourishing and fuelling your body. This is very comforting and you got this ❤xx
Instead of always putting „this is because of what i‘ve done to myself“ you want to say „because of what this illness has done to me“. It‘s not you against you but you against the illness. Keep going, you‘re already on the best way and one can tell. Thank you for sharing
Ever since posting this video, this is one of the things that I’ve realised. It’s just really hard to distinguish between, what’s the illness and what’s actually in my own mind. Thank you so much - and you’re welcome 🫶🏼
I absolutely get what you were saying at 16:00 about trying to convince yourself you are healthy and seeiNG how Thin you look in phoTOs! I used to do that, I promise you it gets better once you get past a certain point of gaining weight, nothing seems as serious and you feel stronger and happier
It's the moment you realize how your brain just tricks you into believing what's right and what's not that truly hits. But it's a great feeling too, finally being able to see it clearly. And I'm sure you're right ❤️
Hi) I AM SO SO SO EXCITED AND PROUD OF YOU ❤❤❤❤ that’s a big step and there will be a lot of ups and downs but it’s all worth it😌 this journey can be felt as one of the most frightening things ever done, but in the end you will think about it as about the best thing you’ve done to your body and mental health. Keep going! Sending ❤
Great video and you seem to have everything on point from your relationship with running now, gym work, eating when you need to, etc. In the words of the mad titan your success is inevitable 🙂
jeg er så stolt af dig for at kæmpe så hårdt! har selv haft og døjet med en spiseforstyrrelse og ved hvor mega hårdt det kan være, men trust me recovery og bare generelt at tage på er det bedste der længe er sket for mig og den bedste beslutning! ❤❤
I'm in almost the exact same position as you right now (seriously it's eerie how much eating disorder-related thoughts/behaviors/weight etc. we have in common...). For so long I've being trapped by my eating disorder and last week I got so fed up that I decided I needed to actually do things differently--I've made many changes and have already seen improvements (my mood has been SO much better). It's certainly not easy and I'm constantly conflicted and confused, but I've never been more committed than I am now (hoping my determination lasts as inevitable physical changes come :( ). It's encouraging to see someone else experience the same things as me--we got this! Thank you for the motivation and vulnerability!
I do notice how much happier I feel too! It's insane! But food is fuel for your brain to allow yourself to feel happiness, literally, so it's not that strange :') I'm so sorry to hear about your struggles as well.. But I'm glad to be helping you in the right direction! xx
i am so happy you posted this. though i havent struggled with an official ed , i did struggle with my overall relationship with food. when i was 12 my whole family was telling me that everything i eat now (growing stage) will affect me forever so i should be careful to not overeat so that i dont end up overweight. I didn't really believe them at first but then i did start gaining and so i started somewhat restricting and then eating high calorie addictive foods at night. Which was not helpful clearly. I didn't think at that time , like i wasnt restricting nor binging on purpose it just kind of happened. okay lemme just summarize and get this over with: at some point i did have a legit brain battle with food , never felt validated enough to say i actually had an eating disorder , but i did have to fight a lot. i started restricting and only thinking about food then i started obsessing over recovery and being healthy .. i watched over 150 videos on youtube in a span of a week all about nutrition , food , calories , fat loss . I did an inbody and was overweight in fats and that really messed with me . i needed to eat less. or i thought i did . i am at a point in my life were i dont diet but instead i intermittent fast and try to eat from 10 am to 6pm sometimes i fail and eat before/after and somedays i do great. please take care of yourself. your body is art always. i watched some movies and talked to people about food and found myself getting uncomfortable and even somewhat triggered by the subject and thats when i really saw that i am not doing well.
Thank you for sharing your story too. Realising that you’re unwell is the toughest part. But Once you do that, it gets harder but you’re moving forward. We must get comfortable with feeling uncomfortable in order to get healthy again. We can go this xx
Jeg har brug for at vide hvor den drømmekagesnegl er fra! Den ser alt for lækker ud. Dine videoer inspirerer mig meget på min egen vægtøgnings-rejse og recovery for min ED. Så tak for dig og dine videoer!!!
Den er købt i Irma (desværre) men fra Reinh Van hauen! :) Tak for din kommentar, hvor gør det mig glad at jeg kan hjælpe med at skubbe dig i den rigtige retning! xx
You're doing a great job!! I feel like you're very apologetic about a lot of things. Being sorry all the time can also be harmful. You're doing amazing! Be super proud of yourself! Keep up the good work and say nice things to yourself
Ohhhh no😔 it's so heartbreaking watching you cry...it's really hard, and you are such an increble being,it shows that you are really trying,please don't give up. 💙
Thank you for this, I know it's probably extremely hard for you to share this part of your life, but I'm so glad you decided to do so, I'm on my weight gain journey too and you've inspired me to continue on and not give up and i hope you can do the same too ❤
Thank you so much for this video. Your journey is part of my inspiration as I too struggle with an eating disorder for quite some time now. Last august I went traveling through South East Asia with my boyfriend for 4 months and wether I wanted it or not (actually not) I lost a substantial amount of weight during my travels. Somehow I feel we are kind of in the same place right now, adjusting to western society, trying to keep up the good vibes but also saving for and dreaming of the next adventure. Anyway..thank you for beiing a motivation to just keep going!
To me, it sounds like we're in quite similar places as you mentioned. But then we both know the reasons to push and move forward. I'm happy the video motivated you - then I feel completed too ❤️
also you said yourself running will negate your attempts at eating more, especially if you are already struggling with low appetite. You could always take a break it will always be there for you to come back to!
I’m so glad I found your channel! You are so inspiring to watch. I just subscribed❤ i wish you all the best in recovery!! I also love the earrings you were wearing, the dangly bead like ones!! Where did you get those from!
Im sure this vlog was extremely hard for your to film and share. You are a inspiration for so many people sharing your story and struggles. I always say to my patients as a nurses aid one day at time wins the race. The food items you had in the vlog looked really good to may I ask what kind of pizza the one with out the tomato sauce was just curious thanks. Have good rest of your week i always look forward to your vlogs.
I also live in Copenhagen 🥰 I agree with you about working out in moderation if, and only if, you truly are doing it to help your recovery (please do not come at me in the comments. Everyone’s ED recovery is different and you need to respect that.) I lift weights and started gaining weight (muscle and fat) since I started to do so because I am eating more. It has helped me and I hope it helps you too 💗
❤️ I'm sorry to hear about your struggles too. I remember when I was 15 and very ill as well. If I could turn back time, 6 years, and change - I would. You got the chance to turn your life around. Don't miss it! Sending you love and great vibes only xx
I’m aware of what I’m doing - and every body is different. There’s not a single way that works for every body. I’ve got this and you’ll see in the future if you stick along :)
this is a good reminder to fuel my body as someone who was underweight and gained weight and wanted to lose more weight but it would make me underweight and unhealthy
@@katharinaschneiderr YOU VE GOT THIS!!! Your body needs more than you prob think, don’t be afraid to give him all the Energy, there is no too much or gaining too fast, you want to live your life and be in peace with your body ❤️❤️
It breaks my heart to hear you blame yourself for your current health. Its what the desease has done to you and not what you have done to yourself. Sending love and strenght ❤
You’re right. Someone also mentioned the similar thing - but it’s just so hard to distinguish between what’s the illness and what’s actually my own thoughts. It had become easier but it’s hard not to blame. Thank you for the support xx
I started to follow your adventures in Asia a few months ago, since I was also travelling there ;) and I must say I found you very thin, but I didn’t really think you had an ED… probably because I am still under anorexia’s very subtle and ingrained influence for more then 12 years. This is totally absurd and crazy, but that’s how this disease works : it’s an addiction. Those last 4 weeks with my family, I managed to eat more then during 3 months in Asia I guess, and I only gained a few pounds. So please don’t be scared to eat a way lot more then anything your biased voice in your head will judge as unreasonable. Healthy people do eat quite a lot without second thought. And if that can encourage you : do it before your hair starts falling in clumps (which only happened to me recently). There are so many benefits in recovery 💛
I truly believe that in order to be our strongest we must stand by our weaknesses. Showing vulnerability and transparency is without a doubt the most important thing for me to do, when I share my journey with you guys.
It’s my greatest hope that you enjoyed watching this video. Maybe you learnt something from it or found it somewhat useful in any way. If so, then we both succeeded. I will continue to push myself and keep you guys in the loop. It’s not easy to cut down 7 days into a somewhat decent video. But I didn’t feel like I could leave out any part of it.
Thank you once again for making this a safe space for me to share this part of my life with you. Now you tell me your goals and let’s achieve them together xx
Being transparent and open about recovery is the best thing to do! Once you begin hiding it is when the inner voice comes back. Letting people around you know whenever you’re going through the hardest times with that inner voice, and let them into your life to help you fight it alongside your side!
Stay safe!
Bliv ved med at tro på dig selv, og få opbakning fra kæreste og familie, og jeg er sikker på, at det kun kan gå opad bakke! Ikke den korteste bakke i verden, men toppen nås i sidste ende! Det lover jeg dig Katherina! 🙌🏼🙏🏼
@@ditz3nfitness Tak! Jeg kan ikke andet end at sige tak - er fuldstændig tom for ord. Tak tak tak
I'm beyond proud of you pushing yourself in recovery
Thank you so much ❤️
first time on this channel and I am blown away by the amazing community that has been created here, truly. everyone is so helpful and sharing positive vibes only, so I thought i'd do the same! I absolutely loved this video, especially how raw and vulnerable you were. I've had my own disordered eating struggles but was "lucky" enough to have my body send physical sings very early on in the process... terrible acne, period loss right away, crippling pain. back then I hated that my body was smart enough to warn me so soon, but I am so incredibly grateful for it now. I wanna let you know that it does get better, but you really have to push yourself, and I loved seeing just that in this video. I am now very invested in your journey and I cannot wait to see you grow in front of my eyes. wishing you the best of luck girl. you got this! lots and lots of hugs from Amsterdam.
Hi dear. I’m lost for words and so happy to be a reading this comment. Thank you for your support, I truly appreciate - and this community too. Thank you for being a part of it xx
@@katharinaschneiderr more than happy to have found you! ❤️❤️
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I would recommend taking a break from exercise as someone who almost lost their life to anorexia a couple of years ago. It allows your body some room to repair damage and helps your mindset
I truly understand your advice. Thank you xx but as mentioned in the video, it’s not possible for me to stop. Because then, when I return to exercising, I won’t be able to control it. it’s personally better for me to learn to control myself and not overdo it - but get a healthy perspective on it. Hope you understand :)
I get what you are saying but I feel like it’s a trick the mind plays on you, continuing to do it rather than knowing you are able to stop means you will never be mentally free, really if your body is struggling it would actually be healthiest to repair it a bit before breaking it down through exercise. You are determined, I believe you would be able to keep it under control if you took a break and slowly reintroduced it. I would also like to add that thee things re hard to hear and you are being absolutely mature and lovely about them I really appreciate that xx you are an amazing person and you deserve the best including full recovery. I’m sure you will get there! Xxxx
@@katharinaschneiderr as a someone who also recovered , a long period of no exercise is what will teach you and your brain that not exercising isn’t all that scary and nothing really happens
@@zebrasbean2385 I've gone without exercise for a very long time in the past - for years. And also recently when I travelled through south east asia. I'm not worried about what will / won't happen to me, but I personally think this is the way for me to feel the best. Maybe I'm wrong, time will tell (in an upcoming video actually:))
@@katharinaschneiderr okay just make sure you ask yourself before each time you exercise, why am I doing this? Do I want to do this because it’s fun or do I also want to change or maintain the way I look? Do I really feel like doing this right now? Am I exercising because I ate something that made me feel guilty? Do I feel guilty for not exercising?If there is even an ounce of Ed motive in there then don’t do it , this is how you train your mindset ❤️
when you came out of the doctor's office crying and said "It destroys me how I've destroyed myself" I felt so sad yet so connected to you. I, too, struggle with anorexia and exercise compulsions and am in treatment to recover. I have been going in the wrong direction and although I feel functional and my labs are normal, I am in a scary place. I don't recognize myself. My parents think residential ED treatment is the only answer but this would be my third time going...clearly something isn't working. I need to gain weight but eating more/following my meal plan's high intake on top of cutting out exercise is proving to be a monumental task. regardless, please keep documenting your journey to healing as it is inspiring to me. your vulnerability is beautiful
Thank you Erin. I'm so sorry to be reading this, as I recognize a lot of what you're saying to myself and my own ED behaviors.. But I believe there's a way out for the both of us xx
This comment really resonated with me. I feel exactly the same. It is so hard to increase food intake and stop all movement. I feel like the exercise helps so much with the anxiety and negative thoughts that come with the ED
This breaks my heart. This is so similar to my own story. I’m so glad you are seeking medical help now at 21. I waited until I was 26 and now I’m struggling with thyroid problems. Be gentle with yourself you don’t have to do anything perfect. There will definitely be bumps along the way.❤
I'm so sorry to hear about your situation and what this has done to you. I've been fighting this fight for so many years but I've never been more motivated to win. I wish you the best xx
this is an amazing & inspiring video! as someone quite far into recovery from anorexia i cannot tell you how much i relate to this video - but i can also tell you that this all gets easier. trust me! please please please keep up everything you are doing: eating when not hungry, eating late at night, honouring your hunger and cravings and i promise things get easier, better, you get your life back, your personality back, your hunger cues and your happiness. please keep pushing you are so strong
I promise (both you and myself) I'll continue to. Thanks for the motivation, I needed it!! xx
I’m struggling with anorexia and I really love you and your videos. I find them pretty helpful and I’m really proud of you. ❤
Im so glad xx keep going, you’ve got this🩷
I am so unbelievably proud of you. Being kind to yourself is so important and your body will thank you so much. You are helping so many people. Keep pushing I love you ❤️❤️❤️
❤️❤️ thank you
i love you so much for sharing this with us, for trusting us and being vulnerable. I've been struggling with body dysmorphia for a year now, it affects my mental health so badly.
I’m so sorry for you. Let’s push through this together 🫶🏼
Proud of you!❤ Reminder that bingeing is when you can’t control what you consume, in fact, what you thought was bingeing was you TAKING BACK control. Keep on fighting, it’ll just get easier from here. Go take your life back!
Thank you for telling me❤️
There is no youtube channel that I find as inspirational, important and comfortable with than yours. The filming, the content and the editing are on top. I love this so so much and I’m sending you all my love!! 🫶🏻
This comment left me speechless. Thank you so much❤️
Thank you for sharing your journey. I’m in recovery but still struggling. People have no idea how hard it is mentally.
You’re right. It’s a challenge on another level🫶🏼
People don’t talk about exercise in recovery enough and how addictive it can be. Maybe because society sees it as being ‘healthy’. I went cold turkey because of my therapist and then I ran for hours after a month of nothing because I couldn’t maintain the habit of not running for any longer. At that point I was underweight and so needed to gain weight as well. Still recovering from bulimia, but I’m not addicted to exercise anymore. You’re amazing! Keep going!
I'm sorry to hear about your struggles but I feel that what you're saying is right. It's crazy how the way society, social media and other people view exercise can influence and even change our own perception on it (for the worse too). But I'm so proud of you for overcoming that addiction. It's tough xx
I'm so proud of you. I'm currently in ED recovery and it has been very hard to try and break through these rules that my mind has set for me, but seeing someone like you putting yourself out on the internet and embracing recovery so bravely makes me feel less alone. Please keep going, no matter what. And try not to feel too guilty about how you've treated yourself in the past- just focus all of your energy on the future. I believe in you
Thank you Evelyn. I needed this today! Thank you so much, we’ve got this xx
Katharina I just want to give you a big hug!! I completely understand how you are feeling because I have been exactly where you are now. I know how it feels when every doctors appointments ends in tears and you feel so ashamed of yourself for getting to such a bad place without even properly realising. I'm so proud of you for every step towards recovery you took in this video, and that you continue to take each day. Its so so so hard, one of the hardest things you'll probably have to do in your life but my oh my will it be worth it. I've been in recovery for a year now and its a very slow process, good days and bad days, sometimes it feels like you're going backwards but then you look at the bigger picture and eventually see how far you've come and thats the motivation to keep going. I also find it really hard to stay on top of eating on days that I'm working, but I pack lots of nut muesli bars to keep me going!
It goes without saying, but you're so strong to be filming all of this and uploading it. You are going to help so many people around the world, including myself. Thank you
This has left me speachelss. Thank you so much. I truly appreciate that you share your experience with me too - then I feel less alone. It's rough but honestly the kick I needed to really make a step forward. So thank you xx
And if you come to try that pizza, let me know.. It's (almost) worth the flight ;)
I just want to say thank you for being open and honest with your subscribers. For showing us that you can’t stay this way forever whilst traveling/living life to your fullest extent. I saw your content and wished I could be like you and while doing my own important life things but that’s unrealistic and this video makes me realize that you are also struggling like me. I hope you get better soon and we can both prioritize friends family and things that really matter!
❤️ I'm the one who needs to say thank you. I'm so thankful that sharing my story is able to help you. Then I feel completed too xx
Thank you so much for your honesty. I've lived with anorexia since the age of 15 and I'm now 34. I almost lost my life at 17 and ended up being admitted to the hospital.
For me, overexercising is probably my biggest hurdle. My body is not doing good right now at all.
Seeing you truly making an effort to better your life is a big inspiration and comfort to me ❤
I hope things get a lot better for you soon!
I’m so sorry for you. But I hope we can encourage each other to stay on the right path and motivated to keep going - it’s never too late to make the change. I’m rooting for you!!
@@katharinaschneiderr Thank you so much! Lots of love from a fellow Dane ❤
It's your fight everything you do is good. Respect for your struggle and how you handle it. I can't advise you but you are a hero.
Thank you so much!
Thank you so much for making this video. I’ve been trying to recover and gain weight which has been really scary since it’s the summer, but this has really helped motivate me to keep going :)
I’m glad. Thank you for watching - we’ve got this 🫶🏼
so proud of you and sending so much love and positive energy to you for this journey! xx
thank you so much xx
I committed to recovery 2 months ago, best decision! I've found it empowering to care for myself and chose myself daily. There comes a point when the ED destructs you more than it serves you and choosing recovery really is the only way forward. To anyone out there, recovery is inevitable but it is also temporary. Recovery comes with challenges but each day is one step closer to getting life and joy back. keep at it Katharina!
I Will xx
You’re such an inspiration. Know that with this video you are helping and motivating a lot more people than you think. thank you thank you thank you for posting this. Keep fighting against your demons! we’ll get through it! ❤
you're absolutely right. hugs xx
I would say its very difficult to recover whilst still exercising and gyming. When you are under nournished your body will have a hard time building muscle as all that energy needs to go into body repair from years of chronic depletion and stress and to fuelling and renourishing your organs to fully function. Working in ED clinics and having recovered myself, exercising like this is just not really part of the neural rewiring that needs to happen during recovery- removing the negative correlation and connection between body, food and exercise. Good luck with this, just some food for thought. I support you all the way.
I agree
You’re absolutely right, I don’t argue with you. It would be the best physically to stop completely: but Personally I just find that this is what worts the best for me in order to build a healthy relationship with exercising it general - and mindset too. Restricting myself completely is only going to result in a relapse to compulsive and excessive exercice. I know this because that’s what happened in the past when I was at an inpatient unit. And I don’t want it to happen again xx
Processed foods and high sugar ice cream won’t help you gain healthy weight, that’s actually a trigger food.
Raising your blood sugar and insulin without anything to balance that right before back is insane.
How about engaging a holistic health expert?
Sugary foods are part of addiction, dear, pls reevaluate your choices, your addiction is fueling your choices and not helping you gaining HEALTH.🤯🙏
4:05, It is always once the consequences come around you start to realize what has been done. This is where you need to stay strong and don’t go down the depressive road! If you decide to look at the bad site of it all, and focus on the past, you’ll just end up feeling even worse. Focusing on WHAT CAN be done RIGHT NOW and onwards will lead you to a brighter future! One step at a time, and you’ll be fine 🙏🏼
I absolutely will. Thank you!
you inspire me so much - comfort youtuber 100% :) xxx
❤️❤️ I felt tears reading this!
You are so brave! thank you for sharing your story with all of us, it takes courage and self discipline to change anything and I am sure you will make it! lot of good vibes to you
Thank you so much
So inspiring - you've got this!! You were glowing by the end of the week and it was so nice to see
I’m so happy you noticed ❤️
This was super inspirig. Watching this today has helped me motivate my own recovery x
Made my day. I'm proud of you ❤️
this video is genuinely so heartwarming and inspiring
I’m so happy to be reading this! Thank you xx
It breaks my heart to hear you say the words that you've "wrecked your body". All I see is a strong and aware human who has done one of the hardest things of all: seek help for something controlling your life and wellness. Thank you for creating such authentic and relatable content for women and people who have experienced disordered eating. I hope that you are able to feel proud of all of the steps that you have taken in the direction of health and wholeness. Be gentle with yourself, Katharina. xxxxxxx
Reading this on my way home from work and that’s just what I needed. Thank you Alexandra, I appreciate it so much. Genuinely saved my night. Hugs xx
this is exactly exactly what i needed to see at the moment, thank you so much for sharing this & your openness 💗
perfect timing then. I’m so happy🫶🏼
Thank you for sharing and being so open about your journey. I can very much relate to what you are saying. We’re in this together! We got this ❤
thank you
I AM SO FREAKING PROUD OF YOU!!❤ And I just love all your videos….yeah I just wanted to tell you that :)
thank YOU! ❤️
11:39 "*crunch*approved*" was so cute. All the best for you on your journey - I hope you get to love yourself with each day of your life. 💜
Thank you, thank you for sharing and being so pure! I don’t know you but I’m so proud of u!! You got this and you will also inspire so many others. Sending u love ❤
❤️ thank you so so so much!
ua-cam.com/video/qjU7Fioviw8/v-deo.html Second part of these series is now available for you :)
The fear of relapse is common in ed recovery especially if your challenging yourself. Limiting your movement entirely will not break you as a person but make you stronger. You have to believe that you can do it even though your ed tells you that you’ll fail.
I had to stop exercising for 6 months to recover and it was FREAKING HARD. But about 1 month in I began to enjoy and reap the physical and mental benefits of resting and since then I can confidently say that I enjoy movement. Don’t give up on yourself if even you have already tried and failed in the past. Instead use that as an example of what not to do and try again! You got this and remember that challenges make you stronger! So run to them and not away from them! :)
thanks for your advice. Go and watch my other videos in these series - you'll see that I've changed a lot :)
hiii kat, just wanted to say that i'm very proud of you and everything you've done and accomplished.keep doing this for yourself and showing love for yourself in the entire process. rooting for you
❤️ thank you so much. I truly appreciate it!
You inspire me so much to keep going with my recovery and thank you for that❤
❤️❤️ I have no words. Thank YOU!
so beyond proud of you x its tough, it really is but you got this and we are always always here to suppourt you!
Thank you so much!!
I’m a few years recovered and the best thing I did was get rid of the scale. Your body is a vehicle to experience life you want to nurture it the best you can !!
wow this is helping me so much, you are so strong and you're finding a nice balance of treating yourself yet nourishing and fuelling your body. This is very comforting and you got this ❤xx
I'm so happy you're saying this. !! x
Instead of always putting „this is because of what i‘ve done to myself“ you want to say „because of what this illness has done to me“. It‘s not you against you but you against the illness. Keep going, you‘re already on the best way and one can tell. Thank you for sharing
Ever since posting this video, this is one of the things that I’ve realised. It’s just really hard to distinguish between, what’s the illness and what’s actually in my own mind. Thank you so much - and you’re welcome 🫶🏼
I absolutely get what you were saying at 16:00 about trying to convince yourself you are healthy and seeiNG how Thin you look in phoTOs! I used to do that, I promise you it gets better once you get past a certain point of gaining weight, nothing seems as serious and you feel stronger and happier
It's the moment you realize how your brain just tricks you into believing what's right and what's not that truly hits. But it's a great feeling too, finally being able to see it clearly. And I'm sure you're right ❤️
Hi) I AM SO SO SO EXCITED AND PROUD OF YOU ❤❤❤❤ that’s a big step and there will be a lot of ups and downs but it’s all worth it😌 this journey can be felt as one of the most frightening things ever done, but in the end you will think about it as about the best thing you’ve done to your body and mental health. Keep going! Sending ❤
❤️ Thank you so much!
Jeg elsker dine video og de hjælper mig virkelig med min. Tak for at dele, bliv ved med det
❤️ så er mit mål opnået.
this video made me go to the kitchen and eat what I was craving after eating barely anything today, thank you.
❤️❤️ warms my heart
subscribing , truly for your honesty .
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rooting for you, girl❤
Thank you!!❤️
So much respect. In this same battle and everyday is a challenge, thanks for sharing
We’ve got this ❤️
you brave and tough woman. I hope and pray you keep on with your journey towards full health x
I will
really proud of how u push urself in the right direction!! much love and strength u can do it ❤❤
thank you ❤️❤️
Great video and you seem to have everything on point from your relationship with running now, gym work, eating when you need to, etc. In the words of the mad titan your success is inevitable 🙂
jeg er så stolt af dig for at kæmpe så hårdt! har selv haft og døjet med en spiseforstyrrelse og ved hvor mega hårdt det kan være, men trust me recovery og bare generelt at tage på er det bedste der længe er sket for mig og den bedste beslutning! ❤❤
Tusind tak ❤️
thank you so much for this, you are so inspiring for me and this vid was really encouraging and hopeful
I'm happy to hear. Thank you xx
Synes det så flot du deler din rejse på UA-cam, Så inspirerende at følge med i! Flere af dig på her
Tusind tak! det gør mig oprigtigt glad ❤️
you want to heal and this is the most important, you noticed the issue and I know you can do it, keep working hard
❤️ I will!
I'm in almost the exact same position as you right now (seriously it's eerie how much eating disorder-related thoughts/behaviors/weight etc. we have in common...). For so long I've being trapped by my eating disorder and last week I got so fed up that I decided I needed to actually do things differently--I've made many changes and have already seen improvements (my mood has been SO much better). It's certainly not easy and I'm constantly conflicted and confused, but I've never been more committed than I am now (hoping my determination lasts as inevitable physical changes come :( ). It's encouraging to see someone else experience the same things as me--we got this! Thank you for the motivation and vulnerability!
I do notice how much happier I feel too! It's insane! But food is fuel for your brain to allow yourself to feel happiness, literally, so it's not that strange :') I'm so sorry to hear about your struggles as well.. But I'm glad to be helping you in the right direction! xx
@@katharinaschneiderr Yes haha I guess it does make sense! Thanks for the response and I hope you're staying well!!!
You are so strong 💪🏼 i love your video ❤ so nice you will show your life in this way
❤️ thank you!
This is so strong. You are doing so well, every step.
Thank you!
So proud of you 💘 love you so much and sending lots of lots of hugs🧚
warms my heart xx
i am so happy you posted this.
though i havent struggled with an official ed , i did struggle with my overall relationship with food.
when i was 12 my whole family was telling me that everything i eat now (growing stage) will affect me forever so i should be careful to not overeat so that i dont end up overweight. I didn't really believe them at first but then i did start gaining and so i started somewhat restricting and then eating high calorie addictive foods at night. Which was not helpful clearly. I didn't think at that time , like i wasnt restricting nor binging on purpose it just kind of happened.
okay lemme just summarize and get this over with: at some point i did have a legit brain battle with food , never felt validated enough to say i actually had an eating disorder , but i did have to fight a lot. i started restricting and only thinking about food then i started obsessing over recovery and being healthy .. i watched over 150 videos on youtube in a span of a week all about nutrition , food , calories , fat loss . I did an inbody and was overweight in fats and that really messed with me . i needed to eat less. or i thought i did . i am at a point in my life were i dont diet but instead i intermittent fast and try to eat from 10 am to 6pm sometimes i fail and eat before/after and somedays i do great. please take care of yourself. your body is art always.
i watched some movies and talked to people about food and found myself getting uncomfortable and even somewhat triggered by the subject and thats when i really saw that i am not doing well.
Thank you for sharing your story too. Realising that you’re unwell is the toughest part. But Once you do that, it gets harder but you’re moving forward.
We must get comfortable with feeling uncomfortable in order to get healthy again. We can go this xx
Jeg har brug for at vide hvor den drømmekagesnegl er fra! Den ser alt for lækker ud. Dine videoer inspirerer mig meget på min egen vægtøgnings-rejse og recovery for min ED. Så tak for dig og dine videoer!!!
Den er købt i Irma (desværre) men fra Reinh Van hauen! :) Tak for din kommentar, hvor gør det mig glad at jeg kan hjælpe med at skubbe dig i den rigtige retning! xx
Ih, må skynde mig at finde en Irma der har dem inden de alle lukker 😢 Måske de kan findes hos Reinh Van Hauen. Jeg må på jagt 💪🏻
Tror bestemt de kan opspores hos dem selv!! Go tur :')
You're doing a great job!! I feel like you're very apologetic about a lot of things. Being sorry all the time can also be harmful. You're doing amazing! Be super proud of yourself! Keep up the good work and say nice things to yourself
Thank you! I needed to hear this ❤️
Ohhhh no😔 it's so heartbreaking watching you cry...it's really hard, and you are such an increble being,it shows that you are really trying,please don't give up. 💙
you’ll see what has happened since in my next video on Sunday 🩷
@@katharinaschneiderr So excited 🤗
Looking forward to it 💙
OMG I´m so proud of you
❤️❤️ right back!
Thank you for this, I know it's probably extremely hard for you to share this part of your life, but I'm so glad you decided to do so, I'm on my weight gain journey too and you've inspired me to continue on and not give up and i hope you can do the same too ❤
Happy to be helping you in the right direction. Yes, it’s hard but worth it - it’s just hard to make it. But we will.
hugs xx❤️
keep going girl!!!! you are stronger than this illness ❤
I Will x
Thank you so much for the inspiration to keep fighting anorexia
You’re more than welcome!
Thank you so much for this video. Your journey is part of my inspiration as I too struggle with an eating disorder for quite some time now. Last august I went traveling through South East Asia with my boyfriend for 4 months and wether I wanted it or not (actually not) I lost a substantial amount of weight during my travels. Somehow I feel we are kind of in the same place right now, adjusting to western society, trying to keep up the good vibes but also saving for and dreaming of the next adventure. Anyway..thank you for beiing a motivation to just keep going!
To me, it sounds like we're in quite similar places as you mentioned. But then we both know the reasons to push and move forward. I'm happy the video motivated you - then I feel completed too ❤️
I think this came just at the right time. I was going to exercise, although I shouldn't and now I won't. Thank you
Thank YOU. 🫶🏼
Congrats, you’re doing great ❤ all the food you showed looked delicious 😋
Thank you
also you said yourself running will negate your attempts at eating more, especially if you are already struggling with low appetite. You could always take a break it will always be there for you to come back to!
It depends on how much I run. As long as I don't overdo It - which I've learnt not to!
thank you for this video
❤️ thank you!
I’m so glad I found your channel! You are so inspiring to watch. I just subscribed❤ i wish you all the best in recovery!! I also love the earrings you were wearing, the dangly bead like ones!! Where did you get those from!
Sooo happy you're here too! xx I'll share my jewelry in my next video actually - and progress in my weight gain journey. It's live on sunday :)
I am also in recovery but not that succcessfully as you but you inspire me and I think you are doing it really great and I love your videos😍❤️
Success can’t be compared xx I’m sure you’re doing great!! Keep going, it’ll be worth it ❤️
You are doing amazing! Just continue 😎
Thank you! I Will :))
Im sure this vlog was extremely hard for your to film and share. You are a inspiration for so many people sharing your story and struggles. I always say to my patients as a nurses aid one day at time wins the race. The food items you had in the vlog looked really good to may I ask what kind of pizza the one with out the tomato sauce was just curious thanks. Have good rest of your week i always look forward to your vlogs.
Thank you so much - and you're absolutely right. (the pizza was with potatoes, rosemary and thyme:))
you are so gorgeous :) im proud of u!!!!!!
Thank you xx
We both succeeded! Great video!
Yes! Thank you!
You go girl! ;)
You are an inspiration.
I'm so glad!
I also live in Copenhagen 🥰 I agree with you about working out in moderation if, and only if, you truly are doing it to help your recovery (please do not come at me in the comments. Everyone’s ED recovery is different and you need to respect that.) I lift weights and started gaining weight (muscle and fat) since I started to do so because I am eating more. It has helped me and I hope it helps you too 💗
It definitely has. ❤️❤️
Hi Katharina
❤️ I'm sorry to hear about your struggles too. I remember when I was 15 and very ill as well. If I could turn back time, 6 years, and change - I would. You got the chance to turn your life around. Don't miss it! Sending you love and great vibes only xx
exercising while having low estrogen is contra productive, it breaks down your muscles.
gaining weight will make you gain muscle xx
I’m aware of what I’m doing - and every body is different. There’s not a single way that works for every body. I’ve got this and you’ll see in the future if you stick along :)
this is a good reminder to fuel my body as someone who was underweight and gained weight and wanted to lose more weight but it would make me underweight and unhealthy
You’re right. Keep going !
Peace and blessings to everyone struggling with this...
We don’t know each other but I’m proud of you!!❤
❤️ thank you!
I'm very underweight and I'm trying to recover, too. I'm 20. We got this
Let’s beat it !
Omg that food looks amazing 😍😍
It sure was! :)
So glad you can exercise. Good for your body and soul.
You get it‼️‼️❤❤
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so proud of you. But let me say that in order to completely recover you really have to stop exercising completely (not forever)❤ you got this
no... exercise is good for u i have such a good sleep when i exersice
@@mayacolliier08 well in recovery not good.
"food is never meant to be earned. it is necessary"
Exactly xx
I really hope that you work with your body now and not against it and that you get healthy ❤️❤️
It's the goal ❤️
@@katharinaschneiderr YOU VE GOT THIS!!! Your body needs more than you prob think, don’t be afraid to give him all the Energy, there is no too much or gaining too fast, you want to live your life and be in peace with your body ❤️❤️
It breaks my heart to hear you blame yourself for your current health. Its what the desease has done to you and not what you have done to yourself. Sending love and strenght ❤
You’re right. Someone also mentioned the similar thing - but it’s just so hard to distinguish between what’s the illness and what’s actually my own thoughts. It had become easier but it’s hard not to blame. Thank you for the support xx
@@katharinaschneiderr yeah thats true, it is hard. Thank you for sharing it all, you brave human 🫶
Peace to you sweetie...you are looking more healthy! Blessings...
Watch my newest vid!
Strong beautiful girl. You deserve the world.
Thank you :)
I started to follow your adventures in Asia a few months ago, since I was also travelling there ;) and I must say I found you very thin, but I didn’t really think you had an ED… probably because I am still under anorexia’s very subtle and ingrained influence for more then 12 years. This is totally absurd and crazy, but that’s how this disease works : it’s an addiction. Those last 4 weeks with my family, I managed to eat more then during 3 months in Asia I guess, and I only gained a few pounds. So please don’t be scared to eat a way lot more then anything your biased voice in your head will judge as unreasonable. Healthy people do eat quite a lot without second thought. And if that can encourage you : do it before your hair starts falling in clumps (which only happened to me recently). There are so many benefits in recovery 💛
Thank you. This was what I needed to hear xx