@20:15 "Reality" isn't deterministic but there is also no "free will" because ideas are only that even though they are very powerful. its the unspeakable true middle way, that cannot be accurately described within a dualistic framework like words. knowing this absurdity I feel is mutually humbling across the board as it kind of just makes us all realize were exploring consciousness blindly. It implies what matters to us is what matters and I find that charming. love your videos btw!
as a trans guy, this felt oddly welcoming. just, y'know, I feel so seen, a lot less alone. this barely has any views or likes, but that's the point. you're more relatable than the big creators looking at me from a high pedestal. even though my experiences are different, I live in Russia, I'm FtM, etc., this is very relatable. thank you for being here
A huge part of egging was employment and family for me too. The threat of losing support systems is what also kept me in the closet for a long time. Rare great UA-cam algorithm pull, you speak really well!! And youre hella pretty. It's really scary, even in countries that are meant to be "progressive". Lots of love from across the globe.
hi there XD idk, got you randomly in my suggestions. maybe we can compare experiences...^^ i definitely resonated with NBs too, looking back to it there were some funny situations. like every time i saw someone presenting fairly gender ambigous i would think, oh, if i could just be one of these people, and it didnt click in my brain why i resonated so much and why i want to live like them. xD probably also because my environment would always believe its just acting and dreaming, and i am a person that would rather lose an arm than being seen as emotional or as not capable of reality. i actually first went on trying to find any kind of identity in the mbti 'fandom', since gender wouldnt play as much as a role there when people talk to each other, then i attempted to make a con langugage that has no gendered parts, the pronouns would count for any gender, (the language is still not finished lol), and then i had a breakdown in my friends dm and came out mid talking. the egg subreddit i only got to know about later but its resonating somehow, even tho the content is tailored to transwomen and transmen, but the situations i could find myself in as well luckily im aromantic so i never had to deal with dating and so on xD i kinda left my parents completely, over a bunch of things they did, and they have no idea im currently changing my name and gender identiy in my ID and so on. i used to grow up having to do all the things my relatives wanted, so just fucking off instead of trying to give them a chance to accept me was the safest, and seriously, they had personally to me not enough value for me to spend more than 30 seconds explaining anything, and i know they wouldnt have understood it if i put effort the whole night, so i just fled i assume... you come across very authentically right now btw^^ thanks for giving some confidence to me and everybody in the comments^^
@20:15 "Reality" isn't deterministic but there is also no "free will" because ideas are only that even though they are very powerful. its the unspeakable true middle way, that cannot be accurately described within a dualistic framework like words. knowing this absurdity I feel is mutually humbling across the board as it kind of just makes us all realize were exploring consciousness blindly. It implies what matters to us is what matters and I find that charming.
love your videos btw!
as a trans guy, this felt oddly welcoming. just, y'know, I feel so seen, a lot less alone. this barely has any views or likes, but that's the point. you're more relatable than the big creators looking at me from a high pedestal. even though my experiences are different, I live in Russia, I'm FtM, etc., this is very relatable. thank you for being here
for real, I'm a trans guy too and this person is so calming to listen to. ❤
Peace love and respect to you!!
A huge part of egging was employment and family for me too. The threat of losing support systems is what also kept me in the closet for a long time.
Rare great UA-cam algorithm pull, you speak really well!! And youre hella pretty.
It's really scary, even in countries that are meant to be "progressive".
Lots of love from across the globe.
Just an ally sending my love and support. Thanks for adding your story and perspective to the discourse.
hi there XD idk, got you randomly in my suggestions. maybe we can compare experiences...^^
i definitely resonated with NBs too, looking back to it there were some funny situations. like every time i saw someone presenting fairly gender ambigous i would think, oh, if i could just be one of these people, and it didnt click in my brain why i resonated so much and why i want to live like them. xD probably also because my environment would always believe its just acting and dreaming, and i am a person that would rather lose an arm than being seen as emotional or as not capable of reality.
i actually first went on trying to find any kind of identity in the mbti 'fandom', since gender wouldnt play as much as a role there when people talk to each other, then i attempted to make a con langugage that has no gendered parts, the pronouns would count for any gender, (the language is still not finished lol), and then i had a breakdown in my friends dm and came out mid talking. the egg subreddit i only got to know about later but its resonating somehow, even tho the content is tailored to transwomen and transmen, but the situations i could find myself in as well
luckily im aromantic so i never had to deal with dating and so on xD i kinda left my parents completely, over a bunch of things they did, and they have no idea im currently changing my name and gender identiy in my ID and so on. i used to grow up having to do all the things my relatives wanted, so just fucking off instead of trying to give them a chance to accept me was the safest, and seriously, they had personally to me not enough value for me to spend more than 30 seconds explaining anything, and i know they wouldnt have understood it if i put effort the whole night, so i just fled i assume...
you come across very authentically right now btw^^ thanks for giving some confidence to me and everybody in the comments^^
hey, non-binary person here, i relate to so many of these experiences as well. it's scary how hateful this world is. cool video :)
i also have and axe wound too, and im fully supportive and im black and trans btw