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- Опубліковано 4 лип 2023
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Jonathan, an ex-aryan brotherhood member in Los Angeles.
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That’s crazy my dad is on here but he’s doing better now he’s back in treatment but thank you all for saying all of these good things about him but he’s strong I know he’s gonna pull through. Love you dad
I can’t imagine how crazy it must be to see your dad on here. So happy to hear he’s back in treatment! He is strong and he is going to make it. So many people have faith in him and are rooting for him. I wish you, your dad and your whole family much success, blessings, happiness and love.
My dad died at 55 from a drug induced stroke. Was never there for us. Moms still on pills and a total mess. I know how it is. But I made something of myself and so can you brotha!
Prayers to your dad and if he see's this, don't give up on yourself bro, lots of love. As a person of color I love ya and keep moving forward in positive way's , changing those negative habits that don't serve us anymore if they ever did.
You have no idea how much you just giving him your time & understanding means to a father. I have 3 sons and when I'm down and out I may not express it well, but that's when I NEED them the most. God bless you and your family 🙏
Life asked a lot of this man. He’s answering.
It's me, Jonathan. THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH for your comments. This was posted while I was in rehab. I woke up and seen the documentary and then all the wonderful comments! It made me so much stronger to hear all the great things most of you all had to say. If your wondering if there will be an update; The answer is yes! Of course! The comments yall gave me really helped. I was completely broken. I've reached out to Mark and left a message.
JT Are you gonna make things right with the people you fucked over in Oklahoma?
Then pay me for what you stoled. You are the worst as they come. I've done nothing but good for you. Give ya a place to live ( free) gave you money, food. Clothes. Gas, you've never.not once in the years I've known you ever paid for anything..you have took my lively hood away.. I'll never get it back. If your so damn honest tell me where you sold my equipment. That's right . The first step is to make it right to the ones you done wrong. You are a monster. Do the right thing when it happens, send her body home!!!!
We’re all just winging it. Be well. Nobody has it figured out.
I can relate to you and the things you said a lot man. It's kinda frightening how much.
If this is really you….thank you. Thank you for your honesty. Thank you for fighting for abused kids and giving their abusers exactly what they deserve. I wish you the best in your recovery and your future. There’s a beast of a heart inside all of your pain. Please let that one rule. ❤
For anyone, especially a man, to be so open and honest about his shortcomings is so admirable. I hope he gets the help he needs to be better to himself and those he loves.
Men get credit for the most basic things. You have a very low bar.
I like him. Every person is valuable.
It's called brokenness.
@BeKind2AllKinds judging by your comments on here, you're a far left-ideologue who hates men. Find somewhere to spew your nonsense. Plus, the irony of someone like you saying the bar is low...
@@BeKind2AllKindsHaha coming from miss be kind 2 all kinds lol you feministic pipsqueak!
I actually know this guy, and he has come a very long way. He’s sober, kicking ass in life, and is one of the nicest people you’ll ever meet. Really proud of this dude. He’s a prime example that your history does not have to be your destiny. Sobriety and redemption is possible. Proud of you JT!
I am so happy to read this comment!! Thank you for the update. This is one of the few interviews that really stuck with me, so happy to hear he’s doing so well! So happy to hear about his success!!
JT bro it's Ty. I got mad love for you bro we were like brothers coming up. I known you 25 fucking years homie and I'll keep it real with you. Your better than what you allow yourself man. The struggle is real man I get it but with each right choice you make it gets easier and easier. Come home bro. I'll let you stay with me as long as you're sober and trying. Get your life back bro you deserve good things in life and your son deserves to have a dad. Don't give up on yourself homie. I know you got a fucking beast sleeping inside of you. Wake that fucker up and fight your way to the top. I'll fight right by your side bro. This broke my fucking heart to see this shit. Hit me up man I'll do what I can to help you bro. Big love homie
Damn, I hope he sees this!
You're a very good friend. I hope he sees this.
Everybody up vote this so he sees it
Dude, drive out there and get him before it's too late.
I hope you are able to get in contact with him and get him home one way or another!
I’ve watched a lot of Marks interviews but this one hits me differently. Jonathan makes zero excuses for his actions and blames no one but himself. I’ve never seen an interviewee who’s this honest. Jonathan, I hope you get things figured out and turned around for the better.
He’s coming down from dope bro it’s so obvious! Everything he is saying is Bs if you know you know
Well said, this one hit different for me too.
@@beachboi_lb1612bs? I’ve done dope, I know dope heads. He’s pretty sincere.
"I’ve watched a lot of Marks interviews but this one hits me differently." Why the fk is this same damn comment, said in almost the same exact way by different people on EVERY SINGLE ONE of these videos?? Trust me, he's a con artist. As a recovering addict I know how we are when actively using. We lie and we steal. If he's still using, he's still doing those things. But go ahead and be duped by him, not saying I can't appreciate the kindness you have in your heart but ppl like you are the kind of people that get preyed upon by people like him
Kind of helps that he's day 1 out of rehab too. People that have never had treatment will usually blame others.
This man's vulnerability and blunt honesty is so raw and real. I'll keep him in my prayers tonight.
Its fake and they're clowns
@@Christmas-bw8hb whats fake
“I disappoint the people I love and I just can’t get it figured out.” I wish this man the best in life and I hope he gets his life together
Jonathan, I'm a recovering heroin addict. Relapsed 2 1/2 years ago. Clean again. Don't beat yourself up. Just keep trudging forward. My son was with the skin head movement for a minute, but heroin took him down quicker. I raised my kids sober for 20 years but the oxy craze got both my sons in high school. Both clean for years now. I know it's hard. I can hear your sincerity. You have a lot to offer. Much love to you. XOXO
i’m a self employed hvac contractor in arizona … the most motivated, trustworthy and reliable coworker i ever hired was AB.. after his last stint in prison at the age of ~50ish i met him through some mutual friends and he was looking for work so he could try and have a normal life .. over a 10 year period we became very close friends, he house sat for my family numerous times, he became integrated into our lives … i have utmost respect for the men and women who turn thier lives around and become part of society .. everyone makes bad decisions and we should give the ones who want it a second and third chance… ☮️
Hopefully he sees this and reaches out to you. He’d have to move his life around I’m sure, but you may quite literally be his fork in the road. Employers like you make this world a better place
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Right on brother
Thank you for helping give a hand up out of hell/prison! Giving hope is the best gift we can give one another. Jonathan sounds like deep down he wants to get away from drugs. He can do anything if he wants too. Sending love & light to everyone ✨️ 💖✨️Blessed Be 💜
Praying for you...
Every time I watch these videos I take one big lesson away, if you’re a parent, be there, show love and compassion. Children need their parents. Lead by example.
What's a parent?
A lot of people shouldn't be parents! How can you lead by example for your child when the example that you're "leading" is destruction? These individuals were never leaders let alone a guardian to anybody.
@@disguiseddv8ant486 What can we do? ... nothing. China was onto something with limited offspring. Now we need to step it up even more with another system. We are animals that can think, but only sometimes do we really think accordingly.
You cant blame your mother and father. Noone is perfect so we must all understand, lead with love and forgive. Even the best of intentions may falter.
As someone who basically grew up without parents from 12 on - until then I had fairly normal, very happy life - I used to think I had everything figured out and I didn’t need adults because I thought I was an adult at 14. After making a job out of studying successful people throughout history and in my life, as well as analyzing my own life I can say with certainty that the biggest single predictor for success in life is a strong family and good parenting.
I can also tell you having lived in many places abroad that the rat race and the mindset in the USA has successfully destroyed our families over the last 50 years.
Both parents are forced to work, unless you’re wealthy enough to have one stay at home, meaning children are raised by the government in schools, which is why kids are turning out more and more confused as the generations go by. My generation was still relatively normal (early 80s kid), but each successive generation I have seen is more and more disconnected and confused. If we want a strong society we need strong families. You hit the nail on the head. God bless!
I am African American, and this interview still touched me. I have not been to prison but I understand that it seems that you have to stick with your race to survive. It’s fucked but that’s the world we live in…hoping he finds the light at the end of the tunnel…I appreciate his accountability and he seems like a decent man that can’t get out of his own way. Life is cruel sometimes..
Lol yes massa
@@HatchetHarry12 Your stupid and are part of the problem if thats your attitude.
@@HatchetHarry12🤓🤓
Yes, race is very important.
Did you touch you the same way your uncle touched you ?
PTSD, years of drug abuse, and inprisonment has done a number on this man's executive functioning abilities. He has minimal supports, no money, and is saying hes at rock bottom. He needs support and alot of it.
Maybe the support can come from you. Maybe open your home, give him a job.
@@danpress7745 I live in Australia...
300 yrs should have been enough
lol I been through worse.
@@gSWG3R Australia? How Ironic, isn't that place built off of the blood, sweat, and tears of convicted criminals lol. Australia is this man's only chance, he will be understood.
It’s 4am in Los Angeles and I can’t sleep so I’m watching SWU again with tears rolling down my face because this man touched my heart with his story and vulnerability. Normally I would be scared of a dude like this because AB would slaughter my gay Jewish ass in a heartbeat, but I related to all of the emotions he described, and want him to get the help he so desperately deserves as a human with dreams. You’re not a piece of crap Jonathan!! You’re struggling with depression and PTSD. Sobriety is so difficult to navigate and achieve when there’s untreated mental health issues going on. I’m currently struggling with addiction, depression, and PTSD as well and it’s not your fault sir. It’s the perfect storm for disaster. Please keep trying!!!! Not only for your children, and girlfriend, but so you can heal from your open wounds of the soul that need healing. I’m sending you strength, courage, and love.
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Great comment!🙌
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What's it like living in Los Angeles,?
🤣🤣🤦♂️hell naw
Man, the outpouring of love and support on this channel for the people baring their souls and stories for us to see gives me hope for humanity in my heart. Keep fighting to find that light Johnathan, you deserve love, peace, and goodness as much as any and everyone drawing breath today brother. There’s folks praying and rooting for you partner
A man that does admit his failures can never be total failure himself.
This man is sincere and honest, and it’s refreshing to hear someone speak directly from their heart. Thank you Mark I also Interview on this channel former sicarios take a look brother , superb channel Mark keep up the good work.
Don't fucking believe it. I know.
“Nobody’s word is good anymore” only been out a short while and he realizes this already. I wish him all the best. If you read this just know that you are strong enough to conquer this and anything else you encounter on your path. You are intelligent and I know you will make your life successful. You can break the chain, you don’t have to continue the cycle.
Thank You
@@dustinf49 of course you are so welcome! Praying for you! I know you will make it! Please keep us updated. Take care and God Bless.
@@a-love510 Thank you again
So true, lol
That CHOMO story hit me in the feels. As a father of four I commend you for that alone sir. I can’t imagine beating someone relentlessly like that or killing anyone…but for that, I would do anything for my children.
@@YuYu-we2ysno one said he was a "good" man, but he did a good thing. And he didnt say the gang made him beat the chomo. I think most people with a spine would do the same thing.
"..in the penitentiary system they tend to protect chomo's for some reason, so if you touch'em, you get street charges.."
FUBAR.
@@mindquad779" And he didnt say the gang made him beat the chomo. "
- If you're "clicked" up, you have to. At least in the CDC, if you are caught with in reach of a chomo, and you don't take flight on him, you WILL get taxed (reprecussions).
disgusting that you commend vigilatism. Who is to say his contact didn't just pass on false information?
@@MonsieurKaizerThey don't go based of "contact info", if you paid attention to this interview you hear that they base it off their "paperwork", i.e. what the court system has charged them with.
Make sure you never end up in prison or a war if you hate vigilantism so much, because you WILL participate in it if you do.
My heart goes out to this brother. I have a very similar story. Difference is that I don’t cover my tattoos up. I am in recovery (by the grace of God) and happy to be alive and clean. I’m 54 yo now and was a Skinhead for decades of my life. Some bad shit happened to me as a kid and I hated the world for a long time. That hatred made me violent and fighting kept away and safe. It wasn’t long before I found drugs and alcohol to escape my reality. All that shit is behind me now and my life has become so much better. I pray this man finds happiness.
Nobody cares asshole 😂
I’m asking this out of genuine curiosity because I just recently found out my girlfriend’s father used to associate with the brotherhood. What makes a person want to align themselves with those kinds of beliefs and values?
Hey man,I did ten years and got addicted to meth for countless years.I finally hit a wall at a 1000mph and finally got a job and got off drugs.Things are way better for me.I don't feel as hopeless and some days are still dark for me mentally, but I shake it off and stay sober.Much luck to you on your journey. Don't give up.
Right on man
Keep up the good work your the man!
Good job, brother!
You hit a wall going 1000mph? WTF.
The more time you put in between yourself and your last use, the easier it gets.
I've watched a few dozen of these videos over the years, but for some reason, Jonathan and his story and where he's at right now just really hit home. Hope he pulls through and does well.
I’m pulling for this dude. I was in a similar situation, so I understand the pain in his voice. 🙏
In the meantime.. 😮
I stopped what I was doing and said a prayer for this man. 99% of the time in interviews like this, people on here making excuse after excuse on why things happen to them. This guy took full accountability for everything. God bless you brother! There are people out here that you may never meet that are praying for you. 🙏🏽
Amen!🙏✝️🙏
we should all be praying for guys like this. Lord have mercy on us all ☦️
@@areyoutheregoditsmedaveAmen man, Lord have mercy on us sinners.
I'll add him to my prayers tonight. I've been sober two years and I hope anyone that has it in them to step off the carousel, does. His kids deserve a Father and there's one in him somewhere.
God Loves You Bro. God Is The Only Answer. I will Pray For You. Don't Look To Men..Look To God.
Jonathan has touched my heart too. The way he uses his words, expresses emotion, & even shows a dark scene of humor at points… he could use his experiences to write television or movies. He has a way of connecting with humanity on a large scale
Hope this man’s path to recovery is found soon and followed vigorously. Praying for you man.
He looks lost😢
Yeah at the end of the interview, he says he's not too spiritual but he's going to pray, but he doesn't know who to pray to. He needs to call upon the Lord Jesus Christ. God will have mercy on him when he just believes on Jesus Christ for eternal life. John 6:47. John 11:25-26. 1 John 5:13. He doesn't need to change. All he needs to do is say yes to God by believing on the Son of God Jesus Christ.
@@AboutThatLIFE207What she did was a lot better than being an ugly troll like you
@@AboutThatLIFE207sounds crazy to you little boy but some of us really wish the best for others
@@AboutThatLIFE207Yup. Sure did. And now, one for you. 🙏❤️
Watching Mark's videos with the different people who he talks to, never ceases to amaze how honest they are. Most of them bare their souls just chatting. Mark is a brilliant interviewer, he'll ask a question and they'll just talk and talk. It's raw and honest and for the most part very humbling to the viewer
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Not all of them I’m afraid. I agree though that this guy is straight up.
I'm a black man from Chicago.
With that being said, I hope and pray that this man finds peace. 🙏
This was the most down to earth and realistic sit down conversation I think that I’ve heard in a very long time. I can relate to the personality and the downfalls. Good video.
Literally the best interview in my opinion this man is completely aware of his wrong doing and really wants the help
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He’s a fucking dope fiend liar, he was never an ab shot caller🤣
stay strong, brother. believe in yourself like your kids believe in you. You are capable of great things 💪🏽
Dude, I got mad respect for you! My story isn't exactly like yours, but there's a lot more similarities than differences.
As long as you have breath in your lungs, you have hope. Never give up, your family and kids need you more than you know. Thanks for sharing your story man. You made my day.
I think the honesty and openness really brought tears to my eyes. “I’m broken” really hit hard. Damn.
I have worked in psychiatry for 30 years. This is all trauma. The most important lesson that I have learned is That every child should be so incredibly wanted before they are born. Many people to love them and many resources before they are brought into this world.
*Thank you.*
What the hell is wrong with u man
Yea, I knew it the second he said he had a great child hood but was raised by his granny's.
I know what he meant by it, but I know that that's where all this started.
I've seen it plenty a time with why+3 boys (and others).
@MR-backup I think grannys raising kids is a constant in the broken parts of every race.
You see it in the trailer parks, the ghetto, and the Barrios. A little less in the Barrios because they are so insanely family oriented, but still common.
I actually worry for the Black community for that reason... there's fewer and fewer grannys who are righteous, good women who don't engage in any toxic lifestyle. The gen-X grannys are NOT like the golden generation grannys and the millenial Grannys are gonna be even worse in the next 20 years. I don't know what will happen when the cornerstone of a lot of poor black communities, the Black grandmother, basically goes away.
@@Silence-and-Violence *Oh, shut up.*
You have so much more life to live, Jonathan. Please don't shame yourself for your addiction and past choices. Life doesn't have to hurt. You are deserving of a good life. Keep fighting, take small steps forward & accept help and support. Prioritize yourself and healing from the inside out. I lost my brother from a fentanyl overdose last year. He was in a dark place.. similar to you. Don't give up, please. You are loved.
You can't go to Cali prison and try know anything of the oaklahoma AB. It ain't recognised and they Gunna more then smash on you bro. You need stay out at all costs.
so sorry about your brother.
@@dleyba3199 thank you 🤍
If he is indeed being sincere, and not manipulative, ive got to say I admire this man's honesty and humanity. Being brave enough to be vulnerable is not easy for a man, and he did it for the world to see. May God one day bless him with peace, he's been through some shit.
The community here is downright….AWESOME. So many encouraging comments and heartfelt messages..♥️
The people who actually love you will be disappointed but they will still love you. That's how you can tell who really means it.
Trust me you're on your own
You can't tell anyone shit these days. I know 💯
@@Pepespizzeria1There are always times we’ll be in our own but those times don’t last. ❤
@@jladams85Each of us are responsible to protect our own hearts. By choosing who who we run with and what we share with them.
And, the pain that loved ones feel.
Honestly wish this guy all the best,
This guy needs a real sponsor 24/7 and he needs time to find the happiness in life he has lost. I pray he finds hope and keeps pushing forward.
Mark, yet another interview that has made me empathetic toward someone I likely wouldn't have bothered to feel empathy for. I think you're building bridges between people like me that want to help, and those that need help. I really don't see what 'help' would look like, but things do seem clearer than ever (for me anyway). Which is progress. (Thank you Jonathan, for sharing)
You are helping by having an open mind and heart......We all need to appreciate one another.
This man has incredible self awareness. I hope he can use that to take advantage of doing the rehab and getting better. Rooting for you Jonathan.
I did time in prison with Jonathan. He was my best friend in there. I’ve been trying to help him every since he got out. Everything he said was the truth.
Tell me how he flooded a cell up to his knees?
Why is he calling it a patch like it's a MC?
Why was he SNY since sex offenders automatically go to SNY?
Bullshit, he's such a liar..
@@somewelderthey all don't go to sny
@@somewelderGood questions. Inquiring minds want to know. 🤔
I wish him the best.
Hang in there man. You're a man of great value and worth. I understand the self sabotage. Been in the same boat most'a my life. It's obvious that you love your kids and it's clear you recognize your weaknesses. Use what you have and know to help inspire your change. The more you do the easier it becomes. You can do it. Your creator has seen you thru your entire life and always will. He never turns His back on us, it's us that do the turning. We're all pulling for you hoss.!!
I’d love to see a follow up with him. Hope he’s doing better. Always happy to see someone open up like that and be vulnerable.
I feel like this interview was shot at a critical point in this man's life. He just relapsed, and spent a night on skid row. Sometimes these times that we think are the worst times in our life are the biggest building blocks to who we are today. This man needs something to keep his mind occupied, and have a goal/vision of what he wants his life to be like. I hope he gets the help he needs. The one good thing about being at rock bottom is there's only one way to go, and that's UP!!!
-Sing Mouse
Rock bottom is a great place to build a firm foundation
While I heavily agree with your sentiment, that low points can be really pivotal moments, sometimes a bottom is a false bottom, it can always get worse if you don’t recognize it as a pivotal moment.
That white supremacy sure is working for him huh
Nope, not him.
Jonathan is dead wrong about one thing. He said that life isn’t hard. Live is VERY hard, and for most of us out here just trying to get by everyday we are just one misstep away from a complete downward spiral. Jonathan was on that spiral since day #1 because of circumstances that were not in his control. Someone needs to teach this man how to forgive himself for being human, and also what a big world full of opportunities and wonderful people there is outside of his bubble. There is plenty of opportunity for him to get his life straight, and the prison system as it exists currently is NOT the answer.
Life is what you make it to be, if it is hard there is a reason for that, you. What spiral was he on from day 1? he was brought up by his grandparents and had a good childhood, only spiral was doing drugs at 16, that is a personal choice, he had the opportunity not to do it but chose to, what circumstances was he not in control of? self control would be my guess, it's easy to do drugs and its easy not to, your choice, choose your path wisely.
Life is hard. It's even harder if you're stupid.
John Wayne
@@rephaimog4186😂
@@thebob3712life is hard af I don’t know what your smoking lol
@@nicolesawyer7117 read the above comment, if your life is hard af maybe you are too stupid for it not to be. My life is easy
Hang in there. Much respect. My son was in your shoes. I lost him at 38 yrs old to an OD after being out for 3 yrs.
I couldn’t do anything but respect his honesty and I’m a black man
This guy reminds me of some of the youth that I worked with that were troubled teens. So many guys like this in communities all over America. He still has a chance to come back up. He has to learn how to care more about himself and his family and humble himself. ✌🏾to you.
SWU should be compulsory viewing in schools. These interviews are priceless and contain incredible insight. Another good human, dealt a bad hand and not awarded the tools to help himself in his earliest years. I wish him all the best
You're right, it really should be required viewing for kids
they should have an entire class on this show, and watch videos everyday
The interview doesn't do anything for anyone except those who decide to be good to others because of it. You can't help anyone out of depression by telling them not to be depressed. Once you're depressed, this is all inevitable.
@@brettbanta210022
it's a good idea but there's too many triggers, you have to be 18 to watch these videos
I’m from Chickasha Oklahoma and I hope this dude makes it out and gets better. I’m routing for him
Shit man, I feel for this guy. I've been down a lot of bad roads and am lucky enough to have gotten my life on track but I know how it feels to be your own worst enemy. I hope he figures it out
How can I help this guy?? I am a recovering addict and this guy touched my heart.
The opportunities to help are endless, and we never know who is watching and listening as we go about our daily lives. That's why it is so important to actually work a program of recovery. In doing so, we can present the best versions of ourselves to others. I can't help anyone, if my own house is not in order. Your desire to help Chelsea, is a huge part of sobriety, and I wish you all the best! My mantra is, "Live in the problem, or live in the solution". Simple!...Mark
He has a go fund me in the description
@@morehn mark my words, he will get to you people al . He is incourgable
..don't say o didn't earn you.. oh.o.did like the part where he called his own mom a whore.
Jonathan ! If you happen to read his I hope life has been treating you good my man, you seem like a very self aware, rad guy. I listened to your story today and struggle with addiction myself, only hoping the best for you while we live in this mad world. ❤️
This made me sad. I empathize with this guy because I've been there. Not the prison (although I tried very hard to get there), but the feelings of hopelessness. It may seem bleak, but your situation can and will get better.
I agree! Take one step literally at a time. One foot in front of the other. It’s a start…
He seems like a very decent man. If you read this, Jonathan, I feel like you have this defeatist mentality which is holding you down. You’re a young man and seem healthy. You can dig your out of this temporary rut. You can do it. I’m rooting for you.
Yeah, hell do it the rest of his life in prison.
lol he’s a part of the brotherhood there’s no such thing as a decent brother
Sometimes you feel like you were born without something that eveyone else seems to have.
@MetalRush666 You found words to describe an emotion I’ve felt since I was cognizant. Since I can remember
From one Okie to another, I hope you get better Jonathan and always believe in yourself.
I watched half of this a few months ago and just watched the other half today. It was a lot to take in. Very relatable. I put myself through 4 rehabs and was there voluntary while the majority were prisoners contracted to do a program. Jonathan reminds me a lot of folks I was there with. I wish him the best. Addiction is ruthless.
We need more of this type of honesty in our society. This is how we can understand each other better. Great interview!!!
This is not honesty. He is a master manipulator. THIEF
@@RhondaBray what 😂
@@arbobs ??
Bullshit, I know him..pull the ficking animal out of yourself and tuffen up.. it's his tactic..if only you knew him.
You got this bro, believe in yourself, make it happen
“Nobody’s word is good anymore”
Amen Brother.
Especially his word. Ain't worth a shit!
From one addict to another you’re not tired yet when you make that change is when you’re tired of it right now you’re feeling sorry for yourself YOU GOT THIS BROTHER!! STAND THE FUCK UP CHIN UP AND MAKE A WAY IM PRAYING FOR YOU BROTHER MUCH LOVE AND RESPECT FROM INDIANA
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This guy has the potential to change and he wants it so bad. God please protect this man and lead him back to his children, sober and with clarity and strength. Lead him to being the father and man he wants to be. Amen.
Amen
Amen
I don’t think you know that you are truly an amazing person. I feel Nothing but good vibes when I see your video and you take responsibility for everything in your life & life is hard very hard and some things are out of our control. Just do the best you can stay
humble and honest .My dad used to say we all get a deca-cards in life and we got to learn how to play them the best we can some people just know how to play them better than others don’t give up this Mexican girl-praying for you❤
The realist interview to date . Honest no excuses humble .. blessings brother
Jonathan. My suggestion: Get in a good recovery halfway house where you can live and go to meetings. Focus solely on your recovery, make the main thing the main thing. Get a sponsor. Follow simple suggestions at the meetings, they work. At the beginning of my recovery it was easy for me to worry about all of these things that I thought I needed to be doing but the truth was if I wasn’t alive it didn’t matter about those things because I wouldn’t be here anymore so I threw myself into recovery. I have about 7 1/2 years clean now and I couldn’t imagine my life any other way. You can do this, you can change your life, I promise you it’s 1,000,000% possible. If no one has told you they love you today, I do. Jim K. 12-28-15
I hope he can read your comment, it's so inspiring and beautiful 🙌
I was always to lazy to get the sponsor. That might have been the key. I’m doing alright though
@@lucasvarela9632 I can’t speak for anyone but me, but having a sponsor is absolutely crucial to my recovery. One thing that has kept me clean is following simple suggestions in recovery whether I want to do them or not. It gets me out of myself and gives me an opportunity to grow.
One of the most genuine interviews I've see in a while. Good luck brother, I call you brother because you covered those tattoos.👊
Thanks man. He’ll need some words of encouragement after doing so. It’s a really hard thing to do. Believe me. Even tho it’s the right thing to do it feels so wrong. Even when you know it’s all bs.
Don't fall for it
@@darrellmcguire107 I'm genuinely interested to hear why you say that?
@@darrellmcguire107why
@@patmassey89 because I've tried to help him for years. Giving him a place to live, food,money. All the tools to work with to be a working citezin then he and his girlfriend sets me up for my good deed.had me arrested for several charges started with assault and batt. Then jailed . Thousand of dollars to get out. Thousands of dollars for lawyer. And now looking at 25 years for prison. While in jail they rented a U-Haul and took hundreds of thousands of dollars in tool and equipment in shop. Titles,deeds, and paper work to file power of atty to claim my life. Then loaded my fifth wheel to take it. But I bonded out before they left with it.lived in my house for a week before I got out. Sold my cloths and anything of value I had over 250,000 dollars lost. Took a life time to get. I'm 61 and I'll never recouperate what I lost. And probly spend the rest of my life in prison. So, to say I ask why. I've talked to many,many people he has done the same thing to. His enterveiw looks fake. Instead of bragging about his lies, he should be saying to his victims I'm sorry let me make it right. So there's your answer.
Being this honest with others and yourself is incredible. You’ll get there bud! I’m an alcoholic and go through the shit too. One day at a time.
😔 One of the Most authentic Interviews. I think the worst Thing is knowing what your Problem is, knowing what to do, but Not be able too. The Level of self Sabotage is huge and so hard to overcome. Even knowing rationaly you deserve better, you are Not a Bad Person, you still CAN'T feel this reality and BAM you so the Same Shit again. I Hope He can get on His Feed and stay Clean at some point
Can’t be any more real than this. Takes a real man to sit there and speak from the heart I wish you all the best brother. Please do a follow up on this best interview iv seen in a long time.
Nope, takes a skilled pathological liar like him. You don't know him. Smarting up. Why? I know him.
Bullshit, don't believe him. He will not change.
One of my better friends had ties with them in prison and his opinion was that it made his life worse and made him a crazy person. I digress he made the change and now is a hell of a guy. He has actually told kids what the tattoos mean and he wont get them removed because he feels he needs to own it and educate others on hate. Pretty cool dude.
Hope this cat finds his way. Sincerely.
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I can say that life is hard. Even for us who are maybe doing a bit better at it. It's an obstacle course and I think that it takes some decision-making skills to navigate it. And if you've had a rough start at life, and don't have anyone there to help you through it and guide you to gain these skills it makes it that much harder. I really hope things work out for him. I'm cheering him on!
Even when high on drugs....he is in despair and cannot escape this hell he keeps going back to...gives hope that he is tired of being down and can finally get up. Bless your child. Oh Lord!
Jonathon, thank you for your interview. It takes a lot of strength to be honest about your life. Especially when you’re talking about your shortcomings. I believe you have some good qualities but you make bad choices. Your life is only going to change when you stop and think about what will happen when you make a choice. It takes a Lot of courage and commitment to change. It won’t be easy. At first, it will probably be one of the hardest things you’ve ever done. Every time you get knocked down, you have to choose to do the right thing.
The world isn’t going to look better until you surround yourself with good people. If you go swimming in the sewer, what will the world look like? Not the same as swimming in a lake or pool.
I’m saying a prayer for you and your loved ones.
I’m sending a big grandma hug from Michigan 🙏❤
I hope we’ll get to hear from you again telling us about your new life.
Normally I feel little sympathy or empathy for most addicts with kids on this channel, but this guy kept it 100% real and blamed nobody but himself and genuinely feels horrible for what he's put his kids through and does seem to want to do better.
Fuck no he doesn't. Why? I know him. Been on his trail for 4 months
@@darrellmcguire107 interesting...
@@jsoo67 very interesting.... He's hiding from his arrest warrants in Oklahoma.
@@darrellmcguire107 On his trail? like you know him? from where?
@@sgonzo5572known him 4 years. Oklahoma city..he lived in my house. He costed me 250,000 just what he stoled in equipment. 20,000. In bail bond and lawyer. I'm looking at 25 years in prison. I know that FAKE RAT.
My heart breaks for this guy. Hope he gets his life together.
My childhood buddy just got out last week after 19 cals and he's going thru the same thing. Same situation. I'm praying he can stay clean bc the booze and drugs got him there. He's a good hard working dude and did alot in prison to get better. He covered too and checked in so they wouldn't put him a situation that would add to his time again bc he deserved to leave ....19yrs. He is ashamed of the tats he hasn't covered up yet. Sad
Dude's an introspective guy. Respect to him for that. Been through thick n thin and still marching on. Hope he finds peace within himself and peace with life.
This dude is so relatable… honestly touched me with this interview mark
I'm so impressed by this channel. It comes across completely unfiltered. Genuinely raw yet digestible.
As someone who values life experience your channel feels like an incredible sampling of life-paths and beings.
Thank you so much and my compliments on the excellent choice of guests.
I’m from Oklahoma and he reminds me of the people I’ve come across growing up. Honest and genuine. Take it or leave it. But he didn’t tell no lies. And I pray his life gets better. I was there before and God is real. He got you 🙏💙
Jonathan: I was born and raised in Oklahoma. I went through both meth and opiate addiction. I went to prison in Oklahoma, I know what it is like. You know sobriety. You had 30 days just turn around and run back to sobriety. It is simple or hard as you make it. Get the hell out of there. Go home and go to a meeting. God is with you. Be the person you know is in there. Baby steps...I pray healing and change into your life. If there is any way that I could send him an email. It doesn't have to be direct. or just let him read this please let him know that I am praying and that I know there is a reason I watched this video today. ( I was on a soft white under belly hiatus bc of being an empath) Keep your head up Jonathan and find yourself
I have been there done that...And you are so uplifting and positive...Thank you for sharing
@@TJS645 Thank you for going out of your way to lift up my day!
Cool 😮
You deserve better, Jonathan--believe it! Thanks for posting!
Please stay sober! Praying for you and your family.🙏 Peace.
I feel like this interview gave him the opportunity to be honest and actually voice his struggles perhaps for the first time in his life out loud. This might help him tremendously.
Nope. Just ran out of victims and looking forore.. why? I know him.
Billy (ex-convict) who's been on SWU 2 times now, would be Jonathan's perfect mentor. Thanks for your sincere honesty, Jonathan.
I’ve watched so many of these. This one hit me man.
Thanks for sharing 🙏🏾
Prayers out for Johnathan and his loved ones 🕊️
My god. I thought my life was bad and going in the wrong direction. This dude makes my life look like a fairy tale.
Oh, I know...I've watched so many of these videos and I feel the same thing about every single one of them.
There is a lot of pure honesty in this....thank you.
Watching you be so honest and open hit my heart. I would love to hug you and help you.
Run, don’t walk, back to the treatment center! I been in your shoes and have slipped too. I’m 8+ years clean now and I promise you this, you can recover. I pray for this man to hear Gods voice of love and understanding
Hes run too many times to count 😂
Jonathon if you’re reading this. You have never committed any universal crime. You are universally and unconditionally loved brother.
Aryan brother
What would you consider a universal crime
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By fucking who? Trampy ass girlfriend .
I wish I was in a position to help this man. He is showing that he deserves forgiveness and a fresh start.
This cat right here will help save millions of young lives through guidance and testimony if he can survive. The last time I left prison I found a calling. There is a certain type of youngster that will only listen to someone who's truly been down through there and earned that respect. I wish him well. Nice to see another statistical anomaly like myself still rockin' it'll get better brother. Just keep putting 1 foot in front of the other
My prayers are with this man. Good luck to you, Sir.
EMDR therapy. I cannot say it enough times or loud enough. For anyone who is struggling with something that they can't seem to fix. Sending love.
We use to call them, 30 day spin-drys. Not enough time for recovery!
Six months to a year gives you a better chance, in-house.
That made me have the happiest bittersweet moment. Reminds me identically of a close brother from another mother. Thanks so much for sharing