One of mine cracked open and got ripped in half (don’t ask how cuz I have no idea) and the one that’s left just sounds muffled and music is my LIFE so I’m in literal hell lmfao
Yea I’m really annoyed youtube removed the ability for creators to be able to place ads themselves, now I just get ads in the middle of playlists I usually use to calm my anxiety but it just ends up getting worse because of the ads being loud and showing up out of nowhere Thanks youtube 😐
@@froggycolouring Maybe you should buy youtube premium then if you can of course,or ask someone to let you have access to their premium account,hope you're doing well
I have a feeling I may have pseudodementia which is basically having memory issues due to depression. Ever since I was diagnosed with MDD as a tween I struggled with heavy memory loss even now as an adult. I used to joke that I possibly have dementia. I have trouble remembering things(specifically events) from yesterday or sometimes what i did the same day, one time i even forgotten names and ages of my friends and family and even myself. My memory's a bit better than it used to be because I practice studying a lot which i think helps. But the fact that my memory is connected to my depression is a nice revelation because it feels like my memory loss is real, I don't feel alone in it. Anyways what was I doing earlier? (Comment Update below) UPDATE: Hello! Thanks for the comments I read them all. I talked to my therapist about this today and I want to point out the term "Pseudodementia" is to be taken with a grain of salt. However they mention DEPRESSION CAN LEAD TO MEMORY PROBLEMS and that MEMORY LOSS IS A SYMPTOM OF DEPRESSION. I also want to add we tried trauma therapy and I still have memory loss and we believe I should try medication for my persistent depression. Yes, i wrote this as a vent because for half of my life my memory issues have been such a struggle for me. When it first happened at age 13 i was so confused and couldn't find the right words to explain it and none of the doctors told me anything, I felt alone and like something was wrong with my brain but i didn't know what or how to help it. I failed a lot of my classes cause i couldn't remember properly and i felt like it was my fault for not remembering. I would at the start physically hit my head to force myself to remember or express what i couldn't explain in words. Many times i would feel so frustrated about my memory issues i dreamed of having a lobotomy done on me to stab the memory parts of the brain and just fix it. I was also afraid i would develop dementia. When i discovered the term "Pseudodementia" recently suddenly everything made sense, i finally found a word that explained the struggles i couldn't express. Even if it was self-diagnosing and maybe an improper term it was a start that led to me realizing I had a real symptom to a mental illness that no one cared to tell me more about. It was freeing cause now I know the problem that is searchable and I can work on it now. And I'm glad if others have this realization too and hope that'll help your own mental health journey no matter what you are struggling with. You are heard, your struggles are real and not less than anyone else's, you aren't the negative labels you are told/tell yourself, you are enough. Thank you for being here and thank you for reading this! I apologize to the people who feel this was too long and hey maybe it was. I just needed to say this and some people needed to hear it. If it was too long let's just enjoy the music instead
I can't believe you just described exactly what I'm going through. I've been experiencing this since I was sixteen and I've been depressed since I was twelve. I can't believe that after all this years I found the word for my struggle in a freaking comment of a playlist video. It makes me feel like I'm not crazy, like it isn't my fault. I thought I was just gaslighting myself into thinking I had memory issues holy shit. Thank you for sharing your experience here. I hope that we'll both overcome this in the future.
God, the first one. Mice on Venus. Jesus christ, what a f*cking hit it always is. Every single time, that truckload of nostalgia, every moment of childhood, all that happiness, washed away. But it's always there. I'm not old, I'm not unhappy - I'm having a picnic in minecraft.
this is exactly what it feels like to grow up with a parent who has dementia, never remembering what grade your in, when your birthday is, if they ate or not, if their husband is real or a stranger, constant freakouts, etc etc. this playlist is nice to use to glide through tough times :)
This video's title is the most terrifying that I've seen in my opinion, and it's not like the video's theme is completely scary, but it's the sense that, despite losing yourself completely, whatever's there with you, is trying to make you forget about forgetting... Which is only mildly comforting if you cared about your memories.
@@Justcallmerosa Same here! When I first learned about the game & watched through all the gameplay, including the final duet, I cried ;-;;; ((also, am I stupid for caring about video game characters, when they don't exist? I've been called names before for just... _caring_ about vid game characters that I shouldn't really care about, etc, OMORI & Undertale..?
Why is this so oddly comfortable? It feels like an invisible person, just putting their arm around my shoulder. And for some reason this really helps with my sleep paralysis. It's like they get nicer every time they visit. But thats a Good thing :)
I have a disorder where my mind creates false memories and is convinced something terrible happened to me but i cant remember it. It makes it really hard to trust the people i love and have known my whole life, and its heartbreaking to know that the memories im currently making may some day be corrupted by my own mind. This playlist describes that feeling of the loss of your sense of self and the uncertainty of your own existence and of those around you. I really find it comforting and love it.
I'm pretty sure have that same, I don't know if it is the one you have but I was diagnosed with Confabulation. Look it up and talk to someone if it connects :)
I like oddly calming stuff so much that I cannot explain in any sort of way possible. RAHHHHH I CAN'T TAKE ITTTT IT'S SO FRUSTRATING NOT BEING ABLE TO EXPRESS MYSELFFFF RAAHHHHHHH
i made a friend. she moved on. i made another friend. she forgot about me. i made a better friend. she was toxic. i made a nicer friend. she believed a lie from 9. i made an atheletic friend. she left without a word. i made a close friend. we chose different paths. i made a funnier friend. she was fake. i kept a smart friend. she chose⬆over me. i kept a shy friend. she lost me a friend. i kept a real friend. she had to go, sadly. i have a best friend. and we've been best friends for a year, going onto two. E + A /platonic
0:00 Mice on venus but extra nostalgic 2:36 Crumbling dreams/Ballora's lullaby 5:14 Six forty seven 7:15 Nice boys 10:16 Numbers (instrumental) 13:20 It's just a burning memory 16:53 Fallen down 21:04 Kitty city 22:53 Homage 26:28 YKWIM 30:01 Canals 33:07 Dust collector 35:55 You not the same 38:05 Hey kids (slowed) 43:03 7 weeks and 3 days 46:18 Mii maker U 48:29 All the follows is true 52:02 On top 54:14 Still life 57:28 School rooftop 1:00:26 A girls feelings 1:02:07 Warm nights nice playlist btw!
finally found a youtuber who noticed the feeling, that one feeling that feels you're welcome to a weird traumatic music but then you knew this was just a piece of part of you, it fits in that missing piece in our soul and we both don't know why it satisfies us but we love the way it expresses its own thing
It's the same for me, like my depression is like sad but calm feeling you know? I'm not sure how to describe it but this ntype of music is litterally what it feels like
My depression and sadness but calm that feeling for me. I listen to it when I’m having a mental breakdown. I listen to it because it reminds me of some of my trauma. I can’t describe the feeling.
Recently I’ve been going through a tough stage of my life. I haven’t been able to feel emotion as much and im starting to forget everything. I sometimes feel so numb that i just feel like im soulless. I’ve always been the emotional kid my whole entire life, and these experiences are making me feel extremely empty inside. It feels like there’s a hole but I can’t patch it up. It’s an odd feeling that I can’t describe, but sometimes I enjoy finally not being able to feel anything and being disconnected from the world. It’s like feeling sick and needing to throw up but you just can’t no matter how hard you try. I’ve also been very tired. I’m getting more sleep than before, yet im feeling so tired that I can’t be productive. I’ve lost so much motivation to do things and I just want to lay in bed and do unspeakable things to myself. I have weird fantasies, weird dreams and im constantly drawing gorey images to keep myself pleased. I clicked on this playlist because I wanted to fall asleep listening to something calming yet nostalgic. I wasn’t excepting to cry, but when i heard the first note of Mice On Venus, I shed a single tear.
I’ve just spent the last 20 minutes in this playlist and it’s a truly a help. My ex who would cut me everyday, how everyone always tells me to kys, me trying to pass it off as a joke, pretending it doesn’t affect me, but it does, everything feels like it’s caving in, and there’s no room for me, how I can’t get over people, how I have panic attacks other night, and this playlist is a true help to get everything out. 10/10
You are worth so much more than these people's lies, there is beauty and light in you and I wish with all the power I have that your life will be better soon
If your ex couldn’t tell the pain he was causing you, he didn’t deserve you in the first place. Those people aren’t good enough to tell what should and shouldn’t live, don’t listen to them. What other people think doesn’t matter. You should do what you want… as long as your obeying the law. You wouldn’t want to go to jail and neither would I. 😉 Enjoy yourself. Nobody can force you to do anything, unless they do… then call the cops. Things will get better. This is just a bump in the road, like a speed bump. Slow down and precede with caution until your on the other side. Can’t wait to meet you there. Sincerely, Italy Clay
a little scenario/story ive made for this playlist no dialogue, tw: murder, blood you did it. youve managed to murder them all in the given time period of a week without getting seen. thank god you didnt get caught, the witness would have to die by your hand even if they werent on the list. you look around yourself, blood and bodies surrounding your figure that has a knife in hand. you didnt want to kill them, but.. you had to. the reward of five thousand dollars was breathtaking. alluring. it would go to a good cause. you had a family to feed, after all. you take a deep breath, containing your composure until you get your prize money. you turn around, only to find that your little brother, horrified, was standing behind you, dilated pupils and hands covering his mouth. a sharp gasp escapes your lips as you realize. your brother is a witness. your brother is a witness. you cant let witnesses roam free, knowing what youve done. you have to.. to.. you take slow, shaky steps towards your brother in the dark room dimly lit by backup lights from the generator, hoping he wouldnt be scared of you. he appears to be frozen in shock, fear. you continue walking towards him silently, coming face to face with your little brother, the brother youve sworn to protect always and forever. his knees buckle and he crashes into your chest, shaking and crying, taking in the unfathomable sight of his sibling who has murdered all of these innocent people for money. you, your brother, and your other siblings may have been poor and without parents, but you were happy. your brother wraps his arms around your waist, sobbing and mumbling inaudible words. hes scared. afraid. terrified. tears came to your eyes as you hug your little brother and stab him in the back with the knife in your hand.
Ive never had a friend and can't remember a single happy memory I've had with others. Isn't that funny that a social creature can feel so unhappy around others? I feel okay when I sit alone, but I know deep down, I'm sad, and just ignoring it. Sometimes I have this wrenching sadness in my gut, so i just cry until it goes away. My therapist just feels like another prying eye trying to find out what happened, but nothing did. I was just made wrong, and you cant fix what isn't broken. I blink slow and bite my skin away, always stopping before I bleed. I hate the taste of blood, so I won't dig that deep with my teeth. My eyes always feel uneven, and my skin always feels to warm. Sometimes I wonder what caused my mother's pill to defect like that, why couldnt it have done its job and killed me? It's not like I want to die, I just wish I had never existed in the first place. I'm just so tired, I wish my mind would sleep.
When you feel hurt think that your feelings are shared with every person in the world, everyone is hurt in their way, everyone can relate to anyone in some way. And think that, Living is always worth, is not the worst or the best thing that can happen to you, it is the only THING that CAN happen to you. Traverse this jungle alone or in company and know that everything is there to make you stronger. You are strong, I know it, keep going.
You can't know if it's going to get worse, but you also can't know if it's going to get better. There is an equal chance of something good as well as something bad.
This might be random but, last week I've a dream. Lately, that's been a rare thing since I most likely could never sleep at night. I still remember it clearly, but only fragments of it. The sense was so calming and ethereal, but at the same time it was very lonely there. When I woke up, I never knew how the dream ended. For a week now, I couldn't get it off my mind but I couldn't find any pictures that's similar to my dream. So far, this music is at least close enough to what I hear and feel there. Again, it's random, but it's a weirdly fascinating thing aside from lucid dreaming or paralysis dreaming. Music's great though!
I have weird dreams a lot and end up remembering them for a few years sometimes. A few weeks ago I cut my hand in a dream and woke up to my hand stinging and sure enough there it was in the exact stop I cut my in the dream.i was pretty spooked but just brushed it off and went on with the rest of my day.and this music is really calming and helps me remember some of my dreams cause it’s what I heard in them.
I had a dream awhile back and there was this kid with white hair. I didn’t know him and I had never seen him before. A year later I was at the park with my sister and I was a spinning thing but I could spin,a kid came up to me and made me spin.I turned around and there he was, the kid from the dream.
@@Chips_63 Oh my, are you alright? Sometimes if you dream something and you wake up seeing something happened to you the same way, something might've happened to you when you were sleeping. Be safe.
@@Chips_63 That's very fascinating. The dream I mentioned in this comment 3 months ago, was how I was a young boy with a big sister. It was odd since I'm the oldest sister of an all girl family and one dad. We'd travel through doors of the mall to another place, have tea time with ladies and gentlemen dress in rococo theme, then to a baseball tournament. , and etc. Until my sister went missing and I tried to find her. The doors suddenly became flooded and I was stuck in a room with several broken doors. I got into one where I found the tea place, but everyone was statues. I woke up when the 'person in charge' in the dream ordered weird looking guards to chase me into an empty void with only canyon rocks around. I climbed them, thinking I heard my sister up but fell and woke up.
Lately, I've been having horrid nightmares of my organs being ripped out one by one by a undetected void. I've also had hallucinations of my 3 year old sister being slaughtered in front of me. This calms me. Thank you, for creating this at the time I needed it most. : )
my life when i ws younger was objectively rubbish - and i have got trauma from it. yet somehow, it was easier. i took pleasure in the little things. i want to be like that again
This playlist can easily make myself tell about my suffering and my experiences with Depression and etc. I've been trying to find a playlist like this that can easily make me feel something just from a video, and music. Ima be thankful that you made this.
same.. i suffer with depression, anxiety and self diagnosed OSDD^^.. i used to hate myself for constantly venting and being sad, people would tell me i was depressed and i would tell them that its not true because i was never clearly diagnosed, it only got worse and worse until i felt as if i was completely insane, trying to fix what was wrong with me, hardly anyone ever wanted to speak to me no matter what i did to ''fix" myself. Every day i would physically harm myself because of how badly i wanted to be actually noticed as good and better. i thought if i was constantly scolding myself and hurting myself i would be teaching myself what not to do. but still i made the same mistake, over and over and over and i cried because i felt as if i could never get better. it only got worse and then i started antidepressants, it got better but.. not the best. people left me, i was unwelcome everywhere i went to leading until the day i tried to un alive myself. my mother found this out and i went to a hospital, i realised how easy it was to just... end it all
I may be 15 and have dementia but something ill never forget is that two of my cousins died and I've started to feel depressed about it because I've had memories about them both and thinking about now there in a better place but i just want to see them again
The playlist is perfect because I am just sad and angry most of the time. Therapy helps but what I think about is just my stress. However this playlist has helped out with this. I listen to this in times where I need to calm down and I am doing great now
at first "It's just a burning memory" sounded scary to me, but over time i cried to it, danced, kissed, thought about dark stuff to it. now it's just a culmination of the dum stuff i did lol.
i dont understand what this playlist is about, but whatever meaning this has for others i can relate to. i just feel so comforted and off put by it at the same time, like... im encountering something that looks adorable, think like a fluffy, small owl, but i know it can tear me to shreds if it wanted to, yet i cant help but trust it. its so welcoming, kind and comforting to interact with, yet i want run away, knowing all that its capable of. as im writing this, im at the crumbling dreams (balloras lullaby) part, and it gives me this vibe more than any over sound i have yet to hear.
I feel good in present moment. I am scared of what will be in future though. I want to just kinda pause it and get ready. Even in video games its scary for me when time is always ticking, which is kind off why i feel that voices of the void is so scary.
Those types of playlist always help me when I’m sorta down. They comfort me a great deal, and at the same time sadden me in a sense Because they make me really creative, yet I know I’m overwhelmed by work.. They also make me feel safe, and comfort me a great deal I love dreamcore
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Woah….more than an hour has already gone by..weird. Listening to this playlist makes me feel like 10 minutes have gone by but also 10 hours at the same time. It’s odd what music can do to you. I love this playlist btw.
i thought it was confused on purpose to really capture the feeling of forgetting, like confusing things due to forgetting it’s not really what you thought (i’m so bad at explaining-)
I love this playlist, and the fact that this is about losing your sense of self and forgetting (I think) is absolutely amazing. I don't really have this kind of problem but I do forget somethings easily, but then the next day I remember. But still, I love this playlist.
I've never actually met someone with dementia until now, and it's one of my friend's parents. One of my friend's only ones. I kind of feel bad because my friend has some kind of problems, no offense to them of course. But, if you think about it. Having only one parent with dementia is kind of sad. Especially if there's no one you can actually lean on because they don't remember much. But looking through these comments actually kind of helps me. I feel more comfortable trying to stand up for my friend as well!
Mice on Venus just brings me back, playing Minecraft on my Play Station 3. Not having all the anxiety about classes and missing assignments. We really need to cherish these moments, even when we didn't know the controls or what we were and weren't supposed to do. We where just having fun. Although we may not be able to go back physically, we can go back mentally. That's all that matters.
this reminds me of playing abandoned games. on things like rec room or Roblox. what's even scarier is when in these games (especially on rec room) a song like this is playing.
ive always had an interest in old tech and games since i was 4 or younger/older, this playlist just gives me nostalgic feelings of when i used to look at old windows backgrounds/ view old stuff(Bliss. Megadrives, PS1, etc) Thank you, thank you for giving me these memories, thank you for the dedication youve put into making this playlist,
Hearing 'bruning memory' by the caretaker just made me cry, my grandma was diagnosed with some kind of dementia a year ago i think... and it just hurts.. she forgot my mom first, now some times she forgets if she's in her house or not.. and.. some times i'm scared that one day she'll forget me.. i also see how bad it affects my mom.. my mom was the one who took care of of my grandma all her alduthood, because my aunt leaves in an other city and isn't here as much as my mom can be.. and my uncle.. well be abbandoned our familly a loooong time ago.. and i see how my grandpa is tired.. i mean it must be hard for him too. Seeing his beloved wife slowly forget about their kids and about him... like.. k see it's making him sad.. and i'm just here.. some times we have to bring her to the hospital and she stays there for like a week or two... last time it lasted two or three months.. and i have panic attacks when i walk in hospitals so i couldn't visit her that much, and i know she still remembers me, and i know i'm the only person in the familly that she never gets angry at.. because imy mom told me to always stay neutral while ghey have agruments or when it's a small one too side with my gandma so she doesn't get angry.. because she also gets mad at my familly when we talk about her meds and the fact that she cant eat to much sugar (she is diabetic..) (qnd she reaaaally likes snacks and chocolate..) and she ealsy get pissed off, andeachtime i go to see her it just feels wrong.. i always knew her as a joyfull lady, always playing with me and telling me stories.. i loved to go at my grandparents house.. but now it just makes me sad. Even more when i learned about the album made by the caretaker (that includes bruning memory..) So i'm gratefull you put it here, i cried a bit but i feel better, kinda ? Well i vented and it felt good so thanks ! Sorry for any mispellings i'm french, and trying to learn to have a better english (also dislexic but that's ... shush..)
Gosh why does going through a tough time in your life just feel so empty? I genuinely just feel so destrot for no reason. I cry at night thinking about my past because some parts of it are barely happy. I only remember such little memories that are full of joy, but I remember most bad parts, even so I might be losing my own memory. I barely remember anything when i wake up, I don't even know. I just feel that something bad is going to happen, and I don't know what.. like I might just die any exact moment, but nothing ever happens. I feel so scared to even go to sleep, but when I do I just have a sudden urge to end it all. I'm sorry if anyone is triggered by what I'm saying cause what I'm writing is sorta a vent. I'm sorry. I've been feeling like a lost cause for my stupid outbursts towards my family members. I've been crying so much while arguing with them over stupid shit not knowing why I'm arguing I start crying even more when I leave them alone. What the hell is going on? am I just maturing to realize I had trauma from the past? nothing really happened to me. Just my parents yelling a lot, my mom hitting me when I lost something that wasn't even hers, CPS called multiple times because of venting to my school counseler about my mom hitting us. Now that I'm older I still don't know if it was discipline or abuse. My sisters (2) had to go to a mental hospital cause they tried to end it all. I never been to a mental hospital personally, but my mom had found it 2 days ago that I've been self-harming and contacting people from the suicide hotline for help. She had told me "is it because of me? I never did anything to you. Why are you like this? you're the one in the fault here." Did she forget after all those times when she hit my own siblings, left them outside in the night because they were crying over them hitting them? I don't understand why my mom is like this. I don't want to live with her, but I still have a few more years before I can actually move out. My siblings tried to end it because of my mom, and she doesn't know that my older sister tried to end it because she doesn't care about her. She doesn't care about me, my sisters, nor my dad. My dad is scared of her because he knows she's at a huge advantage here. He could end his whole life on the spot they divorce, so he sides with her. I cried to him once, and he didn't do anything. He just let me cry on his shoulder. I've never felt affection my entire life until that moment. That time was the best, really. I hugged my dad on mutliple occasions, but that was a special time. I never cried in front of my dad, only my mom because she was the reason I was crying. Till this day, I still live with my parents with my other sister. I've been venting to her about the problems I've been facing, but she can't do anything either since she is also young. I can't get a therapist or a specialist to see if I have any sort of issues cause my mom wants to avoid all of it for some reason. Is it CPS she's avoiding? I just want someone to talk to that can help me. I just want help. I don't know who to talk to without them calling weird people to our house, or putting me on suicide watch since the last time they called CPS I had to be on suicide watch because I tried to end it so it could stop, for once atlast. I just want my life to be better. But it never can. My mom just ignores my feelings and just goes with her day, acting like I wasn't just yelling at her about why I've been like this, why I've had attitude with her so much, why I avoid eye contact. IT'S BECAUSE OF HER AND SHE DOESN'T REALIZE IT'S ABOUT HER. I can't handle this stupid ass life anymore.
OH MY- It's supossed this have to scary me, or at least calm me down, but for one reason this give a feeling of nostalgia- TF, I'M GOING TO A CORNER TO CRY. (Fnaf one remind me when i met the game, and let's no talk about the Undertale one-😭)
do you ever start talking to someone in your head and realzise its nothing like you so you feel like theres someone in your head? no? ok it just me then.
Remember to just smile. It feels good and helps you. No matter if you are 5, 26, 78, 100 years old just remember to smile :) and for those who think all is lost. Just smile, don’t worry we’ll join everyone else on the other side one day. All just burning memories and as the catalog for humans will come to an end one day. We are so small, but don’t let that stop you. Something the matter? Scaring you? Making you unhappy? Well how about you just walk past it. You’re bigger than it. We are so small…so, so small. All just burning memories Rest in peace mom
OML SAMEEE Ok so I used to watch yt on my iPad all the time with my brother, and we found this video called kitty city I loved it, we started watching the channel There was uh- some creepy stuff in there Now I collect bones Idk if there’s a connection
Toby fox is a gd genius fallen down makes you feel lost in a weird world, the child fell through a hole and, guess what, got lost in a weird world where u can date skeletons and fight fish, and flowers and gods with a stick. I will forever have undertale as my number 1 fav game
0:00 "You woke up at the strange street. You don't know how did you get here. Its sunny. You realized that the street is empty. You wanna find a way to your home. You just went exploring this place, and soon you'll realize that nothing is real." 2:36 "Its turns night, but you didn't found exit from this street. You realize that something is wrong. Why didn't you saw any people? You think its just a bad dream..." 5:14 "You found a door in a wall. You opened it and entered a strange corridor with grass and flowers on the floor. You went to the end of this corridor." 7:15 "You entered a strange room. In this room walls, floor and a ceiling had a sky texture. You went to the door at the end of this room, but you noticed a strange birds... They was an eyes with a wings. You ignored them, and you entered next room, thinking about your home." 10:16 "You opened next door and you saw a big street. It was an evening. You hope that all of this just a bad dream. You explore new place and realise that the street is very long, but you went to the end of it." 13:20 "You entered a door at the end of the street, and you went to the yellow room with wet carpet and buzzing lamps. You noticed that this place is very familiar, but you can't remember where did you saw it before. You just went exploring it. After 4 hours of exploring, you realized that this place have no escape, so you just sat at the carpet and waited for anything that would happen... You fell asleep for 3 hours." 16:53 "You woke up at the unknown home. You're hopeless, you're tired, you're depressed. You realize that this will never end. You just went exploring new place. House was very small, but comfortable. You found an exit door, and you think you can try to escape this place and go to your home. You opened next door." 21:04 "You went to the empty city behind the door. You signed and went exploring this place, like every time you entered new place. You don't know, will it end or not." 22:53 "You entered random house and went exploring it. You realized that the house was the new place. It was very big. You went to the 2nd floor. You found new door. You think it will never end." 26:28 "You entered a forest. You're comfused. How the door on 2nd floor of the house can send you to the forest? You just went exploring. After 2 hours of exploring you found a cave. You entered this cave, hoping that it is empty too, because you wont die in this place." 30:01 "Cave was very big and dark. It was full of stalactites and stalagmites, so you were very careful. You didn't found anything for 5 hours of exploting. You lay at the floor. It was very cold, but you anyways fell asleep for 6 hours." 33:07 "You woke up at the shop. You noticed that only one lamp is working, so the shop was very dark. You found some eatables and you full now. You get some for other places, and you went to the door right next you in the dark." 35:55 "You opened that door and you went to the very old house. It was almost burnt to the horizont. You went exploring it, and you almost died because of big tree that falled forward you. You went to the exit from this house." 38:05 "You went to the party room. Even this place was empty, but there was a lot of cakes and water. You went exploring it, like every time. You're tired of this. You wanna just find exit from this all. You found a door... again." 43:03 "You entered a big aquapark. There was a lot of water slides and a pool. You went to the restroom door. You think you will find this freaking exit..." 46:18 "You went to the gas station. It was evening. You found a car. You think you can escape if you drive the car to the exit. You sat in the car and drove forward." 48:29 "You went to the corn field. You went out of car and went to the field. You explored it for 3 hour and didn't found any exit. You just lay on the floor, like all time this happens. You fell asleep... again." 52:02 "You slept for hours. You think about how you will get back to your home. You hope its all just a dream." 54:14 "You woke up at the same street as the first place, but with pinky fog and it was evening. You explored street again. But it was different. Some houses was different or sometimes there was no house at the place where it was in the first place. You found a door similar to the door at the first place. You entered it." 57:28 "You entered a big white corridor. You went to the end of it. You remember all places you entered. You hope it's the last one. The corridor wont end, but you anyways went to the end. After 1 hour of walking you went to the door at the end. You entered it." 1:00:26 "You entered a small room with two chairs and a tablet. On the opposite chair was a man with a TV as a head. He said "Sit down." He said: "Thanks for exploring all my places. I made them as a game. But everyone failed and died by hunger or thirst. You entered all places and won my game. So i will return you to your home. So, goodbye." You fell asleep." 1:02:07 "You woke up in your bed at your home. You realize that everything is ended. You're happy. You went to your kitchen. It was just like before you fell to this game. You cryed of joy." Edit: sorry if my English is bad, I'm ukrainian :(
I listened this song while sleeping..yea I just dream in backroom..and when I saw there a lot eye in that room..I was sacred so I hit my head and I wake up..
This reminds me when i was 4 having so many mental issues at the time it used to be super hard for me to socialize cause of the trust issues i have I realized that everything important to be always leaves me with no trace behind but just memories i felt burned out years later they friend wanna be friends with me again even though I forgot who they are i always found it hard to socialize because i didn’t wanna see betrayal come back to me again years later i was 10 a people pleaser and therapy friend i got taken advantage of so many times and manipulated i had to stop that then i started worrying about other people than myself helping people when they are sad,mad,confused,manipulated or upset i always took the initiative to help other people but i was never noticed for my hard work nowadays i wish i could go back into the past to see my friends before they leave me again.
When I see that I've watched this video before but I don't know any of the songs in it: 13:24 (this actually happened on this video idk why or how it does that)
Growing up with a HORRIBLE panic disorder, feeling like a depressed, depersonalized mess my entire life, I can finally enjoy this mess of reality with people just like me. People who have had to mask their chemical imbalances their entire lives, when in reality we feel unreal and too self aware like we are npc errors in a video game.
This playlist made me feel somewhat safe and comfortable. It also brought a familiar feeling that I've been having for the past few weeks or even months. Years. This may sound cringey, but I would like to write a POV as I listen through. There's the teacher. In front of all the students. Teaching mathematics. So far, it's not difficult to understand; as long as you don't lose track of time and lose your senses all of the sudden. Yet here you are. Look at you. Staring into nothing as your mind drifted off to a parade of music and images. Some may be vivid, some are vague. Some, childlike. Some, a tad dark. This is nothing new to you. You've always had zoned out and get warped into a land full of memories; nostalgic and traumatic at times. Though this time is different, somehow. Instead of feeling such rage, you feel confusion, sadness, and longing. A craving, even. Craving something you've never thought of wanting ever since *he* left. Seriously... Why am I longing for the affection of a father? Why do I crave physical touch, such as hugs, from a person? Why must I feel so childlike, upset, giddy all at the same time, just because of memories that I've started to preserve in a new way, accordingly to all the other ones? Okay, it's a vent at this point, I should stop. But if you managed to read until the end, hello, and thank you ^ ^ Trauma is certainly not a good thing to have, yet that is something most of us have in common, it seems. However, I pray that those will never trouble you again in the near future. The journey seems endless, and life will still be hard, but we can get through this. I pray that you have a good day/night, and take good care of yourself. I love you all ^ ^
I kept listening to this to help me feel better since tomorrow is my birthday but my best friend won't be there since she is back at my hometown and I live somewhere else now..
The same time as i heard this playlist my arm is losing blood, not to much, im safe, but i feel the pain, i dont know what im doing but, this place is really quiet, i can say things that i want to tell.
came back to 1 mil views 💌 ly guys :3
Hey can you do light no theme? or kuroi light? it'll be perfect. Just asking!
ily2
very deserved king ❤
np
ly you too, thx for making this
My earphones are nearly dead so everything sounds like its underwater so it kinda fits the aesthetic lol
Bruh
One of mine cracked open and got ripped in half (don’t ask how cuz I have no idea) and the one that’s left just sounds muffled and music is my LIFE so I’m in literal hell lmfao
i wish i had headphones that did things like that
mine just let out a furby death screech
@@cinguloapathy KEL PFP KEL PFP KEL PFP
🤣🤣🤣
Wouldn't be a traumacore Playlist without an ad after every song
im not getting ads :/
same@@Bucciaratis_child
It's not exclusively a traumacore playlist either, it also has weirdcore and dreamcore in it
Yea I’m really annoyed youtube removed the ability for creators to be able to place ads themselves, now I just get ads in the middle of playlists I usually use to calm my anxiety but it just ends up getting worse because of the ads being loud and showing up out of nowhere
Thanks youtube 😐
@@froggycolouring Maybe you should buy youtube premium then if you can of course,or ask someone to let you have access to their premium account,hope you're doing well
"dementia? no no, we're having a picnic!"
HELP WHY DOES THAT SOUND FUNNY
we're*
lol ur grammer sucks ass, like, go suck a dic- oh oh i ment go fly a kite!
Damn 💀
@@naparpatche why huhuhhuhuuh?
Me after taking my pills: "she was lying."
it's gonna be really funny in a decade or two when "weirdcore" as a moment in internet culture is, itself, the object of nostalgia
I hope it will stay forever:'v
PLS dont
You are not weak for feeling this way. Your strength lies in your ability to keep going despite the challenges.
I still can't eat raw uranium!
@@Joshu_arinalli
dammit I wish I could eat raw uranium
Can i eat the raw uranium now?
@@Theawesomecat237 I mean the 14 billion calories per gram make it seem like a great bulking tool!
I have a feeling I may have pseudodementia which is basically having memory issues due to depression. Ever since I was diagnosed with MDD as a tween I struggled with heavy memory loss even now as an adult. I used to joke that I possibly have dementia. I have trouble remembering things(specifically events) from yesterday or sometimes what i did the same day, one time i even forgotten names and ages of my friends and family and even myself. My memory's a bit better than it used to be because I practice studying a lot which i think helps. But the fact that my memory is connected to my depression is a nice revelation because it feels like my memory loss is real, I don't feel alone in it. Anyways what was I doing earlier? (Comment Update below)
UPDATE: Hello! Thanks for the comments I read them all. I talked to my therapist about this today and I want to point out the term "Pseudodementia" is to be taken with a grain of salt. However they mention DEPRESSION CAN LEAD TO MEMORY PROBLEMS and that MEMORY LOSS IS A SYMPTOM OF DEPRESSION. I also want to add we tried trauma therapy and I still have memory loss and we believe I should try medication for my persistent depression.
Yes, i wrote this as a vent because for half of my life my memory issues have been such a struggle for me. When it first happened at age 13 i was so confused and couldn't find the right words to explain it and none of the doctors told me anything, I felt alone and like something was wrong with my brain but i didn't know what or how to help it. I failed a lot of my classes cause i couldn't remember properly and i felt like it was my fault for not remembering. I would at the start physically hit my head to force myself to remember or express what i couldn't explain in words. Many times i would feel so frustrated about my memory issues i dreamed of having a lobotomy done on me to stab the memory parts of the brain and just fix it. I was also afraid i would develop dementia. When i discovered the term "Pseudodementia" recently suddenly everything made sense, i finally found a word that explained the struggles i couldn't express. Even if it was self-diagnosing and maybe an improper term it was a start that led to me realizing I had a real symptom to a mental illness that no one cared to tell me more about. It was freeing cause now I know the problem that is searchable and I can work on it now. And I'm glad if others have this realization too and hope that'll help your own mental health journey no matter what you are struggling with. You are heard, your struggles are real and not less than anyone else's, you aren't the negative labels you are told/tell yourself, you are enough. Thank you for being here and thank you for reading this!
I apologize to the people who feel this was too long and hey maybe it was. I just needed to say this and some people needed to hear it. If it was too long let's just enjoy the music instead
💀 long msg
I can't believe you just described exactly what I'm going through. I've been experiencing this since I was sixteen and I've been depressed since I was twelve. I can't believe that after all this years I found the word for my struggle in a freaking comment of a playlist video. It makes me feel like I'm not crazy, like it isn't my fault. I thought I was just gaslighting myself into thinking I had memory issues holy shit. Thank you for sharing your experience here. I hope that we'll both overcome this in the future.
haha@@aynsoa3112
Wait wtf this is kind of what I'm going thru rn????? I thought I was just stupid 😭
haha@@Light_Dies_07
God, the first one. Mice on Venus. Jesus christ, what a f*cking hit it always is. Every single time, that truckload of nostalgia, every moment of childhood, all that happiness, washed away.
But it's always there. I'm not old, I'm not unhappy - I'm having a picnic in minecraft.
Hell yeah brother
and its titled TOMPOREX lmao
but totally dude
Ok
It honestly kinda hurts.
Stop swearing. It's weird and dumb.
this is exactly what it feels like to grow up with a parent who has dementia, never remembering what grade your in, when your birthday is, if they ate or not, if their husband is real or a stranger, constant freakouts, etc etc. this playlist is nice to use to glide through tough times :)
at least they're trying
@@lunlun3025It's still difficult for the child.
I wish you a lot of strength! You are not alone!
wtffff
why do I think like the weirdcore and dreamcore people are the better parents than what we have though. Like they just seem so kind
I do, too, but I think that some are just faking it to try and brainwash you or something
Honestly though, they seem like the parent to always be proud, and then give you a batch of cookies :0
@@strikonanimations7621 bro my mom told me she wasnt proud of me today
no they aren't bro that shit scares me I would rather stick to my non existent dad and my existent mother then stay wth those freaks(+_+)
Why thank you
This video's title is the most terrifying that I've seen in my opinion, and it's not like the video's theme is completely scary, but it's the sense that, despite losing yourself completely, whatever's there with you, is trying to make you forget about forgetting... Which is only mildly comforting if you cared about your memories.
Also
Omori.
“You arrive at the picnic, Sitting down with your sister *MARI*”
@@Justcallmerosa Same here! When I first learned about the game & watched through all the gameplay, including the final duet, I cried ;-;;; ((also, am I stupid for caring about video game characters, when they don't exist? I've been called names before for just... _caring_ about vid game characters that I shouldn't really care about, etc, OMORI & Undertale..?
@@mirupikachu8505no it’s not I’ve cried like countless times playing omori
It’s still terrifying lol
BALLORA'S LULLABY IS THERE OMG
feel like it fits really well with traumacore :D
@@saurykil agree with you on this
hahah yes yes
GREAT CHOICE!!
YESSSSS
Why is this so oddly comfortable?
It feels like an invisible person, just putting their arm around my shoulder.
And for some reason this really helps with my sleep paralysis. It's like they get nicer every time they visit.
But thats a Good thing
:)
Same...!^^
@@fure-nia
:)
You been okay man?
I have a disorder where my mind creates false memories and is convinced something terrible happened to me but i cant remember it. It makes it really hard to trust the people i love and have known my whole life, and its heartbreaking to know that the memories im currently making may some day be corrupted by my own mind.
This playlist describes that feeling of the loss of your sense of self and the uncertainty of your own existence and of those around you. I really find it comforting and love it.
I wanna make a joke about inviting you to come listen again if you forgot but I'm just gonna leave my reply like this
I'm so sorry. I know it's hard :(
Oh no... ; - ;
@@alexacraney3956:(
I'm pretty sure have that same, I don't know if it is the one you have but I was diagnosed with Confabulation.
Look it up and talk to someone if it connects :)
I like oddly calming stuff so much that I cannot explain in any sort of way possible.
RAHHHHH I CAN'T TAKE ITTTT IT'S SO FRUSTRATING NOT BEING ABLE TO EXPRESS MYSELFFFF RAAHHHHHHH
rah
?
rah
rah
Words fell me sometimes too
i made a friend. she moved on.
i made another friend. she forgot about me.
i made a better friend. she was toxic.
i made a nicer friend. she believed a lie from 9.
i made an atheletic friend. she left without a word.
i made a close friend. we chose different paths.
i made a funnier friend. she was fake.
i kept a smart friend. she chose⬆over me.
i kept a shy friend. she lost me a friend.
i kept a real friend. she had to go, sadly.
i have a best friend. and we've been best friends for a year, going onto two.
E + A
/platonic
@delulu.Eczema I think they meant that they chose the funnier friend over them
@@a_username.._1 yup
/give delusional_krieu reallife:girlfriend
Here you go buddy
Why are these songs weirdly calming??
Edit: Lesss gooo, 500+ likes!! Ty y'all so much!!!
Yes your right here
its like that right? haha thats funny for some reason i dont know why tho, but these are calming lmaooooo thats funny lol
@@Karma-13_. fr lol
hehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehehehehehhehe@@Elkin_MayBloom
That playlist safe place for me man
0:00 Mice on venus but extra nostalgic
2:36 Crumbling dreams/Ballora's lullaby
5:14 Six forty seven
7:15 Nice boys
10:16 Numbers (instrumental)
13:20 It's just a burning memory
16:53 Fallen down
21:04 Kitty city
22:53 Homage
26:28 YKWIM
30:01 Canals
33:07 Dust collector
35:55 You not the same
38:05 Hey kids (slowed)
43:03 7 weeks and 3 days
46:18 Mii maker U
48:29 All the follows is true
52:02 On top
54:14 Still life
57:28 School rooftop
1:00:26 A girls feelings
1:02:07 Warm nights
nice playlist btw!
TYSMM
helpful as hell bro thank youuu
@@sauryki HEY @itsartemm
yoyoyoy
yoyooy
finally found a youtuber who noticed the feeling, that one feeling that feels you're welcome to a weird traumatic music but then you knew this was just a piece of part of you, it fits in that missing piece in our soul and we both don't know why it satisfies us but we love the way it expresses its own thing
It's the same for me, like my depression is like sad but calm feeling you know? I'm not sure how to describe it but this ntype of music is litterally what it feels like
My depression and sadness but calm that feeling for me. I listen to it when I’m having a mental breakdown. I listen to it because it reminds me of some of my trauma. I can’t describe the feeling.
I get what you're trying to explain, it's the same for me too@@Fvck-transphobia
this is oddly perfect, i was just talking to my friend and they keep saying i have dementia, and this played and we both burst out laughing
wait how do you know which one im listening to
Recently I’ve been going through a tough stage of my life. I haven’t been able to feel emotion as much and im starting to forget everything. I sometimes feel so numb that i just feel like im soulless. I’ve always been the emotional kid my whole entire life, and these experiences are making me feel extremely empty inside. It feels like there’s a hole but I can’t patch it up. It’s an odd feeling that I can’t describe, but sometimes I enjoy finally not being able to feel anything and being disconnected from the world. It’s like feeling sick and needing to throw up but you just can’t no matter how hard you try. I’ve also been very tired. I’m getting more sleep than before, yet im feeling so tired that I can’t be productive. I’ve lost so much motivation to do things and I just want to lay in bed and do unspeakable things to myself. I have weird fantasies, weird dreams and im constantly drawing gorey images to keep myself pleased.
I clicked on this playlist because I wanted to fall asleep listening to something calming yet nostalgic. I wasn’t excepting to cry, but when i heard the first note of Mice On Venus, I shed a single tear.
You should tell someone about this
@@JeromePeiken-e7y I’ve talked to my mother about this, but thanks
i hope your doing okay :)
I’ve just spent the last 20 minutes in this playlist and it’s a truly a help. My ex who would cut me everyday, how everyone always tells me to kys, me trying to pass it off as a joke, pretending it doesn’t affect me, but it does, everything feels like it’s caving in, and there’s no room for me, how I can’t get over people, how I have panic attacks other night, and this playlist is a true help to get everything out. 10/10
u are worthy, beautiful and unique being, none has the right to say that or do such things. Cut it off
Are you feeling better now…?
You are worth so much more than these people's lies, there is beauty and light in you and I wish with all the power I have that your life will be better soon
If your ex couldn’t tell the pain he was causing you, he didn’t deserve you in the first place. Those people aren’t good enough to tell what should and shouldn’t live, don’t listen to them. What other people think doesn’t matter. You should do what you want… as long as your obeying the law. You wouldn’t want to go to jail and neither would I. 😉 Enjoy yourself. Nobody can force you to do anything, unless they do… then call the cops. Things will get better. This is just a bump in the road, like a speed bump. Slow down and precede with caution until your on the other side. Can’t wait to meet you there.
Sincerely,
Italy Clay
a little scenario/story ive made for this playlist
no dialogue, tw: murder, blood
you did it. youve managed to murder them all in the given time period of a week without getting seen. thank god you didnt get caught, the witness would have to die by your hand even if they werent on the list. you look around yourself, blood and bodies surrounding your figure that has a knife in hand. you didnt want to kill them, but.. you had to. the reward of five thousand dollars was breathtaking. alluring. it would go to a good cause. you had a family to feed, after all. you take a deep breath, containing your composure until you get your prize money. you turn around, only to find that your little brother, horrified, was standing behind you, dilated pupils and hands covering his mouth. a sharp gasp escapes your lips as you realize. your brother is a witness. your brother is a witness. you cant let witnesses roam free, knowing what youve done. you have to.. to..
you take slow, shaky steps towards your brother in the dark room dimly lit by backup lights from the generator, hoping he wouldnt be scared of you. he appears to be frozen in shock, fear. you continue walking towards him silently, coming face to face with your little brother, the brother youve sworn to protect always and forever. his knees buckle and he crashes into your chest, shaking and crying, taking in the unfathomable sight of his sibling who has murdered all of these innocent people for money. you, your brother, and your other siblings may have been poor and without parents, but you were happy. your brother wraps his arms around your waist, sobbing and mumbling inaudible words. hes scared. afraid. terrified.
tears came to your eyes as you hug your little brother and stab him in the back with the knife in your hand.
Whyyyy do you have to make me cry even moreeee
and laughed, for it was all a facade. you didn't have any emotions, they were all numbed. you cried; and laughed. it was surreal. you felt great.
@@SMILEYFACE3412 AA made it even better
im cryin-
cleanse thine twisted mind!!!
this playlist is perfect! it's loud enough to block out the sounds of school, without being too loud
absolutely amazing
Ive never had a friend and can't remember a single happy memory I've had with others. Isn't that funny that a social creature can feel so unhappy around others? I feel okay when I sit alone, but I know deep down, I'm sad, and just ignoring it. Sometimes I have this wrenching sadness in my gut, so i just cry until it goes away. My therapist just feels like another prying eye trying to find out what happened, but nothing did. I was just made wrong, and you cant fix what isn't broken. I blink slow and bite my skin away, always stopping before I bleed. I hate the taste of blood, so I won't dig that deep with my teeth. My eyes always feel uneven, and my skin always feels to warm. Sometimes I wonder what caused my mother's pill to defect like that, why couldnt it have done its job and killed me? It's not like I want to die, I just wish I had never existed in the first place. I'm just so tired, I wish my mind would sleep.
are you ok now?
@@azulvr647 lmao no
@@Xratcho oh i hope you get better
@@azulvr647 thanks 👍
Awww I’m so so sorry. 😞 I hope nothing but the best for you. You deserve happiness
When you feel hurt think that your feelings are shared with every person in the world, everyone is hurt in their way, everyone can relate to anyone in some way. And think that, Living is always worth, is not the worst or the best thing that can happen to you, it is the only THING that CAN happen to you.
Traverse this jungle alone or in company and know that everything is there to make you stronger. You are strong, I know it, keep going.
You can't know if it's going to get worse, but you also can't know if it's going to get better. There is an equal chance of something good as well as something bad.
@@shade100 And also use hope and attitude to change everything
All is within ourselves
This comment could save a life one day. Great inspiration
HOLY MOLY- I was just watching something and this video played automatically and literally the first second of this and I'm getting chills
yeah yeah same
real
I was just listening to fnaf musics to think back to my childhood, then this played automatically lol
Why does this make me feel comfortable and safe?…..
bcoz ur traumatized 💞💞💞💞
@@toxichazard3333 Yus, thank u
@@toxichazard3333 🎉🎉 (im not making light of it btw)
This might be random but, last week I've a dream. Lately, that's been a rare thing since I most likely could never sleep at night. I still remember it clearly, but only fragments of it. The sense was so calming and ethereal, but at the same time it was very lonely there. When I woke up, I never knew how the dream ended. For a week now, I couldn't get it off my mind but I couldn't find any pictures that's similar to my dream. So far, this music is at least close enough to what I hear and feel there.
Again, it's random, but it's a weirdly fascinating thing aside from lucid dreaming or paralysis dreaming. Music's great though!
I have weird dreams a lot and end up remembering them for a few years sometimes. A few weeks ago I cut my hand in a dream and woke up to my hand stinging and sure enough there it was in the exact stop I cut my in the dream.i was pretty spooked but just brushed it off and went on with the rest of my day.and this music is really calming and helps me remember some of my dreams cause it’s what I heard in them.
I had a dream awhile back and there was this kid with white hair. I didn’t know him and I had never seen him before. A year later I was at the park with my sister and I was a spinning thing but I could spin,a kid came up to me and made me spin.I turned around and there he was, the kid from the dream.
I can relate. I also have lucid dreams almost every month
@@Chips_63 Oh my, are you alright? Sometimes if you dream something and you wake up seeing something happened to you the same way, something might've happened to you when you were sleeping. Be safe.
@@Chips_63 That's very fascinating. The dream I mentioned in this comment 3 months ago, was how I was a young boy with a big sister. It was odd since I'm the oldest sister of an all girl family and one dad. We'd travel through doors of the mall to another place, have tea time with ladies and gentlemen dress in rococo theme, then to a baseball tournament.
, and etc. Until my sister went missing and I tried to find her. The doors suddenly became flooded and I was stuck in a room with several broken doors. I got into one where I found the tea place, but everyone was statues. I woke up when the 'person in charge' in the dream ordered weird looking guards to chase me into an empty void with only canyon rocks around. I climbed them, thinking I heard my sister up but fell and woke up.
Lately, I've been having horrid nightmares of my organs being ripped out one by one by a undetected void. I've also had hallucinations of my 3 year old sister being slaughtered in front of me. This calms me. Thank you, for creating this at the time I needed it most. : )
If you need to talk I’m here, I used to have lucid nightmares every day until I learnt how to not dream.
i hope ur okay!!
So is no one going to talk about the random discord notification near the end? Because my heart skipped a beat-
lol samemeeeeee
wait can i pls see? put the time its at lol
i had a heart attack when i heard that
Thanks for the heads up-
my life when i ws younger was objectively rubbish - and i have got trauma from it. yet somehow, it was easier. i took pleasure in the little things. i want to be like that again
so what bro this is not a therapy thing
nobody vforcing u to read it lmao@@Karma-13_.
@@Karma-13_.A lot of people vent in the comment sections of playlists like these. You don't have to be rude about it.
chill dude @@CyberCeara_
exactly how I feel.❤
This playlist can easily make myself tell about my suffering and my experiences with Depression and etc. I've been trying to find a playlist like this that can easily make me feel something just from a video, and music. Ima be thankful that you made this.
I'm so glad I could help with this, I hope everything gets better for you
same.. i suffer with depression, anxiety and self diagnosed OSDD^^..
i used to hate myself for constantly venting and being sad, people would tell me i was depressed and i would tell them that its not true because i was never clearly diagnosed, it only got worse and worse until i felt as if i was completely insane, trying to fix what was wrong with me, hardly anyone ever wanted to speak to me no matter what i did to ''fix" myself. Every day i would physically harm myself because of how badly i wanted to be actually noticed as good and better. i thought if i was constantly scolding myself and hurting myself i would be teaching myself what not to do. but still i made the same mistake, over and over and over and i cried because i felt as if i could never get better. it only got worse and then i started antidepressants, it got better but.. not the best. people left me, i was unwelcome everywhere i went to leading until the day i tried to un alive myself. my mother found this out and i went to a hospital, i realised how easy it was to just... end it all
@@Weewoosuniwomp womp
@@UrAverageGravityFallsFan bro wha
@@alexacraney3956 I said what I said lol
I...
I always will be the troubled kid in my family. Listening to this makes me feel like it.
I'm a troubled kid too... of course for very different reasons! but still feel your pain
screw them
just do this life for yourself
@@geoeira noooo don't ruin this I have an entire insult set up don't start giving this blue hair confidence
@@Joshu_arinalli you can insult me instead, baby
@@geoeira I didn't know you were into that~ you disgusting little freak!
I may be 15 and have dementia but something ill never forget is that two of my cousins died and I've started to feel depressed about it because I've had memories about them both and thinking about now there in a better place but i just want to see them again
I'm so sorry. I hope you start to heal soon
The playlist is perfect because I am just sad and angry most of the time. Therapy helps but what I think about is just my stress. However this playlist has helped out with this. I listen to this in times where I need to calm down and I am doing great now
This deserves so much more attention!
YES!!!!!!!!!
Agree
uh huh
at first "It's just a burning memory" sounded scary to me, but over time i cried to it, danced, kissed, thought about dark stuff to it. now it's just a culmination of the dum stuff i did lol.
canals hits different, like you're in your past memories and its just not the same
i love this playlist and i know im late haha!
i dont understand what this playlist is about, but whatever meaning this has for others i can relate to. i just feel so comforted and off put by it at the same time, like... im encountering something that looks adorable, think like a fluffy, small owl, but i know it can tear me to shreds if it wanted to, yet i cant help but trust it. its so welcoming, kind and comforting to interact with, yet i want run away, knowing all that its capable of. as im writing this, im at the crumbling dreams (balloras lullaby) part, and it gives me this vibe more than any over sound i have yet to hear.
👁👄👁🤚 poetic
I feel good in present moment. I am scared of what will be in future though. I want to just kinda pause it and get ready. Even in video games its scary for me when time is always ticking, which is kind off why i feel that voices of the void is so scary.
THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS PLAYLIST THIS IS ONE OF THE BEST PLAYLISTS IVE EVER HEARD
Honestly I wish I lived in some of this pictures. Wish everyone could forget me to and never know I ever existed.
I don't know if I should like or dislike this comment.. just.. uhm.. I'm sending hugs, okay?
Same…
I Enjoy playing playlists like this and then opening another tab and playing heavy rain over it. it helps me sleep even with my insomnia.
you’ve introduced me to something amazing, thank you for sharing, adding rain to this playlist adds so much, it’s so calming❤️
omg this is actually amazing with rains sounds 😢😢
NEVERMIND ITS ALL GOOD UNTIL KITTY CITY COMES UP LMAOO
@@saurykiLMAO
Those types of playlist always help me when I’m sorta down.
They comfort me a great deal, and at the same time sadden me in a sense
Because they make me really creative, yet I know I’m overwhelmed by work..
They also make me feel safe, and comfort me a great deal
I love dreamcore
why my dementia hasn't affected me as a person - by me
why my dementia hasn't affected me as a person - by me
why my dementia hasn't affected me as a person - by me
why my dementia hasn't affected me as a person - by me
why my dementia hasn't affected me as a person - by me
why my dem...
haha thats weird? why is this?
lol
lol
lol@@focy1546
lol
Woah….more than an hour has already gone by..weird. Listening to this playlist makes me feel like 10 minutes have gone by but also 10 hours at the same time. It’s odd what music can do to you.
I love this playlist btw.
I don’t have trauma or anything I just love this playlist to listen to at a night car ride 😭
You know its a good playlist when it starts with nice boys
that wasnt even nice boys it was minecraft
Its not a nice boys, its a mice on venus but nostalgic, video bugged so it shows wrong picture
i thought it was confused on purpose to really capture the feeling of forgetting, like confusing things due to forgetting it’s not really what you thought (i’m so bad at explaining-)
@@miticissimo76thanks for not blurting out that I got it wrong
@@CatoTato
I love this playlist, and the fact that this is about losing your sense of self and forgetting (I think) is absolutely amazing. I don't really have this kind of problem but I do forget somethings easily, but then the next day I remember. But still, I love this playlist.
I've never actually met someone with dementia until now, and it's one of my friend's parents. One of my friend's only ones. I kind of feel bad because my friend has some kind of problems, no offense to them of course. But, if you think about it. Having only one parent with dementia is kind of sad. Especially if there's no one you can actually lean on because they don't remember much.
But looking through these comments actually kind of helps me. I feel more comfortable trying to stand up for my friend as well!
Mice on Venus just brings me back, playing Minecraft on my Play Station 3. Not having all the anxiety about classes and missing assignments. We really need to cherish these moments, even when we didn't know the controls or what we were and weren't supposed to do. We where just having fun. Although we may not be able to go back physically, we can go back mentally. That's all that matters.
IM CRYING THESE REPLIES
haha
Nah not all my exs but one because she was crazy af being my friends :>
ur pfp lol@@ImBoredBleh
@@Karma-13_. lol idk why chose this
lolollool@@ImBoredBleh
this reminds me of playing abandoned games. on things like rec room or Roblox. what's even scarier is when in these games (especially on rec room) a song like this is playing.
ive always had an interest in old tech and games since i was 4 or younger/older, this playlist just gives me nostalgic feelings of when i used to look at old windows backgrounds/ view old stuff(Bliss. Megadrives, PS1, etc) Thank you, thank you for giving me these memories, thank you for the dedication youve put into making this playlist,
Not the first one making me cry violently. I don't even know what's happening ohmeingott-
I need to get my mental state back in shape. Right now.
How is it going ?
How's it going?
Anyone still here
why we still here?
Idk i forgot
Hmm
Yes
No, i don't think so..
the best playlist i ever listened to. truly amazing
estava curtindo a pedrada de mice on venus ai fiquei paranoico com a ballora, o editor sabia o que estava fazendo, otima playlist
I like songs with this dreamy atmosphere. Thank you so much for making the Dreamcore playlist. Thank you so much for posting the title of the song❤❤❤
Hearing 'bruning memory' by the caretaker just made me cry, my grandma was diagnosed with some kind of dementia a year ago i think... and it just hurts.. she forgot my mom first, now some times she forgets if she's in her house or not.. and.. some times i'm scared that one day she'll forget me.. i also see how bad it affects my mom.. my mom was the one who took care of of my grandma all her alduthood, because my aunt leaves in an other city and isn't here as much as my mom can be.. and my uncle.. well be abbandoned our familly a loooong time ago.. and i see how my grandpa is tired.. i mean it must be hard for him too. Seeing his beloved wife slowly forget about their kids and about him... like.. k see it's making him sad.. and i'm just here.. some times we have to bring her to the hospital and she stays there for like a week or two... last time it lasted two or three months.. and i have panic attacks when i walk in hospitals so i couldn't visit her that much, and i know she still remembers me, and i know i'm the only person in the familly that she never gets angry at.. because imy mom told me to always stay neutral while ghey have agruments or when it's a small one too side with my gandma so she doesn't get angry.. because she also gets mad at my familly when we talk about her meds and the fact that she cant eat to much sugar (she is diabetic..) (qnd she reaaaally likes snacks and chocolate..) and she ealsy get pissed off, andeachtime i go to see her it just feels wrong.. i always knew her as a joyfull lady, always playing with me and telling me stories.. i loved to go at my grandparents house.. but now it just makes me sad. Even more when i learned about the album made by the caretaker (that includes bruning memory..)
So i'm gratefull you put it here, i cried a bit but i feel better, kinda ? Well i vented and it felt good so thanks !
Sorry for any mispellings i'm french, and trying to learn to have a better english (also dislexic but that's ... shush..)
Gosh why does going through a tough time in your life just feel so empty? I genuinely just feel so destrot for no reason. I cry at night thinking about my past because some parts of it are barely happy. I only remember such little memories that are full of joy, but I remember most bad parts, even so I might be losing my own memory. I barely remember anything when i wake up, I don't even know. I just feel that something bad is going to happen, and I don't know what.. like I might just die any exact moment, but nothing ever happens. I feel so scared to even go to sleep, but when I do I just have a sudden urge to end it all. I'm sorry if anyone is triggered by what I'm saying cause what I'm writing is sorta a vent. I'm sorry.
I've been feeling like a lost cause for my stupid outbursts towards my family members. I've been crying so much while arguing with them over stupid shit not knowing why I'm arguing I start crying even more when I leave them alone. What the hell is going on? am I just maturing to realize I had trauma from the past? nothing really happened to me. Just my parents yelling a lot, my mom hitting me when I lost something that wasn't even hers, CPS called multiple times because of venting to my school counseler about my mom hitting us. Now that I'm older I still don't know if it was discipline or abuse. My sisters (2) had to go to a mental hospital cause they tried to end it all. I never been to a mental hospital personally, but my mom had found it 2 days ago that I've been self-harming and contacting people from the suicide hotline for help. She had told me "is it because of me? I never did anything to you. Why are you like this? you're the one in the fault here." Did she forget after all those times when she hit my own siblings, left them outside in the night because they were crying over them hitting them? I don't understand why my mom is like this. I don't want to live with her, but I still have a few more years before I can actually move out. My siblings tried to end it because of my mom, and she doesn't know that my older sister tried to end it because she doesn't care about her. She doesn't care about me, my sisters, nor my dad. My dad is scared of her because he knows she's at a huge advantage here. He could end his whole life on the spot they divorce, so he sides with her. I cried to him once, and he didn't do anything. He just let me cry on his shoulder. I've never felt affection my entire life until that moment. That time was the best, really. I hugged my dad on mutliple occasions, but that was a special time. I never cried in front of my dad, only my mom because she was the reason I was crying. Till this day, I still live with my parents with my other sister. I've been venting to her about the problems I've been facing, but she can't do anything either since she is also young. I can't get a therapist or a specialist to see if I have any sort of issues cause my mom wants to avoid all of it for some reason. Is it CPS she's avoiding? I just want someone to talk to that can help me. I just want help. I don't know who to talk to without them calling weird people to our house, or putting me on suicide watch since the last time they called CPS I had to be on suicide watch because I tried to end it so it could stop, for once atlast. I just want my life to be better. But it never can. My mom just ignores my feelings and just goes with her day, acting like I wasn't just yelling at her about why I've been like this, why I've had attitude with her so much, why I avoid eye contact. IT'S BECAUSE OF HER AND SHE DOESN'T REALIZE IT'S ABOUT HER. I can't handle this stupid ass life anymore.
weirdcore playlists always fits my vibe every time. thanks for making this playlist!
OH MY- It's supossed this have to scary me, or at least calm me down, but for one reason this give a feeling of nostalgia- TF, I'M GOING TO A CORNER TO CRY.
(Fnaf one remind me when i met the game, and let's no talk about the Undertale one-😭)
Don't say the F- Word
@@Karma-13_. ok, sorry, i was very sad xd-
is ok@@enriqueelizabethbrialegarc1512
I've been listening to this playlist for around 5 months, you should make more!!
do you ever start talking to someone in your head and realzise its nothing like you so you feel like theres someone in your head? no? ok it just me then.
Yes I do. 👍
you arent alone, i understand this
is no one talking about how the first chapter says nice boys but plays mice on venus instead? ToT
yeh he made m istake so dumb s
Yeah, I noticed that too 😭😭😭
Temporex is one of my favorite artists too, someone who I’ve considered reaching out to collaborate with (I’m a musician) so it hurts even more 😭
Thank you so much, this has just become my new favourite weird/traumacore playlist, so glad I happened upon this masterpiece!
I’ve found this repeatedly in the past couple of months and honestly it’s one of my favorite playlists, glad to have found it again thank you
"Depression?... No! I'm very happy! So happy infact!... What were we talking about? A picnic! Right! Wanna join me for tea?"
YES 😋
I will, if they won't!
"Huh?.. But you were sad a moments ag-.. let's just not talk about it. Sure, I wouldn't decline the offer."
theriann tea party ofcc!
@@sammar-qf6sf yessirrr!!
1:00:26 feels like being nostalgic for that one Golden Christmas that you wish could happen again
this is really helping me with all my childhood trauma...
Remember to just smile. It feels good and helps you. No matter if you are 5, 26, 78, 100 years old just remember to smile :) and for those who think all is lost. Just smile, don’t worry we’ll join everyone else on the other side one day. All just burning memories and as the catalog for humans will come to an end one day. We are so small, but don’t let that stop you. Something the matter? Scaring you? Making you unhappy? Well how about you just walk past it. You’re bigger than it. We are so small…so, so small.
All just burning memories
Rest in peace mom
this is so calming...even my soul seems to be at peace.❤️
kitty city is terrifying y’all holy crap
You've seen the video?
Everything is music helping u cope with childhood trauma then all of a sudden DADARADADARDADAD
mice on venus aint dementia, its making me remember everything about my journey with minecraft and all tthe memories and it makes me wanna cry
this playlist makes me crave cereal....i don't know why though 😔
loll wtf
This genre is my favorite. I like it for its addictive beats and feelings I cannot describe.
THIS HAS ALL MY FAVORITES!! THANK U!!!
seeing kitty city pop up brought back some trippy old memories lol
OML SAMEEE
Ok so
I used to watch yt on my iPad all the time with my brother, and we found this video called kitty city
I loved it, we started watching the channel
There was uh- some creepy stuff in there
Now I collect bones
Idk if there’s a connection
This is by far gotta be the best playlist of the year or smth. YOU DESERVE AN AWARD FOR PUTTING THIS TOGETHER 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏
frfrfr
Toby fox is a gd genius fallen down makes you feel lost in a weird world, the child fell through a hole and, guess what, got lost in a weird world where u can date skeletons and fight fish, and flowers and gods with a stick. I will forever have undertale as my number 1 fav game
0:00 "You woke up at the strange street. You don't know how did you get here. Its sunny. You realized that the street is empty. You wanna find a way to your home. You just went exploring this place, and soon you'll realize that nothing is real."
2:36 "Its turns night, but you didn't found exit from this street. You realize that something is wrong. Why didn't you saw any people? You think its just a bad dream..."
5:14 "You found a door in a wall. You opened it and entered a strange corridor with grass and flowers on the floor. You went to the end of this corridor."
7:15 "You entered a strange room. In this room walls, floor and a ceiling had a sky texture. You went to the door at the end of this room, but you noticed a strange birds... They was an eyes with a wings. You ignored them, and you entered next room, thinking about your home."
10:16 "You opened next door and you saw a big street. It was an evening. You hope that all of this just a bad dream. You explore new place and realise that the street is very long, but you went to the end of it."
13:20 "You entered a door at the end of the street, and you went to the yellow room with wet carpet and buzzing lamps. You noticed that this place is very familiar, but you can't remember where did you saw it before. You just went exploring it. After 4 hours of exploring, you realized that this place have no escape, so you just sat at the carpet and waited for anything that would happen... You fell asleep for 3 hours."
16:53 "You woke up at the unknown home. You're hopeless, you're tired, you're depressed. You realize that this will never end. You just went exploring new place. House was very small, but comfortable. You found an exit door, and you think you can try to escape this place and go to your home. You opened next door."
21:04 "You went to the empty city behind the door. You signed and went exploring this place, like every time you entered new place. You don't know, will it end or not."
22:53 "You entered random house and went exploring it. You realized that the house was the new place. It was very big. You went to the 2nd floor. You found new door. You think it will never end."
26:28 "You entered a forest. You're comfused. How the door on 2nd floor of the house can send you to the forest? You just went exploring. After 2 hours of exploring you found a cave. You entered this cave, hoping that it is empty too, because you wont die in this place."
30:01 "Cave was very big and dark. It was full of stalactites and stalagmites, so you were very careful. You didn't found anything for 5 hours of exploting. You lay at the floor. It was very cold, but you anyways fell asleep for 6 hours."
33:07 "You woke up at the shop. You noticed that only one lamp is working, so the shop was very dark. You found some eatables and you full now. You get some for other places, and you went to the door right next you in the dark."
35:55 "You opened that door and you went to the very old house. It was almost burnt to the horizont. You went exploring it, and you almost died because of big tree that falled forward you. You went to the exit from this house."
38:05 "You went to the party room. Even this place was empty, but there was a lot of cakes and water. You went exploring it, like every time. You're tired of this. You wanna just find exit from this all. You found a door... again."
43:03 "You entered a big aquapark. There was a lot of water slides and a pool. You went to the restroom door. You think you will find this freaking exit..."
46:18 "You went to the gas station. It was evening. You found a car. You think you can escape if you drive the car to the exit. You sat in the car and drove forward."
48:29 "You went to the corn field. You went out of car and went to the field. You explored it for 3 hour and didn't found any exit. You just lay on the floor, like all time this happens. You fell asleep... again."
52:02 "You slept for hours. You think about how you will get back to your home. You hope its all just a dream."
54:14 "You woke up at the same street as the first place, but with pinky fog and it was evening. You explored street again. But it was different. Some houses was different or sometimes there was no house at the place where it was in the first place. You found a door similar to the door at the first place. You entered it."
57:28 "You entered a big white corridor. You went to the end of it. You remember all places you entered. You hope it's the last one. The corridor wont end, but you anyways went to the end. After 1 hour of walking you went to the door at the end. You entered it."
1:00:26 "You entered a small room with two chairs and a tablet. On the opposite chair was a man with a TV as a head. He said "Sit down." He said: "Thanks for exploring all my places. I made them as a game. But everyone failed and died by hunger or thirst. You entered all places and won my game. So i will return you to your home. So, goodbye." You fell asleep."
1:02:07 "You woke up in your bed at your home. You realize that everything is ended. You're happy. You went to your kitchen. It was just like before you fell to this game. You cryed of joy."
Edit: sorry if my English is bad, I'm ukrainian :(
how long did this take
@@karma_13. A hour
@@ЯрославСтудинецький why would you take the time to do that
Bruh I was just scrolling down youtube and found this again, how my english was THAT bad couple years ago💀(Still the story is epic)
Oh wait it was 6 months ago. Bruh💀
Why did i listen to all of it bro whole hour every single bit!
Also this is just amazing so calming to me!
Its.. !!!ITS THE PERFECT DREAMCORE PLAYLIST!!!!
I'm not in a mood... I just like this kind of music. :)
I listened this song while sleeping..yea I just dream in backroom..and when I saw there a lot eye in that room..I was sacred so I hit my head and I wake up..
This feels like the internal feeling of home.
who asked
@@Karma-13_.what’s wrong with you. Why do you keep attacking people meaninglessly? Do you need a hug?
@@korahholl810 "Keep" I didn't do it multiple times, Also this was a joke, you're over - reacting!!!!
@@Karma-13_. seriously you need to shut up or I'm removing your comments
@@Karma-13_. no one, just thought i should post it:) hope u have a nice day tho
This reminds me when i was 4 having so many mental issues at the time it used to be super hard for me to socialize cause of the trust issues i have I realized that everything important to be always leaves me with no trace behind but just memories i felt burned out years later they friend wanna be friends with me again even though I forgot who they are i always found it hard to socialize because i didn’t wanna see betrayal come back to me again years later i was 10 a people pleaser and therapy friend i got taken advantage of so many times and manipulated i had to stop that then i started worrying about other people than myself helping people when they are sad,mad,confused,manipulated or upset i always took the initiative to help other people but i was never noticed for my hard work nowadays i wish i could go back into the past to see my friends before they leave me again.
For some reason, this playlist makes me comfortable... Thank you
Edit 1 : I listen to this playlist without skipping...?! I love this!!
When I see that I've watched this video before but I don't know any of the songs in it: 13:24 (this actually happened on this video idk why or how it does that)
Js, the best playlist I've listened to. I love weirdcore.. And traumacore. The best. Even when you have Trauma.
SOMEONE PLEASE GIMME A NOTIFICATION!!
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@@xXPhrOgeXx THANK YOU!!!!
boo
Bada bling or whatever that sound is
🎉🎉 Here :D
Growing up with a HORRIBLE panic disorder, feeling like a depressed, depersonalized mess my entire life, I can finally enjoy this mess of reality with people just like me. People who have had to mask their chemical imbalances their entire lives, when in reality we feel unreal and too self aware like we are npc errors in a video game.
This playlist made me feel somewhat safe and comfortable. It also brought a familiar feeling that I've been having for the past few weeks or even months. Years.
This may sound cringey, but I would like to write a POV as I listen through.
There's the teacher. In front of all the students. Teaching mathematics. So far, it's not difficult to understand; as long as you don't lose track of time and lose your senses all of the sudden.
Yet here you are. Look at you. Staring into nothing as your mind drifted off to a parade of music and images. Some may be vivid, some are vague. Some, childlike. Some, a tad dark. This is nothing new to you. You've always had zoned out and get warped into a land full of memories; nostalgic and traumatic at times. Though this time is different, somehow.
Instead of feeling such rage, you feel confusion, sadness, and longing. A craving, even. Craving something you've never thought of wanting ever since *he* left. Seriously...
Why am I longing for the affection of a father? Why do I crave physical touch, such as hugs, from a person? Why must I feel so childlike, upset, giddy all at the same time, just because of memories that I've started to preserve in a new way, accordingly to all the other ones?
Okay, it's a vent at this point, I should stop. But if you managed to read until the end, hello, and thank you ^ ^ Trauma is certainly not a good thing to have, yet that is something most of us have in common, it seems. However, I pray that those will never trouble you again in the near future. The journey seems endless, and life will still be hard, but we can get through this. I pray that you have a good day/night, and take good care of yourself. I love you all ^ ^
I passed my GED test after jamming out to this.
Thank you.
dude i just got my GED this month, did you get yours yet???
@@TenokiPoki yeah, man. it's in the bag ^^
congrats to you, tho
congrats for you as well!@@roodickens3936
13:27 the real name of the song is "heartaches-all bowlyng"
You know it good when 7:17 is a picture of something familiar I remember
I kept listening to this to help me feel better since tomorrow is my birthday but my best friend won't be there since she is back at my hometown and I live somewhere else now..
The same time as i heard this playlist my arm is losing blood, not to much, im safe, but i feel the pain, i dont know what im doing but, this place is really quiet, i can say things that i want to tell.
literally you rn
U can talk to me man