Here's What Happened (Why I Cut My Vlog Short)
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- Опубліковано 26 сер 2024
- If you followed my last vlog, this is what happened at the end of the night. At first, I was kind of hesitant to share this because it's a bit raw and unfiltered (ergo the tears), but I wanted to open up about some of the more emotional aspects of adjusting to life in Israel and some old wounds that I'm trying to heal. 🤍
Here's a link to that vlog (from earlier in the day):
• FULL DAY VLOG 🤗 • Tryi...
i’m really sad you’re going through this. it isn’t your fault and you shouldn’t have to think about handling these situations, other people just shouldn’t taunt you. it’s rude and mean and no one deserves that. i hope it gets better and that you’re still able to enjoy making aliyah and connecting with everyone. i hope people become more accepting to foreign people and stop being discriminatory! it isn’t your fault at all, it’s on them for being so tunnel visioned. sending you love! ♥️♥️♥️
So sorry Meorah! Unfortunately, you might have to deal with this issue all your life while living there, especially in a religious community! Being in Tel Aviv might be a better option, because of this! I’m sure there must be a religious community around there! Otherwise, develop a VERY THICK skin and try to ignore it! May God be with you and help you! Don’t get discouraged!
I’m so sorry. Continue to be you, continue to vlog, continue to learn about your new home and love your new life. Have you found a schul yet? I feel like having a community to embrace you and that vehicle for relationship building will help you to feel even more welcomed and at home.
Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing your journey.
The way you are processing these experiences is such a reflection of your deeply rooted heart with Hashem.
EIN OD MOVADO. He is allowing these things to heal those deeply rooted areas, just as you eloquently stated.
I'm praying with you and for you Mispocha❤.
Yasher Koach!
I'm so sorry, Sweetie that you have to deal with that kind of thing. The fact that you can see the soul of other Jews says a lot about your beautiful Jewish neshamah. Keep being you. Please don't get discouraged. We are all cheering for you.
Do you have a community? I feel like everyone needs a community. It is not OK what these people have been doing, but when you don't have a community it makes it so much harder.
Dear Meorah, you are such a beautiful neshama and your wisdom is far beyond your years. May you continue to go from strength to strength and simcha to simcha. 🥰
You are enough! You are enough so that others see them light in themselves because of how you're sharing your journey. Even the hard things. Thank you for your vulnerability. You don't deserve that kind of treatment from others. I'm so sorry that is happening to you. You deserve to feel free to walk down the street in your own home and feel safe, and feel accepted. You are ENOUGH!
ואהבת לרעך כמוך
I’m so sorry you went through that! Broke my heart ❤️ you give me so much strength! You should never be treated like that. Thank you for sharing. You have love and support! 🙏🏻💕🙏🏻💕
As israeli i am very sorry to what happen to you , i realy love your videos your amazing person stay strong and dont let stupid people bother you 😀
I'm so sorry Meorah, no one should have to suffer that. If you haven't done so already, I would strongly urge you to get connected with a rabbi and a congregation. The spiritual support would be vitally helpful during times like this....
Being Asian in Israel is hard and I am really sorry that you made these experiences that I made when I was there. I think it's important to be aware that that's partially a cultural thing, which doesnt excuse that in anyway. Personally I learned an appreciation for the openess. I prefer people being direct about how they feel, what they think, also what they think about me than being backstabbing and mean behind my back. It's a trade off.
you are very courageous woman. They are many challenges that you will face but please know that you are not alone. You have Sorah, Rifkie, Rachel and Leah all proudly looking down on you and beaming w pride on what you have accomplished and the bright future ahead of you. You will continue to have challenges and remember what it says in Tehilim 51;19:
זִ֥בְחֵ֣י אֱל' ר֤וּחַ נִשְׁבָּ֫רָ֥ה לֵב־נִשְׁבָּ֥ר וְנִדְכֶּ֑ה אֱל' לֹ֣א תִבְזֶֽה׃
True sacrifice to God is a contrite spirit; Gd, You will not despise a contrite and crushed heart.
Hey Meorah, I know this a late comment seeing that the video was posted a year ago. But I just wanted to say that you being all that you are (Korean, American, Jewish convert) is a beautiful addition to the Jewish people. Your existence alone gives testament to the beautiful diversity of our community. I'm so proud of you for not only joining our community, but taking the huge step in making Israel your home. Kol Hakavod and much love from a black Jewish American convert.
Most of israelis are rude, you need to go to contact with them and don't let anybody walk on you. It's the way that things work here. Continue what you do you're incredible !
So sad and difficult to hear this. I'm so sorry Meorah 💔 I never wished I could just give you a hug more. I connected so deeply with what you mentioned with you seeing an obvious Jewish man, I know that exact feeling you described, and exactly how it feels to notice they don't have that in return when they look at us. I don't want you to feel alone in this life-theme. I will tell you that my orthodox Jewish therapist has totally noted that this too tends to be my life-theme as well. It is just plain hard to be (in my case, a Jewish soul longing to convert but being forced to wait) in your case, Jewish, and so many others in either of our postions, just simply not having been born into it. It is a struggle but worth having. Thank you for sharing your raw experience, I'm so glad you talked about it, and so you are not holding it all in and suffering by it alone. Hashem should protect you and give you the strength of a lion. Alecheim shalom.
I'm sorry to see this too. I'm far away, but I'm sending strength and encouragement as best I can. Please know that your vlob is a ray of light and I/we look forward to your posts.
Hey, Israeli here. Unfortunately even with how beautiful Jerusalem here it can be quite backwards with the mentality of some people. Please don't be afraid to call out people for being assholes, some people can be really ignorant and need some good whip telling them they are assholes. Do not be afraid to tell them off.
I hope you can find your community in Jerusalem, As far as I know there is a community of Asians in Jerusalem even if it is not large, and there are defiantly many non-Asian groups that will be happy to accept you as well.
Hope things will be better :) sorry some people are giving you a hard time, I recommend also trying find a community and maybe exploring a little even beyond Jerusalem.
@Idan2349 - Perhaps you can tell her _where_ so she knows where to start looking for camaraderie.
Yikes. I hate this happened to you. Korean-American here. This just shows: idiots are *everywhere*. I so love your content. Please do not stop!
You are so much more and beyond. So brave if you moving abroad on your own persuade what your heart . I admire you.
be strong my sister!
May hashem gift you with strenght. You are such a wonderfull Person, your videos are so important for a lot people. I hope you will find a Community.
I love the way you can look at these difficult situations on so many different levels. Being honest in your sharing and knowing there are still going to be moments when we are suddenly vulnerable and no matter how we try to look at things from our accumulated experiences of how to protect ourselves and rise above. I’m so glad you feel deeply in your heart you are in the right place in journey and seem to find joy your new life.
You seem like a truly sweet person. How sad others can’t see who we/you really are. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.
First, let me say as Israeli, welcome HOME, I follow your blog and journey and just love you ❤❤❤❤
You should be In Tel-Aviv or in the North of TelAviv like Ra'anana, in Jerusalem despite the hype, Jerusalem is a violent city due East-Jerusalem population.
You are amazing, let's yourself meet the nice people, go to Givath Ram University.
As an Israeli, I visit Jerusalem but I couldn't live there, it's the heart of the conflict.
Hi Meorah, it's not easy. My initial thought was that when people aren't exposed to people of other nationalities they tend to be ignorant and say stupid things. It happened to me in Egypt, when I was with a female friend cab drivers would say really dumb sexual comments because we were non-Muslim foreigners. My wife made aliyah when she was young and she said Eretz can be a tough place. Keep your chin up, what you're doing by vlogging is great.
Damn I'm crying... she said you feel like you belong, but to them you look like a foreigner. 😭😭😭😭... I get it...
As a convert of color it really resonated with me when you mentioned how you would feel at home/ connected seeing an Ashkenazi visibly jewish person but not the other way around.
I am so sorry for what you are going through. It is not ok how they are behaving. You do not deserve such treatment. I hope you can meet people who respect you and feel connected to you as you to them.
Come say hi in Jerusalem sounds like people need much more education - happy to meet you in person finally… keep strong and hopeful - unity focus in the holy land…
I had to come to terms with this very basic truth; this is Eretz Yisroel, not Moshiach's Yisroel. Although the two often get conflated, they are not the same thing.
I am a convert, but white. I have always been truly amazed by the courage of non-white people who convert. I don't know if I would have had that courage.
I'm so sorry you went thorugh that
Forkin shoot man. Telepathic hug to you. I looked up tiger’s eye, good call, it’s super apropos. I hope you seek out community. The high road is rough!
I’m so so sorry that happened to you! We are one family regardless of how we look💪🏽 and I feel Hashem wants achdut and not this type of behavior. It’s a chilul Hashem what they are doing! If you feel you need to say something then maybe say that that behavior is Anti Torah, Anti Hashem and keeps Mashiach from being revealed. If not, you are a beautiful Soul and remember you are not the problem at all. These individuals have issues unfortunately. Anyway, Kol Hakavod to you and very happy you are Home! 😊🇮🇱 You did it 🎉🎉🎉
Braked my heart hopefully you will forgive
Try to ignore them. What happened to you there could happen anywhere in the world
Dear sister I am truly truly sorry for the actions of some idiots , those who have done this have no understanding of what Judaism is
If you light candles before shabbat you missed shemot where it says not a fire shall burn in your dwelling
@@elsikpych I have not light candles before Shabbat
UGH. I'm so sorry that you are dealing with this. Do you have some people here? Like a small community that you can reach out to? Those feelings are legit. Feeling like the outsider in the galut is one thing, but feeling like it in Israel is a whole new can of trauma worms. My Husband and I joke that we were never French or American enough where we came from, and now we are THE French and THE American as Israelis. Luckily, our son is straight up Israeli, which reminds us of what we are here for.
Unfortunately, since Israel isn't a super docile place, in order to "fit in" if that's what you want (TBF I don't even know if that's what I want at this point) is going to involve you learning the language so that you can stand up for yourself. Whether you choose to or not is your own business. Regardless, every bully, even the Jewish ones, backs off when they sense strength, and you have plenty of that coming from within you and, I hope you know, from the people who are rooting for you. You have a friend if Beer Sheva if you need one.
You belong in Israel and nothing any tactless ignoramus says changes that. Ignorant people fear what they don't understand and they understand very little. Your response is inspiring. Keep on vlogging.
Unfortunately Israelis almost only interact with East Asians in a Tourist/Local kind of way.
Even though it's uncomfortable needing to be confrontational ultimately most of these ignorant people won't learn to be respectful if you refuse to correct them or confront them about it.
I've had to be confrontational both in Canada and in Israel and it sucks but unfortunately there are idiots everywhere.
You are so strong and I root for you! Those people should DEFINITELY change their behaviours, not okay at all. Maybe TLV is more welcoming and open?
I'm so sorry you've had to go through that. I too have experienced racism too. It hurts the most when it comes from your own people.
The China-Asian thing has certainly gotten bad since Corona came around. Certainly worsened by people like Donald Trump, who made saying stuff like that the mainstream.
Keep your chin up, you'll pull through. The good people will come out in droves, and you will see that not all are like that.
All those black people doing hate crimes in the blue cities voted trump? Why are you blaming an issue since the 70s on trump?
@@elsikpych Who mentioned the 70s or voting for Trump? I drew attention to Trump, because he has literally made reference to China in a jokey way. Didn't say anything about him being a racist. Don't get me involved in your American racial politics - because guess what? I'm not from the US.
@@elianayocheved770 ignore him ,hes trying for a reaction
@@souwannabeafilmcriticya1964 Must be, yeah.
Trump went after the Chinese Gov't not the people, facts.
Some people are just asswholes, they probably do it to anyone they see as a target, olim, kids, old people, etc. Maybe you should report them to the police, let them know they need to keep an eye on the area where it happened. I'm sorry this happened to you, mean and ignorant people somehow manage to pinch you in the heart even though you know they are just stupid and most likely not so well educated. Please remember that most people are good and you have our support and love! I'm glad you shared this awful experience instead of keeping it a secrete.
It’s so sad that this kind of thing is still happening in the 21st century,if you can learn the Hebrew language as soon as you can,so you can tell them or whoever ,to stop in their own tongue.just surprise them.good luck.
Sorry this happening to you ,it's not common for Israelis to behave like that, considering how many chinese,Vietnamese Philippines and Tay are working in israel.As an Israeli the first time I saw an Asian person, probably from Tayland,I was very curious but never saw a reason to mock them .I ended up marrying a Japanese woman lol.any how in israel it's better not to be sensetive,it's better to yell at any who treat you with disrespect.
Wonton soup and chicken lo-mein!!
Very mature of you. Shame on them
I’m half Jewish so I feel like I don’t belong in America yet I don’t belong in Israel so i completely understand I live In a very small Jewish community I hope to make aliyah in a year
That sucks.
Your dedication and passion inspires me so much
its sad you had to go through this, but just know that pretty much all Israelis are jokingly racist about others
most jokes are on different ethnicities
you will probably have to live with that since it doesn't look like it will go away....
but just know that you are perfect like this and you don't need to change yourself - its their problem
You ARE Jewish ✡ enough. You ARE Israeli enough. You are PERFECT exactly as you are.
I know you shouldn't have to but maybe you should consider wearing a nice, big Star Of David. Right out front, for everyone to see.
So sorry that you went through that. Call me if you need a friend to talk to.
Please do not take the blame for someone else's racism. You can certainly choose how you react, but how you feel when someone is racist? That's entirely valid.
I think they do need to change. They were harassing you based on appearance.
Blonde bleached hair is forbidden in tanahk
@@elsikpych Are you dumb on purpose? If she looked middle eastern or european no one would have questioned her. But for black and asians life can be annoying in Israel
@@SaraLevins I'm dumb for pointing out leviticus laws? Are you dumb her hair isn't naturally blonde
@@elsikpych I don’t think they are being mean because her hair is dyed
@@SaraLevins so u admit the religion is a scam to take holidays off! Yo sun i be lying to my boss like its halalalaka I can't come in Thursday
I am also sad to hear that you had to tolerate that racist talk. Meorah I don’t know how you feel about staying single, but maybe you could pray to G-d asking Him to bring a friend or significant other in your life because it appears that you are that much more vulnerable to insults.
Only if you're comfortable, try and stare them down. Let them know you're not scared of them, and that this land is yours just as it is theirs.
I think some men may be trying to flirt with you, but just in a really dumb way. You are pretty so naturally men may want to get your attention. "Oh here's an Asian tourist. Maybe she wants a vacation hookup with a local guy."
Even though you look great and you are a great jewish woman if you dress like israeli women it's gonna solve this problem for sure , because people don't see the inside, inside you are jewish, but on the outside you have to look more "jewish" as well, I hope it can help
You will find a husband that loves you, a family that is part of a community, just stay strong study a lot of torah, that keeps your emuna strong .
Jews by choice are VERY WELCOME in Reform Jewish congregations much more so thani in Orthodox congregations. Our Rabbi is a former Argrentinan catholic and many members are converts.
Are you going to join the IDF--that will get you much better acceptance.
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Whatever nationalies and ethnicities there are in the world, you'll find them in Israel. We are all diffrent looking depending on where we came from. There are lots of Soviet/Russian Asians in Israel, and Indian Asians, and Chinese/Mongolian Asians, and Bnei Menashe Asians, and so forth. Likewise, you have African Blacks and South Americans and Middle Easterns, etc. You're not different from anyone else! Everyone gets taunted and gets put down at some point in their lives. Enough of crying and obsessing about such nonsense! Israel is for you to build it stronger and to build yourself stronger! Get to work!
The whole thing of equilibrium and not being affected by outer things is not easy for any of us ...or I'll speak for myself. I can relate to much of your story and of the topic of having a feeling of belonging. As you already know, you do belong in Israel. Very much!
Do you have a rabbi there yet or someone you can discuss it with? Or someone you can share with, maybe from both a practical and a spiritual perspective.?
I'm sorry you experienced that and I’ll be thinking of you and praying for you. I adore you and wish I could reach through the monitor and give you a big hug. I have huge admiration and respect. It will get better beautiful Meorah. I imagine as you meet more people and find community it will change things too. I know since the pandemic and spending so much more time alone I don’t feel as emotionally strong against life's vicissitudes or when anything difficult comes along, Sending you lots of love and big hugs.
Hashem put us in exile so we're not supposed to be there til the messiah returns, kevutim says it not me