My truth was forced out... and it became obvious that I never existed
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My truth was forced out... and it became obvious that I never existed
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“I was ashamed of myself when I realized life was a costume party and I attended with my real face.” - Kafka
only no one seems to able to source it in his works. but he should have said it. I think he would have said it. I know I've said it, felt it. it's the feeling of gaucherie isn't it?
Pffft… method actors.
If you are a shamed you still sleep
@@rahmasamir909Yes! Guilt and pride are both tendencies of the ego.
it's all you playing with yourself
This reminds me of a Koan where a monk asks his master, “can a person pass through the gateless gate with a broken heart?”, and the master replies, “there are many gates and many keys, but the master key is the broken heart.” Suffering can show one the path to enlightenment.
The Genuine Heart Of Sadness
Through the practice of sitting still and following your breath as it goes out and dissolves, you are connecting with your heart. By simply letting yourself be as you are, you develop sympathy toward yourself." ( "The sitting practice of meditation is the means to rediscover basic goodness, and beyond that, it is the means to awaken this genuine heart within yourself. When you sit upright but relaxed in the posture of meditation your heart is naked. When you awaken your heart in this way, you find, to your surprise, that your heart is empty. ... Your entire being is exposed - to yourself, first of all but to others as well. ... If you search for awakened heart, if you put your hand through your rib cage and feel for it, there is nothing there except for tenderness. You feel sore and soft, and if you open your eyes to the rest of the world, you feel tremendous sadness." "The genuine heart of sadness comes from feeling that your nonexistent heart is full. You would like to spill you heart's blood, give you heart to others. For the warrior, this experience of sad and tender heart is what gives birth to fearlessness. Conventionally, being fearless means that you are not afraid... Real fearlessness is the product of tenderness. It comes from letting the world tickle your heart, you raw and beautiful heart. You are willing to open up, without resistance or shyness, and face the world. You are willing to share your heart with others.
“(When seeking is there)We are desperate to be happy, we’re desperate to be at peace, desperate to look OK and appear successful…..to hide, what’s simply here” -Suzanne 2023
Desperation itself is the antithesis of peace and being happy
@@PetraKann in fact it is included in real peace (which goes beyond ...) .
Seeking can encourage expectations. So there's that.
When I look inside I can't find anyone, no man, no woman, no individual nothing only consciousness. And my mind/thoughts is not who I am,I can't explain it there is everything but also nothing, it's joy peace love and every word I write is too much to explain how it is,it is just what it is, nothing is Everything and everything is nothing. And when i write i i mean consciousness Or energy it so hard to explain while it is so simple There is only life that lives itself. You/we are life itself. Wish everyone ( no one ) lots of love and peace.❤☮️☯️
Oh yeah, "Family" or "friends" won't ever understand what enlightenment is. "I" always have to toss together some random layers of crap to give them a "self" they can interact with. "I" can never be 100% with them because they just deflect it, reject it, supress it, call "me" crazy or saying "oh thats what a kid would say." Their ego has a very strong grip on them, so it's a waste to try to explain to them. You can't teach enlightenment, you can't wake anyone up, they have to want to wake up from the dream because their dream has become a nightmare.
Bingo. Now how furious do u get wen u think or start to connect with one of em and then they say the words that prove “holy shit wat am I waisting my time sitting here trying to explain the glorious truth I’ve learned and for them to just respond like I was crazy or ask if I’m on drugs “ whoooweeeee that shit dnt happe. To me no more luckily cuz I know better than to over talk with the ones I love but don’t love me
@@mikeypeinado383 "I" am neutral. While there are moments where egoic remnants float on by to say hello and try to rebuild a self, "I" simply gently push it away and say hello ego, was expecting you sooner or later, bye bye, back to the drawing board you go.
As for dealing with the asleep..."I" shift back and forth. When around some character, like "I" said, "I" toss together some random echo's of the old identity and while it's held together by bent rusty nails and ducttape, it holds together for the purpose it was needed. Same purpose as any character "you" interact with in a dream...the phantoms in the dream are there just to add believability. "I" don't seek out people much, Humans are a very....toxic character. Granted it's ego that makes them toxic. "I" have no "friends", there are a few characters who are aware that "I'm" enlightened. A few who's characters are psychologists, or university professors. When not around any characters "I" shift back to the nothingness. Shedding that disgusting ego suit. Really the only point of the characters skin suit is to interact with the dream. If there is a dog and "I" want to pet it, well nothingness can't interact with a dog....so gotta toss some junk together to make some character that can interact with it. The air can't interact with a dog, it could push something into the dog sure, lol.
There is definitely moments where egoic fragments surge up trying to create a self, such as moments of frustration or anger at the asleep for how stupid they are. How oblivious they are and they're denial in truth. Imagine a person so adamant that they say the sky is actually made of grass.... Ego will always use it's soldiers to attempt to bait "you" to interact with it, ego needs the attention, the validation. "I" don't, nothingness doesn't need or want anything, it's nothingness.
What helps a bit is finding a fellow enlightened nobody. It's like a meteor flying through space all alone, and eventually passing another one. It's like oh...so I wasn't the only one....neat...hello....and good bye. Then carrying on. I also write enlightenment content within the dream, "my" books are for those asleep who are capable of waking up. Or perhaps a fellow enlightened nobody cares to have some brief amusement and a smile from reading them.
This is so accurate... But accept they are consciousness in a different timeline and stage. Kids can't understand complex issues... They're simply not there yet...
Eckhart Tolle teaches us to just be the witness to all the mind’s suffering, and it’s endless problem stories. It’s the way to step out of the sea of suffering of the mind.
i had no idea when this journey started (ego death) it has been intense. Lot's of rejection, shame, difficult thoughts, hard memories, existential fear at times, all rising to the surface to be revealed, to be acknowledged, nutured, healed, forgiven and let go of. To dissolve the false sense of self i've identified with all these years. It's important to find healing practices throughout this process. Actually going through this process has made me more compassionate towards the human condition in general. This is not an easy construct to reconcile.
Beautifully said
I absolutely adore your aesthetic.
The graveyards. The loving silences. Ah gosh you're like the girls I grew up loving.
This video is a life changer for me. I was in a state of depression for months/years, chronic pain, insomnia, exhaustion, withdrawl from people, isolation, anxiety and darkness. Your message about allowing it all to land fully and express the depth and extent of suffering and insanity, to give it a voice and acknowledgement without any projection or blame. I had a great discussion with family members about it all, using your guidelines in this video, and it was received openly without judgement. This is finally shifting it and allowing me to break free from its terrible reign. I can now rest in God's love and find strength and inspiration to act from there.
For the last 2 days, I have slept better after all the insomnia, and I've had the energy to go outside after being indoors for days, to walk around and go about living with some beautiful connections along the way. I was too scared ro do that for months and now it feels natural after seeing through this veil of conditioning and identity.
Thank you so much for the refreshing insights.
So beautiful ♡
The past week I've been having an attack of so many emotions. Anger, grief, jealousy, and so much more. The thoughts of ending it all came back after so long. No one was really able to hold space for me.
I spoke to a stranger who put himself as a friendly person. As I shared my feelings he immediately told me I was wrong and tried to improve me. I've always been a people pleaser, but I couldn't help but tell him to shut it and I'm not afraid of my emotions. I didn't start to argue. Just said my piece and walked away.
The following morning (yesterday) I ended up crying with another stranger. She was in a lot of pain, I was in a lot of pain, but there was no finger pointing. It felt so nice to just share space with someone not trying to fix one another.
From yesterday night to right now as I'm writing this, I don't know what else to say other than I feel extremely tender in a way that I'm not afraid of.
Thank you for sharing your time with us, Suzanne.
That was so beautiful to read. Thanks so much for sharing ♡♡♡
Don’t kill urself u have to watch the golden web part 1-3 by the last Chiron on UA-cam STUDY IT and wen ur done just remember wat I said and share with others 9 hrs those videos will break u out of the matrix and realize that it’s all a game literally he puts it in the most amazing way . So it’s up to u whoever’s eyes who see this . U can think I’m just talking or u can take this as a sign that ur meant to go back to those videos and STUDY IT . Wen u realize after the first video u will never need to drink from the river that others drink from ur life will only contain and hunger for truth this river flows and goes infinite
My life is absolutely fucked. I enjoy listening to you
Your life is a divine gift to experience.
The main reason I know it's okay to have any experience at all is that the experience is THERE (here, wherever). Like, how can it not be okay when it's already there?
What really surprised me was just how some of the suffering became unconscious, thinking that I got rid of it, only to realize what a fucking burden it's been carrying layer after layer of it for so long.
Yeah, me too... I had no idea
THE ENDLESS ABYSS....
This one really hit home after a recent heartbreak. I ignore reality cause I don't want pain, but I am pain if thats what happens.
What you expressed in the first 2 minutes is so true, one is considered as a burden if one is authentic.
The trauma teaches us who we really are.
Beautiful. 🙏
Yes exactly only suffering Can teach you reality
I would love to see a book from you. I was in the military for 7 months in 2022 from January 1st to 17 July and, wanted therapy and they sent me to psychology. They diagnosed me with psychosis even thought I didn't feel like having any kind of psychotic emotions. They wanted me to use some kind of psychotics pills, but I refused. After that they felt of usage of the pills and was forcing me to take it and talked many times to take the pills, but I was still refusing due to sawing no reason for it. I felt attacked and the odds was suddenly against me. They put me to mental hospital for 2 and a half a month and put anti-psychotic medicine on me through vein. The experience was traumatizing and damaging. After that It left me with empty hearth and no emotions. Im 20 years old.
I'm sorry that you had to go through that experience... 🌻
meetoo,@@builderbob3149 but that´s just the right moment to leave all this bs behind!
this guy needs a mentor - a book could be just an additional support.
20 years .... life is before you, valdog, you can decide if you want to let it go down the drain.
i am 70 and i know what i am talking about!
you simply have to discover your freedom and mental power to do the right thing!
(or better: allow the right thing to be done/to happen in the moment) ... .
best wishes!
The period of bleakness has lasted for almost 7 years to me.
Too much incomfortability in my body ever since.
I'm glad to have bumped into you in here 🙏💚🌞
You have given language to a process I’ve been going through for the past six years.
Life is but a dream!
Currently in the bleakness, nothing other than it. All things bleak emptiness. Fullness has yet to reveal itself. Only Despair. The complete loss of everything known cannot be imagined, nor the absolute comfort and peace of unknowing….and in the intolerability of it all is the okayness. There’s quiet beauty to this sadness.
Same here. I love you. I feel you.
Dear Suzanne,Thankyou so very much for sharing your message ,it truly truly resonates as i am going through just something like this and iam so surprisef myself that why such exaggerated reactions, so much hurt,crying, and cant explain much to others whats happening. Besides i want happiness and peace while i am crying and hurting myself and others. But thankyou for sharing .lots of love to you.❤🙏🙏👌👌😍🙏
Love your honesty - it's so refreshing ❤️
Vulnerability is an invisible super power. Very good video.. interesting that you're in a cemetery death rebirth. This video is the completion of the cycle may you find life and you mentioned love is everywhere once you really know... Awakening!
Meditating in a graveyard, thinking about healing and non-duality...are you my soul sister!? Amazing!
I have done all of those same things in the past year. Fantastic to find another similar soul. :)
This is so relatable 💯 thank you 💞🙏🐦
He who speaks of love has no known it. He who has not tasted it by drinking it down has not known it.” Ibn al Arabi
i love love love your videos. please keep them coming❤❤❤❤❤❤ i feel so seen 👁️
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So interesting how different it appears to all of us in its own special way.
Wow! You have no idea how much what's been said in this video resonates here... thank you Suzanne!
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Nice :)
@@suzanne-chang Wow, is that the first time "you" have ever replied to a comment? I've seen "you" heart comments but never reply to anyone lol.
Thank you so much for sharing this! It resonated SO much with me. It's amazing how comforting it can be to listen to someone who gets it, what you're experiencing.
Thanks for the videos.
Thank you, Suzanne, great sharing. I can SO relate! 💗🙏
Thank you!!! Liking!!!!
Thank you Suzanne ❤
You really spoke to me today, thanks for sharing. Love!
Yes exactly i competely agree resoante with you 100% suzanne this time because this is exactly how i feel i said the exact samething you said too i really love this video so much this is my favorite video so far i gave it a thumbs up!
Simply wonderful. Thank you.
Thank you, wise woman. I relate to every word you said. I’ve been going through this lately as well.
At one point I felt I was at your stage, and at this moment listening to you I feel left behind.
Thank you for making these videos !
Thank you for this, deeply speaks to me
Volcano from below!
Thunder and lightning from above!
Such freedom in allowing all this energy to be and to express!
Thank you, Suzanne, for your acceptance and encouragement.
Priceless.
Free.
Obvious once we see and allow it…
🙏💜🔥🤬😂🫥⭕️🌻
Simply memorizing, totally captivated me!
I don't know why this video came up for me but I'm glad it did. I really enjoyed hearing your insights. Thank you for sharing them.
I've been going through sooo many changes within myself/how I perceive & function. I've faced my own personal hell & having full on flashbacks to release that pent up pain. It!!! Is!!! So!!! Worth!!! It!!!Illusions and veils falling away, feeling less separation from people & nature & objects around me. Personally this journey feels like returning to how I was as a child. Not constantly analyzing, not dissociating, not doubting what I feel & intuitively know. Life becomes what is has actually been this whole time🤣🤣 I honestly feel lucky I get to experience the fall of my "ego" and how we all experience it differently. I'm in that stage where everything is what it's supposed to be & I'm in awe, I'm naturally tripping, naturally high on life ;) I wish you all a beautiful journey; you deserve it❤️🥰
Nibbana is the way out. Sending you a Spiritual Hug you need it !😛😛😛😛😛😛😛😛
I look At rejection as a leveling up when it happens. We all have moments. This is the warriors path
You are a brave warrior.
A lot of the turmoil comes from living in an unawakened society, it does bring confusion and friction to fit in.
It takes so much courage to genuinely open and share one's heart the way you are doing, and being exactly with what is there in front of you.
Thanks for sharing!
Thanks so much Alex 💛
Wow! Thanks, thanks, thanks.
Hey Suzanne, everything came crashing down a few days after watching this video for "me" the sense of "self" has dissolved thank you so much it has been truly beautiful ❤❤❤ no words can even describe
Nice ♡ ♡ ♡
@@suzanne-chang its been truly amazing words can't describe thank you 🙏
Thank you. Just thank you. 🙏
Something about these videos feel bleak - as much grasping at enlightenment as a suicide note.
Perhaps it’s because it intersects with my own profound sense of loss - who I once told myself I was, those who told themselves I was someone they loved - are no more.
I don’t mean to project, or conflate where Suzanne is coming from with where I am. But Buddhist thought separate from religious traditions popularized in the West (and the East) can indeed be bleak. No real self, no transmigration of the soul, no spirit to speak of, no pretensions of endlessness.
It is quite something to recognize yourself as a construct, but also to know there’s no fuzzy, warm effervescent self bubbling God eternal.
The truth of what Buddha taught is a hard pill to swallow indeed.
Our consciousness is an epiphenomenon of our bodies; our egos, our identities are constructed; we are not our feelings, but we are also not as the Hindus believed - an expression of Brahman.
These bodies, our experiences in them, rise and fall in the ocean of being. But being is not our cup to drink from eternal. There is no everlasting life. We don’t come back. We don’t do it all again. We aren’t God experiencing himself through all iterations of existence, though it is miraculous that we can simply be anything at all, for only a blink.
I like these videos because they make me feel like I’m not alone. I struggle with these videos because they remind me of how profoundly alone we all truly are.
I like the person Suzanne got to be. In light of my blindness and myriad blind spots, I hope she is feeling a joy that I simply cannot yet see.
you are so strong suzanne
Thank you ♡
i really try to follow your videos, i dont pretend to understand, but i keep coming back
I call the mind the meaning making machine because what if what they said to you that was hurtful to you it was not to them . And because you're an HSP your meaning making machine always at bay to hurt you, what if your mind hurts you and not their words. I understand this all so well in my world I don't take shit from people but I use to be waking up has help my living so incredibly much . I love listening to you ! Have a beautiful Saturday/Sunday 4 of July week !!! Enjoy the fireworks !!! Even thou you don't exist 😛
right, we all have a right to speak our truth just like every one else... who would've thought? thankyou for this
It hurts because you want it to be so true, and it is in a sense, but the real genuine part is knowing you can come back from it. It takes time but it heals.
I don’t know if or what you are going through. Much of what you’re saying describes the human condition. There is a huge distinction between happiness and joy. I wish you joy. You are in a place right now have you stopped and simply asked. What am i doing here?
I feel you and I am instilling my will to carry you solace. I understand never existing at a fixed point in time, and how seeing the world we are born into as frightening for all its ills. I have adopted the job of professing my love to nature, and I am growing my effort to minister to the ills I find as I listen to my heart. Your story is always picked up from the moment you embrace the truth of being, I love you, simply because you are a part of my nature, as we share this living moment, and I am inspired to pour my heart both ways, inward and out, so that I may make of myself a worthy vessel for the divine love I'm feeling. By practicing propriety so I that dont remain circling in roles that have outserved their common daily practice, I have tried to play at many things people do so I might better understand why, I do allow for my outlandish seeming thoughts to inspire me to find treasure in all things that capture my attention in the moment and the love for the living beings that shape them. Sometimes, looking back, I can see where I have been guilty of grossness and negligence, so I am also instilling my intent wirh the practice of cultivating my grace in order to create common cause instead of friction as I encounter other persons in daily life. I can. I will. I do. That has become my mantra. Perhaps I'll start a band. I just saw your video come in on my feed and felt it my place in this moment to reach out to you and let you know that you are not alone in your feelings. Never existing is the saddest reality that all of our hearts rail against. Onward and inwards, towards the heart of the story.
I definitely would like to do a podcast with you!!
Hi Suzanne🤗🥰
In my opinion, anything with the flavour of 'no choice' is simply a vestige of our own actual thinking. We think of cause-to-effect. And then yes, there is no choice. But real world does not work like that, because this would create infinite past. Abandon 'no choice', is my advice. Yes, to you Suzanne.
Thanks!
Thank you Mr. Ester ♡ Much appreciated
Thank ❤
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The "desire" to feel/ "be" accepted from those who remain in the illusion of false self is an alarm bell to wake back up from the conditioning.
Not a judgement, only observation.
Eyes wide open !
It was never my truth either !!
You are a beautiful lotus born out of suffering.
It is the Exact Opposite
There is No You
Suffering is what makes you go within and reject the false concept of individuality
Time is nothing but sensations flowing over trapped congealed energy of prior sensations giving the illusion of continuity
The Past and Future need the Present Moment to exist proving that they have No Reality of their own
Thank you so much Anglikai ♡♡♡ Much love to you ♡♡♡
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thanks
For this being it's different. Yes, suppression. Yes, suffering. I don't speak to those who "apparently" hurt this being. I can see and feel that everything comes from love, even what looks like hate. So I speak to a few who compassionately listen and then point toward love. This apparent inclination feels freeing beyond the mind's ideas.
no self is mentioned often.
what about no "you"?
you
is a social construct
we all share an experience of.
you is
who we believe ourselves to be.
I think we are meant to go to our next mission beyond this life. I am ready.
You’re just gonna skip over all this?
The idea that there's another mission beyond "this life" is precisely the trap of samsara. Proceed with caution.
Cheers, sweet Chesnut, flower of heart. Listening was like a journey.
The slow surprise of fullness
Just a touch here
Uncontrollable just like the emptying,
Full of assumptions
But who cares for now
Sweet chesnut of my heart
Why fuss with getting it right
This senseless meeting in love
However it is
Opens now by expression
Like it wants to
Enjoy...
Teasing itself,myself
Bored with grating
What a lot of grating
There seemed to be
Could go on forever
Yes
No control
But who cares?
Sweet chesnut
Cheers!
I imagine for someone who has done years of shadow work it would be easier. By then you pretty much know your patterns and if you go deep enough you accept them.
Yees youre right all the work tires you out. Then it can become easier just to accept your human feelings ❤️
Focused energy. Flows, holding on to low frequency causes clouds snow of thinking. Go
Neither existence nor non-existence. Perennial paradoxical truth.
I'm noticing that this generation is yielding up some incredibly insightful people. I don't envy them growing up in an era with so many meaningless distractions.
We are all "but mirrors of each other"😊
you r correct
🐚🙏🏼💫
Everything come at right time.
Just be patient
What you said at the end of the video reminds me of Saint John of the Cross "Dark Night of the Soul"
Volcanic meltdowns, no thanks! 🌋 😮😂.
Sometimes its difficult to tell whether suffering and its expression is part of the conditioning process. As in, playing a role handed down to us.
Like say for instance, family, is it a contained unit dependent on genes, nation, religion, and reputation? With no one capable of coming upon an insight as to the relative nature of thought. So never truly meeting as complete human beings. Always bound for conflict with the person and the roles expectations.
Imagine that honest self expression at dinner time! 😮
Luckily, your breakdowns pierce through walls, simmers volcanos and puts the past in its place. 👍
The True Sun Obstructs One Eye
The Other Enjoys The White Diamond Finish Of Rooftop Snow
I am a Cyclops
And I am Happy
There just reality looping into itself
SAMSARA🤔Look in to Gautamas Teachings please ?🎯🎯🎯
every thought is a story, a fairytale.
Why must your hang out place be the graveyard 😂😅❤️
You know, narcissism comes in many forms, including the non-dual. The non-you is even at this moment caught in her seductive snares.
Ever looking into the mirror of your self-indulgent no self!
You tell a lot of stories, yet there are no stories! Nobody doesn’t need stories! ☯🤔
"He who speaks doesnt know. He who knows is silent" 😑
@@mrzoegod5300 knowledge is the currency of the illusory individual! ☯🤷♂🤔
@@advaitawho once you know you know that you dont know lol
@@mrzoegod5300 , you don’t know that you don’t know 😂
define what it means to exist and to not exist...from my enlightened point of view the only thing that really exists is the real infinite, limitless and eternal real I..that can be realized in the beyond..have you realized that this thing is Light? that its the Original Face..probably not...
Stunningly beautiful as always
I still just dont get the Cemetery thing
You must be making some kind of statement that I dont understand
I was saddened when I found out that words don't have to mean anything.
.....and lo and behold you are able to tell everyone that you never existed.
Being honest with your inner self is the first step towards accepting your finality and death.
It's difficult to do - most important things are difficult to do.
Can't hide in the cupboard forever.....
Freedom = dominating ones free will....words are powerful ...spelling=spells...
People only hear what they want to hear, and to apply this selective, limiting filter on what others have to share is to both serve the self's interests as it is to limit one's access to the truth. And so to silence or deny us our freedom of expression is to hold a double-edged blade: they have their interests served, but they're cut off from seeing the truth. Life's a game of picking one's battles, I guess
What’s the difference between something becoming obvious and something being known?
More of this?
I am attracted to the sound of your voice and your beautiful face😍