everything I've wanted to say to the internet (PART 1) | completely unfiltered
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- Well, we are back. New decade, new year, fresh start. And phew, I have really missed you :,) This is part 1 of a 3-part series where I sit down, unfiltered, and open up conversation on all the various topics that I have previously been too nervous to candidly discuss. Thank you for being here and supporting me as I grow, change, evolve and figure out what feels healthiest and most helpful to everyone viewing as well. The next two episodes are with Jordy, and I dive into even more vulnerable topics (while a lil tipsy). Welcome to what I am tentatively calling "Michel After Hours" - curious to know if y'all like this concept enough to extend it beyond these initial three episodes? Anywhooooo, I will stop overly explaining and just let you watch and decide for yourselves. ;-) I really really really appreciate you being here. From me (a human) to you (a human), I am grateful for you. Thank you.
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Well, we are back. New decade, new year, fresh start. And phew, I have really missed you :,) This is part 1 of a 3-part series where I sit down, unfiltered, and open up conversation on all the various topics that I have previously been too nervous to candidly discuss. Thank you for being here and supporting me as I grow, change, evolve and figure out what feels healthiest and most helpful to everyone viewing as well. The next two episodes are with Jordy, and I dive into even more vulnerable topics (while a lil tipsy). Welcome to what I am tentatively calling "Michel After Hours" - curious to know if y'all like this concept enough to extend it beyond these initial three episodes? Anywhooooo, I will stop overly explaining and just let you watch and decide for yourselves. ;-) I really really really appreciate you being here. From me (a human) to you (a human), I am grateful for you. Thank you. Cheers to 2025 and growing up!
Forever grateful for you ❤
👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
Really missed you!!! 💜
When are you starting a podcast? I need more Michel in my life not just on your actual UA-cam channel.
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I found you after clicking on your "getting a divorce" video. I clicked for the drama but stayed for the spectacularness of Michel! ❤
Same!
Haha, I'm so glad you stayed for the spectacularness! 😄✨
Same here!!
Me too ❤️
Me too
I'm not Christian anymore and you're the only Christian creator that doesn't give me the ick (no, I was not hurt by the church, just evolved my belief system). So personally, I appreciate how you're open about your beliefs but don't make it your entire online personality.
If you said that abt muslims you’d be an islamophobe 🤦🏼♀️ being a xtn hater is srsly the last form of acceptable bigotry
Okay we NEED an Elise and Michel podcast. This is so deep and clear and well expressed. I could listen to you girlies talk every week.
Totally agree. Please make this a series ❤
I agree. This was awesome. I couldn't click fast enough when I saw you were back. Welcome back
Yassssss please!
hard agree
Please please please 🙏🏼
Michel: what if someone on your team is the only person in your DMs and comment section? What if you don’t engage there at all. Create a private IG and only follow your IRL people. Your team can respond for you & relay any messages from the “business” account that would be helpful without you being the filter.
I would love to see a fully let loose, unfiltered Michel but I wouldn’t want to see you hyper fixated on the responses to it. Sending so much love- you’re amazing at your job and we are here no matter the path you choose ❤
I agree, I think we were expecting more vulnerability in these videos, especially after a break to reflect. The interview felt similar to pre-break conversations, we WANT to see you grow and change Michel, it's why many of us are here, we're waiting in the wings for you to show that! I agree that someone on her team can review comments - heck, even an AI can do it these days!
@@catsandthecityNYC I appreciate the spirit of trying to encourage even more vulnerability, but saying what “we” were expecting is maybe not the way to phrase that
I loved this!! Just because you get to have your dream job, it doesn’t mean it can’t feel hard, overwhelming, scary etc. I’m so thankful you are willing to be honest about all of it! Welcome back, you’ve been missed!💜
I’m betting the majority of your regular viewers enjoyed this video and even devoured every word. For them I am happy.
During my decades on earth I’ve learned that not every feeling and thought NEEDS to be shared and most of the time this oversharing comes across as self-indulgent and banal.
Perhaps it’s this format of “interviewer and guest.” I found this to be too long, too self-reflective and superfluous.
I watch your channel to see snippets of your day to day life, not to listen to your analysis of every thought and feeling. This video was over the top in that an hour devoted to talking about yourself is not enjoyable nor entertaining. How do your words improve the lives of your viewers may be a good to consider. Maybe this examination of your feelings is pertinent to your self-understanding but useful with a qualified therapist not a UA-cam audience.
I kept listening but as I did I had to ask myself what significance does this have for me or anyone else other than yourself?
I realize that your regular viewers will jump all over this comment and maybe you’ll remove it. Because it’s just my opinion and who cares really? But if your goal is to keep relevant as a UA-camr, it’s probably a smart idea to offer relevant content.
This is your channel and present what you will as it’s your right. I’m offering my perspective on THIS video. As you asked in this video, it is not a format I’m interested in viewing. Day to day activities in a shorter time format appeal to me as a current viewer.
Thank you for reading!
I had and wrote a very similar comment. It was deleted by Michel...sooo
@ Oh dear. Maybe it’s wording or something? I prefer her typical videos is all!
@@CarolJoyable yes I may have not worded it well. I appreciate your comment and hope she considers. But my many many years older gives me a perspective, similar to what you noted.❤️
I can see your viewpoint but I think the beauty of YT is that creators can make content that doesn’t follow the same formula every single time. For me, I thoroughly enjoyed this long-form content and introspective discussion with Elise. It felt very balanced with Elise offering insight and thoughts rather than a one-sided, Michel-only monologue. It felt like hanging out with two friends of mine. I don’t know who you expect to “jump on you” over your comment but that is not this.
@@karengurske I totally agree with you. Yes, of course it was a lot about Michel's personal experiences as a content creator, but I felt that making it a back and forth with Elise really made it broader than that. I personally do a lot of "self-editing" in my personal life eventhough I don't have a social media presence at all. So I can definitely relate to a certain extent and I assume I'm not the only one.
That said, I don't believe content always needs to be relatable to be valuable. I think hearing all kinds of different experiences that differ from our own (this includes perspectives from both more priviliged and less priviliged individuals) actually makes us more empathetic and understanding people. In that sense I think sharing her experience in this way can definitely add value to the lives of her viewers(maybe not all of them, but I think that's normal and okay). It did to mine as it made me think about the things I personally want to work on and be more open about and also about what might be going on behind the scenes for people whose content I consume.
Alyse has such a wonderful infectious energy and I loved being a fly on the wall for this authentic conversation. I'm a 50-year-old, married woman with college-aged daughter's, and I first discovered you through your divorce video, that was randomly suggested to me just before you introduced Jordy so I immediately followed you from what I can only imagine was your lowest lows, straight to your highest highs. I'm truly here for everything in between. I grew up in the church, but I stopped attending five years ago with the defiant attitude of my local church around COVID and the recent rise of Christian Nationalism. Over the past year, God has really been working on my heart to bring me closer to Him, but I'm still struggling to sort through all the past hurt and sin I see all around me from those who claim to be Christians. We're all imperfect and on a journey. Thank you for being so open--It's encouraging to a much wider audience than you may think. 💗
OMG!!! THIS is the michel that i have been waiting for 🩵 as a girly in her early 30s, who was sheltered and went through a lot of trauma--i see a lot of myself in you. i have been a online friend of yours for a few years now. to see the evolution of michel has been beautiful. you are right on track. yes, i've seen and felt you censor yourself online. i don't think you've ever been not yourself, but also you haven't fully shown us all of who you are. and you deserve that. forget about us, DO YOU. do what feels good for YOU. you are more than allowed to bring all of who you are to the table. you are enough. if people don't like it, they can leave. those of us who love you in every iteration will stay and continue to love you, and cheer you on. it can be a little scary getting out of one's comfort zone. it can be scary for those of us who stay in our place. but you know what? fuck that. because on the other side is so much more and we owe it to ourselves to find out what that is.
oh, michel. my heart is absolutely bursting with so much love and pride for you. i know this is scary to let yourself fly like this and be unfiltered, as you say. but i've been waiting for this day. so glad it has finally arrived. do not allow yourself, nor anyone else, to put you back into a box where you feel you cannot be truly and authentically yourself in all ways. you are allowed to be human. you are allowed to show up and take up space as you are. no need to water yourself down. if you feel the need to do that in order to please people, those people are NOT for you.
and as a girly who no longer identifies as christian (but still believes in god and has her own spiritual beliefs), i have never once felt alienated by you. i have always felt welcomed on your platforms. you remind me of a dear friend of mine who passed away a few years ago. she had a home church (literally church in her home). her husband and family were so welcoming. we had atheists, mormons, people from all walks of life. we had community. at the end of the day, that's all my heart was searching for. that place doesn't exist since she passed away, but that time in my life i cherish greatly. you remind me so much of my dear cortland. your heart is beautiful. never let anyone dim it for any reason. more importantly, don't allow yourself to dim your own light. do not put these videos out and go back to watering yourself down because it seems "safer". be you. authentically. unapologetically. be you.
i love you so much and am always cheering you on. love + hugs 🩵
This is the best video you have ever made! I love this! I’ve been here since your wedding planning videos in your teeny tiny studio apartment. And I’ve watched you change and grow. I adore safe Michel!
Thank you so much, friend! I'm so grateful for your support! 🥰
Same!!
I personally am not a fan of podcasts, it might be my generation, (I'm technically a millennial but I'm 36) , I just feel like there are so many out there now, and they're all hyper philosophical, there's nothing new under the sun, do we really need another podcast talking about things someone somewhere has already said?? But if you enjoy this and it's something you're doing for yourself, go for it 💃🏼
lol weird to say you don't like 'podcasts' it's just people talking? and there are a million different ones, I don't listen to 'philosophical' pods, there are comedian podcasts, fashion podcasts, gossipy fun podcasts, history pods, sports pods, hard science pods, music pods, crime podcasts, sleep pods, etc!! saying you don't like podcasts doesn't make sense, maybe you just don't like certain ones. It's not your Generation, I am in your Gen and listen to a tonne of them, all kinds. Half of millennials listen to podcasts every month in US so it's a huge number of us who do..
@kcltube3lol exactly, I don't like just sitting and listening to people talk, that's what I'm saying, we are in the era of podcasts, there are so many! I was saying my opinion
I'm an atheist. I have never felt uncomfortable with your faith. My best friend in the world is pentecostal. People are way more than their spiritual beliefs. She and I are both moms, grandmas and have been through marriages, childbirth and everything in between. We have had some of the most amazing spiritual conversations. No filters. All it did was make us closer and help us understand each other more as humans. Glad you are back! Love you, Michel.
Same, she has always been welcoming to everyone.
Can I just say I am a Christian and I liked how you carried yourself. Your channel is not a teaching or preaching or something like that. I did not expect that of you. I respect you so much for how you walked through divorce and how you care. I think you have done an amazing job being a Christian for everyone to see and I look forward to see how you continue to figure it out.
thank you, friend🤍
I was thinking about you a few days ago and how I’ve missed your videos. Love to see you back to posting and I’m just starting this video but I am enjoying the deep dive so far🤍
I started watching in 2020 during Covid and the subscription box openings are what I first started watching you for! I kept watching through all the trauma of your divorce. They were my favorite videos, not because your life was bad. But because watching you and the choices you made and the struggles you overcame made me reevaluate my life choices, my feelings and trauma surrounding my first marriage. It helped me process things I didn't even know I hadn't dealt with yet. I still watch every video and I'm so happy for all your joy now!
What an interesting and enlightening conversation! You two are very good at talking and listening together! You should have a podcast!! I can tell that this has been a very productive time for you. I know you were afraid to do it and I applaud you for facing your fears and going through with it! Your feelings are valid. All of our feelings are! Like you said, this is a whole new way of communicating and we are all learning. But, we need to be kind and you always are! Can’t wait till you’re back!
This video has a slight feeling of you speaking from (self-imposed) creator jail, which makes it a really interesting watch.
Maybe you could talk more about the philosophy of workaholism and the modern day
I've been watching since her first marriage and have seen most of her YT videos. I did not want to watch this episode because I don't see Michel as a Podcaster, I see her as a lifestyle brand affiliate.
Am I the only one that feels this way?
I would rather see you living life than an hour of you talking about your life. I have to be honest and admit that I only listened to less than 5 minutes. Just could not listen to an hour of you talking about yourself and from many comments it appears that is exactly what it was. Whatever your issues, I hope you figure it out.
Sometimes people talk about themselves, not sure why you think that’s such a terrible thing. No one said you had to watch it if you don’t enjoy the format and don’t want to get to know Michel more. Those of us who genuinely care about her enjoyed hearing her share.
Many of us are here because we love watching Michel in general, and we love getting to know her more, which is what this video is. It’s okay if you are not a loyal follower, and if you don’t really care about knowing who she is as a person, but I don’t think it was necessary for you to bring in negativity and be rude. That is something that someone with issues does, so telling her you hope she figures out her issues ought to be directed back at yourself, since you are the one who feels the need to be unpleasant.
To hate on a podcast is insane lol
Then why comment on it? Lol
measure yourself through God’s eyes, not your own (or the world’s) 🤍🙏🏽
I was thinking this the whole time ❤
I’m sorry that u feel u have to edit yourself because of how people will take it. i have followed you since almost the beginning and i enjoy your content. be who you are…and that will weed out those who really are here for you from those who are not. i’m so glad u are in a safer and happier place. take care of you first.❤
Glad you’re back. I watch you because you’re authentically, honestly, transparentlyYOU. It’s refreshing. There are so many fake, shallow people on social media. Keep being you because that’s who we love so much ❤
The talk about how bad things are desired by the algorithm is a major reason why family vlogging has become so dangerous. There are an unreal amount of family vloggers who have started causing harm to their children for the algorithm. It’s terrifying knowing that is what feeds it. Man I wish there was a way we could all take a stand against the algorithm machine saying NO we want to see the good! I’m way to much of a boomer to truly understand how any of it works, but I definitely see an absolute disgusting pattern that confirms the existence of bad/scary/tragic events “sacrificing” life experiences to get paid the highest amounts as a content creator. This is absolutely not a comment about you or your content. I’m talking specifically about children not getting to be just that because big paydays surround them usually without them having a clue what’s going on. They trust the adults to protect & guide them safely on their journey. Just some thoughts I had as you talked about the algorithm in regard to how it affects your thoughts & actions being a fully informed consenting adult. To put it simply it’s scary territory we’ve entered & hidden explosives are everywhere. I hope that we are all just doing our best. When we know better we do better. Good conversation Michel!
So glad you are back!! Missed you!! Loved the honesty and vulnerability you shared today! Be authentically you and make this channel whatever you want it to be. We will be here supporting you no matter which direction you take it ❤
I found you by happy accident years ago, but stayed because of your authenticity. I am grateful that a human like you exists and that I am able to be a part of this wonderful community with you. I look forward to your videos because you are so genuine and relatable. Thank you for continuing to tackle the "Algorithm" and continuing to provide content on this platform. Just because this job is your dream job doesn't make it any less difficult than anyone else's job, no matter the circumstances. I am sorry that you feel like you cannot express how difficult it is sometimes for fear of how it will be perceived. On a positive note though, I very much enjoyed this video just as much as all the others. I missed you! ❤
Me too!
Not a fan of this content, girlie. Can you please go back to normal lol
Then don’t watch it
This is not meant to be unkind in any way, only my opinion and I'd also hate to hurt anyone, I've been subscribed to you for three years, you and Jordy are such lovely people. That being said, this did come over as you're not liking doing you tube, but you're being so careful to say how much it's not for you. You're so talented you could do anything, if it was me, I'd get another job. Very best wishes and great podcast xxx
I just wanted to note that she never said it’s not for her. She mentioned twice in this video that she feels lucky to have her job as a content creator but that it can be challenging at times due to X, Y, Z valid reasons. And that she wanted to preface her thoughts by noting and reassuring everyone watching this video that she doesn’t dislike her job, so that no one would jump to conclusions about how she feels about any of it just because she is acknowledging the difficult or uncomfortable parts of it. I think it’s very possible for people to like something and also find it challenging at times.
I agree with everything you said, I admit it's a feeling, just my feeling that when michel does a video she's super aware of political correctness, as she said, people finding out where she lives, I would be too, all to the detriment of her well being. I'm a fan, of both her and jordy, I've nothing bad to say, I've a feeling that one day she'll open a shop and move on, I hope not but if she did, who could blame her x
Well stated. I imagine it's difficult for YT'ers to go from creating content to a 9-5 that pays 5% of their influencer income.
@@firesidechatswithkristy677That’s what I think too. Being your own boss on your own schedule has got to be amazing. To go from that kind of freedom to commuting and clocking in someplace would be torture.
Beautiful Michel. To be able to listen to you for years, & now this version of you along with your husband and best friend who are just as astoundingly beautiful as you is such a gift. Thank you for being such a light on this platform. We are thankful and so lucky to have these pieces from you and of you❤
I also found you through your divorce story videos and I stayed because I loved watching you evolve and I loved how much you loved people of all faiths!! I was so badly burned by christians as a kid that I don't have a single christian person in my life anymore. Your videos are the only source of christianity that I am exposed to, which I'm cool with because I love how much you clearly embody the best parts of christianity. I love how real you are in this!! I'm very much open to more goofy, real and fun Michel ❤
That desire to be more authentic is one I've been feeling often lately! This feels like such perfect timing to hear your experience. ❤
I relate a lot to this! As a creator who made content on the internet for over a decade, I chose to kind of disappear after my divorce and it’s been 3 years now and there’s so much more peace off the internet now so I can’t picture myself ever becoming a full time creator again! Also, your 30s are the time you’ll really grow and become even more of yourself! It’s quite freeing when you can just be yourself! Even when it makes a lot of your Christian audience upset. I’ve been there. I rebuilt a new audience when I deconstructed publicly! Love your videos ❤
Welcome back! I missed you! I am here for as much or as little you can give. Prayers for you!
To the people who are not Christian (I myself am no longer a practicing Catholic), I think you've very clearly expressed that you can understand some of our pain. Your divorce journey was complex, and you did a great job of expressing how you occasionally felt judged by "your tribe" for that experience and your choices surrounding it. You are one of the few openly Christian creators that I follow because I trust you to listen to outside voices as well as the ones that have already shaped you.
Michel, I think you are on to something with this podcast style content😲 the conversation had in this was so interesting and the perspective you had to give was interesting and relatable. This was great! I like your friend. She is so comforting and feels so safe to be around emotionally.
Please make this a series even if it virtual!!! Listening to you guys interact made me feel so connected ❤
Love this vibe! I'm voting for a permanent collab podcast. xxxx You're back babbbbyyyyy, missed you MJ xxxx you are such a light in the world
Please do more of this!! Your convos in the vlogs are always my favorite so this has been such a gift!
Letting us be in on your vulnerability and processing is so kind of you!
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I listened to the entire video in one go with my headphones on. 1 hour still felt so short! We definitely need more, maybe even a podcast? So glad to see you back, Michel!
Hi Michel! I just finished listening and have to say I love this relaxed podcast format! But, I love all the different videos you do, so that’s not surprising, haha! You are so genuine, and I really appreciate your heart, your character, your personality, and your approach to life. I discovered your channel four years ago through the wedding video you did with Jamie Wolfer. I liked you so much as a person that I went back to watch all your videos from oldest to newest. I have so enjoyed you sharing your journey with us, and I’m so happy that you made it through the dark times to find happiness with Jordie. I celebrate every win, and it brings me such joy to see you thriving. You are an inspiration to me to continue to become a better wife, daughter and friend to the people in my own life. Thank you for being a light.
Glad to see you back Michel! I hope you're still enjoying your time off. I heard someone say once that great songwriters get famous singing songs about everyday life that people can relate to, and then because they become famous they write songs about being famous that are hard to relate to. That's kind of what this was for me. I am a big fan of you and your content and will certainly continue watching, but the ins and outs and meta-analysis of being a content creator are not for me - probably also because I'm an elder millennial and I don't live my life online that much (no Instagram, Facebook, etc) so the idea that we're "all performing" does not resonate. Not saying this isn't a valuable conversation for some people - and I want to emphasize that I think your feelings are valid and this is absolutely not about you not being allowed to have complaints - but a UA-cam channel about UA-cam channels is not why I follow you. You should definitely do what is fulfilling for you but since you asked for feedback, that's how I feel personally.
Wooohoo, we missed you!! Thanks for including us in this conversation :) It's awesome to see you think out loud and evolve in real time-- that's a huge part of what I love about you and your channel! **potentially critical feedback so please ignore if unhelpful---
I'm not at all religious (but a creative, so faithful in my own right) but your faith has never felt off-putting or isolating as a viewer in any way. I know you don't talk about it much on here for a million reasons, and respect however you choose to move forward on that front. One thing I'll say though is that especially in this very moment, I think I might find it off-putting if a more in-depth expression/exploration of faith lacked any application or consideration of our politics right now. While I don't think conservatism and christianity are synonymous or alwys intextricably linked, I think they are undeniably so now. I know you hesitate to touch politics/ don't necessarily consider them central to your life, but politcs is quite literally a matter of life and death right now, and not only do I think it's necessary to acknowledge the use of faith as justification for political/economic beliefs right now, I also think there's very obviously a humanitarian and environmental global crisis right now so to talk about religion without acknowledging the denial of rights to religious spaces for certain groups (noncitizens, trans people, etc) would feel weird imo
Michel, I've been a silent consumer of your content for many years now and I have to say, you are so incredibly mature, bright and full of grace. While you may have your dream job, this speaks volumes about the responsibility and pitfalls of being a public persona. It can't be easy but I definitely do not put you in the same bucket in my mind as other influencers. You're different than a lot of online content creators and THAT is why you will have a longstanding community here :)
I am OBSESSED with this series. I’ve been around since the subscription unboxing era (which I lovedddddd). This is so freeing to see you doing this!!
I am also LOVING Alyse and would be so happy to see her on the channel more! Even for a Thrift and Gift series.
Authenticity has always been the core of your channel to me and I’m so happy to see you bringing that out more!
Heck yes, girlie!!! 2025 is gonna be SOOOOO good
One of yours and jordys talks where he mentioned his christianity, did heal some church hurt for me - y'all are doing great things by being yourselves ❤ your message wont be right for everyone at the same time, but sometimes it will hit the right person in the way they need
We missed you! I'm so sorry that there are people out there that will judge you or, even worse, jeopardize your safety. As a long time viewer I just want to say I love your videos and am so proud of you and admire the growth you have shown through everything. I love unfiltered Michel and seeing how much more free and bubbly you have been. I don't know why people feel a need to be so harsh towards each other. I choose to surround myself (including online friends and vloggers!) With people who make me feel good. Having a vlog in the background while I'm working or in an emotional rut truly feels like having a friend to chat with. I'm excited to see what comes next and hope the break has been everything you wanted and needed. We all need to show ourselves some grace sometimes. Also, living for the energy between you two. A podcast would be amazing! ❤
Welcome back!! This is such a great convo. I’ll say it again - I am so here for unfiltered Michel 🙌
I think this podcast era is my favourite era yet. I hope it's a noodle that sticks. We love your brain 🩷
LOVED this! You’re a beautiful person Michel. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us! ❤
Michel, your divorce content drew me in because it was so relatable at the time that I found it. I continued to watch your videos and loved many but…admittedly, I also skipped many after only a couple minutes because I wanted to relate but couldn’t. That’s just how the internet works, though. We all skip videos sometimes, and I still love you!
I would like to say, though, that I have been clinging to your channel waiting for more real talk because I know you have real, raw things to say, especially after the unhealthy marriage you endured. IYKYK. You and I are both now in healthy relationships that are literally the opposite of what our marriages were like, and I know I personally am not always okay. The trauma is still very real. I kind of hoped you would post some content when you are not okay, too, so this video gets 2 very enthusiastic thumbs up from me!
Please continue to post real talk, even if it is just dabbled in to your usual content. I truly appreciate it. It makes me feel normal for feeling the way I feel! ❤
I like you, YOU and your content. Not your religion, not your hair color, not your car or house... Who you are, what your beliefs are (not a labelled religion), your goofiness and humor, that's who the people who are true supports are watching!
Stream of consciousness while watching:
1. Welcome back, Michel! Hi Alyse!
2. Most people who are really into their careers feel this same way about detaching: It takes a longer vacation to get out of the working mindset.
3. IMHO, your videos about traumatic events do better because you use tags about the trauma. People tend to search for videos when they're experiencing these same issues. It's not about celebrating your trauma. 💜
4. Anyone who has watched even a couple of your videos knows that you'd never intentionally offend anyone.
5. As a person who was raised catholic and is currently agnostic, I can tell you that I personally approve of how well you "walk the walk", without pushing rhetoric.
6. "It's hard to hate someone close up." is such a powerful thought.
7. Can't wait to see Tipsy Michel!
I thought you were already pretty open and uncensensored. To know that you're actually holding back sometimes...wow! You are refreshing to see because of your honesty and openness. I can't wait to see you fully open up, lol! Just the fact that you said shit a handful of times made me smile. I love honest people and I love people who don't hold back. My best to you Michel!
Why is your friend even there? It was an hour long self centered monologue. Strange
Its podcast style, helps in facilitating information in a viewable format, and represents a change in the direction of the channel.
It’s called a podcast, and this is the format people do them in. Would you say the same about people being interviewed? Sometimes people talk about themselves, not sure why you think that’s such a terrible thing. No one said you had to watch it if you don’t enjoy the format and don’t want to get to know Michel more. Those of us who genuinely care about her enjoyed hearing her share.
YAAAYYY I’ve been eagerly awaiting your return friend!!
I’ve been a viewer for about a year now. I spend more time in your area now that my brother lives in San Diego and I have celiac and also love Jesus and thrifting… you check a lot of boxes for me. ❤
I consider you a pioneer in a whole new industry. You Tube/ influencer advertising, is in its first generation. We have a lot to learn to make this new industry safe, thriving, and a foundation for new creators and companies to build off of.
This brave experiment and conversion, you are trying has the potential of shaping this career in a healthy way for the 2nd generation of content creators.
Cheering you on as you continually find balance and the level of vulnerability you choose to share with each season and situation in your life. You may not find the perfect formula but may you find a way to hear your instincts in a clearer way as you move forward.
Thank you for all the ways you share your life and the love you put into the world.
as someone who also couldnt care less about how others judge my exterior or things i like… but care so deeply how my character is perceived and only wants to be impactful in a way that brings value… i felt this so much… and im so much older than you… with a similar relationship history and it just made me feel so seen. so dont worry… we got you… ❤
Silence doesn't say 'everything' like people always say! The only thing it reveals are what THEY are reading into your silence and that is a very dangerous and arrogant thing to pretend you know about someone. I remember people asking why I hadn't posted about something and saying the same thing, and it was literally because I had PTSD (real PTSD not instagram PTSD) and could barely be online without panicking, I could not function. But of course no one gives you the benefit of the doubt, they assume the worst.
This video felt so real! Something about felt so new and different - you seem so centered, honest, authentic and self assured. This was just a really great conversation and Alyse is such a great person and a great conversationalist! Thank you for letting us in on your thoughts.
Social media detox looks good on you - I would love to hear more about your experience. Anyways - welcome back and I can't wait for more videos like this (and anything else)!
Yay! When I received your notification yesterday, i started watching right away, paused, and watching the rest now. I hope you had a great vacay. Watching your channel is like a breath of fresh air😊
Aw welcome back! I'm glad you got the time away - this was such a cool way to come back - the format was cool!
I originally found you as a suggested video years ago when you announced you were getting a divorce. I found your vulnerability refreshing and real. And I've loved you exploring your new interests, whether it's pottery or solo trips. Happy 2025!
Hello Friend! Missed you...I have been so in awe of the youtube world and shuffling to "find" myself. Control in life is exactly what I am struggling with. Battling with the coorporate world I find you so incredibly Intreauging. Some of your comments saddened me. I would have hoped that your work would provide you with all the things I strive for- creative control. Your points on this "shackles and chains" had me in tears. I myself escaped a toxic relationship. Do you think that this is where the control comes to play. Gosh...and your open heart on religion hit home. I find this refreshing. The fact that you are open and inviting and caring is everything. So many thoughts on this. I enjoy your open mind and care for everyone. Let it fly-be unfiltered be, authenticly and genuinely you.
Welcome back! My life did not feel complete without your vlogs!
Thank you Michel for sharing this journey you're on. Seeing you try to show up as your authentic self is helping me (and many others I believe) to feel as if I get to be truly and completely me as well. Sending you so much love!
Hi Michel! Welcome back - we missed you! In reference to the comments around, "Where's your statement on the wildfires?" - just so you know, I wish UA-camrs DIDN'T comment on every world event. I don't watch UA-cam to hear all of that crap, lol - I want to escape it personally. Now, in your situation, the wildfires are absolutely relevant. So I'm not saying you can't or shouldn't comment on the wildfires (or anything that is close to home/ directly impacts you), but I do wish UA-camrs didn't comment on every thing going on in the world. I hope that didn't come across as more judgment from the internet, but as the freedom to not feel the need to make a statement on everything. Love you! ❤
What sucks about the internet nowadays is that the people of the internet listen to respond, not to understand. I was guilty of that as well throughout the years and ever since I heard that quote I’ve been listening to understand. I’ve been watching you for a long time and you definitely are the sweetest person ever. I haven’t met you in person but I feel like you are the same on and off the screen. I do feel like you haven’t been yourself in a while and I feel like this is why you are here now sharing this video and the next two. You miss being yourself? Please share yourself and don’t hide. You really can’t focus on the people that aren’t trying to understand you but just respond to every little thing in a negative way. I truly love your content and I love your quirky, funny side and I miss that Michel. But she’s slowly coming back. If you need to take time off, do it. I’ve been taking time off social media and it really feels so good and I really don’t miss it when I’m being present in other things. Can’t wait for the other episodes. ❤
As for sharing, that has to be based 100% on the line with which you are comfortable, and that should be respected. It is YOUR life. As for people getting upset with things, you can't live by that. We all see that there are many people who spend every single day desperately seeking things to bash, judge or complain about online. They will find anything to nit-pick, or twist anything to lash out and feel better about themselves due to their own misery. Anyone who stalks a creator's home has NO life and is pathetic. You can't pay any attention to those kinds. They rest of the world doesn't. You are an intelligent, talented and very kind woman. Just be you. You can't live by the actions or reactions of others, and honestly, showing you don't change for others or allow others to bring you down with their own issues is being a wonderful role model for all the young women who watch you. ❤❤ I hope your time off have been wonderful! You deserve it!
Welcome back!! This video is AMAZING!! I have always loved watching your videos, found you with subscription box videos and stayed for your personality. I watched through your hard times and now am loving your good times. Sorry the algorithm sucks, but humans, scientifically, love sad moments. Love this!!
This is so sweet, thank you for your kind words! 💖
I love the evolved version of you right now! I think I am going through some stuff and I have seen some of the older videos. I find that I am connecting more with Michel 2023 and forward. You have evolved so much and I love the person you are right now. I can't really watch the older videos anymore because you are so different now. I like your video on confidence and building confidence over a few days which really showed me my next steps. I need to get my confidence back right now. It is hard when you are a people pleaser to get your confidence back.
Yay! So glad u are back!! Love the video!! So ready for the new ride!!🎉🎉🎉
31:21 wow that was so insightful… sorrow perceived as more authentic than joy
Glad to see you! I am praying (yes I am Christian) that you gain more control. Also that you realize that everyone won’t like you and that’s okay. You said about 1% were mean to you. That says way more about them than it does you.
You are an amazing and beautiful person. There isn't anything you need to change at all. Yes, have more control. Remember to put yourself first. Make sure you are happy and feel comfortable. Always be yourself. I love all of your videos, which means every part of you. You have helped me give myself more grace in the past 2 years as my health has become worse. i can't work anymore. My disabilities have me in bed a lot. I dont always feel like the best mom. We have similar health stuggles. I have taken your advice on so many things like books, supplements, things to do, and even just your words of encouragement. It all has helped. I appreciate you being you. You do more good than you think. No matter what we do as humans, we are going to upset people, and it is what it is. We can't change that because we dont have control over that. Know that you are loved, appreciated, and understood. Just be yourself because that's what we come here to see. ❤😊
I’m an atheist but could genuinely be best friends with you.
OMG, I love this & I love you, Michel!! I definitely 1000% agree that you & Elise should start a podcast! I don’t listen to them, but I definitely would listen to one you both made together!! And I’m sooo proud of your growth, Michel!! Your growth has inspired my own growth & myself to have a more positive, healthy mindset. Also, btw, you (& Elise) would make PHENOMENAL therapists/psychologists. Enough said. 🤗💜
Michel, have you thought about moving over to podcasting? You're intelligent and good at expressing yourself - you could explore a lot of topics
Agreed! I'm only an occasional viewer, I would consume more often if in podcast form
If Alise opens a UA-cam channel to do these podcast style videos I know it will do amazing. I love how she talks.
I am so beyond happy to see you back! I just started this video, but I missed your face!
Really appreciate the honesty of this video, I wanted to just make a small note on the topic of religion...I am personally not religious and do love to surround myself with all types of people religious or not. But, when talking about the topic of "opinions" and still being able to have different views and be friends, I have noticed my friends that are religious tend to have that perspective more so than my friends that are not religious. I don't mean to generalize but in my personal circle that is true, and I will say there are aspects of that that I do agree with, but the problem I tend to see is on certain topics, to me if your opinion is in any way limiting and/or hurting or hateful, then I don't think that's an opinion we can differ on. Like you said, all religious people are different, but I do find it interesting that that rhetoric, at least in my personal life always comes from religious people and I think what makes it a challenge is I'm not sure what they mean by that phrase. To me, the difference of opinion is more so a difference in how to solve something or go about something with compassion and best intentions, not if it exists if that makes sense. I have friends who will say things like "I don't agree with gay marriage" and to me, that's not really an opinion to disagree on, that's limiting people and saying their wrong for wanting to be married to the person they love and how do you be friends with people who fundamentally want to put down or limit people when that thing they want isn't harming anyone? Again, I don't mean to generalize but that's been my experience. Also, I think when people say, "I don't want to get political" Or "companies don't have to so why do I have to explain my opinions" I feel like that's a little bit of avoidant behavior, I'm not saying anyone needs to be screaming their views from the roof, but life is political, money is political and the world is political and we can't just pretend it isn't. Where we spend our money, the music we listen to the people and businesses we support, if they support things again that limit or harm others, to me, we should always be holding them accountable and working towards a better understanding. For us to even be able to "take a break" when so many cannot is a massive privilege and I say that not to create guilt or blame but just to acknowledge how many communities live in a world where they cannot take a break from politics. I hope you don't take this in a mean way, just a perspective I have and thought may be something to think about as you're going through this journey, I love talking about different perspectives and ideas with my friends and learning new things along the way. Sending much love ❤
Welcome back, friend! I'm so glad you are back, and I'm so glad you were able to do something that was good for you and your mental health! I really enjoyed this candid conversation about real things, and I look forward to more episodes! 😊
So happy you are back! Cant wait for a vlog ❤
I love this! Found you a few years ago from a friend. Love the old stuff but love the vibe of Michel 2025!! You give off such sincerity and its so cool to see that evolve! It was great to get a chance to understand you’re point of view too. ❤️
I’m so along for the ride! 🤩🫶🏼
Love you and what you do, this podcast made me to appreciate you and what you do more ❤️ and would love to see new Michel
I watched an old video assumption video back in your past relationship and you spoke about how you share/ don’t share your Christianity the one where you got pretty upset about the politics question. I totally appreciated what you said back then about how you share. To me you are Michel first being a Christian is part of you. I’m a Christian but a UK one and I feel Americans are so much more hard and fast and often take views that aren’t true my biblical at the core. You said back then something I loved!!! Jesus said love everyone that is our role as Christians he did his part we aren’t here to condemn or judge we are here to love thy neighbour and do unto others as we would have them do un to us. I love hearing you share your faith but I appreciate it’s not your entire personality here and I think that shows those who are Christian curious that not every Christian is out there judging and looking down their nose at people you having differing opinions xx
I am so happy to see you and know your home is still here. I was worried about you, Jordy and Max during the horrible uncontrolled fires. 😊
San Diego is pretty far from LA 🙂
@ I couldn’t remember the exact town they lived in, thank you for letting me know.
You’ve had to do so much by yourself, it’s nice to see you in a back-and-forth conversation!
Mel Robbins had a great guest on today about people-pleasing, not listening to your body and chronic immune issues! Recommend!
I LOVE this format! I felt like I was sitting on the couch with the two of you!!
Happy new year. Thanks for sharing your deeper personal side , sis. Very brave. So proud of you for taking a break and reflecting
Love this! I’ve also been doing a social media/phone detox and it’s actually wild how quickly my brain got out of the need for the instant dopamine hits! Twenty twenty thrive definitely is the year to be more present and get back to enjoying life instead of just watching it for me 💜 Great video, would definitely watch/listen to more 😊
I missed your videos soooo much. Followed you right through covid and your whole journey. I am glad, you are at the place you are now. ❤
I don’t know if this is helpful but people do go through similar emotions when at work. They’re careful and exacting in what they say for similar reasons to ensure they come across well. They’re also not always present in their personal lives depending on how stressful their job is. It’s not the same for sure as it’s only to a small number of people who don’t direct their negativity at you. But I find it personally helpful to know that lots of people feel these emotions in different ways.
Yayyy! I can’t tell you how excited I was today when your video popped up!!! 😊 you are such a kind, thoughtful person that deserves to life openly and true to yourself! We will all be along for your journey, wherever it leads! I hope Max and Jordy are doing well! ❤
Welcome back! I hope your time off was wonderful and restorative. Great video. Looking forward to Part 2. 💕😊
I’ve missed you!!! But so glad you had a break!
Welcome back, Michel! You were truly missed! I love you unfiltered! Please just always be yourself and you will never disappoint!❤
Michel, I think the Christian thing will always be hard, especially in the US where a lot of people have suffered religious trauma (ex-Mormons, other people from high demand religions where control is not something people have available to them or the luxury of.) I think you should continue being you and don't let other people tell you what kind of Christian (or human being) you are. Have a look at some of the Mormon Stories Podcast episodes and see how differently people who have come out of Mormonism have reconstructed their lives after deconstruction. I think you'll find it similar to the way you reconstructed your life post divorce and how differently you look at the world now you're in a safe place.
I have noticed a huge change in you and you became a much healthier person to watch once you left LA (physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.) I have a daughter the same age as you who has been through some major struggles and then found happiness in the past four years. I think I found your channel in 2020 and was subscribed for a long time until my daughter's struggles were mirrored in yours and it was just too hard. By the way, your experiences have been so different but the emotional and physical fallout was similar. I unsubscribed for a while then the algorithm pushed your content back at me so I gave it another go and it was just after you moved back to Texas. Almost immediately, I could see you had a more genuine way of being in your body and your soul. I knew people were going to have a go when you started dating Jordy but look where you are now. I have been resubscribed for almost two years I think.
I love this taking back more control era for you. I also respect your need for privacy and I think you should do what makes you happy. Block anyone who makes you feel unworthy because you are not or use the filter where any comments using filtered words go to review and then either delete them or have Jordy look at them before you do.
I also love tipsy Michel. Take care sweet girl. You are a person, not a product.
So happy to see you back. I hope your time away got you what you needed. You are always appreciated.
Finally, you're back ❤❤❤❤❤ can't wait for more contents🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
I love love love this set up and just the atmosphere, you are both so natural together! Elise is also a natural at interviewing, and just knowing when to give thoughts/anecdotes but also when to listen and take in. Love the after hours vibe, this felt so authentic and again natural. Just a big old love this ❤️
Thank you for your authenticity. I love this unfiltered journey that you are on, the questions the wrestling. It's all good. So excited for the journey.
In response to sharing your faith, as a Christian (I say this with pure love, no criticism) I was always sad that one of my favourite content creators didn't share their faith, and knowing now that you felt scared to do so. In my experience there is a lot of grace when it comes to different beliefs, and I have friends who are also christians who I don't agree with, but it doesn't mean that I can't be friends with them, and the same goes for non christian friends too.
I would love to hear more about this side of you. That being said, I am one human on the other side of the world and my opinion doesn't matter at all in the grand scheme of things.
Can't wait for this new era!!!
This was so awesome to watch! I like this kind of content. I’m so happy to see you back. You’re such a favorite of mine. I’m glad you’re experimenting with things like this! Happy 2025. So excited to see what happens next here.