I can see the deep pain in his wife’s eyes. She has had to pick up and move forward while still grieving. Be kind to yourself and give yourself grace while healing.
@HeatherGray93 you're a beautiful young woman. Keep your head up. You have 2 daughters to take care of.. make sure the next man you bring is clean sober and does not drink. You should think about becoming a motivational speaker. You need to move on from Having pictures of you and him together, he chose not to be. It's just like a break up.
MrBob8618. You might want to check yourself. I think you were good up to “you have 2 daughters to take care of”….after that it’s a bit insensitive and inappropriate. Just my opinion but maybe think about it.
@@mrbob8618 What kinda bs is this comment? She should remove pictures of her husband then comparing him DYING to a normal break-up? No matter how he died, she’s still a widow. She still loves him. He was her husband & the father of her children yet here you are telling her to forget about him & move on. You can’t tell her how to feel & grieve. What is wrong with you?!
@HeatherGray93 Heather, there's something so impressive about you. You're so self-composed and eloquent in the midst of such a difficult time. I don't even know you, but I admire you so much. Keep speaking- you're very good at expressing hard things. Wishing you peace, love, and a long happy future with your girls.
Hi. You guys did a wonderful job describing him as person. ❤ And I'm so very sorry he didn't make it to tell his own story of recovery and home coming. I'm recovering now for 20 years and just thank higher power that I'm here to say that. Also wonderful job to his wife for getting the help she needed. ❤
Not one of these stories have been about someone seeking fentanyl. They were seeking opioids or in this case xanax. I'm not saying we dont have a fentanyl crisis, but it's ONLY because we have an opioid crisis. And that's just sad to know that so many people are dependent on pills.
And why is it that we think “recreational” drug use is normal behavior? Alcohol kills thousands every year. Drugs kill thousands every year. Cigarettes kill thousands every year. Why are we okay with this. “Everyone” is not doing it, but people say it. Imagine how many people would still be alive today were it not for that one more high! It’s okay, because “everyone” does it. I’ve been on opioids and Fentanyl since 1992 because of my chronic, severe pain in my bones, muscles and nerves. The Gulf War injuries, 7x cancer survivor, 10% survival rate on my first diagnosis of stage four squamous cell carcinoma, massive amounts of radiation treatments and numerous surgeries and more radiation implanted into my tongue and neck. Several times my Fentanyl pain patches dosed too much because of overheating and that’s why I always have Naloxone (Narcan) in my possession and my friends and family know what to do to save me. When my previous VA doctor would “FORGET” to submit my monthly Fentanyl, Hydrocodone, Gabapentin (Neurontin), etc. to the pharmacy, I’d suffer from withdrawals and just want to die from the extreme pain levels. He forgot about 9 months out of 12 months each year. He simply didn’t care. So, I have a fair idea what drug addicts go through in order to chase that “wonderful high” they must have. I’ve never been high in my life and cannot understand why “EVERYONE” does it. I guess I’m just not “NORMAL!” I love the fact that these videos exist, because I don’t want children/teens/young adults to believe that it’s “NORMAL” and that it’s okay, because “EVERYONE” is doing it. Sure, I get some hate for comments I make, because I’m a pragmatic person and people who lack common sense, sound judgement and good morales call me “JUDGMENTAL.” I certainly don’t pass judgement on others, but at times people get their feelings hurt and I simply can’t and don’t control anyone’s feelings. I control only my own feelings.I sincerely appreciate your videos and I’m convinced that lives have been changed/saved as a result of the videos. I wish that the changes brought about were multiplied exponentially. Thanks for listening.
It’s sad but true. If your from America 🇺🇸 you have such a great chance of dieing of tainted fentanyl 💊 pills, when all you wanted was a pain pill! Have compassion for people like him it’s hard to overcome ❤❤
You are on point with that they kids and adults are looking for opioids or Xanax or acid pills but it turns out to be fentanyl they aren’t looking for fentanyl exactly they are looking for the other stuff but it turns out to be something extremely fatal I hope one day the fentanyl stops completely
Thank you for sharing your story. Im so sorry for your loss. Rip Billy. Also lets not be so harsh and judgemental towards the wife. We need a lot more kindness and compassion for people suffering through this crisis. ❤️
Drugs are 100% more important to a drug user/addict than any love, affection, or honesty with those around them - including family. I found that out the hard way.
Same. My son died of an overdose two months ago. He did not care about anything else. It’s an obsession. I just wish I knew how to reach him. They have no idea how much hurt they cause while they’re alive and after they’ve died. Addiction is a destructive force that destroys all it touches.
I've been clean 4yrs. It is all addicts care about but don't think they don't wish it away every second of every day. It's literally hell on earth. Everyone has a story. No addict woke up one day and thought to themselves I'm gonna become an addict today. It just happens and some make it out while others don't unfortunately.
I’m especially sorry that this happened near Christmas 😳 My daughter died as a result of a car accident on December 11. I was a zombie at Christmas. So stunned 😢 I’m so sorry for your and your girls loss 💜🙏
I know that feeling all to well my daddy passed away on Dec.11 from cancer his funeral was Dec.18 then it’s my brother’s birthday on Dec.22 who passed away then here comes Christmas so I still have to put on a brave face for the kids and then boom my birthday is on December 29 so trust me I truly understand that zombie state you describe 😞
I have probably watched every single one of these stories and although each one touched me greatly, this one impacted me so much more. Each one of these lost lives you wonder what they could have accomplished, contributed to their families and the world. But this one, I honestly believe that the sky was the limit and I can only imagine how many lives he could have positively touched. A good rule of thumb as to someone’s character is how their in-laws speak about them (of course I’m excluding the off their rocker ones). May this family find some form of peace. May the children see all their dreams come true. And may they know in their hearts that he didn’t mean to leave them. I’m so very sorry for your loss. 🥺🥺🙏🏽🙏🏽
You're very smart and very strong Heather. You've got your head around this. Stay strong for yourself and your girls. Addiction is a disease period. The object of that addiction is irrelevant. Your family is not the first to be destroyed by drugs, and unfortunately, it won't be the last. Do whatever you have to do to get stronger. You won't be doing your girls any good if you remain angry. I understand the anger. It is motivated by love. God's peace be with you.
I lost my 19 yr old stepson 4 and half yrs ago to Fentanyl and now my biological son is in rehab for it. Its so scary feeling like every day could be the last. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. My daughter who is 5;yrs older (28) has never even tried a cigarette. I hate the stigma that comes with this. May he rest in peace. God Bless you and your family
These videos are so important!!!! Thanks 4 ever to Texas Pictures for producing & presenting these videos. I was severely shocked that legend Prince Rogers Nelson died from Fentanyl poisoning & this deadly greed. I am a small grand of sand. I wish from the bottom of my heart I had more power to stop this horror. I truly send you love
Thank you Texas productions for doing these videos you I am for sure you are making a difference and I hope people in other states start doing this because it happens in every state!
We are doing this in other states. 😉 Some of our existing stories are from Florida, Oregon, California, and New Mexico. Next week we will be shooting stories in Topeka, Kansas for 3 days, with over 20 storytellers scheduled. We also plan to have similar Storytelling Summits in Florida, Louisiana, California, Michigan, Maryland, and other locations.
I'm so sorry for your loss of Billy and having to share his and your story is super brave of you. Please continue to tell his story and remember only the good times you had as a family. I'm sending prayers your way.. RIP young man and May God comfort you during this heartbreaking time in your life. I'm watching from Tucson Arizona
I am so sorry for your lose. Your story is almost identical to mine. My husband is still alive and addicted to Xanax Bars or any form of Xanax but I go through the same exact patterns as you are talking about. He’s OD’d so many times and he’s a great guy sober. It’s a heartbreaking thing to go through. To watch the person you love to death change constantly drastically.
I'm sorry your husband is a victim of this destructive disease. It's so painful to watch the person you love battle with addiction. I hope and pray your husband decides it's time to get clean before it is too late. 🙏 If you ever need to talk, please feel free to reach out to me.
🙏🏻🙏🏻 for you all I have a brother n law thats in his 50's & hooked on zanax & it's sad he saw where I was at 9yrs ago I was hooked on heroin & I finally got tired im 43yrs old I starting using Roxys 30mgs when I was 29yrs old those 14 yrs were Hell . I just hope he can finally get tired before it's to late I would hate for my wife to have to receive that call God Bless 🙌🏻
You probably know this already, but there has been a lot of fentanyl-laced Xanax and fake Xanax that is really fentanyl, on the streets. I’m in long term recovery and in the recovery field. Often, dealers don’t even know what’s in the bars, because they’re made overseas. Do you know where you can get Narcan, to keep around? I’m glad you found this channel and hope you have lots of support. Prayers for you and your husband. It’s nobody’s fault! Addiction does not discriminate.
I’m sorry for your loss. I lost a son 2 months ago to addiction. They believe it was fentanyl but we won’t know till the toxicology report comes back. I was lucky that in NY, they picked up the drugs when they picked up my son’s body. The detective assigned to my son’s case has been a saint. They’re still working the case. Addiction is mental illness. He had no control whatsoever. No matter what you did, he was going to use. Sadly, I know this truth from my own experience. You’re a strong woman, thank god for that.
Wow this is so so sad 😞 I been clean for 7 years and I caused a lot of trauma on my children to this day they won’t even take cold medicine all because of me they think it will kill them smh 🤦🏾♀️ so sorry for this family loss I know exactly how they feel my oldest daughter dad died from an drug overdose three years ago 😢I thought we had more time with him but god had other plans but anyway once again I’m sorry for their loss addiction is a disease and it’s a struggle for anyone that’s going through this just know you are loved no matter what you are loved fly high to all the ones we’ve lost to drug abuse 😢🥺💔🤍🤍🤍🕊
I'm so sorry and saddened..my Billy died as a result of fentynal laced herion..at 16 he was prescribed oxytocin for pain from foot surgery..he sadly managed the addiction in and out of treatment for 15yrs..He died 6/3/20 at 32yrs old..his life and love were gone..no justice was served..the dealer still walks in southwest florida..all of my Billys treatment was in NY..he suffered, I asked him to come live in florida with me, his Momma..he made it 8 months and it killed him within a few hours of purchase..horrendous sad memories of that day..my heart is forever broken..love n hugs to all the grieving families..
They don't expect to die but our loved ones are addicted, chemically changed, body, mind, soul..they do know the risk but are willing to chance it for the relief they are seeking. IM SO VERY SORRY..MY BILLYBOY RIP 6/3/20..
When my daddy pasted from heart problems i remember our preacher saying one day you will have a new normal. That's something I held onto because I grieved for so long nothing seemed right but after awhile he was right there was a new normal. So thats what I try and tell people dealing with grief. It blows my mind people can get pills online, why can the fbi not shut that down. So sorry for your loss.
Because the government is crooked as well that’s why nothing is being done smh 🤦🏾♀️ it’s so freaking sad that everyone is being laced with fentanyl smh so sad and sorry for your loss as well as billy’s
For the love of money 💰 nothing will change until We the people get a different mindset. Health is wealth! I'm trying to enjoy a natural high and live longer After years of self abuse 💜 May God, help Us All🙏🏾
Online?? R u serious…they deliver these deadly concoctions right to your door! Young people make a call and order these drugs like they’re ordering a pizza! So sad!
My whole entire heart goes out to his wife. I was in a very similar situation once upon a time. By the grace of god I was able to get clean and stay clean. To his wife, you’re incredible and don’t ever doubt that. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other no matter what and keep doing the next right thing even when you don’t want to. I’m so sorry for your loss and the pain you’re dealing with. Be the best you can always for those babies. They need you. Remember to always give yourself grace❤❤ PSS - Thank you for saying that just because he was an addict that DOES NOT define him❤️
Yes too the wife you are strong and it’s a reason why god made you that way I wouldn’t know what to do if i experienced that I’ll be a basket case please stay vigilant and keep your mind on god yourself and your children cause they need you so much I’m going to keep you in my spiritual prayers I ask god to cover you and your children with the white light of protection and the white light of positive energy 🤍🤍🤍🕊🕊🕊
I can relate to so much of this. My husband had abused pain medication and Xanax. We almost lost everything on his last relapse. He now has been doing better than I've ever ever seen him do, and I've been with him since 1979. As for the doctor giving him all of those pills. I hope he/she is busted and looses their license and spend some prison time!
So sad for his family and friends. I love the photo of him at 1:11 with his pinkie ring and watch. It gave me a great idea of who he was. So sorry for your loss.
Billy was prescribed painkillers for all of those 32 surgeries he had since he was 15, no doubt. His wife said that she has been, and is currently taking Xanax. You can see this in her eyes and the slow speech pattern. What a sad, sad story, and then Fentanyl. God bless the wife and mother in law.
I noticed she was on drugs too. I pray she stops for her kids sake and her own! God is needed here and everywhere. I could have NEVER picked up doing that business. Selling mind altering drugs is very dirty money. I would have found a job. But that's just me. If the wife get's clean and finds a good job she can gain God's favor.
I wish you healing and hope your children give you motivation to continue your journey. You have managed to get sober and stay off. Keep going and the 2 girls grow to be a success that you are so proud of. RIP🕊️🕊️
Everything was so well-spoken thank you for all the advise you gave and I pray that you and your beautiful lil girls are guided by you're guardian angels
WOW. That hit me in the gut when you said, then he became empty behind the eyes. Then his eyes were closed, and his mouth was open…. As someone who has struggled, you said so much right there, pretty profound in the most concise way. Sending peace and good vibes yawls way.
How does a person quit fentanyl...i heard the addiction will always be there. A lot of young is doing pure fentanyl...crazy! Its sad, feel so sorry for his love ones. Heather speaks very well...Rest in power Billy❤
I’m on a heavy dose for pain and at this time in my life I’d rather die then go thru the withdraws, I’m 58 and can’t imagine getting off it. I think death would be easier for me
inner strength - that is the only thing that keeps a person from taking - whatever they're addicted to - again... some people find something they love more than drugs, like their kids.. that's where they get their inner strength. it's the same with smoking cigarettes.. once you quit, you can never touch one again. get past the detox part, the physical addiction part, and the rest is up to the addict.
I was court order rehab countless times went to jail for 6mths got out started using again for 4mths after being clean 6 mths. After those 4mths it finally clicked and I went to rehab willingly. You don't clean til you yourself is ready. Nothing or no one else will make you get clean.
Ugh, you must be so frustrated. Just awful. Unfortunately, much of society still looks down on addiction-until it happens to their family. The police should have better attitudes toward addiction as they are first responders. RIP Billy. Love to all of you
You can't load this crisis on police. They are not health care professionals of addiction exerts. Opioids are not the only thing US has problems with. Police can't fix tem all. And the facts is that dealing with unlawful drugs is a dangerous. How many cops has had their lives taken fighting the problem. They're putting their own life on the line in their work. Are you? Blaming the police is absurd. They can't fix the problem. And in these situations the first responders are usually the EMTs.
It’s a sad situation they could care less about an addict 🤷🏾♀️ I’m an recovering addict of 7 years when I overdosed they treated me like a criminal I was cuffed to the hospital bed the doctor cared more than they did
@@moongoddess238😢 yes indeed the cops do not care but what I see is our government not giving a care either as they allow the mess to stream through our borders from China through Mexico this is the real crime..my boy was an addict too n he died of fentanyl poisoning..I don't believe for one second that he woke up that day n said I want to overdose today..when are they going to prosecute the dealers for this? Stay strong n be well dear ❤ love n light
This is so sad that there is a police dept who won’t do their job. I hope you get therapy because as a recovered addict you are more susceptible to falling back into addiction. My heart goes out to you darling and you deserve so much happiness. Billy was somebody. He is someone’s son, husband, brother, dad. He isn’t just an addict.
Breaks my heart. I've had addiction problems my whole life and its so hard. Part of you thinks, oh that's never going to happen, or, it's worth the risk, addiction is a real demon. It's a flaw in us as humans. I'm so sorry for this family's loss and the waste of who sounds like a lovely young man. So sorry for the missed opportunities and lost potential.
Thank you for watching our story. That's my next step. Im just moving up the ladder until i find someone that is willing to help me. I can't, and I won't just let this go. I want some kind of justice for my husband, our kids, and myself!
I don’t have children, but I can imagine the struggle that these parents go through when they had to decide between the drugs or their children. My mom was an alcoholic for the first 10 years of my life before she was strong enough to become stronger than the alcohol. I learned from her how hard it is to choose the substance over family. Heather’s strength will help her and Billy’s children get through this now and in the future when they come to realize what their daddy went through. I hope you all find peace ❤
I feel so bad for this family, his wife is extremely intelligent. I am glad she took a stance to get clean herself. It is heart breaking that he didn't or chose not to as well. This family was so honest about his struggles, and honest about his addiction. So many times in these situations family are in denial even after death. I am very sorry your loss.
You did a wonderful job of telling Billy’s story. I feel like you except it wasn’t my husband that died, it was my brother. Like you, he didn’t asked to be killed. We have to get our story out there cause the system doesn’t care. Job well done.
RIP Billy Grey! My heart and prayers goes out to your children who no longer have a father. To his wife and extended family. Prayers for your loss. Addiction Sucks! I lost my sister to alcoholism. It really sucks. 🙏🏻❤️🇺🇸
Heather, so sorry for your loss, may peace be with you and your family. Sharing your experience will help others in many ways. People are waking up to this deadly epidemic and are forming organizations to educate people, especially young and High School kids about how dangerous this stuff is, working on petitioning government and law enforcement to step up the war against Fentanyl and other drugs!
Wow 😮 So sad that the police department wouldn’t help this family, instead, they failed them by not doing a complete investigation on what I consider a murder! The drug dealers will keep killing people until they’re held accountable for selling them lethal drugs
Such a powerful yet harrowingly painful testimony by two beautiful, very loving women. As Billy's wife continues to deeply mourn her loss, I hope she'll rest easy and do all she can to recover her strength. I hope Heather thrives in life along with her daughters. She's clearly surrounded by loving relatives who support her. ❤❤❤
I have so much compassion for people like this man ❤ I don’t judge anyone who has a pill problem or trouble with drugs. The devil comes in all forms and I wish his family peace and love ❤️
Unfortunately, until numerous law enforcement officers lose THEIR kids to accidental poisonings, we can never count on them to “investigate” or take an “addict’s” death seriously. There is massive judgement, misunderstanding and zero respect for overdose victims.
I’m so grateful for this project. Too often, shows about addiction put the living at the forefront and all the loss and death is only alluded to, if anything. This is done with good intentions, to try to help those who can still be helped, but we are a death-avoidant society. Actual deaths SHOULD be avoided…what I mean is we are uncomfortable with the topic of death. Getting to know the people who are casualties of this epidemic and their families makes a much bigger impression.
Sorry for your loss we just loss my niece on 12-20-23 she was 27 years old an was so beautiful but someone gave her a fentanyl an the police anit doing nothing about it the police looks down on drug addicted an that’s crazy addiction is a disease I have been clean now for 8 years I think god every day
Morning Texas .. ❤. Billy Gray please be at peace.🕊️💜🕊️ God bless us 🙏 I hope everyone enjoys the holiday coming up. Embrace tine with urself and family and goid eats. Till next time ...
Thank you for your comments. We also have a series of addiction recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here's a link to the playlist: From Addiction to Recovery - ua-cam.com/play/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj.html
I'm so sorry you and your daughters and family had to go through this, you did a great job telling Billy's story, drug addiction is a disease and it's a really misunderstood disease, I was an addict 15 years and finally got help but it was not easy, prayers that you and your family find peace, Thanks for sharing yours and Billy's story.
This is yet another heartbreaking story on addiction and just how dangerous Fentanyl truly is I have nothing but respect for Heather and her mother who bravely tell a story no one should have to tell about anyone especially their loved ones keep your head up Heather i will send healing and comforting vibes for you and your family from Europe. RIP Billy
Absolutely heartbreaking. I'm so sorry that this family has lost their beautiful Billy to this horrendous drug. This pandemic will not stop until the suppliers are identified and stopped. Being killed by Fentanyl can happen to recreational users just as easy as to addicts. XOX from Ireland
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my boyfriend to fentanyl poisoning in 2017. I think you are incredibly strong! You knew you had to pick up the pieces for your girls. You knew you had no choice, and you did what you had to do for your family. I have the utmost respect and admiration for you. ❤️🩹 When you told your girls he's still with you all, you weren't wrong. He's there. He can hear you when you talk to him, and youll be together again one day. I believe that. That gave me some peace in the weeks and months after my boyfriend's death. Maybe you can find some peace too. I pray that for you and your family. 🙏🕊
I don't leave comments normally, but Heather, so sorry for your loss. You would be a really great counselor or helping addicts'. All the best to you and your family.
I've been an on off addict for 20 years. Am prescribed opiod for pain now, still not the best, but the best ive been for a long time as I have more control than i did. Wow, This video really really hit me hard, especially at the end. Tears tripping me!! 😢
same here the key is dont abuse it take it like your suppost to myself along with millions of other folks in my age frame would not have any quality of life without there pain medication the punk ass cops know damn well its the fentanyl that is killing all these people and that its not genuine real pain medication from the pharmacy
Abilene police department I see nothing has changed. My uncle case went about the same way with APD to. I'm so sorry for your loss. Went have loss a few family members to fentanyl. And the cases handled by APD and yeah it went a lot like that..
Oh wow that's awful to know that the cops destroyed the evidence and act like so what?!? But if it was someone rich or a celebrity then maybe they would have been doing their dam job instead of screwing up!! This shit should never have happened!! The dealer should have been arrested for killing her husband, period!! Instead they just say oh well maybe next time.. my heart hurts for your loss. I've lost a few relatives from overdose from fetty...
If the police had done their job, we as a family may have more closure. It's very frustrating and unfair. An apology, from 1 detective, is literally all I have ever received from the Abilene Police Department in almost a year. Thank you for understanding!
Rest in peace, family be strong think that he is a better place,not with the demons in his brain,and always the anguish that drugs is going to take his life. We are the ones carrying the sorrow, he is in peace.
I'm so sorry for your loss...to the grieving wife I hope you know you are a beautiful lady fwiw. You won't want to hear this now perhaps but I hope and expect you can find a happy future still for you and your kids, whatever that looks like. For everyone else watching maybe with kids struggling with opioid addiction, I worry this series, whilst definitely necessary, might really frighten parents; I know the channel does survivor stories too...respect to them for having the insight to know that the possibility of survival is also a necessary part of the whole story. I mainlined heroin (and often crack) for 13 years straight...well that isn't true...I mainlined until I had no veins left except my femoral...until I quit. I did OD once and nearly died...but parents please know not every story ends in disaster. I am a father of 3 kids myself now and a qualified professional in two hard skill disciplines. Much love.
Heather you have a voice & understanding of addiction that you should use ❤️🌟Lots of school age children would listen to you, please try & change the world when you feel able to. So sorry about Billy, his daughters & yourself must miss him sooo much huge hugs from Wales in Great Britain. 🤗❤️🩹
So incredibly impactful. Wow. I really don’t have the right words to say. This makes me want to Let everyone in the world know about this danger. Makes me so scared for my friends and family. I struggle with addiction in general but After hearing these stories I will Never ever in my life take a street Pill. It could’ve been any one of us. Thank you so much for sharing this story. You’re unremarkably strong.. Your voice is heard I am going to talk with all my Loved ones this holiday and do my best to protect anyone else from this Evil. Prayers to you and your family ❤
We also have a series of addiction recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here's a link to the playlist: From Addiction to Recovery - ua-cam.com/play/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj.html
When she said, "I became the person he had to hide it from," may be one of the most impactful statements. Being a sober addict, is traumatizing, in itself. Addiction. The opioid epidemic, Fentanyl. They're such multifaceted issues that we have to have highly personal testimonials before we dare ask for compassion, because of stigma. Everything that we do to fight opioids, especially fentanyl, focuses on convincing 99% of society that 100% of addicts are worthy. Imagine if this issue were approached how we approach other terminal illness's? Imagine if we had fact based, scientific treatment centers, rather than religious based, "step" programs. Imagine if politicians weren't lobbyists for pharmaceutical companies. Socioeconomics does play a huge role in power structure. That's exactly what has enabled the need for middle class America to speak on personal experience. Nobody listened when lower class america was screaming. It's all very tragic.
You did a amazing job telling your story, you are a very strong woman and I’m so glad that you have such a great family to ❤ it’s so so hard and challenging and sad when your loved one is a addict , have wished over and over to take her pain away and help but until they are ready I just do ALOT of praying 🙏 I hope nothing but great things come your way and a happy life for you and your children ❤❤❤ I hope someday they hold the people responsible for making these pills!!!
So sad, Im crying listening and all Ive heard is his accomplishments. Dam world makes me sick. As a wife you did a fabulous job conveying your husbands spirit. I wish you all the healing and happiness possible for you and your daughters. The desire to blank out the world, the feelings, emotions that are are crushing you, so you will take anything to quell that pain. I dont know why that feeling is so strong in some. People point to abuse, childhood trauma. That makes sense to me. There is no backstory to Billy's early childhood. I maybe missed it. But I know the feeling of living and it being, or feeling too much to manage so that any relief offered is grasped at.
I love you Billy! You were my favorite cousin and I think about you often!! Tell my Dad hey when you see him up there in heaven!
I’m so sorry for your loss.🌹🌹
God bless you...
So sorry for your loss
💔💔💔
He’s resting with zero pain or consciousness as well as your pops. No heaven but you can still dream
Heather blew me away. What an incredibly intelligent and well-spoken young woman. Wow. I wish comfort and peace upon both of these lovely women. ❤
Thank you.
@@HeatherGray93 girlfriend what’s your Instagram ? I have a story as well I’d love to connect with ya !
The mother in law is so traumatized by this story. I feel for her.❤
I can see the deep pain in his wife’s eyes. She has had to pick up and move forward while still grieving. Be kind to yourself and give yourself grace while healing.
Thank you! ❤
@HeatherGray93 you're a beautiful young woman. Keep your head up. You have 2 daughters to take care of.. make sure the next man you bring is clean sober and does not drink. You should think about becoming a motivational speaker. You need to move on from Having pictures of you and him together, he chose not to be. It's just like a break up.
MrBob8618. You might want to check yourself. I think you were good up to “you have 2 daughters to take care of”….after that it’s a bit insensitive and inappropriate. Just my opinion but maybe think about it.
@@mrbob8618 What kinda bs is this comment? She should remove pictures of her husband then comparing him DYING to a normal break-up? No matter how he died, she’s still a widow. She still loves him. He was her husband & the father of her children yet here you are telling her to forget about him & move on. You can’t tell her how to feel & grieve. What is wrong with you?!
@HeatherGray93 Heather, there's something so impressive about you. You're so self-composed and eloquent in the midst of such a difficult time. I don't even know you, but I admire you so much. Keep speaking- you're very good at expressing hard things. Wishing you peace, love, and a long happy future with your girls.
Hi. You guys did a wonderful job describing him as person. ❤ And I'm so very sorry he didn't make it to tell his own story of recovery and home coming. I'm recovering now for 20 years and just thank higher power that I'm here to say that. Also wonderful job to his wife for getting the help she needed. ❤
Not one of these stories have been about someone seeking fentanyl. They were seeking opioids or in this case xanax. I'm not saying we dont have a fentanyl crisis, but it's ONLY because we have an opioid crisis. And that's just sad to know that so many people are dependent on pills.
And why is it that we think “recreational” drug use is normal behavior? Alcohol kills thousands every year. Drugs kill thousands every year. Cigarettes kill thousands every year. Why are we okay with this. “Everyone” is not doing it, but people say it. Imagine how many people would still be alive today were it not for that one more high! It’s okay, because “everyone” does it. I’ve been on opioids and Fentanyl since 1992 because of my chronic, severe pain in my bones, muscles and nerves. The Gulf War injuries, 7x cancer survivor, 10% survival rate on my first diagnosis of stage four squamous cell carcinoma, massive amounts of radiation treatments and numerous surgeries and more radiation implanted into my tongue and neck. Several times my Fentanyl pain patches dosed too much because of overheating and that’s why I always have Naloxone (Narcan) in my possession and my friends and family know what to do to save me. When my previous VA doctor would “FORGET” to submit my monthly Fentanyl, Hydrocodone, Gabapentin (Neurontin), etc. to the pharmacy, I’d suffer from withdrawals and just want to die from the extreme pain levels. He forgot about 9 months out of 12 months each year. He simply didn’t care. So, I have a fair idea what drug addicts go through in order to chase that “wonderful high” they must have. I’ve never been high in my life and cannot understand why “EVERYONE” does it. I guess I’m just not “NORMAL!” I love the fact that these videos exist, because I don’t want children/teens/young adults to believe that it’s “NORMAL” and that it’s okay, because “EVERYONE” is doing it. Sure, I get some hate for comments I make, because I’m a pragmatic person and people who lack common sense, sound judgement and good morales call me “JUDGMENTAL.” I certainly don’t pass judgement on others, but at times people get their feelings hurt and I simply can’t and don’t control anyone’s feelings. I control only my own feelings.I sincerely appreciate your videos and I’m convinced that lives have been changed/saved as a result of the videos. I wish that the changes brought about were multiplied exponentially. Thanks for listening.
It’s sad but true. If your from America 🇺🇸 you have such a great chance of dieing of tainted fentanyl 💊 pills, when all you wanted was a pain pill! Have compassion for people like him it’s hard to overcome ❤❤
You are on point with that they kids and adults are looking for opioids or Xanax or acid pills but it turns out to be fentanyl they aren’t looking for fentanyl exactly they are looking for the other stuff but it turns out to be something extremely fatal I hope one day the fentanyl stops completely
I would make Big Pharma pay for treatment for all this wreckage.
If you are not an addict you will never ever understand smh 🤦🏾♀️
This has got to be so hard to speak about. Thank you. I hope this helps someone else who’s struggling.
Thank you for sharing your story. Im so sorry for your loss. Rip Billy.
Also lets not be so harsh and judgemental towards the wife. We need a lot more kindness and compassion for people suffering through this crisis. ❤️
Drugs are 100% more important to a drug user/addict than any love, affection, or honesty with those around them - including family. I found that out the hard way.
Same. My son died of an overdose two months ago. He did not care about anything else. It’s an obsession. I just wish I knew how to reach him. They have no idea how much hurt they cause while they’re alive and after they’ve died. Addiction is a destructive force that destroys all it touches.
Same here. I didn't care about anything when I was using drugs. Thankfully I've been clean since 3/2009
I've been clean 4yrs. It is all addicts care about but don't think they don't wish it away every second of every day. It's literally hell on earth. Everyone has a story. No addict woke up one day and thought to themselves I'm gonna become an addict today. It just happens and some make it out while others don't unfortunately.
thats not true😢-It depends on the person and the addiction
I think at some point more so than the drugs, especially with benzos, is the fear and pain and horror of withdrawal. It’s just too hard and wicked.
I’m especially sorry that this happened near Christmas 😳 My daughter died as a result of a car accident on December 11. I was a zombie at Christmas. So stunned 😢 I’m so sorry for your and your girls loss 💜🙏
I know that feeling all to well my daddy passed away on Dec.11 from cancer his funeral was Dec.18 then it’s my brother’s birthday on Dec.22 who passed away then here comes Christmas so I still have to put on a brave face for the kids and then boom my birthday is on December 29 so trust me I truly understand that zombie state you describe 😞
I really appreciate every story. Every life. Thank you for being strong enough to share his story.
I have probably watched every single one of these stories and although each one touched me greatly, this one impacted me so much more. Each one of these lost lives you wonder what they could have accomplished, contributed to their families and the world. But this one, I honestly believe that the sky was the limit and I can only imagine how many lives he could have positively touched. A good rule of thumb as to someone’s character is how their in-laws speak about them (of course I’m excluding the off their rocker ones). May this family find some form of peace. May the children see all their dreams come true. And may they know in their hearts that he didn’t mean to leave them. I’m so very sorry for your loss. 🥺🥺🙏🏽🙏🏽
Thank you for your comments and for watching.
Thank you! ❤
So touching seeing different loved ones share pain I'm so sorry for the loss of Billy. To his wife hold on strong to your sobriety mama.🙏🏻
😔Still sharing these heartbreaking testimonials with our youngest friends & loved ones.🙏🏻 The younger they learn the better...
You're very smart and very strong Heather. You've got your head around this. Stay strong for yourself and your girls. Addiction is a disease period. The object of that addiction is irrelevant. Your family is not the first to be destroyed by drugs, and unfortunately, it won't be the last. Do whatever you have to do to get stronger. You won't be doing your girls any good if you remain angry. I understand the anger. It is motivated by love. God's peace be with you.
I lost my 19 yr old stepson 4 and half yrs ago to Fentanyl and now my biological son is in rehab for it. Its so scary feeling like every day could be the last. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. My daughter who is 5;yrs older (28) has never even tried a cigarette. I hate the stigma that comes with this. May he rest in peace. God Bless you and your family
I knew Billy! He had a beautiful soul! He was funny and very outgoing. I am so very sorry that this happened to him. He is greatly loved and missed!
RIH Billy. Thank you to this strong family for blessing us with your testimony and loving thoughts of Billy. ❤
💔‼️ Thanks @Texas Pictures Documentaries God bless y'all.
Please accept my sincere heartfelt condolences on the loss of your son🙏. RIP Billy
These videos are so important!!!! Thanks 4 ever to Texas Pictures for producing & presenting these videos. I was severely shocked that legend Prince Rogers Nelson died from Fentanyl poisoning & this deadly greed. I am a small grand of sand. I wish from the bottom of my heart I had more power to stop this horror. I truly send you love
Thank you very much for your comments.
Thank you Texas productions for doing these videos you I am for sure you are making a difference and I hope people in other states start doing this because it happens in every state!
We are doing this in other states. 😉 Some of our existing stories are from Florida, Oregon, California, and New Mexico. Next week we will be shooting stories in Topeka, Kansas for 3 days, with over 20 storytellers scheduled. We also plan to have similar Storytelling Summits in Florida, Louisiana, California, Michigan, Maryland, and other locations.
I'm so sorry for your loss of Billy and having to share his and your story is super brave of you. Please continue to tell his story and remember only the good times you had as a family. I'm sending prayers your way.. RIP young man and May God comfort you during this heartbreaking time in your life. I'm watching from Tucson Arizona
Thank you❤
I am so sorry for your lose. Your story is almost identical to mine. My husband is still alive and addicted to Xanax Bars or any form of Xanax but I go through the same exact patterns as you are talking about. He’s OD’d so many times and he’s a great guy sober. It’s a heartbreaking thing to go through. To watch the person you love to death change constantly drastically.
I'm sorry your husband is a victim of this destructive disease. It's so painful to watch the person you love battle with addiction. I hope and pray your husband decides it's time to get clean before it is too late. 🙏 If you ever need to talk, please feel free to reach out to me.
🙏🏻🙏🏻 for you all I have a brother n law thats in his 50's & hooked on zanax & it's sad he saw where I was at 9yrs ago I was hooked on heroin & I finally got tired im 43yrs old I starting using Roxys 30mgs when I was 29yrs old those 14 yrs were Hell . I just hope he can finally get tired before it's to late I would hate for my wife to have to receive that call God Bless 🙌🏻
benzos are horrifically debilitating and destructive .
I’m so sorry to hear about your husband’s addiction, it’s never easy to come to terms with. I hope he can get some help to stop.
You probably know this already, but there has been a lot of fentanyl-laced Xanax and fake Xanax that is really fentanyl, on the streets. I’m in long term recovery and in the recovery field. Often, dealers don’t even know what’s in the bars, because they’re made overseas. Do you know where you can get Narcan, to keep around? I’m glad you found this channel and hope you have lots of support. Prayers for you and your husband. It’s nobody’s fault! Addiction does not discriminate.
I’m sorry for your loss. I lost a son 2 months ago to addiction. They believe it was fentanyl but we won’t know till the toxicology report comes back.
I was lucky that in NY, they picked up the drugs when they picked up my son’s body. The detective assigned to my son’s case has been a saint. They’re still working the case.
Addiction is mental illness. He had no control whatsoever. No matter what you did, he was going to use. Sadly, I know this truth from my own experience.
You’re a strong woman, thank god for that.
RIP to your Son & I hope he get justice . God Bless You & Your Friends & Family as well .
I'm so sorry 😢no parent should have to go through this.
Wow this is so so sad 😞 I been clean for 7 years and I caused a lot of trauma on my children to this day they won’t even take cold medicine all because of me they think it will kill them smh 🤦🏾♀️ so sorry for this family loss I know exactly how they feel my oldest daughter dad died from an drug overdose three years ago 😢I thought we had more time with him but god had other plans but anyway once again I’m sorry for their loss addiction is a disease and it’s a struggle for anyone that’s going through this just know you are loved no matter what you are loved fly high to all the ones we’ve lost to drug abuse 😢🥺💔🤍🤍🤍🕊
I'm so sorry and saddened..my Billy died as a result of fentynal laced herion..at 16 he was prescribed oxytocin for pain from foot surgery..he sadly managed the addiction in and out of treatment for 15yrs..He died 6/3/20 at 32yrs old..his life and love were gone..no justice was served..the dealer still walks in southwest florida..all of my Billys treatment was in NY..he suffered, I asked him to come live in florida with me, his Momma..he made it 8 months and it killed him within a few hours of purchase..horrendous sad memories of that day..my heart is forever broken..love n hugs to all the grieving families..
They don't expect to die but our loved ones are addicted, chemically changed, body, mind, soul..they do know the risk but are willing to chance it for the relief they are seeking. IM SO VERY SORRY..MY BILLYBOY RIP 6/3/20..
When my daddy pasted from heart problems i remember our preacher saying one day you will have a new normal. That's something I held onto because I grieved for so long nothing seemed right but after awhile he was right there was a new normal. So thats what I try and tell people dealing with grief. It blows my mind people can get pills online, why can the fbi not shut that down. So sorry for your loss.
Because the government is crooked as well that’s why nothing is being done smh 🤦🏾♀️ it’s so freaking sad that everyone is being laced with fentanyl smh so sad and sorry for your loss as well as billy’s
For the love of money 💰 nothing will change until We the people get a different mindset. Health is wealth! I'm trying to enjoy a natural high and live longer After years of self abuse 💜 May God, help Us All🙏🏾
Online?? R u serious…they deliver these deadly concoctions right to your door! Young people make a call and order these drugs like they’re ordering a pizza! So sad!
My whole entire heart goes out to his wife. I was in a very similar situation once upon a time. By the grace of god I was able to get clean and stay clean. To his wife, you’re incredible and don’t ever doubt that. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other no matter what and keep doing the next right thing even when you don’t want to. I’m so sorry for your loss and the pain you’re dealing with. Be the best you can always for those babies. They need you. Remember to always give yourself grace❤❤
PSS - Thank you for saying that just because he was an addict that DOES NOT define him❤️
Yes too the wife you are strong and it’s a reason why god made you that way I wouldn’t know what to do if i experienced that I’ll be a basket case please stay vigilant and keep your mind on god yourself and your children cause they need you so much I’m going to keep you in my spiritual prayers I ask god to cover you and your children with the white light of protection and the white light of positive energy 🤍🤍🤍🕊🕊🕊
Thank you, and congratulations on your sobriety! It is truly the best gift we could ever give ourselves or our families. ❤
Some of these dealers don’t know themselves what the pills or drugs are mixed with.
And they don't care as long as they make the money.
BUT THE ADDICTS DO, IT'S COMMON SENSE You're PUTTING POISON INTO YOUR BODY. BUT YET I STILL AM A ADDICT.
I’m so sorry for your loss.🌹🌹
I can relate to so much of this. My husband had abused pain medication and Xanax. We almost lost everything on his last relapse. He now has been doing better than I've ever ever seen him do, and I've been with him since 1979.
As for the doctor giving him all of those pills. I hope he/she is busted and looses their license and spend some prison time!
Congratulations to your husband on his sobriety 🎉
So sad for his family and friends. I love the photo of him at 1:11 with his pinkie ring and watch. It gave me a great idea of who he was. So sorry for your loss.
That was him! Lol ❤ He definitely knew how to pull off the style 😍
So sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers 🙏
Billy was prescribed painkillers for all of those 32 surgeries he had since he was 15, no doubt. His wife said that she has been, and is currently taking Xanax. You can see this in her eyes and the slow speech pattern. What a sad, sad story, and then Fentanyl. God bless the wife and mother in law.
I noticed she was on drugs too. I pray she stops for her kids sake and her own! God is needed here and everywhere. I could have NEVER picked up doing that business. Selling mind altering drugs is very dirty money. I would have found a job. But that's just me. If the wife get's clean and finds a good job she can gain God's favor.
I do see what you see but she could be taking anti depressants and other meds because of the trauma.
Thanks for sharing your story ❤My 🙏🏽🙏🏽 & condolences to the family on your loss to this tragic disease 😢
I am heartbroken for you and your family’s loss. Sending prayers for comfort and understanding 🙏🏻
What a beautifully put last message at the end of this video. It truly is all about love and being here for one another.
I wish you healing and hope your children give you motivation to continue your journey. You have managed to get sober and stay off. Keep going and the 2 girls grow to be a success that you are so proud of. RIP🕊️🕊️
Everything was so well-spoken thank you for all the advise you gave and I pray that you and your beautiful lil girls are guided by you're guardian angels
Thank you ❤
As a recovering addict and alcoholic my heart breaks for this family and those suffering. Jesus saves 🙏📖💔❤️🩹🩸
AMEN
Watching these stories makes me feel survivors guilt. It makes get that fire in my belly to keep going to fight for those who need a support system.
WOW. That hit me in the gut when you said, then he became empty behind the eyes. Then his eyes were closed, and his mouth was open…. As someone who has struggled, you said so much right there, pretty profound in the most concise way. Sending peace and good vibes yawls way.
Same to you! One day at a time ❤
How does a person quit fentanyl...i heard the addiction will always be there. A lot of young is doing pure fentanyl...crazy! Its sad, feel so sorry for his love ones. Heather speaks very well...Rest in power Billy❤
I’m on a heavy dose for pain and at this time in my life I’d rather die then go thru the withdraws, I’m 58 and can’t imagine getting off it. I think death would be easier for me
inner strength - that is the only thing that keeps a person from taking - whatever they're addicted to - again... some people find something they love more than drugs, like their kids.. that's where they get their inner strength.
it's the same with smoking cigarettes.. once you quit, you can never touch one again.
get past the detox part, the physical addiction part, and the rest is up to the addict.
I was court order rehab countless times went to jail for 6mths got out started using again for 4mths after being clean 6 mths. After those 4mths it finally clicked and I went to rehab willingly. You don't clean til you yourself is ready. Nothing or no one else will make you get clean.
Sending you love and healing energy to your family and loved ones during this difficult time. :(
Ugh, you must be so frustrated. Just awful. Unfortunately, much of society still looks down on addiction-until it happens to their family. The police should have better attitudes toward addiction as they are first responders. RIP Billy. Love to all of you
You can't load this crisis on police.
They are not health care professionals of addiction exerts.
Opioids are not the only thing US has problems with. Police can't fix tem all.
And the facts is that dealing with unlawful drugs is a dangerous. How many cops has had their lives taken fighting the problem. They're putting their own life on the line in their work. Are you?
Blaming the police is absurd. They can't fix the problem.
And in these situations the first responders are usually the EMTs.
It’s a sad situation they could care less about an addict 🤷🏾♀️ I’m an recovering addict of 7 years when I overdosed they treated me like a criminal I was cuffed to the hospital bed the doctor cared more than they did
@@moongoddess238😢 yes indeed the cops do not care but what I see is our government not giving a care either as they allow the mess to stream through our borders from China through Mexico this is the real crime..my boy was an addict too n he died of fentanyl poisoning..I don't believe for one second that he woke up that day n said I want to overdose today..when are they going to prosecute the dealers for this? Stay strong n be well dear ❤ love n light
being open and truthful about our loss is the good step in healing
time will heal..
stay strong ..
This is so sad that there is a police dept who won’t do their job. I hope you get therapy because as a recovered addict you are more susceptible to falling back into addiction. My heart goes out to you darling and you deserve so much happiness. Billy was somebody. He is someone’s son, husband, brother, dad. He isn’t just an addict.
RIP Billy! Prayers for all who love you 🙏🙏🙏
God bless you and your babies, honey♥️🙏 May God bless your paths tenfold🙏🙏
Breaks my heart. I've had addiction problems my whole life and its so hard. Part of you thinks, oh that's never going to happen, or, it's worth the risk, addiction is a real demon. It's a flaw in us as humans. I'm so sorry for this family's loss and the waste of who sounds like a lovely young man. So sorry for the missed opportunities and lost potential.
So very sorry for your loss
My Husband and my Sister in-law and her boyfriend all died on the same day died from Fentanyl
Sorry for your lost. Sounds like a powerful story.
@@TexasPictures Yes it’s
So sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry for your loss.🤍🙏
Wow, girl, you’re special. Beautiful soul. I don’t remember saying that to anyone before. I really hope you and your kids stay safe.
You should try to have this investigated by the DEA not just the local police department
Thank you for watching our story. That's my next step. Im just moving up the ladder until i find someone that is willing to help me. I can't, and I won't just let this go. I want some kind of justice for my husband, our kids, and myself!
What a well spoken young woman. I wish her and her daughters strength. ❤
I love this woman. she comes across so well. God send her peace.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m praying for you 🙏💙 I can relate to all of it.
I don’t have children, but I can imagine the struggle that these parents go through when they had to decide between the drugs or their children. My mom was an alcoholic for the first 10 years of my life before she was strong enough to become stronger than the alcohol. I learned from her how hard it is to choose the substance over family. Heather’s strength will help her and Billy’s children get through this now and in the future when they come to realize what their daddy went through. I hope you all find peace ❤
This breaks my heart! The pain in their voices tells the deepest sorrow!
I feel so bad for this family, his wife is extremely intelligent. I am glad she took a stance to get clean herself. It is heart breaking that he didn't or chose not to as well. This family was so honest about his struggles, and honest about his addiction. So many times in these situations family are in denial even after death. I am very sorry your loss.
Thank you ❤
I lost my husband to fentanyl overdose. I can fully understand your pain. I send hugs and prayers
So sorry for your loss 💔🙏🏽
Incredible woman. May God bless you
Thank you!
Wow!!! What a strong mama!
You did a wonderful job of telling Billy’s story. I feel like you except it wasn’t my husband that died, it was my brother. Like you, he didn’t asked to be killed. We have to get our story out there cause the system doesn’t care. Job well done.
RIP Billy Grey! My heart and prayers goes out to your children who no longer have a father. To his wife and extended family. Prayers for your loss. Addiction Sucks! I lost my sister to alcoholism. It really sucks. 🙏🏻❤️🇺🇸
Heather, so sorry for your loss, may peace be with you and your family. Sharing your experience will help others in many ways. People are waking up to this deadly epidemic and are forming organizations to educate people, especially young and High School kids about how dangerous this stuff is, working on petitioning government and law enforcement to step up the war against Fentanyl and other drugs!
Wow 😮 So sad that the police department wouldn’t help this family, instead, they failed them by not doing a complete investigation on what I consider a murder! The drug dealers will keep killing people until they’re held accountable for selling them lethal drugs
Exactly! Thank you for understanding. ❤
They blew my husbands case off too. It hurts so bad, he was a person! He was loved! He meant so much to so many.
Such a powerful yet harrowingly painful testimony by two beautiful, very loving women. As Billy's wife continues to deeply mourn her loss, I hope she'll rest easy and do all she can to recover her strength.
I hope Heather thrives in life along with her daughters. She's clearly surrounded by loving relatives who support her.
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I have so much compassion for people like this man ❤ I don’t judge anyone who has a pill problem or trouble with drugs. The devil comes in all forms and I wish his family peace and love ❤️
So Sorry, God Bless you and your family ❤
Unfortunately, until numerous law enforcement officers lose THEIR kids to accidental poisonings, we can never count on them to “investigate” or take an “addict’s” death seriously. There is massive judgement, misunderstanding and zero respect for overdose victims.
I’m so grateful for this project. Too often, shows about addiction put the living at the forefront and all the loss and death is only alluded to, if anything. This is done with good intentions, to try to help those who can still be helped, but we are a death-avoidant society. Actual deaths SHOULD be avoided…what I mean is we are uncomfortable with the topic of death. Getting to know the people who are casualties of this epidemic and their families makes a much bigger impression.
Thank you for your comments.
Sorry for your loss we just loss my niece on 12-20-23 she was 27 years old an was so beautiful but someone gave her a fentanyl an the police anit doing nothing about it the police looks down on drug addicted an that’s crazy addiction is a disease I have been clean now for 8 years I think god every day
Morning Texas .. ❤.
Billy Gray please be at peace.🕊️💜🕊️ God bless us 🙏
I hope everyone enjoys the holiday coming up. Embrace tine with urself and family and goid eats. Till next time ...
Beautiful family! Strong wife and mother. My heart goes out to you. I hope if I have to go through hard times I can handle it with the grace you have.
Your story broke my heart to pieces..thank you for sharing Im currently trying to help a friend stay sober
Thank you for your comments. We also have a series of addiction recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here's a link to the playlist: From Addiction to Recovery - ua-cam.com/play/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj.html
I'm so sorry you and your daughters and family had to go through this, you did a great job telling Billy's story, drug addiction is a disease and it's a really misunderstood disease, I was an addict 15 years and finally got help but it was not easy, prayers that you and your family find peace, Thanks for sharing yours and Billy's story.
This is yet another heartbreaking story on addiction and just how dangerous Fentanyl truly is I have nothing but respect for Heather and her mother who bravely tell a story no one should have to tell about anyone especially their loved ones keep your head up Heather i will send healing and comforting vibes for you and your family from Europe. RIP Billy
Absolutely heartbreaking. I'm so sorry that this family has lost their beautiful Billy to this horrendous drug. This pandemic will not stop until the suppliers are identified and stopped. Being killed by Fentanyl can happen to recreational users just as easy as to addicts. XOX from Ireland
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my boyfriend to fentanyl poisoning in 2017. I think you are incredibly strong! You knew you had to pick up the pieces for your girls. You knew you had no choice, and you did what you had to do for your family. I have the utmost respect and admiration for you. ❤️🩹 When you told your girls he's still with you all, you weren't wrong. He's there. He can hear you when you talk to him, and youll be together again one day. I believe that. That gave me some peace in the weeks and months after my boyfriend's death. Maybe you can find some peace too. I pray that for you and your family. 🙏🕊
Can't help but wonder if the pills really were destroyed 🤔
Me too! Supposedly, they are sitting in a destruction bin. 🤷♀️
Sending strength and healing hugs. Such strong women. Thank you for words. Gods children reign with him. God bless. 🙏🏼
I don't leave comments normally, but Heather, so sorry for your loss. You would be a really great counselor or helping addicts'. All the best to you and your family.
I've been an on off addict for 20 years. Am prescribed opiod for pain now, still not the best, but the best ive been for a long time as I have more control than i did.
Wow, This video really really hit me hard, especially at the end. Tears tripping me!! 😢
same here the key is dont abuse it take it like your suppost to myself along with millions of other folks in my age frame would not have any quality of life without there pain medication the punk ass cops know damn well its the fentanyl that is killing all these people and that its not genuine real pain medication from the pharmacy
I found my Son blue and very dead. I'll never get it out of my head. I'm glad she didn't see him. Nightmare fuel
Heather needs to become an awareness speaker and activist. She has a gift.
I am so sorry for your loss! I wish you the best please write a book!
Abilene police department I see nothing has changed. My uncle case went about the same way with APD to. I'm so sorry for your loss. Went have loss a few family members to fentanyl. And the cases handled by APD and yeah it went a lot like that..
Wow so it sounds like they need to fire and hire better cops that actually want to protect and serve this breaks my heart 💔🥺😡
May God bless you, you are amazing and so strong.
Praying for your family grateful heart giver nff peace ✌🏾
Oh wow that's awful to know that the cops destroyed the evidence and act like so what?!? But if it was someone rich or a celebrity then maybe they would have been doing their dam job instead of screwing up!! This shit should never have happened!! The dealer should have been arrested for killing her husband, period!! Instead they just say oh well maybe next time.. my heart hurts for your loss. I've lost a few relatives from overdose from fetty...
If the police had done their job, we as a family may have more closure. It's very frustrating and unfair. An apology, from 1 detective, is literally all I have ever received from the Abilene Police Department in almost a year. Thank you for understanding!
Texas Pictures Documentaries is just top!
Well shucks, thanks.
I agree❤
Rest in peace, family be strong think that he is a better place,not with the demons in his brain,and always the anguish that drugs is going to take his life. We are the ones carrying the sorrow, he is in peace.
Our condolences may he rest in heaven😢😢😢😢😢🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
I'm so sorry for your loss...to the grieving wife I hope you know you are a beautiful lady fwiw. You won't want to hear this now perhaps but I hope and expect you can find a happy future still for you and your kids, whatever that looks like. For everyone else watching maybe with kids struggling with opioid addiction, I worry this series, whilst definitely necessary, might really frighten parents; I know the channel does survivor stories too...respect to them for having the insight to know that the possibility of survival is also a necessary part of the whole story. I mainlined heroin (and often crack) for 13 years straight...well that isn't true...I mainlined until I had no veins left except my femoral...until I quit. I did OD once and nearly died...but parents please know not every story ends in disaster. I am a father of 3 kids myself now and a qualified professional in two hard skill disciplines. Much love.
Heather you have a voice & understanding of addiction that you should use ❤️🌟Lots of school age children would listen to you, please try & change the world when you feel able to. So sorry about Billy, his daughters & yourself must miss him sooo much huge hugs from Wales in Great Britain. 🤗❤️🩹
So incredibly impactful. Wow. I really don’t have the right words to say. This makes me want to Let everyone in the world know about this danger. Makes me so scared for my friends and family. I struggle with addiction in general but After hearing these stories I will Never ever in my life take a street Pill. It could’ve been any one of us. Thank you so much for sharing this story. You’re unremarkably strong.. Your voice is heard I am going to talk with all my Loved ones this holiday and do my best to protect anyone else from this Evil. Prayers to you and your family ❤
We also have a series of addiction recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here's a link to the playlist: From Addiction to Recovery - ua-cam.com/play/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj.html
When she said, "I became the person he had to hide it from," may be one of the most impactful statements. Being a sober addict, is traumatizing, in itself. Addiction. The opioid epidemic, Fentanyl. They're such multifaceted issues that we have to have highly personal testimonials before we dare ask for compassion, because of stigma. Everything that we do to fight opioids, especially fentanyl, focuses on convincing 99% of society that 100% of addicts are worthy. Imagine if this issue were approached how we approach other terminal illness's? Imagine if we had fact based, scientific treatment centers, rather than religious based, "step" programs. Imagine if politicians weren't lobbyists for pharmaceutical companies. Socioeconomics does play a huge role in power structure. That's exactly what has enabled the need for middle class America to speak on personal experience. Nobody listened when lower class america was screaming. It's all very tragic.
You did a amazing job telling your story, you are a very strong woman and I’m so glad that you have such a great family to ❤ it’s so so hard and challenging and sad when your loved one is a addict , have wished over and over to take her pain away and help but until they are ready I just do ALOT of praying 🙏 I hope nothing but great things come your way and a happy life for you and your children ❤❤❤ I hope someday they hold the people responsible for making these pills!!!
So sad, Im crying listening and all Ive heard is his accomplishments. Dam world makes me sick. As a wife you did a fabulous job conveying your husbands spirit.
I wish you all the healing and happiness possible for you and your daughters.
The desire to blank out the world, the feelings, emotions that are are crushing you, so you will take anything to quell that pain. I dont know why that feeling is so strong in some.
People point to abuse, childhood trauma. That makes sense to me. There is no backstory to Billy's early childhood. I maybe missed it. But I know the feeling of living and it being, or feeling too much to manage so that any relief offered is grasped at.
You are a strong woman. I wish I could make those none caring ppl listen to you. Get the word out. May God bless you and your family. I am so sorry.😢🎉