What Paranoia and Delusions in Bipolar Disorder Feel Like

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  • What are bipolar disorder's paranoid and delusional thoughts like? Watch Julie's experience with paranoid and delusional thoughts.
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  • @MrAkrei
    @MrAkrei 5 років тому +251

    I think the hardest part is when youre aware that the thoughts are delutional and try talking yourself out of it then it becomes a huge internal battle of calling yourself "crazy" and thinking "but what if". Then the only middle ground becomes "i know it doesn't make sense but lets just prepare for the worst just incase".

    • @sheldonmurphy6031
      @sheldonmurphy6031 4 роки тому +6

      😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
      So True ! & Its ALWAYS the "what-if's" that always get me in trouble with my mund and the wifey ! Lmao
      No fun my friend lol

    • @bigingtv7315
      @bigingtv7315 3 роки тому +1

      I’m going through this now and I believe it started from concussions in football along w other issues as we speak I’m contemplating suicide

    • @iobasito7909
      @iobasito7909 3 роки тому +1

      @@bigingtv7315 Discord?

    • @bigingtv7315
      @bigingtv7315 3 роки тому +1

      @@iobasito7909 why

    • @iobasito7909
      @iobasito7909 3 роки тому +1

      @@bigingtv7315👏Therapy With Scorr Time👏

  • @munnashunna6399
    @munnashunna6399 Рік тому +12

    It gets worse when you know that it's just in your head but suddenly you see a new "evidence" to prove events and stories made in your mind ... And you think "I was thinking it's not real but... What if it is"

  • @heyitsalie5018
    @heyitsalie5018 2 роки тому +46

    "My brain is screwed up, I'm not." Love that!

  • @stevenmartinek4419
    @stevenmartinek4419 4 роки тому +101

    Sometimes I think everyone is against me.Then I think wait,I have proof.I'm absolutly right!

    • @cakedup757
      @cakedup757 3 роки тому +17

      Omg bruh I think I’m bipolar. I go in cycles like I think people are of the devil and trying to get me. It happens every few months then I get depressed

    • @amandamcconnell7300
      @amandamcconnell7300 3 роки тому +8

      @@cakedup757 Im sorry your suffering... My husband is suffering with these symptoms right now.. 2nd severe episode... got diagnosed last year & medication helped SO much... like night & day... He started feeling amazing & forgetting his medicine & now back at square one..but praying he gets back on medicine & things get better... There is hope though... SO much help & hope.. I pray God guides u to the right help also🙏🏼❤

    • @DontMoveWock
      @DontMoveWock Рік тому +2

      I went into psychosis while my ex did some really weird shit to me basically laced me and messed w my cars brakes as well n since I went fukin crazy nobody believed me and he was then able to rob me while I was in the hospital . I watch videos like this sometimes and I’m like omfg did I just make everything up then I remember I have proof i took pictures n videos of everything

  • @GodlySkunk
    @GodlySkunk 14 років тому +39

    i have delusions, but some are rational which scares me. like i believe i have a brain tumor, and i have a heart murmur. then i have problems realizing life is reality, that this is a dream and theres a bigger reality out there. it sucks:( all brought on by depression

  • @MasteringSilence
    @MasteringSilence 4 роки тому +24

    Your mind can be your enemy, or your best friend... Perception is everything.

  • @aroundtheworldgirl4431
    @aroundtheworldgirl4431 4 роки тому +67

    I was just recently diagnosed with bipolar type 1 with rapid cycling and psychotic features. I think the worst delusion I have ever had was thinking that the lunch lady at the mental hospital licked my burger before giving it to me. Now I have had many delusions where my parents are fairytale characters or fictional characters, I have had the feelings of being watched, I have had little girls whisper in my ear and then start humming, but the reason why the burger incident is the worst is because I have the power to believe something so much that I can get people fired from their job and that scares me.

    • @paulflint6254
      @paulflint6254 4 роки тому +4

      Thats what i have, its very intense, hope you doing well.

    • @gurudhakal6251
      @gurudhakal6251 4 роки тому +3

      How you get out of this?

    • @rebeccaerb9935
      @rebeccaerb9935 3 роки тому +1

      Think of everyone as being love and that you are whole and united in love and that you can ask for understanding and forgiveness..
      You ground.. Physically put your feet on the ground..
      Eat a potato.. (Stuff from the ground)
      Ask the Universe or God or your higher power to help you regulate n calibrate or whatever it is you think you need ... And sometimes i just give away the stuff that doesnt help me.. So im a whole unit person n sound n complete and let everybody else do their own thing as they so choose. And pray that people do t do weird things to food served i guess. Keep it simple

    • @markilleen4027
      @markilleen4027 2 роки тому +5

      that burger shit happens to me all the time for no reason i will convince my self someone done something to my food and i will just throw it away

    • @rustymcgee7488
      @rustymcgee7488 2 роки тому

      lol when you put it that way!

  • @drania76
    @drania76 7 років тому +46

    Gosh, what a brave girl.

    • @healthyplace
      @healthyplace  7 років тому +5

      Julie Fast did several videos for HealthyPlace. The rest of this playlist is at goo.gl/jTtI8N. She also has her own UA-cam channel. Please subscribe to ours! We'd love to connect with you. :) Amanda

    • @qqqmyes4509
      @qqqmyes4509 11 місяців тому

      I also refer to adult women as “girls”

  • @rebeccadank859
    @rebeccadank859 9 місяців тому +6

    My husband keeps accusing me of cheating on him and I have never ever done this. Thinks he has all this "evidence". It is ruining our marriage and he refuses to be treated or take meds, pretty sure he's bipolar and he has been in a manic episode for a few months. He has other delusions too, thinking that people are always tapped into his phone, that he is friends with celebrities, that he is going to leave me for a famous celebrity and that he is something called a star seed...it's ultimately going to end in divorce which is devastating since we've been together over 20 yrs. He gets into these rages and screams at me about cheating on him. I don't even recognize this person anymore and I am grieving the loss. I would support him in getting help, we have health insurance...but he refuses and the verbal abuse is awful.

    • @tlazo997
      @tlazo997 5 місяців тому +1

      This is what happened to me and he became violent in the end, for 9 months straight he was breaking us up every week, verbally and mentally abusing me interrogating me sometimes all day and night, we lost everything our home, he cost me thousands of dollars, ruined my credit, traumatized my child. How are you doing? I had no choice but to leave it broke my heart.

    • @Sonotbearface
      @Sonotbearface 4 місяці тому

      Men can feel the presence of other men.

    • @kyli1204
      @kyli1204 2 місяці тому

      My best friend of 10+ years texted me calling me a bit@h saying how she knows I’ve done weird stuff to her in the past and asking how long I have been trying to set her up. She accused me of having someone break into her car at a Christmas party and says I always made her life harder and how it will be better if I just come out and tell the truth about all that I’ve done to her. We have never even had one argument or fight before that day. It was so shocking and crushing. It is so sad, what this disorder can do to someone. It can turn them into someone unrecognizable, hateful, vengeful. It takes away any and all trust that may have even been built over years or even decades! There’s no talking sense into someone with delusions either & the worst part is, some delusions are on going and last years if the bipolar goes untreated. The verbal abuse I also faced from her was unbelievable. At the end of the day, your safety has to come first and your own mental health too. You cannot help someone who doesn’t want help even if that is because of their unhealthy mind, even if it’s not their fault that they don’t want help. Sometimes it takes something drastic, criminal acts / apprehension or forced hospitalization / medication to even get people with Bipolar 1 to start understanding that they were ever delusional at all.

    • @muhkurniawan4146
      @muhkurniawan4146 28 днів тому

      @rebeccadank859 Your husband's situation is very very similar to my wife. She almost filed a divorce. I refused by telling her that the 20 years of marriage is something meaningful for me and my kids. After 18 months of rages, eventually I managed to take her to a psychologist, together with me. Yes, I previously visited the psychologist to heal myself enduring the tough period and keeping myself sane. Perhaps she agreed that our situation needs a professional help.
      The psychologist suggested my wife to visit a psychiatrist. She is now under medication. and overcome her delusions gradually. It seems will be a long journey, but she makes progress.
      I know how it feels Rebecca. I would suggest you to seek a professional help for yourself, and hopefully your husband will receive to be treated.

  • @Tsumami__
    @Tsumami__ 5 років тому +33

    It’s strange how early symptoms seem to be very similar to obsessive compulsive disorder, but so many aspects are so much scarier...
    although suffering from ocd myself, I think it will help me to help someone I love who suffers from bpd

    • @joshsmith7842
      @joshsmith7842 4 роки тому +4

      Kitana Kojima so wait I’m confused cause delusions are somewhat related to pure ocd except with delusions there more bizarre than pure ocd thoughts cause rn I’m suffering from pure ocd and my pure ocd thoughts are getting somewhat bizzare and dumb to the point where I think I’m becoming delusional is this a early sighn of delusion schizophrenia etc I hope not cause I feel like I have it but accept like the lady in the video I also realize when these bizzare delusion type pure ocd thoughts are coming in my head and I tell myself “omg just stop thing bout it”

    • @joshsmith7842
      @joshsmith7842 4 роки тому +2

      For example my freind told me that I was going to hell lol cause we where joking around and knowing that I’m a pure ocd person and it’s like life in hell already I thought to myself well what if I’m already in hell like seriously HELL!!! HELL!!! and I’m like lol no and I also suffer from PTSD cause I was in a life threatening situation where I had to go to the hospital and I thought to myself well what if you really did die that day and your PTSD and pure ocd is the hell 😦😳😳 cause I read online one day when a person said when u really die u still live on but you just don’t know it and I said to myself well what if I died that day and went to hell and the pure ocd is my hell so I had like connection and belief with all of that so everything I looked at I said it’s not real ur in hell and I got super scared heart racing and was thinking that my brothers and sisters aren’t real there just illusions down here in hell to make u think that ur in reality it’s all just so scary I think I have upcoming schizophrenia 😥😥😥

    • @acdcztop
      @acdcztop Рік тому

      @@joshsmith7842 youre good man just stop thinking so much and smoke some weed

  • @XolisykeswifeX
    @XolisykeswifeX 14 років тому +11

    i hate delusions..

  • @M-IE
    @M-IE 3 роки тому +8

    Elisa Lam's bipolar disorder opened my eyes to finding more about the disorder itself, I never knew about the delusions that come with it.

  • @adsasfd
    @adsasfd 11 років тому +44

    Did anyone else see the cat in the back-ground. Lol

  • @midsummersnight3848
    @midsummersnight3848 2 роки тому +4

    God Bless this woman! She is courageous, strong, brilliant and brutally honest. Not many people can admit to these feelings, especially with the huge stigma surrounding it.
    I pray she reads this and realizes just how much she had helped me and SOOO many others! ❤️

  • @beautyfrompainxxx
    @beautyfrompainxxx 3 роки тому +16

    Wow... So glad to know other people experience this... I’ve been hearing voices in my head a lot now and having to talk to them. I keep thinking there are secrets messages talking to me and that there’s cameras in everything. If I’m outside and I see a sign that says ‘dead end’ or ‘wrong way’ I think it’s talking to me. Part of me knows it’s not real but the other part can’t tell. My delusions keep getting worse. I think everything is out to get me. Right now I’m paranoid to type this because I think I’m being watched and if I admit these things something will hurt me

    • @annpiggy99
      @annpiggy99 2 роки тому +1

      It's delusions or real I have been wondered.

    • @Nancy-ow9wy
      @Nancy-ow9wy Рік тому +1

      It is not real, calm down ,been through it

  • @delphinium5555
    @delphinium5555 2 роки тому +4

    It feels so bad that you feel like ending it before someone gets you. Frightening place to be.

    • @user-yk5qs8qt2u
      @user-yk5qs8qt2u 6 місяців тому

      Please tell me how do you make it stop?

  • @bcbindle
    @bcbindle 3 роки тому +5

    It is really nice to hear that I'm not the only one that has these issues.

  • @jae1142
    @jae1142 3 роки тому +6

    ive been diagnosed as bipolar for 2 years and im JUST realizing that this describes exactly how i feel and that its just my bd and im not schizophrenic .....

    • @V.Hansen.
      @V.Hansen. 3 роки тому +3

      You’re right but bipolar has a lot of psychosis elements. It’s called schizo effective and can have similar symptoms. When your bipolar is well controlled you will have less sever symptoms of psychosis. Good luck

  • @alycran
    @alycran 2 місяці тому +1

    I appreciate the honesty and realness in this. And not letting it define you❤

  • @blackmooncultx9552
    @blackmooncultx9552 4 роки тому +8

    Ouch. Watching this made me cry. I say and think similar things and have to remind myself out loud that its made up.

  • @juliekooiker3408
    @juliekooiker3408 Рік тому

    Julie a fast is my absolute favorite bipolar expert!! I literally would not be alive if not for learning coping skills from her teachings

  • @KirbyPwnz13
    @KirbyPwnz13 13 років тому +35

    I used to think I was Jesus reincarnated to suffer for the current sins in this world. It sucked! :{

    • @CDDraimen
      @CDDraimen 4 роки тому +1

      Sudo Linux you are.

    • @Hvantress
      @Hvantress 4 роки тому +2

      My mom is going they this right now 😭
      First one she says she had to walk to hell for everyone's sins, she was in and out of Behavior health, finally I told them to send her to me house before going fully into the psych ward. It was then that I found out the what and why of why she would walk 24/7 not stop but only for a couple seconds..
      It was intense, after 3 months of praying with her and trying to understand what she was coming from, then she's tell me what the voices were saying write when they said them, and then I could say for her, Ya but the Bible says this, so that can't be.
      And soon she found her way back, and even pegged the exact confusing scripture that sent her that direction.
      She was ok for a couple years but now she's bad again, this time it's she has to grab everyone's demons put them in a box or X then out so that no one in America will have to get the mark of the best.
      She really loves her work this time, she says, she's happy to do it.
      But then I have her the biggest hug, and said mom, your so freaking wounderful even in a psycosis 😇, to have a heart to even dare try, then she gives me back and said, well I don't want to get murdered if I don't do it.. and I just broke right there hearing that.
      When I pray and cast out any demons she gets very violent but hasn't been able to hurt me yet. I know many might not think that's the best thing to do for sometime in psycosis, but I really try to follow what the Lord gives me deserment on, and it helped last time, you just have to be consistent.
      And just"know" God is going to help her.
      Ughhh..
      How did u find help in yours if u dinner mind sharing? If not I can share my email address.

    • @ralfwashington1502
      @ralfwashington1502 3 роки тому +2

      @@Hvantress I agree with other and don't think casting out any demons on her will work. She clearly believes in Christ strong enough to try and stop the mark of the beast. If you are a follower of the Lord then demons cannot control you. Until you denounce God in your heart the devil cannot take you over like that. However obviously he can tempt us and try make life difficult. This doesn't require any demon removal though. That probably harms her mental state even more.
      She should try to be active if her current life is pretty stationary. Depending on health even a walk can help. She also needs treatment to stop her brain imbalance. Not even saying prescription drugs...some natural OTC supplements can be just as effective.
      If you do not treat the root cause of bipolar the symptoms still appear. Sure you can try and put up with them and realize it's not as it seems but the Lord gave use doctors, scientists, and the internet for a reason. Like I said some people have great results on supplements alone but talk to a doc before trying anything.
      Remember as long as God in allowed in your soul by you the devil can't fill it. Satin can be allowed to mess up our life but not take our soul unless we throw out God. Your mother is dealing with the mental games of the evil one but her soul is safe as long as she doesn't go against him which it clearly sounds like she isn't.
      That's great your helping your mom out just make sure you get a break too. All those worries can really take a toll on the caregiver.
      God Bless you and yours!

    • @GreenThing209
      @GreenThing209 3 роки тому +1

      I legit went through this same experience. You aren't alone.

  • @ohthatsnice7323
    @ohthatsnice7323 2 роки тому +5

    I’m not bipolar at all but sometimes I have these, I was in my room one night and genuinely couldn’t shake the thought that someone was in my house, I couldn’t get out of bed because I was so scared by every little noise. I finally got up and grabbed a pair of scissors from my desk, I swung open the curtains and looked in every spot in my house gripping those scissors with every ounce of strength I had. I found nothing but I couldn’t sleep still someone in my house was awake with me.
    I also had this thought (it comes back sometimes) that someone is in my vents, specifically they’re always in the vent above my bed, I’ll shine my flash light in hopes to find something to put my mind at ease, but nothing is ever there it scares me really bad but I’m honestly too scared to tell my therapist. I constantly feel that there is someone looking at me or with me that I don’t know, the feeling that someone is watching me has been going on for over 3 years and even when I’m in a car the feeling doesn’t stop, it makes my gut twist in fear.
    Does anyone know how to stop this? Is this something deeper?
    (If this helps with anything I am diagnosed with Major depressive disorder, OCD, social phobia.
    Also when I get to excited I mix it up with fear)

    • @ttytghgfg3322
      @ttytghgfg3322 2 роки тому +1

      I don’t know you at all, but this sounds very similar to Bipolar delusions. I personally have been diagnosed with bipolar. This video describes how my delusions feel very well. And I read your whole paragraph and that sounds familiar to things I’ve done before I was diagnosed with bipolar and I just thought I was insane but in reality it was just my bipolar. This is not normal it took me so long to actually tell someone about these delusions. Because I got them so often it felt normal and every time I would mention it to a non-professional such as my Mom, my Friends, or just someone close they brushed it off and just told me it was nothing. Once I finally told a professional they told me it wasn’t normal at all, and I had to be put on medication ASAP bc my delusions were getting very bad and they felt so realistic.

    • @ttytghgfg3322
      @ttytghgfg3322 2 роки тому

      You definitely need to tell your therapist or a professional, whenever you are ready.

    • @daniellemichayla
      @daniellemichayla 2 роки тому

      I have these same issues. Feeling like someone is always watching or staring at me keeps me from leaving my house most days.
      I’ve been diagnosed with OCD, social phobia, PTSD & ADHD.

  • @arianasworld7725
    @arianasworld7725 5 років тому +17

    I was trying to take a shower and I was covinsed someone was trying to kill me. I was able to pull out of it I knew it was part of my bipolar and I really fought it.

  • @mayjawad
    @mayjawad 14 років тому +38

    Is there a cat lounging in the back or am I just delusional?

  • @greengoose2722
    @greengoose2722 3 роки тому +6

    Im getting tested for bipolar 2 and I have delusions and paranoia and I thought it was normal before I realized what I had. I would tell myself its not really there before I knew this though. For example, in car after work at night, scared somethings gonna show up in my mirror and I turn on my light and I try to calm down, opening my bedroom door at night (can't sleep with my bedroom door open), have to have a nightlight to sleep or will get so scared I cry and panic because I sometimes imagine things or see things that aren't there, get paranoid my aunt is gonna walk in and murder me because I talked back or whatever, or driving and get paranoid of getting shot in the head, scared of bugs, paranoid everyone would rather have me dead even though I contribute so much, paranoid my family hates me. I watch kdramas alot because I have to read it and noone else knows what it says and the innocent romance is the only thing that can comfort me in depressive episodes, and im not even interested in any of it happening for myself just the show. Im a very healthy person and push myself for good mental health too.

  • @ITSMERlVER
    @ITSMERlVER 3 роки тому +16

    I had my first paranoid delusion but I’ve never been diagnosed with anything except anxiety and depression, so I’m really curious if I have BPD or something. I lost touch with where I was in my bedroom and I kept believing that my boyfriend was going to kill me and my dog was a demon. I wasn’t able to talk myself through this like she was, so I just sobbed under my bed sheets and hid from the world til I fell asleep

    • @V.Hansen.
      @V.Hansen. 3 роки тому +1

      Do you have bouts of not sleeping for several days or sleeping too long for several day? These can be signs of bipolar and are the first most recognizable ones for most people

    • @stephaniemarain352
      @stephaniemarain352 Рік тому +2

      Fyi BPD and Bipolar Disorder are not the same thing. BPD stands for Borderline Personality Disorder and it is very different and cannot be medicated. Bipolar and BPD can seem similar. I'm Bipolar and fit all 9 symptoms if BPD, but have only ever been officially diagnosed with Bipolar.

    • @meep-nw4xb
      @meep-nw4xb Рік тому

      @@stephaniemarain352 came here to tell them the same thing, BPD ≠ bipolar disorder.

    • @sweet2sourr
      @sweet2sourr Рік тому +1

      @@stephaniemarain352 I’d like to add that we are prescribed medication to help with borderline personality disorder symptoms. Such as a mood stabilizer for mood swings. You said, “BPD cannot be medicated” so I just wanted to clarify medications are given to help with symptoms.
      I have both BPD and bipolar disorder

  • @qwertyJ94
    @qwertyJ94 2 роки тому +4

    I used to think my mom and brother were my enemies and I would freak out and go on rages because I would have to protect myself against them..diagnosed with BP2. Its weird because It felt like something took over my thinking and I firmly believed it. I remember them looking at me as if I were crazy

  • @DarthTwilight
    @DarthTwilight 4 роки тому +5

    I've never had the delusions to that degree, but I was trained to do certain things for certain agencies and when when the symptoms started around 25 I starvin degrading from a diagnosis of bipolar 2 and Asperger's at a late age oh, I began to get paranoid that there are bugs or sometimes using standard protocol to shake tails; I check all entrances and exits in buildings, count heads, look for anyone that doesn't seem like they're in the right place, pick up the people in the crowd who are most likely to be armed, distinguish who looks like they could possibly be military and I have a constant ooda loop for everything, as well as ocoka. I also have an intense fear of abandonment, trust issues, mania that'll last for days where I do nothing but fill notebooks, and notebooks full of discrete mathematics and machine language is that I build..... then comes the depression and the fear, binging Xanax, drinking, smoking pot, anything and everything just to make it go the f*** away.... Everybody always says "well if you weren't on so many meds, this, that, or the other then you would be fine, because I graduated Summa cum laude from WebMD, and you have so many medical certs and licenses, you need two folders."

  • @jon6039
    @jon6039 4 місяці тому

    She's loving this

  • @andrewpinkus5555
    @andrewpinkus5555 2 роки тому +1

    I lowered my medication and added a second one to help control my psychosis recently wich has always been pretty managable.... but I had a run in with a person i don't like, who made me nervous, and now I think people are trying to kill me or hurt me.... I havent left my house in 8 days and I am moving because of it. I don't want to take any chances or live around this person anymore they have physically hurt me before. I went back to my old medication regiment and things are slowly getting better. I feel for everyone out there who has to deal with delusions and halucinations they can be absolutley terifying. sorry for bad spelling I am so tired.

  • @ash4794
    @ash4794 2 роки тому +5

    I had a delusion that there were tiny mite bugs burrowed into my skin eating my skin and I really thought it was normal 😭

  • @gymather3097
    @gymather3097 Рік тому +1

    I am bipolar too but for the longest time I thought I was schizophrenic because I would get extreme paranoia thinking that the devil was stalking me and wanted me dead. Thought that anything with the number 6 was a sign of the devil. Or that once I died I would go to space and become an actual star. Crazy stuff like that and to me it was like saying 1+1=2. Its scary especially when mixed with the vivid dreaming and sleep paralysis that the disorder brings with it. I would think that my nightmares were a reflection of me in a parallel universe in hell. It's terrifying.

  • @ZAYZAY8-
    @ZAYZAY8- Рік тому +3

    Very recently I believed there was cameras in my room and so I tired to look for them i even set tape traps and other things to know if someone was going in my room that my reality was fake and everyone is watching me I called a friend when it was happening and when you look back on it you feel like you are crazy-

    • @gymather3097
      @gymather3097 Рік тому +3

      same thing happened to me I was convinced that there were cameras in the bathroom and my room and I would act as if I was being watched.

  • @Unicorn-if4kx
    @Unicorn-if4kx 5 років тому

    I’m not even diagnosed bipolar, I’m coping stress very well. But I have this kind of thought every now and then 🤔

  • @ethancore1398
    @ethancore1398 11 місяців тому

    Bipolar 1 and BPD here, also in Portland Oregon. Hope Julie is doing well

  • @melissanichilo8176
    @melissanichilo8176 2 роки тому +1

    This is so scary. I had my first one a month ago before my first...and hopefully only....stint in the hospital. Thank you so much for this video.

  • @lalitta85
    @lalitta85 14 років тому +1

    @crammiddleschool so did people around u push u to seek help? if they did, did u think that they were just out to get u? do you sometimes think that you're okay, and go off the medications? do you keep remembering every single thing that happened in your childhood that makes u angry (especially with regards to your parents)?
    last ques: how would u have liked ur loved ones to deal with u in a way where u wouldn't feel threatened?
    we r suffering with my brother because of this so I want to kno

  • @jaysteinbourg
    @jaysteinbourg 14 років тому

    @Prissie28 Glad you saw it too, I was wondering if it was REALLY there.

  • @peggyself4012
    @peggyself4012 Рік тому +1

    I do to I believe people listen in my house my car so much it's so overwhelming I can't work some days where I believe I'm being watched it people have something against me for no reason I hate living with this

  • @bored64
    @bored64 3 роки тому

    why are these cut short or just a fragment of a larger conversation ?
    she is so articulate that it seems ridiculous to share only three + minutes.

  • @HigherHealing420
    @HigherHealing420 10 місяців тому +1

    Been dealing with it since kindergarten..😔🧠💪🏽🎭

  • @ketikatz
    @ketikatz 5 років тому +1

    For me I remember the first time it was really bad and I didn't even have my diagnoses yet. It was late at night and I went down my stairs to get a drink. My dad sleeps In the living room so I try to be quiet when I go down there. Also it's really dark and I have a fear of walking in the darkness so normally I'm a little nervous when I go down but nothing ever happens.
    So when I went down I tried to remind myself nothing was there but as I got about half way down I could hear two people whispering right near the bottom.
    I froze to listen and see if I really heard and it and I could clearly hear "shh we'll wait till she's gone" and it was a female voice so I knew it wasn't my dad.
    I paniced and went back to my room, licked the door and held a bat until my dad got up.
    It was about 7am and I went down with my bat, checked ever door, window and closet as he kept asking me what was going on. Eventually I meantioned hearing people and it was so clear I was dead sure someone was inside.
    Eventually I figured out it might have been some kind of halusination or delusion

  • @ralfwashington1502
    @ralfwashington1502 3 роки тому +1

    Worse part is when I was a kid I would see shadows when I tried to go to sleep. Didn't think much about it till only a few years back when I wanted to try the natural route my doc (GP) freaked out and said you are going to see things again that don't exist. Forgot I saw that and being a kid years back i told by shrink. Now its forever in my history i hallucinate even though that was over a decade ago! Btw I didn't and am still using the supplements instead of my old cocktail from the shrink. Oh I also have a new GP lolol

  • @delphinium5555
    @delphinium5555 2 роки тому +1

    Having a cry because I know this.

  • @Paul4Krista20
    @Paul4Krista20 Рік тому

    I can’t at all believe the things that happen are not real because it feels and seems 💯 real and I can’t seem to accept it’s not and hard to accept my brain is this broken 😢 I feel for everyone out there suffering from this and the ones who don’t yet know they may one day suffer the same thing sadly. I am 43 and thought I was bout as normal mentally as the rest of the majority crazies, but here I am now🙁

  • @crzyinzan3
    @crzyinzan3 4 роки тому +11

    Would it be considered a delusion if you sometimes think items have feelings and it prevents you from throwing them out? You don’t actually see them talking to you so it’s not a hallucination but you feel inside like they are talking to you telepathically I guess and telling you don’t throw me out.

  • @tomb9420
    @tomb9420 Рік тому

    What is it to establish a delusion is actually a reality! That sucks 😕

  • @Mrkris2111
    @Mrkris2111 4 роки тому +6

    OMFG when I saw the cat

  • @GodlySkunk
    @GodlySkunk 14 років тому

    @Urkulai9689 yeah i know what you're saying its very hard to deal with. just think positive and things will slowly turn out positive. good luck bro

  • @leebay6093
    @leebay6093 9 місяців тому

    My husband has no polar and has a strong belief his father killed two people in an beac in 1970, he’s been to police who have told him to stop ... he has tapes he’s made talking himself about what he believes happened, his father died 10 years ago and my husband goes over and over this belief, he lives it every year, taken photos at the scene (two people were shot deaf but police have investigated and his father is not of interest to them) why year after year dies he continually go over and over this with his tape recordings and clippings/photos etc. can’t talk to I’m about this, he goes into a crying rage

  • @Corpsegrinderr
    @Corpsegrinderr 12 років тому +1

    You should. You should also trust me, even though your paranoia maybe says you shouldn't. It's awful, I have the same thing where every car passing my house if the feds. It's horrible.

  • @carmenavila9604
    @carmenavila9604 3 роки тому

    How long does a paranoia lasts my dad has psychosis and schizophrenia and he has really paranoia

  • @ArtisteRel
    @ArtisteRel 14 років тому

    definitely.

  • @hernanbustos1647
    @hernanbustos1647 4 роки тому +3

    Yo I turn into kanye west when my shit hit I lose my shit it gets scary.

  • @icanttwo
    @icanttwo 13 років тому +1

    ive now worked my way out of this kind of thing. mine was brought on from drugs and once3 it starts. its very dificult to turn off. and it can turn into some really rediculous things. especially if you feed it and at first you want to. its interesting and new. these are alien thought that you yourself as in your soul are not having. like she says its your physical body or brain. or lack of brain usage. or shortage of endorphines in the brain that arnt alllowing your mind to follow one thing.

  • @paulbraunstein2290
    @paulbraunstein2290 Рік тому

    2:10 Yep, sounds about right

  • @hharvv4245
    @hharvv4245 2 роки тому +3

    Did she just ask the psychologist if he knew what a delusion was? Can’t tell if this was due to ignorance or blinding arrogance cuz I know this is an old video but Jesus😭

    • @gaoda1581
      @gaoda1581 Рік тому +2

      I think she wanted to make sure it was clarified for audience members

  • @DarkMoonDroid
    @DarkMoonDroid 4 роки тому +1

    I have 2 family members who believe I have Bipolar. I told them, no, I don't have the degree of psychosis that many of them have. Of course, they think I'm just in denial. I have CPTSD, btw. And there is some psychosis there, but nothing like this.
    Bless you for sharing this so we can check in with ourselves and feel more self-aware and not so ashamed and scared.

  • @DanAylesworth
    @DanAylesworth 12 років тому

    @adrynochrome what to do?

  • @EVOLr
    @EVOLr Рік тому

    I think it’s harder not knowing your not well.

  • @BloomingGoddess97
    @BloomingGoddess97 23 дні тому

    I was tortured daily an every night for a year an yes it was all real because i REALLY FELT IT HAPPENING TO MY BODY , I SEEN IT AN EXPERIENCED IT , HEARD IT

  • @TheJohnbare
    @TheJohnbare 4 роки тому

    Does the Bill board not send a message? Is it not talking to me when I read it? Does the television not send me messages? Is it not a one sided conversation in which I have no say? This didn't always exist.. All these voices...

  • @showandtell41
    @showandtell41 4 роки тому

    That bill broad was put there for you to see

  • @olaEssa
    @olaEssa 4 роки тому

    Is she have bipolar “2” or “1” ??

  • @Andreiunboxingandreviewsclub
    @Andreiunboxingandreviewsclub 2 роки тому

    I relate to this

  • @razzr-G
    @razzr-G 9 місяців тому

    I have found this video because i feel delusion so i search "why am i feel like delusion".

  • @laurenrose2128
    @laurenrose2128 4 роки тому +8

    Im trying to understand the division between bipolar psychosis and schizophrenia. It seems like they are so similar. This lady has the ability to determine that her thoughts are irrational (which schizophrenics dont). Other than that and brain scans-what separates them?

    • @JohnSmith-ys4nl
      @JohnSmith-ys4nl 2 роки тому +4

      Bipolar people don't have to ever have psychosis. Many do, but it's not required. For those that do have psychosis, it is not chronic and always ends when the mood episode ends. After the episode ends, people can talk about what they experienced and how wild or unusual it was (they believe the delusions during the episode, but not after). in other words, they have insight into it.
      Schizophrenia does not involve mood episodes at all and their psychosis is more chronic. People usually have both delusions and hallucinations that last a long time (months/years at a time). Schizophrenics often hear voices, which is rare in bipolar. While it's not required, most schizophrenics have "negative" symptoms which bipolar people don't have at all. Schizophrenics often have disorganized speech and thinking (called "thought disorder"), which isn't a thing in bipolar. Bipolar people (while manic) might talk 90 miles a minute, but they make sense.

  • @Corpsegrinderr
    @Corpsegrinderr 12 років тому

    Not even close.

  • @rashidpassion
    @rashidpassion 12 років тому

    awsum

  • @tinabong
    @tinabong 15 років тому +5

    Julie. I have a friend that is delusional. Had refused medical attention and the family and his church had given up on him. He lives by himself but his symptoms gets worst. Is there anything I can do as a friend? Is it safe to be around Him? Are children safe around delisional patient? Thanks for the info -Michael

    • @CDDraimen
      @CDDraimen 4 роки тому +1

      tinabong that is paranoia...just saying.

    • @rebeccaerb9935
      @rebeccaerb9935 3 роки тому +1

      Kratom helped me alot as well as prayer and well lots of things helped.

  • @GodlySkunk
    @GodlySkunk 14 років тому

    @Urkulai9689 ah thanks for the info. it sucks shit like this even exists

  • @ImNotStalkingYou
    @ImNotStalkingYou 12 років тому

    OCD

  • @wolflunatic5093
    @wolflunatic5093 Рік тому

    Triumph

  • @Unkn0wn1133
    @Unkn0wn1133 Рік тому

    Why do people have similar delusions like thinking theyr’e god or a prophet or that the tv is sending messages etc. always wondered why people dont have just unique delusions to their own mind or situation

  • @StreetSmartification
    @StreetSmartification 10 років тому +7

    Is that a cat or a black tiger in the back walked passed by or am i being just delusional?

    • @kohanamaiara7679
      @kohanamaiara7679 9 років тому +11

      That would be a hallucination.

    • @Tsumami__
      @Tsumami__ 5 років тому +1

      James Bond it was just a kitty in a backyard

  • @pilgrimsnest592
    @pilgrimsnest592 Рік тому

    0:50 a lot of people dont know what a delusion is" ... then describes it that all people would know via common sence what a delusion is. in other words, she thinks that she is special by knowing it. no, you are not special. its like saying: not all people know that the sky is blue.

  • @adrynochrome
    @adrynochrome 12 років тому +3

    @Danaylesworth
    I'm bipolar and I think you're crazy.

    • @CDDraimen
      @CDDraimen 4 роки тому

      elise mo'phuckin Lol!

  • @krisguillen50
    @krisguillen50 3 роки тому

    Here bc of Elisa lam documentary

  • @rambocortez
    @rambocortez 5 років тому +1

    God this is so true, I got so fucking distracted watching the fucking Cat I had to rewind

  • @eurekaelephant2714
    @eurekaelephant2714 Рік тому

    I dont think thats a very good example of a delusion. Sometimes the spirit world through synchronicity, does give you signs through what you see. Number plates, signs on the road etc. She might of being given a hint to stop drinking. Then again, it could have been a delusion, but not a good example.

  • @gnosis8142
    @gnosis8142 2 місяці тому

    The black cat is a collective illusion.

  • @asderso
    @asderso 11 років тому

    in OCD you can have delusions ?

    • @Tsumami__
      @Tsumami__ 5 років тому +2

      Peter Pan Bipolar Disorder, but many people with BPD also suffer from OCD. When people hit a manic phase, many things we do seem similar to what BPD and schizophrenic people do in their own forms of manic states.

    • @ajsongs2098
      @ajsongs2098 4 роки тому +1

      This is bipolar. But with OCD you can. I have OCD and we usually have insight about our intrusive thoughts, but sometimes we have no insight

  • @patrickboudreau3846
    @patrickboudreau3846 4 роки тому

    Ouf

  • @richardmoores
    @richardmoores 3 роки тому

    It’s not even a real illness

  • @jayjay1443
    @jayjay1443 3 роки тому +1

    Can paranoia be like.... thinking someone is trying to keep you fat??

  • @DanAylesworth
    @DanAylesworth 12 років тому

    There are signs and messages which is called serendipity.....I know we're talking about two different things, but there is a fine line and there is a relationship. In our Universe it's easy to see that there are many things of which we are unaware. For example, was the speaker aware that a black cat was prowling behind her while she was speaking. We're not aware of everything, we can take the raising the sun in the morning and taking it down every evening off the to do list!

  • @CDDraimen
    @CDDraimen 4 роки тому +2

    It is a spiritual awakening. Find a spiritual teacher.

    • @a1b1o1o1o1d
      @a1b1o1o1o1d 4 роки тому +2

      xiddesign no it’s delusion and it’s a part of psychosis

  • @jordanunrau4782
    @jordanunrau4782 4 роки тому

    My uncle has bipolar and he says he sees things and hears things.

  • @elizabethbaird3604
    @elizabethbaird3604 2 роки тому +1

    She “hit the big time!” after thinking a sign was giving her a message? LOL! That’s an itty bitty baby “delusion”. Wish I’d only ever had them instead of being utterly convinced I was the only conscious being in the Universe.

  • @danid3533
    @danid3533 2 роки тому

    What book she talking about? Asking for a friend 😂

  • @icanttwo
    @icanttwo 13 років тому

    lets put it in more of a dream state while your awake and your thinking about something your in a blank feild you think of using your imagination and all the suden the typical unicorn pops up then without your consent a wizard pops up from the wizard your all sorts of magical shit happening now and he's just creating your whole universe. now is this wizard doing this to me is the unicorn i created doing this... but now thats turning into paranoia

  • @ralfwashington1502
    @ralfwashington1502 3 роки тому

    Do all shrinks cross there legs? Lol

  • @davoid96
    @davoid96 4 роки тому

    That guys hair triggers me

  • @sheldonmurphy6031
    @sheldonmurphy6031 4 роки тому

    Hmmm my paranoia radar is going off ! Something about this whole video, and the dialog just is not sounding right !

  • @Totothemonkey
    @Totothemonkey 14 років тому

    What cat..... :-)

  • @dstuart2918
    @dstuart2918 2 роки тому

    Umm...I have BD and I never had delusions about beer or anything else. Her descriptions sound like a person with schizophrenia, not BD.

    • @EllaJay
      @EllaJay Рік тому +2

      Umm...Not everyone with BD have the same symptoms.

  • @winstono75
    @winstono75 13 років тому +3

    I wonder how much the pharmaceutical industry pays her for being a professional patient.

  • @davidrcks
    @davidrcks 5 років тому +3

    Lmao thats the only delusion?! Sooooo bipolar. She's got it easy.

  • @dpmne1
    @dpmne1 13 років тому +2

    shes not paranoid shes a woman