“I was so captivated by the house he built for me. I DIDN’T NOTICE THE LOCKED DOOR . I DIDN’T NOTICE I WAS HELD CAPTIVE BY THIS GARDEN OF GUILT” that hit me like a truck
Jessica/girl Mila/boy Both "Good morning!" "How did you sleep?" "I couldn't stop thinking about you." "You're so sweet." "So what did you do last night?" "Homework." "Why couldn't you FaceTime?" "Hey!" "How's your day been?" "Better if it was with you. How was school?" "Good. I got partnered up with my friend Jake for a bio project." "Who's Jake?" "Good morning! I love you!" "I miss you!" "When can I see you?" "I'm still grounded. " "Can you sneak out?" "Hey!" "What are you doing right now? Can you come over?" "Sorry, I'm going over to Mila's." "Is anyone else gonna be there?" "Just some friends from school." "Like Jake?" "I don't know, maybe." "I bet you'll have more fun with him." "Hey." "Are you mad?" "Why haven't you gotten back to me?" "Hello???" "Are you with Jake???" "You have reached the voicemail box of..." "Where are you?? Why are you ignoring me??" "You have reached the voicemail box of..." "Why are you doing this to me??" "You have reached the voicemail box of..." "I STILL HAVE THE PILLS, YOU TOLD ME TO GET RID OF THEM, I'M GONNA DO IT. " "Hey, I'm so sorry, my phone died. I didn't bring my charger to school. Are you okay?? PLEASE call me when you get this." "Hey!" "Did you get any of my messages? I'm so sorry." "If you're sorry, why don't you send me a picture that'll cheer me up?" "I'm at dinner with my family..." "You can run to the bathroom." "I don't know, maybe later?" "Not now? You owe it to me!" "I don't think I can do this..." "Are you breaking up with me? I can't live without you!" "I don't want this anymore..." "Sunshine, I need you, you're the only person I care about!!" "I don't wanna be with you..." "YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME." "It's too much..." "IF YOU BREAK UP WITH ME I'LL KILL MYSELF." "I'm so sorry! Are you there??" "You have reached the voicemail box of..." "Please don't do this..." "I love you." THERE ARE TEENAGE GIRLS EVERYWHERE BEING TAUGHT THAT THIS IS LOVE. LOVE IS NOT PUTTING YOUR PARTNER'S SATISFACTION BEFORE YOUR OWN SAFETY. LOVE IS NOT JEALOUSY DRESSED AS PROTECTION. LOVE IS NOT CONFUSING YOUR BODY FOR HIS MIDNIGHT SNACK. LOVE IS NOT BEING FORCED INTO ANYTHING! EVEN WHEN HE HAS YOU CONVINCED THAT YOU WANT THIS! I THOUGHT MY SPREAD LEGS COULD HEAL HIS BROKEN. I SACRIFICED MY COMFORT IN ATTEMPT TO COMFORT HIM. EVEN AFTER HE BEGGED ME TO GET HIM OFF IN A PARKING LOT. EVEN AFTER HE FORCED HIS HAND ON MY SKIRT IN A MOVIE THEATER. EVEN AFTER I SAID NO. WE ARE TAUGHT TO SWALLOW OUR PROTESTS IN EXCHANGE FOR HIS APOLOGY. WHEN I MISS HIM... I MISS ONLY THE WARMTH. I DO NOT THINK ABOUT THE BURN MARKS. THE MORNINGS THAT I COULD NOT KEEP MY BREAKFAST DOWN. MISTAKING ANXIETY FOR BUTTERFLIES. AND OUR FIRST TWO MONTHS TOGETHER, I LOST SIXTEEN POUNDS TO PALPITATIONS AND WEAK STOMACHS. WHENEVER MY PHONE RINGS AT NIGHT, I STILL THINK IT'S HIS 2AM SUICIDE CALLS. EVERY TIME MY PHONE VIBRATES, I STILL LOSE MY APPETITE. WHEN MY FRIENDS ASK ME WHY I STAYED SO LONG... WHY I ACCEPTED THE ROSES AND IGNORED THE THORNS. I TELL THEM, IT IS NOT EASY TO WEED OUT THE ROOTS HE PLANTED IN ME. I TELL THEM, I WAS SO CAPTIVATED BY THE HOUSE HE BUILT FOR ME. I DIDN'T NOTICE THE LOCKED DOOR. I DIDN'T NOTICE I WAS CAPTIVE TO THIS GARDEN OF GUILT. I TELL THEM, I TRIED LEAVING. BUT HE HELD THE GUN TO HIS HEAD. AND I FEARED MY ESCAPE WOULD'VE BEEN WHAT PULLED THE TRIGGER. WE ARE TIRED OF THIS GUILT. THIS GUILT THAT MUST MEAN GIRLS. WITH UNRECOGNIZABLE VICTIMS. WE FELL IN LOVE WITH A WARNING SIGN. IF HIS FISTS EVER MEET YOUR FACE. DO NOT CONFUSE IT FOR SPARKS FLYING. OR YOUR BODY WILL BLOOM IN BRUISES. THERE IS NOTHING ROMANTIC ABOUT A BOUQUET OF BLACK EYES! I AM TIRED OF HOLDING THORNS! BABY! DID YOU NEVER FEEL THE BLOOD BETWEEN OUR HELD HANDS. OR DID YOU JUST MISTAKE IT FOR TEARS OF YOUR OWN. BECAUSE OF YOU... The number you dialed has been changed, disconnected, or is no longer in service. Goodbye.
Pretty much all of this happened to me. That's one reason why I'm scared to love a guy bc my ex hit me. I truly thought when he called me late at night it was his suicide call. I still have a scare from him. I thought it was love but I realized it wasn't love at all. Now idk what love is or feels like
any performance i watch of these two girls i see the girl with the blonde hair either angry sad or over worked. especially with this poem. It makes me wonder if she went through this
My ex boyfriend used to say that he was "suicidal" in attempts to shut me up when I was trying to talk to him about my own real issues with depression, suicide, and anxiety. I believed him even though I knew it wasn't true. I would stop talking to him about my own problems because I didn't want him to get worked up or trigger any reactions. Any time I tried to have a real conversation with him about myself or my issues, he would turn the topic back to him about how he "had a bad day" or was "bullied" by some poor kid he was trying to make fun of. Every time I had a panic attack and wanted to talk it out with him so that I didn't go into one of my episodes after the panic attack ended, he didn't even try to act like he cared. I stopped texting him after I had a panic attack... because I didn't want the conversation to bother him. If we were on the phone or face timing, I'd tell him that my phone was dying so that I could hang up and let one of my episodes finish itself off so that he didn't have to watch me go through it and feel uncomfortable. He shoved my own real problems to the side and replaced them with his made up issues with "suicide" and "separation anxiety" so that he didn't need to listen to me. My mental health continued to deteriorate and he never glanced away from his "bad day" long enough to see me slowly killing myself. Starving so that he would find me more interesting and pay more attention to me. Depraving my mind of the education it desires so that I could face time him instead of getting an A in algebra and earning my academic scholarship. Listening to him complain because we "never talk" and he "misses" me and I was "always too busy" for him. He broke up with me over snapchat so that he could date one of my best friends who is a ftm transgender and was currently going through transition. He broke up with me over snapchat because apparently I wasn't interesting enough and he wanted to be the guy that dated the trans dude. When they broke up, he texted me again. Saying how much he missed me and how stupid he was to break up with me. When I said no, I didn't want to get into that relationship again, he brought up suicide again. He told me that I was the only thing keeping him from killing himself. He told me that if we didn't get back together he would have no reason to live. I was so naive to think of that as sweet, to think that he loved me so much that he would say that. So we dated for another year. The mentally abusive, toxic relationship kept getting worse and worse. Until one week I was particularly busy with school, and he texted me claiming that we "never talk anymore" and he didn't think the relationship would work. I cried my eyes out for weeks over this douchebag. He still tries to talk to me and be friendly. He still tries to ask me if we can be friends. He still wants to act like nothing ever happened. After we broke up, my anxiety continued to get better. I haven't had a panic attack in months. After we broke up, I never thought of cutting myself or killing myself. I'm now 3 months clean. After we broke up, my grades got better. I'm now a straight-A student. I hadn't recognized that I was in a toxic relationship until I got out of it. And no one else had, either.
Ghostie You have an absolutely incredible story that not only I but so many others can relate to. If at all possible I would love to be your friend in the hopes that we can try to help others going through the same amount of mental abuse and struggle that so many more see each year. :) please, keep thriving.
I cried when I read this oh my gosh I never want to see someone suffer like this it hurts my heart cause I’ve been through this I’m so damn sorry you had to go through this I hope you meet someone better and who will treat you right and I just want to say your not alone and don’t ever let someone control you
My ex boyfriend always would threaten suicide when I tried to break up with him. I finally did and he killed himself a few years later... I don't know what to do now.
RunawayScarsxxx he would've gotten over it within a few years, don't worry if there were 100% more reasons than you that he killed himself, you were just a piece of the whole puzzle. I'm not saying you weren't important just think of everything else. You weren't the reason he killed himself so don't feel bad.
Hardly_Harley that is not your fault! If he was threatening suicide it was because there was something in him he couldn’t deal with. It will never be your fault.
I won’t say I know what you’re going through, but I do know what feelings you’re having. My cousin and friend killed themselves. I’ve struggled with blaming myself since the day I found out my cousin died and it got worse the next year. I know it may seem like it is, but that boy had other problems that didn’t include you. You are not to blame, especially if it was a few years after. Everyone has their own struggles. And if it was a few years after the breakup he probably didn’t tell you. It is not your fault
I told my ex that I couldn’t do it anymore and he sent me pictures of him holding a knife to himself. I didn’t know what to do and I texted my friend and he told me “That’s on him. Whatever he does is his decision and you did nothing” remember that sometimes you need to cut people out of your life to save your own self. Sometime you need to save yourself before you can save other people
if males feel left out you are not. the poem is about what has happened to them. it doesn't really direct to males but it was from a females perspective. Males can right about how a female has been possessive to you or abusive.
This is not what I thought it was going to be and I’m literally in tears right now. I went through something like this a year ago and it still haunts me “he put a gun against his head a I thought me leaving would pull the trigger”
My ex would threaten to kill himself if i ever left him. But when I did leave him, two weeks later he was with someone else 😂 should of left his ass ages ago
"Mistaking anxiety for butterflies" that hit me so so hard... I was in an abusive/controlling relationship for 2 years. It kept me so sick, both physically and mentally. Everything had to be about him, even on the day I had my gallbladder removed, he caused a scene at the hospital because I was tired and wasn't giving him enough attention... So many girls mistake abuse for love... I'm so lucky I got out
"He held a gun to his head and I was afraid that my escape would be what pulled the trigger." Is what hit me the hardest. I've actually experienced something like this.
when i was younger i had no parents to take care of me, i was beaten and abused for years and when i got to highschool and somebody tried to do this to me, sending me pictures of himself cutting if i didnt answer him, sending me pictures of a gun to his head, etc...i know this must seem very cold hearted but i had seen worse and in the environment i grew up in where you have to fight to survive in any way you could i learned the signs of being trapped and i told him 2 words before blocking him on everything i had. "fuck. you."
That “I was so captivated by the house he built for me, I didn’t notice the locked door I didn’t know I was captive to a garden of guilt” is on god so powerful, and the first time that I’ve ever heard someone put that feeling into words so beautifully :,-)
I'm watching this just now, and i feel a lump in my throat. I've been through this. It's been years since it happened but it still hurts. I would like to thank these two amazing women for putting in words what me and so many other people couldn't.
I love this this shows how women give up their own happiness to please the guy they "love" and how they do their best to not get angry and lash out to hold back their feelings and keep their mouth shut when they wanna protest but don't because she doesn't want to ruin the relationship we as women shouldn't put up with this bullshit we should be allowed to get mad and lash out from time to time without the damn guilt trip we should be able to voice out what we want to say to our men we should not have to give up our happiness to make him happy we should not try to put on a fake smile and say it's ok maybe next time when you wanna see him but he comes up with a stupid excuse we should have the right to do what we want we should not have to threaten each other to stay each other we should not have to deal with this crap
That moment when you see this on your recommend page... and can relate to it. I've watched this many times before and loved it but I loved it innocently. Now I watch it, and love it because it just helped me realize I to leave my current predicament. So by some grace, UA-cam knew I needed this.
Everyone need to see this. When I went through this, I couldn’t explain, but this video, gAve me a voice. I started crying when the two girls stood in front. And I can’t stop❤️
i watched this a couple years ago. i loved it even then, and was going through a toxic relationship right around the time i found it. only now am i realizing how bad it was, and how much we were like this.
The most sad thing I found about it was the number of people who truly found this too relatable.. this is from a female perspective but we can clearly see that this is a generation of abusers.. as parents.. as guardians.. we have failed to raise humble thoughtful human being..😢 Beautiful thought provoking poem.. 💜
"When he put a gun to his head I thought my leaving would pull the trigger" I feel this very deeply, as I know someone who threatens to kill himself I dont do certain things or if I leave
"Mistaking Anxiety for butterflies"
Yes
Relatable
Wow..
"the girl who fell in love with a warning sign" if that aint me
The girl who fell in love with the boys heart and the boy who fell in love with the girls body
m same
same. i relate so much to that. it sucks
"i was so captivated by the house he built for me, I didn't notice the locked door." hit me hard. favorite line.
"I only think about the warmth, not the burn marks" 👏👏👏👏
I still have cuts from my ex
I really felt this line cause I feel this way way too much but I can’t go back
"There is nothing romantic about a bouquet of black eyes"
I dont understand this....
@@gingerblond7905 they mean that getting a whole bunch of black eyes from their boyfriend is not romantic
That part makes me cry because of my last relationship
“I was so captivated by the house he built for me. I DIDN’T NOTICE THE LOCKED DOOR . I DIDN’T NOTICE I WAS HELD CAPTIVE BY THIS GARDEN OF GUILT” that hit me like a truck
Omg I just watched that video 😂😂😂
This all hit me hard.. I have personally been in one of these relationships. This is so accurate and that's saddening.
"But he held a gun to his head, and I feared my escape would be what pulled the trigger." Fuckkkkk-
Jessica/girl
Mila/boy
Both
"Good morning!"
"How did you sleep?"
"I couldn't stop thinking about you."
"You're so sweet."
"So what did you do last night?"
"Homework."
"Why couldn't you FaceTime?"
"Hey!"
"How's your day been?"
"Better if it was with you. How was school?"
"Good. I got partnered up with my friend Jake for a bio project."
"Who's Jake?"
"Good morning! I love you!"
"I miss you!"
"When can I see you?"
"I'm still grounded. "
"Can you sneak out?"
"Hey!"
"What are you doing right now? Can you come over?"
"Sorry, I'm going over to Mila's."
"Is anyone else gonna be there?"
"Just some friends from school."
"Like Jake?"
"I don't know, maybe."
"I bet you'll have more fun with him."
"Hey."
"Are you mad?"
"Why haven't you gotten back to me?"
"Hello???"
"Are you with Jake???"
"You have reached the voicemail box of..."
"Where are you?? Why are you ignoring me??"
"You have reached the voicemail box of..."
"Why are you doing this to me??"
"You have reached the voicemail box of..."
"I STILL HAVE THE PILLS, YOU TOLD ME TO GET RID OF THEM, I'M GONNA DO IT. "
"Hey, I'm so sorry, my phone died. I didn't bring my charger to school. Are you okay?? PLEASE call me when you get this."
"Hey!"
"Did you get any of my messages? I'm so sorry."
"If you're sorry, why don't you send me a picture that'll cheer me up?"
"I'm at dinner with my family..."
"You can run to the bathroom."
"I don't know, maybe later?"
"Not now? You owe it to me!"
"I don't think I can do this..."
"Are you breaking up with me? I can't live without you!"
"I don't want this anymore..."
"Sunshine, I need you, you're the only person I care about!!"
"I don't wanna be with you..."
"YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME."
"It's too much..."
"IF YOU BREAK UP WITH ME I'LL KILL MYSELF."
"I'm so sorry! Are you there??"
"You have reached the voicemail box of..."
"Please don't do this..."
"I love you."
THERE ARE TEENAGE GIRLS EVERYWHERE BEING TAUGHT THAT THIS IS LOVE. LOVE IS NOT PUTTING YOUR PARTNER'S SATISFACTION BEFORE YOUR OWN SAFETY.
LOVE IS NOT JEALOUSY DRESSED AS PROTECTION.
LOVE IS NOT CONFUSING YOUR BODY FOR HIS MIDNIGHT SNACK.
LOVE IS NOT BEING FORCED INTO ANYTHING! EVEN WHEN HE HAS YOU CONVINCED THAT YOU WANT THIS!
I THOUGHT MY SPREAD LEGS COULD HEAL HIS BROKEN.
I SACRIFICED MY COMFORT IN ATTEMPT TO COMFORT HIM.
EVEN AFTER HE BEGGED ME TO GET HIM OFF IN A PARKING LOT.
EVEN AFTER HE FORCED HIS HAND ON MY SKIRT IN A MOVIE THEATER.
EVEN AFTER I SAID NO. WE ARE TAUGHT TO SWALLOW OUR PROTESTS IN EXCHANGE FOR HIS APOLOGY. WHEN I MISS HIM... I MISS ONLY THE WARMTH. I DO NOT THINK ABOUT THE BURN MARKS.
THE MORNINGS THAT I COULD NOT KEEP MY BREAKFAST DOWN.
MISTAKING ANXIETY FOR BUTTERFLIES.
AND OUR FIRST TWO MONTHS TOGETHER, I LOST SIXTEEN POUNDS TO PALPITATIONS AND WEAK STOMACHS.
WHENEVER MY PHONE RINGS AT NIGHT, I STILL THINK IT'S HIS 2AM SUICIDE CALLS.
EVERY TIME MY PHONE VIBRATES, I STILL LOSE MY APPETITE.
WHEN MY FRIENDS ASK ME WHY I STAYED SO LONG... WHY I ACCEPTED THE ROSES AND IGNORED THE THORNS.
I TELL THEM, IT IS NOT EASY TO WEED OUT THE ROOTS HE PLANTED IN ME.
I TELL THEM, I WAS SO CAPTIVATED BY THE HOUSE HE BUILT FOR ME.
I DIDN'T NOTICE THE LOCKED DOOR. I DIDN'T NOTICE I WAS CAPTIVE TO THIS GARDEN OF GUILT.
I TELL THEM, I TRIED LEAVING.
BUT HE HELD THE GUN TO HIS HEAD. AND I FEARED MY ESCAPE WOULD'VE BEEN WHAT PULLED THE TRIGGER. WE ARE TIRED OF THIS GUILT. THIS GUILT THAT MUST MEAN GIRLS.
WITH UNRECOGNIZABLE VICTIMS.
WE FELL IN LOVE WITH A WARNING SIGN.
IF HIS FISTS EVER MEET YOUR FACE.
DO NOT CONFUSE IT FOR SPARKS FLYING.
OR YOUR BODY WILL BLOOM IN BRUISES.
THERE IS NOTHING ROMANTIC ABOUT A BOUQUET OF BLACK EYES! I AM TIRED OF HOLDING THORNS!
BABY!
DID YOU NEVER FEEL THE BLOOD BETWEEN OUR HELD HANDS. OR DID YOU JUST MISTAKE IT FOR TEARS OF YOUR OWN. BECAUSE OF YOU... The number you dialed has been changed, disconnected, or is no longer in service. Goodbye.
speedy 123 That must have took forever
Bless you child 😤
Thanks for the written out version. This poem is amazing and I really like being able to read it
Pretty much all of this happened to me. That's one reason why I'm scared to love a guy bc my ex hit me. I truly thought when he called me late at night it was his suicide call. I still have a scare from him. I thought it was love but I realized it wasn't love at all. Now idk what love is or feels like
Thanks so much
any performance i watch of these two girls i see the girl with the blonde hair either angry sad or over worked. especially with this poem. It makes me wonder if she went through this
Slam poetry us more often then not an experience of ones own
rusty lemon she’s probably putting herself in other girls shoes who go there this and it prob means a lot to her
maybe she has because after they were done her friend patted her on the back and stuff....
@@whitneyross1673 She reached out to her, as if she were to run away.
I hope not...
My ex boyfriend used to say that he was "suicidal" in attempts to shut me up when I was trying to talk to him about my own real issues with depression, suicide, and anxiety. I believed him even though I knew it wasn't true. I would stop talking to him about my own problems because I didn't want him to get worked up or trigger any reactions. Any time I tried to have a real conversation with him about myself or my issues, he would turn the topic back to him about how he "had a bad day" or was "bullied" by some poor kid he was trying to make fun of. Every time I had a panic attack and wanted to talk it out with him so that I didn't go into one of my episodes after the panic attack ended, he didn't even try to act like he cared. I stopped texting him after I had a panic attack... because I didn't want the conversation to bother him. If we were on the phone or face timing, I'd tell him that my phone was dying so that I could hang up and let one of my episodes finish itself off so that he didn't have to watch me go through it and feel uncomfortable. He shoved my own real problems to the side and replaced them with his made up issues with "suicide" and "separation anxiety" so that he didn't need to listen to me. My mental health continued to deteriorate and he never glanced away from his "bad day" long enough to see me slowly killing myself. Starving so that he would find me more interesting and pay more attention to me. Depraving my mind of the education it desires so that I could face time him instead of getting an A in algebra and earning my academic scholarship. Listening to him complain because we "never talk" and he "misses" me and I was "always too busy" for him. He broke up with me over snapchat so that he could date one of my best friends who is a ftm transgender and was currently going through transition. He broke up with me over snapchat because apparently I wasn't interesting enough and he wanted to be the guy that dated the trans dude. When they broke up, he texted me again. Saying how much he missed me and how stupid he was to break up with me. When I said no, I didn't want to get into that relationship again, he brought up suicide again. He told me that I was the only thing keeping him from killing himself. He told me that if we didn't get back together he would have no reason to live. I was so naive to think of that as sweet, to think that he loved me so much that he would say that. So we dated for another year. The mentally abusive, toxic relationship kept getting worse and worse. Until one week I was particularly busy with school, and he texted me claiming that we "never talk anymore" and he didn't think the relationship would work. I cried my eyes out for weeks over this douchebag. He still tries to talk to me and be friendly. He still tries to ask me if we can be friends. He still wants to act like nothing ever happened.
After we broke up, my anxiety continued to get better. I haven't had a panic attack in months.
After we broke up, I never thought of cutting myself or killing myself. I'm now 3 months clean.
After we broke up, my grades got better. I'm now a straight-A student.
I hadn't recognized that I was in a toxic relationship until I got out of it.
And no one else had, either.
Ghostie You have an absolutely incredible story that not only I but so many others can relate to. If at all possible I would love to be your friend in the hopes that we can try to help others going through the same amount of mental abuse and struggle that so many more see each year. :) please, keep thriving.
I cried when I read this oh my gosh I never want to see someone suffer like this it hurts my heart cause I’ve been through this I’m so damn sorry you had to go through this I hope you meet someone better and who will treat you right and I just want to say your not alone and don’t ever let someone control you
😪
You go girl that right here is a powerful women yeah you my have cried but you cried for one of the best reasons possible you deserve this so much
Hearing this brings me to tears...
BlueRam347 what are you talking about
My ex boyfriend always would threaten suicide when I tried to break up with him. I finally did and he killed himself a few years later... I don't know what to do now.
RunawayScarsxxx he would've gotten over it within a few years, don't worry if there were 100% more reasons than you that he killed himself, you were just a piece of the whole puzzle. I'm not saying you weren't important just think of everything else. You weren't the reason he killed himself so don't feel bad.
Hardly_Harley it’s not your fault, he had something inside him that he couldn’t overcome. Your not responsible
Hardly_Harley that is not your fault! If he was threatening suicide it was because there was something in him he couldn’t deal with. It will never be your fault.
I won’t say I know what you’re going through, but I do know what feelings you’re having. My cousin and friend killed themselves. I’ve struggled with blaming myself since the day I found out my cousin died and it got worse the next year.
I know it may seem like it is, but that boy had other problems that didn’t include you. You are not to blame, especially if it was a few years after. Everyone has their own struggles. And if it was a few years after the breakup he probably didn’t tell you.
It is not your fault
@@sarahp4855 I feel you
May god help you all
Don't blame yourself
It's not your fault
I wish I could Love the poem instead of liking it 💖
Sunshine we know the difference 🙂
I told my ex that I couldn’t do it anymore and he sent me pictures of him holding a knife to himself. I didn’t know what to do and I texted my friend and he told me “That’s on him. Whatever he does is his decision and you did nothing” remember that sometimes you need to cut people out of your life to save your own self. Sometime you need to save yourself before you can save other people
I'm glad I'm not the only one who's been through this. But I'm also furious that more girls have gone through the same pain i have 😓
this gives me goosebumps
This made my jaw feel tight and my eyes burn... I'm gonna rewatch it
Tears. EVERY. TIME.
I huggegd the girl in the green shirt 🤗 shes awesome Mila Cuda this is so amazing its beautiful. The message is amazing 😍❤️
when she says "i tell them i tried leaving" i die
"I accepted the roses but ignored the thornes." I like that
if males feel left out you are not. the poem is about what has happened to them. it doesn't really direct to males but it was from a females perspective. Males can right about how a female has been possessive to you or abusive.
Yes
one of my friends was going through this and i made her watch this video, the day after she broke up with her boyfriend and is happy again.
I'm bawling 😭😭 this is too relatable.
This is not what I thought it was going to be and I’m literally in tears right now. I went through something like this a year ago and it still haunts me “he put a gun against his head a I thought me leaving would pull the trigger”
"Your sorry? Why don't you send me a picture to cheer me up" Gets me every time.
My ex would threaten to kill himself if i ever left him. But when I did leave him, two weeks later he was with someone else 😂 should of left his ass ages ago
Lol some guys are so despite if they kill themselves over a girl they are pathetic
"Mistaking anxiety for butterflies" that hit me so so hard... I was in an abusive/controlling relationship for 2 years. It kept me so sick, both physically and mentally. Everything had to be about him, even on the day I had my gallbladder removed, he caused a scene at the hospital because I was tired and wasn't giving him enough attention... So many girls mistake abuse for love... I'm so lucky I got out
Goddddddd I love the emotion and passion people put into poetry I wish I was as talented 😣
"He held a gun to his head and I was afraid that my escape would be what pulled the trigger." Is what hit me the hardest. I've actually experienced something like this.
when i was younger i had no parents to take care of me, i was beaten and abused for years and when i got to highschool and somebody tried to do this to me, sending me pictures of himself cutting if i didnt answer him, sending me pictures of a gun to his head, etc...i know this must seem very cold hearted but i had seen worse and in the environment i grew up in where you have to fight to survive in any way you could i learned the signs of being trapped and i told him 2 words before blocking him on everything i had. "fuck. you."
"It is not easy to weed out the roots he planted in me"
Forget quoting any of this EVERYTHING hit me like dam that emotion.
That “I was so captivated by the house he built for me, I didn’t notice the locked door I didn’t know I was captive to a garden of guilt” is on god so powerful, and the first time that I’ve ever heard someone put that feeling into words so beautifully :,-)
You gave me chills and tears at the same time holy fricK. That was a spectacular performance.
This has to go viral! I'm glad youtube recommended this video and I'm glad I watched it.
Please share it!
@@GetLitPoet I would but unfortunately none of my friends know english enough to understand this video😔
I've been looking for this for so long. Glad I found it again
I'm watching this just now, and i feel a lump in my throat.
I've been through this.
It's been years since it happened but it still hurts.
I would like to thank these two amazing women for putting in words what me and so many other people couldn't.
This is so captivating! I love it so much!
"Mistaking anxiety for butterflies..." Hit me hard... I feel this on a personal level
This is absolutely breathtaking! So chilling as well. 💔♥️
I love this this shows how women give up their own happiness to please the guy they "love" and how they do their best to not get angry and lash out to hold back their feelings and keep their mouth shut when they wanna protest but don't because she doesn't want to ruin the relationship we as women shouldn't put up with this bullshit we should be allowed to get mad and lash out from time to time without the damn guilt trip we should be able to voice out what we want to say to our men we should not have to give up our happiness to make him happy we should not try to put on a fake smile and say it's ok maybe next time when you wanna see him but he comes up with a stupid excuse we should have the right to do what we want we should not have to threaten each other to stay each other we should not have to deal with this crap
Men, too 😊
this is such a beautiful message that every person should really take to heart
Omg I watch this all the time and I get chills every time. I showed my mom and she had tears in her eyes. This is insane
That moment when you see this on your recommend page... and can relate to it. I've watched this many times before and loved it but I loved it innocently. Now I watch it, and love it because it just helped me realize I to leave my current predicament. So by some grace, UA-cam knew I needed this.
Absolutely beautiful. Nothing bit chills the entire time..wow
Ok, who tf keeps yelling "COME ON"
this will never get old xx
Everyone need to see this. When I went through this, I couldn’t explain, but this video, gAve me a voice. I started crying when the two girls stood in front. And I can’t stop❤️
I got chill bumps at the end. This poem is so beautifully done and powerful
This really made me cry. I remember this feeling deep in my stomach and it scares me too ever like someone again.
I love this so much every one needs to see this
Wow this is amazing ..
This whole thing hit me,hard. I'm crying,ya'll did a spledid job! Love the LA Team.
Wow that was amazing 😦💞
I got shivers the entire time, this was so great
I've never related so much to one of these poems thank you
i watched this a couple years ago. i loved it even then, and was going through a toxic relationship right around the time i found it. only now am i realizing how bad it was, and how much we were like this.
"DID YOU NEVER FEEL THE BLOOD BETWEEN OUR HELD HANDS OR DID YOU JUST MISTAKE IT FOR THE TEARS OF YOUR OWN!" Preach!!! This gave me goosebumps
I literally got chills. This is so good
This is amazing everyone needs to hear this
i had chills up and down my body for a good 2 minutes
thank you
this was amazing.
Hearing this after multiple years still takes me back to when this happened to me
I was there and saw it live and it made me cry. It was such an amazing
I got chills, this was great!!
This is so beautiful and powerful. I cried
this gives me chills omg
this made me cry. it's so relevant to my current situation.
DANGG thats deep!!😳❤❤ You bith did a good job... Keep spreading the word❤❤❤❤
Oh my god this gave me chills 😩
I’m so glad that was in my recommended section!
I got chills my guy
this may be the most beautiful and honest thing ive ever watched
This gave me goosebumps
this gave me shivers
Wow. This hit hard man.
SO incredibly powerful❤
The most sad thing I found about it was the number of people who truly found this too relatable.. this is from a female perspective but we can clearly see that this is a generation of abusers..
as parents.. as guardians.. we have failed to raise humble thoughtful human being..😢
Beautiful thought provoking poem.. 💜
I had constant chills for 3 minutes and 24 seconds.
This gave me chills
I got chills
i love bnv. its so powerful and this is so true love it!
I get the chills every time I hear this.
This gave me bumps 😓
So amazing.
i love this.
"When he put a gun to his head I thought my leaving would pull the trigger" I feel this very deeply, as I know someone who threatens to kill himself I dont do certain things or if I leave
They did great! I love this video!!
Teygan Manning thanks for watching! Please share with your friends!
mila is a good friend of mine i was actually there when they performed this. i performed there also it was a really great experience
So good 💕💕💕
This spoke to me
This is so deep ! 🖤
I actually got chills.
chills every time
I finally found this again! I actually used some of these lines for my drama performance based on grooming back in high school!
this hit home
I got so many goosebumps
This hit so hard😢