He Was a Hospital Security Guard During COVID
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This ended up being even more intense of a story than I thought it would be. Thanks for watching.
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Thanks for letting me tell my story Azeal. I’ve felt better with each day that passes since we talked.
It was a pleasure having you on. I wish you the best
I'm a USO at a Hospital and I can sympathize with ya, I started in 2020 and thankfully we don't have a gang presence (at least to my knowledge).
Edit: The line "I'm just a Grunt, I don't have the answers." That hit home; ER wait times through the roof, fighting junkies, dealing with Psych Patients, and watching people pass. I was having memories pop up from when I first started and the shit I saw.
Thank you for trying to help. I know firsthand how stupid people can be, and even have a saying to go along with it. People are idiots (root word "id" meaning self), and people are incredible. Keep finding other incredible ones, one day we might just find a way to fix some of the world.
Thank you for sharing this, your story really, really touched me. I hope you keep getting better!
you're a good man.
When he came to the part about people dying. The pauses, the breaking of his voice... I feel so bad for this man
same, i just wanted to give him a hug at that moment
It's really depressing to know that someone has had or is still expirencing these types of situations everyday.
The thing that bothers me the most is that people can still be in denial about the dangers of Covid when people with experiences such as these exist. Of course people are allowed to have their own opinion - but still...
I feel Damn bad for this guy.
I cried so much then in class
When he talked about how quiet/empty the hospital got I got chills, I can visualize it because I've once been the only patient in the entire wing of a hospital at one point at the height of COVID-19 and it's not fun. You really don't appreciate other people until you're the only one left.
Stories aside: I'm really glad that something like this exists for people who live in a world where therapy isn't provided.
Sometimes what people need most is just someone to listen. To hear. To try to understand. That is often the best thing someone could ever get. Not everything not everyone but top #1 way
@@blizz2748
you are very correct there...
i love to listen to people, and eventually, i noticed the relief that people feel from just finding someone to sit down and listen to them without pretending to care.
When I have a hard month in my choice of work (law enforcement) I spend a good 3 hours hitting my punching bag until I can no longer pick up my arms. If I don't get that time, I get migraines, I have to get that release of stress, anger, sadness and flat out shocked at what people can do to one another. We obviously can see a head shrinker but that has never worked for me personally. Hitting something as hard as I can for as long as I can, just works.
It's not quite therapy since you don't have a qualified professional teaching you to develop healthier thought processes and coping mechanisms, but it's sure as hell better than nothing.
@@ossiehalvorson7702 alcoholics taught me more about coping mechanisms than any shrink who just pilled me up.
Hearing people just give honest accounts of their lives is always more interesting than the average show nowadays. I do hope this fella has easier days from here on out.
With each day, I heal a little more. Thanks for the well wishes friend!
@@Phoolery I hope things are getting better. Thank you for sharing story. I love hearing about people's experiences. The trust will burn away any mist obscuring our vision. Your life, truth, will shin a light for someone, peace my friend.
I've always thought that. Nothings better than hearing someone's acount of something, no matter how mundane. And this poor person. I couldn't imagine dealing with all that.
@@zcarp8642
Although, this man's story isn't mundane by any means, I agree. One can be surprised just how helpful telling a story can be!
@@Phoolery you come across as a really good guy mate& I hope everything is better for you now.
"You all have a smartphone, the most sophisticated tracking ever conceived in your pocket, 24/7."
I like that quote.
Edward Snowden was right.
You could always leave a smart phone at home, turn it off or replace it if compromised. Not your body.
@@brycelindley5210 but who does that tho?
@@explosivfurret3007 you don't?
@@brycelindley5210 and so what if you do?, they still track you through social media and other stuff. the only way to be off the grid is to be outside the grid.
As hospital security myself, I'm glad to see us represented. It's a fucked up job where we experience violence and witness death all the time.
I wish I could forget a lot of the things I've seen sometimes. Especially the kids.
@@thotslayer9914 I'm in law enforcement now, a lot easier job in my opinion.
I’m really glad (selfishly) that I got out of my security job before covid hit, luckily my security job was in a town where not a lot of crime happened. And the security company was trash, pay was low, and job was hard especially with the amount of hours. Security is definitely hard, for everyone in it hold in, you learn a lot of hard lesions there.
Even though a lot of people will say security aren't real cops and that is true. Some of the shit we deal with is crazy as hell. From wild and drugged out people to helping people bleeding out, needing CPR, god forbid someone collapses and you realize you need to restart their heart. It's scary how much that shit kind of lingers with you. You sometimes just feel numb to shit that would have others freaking out and panicking.
Thnk you for telling this story.
I don't know why but I thought it was just my hospital that exposed us to that. It's nice to know me and my ex coworkers weren't the only ones that were exposed to this stuff. It's tough to talk about because no one really makes it past the title of the job. Like how could you have possibly witnessed anything traumatic when you were "just a mall cop" so I just kinda bottle everything up because people assume I'm making it all up to make my job seem "cool" when really I just want to get stuff off my chest. I'm glad I found this. Thank you for sharing! I know it's tough
A couple of things:
1. This is why health, security, and basic safety are public responsibilities. You and everyone you around have a duty to protect each other.
2. PTSD is a lot easier to get than people realize. Chances are tens of people in the hospital this guy worked at have it from the same incidents he had to directly fight in. I have coworkers who have PTSD from a fire incident at the factory I'm security of. No one was hurt at all, just a couple of people who had smoke inhalation, but it definitely left mental scars for some people.
No you dont not with their health thats going to be their choice doesnt matter what you want if they are going to do something and they are dead on it they will. And yeah ptsd is a hell of a thing.
This is one of the hardest ones, because this isn't what he signed up for. At least with the military ones, they're told from the beginning they will kill people/watch them die. This job is supposedly about saving people and helping people, not stopping people from being together in their hardest moments.
from a nurse perspective, I would disagree only because of the environment they are working in (crime), also of course covid was a huge medical emergency which we did not really understand so it wasn't worth risking making things worst by having covid spread faster among family and so on.
@@thunderlifestudios cut the "from the _insert profession_ perspective" shtick, and think about the fact that HE. DID. NOT. SIGN. UP. TO. WATCH. ALL. THE. STUFF. HE. HAD. TO. WITNESS. You're a nurse you say? then you aren't the one who has to hold back the family of the dying. That's the security's job, and this thing called "background" can vary from person to person. Same thing for cities. He didn't sign up thinking he'd be dealing with all that. Cut the "professional" perspective.
then youve never worked at a hospital man.
@@airplanemaniacgaming7877 yes he did actually. He knew what type of stuff he would be dealing with. He explained that in the beginning of the video.
Get off your high horse child, you look like a fool.
@@jimmythecrow you can think you know what you're walking into all day long.
Even then, there's still situations that blast you off your feet. Get off YOUR high horse, mr "oh look at me I'm a Nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurse, so I get to claim all you say is invalid because nyah nyah nyah nyah nyah nyah!"
Someone give this man a hug
he is THE MAN.
I mean his angular body might impale me but it's worth it
Also 69th like
And a medal, honestly,. Actually, give all medical staff that worked through the pandemic medals.
@@orinb8654 just all medical staff in general
I own something like 8 gas masks with P100 filtration, and used Tear gas to test them. A nurse said this practice was way "overkill, but a hell of a way test them." Asian families are particularly strict about wearing masks, so my family adopted it.
I never thought I was helping anyone until I heard Phoolery's story. I thought I was just thinking about myself, but now I'll wear it with a bit more pride. Stand with Phoolery
HOLY SH!T how tf I found you xd
Well, your not living the dark side, the one who works the dark side are the one willingly to help and save people. You live the light side, no worries of anyone trying to kill you.
@@TheDragonfriday not intentionally, at least
Wait CS ghost animation I remember you from somewhere
This box man is EXACTLY what we need more of in this world. He not only finished a fight with a mental patient where he's seen his friend injured, but straight after the fight he's all hurt and bashed up, a nurse calls someone up to help with covid patient. Despite the pain of just being choked he doesn't hesitate and just goes to them. What's insane to me, is how this guy kept his cool while the nurse was going off at him for taking 20 minutes to get there or whatever. At that point I would be yelling back saying I nearly just died and all that, but this guy just understands the nurse's stress and he just keeps his cool. Respect!
The part where he talked about not being able to unwind is super true. My mom is a covid nurse and she would come home at 7 or 8 pm after a 12 shift and have no energy or nobody to get away with, so I would have to have a coffee ready for her so she could say how many of her colleagues died or how it was. And then she would go at it again since one of the first things they did (in my country) is ban vacation time for medical workers. And it really hit me how bad it was, when one day she got home and sat down to tell me "my friend hanged himself, and told us he can't take these days and deaths anymore" and they blamed themselves for being so overworked and focus on Covid that they completely forgot that you don't need to be a patient to die
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Jesus christ sorry to hear that happened to your mom. And also, wtf is that ban vacation rule that asks for more trouble
@@ghostslayer1981 it's because our health system has been on decline for the past 3 decades. Many, many professionals have left the country in search of a normal life, and taking their whole families with them. Hospitals were so understaffed (or overstaffed if you ask our politicians), that even after they hired all the medical workers we had available, some cam back from retirement, and some high-schoolers helping out from medical schools, wr barely had enough people to be staffed, and we still needed more. So if they allowed people to take vacation times durian the heights of covid, you would have a ton people dead due to lack of personnel. At least we still have free healthcare during this. Can't imagine what's it like in the USA...
@@nemanja98rs oh. Damn that really sucks. A d lemme tell you as one guy in the USA it is SO much worse than hospital trouble
@@ghostslayer1981 i can only imagine, especially since you have wayyy more antivaxers than we do and don't have as accessible vaccines
@@nemanja98rs true that there's little a helluva of a lot of memes going around about the antivaxer trend and on top of that there's all the other non related problems. Like In my town just now the waters getting cleaned and rid of toxic chemicals that were in the pipes going everywhere.
You weren't a soldier because you were paid, you were a soldier who just happened to be paid.
You weren't a soldier who was paid to oppress people or separate them from their families.
You were a soldier who wanted to help and protect people, show them the better way or even pick them up where they themselves can't.
1. Us soldiers get paid even on weekends and leave and it's awsome.
2. You're ignorant
3. All I did for six years was help provide aid to countries destroyed by natural catastrophic events like earthquakes.
4. All my unit did was protect the weak and helpless and provided them with a future across the world.
5. Grow up you either are a child or still think like one.
6. Think with your brain not twitter.
@@autumnhannah2368 you clearly missed the entire point of this persons statement, so perhaps you need to reconsider who in this situation is ignorant and thinking like a child
@@autumnhannah2368 my country had civilian population bombed by US and UN, tell me to go away fro twitter. Come on, say it!
@@autumnhannah2368 looks like all the crayons you ate went straight to your head.
@@Sevro_LBX the point of the statement is based off of an ignorant and naive worldview.
Hearing this dude get chocked up broke my heart.
This dude saw it all damn.
Hope he's okay and doing well.
16:53 My mother had covid about a two years ago today and she got it bad and after wards she was left with an insane amount of scar tissue in her lungs. This eventually led to her having mild asthma and essentially being slightly disabled from doing certain things because of it. This part hits really close to home. Thankfully, my mom is now very healthy and deals with her asthma in a great way. But still, this is just a horrible experience and I was away from her and it still hurt like hell for me, to think that this guy had to witness all of this firsthand all the time is horrifying, God bless you man.
i hope your mom will stay safe and have a happy life and you too
14:45 is when it really got emotional for me, the way he just pauses, damn
you can also kinda hear how he tears up
In the least-joking way possible, that was when the jazz music stopped.
that is when the video takes the worst turn
Havnt cried in a while but goddamn this has me in tears 😭 I hope this man will find peace someday 🙏
I actually was in a ER for something unrelated when they brought in a elderly woman who started to gurgle/hack and they rushed to put her on the ventilator. In her case she made it, but this guy saw the same thing multiple times and they weren't so lucky. Dang
damn, this might be one of the most intense vr stories ive heard in a while
I worked as a store greeter/counter for Homegoods as the Pandemic started ramping up. I'd dealt with a lot of years of abusive and stressful roles. Brand advocate, call center, warehouse receiving, you name it. And yet here I was, almost at age 30, having to keep it together as one person after another threatened me, screamed at me, even tried to take a swing at me once, all over a single mask I'd ask to provide them. After about seven months, I couldn't sleep well anymore. My anxiety became chronic, and my depression that I'd managed for years, deepened.
I had a complete breakdown one shift and had to leave. There was a literal storm outside. And people were just lining up to get in to this store, man. Like, terrible winds, darkened skies and freezing temperatures. And I'm having to stand out there with them. Some of these people have their kids with them, and I'm trying to get some people into the vestibule because I don't want them freezing. My managers are watching me, and I can lose my job for letting them in, and I need that job. And people are screaming in my face and flipping me off as they're let in until everyone just rushes me and goes in any way.
All for a...discount furniture store. During a storm, with their kids, in a pandemic. I really saw dark things in people. And I can't really shake it. It's an ugly sight and I wish I had never lived to see it. I'm a janitor at this point for early morning cleanings. I don't think my heart can take being around people for a while.
Geez, that's intense. Best wishes.
@@Azeal Thanks, lad! I'm doing better now. I guess the point is most of us didn't expect this kind of action when we signed up for minimum wage. Hitting plenty like major whiplash.
I hope everything is better for you
The moment you mentioned it was all for discount furniture, that's when my empathy for these people dropped. Not even to get food or water, just furniture. What the hell.
I hope your life becomes better after what you went through
I started working as hospital security about three months before COVID hit, and I can relate to quite a bit of what this guy is talking about. Granted, my area is less populated and has less (not absent) gang violence, but we're also constantly crippled by having no equipment and an Administration so intelligent and wise that they shut the hospital down for about a week before opening it completely to visitors again because they were getting bad reviews somewhere. It took them about two or three weeks before taking that back, but they continued and still continue to just toss policies in, take them out, half-enforce or get upset when we enforce them, usually without telling anybody that matters when the changes happen.
Watching somebody die (though I haven't seen brain matter yet, I've seen plenty) is never pleasant. Sometimes you can log it in the little brown bag in your head that you vaguely remember but subconsciously try to keep stowed away, and sometimes they'll just pop up out of nowhere and just remind you of that one fun time that you witnessed a man that came in losing more blood from his gaping chest than you realized a human had in their entire bodies and you had to kick his family out because they were getting in the way of medical staff every other second. We also carried dead patients from their rooms to our small, two-shelf morgue until very recently. I'm a relatively cool person when in comes to letting things get to me, but having to wait for family members to finally finish grieving a person they'll never see again before you can finally go in, throw the body on a cart, and throw it into a cold box until they can be taken can take some getting used to. At some point, I picked up the habit of saying small things like "Come on over here," or "Up you go," and other small human statements during movement just to give a bit of respect for the family that would never hear it.
That's part of why even I would get pretty upset whenever some ignorant fool would claim whatever they wanted about the disease. How it's a conspiracy, or my favorite being that "it only affects/kills [percentage] of victims" all because they didn't want to wear some cloth on their mask and quit licking doorknobs. They weren't the ones carrying the corpses away from their loved ones anywhere between 3-8 times in a single day on average. They didn't have to sit outside the door with the metal boat to the River Styx as you listened to family cry and yell that a life is no longer in this world. It really got to me when it was some middle class, average Joe saying it, instead of the drug abusing waste of space that was explaining why it didn't actually matter when he spit in somebody's eye. Average Joe should be the one to care about their own type, but here they were making those deaths seem like no loss just because they personally disagreed with the complex philosophies of having some cloth on your face when you go to a public area.
Between COVID and a boss that micromanaged entirely too much and added more to our plate from completely unrelated departments whose leaders were friends with here, we were and still are actively antagonized by the same medical staff that we put our safety on the line to protect. From the very beginning, that staff refused to ever tell us when a patient was positive with any contagious disease until we had already either gone hands-on with the spitting, biting crackhead, or already loaded the body up. If we requested PPE, they'd usually deny it because that was for their unit (note that we never did and still don't actually get any PPE, including gloves. We hijack gloves and masks from units when we have to go to one). Add to that that our department kept having fewer and fewer people until all of us were doing anywhere between 60-80 hour weeks in 16-hours shifts that you didn't actually know ahead of time would happen, and you've got a great job to work at.
The only reason I kept working at my hospital was my loyalty to the rest of the team. We went through all of that, though constant double shifts, going into hostile situations that the medical staff either didn't help with or actively hindered us (resulting in injury to us multiple times), and pretty much only had each other when we were at work. Now, I tell people that loyalty is only a virtue when you know when to finally cut it off.
I still randomly wake up from sounds or sensations that I experienced through my time there. Sleep was always difficult, but I can't fully go to sleep because my body is always expecting a sudden call to fight somebody, or that a call due to a patient currently being in flames, or that somebody's got guns outside, and more. Not to mention the fact that I've lost much of my social skillset just because nobody actually listens to a security officer when they're trying to work with you, apparently. Maybe if you've got a weapon of literally any kind, but not when you're completely unarmed. The average crackhead and douchebag seem to think that they've got better chances against the guys whose entire job is utterly reliant on taking down body builders on PCP, sometimes alone (experienced that personally).
I've learned alot about myself in this job, but being hospital security is not an easy thing. Part of the reason we can't keep people is because they come in expecting a job where you sit and watch Netflix while you watch cameras, or you just watch people driving through in a little box. Then they come in an have to actually put themselves in harm's way every day for staff and public that active antagonize them and get in their way, and they have zero tools to work with. First time they see us finally call the cops for something, and they're out as soon as they realize that the cops in my area (surrounding counties have great cops, but ours suck) only arrive half an hour after the thing you called them for finished one way or the other. They'll arrive faster when they think there's an active shooting going on, apparently, but not if the situation hasn't quite popped off, yet. If somebody survives about three weeks of that, they're probably going to be with you for a good while.
Nice essay bro
First, wanted to say thanks. You guys put up with enough crap as it is from families not necessarily thinking right on top of bureaucratic fools. (Family working in the hospitals have shared some stories on both medical and admin stuff) (Also I can sympathize, attended a cadaver lab as part of my schooling, not the same given its more sterile environment, but it's still sobering when you see tattoos, prosthetics, or notice the age is quite young "medically" speaking).
Second, as someone in biotech, COVID was a unique case both for the medical community's reaction vs scientific vs bureaucratic. I'm assuming you're US as well, and the biggest thing this virus revealed more clearly is that insurance companies really run the show at hospitals. Regardless, it brought out the worst in some, best in others, and ground everyone down. I pray, and hope, that your new job doesn't place as much stress on you and that you have the support you need for dealing with all the aftereffects.
procedure and the system killed people. and partially that has to do with over reaction instead of being calm. and the fact there was no plan to keep people out of the hospitals. there is a reason why some countries did well, while others failed.. and the main pattern i'm seeing is the system.. the health styem was the problem from the start.. covid just broke the final straw.
@@npcimknot958 yeah honestly i can see your argument but at the same time i also believe that keeping people out at least while we understood the virus was crucial to keep the number of deaths as low as possible in the US.
Also i agree that yeah the healthcare system in other countries helped a lot but the willingness of people to listen, wear masks, stay home and socially distance then take the vaccine also had major effects for them as well.
I worked retail when the pandemic began. I thought nothing could topple the Black Friday Rush but I was wrong, selves were empty, we were overwhelmed. It got better but man, it was a nightmare for a utility clerk like me.
Just to be clear, I'm not trying to say that it was as bad as this guy's experience, far from it. I'm just sharing my side of the pandemic on the frontline.
@@rpgghost1689 Dude, your trauma is valid, just as valid as mine. I am more than certain your job was bug-fuck crazy for quite some time.
@@Phoolery Thank you for the kind words. However I never got trauma from the pandemic (High school took care of that already).
To be honest I was probably lucking because we were just busy, I never saw a fight or heard of one happening. At least not at my store.
I live in a fairly sized town with multiple other stores in it. But it wasn't easy. Thank Christ C19 hit after the holidays, couldn't imagine the emotional and physical hell that would have been.
oof... I remember that. the inability to get toilet paper. we ran out... oh boy that was a time. I was already unemployed when it hit.
I think one of the worst thing you can probably do as a clerk is explain to parents, mothers, etc where are they going to get baby formula since the stores near them have literally nothing. I know I had to. Pantries were going empty, the stores having nothing...
And we're just clerks. We're not even paid enough to deal with that shit, let alone argue with people over a policy on masks.
I'm a Security Officer at a Hospital as well and I have seen some shit.
Same man
Mad respect, thank you
I’ve had my fair share of mental health patients or homeless people who didn’t want to leave or stay in the er I know how the shit goes but you just gotta stay head strong personal I don’t take much home with me but I know it gets to a lot of my fellow officers I hope you stay safe and keep your zen
@@jacquezrodriguez1756 yeah just last night we had a family try fighting us because they couldn’t wait 5 minutes until their brother (who came in by ambulance) was fully situated. They were screaming and shouting and banging on doors, one of them took his shirt off and tied his hair up trying to fight us. In the same day I had to wrestle with some woman who was kicking clawing and spitting at us. We see some crazy stuff.
Mad respect for you
working at a hospital has to be one of the hardest jobs in the world. my respect to all who deal with this.
I couldn’t hold back the tears when when he started talking about Delta Seven and the mental patient situation 😭
EMT here. I feel his story in more ways then one. Stay strong brother. You have support always know this.
AEMT here. I agree, a lot of what he spoke about I can relate to. The section where he spoke about removing the visitors from the hospital during lockdown really struck me as well. One of the biggest things I've hated during the pandemic, especially during the beginning, was having to go and take people from their nursing homes to the hospital in outbreaks. These days It's a lot easier and normalized, but during the start of it, having to walk in with biohazard gear and just quietly start taking people away, often in plain view of their home mates, made me feel awful. I cannot imagine how terrified those poor souls must have been.
We've got your back brothers. Stay safe.
Corpsman here I feel you guys
On average, 22% of EMT's experience PTSD after repeated stress and assisting in traumatizing environments. They are thought to have the highest PTSD-inducing job in the world. I am a security guard at a hospital in my area and just know that I will always have your back.
As the next level three security officer I completely understand how severe this is and I'm so glad he's here to tell his story today thank you for letting him on this video and thank you to the officer who spoke, a lot of people just take us as a bunch of Paul blart jokes but so many serious real things happen to and it's terribly sad but refreshing to hear someone openly being able to spread the story and awareness that security has to face.
People hate so much on security staff here in my country (especially the ones specifically dedicated to the subway system tho I don't know all that much bcs I live far away from anywhere that has one) and I've never understood it, even tho I have Very much had bad encounters with them myself, them notoriously in a bad mood. It's nothing like people's general attitude towards police which is a big part of why it's so odd to me, how security personnel are just singled out. People are pissed when they do their job, people are pissed when they don't do their job, it feels like there's just no winning
PTSD etc goes unoticed in security because you are often seen as the paul blart jokes usually ur job is supposed to be cozy, you arent supposed to seeing death and fighting etc 24/7 so when that shit happens your departments are NOT prepared to handle it and you end up with people like this, Unfortunately man like him dont get the help they need and end up in far worse situations including suicide.
I always always bring up the smartphone thing. The microchip is the DUMBEST conspiracy.
And I love that "in matters of boot making, defer to the cobbler quote"
I like this guy, even though he said he dropped out of school and went to the military, he has more common sense and reasoning than a lot of people.
i could hear the emotion in his voice in that pause
Rough job but these are the kind of people on the front to save and protect lives and we need more stories to hear.
“I ran as fast as I could. Cause I knew…that that’s what it took to save her life”
This is what got me.
I wouldn’t even last a day watching people die, this guy is a legend.
Dude this guy is a legend. He needs more recognition. I think we all need a moment of silence for all branches of military, police, and of course Hospital Security Guards. Because that is some freaked of crap dude and that changed my mind on everything violence related.
Jesus man.. I rarely ever tear up on anything in general, but damn. This made me tear up hard. I can't even imagine what shit you've gone through even beyond what you said in this story. I hope everything goes well, and you deserve recognition for the shit you had to go through to get there. I salute you for your bravery of sharing this story and all of your actions.
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My dad is a cop. he never tells stories about work, but when he does its no where near this level of story telling, the expression. its just amazing. this man is just so talented. he sounds like a person in a documentary. I just hope nothing bad ever happens to this man. He deserves everything that he wants.
The pain in his voice when he talks about the dying peoples families
He is such a great story teller. I was so incredibly invested and I feel so bad for what he to witness. The moment he had to pause to struggle to get words out I nearly cried
My heart goes out to him
I'm in the process of applying to be a nurse. I'm fully aware that its going to be the hardest fucking thing I've ever done in my life, but stories like this have only hardened my resolve. I've been in the hospital for really painful shit before and it was always the nurses who were there to lend me a hand, give me comfort in a way only they can. They helped me and so now I'm going to help them. They need a hand and damn it I'm going to be there to give them one. Because right now they need people like me just like I needed people like them. Stories like this are the unsung stories of the ER, and so its even more important to me that I help lessen their burden too.
Good luck out there! We need more folks like you in the industry that’s for damn sure.
We definitely need more people like you
As a son of a nurse that is in charge of the nurses in the covid section of the hospital, the first few seconds, are true af
Student nurse here who's rotated through many different units at multiple hospitals and interned 2 months in our ICU: the problems he talks about here are happening in almost every unit of every hospital in the country. Every unit I've worked in has been severely understaffed, having to lean very hard on a few extremely overworked resident nurses and constantly cycling through temporary travel nurses. Meanwhile nurses are dropping like flies either leaving the profession entirely due to stress, being laid off as our hospitals are hemorrhaging money , or leaving to make their year's salary in 2 months as a travel nurse. In our ICU, every week we would cycle through new ventilated covid patients, giving them the best care we can while knowing fully well that almost all of them will die alone and afraid, choking on their own secretions while all we can do is ease their suffering with pain meds and sedatives. If they were lucky, before they were vented they would change their advanced directives to allow us to remove life support after X number of days if they weren't showing improvement. Often if they didn't do this and their family was given consent, their family would inadvertently let their suffering go on for weeks sometimes months before it would finally end. Not that their family wants this to happen, it's an extremely difficult decision to let your family member die without being able to ask them what they want. The stress covid has brought on our healthcare system has pushed it beyond a breaking point, for every covid patient dying in an ICU, there's a non-covid patient at home who can't get the medical attention they need. Meanwhile I see psychopaths on facebook who refuse the vaccine, masks, and covid's existence in general; there's nothing more I'd like to do than to give these people a tour of a covid ward or an ICU. I graduate this Spring, and although I'm excited to finally start working and I even have a unit picked out, I'm a little terrified knowing what I'm walking into.
It should be important to remember that hospitals are the literal distillation of all the sick people in society, so I respect you for putting up with that, but maybe consider the impact of the policies on wider society and the perspectives of normal people. I think it's been a case of crying wolf with overly strict policies to begin with or where they aren't needed, which has soured people to them, even in places like hospitals where they make sense.
My Dad works in my local hospital in the UK, but in the private arm of the IT department. My Mum was diagnosed with breast cancer last summer, and the treatment was a little delayed but thank goodness she got the treatment fairly promptly after that. It's about quality of life years saved in the end, you can't save everyone sadly. From the stats I've seen, the average age of death from the disease is greater than the average life expectancy in the UK, so they have done more than enough for dealing with it from my perspective.
Now this is a perspective you wont hear on the news. Sign on bonuses for nurses? That's nuts. Talking about the issues with our healthcare system is not a good look for how we've handled this. wild
This is the only perspective you hear on the news.. TF
The true fear and the cracking in his voice while trying to tell his story almost made me tear up
he sounds like he was a wonderful guard. I'm glad he was there for people when they needed him, and glad he stepped back when he had to. It seems he so genuinely cares. It's nice knowing there's people like him in the world, and I'll remember that next time I'm in a hospital
I’ve been an EMT for ten years and I gotta say, his experience was not too different than mine. The uncertainty, the lack of personnel, lack of PPE and the worry of transmission. It sucked. And it still sucks to this day. At its height in 2020, we’d be transferring patients between facilities and you’d never see the same people in the ICU you were taking to because they’d be passing away so often. I really feel for this dude and I gotta commend him for telling his story.
This is why I never took hospital jobs when working as a security guard. I wouldn't be able to take that kinda stress...
As a covid survivor I'm thankful I didn't have to go through getting a ventilator...I had to hear a lot of suffering as a patient...the patient in the room next to me was dying and they had to contact the next of kin via phone to tell him that he's going to die whether they put him on a ventilator or not and they were trying to get in touch with their next of kin for a week now to get confirmation from them as to whether they want to put him down to spare him a slow miserable death with the ventilator...shit was fucked up...
There’s a simple yet grounded wisdom to the knuckle dragging Sailor turned hospital security guard. Thank you for your sacrifice. I hope you find peace wherever you are.
During this entire pandemic, I've worked overnight security in a nursing home and for the most part...
We were blessed as there the number of C-19 deaths were only a handful. I can't imagine working in a hospital surrounded by dying patients.
I can understand how people suffer burnout from the overflow of patients in pain and suffering.
This type of thing makes me wanna get into vrchat and such. Just being a person, telling your story, sharing experiences, venting etc. seems like such a nice community tbh
it really is a nice place, but there is the bad apples… everyone is mostly nice =)
Even though I’m not a medical professional or anything, I’m just a kid with a medical issue. I’m glad I could hear you share your story. Even though it made me want to cry, It’s a sad story and people need to listen to and acknowledge
You can tell that this guy genuinely cares and wanta to make a difference, its such a stone on your throat everyday to see that type of damage and still get up and go in for more. I can hear the pain in his voice and i hope the anxiety gets under control, went thru the same things he mentions about sleeping all day and not showering panic attacks, its all about focusing in on what triggers it and fashioning your life in such a way where you manage it all because it never fully goes away no matter what meds they give you. Its a battle from within everyday. But you gotta get up and try your best to make it easier on yourself or things will just go left again. Certainly a balancing act and sometimes you just wanna stay home and be alone.
I love watching these but this one was hard man… the shaking in his voice was what broke me. Like I would have been able to watch this without any problems but the fear and sadness just breaks my heart dude. Hope you have a good life man
Shit man, when he started talking about the ventilators I couldn't tell if that was anger or sorrow in his voice. Mad respect for this dude.
I had to stop watching when he talked about fighting off family. When I lost my grandfather to COVID, I wasn't allowed in the room. I never got to say goodbye. I understand those people.
During the peak of covid, they barely allowed visitors for anyone... kind of messed up... they only let you visit fam if they were about to die... I watched my dad take his last breath in 2020... wasn't covid... but damn, the anxieties caused by covid likely contributed to his downfall. Who knows ... 2020 really sucked.
Hospital scenes in shows/movies are hard for me.... especially life support shit, cuz it gives me flashbacks of my dad.
I got to say good bye, but he couldn't communicate back... so it wasn't an ideal goodbye and I'm haunted by the images of him dying and dead....so.... at least you don't have images to haunt you... that's a plus..
He understands too. I’m assuming you didn’t make it that far because he says himself he would’ve fought the security if the roles were reversed.
@@mcd5778 I never said that it was. However, I also think you’re being far too harsh and valuing the moral dilemma over the practical one, which I think is a mistake.
The point (obviously) is to keep healthy people out of what is essentially a giant petri dish for covid and ultimately harming themselves and the people around them by unnecessarily quickening the spread of the disease. Unfortunately, the method to accomplish this goal necessitated some very difficult, morally questionable policies. After all, could you imagine the guilt of saying goodbye to a family member only to discover you had contracted covid in the process and passed it to another family member who then proceeded to also die? Is that a better outcome than not getting to say goodbye?
This is the real world. There’s no such thing as a perfect solution. And given the circumstances, I don’t think they were wrong.
In summary: was the action immoral? Yes. But unjustified? I don’t believe so.
I’m a hospital security guard and I’ve been working since October 2020. At my hospital, security handles all of the dead patients and moves them to the morgue. The amount of dead covid/trauma patients I’ve seen since then is insane and pretty sad.
Literally would be a quality "non fictional" "based on a true story" movie.
Shit almost made me cried, and I'm stupidly stubborn.
The most upsetting thing about this, is that my parent still don’t believe it after all this time, they even got Covid, and are saying shit like: “it wasn’t that bad, they’re overreacting” and they will wear a mask (if specifically told to) signs don’t mean anything to them, and I hate it, because they shut off their ears whenever someone says something they don’t agree with, and especially so, because they say they will listen to facts, and are open minded. But I just can’t believe that.
My personal experience is otherwise. If it was as bad as the NEWS made it out to be, US Military personnel would be in full MOPP gear to prevent the spread. Such a disastrous disease that is overblown out of proportion by the media for the sake of opportunity through crisis.
I am open to facts. Not media hype. And my reality of the situation between Fort Campbell and living in Oklahoma post-service, rather reinforces that the Media has made something greater than what it was.
By all means, we should still be practicing hygiene and ensuring that those people most susceptible are treated with better care...
But the irony is that through all this, they didn't tell people to go home, away from the ER to prevent further spread. And that while this was all occurring, medical personnel are being FIRED. DURING a pandemic. The Irony of it all is palpable.
@@JohnDoe-wt9ek On whose authority would the military have been placed to prevent spread? The president who wanted to deny it existed? A career general who would likely have been discharged for treason for using his troops against the populace without authorities aiding? The senate which had a 50% divide towards people who didn't believe in it and need a 60% majority? Who?
Yeah. They fired doctors. They fired doctors who were irrelevant. Not every doctor is relevant to this illness or emergency care. What's a foot doctor going to do in this case? How about elbows? Knees? Bones? The American health system has overvalued specializing and its presented us with millions of specialists that you have to run through who can be completely useless for your problem. I mean, you try being a cosmetic surgeon specialized in facial reconstruction and see how that teaches you how the lungs work. At best your utility is tertiary.
But that is the thing. This was doomed from the start. People depend on a working system, and when it doesn't work...well, clearly, it does work, this just wasn't a bad instance. And so the cycle continues of things not getting fixed. And as lives are ground up, the corpses placed on hideous display, the numbers mounting...what does it matter? They're just numbers. They're always just numbers...
@@JohnDoe-wt9ek Murican delusion artists like you are the reason the death per capita equivalent to civil war torn third world countries in terms of covid deaths.
But go on, fight against common sense just because "muh media" told you dying from a preventable disease is not normal.
@@JohnDoe-wt9ek Half of what you said is true. For reference i am a private emt so i was in a lot of l hospitals during the pandemic. No coworkers died and we all pretty much have it since standard ppe doesnt do anything, the cleaning chemicals were as bad as covid. This is much worse than you think it is not downplaying covid especially since we couldnt wait for the chemicals to clear. Covid was completely mismanaged. For example there was one guy with covid perfectly healthy, was in for an unrelated issue, vut was then quarantined for a few days then we had to take him home, he couldnt leave normally even though we still had to move him through the hospital, then releas him in his apartment complex, still covid positive. Sending people home or keeping them in a hospital, both spread covid like wildfire. Also ventilators, spread it too, those emergency tent ideas were garbage and mostly for appearance, put a covid pt in there on a vent and everyone is getting it.
@@sirzebra Three things, the count in usa is overstated if you die with covid it would count even if unrelated. From what i have seen as an emt diabetes is a very strong indicator of how sick ya get, seen healthy diabetes suffer and sick but non diabetic 90+ year olds brush it off, usa number 1 for diabetes i am pretty sure. Third those other countries have a lot of problems. covid is the least of them so they dont count them, few countries even test like the usa does.
These stories are so good, and the fact you put up fundraiser stuff for them shows just how good of a person you are. Keep it up
EVERYBODY needs to watch this video! Mad props to this man for everything he did to try to help people!
this really put perspective what actually happening behind the cold wall of a hospital.
i used to think guards is just some mediocre jobs that need little to none attention to do it but damn, after this man's share of stories, i really need a reality check.
‘In matters of boot making, refer to the cobbler’
I might use that one, thanks
I think there is a secondary deeper meaning which I will put another way, "In matters of war (and peace), don't refer to the gun maker"
I also worked at the hospital from the beginning of covid til august this year. I can confirm, people saying its bullshit makes you wanna leave planet earth
they are saying the reaction was overblown. and it was.. and because of those reactions lead to so many failures.. like people not being able to see family.. suicide, massive depression. hosptails closing wards, lsoing money, nurses jumping from hosptial to make more money.. this isn't one sided.. there are many sides.
@@npcimknot958 Im not gonna disagree with you completly. Absolutly the situation could have been handled better. Some countries had too many restrictions and mine for example (Sweden) were the exact opposite and because of it we had among the highest number of infected (population procentege wise) for quite some time.
In short; Yea, with the power of hindsight the reaction of many countries was an over reaction. But, at the same time, we had scary little amounts of information on how to treat it. The first summer it felt like all of our patients were dying like flies, but a few months later in January-ish, deaths were quite rare.
Oke, my Novel is now over.
God this is depressing only to see more proof of how messed up the system is. However folks like this are the only glue holding us together. Thanks will never be enough.
14:50 - “In their own...” You can audibly hear how that broke him
This man is an absolute hero. He put his life, his sanity, his all into doing his job, with practically no reward for it. Just his own will to help. Hell even when it destroyed him, he kept doing it till he literally was incapable of it. If there was more people like him, this world would be a better place.
These videos are one of the clearest looks into the lives of people all around the world, really puts images into peoples heads about their lives.
Thanks for posting this. i couldn't have imagined how bad it got at hospitals. I worked as a ticket/gate agent for an airline through the pandemic and thought it was bad, but this is a whole different story.
This guy has seen some terrible things that no person should have to see. It was hard not crying at his at this point 15.00.
He has a lot of guts telling his story and getting it off his chest..
That bit about smartphones was spot-fucking-on
Most of those people who are like “oh I don’t want to get it cause the government will put microchips into my bloodstream and the government can track me” have something like a smartphone or home assistant (Hey Alexa or some along the lines of that) and it’s some of the most comedic yet infuriating things ever
Listening to stories like these just confirms my belief that there is still hope for humanity. Despite everything going on right now, with the weaponized media, political partisanship, nihilistic thoughts and tendencies, etc there are still those who still have the strength to bring their experiences to light. And even still, bring a sense of hope for doing what is right and fighting through the loss/turmoil. I really hope this passionate guy is doing ok, and I continue to look forward to the great content from this channel.
I respect this man for what he tried to do. Someone should give him a hug. Hell, it actually changed my view point on actual Security, but I never really realized how in depth it can be. I do hope he has a better time of it, and hopefully get out of the bad situation he's in.
this is not a story, this is documentary, that can be studied in future, about human behaviour, man, i hope that guy have a easy life going on right now
I cant even imagine the pain in his mind that he felt, If the loss of my dog was hard to get over. But its amazing when people can talk to others. In my case i got diagnosed with a certain uncurable deciece anda went to talk to a theraphist and helped me a lot.
This video should go viral. It is a sad story but well told about the back side of the hospitals
Man i feel so much respect for these kind of workers...
As a security guard myself (for a university), this hits close to home. It was super rough in the beginning, especially when people would get stir crazy and attack me and my crew all because we looked like the cops. My stuff is no where NEAR that guy's rough experience, but I can at least relate to a fraction of all that
are you comfortable with telling any stories?
@@pink_sky_morning4842 Yeah, it's no problem. It's long, so bear with me. Here goes:
It was the beginning of the quarantine measures in 2020. My crew and I were tasked to enforce quarantine and encourage people to stay away from the university grounds (the university is typically open to the public, but closed during this time). The people of the public didn't take too kindly to that, and constantly gave us a rough time.
This one guy had come onto my crew's radar, and myself and 2 others of my crew went to give him a trespass because he was fighting to stay on the university grounds, something to keep him away from the campus for a full year unless the guy wanted to be arrested and booked by the real cops. He showed no initial retaliation at first, but that changed quite quickly the moment I looked away. One moment, he was just standing still and being civil. The next moment, I felt a tug of my uniform around my torso, and looked up to find him holding a machete with blood dripping from it. I looked to my left and right to my coworkers and found that they were slashed at the legs, and they had informed me that my torso had been slashed open and I was the most injured. Apparantly, in my shock that the guy I was trying to trespass magically had a machete, that tugging feeling on my torso was him basically trying to cut me in half. I lost so much blood at that moment that I passed out.
According to my other coworkers, the dude was arrested promptly after I fell, and the paramedics nearly made the call that I was dead due to how much blood was pooling from my body. My crew did their damnest to save me, and I barely made it in time to surgery. They stitched me up and I found out that my liver was split in half, and small and large intestines needed to be stitched back together. I was comatose for two whole weeks with no visitors. When I came to, the doctors told me that I had essentially died 6 times throughout the surgery from my heart working way overtime to keep me walking this Earth with nearly half my blood lost. My coworkers that were hurt alongside me faired rather well since they were taller and were only slashed on their thighs needing stitches; I happened to have suffered the most due to being shorter than them (I'm 5'03" for reference). It took me a few more weeks to recover enough to return to duty, and during that time I revisited the very site that I nearly died, finding that my blood had permanently stained the grass and earth there in a sickening red. I'm thankful to be alive, but that incident reminded me that people can be extremely cruel. Some are willing to kill you for the sake of it. Why don't I say that the dude who nearly killed me was trying to flee the cops? Because I remember the crazed look in his eyes after cutting me - that look of a person gone mad from the quarantine. According to my supervisor, the cops who arrested him mentioned that he had no criminal record at all to begin with, and was ranting about COVID being the reason that he couldn't keep his job and took it out on someone who was an essential worker instead. That apparantly just so happened to be me, and he wasn't picky. The scars on my torso give me phantom pains every now and again, and I have occasional nightmares, but I'm slowly healing with time. Hopefully when this pandemic ends, we can all finally get back to normal in a way that won't hurt other people.
@@Zeebreezee97 Jesus Christ, it’s great you are alright now. The fact that you are not dead right now is a miracle and that guy deserved to be arrested. How long were you guys in quarantine for at the time of stabbing?
@@pink_sky_morning4842 I think it was about 8 months into the initial 2020 quarantine, but I don't remember the time that well
This guy is so genuine. I really hope he gets through this (COVID issues in the hospital).
Ooooh boy. This one. This is all kinda of just....I don't even know what to call it. All I do know is I hope this video spreads, and that no one's foolish enough to call this man a liar. Cause you can hear the pain in his voice clear as day.
Seeing people go through tough days watching people die or being abused makes me cry... I'm glad that people are talking about it in vr to you.
Hospital security is the most under appreciated jobs while being one of the most dangerous. What this guy is saying is right on point, no excagerration or embellishment. EVERYTHING he speaks of is very true. Not enough goes into not just compensation but taking care of the security staff in the hospital environment. I got a kick on when he speaks of the nursing shortages because I experienced it personally. Nursing agencies exploded during the pandemic, enriching travel or agency nurses all the while compromised patient care. Like he said, it was nurses just looking for $$$$ then moved on to other sites. They didn't care about that particular hospital, the coworkers, or their patients. The violence experienced and the disrespect from some nurses and the general craziness that ensued during and after the pandemic was a challenge. These challenges would definitely test the mental health of anyone. My heart goes out to this young man. You're not alone, stay strong, take care of yourself, and definitely take advantage of the help that is out there. You deserve to go forward and live the best life possible, you have great insight.
This Is one little jem of a story, kinda sad but strong, keep up the good work!
the avatars in these talks are always so oddly appropriate for the topic
This was really good to listen to. This dude is so lucid about everything he went through it's pretty incredible that he managed to take a step back and understand his own experience so well.
That part about being a talker and not a fighter really resonated with me, i've always hated the idea of having to confront someone and to have to hurt them in order to get my way, or be forced to physically attack someone for any reason. While i'm only 14 as of now, I still find it in my best interests to stay a nice person, to talk it out, to understand the situation, to try and help instead of needlessly throwing punches. And while my dad teaches me to fight if I ever have to I believe in a perfect world I wont have to put it to use. I respect this man for being so nice and doing so much for these people despite what it did to him, he deserves a mental health break after all of that. PTSD is a serious issue and I truly hope you get better if you still struggle.
On point and similar experience. Everyone is going through hardships since the pandemic started but for some a difficult or stressful job has become worse. Where you spend a quarter of your week is hell and the last day of your off period already counting down to when the shit storm is going to start again. The job has little room for advancement, pays little for the what is involved, more akin to law enforcement or correctional work and both tend to look down on security experience. There is no end in sight, no magic cure all, and no one outside of hospital really understands what it's like.
Shit man.... this.. this hits hard.. I have friends who are security and its been hard for them, and family that are military, but holy shit... I don't envy you, if I were in that situation, I think I would break down from the stress of trying to be there for everyone..
@@mcd5778 what? Are you saying my comment is disgusting and unjustified? I thought I made it clear that I felt for the guy?
It's really telling through the correlation between earth shattering serious conversations about trauma and experiencing tragedy and the medium being used such as being a goofy, simulated VR character while unloading emotionally. It has to be a little bit of the anonymity behind the visual display having no identifying features of the person sharing. Their's so many of these types of conversations uploaded from random chat rooms in the same light regarding the situation. This seems to surpass even the one on one expensive session with a therapist or psychiatrist in ease of letting your guard down and being honest. It's extremely interesting considering the tech is only going to get better.
Watching this felt like watching one of those interviews in museums about something horrific like a genocide. Im very thankful that we will have these vrchat interviews for generations to come to understand what a struggle COVID has been for everyone and hopefully prevent such a disaster in the future.
Im glad I got to hear this. I've been witness to security restraining a patient before but I've never been able to sit down and talk to that part of our hospital staff. We really should be doing more to show appreciation to people who work these jobs.
I don't know if its the avatar model but this guy hits slight nior detective accent every now and then I think its just my silly brain. Thank you for you story and bringing up these topics I hope everyone can get the help they need
You know I hear about all this stuff in like zombie apocalypse stuff. But to hear it in real life is just absolutely terrifying. This kind of stuff is what you don’t hear on the news or anywhere. This stories come from people who’s been though hell and back. I thank him for his hard work to keeping the safety and helping others. God bless him
Wow, this made me cry. I truly understand what you have gone through from a very personal perspective, I truly get it. Thank you for sharing your story, I enjoyed listening to the hard truths you have experienced. Stay strong brotha.
Honestly when he stopped speaking in the mid the break in his voice I felt the painful choke in him I felt that personally seeing so many die during such an uncertain time of an unknown sickness I cried knowing friends who’ve lost people to Covid and or having experienced lost so many great idols I idolized to Covid and it’s been just painful I’m so grateful to still somehow being alive today in 2022 another year of an unknown knowing hospital staffs have to ensure people don’t get close to the patients it pains me knowing they just wanna be with their loved ones at the end that got me
The conspiracy with doctors is bullshit i trust professionals they don’t just talk they research they test they try to figure out the source they don’t just tell people what the source is they use numbers science it’s real doctors only are trying to protect and now people are treating them as if they’re part of some major corruption scheme to tare down the America they love and protect just like how authority figures yes are trying to protect the police the doctors the people on the frontlines are trying their hardest and the political advisement on the news is all dramatic bullshit politicians paying off news sources to criticize anyone trying to direct for a peaceful United fight against whatever it is that’s going on the hospitals are being over loaded family’s are dying kids are losing their lives loved ones are crying in agony wanting to understand just what the hell is happening police are trying to protect and serve the armies are fighting off global threats during such an unknown moment in time it is so much for all the people sacrificing themselves for the love of our family’s and our country’s people I felt so much pain listening to the story because it is real their experiences are everything in the most truthful way told it’s not a lie whatever churned up story you’ve been about doctors being corrupt figures bringing down our system you’re being produced lies and nothing more it’s all a plan with the government within not the police not the doctors not the people around you they’re all trying to cure the virus so we can all return to normalcy
as a security guard in AUS at a hospital. this guys speaking facts, all his storys are so similiar to mine that it makes me depressed, holy fuck. maybe i am going insane
It’s so saddening to see that people still neglect COVID’S existence despite many situations like these happening around the world. I hope that you have recovered from those memories. Stay well
I hope he's doing better, he seems like he needs help, and is clearly a good person.
The effects of seeing everything that this guy has experienced, i can honestly relate on a personal level for someone who also suffers from anxiety and ptsd, my cause was a bit different but I know how hard it is to live with that stuff
after watching this...... i feel more depressed but at the same time enlightened about whats happening and i feel like we need more people like this who just genuinely want to help and nothing else
As someone who has lost so many family members to covid, and lost another today I want to thank you for what you did/ are doing. It takes so much, and your helping the world. I'm so sorry you have/had to go through this, it's terrible and so many people don't even understand the severity of it. Thank you.
this man needs a hug
Please make more videos with this guy or other people in similar positions so others can learn about what it was like in the hospitals during the last 2 years and so people can be more appreciative of what people like him do.