Pain is addictive The sensation of blood pumping The feeling off damage in your body Yet it hurts so much, but I love it Yet Pain from love that's what needs to be covered.
I'm just gonna throw this out there... I've built armor around my heart. Not to protect me from love or any of that. Just because, I don't want the mean things people tell me to hit me, so I protect myself and don't talk much with people I haven't known for a long time. At the same time though, I'm not an introvert? I dunno... it's confusing. Lately, I've noticed that my armor is getting stronger, at least it seems that way from the outside looking in. Words might touch me for a second, then reflect off of me like I'm a mirror. In a way I guess I am... except when things reflect, they don't hit the people back. The words just disappear. I get rid of them. I pull myself together really quick and try not to let anyone know how much the things they say hurt me. I keep it all in, but I never cry. I just pretend to be strong. I'm not strong. My armor is cracking from the inside out. I'm not that sad I guess, I just... Sorry this comment's so long... not expecting anyone to read the whole thing heh
I have a similar armor, but I don't know who built it. I don't want it to be there. Let's just say I was heartbroken once because I couldn't see my boyfriend anymore so we broke up, and I know I sound stupid right now, and I am lol, but I got really sad and now I'm apathetic in love. I just can't find anymore anymore, it feels like if it's not him my heart will always be cold, abd I don't want this. I am already a very "choosing" person.. so I am finding it very hard to find someone else to love. I got over him! But now my life feels almost empty, considering he had become my reason for *living* and *not just surviving* and ALSO was my first ever boyfriend, and lately I have been kinda 'wishing for love' (which I never did and never do) and I just feel more empty day by day. Sorry if this is also a VERY long comment 😅 and I know I sound stupid because there are much worse stories than mine, but I just wanted to let you know you're not alone (even if my story is different) ❤
If i tell you i do this every day would you believe me? You're not alone. The only one who isn't gonna hurt me in the physical world is me. And sometimes i fail to protect me like i should. I am a perfectionist. When things goes wrong and i can fix it i just wanna die like right now. I feel responsible for every single mistake damage violence assault lies robbery. Its all my fault and i cant fix it. Im useless. Every time when i let someone in my life they drink my joy and energy and my strength. I hide to cry.
Don't worry I've read longer. I feel a deep connection through this. I too am an extrovert but sometimes enjoy the same things as an introvert. I confuse myself. I don't understand myself fully, but over time I learned not to mind so much and just live life as myself. It gets better. This is the message I strive to spread, because I've been through so much and survived so much. It hurts so much right now, I know, but it gets better. I promise it gets better. Let me know if you need a hug.
If you have depression, just know that you're not alone. It really does get better after a while and if things seem tough now, just know it'll be even better later.I'm not really good with advice but just know that people care about you, people love you for you and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Depression is a hard time in many people's lives and I myself am going through a hard time and this music helps me cope with it. Try finding your own way to help yourself become happy like, hanging out with friends or family,doing a hobby you enjoy,or maybe even playing with your pet, anything that makes you happy. As I said I'm not really that good at giving advice but I just want you to know that I care about you,I really do.Even though we don't know each other, helping out even a little feels good so make sure you keep on going and never give up ❤❤❤
I always read these sad comments and relate with most of them , but really I’m in great pain , everything seems to be shattered, I’m not doing anything right i got no one besides me nobody cares and I’m sick of it actually, i wanna thank you for this actually, i love Ambition.
I had a friend who I use to spend a lot of time with. We would talk almost everyday, go to movies, out to eat. Then one day I realized I was falling in love with her. I asked her out and while I didn't get the exact answer I had hoped for, we still gave it a shot. She was a bit hesitant though. Her family didn't agree because of my ethnic background, so one day she called it off. I pretended like I was ok but I was really heartbroken. We still agreed to be friends, and I was happy about that because I liked having her around. She was fun to talk with, and talking to her made me happy. But she's changed. We don't talk like we use to. She doesn't text me anymore. She's busy a lot, but I can't help but think there is something more.
Henri Laquerbe hey bro you're not alone. I feel the same. If you ever need someone there's people here for you. I see you like tokyo ghoul so we could even just watch some and talk about life. Idk you at all. But we can make the world a better place starting with something small
C maybe i’m the stupid one here, maybe i was being the foolish one thinking we would ever be something more then what we were, maybe i was being childish and imagining our future together when that ‘future’ will never become a reality, maybe i was the problem, but even if i was, why, why did you leave? why did you do them stupid actions? i miss you, so much. and yet you still don’t understand why i was upset, i’m sorry, i’m sorry i was not enough for you, i tried, i really did. do you remember that night when we talked for 10 hours straight, you had a special name for me, i had a special name for you, we laughed, we smiled, we cried, we enjoyed each other’s company even though we were in separate places, we stayed up together talking all night, do you remember? i do, i remember every moment, i miss it, i miss it so much and what i found, something that breaks me, you seem to not... remember, you act dumb and repeatedly question me asking if that ever happened, do you know how much that breaks me? of course you don’t, all you ever do is care about is yourself. i would do anything to go back in time to feel that happy, god, i was so fucking happy talking to you. Even though i say i’m over to people, i’m not, i will never be over you. i still wish every moment of the day, i will see a notification that has your name on it, even though that will never happen. sometimes i think i see your name pop up on my screen, but just as i expected it was just my mind trying to make me think i will be useful or needed in this world. i will still wish and wish maybe one day, we will be as we used to be.
Somehow I can relate.. how I mis him, mis talking, the feels.. I often believed it couldn't be true, cause I didn't felt enough.. so I protected myself of getting hurt.. your loved existed in my dreams, late at night.. prob never knew, how I loved just every part of who he was..
Wh!t3 Wh!tch i relate. you know when you have a dream and you see him? and it feels so great too see him, you feel so happy even though the dream may not be happy one , even just to see his face again makes me feel like the happiest girl ever.
I fucking cryed Soo hard. I want to help, but I don't know how? Btw this ain't important but I want to become a speech therapist. I'm only 14 but I love hearing peoples problems ( not In a weird way just like I want to help them and sometimes all they need is someone to listen to them) . But I get so frustrated when I don't know how to help them.
yeah i get you! i wanted to be a therapist when i was younger, as someone who’s struggled with a lot of mental problems, i’ve always loved to help people :)
im randomly going through these playlists and when i get here im like "is that keshi?" i go to the description and IT IS KESHI!! i love you for adding my favorite artist
Will this pain ever go away? I hope not, because I want so desperately to feel something and I feel it and I'm afraid that if I lose this pain then I will truely have nothing left. It's the only part of me that's still intact. You think you've killed me. No. I killed myself, and you just happened to be there when I broke. Will this pain ever go away? Please, tell me no. Because if I forget this pain then I forget you. And if I forget you then I truely have nothing left. I love you. Sorry.
What's more relaxing than this on a deep depression heart in a lonely quiet monday morning 1:35 am. How wish i had someone who could love me completely. Im living with an empty soul.
When you feel pain, everything seems slower, you keep checking the time for when it will end. No matter how much you hurt yourself the pain in your heart can never be covered up.
Hope this feeling goes away soon.All the could have beens, hurt the most. I get it it's time to let go. You'll always be that unforgettable summer memory.
Really feeling this tonight. Thank you so much ambition. I hope you'll continue to make mixes like this for years to come. If you ever need anything - a friendly word or a gentle push or a virtual hug - just drop me a line. I got you.
Now everyday as I wake up and do my daily things I can feel this pain in my heart like if it’s urging for something and I can never know when this pain will go away
I really needed this! I'm going through a lot right now, My dog passed away not to long ago, a beautiful, friendly pit bull. he was twelve when he passed away. Anyway, He was my best friend and I still can't believe that he's gone. But this really cheered me up, Making me realize he's in a better place now! Probably on a boat or something right now -w-
Yes. Pain will go away it always does. Thank you Ambition for this music. It makes me feel so much better about everything. These days life is hard to want to live. Your music channel makes it more bearable. ありがと (Thank-you)
i’ve been hurting him this whole time without even knowing loving me was painful for him i tried my hardest to make it right and he just wouldn’t let me now i’m sitting on the floor crying wishing i could have been better for him he deserves better than a girl who can’t take social cues he deserves better than a girl who doesn’t know how to love herself he deserves better than the clingy and obnoxious girl who can turn distant in a snap i wish i had realized how awful i was i don’t want forgiveness i don’t deserve forgiveness i just want him to feel better after how much i put him through i don’t want to be his pain anymore
I’m so confused. I’m so freaking confused. I just say my dad after 3 years of no communication. He emotionally abused me. He seemed so sorry but I don’t even know anymore. I can’t do this. I’m angry. I’m confused. I’m sad. I feel regret. I regret seeing him. I wish I never saw him in the first place. I wish I had a normal happy family. Everything would be so much easier. I wish I wasn’t born.
hmm.. it seems as though im the only one who hasnt been through any trauma and is just here because the music sounds great :^) i hope you all feel better though, youve got a whole road ahead of you. dont let some small little potholes get in the way of ur destination.
pain can end but you have to remember when an unexpected pain flashes through your emotions, you will feel pain again pain is always by your side it's always their even if your fine and not depressed it's there it's just invisible it's in your heart deep down trying to escape but you know your to strong for it.
Pain is something you can never run from no matter how hard you try but you can learn from it and maybe you will realize something 💔 -> ? Your choice to choose from what you want your heart to be....................... Happy or in pain forever
There's this guy in my class, we know each other for about six months. The more our friendship grows, the more painful it gets. Today's my birthday and we are friends, so he came yesterday and slept here. The next day I thought f*ck it, so i cuddled with him in the morning… i am afraid of losing him and he's rather the quite type of guy if u know what I mean. So... I'm quite sure he knows it already (it's obvious) but I'm freaking afraid of what will come. I don't wanna lose him… because nothing can be the same right? I know it but I don't wanna hurt myself with it. He didn't refuse, so he likes me as well? It's complicated. He just left and I said stuff like "Please don't go, I'll be sad…" and I am. Just wanna let it out here. (sry if here are typos)
I hate myself sometimes knowing that if i lied like everyone else life would work better but my heart never lets me lie but my truth gets in the way of my success, i hate the decisions i make
When you depressed af and music perfectly describes how you feel
p e a c h e z i know what you mean I the radio is my worst enemy right now....well besides myself
Same here
Pain is addictive
The sensation of blood pumping
The feeling off damage in your body
Yet it hurts so much, but I love it
Yet Pain from love
that's what needs to be covered.
edgyy
Now that's edgy as FUCK!!
dude if this is edgy then look at the title of the video ffs
i wonder if he uses the lyrics from the comment section .
OW OW OWWW THE EDGE
Pain feels so good,
Yet it hurts so bad.
never thought id turn into one these commenters ,but yeah i needed this right now
welcome to the dark side
Optimal Bean pretty much 😌👌
Me too
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We're all "one of these" guys some time man
I still think about her.
- Finny - I still think about him
I still think about her as well.
you are not the only bro ... :'')
I think about my dog too
I think about her and her girlfriend...
I'm just gonna throw this out there...
I've built armor around my heart. Not to protect me from love or any of that. Just because, I don't want the mean things people tell me to hit me, so I protect myself and don't talk much with people I haven't known for a long time. At the same time though, I'm not an introvert? I dunno... it's confusing. Lately, I've noticed that my armor is getting stronger, at least it seems that way from the outside looking in. Words might touch me for a second, then reflect off of me like I'm a mirror. In a way I guess I am... except when things reflect, they don't hit the people back. The words just disappear. I get rid of them. I pull myself together really quick and try not to let anyone know how much the things they say hurt me. I keep it all in, but I never cry. I just pretend to be strong. I'm not strong. My armor is cracking from the inside out. I'm not that sad I guess, I just...
Sorry this comment's so long... not expecting anyone to read the whole thing heh
Cutecake Sweets no, thank you. I honestly wasn’t expecting anyone to read the whole thing or even notice it. So thank you.
I have a similar armor, but I don't know who built it. I don't want it to be there.
Let's just say I was heartbroken once because I couldn't see my boyfriend anymore so we broke up, and I know I sound stupid right now, and I am lol, but I got really sad and now I'm apathetic in love. I just can't find anymore anymore, it feels like if it's not him my heart will always be cold, abd I don't want this. I am already a very "choosing" person.. so I am finding it very hard to find someone else to love. I got over him! But now my life feels almost empty, considering he had become my reason for *living* and *not just surviving* and ALSO was my first ever boyfriend, and lately I have been kinda 'wishing for love' (which I never did and never do) and I just feel more empty day by day. Sorry if this is also a VERY long comment 😅 and I know I sound stupid because there are much worse stories than mine, but I just wanted to let you know you're not alone (even if my story is different) ❤
If i tell you i do this every day would you believe me? You're not alone. The only one who isn't gonna hurt me in the physical world is me. And sometimes i fail to protect me like i should. I am a perfectionist. When things goes wrong and i can fix it i just wanna die like right now. I feel responsible for every single mistake damage violence assault lies robbery. Its all my fault and i cant fix it. Im useless. Every time when i let someone in my life they drink my joy and energy and my strength. I hide to cry.
You're absolutely right!!! I did not read it.
Don't worry I've read longer.
I feel a deep connection through this. I too am an extrovert but sometimes enjoy the same things as an introvert. I confuse myself. I don't understand myself fully, but over time I learned not to mind so much and just live life as myself.
It gets better. This is the message I strive to spread, because I've been through so much and survived so much. It hurts so much right now, I know, but it gets better. I promise it gets better.
Let me know if you need a hug.
I got chills within the first second and I somehow feel like crying but I also feel so peaceful..
I felt that with the last song :')
I will never be sure, and im sure of that.
If you have depression, just know that you're not alone. It really does get better after a while and if things seem tough now, just know it'll be even better later.I'm not really good with advice but just know that people care about you, people love you for you and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Depression is a hard time in many people's lives and I myself am going through a hard time and this music helps me cope with it. Try finding your own way to help yourself become happy like, hanging out with friends or family,doing a hobby you enjoy,or maybe even playing with your pet, anything that makes you happy. As I said I'm not really that good at giving advice but I just want you to know that I care about you,I really do.Even though we don't know each other, helping out even a little feels good so make sure you keep on going and never give up ❤❤❤
Markanine thank you so much
Lindsay Kenneyd no problem I'm glad that I could help ❤
Good,to have cofee on a sad afternoon.♥♥
You have no idea how much I needed this right now...
So you needed some generic chill music... Ok.
honestly the beautiful animations is what draws me in every time
It's not an animation though.
I always read these sad comments and relate with most of them , but really I’m in great pain , everything seems to be shattered, I’m not doing anything right i got no one besides me nobody cares and I’m sick of it actually, i wanna thank you for this actually, i love Ambition.
I hadn't heard the second track on this in ages, despite me loving it, I just forgot the name, thanks for reminding me of it Ambition
I had a friend who I use to spend a lot of time with. We would talk almost everyday, go to movies, out to eat. Then one day I realized I was falling in love with her. I asked her out and while I didn't get the exact answer I had hoped for, we still gave it a shot. She was a bit hesitant though. Her family didn't agree because of my ethnic background, so one day she called it off. I pretended like I was ok but I was really heartbroken. We still agreed to be friends, and I was happy about that because I liked having her around. She was fun to talk with, and talking to her made me happy. But she's changed.
We don't talk like we use to.
She doesn't text me anymore.
She's busy a lot, but I can't help but think there is something more.
Really sad tonight thank you I needed this
Henri Laquerbe hey bro you're not alone. I feel the same. If you ever need someone there's people here for you. I see you like tokyo ghoul so we could even just watch some and talk about life. Idk you at all. But we can make the world a better place starting with something small
C
maybe i’m the stupid one here, maybe i was being the foolish one thinking we would ever be something more then what we were, maybe i was being childish and imagining our future together when that ‘future’ will never become a reality, maybe i was the problem, but even if i was, why, why did you leave? why did you do them stupid actions? i miss you, so much. and yet you still don’t understand why i was upset, i’m sorry, i’m sorry i was not enough for you, i tried, i really did.
do you remember that night when we talked for 10 hours straight, you had a special name for me, i had a special name for you, we laughed, we smiled, we cried, we enjoyed each other’s company even though we were in separate places, we stayed up together talking all night, do you remember? i do, i remember every moment, i miss it, i miss it so much and what i found, something that breaks me, you seem to not... remember, you act dumb and repeatedly question me asking if that ever happened, do you know how much that breaks me? of course you don’t, all you ever do is care about is yourself. i would do anything to go back in time to feel that happy, god, i was so fucking happy talking to you.
Even though i say i’m over to people, i’m not, i will never be over you. i still wish every moment of the day, i will see a notification that has your name on it, even though that will never happen. sometimes i think i see your name pop up on my screen, but just as i expected it was just my mind trying to make me think i will be useful or needed in this world. i will still wish and wish maybe one day, we will be as we used to be.
Somehow I can relate.. how I mis him, mis talking, the feels.. I often believed it couldn't be true, cause I didn't felt enough.. so I protected myself of getting hurt.. your loved existed in my dreams, late at night.. prob never knew, how I loved just every part
of who he was..
Wh!t3 Wh!tch i relate. you know when you have a dream and you see him? and it feels so great too see him, you feel so happy even though the dream may not be happy one , even just to see his face again makes me feel like the happiest girl ever.
Relatabe
I fucking cryed Soo hard. I want to help, but I don't know how? Btw this ain't important but I want to become a speech therapist. I'm only 14 but I love hearing peoples problems ( not In a weird way just like I want to help them and sometimes all they need is someone to listen to them) . But I get so frustrated when I don't know how to help them.
yeah i get you! i wanted to be a therapist when i was younger, as someone who’s struggled with a lot of mental problems, i’ve always loved to help people :)
im randomly going through these playlists and when i get here im like "is that keshi?" i go to the description and IT IS KESHI!! i love you for adding my favorite artist
Will this pain ever go away? I hope not, because I want so desperately to feel something and I feel it and I'm afraid that if I lose this pain then I will truely have nothing left. It's the only part of me that's still intact. You think you've killed me. No. I killed myself, and you just happened to be there when I broke. Will this pain ever go away? Please, tell me no. Because if I forget this pain then I forget you. And if I forget you then I truely have nothing left. I love you. Sorry.
What's more relaxing than this on a deep depression heart in a lonely quiet monday morning 1:35 am. How wish i had someone who could love me completely. Im living with an empty soul.
How do you find this amazing images? ....They are beautiful, and i Love all the mix c:🍓💫 sorry for my English lol
He gets the commissioned
actually, this piece was already made before this video. It's by an artist called Pfeffersteak on tumblr/twitter. Check them out!
Wirt OH! THANK YOU SO MUCH🖤
I can’t even cry anymore and this made me cry fo the first time in ages, kinda grateful to be honest
THE LAST SONG HAS ME FEELINGS SOME TYPE OF WAY OMG ITS SO GOOD
When you feel pain, everything seems slower, you keep checking the time for when it will end.
No matter how much you hurt yourself the pain in your heart can never be covered up.
The real question is will the pain get worse and for me it will, thanks for upload sorry I'm late for comment but I loved upload 💖👍
2019 ? Still here :)
💫💔
Almost in tears I dont Know why , it is just so nice and distracting from all of this drama, thank you for posting this! ~
The picture reminds me of like a modern day the outsiders.
rip x for getting me past my depression bro when nobody knew my pain u got me through
"People can change your energy, stay away from chaotic needy people that steal your peace." ❤️
Omg this song ended just as I was about to go to sleep, what nice timing I suppose.
I love thiss
I honestly tried to ignore this playlist for a bit, the title resonated so much that it hurt. But today I am here and can share. Thanks again :)
Hope this feeling goes away soon.All the could have beens, hurt the most. I get it it's time to let go. You'll always be that unforgettable summer memory.
This is calming on a different level of my life when everything is chaotic
Really feeling this tonight. Thank you so much ambition. I hope you'll continue to make mixes like this for years to come. If you ever need anything - a friendly word or a gentle push or a virtual hug - just drop me a line. I got you.
oof sad niba hrs
This comment made me cry. so raw, so emotional, so vulnerable. Thank you
heart 💔 been 💔 broke 💔 so 💔 many 💔 times 💔 i 💔 i💔 dont 💔 know 💔 what 💔 to 💔 believe 💔
All your songs are really calming when I’m very alone and sad. Thanks for that very much.
I think I'm starting to love Keshi songs because of you, so thank you very much
Listened to these for a while, they’re great and they help a lot Thanks man
~Most of the songs you post are so relatable~
Now everyday as I wake up and do my daily things I can feel this pain in my heart like if it’s urging for something and I can never know when this pain will go away
I love this song, I still listen in 2020 fr thank uou
You*
beautiful mix
Thanks for this it's really nice to to know that there's music like this in the world
omg all your art and music choices ae always so amazing tysm love
I really needed this! I'm going through a lot right now, My dog passed away not to long ago, a beautiful, friendly pit bull. he was twelve when he passed away. Anyway, He was my best friend and I still can't believe that he's gone. But this really cheered me up, Making me realize he's in a better place now! Probably on a boat or something right now -w-
Keshi-over u
First one = GREAT VID
Love your posts😄 they really make me feel confortable with myself and my life, thank you😊
Love this. Thanks for another perfectly chill and heartful tune.
Another beautiful Mix to quell my soul on a restless night. Thank you Ambition, much love man
This is amazing really relaxing nice to listen to this while the sun is rising. amazing
I feel like anything I hear from this channel really helps me and I love it is that strange?
Thank you for posting this type of content, it really helps me a lot.
Yes. Pain will go away it always does. Thank you Ambition for this music. It makes me feel so much better about everything.
These days life is hard to want to live. Your music channel makes it more bearable. ありがと (Thank-you)
its all to cover up the pain i feel inside
Thank you, so much for this Ambition.
I hate how pain hurts, but I really love it...😔💔
Totally adding this to my play list and listening to it.
Mmm this vocal prowess 💜
I don't think it ever will. It's already built a home in me. Just there it stays and if I feel like it I could take it out and cry my eyes out.
I fucking love this dude!!! He knows his shit, about how to manipulate his audience into getting them clicks.
I have recreated your playlist on Spotify, with the same title as the video. So I can have it always.
I'm so in love with this.
happy will gone in "somedays" , but pain never gone , is been maybe " forever " in your heart
This pain will never go away.💔
i’ve been hurting him this whole time without even knowing
loving me was painful for him
i tried my hardest to make it right and he just wouldn’t let me
now i’m sitting on the floor crying wishing i could have been better for him
he deserves better than a girl who can’t take social cues
he deserves better than a girl who doesn’t know how to love herself
he deserves better than the clingy and obnoxious girl who can turn distant in a snap
i wish i had realized how awful i was
i don’t want forgiveness
i don’t deserve forgiveness
i just want him to feel better after how much i put him through
i don’t want to be his pain anymore
Relatable..
I’m so confused. I’m so freaking confused. I just say my dad after 3 years of no communication. He emotionally abused me. He seemed so sorry but I don’t even know anymore. I can’t do this. I’m angry. I’m confused. I’m sad. I feel regret. I regret seeing him. I wish I never saw him in the first place. I wish I had a normal happy family. Everything would be so much easier. I wish I wasn’t born.
im sorry. your dad sounds really douchie and doesnt deserve a kid like you
A R T O F B E A U T Y
hmm.. it seems as though im the only one who hasnt been through any trauma and is just here because the music sounds great :^)
i hope you all feel better though, youve got a whole road ahead of you. dont let some small little potholes get in the way of ur destination.
pain can end but you have to remember when an unexpected pain flashes through your emotions, you will feel pain again
pain is always by your side
it's always their even if your fine and not depressed
it's there it's just invisible it's in your heart deep down trying to escape but you know your to strong for it.
Thanks, I just got dumped and I needed this keep up the good timing!
Why do I love it so much? 😍
No, not while I'm still doing my exams... the pain won't go away 😥😥😥💀
I love this music it helps me cover up my pain
I don't know what to think anymore 💔
shiloh vibes ♥
Any fellow Virgos here?
Came here to calm my uncontrollable emotions from bursting into tears. 💯
Marcos Castillo I’m still busy putting bandages over mine ((:
really love ur content bro 🖤
nice choukeimatsu pic
This gives me sad yaoi feelings ♡
Toujours aussi relaxant
It's another one of those moods
Good homework music, drawing music, and when your feeling sad music
This was amazing
Sometimes it feels like my heart is being pulled down it hurts it makes my eyes water
Pain is something you can never run from no matter how hard you try but you can learn from it and maybe you will realize something
💔 -> ?
Your choice to choose from what you want your heart to be.......................
Happy or in pain forever
Still so nostalgic..
0:00
3:00
5:06
7:33
Workable timestamps for myself
dude....i cry
Where do you get your pics from😍
I miss you.. I miss you so much. Rest easy minnie, I love you.
There's this guy in my class, we know each other for about six months. The more our friendship grows, the more painful it gets. Today's my birthday and we are friends, so he came yesterday and slept here. The next day I thought f*ck it, so i cuddled with him in the morning… i am afraid of losing him and he's rather the quite type of guy if u know what I mean. So... I'm quite sure he knows it already (it's obvious) but I'm freaking afraid of what will come. I don't wanna lose him… because nothing can be the same right? I know it but I don't wanna hurt myself with it. He didn't refuse, so he likes me as well? It's complicated. He just left and I said stuff like "Please don't go, I'll be sad…" and I am. Just wanna let it out here. (sry if here are typos)
3:00 so nice
sadboyprolific
Pain is what makes me barely hold on it tells me im still alive and human most the time i feel numb thats why the pain is good
I hate myself sometimes knowing that if i lied like everyone else life would work better but my heart never lets me lie but my truth gets in the way of my success, i hate the decisions i make
This is awesome 👌
Sometimes I wonder if it is unhealthy to expect things to go up in flames. I just don't know why I'm trying to rebuild things from ashes.
Depression will get way worse before it gets better owo
心地よい