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- Опубліковано 28 вер 2024
- What's it like to live with #schizophrenia? How well do existing medications work?
Schizophrenia affects more than 21 million people worldwide, according to the World Health Organisation. Sufferers commonly experience delusions, hallucinations, cognitive issues leading to problems in decision-making in daily life, loss of self-esteem and withdrawal from society.
Current treatment focuses on #antipsychotic drugs, with additional #psychosocialtherapy in some cases. The drugs used to treat schizophrenia have changed little in the last 50 years.
Autifony Therapeutics, which specialises in developing new drugs to treat serious disorders of the central nervous system, is developing a promising new drug, which could treat #schizophrenia with fewer side effects.
Autifony’s drug AUT00206 targets neurons in the brain that are important for cognitive function. Studies have shown that the ability of these neurons to regulate brain activity is degraded in people with schizophrenia.
Read their most recent outcomes from clinical trials autifony.com/a...
Chief Executive Dr Charles Large says: “If our drug does prove effective it could be revolutionary. It would enable patients to get back to a level of functioning potentially compatible with holding down a job and living independently. From what we have seen already, we anticipate that this would be with relatively low side-effects.”
Here, ‘Rich’ talks about what it’s like to live with Schizophrenia and his experiences of existing medications.
This hits hard when you have it. I can't describe to you how real the hallucinations become. It becomes so vivid that there's no way in hell anyone can convince you that what you're seeing and experiencing isn't real. It's something that changes you.
Only people that have it can understand you bro :) Mine are so real that i lose touch with this world compleately. Ive create so many character during my psychosis that i dont even know who i am anymore. I dont even wanna talk about complete loss of intelectual side of brain, its like going from smartest fucking kid i know to complete idiot. So meny mixed sentences in my brain, not being able to focus, memoari loss. Its fuckd up, really hard, still we all go thru day somhow. Wish you all the best bro
@@lazarmitrovic180 I wish you all the best dude
@@chelseachin7574 thank you :)
I'm sorry but can i ask something.. is it true that people who suffer schizophrenia can't fall in love? @@lazarmitrovic180
@@yourstrulyann5599 hm, when i was normal i was in love with girlfriend. I think i can feel love but its not as intense as it was. Its like feeling it thru fog. Problem is that you go thru so much shit thru day that you are all the time feeling numb, al most like dead, plus medication. Antipsychotics kill everything thats masculine, everything that defines you as a man. Everything is mixed up. I cant really tell you cuz i am mostly in my house all day or around house doing some house work, so am am not around girls that much. I love my dog, i would kill for him if that is love, but i think you are talking aboul love between man and woman.
The sad thing is that this usually happens around late teenage years, probably a lot of it is caused by stress
The cause is mostly unknown but it can be inherited from a family member, but I also get why it could be from the stress
@Aditya Choudhury figure it out for yourself
Scizophrenia is something that lives in your genes dormant and it will come out at some point. But yeah often it gets triggered in peoples early adulthood or teenage years.
@Aditya Choudhury You should definitely seek help for that, try seeking a professional. Not all countries have great access, but try searching for a place that offers therapy.
@@survivinggamer2598 I’m not the original poster, but I’d also like to note that I’ve been on a waiting list for a CBT therapist for 3 months. It seems that in these times, many more individuals are struggling with mental health issues.
I’ve been on and off medications since I was 11 years old, and it took me until just last year to find a combination that both helps with my symptoms and lets me be myself. I’m 23 now. It’s always best to keep trying if your mental illness is putting you in a bad state.
What is that combination, if you don't mind me asking ?
@@danielgomes1524 yeah it's no problem! I take 30mg of escitalopram nightly, 0.5mg of clonazopam once a day as needed, and leading up to this I took 10mg as often as needed daily though looking back I would've taken that less. This is for generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder
Ohh, I take escitalopram as well! =) Never seen anyone else do that.
Look i see videos of people tossing out there meds and dont do that it can cause more problems
yes, this!
i'm 24 too and working very closely with my psych to start meds again. i told him the most important thing to me is to continue feeling like myself, so instead of numbing me up with one pill, we're using a couple different ones at lower doses to get the results i want. still plenty of legroom to work through, but we're off to a great start!
i was forced to take meds since i was in the custody of my parents when i was diagnosed. i have taken several different medications and they don’t seem to work :-( but his experience with bugs crawling in and on the skin is extremely relatable to me
That sounds scary, don't worry it might be bad now but as you grow older the symtoms usually wither down a bit. Its usually its worst in early adulthood after that it simmers down a bit.
I recommend you to constantly exercise, running is great, its not certain, since everyone is different, but it really helped my mom deal with her condition
@@thesaddestdude3575 thank you. as of right now i am taking a new medication and it seems to be working better. although its side effects are kicking my ass lmfao
is not a sensation I have a parasitic infection and is real is bartonella no mor el ies
@@martamoure7372 um, ok
A few months ago, i was told i had schizophrenia. Not in the same level as this guy. But i would see my bullies as shadows when i went into public. When covid happened and everyone had to wear masks, it got worse, cause of the eyes.
I have talked with a doctor for nearly 3 years, and i have been on meds for almost a year i think. Did it help? yes, but it also makes me feel sad. I haven't been able to finish my education. I dropped out and now i'm at home, doing nothing.
Kinda helps to vent to people who don't know me, thank you kind stranger. May your day be well.
I live with schizoaffective bipolar disorder and this video spoke to the half of me that recalls what it was like before all the medication. Life is like walking through mud in your head with meds, but they smooth things out for me. It’s a tough decision and a tough disease. This video just made me feel less alone I guess is what I’m trying to say, and I hope there’s others out there that recognize their not the only ones who struggle with mental illness. Much appreciation
This is just like dreams ive had, looking in a mirror at yourself is kinda terrifying, no gore, just undescribable horror
I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS.
@@appalachianwarcriminal Im sending you to the gulag for that
@@appalachianwarcriminal haha schizoposting teeheheehee hahaha funne hahaha esoteric haahaha
@@supahcomix Evilmaxxing rn
@@appalachianwarcriminal well I live in ur mom heeheehahoohahehehrhehdheudhejhfjfhfjdnghrjfndhdbbfhdjd
I'm schizotypal, which is a milder form of this disorder, and while I don't experience (abundant) hallucinations, I relate with the rest of what's described in the video. It is also notable that Richard is a creative person, a trait commonly coming in conjunction with the schiz-spectrum. Sometimes I wonder if we are called ill people just because society doesn't care to meet our special needs, despite the obvious unique benefits many of us could provide.
can you please explain a bit more to the disorder and about your experiences?
" i would rather struggle and be me than be dosed up on medication and be unrecognizable" ...damn bro. that got to me
I am only a 13 year old girl going on 14. Just recently I was sent to the emergency room by my school and parents. There, I was sent to therapy and I still continue to go to therapy but I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I already know I have many things wrong with me that comes from trauma or just how my brain deals with certain things but this one hit the most. Not because I was ashamed of having it or I thought I was a monster but rather because I finally realized what I had coming for me. When I found this out I actually smiled. Since I've never taken medicine for this, it's untreated and if effects my life a lot. It's hard to tell others how I feel and I hate it when others look at me weirdly if my mood changes and I've noticed how blunt this can be to others.
One thing that isn't as blunt is my hallucinations that come along with bipolar. Since no one else sees them, no one else knows they're there but they're real to me and I genuinely enjoy having them around unless I'm under a lot of stress or I'm just in a shitty mood overall. I've told all the doctors I've seen many times that I don't want them to go away. Of course they bring up the fact that if I hurt myself or others they might have to try to help me in some way so that made me even more stressed out.
Anyways I'm rambling but the point I want to make is you can live a normal life with or without different mental illnesses. You can live the life you want to live and others need to realize that but you still have to see us as who we are. If you don't see our mental illnesses with us, then you don't know us. Personality I don't want to be known from my mental illnesses but if someone disregards it completely, it sucks, mostly because in my mind, they're disregarding my friends that only I can see as well.
You are more mature at 13 years than most people at 18 and write better
I don't have bipolar disorder or been diagnosed with anything, but I relate with the friends part. To me they're almost real, like I can talk to them, feel them. There here for me when I need them. Every night we talk to each other. I think about them constantly. This might be just imaginary friends that I've created in my head. I write down my thoughts that don't make any sense and I get paranoid. Seeing things, hearing things most of the time. Even feeling someone breathing behind me, when I take a shower or something. It's scary. I haven't been sleeping at all, I don't know why and I'm always down.
I truly wish all the best of luck to you and I hope you feel alright.
im not yet diagnosed however i show very, very strong symptoms of borderline and we are going to get it checked out next month as it adds psychotic symptoms in panic attacks as well. hope ur doing okay ❤️
@@paulagribgulet Thank you and I'm doing alright at the moment. It can be hard but I really do love enjoying life and it's fun to be around too. I hope you're alright too and I hope you find something that works best for you when it comes to your mental health but of course, don't push yourself to do things that others try to force you to do such as medications. That's just my view point of it but do what helps you (:
@@rainy5517 Thank you and for you, if you want and if you feel it'll be best, I suggest you just mention this to someone, at least someone that you know can help. If you want answers, talk to a doctor but if you want to keep them around like I do, please don't be afraid to mention that. Do what would be the best for you. If you find it scary, I totally understand, it can be so nerve wracking to the point where sometimes you feel like you want to tell someone since you believe its so real. Anyways I hope you're alright too and I'm glad you can relate and talk about this (:
I need to tell someone somewhere what happened to me as a schizophrenic. At one stage of my psychosis I was hearing people talking about how they would kill kids and babies. (It wasn’t actually what they where saying) and I thought it was true. I believed that my family, where apart of some government agency that slaughtered children.. I then thought maybe I was next.
I tried to commit suicide, woke up in the hospital with the sounds of the patient next to my bed being stabbed and murdered. I was in a daze, I just went numb. I didn’t try to escape or anything I just went dead inside and decided it was fate that I was next.
This, everyone. Is only one aspect of my personal psychosis. Please be kind to us suffering with it. I also heard kids screams when I was alone in a park one night. I thought they where being sacrificed.. there was nothing I could do…
This man is an adult and can make his own decisions, but *please* don't ever feel like any and all medications will make you "stop being yourself". For many people, it's the opposite, where their sense of self is gone until they take medications and can access their full potential. At least try the medications first if you have a diagnosis, and then when you've cycled through every recommended alternative (many medications can perform similar functions but be more effective for you personally), decide if medications are worth the side effects you've been feeling. Seriously, it could save your life.
Yep, for example, a common disorder; ADHD! When you take medication, you don’t really change. In fact, you don’t really even notice! Except, it can make a big difference!
@@Blahalel this, I hate seeing big creators ( like dream) influencing younger people who have ADH or ADD, not to take their pills, it’s disgusting
nice try Big Pharma but I'm not taking my meds. I've got 1 fully stocked bunker, 40 crates of ammo, 13 unregistered firearms, and roomba with c4 taped to the tarp and I'm not afraid to use them. You can tell the Antichrist he can come and get me.
To be fair, most medications will fuck you up badly, but it comes down to whatever you value more.
I agree, for me medications did make me lose myself, but that felt like a fresh start to me. Sure it was depressing and i felt like my past didnt even belong to me but once you get back on track youll realize it was for the best. Or I mean in ny experience
I suffer it hurts I can't get grounded
How can I help you??
@@willowruhe7312 trying to find the best way to get grounded without biting x
you got this i promise bro
Same here
I have ptsd. Cold showers have helped.
I'm glad that content like this exists because schizophrenia is so misunderstood and is not usually portrayed correctly. As someone who has never experienced the mental illness, I never knew most of the symptoms that came with schizophrenia until I did research - it was a wake-up call to me that I knew even less than I thought. Hopefully other people will educate themselves with mental illnesses instead of just making assumptions based on how the mental illnesses are portrayed in the media
Cute pfp btw
@@andrewprahst2529 thanks
When people don’t understand schizophrenia, it hurts more than anything. Being tormented by hallucinations and people don’t want to help, they just see you break down and accept that you are crazy without wanting or trying to help. It feels almost like you aren’t human anymore and I can’t do anything to help it and life becomes so awful.
I have Depression, ADHD and schizophrenia, never reached out for help because of that exact reason at the end.
Be grateful you have a life
I do hope he can find the right combination of medication. I know it doesn’t work for everyone, but sometimes it takes years to find the right combination.
I can't say I blame this guy, I wouldn't want to be doped up either. Too many medications zombify me and I really cannot handle that. Can't handle the mental fog, the inability to even so much as think, to write, to draw, to do anything. The lack of energy and the whole thing with the medications whole shotgun approach to "fixing" the problem was like trying to fish in a 50 gallon barrel full of fish and wanting to make sure the barrel is safe from fishing, so you use a stick of dynamite instead of a fishing rod.
a lot of medications are filled with metals and horrible body-damaging properties anyway - a couple of my family members struggle with schizophrenia, and not a single one benefited from medication. Pharma's root word means poison for a reason.
@@chriscarpenter6889 None of that surprises me.
Well what helps?
@@POOPGOD999 Generally just allowing me to have a space where I know I can be completely alone helps the best.
Pushing a narrative that medication "zombifies" you is pushing an anti psychiatry agenda. You're suppose to find a dosage and medication that works for you and that can take years sometimes but eventually works out. If medication is making you sick, IT'S THE WRONG DOSAGE EINSTEIN.
I'm 25, I've lived with schizophrenia for as long as I can remember. It hit hard when he talked about escaping into his own world, as that was me and my sketchbook too.
I have experience someone talking to me, but he was so nice he lifts me up during my darkest moments. I miss that voice in my head.
So thats what I have been experiencing things that are weird, like sometimes I hear someone calling my name. And I hallucinate, and my self-esteem and confidence is always down. Or when I dream about things then I feel like I’ve done that. I wonder what it feels to be normal and stop having thoughts of me hurting myself.
Hey. I juat realized that we are experiencing the same thing. I hear people calling me in my mind. Mostly its my family's voice. My confidence has ups and downs. Sometimes im too confident and sometimes i feel worthless and small. I dream too much that i cant tell the difference between dream and reality. I forget the time and i dont remember stuff. Its like im lost. I keep talking to myself everytime i get alone. I sometimes like to burn stuff or myself. Sometimes im so happy and good and later im depressed and hurt. My body itches sometimes i feel like spiders walking on me. I see things aroud me moving or some kind of melting. Whenever i get angry or sad my heart hurts bad that i can't move. I have lots of mental breakdowns.
I would be so happy if you tell me more details of yours so i can judge mine with it.
@Odium 2k honestly same!! Wow didn't see that coming its good to here that im not the only one. Well its not really a good situation but feeling of loneliness was killing me.
I also write down everything that goes across my mind. All my fears and stuff. And im into philosophy and psychology either and I've been reading about it for like 6 years now. I feel like im so old mentally and i cant talk with people around my age (im 18). I dont think im belong to anywhere. I feel like im floating in the air and watching people's life behind the glass. I feel empty.
I think I have schizophrenia as well,I also here people saying my name,and lately I have been hearing noises that no one else seems to here.Much like you I also have things were I have very boosted up energy,and then the next day it’s like I have severe depression.I am also extremely pariniod,I constantly feel like someone is following me and that someone is staring at me from behind.I constantly feel like everyone is judging me and thinks that I am a try hard.Some days I am extremely disappointed with my looks,the next day I act like the most energetic person you could meet.The paranoia is constant,if I don’t check behind the toilet,I think that the pipes will turn into snakes.I do lots of other weird things as well.Most worryingly of all,I feel like killing myself,and others.For some reason I love it when in a video game or movie a knife is dogged into someone’s chest,I wish it would happen in real life and that I would get to do it to someone.I get annoyed very easily and when I do I think of beating Them up with a baseball but as their skull cracks.Please help me,I don’t want to live like this anymore.I feel like a monster.
@Odium 2k Do I have hallucinations? Sometimes I hear sounds that there aren't so maybe it's just my imagination. Sometimes I see something but none ao my imagination again.
I hope all of you have spoken with a doctor and are seeking a mental health professsional. This is a condition where it is important to reach out to medical professionals as soon as possible, even if you believe that things are manageable right now.
0:20 That plagues me too sometimes. I don't suffer from schizophrenia (thank god), but from depression. When I'm feeling really, really down, I can't share it because I don't want to be a burden to others or I feel ashamed. Sometimes I hide it for weeks on end and I can't stand antidepressants too. They change you. I finally made the step seeking out for help. As usual, the waiting time is killing me slowly haha but I will endure it, as always.... But this time I will refuse medication and try to deal with it myself, no "easy routes" through funny pills. Just keep it up you beautiful people out there, no matter what you are suffering from. I wish that whoever reads this will eventually go on their path to a better mind
Keep trying different meds. Eventually you will find the right one for you. And stop taking them if you have some negative side effects. They may go away with time.
im actually crying rn because of how much this feels close to home
Keep the chin up 👍
I’ve been diagnosed with Schizophrenia when I was barely out of my teens. Now at 52, it’s a challenge to keep my mental health healthy. I hear voices and they are very mean and demanding. I’m finally on the right meds that helps me stay stable. But sometimes I would have a psychotic break that requires me to be hospitalized.
I believe is extremely difficult to suffer from schizophrenia and any kind of psychosis. However, I’d like to highlight how difficult and challenging is for the family as well. Having a young sister who still hasn’t diagnosed if it is schizophrenia or another psychosis, I feel totally devastated and the pain I have when I think of her is and will forever be incurable…
I guess I’m just ignorant when it comes to the disease because I have a niece who is highly manipulative. and I know a huge part is the illness however I also believe a lot of it is not!
I believe her mother spoiled her rotten as a child giving her zero responsibility and today at 40 she acts like a 16 year old when she doesn’t get her way.
when she’s given what she wants she’s 💯 different like night & day!
I guess I’m just so angry because my sister is 70 and she’s still treating her like a child rather than involving her into community activities.
She’s 40 years old and she acts like she’s married to my elderly sister! I suggested she get her into daily programs and she instantly uses the excuse she’s pregnant. but she’s never in her life been pregnant,
But if we ask her if she’d like to go shopping she’s ready in five minutes!
So to me, this is manipulation and I do believe she’s on a high spectrum but in other ways she’s just a rotten 40 year old who thinks she’s married to her 70 year old mother.
My sister is elderly with health problems and that daughter uses her horribly, I honestly think if she was in a group home she would have responsibilities.
I worked in a group home with 6 skizophrenics and they all had daily chores, daily programs & activities, sorry but my niece is a 40 year old brat with no responsibility and she’s slowly killing my sister
I searched for a video for this condition to see how people that have it feel and act, thanks for sharing , i wish you peace and happiness.
There is like a voice in my head telling me
to do something, it’s the smallest things that doesn’t make a difference, it’s like it doesn’t shut up until I do it. What is this?
My brother was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia auditory and visual hallucinations when he was 19 he’s 31 now.
It wasn’t untill he was 25 he properly fully took charge of it he was in constant in denial.
He self medicated with drugs and alcohol which only in return made it worse!! He now is an advocate to high schools for young men and boys to be not afraid to speak about how your feeling and always ask for help.
I hope anyone reading this is of your on medication and it’s making you “feel better” please stick with it at least you know it’s working and not to give up.
Seek help early ❤
When i was diagnosed i was given antipsychotics directly, but it didn't work for me because i would abuse them like if they were narcotics anyways. There are some psychologists that say that mental illness is not an illness but another way of perceiving life, like in a parallel universe but not an impossible one. I think the mind can beat the human most of the times. Use mind to your advantage, don't be scared of yourself, you're different and that's amazing.
I've heard about people abusing antipsychotics but I've always wondered how that works - for me they just make me super zoned out and put me to sleep. Were they more of a downer for you? Did they actually give you a high? Sorry if these questions are too invasive, I've just always been curious about it.
June 26 2021 diagnosed schezofrenia.
Will keep updated.
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This hits to hard to home I have schizophrenia and this is really difficult to live with it took so long for me to get help but I finally got it and they treated it on time my heart goes out to those who have it like me I hope you find the help you need and I hope if you did your doing fine there’s light at the end of the tunnel keep pushing 🖤
It's refreshing to finally hear an account of someone who is coping with psychotic symptoms without antipsychotics.
“I would rather struggle and be me than be dosed up on medication and not be recognizable.”
I have a friend who was diagnosed with this and he had a beginning to the story alot like this guy except it all started with weed. He was very paranoid of his friends and for example he would always be suspicious that i was only acting like i liked him because he would give me rides home from school but i mean he didnt have to give me rides home i had a way to get home. This was just one of many examples. This escalated to religious delusions and ultimately this culminated into a bigger scenario where he was bringing alot of drama, we abandoned him, and he did something that led to him getting arrested and sent to a psychiatrist. (i know this is a time skip but i typed out the whole story and realized its not my place to tell)
I'm sorry for if i may have hurt you with the words i said and my actions towards you and i hope from here on i can be a good friend to you.
It is refreshing to hear others who have chosen to turn down medication because of the reasons you gave, because these medications don't aim to fix or heal the root cause of why you experience the things you describe, but they only aim at fixing the effects of what you experience, e.g. the voices, or imagined images that other people around you can't see or hear. Medication aims at reducing the level of dopamine the brain produces, as well as having sometimes unknown side effects, and is quite frankly in my opinion a danger in itself, and rather careless, and who can argue when it is at the heart of multi-billion profit industry marketed way of life and income for those who remain vigilant at maintaining order and control over people. The cause is deeper than the physical, which you probably might have figured out already. The cause is at the emotional level, and it is our task to feel those unwanted, negative emotions that we have perhaps made the choice to constantly suppress time and time again to begin feeling them, facing them. One of the main fears I have had in that process is that if I show people how I really feel, they will no longer love me, and I want to be loved. I promise though, it is the way to begin feeling better, and managing not only your mental health, but also your physical diseases and pains, all by making the choice to begin allowing yourself to feel every single emotion, or feeling, or thought, and allowing that to release from you by feeling your way though them as time goes on. There are many more things I would love to share with people like the one I have heard speak here in this short video, but those looking for answers to some of the more difficult questions that no one seems to have an answer for, I suggest they navigate over to this website I believe they will find the answers that can genuinely help all of us, whether diagnosed with a mental condition or not: www.divinetruth.vom
I hope that modern medicine can find a better treatment for schizophrenia other than antipsychotics. They’re essential for some who cannot function without them, but the side effects are effectively a disorder onto themselves. You’re trading one confused and scared state of mind for one which can barely think.
There’s got to be something better. The answer lies in science.
There is a very thin line between highly creative people and schizophrenics. It would be great if there were better treatment options available instead of turning people into zombies
Yeah they have "shrooms microdosing" and it really helps. Look it up, then hit me up @👆👆 when you are ready.
I had to safety sit a BA schizophrenic patient. He was calm and never tried to harm himself, as is the norm with BA patients. I started up a conversation with him - he hadn't slept in days, he had a voice in his head, and he was admitted because he had *something* fly inside of him. He wasn't sure what, but he called them "sex bugs." He had some issues eating because he felt them in his throat, he was scared of the EKG machine because he didn't wanna know if they attacked his heart, and it was difficult to get him to sleep (he claimed not to have slept for a few days) because the sound for the TV is considered a ligature risk. I eventually got one in for him and was able to tie it to the bed so he couldn't use it without someone aiding him, and he fell asleep. I felt so bad for the poor guy, he seemed so kind and just down on his luck and just needed a kind gesture to feel at home there.
And for a note, BAs aren't usually bad, but there are many that are. The last one I had was just so severely depressed that he didn't even have the energy to go through with his plans - I drew him a picture of his dog to cheer him up. There is one where a young boy nearly succeeded using his call light and the bed as the ligature and base respectively. You never know what you're gonna get, and I always feel awful for the patients that have to go through that.
My family has a history of schizophrenia among males and Im incredibly scared of developing it as i age
mental illness if fucking horrible. I don't have schizophrenia, but i do have depression and anxiety that is being "treated" (barely helps me, but i digress) using antidepressants (setraline) and antipsychotics (quetapine), and i can really relate to the "not feeling myself" part. Can imagine that it's 100 times worse with schizophrenia and i feel lucky that i don't have it
I get those voices alot, usally when i am sad, or anger, or anxiose. I dont know what to do or how to get ride of it, i feel like im traped in my own mind and its scary. I go to the forest down by the river/creek by me and it confurts me but yet changes nothing after. The voice can be nice at times, but then it betrayes me and says terible things. Knowing people have it the same or wrose makes me feel like shit cause im over here whining about how bad things are for me but people have it worse and it makes me feel lost. I dont know who i am as a person, i love and get rejected, had friends now have zero, i was happier more offten, but now rarely. I get help but it changes nothing, im nothing. Live life the best you can cause thats all us as people can do. Have a good day everyone 😁
Btw idk why i wrote this, i really dont know, i dont even know why im writing this i mean im just saying this stuff in my mind and now im typing it and now i cant stop ahhhh i need to stop. Goodnight or bye or somthing like that idk and idc
I recommend this. Medications does not work always rather can have an opposite effect. A great book on amazon which will help you, has methods non medication. Try for 5 weeks to as long as you want. www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B08MDK65QG
@@htmoh8115 thanks
My old classmate from high school just lost his little brother to this, such a tragedy
shadow person got him? :(((
Iv suffered this since a small child an cause me to be a very unpredictable kid an violent cause of the voices and things I'd see. As I grew older I sank myself in drugs and had a kid with a women I love and with just being around her helped me so much and even got clean. Sober 15 months now and being with her calmed my episodes down so much an I could sleep with out night terrors or waking up screaming or punching. But she just left me an took our kid away while I went out to get a controller so we could play games together. She said I wasn't doing enough and now she won't even talk to me or see my daughter. My episodes are almost every day again if not couple times a day an can't tell days apart.
I can't even tell what's real sometimes an I don't want to love another women just her. But my voices are constantly there even now as I write this.
I haven't eaten hardly in a month at all iv lost half my weight an don't hardly sleep. Idk what to do from here cause I'm scared
I'll put it to you this way
The voices sometimes are so clear you would think there was a person standing next to you
I would play a game to figure out if the voice was real or not.
I would think of something completely diffrent or random
If the voices started to reply about the new topic, I would now they were fake because I never said anything out loud
Keep in mind, I would do this even if I knew i was the only one in the room
The shit is horrifying
They judge you
It's like haveing a cast of people follow you around all day
Person 1 - you should do that, that's a good idea
Person 2 - no that's fucking stupid
Person 3 - why don't you guys just leave him alone
Person 4 - I wonder what he's going to do next
So on and so on
back in high school, i was read a journal that was written that had my secrets and my deep thoughts by people who hated me. I wrote that same journal when I was in 21 in the year of my diagnosis. It's surreal and sad that my life is a lie, but I know that... at least God loves me.
I don't have schizophrenia but it runs in my family and I recently got a little taste of it. This medication I was taking starting giving me hallucinations and it has been absolutely awful. The subtle things--a subtle unreality to stuff--is difficult to describe and while it's quite mild, is distressing in its own right. The more vivid and real things, like hallucinating a home invader, can be terrifying. I thought I could handle it but I couldn't and I unfortunately had to stop taking the medication despite it helping me with other things. It's really awful but I'm glad I got to see a small glimpse into what some of my family experiences, including my dad. That short period of about a month was really difficult for me and I can't imagine what living with it must be like.
I don't think I have anything but when I hear things like this and it sounds so similar to how iv felt most of my life
I wish I was someone who could live without the meds but I know that I wouldn't live long without them
My mum has schizophrenia and its been 7-8 years and due to late diagnosis... She became much worse then before ...she started hallucinations and illusions and all that negative thinking and she started shutting herself inside her body and stopped talking and avoiding everyone sometimes crying like baby.. sometimes showing excessive anger with no point.. so we did what was required heavy medication stopped her and yes she was always on medication feeling dizzy and unconscious but she got better and now we give her less medication and one more thing she doesn't accept she is ill so we have to mix medication in her food without her notice... So yeah life sucks watching your mum fade away slowly slowly and feeling helpless and can't stop medication too otherwise i will loose her completely so keeping some part of her with medication.. i accept this way........
I can’t imagine what my mom goes through schizophrenia.. my mom won’t believe she has this illness. When I mention it she starts screaming at me. I wish I could somehow make her understand that whom she’s talking too isn’t real
hallucinations never bothered me cause I can easily tell them from reality, lethargy and depression is where the problem is
Be strong. Be sure and ftw!
My girlfriend has it
Its really hard to not start crying whenever she starts seeing people or hearing screams
Crap, why does most of the early events feel relatable, am I entering my schizophrenia arc?? A worthy opponent to my indomitable human spirit!
What happens if a schizophrenic no longer takes medicine? How many days does it take to have the first symptoms of schizophrenia?
Depends on the person and the medication... My buddy gets psychotic in about a 2-3 days if he doesn't take his meds
That’s not a question that can be answered with a degree of certainly. The amount of time will vary greatly depending on the person, which medication they were on, the dose of the medication, the type of environment the patient is in, and the amount of support the patient has from others.
It about 2 or 3 months in a year you don’t need medicine but during those month if you don’t take it in 2 or 3 days your face and behavior change you feel like if i open tv or my phone someone can watch me from behind the screen and small hallucinations begins its like someone was always inside you and now he is out side and you are inside and cant control every part of your body metal needles come out of your body your parents trying to murder you by deceiving after a week boom you go to complete hallucination state and then you wake up tied and a month or 2 is passed and you forgot alot of staff. Anyway thats mine i cant say about others
@@zaphodbeeblebrox2981 thanks for answer
@@docwillis1443 Thanks for your clear answer!
I was once given a used boxing thingy by a friend abroad, where I was a foreign student...
The boxing bag had a base that needed water to keep it stable,
It was empty, but there was a loose object in it... So I turned it over to try and take it out through the small filling hole,
Suddenly I went from being happy with the gift to my heart pounding my chest in fear with the scenario that my friend, a decent family man; had inserted a high calibre round to frame me for it's possession, and coming from a country that was torn by civil war, it all fit in place. 5 terrifying minutes of trying to counter the situation and thinking of where to hide the round once removed...
It was the front end of a large marker pen without a cap. My finger tips told my mind it was real....
And then the Sun shone through the clouds again
And my neighbour friend was back to that innocent good family man again
aight so the hallucinations i've been getting on my morning drive to school were only because of sleep deprivation and i thank god for that
My brother is Schizophrenic and he wont take his pills. Im so worried
He really needs to take pills
based and redpilled
reddit is down the hall and to the left
when my sadness becomes heavier than usual because I felt bad about something again..several me's started talking to me saying how bad I am then they'd continue to speak up even though I don't want them to like I can't stop them for some reason...i don't want to diagnose my self with schizophrenia and I dont want to tell my parent since she'd just say "just deal with it yourself, I don't want to waste money on you!"
I will never let anyone know what im dealing with. No way it will end up good. Best to just stay inside dont talk to anyone when having an episode of this hallucinations
This is all too real to me. I have grown to hate what I've become. Because I never knew it was happening. And then being blinded to the condition because others never thought to have the intervention I needed when I was at my worst. Now that all the damage is done, I have nothing tonturn back to. I'm being held at a critical tipping point. Where my next move could be my last. I do want to continue living on, whether it be all me or mostly me. I just want it to get better..
It's a sad disease bro
That's what people don't get. I keep saying I don't want to take medication anymore, it feels like im soulless, and they are like but you have to! And I've been off them for about 2 years and doing a lot better. I still deal with my voices but I feel like I can face them and live with them as opposed to running from them
This doesn’t sound like my adult child’s experience. He only hears voices and often they are commanding voices. Twice he has seriously injured himself and could have died. Caused serious bodily harm to self. I don’t understand why he has to suffer. It is heartbreaking. I’ve been pro-med. anti- med. he was tapering extremely slowly for some time, but since jumping off his meds, it feels I’ve lost him. He is a different person and he harmed himself again. Then he got back on at a lower dose and was ok for a month but now he put himself back in the hospital because he is afraid of hurting himself. Please do not blame him or me. This is a very painful existence right now.
For me, its a lot of paraonoia , and a lot of panic a lot of the time, and forced recollection of events i don't want to remember
as a person without schizophrenia i can tell that schizophrenia is fun
i am living in your walls
just watched undone on prime and very intrigued about schizophrenia rn ngl
You should watch A Beautiful Mine
@@jtatum6900 I watched that movie awhile ago! so good! beautiful movie
I hear voices and see two people with white lab coats. And they say that they are going to lock me up and experiment on me. My therapist says that i am sick, but she doesn’t tell me what sickness i have. So i don’t know if i have Schizophrenia or something else.
I keep on seeing things about schizophrenia on my feed and I would like to know why? Is there an awareness thing going on or do the targeted adds and algorithms just not know me at all? Because the more I see about it the more I’m aware it’s something I clearly don’t have but I also don’t know why I’m seeing it on everything so much
Tap the don't recommend channel/video button when they pop-up in your feed!
@@pandaprince7677 yeah I’ve done that before but they seem to always pop back up, but thank you anyway
if you watched multiple videos on the subject (have you seen more than 3/4 on schizo?), UA-cam will start recommending them to you!
@@robskind4528 this was the only video on the subject I have watched and targeted ads have been sending me medication ads for schizophrenia long before this popped up in my recommended and I only clicked on this because ads for medication for it have been being sent to me.
I was 16 when I first experienced this. It peaked when I was 17 and 18
Diagnosis like schizophrenia is a slow process (at least for me). It’s like putting someone set to a crime that they didn’t do.
THANK FOR EXPLANATION VERY CLEAR.
🤝🤝💕
I am 16 and I think I have some of these symptoms but not a lot I hope it has nothing to do with schizophrenia
One time like 3 months ago I started seeing car headlights coming from behind me landing on the school board but when I turned around there were no lights and the same week when I was home alone I thought I heard someone saying hello from the vent but when I was about to put my ear up to it the voice cut out, it turned out to be nothing, stuff like this never happened to me again yet.
I’ve had schizophrenia since I was 13, treated it for 5 years until I moved out of my family home, went pretty good for a decade then my child was murdered and I’m no longer able to handle it, my hallucinations scare me, my motivation in just about everything has completely disappeared and went from a passive guy to a guy who thinks about revenge everyday.
Bro can u tell me more pls
@@Sanjay-ub7eq what do you need to know?
@@Ivan.A.Churlyuski i want to know how should i treat someone who is suffering from it
@@Sanjay-ub7eq schizophrenia is a condition with a lot of different symptoms and triggers and how a person helps is different based on what they’re experiencing. I would seek out a Psychiatrist for help instead of random people on UA-cam that might not have the same type of schizophrenia as the person you’re concerned for. Hope that helps a little.
@@Ivan.A.Churlyuski Bro he takes medication and all that but i want to know how should i TREAT him when he does mistakes or forget something because i do not know if that's because of his schizophrenia
My aunts been diagnosed with it I sometimes see and hear thinks and people get confused and just look at me but that might just be high stress levels. Also another thing mentioned in the video is the spider feeling I had it an hour ago funny enough I was panicking 😂 I'm getting help soon as I've noticed I'm getting worse with certain things
If anyone who is reading this feels like they need someone to talk to then please, try to communicate because I know that a lot of us would be more than happy to be of some help..
He made the right choise, I would say.
I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS.
I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS.
I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS.
I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS.
Then why aren't you paying rent bro?
@@cameronkoontz6393 # I am living in your walls.
You may be concerned about this. In case you are, please read the below:
FAQ:
Why are you living in my walls?
I'm not going to tell you.
Are you only in my walls?
You could say I am living in everybody's walls, but in the case I am telling you that I am living in your walls, I am living in your walls.
How are you surviving in my walls?
In my non-physical form, I am crawling around listening for you. That is all I need to survive in that form. In my physical form, I survive by eating rat corpses that I cook using the wall behind your oven, and I drink the vapour in the extraction fan duct above your shower.
What are you planning to do in my walls?
Live in them, listening to you.
What do I do about you living in my walls?
Listen for the scraping. Dont touch the walls. Protect yourself. Avoid lighting candles.
When are you going to stop living in my walls?
You cannot escape me.
Do I call the police?
The authorities will not help you.
What are the consequences of you living in my walls?
Be aware.
What if I am ok with you living in my walls?
I will make sure you’re not.
Are you imaginary?
I AM LIVING IN YOUR WALLS I AM LIVING IN YOUR WALLS I AM LIVING IN YOUR WALLS I AM LIVING IN YOUR WALLS I AM LIVING IN YOUR WALLS I AM LIVING IN YOUR WALLS I AM LIVING IN YOUR WALLS I AM LIVING IN YOUR WALLS
Summary:
I am living in your walls.
ok cool bro you can stay there
@@pro-fl5gp I have that too.
I'm sure my neighbors have this mental disease. They also struggle with drug addiction. Their voices also constantly change, almost as if they are being possessed. Weird experiences.
My aunt has schizophrenia. I think I'm starting to develop it too😭 I see things moving when they aren't, like my ceiling or the ceiling fan. I don't hear voices too much but more like a scream. And when I do hear voices it's very muffled and I don't know what they're saying cause it's too many talking at the same time. I don't want it to get worse and I'm only 14.
Finding out you’re British really is something that’s hard to bear alone
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I don't have schizophrenia but shit, i lived basically the first steps of it (I mean similar things to first steps of schizophrenia) and it wasn't good. I also thought it was normal. I am paranoid and depressed, but didn't notice the anxiety part for a long time. For a long time I was aware of every movement of my body, every thing that i do with my hands and every move of my eyes while seeing person on the street. It could be old man, mid-age lady or ever 12 y/o child. I thought "ok I'm scared of people but what if I walked in places without people". It wasn't better. Turned out I have very bad agrophobia, the paranoid feeling of being watched. It was very hard feeling, I needed to turn bach every few seconds cause of feeling that someone is literally 5 meters behind me even if I checked that so many times. It was like some non-existing force looking at me all time. I like drawing especially psychedelic art so because of that I gained some sort of habit of drawing these paranoid eyes everywhere so someone with similar problems would see the hidden meaning. Few times i also had some sort of psychosis so i saw shadow people walking behind my screen (there was my whole room, not jus a wall) or standing in corner or walking by my window. It was in corner of my eye and weird fact that i wasn't scared of them, i knew they wasn't real. Only time I was scared was when I thought that i saw another shadow creature that will disappear when i looked at it, but it didn't. It was actualy cycler behind my window. Now I'm taking antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication and it hepls a lot. It's very hard to seek for help whey you're depressed but trust me, it's worth it.
It’s like having schizophrenia
So it's basically as if he was always dreaming? Like lucid dreaming but awake? The way he said it it looks like a dream to me, like these surrealistic scenarios etc
Beautifully well presented.
THE GLOWIES CRAWL INSIDE THE WALLS THEY CANT BREATHE NORMAL AIR BREAK THEM OPEN
Haha schizocore very funny not repetitive and unfunny heheheheheh esoteric hahaha lololol
@@supahcomix owned
@@milmdeofel sounds pretty esoteric to me dawg, you ain’t from hyperborea if you never done this before
Beautiful message! Thank you
Thank you.
I am inside your walls
I feel so stuck atm.. like ive been wondering whats wrong with me soooo long... i have weird thoughts and ive been pushing them away for a long time but they are slowly trynna get back hard...
Its so hard.. i dunno what to do or how to explain these things, these have come so normal to me.. mostly these are in my head, just my thoughts but its super fricking scary.. especially when i was a kid. It was so scary... i didnt feel safe in my own mind and outside of it too
i hear voices from my childhood. and for the last 5 years i've been depressed and struggled with anxiety, intrusive thoughts, voices saying really nasty things to me, about committing suicide and many other things. but the thing is that they are not all like that, for me. some of my voices help me, some of them predict the future and some predictions come true like even the details. my psychiatrist told me i should take antipsychotics, and i dont know like, this thing is a big part of my life, seeing and hearing things, its really painful tho but its not always like that. it does bother me for sure sometimes but i'm just so used to it cause i'm like this for many years. things said in this video i felt that. and its for everyone to decide what to do with things like this, what's working best for them. and i'm on my way to figure it out what works best for me as well. stay healthy. (PS i'm in therapy for 8 months btw)
I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS
I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS I LIVE IN YOUR WALLS
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bruh i would love to have visuals like that thats awsome, seeing fish on the floor, its like ur permenantly on acid
I don't like this video discourages people from taking meds and seeking medical help, this is boomer bullshit "Drugs bad, man up and cope with it" just in a feel-good artful wrapping. This should be taken down, srsly.
This is relatable in so many ways.
This hits home for me I know exactly how he feels
I have a cousin who got it I'm sure from doing drugs. He refuses any help and all he does is walks for miles
tw : mention of su1c1de
often times i see people who aren't there , usually in dark places or empty rooms . I hear people calling out my name from a distance and because of that when people actually call out my nane I confuse it with that. I hear people crying and whispering in my ears even when I am all alone in my room . It has become so hard for me to tell what's real and what's not . I often confuse my dreams with reality , sometimes I feel that I have lived my dreams and sometimes I feel that something that actually happened in reality was a dream . The voices in my head constantly try to put me down and think low of myself . Sometimes things go too fast and sometimes too slow . I have thought of committing suicide thinking that I will just be sent back to this world and this cycle will simply continue . At this point I don't even know whether this moment is real or not
If only you could control what type of hallucinations you get from schizophrenia
so, what happened next? the video ends just before the important part. my best friend stopped the treatment and after 3 months he committed suicide. Everybody is different and what works for someone may not work for someone else.
A lot of people learn to manage the illness without meds. Some people stop taking their meds impulsively and without the proper support, and that tends to be where things go really wrong. As long as you still are being monitored by a care team (it's also important for your family/friends to be involved in your treatment), and are being honest and forthcoming with your support system about how you're doing - someone will be there to step in when things start slipping. Even if you aren't necessarily communicating well the signs can be picked up on if the people close to you are made aware about these warning signs in advance. You need the support, but it can definitely be done. Not only with schizophrenia, but with bipolar too. It just has to be done under the right circumstances and with a lot of caution.
Yeah someone I know has it and without the meds he can't even function properly at all. He would start accusing then start seeing things, then it would get worse where he would talk to it. It just effects people differently.
Yeah it probably depends per person, and how their symptoms manifest themselves. I know one story about a guy that became psychotic in his twenties, and after his psychosis ended he kept symptoms of schizophrenia (mostly voices). First it bothered him a lot but he learned to live with the voices and regard them for what they are, and now he is a scientist at an important institute in the state of NY. Sometimes his voices even aid him in the creative process coming up with new ideas for research.
Now I'm not advocating at all for quitting medicine, people should be really careful about it. However if done with care, maybe it might in some cases turn out better than with medication.
Agreed
I like to imagine that since he made this video, he found what works best for him and is living his best life.
My heart goes out to all who are suffering with mental illness ❤️
God bless you most people find ways to take advantage of these people
Thank you, means alot.
amen
Thank You! ❤️😇
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