i'm so happy we're at the point of no named youtube videos somehow getting onto our feeds. like i have no idea what brought any of us here but i'm enjoying this so much
I actually really hate them because there's too many of them like TITLES WERE CREATED FOR A REASON!!! SO YOU CAN TELL WHAT IT IS!!! IS THIS A HORROR INTERNET ARG DISGUISED AS A PLAYLIST??? IS THIS JUST A PLAYLIST??? THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE BLANK NAME VIDEO, HOW THE HELL DO I SEARCH FOR THEM
That's the magic of UA-cam checkpoints. The comment section is turned into a hub for little diaries or journals where you can type about your experiences and mishaps while you listen to calming music and be yourself for a while.
this feels like a safe space to share that I have been in a creative burnout and depressive state basically all of 2024 but I am finally creating again and becoming inspired by the beauty of life once more. 2025 might not be so bad after all. I am grateful for the small communities like this that foster the needs of people like us
I FEEL THIS!! I never really stopped drawing in 2024 but towards the end I began to enjoy it again, as well as began dabbling in other things. I wish you well!! Keep creating in 2025 :)
buncha youths posting about school in these comments. not me. I went to pelvic floor therapy today. Took the best shit of my life afterward. Getting old is amazing
The orange geometric shapes floating in the video and the comments of people I don't know who are listening to the same song as me somewhere on earth make me feel better.
Yeah definitely, I feel the same way too. Sometimes I just realize that in a real person that others see and think about sometimes, that I actually exist. It's an odd but interesting feeling
Hey, thanks for finding my comment. Please remember to take it easy. Things can get rough but that was then. You’re here now, make what you do next even better.
this made me start to tear up 😭 positive encouragement even from a stranger on the internet is all a person needs sometimes. especially when no one tells it to you in real life.
I took the leap and traded my better-paying fast food job for an entry spot as a therapist. All my feelings and musings about being stuck went away. However, shortly after I injured myself and had to take some time off. I felt bad, but with it came a whole lot of new lessons that popped up every single day. Maybe I needed that. I feel like I'm becoming closer to my partner and my family, my best friend, and just feel so much more connected and vibrant than ever before. I never thought I would make it to my twenties, let alone ENJOY what was to come. Rather than wallowing in uncertainty for so long, day by day I'm trying to push out of my comfort in at least one way, whether it's stepping out to a new place or sparking conversation, having that necessary but dreaded talk you need to have. Whatever happens I assure you, it works out for the best. Risks are needed.
Diary entry: my dad got out of prison today and i got to see him! We talked for around 3 hours straight about just whatever we could think of. It was great.
@@coal1235 it doesn't matter as someone who's father has been to prison, okay, literally nobody cares about what happened i just think it's cute they had fun, dont ask intrusive questions lol 😅
dec 9 2024 the chronic illness do be chronic illnessing and the disability do be disabling. i haven’t cleaned my room in months and it’s getting bad. my hygiene is surprisingly decent but that’s because i have a job. if i was unemployed id be disgusting. it’s so hard to find the motivation to get out of bed most days. i’d love to start cleaning my room soon. i did throw some of the trash away a couple weeks ago, gotta start somewhere. in spite of everything, im happy right now. christmas is my favorite time of year. i’m 21 and still live with my parents (im a medium support disabled person and i can’t live alone) and they still do christmas with me like im a little kid. i really love it. this time of year makes me so happy and makes me feel alive for a little while. by the time the new year hits, i’ll be back to my old depressed self. i’m doing my best to cherish this small sliver of time where i feel truly happy before it ends again.
Just had my third gig for my band. A ton of people came and we raised even more money for charity. I feel happy and satisfied, like I finally made an impact on the world for the better
yesterday it started snowing unexpectedly- my area doesn't get a lot of it and if it does, it never stays for longer than a few hours. It used to be different, when I was a child the hills and fields were filled with masses of it and I used to spent hours numbing my body in the crunchy mass until the cold burned my smiling face. But now, we never have winters like this anymore, it's only gray gray gray. But it has been snowing steadily since yesterday and I took a walk just before nightfall, to see the local forest-park in all its soft splendour. The air was hazy and the fading light turned everything blueish and suddenly the world felt so quiet and vast and encouraging. And today, as I work, I watch the flakes come thick and fast and feel at peace just watching them tumble from the sky. One day, wherever it will be, I will fall into a thick blanket of snow again. That's my dream.
If we’re using this as a checkpoint, im happy to say that despite my severe depression and hoarding tendencies, I’m like. Really working on cleaning my room. It might not sound like a lot but it’s the world to me rn.
any bit of effort you put in should be something to be proud of, and it's good to take in the wins for yourself like this too. I'm proud of you too :D , keep up the efforts in your own pace
seeing all humans that come across this video log their day, or talk about their life, or just here to see other's stories just warms my heart. it's in our dna to be remembered or recognized, so we all just collectively come together and leave a small mark, saying "i was here.".
I went for a walk during the golden hour today and got to see the everyone's Christmas lights come to life as it got darker. We haven't gotten much snow yet, so it wasn't as nice as I'd hoped, but was still pleasant. When I got back home, I made myself a cup of hot chocolate and played some Chrono Trigger. I gotta say, spending less time online is great. I'm getting my attention span back and it's easier to lose myself in a good story without worrying about what I might be missing out on.
I don't know how it took me this long to change my major to theater, but the joy I felt when I switched isn't stronger than the anxiety anymore. I was playing minecraft to avoid the feelings of dread bc it's winter break and I'm not prepared at all for auditions when I came on here looking for music. I'm glad the algorithm brought me this video. And I hope someone finds this comment and feels a little more understood.
I got my journal out, wrote "hello", got stuck, distracted on youtube, then found an internet diary. So I'm gonna journal while likely 1 or 2 other people do here at the same time, but I'm doing it physically in my journal- i am with you!
i started keeping a journal recently too. ive managed to keep it in mind for the last few months and its quite nice. idk how things are going for you but if you find its hard to write sometime down i always think to myself that what im writing isnt actually all that important at all. i should be the only person who reads it, so its contents can me as rough or unfinished as i want. it should just be things that i think. but maybe youre journal is different from that. its all the same in the end so long as you write. have a nice day
8/12/24 Two decades of being alive. It's now finals week for my third semester of college, and I’m glad I chose a major that I actually enjoy. Next year will mark my third year of my art journey, which started with buying a cheap drawing tablet on a whim. The first year was rough obviously, but the second year was the improvement year. I worked hard, and now I can draw decently, I'm happy enough with my progress. Really hope all this skill development will pay off in the future, I don't expect much other than bringing food to the table if I do art as a job. To anyone reading this, keep working on developing your skills and growing as a person. You’re doing good enough and don’t overthink it.
12/2/2024 This summer I moved to a new country and its been difficult to adjust, but i am finally feeling like im fitting in. Have a decent job for now, making friends, enjoying the city and the christmas lights. In June my grandpa was diagnosed with mesothelioma. They told him he had about 4 months to live. After 6 months and many blood transfusions, the cancer has not progressed! Yesterday my grandparents offered to fly me back home in the spring to see them. I never thought I would see my grandpa again. I am trying not to get my hopes too high because he could pass away any time, but I really am looking forward to possibly giving him a hug in April. I am not close with my parents, I see my grandparents as my true parental role models. I will cherish every memory with them.
Your grandfather is blessed to have you. Beyond medicine, the greatest remedy is having your loved ones around. I hope you get to see your grandparents again and he recovers well.
11/28/24 JUST GOT MY FIRST ART COMMISSION SUBMITTED!!! the person LOVED IT, and payed me 30$ for it!!! it was such an amazing experience for me, and has upped my confidence to a whole new level. but, in one day, my favorite show i have watched for over a decade (inanimate insanity) is coming to an end. it was such an amazing journey to be a part of, and i honestly dont know what i would have done without the show and it’s creators by my side for years. its a bitter sweet feeling, but i really cant wait.
I honestly love these type of videos. Nothing flashy, or fast, or anything of the sort..just cool n’ chill vibes that can bring people together and just, talk :]
I told her I'd ace my exams, so I spent about one week cramming all of our lessons sleeping at 3-4am everyday. While I didn't ace most of my exams, I had a pretty decent score. Having the highest score in an exam or being in the 1-3rd placement of highest scores in my class She doesn't know that I spent those weeks studying all night long, she only knows that I studied, and her simple praise was more than enough This was worth it.
man i sure do love random relaxing/sad music playlist videos that pop up in my home page and then i scroll through the thousands of vents that are in the comments
Whoops, when I first saw the video I read this as a "bleepblurpblobp" happy go lucky video, with people saying slightly goofy whimsical things that happened to them. Like that first comment of the happy person with pelvic floor therapy getting an upgrade in quality of life Edit: OOPS, it IS that 💀
i know somebody else said something like this but i like being self aware instead of following the crew around. theres just something more to every little thing other than "oh how do i beat this" or "need to do that". its really about the journey and not the destination. smth smth if you wanna go fast, go alone. if you wanna go far, go together.
me personally, i have been feeling depressed and filled with anxiety these past couple weeks, looking at these heartwarming comments and listening to the music is helping me cheer up, thank you
told my dad about my adult autism diagnosis tonight and he didn’t completely flip his shit like i thought perhaps he would. he even asked for ways to help accommodate me considering i just moved back in with him and my family. was actually pretty cool :) hope things continue to get better like this so we can have more trust. not telling my mom yet, i have a true feeling she’s not open to that right now. hope everyone’s doing well today. much love
I have ASD too, and although I’m doing well with my closer family members, the story is much, much different with the rest of the extended family. I’m glad things are going well for you, best of wishes!
@@W0L1W1L0 thank you for the well wishes, i love your pfp! good luck to you too, i hope you’re doing well all things considered 🍀 there’s a great video on the channel the thought spot about this subject (i recommend their content, especially if you are high masking.) i’ve shared my diagnosis with only with a few ppl; i’ve been more-so prioritizing being in good standing with myself and meeting my own needs as best i can without explaining myself to others as much as possible. embracing my stims and blocking out alone time to regulate my emotions. trying to build some self-trust and have my own back. accommodations from others are great, but ultimately it feels really good to intentionally use your own power to make yourself happy and healthy. it helps you remember that whether people “get it” or not doesn’t determine the quality of your life, it’s how you treat yourself that determines that stuff. take this with a grain of salt of course. we got this. i hope u have a great life. 🫂
lately I’ve been worried if I’m not where I’m supposed to be in life but looking back, I’ve become friends with this absolutely awesome dude. I’ve taught him all about the things I love and he’s done the same for me. The guy’s the musican and before him I knew nothing about forming a band, skateboarding and a whole lot of things. And before me I guess he hadn’t come out to anyone. I hadn’t come out to many people either. I get scared one day he might decide that I’m too weird for him and I wouldn’t be mad if he did. I would understand, and I think that sums up how low my self confidence is. Even if we grow apart, I’m so grateful for the friendship and I’m so glad he saw something in me.
went to group therapy this morning for a few hours, they let us go early since there was more people from the short program. it was a really good session. spent that extra hour in my car, in the rain, writing a grief letter to my friend who passed away a few years ago while listening to the playlist of songs that remind me of him. bawled almost the whole time but god damn, it was cathartic. immediately after that i went and got sushi with my best friend and he showed me pics from his trip to DC. we bullshitted about everything and it was really nice. food was great. it's been raining all day and i love it. also built my new bedframe in preparation for my newly college grad boyfriend to move in with us next week. it's been a good day. we take the little wins.
11/26/2024 Drove myself home last night and it was my first time driving. I'M SO CONFIDENT. I got the hang of turning pretty quickly and I gotta thank my dad for being there with me. Love you dad. Just gotta get the hang of braking nice and smooth. There's a sweet spot on the brake pedal that I need to find so the car doesn't jerk when I stop. I also wanna work on my parking skills. (THEY SUCK.) Well, anyway, time to play some Rhythm Heaven and make this game suck my nards cuz I'm that good at it. LATER NERDS.
Good job buddy! If there is one thing that boosts my confidence it is driving. Last month, I was kinda having a hard time in university and began to doubt myself pretty hard. Then my uncle began to teach me about how to ride a motorcycle. The thing is that I had NO experience in bike or whatsoever, so I needed to gain balance in a motorcycle. In less than a month I was already in the streets driving, very happy and satisfied with myself! And the pinnacle of my efforts were to being able to travel with my mom to the places she couldn't go because of terrible public transport. Anyways, I resonate strongly with your history, and I hope that everything works out for you in the end.
01/06/2025 This is the second time I found a checkpoint (at least from this channel) since then a LOT of things happened. My 10 years cat passed away and left a whole in my heart. Also, I'm in therapy now and trying my best to not give up on life.
Diary entry: Hit the club with friends a few weeks ago, met some new folks, had a great time. I was a mega introvert (autism will do that) in high school and never really partied even in college, but I’ve been pushing my comfort zone and been socializing more lately. Honestly, it feels pretty great. Never knew I had it in me.
im an autistic 10th grader and this gave me hope that i will push out of my comfort zone when im older. thank you so much!!! (even now, i am pushing out of my comfort zone. unlike 9th grade, i am excited to go to school this year to see my real friends)
i’m still a college kid but i’ve been surprising myself too over the past years. i can still be so shy sometimes i just don’t know how to start conversations with people ive never met before! but i really do love talking to people! anyways hope ur proud of urself!
The soothing sounds of the music with the nice shades of orange and yellow tiles and triangles fills you with a sense of *determination* **HP maxed out**
glad to be here at the orange-and-yellow polygon show with you all today. Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, and I'm hopeful for the future (knock on wood)!
I've found a group of people who make me happy. One of them wrote me a message for thanksgiving about how much they appriciate me and it made me cry. Another told me they look up to me and hope someday they'll do cool things like I did. I've never had someone tell me that before directly. Yesterday I got a message from a friend telling me they're in a server where people were huge fans of my work and art and it motivated me to work again. And now I'm sitting here in a bad house in a bad place with bad people, and while eating grapes I'm realising life isn't so bad. Because even when I'm at my lowest, people still think about me in such a positive light. Some of my friends are younger. I hope I get to see the day they graduate and be happy knowing that I stayed alive long enough to witness something amazing from the greatest people I've ever met. The last friends I made ended up being horrible and it ruined how I interact with people socially. But this time? They're way more positive and carefree. I hope they stay this way forever and never let the world topple them. I love them and wish the best for them, and I want to live just to see them thrive. Goodbye until next time. Or never. I'm still just as happy seeing you wave from afar. And next time I see this, I tell you to live. For as dark as your mind might be, there are people who love it all the same as when it is light. They will miss you. I will miss you. And the past versions of me will miss you. Don't let her have no one to mourn her. I'm not begging. I'm telling you. Live.
I never thought of living for the past versions of somebody. But you’re right, you’re absolutely right. I can’t disappoint my mother from when I was born, my sister at 10, my grandmother just yesterday. I’ll keep going for them, even if they’d never know. I hope you do too in the future, thinking of your wonderful friends you have now. I’m so glad it got better for you and I hope it just continues to :)
It can be so difficult to let new people in after bad relationships in the past, but it’s worth it in the end. You deserve all the happiness in the world bro, I’m happy you’re finally finding peace with these new friends.
11/25/24 I had a rough year with moving into an apartment, losing the apartment, ending a friendship over that apartment, quitting my stressful job, and moving in with another friend. And right now, in this moment, I finally know peace and happiness. Everything this year needed to happen and I am better off for it. I hope I can keep this feeling for a long time. And if you're reading this, I hope you find your happiness. I hope you find your peace. You've earned it.
Thanks… I’m glad you’re doing well, and hope for things to continue that way… Sounds like things were rough… Sorry for the over use of ellipses… They’re… Fun… To… Type… XD…
12/25/24: it's christmas today. no one else has come downstairs yet, and i'm sitting in the living room doing nothing besides looking at the wrapped presents and watching tv. i had pretty bad allergies 2 days ago but they've gotten better. can't wait to celebrate christmas with my family. merry christmas to whoever's found this in time, and if not? let's hope that 2025 is okay.
11/30/24 i’ll be 7 months sober on december 8th!! it’s been hell getting here but i’m glad ive been able to do it. this is my first attempt at sobriety that is coming from my own desire to be healthy and happy, and not from an obligation to make others happy. you deserve sobriety :)
I recently got (like 3-4 days ago) a grip on my new phone I worked hard for it on a construction site, helped building a hospital in my village After 3 years of stagnation I finally felt that wave of excitement wash over me, such joy overwhelm me still Hard work finally paid off and I'm extremely happy
i do the same rn !! that's just what I needed idk how to explain it but it feels great in a way just to remember to myself that Im not alone in this fckn world :) to anyone who see this love you sm guys
I've come to realise that my youtube feed has changed into this creative algorithm- funky music with no titles or very crazy obscure titles that people would usually ignore but i LOOOOOVE them- i am so fascinated by these audios/songs but also i have alot of deep talks about analogue horror or deep dark topics from Reddit or twitter, game theories- art topics and deep topics on politics URGH youtube is finally getting interesting- the algorithm is beautiful atm.
Been a tough weeks. Old wounds for an old dog still hurt. Managed to slip back and away from what could've been a mental breakdown, just barely. Attempting to get an education while you're already with quite some age is quite hard, specially when you have to handle mental and personal issues. And yet, I keep going. And yet, I keep finding very brief but enjoyable moments of downtime. And yet, I am stressed, but this very moment I write this, I rest. Keep going. Shit's tough but you can be tougher than the shit. -Tigerhouse, overworked and overstressed, resilient and determined man of the internet.
heard everyone was sharing stuff so today is 26/12/24 and i went on a plane by myself today! my older brother was meant to come with me but he's sick so he wasn't able to unfortunately. i've never been on a plane before so i was a little bit nervous, but it was easy peasy. i love flying
When i first entered into middle school, i had no idea what to do with my life. i felt like i was lost. I got into a lot of drama, i was always tired, and overall i just went into every day with a negative mindset. It wasn't healthy. Now, im a few months away from being a highschooler. In the time between middle school and highschool, i gained confidence, and some amazing friends. I dove deeper into my religion and overall i just feel more in control of my own life. Every single day i wake up excited to go to school. I get excited to talk to people, crack jokes, and enjoy time with friends. I truly am at a point in my life where i am at peace.
As a person a couple grades above you, a little bit of advice ig: find like two or three friends (if you can) that you can truly confide in bc it makes life a shit ton easier. I have a couple of ppl who I’ve known since I was in middle school and were basically siblings at this point. They help you get through a lot. Also try to do your assignments on time so there’s no backlog because I know damn well that messed me up when I started Highschool. It’s not gonna get easier, but it doesn’t have to be hard asf if you try your best. Good luck!! :D
im in 10th grade now! this is the first year where i havent had any drama since 6th grade and i have real friends at school :). make sure you have people you can confide in, and become friends with people who are not fake
congrats! you’re in a better spot than i was in middle/high school that’s for sure. honestly just keep on keeping on, go outside often, and hang out with your friends and you’ll be good :)
sounds awesome! Kind of crazy seeing other 8th graders here in the comments lol. I’m hoping my highschool career can go at least half as smoothly as this year’s been so far :)
here’s a poem i made a couple weeks ago that i think fits with all these heartwarming comments :3 title: what are we to do but love? i am here standing in edges of ocean waves crash ripple fade i am here standing in water life has cycled born living fade you are here to breathe it in and breathe it out as gentle as the water that touches you nothing else to do, but love till you fade
i hope y’all take a positive view of this poem, as i essentially meant for this poem to be about loving the life you have and being content/happy with what you have in life :3 but i know everyone interprets poetry different, which i hope my poem has multiple meanings for everyone! i love reading all these heartwarming comments about being alive :3 im so glad to be alive here and now, loving the love of my life and looking forward to living it with him and doing things we talk about with each other. i just hope for a good future for us all yknow, just do some good for this earth :3 💛
I always come crashing down around this time of year. I'm not really 'better' during Summer, just have more energy and am capable of performing... Some kinds of tasks. but Winter is like time travel. it sends me back to every other Winter I've ever lived through before. it's like I retroactively 'become' every past version of myself that has ever existed in this state, simultaneously. and I spend this time digging through the time capsules left behind by all the past me's. cooping up, isolating, barely leaving the house; doing nothing but lying in bed, eating, browsing the internet for anything that can hold my interest for a couple of days at a time, anything to escape complete nothingness. relapsing into bad habits out of apathy. but that's how I survive Winter. I become... bad. it's like transforming into a shadow version of myself - one that I flicker in and out of almost constantly through the year, but basically permanently embody during the cold months. trying to fight it makes it worse. I think this year the challenge is accepting that this is just... what I am. even though it feels so, so wrong. *I* feel wrong. people aren't normally like this. or at least... they don't get away with it, like I do. they have more serious responsibilities, more relationships to hold them accountable. sometimes that fact makes me feel like I was never supposed to exist. like I'm some kind of cosmic mistake that needs to be cleaned up sooner or later. I don't know what to do with that feeling.
Yeah once it starts getting colder and the days start getting darker I really start to spiral without fail when before then I seem to do mostly well. I can relate to literally every word of what you said, most of it I've actually thought about before. I actually just turn into a content absorbing machine whether it be social media, watching something, video games, reading, etc. There's not much you can do outside in winter! So pair less physical activity with untreated anxiety and depression that's just amplified by the colder darker days and...huh. No wonder I feel like absolute shit! Lol. Every time it just takes me back and reminds me of all the other episodes of mental illness I've had which are usually start around the middle of October(which is my birthday month ironically)and progressively gets worse until spring. Like you It seems I have to just accept what is. Feeling guilty for not functioning properly isn't gonna help me. All I can do is just accept the past for what it was and the present for what it is and just hope and strive to achieve a better future. I hope your Winter gets better and Merry Christmas! Also your videos look really cool! I'll have to watch them sometime. :)
You’re not a mistake. Different doesn’t mean mistake. Try taking vitamin D during the Wintertime, and if that doesn’t work, you seem to have a system going for you, journal through that if you can. You hibernate, you’re like a sentimental cosmic bear. Here’s hoping things get better, and if they don’t, I hope life creates a nice little corner for you to break away from the rest of us when necessary. Spirits up!
hey man, if it makes you feel any better, I feel the exact same way. it helps me to think about it from an evolutionary standpoint- we’re big predators who can’t really do or hunt anything in the winter. Really, we should be hibernating. you’re not any sort of mistake unless you view it from the standpoint that we’re hardwired with modern society in mind, which we aren’t! You’re feeling what nature intended, just in an environment that’s not suited for it. It’s a comforting thought to me, at least, that we aren’t so far gone that we can’t still feel the pull of natural evolution. We still belong to nature in some regards, and we deal with that fact every winter :) just because some people are better at hiding it than others doesn’t mean it’s any less valid.
im like this too during the winter! it kind of starts a bit in the fall but really comes in during the winter. i feel more emotionally numb, and i scroll a lot. i basically lay in bed and become more emotionally numb. in particular, last year during winter break all i did was lay in bed, scroll, and drown in my emptiness. i think its because the sun goes down faster, meaning there is less vitamin d :)
it's 1am and I have to be up for work at 6. I got on here looking for background noise to sleep to, since my fan stopped working and the dead silence was driving me crazy. after work I'm going to find a new fan, my mom even said she would pay which made me smile. the holidays are bittersweet for me but little things like that are what make this time feel so nice. and I've got a peppermint iced coffee waiting in the fridge which is awesome too. goodnight guys❤ hope life brings you all some peace in the midst of all the chaos. pay attention to the little things and it'll put a smile on your face. even if it's just admiring the planet for a bit. life's beautiful.
I am currently an extrovert. before watching this I was binge watching videos of introvert's lives and admiring how simple their life is. If I wasn't given proper autistic support at a young age I would have been introverted like all other people in my shoes but alas I desire social interaction and experiences despite how hard it can be to get those things sometimes. Maybe I could take a lesson or two out of their playbook and use my inside time as the hub world of my life. I can use it to think about previous social interactions and have quality time to myself so I can be nice and comfortable even when I don't have others there to make me feel stimulated. I raise a glass to the few other autistic extroverts out there, god speed, never stop being interesting
Currently stuck in bed with gastritis. I’ve eaten nothing but bananas and coconut water for four days. This playlist feels perfect for my current delusional sick state. Thank you.
november 28 doing laundry for the first time in 3 weeks left the house for the first in 1- to do said laundry slowly crawling out of yet another pit of dysfunction gonna tackle socializing next, then my college work that has piled up it gets worse before it gets better. im in a lot of mental distress and pain lately. but i enjoy being here. i enjoy being alive. i think im gonna make it out, even if im very mentally injured. i dont think i have the capacity to be normal, but i think i can make it someday. it feels insurmountable right now, but hey, im doing my laundry. gonna have clean towels and clothes to wear. gonna go to thanksgiving and try to remember how to pray. gonna keep cleaning and im gonna go outside for a walk soon. its supposed to be nice outside for once, usually florida is very hot. sucks that ive spent so much of this nice weather rotting in bed, but oh well. maybe ill finally bike over to that parking garage and do that chalk drawing. maybe ill make it. maybe i won't let the guilt eat me alive. maybe it doesn't all have to mean as much as i let it mean. maybe i shouldn't be so hard on myself. at least im trying. thats more than my dad has done for the past 10 years. im gonna keep trying. keep hurting, keep messing up, keep getting anxious and spiraling and make it out again. im gonna try.
i realised yesterday that i am so, so, so lucky to have two friends that can match me blow for blow, force me to see myself even when i'd rather turn a blind eye, yet are always there for me whenever things get too difficult. i don't know what i would do without them, and i love them more than i know.
Dec. 3, 2024. Haven't really felt happy for a while now. Best friend's suicide in late June, long relationship breakup a month later, personal issues, college, fear of own future, stress from not being able to do the things I loved doing have made it kind of hard to keep things together. I still hold on, don't really talk to people much now due to all this, lots of isolation, and thats a crazy shift in life for a person who loves to socializing and had the most vibrant and fulfilling life just a few years ago, with friends, hanging out, great conversations, amazing memories, and more things that made life truly fulfilling. All gone. At least there's no alcohol or drugs of any kind in my life thankfully. Things just suck at the moment, but that will pass sooner or later. Just got to push through this despite all the hollow feelings and heart ache. So anyone who goes through similar things at this point - you're not alone. We all struggle and we all overcome it no matter how much things suck in the moment. End of entree.
Hey, good on you for getting through all this stuff. Proud of you. Life can be hard, but we can do hard things. Just think of your future self, and the little things you can do now to help you in the future, one of which is never giving up. If you never give up and keep on trying, your problems will eventually break, not you. I wish you peace, have a great day :)
Heya. I'm terribly sorry about everything. I know it feels like the walls are closing in. But those walls are thin enough for you to break through. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for. Hang in there, friend.
Just got an iPad for Christmas. I was experimenting with my Apple Pencil (well… a knockoff that I got off Amazon for around $20. Works just as well as an Apple Pencil tho) Then I went scrolling through UA-cam, and now I found this unnamed video and found what might be the chillest comment section EVER. I love finding chill corners of the internet like this. Is this an internet checkpoint, I guess? Maybe? Either way, What’s up fellow weirdos!
you know chill music like this is a great way to sit back and take a breather sometimes. reminding myself that i am right here, i am changing, life's going on, it's kinda sobering thinking about it, even though alot of things are returning to me and it's kind of acting like a cycle these past two years have been a suffocatingly two-extremed monotony that really didn't leave me any time to like it or dislike it, nor any time to think about why it was. recently been wondering and starting to actually think, realized i'm actually so lonely and bored but i can only do things i don't really wanna do or can only do it with the people i don't really like grateful for my friends and how they are as people but even with them it doesn't really feel right, it doesn't feel like i'm getting along, if anything feels like i'm being dragged away from them everyday, feels like they'll inevitably forget that i even exist because i've been forced from joining them in recent times i don't know just feels like some sort of stagnant or idle drift to some sort of isolated cycle, you know. don't really know how to describe it accurately but i don't feel like i'm really there at all
When I read this I visualized lots of… gray, and some random guy with long brown hair floating in the midst of the grayness, and nothing else. Idk I’m imaginative lol.
I totally get it, "it only feels like fall" type shit. Well hey, I somehow escaped the monotony, only after getting a partner tho. There were days I wished and hummed good tunes while looking at a big blue sky thinking "one day", and other times where the emptiness took my heart. Nothing can be bad forever, whistle and humm, the sky is so big
Life is so cool and awesome, can’t wait to learn. Hard to balance time but I’ve finally gotten control of disciplining myself which is so nice wishing everyone the best
My grandfather is in the hospital right now. he has been for the last few days. They say he got into a car crash, then I heard things were good, day later he got an infection on his wounds. it lacks any meaning to me anymore. I can already feel ive marked him as dead, all I can think about his seeing him in the same casket as my great grandfather was in about a year and a half ago. Ive been listening to the same album over and over again to try and cope. Some believe he will survive, some say he wont, but I cant help but think hes already dead. Just grasping onto whatever is left of what he has. I think I started doing this kinda thing when my mother was close to death, I still believe she may just fall over any minuet now. Shes also close to death, but thats just her natural state I suppose. but hey, at least Black Country, New Road created "Ants From Up There" two years ago for me to listen to during all of this. God I love that album.
Sometimes, past all medical treatment, the best thing you can do is be there when you can for them. Let him talk about his life and who he is, the things he doesn’t get to discuss often. Give him an opportunity to reminisce about the life he has lived so far. It may not do much, but it will tell him you care. I hope he recovers well and you end up okay brother.
My gfather was about 90 when he passed - I was working and somehow took a call, stepped outside and spoke with him for 10 mins on the day he passed. Tell him about what you are doing and thinking, however silly it might feel. Talk about school or work or friends. Dont get bogged down to the point of numbness. These people created us - either he will be ok, or you will be there, honest + strong for him to talk to and appreciate ❤
Feeling super blessed this week! Didn't crash my car after sliding on ice doing 75kph on the freeway (Sunday), my brother got through a tough time (Tuesday), and my dad's contract went through so now he can retire! (Thursday) Excited for my days off now!
12/23/24 It’s almost Christmas and I’m visiting my relatives in Massachusetts right now. Lived up here for 2 years near pretty much all my family but spent a total of 9 years down in Virginia and it doesn’t snow a lot there. Seeing the snow while I’m visiting almost made me cry a little. I’m getting memories of Christmas’ I spent at my nana’s, even if they were just a few years back, because I’m sleeping in the same room I always do when we visit. I also got a chance to gaze at the stars and appreciate the beauty of them. The area I live is pretty bright so I only see a few starts when I gaze but here it’s a little more rural so I was able to see some cool constellations! (I ❤️ the sky it’s so majestic) Life’s going on a whole new track for me now and I am so excited for the future. I’m fixing bad habits, finding religion, working out, changing my look and style, meditating, finding the music I really enjoy, and just improving on myself in general. I’m starting to break out of the zone I was in where everyday just felt like another day until something interesting happened. Now I’m starting to care more about the little things and life seems more colorful and vibrant. This year, my favorite season went by way too quick, I developed really bad habits, and life just felt gray. I wasn’t feeling the joy in somethings as I used to and everything felt more like a task to me. I was lazy and negative. Something about the simple snow and the joy I get from doing small things like meditating or seeing my family just sparked some kind of change in me. I’m younger so I know there’s still so much I can appreciate about life and my childhood so I’m gonna make the best of it in 2025. I hope everyone gets to enjoy the simple things in life and slow it down just a bit. Go through it and enjoy what you can! I know I’m probably not one to speak on life advice but it seems so amazing to experience it. I pray all of you experience your highest highs this upcoming year! Best regards - this random fella on the internet :)
11/29/24 - 2:15 am Life’s touch turned from familiar to unrecognizable . Horrifying intrusive possibilities came to fruition . The music is comforting of a brain whose mind which has been contorted and twisted into incoherent thought of abyssal despair and unconscious yet confused rage . Slight slivers and flashes of light messaging hope.
thinking about you this week and praying for you, brother. ive realized i cannot do this alone, ive started back at counseling and my old support group. i don't know your exact circumstances, but you don't need to walk through this alone. thank you for sharing.
Though the despair that… time… brings us is there, it is not without the sweet truth that this pain too will one day fall into the endless cycle. May your timeless mind forever carry this music to mild the bitter flavor.
I getcha. Welp, hey, we survived every single crappy situation ever in the history of man kind, and now men can kiss each other and not be killed for it. Maybe it'll get better, maybe it'll get worse- it can't be good forever and it can't be bad forever. I believe in you, draw a dog
Had a very productive day today. Went shopping, installed new LED lights, finished up accounting homework. Feels good 👍 These little things are what make life worth it to me.
12/02/2024 We just finished up the Christmas tree today (mostly my brother, he wanted to use every ornament he could) and were gonna watch Arcane in a little bit. I already watched S2 so he’s just asking me stuff and I give him blank answers, and cry in his room while doing so cause I’m reliving the episodes that gave me emotional damage- But it’s been nice. I don’t usually enjoy Christmas unless I’m at home and it’s snowing. Which it is!!! I only hope it’ll stick around long enough that I can sit out and watch it melt slowly. But uhhhhh, I hope everyone is doing good and starting their traditions for the season. Please take care
I acknowledge that I've listened to this video for only 2 minutes and knowing damn well I will not watch the rest of it or rewatch it in any circumstances whatsoever, yet I still gave it a like.👍
I sliced open my finger so bad while trying to slice potatoes and I bled out, cried and fainted in the kitchen in front of my whole family ON THANKSGIVING while my brother just stressed about his mac and cheese sauce being spicy. Thanksgiving was awesome and the best and warmest thanksgiving ive had ever. I love my family and my friends. And i love you ALL 💗💗
I'm doing pretty good. New chapter of my life opened. No girlfriend and moved back in with parents. Got a raise at my job. Started investing. Going to therapy, my friends care about me. I'm reading this thing called the personal bill of rights everyday. I'm setting boundaries really well. I keep doing a good job and proving to myself I'm capable. I have many people who wanna teach me things. I feel blessed. And I'm slowly becoming fully sober, but I'm dedicated to that.
i recently got a cd player which also has bluetooth capabilities. i would like to start burning your playlists onto cds so i can listen to them without using my phone, but for now i'm just enjoying hearing your selections through the speakers. makes life more enjoyable! thanks for uploading!
Finally finished moving my parents back into their house after literal months of repairs and renovations. I had to put my job search on hold, but finally getting back to my own life will be nice. ALSO my two little sisters came for thanksgiving and we had so much fun like we used to. Crazy to think that our dynamic hasnt changed too much. Love those two to death. All thats left is to unpack literal everything they own. Light work 😅
I’m really happy this got recommended to me. This month has been very challenging to me, with moving into a new place and all my personal struggles building up because of that. I think this is a fitting time for a checkpoint. Reading comments feels like a better coping mechanism than scrolling endlessly through random shit
When you're younger, you don't realize how fast time goes. Nowadays time goes by so fast it's like I can't really appreciate anything as it's always flying by. But that's the difference from being young and naive and being older and mature. Even though I'm only 18 and I know I still have a lot more life to live it's just I wish time could slow down sometimes, even just a little bit.
It will only get faster! Take time to be present. Drink your beverages slowly. Make plans to look forward to. Take part in traditions you like. Take lots of photos. Cheers!
@@butterfree7072 You're not wrong about that, it only gets faster and faster as life goes on. But we gotta make the most of the time we got. I do make sure to take a lot of photos too so I can remember most of the times but sometimes it can be sad to look back yk. But I wish you the best and thank you for responding. Cheers!!!
I like to stop every now and then whenever I'm walking to look at the sky, or trees or whatever for a few seconds. Best stress relief in the world, lets you put things in perspective
Maybe it’s because, when you’re a kid, you have so much fun that you don’t realize time is gradually slipping. Maybe try taking a break and doing something that you might like?
i've actually started to enjoy life after years of dreading it. School has become a part of my day to day and not some task I have to sleep through. I think I truly want to recover.
Thanksgiving break for the middleschool I’m in. I currently have a friend over for a sleepover and ngl we’ve had fun playing with my sister and playing outside.
11/26/24 As of right now I’ve been with my relatives for the past 8 days, and will be on a plane in 2 days to go home. Last time I was with my relatives I was really depressed and homesick, I had never been so sad in my life than that time. I’m glad though, that I was able to get through that time to be here with them today. I know we don’t get the time to be with each other that much and literally go through hell to see each other, but it’s worth it to be with the people you love. Soon I’ll be going home and will be with the friends I love too. Can’t wait to see them, hope y’all have a good day.
today i found an old text from my friend about his little brother. his brother called himself an "elfer". upon questioning it was found he actually meant "alpha" but he couldnt pronounce it. thought id share!
your mixes make my job a lot easier to tolerate. i hope the internet checkpoint comments aren't bothering you too much, thank you for doing what you do
if anyone is there, I am having the best year of my life, I have love and support from all the people around me and im achieving something ive been trying for years, I got a guitar and i feel awesome healing from depression, I hope to all who are ever waiting for something in life and are depressed, if things are bad then its not the end, things might get worse before they get better but it makes u stronger and appreciate life more. put in the effort if you want it to get better and be gentle with yourself when u need it dont be to hard on urself
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No way
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good music
Why
I listen to this mix quite often 🐥
i'm so happy we're at the point of no named youtube videos somehow getting onto our feeds. like i have no idea what brought any of us here but i'm enjoying this so much
sameeee
I actually really hate them because there's too many of them like TITLES WERE CREATED FOR A REASON!!! SO YOU CAN TELL WHAT IT IS!!! IS THIS A HORROR INTERNET ARG DISGUISED AS A PLAYLIST??? IS THIS JUST A PLAYLIST??? THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE BLANK NAME VIDEO, HOW THE HELL DO I SEARCH FOR THEM
Its like those "Internet checkpoints" i guess that is why we love this kind of video so much, with people sharing stories and similar
Like those Japanese synthesizer songs
I like how this video is just being used as a diary for everyone
That's the magic of UA-cam checkpoints. The comment section is turned into a hub for little diaries or journals where you can type about your experiences and mishaps while you listen to calming music and be yourself for a while.
@@onyxsephiworks-1337 And you can read others' experiences! That's part of the fun while listening!
I love youtube checkpoints :) :)]
It’s Neil cicirega’s brodyquest all over again
Why
this feels like a safe space to share that I have been in a creative burnout and depressive state basically all of 2024 but I am finally creating again and becoming inspired by the beauty of life once more. 2025 might not be so bad after all. I am grateful for the small communities like this that foster the needs of people like us
Hope you continue this path forwards!!
I feel you! 2024 was a good year for me, but i barely created anything! It feels good to finally get some inspiration again.
I FEEL THIS!! I never really stopped drawing in 2024 but towards the end I began to enjoy it again, as well as began dabbling in other things. I wish you well!! Keep creating in 2025 :)
buncha youths posting about school in these comments. not me. I went to pelvic floor therapy today. Took the best shit of my life afterward. Getting old is amazing
w gramps
that is awesome
happy for you, love your grumpycat pfp
[I don't doubt this.]
I love you 😂 this is my favourite comment
The orange geometric shapes floating in the video and the comments of people I don't know who are listening to the same song as me somewhere on earth make me feel better.
It's a Mother 3 (or EarthBound/Mother 2, cant tell) battle background
@@skld-xm im pretty sure their from mother 3, i dont remember this one when i played through mother 2 but i could be wrong
They look like cheeeeeessse
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@@skld-xmlooks like a Mother 3 one to me, possibly like the one you see when battling an Arachnid! in Chapter 2 but i could be wrong
No title, No hashtags, just pure algorithm
Checkpoint! I'm happy I'm not dead, which is a new feeling. I like being alive for the first time since before I was even self aware.
HELLLLLLL YEAH BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!! Wishing nothing but the best for you!
That's great!!! I wish you the best!!
That’s fuckin awesome dog
Yeah definitely, I feel the same way too. Sometimes I just realize that in a real person that others see and think about sometimes, that I actually exist. It's an odd but interesting feeling
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Hey, thanks for finding my comment. Please remember to take it easy. Things can get rough but that was then. You’re here now, make what you do next even better.
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thank you kind stranger ❤
Thank you, I hope now becomes then soon - so i can look back at how much i've grown from this day.
this made me start to tear up 😭 positive encouragement even from a stranger on the internet is all a person needs sometimes. especially when no one tells it to you in real life.
Thanks for that man😊
I took the leap and traded my better-paying fast food job for an entry spot as a therapist. All my feelings and musings about being stuck went away. However, shortly after I injured myself and had to take some time off. I felt bad, but with it came a whole lot of new lessons that popped up every single day. Maybe I needed that.
I feel like I'm becoming closer to my partner and my family, my best friend, and just feel so much more connected and vibrant than ever before. I never thought I would make it to my twenties, let alone ENJOY what was to come. Rather than wallowing in uncertainty for so long, day by day I'm trying to push out of my comfort in at least one way, whether it's stepping out to a new place or sparking conversation, having that necessary but dreaded talk you need to have. Whatever happens I assure you, it works out for the best. Risks are needed.
500 years from now, an anthropologist will find this video on internet archive and burst into tears of joy
Hi, anthropologist from the future!! I hope your day is going well!
anthropologist from the future, I hope your day is lukewarm
anthropologist from the future is it safe to bite into batteries yet?
Hiiii future anthropologist !!!
Sup, anthropologist of the future‼️‼️
I wonder if you'll actually finds this..
Diary entry: my dad got out of prison today and i got to see him! We talked for around 3 hours straight about just whatever we could think of. It was great.
That’s really sweet, i’m glad you got to see him again
Awesome!
oh wait that's really cool!! I'm happy for you, my dad is in jail still though :(
what’d he do
@@coal1235 it doesn't matter as someone who's father has been to prison, okay, literally nobody cares about what happened i just think it's cute they had fun, dont ask intrusive questions lol 😅
dec 9 2024
the chronic illness do be chronic illnessing and the disability do be disabling. i haven’t cleaned my room in months and it’s getting bad. my hygiene is surprisingly decent but that’s because i have a job. if i was unemployed id be disgusting. it’s so hard to find the motivation to get out of bed most days. i’d love to start cleaning my room soon. i did throw some of the trash away a couple weeks ago, gotta start somewhere.
in spite of everything, im happy right now. christmas is my favorite time of year. i’m 21 and still live with my parents (im a medium support disabled person and i can’t live alone) and they still do christmas with me like im a little kid. i really love it. this time of year makes me so happy and makes me feel alive for a little while.
by the time the new year hits, i’ll be back to my old depressed self. i’m doing my best to cherish this small sliver of time where i feel truly happy before it ends again.
wishing you the most for the holidays, stay safe
Merry Christmas and pls know that I'm sending much support and love from here!
We're all here to support you, if you need us.
Welcome back internet checkpoint, we missed you
was just going to say the same thing!
Just had my third gig for my band. A ton of people came and we raised even more money for charity. I feel happy and satisfied, like I finally made an impact on the world for the better
👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
That's so cool!!
props to you dude :)
Right On!
We always need more good music in the world, good luck and have fun in your projects! :D
yesterday it started snowing unexpectedly- my area doesn't get a lot of it and if it does, it never stays for longer than a few hours. It used to be different, when I was a child the hills and fields were filled with masses of it and I used to spent hours numbing my body in the crunchy mass until the cold burned my smiling face. But now, we never have winters like this anymore, it's only gray gray gray. But it has been snowing steadily since yesterday and I took a walk just before nightfall, to see the local forest-park in all its soft splendour. The air was hazy and the fading light turned everything blueish and suddenly the world felt so quiet and vast and encouraging. And today, as I work, I watch the flakes come thick and fast and feel at peace just watching them tumble from the sky. One day, wherever it will be, I will fall into a thick blanket of snow again. That's my dream.
this is some good backround music for just.... doing nothing
little guy running around in your head core
amen
genuinely started doing nothing just to test out your theory.. safe to say it was my fave doing nothing session so far
Isn't doing nothing actually doing something?
To do nothing is doing something or am I stupid..
@@chryssdale5747 i mean yea kinda, you cant precisely do nothing if you are something
If we’re using this as a checkpoint, im happy to say that despite my severe depression and hoarding tendencies, I’m like. Really working on cleaning my room. It might not sound like a lot but it’s the world to me rn.
That’s amazing!!!! You’re doing better than me lol my room is a mess 😅 So proud of u tho💎💎💎
that IS a lot and i’m SO proud of you!!!! ❤❤❤❤
any bit of effort you put in should be something to be proud of, and it's good to take in the wins for yourself like this too. I'm proud of you too :D , keep up the efforts in your own pace
I’m doing the exact same thing in the exact same situation
Im genuinely proud of you :3 one step is better than none
seeing all humans that come across this video log their day, or talk about their life, or just here to see other's stories just warms my heart.
it's in our dna to be remembered or recognized, so we all just collectively come together and leave a small mark, saying "i was here.".
I went for a walk during the golden hour today and got to see the everyone's Christmas lights come to life as it got darker. We haven't gotten much snow yet, so it wasn't as nice as I'd hoped, but was still pleasant. When I got back home, I made myself a cup of hot chocolate and played some Chrono Trigger. I gotta say, spending less time online is great. I'm getting my attention span back and it's easier to lose myself in a good story without worrying about what I might be missing out on.
Have fun with chrono trigger!!!!
This is delightful
Thanks for sharing, it’s comforting to know someone had a nice day, nothing extravagant or over the top. Thanks
saw my favorite band and im so sore from jumping :’) im glad i kept living
I’m glad you kept living 💗
Go you!! ❤️
middle school huh
So happy for you!What band was it if you don’t mind me asking??
wicked
I don't know how it took me this long to change my major to theater, but the joy I felt when I switched isn't stronger than the anxiety anymore. I was playing minecraft to avoid the feelings of dread bc it's winter break and I'm not prepared at all for auditions when I came on here looking for music. I'm glad the algorithm brought me this video. And I hope someone finds this comment and feels a little more understood.
I got my journal out, wrote "hello", got stuck, distracted on youtube, then found an internet diary. So I'm gonna journal while likely 1 or 2 other people do here at the same time, but I'm doing it physically in my journal- i am with you!
That’s a good idea, I’m gonna get my journal out thx for the reminder 🫵👍
Good on ya for having 112 subs m8!
Reminder: Complete journal
i started keeping a journal recently too. ive managed to keep it in mind for the last few months and its quite nice. idk how things are going for you but if you find its hard to write sometime down i always think to myself that what im writing isnt actually all that important at all. i should be the only person who reads it, so its contents can me as rough or unfinished as i want. it should just be things that i think.
but maybe youre journal is different from that. its all the same in the end so long as you write. have a nice day
8/12/24
Two decades of being alive. It's now finals week for my third semester of college, and I’m glad I chose a major that I actually enjoy.
Next year will mark my third year of my art journey, which started with buying a cheap drawing tablet on a whim. The first year was rough obviously, but the second year was the improvement year.
I worked hard, and now I can draw decently, I'm happy enough with my progress.
Really hope all this skill development will pay off in the future, I don't expect much other than bringing food to the table if I do art as a job.
To anyone reading this, keep working on developing your skills and growing as a person. You’re doing good enough and don’t overthink it.
well done! art is cool
Cool! ❤
I’m going through a very similar situation
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my birthday is on 08/12 and I turned 20 this year too lol
There's a huge chance that someone is watching this video at the exact same second as me, and that kinda blows my mind
you're not alone, my mind has also been kinda blown
12/2/2024
This summer I moved to a new country and its been difficult to adjust, but i am finally feeling like im fitting in. Have a decent job for now, making friends, enjoying the city and the christmas lights.
In June my grandpa was diagnosed with mesothelioma. They told him he had about 4 months to live. After 6 months and many blood transfusions, the cancer has not progressed! Yesterday my grandparents offered to fly me back home in the spring to see them. I never thought I would see my grandpa again. I am trying not to get my hopes too high because he could pass away any time, but I really am looking forward to possibly giving him a hug in April. I am not close with my parents, I see my grandparents as my true parental role models.
I will cherish every memory with them.
Lots of strength to both your grandpa and you!! ❤
aww i hope you meet him again and i hope it won't be the last time! loads of love
Your grandfather is blessed to have you. Beyond medicine, the greatest remedy is having your loved ones around. I hope you get to see your grandparents again and he recovers well.
11/28/24
JUST GOT MY FIRST ART COMMISSION SUBMITTED!!! the person LOVED IT, and payed me 30$ for it!!! it was such an amazing experience for me, and has upped my confidence to a whole new level.
but, in one day, my favorite show i have watched for over a decade (inanimate insanity) is coming to an end. it was such an amazing journey to be a part of, and i honestly dont know what i would have done without the show and it’s creators by my side for years. its a bitter sweet feeling, but i really cant wait.
be my friend right now
congrats man! I hope you get more commission soon. where can some people find you, if they want one?
for future tanuki moon: for you to truly shine, you must shed your old skin and become tanuki sun
@ this writing fire bro oh my god 😭😭
omg inanimate insanity fan!!! havent watched the _finale_ finale yet but im sure itll be amazing! congrats on the art commission!
I honestly love these type of videos. Nothing flashy, or fast, or anything of the sort..just cool n’ chill vibes that can bring people together and just, talk :]
I told her I'd ace my exams, so I spent about one week cramming all of our lessons sleeping at 3-4am everyday. While I didn't ace most of my exams, I had a pretty decent score. Having the highest score in an exam or being in the 1-3rd placement of highest scores in my class
She doesn't know that I spent those weeks studying all night long, she only knows that I studied, and her simple praise was more than enough
This was worth it.
I am proud of you. Your dedication and dicipline is really impressive
Yoooooo proud of ya bro idk how your doing rn but im rootin for ya 👍
@@bluekidkid2 keep being blue, kid
man i sure do love random relaxing/sad music playlist videos that pop up in my home page and then i scroll through the thousands of vents that are in the comments
yeah its nice seeing ppl do better
Whoops, when I first saw the video I read this as a "bleepblurpblobp" happy go lucky video, with people saying slightly goofy whimsical things that happened to them. Like that first comment of the happy person with pelvic floor therapy getting an upgrade in quality of life
Edit: OOPS, it IS that 💀
i know somebody else said something like this but i like being self aware instead of following the crew around. theres just something more to every little thing other than "oh how do i beat this" or "need to do that". its really about the journey and not the destination.
smth smth if you wanna go fast, go alone. if you wanna go far, go together.
me personally, i have been feeling depressed and filled with anxiety these past couple weeks, looking at these heartwarming comments and listening to the music is helping me cheer up,
thank you
wish you the best, it'll get better♡
I’m happy the comments cheer you up!❤️
wish you the best :3
told my dad about my adult autism diagnosis tonight and he didn’t completely flip his shit like i thought perhaps he would. he even asked for ways to help accommodate me considering i just moved back in with him and my family. was actually pretty cool :) hope things continue to get better like this so we can have more trust. not telling my mom yet, i have a true feeling she’s not open to that right now. hope everyone’s doing well today. much love
I have ASD too, and although I’m doing well with my closer family members, the story is much, much different with the rest of the extended family. I’m glad things are going well for you, best of wishes!
We'll done Fetty Wap 🫂
@@Tree173 thank you tree 🌳🫂
@@W0L1W1L0 thank you for the well wishes, i love your pfp! good luck to you too, i hope you’re doing well all things considered 🍀 there’s a great video on the channel the thought spot about this subject (i recommend their content, especially if you are high masking.) i’ve shared my diagnosis with only with a few ppl; i’ve been more-so prioritizing being in good standing with myself and meeting my own needs as best i can without explaining myself to others as much as possible. embracing my stims and blocking out alone time to regulate my emotions. trying to build some self-trust and have my own back. accommodations from others are great, but ultimately it feels really good to intentionally use your own power to make yourself happy and healthy. it helps you remember that whether people “get it” or not doesn’t determine the quality of your life, it’s how you treat yourself that determines that stuff. take this with a grain of salt of course. we got this. i hope u have a great life. 🫂
yasu pfp 🔥
lately I’ve been worried if I’m not where I’m supposed to be in life but looking back, I’ve become friends with this absolutely awesome dude. I’ve taught him all about the things I love and he’s done the same for me. The guy’s the musican and before him I knew nothing about forming a band, skateboarding and a whole lot of things. And before me I guess he hadn’t come out to anyone. I hadn’t come out to many people either. I get scared one day he might decide that I’m too weird for him and I wouldn’t be mad if he did. I would understand, and I think that sums up how low my self confidence is. Even if we grow apart, I’m so grateful for the friendship and I’m so glad he saw something in me.
went to group therapy this morning for a few hours, they let us go early since there was more people from the short program. it was a really good session. spent that extra hour in my car, in the rain, writing a grief letter to my friend who passed away a few years ago while listening to the playlist of songs that remind me of him. bawled almost the whole time but god damn, it was cathartic. immediately after that i went and got sushi with my best friend and he showed me pics from his trip to DC. we bullshitted about everything and it was really nice. food was great. it's been raining all day and i love it. also built my new bedframe in preparation for my newly college grad boyfriend to move in with us next week. it's been a good day. we take the little wins.
11/26/2024
Drove myself home last night and it was my first time driving. I'M SO CONFIDENT. I got the hang of turning pretty quickly and I gotta thank my dad for being there with me. Love you dad.
Just gotta get the hang of braking nice and smooth. There's a sweet spot on the brake pedal that I need to find so the car doesn't jerk when I stop. I also wanna work on my parking skills. (THEY SUCK.) Well, anyway, time to play some Rhythm Heaven and make this game suck my nards cuz I'm that good at it. LATER NERDS.
Good job buddy! If there is one thing that boosts my confidence it is driving. Last month, I was kinda having a hard time in university and began to doubt myself pretty hard.
Then my uncle began to teach me about how to ride a motorcycle. The thing is that I had NO experience in bike or whatsoever, so I needed to gain balance in a motorcycle.
In less than a month I was already in the streets driving, very happy and satisfied with myself! And the pinnacle of my efforts were to being able to travel with my mom to the places she couldn't go because of terrible public transport.
Anyways, I resonate strongly with your history, and I hope that everything works out for you in the end.
Niceeee I gotta get back to doing some driving practice, i'm so late to my license it's ridiculous
@@syra1541 LMAOO DUDE SAME. I'm 18 and still need to get my license. Slowly inching closer towards it..
@@insensat0634 YOOOOO MOTORCYCLES ARE SO AWESOME. I'm so glad that driving that thang has helped you outta that rough mindset. Freaking awesome.
@@ChickenTenderBenderthere is no time limit on when you should get your license, don’t feel bad about not having it yet! it takes time and practice :)
01/06/2025
This is the second time I found a checkpoint (at least from this channel) since then a LOT of things happened.
My 10 years cat passed away and left a whole in my heart. Also, I'm in therapy now and trying my best to not give up on life.
Diary entry:
Hit the club with friends a few weeks ago, met some new folks, had a great time. I was a mega introvert (autism will do that) in high school and never really partied even in college, but I’ve been pushing my comfort zone and been socializing more lately. Honestly, it feels pretty great. Never knew I had it in me.
im an autistic 10th grader and this gave me hope that i will push out of my comfort zone when im older. thank you so much!!! (even now, i am pushing out of my comfort zone. unlike 9th grade, i am excited to go to school this year to see my real friends)
i feel you. glad it was fun. sweet icon btw
i’m still a college kid but i’ve been surprising myself too over the past years. i can still be so shy sometimes i just don’t know how to start conversations with people ive never met before! but i really do love talking to people! anyways hope ur proud of urself!
Don't post it in the internet
Proud of you man. I’m around the same point in life trying to do the same. It’s a pain but so worth it in the end, i wish you the best of luck!
Looks like we've made this video a checkpoint. It suits me.
Game progress has been saved.
omg i used your pfp as my pfp once
shut up bro 😭😭😭😭😭😭
The soothing sounds of the music with the nice shades of orange and yellow tiles and triangles fills you with a sense of *determination*
**HP maxed out**
Hearing that Sonic Rush at 10:31 just melted my soul into happiness
why are these diary entries just so wholesome omg
Like fr!!!
too many of these music compilations are now ai. glad to see someone who is doing it the real way :)
demoman tf2 likes to keep it real
It's a crying shame too, there's so much AI music garbage pumping out and it's ridiculous, it's soulless
@@jetstreamsampai474 AI music compilations? AI in what sense? That its music made by ai or that its poorly compilated/edited into a video by ai?
@@vaultguy3291 i’m curious too
@@vaultguy3291 could also be that they use AI thumbnails / imagery
glad to be here at the orange-and-yellow polygon show with you all today. Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, and I'm hopeful for the future (knock on wood)!
I've found a group of people who make me happy. One of them wrote me a message for thanksgiving about how much they appriciate me and it made me cry. Another told me they look up to me and hope someday they'll do cool things like I did. I've never had someone tell me that before directly. Yesterday I got a message from a friend telling me they're in a server where people were huge fans of my work and art and it motivated me to work again. And now I'm sitting here in a bad house in a bad place with bad people, and while eating grapes I'm realising life isn't so bad. Because even when I'm at my lowest, people still think about me in such a positive light. Some of my friends are younger. I hope I get to see the day they graduate and be happy knowing that I stayed alive long enough to witness something amazing from the greatest people I've ever met. The last friends I made ended up being horrible and it ruined how I interact with people socially. But this time? They're way more positive and carefree. I hope they stay this way forever and never let the world topple them. I love them and wish the best for them, and I want to live just to see them thrive.
Goodbye until next time. Or never. I'm still just as happy seeing you wave from afar. And next time I see this, I tell you to live. For as dark as your mind might be, there are people who love it all the same as when it is light. They will miss you. I will miss you. And the past versions of me will miss you. Don't let her have no one to mourn her. I'm not begging. I'm telling you.
Live.
ZAMN made me tear up dude so happy that you found some amazing friends that seem to really care about u so cool
I never thought of living for the past versions of somebody. But you’re right, you’re absolutely right. I can’t disappoint my mother from when I was born, my sister at 10, my grandmother just yesterday. I’ll keep going for them, even if they’d never know. I hope you do too in the future, thinking of your wonderful friends you have now. I’m so glad it got better for you and I hope it just continues to :)
It can be so difficult to let new people in after bad relationships in the past, but it’s worth it in the end. You deserve all the happiness in the world bro, I’m happy you’re finally finding peace with these new friends.
Thank you
11/25/24
I had a rough year with moving into an apartment, losing the apartment, ending a friendship over that apartment, quitting my stressful job, and moving in with another friend. And right now, in this moment, I finally know peace and happiness. Everything this year needed to happen and I am better off for it. I hope I can keep this feeling for a long time.
And if you're reading this, I hope you find your happiness. I hope you find your peace. You've earned it.
good luck
i'm glad everything's better for you now !! kind wishes to you as well
Progress can be bittersweet. Hoping the rest keeps you going. Thanks for sharing
Thanks… I’m glad you’re doing well, and hope for things to continue that way… Sounds like things were rough… Sorry for the over use of ellipses… They’re… Fun… To… Type… XD…
12/25/24: it's christmas today. no one else has come downstairs yet, and i'm sitting in the living room doing nothing besides looking at the wrapped presents and watching tv. i had pretty bad allergies 2 days ago but they've gotten better. can't wait to celebrate christmas with my family.
merry christmas to whoever's found this in time, and if not? let's hope that 2025 is okay.
11/30/24
i’ll be 7 months sober on december 8th!! it’s been hell getting here but i’m glad ive been able to do it. this is my first attempt at sobriety that is coming from my own desire to be healthy and happy, and not from an obligation to make others happy. you deserve sobriety :)
3 years sober here!!!! keep it going, momentum feels so good!!!!! congrats!!!!!
You're amazing
Nice!!
about to stop smoking after downing 3g of bud everyday for years. i see u stranger and i am super proud of you❤️🥸
congrats dude!!! you're killing it that's amazing
I recently got (like 3-4 days ago) a grip on my new phone
I worked hard for it on a construction site, helped building a hospital in my village
After 3 years of stagnation I finally felt that wave of excitement wash over me, such joy overwhelm me still
Hard work finally paid off and I'm extremely happy
I'm using this music to help me focus on drawing my characters
Tysm!! It's such a mood stabilizer
heheh, the vibes are immaculate here. i love reading everyones stories with the music and visuals, just what i needed
ikr bro ive just been responding to comments this is p fun
Me too lol !! This is pretty great
i do the same rn !! that's just what I needed idk how to explain it but it feels great in a way
just to remember to myself that Im not alone in this fckn world :)
to anyone who see this love you sm guys
woke up at 6am and my stomach hurts
I hope your stomach is better now‼️ (this comment is so real though 😭)
It do be like that boss
TUMMY ACHE SURVIVOR ✊
I've come to realise that my youtube feed has changed into this creative algorithm- funky music with no titles or very crazy obscure titles that people would usually ignore but i LOOOOOVE them- i am so fascinated by these audios/songs but also i have alot of deep talks about analogue horror or deep dark topics from Reddit or twitter, game theories- art topics and deep topics on politics URGH youtube is finally getting interesting- the algorithm is beautiful atm.
Been a tough weeks.
Old wounds for an old dog still hurt.
Managed to slip back and away from what could've been a mental breakdown, just barely.
Attempting to get an education while you're already with quite some age is quite hard, specially when you have to handle mental and personal issues.
And yet, I keep going. And yet, I keep finding very brief but enjoyable moments of downtime. And yet, I am stressed, but this very moment I write this, I rest.
Keep going. Shit's tough but you can be tougher than the shit.
-Tigerhouse, overworked and overstressed, resilient and determined man of the internet.
You can do it!
my best wishes to you, stranger. hope everything's turned out just fine.
you can be tougher than the shit goes so hard... i hope everything can work out for you. i strive to have your positivity
hell yeah you got this mr. tigerhouse!! your perseverance is inspiring, keep going man!
"shit's tough but you can be tougher than the shit" is hitting me hard (in a good way!). good luck with your education, keep going man 💙
UA-cam recommended this twice in a row. Literally no joke, one on top of the other
🤯 Never had that happen to me before. One time I got like an ad that was like an hour long though. Robots just do this stuff I guess
heard everyone was sharing stuff so today is 26/12/24 and i went on a plane by myself today! my older brother was meant to come with me but he's sick so he wasn't able to unfortunately. i've never been on a plane before so i was a little bit nervous, but it was easy peasy. i love flying
i may not be straight
Good 4 u!
hell yeah
and that's okay!
Bro is non-euclidean 🥶
same girl same
When i first entered into middle school, i had no idea what to do with my life. i felt like i was lost. I got into a lot of drama, i was always tired, and overall i just went into every day with a negative mindset. It wasn't healthy. Now, im a few months away from being a highschooler. In the time between middle school and highschool, i gained confidence, and some amazing friends. I dove deeper into my religion and overall i just feel more in control of my own life. Every single day i wake up excited to go to school. I get excited to talk to people, crack jokes, and enjoy time with friends. I truly am at a point in my life where i am at peace.
Happy for you dude! I think we are in the same grade
As a person a couple grades above you, a little bit of advice ig: find like two or three friends (if you can) that you can truly confide in bc it makes life a shit ton easier. I have a couple of ppl who I’ve known since I was in middle school and were basically siblings at this point. They help you get through a lot. Also try to do your assignments on time so there’s no backlog because I know damn well that messed me up when I started Highschool. It’s not gonna get easier, but it doesn’t have to be hard asf if you try your best. Good luck!! :D
im in 10th grade now! this is the first year where i havent had any drama since 6th grade and i have real friends at school :). make sure you have people you can confide in, and become friends with people who are not fake
congrats! you’re in a better spot than i was in middle/high school that’s for sure. honestly just keep on keeping on, go outside often, and hang out with your friends and you’ll be good :)
sounds awesome! Kind of crazy seeing other 8th graders here in the comments lol. I’m hoping my highschool career can go at least half as smoothly as this year’s been so far :)
here’s a poem i made a couple weeks ago that i think fits with all these heartwarming comments :3
title:
what are we to do but love?
i am here
standing in edges of ocean waves
crash
ripple
fade
i am here
standing in water life has cycled
born
living
fade
you are here
to breathe it in
and breathe it out
as gentle as the water that touches you
nothing else to do, but
love till you fade
i hope y’all take a positive view of this poem, as i essentially meant for this poem to be about loving the life you have and being content/happy with what you have in life :3 but i know everyone interprets poetry different, which i hope my poem has multiple meanings for everyone!
i love reading all these heartwarming comments about being alive :3 im so glad to be alive here and now, loving the love of my life and looking forward to living it with him and doing things we talk about with each other. i just hope for a good future for us all yknow, just do some good for this earth :3 💛
Almost ruined my life the other week. Getting therapy now. Haven't had a drink in over a week.
Chapter 2 begins.
I always come crashing down around this time of year. I'm not really 'better' during Summer, just have more energy and am capable of performing... Some kinds of tasks. but Winter is like time travel. it sends me back to every other Winter I've ever lived through before. it's like I retroactively 'become' every past version of myself that has ever existed in this state, simultaneously. and I spend this time digging through the time capsules left behind by all the past me's.
cooping up, isolating, barely leaving the house; doing nothing but lying in bed, eating, browsing the internet for anything that can hold my interest for a couple of days at a time, anything to escape complete nothingness. relapsing into bad habits out of apathy. but that's how I survive Winter. I become... bad. it's like transforming into a shadow version of myself - one that I flicker in and out of almost constantly through the year, but basically permanently embody during the cold months.
trying to fight it makes it worse. I think this year the challenge is accepting that this is just... what I am. even though it feels so, so wrong. *I* feel wrong. people aren't normally like this. or at least... they don't get away with it, like I do. they have more serious responsibilities, more relationships to hold them accountable. sometimes that fact makes me feel like I was never supposed to exist. like I'm some kind of cosmic mistake that needs to be cleaned up sooner or later.
I don't know what to do with that feeling.
Yeah once it starts getting colder and the days start getting darker I really start to spiral without fail when before then I seem to do mostly well. I can relate to literally every word of what you said, most of it I've actually thought about before. I actually just turn into a content absorbing machine whether it be social media, watching something, video games, reading, etc. There's not much you can do outside in winter! So pair less physical activity with untreated anxiety and depression that's just amplified by the colder darker days and...huh. No wonder I feel like absolute shit! Lol. Every time it just takes me back and reminds me of all the other episodes of mental illness I've had which are usually start around the middle of October(which is my birthday month ironically)and progressively gets worse until spring. Like you It seems I have to just accept what is. Feeling guilty for not functioning properly isn't gonna help me. All I can do is just accept the past for what it was and the present for what it is and just hope and strive to achieve a better future. I hope your Winter gets better and Merry Christmas! Also your videos look really cool! I'll have to watch them sometime. :)
You’re not a mistake. Different doesn’t mean mistake. Try taking vitamin D during the Wintertime, and if that doesn’t work, you seem to have a system going for you, journal through that if you can. You hibernate, you’re like a sentimental cosmic bear. Here’s hoping things get better, and if they don’t, I hope life creates a nice little corner for you to break away from the rest of us when necessary. Spirits up!
hey man, if it makes you feel any better, I feel the exact same way. it helps me to think about it from an evolutionary standpoint- we’re big predators who can’t really do or hunt anything in the winter. Really, we should be hibernating. you’re not any sort of mistake unless you view it from the standpoint that we’re hardwired with modern society in mind, which we aren’t! You’re feeling what nature intended, just in an environment that’s not suited for it. It’s a comforting thought to me, at least, that we aren’t so far gone that we can’t still feel the pull of natural evolution. We still belong to nature in some regards, and we deal with that fact every winter :) just because some people are better at hiding it than others doesn’t mean it’s any less valid.
im like this too during the winter! it kind of starts a bit in the fall but really comes in during the winter. i feel more emotionally numb, and i scroll a lot. i basically lay in bed and become more emotionally numb. in particular, last year during winter break all i did was lay in bed, scroll, and drown in my emptiness. i think its because the sun goes down faster, meaning there is less vitamin d :)
There's no prereq for knowing what to do with a feeling, you just gotta pick a direction n go.
it's 1am and I have to be up for work at 6. I got on here looking for background noise to sleep to, since my fan stopped working and the dead silence was driving me crazy. after work I'm going to find a new fan, my mom even said she would pay which made me smile. the holidays are bittersweet for me but little things like that are what make this time feel so nice. and I've got a peppermint iced coffee waiting in the fridge which is awesome too. goodnight guys❤ hope life brings you all some peace in the midst of all the chaos. pay attention to the little things and it'll put a smile on your face. even if it's just admiring the planet for a bit. life's beautiful.
I am currently an extrovert. before watching this I was binge watching videos of introvert's lives and admiring how simple their life is.
If I wasn't given proper autistic support at a young age I would have been introverted like all other people in my shoes but alas I desire social interaction and experiences despite how hard it can be to get those things sometimes. Maybe I could take a lesson or two out of their playbook and use my inside time as the hub world of my life. I can use it to think about previous social interactions and have quality time to myself so I can be nice and comfortable even when I don't have others there to make me feel stimulated.
I raise a glass to the few other autistic extroverts out there, god speed, never stop being interesting
Same to you, never stop being interesting!🫶✨
Thanks!!
I got my old friends back I'm very happy to have them and im glad they want to play games with me everyday!
Hell yea
happy for u
I’m so happy that you got your old friends back
i'm happy for you!
I like that this one isn’t depressing ambient music, just chill vibes. Nice change of pace
Currently stuck in bed with gastritis. I’ve eaten nothing but bananas and coconut water for four days. This playlist feels perfect for my current delusional sick state. Thank you.
what’s that
Total vibe slay queen
i hope you feel better soon!!
november 28
doing laundry for the first time in 3 weeks
left the house for the first in 1- to do said laundry
slowly crawling out of yet another pit of dysfunction
gonna tackle socializing next, then my college work that has piled up
it gets worse before it gets better. im in a lot of mental distress and pain lately. but i enjoy being here. i enjoy being alive. i think im gonna make it out, even if im very mentally injured. i dont think i have the capacity to be normal, but i think i can make it someday. it feels insurmountable right now, but hey, im doing my laundry. gonna have clean towels and clothes to wear. gonna go to thanksgiving and try to remember how to pray. gonna keep cleaning and im gonna go outside for a walk soon. its supposed to be nice outside for once, usually florida is very hot. sucks that ive spent so much of this nice weather rotting in bed, but oh well. maybe ill finally bike over to that parking garage and do that chalk drawing. maybe ill make it. maybe i won't let the guilt eat me alive. maybe it doesn't all have to mean as much as i let it mean. maybe i shouldn't be so hard on myself. at least im trying. thats more than my dad has done for the past 10 years. im gonna keep trying. keep hurting, keep messing up, keep getting anxious and spiraling and make it out again. im gonna try.
if it helps, i know where you’re coming from. but hey, you got this! If i can do it, you sure as heck can! i believe in you!
i'm glad you can enjoy life even with everything, and i believe that it gets better for you too!! i believe in you too !!!
Keep trying hard man 🐈
get out of college
You've got this 👍
found another of these unsearchable videos!! I've been collecting them. Wish the best to all of you. Peace out✌
i realised yesterday that i am so, so, so lucky to have two friends that can match me blow for blow, force me to see myself even when i'd rather turn a blind eye, yet are always there for me whenever things get too difficult. i don't know what i would do without them, and i love them more than i know.
Dec. 3, 2024.
Haven't really felt happy for a while now. Best friend's suicide in late June, long relationship breakup a month later, personal issues, college, fear of own future, stress from not being able to do the things I loved doing have made it kind of hard to keep things together. I still hold on, don't really talk to people much now due to all this, lots of isolation, and thats a crazy shift in life for a person who loves to socializing and had the most vibrant and fulfilling life just a few years ago, with friends, hanging out, great conversations, amazing memories, and more things that made life truly fulfilling. All gone. At least there's no alcohol or drugs of any kind in my life thankfully.
Things just suck at the moment, but that will pass sooner or later.
Just got to push through this despite all the hollow feelings and heart ache.
So anyone who goes through similar things at this point - you're not alone. We all struggle and we all overcome it no matter how much things suck in the moment.
End of entree.
Am also in college and have fear of the future. Nice job on being drug free👍
@@kathe_ thanks man
Hey, good on you for getting through all this stuff. Proud of you. Life can be hard, but we can do hard things. Just think of your future self, and the little things you can do now to help you in the future, one of which is never giving up. If you never give up and keep on trying, your problems will eventually break, not you. I wish you peace, have a great day :)
@@eedi_beedi thank you dude, I do appreciate this!
Heya. I'm terribly sorry about everything. I know it feels like the walls are closing in. But those walls are thin enough for you to break through. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for. Hang in there, friend.
Just got an iPad for Christmas. I was experimenting with my Apple Pencil (well… a knockoff that I got off Amazon for around $20. Works just as well as an Apple Pencil tho) Then I went scrolling through UA-cam, and now I found this unnamed video and found what might be the chillest comment section EVER. I love finding chill corners of the internet like this. Is this an internet checkpoint, I guess? Maybe?
Either way, What’s up fellow weirdos!
you know chill music like this is a great way to sit back and take a breather sometimes. reminding myself that i am right here, i am changing, life's going on, it's kinda sobering thinking about it, even though alot of things are returning to me and it's kind of acting like a cycle
these past two years have been a suffocatingly two-extremed monotony that really didn't leave me any time to like it or dislike it, nor any time to think about why it was. recently been wondering and starting to actually think, realized i'm actually so lonely and bored but i can only do things i don't really wanna do or can only do it with the people i don't really like
grateful for my friends and how they are as people but even with them it doesn't really feel right, it doesn't feel like i'm getting along, if anything feels like i'm being dragged away from them everyday, feels like they'll inevitably forget that i even exist because i've been forced from joining them in recent times
i don't know just feels like some sort of stagnant or idle drift to some sort of isolated cycle, you know. don't really know how to describe it accurately but i don't feel like i'm really there at all
When I read this I visualized lots of… gray, and some random guy with long brown hair floating in the midst of the grayness, and nothing else. Idk I’m imaginative lol.
I totally get it, "it only feels like fall" type shit. Well hey, I somehow escaped the monotony, only after getting a partner tho. There were days I wished and hummed good tunes while looking at a big blue sky thinking "one day", and other times where the emptiness took my heart. Nothing can be bad forever, whistle and humm, the sky is so big
Just finished smoking 2 doinks. I work a job that’s night shift and i hate it. Just have to make it to December so I can get my bonus and bounce.
You can do it!
stop smoking
Rootin’ for ya Boof
good luck and *please* _(please)_ take care of yourself
oof, honestly I don't understand how people do night shifts
Life is so cool and awesome, can’t wait to learn. Hard to balance time but I’ve finally gotten control of disciplining myself which is so nice wishing everyone the best
My grandfather is in the hospital right now. he has been for the last few days. They say he got into a car crash, then I heard things were good, day later he got an infection on his wounds.
it lacks any meaning to me anymore. I can already feel ive marked him as dead, all I can think about his seeing him in the same casket as my great grandfather was in about a year and a half ago. Ive been listening to the same album over and over again to try and cope.
Some believe he will survive, some say he wont, but I cant help but think hes already dead. Just grasping onto whatever is left of what he has. I think I started doing this kinda thing when my mother was close to death, I still believe she may just fall over any minuet now. Shes also close to death, but thats just her natural state I suppose.
but hey, at least Black Country, New Road created "Ants From Up There" two years ago for me to listen to during all of this. God I love that album.
Sometimes, past all medical treatment, the best thing you can do is be there when you can for them. Let him talk about his life and who he is, the things he doesn’t get to discuss often. Give him an opportunity to reminisce about the life he has lived so far. It may not do much, but it will tell him you care. I hope he recovers well and you end up okay brother.
My gfather was about 90 when he passed - I was working and somehow took a call, stepped outside and spoke with him for 10 mins on the day he passed. Tell him about what you are doing and thinking, however silly it might feel. Talk about school or work or friends. Dont get bogged down to the point of numbness. These people created us - either he will be ok, or you will be there, honest + strong for him to talk to and appreciate ❤
Feeling super blessed this week! Didn't crash my car after sliding on ice doing 75kph on the freeway (Sunday), my brother got through a tough time (Tuesday), and my dad's contract went through so now he can retire! (Thursday) Excited for my days off now!
12/23/24
It’s almost Christmas and I’m visiting my relatives in Massachusetts right now. Lived up here for 2 years near pretty much all my family but spent a total of 9 years down in Virginia and it doesn’t snow a lot there. Seeing the snow while I’m visiting almost made me cry a little. I’m getting memories of Christmas’ I spent at my nana’s, even if they were just a few years back, because I’m sleeping in the same room I always do when we visit. I also got a chance to gaze at the stars and appreciate the beauty of them. The area I live is pretty bright so I only see a few starts when I gaze but here it’s a little more rural so I was able to see some cool constellations! (I ❤️ the sky it’s so majestic)
Life’s going on a whole new track for me now and I am so excited for the future. I’m fixing bad habits, finding religion, working out, changing my look and style, meditating, finding the music I really enjoy, and just improving on myself in general. I’m starting to break out of the zone I was in where everyday just felt like another day until something interesting happened. Now I’m starting to care more about the little things and life seems more colorful and vibrant. This year, my favorite season went by way too quick, I developed really bad habits, and life just felt gray. I wasn’t feeling the joy in somethings as I used to and everything felt more like a task to me. I was lazy and negative. Something about the simple snow and the joy I get from doing small things like meditating or seeing my family just sparked some kind of change in me. I’m younger so I know there’s still so much I can appreciate about life and my childhood so I’m gonna make the best of it in 2025.
I hope everyone gets to enjoy the simple things in life and slow it down just a bit. Go through it and enjoy what you can! I know I’m probably not one to speak on life advice but it seems so amazing to experience it. I pray all of you experience your highest highs this upcoming year!
Best regards - this random fella on the internet :)
11/29/24 - 2:15 am
Life’s touch turned from familiar to unrecognizable . Horrifying intrusive possibilities came to fruition . The music is comforting of a brain whose mind which has been contorted and twisted into incoherent thought of abyssal despair and unconscious yet confused rage . Slight slivers and flashes of light messaging hope.
This hit close to home. You should be a writer if you aren’t already.
thinking about you this week and praying for you, brother. ive realized i cannot do this alone, ive started back at counseling and my old support group. i don't know your exact circumstances, but you don't need to walk through this alone. thank you for sharing.
Though the despair that… time… brings us is there, it is not without the sweet truth that this pain too will one day fall into the endless cycle. May your timeless mind forever carry this music to mild the bitter flavor.
I getcha. Welp, hey, we survived every single crappy situation ever in the history of man kind, and now men can kiss each other and not be killed for it. Maybe it'll get better, maybe it'll get worse- it can't be good forever and it can't be bad forever. I believe in you, draw a dog
Had a very productive day today. Went shopping, installed new LED lights, finished up accounting homework. Feels good 👍
These little things are what make life worth it to me.
Ayyyyy nice play playa
good stuff fr
Checkpoint-
Passed all my classes, one step closer to finally getting out of this town, and now have the time to work on my mental health again 👍
Good Luck anyone else on finals next week! Using this playlist while I study
Good luck to you as well.
12/02/2024
We just finished up the Christmas tree today (mostly my brother, he wanted to use every ornament he could) and were gonna watch Arcane in a little bit. I already watched S2 so he’s just asking me stuff and I give him blank answers, and cry in his room while doing so cause I’m reliving the episodes that gave me emotional damage-
But it’s been nice. I don’t usually enjoy Christmas unless I’m at home and it’s snowing. Which it is!!! I only hope it’ll stick around long enough that I can sit out and watch it melt slowly. But uhhhhh, I hope everyone is doing good and starting their traditions for the season. Please take care
I’ve been wanting to watch arcane :0 have happy holidays 🎉
I don’t know who you are or why you’re here, but I’m happy you showed up. Stick around as long as you’d like! You’re always good company to have.
I acknowledge that I've listened to this video for only 2 minutes and knowing damn well I will not watch the rest of it or rewatch it in any circumstances whatsoever, yet I still gave it a like.👍
26/11/24
Math exam today...
Thankfully I'm good at math. peace, nerds!!!
It's been hell of a year!!!!
yay! hope your exam went nicely
its really been a year though, huh.. its insane to think its almost coming to an end even w everything that happened
help
@@mars_7673yeah, the past few months flew right by me!
Moving my mouse along the timeline and watching the waves move at my control is satisfying
I sliced open my finger so bad while trying to slice potatoes and I bled out, cried and fainted in the kitchen in front of my whole family ON THANKSGIVING while my brother just stressed about his mac and cheese sauce being spicy. Thanksgiving was awesome and the best and warmest thanksgiving ive had ever. I love my family and my friends. And i love you ALL 💗💗
i ate 12 packs of dried seaweed today this is the happiest ive been in a long time i love seaweed so much yum yum
Me too
Happi for u boi
gimmiiiiiie i want to eat it with you >:)
I'm doing pretty good. New chapter of my life opened. No girlfriend and moved back in with parents. Got a raise at my job. Started investing. Going to therapy, my friends care about me. I'm reading this thing called the personal bill of rights everyday. I'm setting boundaries really well. I keep doing a good job and proving to myself I'm capable. I have many people who wanna teach me things. I feel blessed. And I'm slowly becoming fully sober, but I'm dedicated to that.
i recently got a cd player which also has bluetooth capabilities. i would like to start burning your playlists onto cds so i can listen to them without using my phone, but for now i'm just enjoying hearing your selections through the speakers. makes life more enjoyable! thanks for uploading!
I was around in the early 00’s and don’t miss cd’s one bit. Do you bruh bruh.
@@_boof did you the "bruh bruh"
we are doomed
@@_boof I was around then too and I miss CDs, even still have some lol. Bunch of people are still into analog technology :)
@@_boof your preferences are yours, mine are mine :)
what about making vinyl pressings?
Finally finished moving my parents back into their house after literal months of repairs and renovations. I had to put my job search on hold, but finally getting back to my own life will be nice. ALSO my two little sisters came for thanksgiving and we had so much fun like we used to. Crazy to think that our dynamic hasnt changed too much. Love those two to death. All thats left is to unpack literal everything they own. Light work 😅
Good on you - start putting limits though before it gets too much, treat yourself more safely than you think you can so it doesnt calcify ❤
I’m really happy this got recommended to me. This month has been very challenging to me, with moving into a new place and all my personal struggles building up because of that. I think this is a fitting time for a checkpoint. Reading comments feels like a better coping mechanism than scrolling endlessly through random shit
I finished writing a book today lol. Never gonna publish it but pretty cool.
That’s pretty cool, I’m looking to do something like that but more as a journal :)
Woah! You wrote a book? What was it? Fiction? Nonfiction? Horror? Fantasy? Mystery?
When you're younger, you don't realize how fast time goes. Nowadays time goes by so fast it's like I can't really appreciate anything as it's always flying by. But that's the difference from being young and naive and being older and mature. Even though I'm only 18 and I know I still have a lot more life to live it's just I wish time could slow down sometimes, even just a little bit.
It will only get faster! Take time to be present. Drink your beverages slowly. Make plans to look forward to. Take part in traditions you like. Take lots of photos. Cheers!
It only feels like fall.
@@butterfree7072 You're not wrong about that, it only gets faster and faster as life goes on. But we gotta make the most of the time we got. I do make sure to take a lot of photos too so I can remember most of the times but sometimes it can be sad to look back yk. But I wish you the best and thank you for responding. Cheers!!!
I like to stop every now and then whenever I'm walking to look at the sky, or trees or whatever for a few seconds. Best stress relief in the world, lets you put things in perspective
Maybe it’s because, when you’re a kid, you have so much fun that you don’t realize time is gradually slipping. Maybe try taking a break and doing something that you might like?
i've actually started to enjoy life after years of dreading it. School has become a part of my day to day and not some task I have to sleep through. I think I truly want to recover.
Thanksgiving break for the middleschool I’m in. I currently have a friend over for a sleepover and ngl we’ve had fun playing with my sister and playing outside.
Hope you had fun, keep doing what makes you happy
11/26/24
As of right now I’ve been with my relatives for the past 8 days, and will be on a plane in 2 days to go home. Last time I was with my relatives I was really depressed and homesick, I had never been so sad in my life than that time. I’m glad though, that I was able to get through that time to be here with them today. I know we don’t get the time to be with each other that much and literally go through hell to see each other, but it’s worth it to be with the people you love. Soon I’ll be going home and will be with the friends I love too. Can’t wait to see them, hope y’all have a good day.
today i found an old text from my friend about his little brother. his brother called himself an "elfer". upon questioning it was found he actually meant "alpha" but he couldnt pronounce it. thought id share!
I've been putting this show on the tv as I do the dishes for months now I tricking love this show
oops wrong video
I love ur songs tho I was gonna do homework and listen to it fully
im just curious, what show were you talkig about?
@@gnoot50 lucky star HAHAHA
your mixes make my job a lot easier to tolerate. i hope the internet checkpoint comments aren't bothering you too much, thank you for doing what you do
The songs are good and the comments are good too, I'd imagine this is what the uploader intended
if anyone is there, I am having the best year of my life, I have love and support from all the people around me and im achieving something ive been trying for years, I got a guitar and i feel awesome healing from depression, I hope to all who are ever waiting for something in life and are depressed, if things are bad then its not the end, things might get worse before they get better but it makes u stronger and appreciate life more. put in the effort if you want it to get better and be gentle with yourself when u need it dont be to hard on urself