faith marie - toxic thoughts (lyric video)
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- Опубліковано 7 лис 2024
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my name on the internet is marie. i make lyric videos for my fav songs, so basically the meaning of this acc is only to spread awarness of these artists and their music ;)
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This song hits different when you go from being perfect academically to plummeting helplessly because of poor mental health.
yeah, i can truly relate. being an overachiever can both be a blessing and a curse in disguise
My grades are still fine from an outside view but I feel like I’m drowning in the stress from school
OH MY GOD FUCKING KILL ME JUST KILL ME IM SO SCARED TO GO TO GRADE 8 PLEASE IM SO SCARED I MTOO SCARED I DONT WANT TOGO P LAESAEH LPE ME
@@dumplinglover8042 why are you scared
I'm there too. I would love to hear you're story, how your doing now.
I personally have revolved my life around school. I graduated with an Associates of Science at 17. Then, in my first year of "official college" and being an adult, despite being a junior in my Bachelor program. I failed all but one of the five classes I tried to take, I didn't understand anything and became extremely depressed. And even the class I passed was only a C-.
In my current semester, I'm still extremely depressed, and despite taking only three classes, already failed my first test, which the class average was 80%. It just. Hurts. What I love so much is ripping me to shreds, and is making it hard for me to even get out of bed. Which, if I don't get out of bed, only worsens the problem. I'm just struggling...
This song really hits different when you're crying with stress with an assignment that will affect you when you're an adult is due and you've barely started, so have to do a quick and crappy job of it and know you're gonna fail and that it will affect your mental health really negatively. It hits different when you finally understand the phrase "gifted kid burnout"
Yeah i burnt out cuz I wanted some love from my step dad i was reading the Bible as mucous i could feeling him all i could and he didn't belive me or told me to read it again i read it over a dozen times it burnt me out and then there was the rabid changing schools and constant moving it was hellish im 16 i have a white hair from stress already like isn't healthy im can't be the perfect student like I was in elementary mom fuck off I have a b- average chill
It's sad how this song explains alot of us in the world.
Right?! Every word is so relatable and the fact that so many people relate is sad
I remember being like 13 and romanticising depression and self hate, and now IM BACK BABY! And I’m worse than ever! I wanna cry.
hi honey.
i’ve been there too, things just kept building up. please remember that it DOES eventually get better, and no cut will bleed forever. life is tough, it really is, and it does not wait for anyone. i hope that instead of the world, *you* will give yourself the time you need to heal from whatever hurt you. start from the little, like doing something you really love: pet your dog, or a stuffed animal, or whatever it is that you want to pet. take care of yourself. drink a glass of water, go for a short walk, or eat crazy much candy. crying is very much ok, since it shows a lot of emotion and may help you to cope with any situation. talk to someone or write your thoughts down, whatever it is that helps! feel your feelings, then let the painful ones go. i will always be here if you find it easier to talk anonymously :)
wow, this got long. i don’t know if i sounded too clichè, hopefully not, but i felt like that was the best way i could express my thoughts to you. i really hope you will get better, because i did, and i did all the healing all alone.
all the best for you,
xx
marie m Thanks man, I really appreciate it. I’ll be ok, my friends are always there for me, it’s just a lot of body image issues and that fucking with my mental health for the most part. Thanks for reaching out to me though, I know I’ll be ok eventually but I’ve just got a bit of a rough patch. I cried four times before 9 this morning, when it was kinda at its worst. It’s baby steps though, and I know that, it’s just a lot of effort to take them sometimes.
When everyone thinks you're perfect with high expectations for you and the pressure is a little too much
I feel you
Yeah i was perfect for the most part cuz i had a support network then I had tibjeep moving my life style changed never got as good as freinds or as good of support network and now I'm not perfect im unless but i have to still be perfect tor expected and I just wana scream
A perfect description of an artist's fears, but also prides. Knowing that the struggle of the creative process was worth it when you can actually make someone feel something, that seems like it would be the best feeling... I wish I had the courage to sit down and write some of my thoughts, cause it maybe it lead to some amazing things
I've always had a deep connection with music and it's help me through some dark times, to know I'm not alone in all my emotions and to know I'm not crazy for feeling this way. I'm also an incredibly shy, people pleaser and have BPD so I'm terrified of not being like, or to be different or to fail. I've been told I have a good voice but I'm too self conscious to sing I front of too many people or people I don't know. BUT I have started writing down just about any feeling I have especially the big ones and any of my thoughts that accompany them party for myself partly to take with me to therapy and partly in hope that I can make something out of them (song, poem, drawing, painting, collage, ect) and maybe help someone else along my self help journey it feels good to write it all down regardless of what I do with it after, I've even burned them before (I didn't get anything from it personally but I still tried it) 10/10 would recommend getting it out of your head and on some paper.
I clicked on this video in favour of another under the excuse “ye this has a sexy background” ok bye
..same.
This explains me a bit too well.
Hahahhah, I hate myself :D
Same 💜
Yeah, same. :DD Especially those last few words. I’ve never known myself, especially now, I’m questioning a lot of things! ❤️
Same
Mhm i agree
I graduated highschool in May of this year, 2022. I went from being a straight A+ 4.0GPA student freshman year to a B+, 3.974 GPA. Everyone told me my grades were impressive but it felt like such a drastic drop, and it wasn't because I didn't understand anything I just couldn't find it in me to put in the effort I had before. My brother stopped putting in effort so long ago, so he gets cheered on when he gets anything above an F. My mom and dad say they're proud of how well I did, they never pressured me into keeping anything higher than a B-, but when I was little I always did well and so I was scared to let my grades drop at all. It became a very toxic cycle in my head, and I get burned out extremely easily. It scared me out of doing college this year, so I'll be trying again next fall hopefully, online. No one should need to put themself through that. So, to whoever here that needs to hear this, I'm proud of you. Don't push yourself too hard, you're doing amazing. It's alright to let up a little every so often. I hope everyone here is doing alright.
It reminds me of just being an overthinker to be honest
Same here. I’ve suffered from anxiety for over a year, and when I found this song I literally felt so relieved, because I had finally found a song that truly described me
Same. I overthink the smallest things and it can stress me out for days.
This song is quite fascinating, cause I somehow managed to have the best grades in my class. I'm in my last year of school and I'm class best. Every time I write an exam I think that I'm writing bullshit and every time it's an A or B. Everyone in my class asks me constantly about stuff and teachers also have higher expectations. This song describes how it feels to be in that position. And I know that either I will stay at this place or I will fall bad. It's very stressful and I even noticed that when I write a B+ I'm not happy anymore, cause it feels like it isn't good enough.
This song really describes this being at the top of the class experience too well. And I don't even know how tf I was better than everyone else in the class.
“I deserve to be alright. I deserve to sleep at night. I’m my closest friend; I remind myself again, ‘better treat her well cuz she’s with me til the end’.”
That’s the part that really outlines what this song means to me. I struggled too, I still am if I’m being honest, but over time I realized I couldn’t keep kicking myself and expect to suddenly improve. You wouldn’t yell at or scold your best friend if they struggled or made a fixable mistake, right? You support them. You say “it’s okay. We’ll take a breath and get back on our feet.”. Be kind to yourselves ❤️
I don’t try at much but when I do put my effort in, I become obsessed with perfectionism, making sure every little detail is on point and correct. I have to repeat what I am doing until I am satisfied with my work, otherwise I will continue to loop around in circles and won’t stop. I am so very terrified of being rejected, primarily by my parents. I am a people pleaser, an anxiety riddled young adult who overthinks literally everything, and it is extremely exhausting. I can’t handle the burnouts so I simply try not to do what I know will cause myself to be driven mad. Which is, unfortunately, impossible, because it does not matter what I attempt, I struggle with maintaining overly accurate results every time.
What hurts me most is that it feels like everyone would describe “The crippling fear of being deserter” differently even if somewhat similarly so ultimately I know that even if I’m not alone in the fear itself I know that the way I feel it will forever be mine and mine alone
this is one of the few songs that can actually make me cry for a sec. I legitimately cannot cry anymore and if I can, it's not ever over 5, or even 2 minutes. I hate that I relate to this song so much. Too much. It hits too close to home.
I'm honestly a great student. I get straight A's with the occasional B, but I always feel that I'm a burden; I'm not good enough because my sister is so much smarter than me. She was testing at college levels in the 8th grade while I was only testing at 10th grade level in 8th grade. We both were extremely depressed while testing, but she does way better under stress. I have a severe anxiety disorder, and when I'm taking a test I just start hoping and praying that I could be better than my sister. To even pass the test, even though I know I'm going to pass. I start shaking and crying. It's really bad. I just want to be better than her at something. I was better than her at one thing; long jump. Then she beat my score the next year. I gave up on long jump and tried out throwing activities instead. She never tried to throw, so I'm at least better than her at that. Whatever I did as a kid that I felt proud of, she would turn around and do it better. I was always in her shadow and still am. I just want to be noticed and praised and loved. She's the favorite child. She gets attention. She's loved. I'm not saying I'm not loved, or that I don't get attention. I don't get attention that often, so when I do, I get very awkward and tend to give it away. I like attention, but only from people I like. I want to be noticed. I want to feel loved.
If you read this, props to you.
I’m so sorry. You’re not alone, I can promise that. I constantly feel like I’m not giving it my all even when I’m far past my limits
This perfectly describes me. I cry when I get one question wrong or when I get anything below a B+. I don't know why I'm like this but, maybe it's cause high expectations formed early in my moms mind. I have always exceeded in math, science, art, and English I was ahead everyone else because I took things in faster. Now I'm still exceeding even though I don't try. Every day the thought dawns on me "when will I hit my breaking point, when will I plateau?" That is what stresses me out that someday I will not live up to my parents exceptions. Then they'll hate me, I will become the scapegoat of the family and I don't want that so I pile writing stories and doing science experiments so when the time comes I can show them all I've done and they'll be happy with me again. So I don't have to see that day, I worry that it's close and I keep piling more and more stuff so they won't hate me. What's the point if they don't know about the stories I've wrote or all the experiments I've done? What's the point if all I'm going to do if fail them? Writing stories that have a similar plot as a wattpad fanfic. Doing simple experiments. But maybe they'll see, maybe they'll be happy no matter what I do but that can't be true right?
This song is how I feel now, going from perfect to "this"
"choosing not to cast my net"
"but I spend so long questioning myself if this isn't right-then does that mean I failed?"
"the ceiling gets higher and higher"
"you can see it in my eyes,a child's spark light up the night. Constant search for approval suffocated by refusal devouring my skull- but never feeling full."
"oh dear I don't wanna be a burden"
"oh dear if only you could feel it, the crippling fear of being deserted"
"writers block doesn't exist it's not a word I'm supposed to use"
"I'm my closest friend I remind myself again; better treat her well cuz' she's with me till the end"
"I've created a forest a safe place for myself"
"someday you'll realise that thoughts so heavy don't mean you're unsteady but that you're only getting ready to say nice to meet you to somebody you never knew- you"
hit different
Hope everyone's doing okay! And if not I hope you get better. 💛💜🧡🤎💚💜🧡🤎💚
This song makes me want to hum it every time I hear it it's so good
this song, without fail, reminds me of Violet Evergarden every time I hear it
this is literally explaining my life
I get Jo March vibes from this
this and Rät by penelope scott are abt the same person in different stages of their life
This explains me too well its kind of sad lol
Negative thoughts have run through my head the entire day as its not enough for me to get an 98 and I feel like a failure
I got a B after working really hard because my analysis wasn't in depth enough
But my English teacher believes in me.
If it helps, I love your pfp ❤
1:35 💓
You can see it in my eyes. ❤️🔥
This song hits different when you went from a conservative christian kid to realizing, looking back on your entire life, ur actually trans
"you can't kin a song 😂😂🤣🤣😆"
the song:
Life
i used to be an overachiever but now, i just don't have the energy
Aagh this is so mmmh. Hits right
Dude I relate so much I’m an overachiever in my cooking class and my art class also I believe in to much
2:47 this part hit home🥺💔🙏
I swear at the end I thought the song was gonna say
"Only to lose them too..."
Have you ever noticed that some teachers don't like you having your own brain. Like you figured out a simpler way to do the problem weather it be multiplication or algebra and the teacher marks it wrong cause you didn't use there method.
I'm in this video and I don't like it
Because you don't understand it, bozo if you don't have anything nice to say, don't comment
@@Its_Mei-f3rIt was more of it describes them and they just don’t want it to because that’s not good
every 11 year old gacha tuber in a nutshell: sadness+black= black depression self harm crying literally everything sad you could ever think of.
(I’m 14 and happy)
Look, I get that a lot of us are stupid and whatever. But I didn’t choose to have depression. If I got the choice, then I wouldn’t have it. I’m glad you’re happy.
not exactly sure what gacha has to do with this lol, but i gotta agree that 80% of gacha people 10-12 act like that
@@iridescentstarz Actually, people during thier pre-teens are actually more mature than most people. Gacha or not. You're talking about the younger, younger kids.
@@iridescentstarz not 10-12, much younger
This would be an incredible song if they actually SANG it. Talk singing completely ruined it