reading this while correcting a test i got a D+ on after my mom called me and yelled at me because I was fine with it, being told all my plans for Halloween of trick or treating with friends were going to be cancelled unless I got the questions right :(
So true, I’m currently in a program that teaches real world things. The teacher gave us a piece of paper, told us to draw 30 circles, big enough to draw or write something inside. She then told us to generate ideas or drawings into each of the circles, she then gave us 2 minutes. After the two minutes were over she asked us how many circles we filled, she told us the fewer we got, the more scared we were of failure. I only filled 3 out of the 30 circles. I’m only 13, but this just proves we were taught to be petrified of failure.
i never listened when people said "its ok if you do bad, that means theres more room for improvement". now that ive reevaluated my mindset around school i see how this is so true. you feel so much more fulfilled after improving rather than keeping up this "perfect" image. this is your reminder that even if you get a bad grade the world is still spinning, people across the world are still sleeping peacefully, and your life is still advancing. dont waste your time being upset when you can be proud of the marks you got rather than what you lost. do better next time and you will be more fulfilled ❤️
@@ghost._.boo._.i know ml ive been there and felt it all. i even had panic attacks and i cried nearly everyday. but i promise it gets better soon and one day youll feel greatful for everything that happened. it sounds hopeless now but its SO worth it to heal and change your mindset slowly but surely. its too much to explain but i recommend watching thewizardliz. she doesnt give academic validation advice but somehow it made it so much easier for me to get better ❤️🩹 PLUS you CAN be happy and get good grades and school is such a great blessing with so many opportunities!! im here if you need me ill drop my socials if u ever wanna talk. helping people is what i live for 🫶
@@ghost._.boo._. i know ml ive been there. I even had panic attacks and cried nearly everyday. It feels hopeless now but i promise it gets sm better once you get out of the cycle. its so worth it and youll even feel grateful about all the hard times you had in the future and how much youve learnt from it. Its important you start shifting your mindset and create a positive image around school because in reality its such a blessing and it provides amazing opportunities you only get once in your life!! if youre willing to heal i recommend watching thewizardliz. she doesnt give advice around school but it somehow helped me A LOT to get out of this rabbit hole and start appreciating things more AND get better grades (while still being happy!!). if you ever wanna talk ill drop my socials ❤🩹 helping people is what i live for 🫶
From once being an *academic weapon* to now being an *academic victim* .... I am so tired... I don't know what's wrong with me, how to rectify myself. I know I am wasting my potential but don't know how to gain it back. I am just...tired
You're you. You're you even when you're sitting around doing nothing, You don't stop being you. Ever. I promise it'll get better. You're doing amazing!!!
Whether you believe so or not, you’re made in God‘s image and he loves you very much This is coming from someone who struggles with their identity regarding grades… especially once I reached college and they started dropping
*when you are the only one holding yourself accountable so you push high expectations on yourself but you are slowly losing your knack for it so you need to push harder but everyone around you is better and you enter burnout periods and are growing out of the praise you formerly received so you are also fighting thoughts and you just. arent. the best. but you dont know how to get better.* or just me
ik this is stupid but i actually started crying while reading this becuase i know that feeling, i feel it so intensly that it just seems so like i cant communitcate it without faceing the fact. sorry if this is not making sense like im probably not even speaking coherently. but it not you. may be they never be poeple who know other this comment section but its not you. we all feel like were failing
No one talks enough about burn out. Srsly be careful I worked for those international exams so much the 2 years before them that I got burned out the year off (this year). I can barely study for two hours before the exams now and they all test you on full textbooks and are considered very important to my future. Please be careful and seriously take burn out seriously. It hit me at the wrong time and I feel like I'm disappointing my past life so much now. I just have 1 exam left out of 14 and ill try my best for it, but the burnout is so bad and idk if that one exam will even make any difference.
My classmates always say things like "gurl you will go to Harvard" or "how are you so smart" but also says " why are you upset about your score you got high enough, like others failed the test" "obviously you got an A or A+ stop rubbing it in" but when I slip up once I'm no longer smart even with the highest grades in the class. People say that it is easy for me, that im born smart, that I watched educational videos when I was younger(i literally watched vids bout dinosaurs and animals not physics and chemistry when i was six) but Im staying up late and waking up early getting work done and pushing myself mentally and physically to go above and beyond learning new things for high school. Im not born smart I was just curious and wanted to learn new things now peer pressure and family pressure has made it seem that if I get anything under 90% on my report card it is a fail. For everyone who says oh she/he is born smart, they are not they just put in more effort naturally until it becomes normal and they think that they always must exceed expectation, that a B or A- is a fail. Don't think that school is easy for them, many times it is harder for them as they try to balance everything while pleasing others and many times race goes into this as well, if asian "Oh TheY aRe BoRn SMaRt", if white "oh white people can be smart?, i though you are all just dumb blondes" if black" yeah right [insert something mean]" if others "doesn't bat an eye. Everyone can be smart if they just try hard but society needs to know how many grueling hours are spent working just to get called a try hard, this is even worse as a teen as you are always doubting yourself and we need to stop this. This may seem like a rant but this is the reality that me and many others are facing so please listen to me and others that are facing this. here is another edit after sometime : my parents hate that im always in my room studying and not talking much, then are shocked for 2 seconds seeing my report card then asks "if i did this" ignores my efforts then says that they expected this from me, always undermine me and when i get good grades at school people just say that "of course she did" (yes i am a girl) and always tell me to not brag or ruin the moment that they got a 78% on some test, when they ask me my mark in the first place. another edit: if this is happening to you, you are not alone, to what you what to do and keep pushing furuter for a better future, if you want to get good grades and be successful, do it it will help you more, don't listen to others. I will probably keep on editing this and adding everything in my heart that has happened in school and home, and if you want you guys can reply in the comments about your stories.
same :( My mom always says anything under 90% is like 60% or less for her. What's sadder is that when you get a result like 86%, which is really good, but you keep thinking about it all night and become worried. I hope you're doing fine though
Pov: you were raised in an asian house hold and never praised for getting straight A's but the one time you got a B you were grounded for 2 months and you got the top grade in your grade
An average student here, my parents never pressured me about grades and they just told me to to my best. Surely, they're not forcing me to study, to get straight As, but I hate being useless because they didn't put any expectations on me. I felt like I've never done enough to make them proud even though they said otherwise. Sometimes I pushed myself hard, burnout with lots of study sessions just to be the best, only for them to be proud of me and could tell their friends about my achievement. For me, it might be exhausting to study all the time, but the only way for me to repay my parents for everything is to stand on the stage, holding my straight As result.
I thought I was alone, i really felt why my parents don't pressure me to do anything as they are always happy with me which made me clueless in life. And want them to keep expectations from me .
As a student who gets low marks, I feel useless all the time and I just feel like I’m the most worthless person on earth. I don’t have certificates in sports, academics, co curriculars, nothing. It’s taken such a toll on me and I’m still trying my best to improve. The highest grade overall for me in mid terms was only 90%. And lowest was 60% I know, so many high achiever’s are here, but I just wanna let people who are like me, that don’t give up, you can push through this and get your dream marks. I’m happy I atleast got 90% in one subject. I’ve been pulling all nighters and i REALLY want the best marks. I’ll do ANYTHING to get what I want at this point. Thank you people who read this. May you have a good day or night, and please don’t be too hard in yourselves. ❤
Dear fellow high-achievers, I was already in a tough mental space, and while studying, I mindlessly listened to this playlist-only to find myself breaking down in tears. Sometimes, even when we think we've got everything under control, the pressure still lingers beneath the surface. Remember to live your life and take care of yourselves, too. I'm proud of you for trying, and I hope we'll all meet again in the place we've been dreaming of. With love, Your fellow high-achiever.
It’s so sad that we have to hold so much together. Aren’t we too young to cry to a playlist while contemplating a life we haven’t even fully lived yet? I wish you the very best in your journey. All I can say is this: may every tear, every late-night study session, and every quiet weep when you feel like screaming pay off. I'm rooting for your success. You deserve everything you dream of. With loads of warm wishes, virtual hugs, and endless cups of virtual coffee to keep you going, Your supporter from dusk till dawn.
I want to say this to my mom" who cares I am pretty if I fails my finals" I have my exam on 9th June, and I'm going to put my life on that ,that exam will decide if i will get the dream college, the dream life, i dreamed of...…..i rather be in pain because of studying too much than to deal with the pain of regret and rejection...... i'm writing this down so that when ever someone likes this comment, i can come back and read my oath again.......
@@nonahassan-ln5mm you summon me here, just when I needed 🫀✨ Thank you for making me read this note again......and I'll get the shit out of that exam, No matter what
@@nonahassan-ln5mm @queenofhell9758 You commented just when I needed........ although I'm working hard to crack my exam....... I've blocked all of my friends and family members.......so basically I have no one except my mom, who nags me for gaining weight (as I don't go outside to work out) Dad who is supportive, yet forgets that I need equal time as my brother to score equal marks as him And ofc my brother whom I'm always at war with This message means more than just a "cheer up" by a stranger
my friends say i'm really smart, i'll go to harvard, i get amazing grades, but honestly i don't feel good enough. i don't feel smart enough. if i'm the smartest one i have to fight to keep that title, and there are so many eyes on me, the second i slip up, the second i miss a single question, everyone is shocked and says things like "look even she doesn't know it!" and i hate that, i hate it so much. i'll complain about low 90s but everyone will say not to and that it was a good grade, and honestly i feel bad for complaining when a lot of people got much worse grades, but to me a low 90 isn't a good grade, it just isn't. to make it worse i never really learned to study and i know that at some point it'll catch up to me, but i really don't know how to study, and on top of that i'm a huge procrastinator. at some point i won't be able to keep this up, won't be the smart one anymore, and honestly i don't really know who i will be then.
"I have to do it" hits so goddamn hard, it's literally the only thing I am able of saying now, the reason behind anything I do, no matter how self-destructive it is
listening to this gives me a weird urge to study but i also feel this weird and heavy weight of tiredness i cant wash of myself making me feel even more lazy and hopeless such weird thing
I feel every word you wrote to my core. my aspirations and ambitions are so high and here i am struggling with sitting, completing stupid daily targets. its just i feel so numb and dissociated, i cant even comprehend the high pressure of an incoming exam anymore 'coz i took a gap year so it matters alot for me to get into a really good uni. idk if it is procrastination or the choice of a wrong field or if i am actually just worthless ahh sorry for ranting so much, its just ur cmnt felt like a mirror. all the best to you, i hope u do well
@@keyamanna3910 it's fine rant as much as you feel like I'll be here and i understand you quite well too, i feel like i can do many things in my mind and i feel it but whenever i get up to do something it feel like a heavy burden that i can't do. Isn't it what you meant? It's understandable but know that no one is worthless it might be like you said, maybe the path you choose isn't for you or isn't something in your interests and if you still have time to go to a different field I'd recommend that for you because once you lock on it, it will be hard to chance it after all it's your future more then 60% of your life. Idk i said some random stuff but hopefully you'd understand what i meant
@@yoursweethollowknight6589 ur right abt the interests thing.. while i am interested in arts and science both, i can't afford arts or anything as such in the creative field.. it's very expensive here.. so i am sitting for med and biotech entrances to get into a top central uni.. ur getting it ig? like i hv to take a roundabout approach and figure it out.. and yuppp i get it, i TOTALLY get the overwhelming feeling when so many tasks hv to be done.. burnout is so real.. also thanks for being so kind and considerate.. i feel better
@@yoursweethollowknight6589 would u believe if i said i really considered ur advice for a while, thought abt it and took an entire day to introspect.. and ur right, i think the career i chose doesn't align with my skills at all.. i am more of a creative and maybe i am forcing myself to like a certain diff. way.. i went thru all the options once more today and i'll choose smth different now.. i hvnt felt this light and better in awhile.. thank you really i mean it!
It helps you know. it really helps a lot. Knowing that you're not the only one doing this. you're not the only one who's been through this. there are people who went through what you're going through right now, and they survived and so will you
I'm going into art. I used to be a smart kid, that's how I got into my friend group. I got such good grades, 90s, honour roll, I was known as intelligent. And then I started pursuing my passions. I started realizing that when I'm old and grown, I didn't want to tell my children that when I was their age, I was an artist, but I had long lost that skill. No. I'm taking my life back. My grades are dropping and my path is clear. I'm going into art.
Push yourself, but not too hard. (I'm a sophomore taking 9 classes, 4 at a college, 4 college-level in high school, and 1 elective) I'm not being pushed by anyone, I have just always been a little better at school so I feel like I have to uphold that image. Going to a prestigious college (Stanford) is my own dream, not pushed onto me by anyone else, and I think my motivation is running out. I'm falling behind, and I don't think it's possible for me to catch up anymore. I'm just finally coming out of a depressive episode (which started a week after school did) and I don't think my grades will recover. I hate that I'm here of my own volition, my own actions, and there seems to be nothing left for me to do. burn out is real and I'm dealing with it.
When we score good marks people say "ofcourse you did you are the topper there is nothing new in it". But when we are not able to score good sometimes, due to any kind of reason as we are humans too, then suddenly everyone gets so interested.Then they are like "what happened" or "how you scored so low" or "I scored more than the topper".They make us feel soo bad that it creates a lot of pressure on us, it's like that we can never fail or more like we are not allowed to get fail and we have to maintain a constant graph of perfection always.And it hurts so much when our hardwork is called as "you were born intelligent". Whenever a test is coming others be like "you don't have to care about it ,you are the topper,you will definitely ace it ".And I am like I wasn't born with some powers ,I have made myself a topper through hardwork and I have to study also to ace the test.There is also an another perception about us that we are always studying and don't do other activities,just keep studying everytime.Thus are life is boring but there is nothing like that .We do other things too.If friends are making some plans they will think on their own that I don't want to come with them because I have to study.And if they find me doing something other than studies they will be like "ohhh so toppers also do these things other than studying".And make this face😮 whenever we are doing something that they find strange for us to do.Sometimes I feel they think of me as a alien that I am from some other planet.They may think our lives are easiest but actually it's the hardest tbh we have to always satisfy the expectations of society, family, teachers and friends too.I am 18 and it's been 15 years since I am experiencing all of this.I was just going to write a one line comment but then all emotions came out. One last thing solitude and overthinking along with books always stays with us.(Idk if it's true for everyone but it is atleast for me,do let me know if it's true):)
U jst wrote what was I ever wanted to say but never got a chance love u frm bottom of my heart everything thing will be fine for both of us and yeah for others too come on we can do it yes we can!!!! 🎀✨😌❤
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It's my comfort playlist..I am really sick of school now.Nothings going right...No matter how much i study, how much i work hard , i just blank out during exams.The starting wasn't bad, i scored the highest in class but mid session, it's like ,it just ......vanished, it was never there..I just want to end it asap.Idk what to do anymore..I feel so helplesss.
Take a day rest... 1 day nad go back to grinding not enough to burn out take care of yourself.. Prove those who said u cant do it wrong... Prove them u can do it without taking your life and time away❤️🔥
It's hard when you feel lots pressure on yourself to be perfect , when you feel like a failure if someone does better than you , And when the person that is doing it to you in no one BUT URSELF.
i studied consistently throughout the year. actually , i studied a lot . i refrained myself from doing what i like such as hobbies because i wanted to do my best in my last year of high school. i studied my mat course over 8 times , solved 200 multiple choice questions , solve past papers, and yet when i sat down today for my final math exam..... i just want to give up. i know i shouldnt but theres no way for me to retrieve the lost marks back.
diane's "good damage" speech really hit so fucking hard. my grades have been dropping from burnout, and now im struggling with college apps. ultimately, this means i might not go to a good college, which really fucking hurts when it feels like all the sleepless nights spent studying, all the self loathing and hatred, all the stress and pain was all for nothing. i was beaten and broken during my high school years with the one goal in mind that it would result in me going to a good college, but now? if i don't get in? what was it all for? my life is nothing but "bad damage." even worse, "worthless damage." and i dont know what to do with myself.
OMG I wake up at 2am and I thought of studying and now still studying 😅 I bet today will be strange day for me 😅 see myself sleeping in class 😂😂 the benifit of waking up soon😂😂
when you feel and realise finally that you were just an investment made by your parents and you didn't make a good investment to them you were a waste to them. Being a younger sibling, you are told at every moment to get better grades than your sibling. Just because your elder siblings made mistakes you are supposed to not have an ease. They say that younger siblings are luckier.
I received my Second Math Exam Paper yesterday. I did so badly. My teacher told me I improved (a bit) but in my eyes, no. For my first math exam(of the year) I scored 24/40, a B- at most. Now I scored 22/40, a C. Both Contrasts to the A' I scored for my math finals last year. The paper was trickier and harder, but deep down I know that I can solve these questions easily and score higher. But, I didn't trust myself. I didn't believe I was doing the questions correctly when I did indeed know that I was. I was on the right track, why was I doubting myself? I have never really dong great in Math. It's always been my worst subject. I thought I was getting better. This is even more shameful for me as a School Math Olympiad Member who has the Country's Junior Math Olympiad coming up this late May. I'm supposed to be great at Math. How can I be a Math Olympian like this? I've been busy with assignments and extra curricular activities(other upcoming competitions etc. QCEC, Science Project) , as well as leadership stuff. It's been draining me slowly to spend my time after school, keeping up with all these projects and all. I've been busier than ever. I can't seem to focus with a lot on my mind. I might seem a bit dramatic right now and a C might not be that bad for you guys, but for me it is. My standards are A now, not even B. My Asian parents are going to be very disappointed. They'll doubt me again, as always. I was a top Student last year. I'm supposed to be a hidden gem, not a plain rock in dirt. Last year was my Golden Year(Scored 6 A's for Finals) , so is this year my Academic downfall? I just know that I'm slowly losing my touch. I'm drained and tired.
I know it's been like 5 months since you commented this, but I wanted to say that I really hope you are doing well. And thank you so much for your comment, I'm in a similar situation (straight A's dropped to D's in maths) and it's really helpful knowing I'm not alone in this battle.
@@Ace_of_Spades_Edits Thank you for this comment. Unfortunately, my Maths has really just been dropping and I scored a C for my Maths Finals. My Overall Grade for Maths this year is a C, so I'm unable to take Advanced Algebra/Pre-Calculus/Additional Mathematics as part of my Courses/Subjects.(My country follows the UK Exam Standards/Education System) I'm just upset and mad at myself for not working harder and doing better. I feel a bit suffocated. :(( Everyone around me can take it but I can't. All my friends are taking it but I can't. Even unexpected people did better than me and now can take it. I'm left behind, becaus of myself. I did this to myself. I can't change anything now but I'll work harder in the coming year. Actually, I still do have a chance to take it. I've been given a chance by my school to sit for a Special Algebra Test which will determine whether or not I can take it.(Very grateful for the chance my school is willing to give me :D) It's sort of a appeal. If I can score a A, I have a high chance of taking it. I just need a distinction for them to consider letting me take it. It's in about a month, so I''ll work hard this month to master the algebra syllables! Please cheer me on! Thank you for your words and I hope it gets better for you. You can do it!
@@lmaoo23-zl7vx I'm sorry that you've had this struggle and that things haven't worked out how you wanted. But I'm so glad you have a chance to take the test! I know you can do it!! And people have probably told you this, but don't forget to prioritise yourself too, because it can be so hard for people who are strive for high grades to balance their lives, but while grades are important, you matter too! Don't be mad at yourself, part of life involves struggling, and you are so strong for pushing through. Also thank you for your encouragement at the end, it's so sweet of you. We got a new maths teacher who's really good, and hopefully I'm able to keep up now. Good luck!! I know you can do this!! Study hard, but also care for yourself!
We all craved validation from our loved ones, and all felt that we could only get it through good grades. It wasn't fair on us, or anyone like us who didn't know who they were without their academic status, especially considering how young we all were/are, but did it matter? Not to them. We were punished for anything lower than an A. So please, be proud of yourself and how far you've come. It's hard, but I want you to try. Whatever you got, as long as you tried, you tried hard enough.
I have never been good in school. But it doesn't mean I can't be a perfectionist. When I do try, I always feel like I need it to be perfect. Or else...it's trash, and not good enough. But yet, I still turn it in, because I ran out of time to finish it. So I am always anxiety induced when it comes to something getting graded. Now, I'm actually trying really hard. But that means I have to finish so much more, perfectly. It needs to be good, or I'll never feel satisfied. But I can't keep up. I feel so jealous of my friends who can finish stuff so fast. While I'm left behind. I can never be good enough. I'll always be the disappointment of the family, the one that can't seem to ever act right, the one that can barely eat, the one who always has an "attitude," the one that will NEVER belong.
I used to be an F grade student but then I got straight As last year and now everyone is expecting me to get perfect grades again to keep my image perfect but it is so difficult I feel extremely pressurised and I cannot afford even a single B grade being a topper isn't fun cause once you getthe taste of perfect grades, there is no going back.
My parents love me because of my academic and athletic excellence. I have suffered an injury and I can’t do sport anymore. Without my academics I am nothing.
my father doesn't force me to do anything. I should be thankful. Yet i still yearn to be perfect. I yearn for some sort of praise from my teachers, my parents, my peers. Last year I won the Academic award. But it isn't enough. Nothing's ever enough. This year everyone expects me to be just as good, if not better. And I expect that from myself too. I feel so burnt out. If I'm not perfect, I don't get punished. My parents say nothing. It's all in my head. How imperfect I am. There's always going to be someone better than me out there, and I should know that. My whole life is centred around if I please my own damned head, this imaginary world I've brought up for myself. I'm useless for everything. I'm good at nothing.
Your not useless... Your not anything bad you say... Yoir amazing you doing good enought stop pushing yourself too hard... Take the reat you need reast is also a part of success take care of your health... Grades without health????... Im rooting for u you can absolutely do it🎉🎉
You’re not alone in this battle.. we’re together. Don’t lose your fire. It will take you far. Just don’t get caught up in your head… it’s important not to trip yourself with untied shoes. Take distance to remember why you want what you want. That’s the most important.
I have been more exigent with myself than with the others. When my friends get 80 I celebrate, but when I get that I get really upset. I punish myself severely. I have heard ‘You don’t have to worry, you always get a hundred’. That phrase hurts. It makes me feel more pressure, “I have to be at that standards because I am that.” Since little I was the ‘gifted kid’ academically, but I was never good enough to be the best of all. In fifth grade my self-esteem was extremely low. I hated myself. I started relying on my grades. When I was a kid I saw that I was praised and rewarded when I had academic achievements. I felt loved and special when I was rewarded. I feel pressure on being the best because somehow I feel I achieve something with it, that I am someone. I know this isn’t good for my mental health, but I can’t help it. My friend of the past school year helped me to feel better with my grades, but now they are in another group. I have been burn out in third grade. I am almost 13 yrs old. Nobody can be perfect, but I am still perusing academic perfection. I feel so bad about it but I don’t feel that I can talk about it to others. I am scared. I want a good future for myself. Maybe I should calm myself. I am learning from my errors and also trying to learn from school so when I work in the future I can managed it well. If I read this when I am older I want to say to myself that you are good enough. Maybe right now I am feeling I am not, but I’m sure you are. You are so pretty and gorgeous. I’m truly sorry for making you feel this way, it’s not my intention. Live happily. Happiness can be found in little things. Be kind with others, specially with your friends. Don’t overwork yourself. I’ll do my best so you don’t feel ashamed of who you/I am right now. You don’t need other’s people approval to be someone, you already are. Take care of yourself and don’t make silly decisions. Don’t give up. Let things go when it’s time. Follow your dreams . Past can’t be changed, but you can change the results of the future by changing today. I hope the best for you. 💗💗 (English is my second language, so if I committed an error I would be grateful if you let me know)
I’m here again. When this school year started I was feeling pressure to still be the one my friends saw, the one with excellent grades. I thought , ”Until when will I be able to give this ‘perfect grades’ image?” Sometimes asking myself if I could keep this. After some weeks I realized that what is important is to learn, not to have good or bad grades. I started enjoying school. Unfortunately, 5 days later that end and now I feel very low. I never had a failed grade, which is true. Still, I feel pressure and a lot of anxiety. Of ‘social media’ I only have instagram and UA-cam. I don’t spend a lot of time on instagram. I delete TikTok a long time ago so I could focus on my academics and myself. In fifth grade I told you I had a low self-esteem, well, also on six grade. I think I am kinda feeling like that again. I think I will delete UA-cam also as a punishment. I spend a lot of time seeing videos and videos. I’m getting pretty tired of this feeling of being not enough for myself. In less of a month I’ll be turning 13 and I will not let myself go lower on everything I do. I will be work hard so I can be proud of myself. I know nobody really cares about my life, but writing it here makes me feel better. That’s all. (DD/MM/YY) 1/10/2024
You can do it.. I believe in you... Take care of your health too... Grades without health?.... Your good enough girl your amazing... You seem like a really nice pwrson dont let anyone get to your head no one can make u inferior... If u think u can do it. Yes you can and im rooting for you🎉❤
18:08 "i try my best to survive" True,true thanks to my teacher she won't give me full marks and my dad is certain I'm a failure for getting one mark less because of my teacher thanks alot,for making my dad lose trust in me now I'll be listening to this everyday for 2 hours while i study
As someone who was told growing up that one day Id be something great this is true. This whole playlist without saying anything is so fucking true to my feelings. Because really? Kids who are told this are damned the moment they register those words. Even if you're a genius you can never be perfect at everything, but this is what people like us try to achieve, we can tell everyone how its okay but never ourselves because obviously, we're supposed to be something great no? Its alright, Its alright not to be perfect or okay. Youre fine, and not being perfect is fine because its human. Youre a human being with feelings and emotions, you will never be perfect because you're not meant to be, nobody is. Take care of yourselves, love ya
sorry for the random vent, i hope this is a safe space! in primary school (middle school), i used to be able to get good grades then it all immediately went downhill when i entered high school. I'm in my third year and i've found a subject that i enjoy the most, biology. I genuinely love it and i look forward to lessons every week. So of course, I strived to be the best in my class, so far i have a straight A streak but my recent paper, i didn't get the highest and I was just one mark away from A1 and all the marks i had lost was just because of carelessness. I felt so distraught, i just stared at my paper the whole class. I loved biology more than everyone else in that class. They would always complain how it was so complicated and confusing so why? why didn't i get the highest? I memorised all the words, i memorised the processes, why did i have to be careless? No mattter what other people say and remind me that i should be proud, I am hard on myself because i KNOW i can do better. It's my favourite subject so i should be proving myself that i am the best (yes, toxic, i'm aware.) besides, it's the first time i had ever been so consistently successful in a subject so of course i wanted more of that pride. My end of years are coming up and its 60%! If i dont get the highest in bio this time, i might actually break down ^-^ thanks to whoever read all the way to the end of my emo para :D
i literally cried with this playlist. the feeling of not being enough and grades dropping just hits hard... You're not alone, take time to relax. It's okay to cry, dont hold it in. dont hold all the burden alone. we have problems and stress and its okay to cry. let it all out at this moment, take time for yourself and your mind. I hope you're doing well.
I finished my exams and i am the first of my class and maybe the 3rd of my school i am thankful to god and to my efort if you have tests or exams i want to tell you "you can do it fight to achive your dreams and even if i am the firt of my class i didnt achieve my dream yet it is just a step god will help uss love you all pure souls ❤❤
Honestly, my parents never forced me to be on top, they never pressure me in academics, in fact, I'm the one who's pressuring myself. As a perfectionist, a academic achiever, for me, even the smallest mistake can change and ruin my future, my imagine and life, so ever since I entered the life of maturity, I always value even the smallest thing, because if I fail for like once, it feels like my world is falling apart. I'm happy that I'm the second in our class, I'm kinda proud of myself, yet I feel like my hardwork isn't enough, like I'M not enough. ( Excuse my grammar, english is not my first language 👺 )
i was about to sleep, I put my headphones on and played this playlist, until I noticed myself singing along, and found myself laughing, especially at the top of my school song. I remembered my classmates telling me, "you're too perfectionist" n "your standards are so high"...uhm I have no words haha. Honestly, I don't think I am, I just do what I gotta do with what I can and what I have, until I get satisfied. There is no standards at all, lol! It's all about satisfaction, man. So many opinions other than that made my mind messed up. I felt blinded, I crawled so much to be able to get back to my old self who had the passion burning in whatever she does. I was a studious kid back then, but upon observation and experiencing unfair system, I got burned out, and lost all of it. Things have changed, I was blown into a path that made me see different perspectives as well see clarity that changed my mindset, my level of enthusiasm, and energy to the things I used to do and are still doing.
im in the middle of my gcses. i go back to school tomorrow. im aware that i put too much pressure on myself, and i physically cannot take a break without feeling guilty. im breaking honestly. i dont care if i dissapoint my parents, ive done it enough. i do care if i disappoint myself or my teachers. im dreading results day already and i havent even finished my exams. i cannot do it anymore. i know deep down ill do well, but in my eyes it feels like i couldve always done more. ok that felt good to write down
Listening while recovering from this. Was either this or the athlete variant where it's either 1st place or nothing at all, but my Grandma regrets not putting me through the athlete route. Nowadays, jobs don't care about your GPA or if you're Valedictorian in college. The world our parents tried to prepare us for isn't there anymore. And it's not our job as their kids to convince them. Take it from a 25 year old making $100k without a college degree~ To anyone my age or older, we know the past sucked and we now have the freedom to decide if this is really what we want the younger generation to see. If you're younger, perhaps still figuring out what major you want or what you want your career to be; take a deep breath and relax. Simply do your best, even if that's a C. Your parents/guardians are just two people in the world, and if they are your worst critics, that means there's dozens others who will be better supporters than they can be for you. Hope this helps someone doom-scrolling comments. I see your struggle, been in a similar place, and there's a way out. And it requires no straight As, no 4.0 GPA, no top marks or perfection. We're human and imperfect by nature. And that's okay. 🫂
Well i always listened that do your best, next time you have to do your best but i never heard them appreciating my hard work and this is why I always lack my confident and focus..
gosh i love this video so much. a bit of rant n venting, sorry: my parents never asked me to get straight As or be on top of my class, but it made me feel as if i have never done enough, they are very proud of me, but im not. idk why. in 2 days, im starting grade 10. my grades had improved from 5As out of 12 subject at grade 7 to straight As. i love it. my parents celebrated it, i love it. but now im scared. what if i fail? my friends kept telling me "youre so smart, u dont hv to study", "wow you got straight As? i get it, dont rub it to my face", "shut up you wont understand us who struggle with school", "your future is brighter than sun im so jealous", "i bet you wont and CANT fail in life" AND THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS "HOW DO YOU KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH?!" you all study in international school since primary, and i started in secondary. ITS NOT FAIR! THEY KEPT SAYING "oh she got low score, no wonder we get lower" IT DOESNT WORK LIKE THAT! if i get high score, they pushed me "jokingly". i dont know anymore. my dream is to get full scholarship in Australia. please god let my dream come true.
Your doing grade.. Stranger live yourself and im rooting for u🎉 you. Can. Do. It... Take care of yourself dont push too hard take breaks when u need even tho u might think the breaks are useless its not... Breaks are also needed for success and i know you will succeed dont give up❤
the first part like the damage part and the sleep part that hits hard but still don't be upset abt what you don't get remember everything happens for a reason maybe you got a b on that test so you could learn to study and prepare more so next time you could get that a+ DON'T WASTE UR TIME BEING UPSET ABOUT WHAT U DIDN'T GET BE HAPPY FOR WHAT U DID LIFE'S TOO SHORT TO BE WASTED ON SH!T LIKE THAT enjoy ur life and thanks if u read this far lol and listened to/read my mini-rant
no because real. no one told me anything but I literally NEED to be perfect. I will literally force myself into every single activity and get every single extra credit. I don't care if I lose myself, I started planning my life from 9 years old, and I swore to myself that day that I would get every single full mark on every single test from 5th grade to 13th grade, that was years ago, now in 8th grade, and I have a list to every exam I got and it has to be a full mark. nobody's perfect, but I just have this aggressive urge to , I took a huge quiz before this weekend, and if i get anything under the full mark, even one digit under the full mark and a half, im gonna upgrade my studying to 9 hours sorry 4 the vent i just felt the urge to 😭
as i am drawing closer to my college graduation and close to my days as an adult, i start to wonder, how else am i going to feel validated and valued. i am starting to address it more seriously, deriving more self satisfaction from hobbied and goal setting. i shifted my focus from wanting to be the academically validated girl to the 'IT' girl. focusing on productivity, goal setting, creating systems, planning, and living a fulfilling life. eating food i like, picking up hobbies i find interesting, hobbies i dropped during my past years, also studying, but coming back to be consistent when i break a habit chain, having comfort days lazing on bed and watching movies.........its...nice...i am studying and still want to feel academically validated but i know when i graduate and have no more academic life, i will still valued and worthy. i will continue to study and research things i like, do my hobbies and such
Bro I'm slowly losing myself. Used to hope for sb who can help me out of this cycle but in the end slowly realized I gotta do it myself. Nb cares but my thought
So this was how other students feel..They were very pressured to really be in the top.I mean i did get pressured to but i was'nt that determined to study.But now..Since the person who made me the happiest had left me.I've been urged by my SELF to do my best in my studies i had the high scores the recitaions and all but then i missed the fun i also missed her i forgot how my school was fun..
since i was a literal baby, i've been said to be a 'smart kid'. 'matalino ito', my great-aunt said. well, she was right, i suppose. ever since then, everyone around me started to think of me and pressure me to be 'the smart kid'. i've lived with that title since kindergarten, and i started to crash and burn after grade 5. started feeling worthless for no reason, parents started questioning me more, and at around grade 8, i wanted to quit so bad. i'm definitely in a better place now, but not much better than what it was before. to everyone, take your time. let things go at your pace. you're loved, and have a nice day.
I'm so scared. I've been doing so well in school without much effort (that just made me cringe,) but now it's actually requiring effort and I just can't get myself to give it my all. I've been procrastinating and studying for exams a day before. It all works out in the end, but I know that one day I'm gonna do badly. I'm gonna fail, all because I'm too lazy to start making notes a couple weeks before exams. I feel like the only thing that'll scare me into actually studying is failure, but at the same time, I'm so afraid of failing. It's not like my parents are overbearing or always expect the best either. The only one who expects perfection from me is me. At the same time, the only person who's hyper aware of my imperfections is me. It shouldn't be this difficult, I'm only in grade 9. How will i survive grade 12? Or university???
same here! I'm at grade 8 currently, and i'm already starting to crumble. like, miserably. I used to do pretty well for math and can manage to get an A by who knows what, but now i'm barely passing. I can really tell people around me are disappointed, and it hurts that i was the cause of their disappointment. I'm always feeling guilty because my asian parents have been trying their very best to become more understanding and lenient towards me and my grades, but my grades are steadily dropping and it doesn't feel right for me to just tell them "oh, i screwed up my exams because i'm lazy and can't study". It just feels so unfair to them, but at the same time i don't know how to improve at all. I don't have the faintest idea of what i even want to do in the future. I know it's not just me, and there are others who feel the same way, but i just feel really sorry for causing everyone to worry about me.
me in uni rn. everything is going downhill, college is humbling me so bad and I have to take the bus to commute for 1hr 30mins everyday back and forth to school. wake up very early, arrive very late, keep studying, sometimes I don't even sleep because I read the whole text book. sometimes I don't even wake up. I don't know where I went. but that's normal, right?
People in the comments are talking about how they feel when they dont get an A. Here i am who has never even experienced joy after getting back any of my scripts. English, the only subject i am good at, i got a 63 out of 80 on. The class highest was 76. Why wasnt it me? Why cant i ever for fucking once get a grade im happy with? Why cant i study? What the fuck is exactly wrong me with me?
But what's worse is when you sacrifice your sleep for it and yet still get average marks... or worse reach to the bottom line. So tired but atleast I am trying. No, they don't see that!
Surprise, still here, still listening. I've been going through my first burnout. I feel empty, literally empty, I don't know how to get out. I'm always in my room, I feel, that's just it, I don't feel anymore-
it's so hard being me, bcs I must press my self for getting perfect everytime, I just want to be perfect, but sometimes why I made a mistake, I just want get enough of me.
I had been topping the exam since years But in 9th grade half yearly exam I scored less than 75% And my haters are happy abt it since thaey don't want me to top the class 😢😢 I really don't know how to react whenever someone ask me for my grades 😞😞 I really feel bad 😢😢
A comeback is enough to shut them up dear....and we are humans we go through ups then same goes for going downs ..its about whether u can make the comeback or not...and i trust u can^_^
my parents never pressured me even though I got the lowest marks in class. they always say it's okay. just do your best. we are always here for you no matter what happens. they work so hard for me. I'm so sad that I couldn't pay them back with good results. it keeps getting worse. I don't know what to do🥺
Im not a topper students.. But im trying i havent gone to school in 3 weeks... Ive bruned out crying... My sister almsot thought i was gone insane i was studying day and night i drink more coffee then i drink water... I wasnt like this. Never this pressure bough by my oarents. Relative and others have me pulling my hair out it hurts.. I cant take it its hard.... Harder then i thought.... Harder then i thought they did... Now i understand being a topper is anything but easy... But i wont give up no... I will succeed... I will prove my fmaiky wrong when they compared me to my sister and daid "your worthless your sistwrs better shes the one who will be taking care of us while u begg to get help from someone else" ill show them
Sometimes, in the heat of the moment, you end uo expecting too much from yourself, you set ambitions far above than where they shouldve been set, try your best to keep up with it...but alas..you learn of dissapointment time after time, each time ruining your mental health worse than the last.I wish id realized earliet I NEVER shouldve based my self worth on academic distinction.. I love how MJ (Michelle Jones) in Spiderman :No Way Home says " expect dissapointment and you'll never be dissappointed"..tells you about places the character has actually been through...sigh...strenth and love to anyone going through the same..
Tbh, I hate it when ppl say “omgsh ur sooo smarttt” or “you don’t even need to study u always get good grade” and the one thing I hate the most is- “I bet ur parents will be glad u got a good mark”. They’re never glad, it’s always “try harder” or “get first place, second and third is never better than first”, and I keep telling them I’m trying but they never EVER listen, all I want is for them to be happy for me. And I’m not smart, I’m just a stupid African girl that just wants greeds for success and love, so, is that too much to ask? Just a little bit of love for my grades? Or maybe I’m js being selfish idk lol
what parents want frm you is good grades , they wouldnt care whether u are stress or tired. they dont care nor try to understand what their children are going through. they would always pressure and push them to study harder even tho u are studying like crazy. they dont see u studying like crazy. this is my parents . ( Asian parents) . everyday i study even on weekends and if i dont study on weekends my parents calls me lazy. but this is life ...
Coming to this playlist to study for my last final of my undergraduate career while dealing with intense senioritis, lol. I need a fire under my butt to start working.
they think na takot ako malamangan for my behavior in terms of academics, but to be honest, I am just in my self vs me era, I need to work hard until hndi nako nakakramdam ng kaba everytime na may exams and graded recits.
I'm trying to write a very last minute paper, it's 3 am, i have 4/11 pages written, i haven't slept more than 4 hours in days, and I can barely think. I have 2 essays due and a written language exam on the same day. I swear I'm going to just break down crying. I don't have time for all of this. I can't wait to be done with school.
*I listen to this playlist because in my writing we have to do the WHOLE book and the book has 159 pages and our teacher expects us to finish 5-10 pages per day, it also adds stress to us because we have to review for exams, its also a bit sad because its almost the last day of school. Lately, i've been listening to these type of playlists because I feel super stressed out, and I pressure myself to get a line of 9 on my report card because I really want to be an awardee, if I don't I just studied all of those months for nothing? I feel super pressured and very stressed out. It's like a burnt out gifted kid type of feeling, And i'm the class secretary and people look up to me for homework, math, english, etc. when I don't know the answer, they're like "But your smart how do you not know this?" its because im so stressed i feel so tired, and they don't know how hard it is to be a class officer and we have to keep this "perfect" image because the students look up to us and they won't even listen to us when we discipline them and our president doesn't even do anything and they tell me to shout at the class and say "please be quiet and stay in your seats"*
I would tell you it’s going to be ok…but who am I to tell you it’ll be ok?…I am just a stranger on the internet…but remember I love you…I am here for you…whenever you feel like nobody loves you…just remember that this one stranger on the internet loves you 💗
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People call us dreamers, but we are the ones who don't sleep
So true. 😢
Poetry 👏👏
Wow...truer words couldn't have been said.
Corny ahh
"As kid, you either did things with perfection or got punished" the playlist
i´m sobbing bitch thats me fr T0T
Me:
reading this while correcting a test i got a D+ on after my mom called me and yelled at me because I was fine with it, being told all my plans for Halloween of trick or treating with friends were going to be cancelled unless I got the questions right :(
@@CairanCallistoVTI’m so sorry to hear that :( I love you’re doing Alr
So true, I’m currently in a program that teaches real world things. The teacher gave us a piece of paper, told us to draw 30 circles, big enough to draw or write something inside. She then told us to generate ideas or drawings into each of the circles, she then gave us 2 minutes. After the two minutes were over she asked us how many circles we filled, she told us the fewer we got, the more scared we were of failure. I only filled 3 out of the 30 circles. I’m only 13, but this just proves we were taught to be petrified of failure.
"Got three distinctions out of five, and I felt stupid."
"But you worked hard."
"THAT WAS NOT HARD ENOUGH:"
i never listened when people said "its ok if you do bad, that means theres more room for improvement". now that ive reevaluated my mindset around school i see how this is so true. you feel so much more fulfilled after improving rather than keeping up this "perfect" image. this is your reminder that even if you get a bad grade the world is still spinning, people across the world are still sleeping peacefully, and your life is still advancing. dont waste your time being upset when you can be proud of the marks you got rather than what you lost. do better next time and you will be more fulfilled ❤️
Yes. But I have to remain perfect or I'll spiral down and never recover
@@ghost._.boo._.i know ml ive been there and felt it all. i even had panic attacks and i cried nearly everyday. but i promise it gets better soon and one day youll feel greatful for everything that happened. it sounds hopeless now but its SO worth it to heal and change your mindset slowly but surely. its too much to explain but i recommend watching thewizardliz. she doesnt give academic validation advice but somehow it made it so much easier for me to get better ❤️🩹 PLUS you CAN be happy and get good grades and school is such a great blessing with so many opportunities!! im here if you need me ill drop my socials if u ever wanna talk. helping people is what i live for 🫶
@@ghost._.boo._. i know ml ive been there. I even had panic attacks and cried nearly everyday. It feels hopeless now but i promise it gets sm better once you get out of the cycle. its so worth it and youll even feel grateful about all the hard times you had in the future and how much youve learnt from it. Its important you start shifting your mindset and create a positive image around school because in reality its such a blessing and it provides amazing opportunities you only get once in your life!! if youre willing to heal i recommend watching thewizardliz. she doesnt give advice around school but it somehow helped me A LOT to get out of this rabbit hole and start appreciating things more AND get better grades (while still being happy!!). if you ever wanna talk ill drop my socials ❤🩹 helping people is what i live for 🫶
thank you.
@ghost._.boo._. No. It seems like it but once you let go a little bit you realize you've been so far ahead of normal you're still exceptional
From once being an *academic weapon* to now being an *academic victim* .... I am so tired... I don't know what's wrong with me, how to rectify myself. I know I am wasting my potential but don't know how to gain it back. I am just...tired
This mentality will ruin you. Get back up.
Cheer up!!
same gurl i know i have a lot potential but im just mentally tired
@Maya-x2e I can feel you🥺
I feel the same way, its so relatable
Who am I without my academic excellence?
Those are my exact thoughts right now
You're you. You're you even when you're sitting around doing nothing, You don't stop being you. Ever. I promise it'll get better. You're doing amazing!!!
I feel you
@@PAGTALUNANCASSIOPEIARUI nothing 😔 (us)
Whether you believe so or not, you’re made in God‘s image and he loves you very much
This is coming from someone who struggles with their identity regarding grades… especially once I reached college and they started dropping
*when you are the only one holding yourself accountable so you push high expectations on yourself but you are slowly losing your knack for it so you need to push harder but everyone around you is better and you enter burnout periods and are growing out of the praise you formerly received so you are also fighting thoughts and you just. arent. the best. but you dont know how to get better.* or just me
Ouch, this hit hard 🎯
it's not just you, it's just all of us
ik this is stupid but i actually started crying while reading this becuase i know that feeling, i feel it so intensly that it just seems so like i cant communitcate it without faceing the fact. sorry if this is not making sense like im probably not even speaking coherently. but it not you. may be they never be poeple who know other this comment section but its not you. we all feel like were failing
Nope not just you
No one talks enough about burn out. Srsly be careful I worked for those international exams so much the 2 years before them that I got burned out the year off (this year). I can barely study for two hours before the exams now and they all test you on full textbooks and are considered very important to my future. Please be careful and seriously take burn out seriously. It hit me at the wrong time and I feel like I'm disappointing my past life so much now. I just have 1 exam left out of 14 and ill try my best for it, but the burnout is so bad and idk if that one exam will even make any difference.
My classmates always say things like "gurl you will go to Harvard" or "how are you so smart" but also says " why are you upset about your score you got high enough, like others failed the test" "obviously you got an A or A+ stop rubbing it in" but when I slip up once I'm no longer smart even with the highest grades in the class. People say that it is easy for me, that im born smart, that I watched educational videos when I was younger(i literally watched vids bout dinosaurs and animals not physics and chemistry when i was six) but Im staying up late and waking up early getting work done and pushing myself mentally and physically to go above and beyond learning new things for high school. Im not born smart I was just curious and wanted to learn new things now peer pressure and family pressure has made it seem that if I get anything under 90% on my report card it is a fail.
For everyone who says oh she/he is born smart, they are not they just put in more effort naturally until it becomes normal and they think that they always must exceed expectation, that a B or A- is a fail. Don't think that school is easy for them, many times it is harder for them as they try to balance everything while pleasing others and many times race goes into this as well, if asian "Oh TheY aRe BoRn SMaRt", if white "oh white people can be smart?, i though you are all just dumb blondes" if black" yeah right [insert something mean]" if others "doesn't bat an eye.
Everyone can be smart if they just try hard but society needs to know how many grueling hours are spent working just to get called a try hard, this is even worse as a teen as you are always doubting yourself and we need to stop this. This may seem like a rant but this is the reality that me and many others are facing so please listen to me and others that are facing this.
here is another edit after sometime : my parents hate that im always in my room studying and not talking much, then are shocked for 2 seconds seeing my report card then asks "if i did this" ignores my efforts then says that they expected this from me, always undermine me and when i get good grades at school people just say that "of course she did" (yes i am a girl) and always tell me to not brag or ruin the moment that they got a 78% on some test, when they ask me my mark in the first place.
another edit: if this is happening to you, you are not alone, to what you what to do and keep pushing furuter for a better future, if you want to get good grades and be successful, do it it will help you more, don't listen to others. I will probably keep on editing this and adding everything in my heart that has happened in school and home, and if you want you guys can reply in the comments about your stories.
So true
You described all the sh!t I have in my heart rn
same :( My mom always says anything under 90% is like 60% or less for her. What's sadder is that when you get a result like 86%, which is really good, but you keep thinking about it all night and become worried. I hope you're doing fine though
Relate....
Gurlllll we are friends 🙂 the same shitttt I deal throughhhhhh🙃
Pov: you were raised in an asian house hold and never praised for getting straight A's but the one time you got a B you were grounded for 2 months and you got the top grade in your grade
thats so bad
That’s me
literally a word for word description of me
For those who had to go through that I’m so sorry
Yes , Asian Families ar crazy about Academic results 😅....
An average student here, my parents never pressured me about grades and they just told me to to my best. Surely, they're not forcing me to study, to get straight As, but I hate being useless because they didn't put any expectations on me. I felt like I've never done enough to make them proud even though they said otherwise. Sometimes I pushed myself hard, burnout with lots of study sessions just to be the best, only for them to be proud of me and could tell their friends about my achievement. For me, it might be exhausting to study all the time, but the only way for me to repay my parents for everything is to stand on the stage, holding my straight As result.
This is well explained.....we're literally the same.
thank you, it really is nice to know there is smn like me out there
@@namelessnormie I feel relieved to know someone has this kind of situation like me
@@achieveryunne same here tooo
I thought I was alone, i really felt why my parents don't pressure me to do anything as they are always happy with me which made me clueless in life. And want them to keep expectations from me .
same exept that when i get a 97/100 I get punished :,)
As a student who gets low marks, I feel useless all the time and I just feel like I’m the most worthless person on earth. I don’t have certificates in sports, academics, co curriculars, nothing. It’s taken such a toll on me and I’m still trying my best to improve. The highest grade overall for me in mid terms was only 90%. And lowest was 60%
I know, so many high achiever’s are here, but I just wanna let people who are like me, that don’t give up, you can push through this and get your dream marks. I’m happy I atleast got 90% in one subject. I’ve been pulling all nighters and i REALLY want the best marks. I’ll do ANYTHING to get what I want at this point.
Thank you people who read this.
May you have a good day or night, and please don’t be too hard in yourselves.
❤
Dear fellow high-achievers,
I was already in a tough mental space, and while studying, I mindlessly listened to this playlist-only to find myself breaking down in tears. Sometimes, even when we think we've got everything under control, the pressure still lingers beneath the surface. Remember to live your life and take care of yourselves, too.
I'm proud of you for trying, and I hope we'll all meet again in the place we've been dreaming of.
With love,
Your fellow high-achiever.
this for real got me in the spirit to study. thanks a lot :))
It’s so sad that we have to hold so much together. Aren’t we too young to cry to a playlist while contemplating a life we haven’t even fully lived yet? I wish you the very best in your journey. All I can say is this: may every tear, every late-night study session, and every quiet weep when you feel like screaming pay off.
I'm rooting for your success. You deserve everything you dream of.
With loads of warm wishes, virtual hugs, and endless cups of virtual coffee to keep you going,
Your supporter from dusk till dawn.
@@random-mj1zb You’re very kind. Thank you :’) I really didn’t know I needed these words, may all the best returns to you
this playlist is just EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED
perfect to listen while styding at 3 am
I want to say this to my mom" who cares I am pretty if I fails my finals"
I have my exam on 9th June, and I'm going to put my life on that ,that exam will decide if i will get the dream college, the dream life, i dreamed of...…..i rather be in pain because of studying too much than to deal with the pain of regret and rejection......
i'm writing this down so that when ever someone likes this comment, i can come back and read my oath again.......
You got this love!!
@@nonahassan-ln5mm you summon me here, just when I needed 🫀✨
Thank you for making me read this note again......and I'll get the shit out of that exam, No matter what
don't worry love, keep studying and preparing for your exams and I know you will make it ❤❤
@@nonahassan-ln5mm @queenofhell9758
You commented just when I needed........ although I'm working hard to crack my exam....... I've blocked all of my friends and family members.......so basically I have no one except my mom, who nags me for gaining weight (as I don't go outside to work out)
Dad who is supportive, yet forgets that I need equal time as my brother to score equal marks as him
And ofc my brother whom I'm always at war with
This message means more than just a "cheer up" by a stranger
@@queenofhell9758 ty 🫀
Please read the upper message
my friends say i'm really smart, i'll go to harvard, i get amazing grades, but honestly i don't feel good enough. i don't feel smart enough. if i'm the smartest one i have to fight to keep that title, and there are so many eyes on me, the second i slip up, the second i miss a single question, everyone is shocked and says things like "look even she doesn't know it!" and i hate that, i hate it so much. i'll complain about low 90s but everyone will say not to and that it was a good grade, and honestly i feel bad for complaining when a lot of people got much worse grades, but to me a low 90 isn't a good grade, it just isn't. to make it worse i never really learned to study and i know that at some point it'll catch up to me, but i really don't know how to study, and on top of that i'm a huge procrastinator. at some point i won't be able to keep this up, won't be the smart one anymore, and honestly i don't really know who i will be then.
"I have to do it" hits so goddamn hard, it's literally the only thing I am able of saying now, the reason behind anything I do, no matter how self-destructive it is
I can relate
relatable.
listening to this gives me a weird urge to study but i also feel this weird and heavy weight of tiredness i cant wash of myself making me feel even more lazy and hopeless such weird thing
I feel every word you wrote to my core. my aspirations and ambitions are so high and here i am struggling with sitting, completing stupid daily targets. its just i feel so numb and dissociated, i cant even comprehend the high pressure of an incoming exam anymore 'coz i took a gap year so it matters alot for me to get into a really good uni. idk if it is procrastination or the choice of a wrong field or if i am actually just worthless ahh sorry for ranting so much, its just ur cmnt felt like a mirror. all the best to you, i hope u do well
@@keyamanna3910 it's fine rant as much as you feel like I'll be here and i understand you quite well too, i feel like i can do many things in my mind and i feel it but whenever i get up to do something it feel like a heavy burden that i can't do. Isn't it what you meant? It's understandable but know that no one is worthless it might be like you said, maybe the path you choose isn't for you or isn't something in your interests and if you still have time to go to a different field I'd recommend that for you because once you lock on it, it will be hard to chance it after all it's your future more then 60% of your life. Idk i said some random stuff but hopefully you'd understand what i meant
@@yoursweethollowknight6589 ur right abt the interests thing.. while i am interested in arts and science both, i can't afford arts or anything as such in the creative field.. it's very expensive here.. so i am sitting for med and biotech entrances to get into a top central uni.. ur getting it ig? like i hv to take a roundabout approach and figure it out.. and yuppp i get it, i TOTALLY get the overwhelming feeling when so many tasks hv to be done.. burnout is so real.. also thanks for being so kind and considerate.. i feel better
@@yoursweethollowknight6589 would u believe if i said i really considered ur advice for a while, thought abt it and took an entire day to introspect.. and ur right, i think the career i chose doesn't align with my skills at all.. i am more of a creative and maybe i am forcing myself to like a certain diff. way.. i went thru all the options once more today and i'll choose smth different now.. i hvnt felt this light and better in awhile.. thank you really i mean it!
@@keyamanna3910 i really relate to you im facing the same thing rn. we got this
this gives me sm motivation but makes me so sad at the same time
It helps you know. it really helps a lot. Knowing that you're not the only one doing this. you're not the only one who's been through this. there are people who went through what you're going through right now, and they survived
and so will you
yeah ikr
I'm going into art. I used to be a smart kid, that's how I got into my friend group. I got such good grades, 90s, honour roll, I was known as intelligent. And then I started pursuing my passions. I started realizing that when I'm old and grown, I didn't want to tell my children that when I was their age, I was an artist, but I had long lost that skill.
No. I'm taking my life back. My grades are dropping and my path is clear. I'm going into art.
best of luck
I'm proud of you for choosing your passion instead of "A's" , All the very best honey💌
Let's go fellow artist. Keep going.
anything lower than a 100 is a 0
Push yourself, but not too hard. (I'm a sophomore taking 9 classes, 4 at a college, 4 college-level in high school, and 1 elective) I'm not being pushed by anyone, I have just always been a little better at school so I feel like I have to uphold that image. Going to a prestigious college (Stanford) is my own dream, not pushed onto me by anyone else, and I think my motivation is running out. I'm falling behind, and I don't think it's possible for me to catch up anymore. I'm just finally coming out of a depressive episode (which started a week after school did) and I don't think my grades will recover. I hate that I'm here of my own volition, my own actions, and there seems to be nothing left for me to do. burn out is real and I'm dealing with it.
finding that line between letting yourself feel these emotions vs. not letting them consume you is hard
When we score good marks people say "ofcourse you did you are the topper there is nothing new in it". But when we are not able to score good sometimes, due to any kind of reason as we are humans too, then suddenly everyone gets so interested.Then they are like "what happened" or "how you scored so low" or "I scored more than the topper".They make us feel soo bad that it creates a lot of pressure on us, it's like that we can never fail or more like we are not allowed to get fail and we have to maintain a constant graph of perfection always.And it hurts so much when our hardwork is called as "you were born intelligent". Whenever a test is coming others be like "you don't have to care about it ,you are the topper,you will definitely ace it ".And I am like I wasn't born with some powers ,I have made myself a topper through hardwork and I have to study also to ace the test.There is also an another perception about us that we are always studying and don't do other activities,just keep studying everytime.Thus are life is boring but there is nothing like that .We do other things too.If friends are making some plans they will think on their own that I don't want to come with them because I have to study.And if they find me doing something other than studies they will be like "ohhh so toppers also do these things other than studying".And make this face😮 whenever we are doing something that they find strange for us to do.Sometimes I feel they think of me as a alien that I am from some other planet.They may think our lives are easiest but actually it's the hardest tbh we have to always satisfy the expectations of society, family, teachers and friends too.I am 18 and it's been 15 years since I am experiencing all of this.I was just going to write a one line comment but then all emotions came out. One last thing solitude and overthinking along with books always stays with us.(Idk if it's true for everyone but it is atleast for me,do let me know if it's true):)
@@user-lo5em5rf9v Its ok. You dont have to worry about others. Do what you have to😊
U jst wrote what was I ever wanted to say but never got a chance love u frm bottom of my heart everything thing will be fine for both of us and yeah for others too come on we can do it yes we can!!!! 🎀✨😌❤
its crazy how much i relate, i thought im the only one
I'm always the average student it so frustrating when you at top and suddenly people keep a high expectation on you and i hate to disappointed them
0:00 - Gilded Lily
3:11 - Nothings New
6:41 - Wondering
10:25 - Top of my school
12:36 - My Alcoholic Friends
15:23 - Jealous
17:26 - Don’t Give Up
19:22 - This is Home
23:05 - Washing Machine Heart
25:51 - Jealously, Jealously
28:45 - Cry Baby
32:45 - She used to be mine
35:08 - Saint Bernard
37:05 - Freaks
39:30 - Alien Blues
42:26 - Duvet
45:50 - Average
47:50 - Brutal
50:13 - Numb Little Bug
53:00 - Pity Party
56:30 - This is me
59:39 - Toxic Thoughts
It's my comfort playlist..I am really sick of school now.Nothings going right...No matter how much i study, how much i work hard , i just blank out during exams.The starting wasn't bad, i scored the highest in class but mid session, it's like ,it just ......vanished, it was never there..I just want to end it asap.Idk what to do anymore..I feel so helplesss.
Take a day rest... 1 day nad go back to grinding not enough to burn out take care of yourself.. Prove those who said u cant do it wrong... Prove them u can do it without taking your life and time away❤️🔥
“But who am I without you?”
“Yourself.”
Ay Dream smp
It's too much to bear. Once a top student to average one. It's so frustrating that you can't get what you get before- a high score, a high grades...
It's hard
when you feel lots pressure on yourself to be perfect ,
when you feel like a failure if someone does better than you ,
And when the person that is doing it to you in no one BUT URSELF.
i studied consistently throughout the year. actually , i studied a lot . i refrained myself from doing what i like such as hobbies because i wanted to do my best in my last year of high school. i studied my mat course over 8 times , solved 200 multiple choice questions , solve past papers, and yet when i sat down today for my final math exam..... i just want to give up. i know i shouldnt but theres no way for me to retrieve the lost marks back.
ikr
diane's "good damage" speech really hit so fucking hard. my grades have been dropping from burnout, and now im struggling with college apps. ultimately, this means i might not go to a good college, which really fucking hurts when it feels like all the sleepless nights spent studying, all the self loathing and hatred, all the stress and pain was all for nothing. i was beaten and broken during my high school years with the one goal in mind that it would result in me going to a good college, but now? if i don't get in? what was it all for?
my life is nothing but "bad damage." even worse, "worthless damage." and i dont know what to do with myself.
You can do it... Just a little more...
OMG I wake up at 2am and I thought of studying and now still studying 😅 I bet today will be strange day for me 😅 see myself sleeping in class 😂😂 the benifit of waking up soon😂😂
waking up early sure come with benefits right 😂😊
@@diabolica0 yeah😂😂
when you feel and realise finally that you were just an investment made by your parents and you didn't make a good investment to them you were a waste to them. Being a younger sibling, you are told at every moment to get better grades than your sibling. Just because your elder siblings made mistakes you are supposed to not have an ease. They say that younger siblings are luckier.
this video comes to me by its own when im crying for my grades rn omg ty alghoritim
I tried…I really did. It doesn’t matter that I can retake it. It matters that I didn’t do well the first time
I received my Second Math Exam Paper yesterday. I did so badly. My teacher told me I improved (a bit) but in my eyes, no. For my first math exam(of the year) I scored 24/40, a B- at most. Now I scored 22/40, a C. Both Contrasts to the A' I scored for my math finals last year. The paper was trickier and harder, but deep down I know that I can solve these questions easily and score higher. But, I didn't trust myself. I didn't believe I was doing the questions correctly when I did indeed know that I was. I was on the right track, why was I doubting myself? I have never really dong great in Math. It's always been my worst subject. I thought I was getting better.
This is even more shameful for me as a School Math Olympiad Member who has the Country's Junior Math Olympiad coming up this late May. I'm supposed to be great at Math. How can I be a Math Olympian like this?
I've been busy with assignments and extra curricular activities(other upcoming competitions etc. QCEC, Science Project) , as well as leadership stuff. It's been draining me slowly to spend my time after school, keeping up with all these projects and all. I've been busier than ever. I can't seem to focus with a lot on my mind.
I might seem a bit dramatic right now and a C might not be that bad for you guys, but for me it is. My standards are A now, not even B. My Asian parents are going to be very disappointed. They'll doubt me again, as always. I was a top Student last year. I'm supposed to be a hidden gem, not a plain rock in dirt.
Last year was my Golden Year(Scored 6 A's for Finals) , so is this year my Academic downfall? I just know that I'm slowly losing my touch.
I'm drained and tired.
I promise, We're gonna be ok, okay?
I know it's been like 5 months since you commented this, but I wanted to say that I really hope you are doing well. And thank you so much for your comment, I'm in a similar situation (straight A's dropped to D's in maths) and it's really helpful knowing I'm not alone in this battle.
@@Ace_of_Spades_Edits Thank you for this comment. Unfortunately, my Maths has really just been dropping and I scored a C for my Maths Finals. My Overall Grade for Maths this year is a C, so I'm unable to take Advanced Algebra/Pre-Calculus/Additional Mathematics as part of my Courses/Subjects.(My country follows the UK Exam Standards/Education System) I'm just upset and mad at myself for not working harder and doing better. I feel a bit suffocated. :(( Everyone around me can take it but I can't. All my friends are taking it but I can't. Even unexpected people did better than me and now can take it. I'm left behind, becaus of myself. I did this to myself. I can't change anything now but I'll work harder in the coming year.
Actually, I still do have a chance to take it. I've been given a chance by my school to sit for a Special Algebra Test which will determine whether or not I can take it.(Very grateful for the chance my school is willing to give me :D) It's sort of a appeal. If I can score a A, I have a high chance of taking it. I just need a distinction for them to consider letting me take it. It's in about a month, so I''ll work hard this month to master the algebra syllables! Please cheer me on! Thank you for your words and I hope it gets better for you. You can do it!
@@Official_calmwaves It's been 3 months but thank you for your words. :))
@@lmaoo23-zl7vx I'm sorry that you've had this struggle and that things haven't worked out how you wanted. But I'm so glad you have a chance to take the test! I know you can do it!!
And people have probably told you this, but don't forget to prioritise yourself too, because it can be so hard for people who are strive for high grades to balance their lives, but while grades are important, you matter too! Don't be mad at yourself, part of life involves struggling, and you are so strong for pushing through.
Also thank you for your encouragement at the end, it's so sweet of you. We got a new maths teacher who's really good, and hopefully I'm able to keep up now.
Good luck!! I know you can do this!! Study hard, but also care for yourself!
We all craved validation from our loved ones, and all felt that we could only get it through good grades. It wasn't fair on us, or anyone like us who didn't know who they were without their academic status, especially considering how young we all were/are, but did it matter? Not to them. We were punished for anything lower than an A. So please, be proud of yourself and how far you've come. It's hard, but I want you to try. Whatever you got, as long as you tried, you tried hard enough.
I have never been good in school. But it doesn't mean I can't be a perfectionist. When I do try, I always feel like I need it to be perfect. Or else...it's trash, and not good enough. But yet, I still turn it in, because I ran out of time to finish it. So I am always anxiety induced when it comes to something getting graded.
Now, I'm actually trying really hard. But that means I have to finish so much more, perfectly. It needs to be good, or I'll never feel satisfied. But I can't keep up. I feel so jealous of my friends who can finish stuff so fast. While I'm left behind. I can never be good enough. I'll always be the disappointment of the family, the one that can't seem to ever act right, the one that can barely eat, the one who always has an "attitude," the one that will NEVER belong.
I used to be an F grade student but then I got straight As last year and now everyone is expecting me to get perfect grades again to keep my image perfect but it is so difficult I feel extremely pressurised and I cannot afford even a single B grade being a topper isn't fun cause once you getthe taste of perfect grades, there is no going back.
do u study everyday to get straight A’s??
I'm proud of you besties for working hard! Don't listen to those who says "oh you're just born SmART, so easy for u"
Congratulations to people who finished this playlist while studying . Go treat urselves you desrve it
OMG I almost cried. This gives so much comfort and comprehension in a melodic way, it's amazing!
I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS PLAYLIST
"i already tried my best"
"well, you can do better."
"THIS IS MY BEST"
My parents love me because of my academic and athletic excellence. I have suffered an injury and I can’t do sport anymore. Without my academics I am nothing.
My fav academic playlist, it motivates me to not let go of my top achiever title, thank you.
my father doesn't force me to do anything. I should be thankful. Yet i still yearn to be perfect. I yearn for some sort of praise from my teachers, my parents, my peers. Last year I won the Academic award. But it isn't enough. Nothing's ever enough. This year everyone expects me to be just as good, if not better. And I expect that from myself too. I feel so burnt out. If I'm not perfect, I don't get punished. My parents say nothing. It's all in my head. How imperfect I am. There's always going to be someone better than me out there, and I should know that. My whole life is centred around if I please my own damned head, this imaginary world I've brought up for myself. I'm useless for everything. I'm good at nothing.
Your not useless... Your not anything bad you say... Yoir amazing you doing good enought stop pushing yourself too hard... Take the reat you need reast is also a part of success take care of your health... Grades without health????... Im rooting for u you can absolutely do it🎉🎉
You’re not alone in this battle.. we’re together. Don’t lose your fire. It will take you far. Just don’t get caught up in your head… it’s important not to trip yourself with untied shoes. Take distance to remember why you want what you want. That’s the most important.
I have been more exigent with myself than with the others. When my friends get 80 I celebrate, but when I get that I get really upset. I punish myself severely. I have heard ‘You don’t have to worry, you always get a hundred’. That phrase hurts. It makes me feel more pressure, “I have to be at that standards because I am that.” Since little I was the ‘gifted kid’ academically, but I was never good enough to be the best of all. In fifth grade my self-esteem was extremely low. I hated myself. I started relying on my grades. When I was a kid I saw that I was praised and rewarded when I had academic achievements. I felt loved and special when I was rewarded. I feel pressure on being the best because somehow I feel I achieve something with it, that I am someone. I know this isn’t good for my mental health, but I can’t help it. My friend of the past school year helped me to feel better with my grades, but now they are in another group. I have been burn out in third grade. I am almost 13 yrs old. Nobody can be perfect, but I am still perusing academic perfection. I feel so bad about it but I don’t feel that I can talk about it to others. I am scared. I want a good future for myself. Maybe I should calm myself. I am learning from my errors and also trying to learn from school so when I work in the future I can managed it well.
If I read this when I am older I want to say to myself that you are good enough. Maybe right now I am feeling I am not, but I’m sure you are. You are so pretty and gorgeous. I’m truly sorry for making you feel this way, it’s not my intention. Live happily. Happiness can be found in little things. Be kind with others, specially with your friends. Don’t overwork yourself. I’ll do my best so you don’t feel ashamed of who you/I am right now. You don’t need other’s people approval to be someone, you already are. Take care of yourself and don’t make silly decisions. Don’t give up. Let things go when it’s time. Follow your dreams . Past can’t be changed, but you can change the results of the future by changing today. I hope the best for you. 💗💗
(English is my second language, so if I committed an error I would be grateful if you let me know)
I’m here again. When this school year started I was feeling pressure to still be the one my friends saw, the one with excellent grades. I thought , ”Until when will I be able to give this ‘perfect grades’ image?” Sometimes asking myself if I could keep this. After some weeks I realized that what is important is to learn, not to have good or bad grades. I started enjoying school. Unfortunately, 5 days later that end and now I feel very low. I never had a failed grade, which is true. Still, I feel pressure and a lot of anxiety. Of ‘social media’ I only have instagram and UA-cam. I don’t spend a lot of time on instagram. I delete TikTok a long time ago so I could focus on my academics and myself. In fifth grade I told you I had a low self-esteem, well, also on six grade. I think I am kinda feeling like that again. I think I will delete UA-cam also as a punishment. I spend a lot of time seeing videos and videos. I’m getting pretty tired of this feeling of being not enough for myself. In less of a month I’ll be turning 13 and I will not let myself go lower on everything I do. I will be work hard so I can be proud of myself. I know nobody really cares about my life, but writing it here makes me feel better. That’s all. (DD/MM/YY) 1/10/2024
You can do it.. I believe in you... Take care of your health too... Grades without health?.... Your good enough girl your amazing... You seem like a really nice pwrson dont let anyone get to your head no one can make u inferior... If u think u can do it. Yes you can and im rooting for you🎉❤
@@Indrani-n3tThank you ❤️🩹
18:08 "i try my best to survive"
True,true thanks to my teacher she won't give me full marks and my dad is certain I'm a failure for getting one mark less because of my teacher thanks alot,for making my dad lose trust in me now I'll be listening to this everyday for 2 hours while i study
Dont give up. It will always feel like your falling but grow wings and fly high reach your goals ❤️
As someone who was told growing up that one day Id be something great this is true. This whole playlist without saying anything is so fucking true to my feelings. Because really? Kids who are told this are damned the moment they register those words. Even if you're a genius you can never be perfect at everything, but this is what people like us try to achieve, we can tell everyone how its okay but never ourselves because obviously, we're supposed to be something great no? Its alright, Its alright not to be perfect or okay. Youre fine, and not being perfect is fine because its human. Youre a human being with feelings and emotions, you will never be perfect because you're not meant to be, nobody is. Take care of yourselves, love ya
sorry for the random vent, i hope this is a safe space!
in primary school (middle school), i used to be able to get good grades then it all immediately went downhill when i entered high school. I'm in my third year and i've found a subject that i enjoy the most, biology. I genuinely love it and i look forward to lessons every week. So of course, I strived to be the best in my class, so far i have a straight A streak but my recent paper, i didn't get the highest and I was just one mark away from A1 and all the marks i had lost was just because of carelessness. I felt so distraught, i just stared at my paper the whole class. I loved biology more than everyone else in that class. They would always complain how it was so complicated and confusing so why? why didn't i get the highest? I memorised all the words, i memorised the processes, why did i have to be careless? No mattter what other people say and remind me that i should be proud, I am hard on myself because i KNOW i can do better. It's my favourite subject so i should be proving myself that i am the best (yes, toxic, i'm aware.) besides, it's the first time i had ever been so consistently successful in a subject so of course i wanted more of that pride. My end of years are coming up and its 60%! If i dont get the highest in bio this time, i might actually break down ^-^
thanks to whoever read all the way to the end of my emo para :D
i literally cried with this playlist.
the feeling of not being enough and grades dropping just hits hard...
You're not alone, take time to relax. It's okay to cry, dont hold it in. dont hold all the burden alone. we have problems and stress and its okay to cry.
let it all out at this moment, take time for yourself and your mind.
I hope you're doing well.
I have to spite my dad, I have to prove I was a son worth keeping, and that he threw it away
You can do it... Im rooting for you🎉❤
I finished my exams and i am the first of my class and maybe the 3rd of my school i am thankful to god and to my efort if you have tests or exams i want to tell you "you can do it fight to achive your dreams and even if i am the firt of my class i didnt achieve my dream yet it is just a step god will help uss love you all pure souls ❤❤
This playlist gave me a lot of motivation, but sadness at the same time.
Honestly, my parents never forced me to be on top, they never pressure me in academics, in fact, I'm the one who's pressuring myself. As a perfectionist, a academic achiever, for me, even the smallest mistake can change and ruin my future, my imagine and life, so ever since I entered the life of maturity, I always value even the smallest thing, because if I fail for like once, it feels like my world is falling apart. I'm happy that I'm the second in our class, I'm kinda proud of myself, yet I feel like my hardwork isn't enough, like I'M not enough.
( Excuse my grammar, english is not my first language 👺 )
i was about to sleep, I put my headphones on and played this playlist, until I noticed myself singing along, and found myself laughing, especially at the top of my school song. I remembered my classmates telling me, "you're too perfectionist" n "your standards are so high"...uhm I have no words haha. Honestly, I don't think I am, I just do what I gotta do with what I can and what I have, until I get satisfied. There is no standards at all, lol! It's all about satisfaction, man. So many opinions other than that made my mind messed up. I felt blinded, I crawled so much to be able to get back to my old self who had the passion burning in whatever she does. I was a studious kid back then, but upon observation and experiencing unfair system, I got burned out, and lost all of it. Things have changed, I was blown into a path that made me see different perspectives as well see clarity that changed my mindset, my level of enthusiasm, and energy to the things I used to do and are still doing.
im in the middle of my gcses. i go back to school tomorrow. im aware that i put too much pressure on myself, and i physically cannot take a break without feeling guilty. im breaking honestly. i dont care if i dissapoint my parents, ive done it enough. i do care if i disappoint myself or my teachers. im dreading results day already and i havent even finished my exams. i cannot do it anymore. i know deep down ill do well, but in my eyes it feels like i couldve always done more.
ok that felt good to write down
Its alright, you've been strong for so long.
Listening while recovering from this. Was either this or the athlete variant where it's either 1st place or nothing at all, but my Grandma regrets not putting me through the athlete route.
Nowadays, jobs don't care about your GPA or if you're Valedictorian in college. The world our parents tried to prepare us for isn't there anymore. And it's not our job as their kids to convince them.
Take it from a 25 year old making $100k without a college degree~ To anyone my age or older, we know the past sucked and we now have the freedom to decide if this is really what we want the younger generation to see.
If you're younger, perhaps still figuring out what major you want or what you want your career to be; take a deep breath and relax. Simply do your best, even if that's a C. Your parents/guardians are just two people in the world, and if they are your worst critics, that means there's dozens others who will be better supporters than they can be for you.
Hope this helps someone doom-scrolling comments. I see your struggle, been in a similar place, and there's a way out. And it requires no straight As, no 4.0 GPA, no top marks or perfection.
We're human and imperfect by nature. And that's okay. 🫂
Well i always listened that do your best, next time you have to do your best but i never heard them appreciating my hard work and this is why I always lack my confident and focus..
Your doing good... Keep going... And take care of your health too
gosh i love this video so much.
a bit of rant n venting, sorry:
my parents never asked me to get straight As or be on top of my class, but it made me feel as if i have never done enough, they are very proud of me, but im not. idk why. in 2 days, im starting grade 10. my grades had improved from 5As out of 12 subject at grade 7 to straight As. i love it. my parents celebrated it, i love it. but now im scared. what if i fail?
my friends kept telling me "youre so smart, u dont hv to study", "wow you got straight As? i get it, dont rub it to my face", "shut up you wont understand us who struggle with school", "your future is brighter than sun im so jealous", "i bet you wont and CANT fail in life"
AND THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS "HOW DO YOU KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH?!" you all study in international school since primary, and i started in secondary. ITS NOT FAIR!
THEY KEPT SAYING "oh she got low score, no wonder we get lower" IT DOESNT WORK LIKE THAT! if i get high score, they pushed me "jokingly". i dont know anymore.
my dream is to get full scholarship in Australia. please god let my dream come true.
Your doing grade.. Stranger live yourself and im rooting for u🎉 you. Can. Do. It... Take care of yourself dont push too hard take breaks when u need even tho u might think the breaks are useless its not... Breaks are also needed for success and i know you will succeed dont give up❤
the first part
like the damage part
and the sleep part
that hits hard
but still don't be upset abt what you don't get
remember everything happens for a reason
maybe you got a b on that test so you could learn to study and prepare more so next time you could get that a+
DON'T WASTE UR TIME BEING UPSET ABOUT WHAT U DIDN'T GET
BE HAPPY FOR WHAT U DID
LIFE'S TOO SHORT TO BE WASTED ON SH!T LIKE THAT
enjoy ur life
and thanks
if u read this far lol
and listened to/read my mini-rant
How is this toxic? it's just pure motivation and beauty to me. Whoever created this, thank you so so much! ^_^
no because real. no one told me anything but I literally NEED to be perfect. I will literally force myself into every single activity and get every single extra credit. I don't care if I lose myself, I started planning my life from 9 years old, and I swore to myself that day that I would get every single full mark on every single test from 5th grade to 13th grade, that was years ago, now in 8th grade, and I have a list to every exam I got and it has to be a full mark. nobody's perfect, but I just have this aggressive urge to , I took a huge quiz before this weekend, and if i get anything under the full mark, even one digit under the full mark and a half, im gonna upgrade my studying to 9 hours
sorry 4 the vent i just felt the urge to 😭
as i am drawing closer to my college graduation and close to my days as an adult, i start to wonder, how else am i going to feel validated and valued. i am starting to address it more seriously, deriving more self satisfaction from hobbied and goal setting. i shifted my focus from wanting to be the academically validated girl to the 'IT' girl. focusing on productivity, goal setting, creating systems, planning, and living a fulfilling life. eating food i like, picking up hobbies i find interesting, hobbies i dropped during my past years, also studying, but coming back to be consistent when i break a habit chain, having comfort days lazing on bed and watching movies.........its...nice...i am studying and still want to feel academically validated but i know when i graduate and have no more academic life, i will still valued and worthy. i will continue to study and research things i like, do my hobbies and such
Bro I'm slowly losing myself. Used to hope for sb who can help me out of this cycle but in the end slowly realized I gotta do it myself. Nb cares but my thought
i never felt enough, I always prioritize my grade more than myself due to pressure that my own parents give me.
So this was how other students feel..They were very pressured to really be in the top.I mean i did get pressured to but i was'nt that determined to study.But now..Since the person who made me the happiest had left me.I've been urged by my SELF to do my best in my studies i had the high scores the recitaions and all but then i missed the fun i also missed her i forgot how my school was fun..
since i was a literal baby, i've been said to be a 'smart kid'. 'matalino ito', my great-aunt said. well, she was right, i suppose. ever since then, everyone around me started to think of me and pressure me to be 'the smart kid'. i've lived with that title since kindergarten, and i started to crash and burn after grade 5. started feeling worthless for no reason, parents started questioning me more, and at around grade 8, i wanted to quit so bad. i'm definitely in a better place now, but not much better than what it was before. to everyone, take your time. let things go at your pace. you're loved, and have a nice day.
I'm so scared. I've been doing so well in school without much effort (that just made me cringe,) but now it's actually requiring effort and I just can't get myself to give it my all. I've been procrastinating and studying for exams a day before. It all works out in the end, but I know that one day I'm gonna do badly. I'm gonna fail, all because I'm too lazy to start making notes a couple weeks before exams.
I feel like the only thing that'll scare me into actually studying is failure, but at the same time, I'm so afraid of failing. It's not like my parents are overbearing or always expect the best either. The only one who expects perfection from me is me. At the same time, the only person who's hyper aware of my imperfections is me. It shouldn't be this difficult, I'm only in grade 9. How will i survive grade 12? Or university???
same here! I'm at grade 8 currently, and i'm already starting to crumble. like, miserably. I used to do pretty well for math and can manage to get an A by who knows what, but now i'm barely passing. I can really tell people around me are disappointed, and it hurts that i was the cause of their disappointment. I'm always feeling guilty because my asian parents have been trying their very best to become more understanding and lenient towards me and my grades, but my grades are steadily dropping and it doesn't feel right for me to just tell them "oh, i screwed up my exams because i'm lazy and can't study". It just feels so unfair to them, but at the same time i don't know how to improve at all. I don't have the faintest idea of what i even want to do in the future. I know it's not just me, and there are others who feel the same way, but i just feel really sorry for causing everyone to worry about me.
me in uni rn. everything is going downhill, college is humbling me so bad and I have to take the bus to commute for 1hr 30mins everyday back and forth to school. wake up very early, arrive very late, keep studying, sometimes I don't even sleep because I read the whole text book.
sometimes I don't even wake up. I don't know where I went. but that's normal, right?
People in the comments are talking about how they feel when they dont get an A. Here i am who has never even experienced joy after getting back any of my scripts. English, the only subject i am good at, i got a 63 out of 80 on. The class highest was 76. Why wasnt it me? Why cant i ever for fucking once get a grade im happy with? Why cant i study? What the fuck is exactly wrong me with me?
But what's worse is when you sacrifice your sleep for it and yet still get average marks... or worse reach to the bottom line.
So tired but atleast I am trying. No, they don't see that!
Surprise, still here, still listening. I've been going through my first burnout. I feel empty, literally empty, I don't know how to get out. I'm always in my room, I feel, that's just it, I don't feel anymore-
Honestly, it's so hard for me to continue my studies...
Depression + anxiety + panic attacks + a lot of family issues ...
It's really hard.
This playlist is just so relatable
it's so hard being me, bcs I must press my self for getting perfect everytime, I just want to be perfect, but sometimes why I made a mistake, I just want get enough of me.
I had been topping the exam since years
But in 9th grade half yearly exam I scored less than 75%
And my haters are happy abt it since thaey don't want me to top the class
😢😢
I really don't know how to react whenever someone ask me for my grades 😞😞
I really feel bad 😢😢
A comeback is enough to shut them up dear....and we are humans we go through ups then same goes for going downs
..its about whether u can make the comeback or not...and i trust u can^_^
my parents never pressured me even though I got the lowest marks in class. they always say it's okay. just do your best. we are always here for you no matter what happens. they work so hard for me. I'm so sad that I couldn't pay them back with good results. it keeps getting worse. I don't know what to do🥺
this is all i needed. thx for bringing the high achievers together
Im not a topper students.. But im trying i havent gone to school in 3 weeks... Ive bruned out crying... My sister almsot thought i was gone insane i was studying day and night i drink more coffee then i drink water... I wasnt like this. Never this pressure bough by my oarents. Relative and others have me pulling my hair out it hurts.. I cant take it its hard.... Harder then i thought.... Harder then i thought they did... Now i understand being a topper is anything but easy... But i wont give up no... I will succeed... I will prove my fmaiky wrong when they compared me to my sister and daid "your worthless your sistwrs better shes the one who will be taking care of us while u begg to get help from someone else" ill show them
Using this playlist to study and complete my project work before 11:59 PM :)
either you do great or not at all. either you get praised or put down. there is no in between.
2 tests tomorrow hope my ass dont get kicked so hard there’s a shoe print in my appendix 🙏🙏
how were the tests?
0:19 That hit.
when stressing about school made you develope severe anxiety and anxiety attacks:
FINALLY one of these without the same 5 songs
"Who will do it if I don't?"
"Who am I without my exellent grades?"
Sometimes, in the heat of the moment, you end uo expecting too much from yourself, you set ambitions far above than where they shouldve been set, try your best to keep up with it...but alas..you learn of dissapointment time after time, each time ruining your mental health worse than the last.I wish id realized earliet I NEVER shouldve based my self worth on academic distinction..
I love how MJ (Michelle Jones) in Spiderman :No Way Home says " expect dissapointment and you'll never be dissappointed"..tells you about places the character has actually been through...sigh...strenth and love to anyone going through the same..
Tbh, I hate it when ppl say “omgsh ur sooo smarttt” or “you don’t even need to study u always get good grade” and the one thing I hate the most is- “I bet ur parents will be glad u got a good mark”. They’re never glad, it’s always “try harder” or “get first place, second and third is never better than first”, and I keep telling them I’m trying but they never EVER listen, all I want is for them to be happy for me. And I’m not smart, I’m just a stupid African girl that just wants greeds for success and love, so, is that too much to ask? Just a little bit of love for my grades? Or maybe I’m js being selfish idk lol
this comes in my recommended weeks before finals, its a sign
what parents want frm you is good grades , they wouldnt care whether u are stress or tired. they dont care nor try to understand what their children are going through. they would always pressure and push them to study harder even tho u are studying like crazy. they dont see u studying like crazy. this is my parents . ( Asian parents) . everyday i study even on weekends and if i dont study on weekends my parents calls me lazy. but this is life ...
this is my academic downfall.
Coming to this playlist to study for my last final of my undergraduate career while dealing with intense senioritis, lol. I need a fire under my butt to start working.
28:45 my favorite song and singer
they think na takot ako malamangan for my behavior in terms of academics, but to be honest, I am just in
my self vs me era, I need to work hard until hndi nako nakakramdam ng kaba everytime na may exams and graded recits.
I'm trying to write a very last minute paper, it's 3 am, i have 4/11 pages written, i haven't slept more than 4 hours in days, and I can barely think. I have 2 essays due and a written language exam on the same day. I swear I'm going to just break down crying. I don't have time for all of this. I can't wait to be done with school.
*I listen to this playlist because in my writing we have to do the WHOLE book and the book has 159 pages and our teacher expects us to finish 5-10 pages per day, it also adds stress to us because we have to review for exams, its also a bit sad because its almost the last day of school. Lately, i've been listening to these type of playlists because I feel super stressed out, and I pressure myself to get a line of 9 on my report card because I really want to be an awardee, if I don't I just studied all of those months for nothing? I feel super pressured and very stressed out. It's like a burnt out gifted kid type of feeling, And i'm the class secretary and people look up to me for homework, math, english, etc. when I don't know the answer, they're like "But your smart how do you not know this?" its because im so stressed i feel so tired, and they don't know how hard it is to be a class officer and we have to keep this "perfect" image because the students look up to us and they won't even listen to us when we discipline them and our president doesn't even do anything and they tell me to shout at the class and say "please be quiet and stay in your seats"*
Thats too bad. I can understand this feeling. I hope everything goes well for you.
@@diabolica0 *thank u so much.
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