This probably sounds very childish, but the "HE'S SORRY!" reminded me of when my brother was getting bad grades like c's and my parents started yelling at him saying that they could put him in a bad highschool where he'd lose everything. I remember I ran upstairs and started practicing for my talent show, I was gonna sing "You can count on me" with my friend, but I heard my father yell at him really loudly and I heard my brother crying so while I was singing I started crying as well. My brother and I don't talk much, but I know that he cares a lot about me so it hurt to hear his cries and tears while doing his homework. Sorry if this was a very small and stupid thing :'D
@@deedeemh that reminds me of my -purgatory- home where I'm always the one to blame and no one cares even tho my grandma was there and saw how my mother was treating me no one said anything they all looked at me like I'm the insane person
" HE'S SORRY " "HE'S SORRY" " HE'S SORRY" no he's not, he never will be. 7 years old and being used as a 'object' for THOSE things lead to things like this that can never be forgivin or forgotten. Thanks for welcoming him mom.
Anyone who would do that to a child should never be forgiven. No matter how much regret they feel, no matter how much they say they're sorry. It's no excuse to what they've done.
i know right i was like a freaking doll that my dad takes his anger out on im still am i'll show him im going to become suecessful and be a better parent that what i was shown i feel you
honestly, i've never had that bad of trauma, like i have an mentally abusive family but still, but this really helps me cope tysm for this playlist we needed this.
I understand your pain, like you I also have a mentally abusive family and I just wanted tell you ,your not alone and I hope everything gets better for you
@@sharksoda Same. Weirdcore and traumacore help me cope. Weirdcore helps me cope with my depersonalization problems I've been having this year and traumacore helps me cope with my PTSD. and also traumacore and weirdcore just sound good even without the coping part.
I’m so sorry about what you have been through.I just want to say you are not alone.Don’t give up just yet,there are always people who care about you and would miss you.Even though I don’t know you I still care about you and your feelings.I love you and I promise it gets better!❤️
The first song reminds me of how when I was really little I broke something of my fathers that was very important to him. He got up and grabbed some big brown pan-looking thing and walked back up to me yelling at the top of his lungs and threw a small flower pot at me, I was almost halfway across the room and I was just screaming sorry and crying, my mom walked in trying to tell him it was an accident and that she was sorry that it happened and she would punish me herself. My dad didn't care and knocked my mom down and hit her with the object until she passed out, he then walked up to me and started hitting me with the same object, I think I blacked out because I didn't remember anything after that, I woke up back in my bed with a different set of clothing on and my other clothes no where to be found. I don't know for sure what happened.. But I think I have an idea of what went on. (There were also multiple times whem my dad tried to LITERALLY murder me and my mother.)
I am so sorry, but you dont have to ever forgive your father he sounds shtty as hell. As a 12 yro who just got out of an abusive household it takes time for healing from people you don't see but you still remember but try your best to work with your trauma and not let it affect you.
man ive been consistently told that trauma is trauma but i still go "man this wasn't enough". it's weird cus i refuse to accept that i've been through trauma even tho i know i have. im just glad that i got out of the situation i was in, it was mostly my dad's side that made me just stop trusting people. but tyty for this lovely playlist
"HE'S SORRY!" "HE'S SORRY!" "HE'S SORRY!" I swear I've said that before. My big brother got in trouble alot when we were young, he was often the least favourite. I've always tried to protect him, and that line just killed something in me.
I remember my dad trying to hit me for crying or because I would overreact due to my ocd,which at the time of my youth, it wasn't identified. When he gets mad, he still does and he has ptsd. It's still no excuse for his actions though. The yelling is what makes me flinch a lot. My ex-friend causing me to overthink everything I did wrong, when it was him who did me wrong. I have trust issues and am scared to lose anyone because of him. Two of my childhood dogs dying in front of me,fucked me up. I think both of my parents neglected my emotions, but I can't remember that part. Thank you for this playlist, it calms me down a lot
When my father yelled at my sibling for having a smart ass mouth, he yells so loud that I get scared although it's not me in trouble to the brink where I was to cry also.
(From devil town) "mommy and daddy aren't in love, thats fine I settle for two birthdays. " Felt that But my parents divorced when I was 2 so I didn't understand what happened 😃
Lmao mine divorced when I was a few months old and now I have to deal with my dad and brother either yelling at eachother or at me and my mom and stepfather yelling at me though that doesn't happen much
Im sorry you had to go through that I hope everything turns out alright and I hope everything gets better I know the healing process is hard but i believe in you you've got this you've done so well thank you so much for trying, i'm sure there are people who are happy your still here including me I may just be someone on the internet but well done your doing amazing im so proud of you remember to hydrate and take care of yourself if you need someone to talk to i'll always be here remember you are loved and cared about and you are awesome and cool and valid wishing you the best for the future - some random bitch on the internet
I noticed the top comment here is someone invalidating their own trauma. I'm here to say as someone whose done the same - Everyone's trauma is valid! There's no such thing as "worse" trauma, everyone's trauma equally sucks ass and trauma is a wide spectrum. Trauma can be an argument you had with a loved one, it can be a pet passing, it can be a break-up. These are just examples but practically everything can be considered trauma. I've been told this by many of my counselors.
"HE'S SORRY! HE'S SORRY! HE'S SORRY!" reminds me of my toxic friends, and me thinking they will apologize once. They never apologize and I can't let go of them. They're my entire childhood. I can't let it go. Once someone earns my trust, no matter how hard I try, I can't let go or otherwise they guilt-trip me. And if someone didn't earn my trust until I was 7 in real life, it was over for them. I have a ton of problems and I still can't afford to get a therapist to talk about it because I don't trust my father.
I spent a lot of my youth being guilt tripped by my dad. I couldn't get out of custody visits but eventually I trained myself to remember that I am not guilty, that I am not responsible for others, and that I didn't want to let him get away with it. I was able to catch it in the moment and, eventually, call it out. I fought back - which certainly made some situations much worse but it was better than just taking it lying down. I couldn't keep doing that. Now I like to brag that I'm guilt trip proof. When I catch a whiff of someone trying to manipulate me I reflexively call it out and give them hell. It's done me well. Actually, my self esteem is best when someone is trying to bring me down because I encourage myself out of spite ('how dare they think they can make me feel bad, i'm an amazing person!') I think I came out better for all of that. I wouldn't have formed such a strong defense instinct if all of that hadn't happened, and that instinct has protected people other than me. Rambled a bit there, but I'm trying to tell you that you can do this too. My story isn't a miracle - it's the exact kind of growth your brain is programmed to do. You are tough. You can show them what happens when people get walked over. You are lovable enough that you will find people who care for you to make up for the ones who only pretended to. And you can get to the point where you hold steady in the face of adversity. I did. It helped that I had a therapist for the second half of it but you can do it without one. In fact, I bet you're already slowly strengthening against your problems in the background without realizing. And you'll come out stronger than if none of this did happen.
The chaos of thought are why I made this playlist, notice how the songs are mostly glitchy and all over the place.. it’s to represent confusion, suicide, and fighting what to believe or know what’s real or not. Please if you need to talk do so. You aren’t alone. I know the feeling of repeating days. If you ever need to reach out my Instagram is lxvesai dm me there
same i will never forgive my dad from my robbed childhood i get to never get to see again so now when people wanna know about my childhood ill just say abused,depressed,suicide, he gave me mental health issues and disorders.
I was heavily bullied during childhood and it has had lasting consequences on my mental health, but i often feel like that's not "real trauma" when i see what a lot of other people went through... Anyway i hope you all have a wonderful day and a wonderful life💚
"Oh he's sorry" "HE’S SORRY!” “HE’S SORRY!” “HE’S SORRY!” It reminds me of a child alone in their room, refusing to believe their parent's apologies since they'll just continue hurting them afterwards. Unable to do anything but mock their meaningless words.
Oof, thankyou for making this, its helped me through some difficult nights. The beginning hit me like a truck. The last words I said to people who were using me was just sorry, over and over and over, hoping that they might give me some mercy.
"HE'S SORRY!" "HE'S SORRY!" "HE'S SORRY!" the words that left my mouth the most couldn't have been more silenced, feel better everyone I wish everyone the best :')
I actually made a longer trauma core playlist with these songs and more like it on Spotify: open.spotify.com/playlist/51AzAH2djqD9wOSbwWLcnM?si=1LMhAKAZQkaEv8QcGS2GhA
No your not and i hope that you are still alive and kicking today...please respond to let me know😢😊I've thought this myself and even thought my trauma was my fault,I honestly still do but don't ever put yourself or your experiences down because you and them are very significant to me and others so please know that...this just hits so close to home so I hope you're better now,and if not then I wish you will...I'm here to talk if your not
Tbh I’ve never dealt w any type of trauma I just clicked on this video cuz I like this style of music I’m so sorry to everyone in the comments that actually relates to this shit I hope you get better and are getting or will get the help you need ily :))
I've never had any trauma just suffering from depression but i scrolled through the comments for like 10 mins reading peoples stories all i can say is i've never been happier than ever to have a normal, boring childhood👩🏻🦲👍🏻 i hope everyone is doing fine am here to listen to anyone 🤗
"HE’S SORRY!” “HE’S SORRY!” “HE’S SORRY!” every night after screaming at my mom and me blaming us for everything and insulting us calling me a brat for crying and curling up into a little ball covering my ears while he yelled at us, telling us that he was going to kill himself and it would be our fault, my dad would come into my room and whisper a half-apology while somehow justifying his actions.
This not might be considered trauma but I remember when I was sat in my bedroom with my parents arguing and I was crying and wishing that I would get a chance to run away or start life over, thank you for making my day better.
0:00 reminds me of when I would watch my brother get physically abused for eating food :/ Also 4:01 when I ate a bedbug because it was in my cereal and didnt know but i developed eating disorders after drinking spoiled milk too so I called my mom crying telling her to pick me up because I didnt want to stay there for any longer.
4:23 the “I wanna go home” reminds me so much of me I always say I wanna go home even tho I am already home it just feels like I’m not home like where I’m originally supposed to be
I used this playlist to cope while I was in high school. Everyone else said they were gonna miss it, but I never did. Thanks for helping me get through this.
"HE'S SORRY" reminds of when my mom got so mad at my older sister that she was screaming and yelling at them as they cried. I remember the sound of my of crying and their almost screaming crying as she yelled and called them "stupid" and said she didn't care if they cried for the rest of the day. I remember sitting in the corner wanting to yell "SHE'S SORRY!" but being too scared. After she picked up a chair and smashed it against the floor breaking the chair. It made me think of how fucking horrible my sister feel and I started to have a panic attack. I remember when my mom noticed she started crying and saying I'm sorry. I remember crawling over to my sisters room and grabbing my cat hoping this would end as my other sister yelled "PLEASE STOP!" as she held me. This all happened awhile ago and me and my family are better now. We all talked and aploagised after that fight.
Just realised how meaningless this is compared to other traumatic experiences people have experienced. I want to gouge my eyes out right now (: but I can't cause I'm too much of a coward
tw // sexual assault , sca & mentions of rape. - - - i've been sexually assulted by my older cousin when i was around 10 years old and throughout most of my childhood i've been through a lot of sexual situations and i was exposed to pornography at a very young age. i can say that i barely had the feeling of childhood innocence because that has been taken away from me at a very young age. i've been through a lot and i've almost been raped a few times by two different people during that time as well. i'm mostly over everything that has happened to me and as of today i'm in an emotionally abusive household with my aunt and mom. i'm in a relationship with someone who has been through the same sexual trauma as me and we often support and help each other to cope. they are all i have and i love and support them deeply. but listening to playlist like this has really helped as well ! so thank you so much for making this.
I just found out that my life goes in circles over and over.. Everyday is the same, i get yelled at for something everyday, my friends slowly become my worst nightmare. And sometimes i wonder why i was even born and here today just to suffer in this hell of a world
Once I got so scared for someone who was about to get in trouble I legit cried until I passed out just begging for their parent to forgive them. That's what the first song feels like to me, just a messed up blur of memories smudged deep into my brain. That's what having younger siblings feels like for you single pringles :)
(had to change it to she's sorry to explain) "SHE’S SORRY!” “SHE’S SORRY!” “SHE’S SORRY!” "OH SHE'S SORRY!" no she isn't. she only says that to seem like a better person to the publics eye. she never was sorry because if she truly was she wouldn't have turned me into what I am only to hate me for it. if she was sorry she would accept her mistakes and *try* to help fix the problem *she* made! she wouldn't get mad at me for being human and showing emotions! she never did that! she hates the tears I cry failing to realized *she is the reason*.
through all my school years i always had to say sorry, when i would report a bully hurting me i would try to defend myself and i got in trouble it's not fair, i always say sorry but no one ever says sorry to me.
Nope! Sometimes truama can even be from little things and you don’t realize where it’s from. But if you find comfort from truama related songs maybe you’ve been affected by something that hurt you but you can’t exactly put your finger on it
one time me and brother tried to jump off our roof. I used a shaver on my face once, I felt nothing and went to bed bloody. I fell off a play house busting my upper lip. I scrapped my whole leg across concrete. my brother tried to drown me. I have a heart problem, my organs could blow up at anytime, or my heart could become weak and I could have breathing problems. sometimes I ask myself, "how am I still alive?"
she was 18, and I was 10. I thought she was my friend, but friends don't do what she did. they don't manipulate you into staying with them under the threat of suicide. I said no so many times. She never stopped. I can't even be in my own room without being reminded of what happened. I apologized and begged her to stop so many times. it never helped.
“HE’S SORRY!” “HE’S SORRY!” “HE’S SORRY!” Makes me think about my friends…mocking me when I tried to change myself. I understand where they’re coming from though. I’m not a good person. It’s been years now, but it still haunts me.
Hi, please use the translate Hay gente muy mala en el mundo, y créeme que aprendí eso a la mala. Tu madre no aprecia lo que eres. ¿Sabes cómo me levanto el ánimo yo misma? Me miró al espejo, y me sonrió Luego digo: ¡Guau! Que guapa eres! Si te vería por la calle te besaria. Nunca volveré a ver a alguien tan perfecto como tú, un gusto yo, soy tu! Y te amo más que a nada! Perdón por no hablar Inglés
I feel like I can’t breathe, I’m trapped here for god knows how much longer. I have to keep my mouth shut or I’ll end up hurting myself more than helping. I can’t do this. I’m beginning to lose myself, my brain can only go on autopilot when I talk to people. I don’t think I’ll make it much longer like this. My body is possibly nothing but an empty vessel now, with no means to hurt, but rather disappoint.
this is going to sound strange but whenever I am overwhelmed by people not leaving me alone or just feeling like I can't talk to anyone I play calming playlists or stuff like this so I feel like I can actually breathe and the fact that it says "I hope I die in my sleep" is just how I feel rn.
In 2020, I know everyone had it horrible. But this was my year I went through. (TW: Abuse, and self harm) I was homeschooled, and got very stressed from not understanding things. I was always the smart kid in my family, so I always felt bad for asking for help. Then, one night I got into a fight with my cousins. Tbh my cousins are the reason most things have happened to me. But, I wanted to apologize. So I started to plan out how to do so. It took awhile, but I made up my mind on how to do it. I made up, they still need to say sorry back. I got even more stressed with school, and didn't do it. I regret it, whenever I didn't do it, my parents yelled at me. One night, I just sat there crying, I felt horrible. I didn't eat. I didn't say anything. I just sat there. For me, anytime I need to say something, my mind goes blank. My parents, they yelled. It felt like I was deaf. The next thing I knew, I was being dragged out of my chair and down the hallway. I feel bad, my 3 year old brother had to witness it all. My whole family just sat there and watched. It felt like they didn't care about my screams of pain. After that, I ran to my room, I didn't have a doorknob, so I barricaded the door with anything I could. That's also the night I started one of my biggest mistakes in my life. I dug my nails into my wrists, I didn't stop. I sat there, asking myself what the point of life was. I wanted to know what I was planning on doing. My parents took me to a therapist a few days after that. I didn't talk, I just sat there holding back tears. About a month of self harming, I decided I needed to tell someone. So I told my parents. They ended up taking me to a hospital, but due to Covid, no mental hospitals were had rooms for people my age. So, the only thing that happened was I sat there. Doing nothing. The nurses asked if I needed something, or if I wanted to talk to the adults, but I didn't reply. I sat there for around 3 days, and they did nothing. My parents took me home, and I did everything they said. I was scared to go back. I still think about death and self harm, but I don't do it. And I just want to say, you're not alone, maybe now, in your hardest times you are, but soon, someone will save you from the darkness. I hope if someone read my story, they didn't share or will not share my pain.
this made me cry im sorry you had that happen to you and i may not have had much physical abuse but i have had mental abuse i dont think my parents know that they are the ones causing it or if their doing it on purpose but im too scared to tell them bc last time i told them sm we got into a fight were i almost felt like running out of the house but i couldnt bc my 4 siblings were there just watching and my twin was sobbing and i didnt wanna make them feel worse so i just sat through her yelling and her threats to send me to school for bad kids and her telling me my friends dont wanna be friends with bad kids so now i feel like my friends are starting to hate me and ik i shouldnt do self harm bc i have done it before but im considering that or taking my dads pain killers anyway how is your life going now? has it gotten better?
So I'm 19 and I always told myself growing up that once I turn 18 I can get out, I'll be an adult and I can escape. And it's true. I got to tell my dad that I didn't want to see him for the holidays because I didn't feel like fighting off his manipulation, and custody doesn't mean shit now. I can drive out of town if I like and get a new job and sleep wherever I find if I really need. Anyway, my point is that you can always run. If there is air on your face and a ground beneath you and you can wiggle your arms you are not trapped. If it gets so bad, there's a way for you to escape. I know the world out there can be tough but sometimes the world inside with you is tougher. If it comes down to it, you can do it. You can run and you can fight and you will find that you have strength hidden in you where the world could never touch it and that strength will keep you safe when you find you need it
I've been the victim of abuse from my principal ever since she came to my school. I was physically attacked and when I stood up for myself, she victimized the people who hurt me. She just said "Oh so and so wouldn't do that" even tho the person admitted to doing that. When I told a dirty joke with my friends she found out and called it sexual harassment, even though he didn't care about the joke and I know what sexual harassment is first hand with adults flirting with me, a friend getting touched repeatedly and my mom being råpęd as a child and I broke down. Yesterday I snapped and I only felt like I could tell my best friends what was going on. They'll yell at me for swearing but turn a blind eye when a kid is honestly doing something wrong or just breaking the rules repeatedly. I hate this school so much. I can't wait till I'm out and I'll hope maybe my high-school is better I know its not serious as parental abuse but its traumatic for me and I had gained depression from that. Ihave kept so much from my principal and it hurts me.
I'm so sorry for this all. It literally sounds so shitty, no one deserves that. I hope that you'll feel better in the near future and please stay safe, I know it's bad now but I believe in you, truly.
Idk if you’ll ever read this, but I wanna say thank you. This was the first traumacore playlist I listened too maybe 2 years ago. It made me end up doing research to better understand what traumacore is. Now I know what the traumacore community is and I’ve even been making traumacore art to cope with my own trauma. It really does help me feel better, at least in my experience
The « HE’S SORRY » Remind me of the time when I had to do horrible things to survive i was doing thoses things while apologizing over and over again in my head now that I think of it I think those thing where hurting me even more than it hurts others Idk why I write that but maybe some of you can relate to that
not gonna lie the "HE’S SORRY!” “HE’S SORRY!” “HE’S SORRY!” made me remeber how much more healing i have to get and how much of a bastar HE (=from my familly) is
You know I didn’t have that much of a bad childhood (yet) but ever since I came out as Trans I’ve been misgendered even though I decided I was still questioning my family knew my preferred pronouns were he/him/his/himself yet they still use she/her/hers/herself
My parents do that to my transgender brother. I try to stand up for him, and he tries too. No matter how hard we try, no matter what we do, our parents don't give a single damn. They once went on about how he's "a girl", and all that shit. Because of all that, I ended up having to misgender him all the time in front of my parents. I feel like absolute trash when I do that. I know that's not okay. But it's my only way to not be "corrected" about my brother's gender all the time. (In reality, I get yelled at.) I'm sorry, bro...
He touched me in ways that made me want to drown in the ocean. They way he kissed me without permission made me want to fall into a hole and never wake up. The way he asked for me to strip made me want to plunge a knife into my heart. We were both 6 years old. The way he made me think he loved me made me want to bleed to death. Why would he do that?
Me: yoo sad time
Devil Town: sup
Me: *nvm it's jamming time*
SAME THO
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same bro
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This probably sounds very childish, but the "HE'S SORRY!" reminded me of when my brother was getting bad grades like c's and my parents started yelling at him saying that they could put him in a bad highschool where he'd lose everything. I remember I ran upstairs and started practicing for my talent show, I was gonna sing "You can count on me" with my friend, but I heard my father yell at him really loudly and I heard my brother crying so while I was singing I started crying as well. My brother and I don't talk much, but I know that he cares a lot about me so it hurt to hear his cries and tears while doing his homework. Sorry if this was a very small and stupid thing :'D
A person's trauma could affect not only the abused but also someone who's connected to their lives, I wish your both doing well
having to ear it is thraumatising ( hug )
Cried while reading this I used to get beat up for grades and my sibling saw it all
relatble sadly
Look the bright side, you guys still have each other
"HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
reminds me when I would scream out saying sorry but they didn't care.
I hope you are okay now . Take care always eat well and stay hydrated everything will be good one day u can do it take care
@@deedeemh that reminds me of my -purgatory- home where I'm always the one to blame and no one cares even tho my grandma was there and saw how my mother was treating me no one said anything they all looked at me like I'm the insane person
Same--
Yea..
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" HE'S SORRY "
"HE'S SORRY"
" HE'S SORRY"
no he's not, he never will be. 7 years old and being used as a 'object' for THOSE things lead to things like this that can never be forgivin or forgotten. Thanks for welcoming him mom.
im sorry for u :( i hope things are better now :> have a nice day
Anyone who would do that to a child should never be forgiven. No matter how much regret they feel, no matter how much they say they're sorry. It's no excuse to what they've done.
i know right i was like a freaking doll that my dad takes his anger out on im still am i'll show him im going to become suecessful and be a better parent that what i was shown i feel you
@@no-2929 agree with u, i hate my dad for doing those things to my mom and me
He’s not sorry mom, he might me my father but that doesn’t mean he can hurt me
The first one gave me chills, jeez-
Pog
@@sucymanvanban8502 ok
When o watched that part. I got scared.
oh he's sorry
He's sorry
He's sorry
OH SO SORRY
HES SORRY
Hit diff tho
honestly, i've never had that bad of trauma, like i have an mentally abusive family but still, but this really helps me cope tysm for this playlist we needed this.
Mentally abusive is just as bad as physical abusive although ive been though both so i know the pain.
Hey, you're valid too. Trauma is still trauma regardless of "how bad" it is
@@docdoc.4500 thank you
I understand your pain, like you I also have a mentally abusive family and I just wanted tell you ,your not alone and I hope everything gets better for you
I have the same type of family. I hope it gets better for us.
Also I see we both love anemo characters. 😢
i feel bad because i actually like how these songs sound in general
Trauma / weird core is my favorite type of songs so I understand that 🏃♀️
@@sharksoda Same. Weirdcore and traumacore help me cope.
Weirdcore helps me cope with my depersonalization problems I've been having this year and traumacore helps me cope with my PTSD.
and also traumacore and weirdcore just sound good even without the coping part.
I like cottiles best part
Same lol
@@sharksoda same
"HE'S SORRY!"
After mentally, sexually all he did to me he comes and tells me he loves me and he is sorry!
i’m so sorry, i hope your doing okay now
I’m so sorry about what you have been through.I just want to say you are not alone.Don’t give up just yet,there are always people who care about you and would miss you.Even though I don’t know you I still care about you and your feelings.I love you and I promise it gets better!❤️
Same exept instead of sexually he shamed me
@@Lemon.lime2000 understand you. Sending care and much positivity.
Same but I'm sorry you have or had to deal with that.
The first song reminds me of how when I was really little I broke something of my fathers that was very important to him. He got up and grabbed some big brown pan-looking thing and walked back up to me yelling at the top of his lungs and threw a small flower pot at me, I was almost halfway across the room and I was just screaming sorry and crying, my mom walked in trying to tell him it was an accident and that she was sorry that it happened and she would punish me herself. My dad didn't care and knocked my mom down and hit her with the object until she passed out, he then walked up to me and started hitting me with the same object, I think I blacked out because I didn't remember anything after that, I woke up back in my bed with a different set of clothing on and my other clothes no where to be found. I don't know for sure what happened.. But I think I have an idea of what went on. (There were also multiple times whem my dad tried to LITERALLY murder me and my mother.)
I am so sorry, but you dont have to ever forgive your father he sounds shtty as hell. As a 12 yro who just got out of an abusive household it takes time for healing from people you don't see but you still remember but try your best to work with your trauma and not let it affect you.
I'm sorry to hear this but you now there's thing called karma so he already has got it or is going to get karma bad 🙂
Some people don't deserve children, period.
I feel you..that's happened with me before too but it wasn't a attempted murder. My father and mother are just crazy that's about it.
That sounds harsh. I hope It got better for u and your mom.
man ive been consistently told that trauma is trauma but i still go "man this wasn't enough".
it's weird cus i refuse to accept that i've been through trauma even tho i know i have.
im just glad that i got out of the situation i was in, it was mostly my dad's side that made me just stop trusting people.
but tyty for this lovely playlist
"HE'S SORRY!"
"HE'S SORRY!"
"HE'S SORRY!"
I swear I've said that before.
My big brother got in trouble alot when we were young, he was often the least favourite.
I've always tried to protect him, and that line just killed something in me.
“HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
I felt that.. :(
Sameeee
@@yiko_zzen I feel bad for you :(
Hug?
same bro
same
same.
This brought color to my life
“I don’t have a favorite color”
Cringe
@@whiteydiamond we will see when you turn 15 and have the same problems we all have kid
@@glichedslice ikr let's just ignore the little kid here
@@whiteydiamond you know this isnt cringe but yk what is?
you :D
I remember my dad trying to hit me for crying or because I would overreact due to my ocd,which at the time of my youth, it wasn't identified. When he gets mad, he still does and he has ptsd. It's still no excuse for his actions though. The yelling is what makes me flinch a lot. My ex-friend causing me to overthink everything I did wrong, when it was him who did me wrong. I have trust issues and am scared to lose anyone because of him. Two of my childhood dogs dying in front of me,fucked me up. I think both of my parents neglected my emotions, but I can't remember that part.
Thank you for this playlist, it calms me down a lot
flees.
I used to excuse my dad for being abusive because he was also abused
when my mother, or any adult starts yelling I start to cry and shake.
same
same
When my father yelled at my sibling for having a smart ass mouth, he yells so loud that I get scared although it's not me in trouble to the brink where I was to cry also.
I somehow get really angry when someone yells
Waiting for the perfect time to STRIKE at them
@@idalygonzalez8713 i was basically taught to fear adults and i have a hard time standing up for myself, especially if it's against an adult
(From devil town) "mommy and daddy aren't in love, thats fine I settle for two birthdays. "
Felt that
But my parents divorced when I was 2 so I didn't understand what happened 😃
I was also five and I knew EXACTLY what was going on, but I still didn't give a single shit lol.
Same :^
Same but i was 5 and i was in a middle of my parents fight so I understood a lot of what’s happening
Lmao mine divorced when I was a few months old and now I have to deal with my dad and brother either yelling at eachother or at me and my mom and stepfather yelling at me though that doesn't happen much
Mine when 3 or 4 I know how that feels
*Time stamps*
0:00 never ; oh he's sorry
4:01 cotiles ENA remix
6:08 devil town
9:08 tired
12:25 fallen down
Edit: tysm for 200k+ views what the heck
cheers :)
thx -w-
for doin this
Man I'm seeing all of these people with awful lives and I'm crying over Fallen Down because of minecraft roleplay.
she went through the same trauma, why'd she have to put *me* through it too?
Im sorry you had to go through that
I hope everything turns out alright and I hope everything gets better
I know the healing process is hard but i believe in you you've got this you've done so well
thank you so much for trying, i'm sure there are people who are happy your still here including me
I may just be someone on the internet
but well done your doing amazing im so proud of you
remember to hydrate and take care of yourself
if you need someone to talk to i'll always be here
remember you are loved and cared about and you are awesome and cool and valid
wishing you the best for the future
- some random bitch on the internet
Bro same 😭😭
finally a traumacore playlist that helps me and helps me. thank you so much!!
i'm so sorry.
I noticed the top comment here is someone invalidating their own trauma. I'm here to say as someone whose done the same - Everyone's trauma is valid!
There's no such thing as "worse" trauma, everyone's trauma equally sucks ass and trauma is a wide spectrum. Trauma can be an argument you had with a loved one, it can be a pet passing, it can be a break-up. These are just examples but practically everything can be considered trauma. I've been told this by many of my counselors.
This right here needs to be pinned
Thx :)
This needs to be pinned fr
Trauma sucks, I was put in therapy for it at age 9.
I never received any kind of abuse from my parents but they did fight alot and it mentally scared me...
I'm sorry I know how much that can affecte u
Ooo~ same
Sameee
Same.
Same
"HE'S SORRY! HE'S SORRY! HE'S SORRY!" reminds me of my toxic friends, and me thinking they will apologize once. They never apologize and I can't let go of them. They're my entire childhood. I can't let it go.
Once someone earns my trust, no matter how hard I try, I can't let go or otherwise they guilt-trip me.
And if someone didn't earn my trust until I was 7 in real life, it was over for them.
I have a ton of problems and I still can't afford to get a therapist to talk about it because I don't trust my father.
I spent a lot of my youth being guilt tripped by my dad. I couldn't get out of custody visits but eventually I trained myself to remember that I am not guilty, that I am not responsible for others, and that I didn't want to let him get away with it. I was able to catch it in the moment and, eventually, call it out. I fought back - which certainly made some situations much worse but it was better than just taking it lying down. I couldn't keep doing that.
Now I like to brag that I'm guilt trip proof. When I catch a whiff of someone trying to manipulate me I reflexively call it out and give them hell. It's done me well. Actually, my self esteem is best when someone is trying to bring me down because I encourage myself out of spite ('how dare they think they can make me feel bad, i'm an amazing person!') I think I came out better for all of that. I wouldn't have formed such a strong defense instinct if all of that hadn't happened, and that instinct has protected people other than me.
Rambled a bit there, but I'm trying to tell you that you can do this too. My story isn't a miracle - it's the exact kind of growth your brain is programmed to do. You are tough. You can show them what happens when people get walked over. You are lovable enough that you will find people who care for you to make up for the ones who only pretended to. And you can get to the point where you hold steady in the face of adversity. I did. It helped that I had a therapist for the second half of it but you can do it without one. In fact, I bet you're already slowly strengthening against your problems in the background without realizing. And you'll come out stronger than if none of this did happen.
ouch... very relatable to me
.... *hugs* you can trust me, we can be broken together
Me too. I just cut ties with a toxic girl
this playlist is what i actually feel in this days with so many problems + my school problems
"He's sorry!"
having to say sorry for my father every time my parents argue definitely hurts the most
I can’t do this anymore, it’s so draining. It never stops.
The chaos of thought are why I made this playlist, notice how the songs are mostly glitchy and all over the place.. it’s to represent confusion, suicide, and fighting what to believe or know what’s real or not. Please if you need to talk do so. You aren’t alone. I know the feeling of repeating days. If you ever need to reach out my Instagram is lxvesai dm me there
same
Thanks for making this! It's really cozy in that weird jumbled and frustrating traumacore way!
I’m glad you like it 💕
"Hes sorry? OH HES SORRY HES SORRY HES SORRY HES SORRY HES SORRY HES SORRY!! SORRY, MY ASS."
Reminds me of my dad.
Lol same. My dad didn't really do anything bad, I just wish he was there when he could've been. And been a little less toxic lol
same i will never forgive my dad from my robbed childhood i get to never get to see again so now when people wanna know about my childhood ill just say abused,depressed,suicide, he gave me mental health issues and disorders.
Yea same 😥
I'd love to yell that at both of my parents
Reminds me of my mom lol
Traumacore triggers me and helps me at the same time
Loved it
Exposure therapy be like
same
I was heavily bullied during childhood and it has had lasting consequences on my mental health, but i often feel like that's not "real trauma" when i see what a lot of other people went through...
Anyway i hope you all have a wonderful day and a wonderful life💚
It’s easy to invalidate your own trauma, we all do at times. Remember your trauma is valid. 💗
"Mommy and daddy aren't in love"
Wow that hit me more...
yeah it did my parents are falling out of love
Same ;,(
I used to pray that this happened to me every night
I’m sorry to hear that :( I hope it gets better for you! (Also I love your pfp :])
@@Person-xv7qc tysm!!♡ im slowly getting better
@@boohonkers Yayy! :D I’m so glad! You can always talk to me if your having a bad day tho! :)
@@Person-xv7qc 💖💖💖
“HE’S SORRY”
he’s not. he’s always said that. over and over again. he has never changed. still mentally ruining me. its been about 6 years.
"Oh he's sorry"
"HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
It reminds me of a child alone in their room, refusing to believe their parent's apologies since they'll just continue hurting them afterwards. Unable to do anything but mock their meaningless words.
that hit hard
@@SarahR.Trills :')
i love this playlist! it brings me comfort, ty for making this
I’m glad you like it
me saying I'm sorry in my head a bunch of times
the playlist: "HE'S SORRY"
me: *begins to cry more than I already was changing it to she*
Oof, thankyou for making this, its helped me through some difficult nights. The beginning hit me like a truck. The last words I said to people who were using me was just sorry, over and over and over, hoping that they might give me some mercy.
you know what isn't perfect?
my childhood😶
Same
Same and i feel really sorry for you.
Same 💃
Same...Need a hug
Same.
I wasn't allowed to be a child.
I grew up too fast.
"HE'S SORRY!"
"HE'S SORRY!"
"HE'S SORRY!"
the words that left my mouth the most couldn't have been more silenced, feel better everyone I wish everyone the best :')
this is a playlist i would play if i was in class and want to ignore my class. traumacore is my fav tbh. lol (sorry for my bad english!!
I actually made a longer trauma core playlist with these songs and more like it on Spotify: open.spotify.com/playlist/51AzAH2djqD9wOSbwWLcnM?si=1LMhAKAZQkaEv8QcGS2GhA
@@sharksoda ooh! thank u! i will listen it rn >.
I still hope that my father will stop hitting me. this music helps me a lot , it makes it easier
Im so sorry.. hope it gets better for u :(
@@vani8006 I listen to this music almost always, it helps morally.
@@SOUPITEE im glad you found something that makes u feel safe
Its okay! It will eventually get better. Ily even tho i dont know u! have a good day ❤️
This comment is 1 month old, but I hope it'll get better, Ily random stranger.
Maybe i havent had hard traumas
But thank you
I feel like this everyday
Im alone
With my anxiety
And
With myself alone forever..
No your not and i hope that you are still alive and kicking today...please respond to let me know😢😊I've thought this myself and even thought my trauma was my fault,I honestly still do but don't ever put yourself or your experiences down because you and them are very significant to me and others so please know that...this just hits so close to home so I hope you're better now,and if not then I wish you will...I'm here to talk if your not
Tbh I’ve never dealt w any type of trauma I just clicked on this video cuz I like this style of music I’m so sorry to everyone in the comments that actually relates to this shit I hope you get better and are getting or will get the help you need ily :))
ngl this made me cry
I've never had any trauma just suffering from depression
but i scrolled through the comments for like 10 mins reading peoples stories
all i can say is
i've never been happier than ever to have a normal, boring childhood👩🏻🦲👍🏻
i hope everyone is doing fine
am here to listen to anyone 🤗
glad there are people who've had normal childhoods.
I’m very happy you had a normal childhood
SO UNDERRATED OMG-
Haha thanks I don’t think I’m underrated though but ty love ❤️
"HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
every night after screaming at my mom and me blaming us for everything and insulting us calling me a brat for crying and curling up into a little ball covering my ears while he yelled at us, telling us that he was going to kill himself and it would be our fault, my dad would come into my room and whisper a half-apology while somehow justifying his actions.
*It's my mental breakdown and I get to choose the music.*
This not might be considered trauma but I remember when I was sat in my bedroom with my parents arguing and I was crying and wishing that I would get a chance to run away or start life over, thank you for making my day better.
you may not think so but alot of trauma is some form of this it may not feel like it is but it is definitely real truama
0:00 reminds me of when I would watch my brother get physically abused for eating food :/ Also 4:01 when I ate a bedbug because it was in my cereal and didnt know but i developed eating disorders after drinking spoiled milk too so I called my mom crying telling her to pick me up because I didnt want to stay there for any longer.
abused for eating food? smh im sorry
@@sillycatgoober45 sadly ive heard from many others abt that type of food.
4:23 the “I wanna go home” reminds me so much of me I always say I wanna go home even tho I am already home it just feels like I’m not home like where I’m originally supposed to be
"He's sorry? OH HE'S SORRY. HE'S SORRY. HE'S SORRY. HE'S SORRY. HE'S SORRY. HE'S SORRY! SORRY, MY ASS!"
He's not. He's only sorry he got caught.
Fallen down reminds me of really sad DSMP lore and overall great sound to cry to
I used this playlist to cope while I was in high school. Everyone else said they were gonna miss it, but I never did. Thanks for helping me get through this.
10/10 playlist tho
"HE'S SORRY" reminds of when my mom got so mad at my older sister that she was screaming and yelling at them as they cried. I remember the sound of my of crying and their almost screaming crying as she yelled and called them "stupid" and said she didn't care if they cried for the rest of the day. I remember sitting in the corner wanting to yell "SHE'S SORRY!" but being too scared. After she picked up a chair and smashed it against the floor breaking the chair. It made me think of how fucking horrible my sister feel and I started to have a panic attack. I remember when my mom noticed she started crying and saying I'm sorry. I remember crawling over to my sisters room and grabbing my cat hoping this would end as my other sister yelled "PLEASE STOP!" as she held me. This all happened awhile ago and me and my family are better now. We all talked and aploagised after that fight.
Just realised how meaningless this is compared to other traumatic experiences people have experienced. I want to gouge my eyes out right now (: but I can't cause I'm too much of a coward
Wow this dude playlist really fits all the trauma I’ve been thru. Thx!
I like these traumacore playlists,because i can relate with it with my childhood and traumatic experiences
OHHH SAMEE
Me: *sad noises*
*ena remix by cotiles*
Me: oh, let's make another animation meme! *happy noises*
tw // sexual assault , sca & mentions of rape.
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i've been sexually assulted by my older cousin when i was around 10 years old and throughout most of my childhood i've been through a lot of sexual situations and i was exposed to pornography at a very young age. i can say that i barely had the feeling of childhood innocence because that has been taken away from me at a very young age. i've been through a lot and i've almost been raped a few times by two different people during that time as well. i'm mostly over everything that has happened to me and as of today i'm in an emotionally abusive household with my aunt and mom. i'm in a relationship with someone who has been through the same sexual trauma as me and we often support and help each other to cope. they are all i have and i love and support them deeply. but listening to playlist like this has really helped as well ! so thank you so much for making this.
the hes sorry thing gives me flashbacks i hate it
Everyone felt the first part of the video. what a way to reopen the unwanted wounds we have gained through our lives
I just found out that my life goes in circles over and over.. Everyday is the same, i get yelled at for something everyday, my friends slowly become my worst nightmare. And sometimes i wonder why i was even born and here today just to suffer in this hell of a world
This. Is. The. Best. Playlist. I. Ever. Listen. To.
" NEVER! " ... " Ever.! " ... " NEVER! " ... " Ever! "
its was like me when I scream for help but nobody ever helps a poor soul like me.
"HE'S SORRY"
"HE'S SORRY"
"HE'S SORRY"
reminds me of what I would say before my dad yelled at my brother.
Once I got so scared for someone who was about to get in trouble I legit cried until I passed out just begging for their parent to forgive them. That's what the first song feels like to me, just a messed up blur of memories smudged deep into my brain.
That's what having younger siblings feels like for you single pringles :)
It is crazy how helpful this video is-
(had to change it to she's sorry to explain)
"SHE’S SORRY!”
“SHE’S SORRY!”
“SHE’S SORRY!”
"OH SHE'S SORRY!"
no she isn't. she only says that to seem like a better person to the publics eye. she never was sorry because if she truly was she wouldn't have turned me into what I am only to hate me for it. if she was sorry she would accept her mistakes and *try* to help fix the problem *she* made! she wouldn't get mad at me for being human and showing emotions! she never did that! she hates the tears I cry failing to realized *she is the reason*.
through all my school years i always had to say sorry, when i would report a bully hurting me i would try to defend myself and i got in trouble it's not fair, i always say sorry but no one ever says sorry to me.
This really helps me cope from my trauma, thank you
HES SORYY!!!!! Trying to forgive them but you can’t let go of the fact of what they’ve done that hurt you this badly.
I don't have any trauma, but somehow this playlist makes me feel so much better. Do I need to worry about this?
Nope! Sometimes truama can even be from little things and you don’t realize where it’s from. But if you find comfort from truama related songs maybe you’ve been affected by something that hurt you but you can’t exactly put your finger on it
Everybody gangster til Fallen Down starts
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I was sad but dude the songs in this are just to good I have to dance
"HE'S SORRY!
HE'S SORRY!
HE'S SORRY!"
reminds me of how i would yell "I'M SORRY" from the bottom of my lungs at him, as he left.
one time me and brother tried to jump off our roof.
I used a shaver on my face once, I felt nothing and went to bed bloody.
I fell off a play house busting my upper lip.
I scrapped my whole leg across concrete.
my brother tried to drown me.
I have a heart problem, my organs could blow up at anytime, or my heart could become weak and I could have breathing problems.
sometimes I ask myself, "how am I still alive?"
The title makes me think of how my biggest trigger is loud noises because it gives flashbacks
I understand you.
she was 18, and I was 10. I thought she was my friend, but friends don't do what she did. they don't manipulate you into staying with them under the threat of suicide. I said no so many times. She never stopped. I can't even be in my own room without being reminded of what happened. I apologized and begged her to stop so many times. it never helped.
I'm so sorry that hapened you deserve better
Oh thanks for this playlist, it really helps me to cope!!
“HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
Makes me think about my friends…mocking me when I tried to change myself. I understand where they’re coming from though. I’m not a good person. It’s been years now, but it still haunts me.
Me at school: I WANNA go home
Me in my head:But I know my mom will just judge me for being fat
Hi, please use the translate
Hay gente muy mala en el mundo, y créeme que aprendí eso a la mala. Tu madre no aprecia lo que eres.
¿Sabes cómo me levanto el ánimo yo misma?
Me miró al espejo, y me sonrió
Luego digo:
¡Guau! Que guapa eres! Si te vería por la calle te besaria. Nunca volveré a ver a alguien tan perfecto como tú, un gusto yo, soy tu! Y te amo más que a nada!
Perdón por no hablar Inglés
It hurts so much that I have to keep it all in
I can’t even talk to anyone…or draw how I feel
hey keep a trauma or vent notebook or sketch and hide it from anyone you dont want to know whats going on
drawing always helps me :>
i was having a mental breakdown this helped a bit
I feel like I can’t breathe, I’m trapped here for god knows how much longer.
I have to keep my mouth shut or I’ll end up hurting myself more than helping.
I can’t do this.
I’m beginning to lose myself, my brain can only go on autopilot when I talk to people.
I don’t think I’ll make it much longer like this.
My body is possibly nothing but an empty vessel now, with no means to hurt, but rather disappoint.
I know how you feel if it's ok can we vent to eachother?
@@axcbella5734 Of course, you can vent about anything you need to darling
this is going to sound strange but whenever I am overwhelmed by people not leaving me alone or just feeling like I can't talk to anyone I play calming playlists or stuff like this so I feel like I can actually breathe and the fact that it says "I hope I die in my sleep" is just how I feel rn.
In 2020, I know everyone had it horrible. But this was my year I went through. (TW: Abuse, and self harm)
I was homeschooled, and got very stressed from not understanding things. I was always the smart kid in my family, so I always felt bad for asking for help. Then, one night I got into a fight with my cousins. Tbh my cousins are the reason most things have happened to me. But, I wanted to apologize. So I started to plan out how to do so. It took awhile, but I made up my mind on how to do it. I made up, they still need to say sorry back. I got even more stressed with school, and didn't do it. I regret it, whenever I didn't do it, my parents yelled at me. One night, I just sat there crying, I felt horrible. I didn't eat. I didn't say anything. I just sat there. For me, anytime I need to say something, my mind goes blank. My parents, they yelled. It felt like I was deaf. The next thing I knew, I was being dragged out of my chair and down the hallway. I feel bad, my 3 year old brother had to witness it all. My whole family just sat there and watched. It felt like they didn't care about my screams of pain. After that, I ran to my room, I didn't have a doorknob, so I barricaded the door with anything I could. That's also the night I started one of my biggest mistakes in my life. I dug my nails into my wrists, I didn't stop. I sat there, asking myself what the point of life was. I wanted to know what I was planning on doing. My parents took me to a therapist a few days after that. I didn't talk, I just sat there holding back tears. About a month of self harming, I decided I needed to tell someone. So I told my parents. They ended up taking me to a hospital, but due to Covid, no mental hospitals were had rooms for people my age. So, the only thing that happened was I sat there. Doing nothing. The nurses asked if I needed something, or if I wanted to talk to the adults, but I didn't reply. I sat there for around 3 days, and they did nothing. My parents took me home, and I did everything they said. I was scared to go back. I still think about death and self harm, but I don't do it. And I just want to say, you're not alone, maybe now, in your hardest times you are, but soon, someone will save you from the darkness. I hope if someone read my story, they didn't share or will not share my pain.
this made me cry im sorry you had that happen to you and i may not have had much physical abuse but i have had mental abuse i dont think my parents know that they are the ones causing it or if their doing it on purpose but im too scared to tell them bc last time i told them sm we got into a fight were i almost felt like running out of the house but i couldnt bc my 4 siblings were there just watching and my twin was sobbing and i didnt wanna make them feel worse so i just sat through her yelling and her threats to send me to school for bad kids and her telling me my friends dont wanna be friends with bad kids so now i feel like my friends are starting to hate me and ik i shouldnt do self harm bc i have done it before but im considering that or taking my dads pain killers
anyway how is your life going now? has it gotten better?
So I'm 19 and I always told myself growing up that once I turn 18 I can get out, I'll be an adult and I can escape. And it's true. I got to tell my dad that I didn't want to see him for the holidays because I didn't feel like fighting off his manipulation, and custody doesn't mean shit now. I can drive out of town if I like and get a new job and sleep wherever I find if I really need. Anyway, my point is that you can always run. If there is air on your face and a ground beneath you and you can wiggle your arms you are not trapped. If it gets so bad, there's a way for you to escape. I know the world out there can be tough but sometimes the world inside with you is tougher. If it comes down to it, you can do it. You can run and you can fight and you will find that you have strength hidden in you where the world could never touch it and that strength will keep you safe when you find you need it
I've been the victim of abuse from my principal ever since she came to my school. I was physically attacked and when I stood up for myself, she victimized the people who hurt me. She just said "Oh so and so wouldn't do that" even tho the person admitted to doing that. When I told a dirty joke with my friends she found out and called it sexual harassment, even though he didn't care about the joke and I know what sexual harassment is first hand with adults flirting with me, a friend getting touched repeatedly and my mom being råpęd as a child and I broke down.
Yesterday I snapped and I only felt like I could tell my best friends what was going on. They'll yell at me for swearing but turn a blind eye when a kid is honestly doing something wrong or just breaking the rules repeatedly. I hate this school so much. I can't wait till I'm out and I'll hope maybe my high-school is better
I know its not serious as parental abuse but its traumatic for me and I had gained depression from that. Ihave kept so much from my principal and it hurts me.
I'm so sorry for this all. It literally sounds so shitty, no one deserves that. I hope that you'll feel better in the near future and please stay safe, I know it's bad now but I believe in you, truly.
“HES SORRY!”
Kinda nostalgic when you’d beg your parents to stop but they wouldn’t listen
Idk if you’ll ever read this, but I wanna say thank you. This was the first traumacore playlist I listened too maybe 2 years ago. It made me end up doing research to better understand what traumacore is. Now I know what the traumacore community is and I’ve even been making traumacore art to cope with my own trauma. It really does help me feel better, at least in my experience
my 10yo sister should listen to this playlist. i just wish i could help her more.
Lol I had a really bad panic attack then flashbacks so this playlist helps alot
"HES SORRY"
reminds me when i always say to everyone IM SORRY even to myself
Im sorry...
"I wanna go home!"
me too.
"HE'S SORRY..OOH HE'S SORRY HE'S $0RRY..!!"
[BU. T..1S H3 TH0GH..?]
0:00 never ; oh he's sorry
4:01 cotiles ENA remix
6:08 devil town
9:08 tired
12:25 fallen down
The « HE’S SORRY »
Remind me of the time when I had to do horrible things to survive i was doing thoses things while apologizing over and over again in my head now that I think of it I think those thing where hurting me even more than it hurts others
Idk why I write that but maybe some of you can relate to that
not gonna lie the
"HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
“HE’S SORRY!”
made me remeber how much more healing i have to get and how much of a bastar HE (=from my familly) is
You know I didn’t have that much of a bad childhood (yet) but ever since I came out as Trans I’ve been misgendered even though I decided I was still questioning my family knew my preferred pronouns were he/him/his/himself yet they still use she/her/hers/herself
My parents do that to my transgender brother. I try to stand up for him, and he tries too. No matter how hard we try, no matter what we do, our parents don't give a single damn. They once went on about how he's "a girl", and all that shit. Because of all that, I ended up having to misgender him all the time in front of my parents. I feel like absolute trash when I do that. I know that's not okay. But it's my only way to not be "corrected" about my brother's gender all the time. (In reality, I get yelled at.) I'm sorry, bro...
hey dont let them get you down you are handsome and amazing fuck them
*i want to scream but i can’t*
Such a nice playlist :D
Remember you are loved my friendo!
He touched me in ways that made me want to drown in the ocean. They way he kissed me without permission made me want to fall into a hole and never wake up. The way he asked for me to strip made me want to plunge a knife into my heart. We were both 6 years old. The way he made me think he loved me made me want to bleed to death. Why would he do that?
I am so sorry that happened to you you deserved better