Ex-Cartel Hit Man and Drug Smuggler-El Gordo
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- Опубліковано 26 вер 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of El Gordo, a former cartel hit man and drug smuggler in Los Angeles.
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If you dont hear the little kid in him that is screaming for his mothers love. You have missed a big point to fully understand this interview. The horrible things he did will never go away but it sheds some light on how untreated trauma will lead a human to become an unimaginable person. I wish him the best because its hard for people that have gone through so much trauma in addition to he drugs/alcohol abuse.
I hear the people screaming and crying for their lives right before he murdered them.
@@tcl5853 should prolly get that checked out
He's a fake
@@GotchaBih163I was speculating , he dropped some pretty big names ......
Bunch of judgmental fucks to be honest.
When that man said " why did you sell me for a beer?, is that what I'm worth to you?"
Broke my heart. I've got an 11month old . Always love and protect your children and family.
No matter what, show them how special they are to be in your life!
Mine too. 😢
I fill for this dude and I would never be able to hang with him cos all you young kids ain't got a brain to change I was raised to be racist but I'm smart enough to know what's right and what's wrong amen young man I hope the best for you brother hang in there don't keep dragging up the shit you did what you had to it's our systems fault not yours 1 love bro
This channel really fell off huh. I guess it happens to everyone sooner or later
I knew mother who sold her daughter for a few candies life is brutal
Mannnn 😢😢😢😢
All he needed was his mother’s love!!! You could really see his heartbreak. Prayers to him and all the victims involved.
Great interview Mark!!!! Huge fan of your work.
Needed a lot more than his mothers love. 2 parents on drugs in a highly impoverished neighborhood of socal is a recipe for disaster.
@@mattbrown1773 maybe, but he did say that his mom not showing up was his heartbreak and he just didn’t care after that. If she would have put more effort and showed him her love towards him, the circumstances could have been different.
Interview ? Mark only questioned him like 4 times
@@XXXAVIERXXX69 whatever you want to call it. It takes courage to tell your story for millions of people to hear, and for Mark it takes very hard work, a lot of time editing, equipment, and a lot of effort to have over 5 million followers and people like you admiring his work and watching him ask people “4 questions” to tell their story.
Yes, the devastation of growing up without your mother. His hroat sounds like it is actually hurting from the pain of longing for his mother's love 😢😢😢
Takes a "MAN" to open up like this. Regardless of his past, he shows he's still human in his heart because of the ongoing trauma he still deals with till this day. Great interview.
These aren’t men. These are losers who wasted their life and contribute nothing to a meaningful society.
Still a dirtbag.
This story is so heartbreaking. You can hear the trauma in his voice immediately. His body language shows all the stress and tension from the life he's had. I just want to give this man a hug. Regardless of the crimes he's committed, this man deserves to be loved. Had he just been loved by his mother, he may have never gone down that path. So sad man. I wish him the best
and he become a monster?and that is excuse to do that?he is not only one that grown up without mother and father,but they are today normal people,not mosters like this guy
@@marinn778Trauma affects people in MANY different ways. You have no idea of who people grow into & if they become “normal”. Who are you to judge anyway?
@@ShesFromVenus who i m to judge? i m guy who never killed anybody.i didnt do monstrous things to other people.
i think that makes me better person than him and more relevant to talk about good and evil.
he is not only one that had trauma,there are countless number of them,but they are not going around and cutting peoples hands,arms,throats,killing them like animals...
@@marinn778It seems like a chemical imbalance in his brain since he was born addicted to drugs however I tend to agree with you. Many people grew up with trauma and didn't do evil things to other people. It is hard for me to understand but I also try not to judge someone else without walking a mile in their shoes. I guess I see both sides but either way it is horrific. 😢
@@marinn778it’s different in Mexico. He did what he did to survive he’s still young glad he can turn his life around. And at least he wasn’t hurting innocent ones.
What's crazy to me is that the man saw live decapitation and talks about it without blinking. Yet when he brings up a memory of him having the first real conversation with his mother he tears up. This in itself is the most powerful thing to me. This is the archetype of a good soul given bad hand. Hope he's doing well
wtf. No it's a whiny narcissistic POS that somehow justifies murder by crying about his mom.
wtf is actually wrong with you that you think that he's a "good soul"? Brain damage?
I found that particularly interesting as well. He can barely keep it together when he’s reminded of his mother, but talks about death and murder like it’s nothing.
@@jeffhenderson1778lol what drugs do you think hes on?
@@jeffhenderson1778 No relevance... whatsoever.
@@ewetn1why do you laugh as if it isn't blatantly obvious?
Luis, man if you ever see this, I cannot erase your past but just know that there are ppl out there who want you to succeed and live a safe life. Thank you for having the courage to share this. As a single father of a 12 yr old boy who has a similar "mom", it didn't take long for this video to hit home for me. I wish you well man! Don't ever give up! Much love man!
I dont i want him to rot in prison
@@Kellog888why?
@@Kellog888 i want you to face every consequence for every bad thing you’ve ever done as well then
@@JDz-c5icause he’s a decent human, unlike yourself
Bruh I feel bad for his upbringing but this asshole killed ruthlessly
I love how quiet the room gets when someone speaks with substance. Literally the best episodes make themselves
Beautifully said man
@@Nishinga. Man I agree. Was thinking of what to comment to @InjunMoJoe but you said it best !
El Gordo, my mom abandoned me too. We are better off without them because they are not good people. We are worthy of love, nurturing, and care. You are not alone. Reparenting and self care is something that helps me yet abandonment trauma is a life long struggle. I wish you peace, love, and safety moving forward. Vaya con Dios
Except he abandoned his own child. Only spoke about them for about a second. He's smart enough and been through enough to know he's doing the same thing to someone else.
eat a PIEDRA@@OOKIEDOKIE
@@OOKIEDOKIEit’s truly maddening how people choose to continue the cycle. It’s really hard to fathom and understand. Even when they are in the moment, telling their story… crying… why is there never an epiphany as to what they’ve done and the cycle they’ve chosen to continue? They should be running off set to go and get their child
well said, thats the truth, it makes you a better father though I bet
Vaya con Dios indeed
You can tell he really needed to get that first part out and talk about it out loud for once. You do a great thing mark. These stories are so important. It’s sad to see how they never had a chance as a kid and what paths they were forced to take to escape broken homes, addiction, and abuse.
i know this foo personally. he used to us brewskies when me and the homies were younger cause we let him keep the change. firme ass vato but his street cred and this while story is definitely fraudulent
@@busted1396 okay.. what part of this story is "fraudulent"? because he sure comes across as genuine here.
@busted1396 what did he lie about?
@@angelaranda8899as if he’s gonna say it over the internet 🤣 he knew that man personally i don’t think he’d just be telling his true story for shits and giggles
I feel like it would be easier to be a drug smuggler if you don't look like central casting drug smuggler. Call me crazy
Man, I never thought I’d want to hug a cartel hitman, but this man just needs some love. 😢
❤
Feeling the same
I said the same thing and wasn’t even halfway through the interview.
Right? It really gives some perspective. I hope this man makes the best of the rest of his life. It's sad for those born in or joined into the Cartel because they have no other choices. And then become totally desensitized to what they have to do.
He is not, anyone who knows anything about the Mexican cartels knows that all their information was wrong and mixed, like a teenager who read too much on the Internet and does not understand how it works.
The indescribable pain he feels about his mother is so deep.
I would probably be pretty messed up myself if I was born with drugs in my system and then sold for a beer. That would mess anybody up poor guy! He is totally detached from his feelings except for wanting to have a mother son bond.. I think I would be an emotional wreck.
Praying for this guy.
It’s hilarious how half of these dumbasses on this video are believing this tweaker smh 🤦🏻♂️🤣🤣
This guy is clearly bullshitting: he worked for chino anthrax and his hit squad was part of the Beltran-Levya cartel??? Anyone half-informed about the cartels would know that they’re enemies.
The interviewer really out here spreading misinformation w/ this fake ass tweaker, along w/ these dumbasses falling for it🤦🏻♂️🤦🏻♂️🤣🤣🤣
I’m an American, and these typical dumbass Americans give us a bad name, Christ…😂
The most hardest, hurtful thing that I heard in this interview is at 14:01! If you don’t know what that sound is, it’s called eating pain and swallowing it, but it’s so dry that you have to force it down to your stomach.
While I’m sure he has done some unimaginable things in his lifetime, it’s hard not to see that heartbroken 4 year old little boy telling this story.
100%
Pain pulls downward
When he said his mom sold him for a beer 😢 my heart broke for him.
his timeline doesn’t make sense lmao he’s just a fucking crackhead😂
YOU MADE IT THROUGH, against all odds and despite not receiving the love you deserved to have as a young man, you came through Hell...HELP OTHERS WITH YOUR STORY. BE THE BEST DAMN ELECTRICIAN YOU CAN. and write that book!!!
This guy has me in tears. Thank you for sharing hermano. I'm from East L.A. i know a lot of people with similiar stories, with the exception of not being scared to be vulnerable talking about it.
Could be making it all up as well.
@@olecranonrebellion9976wtf would be the motive or benefit from that? 🙄
@olecranonrebellion9976 a man with this kind of past typically isn't making a damn thing up. Not at this point in time.
@@tron.44really? I've been to prison with tons of Pieces of Shit that lied. It's what humans do. It's the ones you know nothing about that do this. It's already hard enough to get away with crimes with out a statute of limitations.
@sammiekablammie fooling people like you.
25 minutes into the story and I’m already at the edge of my seat. 25 minutes in and my heart is so broken for this man. I feel even more heart broken because I have a son too and as a mother my love for my son is out of this universe!!! Every child deserves love from their parents. Praying for this man’s healing & happiness.
Too bad if you knew how the cartels work and have cousins n uncles in it and alot of family in mexico you would know this guy is lying hes not the only one that lies for clout they exposed some other guy that was talking like him saying he also worked with the military using drones and all going into mansions taking millions and cars and jewelry and it was all a lie cause people who actually knew the life and people he was talking about it turns out he was lying you can easily tell when someone lies let me tell you something a real hitman for the cartel like el chino they don't talk like this guy this guy talks like he watches alot of youtube and watches alot of beheading videos by the cartel and they think they lived that life
you're an extraordinary woman and mother🥲💛
Poor baby 😢
Nothing worse than having a loveless mother.
@@IllbeaMarinetillthedayidie how do u know lol
My little boy is 2 years old, and I'd climb mountains for him, till death. I can't imagine this type of pain and hurt he felt from his mom. God bless this man, and his troubled life.
The most hardest, hurtful thing that I heard in this interview is at 14:01! If you don’t know what that sound is, it’s called eating pain and swallowing it, but it’s so dry that you have to force it down to your stomach.
@@rickybrown7687😢💔🥺
How difficult it is to bare your soul to a camera and come completely vulnerable with it. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It has to be hard.
he’s lying bruh😂
@@spurdosparde9487 😱 why do you say that?
@@deena7155 he said he worked for chino and then beltran that shit doesn’t even makes sense if they were fighting each other,
I can't even tell one person imagine to the world to see I'll probably have a panic attack😂
@@spurdosparde9487but how you just gonna say he lying things could’ve been different he was a cartel hitman he works for many
This channel is incredible. When you hear these people's stories, you really begin to count your blessings. It also gives you some insight into why people act the way they do as well as insight into how different people view life according to their experiences. One message that seems pretty clear in all of these stories is that alcohol and drugs are just no good and ruin so many people's lives, both the users and the sellers. Having kids without a foremost commitment to raising and loving them never works out well for anyone, either.
Yeah when i feel sorry about myself i will watch these videos, and honestly it helps more then any therapy or medication could do.
antinatalist for life
I’m scared the cartel might see this and get angry!
High Schoolers should be required to watch these videos, maybe middle schoolers!!!
Well Said
I feel like I am watching him as a little kid finally having someone listen to everything he’s gone through. Now more than ever it is apparent what a mother’s love or lack there of can do.
I spent a good 12 years without a mother and i can attest, shit is damaging
He's a fake his story doesn't add up this guy is like a stolen valor guy but it's a different culture so every foreigner and white American falls for it. Shame
God loves you more than your parents does ❤
God will heal your wounds and make you strong and be happy ❤❤✝️🙏🕊
What an incredible story! Mark, please keep us updated. This man needs a book deal and a Netflix movie! Unbelievable the life he lived. I am a foster parent, and I am grateful that my two girls crossed my path. Can't imagine where else they could of ended up.
After listening to him talk about his mon and seeing him breaking down. I don't think I'll watch. It'll be too sad for me 😅 but you right. It is an incredible story
Goes to show how much children need to be loved more than anything. God bless this man's soul. Takes real courage to open up and be this vulnerable.
Mark this is by far the best interview I have ever seen on SWU. Thank you. I’m going to be praying for you Luis, My heart breaks for you. Some people do not deserve to be mothers or fathers. I’m so sorry this happened to you.
He was lying about who he worked for in Mexico 😂 said he went down there in 2017, worked with chino ántrax after a year but chino was in prison since 2013, plus the ántrax weren’t a Beltran Leyva cell, they were a mayo zambada cell 😂 then Rodrigo ( el chino ántrax ) was released in 2020, he cut his ankle monitor in San Diego, fled back to Culiacán Sinaloa, after a couple days he was kidnapped along with his sister and her husband, they were found wrapped in blankets in the back of his old suv, this man was lying through his teeth
@@LuckyBubbleTea-ef5kdnonsense
Check the interview with Royal. It’s a pretty good one too. If you haven’t seen it, think it was like two years ago.
The fact that he met el chino is crazy, much respect to this dude for putting his life on the line for telling us this story.
Kind of scarred for him
He dropped a lot of info. I don’t know if that was smart.
He didn’t meet chino ántrax trust me he said he met him after 2017 el chino smoked that CAF dude 2013 or 2012 and he said he was there wen he went on that especial misión 😂😂😂 I was believing everything but he mest up there 😂😂😂😂
This dude
That fool said he worked for Arturo and el chino how is that posible if they were contras 😂😂😂😂
This made me want to tighten up as a mother. Loving your children is SO IMPORTANT
I taught middle school for 5 years, and I can see many of my old students in him. It breaks my heart.
I've taught at the same trauma-informed school for 11 years. I teach high school but we have kiddos as young as 2nd grade in our building. A lot of my students' stories are similar to Luis'. We love our kiddos so much. I wish could go back and get young Luis and bring him to our school ❤
You see ex cartel members in your middle schoolers? Wild
@@TylerG69 the devil wants damaged children so they can do evil and their end is hell..like the devil
I pray wherever people are in their lives no matter what they have done there is a second chance 🙏🕊 Jesus is our only Hope❤
We are human and bright but we can't make things.. we can't even safe ourselves.. Only Jesus can save us✝️
The importance of being in your child's life is so damn crucial, he broke my heart with his story. Imagine what the outcome could have been had his mother at least gave him closure..she had a 2nd chance and was still selfish, be easy bro I'm sorry you had to go through this difficult trauma in life man
Illegals should be DEPORTED
Parents: No one is perfect, but just love the sh%t out of your kids. We are not raising children, we're raising adults. I by no means consider myself a perfect father, but I do not hesitate to tell my boys I love them. The world is already a hard place, we need to be the rock where they get to land. Thank you Mark for this interview. Prayers for the interviewee and all the victims. I grew up in the same neighborhoods in L.A. and lord knows what would I be without my parent's tough love and support.
❤❤❤
" just love the sh%t out of your kids" sounds a bit weird.. but i hear what you're saying and aggree to that, senor!
@@rainerszahn9651early on when I was a recently divorced single dad sharing custody, I met a lady who she herself was a single mom. She could tell I was a little lost, and she replied with that quote. It stuck with me. I love my sons and I make it a point that they can always lean on their dad for anything. They are both young men now, but they were 4 and 5 at the time.
This seems like the most brilliant comment on the internet. Yes that is what these videos are for. You get it sir. Love the crap out of your kids because we are raising adults. Wow, I havent been able to put that feeling into words until now. That is going to be my signature line in my email. I will quote you, if you would like😊
No need to quote me, it was not my original quote :)@@michellehyde7750
I didn’t cry in any break up I ve had in my life, but Luis you made me cry at work today. Bless you bro
Damn, I'm 14 minutes in and I'm heartbroken for buddy, I can only imagine the pain and anger that caused him. I know what having shitty parents is like but not on that level. Prayers go out to him for real.
its all fake you belive everthing
Are you also ❤️ broken 4 the ppl he victimized once he became a hit man smh 🤦🏽♂️…. I tell you being a victim is one hell of a drug 🤦🏽♂️
I'm 43 minutes in and feeling less bad for him that I did at 14 minutes lol
Yeah, fake.
Mark is playing us all. It’s always been obvious that the “people” in ALL of Mark’s/SWU interviews are just animatronic creations made by Mark. That plus some decent CGI…So obvious!
FYI, Johnny is in on it. Johnny is legit human, but he’s Mark’s main engineer/scientist.
Johnny and Mark make this shit in a lab. NO PEOPLE.
~RESPECT~
damaged people lash out. Everyone including most of the animal kingdom just want to be loved @@stap1er
Bro, you’re childhood trauma was soooo painful to listen to. But remember… you came through all that and their is a reason why! Thank you for being so brave enough to share this with the world. (Real warrior sh’t!). I hope & pray you use your life experiences to help others & in exchange you get EVERYTHING you want/need/deserve. Maximum respect homie you are an inspiration! 🫡🫡🫡❤️🙏🏻🤷🏼♂️✊🏻😬
Wow it’s crazy how easy it was for this guy to fool all of you. He’s clearly lying about everything. He said he worked for chino antrax and his sit squad then said he’s working for Beltran Leyva brothers. Chino antrax worked for Sinaloa and was at war with beltran leyvas. Do you research a bit you can clearly see he’s lying
@@navielok3171hitmen switch sides all the time in cartel ..it’s a money led track of life ..
@@navielok3171they worked together. The Sinaloa cartel and Beltran Leyva brothers. Then they split off
@@navielok3171holy shit your right
they were allies first though.
I watch these videos while working in a underground mine in a dark environment alone. I often wake up hating my life. But I came from poverty myself and was locked up at 13 and was running around southern cali with murderous gangsters for years. Watching these videos make me realize my life if awesome now! I own my own house and raise a beautiful self confident young man. I count my blessings
That's awesome how far you came! Many people can't say they own their own home or have kids let alone a good relationship with them .
The work you do does sound tough and especially not getting a lot of sunlight sets people up for depression so you are in that tough spot of managing that.
If you want to, you can slowly but surely change your life so that your work isn't so detrimental to your mental / emotional health.
Rooting for you, you've accomplished a lot against the odds and just know if you're unhappy you can find a way out of even that
God bless you. Yep, the baptists sing a song called “count your blessings.” It goes through my head all the time.
This comment is the best. Keep it up man. You're the real definition of success.
Did i read that right? "while working in a underground mine in a dark environment alone."
@@ByproductRebelMind yes sir
El Gordo, Luis’s story is heartbreaking. Being abandoned by his mother, tortured, jailed, lost loved ones while in jail and not able to attend their funerals. The obvious deep emotional pain caused by the absence of his mother, and his openness about his pain is truly remarkable. The information he shared about the people he worked with is scary. I truly wish him a good life for the sake of his children who don’t have their mother. Mark your interviews are very interesting and this one is very profound.
I like this guy. He seems genuine. Hope he’ll stay on the right path and build himself a good life. Loved this interview.
A genuine evil criminal! I can tell you vote democrat.
Powerful stuff. From the heart
So you're going to let him live with you then I guess right???😂
You like a hit man. Unbelievable
People change but come on. This is all it takes anymore, a 1-hour video.
Its hard to fathom how strongly our childhoods affect our whole lives! basically everything we become sprouts from our childhoods and parents.. my mother always would say that people shouldn't blame their parents for how they turn out, but having my own chikdren who are teens now i realize how everything ive done has affected them, to turn out good for a change, and how my mother just wants to escape responsibility for how i turned out
I hear you but don't we also as adults, bear responsibility for recognizing the baggage our parents left us with perhaps isn't their fault either? Compassion instead of angst towards those we feel have short changed us is healthier for us.
@@rockman4699that sounds like something a bad parent would say
@@tomjones4835
That sounds like something a person who refuses responsibility says.
Sounds like your mother has a lot to be proud of you for.
Freud had some weird ideals, but the foundation of what he says is exactly his
Much Respect Bro- Giving up Gangs, Streets, and Drugs is one of the hardest things ever! Keep it up
I’ll be waiting for an update on Luis! One of the best interviews on your channel!
This was a good watch. This guy seems like a genuine person who has been through some tuff things in life.
Some of us seemed to have never even had a chance. It’s horrible. It makes me extra grateful for what I have. There are some horrible human beings in this world. You should need to pass a test or have a license to have a kid. To make sure you’re fit to be a parent and not some alcoholic junkie who is going to abandon your kid for a beer and guarantee he’s going to have a fucked up life and let that cycle continue.
I'm a professional nanny for wealthy people. Even wholesome, happily married high income families don't know what the hell they are doing. I am actually going to leave my profession next year because its hard to watch parents make poor choices.
I work in treatment and am a sober addict. Addiction doesn’t discriminate at all. I’ve seen people from all walks of life get crippled by addiction. People with money, people without money, people wherein everyone in their family is an addict and people (like me) where nobody in my family was an addict. People with great childhoods (like me) and people with fucked up childhoods. We don’t really understand why some people get the bug and some people don’t. We only know that shame is a big precursor.
I worked for a multi million dollar crackhead. Was quite an experience
@@Jeff-sp7bg please tell me about this. I only met one rich crack head. As an addict I always contemplated like how much… like it would have been considerably worse and harder for me to get sober if I was wealthy. As a matter of fact, I’m 98.9% certain that if I happened to have been wealthy, I would be dead. I would’ve overdosed and died.
Oh please
Bravo! Hit man and drug smuggler now living a good clean life! True testimony! Keep going! Proud of you.
15 minutes in and im fighting tears for this man, how incredibly sad. I had a fucked up father but came from a overall good home and i always feared losing my mom and not getting her love due to the next actions my father might take. I just cant imagine this world without my mother and i cant ever sit here and say i understand but i can feel some of that pain here .
I’m a mother myself as a 26 year old woman. Throughout the years of watching Mark’s videos of these broken people make me realize one thing…. having both parent in someone’s like really makes or breaks a young child. Always be there for our kids. Always.
Yep. Our culture has been lying to us since the 60s. Lies. Good intentions? Maybe. Lies nonetheless. And they’re still lying to everyone.
Drug dealer n hit man but cried when he talks about his mom shows no matter how hard you might be there are things that will always be so painful to your heart
He's never been a drug dealer or hitman. This guy is full of lies. His time does not add up at all. He said he did 18 months for doing a hit in u.s jail while serving time for drug trafficking 😂.
Nope, shows that all he cares about is himself. He feels nothing when inflicting far worse suffering on others.
Man. You seem like such a tough guy but you are such a gentle giant. I wish I could hug you. My son adopted is going through the same thing right now. No matter how much love I show him, he pushes back because he wants his bio mom. He’s 14. I would love for you to talk to him. You got this though. You can be an example to so many. Keep strong man. Love yourself beyond your mom’s mistakes.
Be patient, I’m sending so much love and gratitude to you. You are amazing ❤ your son will one day figure out how loved he is and always was.
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Thats no gentle giant..he is a cold blooded killer that admits he doesn't have remorse, or in his words "I don't feel bad".
It's a hard age at the best of times, just be there, keep patient and keep loving him. I hope that things work out in the end. It's so difficult.
Man....i can absolutely feel this mans pain. He talks about killing with ease, but speaking on his mother breaks him up. That is a pretty powerful silent message
Yes, the message is he doesn't see other people as human.
Only himself.
My good buddy died while at the dream center. Dude tryna get sober, relapsed once, passed out face down on his pillow and died. Rest in peace John Hand❤️
It's interview's like this that keep reminding me that all children need that love from parents.
Damm
Im a grown ass man with two young kids and found this totally heart breaking!
Amazing interviews as always.
I just want to give this man a big long hug, he’s a sweet soul at heart. Wishing him the most success in his future.
The most hardest, hurtful thing that I heard in this interview is at 14:01! If you don’t know what that sound is, it’s called eating pain and swallowing it, but it’s so dry that you have to force it down to your stomach.
If this is not a perfect example of why kids need unconditional love, i dont know what is. If you cannot raise a child DONT HAVE ONE. Wish this man all the best in life
You listened to the part about him murdering and torturing people right, and ruining the fabric of society by smuggling drugs in for a quick buck, or him abandoning his own child? But yeah, he had a tough childhood so it's okay
@@cooliotopnotch6287 and where does this behaviour stem from....it's all about trauma that would literally change the way you think. I've experienced it myself and it's up to the person to essentially "see the light" and make better decisions
@@designhub8128 So he had no choice and responsibility whatsoever in murdering and chopping those people up? Weird, because there are plenty of children who grow up in even more abusive and terrible circumstances yet don't become degenerate murders and drug mules. So weird....
@@cooliotopnotch6287 Exactly! This man is a freaking monster.
This is breaking my heart that he wanted his mom even after all of the rejection. This poor man has so much pain in his soul.
there’s people in the comments saying why are you worried about him and not the people he tortured, if he would’ve received his mothers love he would’ve never done any of that
When we grow up like this it's not that we are chasing love we just chasing love from a certain person and that's the toughest part
You can actually feel the pain in his voice when he speaks about his mom 😢
this interview is so heart breaking , a grown man that was truly craving his mothers love, his mother love could have changed the trajectory of his whole life
Think about his victims Christy? Would you be as forgiving if your loved ones were his victims? Not a chance.
@@backagain5216 how did you get "forgiviness" out of that bro, unrelated point to make.
I pray He finds Jesus and becomes new and speaks gives hope from his testimony.
My heart breaks for the dead especially in the hands of the devil..
That lifestyle is not worth it.
Gangs are demonic and you can see the fruit of that lifestyle.
God bless you whomever reads this❤🕊🙏✝️
@@backagain5216it’s not forgiving, it’s the reality, no one’s saying that he’s innocent and it’s not his fault he did those things, he’s a grown man and deserves to pay for what he’s done, at the same time tho it didn’t have to be that way as if his mother had loved him he probably wouldn’t have went down that road, the whole thing is just sad and shows the responsibility of bringing life into this world
Damn Homie. So sorry you went through all that shit man. I had a step dad that would abuse me when my mom was not around just because I was not his real son. He would get drunk , hit me, and say shit to me which hurt. When my mom found out about it, I thought she would take my side but she took my step dad's side. I got kicked to Grandma's house where I was raised by my grandma and aunties. I know how you were feeling from experience myself. Just know I can be a brother to you and will not turn my back on you. Homies like us need to stick together bro. Much love to you
So sorry you went through that! Thanks for commenting to show that this is something that affects many and people and not alone ❤️
are not alone*
I am sorry for that little boy as a mother we are your first love and are supposed to be your protectors 😢
❤🙏🏻🫂
So kind of you
This was an amazing interview! My heart broke for this man hearing about his early life. I have a mother who was technically there but she did not love me and that really messes with a person. I could relate to him and his anger and pain. I was in the streets as well because of it. The fact that he made it out alive and is now focusing on being an electrician is incredible. I hope you find the love and peace you never had Gordo.💯🙏♥️
Did you listen to some of the things this guy did? Jeez almighty, absolutely disgusting
Tell that to the families of the victims this man may have tortured and murdered in cold blood….lol some of us had similar childhoods doesn’t make doing horrible things justified 🤦♂️
@@ryantodd6978he never justified dude's crimes. Just congratulated him on crawling out of the sh#t. I think it's pretty impressive as well. All because someone gave him a hand up instead of a kick in the teeth.
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More than likely the ppl that got murdered and tortured were doing the same thing he was doing. It’s either him or them and I guess it was them. It’s a dog eat dog world out there kid.
You're gorgeous
It's incredible the way these interviews allow people to bare all and the way it seems to benefit the individuals and the viewers is beyond what we could've imagined. Thanks to everyone involved
And he lets the speak without constant interruption - great interview
This poor guy had 100% of the cards stacked against him right from birth. Such a very heartbreaking story. Thank you for sharing.
Gordo has such a purity and innocence about him despite the depraved nature of his previous work. It just goes to show us how multi-faceted human beings are, the dynamics of duality,....I wish you all the best in your career as an electrician, Gordo, you are going to kill it. God Bless you and your honesty and courageousness.
``you are going to kill it``
poor choice of words for the man in recovery
"purity and innocence" . . . 🙄 Americans are dumb af.
@@SteveAustin-mo2velmfao!!! Sorry not funny but I spit my drink out
Bring Gordo home
@@S.E.H-TOWN713I thought the same 😂
I hope he understands that she did not return and abandoned him again because he was asking hard questions and holding her accountable. That was more than she could take. It was not his fault. It was not because he was not lovable. She could not stand to face the impact that her terrible choices had on her son
Dam bro I’m sorry… I feel your pain I went through the same thing!! My mom was a drug addict and spend most of my teenage life in prison my dad sold drugs and never cared for me. My grandparents raised me as well I remember my dad came to see me and my sister one day and told me flat out he dosent think I’m his son… I didn’t cry or say shit but it killed me inside I never said shit but even talking about it now it brings tears to my eyes and it hurts.. my mom ended up getting clean when I was 16 or 17 she had more kids and re married… I remember always drawing her pictures when she was in prison couldn’t wait for her to get out and raise me… she would get out but always go back within 2months. I remember her FINALLY getting clean and re marrying I went to the hospital when she had her first child and I just remember walking out the hospital room and crying like crazy in the hall way.. her husband got upset and completely ignored me and I get it… but I cried cause that day I knew I would never have my mother that shit hurts so bad and now I’m 32 and my moms been trying for years to have a relationship with me but I just don’t feel it.. I have my own kids now and I don’t need you anymore 😢 the child in me needed you so bad but he’s gone he died that day. But I LOVE WHAT I WENT Through!!! It made me LOVE MY KIDS TO DEATH!!! U gotta do better bro u gotta be there for your little ones and break that cycle …………….
Sad, but very moving story. Thanks for sharing.
Same 😓
May God keep you safe and know your loved. God Bless You and yours 🙏
Wow!Appreciate the share.God Bless u on fatherhood brother 💙
As a Mama, i just want to give this sweet man a Mama's hug & share his pain with him. I pray he finds healing for that hurting, broken little boy inside ❤ Thank you for sharing your story with us, I respect your courage.
This is one of the most heart breaking stories I’ve ever heard. This man is incredibly brave and strong to be this vulnerable with such a heavy load. I wish him the best.
God bless you sir. We’re all rooting for you!
I recently moved to Los Angeles early this summer your channel hits an entirely different space in my heart now, thanks for all you do Mark.
Welcome to LA, great city 👍
This man needs love more than anyone i have ever seen. And I grew up in a very dry home with siblings screaming at each other all the time. I want to hug this man.
Hey if you see this- I am hugging you and I love you.
I'm a grown ass man, but want to give this stranger a tight hug and tell him I love him. This is a strong man.
@unknown-sx8sn well, since you're the only one talking about bromance that's on you...hiding behind a fake youtube name and a screen you are a keyboard warrior to be reckoned with. Thanks though, funny little men like you make me laugh.
@@clintonlunn4357💯
Man, this is a tough one to watch. I can tell he is still hurting from being abandoned. I feel for you sir..
This guy has seen and done the worst of the worst but my god he broke my heart talking about his childhood traumas. El Gordo, you go rock that journeyman electrician career. That's something to be very proud of. Let alone surviving all you have!
El Gordo, my man! If any chance you ever see this, you're a good dude, you got a good heart, just was dealt a bad hand. Hope you're living a happy life w/ your family, keep on keeping on man. Thanks for sharing your story!
Muchas veces vemos a estos muchachos y por su apariencia pensamos que son malas personas pero no sabemos todo lo que ellos han pasado y los motivos que tuvieron para seguir esos caminos, yo personalmente los he conocido y he visto que por la forma que han crecido aparentan ser malos porque la calle eso te enseña a no mostrar debilidad.
Es como una careta que muchos llevamos puesta, me conmueve cuando dice (I was eating my own shit) ellos saben que el camino que han seguido no fue la mejor decisión pero que ya no hay vuelta atrás.
Que Dios ponga paz en el corazón de este hombre.
I agree 100%, but if im not mistaken he was being literal. Ósea literal he “eat shit”. (Hope im mistaken)
De seguro tu eres de esos Que juzgan a todos a la verga sera un a realizacion tuya Que quieres pasar como consejo?….. de todas maneras, asi es, lo Que dices 👏
Eating your own shit?
Es un alucin
More than anything else, your videos show how important parents are.
You said it! So crucial
and how many shitty ones exist 😢
Today I’m okay with a wonderful wife and even two dogs in the house but I’m disabled my body gave up two years ago, so ashamed that I didn’t make it to retirement . Nothing really different I’ve been through life working for a living, and now that’s been taken away I didn’t have an identity anymore. Living my life ashamed of myself is all I know but learning to cope and live grateful for my wife for her unending support ❤❤❤🌸🌸🌸
Are you saying this cause you want people to comment I'm sorry?
@@TheDartsPirate😂
@@TheDartsPirateAren't you being rude to stranger who simply wants to vent out some sadness ? Some words of compassion helps a lot. 'Suck it all up' and 'Don't suffer from self-pity'- these statements often repress that sadness.
@@TheDartsPirate
I’m sorry that you have little empathy for others. 😢
No sharing tour feelings is important but it's also very strange in thr context he does it in by not acknowledging anything to do with the video. Instead it just looks like hrs trying to get some attention and theirs much healthier more self affirming ways than that. Have a great Thanksgiving ya'll.
Thanks for sharing. Watched from the UK 😢❤
The fact that he is still alive after everything he has done and been through, and the fact that he worked with los antrax, makes me think that he has a purpose beyond his consciousness. Hope he finds healing.
He says he worked with chino and the anthrax but that his boss was Arturo Beltran leyva which doesn’t make sense
@jonathansantos1646 well Arturo used to work for the Sinaloa cartel and then branched off and started his own group. So i think the story checks out. Its on Wikipedia
@@stevend481 do your research. The timelines don’t add up
@@santana9397 yes bro but he said they worked for the Beltran leyva but one of the antrax job was to kill the Beltran leyva. And by the time chino did the clown costume they definitely were already at war with the Beltran …
@@jonathansantos1646he explained it in the video that the Beltran Leyva was with the Sinaloa cartel but then they separated
This interview almost made me cry because his mother did him so wrong. He really wanted his mom, and she didn't care. It breaks my heart.
This shit did make me cry
She probably got raped and beaten throughout her childhood.
I pray this man gets the love he deserves and needs!!! God bless you brother. I felt so bad for him when he started crying for his mom. Great interview as always bro!! 💯
Thank you for this video .
I didn’t know what I was doing wrong in life and being a mother. I didn’t know what questions to ask or where to start. And Luis answered all my questions without me asking , just LOVE! Love you’re kids with all your might , perfection is not the goal just LOVE
I am a former gang leader and former international crime figure from Toronto Canada. Now I have an organization that helps people to ethically leave the lifestyle. Most have left with honour. I just gotta say, this work you’re doing is invaluable my friend. I have been watching your content for sometime now. Bravo and thank you for sharing these stories. Sometimes it’s hard for me to watch and hear some of these stories but if we are going to begin to start to fix these problems, people first have to understand their root causes. Respect 👊🏽.
Canada is soft. Only the mob gets down for real over the bridge.
which gang?
"Certainly some who find themselves on the wrong side of the law were driven there by mistreatment in their own homes while growing up. Others were drawn to the flame of evil through other true or perceived injustices. To them I can only say, break the chain of mistreatment, a real man nourishes righteousness, not evil." Forward to the book, Black Hand, The Mexian Mafia.
Cap.
International Crime Figure😮
This is why people need to take having kids more seriously. Not having a loving and present parent can ruin your life. My heart breaks for him.
How people could have a kid and abandon the kid is beyond me, how is it possible?
Drugs
Sick world
mental illness
My momma heart is breaking!! I wish I could just reach through the phone and give him the biggest motherly hug. His mother didn’t deserve him.
Speaking personally; I grew up raised by my grandparents my mom was in my life but my father non existent.
In my teens he tried to come back but I was brainwashed to hate him ( years from my mother shaming him to me )
Fast forward to the adult years… I google his name he is now gone. I have no closure & this pain from the start is still here .. all you can do in the end is love yourself. Years of therapy and self awareness it’s a daily struggle to feel happy. This really broke me.
I was listening at work and I had to take a minute to see this man in so much pain you can hear in his voice. Many prayers my friend.
Condolences to you Gordo on the loss of your family. You definite has a story to tell , from a child to an adult. Your grandmother was right there for you. Even thou you been through a lot, you can rebound, you are strong an you have over came adversity in life. From the cartels to smuggling cigarette an now an electrician. Blessings to you an your children.
Yeah who cares about all the people he killed, tortured, etc. He had a bad childhood, and therefore it is okay! All people with bad childhoods do that lmao. Albeit, I think he is actually just a liar and junkie.
It would be easier to think someone is a liar and a junkie than to believe this would be a real life,.life.
Anyways, hurt ppl hurt ppl.
And if this is his truth, I hope he can forgive himself and turn his life into something positive. This could be a movie and a book.
@@corpusdemonwifey It's not "easier" - it's that his vocal tempo changes, his eye contact shifts, he glosses over details, and as others have pointed out, his timeline does not make sense with certain publicly known arrests. It's not because I don't believe there are animals like "him" out in the world, but rather it's because parts of his story don't hold up to logical scrutiny. And if you've ever watched this channel before, lying tends to be quite abundant with criminals and junkies.
@@cooliotopnotch6287interesting
@@cooliotopnotch6287he never had a chance he just deal with cards life gave him everybody got skeletons in they closet.
Seems like a decent guy who was born into unfortunate circumstances. At 36, he still has his whole life ahead of him. Hopefully his life works out going forward.
These vids really bring a shift of perspective quickly... It should be presented in parenting classes. The early childhood trauma patterns are SO OBVIOUS. I feel for him bc these situations are preventable
Agree 100%
This young man has some serious ancestral forces protecting and guiding his path. I hope he writes that book one day. Best of luck
I admire this man for allowing himself to be so vulnerable as he tells his experiences. Very raw and honest
This interview will help others🙏
Man this is such a refreshing interview. It feels like all the drug and cartel interviews that people have on their podcast don’t seem genuine. Like the “connect podcast” with Mitchell. Just a bunch of fakers that are telling somebody else story. You can tell this guy is the real deal. What an awesome interview. The interviewer lets the man speak and tell his life story.
💔 Lo siento mucho "Gordo" por lo que te tocò vivir de niño, es una infancia que nadie deberìa experimentar. Espero que tengas la fortaleza y sabidurìa de tomar decisiones que te hagan mejor persona y te sientas orgulloso de tì mismo, sin dañar al resto de la gente .
thank you for being brave enough to share your story brother... always be kind to the random people you speak to or come across cause you really dont know whats someones going through or have been through! Sometimes people just need someone to listen to them & it could do more than what you think
Indeed ❤
I take care of a homeless man, hes drug free and just plain poor, hes now part of my family, all he wanted was a meal for thanksgiving, i never stopped loving him
I know what it’s like to be forgotten by a parent and I felt his pain. Keep going G the worst has passed, it’s time to heal and keep it pushing.
It makes me SO sad the struggles so many of these men go through that lead them down these roads. I’ve heard so many similar stories and it’s so sad each time. Doesn’t matter if they managed to keep their shit together or not, the sentiment is always the same.
Thanks for sharing your story, Luis.
The most hardest, hurtful thing that I heard in this interview is at 14:01! If you don’t know what that sound is, it’s called eating pain and swallowing it, but it’s so dry that you have to force it down to your stomach.
Powerful story. A lot of cold people have been made that way by circumstances beyond their control. Hope he finds peace.
This is heartbreaking to watch: I work with these kids in LA county like this and if you wanna know what’s wrong with this country right now, it’s not the kids, it’s their parents that raised them or rather never bothered to raise them. He’s a good guy, their are a lot more who are just a “(product of their environment)”
You're absolutely right, Rick!
Deport them all. Problem solved.
There’s a saying that I’ve heard many times; “kids are resilient” obviously we’re seeing all of the instances where childhood trauma has completely wrecked peoples lives in these interviews. So it’s hard to say how many children with horrible or even less than ideal upbringings turn out fine. But I think it’s safe to say that at the very least, not ALL kids are resilient.
Thanks for sharing your experience and story brother, can’t tell you how many of us are in similar situations with no one there for us
If you'd heard about this guy on the news - hit-man, torturer, drug smuggler - you'd be calling for the death penalty. An hour on SWU and you'll be asking him to babysit your kids. The human psyche is unfathomable.
Hahaha. Right!!!!!
His story is so intriguing. I literally couldn’t take my eyes off of him. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I believe we don’t have to go through hell, just look at those who have lived through it.
My unc tells me how he wishes he could feel the hug of his mother and i should be appreciative of what i have. Great respect for you.
No one should have to go thru the struggles you've been through. Respect to you for sharing your story with the world. I hope you find some peace in this world. ❤❤❤