@@hisfavworstnightmare Simply put it, it's worth it to feel happy, even if it's for 1 second at the very last second of your life, it's worth all the pain in the world, if you really want to feel instant happiness, go give food to homeless people, check up on people, literally being nice makes you feel better, it's a bit selfish but it works, it really works.
Made this playlist 10 months ago, and honestly, I'm proud of y'all for staying with me till this day. I was so desperate at that time, like i can't sleep or eat properly. I cried for days thinking that maybe i should've just end it all because of how worthless i am. But now I'm here, changed, no sh, no negative thoughts, no suddenly crying out of the blue, just plain living my good ol life. Not everyone has a good start tbh, but that doesn't mean its gonna be bad all the way, you just gotta get through it slowly. I know not many people gonna care about this, well it's ok, you don't have to anyway, but if you want to give it a try , good job. Again, I'm really proud of y'all.
I’m happy for u. this rlly is how it is, I went to not even being able to get up from my bed to being the first to get up and get ready. I still have a hard time on some days, but it’s all getting better for me. no matter how depressed you are, don’t give up yet
Aubrey being the picture in the middle is the most perfect thing I could ask for in a vent playlist. I kin her so much to the point that I realize the things I do is related to her. Her anger.. her past.. her reasons.. her view of the world.. it's all so relatable. I, myself, have also lost a loved one. I really do miss them. But my friends and family go on in life as if they've never passed away, worse enough, never existed in their life. It really does hurt seeing people saying they understand how I feel even if they've never even seen what happened in my life for them to say so. All my life I've blamed myself for being so antisocial and so easy to anger. But it wasn't long before I finally accepted it. My life fell apart at an early age, 7. My family and my friends also started treating me different since then. I lost almost 3 special people in my life due to chronic sickness, and lost 1 due to suicide. I never saw the world the same again, my dream of having a happy future, it's all gone, crushed and severed by not only my family, but myself.
im so sorry all that happened to you, but I’m also very excited that somebody recognized Aubrey :D!! omori is one of my very big hyperfixations right now and one of my favs
Im truly sorry to hear that, it must have been unimaginable and harsh, especially for an already fragile mind at that age... its a scary fact, how easily people can "Break". Disease and mental disorders are such a hard thing to go through, and I'm not sure people recognize it like they should...
Omfg I could talk about omori for hours its not even a joke like omg i love snuy with all my heart and i love how everything is tied together and i love everything about the game i am going to break if i cant eat more omori content
I don’t want to seem strange, but I have absolutely the same story, only fewer people died from chronic diseases, but there are more suicides, although I think this comment is unnecessary in this case
your family members moved on from something sad putting it behind them to not feel such pain like you. You should move on too look at the brighter things in life
When I was 15, some months before mom died, that was my first time considering ending it all, but it was only thoughts, no action in real life. I'm about to be 26 yrs old, a lot of things, happy and sad ones, happened during all this time, but I feel this "feeling" is still hiding in the shadows, and it comes to say hi sometimes. I know there are a few people who love me, some people will miss me for some time maybe, but that feeling of "it would be nice to disappear without leaving a trace of my memory and person in others' minds" never left, haha. I guess I will always live considering I'm a burden for every person in this world, but I also want to see what kind of experiences await for me in the future. I wish the best for everyone who got into this playlist, whatever your motive is, I hope life gets brighter for whoever needs it, you deserve it.
My dad committed suicide when I was 13, I am 23 now and the only thing I can tell you is that there is a solution even if it seems impossible. You are loved and you will be. If you feel sick in the environment you’re living in right now, move. You can not heal in the place that made you sick. Even if it’s a small change, please try. Take a new course, change your coffee habit, look for another school, try to reset but please, keep trying. Everything will be fine in the end and if it’s not going fine, then it’s not the end yet. Keep going 🤍
"Its crazy how we cry all night long silently in our rooms but the next day we act like nothing happend " "Anger is strange, i want too punch somone but at the same time i just want a hug" "I wont eat until you do"
Listening to this brings back memories of a lonely, depressed kid who couldn't ever walk for too long because they barely ever had the will to eat. Things slowly changed once I started being more patient with myself. Once I accepted that, yes, it was okay to be me. I mean, I didn't WANT to be me, but it was alright. One day I finally looked at the little, minuscle part of me that still wanted to live. I wanted to try to change my reality. It was... excruciatingly slow, and I'd often get back to where I started. Often I'd think my progress wasn't good enough, maybe I couldn't do it, maybe it was all useless... one day I saw someone online say something among the lines of "doing 1% is better than nothing, start half-assing things". And I started applying that to my life. Eating just a bit more, taking care of myself just a bit better, doing what I had to do just a little bit before I came back to it and then do a little bit more again This concept just got stuck in my head. I started looking at my messy room and realized I could at least push things to the corner, or clean a little bit and then stop. It wasn't clean yet, but it was a bit better than before. I want to let you know that god, I'm FAR from an ideal life state. I still have to keep fighting. But thanks to all the little bit of self care over the years, my health and environment are way better and I feel like I can actually breathe. I dropped toxic friendships, learned when to let myself simply FEEL angry/sad and when to do something about it, learned what battles to fight, learned what/who to let go of and I learned that no, sunlight, exercise and drinking more water WON'T make you feel better, but it'll give you some much needed space to do so. Something as simple as changing the environment of your room (the pillows/blankets, the way you lay down, etc), changing clothes or opening your window can give your brain just enough stimulation for you to be able to do other things a bit more easily. And it's easier to snowball from there (in a good way). It'll likely be a tiny snowball, though, but keep pushing! One day, you'll get out of that hellhole. I'm not sure what time will make out of me, but I'm glad that I decided to try. It's "okay" to not be okay, just please try not to drown in that feeling. Trust me when I say that trying a little bit to make yourself feel better is worth it. Be consistently gentle with yourself. Yes, even when you don't think you deserve it.
Good job, you've got it right. Just keep pushing forward a little bit each and every day, multiply that over a lifetime and it adds up. God speed to you my friend.
Everytime I get some sense of “peace”, I remember who I am and everything falls apart. I’ve hated myself all of my 18 years of life, I’ve done very thing to get rid of the feeling but somehow it always comes back. I’ve build this wall around me so that people don’t acknowledge my existence but it’s futile, I will be stuck in this body forever. I tried to “love myself” but i always end up in the same place where I started. I am so tired of it all, I’m so tired of trying, I’m overall tired of life.
I know how you feel, from my 15 years of life, I never could love myself once. People tell me that I am perfect but they just don't understand the real me. I am a whole failure, a burdon. These thoughts keep coming back everytime I rest or just stay without doing something but, I am just too tired to do anything. I fall asleep in class, in the bus and tramway but I don't feel like I do. I'm just tired all day and night. I wanna end my nightmare once and for all. I tried, and failed at that too. I don't know you, but I love you so much. Thank you for your comment and I hope you life will get better ❤️
Anyone who really knows themselves will find things they hate about themselves. Everyone has a shadow. The question is are you going to let that shadow stop you from striving towards the light? I believe God has put a small piece of his divine fire into each person. A small beautiful spark each person has to offer to the world. It may feel hopeless and you may feel worthless but that isn't true. You've got more value than you could ever know. You are created with love in God's image, take pride in that! Imperfect and broken as you are you can't let those demons stop you from pushing forward!
Yes I feel you and I see you my friend. It's just a matter of time till we all break again and sadly some of us won't repair themselves again... To be left, broken. But I remember all these people who put faith in me once and I keep on going. Remember these fragments of nice things. Love you all
@@adrianm7203 god does not exist and if there is a god at all then he hates us and he is an obstacle, if god is real then he is the enemy and we should overcome the bullshit he does to us
sometimes i feel like no one appreciates me and when i tell people that they just say that they have no idea what to say. i feel so lost, i feel like i have done so much, i have sacrificed so much for people. but it will never be enough. i will never be enough.
when you start getting older you realize that nobody owes you anything, no one is gonna feel sorry for you, everyone is battling their own battles. start doing things for YOU, treat yourself and practice self care! ❤
The exact same thing happens to me. Except my ex cheated on me with my bestfriend and they'd just kiss right in front of me and all I could do at the time was smile and say congrats.
I feel the same way i try so hard and yet others treat Me very badly this is only one of the reasons I don't talk about my feelings anymore sometimes I don't talk at all now I'm begging To wonder if I have depression...
They didn't notice you were crying They did notice you were sad They didn’t notice you were tired They didn’t notice you were alone They didn’t notice how attentive you were They didn’t notice how sweet you actually are They didn’t notice how you try to make others smile They did notice you failing grades They did notice your unattractive They did notice the mean side of you They did notice all your mistakes They did notice all your flaws They did notice that you weren’t good enough for them. But you stayed strong You kept going on You never gave up on hope You never let then take you down And you know they weren't good enough for you And that’s what make you stronger (credits to original writer)
Whoever that has played Omori with even the slightest of relatability to its story or characters has their heart marked for the rest of their lives, as if it was a tattoo that stays forever either in a good or bad way.
I understand completely. I’ve lost hope in everything, but I choose to continue staying here for people around me. And because I am just wishing something good will happen to me. I just want to feel something. You got this love. I wish you all the best in the near future. I love you
@@didxmk We will never know for sure what is for us in the future, but I know that good things are coming for you. Even if you don't think so, I know for sure. We just can't give up. I truly do know you will have a better future. Stay positive. Love you
The second song sounds so nice... It's like there are pretty, thin blue curtains waving in the wind above my bed as I lie there, unafraid to fall asleep. There's a nice sky above me, with the kind of sunshine I used to know when I was little. It just sounds so blue and good to me, and I love it. Thank you. :D
Goodbye. I'm going to permanently sign off of UA-cam now. I have nothing to live forward to anymore. I'll miss my kids. I wish I treated y'all better and I want you to know that you two were my pride and joy and I wouldn't trade y'all for anything! And Tia if you'd ever find this. I'm so sorry. I'll see you again soon my love. Please just wait for me. If anyone sees this. Please hug your loved ones and don't let them go. I'm proud that I lived this long...just wished I enjoyed it. I love you.
Don't end it. Suicide is one of the most selfish things that a person can do, believe it or not. Yeah it might seem like a good idea for you to not experience life anymore but now everyone in your life is going to suffer mourning you. My childhood best friend couldn't take life anymore and left without no goodbyes. I cried till this day thinking how could he do this, how could he leave me? Was it my fault that he didn't want to live? The sad part is I'll never know and the thought of it makes me tear up. What I'm trying to prove is don't go. Do not leave your family, your kids, your friends, etc. Don't make them suffer their whole life without you in it.
hii naya, wanna talk ab it? you have lotsss of things to live for, your kids love you and don’t wanna live in a world without you, nobody wants to live in a world without you naya ❤ i know you probably heard “it’ll get better” and maybe you lost hope in that saying, but lemme just say that you have a whole life ahead of you with good things that are bound to happen, stay for your kids nayaaa 😕 and stay for yourself and your future ! you are so loved i promiseeeee
@@tay-lq6db aww :( I'm sorry for your childhood best friend... But, even if suicide sounds selfish (i swear i'm not encouraging people), it really depends on why they want to die- sometimes, it is for selfless reasons, but that doesn't mean it is okay. (just saying it isn't selfish, that is all TwT;)
hey...just came across this. i hope you know that things can be rough, and yeah. life does have its downward parts, but that doesnt mean give up! it just makes you stronger, and helps you know whats wrong and right. you got this naya! even if i dont know you, i know you got this :) stay strong, i hope youre ok and safe atm
Damn, this made me sob. Please, if you're still here, PLEASE, PLEASE don't do it. Life sucks sometimes but you can't give up. You're hurting your kids so badly, and everyone around you. People love you. If you're still here and see this, respond. We're here for you.
People often tell me that the joy of life lies in experiences. But I really can't find anything that makes me feel happy, i dont even know what am i living for, all i know is just tiredness and bored.
Did you have any passions as a kid? Anything that made you excited when you were young? It might be worth revisiting those things and thinking how you might take them into adulthood. For example if you liked Lego as a kid, then maybe get into Robotics or 3D Modeling. If you liked playing outside then pick up a sport or start jogging. Only you can find you.
I don't want to die, but i feel there's nothing for me to live for. I live with ghosts and i am one myself I don't want to go on : i just keep making everything worse
i hate myself. and thats okay, i can accept the fact i hate myself. i know deep down, the little girl i used to be still loves me. no matter what. but, currently, it's a different story. i'm so sick of this life. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it, i hate it, i hate it. i'm constantly ignored, called annoying, body shamed, and made fun of. what did i do wrong? i just wanted friends. i just wanted a friend. i don't know what i did wrong. please, i'm sorry.
@@NeotronHorxen hi! i dont know you, but i forgot about this comment. sadly, im practically the same, but your comment made me a little happier. to know that a stranger cares, is all i needed. thank you for asking and blah blah blah, sorry for the paragraph. but, seriously, thanks.
i hate the fact im constantly helping others when i cant help my own self first. i hate how im telling them to eat after i starved myself for days, how im telling them to sleep when i didnt sleep for nights, how im asking them about every little scratch and if theyre okay and doing alright when theres blood and scars all over my body. i hate how i always look out for everyone, even those who hate me.
Don’t be on the internet too much as it can give you easy rushes of dopamine which can make other things seem boring and useless , not to say that’s gonna solve all your problems but just something to think about if you wanna take a break. Lots of love from the uk ❤❤❤❤❤
Some of my friends think im always happy and anytime the say you dont get it or you aren't depressed something like that, I do know what they feel. Sometimes they think I have no idea what depression really feels like or emptiness but i do lol. I bet some people are the people who act happy but actually suffering know what im talking about.
Y’a i get you I’m o e of these people I have friends who find things hard a du try to help but I just want to tell them about me ans so they just have no idea and sometimes last yea4 I made jokes about ‘good bye world ‘and everyone laughed but I wasn’t joking but I’m better now but hate holding it in and smiling
~To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus. ~To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. ~To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. ~To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! -Not mine, but pass it around
I'm coping through everything with humor and sometimes when I can't find a joke and get ignored I feel like I'm just not worthy my own family barely gives me love that I've become a people pleaser
You are most definitely worthy. Worthy of everything on this freaking planet. You don’t realize how much you matter to me and people in our hearts. I’m so proud of you for staying for this long, you deserve the whole world. I love you from the bottom of my heart, you deserve a wonderful happy life. Please take care love
a message to everyone reading these comments: i've been seeing a lot of depressed suicidal comments and i want to tell all of you that you're wonderful. you just have to focus on what you've done good! if nobody notices, have yourself notice. you've got something to live for, we all do. it gets better, it really does! i've felt depressed too. you just have to be patient and the storm will pass. it might not be much coming from a stranger on the internet, but i care. live, please! 😄
There is nothing good about me I was never kind or smart or pretty I was just dumb, rude, ugly The only thing good about me is that I’m bad at everything so it makes others feel better
while listening to this playlist, i remembered something ... yesterday I wrote in a role-playing game about problems with my mother and was waiting for support. at the same time, another member had a nosebleed. and the one who supported the other participant and said "her problems are more important than yours." I just laid there and sobbed into my pillow. again my problems were devalued(ps there may be errors because I used a translator)
a nose bleed is more important than what you openly said emotional things that you care about and your problems? Their nosebleed isn't at all worse than what you've went through It's been a year, I hope you're doing okay.. everyone has problems like trauma but it's not right to be devalued by someone who doesn't understand your problems, what they said wasn't right. I wish you a lucky and fortunate year
i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. (not mine but pass it around, everyone deserves
I love you too❤ tysm, I really needed that. I felt always like hurting myself. But when you said that, you gave me some less self hatred and a bit more self love. Thank you❤
To anyone who’s here and feels lost, or helpless, or broken, please don’t hurt yourself :(( I know everyone around you sounds like a broken record when they say it, but you’ve lived for so long. You’ve fought so hard. Please, don’t give up all that effort for nothing. You’re still here! You are incredibly strong, and anyone can gain the courage to move forward. I know that if you need it, you will find the courage to find help, assistance, hope. I love you kind stranger 🧡
If you're feeling lost, helpless or broken you're not strong, you're extremely pathetic and weak, you shouldn't need courage or motivation be resilient, there's no struggle in life
The last 6 years have been so bad for me that i don't even remember half of it and sometimes I feel so bad because there is no one around who could support me in any way,im sure im disgusted even by my mother but i can't,i can't end like this,it's terrible,it's too selfish,and i know that on the other side of the planet there is a person who is waiting for me,who loves me,and i just can't leave him if you are tired,then please rest,you deserve it,i believe that someday you will find a person who will love you as much as you love them!please,don't give up just to make your dreams come true!
“Come to me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will rest.” - Jesus Matthew 11:28 Jesus loves you very much. I am healed because of him. And he wants to heal you too. just come to him He is the reason I am alive today.
I've spent a lot of time alone and isolated in my life and I'm only 20 years old... I thought things would change when I grew up, but the loneliness still hasn't faded. I can't count how many letters I wrote back in highschool, but they never would've made up for me ending it... it doesn't get easier, but you learn to soldier on.
My constant mood swings and mental health make me fail almost everything. Sometimes it's the only thing I can think of, and it seems the only solution.
Hey that's not your fault. You have to play the hand you've been dealt. You can't just quit the game because you don't like the cards. I'm willing to bet that there's still a lot you have to offer the world despite your struggles. I believe in a God who loves every person he's ever created, and that includes you even with your challenges. No one is here by accident and you have something beautiful to offer the world even though you can't see it yet.
Nobody is perfect , we all sometimes feel like we are failing life but I think the most important thing is to try to start again, maybe you should take this time to find a hobby or something you like ( I myself use art ) just to really try to perfect, join clubs to try meet new people. Buy something for yourself maybe to feel nice and practice self-care , telling yourself you love yourself regardless of you flaws because we all have them. And maybe take a step back from your parents exactions or your boyfriends and try to focus on trying to live up to your own whatever they might be. Also being on the internet a lot can give you a sense of loneliness and it can give you quick rushes of dopamine which can make normal life numbing and sad so take a retreat from that too. Lots of love from the uk ❤❤❤
It's not your fault Your not a problem You are perfect You aren't fat You aren't skinny You aren't the problem You aren't a bad person You are wonderful You aren't a crybaby Your don't deserve them You love yourself You are clean You are kind Your are the person that everyone wants Your skin isn't a paper... don't cut it Your face isn't a mask... don't hide it Your heart isn't a door... don't lock it Your size isn't a book... don't judge it Your life isn't a movie... don't end it Your neck isn't a rope... don't hang it Your body isn't for sale... don't sell it Your brain isn't a stone... don't crush it Your life is an inspiration...be proud of it
Love yourself.. you are perfect no matter what you do. The past of you suffering will end Your suffering will end Don't c^t your body your hair Don't kill your self yet. If you have a pet it will make your problem go away They get mad at you for being soo perfect They blame you because you are so pretty/handsome/stunning You are brighting the world.. you are a true star Keep going.. it will past. We love you don't stop being kind to everyone The kindness will speard and the kidness will also pay you back. They love you they just don't wanna show the loveness for you You are so perfect that everyone gets mad and jealous Give everyone a second chance not too many tho your eyes is perfect your nose is perfect your height is perfect your skin is perfect your mouth is perfect your hair is perfect your face is perfect your body is perfect your hands is perfect your fingers is perfect your teeth is perfect your waist is perfect Your torso is perfect your legs are perfect your thighs are perfect your tounge and everything is perfect YOU are perfect love your body and everything You are so greatful for what you have. Ignore the bad people you dont want them to get attached to you And leave your fake friends You deserve better. Don't give up Cheer up aswell Pretty/handsome/stunning person. We are proud to see you alive. We are so proud We love your smile We love your laugh We love your personality So don't give up We love you. We love you so much Don't end it too fast. Don't commit Don't get controled Don't make them control you like a puppet Do your own way Do everthing you like Ignore the rude people Ignore the hate Ignore getting yelled There's people by your side and always be. We love you no matter what you do to yourself. They don't know what your been through They ain't been in your shoes Don't belive them they are liars Love youself. We are proud of you existing here We love you so much.. NEVER GIVE UP You're precious You made it this far. And it's so amazing that you are still here
Little vent Sometime I wish I don’t wake up, I can’t take the pain any longer if we are honest I felt so safe with this boy man I tried everything I gave him my love, my heart but still he feels nothing for me, I wish I could disappear one day, I wish everyone hates me so I can leave, I wish he wouldn’t care about me so I can hurt myself
Hey, sorry for a long text. I just wanted to let you know that I know how that feels, it must've been hurtful, but it's just the way life is. Sometimes we don't get what we want no matter how hard we try, I'm in a similar situation too, certain things don't depend on our efforts, life's just not fair... But we can still achieve and enjoy a lot. Just think about the fact that you're not just some human on Earth who happened to be heartbroken but the whole Universe itself. We are made of the Universe and the Universe is made of us. Also there are many kind, caring and fun people you can share your life and joy with, and a lot of things to do, make and experience, even „little” things like going into nature, listening to music, reading, doing your hobbies, the taste of your favorite foods and drinks, playing with animals, hanging out with amazing people and lots of other stuff. So please, don't end it. I'll repeat that you're not just that particular organism but the whole existence itself, because what else could you be? Try to be physically and mentally healthy, don't be afraid to ask for help from healthcare professionals. Enjoy life, don't take it for granted, be grateful, life always has better things for you that you just can't imagine now. I love you and care about you so much, and many others do
man i love this sm, i almost always listen to this and when i read the comments i see a lot of people saying comforting things that just overall make me feel better then how i was before. i wish everyone a hb if its today and go get some water.
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
I failed as a girlfriend I failed as a daughter I failed as a friend I failed as a best friend I failed as a classmate I failed my family I failed all . Hey! Thanks for all the comments, I am very grateful for everything. Thanks for all the support, actually, now , after 5 months that I commented this, I'm feeling a lot better. It was a phase of my life that I almost commit suic9d3. Thank you for everything. I hope you all the best.
Nobody is perfect , we all sometimes feel like we are failing life but I think the most important thing is to try to start again, maybe you should take this time to find a hobby or something you like ( I myself use art ) just to really try to perfect, join clubs to try meet new people. Buy something for yourself maybe to feel nice and practice self-care , telling yourself you love yourself regardless of you flaws because we all have them. And maybe take a step back from your parents exactions or your boyfriends and try to focus on trying to live up to your own whatever they might be. Also being on the internet a lot can give you a sense of loneliness and it can give you quick rushes of dopamine which can make normal life numbing and sad so take a retreat from that too. Lots of love from the uk ❤❤❤
we all failed something in life its just how we learn that maybe moving on is the best option but dont be so hard on urself life is life you only live once make the most of it and to everyone who has someone who has died in their life remember that if they were still here they wouldnt want to be sad all the time seeing you smile is all they need
For those who want to end it pls read this Those who love you wouldn't just miss you they'll cry and cry even put them in a state you were in. They love you i love you, no matter how hard life is you could see the brightest side of life the next day, you never know and yet it is true you might see the darkest too try not to think about that do what makes you happy because you'll never know what life truly has in store for you it could be as pretty and handsome as you are you many not be perfect but nobody is, so please don't end it all because that's is never the good thing to do even if you think it is, it's not -From one suicidal kid to another
It's crazy. You want to end something that hurts, but it will be just given to the next person... I hope you are not having a bad phase, and I wish you figured out something that makes you feel happy c:
When you are suffering and feeling down everyone tells you to get a therapist or to start the healing process. But no one talks about how much the process hurts. No one tells you that while trying to pick yourself back up again and love yourself again that your going to fail about a hundred more times over and over again. Getting better hurts and takes time. It's like opening a wound even more too peer inside to see what's wrong then slowly and painfully stitching it back up with a needle and thread. To anyone reading this, I promise the hurt will one day stop but it's going to take a lot of work to get there but it will be so worth it. You will climb, succeed and flourish like never before. Don't let the needle and thread scare you. Sure it's painful to look back on and to experience but you won't regret it. Don't let yourself or anyone get in the way of you. You are a rare chance of happening. Did you know that you being here should be impossible but with all the odds against you are here. So let yourself live and experience the life you deserve. If not for you then little you, carry little you around the world and all its wonders too see how beautiful life can be from a certain angle. You are an experience, you are beauty in a life form, you are a phenomenon that only happens once within the concept of time. Heal, take your time and don't let anything stop you.
If you are currently feeling depressed and considering ending it, don’t. There’s someone there for you, even if you don’t realize it. Even if there isn’t, you will soon find someone that will be there for you. I believe in you, I believe you can overcome your negative thoughts and just know, someone loves you. And if you think no one does, I’m here. I love you no matter what.
I came here to enjoy melancholic music, but I never thought that I'd see so many people expressing how they feel, almost all wants to give up, and to those who who are struggling, we're here for you. It's hard, I know, I'm struggling myself too, relapsing, depressed, and so many more, but I don't want to give up, and you shouldn't too. It's hard, it really is, but we can get up. I'm not much of a talker, but when it comes to situations like this, I can't just sit or stand by, I have a voice and you have one as well. Please, never give up. I'm here with you, and almost everyone here is with you. We have different stories, different lives, but know that you're not alone, even though I'm a stranger, my heart goes out to those who are suffering, and if you're already trying to change for the better, I'm proud of you, we're. Grasp on to that blinking, flickering, ever fleeting light, make it grow and spread it amongst those who have lost it. Be the light, be the hope, be the torch that you've wanted someone to be.
Everyone's potentially important in their own unique way. You create yourself, your role and your importance in life and society, but it requires hard work, persistence and dedication. Don't give up, life always has better things for you that you can't imagine now, speaking from my experience. Try to learn and apply how to be physically and mentally healthy, be happy and enjoy life. Just don't be afraid, find the courage and just do it, live! Lysm
Also don't be afraid to seek help and ask a healthcare professional for it or at least talk to friends, loved ones or even to just stranger people that are willing to give you a listening ear about your problems and woe.
Its been a while since i felt happy i feel in complete lost i just feel numb and tired all the time. I keep telling myself it would all get better. But, i dont know.. Everytime i consider the idea of death i feel relieved as if all of this could just stop. But when i realise i am still here i just go back to feeling nothing. I hope it gets better. It should get better. Thats what i have ro fight for rn, even if that idea seem so far fetched.. Stay strong :)
i want to be happy. i tried my hardest to care for them. even if they were just my friend i care. i like them. and my friends said they liked me at some point. then why would they just stop talking to me? everytime i try and talk to them they say something rude. i cry thinking about it. i want them to care for me like i do for them. they don’t know how much i care. they are oblivious about how i feel inside when they say those rude things to me. they seem to be happier with everyone else. we used to be together all the time. but suddenly they stopped hanging out with me. they don’t care about our relationship anymore. we used to be so close. i was almost going to tell them my feelings. but then they stop hanging out with me and are rude. i just want them back. they are killing me inside. they don’t even know that either. i want them back and i want to be with them. but i cannot have anything i please. i hope this will get out of my head. i’m crying right now thinking about it. i want to be happy with them. but they are never with me. i just don’t get how they can forget everything we were. i want the old them back and i want to be the one for them. but right now i’m just going to trust in whatever god puts in my hands. he gives me stuff for a reason. i just hope this reason doesn’t make me someone i don’t want to be. i want to be happy. so from now forward i’m going to do anything i can to make myself happy and make myself forget everything we ever had.
Where did it all go wrong? Childhood? But how was it my fault. Not knowing how to live in a house full of flames, My wrist could tell them stories. Scars won't fade, So does the past. It was never my fault, I realise Was it all I deserved? Yes, I understand Letting go of people, Who didn't hurt me As I slowly close my eyes. It's all over.
Everything is fine. You see, you are not a burden nor someone to apologize to. You’re not being a nuisance. You are your own person, worth more than every treasure in the world. Your existence is a gift. And never forget the fact that I am always here. I am always here to listen, and to protect you. So please, my dear friend, tell me, what worries you? What has been bothering you? Is there anything I can do to help?
Since this is and actual sad playlist,and nobody knows who i am here,this is a good place to vent then I was abußed when i was a child,i experienced all types of abu$e already,physically mentally and sexually,being a child was not in my parents intention,lets say i was already forced to grow up,the only thing im disappointed about is when i was a child I thought all this is normal,all this was just some years and it will end,I remember telling myself its just some hours and it will end,it never ended,when i became 7 i got my very first friend, her name was angel,she was the most beautiful thing that ever happened in my life,looking at her alone was a relaxing thing to do every morning,when I don’t wanna go to school I remember her,i say i will go for angel,i always had good grades just so she will say Im proud of you Mayar!..this word was not only a good thing to hear after an exam,it was a whole dream , years after she started getting disgusted of me ,she hated me and she bullied me , i never told the principal or the teachers because i knew they will yell at her and she cries easily , i was afraid i will be a reason for her sadness , few years later i was diagnosed with mental illness , depression and social anxiety , i was a failure for my parents , when i was diagnosed my mom started crying and my father was comforting her , like she was the one who was diagnosed not me , i became at 6th grade and it was the most beautiful year i ever had , i am here now 13 years old , gotta be disappointed because alot of teenagers are probably living the same life as me , my name is mayar btw
I'm sorry that you lost your angel. Keep standing tall. You are made in God's image, a child of God love by Him. You may have been abandoned by your angel but you have not been abandoned by God. It's a long road ahead of you and it's not going to be easy, but do your best to keep walking forward no matter what. I'll be praying for you my friend.
for those having a heard time i know life really really sucks but trust me you hurting your self does more damage to those who care you may think no one cares but trust me someone does i do i care about you you dont deserve to have such a hard life i understand your under alot of pressure but dont let that break you your not alone everyone is struggling dont hurt yourself what ever your going through dont let it beat you down use it to help others that have been or are going through it help them help yourself trust me someone truly does care about you life can be very hard but still ending it is not worth it it only hurts those around you i have suffered losing someone because they could not take it anymore it only hurts those who care its never worth doing if you need someone to talk to i am here for you please take care of your self im proud you have dealt with all this and still are the amazing person you are
its an awful feeling, knowing that no matter what, no matter how hard you try, no matter how much effort you put in, how much you put yourself out there, its never enough. it wont be enough. it makes you not want to try anymore, and then the few times you think maybe this time it'll be different, and you finally try, you promptly get reminded why you stopped trying in the first place. but i guarantee you, you will find the people and environment where everything you do, every ounce of effort, no matter how small, will matter. you will be seen, you will be heard, and you will be shown that you have always mattered.
Hey ya'll, normally I dont like to rant on the internet but it seems like this is a place to do it so please bare with me... I've always been a caring soul, and I dont like to toot my own horn, and its nice to help people that feel sad, depressed or even just tired. I'm glad I'm like this, but it feels like there's a cost to such empathy, especially to a quiet soul like myself. I've never really had any true friends, and if I do have "friends" their more or less just acquaintances, and trust me I try my hardest to be kind and company for anyone in need, but feeling like a person that people discard the moment there feeling better isnt a good feeling. As an introvert I was ready to break out of my shell pre-covid, and then everything happened, I've developed an....almost fear of isolation, never have wanted true bffs or even a gf/partner more than I do now. These past 3-4 years have been the hardest I've ever had in my life, and I've tried to work on myself and even tried to develop new hobbies, but it all feels empty....deafeningly quiet, no matter what I do, it just all feels off. I've been a part of a couple of discord servers, real life "friend" groups, and even tried to start those groups on my own, none of them work out in the end, the chat stop chilling with each other, I get ghosted, etc. I've recently gotten to a point where it just all feels gray, I've been trying so hard to fight those feelings, and I just dont know haha...its just hard... Sorry for this long rant, but I just want to say, for those of ya'll who feel the way I do, or just are struggling in general, your not alone, and I genuinely hope you get through whatever your going through, and your not alone, truck on ya'll. Edit: P.S, sry if this is all unorganized I just talked what was on my mind.
My friend, the only friend one needs in life is hatsune miku. Trust me, once you have consented hatsune miku into your life all will be perfect. Hatsune miku is my number one waifu and there's enough of her to go around, my friend. Get a body pillow, some figurines, and maybe some physical copies of my queen bee's songs. hatsune miku is the first sound of the future, YOUR future, my friend. hatsune miku has the fattest gyatt in the world, which is why her flagship song is World is Mine. Trust me, hatsune miku is always the answer, no matter the situation. Conform to mikuism.
I feel numb all the time and the the other day my mom took her frustration out on me before I left for school and I don’t know how much I have to hide all my pain and hurt anymore I’m tired of faking a smile and being “happy”I just wanna cry but I can’t
I feel you 100%.... parents always puts lots of pressure on us that they don't know how much we have to deal with constantly. I wish I could give you the biggest hug. If you ever need someone to ever talk to, I'm here :)
I hope you feel better just keep going till your out of school and try to find exiting things to do, school can really trap you in a loop of sadness and repetion just remember you have your future to fight for. I love you ❤❤❤
There's nothing wrong with your eyes. There's nothing wrong with your nose There's nothing wrong with your height There's nothing wrong with your skin There's nothing wrong with your mouth There's nothing wrong with your hair There's nothing wrong with your face There's nothing wrong with your body There's nothing wrong with your hands There's nothing wrong with your fingers There's nothing wrong with your teeth There's nothing wrong with YOU you are perfect. I am so proud of you:) You made it to this far. You are amazing:) Don't give up. NEVER GIVE UP you're pretty You're precious Don't need to be insecure abt your face. You are so beautiful
Im so tired its not even a joke anymore when everyday you feel like your being forced to live. i already had a bad day today and my father got angry at me for some reason. he was extremely harsh and kept calling me “dumb child” multiple times. Dad whatever mistakes i did to you im so sorry please forgive me but at the same time please realize what you’re saying to your own daughter it hurts so much
It's okay everything is okay. Your dad will realize that he's not between a good father to you and your bond will get better I promise just be patient mkay? Love u sweetheart.
Tbh whenever I see one of these all of the vents are just.. so heartbreaking. I end up feeling bad for feeling similar to how they feel, as if I should be happy abt my life. A lot of ppl probably feel this way, but I dk
I want to vent so...HERE WE GO! I failed my talent exam on the 18th of january 2023. It's mainly because they looked at my grades and boy...my grades are horrible. So. god.damn.horrible. There's a good reason though. It's just the fact that I've been dealing with so much and it started to affect me badly in 5th grade. It took me 4 years to actually start to care about myself a bit, know a bit about how things should be or shouldn't be. I don't like saying that I'm traumatized because it feels like I'm not, but I probably am. Hell, I saw my father leave, I saw arguements between my family that were horrible. I was present near them, I got bullied to the point where I truly just believed that I'm not good at anything, that all I'm good at is just English, and that's it. I've chased my skill for so damn long, just to realize it's always been there, it was drawing and such. But I chased after it so so so much, just to find something to be good at, to appreciate, to love, to be PROUD OF. Just for my brother to tell me that I can't draw. It still hits me so fucking hard, and the fact that I failed that talent exam worsens it. It took me so long to actually get back and LOVE my art in some way just because I keep thinking im not good enough. I don't draw enough, I'm not good at art, I suck. I hate my mindset for that. Then there's ofc my mother, a single mother who raised 6 children. She's tired, she doesn't want to raise me anymore, she's too tired to. She wished that she actually aborted me. She talks like im not there to others. Hell, whenever I wanted to talk, she'd just start talking herself and never let me talk to anyone. No matter how much I wanted to talk to my only sibling that I cared for because she was actually there for me. It got all ruined the moment we stopped talking to eachother that much. I miss her, but she betrayed me. She told me to tell her when I can't take it anymore, to ask her for help only for her to tell me that I have to deal with it. That fucking hurt. It still does, and I became allergic to that sentence. "You're just gonna have to deal with it for those two years." I. hate. it. I hate it so much. I don't want to hear it, I feel betrayed. SO DAMN BETRAYED BY EVERYONE. It hurts. All of it hurts and I hate it all. I hate that I became the way I am, I still sometimes SH even when I said I wouldn't, I promised it. I still do anyway. I'm sorry for that, Fish, I'm really sorry. I do have friends, two actually. I consider them as my best friends, they know everything. I appreciate them. But honestly, even when someone says that 'things will get better', it always gets worse too. I don't even want to live anymore. I'm just waiting for my final straw and just end it all. I don't want to be here anymore, but I have pets. I have 7 pets and I don't want to leave them alone, but then again I feel worse for even bringing them into this place. I just want to die, that's all. I don't even think I can be saved anymore, I don't think anyone can help me anymore. I really just want to die, be gone. I should have been 16 years ago and even a year ago. I fucking planned it and didn't even go through with it.. I just want to die now. I hate that I endlessly look for anything that could potentionally just kill me, but looking up things like that just makes me feel numb. I mean, hell, seeing only "you can die" of something just makes me laugh and say "oh nice!" I hate that. I don't want to feel that way at all. I don't feel deserving of anything, hell I don't even feel deserving of the fact that I vent. I hate venting. Another thing is that I might or might not be ill now, which I dislike the idea of. By that, I might or might not have diabetes. It would make sense, since my mom has it and great grandma did aswell. And heck, mom got it from stress, like excessive stress, after something happened. It wouldn't be suprising if what caused mine was when she slapped me in school. Oh, did I forget? Mom works in my school. She slapped me and belittled me infront of two teachers and so many kids...I feel bad for them. The teachers did nothing and ignored it entirely. It was all just because of me not having a costume. (that i forgot) I hate that I now only have two family members. The others went over to my grandpa's side and one cut contact entirely. Mom hates grandpa because he abused her, she's just going through an entire generational trauma and never learned from it. I don't know who to blame for my feelings anymore. I need therapy, I need help, I desperately want help but at the same time I feel like I don't deserve it. That I'm just making up things even though they're probably real? I don't know anymore. I lost contact with reality awhile ago. I sometimes hear things that didn't happen and that scares me. I want to be okay. Please..I really just want to be okay. But I won't be okay. It's not possible and I hate that. I hate it so much..I just want to die, to rest, to rest eternally. That's all I want now. But I won't get that. I'm a coward to even take my own life.
@@payrizz That is true, yes. But that 'help' will never truly help me. I feel like I don't deserve it at all. - It just makes me feel guilty whenever I get a small glimpse of help
dont cut yourself its not worth it you have a futer ahead of you also dont commite suicide if you do evreyone will be sad just dont its not worth it stay strong ok itle get better
I am so sorry to hear that... suicide is the worst crime man, you need to be so damn selfish to commit suicide. I think true power and true happiness only arrives when you are capable of standing upto your own life, however sad you feel. I know it's easier said than done.... but "each drop creates an ocean." Whoever is having suicidal thoughts... please... just hold on, even for a day, just hold on.... there's so, so much more for you. You're worth it, this internet stranger loves you if nobody else does. I love all of you.
@@aviratsingh4291Please dont say suicide is selfish Some people are just too tired and dont find any interest in living anymore. And honestly in a world like this, i'd understand.
@@M1ssL0uvex3 It is selfish in my view. It can just be associated with empathy easily. You need to think about nothing other than your own mindset and life to commit suicide, it may seem rude or insensitive but, think about others too, people who genuinely cared and people who genuinely loved you. They'll forever live with the guilt of not being able to save you.
All these comments making me remember i got bullied 4-5 years ago but i always remembered that and it makes me feel sad. I cant forget what happened even though i try to distract my self with games and making new friends.
I know y'all are tired of something in life rn, and that's alright. Everyone gets to the point where they're just feeling tired/down or even nothing so.. Here's a reminder that I'm proud that you're still going strong and pushing through whatever you're going through!!! You're slaying rlly hard everyday girl/dude ngl ✨✨ And I think you dropped this queen/king 👑 I hope you get through this soon and stay strong!!! If you guys find this, spread the word! Everyone needs to see this as well and can at least know that someone is proud of them :) -Cy
Hey, everyone ! I'm hopping from playlist to playlist willing to lend an ear to anyone wanting to vent their feelings. I've been through a horrible depression and it hurt like shit, but you gotta remember IT DOES GET BETTER !! you just gotta search for the right people !! No matter what happens, don't let anyone or anything get you down. I care about everyone here, and I hope you all get through this 💪💪 YOU /DO/ MATTER !!!! If you fall down IT IS OKAY to rest, JUST DONT QUIT.
I was a great artist when I was little, making my friends and family drawings and I loved getting praised. " aw your drawings so good!" "Ur really smart sweetie". I loved hearing all that and that's why I kept trying but as I kept growing, people just started saying "oh that's nice" or "your making the grades your supposed to make" instead. I still draw wonderfully but I rarely share it anymore unless I know definitely it's eye-catching. No more praise for the "naturally good " artist Ig. My grades aren't any better either.. I want to feel that praise again just for trying my hardest :(
I'm proud of you for trying your hardest! 💖 And some life experience from someone who's been around a bit: Being naturally good at something is nice, but over the long run it's ALWAYS been the people who committed themselves to trying their hardest that ended up being the ones who eventually built a life they loved.
I can relate to Aubrey a lot. Because i feel the same after my Dad passed away. Everyone now in my Family just sees me as a Outcast. There's also a Theory that Aubrey's parents had Aubrey on Accident. Its actually Plausible because Her parents house doesnt even have a Normal room for her. She has to sleep in the Attic. Talk about Child abuse.....
I’m so sorry all of you are going through this. No one should ever have to be put through all this. I’m so sorry, I wish I could give everyone a big massive hug. And if any of you are reading this, just know I love you so so much and your very important to a lot of people and you are so precious. I love you so so much, even though I may not know who any of you are, I bet you all are amazing people. I wish you all the best and I hope things will get better for you all. I love you. 💗
I feel like the only people I trusted stopped caring, I don't want to continue living in a life where people stop caring about me when I mess up one thing
quien lea esto solo quiero decir q por ahora q si esta con algo q no te deja salir nunca te rindas sigue adelante la vida no termina talvez sientas ira por algo o q las cosas no te salen como tu quieres siempre recuerda q no estas solo tienes a alguien siempre a tu lado ,ve la forma de solucionarlo la accion por q sientes q porque te pasa esto algo q hiciste mal?o algo q no puedes lograrlo aunq sea por mucho tu esfuerzo siempre recuerda q a la hora de dormir di a ti mismo q ´´lo diste todo´ nunca nada sera imposible porq pones tu esfuerzo..
before I had nothing and I felt like it couldn't get worse then I found her and she was the only one that actually cared the only one who actually liked me so I had everything as long as I had her by my side guess what I ruined it again I don't deserve a spot in this planet I lost everything all over again and I'm not gonna keep going the only reason I'm still here is because maybe she'll come back but if she doesn't I'm not staying I'm done with everything else she is everything I want and I don't care anymore I didn't care about anything until I meet her and I just care about her now that I lost her I'm tired I'm done with this I just want her to come back.
I feel ya man I'm in the same place. Torn an waiting on her or jus lettin it go. No matter how much I want her to be, she doesn't belong to me anymore. She belongs to the world.
man, there is a lot of people here. I've been thinking about what I should say to all of you here right now. I've tried. I admit that I have indeed tried to take my own life. And I've had people who I care about attempting to take theirs and succeed. It's not a good feeling. Being trapped in pain and sorrow for so long. I know it's hard to keep going. But think about how much your life impacts others. Like a fellow commenter, Naya. You see how many people replied to her comment. How so many people cared. They didn't even know her. So what I want you to do. Is to carry on. Even if you think there's nothing to look forward to anymore, keep your head up and live your dreams. Because these things can only happy once. Don't give up because things just don't go your way or things bring you down. It's not worth it. People like YOU need to stay in this world. I love you for being you, and for trying your best. I'm proud of you. Stay here. Please.
It feels like i dont even care anymore like i have no soul because whenever someone would say their problems in their life they wouldn't care literally just say "oh thats tough i hope u feel better!" like that wont help. But when someone cries for their life does suicide etc. all of a sudden they fucking care. its not that easy, i wish i can just fucking rage at jerks who dont understand shit like depression and make fun of it
It's hard to really care. It requires commitment, and most people are already downing in their own worries. I know people are self centered and I'm sorry. But there is something you can do, become one of the rare ones that can listen and does care. I wish you the best.
Find a community, it's important to have people you can turn to for support. You could always try going to a few of your local churches, even if you aren't religious I've found the church community to be very accepting and supportive.
It's all "be yourself because everyone else is taken" but I have no self, and all I do is copy other people because that's all I'm good for. I'm not my own person. And who wants to be alive to be someone else? Everybody's taken already, there's no room for me.
I failed at life, so I guess i'm a failure as a human being. But don't take it the wrong way, I am not depressed (I think) nor I think of ending it, I am only stating a simple fact. I make mistake, I piss ppl off, I do stupid thing, I am not perfect, never have been and never will be. My problem is that I am a very slow learner. Despite having experienced a lot of things ppl my age didn't, I still go and do the same mistakes again. However what I experienced are not my own, I consume the lives of strangers trough books, so I didn't necessarily found any meaning into "living my own life" especially when I had problems that I will not talk about here. Problems that should have taugh me a lot. And I tought like a lot of you, I tought that I wanted a girlfriend, that I wanted love, sex , like if a girlfriend would have made all my problems to simply disappear. I was naive to think that a relationship with a girl completely out of my league and 3 years older wasn't toxic, I will ignore the details but I suffered as much as I enjoyed myself. Now I remember a conversation I had with her. I was discussing several points in my life where I had been "broken" - where effectively I had crashed psychologically and spiritually. I told her that if it happened again I might simply choose not to "come back." She nodded, opined that she recognized the risk and told me a bunch of comforting things. Quite ironic if I could say. But both of us were wrong. It was not a risk. It is a requirement. I "broke down" before because I was struggling so hard to control things. I was insecure, and felt that if I did not control I would be wiped out. Hell, even when people said positive things my mind would go "that's only because they really don't know me, and when they do they will be angry at how I deceived them." I realized that if I kept my heart and soul clenched like a fist I could neither give nor receive love. It was only by being open that I could connect. I told myself to try to stay open, which meant vulnerable to being broke again and realized that we are the one causing the loneliness and depression that we so often experience. Me and only me is the source of all my problems. I am a failed human being. I am not perfect. And that is the beginning of me becoming more of a human being, by knowing the rot of my problems and why I failed, by undestanding that I failed because I tried to be a being above human a being that is perfect. We often get told that we should love our neighbor as we love ourselves. The questions is due, do we truly love ourselves? Love forgives. Recently someone who is dear to me exploded at me totally inappropriately, I immediately accepted the apology that was offered but he kept returning to how inappropriate and wrong the explosion had been, as if he could not be self-forgiving. I sympathize, because this mindset is similar to the one I had, the one that would say that if only the other person really knew me they would not think so positively of me. It was why it has been difficult for me to accept praise of any kind, even when it was well-justified. I am a failure as a human being because I am human. Here's the thing. That's okay. I may be the one most responsible for my loneliness, my sense of hurt, when I experience depression. I am still trying to become a better human and I will probably fail at some attempts. Which is also okay. In my long way to become a better human I may from time to time make a false step, turn the wrong way, but that won't matter because I am a human being, because I am not perfect and because my life's journey is not yet complete. (I am not a native English, I am curently studying it so if you see any mistake notice me pls)
Hey, you are awesome! don't let others say the opposite of you, you are strong! It's just a phase, i'm with u bro! just don't forget it, YOU ARE PERFECT!! (sorry if my inglish is bad, i'm not american)
To everyone doing their homework, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus. To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is sad, grab a snack, have some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your creation looks terrific. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
Hey, after this, let's listen to some happy music. Gloomy music can make someone feel sad sometimes, but its also a good way to get your thoughts sorted. It's good to know there are people who will try to listen and help, people who made the music, people in the comments, everyone is trying their best. Everyone can't be the best they can all the time. When things are bad all the time, it'll grow inside of you and it makes things more sad. I don't really know what I'm getting at in this comment, but I think I wanna say for you and myself, that things won't always be good and that can be ok sometimes. Just find a healthy way to help yourself, even when you think you don't deserve it.
Johnny Depp once said: “People cry not because they’re weak. They cry because they’ve been strong for too long”
yes
@@935ryan5 🙏
@@0furet460 uhhh💀☠
first reply
@0furet460 how uneducated are u 💀
“I don’t wanna live, just too afraid to die.”
Then keep living. Might not be easy but it will be worth it.
@@adrianm7203 but i don’t want to :(
@@hisfavworstnightmare Hey, it gets better. Things may be dark right now but keep moving forward.
In order to reach the next life, you have to live this one.
@@hisfavworstnightmare Simply put it, it's worth it to feel happy, even if it's for 1 second at the very last second of your life, it's worth all the pain in the world, if you really want to feel instant happiness, go give food to homeless people, check up on people, literally being nice makes you feel better, it's a bit selfish but it works, it really works.
Made this playlist 10 months ago, and honestly, I'm proud of y'all for staying with me till this day. I was so desperate at that time, like i can't sleep or eat properly. I cried for days thinking that maybe i should've just end it all because of how worthless i am. But now I'm here, changed, no sh, no negative thoughts, no suddenly crying out of the blue, just plain living my good ol life.
Not everyone has a good start tbh, but that doesn't mean its gonna be bad all the way, you just gotta get through it slowly. I know not many people gonna care about this, well it's ok, you don't have to anyway, but if you want to give it a try , good job.
Again, I'm really proud of y'all.
Thank you :)
I'm so happy for you, life's made a 180 for me too and I couldn't be happier. Wishing well to everyone across the globe 🫂🖤
thank you so much
I’m happy for u. this rlly is how it is, I went to not even being able to get up from my bed to being the first to get up and get ready. I still have a hard time on some days, but it’s all getting better for me. no matter how depressed you are, don’t give up yet
@@elleanahiiii EXACTLY 🙌🏻🙌🏻
Aubrey being the picture in the middle is the most perfect thing I could ask for in a vent playlist. I kin her so much to the point that I realize the things I do is related to her.
Her anger.. her past.. her reasons.. her view of the world.. it's all so relatable.
I, myself, have also lost a loved one. I really do miss them. But my friends and family go on in life as if they've never passed away, worse enough, never existed in their life.
It really does hurt seeing people saying they understand how I feel even if they've never even seen what happened in my life for them to say so.
All my life I've blamed myself for being so antisocial and so easy to anger. But it wasn't long before I finally accepted it.
My life fell apart at an early age, 7. My family and my friends also started treating me different since then. I lost almost 3 special people in my life due to chronic sickness, and lost 1 due to suicide.
I never saw the world the same again, my dream of having a happy future, it's all gone, crushed and severed by not only my family, but myself.
im so sorry all that happened to you, but I’m also very excited that somebody recognized Aubrey :D!! omori is one of my very big hyperfixations right now and one of my favs
Im truly sorry to hear that, it must have been unimaginable and harsh, especially for an already fragile mind at that age... its a scary fact, how easily people can "Break". Disease and mental disorders are such a hard thing to go through, and I'm not sure people recognize it like they should...
Omfg I could talk about omori for hours its not even a joke like omg i love snuy with all my heart and i love how everything is tied together and i love everything about the game i am going to break if i cant eat more omori content
I don’t want to seem strange, but I have absolutely the same story, only fewer people died from chronic diseases, but there are more suicides, although I think this comment is unnecessary in this case
your family members moved on from something sad putting it behind them to not feel such pain like you. You should move on too look at the brighter things in life
When I was 15, some months before mom died, that was my first time considering ending it all, but it was only thoughts, no action in real life.
I'm about to be 26 yrs old, a lot of things, happy and sad ones, happened during all this time, but I feel this "feeling" is still hiding in the shadows, and it comes to say hi sometimes.
I know there are a few people who love me, some people will miss me for some time maybe, but that feeling of "it would be nice to disappear without leaving a trace of my memory and person in others' minds" never left, haha. I guess I will always live considering I'm a burden for every person in this world, but I also want to see what kind of experiences await for me in the future.
I wish the best for everyone who got into this playlist, whatever your motive is, I hope life gets brighter for whoever needs it, you deserve it.
Im so proud of u!I love u and never forget that!Stay safe angel stranger
you got this bestie we all belive in you ❤️
@@oltamuharem8045 Thank you, please stay safe you too! You are a kind stranger :)
@@ejdz_867 If you believe in me, I will believe in you 💝
Life has their ups and downs
You know that one feeling where you wish you'll never wke up forever? You know what's the problem? We can't sleep
My dad committed suicide when I was 13, I am 23 now and the only thing I can tell you is that there is a solution even if it seems impossible. You are loved and you will be.
If you feel sick in the environment you’re living in right now, move. You can not heal in the place that made you sick. Even if it’s a small change, please try. Take a new course, change your coffee habit, look for another school, try to reset but please, keep trying.
Everything will be fine in the end and if it’s not going fine, then it’s not the end yet.
Keep going 🤍
thank you for this.
Im planning to move in to dorms after i go to uni. That way i dont have to suffer by my parents anymore
i hope your fine and living happily, and i hope your dad is doing fine and okay in heaven. you both will meet again soon.
thanks, i needed this, and i'm sorry for your dad
thank you
"Its crazy how we cry all night long silently in our rooms but the next day we act like nothing happend "
"Anger is strange, i want too punch somone but at the same time i just want a hug"
"I wont eat until you do"
I feel you.
This hits hard
...dont make me cry bro....
Listening to this brings back memories of a lonely, depressed kid who couldn't ever walk for too long because they barely ever had the will to eat. Things slowly changed once I started being more patient with myself. Once I accepted that, yes, it was okay to be me. I mean, I didn't WANT to be me, but it was alright.
One day I finally looked at the little, minuscle part of me that still wanted to live. I wanted to try to change my reality. It was... excruciatingly slow, and I'd often get back to where I started. Often I'd think my progress wasn't good enough, maybe I couldn't do it, maybe it was all useless... one day I saw someone online say something among the lines of "doing 1% is better than nothing, start half-assing things". And I started applying that to my life. Eating just a bit more, taking care of myself just a bit better, doing what I had to do just a little bit before I came back to it and then do a little bit more again
This concept just got stuck in my head. I started looking at my messy room and realized I could at least push things to the corner, or clean a little bit and then stop. It wasn't clean yet, but it was a bit better than before.
I want to let you know that god, I'm FAR from an ideal life state. I still have to keep fighting. But thanks to all the little bit of self care over the years, my health and environment are way better and I feel like I can actually breathe. I dropped toxic friendships, learned when to let myself simply FEEL angry/sad and when to do something about it, learned what battles to fight, learned what/who to let go of and I learned that no, sunlight, exercise and drinking more water WON'T make you feel better, but it'll give you some much needed space to do so. Something as simple as changing the environment of your room (the pillows/blankets, the way you lay down, etc), changing clothes or opening your window can give your brain just enough stimulation for you to be able to do other things a bit more easily. And it's easier to snowball from there (in a good way). It'll likely be a tiny snowball, though, but keep pushing! One day, you'll get out of that hellhole.
I'm not sure what time will make out of me, but I'm glad that I decided to try. It's "okay" to not be okay, just please try not to drown in that feeling. Trust me when I say that trying a little bit to make yourself feel better is worth it. Be consistently gentle with yourself. Yes, even when you don't think you deserve it.
Good job, you've got it right. Just keep pushing forward a little bit each and every day, multiply that over a lifetime and it adds up. God speed to you my friend.
Everytime I get some sense of “peace”, I remember who I am and everything falls apart. I’ve hated myself all of my 18 years of life, I’ve done very thing to get rid of the feeling but somehow it always comes back. I’ve build this wall around me so that people don’t acknowledge my existence but it’s futile, I will be stuck in this body forever. I tried to “love myself” but i always end up in the same place where I started. I am so tired of it all, I’m so tired of trying, I’m overall tired of life.
I know how you feel, from my 15 years of life, I never could love myself once. People tell me that I am perfect but they just don't understand the real me. I am a whole failure, a burdon. These thoughts keep coming back everytime I rest or just stay without doing something but, I am just too tired to do anything. I fall asleep in class, in the bus and tramway but I don't feel like I do. I'm just tired all day and night. I wanna end my nightmare once and for all. I tried, and failed at that too. I don't know you, but I love you so much. Thank you for your comment and I hope you life will get better ❤️
Anyone who really knows themselves will find things they hate about themselves. Everyone has a shadow. The question is are you going to let that shadow stop you from striving towards the light? I believe God has put a small piece of his divine fire into each person. A small beautiful spark each person has to offer to the world. It may feel hopeless and you may feel worthless but that isn't true. You've got more value than you could ever know. You are created with love in God's image, take pride in that! Imperfect and broken as you are you can't let those demons stop you from pushing forward!
Yes I feel you and I see you my friend. It's just a matter of time till we all break again and sadly some of us won't repair themselves again... To be left, broken. But I remember all these people who put faith in me once and I keep on going. Remember these fragments of nice things. Love you all
@@Mono_Neko This is pathetic, everything in this comment section is pitful why does it seem as if the only person with resilience here is me
@@adrianm7203 god does not exist and if there is a god at all then he hates us and he is an obstacle, if god is real then he is the enemy and we should overcome the bullshit he does to us
sometimes i feel like no one appreciates me and when i tell people that they just say that they have no idea what to say. i feel so lost, i feel like i have done so much, i have sacrificed so much for people. but it will never be enough. i will never be enough.
I feel the same way, everyone just forgets me and discards me.
when you start getting older you realize that nobody owes you anything, no one is gonna feel sorry for you, everyone is battling their own battles. start doing things for YOU, treat yourself and practice self care! ❤
You are enough and treat them how they treat you.i wish you well❤
The exact same thing happens to me. Except my ex cheated on me with my bestfriend and they'd just kiss right in front of me and all I could do at the time was smile and say congrats.
I feel the same way i try so hard and yet others treat Me very badly this is only one of the reasons I don't talk about my feelings anymore sometimes I don't talk at all now I'm begging To wonder if I have depression...
They didn't notice you were crying
They did notice you were sad
They didn’t notice you were tired
They didn’t notice you were alone
They didn’t notice how attentive you were
They didn’t notice how sweet you actually are
They didn’t notice how you try to make others smile
They did notice you failing grades
They did notice your unattractive
They did notice the mean side of you
They did notice all your mistakes
They did notice all your flaws
They did notice that you weren’t good enough for them.
But you stayed strong
You kept going on
You never gave up on hope
You never let then take you down
And you know they weren't good enough for you
And that’s what make you stronger
(credits to original writer)
Who's the original writer?
Me when i eat a baby
@@RoastyRoachy idk but i want to spread positivity
why does this remind me of my classmates?
Bro you're talking about my parents
Whoever is reading this I hope you feel better soon maybe you’re worried or just sad that’s okay take a breath and try to let it out
Thank you sm…
Thank you.. I can’t show my emotions in front of my parents so you helped..
Thank you for some reason I just can't breath normal anymore but I feel better now
I'm not worried nor sad, I am disappointed at how pathetic these losers are in the comment section, it's insane that I am the same species as them
@@TheThing302 Yes you can
Whoever that has played Omori with even the slightest of relatability to its story or characters has their heart marked for the rest of their lives, as if it was a tattoo that stays forever either in a good or bad way.
I feel this comment❤
me
real
Damn you called me out-
i feel like i should get a tattoo saying, i survived omori or something
i've never vent before and i will never because everyone will be like ''NO YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!'' ''NO YOURE AMAZING!'' it makes me feel even worse.
I feel you, im not trying to make you feel worse im just saying that its all going to be fine and your going to get through it. :)
Fr
I understand completely. I’ve lost hope in everything, but I choose to continue staying here for people around me. And because I am just wishing something good will happen to me. I just want to feel something. You got this love. I wish you all the best in the near future. I love you
@@didxmk We will never know for sure what is for us in the future, but I know that good things are coming for you. Even if you don't think so, I know for sure. We just can't give up. I truly do know you will have a better future. Stay positive. Love you
I feel that.
Like just say
Ok..
Can I help?
Or something but not
"Ur not worthless don't think that!!! "
I won't magically stop
The second song sounds so nice... It's like there are pretty, thin blue curtains waving in the wind above my bed as I lie there, unafraid to fall asleep. There's a nice sky above me, with the kind of sunshine I used to know when I was little.
It just sounds so blue and good to me, and I love it. Thank you. :D
Goodbye. I'm going to permanently sign off of UA-cam now. I have nothing to live forward to anymore. I'll miss my kids. I wish I treated y'all better and I want you to know that you two were my pride and joy and I wouldn't trade y'all for anything! And Tia if you'd ever find this. I'm so sorry. I'll see you again soon my love. Please just wait for me. If anyone sees this. Please hug your loved ones and don't let them go. I'm proud that I lived this long...just wished I enjoyed it. I love you.
Don't end it. Suicide is one of the most selfish things that a person can do, believe it or not. Yeah it might seem like a good idea for you to not experience life anymore but now everyone in your life is going to suffer mourning you. My childhood best friend couldn't take life anymore and left without no goodbyes. I cried till this day thinking how could he do this, how could he leave me? Was it my fault that he didn't want to live? The sad part is I'll never know and the thought of it makes me tear up. What I'm trying to prove is don't go. Do not leave your family, your kids, your friends, etc. Don't make them suffer their whole life without you in it.
hii naya, wanna talk ab it? you have lotsss of things to live for, your kids love you and don’t wanna live in a world without you, nobody wants to live in a world without you naya ❤ i know you probably heard “it’ll get better” and maybe you lost hope in that saying, but lemme just say that you have a whole life ahead of you with good things that are bound to happen, stay for your kids nayaaa 😕 and stay for yourself and your future ! you are so loved i promiseeeee
@@tay-lq6db aww :( I'm sorry for your childhood best friend...
But, even if suicide sounds selfish (i swear i'm not encouraging people), it really depends on why they want to die- sometimes, it is for selfless reasons, but that doesn't mean it is okay. (just saying it isn't selfish, that is all TwT;)
hey...just came across this. i hope you know that things can be rough, and yeah. life does have its downward parts, but that doesnt mean give up! it just makes you stronger, and helps you know whats wrong and right. you got this naya! even if i dont know you, i know you got this :) stay strong, i hope youre ok and safe atm
Damn, this made me sob. Please, if you're still here, PLEASE, PLEASE don't do it. Life sucks sometimes but you can't give up. You're hurting your kids so badly, and everyone around you. People love you. If you're still here and see this, respond. We're here for you.
People often tell me that the joy of life lies in experiences. But I really can't find anything that makes me feel happy, i dont even know what am i living for, all i know is just tiredness and bored.
Did you have any passions as a kid? Anything that made you excited when you were young? It might be worth revisiting those things and thinking how you might take them into adulthood. For example if you liked Lego as a kid, then maybe get into Robotics or 3D Modeling. If you liked playing outside then pick up a sport or start jogging. Only you can find you.
I don't want to die, but i feel there's nothing for me to live for.
I live with ghosts and i am one myself
I don't want to go on : i just keep making everything worse
I'm sure there is something:D if not maybe that's what you need to live for, you can find a reason live for, a passion:D
It's going to be okay, it will be:D no matter what. Look at the bright side of life:3
life can be tiering,your friend and your family love you,you make them happy
@@tremmery2116 mf dont fucking say that,boi is making fun of peoples vents like axualy not funny
Hi, i want to thank you for your support. It helped me
i hate myself. and thats okay, i can accept the fact i hate myself. i know deep down, the little girl i used to be still loves me. no matter what. but, currently, it's a different story. i'm so sick of this life. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it, i hate it, i hate it. i'm constantly ignored, called annoying, body shamed, and made fun of. what did i do wrong? i just wanted friends. i just wanted a friend. i don't know what i did wrong. please, i'm sorry.
You doing good now? ❤
@@J1ft actually, yeah. tysm for asking and i hope u r doing good aswell
Hey, you doing good?
@@NeotronHorxen hi! i dont know you, but i forgot about this comment. sadly, im practically the same, but your comment made me a little happier. to know that a stranger cares, is all i needed. thank you for asking and blah blah blah, sorry for the paragraph. but, seriously, thanks.
How are you now?@@organs4u
i hate the fact im constantly helping others when i cant help my own self first. i hate how im telling them to eat after i starved myself for days, how im telling them to sleep when i didnt sleep for nights, how im asking them about every little scratch and if theyre okay and doing alright when theres blood and scars all over my body. i hate how i always look out for everyone, even those who hate me.
Are you okay? Do you need someone to talk to?
I care of you. Please take care of your body. I dont want you to harm yourself, please do it for me.
are u okay? please, take care of yourself
pov: even the things you do for fun, now exhaust you to do. so you don't do anything,
Don’t be on the internet too much as it can give you easy rushes of dopamine which can make other things seem boring and useless , not to say that’s gonna solve all your problems but just something to think about if you wanna take a break. Lots of love from the uk ❤❤❤❤❤
@Spacee_Qween thank you
@@Spacee_Qween baths are overrated, showers are better and sleeping in is a waste of time and it doesn't get better, that's what makes life so great
@@chorto4038 sleeping is an important part of your whole system dumb*ss.
@Spacee_Qween I know, I’m just sharing my perspective
Some of my friends think im always happy and anytime the say you dont get it or you aren't depressed something like that, I do know what they feel. Sometimes they think I have no idea what depression really feels like or emptiness but i do lol. I bet some people are the people who act happy but actually suffering know what im talking about.
It hurts when a friend laughs at you when you say you have depression because they think you're joking since you're always the one laughing
ayo that's me
Y’a i get you I’m o e of these people I have friends who find things hard a du try to help but I just want to tell them about me ans so they just have no idea and sometimes last yea4 I made jokes about ‘good bye world ‘and everyone laughed but I wasn’t joking but I’m better now but hate holding it in and smiling
Don't lose hope someday you will have a very peace life trust me.
I know exactly what you're talking about. And when ever i talk about it they call me attention seeking
~To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus.
~To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
~To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
~To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
-Not mine, but pass it around
silly me, crying out of nowhere😹
feel you ong
I randomly cry when I start to think bad things about myself. Like whyyy
real.
too real.
Lmao my guy tearing like me bruh 🫵😹
Mari’s death meant everything, Aubrey felt abandoned by Basil, Kel and his brother, and even her parents.
They all suffered too, but I can imagine how that must have felt.
They wanted to let go of the past and wanted to forget and they tried to move on. but to Aubrey, the past was everything she ever had
Is this referring to the anime in the video? What Anime is it?
@@theonef570 its omori, game
@@chorto4038 Damn bro
The only thing I can find depressing is that headspace Aubrey looks like she has a normal skin-tone.
I'm coping through everything with humor and sometimes when I can't find a joke and get ignored I feel like I'm just not worthy my own family barely gives me love that I've become a people pleaser
bro if it’s a problem just hit the gym 💀
@@Rancid_ghoul wow very funny that totally helped me a lot
@@cleo6718 ur welcome my man happy to help👾👾👾
@@Rancid_ghoul that’s a hot take especially with a name of pavel and a pfp w a Anime girl drinking monster energy
You are most definitely worthy. Worthy of everything on this freaking planet. You don’t realize how much you matter to me and people in our hearts. I’m so proud of you for staying for this long, you deserve the whole world. I love you from the bottom of my heart, you deserve a wonderful happy life. Please take care love
a message to everyone reading these comments:
i've been seeing a lot of depressed suicidal comments and i want to tell all of you that you're wonderful. you just have to focus on what you've done good! if nobody notices, have yourself notice. you've got something to live for, we all do. it gets better, it really does! i've felt depressed too. you just have to be patient and the storm will pass.
it might not be much coming from a stranger on the internet, but i care. live, please! 😄
thanks but i’ll pass
@@solpadeine_666 You don't live for anyone, you simply live
You realize most of these comments are fake right?
There is nothing good about me
I was never kind or smart or pretty
I was just dumb, rude, ugly
The only thing good about me is that I’m bad at everything so it makes others feel better
They already committed suicide so why bother just go on live your life knowing that people suck
while listening to this playlist, i remembered something ... yesterday I wrote in a role-playing game about problems with my mother and was waiting for support. at the same time, another member had a nosebleed. and the one who supported the other participant and said "her problems are more important than yours." I just laid there and sobbed into my pillow. again my problems were devalued(ps there may be errors because I used a translator)
a nose bleed is more important than what you openly said emotional things that you care about and your problems? Their nosebleed isn't at all worse than what you've went through
It's been a year, I hope you're doing okay..
everyone has problems like trauma but it's not right to be devalued by someone who doesn't understand your problems, what they said wasn't right.
I wish you a lucky and fortunate year
You’re doing your best. I’m proud of you all.
I'm not
@Necrofelineosexual666 Bro what?
Instead of doing your best for others, do what you want at your best.
But i just can't help but feel that I could be doing better
@@codycarroll5806 in the grand scheme of things I don't matter so id rather do my best for them so they can have a better life
crying myself to sleep now.
real
@@frogii3155 shut up. you dont know whats going on with them. get a life.
Wake up for a fresh start ❤❤❤
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
(not mine but pass it around, everyone deserves
o mermão, vai tocar uma grama ou algo do tipo, vai ter um pouco de amor próprio, por favor, por você
I love you too❤ tysm, I really needed that. I felt always like hurting myself. But when you said that, you gave me some less self hatred and a bit more self love. Thank you❤
You really do love me 🌝❤️
thank you...
I was can easily forget the bad things in childhood. I miss that.
To anyone who’s here and feels lost, or helpless, or broken, please don’t hurt yourself :((
I know everyone around you sounds like a broken record when they say it, but you’ve lived for so long. You’ve fought so hard. Please, don’t give up all that effort for nothing. You’re still here! You are incredibly strong, and anyone can gain the courage to move forward. I know that if you need it, you will find the courage to find help, assistance, hope.
I love you kind stranger 🧡
If you're feeling lost, helpless or broken you're not strong, you're extremely pathetic and weak, you shouldn't need courage or motivation be resilient, there's no struggle in life
@@chorto4038 are you good bro???
@@joulskafilms8815 Yeah, why?
@@chorto4038 why are you being such a bitch 💀💀💀
@@joulskafilms8815 I’m not.
The last 6 years have been so bad for me that i don't even remember half of it and sometimes
I feel so bad because there is no one around who could support me in any way,im sure im disgusted even by my mother but i can't,i can't end like this,it's terrible,it's too selfish,and i know that on the other side of the planet there is a person who is waiting for me,who loves me,and i just can't leave him
if you are tired,then please rest,you deserve it,i believe that someday you will find a person who will love you as much as you love them!please,don't give up just to make your dreams come true!
Take care of yourself. You're important too.
Enlist for the military
im kinda of feelign down right now, but this playlist is really relaxing, and the aubrey pic just made me kind of excited
“Come to me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will rest.” - Jesus
Matthew 11:28 Jesus loves you very much. I am healed because of him. And he wants to heal you too. just come to him He is the reason I am alive today.
@@Dogestronaut2.0 yeah I've done lots of times I'm christian
I've spent a lot of time alone and isolated in my life and I'm only 20 years old... I thought things would change when I grew up, but the loneliness still hasn't faded. I can't count how many letters I wrote back in highschool, but they never would've made up for me ending it... it doesn't get easier, but you learn to soldier on.
My constant mood swings and mental health make me fail almost everything. Sometimes it's the only thing I can think of, and it seems the only solution.
Hey that's not your fault. You have to play the hand you've been dealt. You can't just quit the game because you don't like the cards. I'm willing to bet that there's still a lot you have to offer the world despite your struggles. I believe in a God who loves every person he's ever created, and that includes you even with your challenges. No one is here by accident and you have something beautiful to offer the world even though you can't see it yet.
Nobody is perfect , we all sometimes feel like we are failing life but I think the most important thing is to try to start again, maybe you should take this time to find a hobby or something you like ( I myself use art ) just to really try to perfect, join clubs to try meet new people. Buy something for yourself maybe to feel nice and practice self-care , telling yourself you love yourself regardless of you flaws because we all have them. And maybe take a step back from your parents exactions or your boyfriends and try to focus on trying to live up to your own whatever they might be. Also being on the internet a lot can give you a sense of loneliness and it can give you quick rushes of dopamine which can make normal life numbing and sad so take a retreat from that too. Lots of love from the uk ❤❤❤
@@Melimop5178 thank you you were very sweet💞 im working on that, and its probably gonna get better
I can see how you relate to Ena then. But I wish the best for you..
Even when I don't take care of myself.
@@everykelmemeiscanon3437 Thank you, ily and i hope you get better
It's not your fault
Your not a problem
You are perfect
You aren't fat
You aren't skinny
You aren't the problem
You aren't a bad person
You are wonderful
You aren't a crybaby
Your don't deserve them
You love yourself
You are clean
You are kind
Your are the person that everyone wants
Your skin isn't a paper... don't cut it
Your face isn't a mask... don't hide it
Your heart isn't a door... don't lock it
Your size isn't a book... don't judge it
Your life isn't a movie... don't end it
Your neck isn't a rope... don't hang it
Your body isn't for sale... don't sell it
Your brain isn't a stone... don't crush it
Your life is an inspiration...be proud of it
Love yourself.. you are perfect no matter what you do.
The past of you suffering will end
Your suffering will end
Don't c^t your body your hair
Don't kill your self yet.
If you have a pet it will make your problem go away
They get mad at you for being soo perfect
They blame you because you are so pretty/handsome/stunning
You are brighting the world.. you are a true star
Keep going.. it will past.
We love you don't stop being kind to everyone
The kindness will speard and the kidness will also pay you back.
They love you they just don't wanna show the loveness for you
You are so perfect that everyone gets mad and jealous
Give everyone a second chance not too many tho
your eyes is perfect
your nose is perfect
your height is perfect
your skin is perfect
your mouth is perfect
your hair is perfect
your face is perfect
your body is perfect
your hands is perfect
your fingers is perfect
your teeth is perfect
your waist is perfect
Your torso is perfect
your legs are perfect
your thighs are perfect
your tounge and everything is perfect
YOU are perfect love your body and everything
You are so greatful for what you have.
Ignore the bad people you dont want them to get attached to you
And leave your fake friends
You deserve better.
Don't give up
Cheer up aswell Pretty/handsome/stunning person.
We are proud to see you alive.
We are so proud
We love your smile
We love your laugh
We love your personality
So don't give up
We love you.
We love you so much
Don't end it too fast.
Don't commit
Don't get controled
Don't make them control you like a puppet
Do your own way
Do everthing you like
Ignore the rude people
Ignore the hate
Ignore getting yelled
There's people by your side and always be.
We love you no matter what you do to yourself.
They don't know what your been through
They ain't been in your shoes
Don't belive them they are liars
Love youself.
We are proud of you existing here
We love you so much..
NEVER GIVE UP
You're precious
You made it this far.
And it's so amazing that you are still here
Little vent
Sometime I wish I don’t wake up, I can’t take the pain any longer if we are honest I felt so safe with this boy man I tried everything I gave him my love, my heart but still he feels nothing for me, I wish I could disappear one day, I wish everyone hates me so I can leave, I wish he wouldn’t care about me so I can hurt myself
i hope you hold on, find peace and happiness. just have hope, things will turn out to the best ❤
Your deserve to be happy and to live. I hope it will get better for you. ❤
@@stella-ps8ih thank you so much
its not ur fault love,u deserve better.Ilysm and take care
Hey, sorry for a long text.
I just wanted to let you know that I know how that feels, it must've been hurtful, but it's just the way life is. Sometimes we don't get what we want no matter how hard we try, I'm in a similar situation too, certain things don't depend on our efforts, life's just not fair... But we can still achieve and enjoy a lot. Just think about the fact that you're not just some human on Earth who happened to be heartbroken but the whole Universe itself. We are made of the Universe and the Universe is made of us. Also there are many kind, caring and fun people you can share your life and joy with, and a lot of things to do, make and experience, even „little” things like going into nature, listening to music, reading, doing your hobbies, the taste of your favorite foods and drinks, playing with animals, hanging out with amazing people and lots of other stuff.
So please, don't end it. I'll repeat that you're not just that particular organism but the whole existence itself, because what else could you be?
Try to be physically and mentally healthy, don't be afraid to ask for help from healthcare professionals. Enjoy life, don't take it for granted, be grateful, life always has better things for you that you just can't imagine now. I love you and care about you so much, and many others do
Express what I have inside ?
...
What I feel everyday, what I felt for these 9 months...
Nah , keep it positive and light
Express it. It won't heel if you don't talk about! A wound won't heal if you keep constantly peeking on it every time it tries to heal..
man i love this sm, i almost always listen to this and when i read the comments i see a lot of people saying comforting things that just overall make me feel better then how i was before. i wish everyone a hb if its today and go get some water.
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve
To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
im all four at once 😭
cant write essays for the life of me, especially not personal ones like I have assigned currently:,)
I started a diary last year and it has changed me for the better I think. I can finally vent without being called crazy.
how do you know im doing homework!????!??!?!?!?
@@Friendlyneighborhoodemoguy I'm just built different : D
@@dankdoggoes152 I journal, but that's for personal experiences and interesting thoughts, to me venting seems like a silly concept
I failed as a girlfriend
I failed as a daughter
I failed as a friend
I failed as a best friend
I failed as a classmate
I failed my family
I failed all .
Hey! Thanks for all the comments, I am very grateful for everything. Thanks for all the support, actually, now , after 5 months that I commented this, I'm feeling a lot better. It was a phase of my life that I almost commit suic9d3.
Thank you for everything. I hope you all the best.
Don't be so hard on yourself.
NO U DIDNT.ILYSM TAKE CARE
No because same????
Nobody is perfect , we all sometimes feel like we are failing life but I think the most important thing is to try to start again, maybe you should take this time to find a hobby or something you like ( I myself use art ) just to really try to perfect, join clubs to try meet new people. Buy something for yourself maybe to feel nice and practice self-care , telling yourself you love yourself regardless of you flaws because we all have them. And maybe take a step back from your parents exactions or your boyfriends and try to focus on trying to live up to your own whatever they might be. Also being on the internet a lot can give you a sense of loneliness and it can give you quick rushes of dopamine which can make normal life numbing and sad so take a retreat from that too. Lots of love from the uk ❤❤❤
we all failed something in life its just how we learn that maybe moving on is the best option but dont be so hard on urself life is life you only live once make the most of it and to everyone who has someone who has died in their life remember that if they were still here they wouldnt want to be sad all the time seeing you smile is all they need
For those who want to end it pls read this
Those who love you wouldn't just miss you they'll cry and cry even put them in a state you were in. They love you i love you, no matter how hard life is you could see the brightest side of life the next day, you never know and yet it is true you might see the darkest too try not to think about that do what makes you happy because you'll never know what life truly has in store for you it could be as pretty and handsome as you are you many not be perfect but nobody is, so please don't end it all because that's is never the good thing to do even if you think it is, it's not
-From one suicidal kid to another
It's crazy. You want to end something that hurts, but it will be just given to the next person...
I hope you are not having a bad phase, and I wish you figured out something that makes you feel happy c:
When you are suffering and feeling down everyone tells you to get a therapist or to start the healing process. But no one talks about how much the process hurts. No one tells you that while trying to pick yourself back up again and love yourself again that your going to fail about a hundred more times over and over again. Getting better hurts and takes time. It's like opening a wound even more too peer inside to see what's wrong then slowly and painfully stitching it back up with a needle and thread. To anyone reading this, I promise the hurt will one day stop but it's going to take a lot of work to get there but it will be so worth it. You will climb, succeed and flourish like never before. Don't let the needle and thread scare you. Sure it's painful to look back on and to experience but you won't regret it. Don't let yourself or anyone get in the way of you. You are a rare chance of happening. Did you know that you being here should be impossible but with all the odds against you are here. So let yourself live and experience the life you deserve. If not for you then little you, carry little you around the world and all its wonders too see how beautiful life can be from a certain angle. You are an experience, you are beauty in a life form, you are a phenomenon that only happens once within the concept of time. Heal, take your time and don't let anything stop you.
If you are currently feeling depressed and considering ending it, don’t. There’s someone there for you, even if you don’t realize it. Even if there isn’t, you will soon find someone that will be there for you. I believe in you, I believe you can overcome your negative thoughts and just know, someone loves you. And if you think no one does, I’m here. I love you no matter what.
I came here to enjoy melancholic music, but I never thought that I'd see so many people expressing how they feel, almost all wants to give up, and to those who who are struggling, we're here for you. It's hard, I know, I'm struggling myself too, relapsing, depressed, and so many more, but I don't want to give up, and you shouldn't too. It's hard, it really is, but we can get up. I'm not much of a talker, but when it comes to situations like this, I can't just sit or stand by, I have a voice and you have one as well. Please, never give up. I'm here with you, and almost everyone here is with you. We have different stories, different lives, but know that you're not alone, even though I'm a stranger, my heart goes out to those who are suffering, and if you're already trying to change for the better, I'm proud of you, we're. Grasp on to that blinking, flickering, ever fleeting light, make it grow and spread it amongst those who have lost it. Be the light, be the hope, be the torch that you've wanted someone to be.
I wanted to be someone important. I wanted this depression to leave me.
Everyone's potentially important in their own unique way. You create yourself, your role and your importance in life and society, but it requires hard work, persistence and dedication. Don't give up, life always has better things for you that you can't imagine now, speaking from my experience. Try to learn and apply how to be physically and mentally healthy, be happy and enjoy life. Just don't be afraid, find the courage and just do it, live! Lysm
Also don't be afraid to seek help and ask a healthcare professional for it or at least talk to friends, loved ones or even to just stranger people that are willing to give you a listening ear about your problems and woe.
@@woebegone-yu3ri thanks :)
Your special the way you are don't lose hope on everything .
@@woebegone-yu3ri Or instead you could actually do something about your problems instead of being a little b#tch, my condolences for the censorship
Its been a while since i felt happy i feel in complete lost i just feel numb and tired all the time. I keep telling myself it would all get better. But, i dont know..
Everytime i consider the idea of death i feel relieved as if all of this could just stop.
But when i realise i am still here i just go back to feeling nothing.
I hope it gets better. It should get better. Thats what i have ro fight for rn, even if that idea seem so far fetched..
Stay strong :)
It will get better. It might not feel like it right now but every storm eventually passes. Keeping fighting my friend!
I hope you feel better lots of love 😘❤❤
i want to be happy. i tried my hardest to care for them. even if they were just my friend i care. i like them. and my friends said they liked me at some point. then why would they just stop talking to me? everytime i try and talk to them they say something rude. i cry thinking about it. i want them to care for me like i do for them. they don’t know how much i care. they are oblivious about how i feel inside when they say those rude things to me. they seem to be happier with everyone else. we used to be together all the time. but suddenly they stopped hanging out with me. they don’t care about our relationship anymore. we used to be so close. i was almost going to tell them my feelings. but then they stop hanging out with me and are rude. i just want them back. they are killing me inside. they don’t even know that either. i want them back and i want to be with them. but i cannot have anything i please. i hope this will get out of my head. i’m crying right now thinking about it. i want to be happy with them. but they are never with me. i just don’t get how they can forget everything we were. i want the old them back and i want to be the one for them. but right now i’m just going to trust in whatever god puts in my hands. he gives me stuff for a reason. i just hope this reason doesn’t make me someone i don’t want to be. i want to be happy. so from now forward i’m going to do anything i can to make myself happy and make myself forget everything we ever had.
Where did it all go wrong?
Childhood?
But how was it my fault.
Not knowing how to live in a house full of flames,
My wrist could tell them stories.
Scars won't fade,
So does the past.
It was never my fault, I realise
Was it all I deserved?
Yes, I understand
Letting go of people,
Who didn't hurt me
As I slowly close my eyes.
It's all over.
This is cringe, the music got to your head bud sorry to bring you back to reality.
@@pipthewarrior3738 hater
@@danielukiss4601 🤷♂
@@pipthewarrior3738 you could've stayed silent.
Everything is fine. You see, you are not a burden nor someone to apologize to. You’re not being a nuisance. You are your own person, worth more than every treasure in the world. Your existence is a gift. And never forget the fact that I am always here. I am always here to listen, and to protect you. So please, my dear friend, tell me, what worries you? What has been bothering you? Is there anything I can do to help?
Can you really help me?
Since this is and actual sad playlist,and nobody knows who i am here,this is a good place to vent then
I was abußed when i was a child,i experienced all types of abu$e already,physically mentally and sexually,being a child was not in my parents intention,lets say i was already forced to grow up,the only thing im disappointed about is when i was a child I thought all this is normal,all this was just some years and it will end,I remember telling myself its just some hours and it will end,it never ended,when i became 7 i got my very first friend, her name was angel,she was the most beautiful thing that ever happened in my life,looking at her alone was a relaxing thing to do every morning,when I don’t wanna go to school I remember her,i say i will go for angel,i always had good grades just so she will say Im proud of you Mayar!..this word was not only a good thing to hear after an exam,it was a whole dream , years after she started getting disgusted of me ,she hated me and she bullied me , i never told the principal or the teachers because i knew they will yell at her and she cries easily , i was afraid i will be a reason for her sadness , few years later i was diagnosed with mental illness , depression and social anxiety , i was a failure for my parents , when i was diagnosed my mom started crying and my father was comforting her , like she was the one who was diagnosed not me , i became at 6th grade and it was the most beautiful year i ever had , i am here now 13 years old , gotta be disappointed because alot of teenagers are probably living the same life as me , my name is mayar btw
I'm sorry that you lost your angel. Keep standing tall. You are made in God's image, a child of God love by Him. You may have been abandoned by your angel but you have not been abandoned by God. It's a long road ahead of you and it's not going to be easy, but do your best to keep walking forward no matter what. I'll be praying for you my friend.
@@adrianm7203 thank you very much for your kindness..I appreciate it
This angel girl, are you still able to contact her? Also do you know what kind of girl she is now? Also what was so great about sixth grade?
for those having a heard time i know life really really sucks but trust me you hurting your self does more damage to those who care you may think no one cares but trust me someone does i do i care about you you dont deserve to have such a hard life i understand your under alot of pressure but dont let that break you your not alone everyone is struggling dont hurt yourself what ever your going through dont let it beat you down use it to help others that have been or are going through it help them help yourself trust me someone truly does care about you life can be very hard but still ending it is not worth it it only hurts those around you i have suffered losing someone because they could not take it anymore it only hurts those who care its never worth doing
if you need someone to talk to i am here for you please take care of your self im proud you have dealt with all this and still are the amazing person you are
i used to unironically cope so hard with this playlist when i was having familial problems in march god bless you bro
YUH
I often come back to this playlist.
It’s comforting!
My friend has all of these songs on his recent playlist. And I should probably call him.
Check up on bro, if he tells nothing give him long hug, hope he does better soon, you too!!!!
if his playlist are this then, someone should look over me because mine is literally full of su*cidal and rage songs 💀
imagine having friends
bro i used to like these songs just cuz theyre good calm down lmao
@@kairarawrr naw u 12 or smth 💀
its an awful feeling, knowing that no matter what, no matter how hard you try, no matter how much effort you put in, how much you put yourself out there, its never enough. it wont be enough. it makes you not want to try anymore, and then the few times you think maybe this time it'll be different, and you finally try, you promptly get reminded why you stopped trying in the first place.
but i guarantee you, you will find the people and environment where everything you do, every ounce of effort, no matter how small, will matter. you will be seen, you will be heard, and you will be shown that you have always mattered.
Hey ya'll, normally I dont like to rant on the internet but it seems like this is a place to do it so please bare with me...
I've always been a caring soul, and I dont like to toot my own horn, and its nice to help people that feel sad, depressed or even just tired. I'm glad I'm like this, but it feels like there's a cost to such empathy, especially to a quiet soul like myself. I've never really had any true friends, and if I do have "friends" their more or less just acquaintances, and trust me I try my hardest to be kind and company for anyone in need, but feeling like a person that people discard the moment there feeling better isnt a good feeling.
As an introvert I was ready to break out of my shell pre-covid, and then everything happened, I've developed an....almost fear of isolation, never have wanted true bffs or even a gf/partner more than I do now.
These past 3-4 years have been the hardest I've ever had in my life, and I've tried to work on myself and even tried to develop new hobbies, but it all feels empty....deafeningly quiet, no matter what I do, it just all feels off.
I've been a part of a couple of discord servers, real life "friend" groups, and even tried to start those groups on my own, none of them work out in the end, the chat stop chilling with each other, I get ghosted, etc.
I've recently gotten to a point where it just all feels gray, I've been trying so hard to fight those feelings, and I just dont know haha...its just hard...
Sorry for this long rant, but I just want to say, for those of ya'll who feel the way I do, or just are struggling in general, your not alone, and I genuinely hope you get through whatever your going through, and your not alone, truck on ya'll.
Edit: P.S, sry if this is all unorganized I just talked what was on my mind.
My friend, the only friend one needs in life is hatsune miku. Trust me, once you have consented hatsune miku into your life all will be perfect. Hatsune miku is my number one waifu and there's enough of her to go around, my friend. Get a body pillow, some figurines, and maybe some physical copies of my queen bee's songs. hatsune miku is the first sound of the future, YOUR future, my friend. hatsune miku has the fattest gyatt in the world, which is why her flagship song is World is Mine. Trust me, hatsune miku is always the answer, no matter the situation. Conform to mikuism.
I feel numb all the time and the the other day my mom took her frustration out on me before I left for school and I don’t know how much I have to hide all my pain and hurt anymore I’m tired of faking a smile and being “happy”I just wanna cry but I can’t
I feel you 100%.... parents always puts lots of pressure on us that they don't know how much we have to deal with constantly. I wish I could give you the biggest hug. If you ever need someone to ever talk to, I'm here :)
I LOVE U
@@tay-lq6db thank you
I hope you feel better just keep going till your out of school and try to find exiting things to do, school can really trap you in a loop of sadness and repetion just remember you have your future to fight for. I love you ❤❤❤
There's nothing wrong with your eyes.
There's nothing wrong with your nose
There's nothing wrong with your height
There's nothing wrong with your skin
There's nothing wrong with your mouth
There's nothing wrong with your hair
There's nothing wrong with your face
There's nothing wrong with your body
There's nothing wrong with your hands
There's nothing wrong with your fingers
There's nothing wrong with your teeth
There's nothing wrong with YOU
you are perfect.
I am so proud of you:)
You made it to this far.
You are amazing:)
Don't give up.
NEVER GIVE UP
you're pretty
You're precious
Don't need to be insecure abt your face.
You are so beautiful
Are you okay?
I love you :(
@@Wobbly944 i love you too, keep going!
I’m crying so hard
Oh I meant mentally by the way, cause this seems cracked out
Im so tired its not even a joke anymore when everyday you feel like your being forced to live.
i already had a bad day today and my father got angry at me for some reason. he was extremely harsh and kept calling me “dumb child” multiple times.
Dad whatever mistakes i did to you im so sorry please forgive me but at the same time please realize what you’re saying to your own daughter it hurts so much
It's okay everything is okay.
Your dad will realize that he's not between a good father to you and your bond will get better I promise just be patient mkay?
Love u sweetheart.
Tbh whenever I see one of these all of the vents are just.. so heartbreaking. I end up feeling bad for feeling similar to how they feel, as if I should be happy abt my life. A lot of ppl probably feel this way, but I dk
I want to vent so...HERE WE GO!
I failed my talent exam on the 18th of january 2023. It's mainly because they looked at my grades and boy...my grades are horrible. So. god.damn.horrible. There's a good reason though.
It's just the fact that I've been dealing with so much and it started to affect me badly in 5th grade. It took me 4 years to actually start to care about myself a bit, know a bit about how things should be or shouldn't be. I don't like saying that I'm traumatized because it feels like I'm not, but I probably am. Hell, I saw my father leave, I saw arguements between my family that were horrible. I was present near them, I got bullied to the point where I truly just believed that I'm not good at anything, that all I'm good at is just English, and that's it. I've chased my skill for so damn long, just to realize it's always been there, it was drawing and such. But I chased after it so so so much, just to find something to be good at, to appreciate, to love, to be PROUD OF. Just for my brother to tell me that I can't draw. It still hits me so fucking hard, and the fact that I failed that talent exam worsens it. It took me so long to actually get back and LOVE my art in some way just because I keep thinking im not good enough. I don't draw enough, I'm not good at art, I suck. I hate my mindset for that. Then there's ofc my mother,
a single mother who raised 6 children. She's tired, she doesn't want to raise me anymore, she's too tired to. She wished that she actually aborted me. She talks like im not there to others. Hell, whenever I wanted to talk, she'd just start talking herself and never let me talk to anyone. No matter how much I wanted to talk to my only sibling that I cared for because she was actually there for me. It got all ruined the moment we stopped talking to eachother that much. I miss her, but she betrayed me. She told me to tell her when I can't take it anymore, to ask her for help only for her to tell me that I have to deal with it. That fucking hurt. It still does, and I became allergic to that sentence. "You're just gonna have to deal with it for those two years." I. hate. it.
I hate it so much. I don't want to hear it, I feel betrayed. SO DAMN BETRAYED BY EVERYONE. It hurts. All of it hurts and I hate it all.
I hate that I became the way I am, I still sometimes SH even when I said I wouldn't, I promised it. I still do anyway. I'm sorry for that, Fish, I'm really sorry.
I do have friends, two actually. I consider them as my best friends, they know everything. I appreciate them. But honestly, even when someone says that 'things will get better', it always gets worse too. I don't even want to live anymore. I'm just waiting for my final straw and just end it all. I don't want to be here anymore, but I have pets. I have 7 pets and I don't want to leave them alone, but then again I feel worse for even bringing them into this place. I just want to die, that's all. I don't even think I can be saved anymore, I don't think anyone can help me anymore. I really just want to die, be gone. I should have been 16 years ago and even a year ago. I fucking planned it and didn't even go through with it.. I just want to die now. I hate that I endlessly look for anything that could potentionally just kill me, but looking up things like that just makes me feel numb. I mean, hell, seeing only "you can die" of something just makes me laugh and say "oh nice!"
I hate that. I don't want to feel that way at all. I don't feel deserving of anything, hell I don't even feel deserving of the fact that I vent. I hate venting.
Another thing is that I might or might not be ill now, which I dislike the idea of. By that, I might or might not have diabetes. It would make sense, since my mom has it and great grandma did aswell. And heck, mom got it from stress, like excessive stress, after something happened. It wouldn't be suprising if what caused mine was when she slapped me in school. Oh, did I forget? Mom works in my school. She slapped me and belittled me infront of two teachers and so many kids...I feel bad for them. The teachers did nothing and ignored it entirely. It was all just because of me not having a costume. (that i forgot) I hate that I now only have two family members. The others went over to my grandpa's side and one cut contact entirely.
Mom hates grandpa because he abused her, she's just going through an entire generational trauma and never learned from it. I don't know who to blame for my feelings anymore.
I need therapy, I need help, I desperately want help but at the same time I feel like I don't deserve it. That I'm just making up things even though they're probably real? I don't know anymore. I lost contact with reality awhile ago. I sometimes hear things that didn't happen and that scares me.
I want to be okay. Please..I really just want to be okay.
But I won't be okay. It's not possible and I hate that. I hate it so much..I just want to die, to rest, to rest eternally. That's all I want now. But I won't get that.
I'm a coward to even take my own life.
holy shit calm down
i know how you feel there will always be somenone to help you
@@payrizz That is true, yes. But that 'help' will never truly help me. I feel like I don't deserve it at all. - It just makes me feel guilty whenever I get a small glimpse of help
@@payrizz thats not how it works
i feel the same way... im so sorry
dont cut yourself its not worth it you have a futer ahead of you also dont commite suicide if you do evreyone will be sad just dont its not worth it stay strong ok itle get better
recently ive lost almost all my friends to suicide and these songs help me stay sane...
i feel so sorry for you damn
i hope it will get better soon
stay strong darling ❤️
@@ejdz_867 thank you..
I am so sorry to hear that... suicide is the worst crime man, you need to be so damn selfish to commit suicide. I think true power and true happiness only arrives when you are capable of standing upto your own life, however sad you feel. I know it's easier said than done.... but "each drop creates an ocean." Whoever is having suicidal thoughts... please... just hold on, even for a day, just hold on.... there's so, so much more for you. You're worth it, this internet stranger loves you if nobody else does. I love all of you.
@@aviratsingh4291Please dont say suicide is selfish
Some people are just too tired and dont find any interest in living anymore.
And honestly in a world like this, i'd understand.
@@M1ssL0uvex3 It is selfish in my view. It can just be associated with empathy easily. You need to think about nothing other than your own mindset and life to commit suicide, it may seem rude or insensitive but, think about others too, people who genuinely cared and people who genuinely loved you. They'll forever live with the guilt of not being able to save you.
I feel empty, like i dont know what to feel ever. it's exhausting.
I feel lost I feel nothing I feel like I want to go away
I can relate
Finally a playlist with Duster, i love it. And to whoever needs it, I love you and I'm proud of you. Take care, everything will be alright one day
thanks🫶🫶😭
Well, at least there’s people who go through the same thing I go through.
It makes me feel a ''is everything okay now'' feeling, but in a different way...
All these comments making me remember i got bullied 4-5 years ago but i always remembered that and it makes me feel sad. I cant forget what happened even though i try to distract my self with games and making new friends.
I know y'all are tired of something in life rn, and that's alright. Everyone gets to the point where they're just feeling tired/down or even nothing so..
Here's a reminder that I'm proud that you're still going strong and pushing through whatever you're going through!!! You're slaying rlly hard everyday girl/dude ngl ✨✨ And I think you dropped this queen/king 👑 I hope you get through this soon and stay strong!!!
If you guys find this, spread the word! Everyone needs to see this as well and can at least know that someone is proud of them :) -Cy
I am tired of feeling sorry for myself, so why don't I step it up a notch and make things worthwhile
Love the song selection
✨Inspiring✨
Hey, everyone ! I'm hopping from playlist to playlist willing to lend an ear to anyone wanting to vent their feelings. I've been through a horrible depression and it hurt like shit, but you gotta remember IT DOES GET BETTER !! you just gotta search for the right people !! No matter what happens, don't let anyone or anything get you down. I care about everyone here, and I hope you all get through this 💪💪 YOU /DO/ MATTER !!!! If you fall down IT IS OKAY to rest, JUST DONT QUIT.
awesome playlist I can really feel the emotions put into every song
yw
I was a great artist when I was little, making my friends and family drawings and I loved getting praised. " aw your drawings so good!" "Ur really smart sweetie". I loved hearing all that and that's why I kept trying but as I kept growing, people just started saying "oh that's nice" or "your making the grades your supposed to make" instead. I still draw wonderfully but I rarely share it anymore unless I know definitely it's eye-catching. No more praise for the "naturally good " artist Ig. My grades aren't any better either.. I want to feel that praise again just for trying my hardest :(
I'm proud of you for trying your hardest! 💖
And some life experience from someone who's been around a bit: Being naturally good at something is nice, but over the long run it's ALWAYS been the people who committed themselves to trying their hardest that ended up being the ones who eventually built a life they loved.
thankyou for adding vacations and duster into this beautiful playlist.
your welcome 🫶
timestamps 🖤
0:01 - 3:08 Vacations - Young
3:09 - 6:37 Vacations - Telephone
6:40 - 8:09 Duster - Me and the birds
8:12 - 11:59 Duster - Constellations
12:00 - 14:01 oneheart - snowfall
Thank you, i needed this you the real one
@@skiss6539 np
Ty 🫶🏼🫶🏼
All my fav song (je jure elles sont toutes là 😭😭)
Thank you deadlygabe for the timestamps! ✨☺️💝
i feel bad for aubrey(the girl in the photo in the vid) because everyone left her after mari died
Same but everyone was dealing with the pain too. She just got it in the wrong way but I do feel exteremly bad for her.
Big deal (this obviously sarcasm but I wanted to point this out because it seems to me that you wold have taken this seriously)
Fr
(Not me relating to her to much ‼️‼️)
I can relate to Aubrey a lot. Because i feel the same after my Dad passed away. Everyone now in my Family just sees me as a Outcast.
There's also a Theory that Aubrey's parents had Aubrey on Accident. Its actually Plausible because Her parents house doesnt even have a Normal room for her. She has to sleep in the Attic. Talk about Child abuse.....
the art + the music >>>
So true bald kel
I’m so sorry all of you are going through this. No one should ever have to be put through all this. I’m so sorry, I wish I could give everyone a big massive hug. And if any of you are reading this, just know I love you so so much and your very important to a lot of people and you are so precious. I love you so so much, even though I may not know who any of you are, I bet you all are amazing people. I wish you all the best and I hope things will get better for you all. I love you. 💗
I feel like the only people I trusted stopped caring, I don't want to continue living in a life where people stop caring about me when I mess up one thing
Love its not ur fault,ull find better,Ilysm and take care
I care and I hope you find the friends you deserve ❤❤
quien lea esto solo quiero decir q por ahora q si esta con algo q no te deja salir nunca te rindas sigue adelante la vida no termina talvez sientas ira por algo o q las cosas no te salen como tu quieres siempre recuerda q no estas solo tienes a alguien siempre a tu lado ,ve la forma de solucionarlo la accion por q sientes q porque te pasa esto algo q hiciste mal?o algo q no puedes lograrlo aunq sea por mucho tu esfuerzo siempre recuerda q a la hora de dormir di a ti mismo q ´´lo diste todo´ nunca nada sera imposible porq pones tu esfuerzo..
before I had nothing and I felt like it couldn't get worse then I found her and she was the only one that actually cared the only one who actually liked me so I had everything as long as I had her by my side guess what I ruined it again I don't deserve a spot in this planet I lost everything all over again and I'm not gonna keep going the only reason I'm still here is because maybe she'll come back but if she doesn't I'm not staying I'm done with everything else she is everything I want and I don't care anymore I didn't care about anything until I meet her and I just care about her now that I lost her I'm tired I'm done with this I just want her to come back.
Sorry for the cuestion bu was she your gf.or friend.if she is dead i'm sorry.
I feel ya man I'm in the same place. Torn an waiting on her or jus lettin it go. No matter how much I want her to be, she doesn't belong to me anymore. She belongs to the world.
Is nobody gonna talk about how she looks like aubrey from omori
omfg i see it, aubreys my favorite lol
man, there is a lot of people here. I've been thinking about what I should say to all of you here right now. I've tried. I admit that I have indeed tried to take my own life. And I've had people who I care about attempting to take theirs and succeed. It's not a good feeling. Being trapped in pain and sorrow for so long. I know it's hard to keep going. But think about how much your life impacts others. Like a fellow commenter, Naya. You see how many people replied to her comment. How so many people cared. They didn't even know her. So what I want you to do. Is to carry on. Even if you think there's nothing to look forward to anymore, keep your head up and live your dreams. Because these things can only happy once. Don't give up because things just don't go your way or things bring you down. It's not worth it. People like YOU need to stay in this world. I love you for being you, and for trying your best. I'm proud of you. Stay here. Please.
how are you feeling?
Im Doing good. Thank you.
It feels like i dont even care anymore like i have no soul because whenever someone would say their problems in their life they wouldn't care literally just say "oh thats tough i hope u feel better!" like that wont help. But when someone cries for their life does suicide etc. all of a sudden they fucking care. its not that easy, i wish i can just fucking rage at jerks who dont understand shit like depression and make fun of it
It's hard to really care. It requires commitment, and most people are already downing in their own worries. I know people are self centered and I'm sorry. But there is something you can do, become one of the rare ones that can listen and does care. I wish you the best.
I’m currently sitting on my bathroom floor crying my heart out and nobody knows
I know how that is... My bathroom is my hiding place, too.
i love you.
I'm so sorry and i hope you find some comfort and relief, feel free to rant if you ever need to
Same thing
We all know and we care hope you feel better ❤❤❤ I love you
It's been a bit rough lately, so this is nice to just relax and chill to some relaxing music.
Vacations music underrated frfr
"Even if no ones there to help you, I am." That's the thing. No one helps me.
Find a community, it's important to have people you can turn to for support. You could always try going to a few of your local churches, even if you aren't religious I've found the church community to be very accepting and supportive.
i don't wanna wake up anymore
Make a point of watching the sun rise every day. The world is absolutely beautiful if you just take some time to see it.
Just don’t man…
@@bananagaming3203 cant tell on which side ur on
@@Nick_Marcos why is that
@bananagaming3203 "just don't wake up man" or "just don't be like that/do that"
It's all "be yourself because everyone else is taken" but I have no self, and all I do is copy other people because that's all I'm good for. I'm not my own person. And who wants to be alive to be someone else? Everybody's taken already, there's no room for me.
I failed at life, so I guess i'm a failure as a human being.
But don't take it the wrong way, I am not depressed (I think) nor I think of ending it, I am only stating a simple fact.
I make mistake, I piss ppl off, I do stupid thing, I am not perfect, never have been and never will be.
My problem is that I am a very slow learner. Despite having experienced a lot of things ppl my age didn't, I still go and do the same mistakes again. However what I experienced are not my own, I consume the lives of strangers trough books, so I didn't necessarily found any meaning into "living my own life" especially when I had problems that I will not talk about here. Problems that should have taugh me a lot. And I tought like a lot of you, I tought that I wanted a girlfriend, that I wanted love, sex , like if a girlfriend would have made all my problems to simply disappear. I was naive to think that a relationship with a girl completely out of my league and 3 years older wasn't toxic, I will ignore the details but I suffered as much as I enjoyed myself.
Now I remember a conversation I had with her. I was discussing several points in my life where I had been "broken" - where effectively I had crashed psychologically and spiritually. I told her that if it happened again I might simply choose not to "come back." She nodded, opined that she recognized the risk and told me a bunch of comforting things. Quite ironic if I could say.
But both of us were wrong. It was not a risk. It is a requirement.
I "broke down" before because I was struggling so hard to control things. I was insecure, and felt that if I did not control I would be wiped out. Hell, even when people said positive things my mind would go "that's only because they really don't know me, and when they do they will be angry at how I deceived them."
I realized that if I kept my heart and soul clenched like a fist I could neither give nor receive love. It was only by being open that I could connect.
I told myself to try to stay open, which meant vulnerable to being broke again and realized that we are the one causing the loneliness and depression that we so often experience. Me and only me is the source of all my problems.
I am a failed human being.
I am not perfect.
And that is the beginning of me becoming more of a human being, by knowing the rot of my problems and why I failed, by undestanding that I failed because I tried to be a being above human a being that is perfect.
We often get told that we should love our neighbor as we love ourselves. The questions is due, do we truly love ourselves?
Love forgives. Recently someone who is dear to me exploded at me totally inappropriately, I immediately accepted the apology that was offered but he kept returning to how inappropriate and wrong the explosion had been, as if he could not be self-forgiving. I sympathize, because this mindset is similar to the one I had, the one that would say that if only the other person really knew me they would not think so positively of me. It was why it has been difficult for me to accept praise of any kind, even when it was well-justified.
I am a failure as a human being because I am human. Here's the thing. That's okay. I may be the one most responsible for my loneliness, my sense of hurt, when I experience depression.
I am still trying to become a better human and I will probably fail at some attempts. Which is also okay.
In my long way to become a better human I may from time to time make a false step, turn the wrong way, but that won't matter because I am a human being, because I am not perfect and because my life's journey is not yet complete.
(I am not a native English, I am curently studying it so if you see any mistake notice me pls)
Hey, you are awesome! don't let others say the opposite of you, you are strong! It's just a phase, i'm with u bro! just don't forget it, YOU ARE PERFECT!! (sorry if my inglish is bad, i'm not american)
If I was perfect I'd have the physique of Arnold Schwarzenegger, liar!
Also to help you improve, English is spelt with an E instead of an I for the word.
@@chorto4038 tysm :D
@@zarompasilva Don't thank me, I am being annoying. Anyway keep up the kind, encouraging words.
To everyone doing their homework, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus.
To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
To everyone who is sad, grab a snack, have some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your creation looks terrific. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
6:38 is the best because it's sisyphus
one must imagine sisyphus happy
Hey, after this, let's listen to some happy music. Gloomy music can make someone feel sad sometimes, but its also a good way to get your thoughts sorted.
It's good to know there are people who will try to listen and help, people who made the music, people in the comments, everyone is trying their best. Everyone can't be the best they can all the time. When things are bad all the time, it'll grow inside of you and it makes things more sad.
I don't really know what I'm getting at in this comment, but I think I wanna say for you and myself, that things won't always be good and that can be ok sometimes. Just find a healthy way to help yourself, even when you think you don't deserve it.
I
Came for Aubrey from OMORI in here. In total stayed for the whole 14:04 and putted it on loop :))
Same
Yo omori fans!!
yup
@@garbage_goat8386yo