I’m 4 years removed from my serious depression and although I’m still unsure of my purpose, I have met people who make me happy and I realize that there will always be someone to appreciate you. May you lead a fulfilling life from here on out, traveler.
Hi ! I am the composer of "Solitude", yeah, this is a soundtrack from Dreaming Sarah but the story behind is about something really different. I created Solitude a moment of I felt really lonely, I was in my bedroom, no school, no job, no friends, today I live my better life and I feel like Solitude is a fragment of my past. You ! If you read this comment, I want you to know, you are not alone
Ive never been scared of lonelyness , in fact i love being alone however the last days ive been scared of it , being alone , not conecting with anyone , having so much to say yet having no one to hear it , i always evade people for several reasons , but i am very optimistic too , we are social beings i found joy whether it is by talking to a family member or a simple interaction with a cashier or in a videogame , i like to think that no matter who we are or how much people we have in our lives, we will never truly be alone or left out , there is always room for connection in simple interactions or deep conversations , i once heard this phrase we are all alone toghether and i belive it to be tru and beautiful. Hope u feel better and srry for any bad english , its not my native lenguage.
Hurricane Helene hit us hard. The city is wrecked. A lot of people are dead or missing, power has been out for 3 days now, likely to be out another week. It's clearly a problem and I feel awful for the people that don't have a generator, but there's one thing I can take joy in despite everything. No light pollution. The stars have been beautiful these last few nights.
One of my friends died last night. I miss her. I miss her voice. I miss everything about her. I love her. She deserves so much more than life had given her.
I'm really sorry this happened. I love my best friend from the bottom of my heart, and I could never imagine it if I lost her. And I wouldn't wish that loss on anyone. Your friend deserved better from this world, I just wish I could bring her back for you and fix everything. Loss is hard, and even though your just some random internet stranger I don't know, I still care for you. I could never replace your friend, but I'm here for you
My cat died a few hours ago. Hit by cancer and only a couple of days after diagnosis, he was gone. I didn't have time to process the oncoming passing of my best friend. He blessed me when I sneezed, meowed to the tune of jingle bells (when I paused at a specific part, he would meow), started purring just by looking at him, followed me everywhere, etc. He was such a smart cat. October 3rd will be a day of remembrance for him. I love you, Puma. I hope you're looking over me through the stars, little buddy.
i'm so sorry for you loss. i really hope you're feeling fine, and if you arent i hope you can get over it. cats are my favourite kind and seeing this really broke my heart.
I'm Japanese. I recently found out about this internet checkpoint. When I first came here, my parents said terrible things to me and I was scared and cried. It was getting hard to live. But listening to this song and reading everyone's stories, the words "See you again at the internet checkpoint" gave me a boost of gratitude for all the people who are going through hard times but trying their best to live. I'll come here again if I get tired. And I hope the next internet checkpoint will appear before me. Sorry for the long message. (I used the translation function, so I'm sorry if the text sounds strange.)
I'm a wildland firefighter and I was up against the largest and fastest fire I've ever seen yesterday. I worked a 20 hour shift and still haven't recovered the sleep debt. I hope this checkpoint will help me sleep, though I find myself wanting to do nothing more than to read about your lives. I've never heard of a checkpoint before, but it feels so natural to be here, all of us. Love you guys. If I ever find another checkpoint, I hope to see you there.
HELLO! I am from Australia! Very very very very very very grateful for you and your work! I’ll never take someone in your line for granted you are doing an amazing job. Thank you, thank you so so much. So important. ❤
Love you too brother.. I hope your sleep gets back on track. Im sorry you have to endure the flames.. your a true hero and we appreciate what you do for us.. much love. Be safe- a friend from the internet.
I've been sober for 5 months now after being numb for more than half of my life. And i think the hardest part about getting sober is realizing how socially accepted it is to numb our pain. As if people are too scared to feel and grow through their experiences. we're so scared of our emotions and it's sad, because it's the best part of living.
I really enjoy your take on this, drug use in general has unfortunately become so normalized in today’s culture that it’s easy for anyone to get drawn to anything especially people who are down on their luck mentally, and once you first commit to that struggle, that’s exactly what it is until you can be pulled out or pull yourself out first, mentally hurt people want to numb themselves and drugs is unfortunately one way to do that
It's pretty late here, I'm up past my bedtime, got my Sailor Moon cosplay I started to make from scratch 4 years ago back out from storage, and I'm hand sewing it tonight while watching cozy UA-cam videos. I put it away because it was around the start of when my friend circle started to discourage me from my creative pursuits. I had no idea back then, but they went on to change the course of my adult life, and I don't talk to them anymore now. I miss them, but more specifically, the version of them I knew before all this happened. I'll be able to make my inner child Sailor Moon fan smile soon when the project is done!
12:37 Am 2024. Lost my step-mom in Nov. 2020, and then my father 5 months later in 2021. The holidays are always a rough time, and this year has hit especially hard. This is the first time I've commented on one of these internet checkpoints but I felt i needed to. To everyone out there, know that life isn't a sprint. Take time to enjoy and cherish what you have.
To the new visitors of this checkpoint: Life can be stressful, but sometimes you need to take a break, even if it is short. Let’s just all forget about school, work and many other things we have to do and just listen to these calming sounds for a few minutes. To anyone reading this, there is always something to live for
My father passed away from what my mom and I suspect was a suicide when I was 9. I'm 17 now. I hated him for it for most of my life. Then I started missing him. And I still miss him. He became extremely depressed and took to alcohol to bury it and I never got to really know him because of that. He taught me to love the unwanted. Snakes, bats, creepy crawlies. He loved reptiles. I'm an avid reptile keeper now. I never became close with him but I turned out just like him anyway. It's a special kind of pain, knowing how much he would have loved me. Knowing he'll never see the person I'm growing up to be. I love all the things he loved. I discovered his favorite music without knowing, and it became my favorite too. Nathan, I love you. I wish you could've been here when I needed you so badly. I have three garter snakes now, a boa constrictor named Seatbelt, a bearded dragon named Bagel, a leopard gecko named Mercury, and a three legged toad named Tripod. I wish you could meet them. I stop for every snake or turtle in the road to help them across, just like you did when you were here. I love you. Sometimes I wonder if, somehow, you're still out there. Still alive somewhere. And someday I'll get to see you again. I know you're dead, I know they found your body in the river, but, I'll never let go of that tiny sliver of hope. It's all I have left of you. I'm sorry.
I've had almost the exact same experience. My father committed suicide when I was 10 and I'm also 17 now. I've also grown to love his interests without knowing about them prior-- the matrix is my favorite movie, as it was his, and i'm into a bunch of the music, games, and shows he was. He also kickstarted my whole love of gaming by showing me untreal tournament 2004 and plenty of other games, such as the original doom trilogy and some starwars games. My dad was into bugs and taught me a lot about spiders and handling them in general. I've got a pet tarantula now and a few other bugs, and I'm looking into becoming an entomologist. All of this happened because he showed me how harmless these little creatures are while he was still around. I also get that hope that he's still out there somewhere, despite the fact that reason tells me otherwise. I'm fully aware that it might be odd considering the fact that we're two strangers in the comments of a youtube video, but feel free to hmu on discord @jeppydc if you'd like to compare stories or talk about our experiences. I'm here for you, you know? We have to stick together and support each other where possible.
I think he would be very proud of you if he were here. Just reading through everything you said, I know that I'd be immensely proud of seeing my children picking up my hobbies and loves, and enjoying them to their fullest. Even though he may not physically be here anymore, you're keeping him alive through your love for him and the way you allowed him to shape your love for reptiles, and that's more than most people could ever hope for, to have an impact and be remembered in such a wonderful way.
"Sometimes I wonder if, somehow, you're still out there. Still alive somewhere" That's what you're here for, isn't it? You are his teachings, his music, his aspirations, his love. You are your own tiny sliver of hope, the light that may still be in his eyes, your eyes. I don't know if that helps. Also, Tripod is such a cool name for a pet.
For some reason, I've suddenly come to realize just how much I love my mom. I find myself saying it a lot in my head whenever she does something for me. It's just a "wow, I love my mom so much." It's happened with other people too but lately it's been my mom. I love people and they frustrate and annoy me a lot, but then I step back and take in the moment and remind myself that it's not that serious and that I really do love the people around me. I'm lucky enough to have good and kind hearted people around me. I've been trying to take and appreciate what I have as much as I can.
How interesting! Sometimes i get the same feeling, but then comes the fear i might lose the person i love. Learning to replace my fear with gratitude for the people in my life, just like you ❤
I learned to laugh when my mom gets angry. It is almost always over the smallest things that mothers love to nag about. Why be angry when I can smile? Show your parents affection, perhaps it will be returned 😊
This feels weird, scrolling through all of these comments. It’s like finding a place with a lot of people that are just talking, eating, drinking, conversating. Then you hear the people that have something to say, you hear them, then they disappear. As you keep going, more and more people you listen to disappear after they say something. And then you keep going, and keep going, and keep going, until it’s just you. No one else to hear. Then you give say what you want to, same as the people before you, and then you wake up.
i think the concept of internet checkpoints is just.. so fascinating, you know? like, there's something about them that really resonates with me. It's like, we all move through this crazy huge other world, but every now and then, we stop at these checkpoints, these little moments, to just, i don’t know, breathe. it’s like a reminder of where we’ve been, like a snapshot of the internet at a certain time, and it's so.. comforting in a way? it’s funny because i feel this deep nostalgia for the early internet, even though i wasn't really there. like, i didn’t experience it firsthand, but i get this weird, almost bittersweet feeling whenever i see old forums, old websites, or even hear about how things were. i think the word "anemoia" pretty much describes it, where you feel nostalgic for a time you never actually lived through. it's wild, but i feel like that all the time when it comes to the internet. the early days just seemed so.. i don’t know.. simple? free? there was something about the rawness, like, before everything got so polished and corporate. and these internet checkpoints, they kind of feel like a way to reconnect with that. like, yeah, we’re in the future now, everything’s fast and overwhelming, but we can still pause, take a moment to look back, and just feel something. even though it's never going to be the same as the past, unfortunately, there’s still this small sense of connection. like, no matter how much the internet changes, we can’t really go back to how things were. and that kind of sucks sometimes. i mean, we can try to recreate those vibes, those moments, but they’re never exactly the same. it’s like.. we’re chasing this ghost of what the internet used to be, but we’ll never fully catch it. and that’s okay, i guess? because at least we have these checkpoints to remind us of what it felt like, even if just for a second. it’s a little bittersweet, but it’s also kinda beautiful in its own way.
You nail it. No internet point competitions, affiliate deals, bots, ads, grifts, agendas, schemes. If the dead internet theory is true, these feel like the patches of life that will live on. Glad I could read your comment here.
That was such a beautiful description, and I fully agree on how these youtube checkpoints are a small glimpse of how the Internet was before, or at least it kinda captures how I'd imagine it used to be and it's vibe :)
@@bIuueberriethey’re basically videos with no title/ channel with no name that are not posible to search, you can only get them either be the algorithm or with links . Usually they have music without lyrics (but some they do) and the same background through the hole video (be it a gift or a picture), it can be any length, from playlist like these one or just a few seconds. Idk if I’m explaining it fully but I hope it was helpful
살기힘든 요즘입니다. 사람들이 점점 더 차가워지고 나도 사람인데 사람들이 싫어지는 순간들 속에서 살아 숨쉬기가 무척이나 힘드네요. 그나마 우주 속을 유영하는 것 같은 음악을 들으며 마음을 진정시켜보네요. 내일은 다들 한층 너그러운 마음과 너그러운 삶을 살아가길 바래봅니다.
I've lived in the same neighborhood for almost my entire life. I remember one year a blue jay came and made a nest in one of our bird houses. From then on he was always coming back year after year so I decided to give him the fitting name of Jay. I used to get so excited in the spring waiting for him to come back. One year he managed to find a mate and even have some young. After that he started to migrate later and later in the year. I have a memory of staring out the kitchen window the morning of the first snow and seeing him perched outside on the telephone wire. We just stared at each other for a while before I went on with my day. I never saw him again after that. I guess he just got old as we all do. I like to think Jay lived a good life. He had plenty of food from our feeders. Helped raise strong young in the shelter of our birdhouse. I think about him more and more lately. How he always managed to find his way back each year without struggle. I like to think that he decided it was his time. That he decided he'd seen all he could in his short lifespan. That he was content with the simple life he led. I just wish I could tell him how much of an impact it had on me.
Hey, its been two weeks. Just wanted to see how you’re doing? Hang in there and push through, life has serious ups and downs. Even when life seems like it can’t go back up, you can find peace in solitude. Take a break from news and social media, have a listen to your favourite songs or find new ones. Hope you’re feeling better, wishing you a peaceful December 🫧
@xekan_9153 Hi, thank you very much for your support. Now I'm better, I had learned that there's no necessity to find all the meaning. I'm just starting to enjoy my life :D. Wish you good luck
i got to hang out with my girlfriend today. she has been the first person to make me feel unbelievably loved and wanted. i was abused for a lot of my life, and now being able to lay with her on the couch and talk about nothing in particular is really special.
I used to work in a butterfly exhibit that was at the zoo in my state. You’d have loved it. The butterfly keepers would pin up the cocoons on a board so you could see them going through metamorphosis. Hundreds of beautiful butterflies living carelessly in a greenhouse filled with different plants and flowers. I would sit in there for 7 hours a day, sometimes reading a book. All I had to do was great the patrons at the front door or check for “hitchhikers”, which were butterflies that were hanging onto someone’s clothing, when people were leaving the greenhouse. It was the most easy going job in the world and somehow I was lucky enough to have it for a few years. 🌺🦋
This is my first internet checkpoint. Reading everyone else’s stories is fascinating. Sometimes it doesn’t truly resonate how every person you pass by has a life just as complicated as your own. Lately, i’ve been a little lonely. A few months ago i went through a breakup that left me feeling unlovable, and in some ways, i still do. When i talk to the people around me, i don’t feel close to any of them. There’s a barrier between me and everyone else. I’m trapped in the dilemma of having no energy to break that barrier and a craving for company. I feel oxymoronic. An odd juxtaposition. Time will heal my wounds, though, and time will heal yours. Will our scars fully go away? Probably not. But we’ll be okay, reader. We just need to see what tomorrow brings.
I've also been going through a breakup recently, in fact it's only been about 3 weeks. It was my first actual relationship, so being left like that kind of left me pretty broken, however I stayed close to my friends, listened to music, and vented all that I could. I made sure to take time for myself no matter how stressful life has gotten, and even though it hurts so much to barely ever be able to even talk to her as a friend, I learned many really important life lessons. I believe we meet everybody for a reason, and even if she wasn't meant to be the love of my life, being with her taught me important communication skills. To you, OP, and anybody else who needs to hear this, stick to the people you love and listen and understand them, because one day those people might not be around anymore, so learn from them.
Being shut down from what was a relationship situation is hard. It took me 2 years to fully let those feelings out of my everyday thoughts. Time does heal. Good luck
That second paragraph of yours put my own feelings into words very well. I too often feel quite distant from everyone and like there's a barrier between us. Very strange.
Same here. She hasn’t reached it yet, but, I’m afraid of having to lose both my mom and dad. It’s scary to think about because I haven’t learned much yet either. I still am learning but it would be hard without them.
University is tough, exams are tough, biology is tough. It might be tough, but I know the younger me reading national geographic books and watching nature documentaries dreamed of being here. The natural world is beautiful, the opportunity to learn about it is one of my greatest blessings. Thanks for providing a place for so many people (like myself) to have an internet checkpoint like this.
Reminds me of how I initially wanted to be a marine biologist, then changed to civil engineer, and systems analyst before settling on electrical and computer engineering. I occasionally conjure the somber thought that it had started from watching my dad work on a computer since I was a baby. I figured out how to use it before I even spoke. I just watched. It's funny what watching an analysis video about A Night In The Woods led up to. "What do you want to do tonight?" (The question the video and the game posits)
I have cancer. Its terminal. Still working full time, and being the role model of a human I want my 4 year old son to grow into. I'm comfortable albeit on so much pain relief I dont know what day it is. I'm at peace with my impending mortality now. Even though im only 28. Everyone. Live your lives. Love your people. Sing your song. You are enough ❤️
recently my friend went deaf from antibiotics, i wish i could sent this to them, im sure she would have loved this. To witness someone lose such an integral part of themselves, really makes you appreciate the parts of yourself you still have left. Life really did take an important piecie too, our friendship literally began because of music.
I got a mohawk the other day. I always liked the looks of them, but I never had the guts to try it out on myself until now. Figured there's no point in not trying it while I still have the time during my life. It's my life after all, why bother worrying what other people think of it instead of making this life mine? If I didn't like it, I could always grow my hair back out, or shave the rest off. I do like it though. It feels... right, just being honest with myself and trying out something I've always wanted to. After years of anxiety, depression, and trauma - years of coasting along letting life run its course - I've finally found a new motivation. The motivation to push myself to live my life how I want, to work to be a me that I'm proud of once more. I finally pushed myself to start writing. I finally pushed myself to start learning how to program. I finally pushed myself to start singing again. Even at my day job, I pushed myself and finally found my flow, working smoother shifts than ever before. Not because anyone else told me to, but because I knew in my heart I wanted to, and I knew in my heart I was fed up with wasting time. I'm not living to meet anyone else's expectations of me anymore. I'm just living to be a me that I myself am proud of and happy with. Even if my hobbies don't amount to anything tangible in the future, I'm filled with a happiness to last a lifetime knowing that I've tried what I always wanted to. That, as hard as it's been, I've pushed myself to be the me I always wanted to see myself as. To be the me that I'm proud of. The me I'd be proud of is more than just those hobbies though. With everything I've been through, I can only hope that those around me don't have to suffer to the extent I once did. More than anything, as impossible a feat it may be, I only hope to spread an ideal of hope, peace, and happiness wherever I tread. A hope where you out there reading this may feel comforted, inspired, motivated, uplifted, or otherwise just happier from reading this. A dream that one day, maybe that spark happiness will spread, and make the world a happier place, just like the world I yearn for. That dream of happiness will never come to fruition if I don't fight for it though, so I will fight for that dream that I am proud of, each and every day. To you whom have scrolled this far, please, don't give up as I myself once had. It's difficult as hell, I know, but I urge you: fight for the life you want from this world. Fight for the you that you always wanted to see realized, if for nothing else but the sake of your own dream. May life from here forward treat you well Voyager. Take care.
I saw a lady walking her dog today. The dog didn’t have legs, but she made him a little wheelchair so he could still walk around. He was wearing a little sweater, enjoying his time outside and splashing in puddles. The things we do for those we love. To love someone so much that you would carry their cross for them.
its odd seeing so many fresh tinestamps and people congregated at the same place at the same time, but it feels very cozy. i hope life treats all of you kindly, maybe we'll cross paths again.
I do to, it's so calm here. I love internet checkpoints. I just wrote so many paragraphs about my life currently hehe, it felt so calm hearing the music in the back and hearing everyone else's stories. the internet can be so cool sonetines
woke up in the middle of the night feeling absolutely terrible physically, but curiously enough, i open youtube and this is here. i feel like that's a sign of some sort. maybe i'll be okay.
I usually take things like that as signs that things are about to change, but you could have an entirely different belief. Regardless, I wish you the best
After years of working my ass off and saving my money, I can finally achieve my lifelong dream of living alone. It’s taken years of work, and I’ve finally done it. I’m so proud of myself.
Lately I've been experiencing nothing but enlightened moods, I've shifted away from the negative thoughts that have drowned me. It took me so long to realize, I'm the ONLY one who could change the way I perceive life. I'm grateful and at peace with myself. We all have our days of dullness or unsatisfactory. I can assure you, if you have the patience, you can create anything you can ever imagine. That means you can shape YOUR reality. I hope this helps and Godbless your soul.
I lost my eldest sibling Thursday night. Crashed their motor scooter into a traffic feature that was freshly installed and didn't have any of the reflectors put in yet, so they didn't see it in the dark and rain. Our middle sibling has been taking it understandably hard, so I've spent a lot of the weekend at their place, helping where I can, reminding them to self care, and just generally making myself available, even if its just sitting quietly in a room. I worry for them. Not that I think they'll do anything rash, but because the two were so close and I know they can be bad about taking care of themself when they are under stress. We went to a meet up at the crash site today with their scooter club. It was nice. We got to joke around a bit, pour out a libation, and light some candles. Each member spoke glowingly. It was good to know they found a place that fit them so well and that they had made such a positive impact. So, here's to you, Red. You lived life to its upmost, you made it work when things got rough, and you never let the world dictate who you were. I'm glad to hear you found a place of radical acceptance and were truly happy in the end. You were here for a good time, if not a long time. Ride on shooting star
i’m crying reading all these stories, and though some of them are sad that’s not the reason. i think it’s so beautiful that so many people felt they could share what they’re going through here. i feel like the internet does so much to isolate us - or at least make us *feel* isolated - but things like this make me realize how alike we all are. it’s cool how we can share our experiences
@@Cherokeechuck9 agreed most of if not all of the topics the media tries to push as being "hot button topics" are BS we just want better cost of living, if everybody is living comfortably then everyone is happy and not at each others throats or seemingly are because now you can't tell if its just a gaggle of bots just trying to stir stuff up or not
Hello there! Feelings like these inspire me to do something like a forum, a magazine, both mixed, events of getting together and feel the awe whilst getting good recommendations on stories, music, fiction or fact.
@@Cherokeechuck9 there’s some truth to what you’re saying but if people make a culture to recognize the humanity in others as much as we can, that will end up triumphing over attempts to profit off of that hatred or other negative emotions. It’s at least worth trying.
This is my first time reaching an internet checkpoint, and wow is it so refreshing. Perusing through people's raw feelings and self reflections, without seeking anything in return; just laying out their soul in the moment before continuing on in a trek weighed once again by societal scrutiny and expectations. In here, we can relax our shoulders and let the true underlaying thoughts run free.
Congrats on your first checkpoint. Enjoy, these have the best comment sections I've seen on the internet. Good luck on your trek. Even if I don't recognize your name, I hope to see you sometime in the future at another checkpoint, as the sentiment you share may be similar to this. I hope for you to be nostalgic, even without recognized reason.
its also a bit relieving (but also sad at the same time) to see some people here sharing something that you went through, im able to relate to the people here in one way or another, good or bad its... idk... its nice to see that my life is unique, but its nice to know that im not completely different... that im human, and that my experiences, are shared our world and the internet are so big but places like this bring us, complete strangers, closer together in some way or another
Internet check point.. What an honor to see this.. Heya everybody in the future! Including older me. I hope this finds you. I have a message.. Don't give up. Chase your dreams! Even if some say that they're stupid, even if some say your not good enough. They're wrong. Listen to yourself, do what you want to do. You are your own person, chose who you want to be, not what other want to be. Have a great life reader! BlueAxolotl out!
This is what the internet was made for. I'm so glad that UA-cam still pushes forward videos like this, and videos from smaller creators, and from real people. It makes me feel so human and connected to see all of these people share their honest thoughts and experiences. Thank you everyone. It was nice to meet you at this checkpoint.
I remember the first checkpoint I saw. I don't know if it was the first one, but I know that one Stickerbrush Symphony checkpoint got especially popular. It was such a cool thing to see, people connecting and talking about their lives on an extended Donkey Kong track of all things. (Not to knock DKC's music; it's amazing stuff. The checkpoint it made was just a welcome surprise in general.)
Depression has hit me like a truck this year, I've never felt this lonely in my life. I just felt as if everyone just hated me, my sensitivity increased a lot and I eventually started driving people away from me. Self-deprecation got the best of and now I am stuck in an endless cycle of hating myself for hating myself for hating myself for driving people away because of my issues. Here i am, venting to strangers on the internet who don't know even know me in real life and probably think im experiencing something bad, but in reality im actually just overreacting over nothing. But, I've made a promise this year. Sure it's near the end, but my life is not over. Today, marks the day where I'll finally improve myself as a person. I am human, and i will make mistakes. For now on, i am no longer the dumb depressed teenager i was yesterday and the day before. I am willing to acknowledge my short comings as an individual, i am willing to learn from them, and i am willing to live on. *Are you sure you want to delete your progress* YES [NO] *Continue* [YES] NO
I know how it feels being stuck in a loop of hatred, and I'd be stupid to say it all magically gets better. Self improvement is hard, but you taking the first step is incredible. I wish you luck on your journey to loving yourself I know I should start my own 4/10/24
Hey ❤ I just want to let you know that even if you were exactly the person you see yourself as, that "dumb" depressed teenager is still worthy of love, support, and being accepted for who they are- including by you. I've been there before (and still am to be fair, so please don't think I'm trying to lecture you), but you need to know you're worth fighting for even when you hate yourself. Good luck with your recovery! ❤
You're on the right path. It's hard not to hate at least a part of one's self. We aren't born perfect and part of growing up is accepting that. Even if you choose not to believe in an all-loving-God, love really is the answer to the question of life. We are here to share it, and it comes from within. I had a couple suicide attempts as a teen but never commited because I then realized that love is the only answer to people's problems, mine included. I eventually came to Jesus because I found He is the most perfect representation of how to live a selfless life full of love as a human. I learned that selflessness is a product of love, not the other way around. It's also important to look inward and really question the roots of your self convictions; find a comfortable time to question each aspect of why you feel these ways, where these thought patterns came from and whether they are serving you or harming you, and how you can change each one for the better. You can overcome these repeating thoughts with faith in love; love for your gift of life and love for others. You need to question your ego and how it operates in order to grow it into a healthier one. Medidation (being observant of my inner thoughts) and prayer help me do that. It's not all going to happen in one day, but because you began to change, you're waking up from the dreamworld you originally created as a protection mechanism. All you have to do is acknowledge that it no longer serves you. Each day is a step you take towards love. Just keep walking the path of love and don't stray from it. The only thing you should fear is being separated from love; it all boils down to that. It's a path you willingly walk and it involves self sacrifice because once you can see life in a better light it's your job to help others see the love too. Postmodern christianity has failed in that aspect but there's a revival coming. I wouldn't be alive if it weren't for the friends I know who helped me in my darkest hours. And I didn't seek Jesus out, He sought me out. I was an athiest.
I have been in that same void, at the bottom of the abyss. From down there the light of the surface is easy to forget, easy to not see. But as someone that got out of it, I can tell you, you can do it too, the light exists, happiness exists, love exists, and you are worthy of every single eay of light that falls upon you. Its okay to make mistakes, it's okay to hurt, its okay for you to accept that its not your fault. The fact that you care so much about it is the very proof. Take care, and don't quit on me soon okay? I wouldn't want you to miss out on the amazing story that your life will be.
I started antidepressants a couple weeks ago. For me it's actually an accomplishment, earlier in my life, I thought I wouldn't live long enough to need them, but now I genuinely feel hope for the future, and want to work things out. I want to live. I want to love people and experience all that I can. And these are just another step into making that as happy as it can be.
Amen brother. It's a steep mountain to climb and you'll trip and fall but you've got this. The want to live is the hardest step. Keep kicking. I don't know you but I believe in you.
im so happy for you. i was in a similar position, and while i got better without medication, it took a lot of therapy to become the person i am today. I'm proud of you, keep working towards your goals, sometimes life gets hard but that usually means you're doing something worthwhile.
You ever drive by a neighborhood or school and think about how some kid in there is living their whole childhood. Some kid right now is forming all their greatest memories, building all the experiences that they’ll feel nostalgic for 20 years from now, blissfully unaware of the wider world outside of what they care about. They are what we were years ago, to them we’re just adults who have life figured out, they don’t see the stress and the chaos yet. They’re forming their whole world right now, and to you it’s just a random school you happen to pass on your way to work. I think about that a lot.
Yes, you realize that as children, we are happy with so little. Just seeing a butterfly flying, already made us happy. Being an adult is horrible, I wish I could be a little girl again and settle for what life gave me. Enjoy the present...
As a teacher in formation, it amazes me to no end. A couple times I've stopped nearby the school I graduated from, and I've genuinely stopped and people-watched for a couple minutes. Now that I'm no longer in that kind of hustle, that my past was that just a couple years ago... and I love seeing how kids enjoy it. I don't see it as them being blissfully unaware, just living their lives aware of how much they enjoy it. It's endearing to a level I can't quite sentence.
All the time, honestly. I have 2 littles and I just watch them sometimes like they have their own dynamic outside of our home and they take what they've learned from us parents and are actively applying that to school and play. They're just... living. Blows my mind.
It is my first Internet checkpoint and i wanted to write about my struggles too. I live an easy life actually but my mental is killing me. Every winter depression gets the best of me. I can't leave my place, can't contact People, can't even care for or about me. My place as well as I are suffering every day. The only light at the end of the tunnel is the end of winter, when it becomes warm again, when I see the sun and go out again and meet uzp with friends. Reading through all your stories and struggles moved me, even made me tear up. It gives me a sense of community. A community where everybody and everybodies problems gets accepted and understood and I cannot overstate how much that moves me. Thank you to everyone who passes through here, reads the stories as well as sharing their own. Stay strong everyone!
My amplifier broke, my friend recommended me a job, and I folded 200 t shirts today. Despite this day being relatively mundane, I still appreciate it for how unique it is. . . . . . I love you
i recently signed up for therapy. i think its helping. stay strong, everyone. there will be more sunsets to watch, and another evening will always come, just like the day before.
that's awesome!!! therapy is amazing when done right. idk if i would have made it through this year without it honestly. i'm proud of you for taking that step to take care of yourself!
thats rlly good!!! i did too c: i've made great amount of progressing my ptsd since last year, and at the beginning of this year i began reaching out to trusted family members for help on my uncomfortable environment, and late spring was moving into another quiet and steady household for things that came along the way i've worked so hard on!! :D it was the day after my 17th birthday too, which makes it more special to me
Therapy never worked for me. As someone with autism I can’t process my thoughts, and I also find it hard to trust anyone. Anyway I’m gonna keep living my life as always. Bye
This appears to be my first internet checkpoint. I honestly had no idea what this was, but the lack of a title confused and intrigued me. Thank you comment section!
You're still here... After every good thing and every bad thing, every pleasant day and every terrible one, you've still managed to make it up to this point. A lot of people didnt make it this far, and a lot of people will make it farther than you and I ever will. Right now though, at this very moment you're alive and present. Maybe it means something, or maybe it doesnt mean anything at all, but right now, I'm very glad that we're still here!
I'm 20, and I've been mourning the fact I'm learning to become a person so much slower than others. And now all I can think about is how much I'd like to see an American goldfinch with my own eyes. My goals are mundane, but they're what makes me feel like I have hoped and dreams, they make me feel like i am a person
Same age and trust me bud it's not that you are learning slower than others necessarily education is a shit show economy is a shit show job opportunities, parents, everything really we aren't being shown what we need and the people who have paved this present from the past and the people currently paving the future... it's not looking well honestly but one step at a time... I'm not gonna get into my life but trust you aren't alone in this feeling times are tough and we'll become tougher for it life has technically really only begun
18 here, and i know where you're coming from, I'm having the exact same problem. always being behind when it comes to my other peers. you're not alone on this at all, I do hope you succeed with your goals and anything else you are looking forward to! much love from a stranger from the internet
i'm 24 and somehow still don't know what to do after i graduate university. I've fucked up in friendships/relationships and still have a lot of things to learn/do. feel like i've been on survival mode for years that my mind is trying to "wake up"/ process emotions from that + current events but done things that don't help and continue the awful cycle.
My mum died just over a month ago from what I believe to be stomach cancer, which spread to the brain lining. It's been a rough time just continuing through school and just trooping on. There's constantly small tests going on and all that I never really get time to think properly unless I'm sitting doing nothing or just trying to go to sleep. I never know whether I'm just weird or not but for some reason, I'm just not crying much. It is probably because I spent over a week grieving after my family was told by doctors that she wouldn't live much longer. I constantly felt as if it was all a terrible dream, and it's sometimes hard to process that this is truly life. In the hospital, my mum really didn't cry much in her bed. She kept saying that things would be better, and not to worry. On calls with her brothers and her sister, she was the only one not crying. I miss you so, so, so much Mum. 07/10/2024 - 19:17
Your mother is a smart woman, she misses you too. Know that she left the world wanting only the best for you. I can only hope things get better for you stranger, I don't know you, but I love you, have a good day, and drink water occasionally.
I don't usually tear up to stuff like this, since y'all are just strangers to me.. But this literally made me shed a tear, the story mixed with the music. man.. it hits hard...
I can reassure you that it's normal to not cry much. People handle grief in different ways, and sometimes life is so busy that we never get a chance to really sit down and feel our feelings. For me, it would come in waves. I would feel almost nothing for a long time, and then I would suddenly be hit with the reality of my loss. I wish you luck, buddy. Make sure you have some way to vent whatever emotions come; all are valid, even if you feel nothing at all.
i just went through almost the exact same thing, last november. i didn't cry much either, but we all process grief in strange ways, and sometimes not in the best ways unfortunately (learned that from experience) but not crying is natural as long as you dont try to stop it when you do feel like crying. it doesn't feel like it's been a whole year without my mum, and im starting to feel like im moving on, but when i say that I dont mean it in a good way. i dont really want to move on, you know? i dont want to forget her and get on with my life. i really, really miss her. i just want to say i know some of what you're going through right now, and im sorry. eventually your mind will turn the grief into something a little bit more bearable over time, i promise, you just need to hang in there
Things aren't going so great right now, my momma and me are going through a very rough spot financially. She used to hide away her pain when I was young but nowadays she doesn't have the strength anymore, she feels sad that she couldn't help me out like all the other parents, and I feel bad for ever asking more from her. I need to go off to college next year, but money is so tight even for college. i wish I was much smarter tho so that I could get a scholarship. I just regret a lot of things that keep happening. These kind of videos really do help vent out a lot of things even if nobody is really listening. If God really does exist all I really wish is for a better future. i don't wanna see my mum cry anymore.
I'm really scared of what the future holds, for myself, and everyone else. I feel like my efforts will amount to nothing no matter what I do and it paralyzes me, makes me want to disappear without a trace so I can wither away without the pressure of making something of myself. But even now, when I wish I could magically cease to exist, the love people have shown each other just in this comment section makes me want to keep trying so I can protect what good there is left out there. Please take care of yourselves everyone, you're important and meant to be alive
please take care of yourself too, you don’t need to be something for your life to mean something. as long as you are kind to the world around you i promise you, your life means so much and your kindness has probably meant to much to many. your comment alone does mean something, it’s raw and relatable and you made me feel less alone reading it.
You don't need to worry so much. Everything works out, and your worries are often never as big as you think they are. It's normal to worry about what is going to happen in the future, but there's no need to think too far ahead. You may miss something interesting and beautiful that is happening around you now. Focus your mind on anything good or interesting now. Take any tasks as a challenge and a win when you finish them. Reward yourself and always look around to see if others could use your help. You don't need to solve all your problems all at once. You are a good, kind, conscientious person, and you can do anything you set your mind to. Tell yourself over and over again: "You can do this!". Only set goals that you want to achieve, do not set goals because you think it's what others would do. You are individual, and you walk your own path. You are never really alone. We are here for you. Ask yourself, "Does this thing I'm doing really make me happy?" Keep your mind on now, and don't plan too far ahead. Start saying 'yes' to random things instead of worrying about potentially not knowing if you'll enjoy it. It will take you to new places and new experiences you may never have had by dismissing or overthinking them. One step at a time. Be kind to others and don't be afraid to leave bad people behind. You are not responsible for everyone. Be kind to yourself, and don't be hard on yourself. You are allowed to try and fail. That's how you learn and improve. And you know what? If you don't improve at something, so what. That ok, too. If you enjoy something, keep doing it. If not, stop. Find what works for you. Watch positive videos and positive social media, not negative. You are what you consume. You are loved and valued each and every day, even the times when you might not feel it. The love is there if you accept it. Oh, and give love to those around you. I'm 40 now and have lost both my parents over the last few years and while they knew how much I loved them, I could always have told them or showed them one more time while they were still with us. It's only when something has gone that you truly miss it. ❤ Adam x
Haven’t related to something this much in a while. I feel like a failure in limbo, like an extra in other people’s lives. Sometimes I try to imagine where I’ll be as an old man but I can’t conjure up anything. Life isn’t our friend.
never knew what these vids were called. no title, a repeating background and some calm, peaceful music. as though you've just sat down to reflect for a moment, to calm down and share in these stories with so many others who've found themselves in the same spot. i suppose i'll chip in with a story. maybe there's something to be learned. a while ago, a year or two back, i was sitting in my room. immersed in the perceived reality behind the screen. i heard my brother snoring behind me. all was well. then, his snoring became unusual, almost like snarling. normal breaths through a film of mucus. i thought nothing of it, maybe just a weird snore that i've never heard before? but no. it was a fentanyl overdose. to a year-and-a-half ago me, a fentanyl epidemic was something i didn't even hear of. now, the signs are so obvious. he was playing elden ring, fighting to stay awake. almost falling asleep sitting up. i thought worse case scenario, he was near blackout drunk. i never got a good look at his eyes, never bothered to, because i had no clue he had been laced. while he choked right behind me, i kept looking at the screen, thinking "it's just a weird snore, you're being paranoid." i check on him an hour later, he's not breathing. i fall to my knees, rejecting the fact he is now very, very dead. i wanted to check for a pulse, but i couldn't bring myself to. i go into the living room to tell my mom that "he isn't breathing", she comes into the room, dials 911, the tell her all the regular stuff (where did it happen, when, check for a pulse etc.) and i'm sitting outside on the stairs. i can't help but think it's my fault, that i could have helped him. i know that i couldn't, but i still bear unnecessary guilt. i didn't know what the hell a fentanyl was, i didn't know if you intake it, it kills you. i didn't know you needed a narcan or a naloxone to save the intaker. i didn't know what a narcan or naloxone was. as the ambulance lights flashed, and people moved around behind me, i just sat there. "it's all my fault. i could have saved him. i could have told someone sooner." everyone tells me "there's no way you could have known" and they're right. even while they reassure me, i can't help but think it's my fault somehow. now, i get to live and sleep in the very same room that my only brother died in. if nothing else, there are some lessons in this story: don't beat yourself up over things you had no control over. don't take unnecessary, dangerous risks. better to have it and not need it, than to need it and not have it. thanks for reading, friend. even if your story has tragedy and failure, the ending can be one of success and joy. keep going, you got this!
I am sorry for your loss as well. It's a lot to bear and I hope you're able to come to terms with what happened over time. Sending hugs. Take care of yourself.
This is one of the few comments I have ever really thought about for a long time… The fact that you have had to go through something so horrible and still wanted to pass on optimism to everybody else afterwards is really special and made my day ❤
Thank you so much for sharing and am very sorry for your loss. To pass on such optimism at the end, you are truly brave to live through that, it fills me with hope so thank you❤
my childhood dog died a week ago and everytime i go to feed my other pets i start to sob uncontrollably. i hate feeding them all now, the second i remember i’m feeding one less i start to cry. my parents told me they were to taking him for a “checkup to see if the vet could help him” i knew what they really meant. i held onto him so tight and cried my heart out, begging for them to not take him. they took him away from me and i never saw him again. rest in peace radley. you were always there to remind me i had someone to come home to during my worst teenage years. i am so sorry my selfishness made to live your last months in agony. you were much more than just a pet to me.
I'm finally free from those meds. I can take care of myself and I can close my door. I can eat food that doesn't taste like cardboard, and if I don't like it I don't have to pretend I do. I have rarely felt so safe in this chapter, and I know even safer times are ahead.
I'm not one to comment to anything over here, but this checkpoint seems worth it. To anyone that's reading this: thank you for existing, know that you are loved and cherished. We may never meet one another, but the reminder of the both of us sharing the same green earth fills my heart with joy.
Checkpoints like these make me feel so connected. The people talking feel so real, the space feels so wide and lively, yet so calm. Time has frozen for a bit and you can sit and breathe for a bit. The earth can be such a beautiful place.
this year has been particularly difficult for me. chronic illness bears a heavy weight on my small body, and it is only getting worse. i’m only in my early 20’s, and i haven’t been able to go out and see my friends, go to the job i love, thrift, see and be in nature-much of anything, for five months. i am in pain and i am tired. i am stubborn and will do whatever it takes to build a beautiful life for myself, no matter what. just this past week, i finally found an apartment after looking every day for over two years. if my ruthlessness will prove worthwhile, i know yours will too. you have value. you are important. i am proud of you.
Made it here at 4:42 AM. In the middle of my last undergrad semester, classes are going well, made some cool friends, and started transitioning. Big step up from last year. Life is good.
congrats on your transition, i’ve been trying to push myself to make the changes necessary for mine. May luck be with you on your journey, maybe we’ll meet again someday ❤
I wish the world was as empathetic and comforting as this comments section. Realizing that we have more things in common than differences. That we are all human, with stories to tell, love and pain in our hearts. If we all joined together, the world would be such a beautiful place...
its been a while, hasnt it? met my friend last week. told me it was hell back there. didn't feel like he fit in with the others. felt like me and a few others were his lifelines. i feel bad for him. he looked like he was at his happiest when we hung out. told me earlier that if i wasn't there for him, he probably would've ended it all by now. harold, if you're reading this, just know that i appreciate you. your efforts are worth it. look at you now, look how far you've come. just know that we'll always be here for you. we care. take care.
You sound like a great friend. If he hasn’t had a chance to read your comment, you should tell it to him personally. It can be such a turning point for someone struggling to hear they are loved ❤
this playlist feels like what my life is right now; a brief reprieve after my first semester of college...things feel so weird lol. not in a bad way, just... too still--all throughout high school i spent looking towards the future, and im finally in that future...i've certainly learned to appreciate life in the moment more, but it feels like ive gone through so much in that short semester. not anything drastically life changing, but things slowly shifting and me having to grow from it... anthony puts it as growing pains, and it certainly does feel like that ha. now that im home, it all just feels eerie...like theres nothing to experience. my mom took me shopping and got me dinner and a warm drink, as well as i called a pretty girl and watched stuff with her--so i did feel really holiday-ish. ive also been visiting old friends while in town, and that was all really fun. i miss my best friends though... one's been relatively silent lately and i hurt the other so he's has taken some distance from me. in all the stuff i go through i think of how i improve but also how im not ready for him yet.. idk if ill ever be... while everything feels so still, its good to let everythign from the past while out... maybe i should just enjoy this time of nothingness before life becomes rowdy again
i stumbled upon this in the middle of breaking down over trying to write my college applications. i’ve always felt different from everyone else, not in the pick me way but more of the “why can’t i just do that like they do?” way. writing my college applications unearthed a part of me that i don’t know how to describe. i think i feel weak? i don’t feel fragile, or like i’m about to break though. i feel like crying over the silliest things. i used to love photographing the sunset but it’s been years since i’ve even watched one. i haven’t watched a real, complex, movie in ages, nor read a book like so, just mindless romances that tell of a happy ending and have minor challenges along the way. but my college applications? i can’t tell if they’re a wake up call or my downfall. i haven’t done anything worth writing about. i like playing video games and i like music, but doesn’t everyone? i’m sure that’s the last thing a college is looking for. maybe if i was really good at a game or mastered an instrument i could get a scholarship but it’s too late to learn. college apps are due in a month, but i’ve had my whole life to prepare for them, and i didn’t. maybe this is my sign to turn it all around and actually start to be someone. maybe i’ll write something that’ll change someone’s life, or maybe i’ll isolate to learn all of mother earth’s secrets. i could earn a nobel prize, split an atom, or create revolutionary technology… or maybe i’ll just be a gardener! a caretaker of a museum. a delivery driver. maybe i won’t become anyone special, but i do hope i help make a difference in someone’s life, even if in the smallest way. but right now? i’ll stick working up the courage to compliment a stranger on the sidewalk :)
Thank you for sharing your story friend, I appreciate it. Just wanted to let you know, and you already know this too from what I can see you have written here, you are you and that is enough; you don't need to do extraordinary things to make a difference in someone's life or go to college in that matter. You already made a difference in mine which I really appreciate and wanted to let you know. But I can feel your frustration, because when I was a middle schooler (around that ages) I was a hard working kid and had some kind of potential to be great but that illusion broke off when I first started high school. And after that everything went downhill and I never even had to courage to try again and even attempt to make an application to any higher education institutes. So you telling to even try and do your best even though you think you have nothing to show for it, is still very inspiring and amazing to me. Why? Because you refuse to give up and thats very admirable. I hope you have the best of luck with your applications, and have a great journey towards whatever you wish to pursue. Much love
It is normal to feel like you are not achieving "enough." In society, we are drilled to understand a hierarchy of achievement: to be someone, is to accomplish something. But you are enough for simply being. It is good to recognize that you feel like you want more for yourself, but consider exploring why you haven't, and what your true motivations might be. Then you can work to make changes where you see fit. The fact that you recognize this already and have found tranquility in that you could be anything, no matter how big or small, is testament that you are prepared for starting your university journey. For your college essay, your experiences are never "too normal." No one's life is entirely unique. You need to find what elements of your experiences stick out to you, drive you, or have helped you grow in some way. Maybe you have found yourself to be an educator, a leader, an artist, or a friend through online gaming. Maybe your love of music has brought about revelations into the art, or into yourself and your own mind. The best college essays make something great out of the mundane. You are always enough, and everything will be okay. :)
I've been there. I just graduated and still feel this way about finding a job. But I've changed a lot and for the better. Get curious about yourself and what you like. If the college apps feel like a wake-up call, it may be a sign that you need to challenge yourself (it's hard but never too late). Hope we find who we are and what we're supposed to do.
i’ve been feeling exactly the same! i knew i wanted to go to university, and i’m here now, i’m in my second year, but i still feel like i’m something less than everyone else here. i feel smaller and less experienced and more afraid and perhaps weaker, like you said. the other day i was feeling sad because deep down i wish that i had more of the skills it took to be an artist or a musician and study a creative subject instead of a subject with confusing related career paths. the day before that i was feeling anger on four different levels all at once, and yet none of the things i was angry about seemed important at all. i feel over-emotional and overwhelmed all the time and it gets worse when i spend too much time with too many people, but i love talking to people, so i just don’t really know what i’m doing. but still we push on! we’re moving! what keeps me going is knowing that i have reasons to be here, even if they’re small and not particularly significant in the grand scheme of things. i really like the music in this video, for example. what a great thing it is that we are here to listen to it.
youve always been someone, and i know from reading your comment that you are someone beautiful inside. we all are i remember going through pretty similar thoughts when i was applying to college last year. what have i done with my life? i still feel that way, and it terrifies me, but its not over yet. now im here at college-wasnt my first pick, but the place is beautiful and ive met some kind people :) youve made a difference in my life, even in a small way, so thank you
@@ぬむ-m3c it is fantastic as usually when speaking to foreigners i worry that some colloquial aspect won't be communicated correctly, its a really great advancement
I lost my mum unexpectedly to cancer 2 months ago. She'd finished her chemo and her surgery and she was declared cancer-free 5 months before. My mom and dad went on vacation, I was watching their dogs and cats at their home, 2 weeks later they came back because my mom got sick. They arrived back in the camper van at 11PM, an ambulance came for my mom at 2AM and at 4PM the next day she was gone. Just like that. 5 months after she was cancer-free her body has filled with it. I don't live close to them and we were never super close to begin with so I just went home after the funeral and it's easy to forget sometimes that it happened. The grief comes and goes. Such a bizarre sequence of events. Loss sucks.
I am sorry for your loss. All the poetry, songs, podcasts, movies and conversations of the world cannot truly describe grief. It is that foreign sensation that i find lingers the most. I hope you find your peace with it however you can. Bless you and your family, stranger.
Had a fever for about 2 days straight. It actually feels great when you go from shivering under the blankets, going in and out of fever dreams to finally getting up and sweating it all off. Feels like being reborn man.
I'm currently sick... But I've been thinking about how I want to start over. I want to leave everything that this current life has brought me and start a new life elsewhere. I want to become the person I'm meant to be. But I'm afraid and I don't know how I can do it. I feel stuck where I currently am and I don't understand why and I can't seem to figure out how to leave...
I don’t remember where, but a while ago I saw something that said if you hear ringing in your ears, it’s deceased loved ones calling you from behind the grave, not beckoning, just… communicating. And while I don’t think this is true obviously, I’ve always thought it was a nice thought and pretended, because why not. All this to say, hey everyone, nice to know you joined me for this internet check point, even if your not here anymore.
Meeting my husband was one of the best if not the best thing that ever happened to me. He changed my life for the better and now i can't live without him, he is my sunshine
* ... * An internet checkpoint. * A place to save your progress. * A place to contemplate your decisions in life. * A place to think about how life has been going. * ... * A place to rest. * A place to talk. * A place to think. * A place to dream. * ... * A place of comfort. * of sadness. * of anger. * of love. * of joy. * ... * HP fully restored. * You are filled with a sense of... * Determination.
You know what's ironic for me A strange feeling of emptiness has been following me for the last 3 days I couldn't beat Sans Undertale for the past 3 day Probably a coincidence, I just don't know where this weird feeling is coming from
Lost one of my best friends a few months ago to an accident at his home. Things don’t feel real. He was such a kind and down to earth soul and was going through so much but still managed to keep a smile on his face whenever he could. I had been online in a game with him just the day before the accident and he was so happy. We were with friends, his girlfriend, it was just a rlly good time. Then he passed and no one knew for 3 days. It also doesn’t help that he passed exactly a month after my rabbit passed unexpectedly from a stress induced heart attack. It’s just truly changed my perspective on life and how we should always live each day like it’s our last. We never know what can happen. Always tell your friends and family you love them and cherish every moment with them, you never know when they’ll be gone. His 19th birthday was on the Second. He should’ve had that chance to turn 19 surrounded by all his friends and family. The world is so unfair and cruel to those who don’t deserve it. I miss you, DJ. Fly high king. Greet me when I come up there, mkay? I love you sm. And if you can, give me the strength I need to finish out my musical today man 🫶🏼 - 10/6/24, 4:56 AM
I recently got diagnosed with scheuermanns disease (spine is curved more than should be) at 19. My dog my parents got when I was going through suicidal thoughts and mental hospital visits is getting older and losing her memory. My work isnt letting me work until HR approves my doctors note. And my first car I got a couple months ago is currently in the shop. But I met somebody who I love. And they make me happier than I have been in years. Even with everything going terribly, knowing they are next to me as I type this makes everything a million times easier. This checkpoint is a beautiful place, and you are all wonderful people, i wish all of you the absolute best in your life and your dreams. Stay safe, and have good drams💜💜
My Dad died when I was 5, I will never forget his legacy. He made Birthdays special. He read me good stories. It was a perfect childhood because of him, I will never forget him.
This year was really weird to me. I’ve been kinda lost in life recently, not sure what to do to feel satisfied or happy. Idk who to really trust on personal issues, I feel like I try my best for others when in need but when I’m feeling down and need someone to talk to or just hang out, suddenly there’s no one around. It has been a challenge finding myself and discovering every aspect of me. Not everything has been bad news in my life. I began to learn new things and resume some old ones. If you find yourself in a struggling position, just remember that you’re not alone and you can achieve great things, you just gotta give it some time to grow and start spreading your roots for good. I really hope you’re doing well and happy holidays to everyone.
I have a feeling like I’ve just inputted some secret combination to a secret room. It’s honestly very nice to see something like this every once in a while, to just take a breather and relax.
this is my first time ever commenting on one of these checkpoints, im not usually the type of person to share much of my life to strangers, and frankly i doubt anyone will see this but i dont mind, cause this feels special... i feel like a mess in my life right now, i dont have a job, im not pursuing any of my goals or passions, im ignoring all my obligations, im waking up at 2 in the afternoon every day, i refuse to do anything productive with my day, i feel so lost and like a failure, and i desperately wanna change but either dont know how to or feel like i cant... despite all this, as im writing this comment, after reading loads of stories from the comments, while listening to the beautiful music in the video... it all makes me wanna cry, it might sound stupid but this moment feels so special to me. it feels like a sign that things will change, that ill succeed, that im not gonna stay a failure, that ill be able to achieve all my goals like ive always dreamed of, i felt so aimless and lost but this... this has give me some hope ...lets hope i write back from a future where everything is ok
Clicked cause of the Fluttershy pfp, stayed for your life story. You got this homie. Trust me I feel somewhat the same, things are rough and you really want them to get better, but you’re also self sabotaging (happens to all of us). I’m not good with advice but just know I’m rooting for you. You’re not alone, stay strong.
I wish you great luck on your journey. I know it seems so, so far away, but you’ll find something to keep you going. Maybe you could try a new hobby? Talk with some new people? Try and do things you enjoy more. Don’t be afraid to try new things. I know this sounds sappy, but this comes from some random person’s heart who (by the information you’ve given) has gone through something at least a little similar. For me it was my best friend who pushed me to keep going, who introduced me to new things, who was there for me to talk to. I know you might not have the same resolution, but I hope yours works just as well as mine. You’ve got this.
This is my first time at a check point too and I commented something very similar. I feel you. It feels so hard to break out of stagnation. I hope we come back someday with progress on our careers and our passions. We can do this !!!!
Hey! I go through literally exactly that every so often. Personally, getting a job helps me just by having a routine and a set schedule Going to the gym(though I haven't gone for a while, lol) Joining a weekly club(boardgames :]) These are things that made life easier for me when everything fell apart I guess, just try and tough it out! Get on anti-depressants if you think you can, it helps a ton for me! As far as being productive...I had to let myself sink into media hell to realize I wanted to dig myself out. I just played video games and watched tv...until I got sick of it And then I got up and did something else, 3d modeling or something And I was like Wait a minute, this fills time AND I feel good after :]
This is my first internet checkpoint, I didn't even know they existed before I saw this video recommended to me. I think this is the first time ever I will leave a comment in a UA-cam video. I recently moved back home, to a third world country, from Japan. I achieved the dream I had since I was 12 to go to Japan and study, live, and experience the culture. In many ways it was the best experience of my life, and I connected deeply with a few friends I made over there, with whom I still talk to daily. I feel at peace with myself and my future, even though I don't have a plan or I don't know what will happen. I wish you a good day, and a happy life, internet stranger.
I am glad you are happy, I feel like we might have similar situations as I also am from a third world country and living in Japan for few years. I haven’t gone back home but glad to see people happy in a situation similar to my future.
Hey other internet stranger,Im glad u achieved ur dream i also have a similar dream. I'd like to go to japan and study animation there Im kind of just in limbo currently, i do have a goal but ehh I just broke off being friends with someone recently. Im not sure what to feel so i guess i'll just shove it on the internet for the masses to see. Pretty stupid but oh well🤷♀️
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real tho
I wish the best for everyone~
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I agree
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I love internet checkpoints
How does he have like no likes, also hi Potemer!
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Me too! There's something so special about these videos.
Love ur vids btw ❤
potemer can you beat goku
@@KuduIsAFLOWER I ate a leaf
The only way to find this video is by having it recommended to you. You are the chosen one.
same here man it came on my main yt video page or feed idk how is it called
Really?
same i scrolled past my shorts (first thing i see), one vid down and it was right under
It’s nice to pause and reflect on what has happened so far
you have achieved “INTERNET CHECK POINT”
Yesterday I saw a woodpecker for the first time in my life pecking a tree in the neighbourhood. Awesome.
Pecking awesome. Don’t think I’ve ever seen one in real life before. Don’t reckon they’re in Australia but I dunno!
that is awesome, woodpeckers are so cool :D
I love there weird biology
woodpeckers are awesome. such weird birds. I see them all around my town and I never get less happy to see them
Cool!!! I’ve only seen a woodpecker once but it pecked a whole branch off of the tree it was on 👍
a few days ago it was raining a lot and i saw a bird outside a window looking like he didn’t care and he just stood there proudly, it was beautiful
Sounds beautiful, im glad you got to experience it ❤
@@ameteurgamercom1736really just because he/she saw a fuking bird?.?
I haven't wanted to die in months and i think that's beautiful. I'm on the right path.
I’m 4 years removed from my serious depression and although I’m still unsure of my purpose, I have met people who make me happy and I realize that there will always be someone to appreciate you. May you lead a fulfilling life from here on out, traveler.
I don't know you but I am really proud of you
it is beautiful! throughout all our hardships, life is still and will always be beautiful. proud of you 🙌
Another checkpoint..
2 years and some months for me. Keep it going because you learn so much from life.
Hi ! I am the composer of "Solitude", yeah, this is a soundtrack from Dreaming Sarah but the story behind is about something really different. I created Solitude a moment of I felt really lonely, I was in my bedroom, no school, no job, no friends, today I live my better life and I feel like Solitude is a fragment of my past.
You ! If you read this comment, I want you to know, you are not alone
Cool,hope you have a good day :)
i love your stuff! is it free domain?
Amazing bro ! Have a great day and a great life !❤
Solitude is one of the best things I ever listened to recently.
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remember: you've survived every day of your life so far, no matter how bad. you wouldn't be here if you weren't meant to be. it's going to be okay.
im feeling salty today so
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something about the combination of your name, pfp, and comment made me emotional. it wouldn't be the same if your pfp wasn't stupid.
@@sammxn-w2v is being happy illegal where you live or something f#ck you man
i hope
I wish it were that simple
I've never been more alone in my entire life. Lost, untethered, drifting, numb, empty. Life has passed me by in a blink.
Ive never been scared of lonelyness , in fact i love being alone however the last days ive been scared of it , being alone , not conecting with anyone , having so much to say yet having no one to hear it , i always evade people for several reasons , but i am very optimistic too , we are social beings i found joy whether it is by talking to a family member or a simple interaction with a cashier or in a videogame , i like to think that no matter who we are or how much people we have in our lives, we will never truly be alone or left out , there is always room for connection in simple interactions or deep conversations , i once heard this phrase we are all alone toghether and i belive it to be tru and beautiful. Hope u feel better and srry for any bad english , its not my native lenguage.
Hurricane Helene hit us hard. The city is wrecked. A lot of people are dead or missing, power has been out for 3 days now, likely to be out another week. It's clearly a problem and I feel awful for the people that don't have a generator, but there's one thing I can take joy in despite everything.
No light pollution.
The stars have been beautiful these last few nights.
i’m right there with you man. this is just a checkpoint, we’ll make it through.
Trust in God my friend, religous or not, He loves you. God bless 🙏
bro what is with all these people and god- This guy had a tragedy happen to him and those around him. Don't push your damn religion on everyone.
Holding your hand from France, i hope you are safe and things get better soon
Love you stay safe it’s 437 am ❤
One of my friends died last night. I miss her. I miss her voice. I miss everything about her. I love her. She deserves so much more than life had given her.
I’m sorry for your loss. That’s really rough. I hope you’re okay, you were a great friend to her. If you want to vent I’m here to listen
I'm so sorry for your loss.If I could give you a hug rn I would
I'm really sorry this happened. I love my best friend from the bottom of my heart, and I could never imagine it if I lost her. And I wouldn't wish that loss on anyone. Your friend deserved better from this world, I just wish I could bring her back for you and fix everything. Loss is hard, and even though your just some random internet stranger I don't know, I still care for you. I could never replace your friend, but I'm here for you
@@oliversszx sorry for your loss. may her soul rest in peace
take care of yourself
May she rest in peace as another star in our vast Milky Way... 🌌
My cat died a few hours ago. Hit by cancer and only a couple of days after diagnosis, he was gone. I didn't have time to process the oncoming passing of my best friend. He blessed me when I sneezed, meowed to the tune of jingle bells (when I paused at a specific part, he would meow), started purring just by looking at him, followed me everywhere, etc. He was such a smart cat. October 3rd will be a day of remembrance for him. I love you, Puma. I hope you're looking over me through the stars, little buddy.
i'm so sorry for you loss. i really hope you're feeling fine, and if you arent i hope you can get over it.
cats are my favourite kind and seeing this really broke my heart.
im deeply sorry for your loss. i hope puma is resting well now. i wish you the best in life.
R.I.P
rest in peace to his cat everyone
Im sorry for hearing that....
I'm Japanese. I recently found out about this internet checkpoint.
When I first came here, my parents said terrible things to me and I was scared and cried. It was getting hard to live.
But listening to this song and reading everyone's stories, the words "See you again at the internet checkpoint" gave me a boost of gratitude for all the people who are going through hard times but trying their best to live. I'll come here again if I get tired. And I hope the next internet checkpoint will appear before me. Sorry for the long message.
(I used the translation function, so I'm sorry if the text sounds strange.)
this checkpoint is ESPECIALLY LUCKY because i don't even think you can search up this stuff
yeah you litterally can't (not directly anyway)
@@Purely_for_commentingit works if you search the description
you could _technically_ search "" and find videos with blank titles but not this one apparently
i mean search applies to the description too, so you search it by copy and pasting the description or by dropping enough words from it
@@Amityz72323 but you need to already have the video
my one cat, who normally doesn’t purr, just laid down on my lap and started purring like crazy. in awe at the wonders of this world
best feeling tbh!
Weird
I love how you’re calling a cat laying on your lap a „wonder of the world“
@@dastoto0166I'm just guessing but I think you've got it!
Stop capping
I'm a wildland firefighter and I was up against the largest and fastest fire I've ever seen yesterday. I worked a 20 hour shift and still haven't recovered the sleep debt. I hope this checkpoint will help me sleep, though I find myself wanting to do nothing more than to read about your lives.
I've never heard of a checkpoint before, but it feels so natural to be here, all of us.
Love you guys. If I ever find another checkpoint, I hope to see you there.
HELLO! I am from Australia! Very very very very very very grateful for you and your work! I’ll never take someone in your line for granted you are doing an amazing job. Thank you, thank you so so much. So important. ❤
You are a hero. To human and wildlife alike. It's an honor to share this checkpoint with you, and I thank you for your service.
Thank you for your work! People like me and the wildlife thank you. I hope you get that sleep, brother. You deserve it!
Love you too brother.. I hope your sleep gets back on track. Im sorry you have to endure the flames.. your a true hero and we appreciate what you do for us.. much love. Be safe- a friend from the internet.
You're awesome. Welcome.
I've been sober for 5 months now after being numb for more than half of my life. And i think the hardest part about getting sober is realizing how socially accepted it is to numb our pain. As if people are too scared to feel and grow through their experiences. we're so scared of our emotions and it's sad, because it's the best part of living.
I really enjoy your take on this, drug use in general has unfortunately become so normalized in today’s culture that it’s easy for anyone to get drawn to anything especially people who are down on their luck mentally, and once you first commit to that struggle, that’s exactly what it is until you can be pulled out or pull yourself out first, mentally hurt people want to numb themselves and drugs is unfortunately one way to do that
we ?
You've got this x
its also just human nature and the most human thing you can do is live through struggle and feel things.
U could do with a drink buddy u earned it
barely made it alive this year, still standing strong.
I hope you have a good day!
happy to have you onboard
me too, my friend. i know one day that you'll be under the stars and be glad to have seen them
Still here, dispite it all
I wish you a good year (or well, rest of the year), and the following year and also the following year and all that follows, I wish you the best dude.
it's midnight, and here i am sewing up the holes in my pajamas
Ooouuuu I hope you have the sweetest dreams after...it's all gonna work out very soon, I think
Midnight? Which country do you live? ^^
I've always wanted to learn how to sew and knit things.
Dude i was doing that at midnight
It's pretty late here, I'm up past my bedtime, got my Sailor Moon cosplay I started to make from scratch 4 years ago back out from storage, and I'm hand sewing it tonight while watching cozy UA-cam videos.
I put it away because it was around the start of when my friend circle started to discourage me from my creative pursuits. I had no idea back then, but they went on to change the course of my adult life, and I don't talk to them anymore now. I miss them, but more specifically, the version of them I knew before all this happened.
I'll be able to make my inner child Sailor Moon fan smile soon when the project is done!
The ethereal radiance of the internet checkpoint fills you with Determination.
Hp fully restored.
This about sent me into a crisis oh my god😭 Seeing ‘fills you with determination’ just about made me sob
Why did this make me crrrryyyyy!!!!
I heard the health boop sound reading that
@@natalie_v0.0.1same.
Bro are you 6 y/o imagine having beef with some pixels @Alakaz4m-gh9mv
12:37 Am 2024.
Lost my step-mom in Nov. 2020, and then my father 5 months later in 2021.
The holidays are always a rough time, and this year has hit especially hard.
This is the first time I've commented on one of these internet checkpoints but I felt i needed to.
To everyone out there, know that life isn't a sprint. Take time to enjoy and cherish what you have.
Womp Womp
Everybody dies
I am sorry for your loss. Know that I am hoping the best for you.
You’re in my thoughts. I hope you’ll find ways to heal.
its always heartbreaking to me for something that is known to be a great time of the year become so emotional for somebody. wishing you the best.❤️
Hitting an internet checkpoint at exactly midnight is a dreamlike feeling. I'm gonna sleep, feels like I'm meant to, gnight guys
It's midnight too here, good night
Good night my dear 💓
Me too, goodnight everyone 💜
Woah this is wild it's midnight right now for me when I saw it too
It's midnight for me too, hello
To the new visitors of this checkpoint:
Life can be stressful, but sometimes you need to take a break, even if it is short. Let’s just all forget about school, work and many other things we have to do and just listen to these calming sounds for a few minutes. To anyone reading this, there is always something to live for
hate evil i am evil hate goes to new visitors HATE
thanks dude
i don't know man, just can't seem to be able to empty my mind
Or read the comments section!
My father passed away from what my mom and I suspect was a suicide when I was 9. I'm 17 now. I hated him for it for most of my life. Then I started missing him. And I still miss him. He became extremely depressed and took to alcohol to bury it and I never got to really know him because of that. He taught me to love the unwanted. Snakes, bats, creepy crawlies. He loved reptiles. I'm an avid reptile keeper now. I never became close with him but I turned out just like him anyway. It's a special kind of pain, knowing how much he would have loved me. Knowing he'll never see the person I'm growing up to be. I love all the things he loved. I discovered his favorite music without knowing, and it became my favorite too.
Nathan, I love you. I wish you could've been here when I needed you so badly. I have three garter snakes now, a boa constrictor named Seatbelt, a bearded dragon named Bagel, a leopard gecko named Mercury, and a three legged toad named Tripod. I wish you could meet them. I stop for every snake or turtle in the road to help them across, just like you did when you were here.
I love you. Sometimes I wonder if, somehow, you're still out there. Still alive somewhere. And someday I'll get to see you again. I know you're dead, I know they found your body in the river, but, I'll never let go of that tiny sliver of hope. It's all I have left of you.
I'm sorry.
i probably have no words to help you with that burden, but keep on going..
I've had almost the exact same experience. My father committed suicide when I was 10 and I'm also 17 now. I've also grown to love his interests without knowing about them prior-- the matrix is my favorite movie, as it was his, and i'm into a bunch of the music, games, and shows he was. He also kickstarted my whole love of gaming by showing me untreal tournament 2004 and plenty of other games, such as the original doom trilogy and some starwars games.
My dad was into bugs and taught me a lot about spiders and handling them in general. I've got a pet tarantula now and a few other bugs, and I'm looking into becoming an entomologist. All of this happened because he showed me how harmless these little creatures are while he was still around. I also get that hope that he's still out there somewhere, despite the fact that reason tells me otherwise.
I'm fully aware that it might be odd considering the fact that we're two strangers in the comments of a youtube video, but feel free to hmu on discord @jeppydc if you'd like to compare stories or talk about our experiences. I'm here for you, you know? We have to stick together and support each other where possible.
I think he would be very proud of you if he were here. Just reading through everything you said, I know that I'd be immensely proud of seeing my children picking up my hobbies and loves, and enjoying them to their fullest.
Even though he may not physically be here anymore, you're keeping him alive through your love for him and the way you allowed him to shape your love for reptiles, and that's more than most people could ever hope for, to have an impact and be remembered in such a wonderful way.
I just know for a fact that he would be smiling at you with so much joy at how you grew up
"Sometimes I wonder if, somehow, you're still out there. Still alive somewhere"
That's what you're here for, isn't it? You are his teachings, his music, his aspirations, his love. You are your own tiny sliver of hope, the light that may still be in his eyes, your eyes.
I don't know if that helps.
Also, Tripod is such a cool name for a pet.
For some reason, I've suddenly come to realize just how much I love my mom. I find myself saying it a lot in my head whenever she does something for me. It's just a "wow, I love my mom so much." It's happened with other people too but lately it's been my mom. I love people and they frustrate and annoy me a lot, but then I step back and take in the moment and remind myself that it's not that serious and that I really do love the people around me. I'm lucky enough to have good and kind hearted people around me. I've been trying to take and appreciate what I have as much as I can.
How interesting! Sometimes i get the same feeling, but then comes the fear i might lose the person i love. Learning to replace my fear with gratitude for the people in my life, just like you ❤
im so happy for you , i wish i would've said that enough while she was with me .
I feel the same, I'm so lucky to have her as my mom, she's the most precious gem in this world 😭💗 I can't express how much I love her, she's the best
I learned to laugh when my mom gets angry. It is almost always over the smallest things that mothers love to nag about. Why be angry when I can smile? Show your parents affection, perhaps it will be returned 😊
Incest much
This feels weird, scrolling through all of these comments. It’s like finding a place with a lot of people that are just talking, eating, drinking, conversating. Then you hear the people that have something to say, you hear them, then they disappear. As you keep going, more and more people you listen to disappear after they say something. And then you keep going, and keep going, and keep going, until it’s just you. No one else to hear. Then you give say what you want to, same as the people before you, and then you wake up.
It's crazy what those checkpoints made us feel
I wish I was saying it in person, but I good luck out there
Thats our little secret tavern
Let the world be filled with love and understanding! Take care, whole world family
Brought together in some way, by these pretty gem tones
Don't ever apologize for taking up space in the universe! Physically, emotionally, spiritually.
Thanks! We are one, but still, may we meet again... ❤
i think the concept of internet checkpoints is just.. so fascinating, you know? like, there's something about them that really resonates with me. It's like, we all move through this crazy huge other world, but every now and then, we stop at these checkpoints, these little moments, to just, i don’t know, breathe. it’s like a reminder of where we’ve been, like a snapshot of the internet at a certain time, and it's so.. comforting in a way?
it’s funny because i feel this deep nostalgia for the early internet, even though i wasn't really there. like, i didn’t experience it firsthand, but i get this weird, almost bittersweet feeling whenever i see old forums, old websites, or even hear about how things were. i think the word "anemoia" pretty much describes it, where you feel nostalgic for a time you never actually lived through. it's wild, but i feel like that all the time when it comes to the internet. the early days just seemed so.. i don’t know.. simple? free? there was something about the rawness, like, before everything got so polished and corporate. and these internet checkpoints, they kind of feel like a way to reconnect with that. like, yeah, we’re in the future now, everything’s fast and overwhelming, but we can still pause, take a moment to look back, and just feel something. even though it's never going to be the same as the past, unfortunately, there’s still this small sense of connection. like, no matter how much the internet changes, we can’t really go back to how things were. and that kind of sucks sometimes. i mean, we can try to recreate those vibes, those moments, but they’re never exactly the same. it’s like.. we’re chasing this ghost of what the internet used to be, but we’ll never fully catch it. and that’s okay, i guess? because at least we have these checkpoints to remind us of what it felt like, even if just for a second. it’s a little bittersweet, but it’s also kinda beautiful in its own way.
You nail it. No internet point competitions, affiliate deals, bots, ads, grifts, agendas, schemes. If the dead internet theory is true, these feel like the patches of life that will live on. Glad I could read your comment here.
you said exactly what i wanted to put into words and more, thank you person on the internet :)
What the hell is an Internet checkpoint
That was such a beautiful description, and I fully agree on how these youtube checkpoints are a small glimpse of how the Internet was before, or at least it kinda captures how I'd imagine it used to be and it's vibe :)
@@bIuueberriethey’re basically videos with no title/ channel with no name that are not posible to search, you can only get them either be the algorithm or with links . Usually they have music without lyrics (but some they do) and the same background through the hole video (be it a gift or a picture), it can be any length, from playlist like these one or just a few seconds. Idk if I’m explaining it fully but I hope it was helpful
살기힘든 요즘입니다.
사람들이 점점 더 차가워지고 나도 사람인데 사람들이 싫어지는 순간들 속에서 살아 숨쉬기가 무척이나 힘드네요.
그나마 우주 속을 유영하는 것 같은 음악을 들으며 마음을 진정시켜보네요.
내일은 다들 한층 너그러운 마음과 너그러운 삶을 살아가길 바래봅니다.
For a moment, we crossed paths.
Agree
Et peut être que un jour ils s'emmêlerons
@@F-35BLightningII thank you, i really needed this right now. I hope you have a great day aswell! :)
We're at a crossroads. What path do you pick?
Beautiful sentiment. Hope your path is as breathtaking as you
I saw a bird yesterday
Cool!
I saw a beetle today
i saw a family of squirrels playing at a tree and an opossum last week. i fed them all bread later :>
cool! i saw
. too
for some reason, I read this in GLaDOS's voice.
I've lived in the same neighborhood for almost my entire life. I remember one year a blue jay came and made a nest in one of our bird houses. From then on he was always coming back year after year so I decided to give him the fitting name of Jay. I used to get so excited in the spring waiting for him to come back. One year he managed to find a mate and even have some young. After that he started to migrate later and later in the year. I have a memory of staring out the kitchen window the morning of the first snow and seeing him perched outside on the telephone wire. We just stared at each other for a while before I went on with my day. I never saw him again after that. I guess he just got old as we all do. I like to think Jay lived a good life. He had plenty of food from our feeders. Helped raise strong young in the shelter of our birdhouse. I think about him more and more lately. How he always managed to find his way back each year without struggle. I like to think that he decided it was his time. That he decided he'd seen all he could in his short lifespan. That he was content with the simple life he led. I just wish I could tell him how much of an impact it had on me.
I feel like I was supposed to see this comment, somehow. I hope I live a full life like your Jay. Thank you.
No one wanna hear your YAPPINGGGG
This touched me 😭
god this was so beautiful
@@jaycarlson505this story and your comment + profile picture just altered my life.
I'm crying. Going through the third month of existential crisis, lost all meaning of life and morality, and this video just appears there...
Hey, its been two weeks. Just wanted to see how you’re doing? Hang in there and push through, life has serious ups and downs. Even when life seems like it can’t go back up, you can find peace in solitude.
Take a break from news and social media, have a listen to your favourite songs or find new ones.
Hope you’re feeling better, wishing you a peaceful December 🫧
@xekan_9153 Hi, thank you very much for your support. Now I'm better, I had learned that there's no necessity to find all the meaning. I'm just starting to enjoy my life :D. Wish you good luck
i got to hang out with my girlfriend today. she has been the first person to make me feel unbelievably loved and wanted.
i was abused for a lot of my life, and now being able to lay with her on the couch and talk about nothing in particular is really special.
this one is actually really sweet
@@lucasworth5903I agree.
That's good for you man, I'm happy that things are going well for you
seriously so happy for you. you deserve love and happiness just as much as anyone else in this world you’re amazing
Glad to hear it from you man :)
I like to watch caterpillars turn into butterflies, they change so much and I admire that
Pokemon reference!!?!?!?!?!?!?!
There is one in my room but I dont know where.
And no one knows exactly how they do it.
I used to work in a butterfly exhibit that was at the zoo in my state. You’d have loved it. The butterfly keepers would pin up the cocoons on a board so you could see them going through metamorphosis. Hundreds of beautiful butterflies living carelessly in a greenhouse filled with different plants and flowers. I would sit in there for 7 hours a day, sometimes reading a book. All I had to do was great the patrons at the front door or check for “hitchhikers”, which were butterflies that were hanging onto someone’s clothing, when people were leaving the greenhouse. It was the most easy going job in the world and somehow I was lucky enough to have it for a few years. 🌺🦋
This is my first internet checkpoint. Reading everyone else’s stories is fascinating. Sometimes it doesn’t truly resonate how every person you pass by has a life just as complicated as your own.
Lately, i’ve been a little lonely. A few months ago i went through a breakup that left me feeling unlovable, and in some ways, i still do. When i talk to the people around me, i don’t feel close to any of them. There’s a barrier between me and everyone else. I’m trapped in the dilemma of having no energy to break that barrier and a craving for company. I feel oxymoronic. An odd juxtaposition.
Time will heal my wounds, though, and time will heal yours. Will our scars fully go away? Probably not. But we’ll be okay, reader. We just need to see what tomorrow brings.
my first one too!! its so interesting , everyone just sharing pieces of their lives
I've also been going through a breakup recently, in fact it's only been about 3 weeks. It was my first actual relationship, so being left like that kind of left me pretty broken, however I stayed close to my friends, listened to music, and vented all that I could. I made sure to take time for myself no matter how stressful life has gotten, and even though it hurts so much to barely ever be able to even talk to her as a friend, I learned many really important life lessons. I believe we meet everybody for a reason, and even if she wasn't meant to be the love of my life, being with her taught me important communication skills. To you, OP, and anybody else who needs to hear this, stick to the people you love and listen and understand them, because one day those people might not be around anymore, so learn from them.
Being shut down from what was a relationship situation is hard. It took me 2 years to fully let those feelings out of my everyday thoughts.
Time does heal. Good luck
That second paragraph of yours put my own feelings into words very well. I too often feel quite distant from everyone and like there's a barrier between us. Very strange.
TrainToMars is a cool name
Checkpoints like these convince me that life might actually be okay and living is truly worth it
My mom is getting old, and I can’t fathom the world without her yet. I still need her here, I haven’t learned enough yet 😢
this is extremely relatable. i can't even fathom what i'll do when my mom is gone. it breaks my mind to think about it
Same here. She hasn’t reached it yet, but, I’m afraid of having to lose both my mom and dad. It’s scary to think about because I haven’t learned much yet either. I still am learning but it would be hard without them.
i wish i felt that way about my mom
dont give me that idea, i don't wanna cry😢
Mine is already gone. Appreciate her while she’s still here. I’ve never been more lost, lonely, and suicidal in my life. It’s not getting any easier.
University is tough, exams are tough, biology is tough. It might be tough, but I know the younger me reading national geographic books and watching nature documentaries dreamed of being here. The natural world is beautiful, the opportunity to learn about it is one of my greatest blessings.
Thanks for providing a place for so many people (like myself) to have an internet checkpoint like this.
Reminds me of how I initially wanted to be a marine biologist, then changed to civil engineer, and systems analyst before settling on electrical and computer engineering.
I occasionally conjure the somber thought that it had started from watching my dad work on a computer since I was a baby. I figured out how to use it before I even spoke. I just watched.
It's funny what watching an analysis video about A Night In The Woods led up to. "What do you want to do tonight?" (The question the video and the game posits)
YK…. I next year I’m gonna be a Senior in high school and I’m planing to do design or art majors or maybe join the navy…
I have cancer. Its terminal. Still working full time, and being the role model of a human I want my 4 year old son to grow into.
I'm comfortable albeit on so much pain relief I dont know what day it is. I'm at peace with my impending mortality now. Even though im only 28.
Everyone. Live your lives. Love your people. Sing your song. You are enough ❤️
i am sure you are an excellent role model for your son!
Hope you get better ❤️🩹
Thank you for sharing this with us, all the best ❤
i honestly hope you will become better and beat the cancer.
how are you now ?
I don't know how you're doing it. I send you love
recently my friend went deaf from antibiotics, i wish i could sent this to them, im sure she would have loved this. To witness someone lose such an integral part of themselves, really makes you appreciate the parts of yourself you still have left. Life really did take an important piecie too, our friendship literally began because of music.
Rest here soldier, It’s important to take a breather. Neither of us wants to see you go hollow.
Thank you Andre of Astora
Offer appreciated and accepted.
Dark souls reference yay
didn't know this was a video game reference when i first read it. made me tear up a bit. thank you
Despite everything, you're still you. This checkpoint fills me with determination.
🍝
toby fox games have my heart 🤍
Seeing this comment reminds you of your hopes and dreams. You are filled with perseverance.
I hope I am.
@@noahmathews3041 hearing the music reminds you everything will be ok in the end. you're filled with patience.
I got a mohawk the other day. I always liked the looks of them, but I never had the guts to try it out on myself until now. Figured there's no point in not trying it while I still have the time during my life. It's my life after all, why bother worrying what other people think of it instead of making this life mine? If I didn't like it, I could always grow my hair back out, or shave the rest off.
I do like it though. It feels... right, just being honest with myself and trying out something I've always wanted to.
After years of anxiety, depression, and trauma - years of coasting along letting life run its course - I've finally found a new motivation. The motivation to push myself to live my life how I want, to work to be a me that I'm proud of once more.
I finally pushed myself to start writing. I finally pushed myself to start learning how to program. I finally pushed myself to start singing again. Even at my day job, I pushed myself and finally found my flow, working smoother shifts than ever before. Not because anyone else told me to, but because I knew in my heart I wanted to, and I knew in my heart I was fed up with wasting time.
I'm not living to meet anyone else's expectations of me anymore. I'm just living to be a me that I myself am proud of and happy with. Even if my hobbies don't amount to anything tangible in the future, I'm filled with a happiness to last a lifetime knowing that I've tried what I always wanted to. That, as hard as it's been, I've pushed myself to be the me I always wanted to see myself as. To be the me that I'm proud of.
The me I'd be proud of is more than just those hobbies though. With everything I've been through, I can only hope that those around me don't have to suffer to the extent I once did. More than anything, as impossible a feat it may be, I only hope to spread an ideal of hope, peace, and happiness wherever I tread. A hope where you out there reading this may feel comforted, inspired, motivated, uplifted, or otherwise just happier from reading this. A dream that one day, maybe that spark happiness will spread, and make the world a happier place, just like the world I yearn for. That dream of happiness will never come to fruition if I don't fight for it though, so I will fight for that dream that I am proud of, each and every day.
To you whom have scrolled this far, please, don't give up as I myself once had. It's difficult as hell, I know, but I urge you: fight for the life you want from this world. Fight for the you that you always wanted to see realized, if for nothing else but the sake of your own dream.
May life from here forward treat you well Voyager. Take care.
This has filled me with more motivation, than anything else before, thank you, whomever you may be!
You seem very determined and as if you have already reached a lot. You should be even more proud of yourself than you already are.
im happy for you son
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
So happy for you, I used to think this way to until recently
I saw a lady walking her dog today. The dog didn’t have legs, but she made him a little wheelchair so he could still walk around. He was wearing a little sweater, enjoying his time outside and splashing in puddles. The things we do for those we love. To love someone so much that you would carry their cross for them.
its odd seeing so many fresh tinestamps and people congregated at the same place at the same time, but it feels very cozy. i hope life treats all of you kindly, maybe we'll cross paths again.
I do to, it's so calm here. I love internet checkpoints. I just wrote so many paragraphs about my life currently hehe, it felt so calm hearing the music in the back and hearing everyone else's stories. the internet can be so cool sonetines
Thank you kind stranger
thank u stranger
Nice to be here, reminds me when in quarantine 2020 we used to get a lot of random vids like these
Thank you.
woke up in the middle of the night feeling absolutely terrible physically, but curiously enough, i open youtube and this is here. i feel like that's a sign of some sort. maybe i'll be okay.
you will be ok even if it takes decades
You'll be okay. I hope you're feelin better now (ノ^_^)ノ
❤
I usually take things like that as signs that things are about to change, but you could have an entirely different belief. Regardless, I wish you the best
After years of working my ass off and saving my money, I can finally achieve my lifelong dream of living alone. It’s taken years of work, and I’ve finally done it.
I’m so proud of myself.
good for you man!
Im so proud of you too!! Thats so amazing, enjoy this new chapter of your life!!
Congratulations! I've lived alone plenty and the privacy and freedom is very nice. Good luck out there and I hope everything works out for you ^^
Proud of you 🫶🏾
I'm so proud of u
Lately I've been experiencing nothing but enlightened moods, I've shifted away from the negative thoughts that have drowned me. It took me so long to realize, I'm the ONLY one who could change the way I perceive life. I'm grateful and at peace with myself. We all have our days of dullness or unsatisfactory. I can assure you, if you have the patience, you can create anything you can ever imagine. That means you can shape YOUR reality. I hope this helps and Godbless your soul.
Sudden positive moods can signal mental health issues but I'm not sure if this is true I'm just saying that you should make sure the joy isn't fake
Ignore above comment it's dumb
I lost my eldest sibling Thursday night. Crashed their motor scooter into a traffic feature that was freshly installed and didn't have any of the reflectors put in yet, so they didn't see it in the dark and rain.
Our middle sibling has been taking it understandably hard, so I've spent a lot of the weekend at their place, helping where I can, reminding them to self care, and just generally making myself available, even if its just sitting quietly in a room. I worry for them. Not that I think they'll do anything rash, but because the two were so close and I know they can be bad about taking care of themself when they are under stress.
We went to a meet up at the crash site today with their scooter club. It was nice. We got to joke around a bit, pour out a libation, and light some candles. Each member spoke glowingly. It was good to know they found a place that fit them so well and that they had made such a positive impact.
So, here's to you, Red. You lived life to its upmost, you made it work when things got rough, and you never let the world dictate who you were. I'm glad to hear you found a place of radical acceptance and were truly happy in the end.
You were here for a good time, if not a long time.
Ride on shooting star
Sending love to you and your family ❤
I'm sorry for your loss🕊️
Fly high, Red🕊️🙏🏿
❤️🙏
i’m crying reading all these stories, and though some of them are sad that’s not the reason. i think it’s so beautiful that so many people felt they could share what they’re going through here. i feel like the internet does so much to isolate us - or at least make us *feel* isolated - but things like this make me realize how alike we all are. it’s cool how we can share our experiences
This is what the internet could and should be. Except there is more money in pushing hatred.
@@Cherokeechuck9 agreed most of if not all of the topics the media tries to push as being "hot button topics" are BS we just want better cost of living, if everybody is living comfortably then everyone is happy and not at each others throats or seemingly are because now you can't tell if its just a gaggle of bots just trying to stir stuff up or not
Hello there! Feelings like these inspire me to do something like a forum, a magazine, both mixed, events of getting together and feel the awe whilst getting good recommendations on stories, music, fiction or fact.
@@Cherokeechuck9 there’s some truth to what you’re saying but if people make a culture to recognize the humanity in others as much as we can, that will end up triumphing over attempts to profit off of that hatred or other negative emotions.
It’s at least worth trying.
the visuals look so cool with tears your eyes
This is my first time reaching an internet checkpoint, and wow is it so refreshing. Perusing through people's raw feelings and self reflections, without seeking anything in return; just laying out their soul in the moment before continuing on in a trek weighed once again by societal scrutiny and expectations. In here, we can relax our shoulders and let the true underlaying thoughts run free.
Congrats on your first checkpoint. Enjoy, these have the best comment sections I've seen on the internet. Good luck on your trek. Even if I don't recognize your name, I hope to see you sometime in the future at another checkpoint, as the sentiment you share may be similar to this. I hope for you to be nostalgic, even without recognized reason.
its also a bit relieving (but also sad at the same time) to see some people here sharing something that you went through, im able to relate to the people here in one way or another, good or bad
its... idk... its nice to see that my life is unique, but its nice to know that im not completely different...
that im human, and that my experiences, are shared
our world and the internet are so big but places like this bring us, complete strangers, closer together in some way or another
Same here!!! I'm having such a marvelous experience, it is kind of emotionally transcendent to me...
normally im really chaotic and destructive, but its nice to have some peace sometimes
same, 3:23 am right now, this is my first time coming across an internet checkpoint. I never even knew it existed.
Internet check point.. What an honor to see this..
Heya everybody in the future! Including older me. I hope this finds you. I have a message.. Don't give up. Chase your dreams! Even if some say that they're stupid, even if some say your not good enough. They're wrong. Listen to yourself, do what you want to do. You are your own person, chose who you want to be, not what other want to be. Have a great life reader!
BlueAxolotl out!
W mans
This is what the internet was made for. I'm so glad that UA-cam still pushes forward videos like this, and videos from smaller creators, and from real people.
It makes me feel so human and connected to see all of these people share their honest thoughts and experiences.
Thank you everyone. It was nice to meet you at this checkpoint.
I remember the first checkpoint I saw. I don't know if it was the first one, but I know that one Stickerbrush Symphony checkpoint got especially popular. It was such a cool thing to see, people connecting and talking about their lives on an extended Donkey Kong track of all things. (Not to knock DKC's music; it's amazing stuff. The checkpoint it made was just a welcome surprise in general.)
:) Howdy buddy!
maybe check out my stuff, id love to hear what you think of it
Depression has hit me like a truck this year, I've never felt this lonely in my life. I just felt as if everyone just hated me, my sensitivity increased a lot and I eventually started driving people away from me. Self-deprecation got the best of and now I am stuck in an endless cycle of hating myself for hating myself for hating myself for driving people away because of my issues. Here i am, venting to strangers on the internet who don't know even know me in real life and probably think im experiencing something bad, but in reality im actually just overreacting over nothing.
But, I've made a promise this year. Sure it's near the end, but my life is not over. Today, marks the day where I'll finally improve myself as a person. I am human, and i will make mistakes. For now on, i am no longer the dumb depressed teenager i was yesterday and the day before. I am willing to acknowledge my short comings as an individual, i am willing to learn from them, and i am willing to live on.
*Are you sure you want to delete your progress*
YES
[NO]
*Continue*
[YES]
NO
I know how it feels being stuck in a loop of hatred, and I'd be stupid to say it all magically gets better. Self improvement is hard, but you taking the first step is incredible. I wish you luck on your journey to loving yourself
I know I should start my own
4/10/24
Hey ❤ I just want to let you know that even if you were exactly the person you see yourself as, that "dumb" depressed teenager is still worthy of love, support, and being accepted for who they are- including by you. I've been there before (and still am to be fair, so please don't think I'm trying to lecture you), but you need to know you're worth fighting for even when you hate yourself. Good luck with your recovery! ❤
You're on the right path. It's hard not to hate at least a part of one's self. We aren't born perfect and part of growing up is accepting that. Even if you choose not to believe in an all-loving-God, love really is the answer to the question of life. We are here to share it, and it comes from within. I had a couple suicide attempts as a teen but never commited because I then realized that love is the only answer to people's problems, mine included. I eventually came to Jesus because I found He is the most perfect representation of how to live a selfless life full of love as a human. I learned that selflessness is a product of love, not the other way around. It's also important to look inward and really question the roots of your self convictions; find a comfortable time to question each aspect of why you feel these ways, where these thought patterns came from and whether they are serving you or harming you, and how you can change each one for the better. You can overcome these repeating thoughts with faith in love; love for your gift of life and love for others. You need to question your ego and how it operates in order to grow it into a healthier one. Medidation (being observant of my inner thoughts) and prayer help me do that. It's not all going to happen in one day, but because you began to change, you're waking up from the dreamworld you originally created as a protection mechanism. All you have to do is acknowledge that it no longer serves you. Each day is a step you take towards love. Just keep walking the path of love and don't stray from it. The only thing you should fear is being separated from love; it all boils down to that. It's a path you willingly walk and it involves self sacrifice because once you can see life in a better light it's your job to help others see the love too. Postmodern christianity has failed in that aspect but there's a revival coming. I wouldn't be alive if it weren't for the friends I know who helped me in my darkest hours. And I didn't seek Jesus out, He sought me out. I was an athiest.
I have been in that same void, at the bottom of the abyss. From down there the light of the surface is easy to forget, easy to not see. But as someone that got out of it, I can tell you, you can do it too, the light exists, happiness exists, love exists, and you are worthy of every single eay of light that falls upon you. Its okay to make mistakes, it's okay to hurt, its okay for you to accept that its not your fault. The fact that you care so much about it is the very proof. Take care, and don't quit on me soon okay? I wouldn't want you to miss out on the amazing story that your life will be.
my partner told me one thing i never forgot
*if it isnt okay right now, then it isnt the end*
*everything will be okay in the end*
> Would you like to save?
> Yes > No
> Yes
> Saving... Please do not turn off your device...
> Save complete.
> Have a nice day!
nice acnh ref
✨ * The checkpoint fills you with determination.
✨ * Save?
❤️ Yes No
✨ * Saved.
*TURNS OFF THE DEVICE ANYWAY*
NO!!! HAVE A BAD DAY! 😡😡😡
🌻 *BREAKS SAVE* 🌻@@nest3r_d3lta
담도암이라는 무서운 암 진단에도 어머니가 수술을 할 수 있게 해 주셔서, 또 5년을 버틸수 있게 해 주어서 고맙습니다 울 어머니 앞으로도 11년만 더 살았으면 좋겠습니다 저 박사졸업하시는것도 보고 결혼하는것도 보고 할 수 있게 해 주세요
Oh look! A new internet checkpoint has formed. For any travellers in the future I say hello from 2024
i will also say hi to the future
hey, hello from the 1st. of october 2024! ❤
@@carolina_is_freeoh cool! its sept 30 for me haha. but it will be october 1st in around 2 hours :D
@@radiationoverdrive
Funny thing, these differences in our timezones. Where are you from (Europe/Germany here). Have a nice first day of october! 🌷🤗
@@carolina_is_free im from america :D
also, thank you!
I started antidepressants a couple weeks ago. For me it's actually an accomplishment, earlier in my life, I thought I wouldn't live long enough to need them, but now I genuinely feel hope for the future, and want to work things out. I want to live. I want to love people and experience all that I can. And these are just another step into making that as happy as it can be.
Amen brother. It's a steep mountain to climb and you'll trip and fall but you've got this. The want to live is the hardest step. Keep kicking. I don't know you but I believe in you.
Jesus loves you
im so happy for you. i was in a similar position, and while i got better without medication, it took a lot of therapy to become the person i am today. I'm proud of you, keep working towards your goals, sometimes life gets hard but that usually means you're doing something worthwhile.
Keep going, dude, we're all in this together
starting them is hard but worth it. Make sure to monitor how it affects you and communicate with your prescriber.
You ever drive by a neighborhood or school and think about how some kid in there is living their whole childhood. Some kid right now is forming all their greatest memories, building all the experiences that they’ll feel nostalgic for 20 years from now, blissfully unaware of the wider world outside of what they care about.
They are what we were years ago, to them we’re just adults who have life figured out, they don’t see the stress and the chaos yet. They’re forming their whole world right now, and to you it’s just a random school you happen to pass on your way to work.
I think about that a lot.
Yes, you realize that as children, we are happy with so little. Just seeing a butterfly flying, already made us happy. Being an adult is horrible, I wish I could be a little girl again and settle for what life gave me. Enjoy the present...
As a teacher in formation, it amazes me to no end. A couple times I've stopped nearby the school I graduated from, and I've genuinely stopped and people-watched for a couple minutes. Now that I'm no longer in that kind of hustle, that my past was that just a couple years ago... and I love seeing how kids enjoy it. I don't see it as them being blissfully unaware, just living their lives aware of how much they enjoy it. It's endearing to a level I can't quite sentence.
All the time, honestly. I have 2 littles and I just watch them sometimes like they have their own dynamic outside of our home and they take what they've learned from us parents and are actively applying that to school and play. They're just... living. Blows my mind.
yeah god made the happy to sad ratio waaaay out of proportion. hopefully he fixes it in the next update
This is me wish I could relive highschool again man
It is my first Internet checkpoint and i wanted to write about my struggles too. I live an easy life actually but my mental is killing me. Every winter depression gets the best of me. I can't leave my place, can't contact People, can't even care for or about me. My place as well as I are suffering every day. The only light at the end of the tunnel is the end of winter, when it becomes warm again, when I see the sun and go out again and meet uzp with friends.
Reading through all your stories and struggles moved me, even made me tear up. It gives me a sense of community. A community where everybody and everybodies problems gets accepted and understood and I cannot overstate how much that moves me.
Thank you to everyone who passes through here, reads the stories as well as sharing their own. Stay strong everyone!
My amplifier broke, my friend recommended me a job, and I folded 200 t shirts today. Despite this day being relatively mundane, I still appreciate it for how unique it is.
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I love you
I don't know you, but I'm happy that you are happy.
I love you too stranger.
Thank you for inspiring me, I feel like appreciating each day for being unique is a good mindset to have 💕
film recomendation for you is perfect days (2023) life can be beautiful (and is) in the most mundane! Gift from the checkpoint
I’m glad you’re doing well. I love you too internet stranger /p
Protoooo
i recently signed up for therapy. i think its helping. stay strong, everyone. there will be more sunsets to watch, and another evening will always come, just like the day before.
that's awesome!!! therapy is amazing when done right. idk if i would have made it through this year without it honestly. i'm proud of you for taking that step to take care of yourself!
thats rlly good!!! i did too c:
i've made great amount of progressing my ptsd since last year, and at the beginning of this year i began reaching out to trusted family members for help on my uncomfortable environment, and late spring was moving into another quiet and steady household for things that came along the way i've worked so hard on!! :D
it was the day after my 17th birthday too, which makes it more special to me
Therapy never worked for me. As someone with autism I can’t process my thoughts, and I also find it hard to trust anyone. Anyway I’m gonna keep living my life as always. Bye
This appears to be my first internet checkpoint. I honestly had no idea what this was, but the lack of a title confused and intrigued me. Thank you comment section!
Welcome to your first internet checkpoint, may this be a welcome and a goodbye from me! 🎉
@@thebritishmarypopinscat8945 Thank you kind stranger. Hello and goodbye to you too. Safe travels on this world we call The Internet
this is my first one too! it’s much more calming than I anticipated
thank you for leaving a comment! ;) i hope you have a good day/night
mine too!
You're still here...
After every good thing and every bad thing, every pleasant day and every terrible one, you've still managed to make it up to this point. A lot of people didnt make it this far, and a lot of people will make it farther than you and I ever will.
Right now though, at this very moment you're alive and present. Maybe it means something, or maybe it doesnt mean anything at all, but right now, I'm very glad that we're still here!
Welcome, honored warrior, you are lucky to be here, now, what about to rest a bit?
I cast sleep
Finally, peace of mind...
cant sleep, huh?
@@Kazenohah
Sorry Don Ramon, I gotta finish this one essay for my class. Thanks btw
I'm 20, and I've been mourning the fact I'm learning to become a person so much slower than others.
And now all I can think about is how much I'd like to see an American goldfinch with my own eyes.
My goals are mundane, but they're what makes me feel like I have hoped and dreams, they make me feel like i am a person
Same age and trust me bud it's not that you are learning slower than others necessarily education is a shit show economy is a shit show job opportunities, parents, everything really we aren't being shown what we need and the people who have paved this present from the past and the people currently paving the future... it's not looking well honestly but one step at a time... I'm not gonna get into my life but trust you aren't alone in this feeling times are tough and we'll become tougher for it life has technically really only begun
18 here, and i know where you're coming from, I'm having the exact same problem. always being behind when it comes to my other peers.
you're not alone on this at all, I do hope you succeed with your goals and anything else you are looking forward to! much love from a stranger from the internet
Life isn't a race, take your time.
You have a lot of time to achieve anything you wish for. Take it easy. Take it; but take it easy. You're doing fine
i'm 24 and somehow still don't know what to do after i graduate university. I've fucked up in friendships/relationships and still have a lot of things to learn/do. feel like i've been on survival mode for years that my mind is trying to "wake up"/ process emotions from that + current events but done things that don't help and continue the awful cycle.
My mum died just over a month ago from what I believe to be stomach cancer, which spread to the brain lining. It's been a rough time just continuing through school and just trooping on. There's constantly small tests going on and all that I never really get time to think properly unless I'm sitting doing nothing or just trying to go to sleep. I never know whether I'm just weird or not but for some reason, I'm just not crying much. It is probably because I spent over a week grieving after my family was told by doctors that she wouldn't live much longer. I constantly felt as if it was all a terrible dream, and it's sometimes hard to process that this is truly life. In the hospital, my mum really didn't cry much in her bed. She kept saying that things would be better, and not to worry. On calls with her brothers and her sister, she was the only one not crying.
I miss you so, so, so much Mum.
07/10/2024 - 19:17
Your mother is a smart woman, she misses you too. Know that she left the world wanting only the best for you.
I can only hope things get better for you stranger, I don't know you, but I love you, have a good day, and drink water occasionally.
I don't usually tear up to stuff like this, since y'all are just strangers to me.. But this literally made me shed a tear, the story mixed with the music. man.. it hits hard...
I can reassure you that it's normal to not cry much. People handle grief in different ways, and sometimes life is so busy that we never get a chance to really sit down and feel our feelings. For me, it would come in waves. I would feel almost nothing for a long time, and then I would suddenly be hit with the reality of my loss. I wish you luck, buddy. Make sure you have some way to vent whatever emotions come; all are valid, even if you feel nothing at all.
@@lil_goos3 me too, this is pretty sad, even if that's from a stranger.
i just went through almost the exact same thing, last november. i didn't cry much either, but we all process grief in strange ways, and sometimes not in the best ways unfortunately (learned that from experience) but not crying is natural as long as you dont try to stop it when you do feel like crying. it doesn't feel like it's been a whole year without my mum, and im starting to feel like im moving on, but when i say that I dont mean it in a good way. i dont really want to move on, you know? i dont want to forget her and get on with my life. i really, really miss her.
i just want to say i know some of what you're going through right now, and im sorry. eventually your mind will turn the grief into something a little bit more bearable over time, i promise, you just need to hang in there
Things aren't going so great right now, my momma and me are going through a very rough spot financially. She used to hide away her pain when I was young but nowadays she doesn't have the strength anymore, she feels sad that she couldn't help me out like all the other parents, and I feel bad for ever asking more from her. I need to go off to college next year, but money is so tight even for college. i wish I was much smarter tho so that I could get a scholarship. I just regret a lot of things that keep happening. These kind of videos really do help vent out a lot of things even if nobody is really listening. If God really does exist all I really wish is for a better future. i don't wanna see my mum cry anymore.
I'm really scared of what the future holds, for myself, and everyone else. I feel like my efforts will amount to nothing no matter what I do and it paralyzes me, makes me want to disappear without a trace so I can wither away without the pressure of making something of myself. But even now, when I wish I could magically cease to exist, the love people have shown each other just in this comment section makes me want to keep trying so I can protect what good there is left out there. Please take care of yourselves everyone, you're important and meant to be alive
Be kind to yourself, too! Thank you for still being here, im proud of you for existing
please take care of yourself too, you don’t need to be something for your life to mean something. as long as you are kind to the world around you i promise you, your life means so much and your kindness has probably meant to much to many. your comment alone does mean something, it’s raw and relatable and you made me feel less alone reading it.
You don't need to worry so much. Everything works out, and your worries are often never as big as you think they are. It's normal to worry about what is going to happen in the future, but there's no need to think too far ahead. You may miss something interesting and beautiful that is happening around you now. Focus your mind on anything good or interesting now. Take any tasks as a challenge and a win when you finish them. Reward yourself and always look around to see if others could use your help. You don't need to solve all your problems all at once. You are a good, kind, conscientious person, and you can do anything you set your mind to. Tell yourself over and over again: "You can do this!". Only set goals that you want to achieve, do not set goals because you think it's what others would do. You are individual, and you walk your own path. You are never really alone. We are here for you. Ask yourself, "Does this thing I'm doing really make me happy?" Keep your mind on now, and don't plan too far ahead. Start saying 'yes' to random things instead of worrying about potentially not knowing if you'll enjoy it. It will take you to new places and new experiences you may never have had by dismissing or overthinking them. One step at a time. Be kind to others and don't be afraid to leave bad people behind. You are not responsible for everyone. Be kind to yourself, and don't be hard on yourself. You are allowed to try and fail. That's how you learn and improve. And you know what? If you don't improve at something, so what. That ok, too. If you enjoy something, keep doing it. If not, stop. Find what works for you. Watch positive videos and positive social media, not negative. You are what you consume. You are loved and valued each and every day, even the times when you might not feel it. The love is there if you accept it. Oh, and give love to those around you. I'm 40 now and have lost both my parents over the last few years and while they knew how much I loved them, I could always have told them or showed them one more time while they were still with us. It's only when something has gone that you truly miss it. ❤ Adam x
Haven’t related to something this much in a while. I feel like a failure in limbo, like an extra in other people’s lives. Sometimes I try to imagine where I’ll be as an old man but I can’t conjure up anything. Life isn’t our friend.
never knew what these vids were called. no title, a repeating background and some calm, peaceful music. as though you've just sat down to reflect for a moment, to calm down and share in these stories with so many others who've found themselves in the same spot.
i suppose i'll chip in with a story. maybe there's something to be learned.
a while ago, a year or two back, i was sitting in my room. immersed in the perceived reality behind the screen. i heard my brother snoring behind me. all was well. then, his snoring became unusual, almost like snarling. normal breaths through a film of mucus. i thought nothing of it, maybe just a weird snore that i've never heard before? but no. it was a fentanyl overdose. to a year-and-a-half ago me, a fentanyl epidemic was something i didn't even hear of. now, the signs are so obvious. he was playing elden ring, fighting to stay awake. almost falling asleep sitting up. i thought worse case scenario, he was near blackout drunk. i never got a good look at his eyes, never bothered to, because i had no clue he had been laced. while he choked right behind me, i kept looking at the screen, thinking "it's just a weird snore, you're being paranoid." i check on him an hour later, he's not breathing. i fall to my knees, rejecting the fact he is now very, very dead. i wanted to check for a pulse, but i couldn't bring myself to. i go into the living room to tell my mom that "he isn't breathing", she comes into the room, dials 911, the tell her all the regular stuff (where did it happen, when, check for a pulse etc.) and i'm sitting outside on the stairs. i can't help but think it's my fault, that i could have helped him. i know that i couldn't, but i still bear unnecessary guilt. i didn't know what the hell a fentanyl was, i didn't know if you intake it, it kills you. i didn't know you needed a narcan or a naloxone to save the intaker. i didn't know what a narcan or naloxone was. as the ambulance lights flashed, and people moved around behind me, i just sat there. "it's all my fault. i could have saved him. i could have told someone sooner." everyone tells me "there's no way you could have known" and they're right. even while they reassure me, i can't help but think it's my fault somehow. now, i get to live and sleep in the very same room that my only brother died in.
if nothing else, there are some lessons in this story: don't beat yourself up over things you had no control over. don't take unnecessary, dangerous risks. better to have it and not need it, than to need it and not have it.
thanks for reading, friend. even if your story has tragedy and failure, the ending can be one of success and joy. keep going, you got this!
I'm sorry for your loss
I am sorry for your loss as well. It's a lot to bear and I hope you're able to come to terms with what happened over time. Sending hugs. Take care of yourself.
This is one of the few comments I have ever really thought about for a long time… The fact that you have had to go through something so horrible and still wanted to pass on optimism to everybody else afterwards is really special and made my day ❤
Thank you so much for sharing and am very sorry for your loss. To pass on such optimism at the end, you are truly brave to live through that, it fills me with hope so thank you❤
my childhood dog died a week ago and everytime i go to feed my other pets i start to sob uncontrollably. i hate feeding them all now, the second i remember i’m feeding one less i start to cry.
my parents told me they were to taking him for a “checkup to see if the vet could help him” i knew what they really meant. i held onto him so tight and cried my heart out, begging for them to not take him. they took him away from me and i never saw him again.
rest in peace radley. you were always there to remind me i had someone to come home to during my worst teenage years. i am so sorry my selfishness made to live your last months in agony. you were much more than just a pet to me.
I'm really sorry to hear that.
Only in Ohio😹
@@SkibidiToiletlsInherentlyAryan
You disgust me.
very sorry for your loss bro.
I'm so sorry to hear that. It's always really hard to lose a pet, especially one that you're known since childhood.
Doing my final essay right now for a major, it is currently 2:39 AM. To anyone else doing the same or anything similar, u got this!!!!!
I'm finally free from those meds. I can take care of myself and I can close my door. I can eat food that doesn't taste like cardboard, and if I don't like it I don't have to pretend I do. I have rarely felt so safe in this chapter, and I know even safer times are ahead.
congrats bro, you derserve so much
So incredibly happy for you! :)
inshallah everything keeps going well for you brother
I'm proud of you ❤ keep going friend
I'm not one to comment to anything over here, but this checkpoint seems worth it.
To anyone that's reading this: thank you for existing, know that you are loved and cherished. We may never meet one another, but the reminder of the both of us sharing the same green earth fills my heart with joy.
same goes for you! i wish you the best of luck in your journey in life. maybe our paths will cross in another internet checkpoint in the future.
❤
Checkpoints like these make me feel so connected. The people talking feel so real, the space feels so wide and lively, yet so calm. Time has frozen for a bit and you can sit and breathe for a bit. The earth can be such a beautiful place.
Good luck in the future
this year has been particularly difficult for me. chronic illness bears a heavy weight on my small body, and it is only getting worse. i’m only in my early 20’s, and i haven’t been able to go out and see my friends, go to the job i love, thrift, see and be in nature-much of anything, for five months. i am in pain and i am tired.
i am stubborn and will do whatever it takes to build a beautiful life for myself, no matter what.
just this past week, i finally found an apartment after looking every day for over two years. if my ruthlessness will prove worthwhile, i know yours will too. you have value. you are important. i am proud of you.
Made it here at 4:42 AM. In the middle of my last undergrad semester, classes are going well, made some cool friends, and started transitioning. Big step up from last year. Life is good.
hell yeah
congrats on your transition, i’ve been trying to push myself to make the changes necessary for mine. May luck be with you on your journey, maybe we’ll meet again someday ❤
@@Hexahectaenneacontakaiheptagon best of luck! ❤️ Transitioning can take a lot of work and I'm definitely still taking it slow. But it's worth it!
YEAAAAAA
congrats on transition woooooo!!!!!!
Hooray 🎉
I wish the world was as empathetic and comforting as this comments section. Realizing that we have more things in common than differences. That we are all human, with stories to tell, love and pain in our hearts. If we all joined together, the world would be such a beautiful place...
its been a while, hasnt it?
met my friend last week. told me it was hell back there. didn't feel like he fit in with the others. felt like me and a few others were his lifelines. i feel bad for him. he looked like he was at his happiest when we hung out. told me earlier that if i wasn't there for him, he probably would've ended it all by now.
harold, if you're reading this, just know that i appreciate you. your efforts are worth it. look at you now, look how far you've come. just know that we'll always be here for you. we care. take care.
You sound like a great friend.
If he hasn’t had a chance to read your comment, you should tell it to him personally. It can be such a turning point for someone struggling to hear they are loved ❤
this playlist feels like what my life is right now; a brief reprieve after my first semester of college...things feel so weird lol. not in a bad way, just... too still--all throughout high school i spent looking towards the future, and im finally in that future...i've certainly learned to appreciate life in the moment more, but it feels like ive gone through so much in that short semester. not anything drastically life changing, but things slowly shifting and me having to grow from it... anthony puts it as growing pains, and it certainly does feel like that ha. now that im home, it all just feels eerie...like theres nothing to experience. my mom took me shopping and got me dinner and a warm drink, as well as i called a pretty girl and watched stuff with her--so i did feel really holiday-ish. ive also been visiting old friends while in town, and that was all really fun. i miss my best friends though... one's been relatively silent lately and i hurt the other so he's has taken some distance from me. in all the stuff i go through i think of how i improve but also how im not ready for him yet.. idk if ill ever be... while everything feels so still, its good to let everythign from the past while out... maybe i should just enjoy this time of nothingness before life becomes rowdy again
i stumbled upon this in the middle of breaking down over trying to write my college applications. i’ve always felt different from everyone else, not in the pick me way but more of the “why can’t i just do that like they do?” way. writing my college applications unearthed a part of me that i don’t know how to describe. i think i feel weak? i don’t feel fragile, or like i’m about to break though. i feel like crying over the silliest things. i used to love photographing the sunset but it’s been years since i’ve even watched one. i haven’t watched a real, complex, movie in ages, nor read a book like so, just mindless romances that tell of a happy ending and have minor challenges along the way.
but my college applications? i can’t tell if they’re a wake up call or my downfall. i haven’t done anything worth writing about. i like playing video games and i like music, but doesn’t everyone? i’m sure that’s the last thing a college is looking for. maybe if i was really good at a game or mastered an instrument i could get a scholarship but it’s too late to learn. college apps are due in a month, but i’ve had my whole life to prepare for them, and i didn’t.
maybe this is my sign to turn it all around and actually start to be someone. maybe i’ll write something that’ll change someone’s life, or maybe i’ll isolate to learn all of mother earth’s secrets. i could earn a nobel prize, split an atom, or create revolutionary technology… or maybe i’ll just be a gardener! a caretaker of a museum. a delivery driver. maybe i won’t become anyone special, but i do hope i help make a difference in someone’s life, even if in the smallest way.
but right now? i’ll stick working up the courage to compliment a stranger on the sidewalk :)
Thank you for sharing your story friend, I appreciate it.
Just wanted to let you know, and you already know this too from what I can see you have written here, you are you and that is enough; you don't need to do extraordinary things to make a difference in someone's life or go to college in that matter.
You already made a difference in mine which I really appreciate and wanted to let you know.
But I can feel your frustration, because when I was a middle schooler (around that ages) I was a hard working kid and had some kind of potential to be great but that illusion broke off when I first started high school.
And after that everything went downhill and I never even had to courage to try again and even attempt to make an application to any higher education institutes.
So you telling to even try and do your best even though you think you have nothing to show for it, is still very inspiring and amazing to me.
Why? Because you refuse to give up and thats very admirable.
I hope you have the best of luck with your applications, and have a great journey towards whatever you wish to pursue.
Much love
It is normal to feel like you are not achieving "enough." In society, we are drilled to understand a hierarchy of achievement: to be someone, is to accomplish something. But you are enough for simply being. It is good to recognize that you feel like you want more for yourself, but consider exploring why you haven't, and what your true motivations might be. Then you can work to make changes where you see fit. The fact that you recognize this already and have found tranquility in that you could be anything, no matter how big or small, is testament that you are prepared for starting your university journey.
For your college essay, your experiences are never "too normal." No one's life is entirely unique. You need to find what elements of your experiences stick out to you, drive you, or have helped you grow in some way. Maybe you have found yourself to be an educator, a leader, an artist, or a friend through online gaming. Maybe your love of music has brought about revelations into the art, or into yourself and your own mind.
The best college essays make something great out of the mundane. You are always enough, and everything will be okay. :)
I've been there. I just graduated and still feel this way about finding a job. But I've changed a lot and for the better. Get curious about yourself and what you like. If the college apps feel like a wake-up call, it may be a sign that you need to challenge yourself (it's hard but never too late). Hope we find who we are and what we're supposed to do.
i’ve been feeling exactly the same! i knew i wanted to go to university, and i’m here now, i’m in my second year, but i still feel like i’m something less than everyone else here. i feel smaller and less experienced and more afraid and perhaps weaker, like you said. the other day i was feeling sad because deep down i wish that i had more of the skills it took to be an artist or a musician and study a creative subject instead of a subject with confusing related career paths. the day before that i was feeling anger on four different levels all at once, and yet none of the things i was angry about seemed important at all. i feel over-emotional and overwhelmed all the time and it gets worse when i spend too much time with too many people, but i love talking to people, so i just don’t really know what i’m doing. but still we push on! we’re moving! what keeps me going is knowing that i have reasons to be here, even if they’re small and not particularly significant in the grand scheme of things. i really like the music in this video, for example. what a great thing it is that we are here to listen to it.
youve always been someone, and i know from reading your comment that you are someone beautiful inside. we all are
i remember going through pretty similar thoughts when i was applying to college last year. what have i done with my life? i still feel that way, and it terrifies me, but its not over yet. now im here at college-wasnt my first pick, but the place is beautiful and ive met some kind people :)
youve made a difference in my life, even in a small way, so thank you
Checkpoint: saved. Lost my job a few months ago. No interviews so far but a promising lead. Wish me luck you guys, see you at the next checkpoint.
Wishing you the best of luck!!
@@goikyfan26 Same I'm wishing her the best of luck also! ^^
@@emnstuff Good luck!! we believe in you!
Good luck!!!
Best of luck, stranger ^^
日本人です。
おすすめからこの動画を見つけました。インターネットチェックポイントと呼ばれているのですね。せっかくなので過去の私へのメッセージを載せさせてください。
1年と少し前の私へ、今の私は不器用なりに前向きに生きてますよ。もう死んでしまおうと何回も考えるだろうけど、案外生きてみるのも悪くないよ。応援してくれる人は必ず現れます。どうか焦らないでね。自分の強さを信じてね。きっと大丈夫。
この動画にいるみなさんのところにも、幸せがありますように。ご自愛ください。
Google translate I’m glad you exist because now I can read comments like these. So thoughtful.
@@nervousbunnygaming最近のGoogle翻訳は精度が高いので、母国語でコメントを残しても異国のユーザーに繊細な表現までしっかり伝わるようになりましたよね 素敵な変化だと思います
@@ぬむ-m3c it is fantastic as usually when speaking to foreigners i worry that some colloquial aspect won't be communicated correctly, its a really great advancement
ありがとうございます！！！
しょうもねー
Music like this makes me think a lot, mostly negative thoughts. But then I go to the comment section and I feel hopeful again. Thank you.
I lost my mum unexpectedly to cancer 2 months ago. She'd finished her chemo and her surgery and she was declared cancer-free 5 months before. My mom and dad went on vacation, I was watching their dogs and cats at their home, 2 weeks later they came back because my mom got sick. They arrived back in the camper van at 11PM, an ambulance came for my mom at 2AM and at 4PM the next day she was gone. Just like that. 5 months after she was cancer-free her body has filled with it.
I don't live close to them and we were never super close to begin with so I just went home after the funeral and it's easy to forget sometimes that it happened. The grief comes and goes. Such a bizarre sequence of events. Loss sucks.
I am sorry for your loss. All the poetry, songs, podcasts, movies and conversations of the world cannot truly describe grief. It is that foreign sensation that i find lingers the most. I hope you find your peace with it however you can. Bless you and your family, stranger.
Had a fever for about 2 days straight. It actually feels great when you go from shivering under the blankets, going in and out of fever dreams to finally getting up and sweating it all off. Feels like being reborn man.
I can agree, I've been having a terrible cough for the last week but I know when I finally feel better I'll just be so happy.. ❤
I'm currently sick... But I've been thinking about how I want to start over. I want to leave everything that this current life has brought me and start a new life elsewhere. I want to become the person I'm meant to be. But I'm afraid and I don't know how I can do it. I feel stuck where I currently am and I don't understand why and I can't seem to figure out how to leave...
I know right!
long ago, i had an xbox friend, we would always play minecraft together, but they stopped playing, now constantly watching youtube, i miss them.
greg?
I don’t remember where, but a while ago I saw something that said if you hear ringing in your ears, it’s deceased loved ones calling you from behind the grave, not beckoning, just… communicating. And while I don’t think this is true obviously, I’ve always thought it was a nice thought and pretended, because why not. All this to say, hey everyone, nice to know you joined me for this internet check point, even if your not here anymore.
Meeting my husband was one of the best if not the best thing that ever happened to me. He changed my life for the better and now i can't live without him, he is my sunshine
How did you meet him? Been having a bit of trouble finding somebody myself.
@@ducks3023you meet people, you don’t meet lovers
Thats real sweet :) hope to find the someone i cant live without one day. Cherish every moment with each other
This makes me feel like I am saying farewell to someone and starting a journey, knowing I will not see them again for a long time.
* ...
* An internet checkpoint.
* A place to save your progress.
* A place to contemplate your decisions in life.
* A place to think about how life has been going.
* ...
* A place to rest.
* A place to talk.
* A place to think.
* A place to dream.
* ...
* A place of comfort.
* of sadness.
* of anger.
* of love.
* of joy.
* ...
* HP fully restored.
* You are filled with a sense of...
* Determination.
I hope deltarune comes back soon I miss it a lot :(
Found the Undertale reference. Beautiful.
You know what's ironic for me
A strange feeling of emptiness has been following me for the last 3 days
I couldn't beat Sans Undertale for the past 3 day
Probably a coincidence, I just don't know where this weird feeling is coming from
undertale :)
I love when i find something nice and relaxing to listen to in bed, then get a fckn add every time the song changes. Real nice.
Lost one of my best friends a few months ago to an accident at his home. Things don’t feel real. He was such a kind and down to earth soul and was going through so much but still managed to keep a smile on his face whenever he could. I had been online in a game with him just the day before the accident and he was so happy. We were with friends, his girlfriend, it was just a rlly good time. Then he passed and no one knew for 3 days. It also doesn’t help that he passed exactly a month after my rabbit passed unexpectedly from a stress induced heart attack. It’s just truly changed my perspective on life and how we should always live each day like it’s our last. We never know what can happen. Always tell your friends and family you love them and cherish every moment with them, you never know when they’ll be gone.
His 19th birthday was on the Second. He should’ve had that chance to turn 19 surrounded by all his friends and family. The world is so unfair and cruel to those who don’t deserve it.
I miss you, DJ. Fly high king. Greet me when I come up there, mkay? I love you sm.
And if you can, give me the strength I need to finish out my musical today man 🫶🏼
- 10/6/24, 4:56 AM
I'm sorry for your loss and I'm sending you a big hug, especially good luck with your musical, you'll do great, friend.
That's really sad, I'm sorry for your loss. :(
🫂
I recently got diagnosed with scheuermanns disease (spine is curved more than should be) at 19. My dog my parents got when I was going through suicidal thoughts and mental hospital visits is getting older and losing her memory. My work isnt letting me work until HR approves my doctors note. And my first car I got a couple months ago is currently in the shop. But I met somebody who I love. And they make me happier than I have been in years. Even with everything going terribly, knowing they are next to me as I type this makes everything a million times easier. This checkpoint is a beautiful place, and you are all wonderful people, i wish all of you the absolute best in your life and your dreams. Stay safe, and have good drams💜💜
Sending you so much love 🖤
much much love my man, great energy
Thank you for sharing, much love to you 💙
Star strong man all love for you ❤️🙏
Stay strong out there and best wishes to you and your partner!
My Dad died when I was 5, I will never forget his legacy. He made Birthdays special. He read me good stories. It was a perfect childhood because of him, I will never forget him.
This year was really weird to me. I’ve been kinda lost in life recently, not sure what to do to feel satisfied or happy. Idk who to really trust on personal issues, I feel like I try my best for others when in need but when I’m feeling down and need someone to talk to or just hang out, suddenly there’s no one around. It has been a challenge finding myself and discovering every aspect of me. Not everything has been bad news in my life. I began to learn new things and resume some old ones.
If you find yourself in a struggling position, just remember that you’re not alone and you can achieve great things, you just gotta give it some time to grow and start spreading your roots for good. I really hope you’re doing well and happy holidays to everyone.
I have a feeling like I’ve just inputted some secret combination to a secret room. It’s honestly very nice to see something like this every once in a while, to just take a breather and relax.
Hi hi! Hello stranger! I hope you are doing okay!
this is my first time ever commenting on one of these checkpoints, im not usually the type of person to share much of my life to strangers, and frankly i doubt anyone will see this but i dont mind, cause this feels special...
i feel like a mess in my life right now, i dont have a job, im not pursuing any of my goals or passions, im ignoring all my obligations, im waking up at 2 in the afternoon every day, i refuse to do anything productive with my day, i feel so lost and like a failure, and i desperately wanna change but either dont know how to or feel like i cant...
despite all this, as im writing this comment, after reading loads of stories from the comments, while listening to the beautiful music in the video... it all makes me wanna cry, it might sound stupid but this moment feels so special to me. it feels like a sign that things will change, that ill succeed, that im not gonna stay a failure, that ill be able to achieve all my goals like ive always dreamed of, i felt so aimless and lost but this... this has give me some hope
...lets hope i write back from a future where everything is ok
Clicked cause of the Fluttershy pfp, stayed for your life story. You got this homie. Trust me I feel somewhat the same, things are rough and you really want them to get better, but you’re also self sabotaging (happens to all of us). I’m not good with advice but just know I’m rooting for you. You’re not alone, stay strong.
I wish you great luck on your journey. I know it seems so, so far away, but you’ll find something to keep you going. Maybe you could try a new hobby? Talk with some new people? Try and do things you enjoy more. Don’t be afraid to try new things. I know this sounds sappy, but this comes from some random person’s heart who (by the information you’ve given) has gone through something at least a little similar. For me it was my best friend who pushed me to keep going, who introduced me to new things, who was there for me to talk to. I know you might not have the same resolution, but I hope yours works just as well as mine.
You’ve got this.
You've got this!
This is my first time at a check point too and I commented something very similar. I feel you. It feels so hard to break out of stagnation. I hope we come back someday with progress on our careers and our passions. We can do this !!!!
Hey! I go through literally exactly that every so often. Personally, getting a job helps me just by having a routine and a set schedule
Going to the gym(though I haven't gone for a while, lol)
Joining a weekly club(boardgames :])
These are things that made life easier for me when everything fell apart
I guess, just try and tough it out! Get on anti-depressants if you think you can, it helps a ton for me!
As far as being productive...I had to let myself sink into media hell to realize I wanted to dig myself out. I just played video games and watched tv...until I got sick of it
And then I got up and did something else, 3d modeling or something
And I was like
Wait a minute, this fills time AND I feel good after :]
This is my first internet checkpoint, I didn't even know they existed before I saw this video recommended to me.
I think this is the first time ever I will leave a comment in a UA-cam video.
I recently moved back home, to a third world country, from Japan. I achieved the dream I had since I was 12 to go to Japan and study, live, and experience the culture.
In many ways it was the best experience of my life, and I connected deeply with a few friends I made over there, with whom I still talk to daily.
I feel at peace with myself and my future, even though I don't have a plan or I don't know what will happen.
I wish you a good day, and a happy life, internet stranger.
I am glad you are happy, I feel like we might have similar situations as I also am from a third world country and living in Japan for few years. I haven’t gone back home but glad to see people happy in a situation similar to my future.
Best of luck on your journey *tips hat*
My first internet checkpoint as well ❤ Hope you’re having a good day! Thanks for sharing!
Hey other internet stranger,Im glad u achieved ur dream i also have a similar dream. I'd like to go to japan and study animation there
Im kind of just in limbo currently, i do have a goal but ehh
I just broke off being friends with someone recently. Im not sure what to feel so i guess i'll just shove it on the internet for the masses to see. Pretty stupid but oh well🤷♀️
Very relatable, life is transitory and beautiful like that