Hey Swamy; I've got DP/DR 2 months ago. And I've watched a lot of videos about this sickness. Read a lot of articles. And you my friend, you saved me from that pithole. You there. I'm talking to you. You are going it now, you are depersonalized and you are reading this comment. Don't be bothered with the people that talking like ''I've got it like 20 years.'' I was so stressed with those comments i actually cried infront of computer. I stopped eating, i can't go to work or get out cause i'm too afraid of that i'm going to make mistakes, i was so foggy i even can't talk with my friends sometimes. Swamy is right. Accept it. That's the only solution. I know this seems very weird. You guys are mad at me cause ''how can i accept it? it's consuming.'' I know. But that's the only way. Most helpful videos about my DP/DR story was how to accept your intrusive thoughts and overcoming dp fears. Stop asking yourself or checking yourself. It will pass. I promise. I've recovered %100 . I'm not saying %95. %100. Thank you Swamy. I've recovered with you.
Thank you for the comment, seriously, I had a first panic attack ever 5 months ago, and I’ve been dealing with anxiety ever since, derealization was bugging me but I was so busy handling the other symptoms that I didn’t pay so much attention to it. The anxiety level dropped dramatically, but the DP arose as the last symptom, and I started being really afraid of it and when people say that they experience it for more than 2yrs freaks me out BIG TIME. Swamy and other coaches on this are helping me a lot, so is the recovery stories and hope provided by that.
Anyone know how to deal with the fear of just letting go and not being afraid ? I seem stuck trying to let go of the fear. It feels like the fear is all I know and if I don't have that fear I'll be a different person, a person I don't know how to deal with. No one teaches you how to not be afraid of a new you emmerging when you try to just let go and accept
kassie p Actually, 1 month ago me, can say, letting go and live your life is the best you can do for yourself. It doesn’t go away in two days, but as a keep living my life and achieving things despite of it, feels like curtains are lifting. It’s an amazing feeling, by the way. Overwhelming, but incredibly.
I had thoughts of me waking up in an alternate reality, waking up in some other world and thoughts like I was not real, nothing surrounding me was real, etc. Thoughts like these are really scary and they instantly cause a panic attack. For some days, I was afraid of sleeping because I thought I was about to wake up in some other reality. But then, one day I snapped out of DP/DR. After haunting me for a long, long time it went away. Now, I just laugh at the insane thoughts that I faced. Cheers mate 👍
@@RealSwamyG due to the current state of anxiety and derealization, I instilled in myself such a worldview based on existential thoughts that all human activity in life is built on the secretion of certain hormones (or brain biochemistry, the essence is the same), so more and more I do not see the point in human relationships, in art, study, career, travel, yes and throughout life, because all this in the context of such thoughts is fake, ephemeral. Because of this, I experience a terrible depression, and it seems that I will never be able to be as happy as before. That this stupid "philosophy of nihilism" will become entrenched in my personality, and either I have to somehow morally come to terms with it, or I simply cannot do it, driving myself into an even stronger depression, and as a result - suicide. I already can hardly believe that these existential thoughts can let you go along with the anxiety and derealization, as other popularizers of the topic claim. This brings terrible moral torment. Still, other people in this state, it seems to me, at least hold on to something in their life, but I fell into such a pit, from which I see less and less a way out, and after all, only 3 months have passed since everything started. I feel wild guilt from all this, because if it were not for the smoked "joint", then I would be a happy person. Now I think that on the basis of such a destructive worldview for me and the whole condition in general, my life is ruined, because in the past I did not adhere to such a way of thinking, and it seems that this will be fixed in my new, not so good personality. Did we have something? What should I do in this case? And also, a often think about existencial thoughts like: "What is the meaning of the art of creativity? What does this activity give people?" You know, many people advise to be distracted by movies, TV shows, music, and so on, in order to shift your focus from monitoring your condition. But because of such thoughts, it is extremely difficult to do it. And, in principle, I no longer seem to understand how human society works. It seems that I am superfluous in it, but at the same time I think philosophically in the context that "everything is clear to me, and there is nothing else to do in this world." This is terrible.
Know exactly what u mean like they feel distant but you’ll never forget them, your previous state of conscious has already embedded them before you became dissociated
Remember being in the shower and thinking "I'm going to wake up in bed any minute now" and it just haunted me, haunted me so badly the feeling of "I'll wake up soon". Then there is the feeling of "switching dimentions" like I feel as if the same people and world are around me but I'm in a different dimension, everything feels off and I'm the only one who can tell, it's like a whole new me and whole new dimension but everything is the same I just know it's "off" and it's not my "home dimension"
I totally understand what you mean. I have this fear too. When you’re in dp/dr it really feels like it’s going to be a permanent state of existence. But according to professional opinion it’s just like a temporary wave we have to ride.
My biggest fear is losing complete control over my own actions because this experience has made me feel so detached it’s as if I don’t feel like I am in control of the simple actions I take. I guess control is just a big issue for me.
Yeah, the need to control is the root of all anxieties. Sometimes, you can try to challenge yourself to lose complete control. It can scary, but it also makes you call out anxiety/DP on it's bluff.
It might sound a bit crazy and weird I have all the really the thoughts Swami told I have solipsist thoughts , illusion thoughts , obsessive thoughts , alien , parallel world etc I am trying to get out of these thoughts but my mind keeps controlling me and I am getting disconnected with the world bruh
I feel extremely weird and things and people around me looked so weird that I cannot explain. I feel like I am looking them for the very first time as I am born now . I feel like I have lost my past memory about things . Is it normal to feel weird during derealization???
This!!! Except with also- as if I was already informed of what things were and meant/who people are. I just hadn’t experienced it for myself yet. So I knew- but it felt new.
Oh God same,im scared of people,myself,outside world. Like what if i go out and see people and dont know how to act and hurt them or myself. It feels like I don't recognize myself or others. This started like almost 3 weeks ago
I permanently tend to conduct self talks, which makes me afraid. It feels like I am speaking to another person although that person is still me. I know that this is the case (just me) but it feels strange and triggers fear
Idk if this helps but I’ve felt the exact same and deal w dpdr. It’s just heightened awareness and anxiety. I’ve felt this way when recording videos and hearing myself talk. I also have felt this way when I’m feeling derealized and engage in conversation. Hearing my voice or even the act of speaking seems odd even though I’ve spoken my whole life 😂 it’s just anxiety. nothing to worry about.
Hey,,swamy G. As the state of derealization and depersonalizaton is very scary and uncomfortable but Your videos greatly help me to lower my anxiety and fear about derealization.Great work.I am glad to know that i am not alone in suffering from dp.
I’ve had this on and off for the past year and i feel like im losing hope :( It gets so bad at night. I just want to feel like I used to. I never used to think about ANY of this stuff. I just hope and pray that Ill finally recover soon. Thank you for making these videos! Nobody else really talks about dp/dr
OMG 2:50 I had the same exact fear it was so so scary I looked it up and found nothing about it, I was afraid of seeing, hearing, feeling thing in my head, it was so bizarre, Im so happy to see someone who I can relate to ❤❤
Another great video Swamy! I was full of myself for far too long and it only held me back. Accepting who I am has been one of the greatest realizations in life and has structured my life in a way where I now strive to be the best person I can be instead of settings false & irrational expectations, ultimately setting myself up for failure. I now ask questions (however dumb) when I don't understand something and seek clarity instead of pretending to know something I don't. I finally feel comfortable knowing I'm not always the smartest guy in the room. My deepest fear was not being able to meet the expectations I personified to the world but now my deepest fear is not pushing myself to become the best *I* can be. Well, that or heights. :P
I’ve been suffering from it since I’m 5 because of childhood traumas but nothing can help me as I’m obsessed with existential thoughts and while I have no answers for these questions I think like I’m crazy and nothing is real
My thoughts almost exactly, DP fell out of the sky on the night of December 2nd last year for me, my life hadnt been going that well for a few years prior and I understood it as a wake up call. Im glad I discovered the youtube channels that discuss this. My fears included (im on the downward part of this now but not out of it yet) Solipsism, that everybody I had ever cared about was imaginery, fear that I was in a matrix like existence and that maybe I existed in a world outside the realm of god and god couldnt hear me or knew i existed and i would have to suffer in silence. I also would go to be every night for about a aweek feeling like I was going to wake up somewhere else, in a field, on the street, or in another universe, thankfully this fully passed. Recently I experienced a small spike in this feelings and they can basically be boiled down to the following, fear that I cant trust my sense or cognition and fear that ill be eternally separted from those I care about (or anybody is seperted from who they care about). I watched one of your videos earlier today and your description of being "bewildered by reality" is spot on, thats just what it is, its like this feeling of JAMAISE VU, that I cant shake, what is all this stuff, what is this sound coming out of my mouth, what is color shape dimension proportion space time etc, what does it mean to exist? Im on the downward, I will make it, AS WILL ALL OF YOU, REALITY IS NOT SCARY, IT IS GOOD, we all already know this, we just have to accept it.
Hey Swamy and anybody else active on this feed. Did anybody else struggle with any of the following (trying to determine if what I have would be considered DP) - deep thoughts about the brain (Am I just a brain? If so, does it control me or do I control it?), struggles with Somatic OCD (weird feelings like a disconnect between my brain and body, how am I walking? how am I taking deep breaths? how, how, how?), complete loss of self (Am I a brain with a body? A body with a brain? Where am I? What am I?).. I know it's a lot, but Swamy's videos have given me a ton of insight, just wondering if any others have experienced this weird existentialism?
My issue is the severe calmness and feeling of being in another dimension when I am calm. People falling in live etc, I cant feel a thing because I'm in this feeling of too much comfort I start to over think stuff.
I relapse after 5 years of being recovered from dpdr. I am feeling somewhat better, but I still have a lot of thoughts that are bothering me. Unfortunately lately I can’t stop thinking about death, because it’s inevitable and terrifying to me. I’ve always been afraid of it, but I can’t stop thinking about it to this degree. I just wish I could stop fearing it so much.
@itsallhushhush Hi, my story is similar. Dpdr came back after many years, and my main symptom now is existential thoughts and the fear of death or disappearing. How are you now ?
Haha yeah I had that but I disproved it in my head. Notice how you had a time gap in your memory from before you were born. That must mean your imagination didn't create the universe, because if you did, you'd be an infinite being (a sort of God). And again, you can't be that since there was missing time. You had a beginning. What created you? Someone else. Something else. Boom solipsistic thoughts gone.
i think i have fully recovered i felt like i was living in a dream and then couple weeks it went away i think but im scared if i wake up il have these feelings again but i just have lack of motivation
That is my biggest fear right now. Been experiencing dp/dr for a few months now. Is it normal if you have dp/dr to feel weird watching TV? Feeling like it’s not real even though you know it is
i can completely understand these dissociative symptoms as in the beginning i had them too, when i used to walk my brain asked why you walked? When i talked my brain again said why you talked? My brain also thought that this body doesn't belong to me, and the most weirdest thought that keeps coming in was "why the hell i can't see myself" except in mirror.and then same thing i felt like i am behind my eyes, seeing was not same as before, i knew somewhere that it is the same world like before but never seemed one. I felt as if my eyes were like a camera,some gaming app's front screen. Through which i can see so many things, i saw every detail at home at roads,and keep thinking like how the hell i can see so much??? But wait!! I always see things like that before too its same so why its kind of weird to me now? Finally It took me one year to understand that it's a kind of thought that keeps coming in i have to just let it go, if it is there then its ok let it be,just ignore and do your normal work. Whole year took me to understand that it was all in mind nothing was real. I know it is scary at the beginning. But as time passes it will heal. I am sure my buddy have faith in you. You will definitely overcome it. Be in touch. If you feel like talking. Loads of love and peace your ways. Stay strong i know you will overcome that
exactly .. why the hell i can't see myself ,my whole body ..except in mirror ...this is the one of the scary weird thought i also feel. And have yo ever question to yourself that now I'm thinking and feeling this and what might other peoples are thinking or felling right now.... different peoples have different thoughts, perception ..how could people are connected to each other ?? This is so weird 😓😓
My biggest fear is actually the dp/dr being part of a bigger issue such as dissociative identity disroder and just because i dissociate and don t feel in control and i daydream involuntarily makes me think that it's another identity that has taken control. Does anyone have this?
I had this fear, maybe 8 months later you don’t have this fear anymore but for anyone else seeing this, DID doesn’t feel like that, people with DID don’t know they have it in most cases, they start to notice it when they have huge black outs in their days, it’s most likely not your case
I had the exact same thought, because i saw this movie with a person having DID. changing into different personalities, really scary. this types of persons are not aware at all, and with dpdr, we are aware of every thought etc. So no worries, its the anxiety making loops in the brain.
Hi swamy. Thanks so much for your help.the point no 4 which you mentioned. The fear of the own mind..like being aware of your own voice and that you have a mind and thoughts...scares the hell out of me...could you do a detailed version of that point??
@@beeberry8055 hey there no it was a subject I never bothered looking into, at least not too deep. Im also much better and my struggles with this are hardly ever a problem these days. I don’t find it useful to look for answers any longer so diving into solipsism isn’t something im interested in. I might have been when i was struggling.
@@beeberry8055 I was coming off of medication when this first started not sure it had anything to do with it but I Wasn’t on any meds when I started feeling better.
I’ve literally had all of these lmaoooo #3 is the literal worst one, you explained it very well cuz i tried explaining this before and it’s sooo hard haha
@@RealSwamyG did you also have, at any point, a fear of death (perhaps sudden death - it's a similar type of fear to the fear of disappearing) ? Is it quite common during dpdr? Does it fade away along with other dpdr symptoms/OCD existential thoughts?
My biggest fear correlates with #5; I fear solipsism (I didn’t know there was a name for this theory until I looked it up and now I regret learning it) and my panic attack that started my DP/DR again was the realization (while I was on an antidepressant that I had to stop) that “Oh my gosh, I’ve only ever experienced my life through my own eyes and I exist in THIS body”. It’s such a weird thought that shouldn’t invoke anxiety but it’s been destroying me and making me question everything outside my mind :(
Swamy G I will try to ask myself this and hopefully the thought dies down with it. Also, is it normal to be “hyper aware of your existence” during DPDR? Like when it was really bad I had this “realization” that was like “Whoa I actually exist and I’m human” but for some reason it made me more anxious?
Samantha Cooper I’m going through this now. In fact I’ve watched this vid multiple times, it’s torture to live as I’m so aware of my own existence and mortality. A lot of this comes from the fact that my brother died a few years ago when I was 10-I need to process that trauma, and I’ve reached out for help in order to do so. And hopefully, through bereavement counselling and other possible therapies, I can forget being hyper aware of existing, and the obsessional instructive thoughts-especially the existential, solipsistic ones-will go once I find happiness and meaning in life once again. It’s made me super depressed, but I wanna live man. I’ve had literally every fear he’s mentioned here, I’m still dealing with it, but like he says they’ll slowly lose their power over me once I process my childhood traumas. Life is too good to be like this-help is hope :)
i literally have had this same fear for the past few weeks and i don’t know why it feels so real, like i genuinely try not to believe it logically but my irrational anxious side comes up with these new beliefs everyday. this plus the solipsism really makes it feel like there’s no escape for me. how are you doing now??
do anyone felt strange about his thoughts or how the thought come from or going be crazy, or how I talk and think and always، And he always turns his actions and thoughts and wants to escape from them because they disrupt his life. Am I alone or someone like me?
I constantly think about vastness of Universe, what is Universe, what is reality, how can something even exist, what is existence, where existence took a start itself, what goes after death etc. I started feel hatred about stars, space because space and the whole elements of it scares me. I'm also petrified about death, I've lost the sense of my life, I dunno why should I even live. Nevertheless, I'm petrified about living my life. I'm scared of my OWN EXISTENCE. I cannot understand how can I even exist, live because I don't understand what is life at all. I think about infinity, the distant corners of the Universe, another dimensions etc but I live in a tiny planet the Universe even doesn't care about. The entire world scares me a lot. I lost my enthusiasm about life, my goals seem meaningless because I constantly think about death. Is it okay during this disorder?????
Thanks for sharing your fears and thoughts. I felt today especially that I am here and aware of everything around me but it's not real. It causes panic. Because somewhere I know it's real and I'm real and I have a history. It feels disconnected. I am afraid that I will succumb to these thoughts and believe them as true.
Why do I feel like life’s a video that will end and that nothing is really happening, nobody is living. Like, imagine theres nothing inside everything. Times not real, so is the universe. I cant trust people, or things.
Hey Swamy. So I stopped experiencing derealization and that out of body experience. Existential thoughts are gone. My problem is that I still don't feel like I'm me.. My personality, the person who I used to be. It's gone. Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy. I still can't stay alone with my thoughts. I just can't get myself back like I forgot who I really am.. Will this also disappear?
It takes time. Also, your personality isn't set in stone. Every experience changes you a bit. Eventually, everything will be integrated once again. You will take in these new experiences and add it to your old personality to make something newer.
Due to the current state of anxiety and derealization, I instilled in myself such a worldview based on existential thoughts that all human activity in life is built on the secretion of certain hormones (or brain biochemistry, the essence is the same), so more and more I do not see the point in human relationships, in art, study, career, travel, yes and throughout life, because all this in the context of such thoughts is fake, ephemeral. Because of this, I experience a terrible depression, and it seems that I will never be able to be as happy as before. That this stupid "philosophy of nihilism" will become entrenched in my personality, and either I have to somehow morally come to terms with it, or I simply cannot do it, driving myself into an even stronger depression, and as a result - suicide. I already can hardly believe that these existential thoughts can let you go along with the anxiety and derealization, as other popularizers of the topic claim. This brings terrible moral torment. Still, other people in this state, it seems to me, at least hold on to something in their life, but I fell into such a pit, from which I see less and less a way out, and after all, only 3 months have passed since everything started. I feel wild guilt from all this, because if it were not for the smoked "joint", then I would be a happy person. Now I think that on the basis of such a destructive worldview for me and the whole condition in general, my life is ruined, because in the past I did not adhere to such a way of thinking, and it seems that this will be fixed in my new, not so good personality. Did we have something? What should I do in this case? And also, a often think about existencial thoughts like: "What is the meaning of the art of creativity? What does this activity give people?" You know, many people advise to be distracted by movies, TV shows, music, and so on, in order to shift your focus from monitoring your condition. But because of such thoughts, it is extremely difficult to do it. And, in principle, I no longer seem to understand how human society works. It seems that I am superfluous in it, but at the same time I think philosophically in the context that "everything is clear to me, and there is nothing else to do in this world." This is terrible.
@@sharmilakhanal7849 oh, really? Shaan blocked me there. I don't understand what's reason it. Maybe for frequent commenting) And, did u have something? How are u now?
@@sharmilakhanal7849 I wrote this comment everywhere, because it worries me the most, u know? And and more recently, issues related to human purpose, implementation. Like where we are all going, for what. And what I need in this life. Before, I somehow understood what was needed, lol)
@@sharmilakhanal7849 I remember you it seems. In general, nothing has really changed yet, but I already work remotely with a good psychotherapist. He will prescribe me a prescription for drugs, and we talked with him, sorting out many points (but these have not yet been sorted out). He argues that for the most part, these various kinds of existential and philosophical questions arise from a lack of feelings and emotions. There is no feedback from life events, do you understand? And this state, no matter how we analyze it from a scientific point of view, still seems to us very diverse in its specifics, and such questions arise from this. Well, I hope so, and I will get rid of it, and not lay hands on myself. 🙂
@@livuair yeah I'm also going through these weired philosophical and existential thoughts and question but as i learned to accept and surrender myself to this I'm feeling better ,, I'm suffering this from 10 months . It is not gone completely but some reliefs i can feel nowdays .. I'm having my setbacks again and again thas why i checkout swamy g videos that makes me some releif to know I'm not only one who is suffering this .. please don't worry you are not alone .Dont react your weird thoughts..they popup randomly i know how unpleasant and daunting feeling is and other people just don't understand us .. now our option is don't to react those nihilism philosophical thoughts. Dont block them too .welcome them to come and go but just don't react and fight .. learn to ignore them ..and yes you can do . you learn to do . They are not gonna be done overnight . It takes time. Yes it will go slowly . Less your stress .🙂
Hi, i just see my eyes, all focus is on eyes ..its been 3 months of dp/dr..i feel as if my eyes are camera, seeing things is not same for me now i feel strange seeing same things that i use to see before..what to do
wow same here i focus my eyes movements i have a question like how my eyes are moving what if i cannot move my eyes i have these thought and it make me really anxious.
Hey Swamy thanks for your videos :) They help a lot. So I wanted to ask if someone else has had this: apart from the feelings of dp dr and irrational fears such as 'life doesn't feel real, im in another dimension, what if i stop existing...' I also have a super big fear of not being able to connect with my memories and being scared of time. Like, I question myself constantly what the meaning of 'future', 'past' and 'present' mean and I feel like I am trapped in the present. In an irreal present. I mean, I can remember everything and I can talk about the future but everytime I think about what I'm going to do or a memory comes to my mind, I feel scared cause I can't understand the meaning and nature of time. What if time stops suddenly? Also, it actually doesn't exist cause we made it up... idk I am aware of how crazy this can sound but it scares the shit ut of me. Is this an existential thought? Thanks :)
@@ashleyriosrizo i'm great :) it's been a journey but don't worry, even though they seem like 'crazy thoughts', i learnt that they're just thoughts. If your going through this, I know it sucks but keep this in mind: it's just your head going on panic mode. In the end, none of this matters, it's just a lot of anxiety. But the same way you got yourself there, you will undo the knot in your head. You just need time, patience and stop looking for answers cause YOU ARE OKAY. YOU'RE JUST SCARED OF EVERYTHING. Anxiety is not something static, it changes and the more your body gets used to that feeling of fear, the more it understand there's actually nothing to be afraid of. Don't look for answers, but look for a therapist for example, someone you can trust and talk about these thoughts that bother you. You've had quiet and happy moments innyour life and I assure you first hand that you will have them again. You're just afraid of life cause it's your brain thinking you're in danger when you're actually not at all. But you have to learn it the hard way: by being scared and accepting that you'll have to keep having this veery uncomfortable feeling for a bit of time until your brain learns that it's actually a bunch of irrational thoughts. Trust me, you'll be okay. Just stop looking for answers cause actually everyone has these same questions about time and life... But they only bother u cause you're scared and anxiety has taken over. But you'll get better
@@marial3301 hey so I was obsessed with recovery at that time and do you know what actually helped me? Not wanting to recover. Instead, with a bit of help and a lot of patience, I learnt to live with those questions. It was damn hard because for me, these thoughts meant i was losing my mind and that meant something terrible would happen. But that was the way: showing yourself that yeah, anything can happen and maybe i lose my mind. And while i lived with that fear, i made my body feel all those uncomfortable sensations and thoughts. You will find your peace but maybe you'll first need to lose your fear and even though it's a tough process, it's a training for your mind and you'll definitely become waaaay stronger and happier once you learn how you feel fear and the tricks that your mind plays on you. You'll get better I know it, cause I am ♥️ asking yourself if you'll ever get better seems like a reasonable question for your agitated mind right now, but it's the same as asking yourself 'will i ever get better?" after a break up. You don't know, but you probably know that you will, since most people do. And also that's not the point. The point is that you listen to your body to understand yourself better and grow into the wonderful person you're about to be rn. Way less scared and way braver than who u are now 🔥 listen to your body, understand that it's just scared. The little kid within you is asking for help for some reason and it's the time in your life that you need to start paying attention to yourself and learn to live with fear for a bit cause that's what ur body needs rn.
I cant bear my thoughts they are like an imagination i obsess over them being like this but i learned rhat a noisy mind isnt helpful lol most people want a quiet mind.
Swaami sir i have no blurr vission and no existensiol fears but from past 2 months i feel detached from everything .im just 17 and im not able to understand what i should do plsssss help mee that how can i recover i ve watched many videos but i dont understand im sooo depressed😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
Hey Sammy , i had dp/dpr 2 months ago and it went a way for like a week and then it came back with all these fears of going crazy and i sometimes feel like the walls are moving and everything is moving and it gets really scary. Will i get over this?
Hey Swamy I have the symptoms of dpdr from few months but the symptoms now changed now the dream like is reduced but the places are looking wierd. I went to pyschaitriast i tell him that i feel detached then he asks me questions like do u hear noise , that somebody is calling u . Do u see faces etc we'll i don't hear or see things that he said till i gone to him but after going to the pychatrist i developed a fear what if i developed those symptoms and the fear is so intense that sometimes i hear that somebody called me when i surrounded by people s or i hearing some thing I'm in state of fear crying in my bed. Please help that these are my only perception or something else
So I am fifteen I smoked weed had a bad trip on it then three weeks later had a panic attack cause a sugar buzz ever since that sugar buzz I haven't been the same I got dpdr cuz the sugar buzz it's been like 3 weeks I had with the dpdr it is miserable my emotions are numb and I ain't feel alive anymore I remember one night I was texting my brother and as I was typing my fingers kept going and my brain kind of froze and it was like I was in someone else's body and I was watching through their eyes I dont feel alive like I'm dreaming and my emotions are numb (just want to say I appreciate you❤)
To be honest i wish to forget everything in the past when dpdr happened. I regret so much mistakes i have done and i just want my life back. These thoughts and feelings are like slowly consuming me or should i say fear is. But question. If dpdr is gone and anxiety does it mean these symptoms are gone. If so when im fully recovered and I remember these things can it put me back to dpdr?
Hi Swamy! You have great content. I was just wondering what your take on medication for DPDR is? I know there’s no specific medication that’s supposed to treat this condition but anxiety and depression are closely tied to it, at least with my experience. Since I’ve been taking an SNRI, an atypical antipsychotic and beta blocker..my symptoms have not been as severe and I’ve been able to eat again, sleep more and not wake up each morning shaking in fear. I feel like medication has been what has helped me to think a bit more logically in order to recover. I really did not want to start medication but I felt like I was going to die from not eating or sleeping enough :( not to mention, I was suicidal each day as well which has subsided quite a bit as well. Did you take any medication during your recovery? Just curious. Thanks.
Medication is fine. Especially in some cases, meds can be a boon. But my understanding is that medication doesn't treat the underlying root cause. It only helps you not feel the symptoms anymore. This is good if you are feeling super overwhelmed that you are non-functional. But the problem I think is that meds after a while stand in the way of recovery. I believe you recover by letting yourself feel these feelings. This is why I never took any medication. Anyway, this is just my opinion and not professional medical advice.
Swamy G Without any meds, I am on full fight or flight mode 24/7. It literally felt like it was killing me slowly every day. I was shaking so much all throughout the day, pupils dilated and stomach and chest in knots. Muscles were tensed up all the time too. Plus I was crying and freaking out all the time and barely able to function at all. Have you heard of people recovering despite being on medication? I’m worried I won’t be able to get better because of the fact that I’m on medicine but I don’t know how else to survive right now. Also, the medicine hasn’t taken away my DP symptoms, it’s just made them less severe/debilitating.
@@amethystclouds8750 maby working with a very good therapist would be helpful if you want to really get off meds and recover. Some intense therpay at least twice per week. Also look up SAMe, it's a over the counter you can get that people swear by for reduction of depression and anxiety. Right now I'm at the exact same state as you are , like we sound exactly the same :'(
kassie p Wow, I’m so sorry that you’re suffering too :( I am seeing a therapist but only once a week and it’s not helping that much yet honestly. Are you on any medicine? Thank you for your advice and kind words 💕🙏🏻
It's different for everyone. You can't predict it. Also, wondering about how long it's going to be will cause you to add more stress to your recovery. ua-cam.com/video/lnMTk1hSgC4/v-deo.html
I know exactly what you're talking about. It's all about breaking the "but what if" cycle. You're enjoying life, feeling like you understand that this thought or possibility is impossible, but then the thought comes up "...but what if? If this is all a dream world or a simulation or whatever, does nothing matter? My loved ones, my work, and accomplishments, nothing matters if this isn't reality." And so on. Break this cycle. I can assure you right now that you're not in some other reality or simulation or any of that. You're not some brain hooked up to a machine that is generating world for you. The people around you aren't robots. Notice how all of these thoughts came once you heard about them and thought about them. They weren't always in your head, but now it's "totally real and impossible to prove wrong." No, my friend. It's DPDR or Existential OCD or something along those lines that is messing with your thoughts. But it's okay. I'm going through the same sort of thought cycle now when I thought I had finally been done with these thoughts over 2 months ago. If you want the thoughts to be true, they will seem true. If you believe they aren't, then they aren't. And no I'm not also a figment of your imagination or something along those lines, I'm a human typing this out to you since you suffer from the same thing I suffer from. But it's okay, because now I'm recovering, and you can recover as well. I'll be back in a few months fully recovered. Bye :)
TimbitPotato I’m not OP but thank you for commenting this. I keep having scary thoughts about being the only one who exists and being controlled by a scientist or something and that my whole life hasn’t been real. I’m so scared but this comment brings me relief somewhat
@@samanthacooper9398 can I ask what you mean by being created by a scientist? I sort of get it, because I had a "what if I'm a brain hooked up to a machine in the real world" sort of thing. Believe me btw, these are all disprovable if you give it some thought
TimbitPotato Basically it’s the brain in the vat/hooked up to a machine idea, I just didn’t phrase it correctly haha. It’s just so hard for me to disprove it to myself, though, probably because of the “what if” thoughts like “What if you’re just trying to tell yourself you’re real because the machine your brain is hooked up to wants to keep you in line” and I don’t believe these thoughts but it’s always the “what if”
@@samanthacooper9398 yeah, I get what you mean. It's like you're stuck in the middle, and it can cause a lot of anxiety when there's always that possibility in your mind. Personally, I don't believe that it's possible for that to happen, and I can't believe I was stuck in that thought loop. Basically, why would some scientist want to create you? Let's set a baseline first. This world that the scientist is in, must be very similar to your world, because of the law of similarity (which I call it). Because, just like how you can't think of a new number or colour, a person from another world can't just randomly think of another world with different physics and reality entirely. So they must be a future human. Okay, but why would a future human make some human think they are in the past, a time where no humans could possibly do something like this (we don't even know how the brain works very well yet, and simulating conciousness may be impossible). Well, in truth, there is no real reason why this would happen. Unless of course, your conciousness is a "back to the past" theme, but we're literally in the most boring time compared to that civilization. We're not close enough to their tech, and we're far from the early days of humans. Also, I don't think it's possible to trick the brain into thinking it's a different reality entirely. I'm a firm believer in that, there absolutely must be a reality to expietence, for you to actually experience it. Also, if you're someone who believes in God, why would God allow these types of worlds to happen in the first place? God would want you to be present in base reality. Even if you don't believe in God, just really think for a second which is more probable. You're in base reality, where conciousness is the one mystery, and there are others just like you that you've known your entire life. Or, some scientist created you for whatever reason, which is probably illegal in that world because humans care for other humans and there would be laws against created concious beings, but you didn't know about it until you got DPDR or something along those lines. And don't even get me started about the computer simulation garbage. How do you create another simulation within a simulation, if the only people experiencing the simulation are in the simulation? Come on... please don't listen to those things. Perhaps I can't compell you with just this one comment, but imagine a future human race. Why would anyone create you in this exact situation. Soon you'll realize, the universe was meant to be this way. If you wanna talk u can send me an email at ram.dib2000@gmail.com If there's anything I can confirm for you, it's that I'm real lol and my back hurts so imma stop typing this comment and go lie down
I had a full blown panic attack bc I was with friends and my bf one night and a friend said « we had a crazy week damn » and I tried to remember my week and especially the day before and I couldn’t so I started to think « what if I have DID ?? » so I asked my bf « what did we do yesterday ? » and he looked at me and said « um idk I don’t remember » (like a normal fucking human being lmao) and I started freaking out bc my anxiety told me « ok your bf doesn’t exist, he is in your head so he can’t remember yesterday too » and I told my anxiety « no ! He exists our friends see him! » and my anxiety respond « they might not exist either ! » and I started to panick, next thing I knew, I was sleeping in the psychward for a night lmao
I've been having this for 9 days now. It all started with the great panic attack of October 9th, one day before I would go to my new university after I dropped out of my other one. My experience has been hell, especially the first days. You feel like reality as whole is gonna split open any second now and you will face nothingness, god or whatever in the eye and you're not gonna like what you see. It feels like you are gonna drop dead any moment now. I always ask what the fuck are humans, what is humanity, what the fuck is what I'm seeing right now? And when I can't answer my head hurts and I can't concentrate on anything. I've been like that 24/7 for the past 8 days. I've seen some improvement in the form of starting to get annoyed at it rather than scared. I catch myself saying things like "come on then show me the thing I'm most afraid of" or "CONSUME ME IF YOU CAN"... I can't even remember what it means to be normal anymore. I just hope that I can get through this as soon as possible and I forget how it even was... I just want to be like I was before.
@@DanielMartinez-hr2zu Hey man. You are right it will get better. It's been going on for 2 months now but it's not always the same. Sometimes it's worse and sometimes is better. I think today I had a major breakthough because I realized it can't do shit to me. Everything stays and will always stay the same, I'm still the same person regardless of the thoughts I make or how anxious I am. Once I actually accepted that it seemed to lift kinda significally for the first time. I mean I could recognize my voice again after 2 months. I believe that this is the attitude we must have if we want to become 100% better. Basically a IDGAF mentality and just ignore it. I mean regardless of how bad I felt nothing ever happened to me. I didn't die, I didn't go crazy, I didn't fade out of existence. So yeah it's just anxiety and we just HAVE to let it go .
That’s awesome man! Great attitude! I’m the same way some moments are bad but some I can feel relief. I’m to the point where it’s like “well you haven’t hurt or killed me now don’t think you ever will” excepting is key to beating this and just keeping your mind busy! Also I like to write in a journal every day. I know it may sound silly but it’s good to write down my days in a note book so I can look back at my progress. 🙏🏼
I think a BIG thing that helped me was knowing I’m not the only person who goes through this. Makes me feel human if that makes sense lol and most people I meet that have gone through this are some of the chilliest people because I think they just appreciate life.
@@DanielMartinez-hr2zu That's so true man. The day I say "Holy shit I have not thought about DPDR in a while and I feel normal" I'll probably appreciate every morning I wake up and not feel like I'm losing my mind also I will set goals and actually do everything in my power to accomplish them. Generally I think that after this hell is over you probably don't fear anything anymore.
Sounds abit like a Psychosis 🤔 My experience is a bit the same, except that I forgetting things so fast like what I have did for about 3 min ago or become fast confused. Sometimes when I watch a Movie I can't understand what the interaction is like I lost for a moment my cognitive skills. It's so scary I'm trying to tell myself it's the DPDR not Dementia or something like that. I'm 24 years old and very young to get Dementia or something similar to that. DPDR is really the Biggest Challenge in my Whole life Mentally speaking. I'm even Afraid to go out, my fear is to get confused and never find back home or go Insane🤕
It's not psychosis. It's just IRRATIONAL thoughts. In psychosis, AFAIK, you don't ever question or challenge your delusional thoughts. You just think they are true and act accordingly. In DP/DR, we know these are just thoughts, we don't really believe in them.
@@teresawhiteindependentscen4238 I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels that way. Mine is now coming and going. Before it was constant, so that’s a good sign at least. I know everything goes around me is obviously real, it’s just a feeling and feelings aren’t facts 💯
@@teresawhiteindependentscen4238 same, i had suicidal thoughts because of dp/dr and my brain thinks this comment is just made by my mind to convince me
@@Nuts58-t9x I’m so sorry that you have experienced suicidal thoughts. DP/DR has a way of totally controlling your life and making it feel so horrible. Do you still feel that way? I was at that point a few times myself.
Notice how you brush aside your fear of solipsism by making up an emotion that seemed others are separate from you and feeling which is what you were doing before the fear began. Its a cope
Hey Swamy;
I've got DP/DR 2 months ago. And I've watched a lot of videos about this sickness. Read a lot of articles. And you my friend, you saved me from that pithole.
You there. I'm talking to you. You are going it now, you are depersonalized and you are reading this comment. Don't be bothered with the people that talking like ''I've got it like 20 years.'' I was so stressed with those comments i actually cried infront of computer. I stopped eating, i can't go to work or get out cause i'm too afraid of that i'm going to make mistakes, i was so foggy i even can't talk with my friends sometimes. Swamy is right. Accept it. That's the only solution. I know this seems very weird. You guys are mad at me cause ''how can i accept it? it's consuming.'' I know. But that's the only way. Most helpful videos about my DP/DR story was how to accept your intrusive thoughts and overcoming dp fears. Stop asking yourself or checking yourself. It will pass. I promise.
I've recovered %100 . I'm not saying %95. %100.
Thank you Swamy. I've recovered with you.
This comment brings me so much joy. So happy for you Onur!
@@RealSwamyG I'm happy my friend. Thanks to you. You are so kind.
Thank you for the comment, seriously, I had a first panic attack ever 5 months ago, and I’ve been dealing with anxiety ever since, derealization was bugging me but I was so busy handling the other symptoms that I didn’t pay so much attention to it. The anxiety level dropped dramatically, but the DP arose as the last symptom, and I started being really afraid of it and when people say that they experience it for more than 2yrs freaks me out BIG TIME. Swamy and other coaches on this are helping me a lot, so is the recovery stories and hope provided by that.
Anyone know how to deal with the fear of just letting go and not being afraid ? I seem stuck trying to let go of the fear. It feels like the fear is all I know and if I don't have that fear I'll be a different person, a person I don't know how to deal with. No one teaches you how to not be afraid of a new you emmerging when you try to just let go and accept
kassie p Actually, 1 month ago me, can say, letting go and live your life is the best you can do for yourself. It doesn’t go away in two days, but as a keep living my life and achieving things despite of it, feels like curtains are lifting. It’s an amazing feeling, by the way. Overwhelming, but incredibly.
I had thoughts of me waking up in an alternate reality, waking up in some other world and thoughts like I was not real, nothing surrounding me was real, etc. Thoughts like these are really scary and they instantly cause a panic attack. For some days, I was afraid of sleeping because I thought I was about to wake up in some other reality. But then, one day I snapped out of DP/DR. After haunting me for a long, long time it went away. Now, I just laugh at the insane thoughts that I faced. Cheers mate 👍
Good for you Ganesh! I hope people reading your comment feel hopeful about their own recovery.
Any tips
congratulations man. I wish myself this.....
@@RealSwamyG due to the current state of anxiety and derealization, I instilled in myself such a worldview based on existential thoughts that all human activity in life is built on the secretion of certain hormones (or brain biochemistry, the essence is the same), so more and more I do not see the point in human relationships, in art, study, career, travel, yes and throughout life, because all this in the context of such thoughts is fake, ephemeral.
Because of this, I experience a terrible depression, and it seems that I will never be able to be as happy as before. That this stupid "philosophy of nihilism" will become entrenched in my personality, and either I have to somehow morally come to terms with it, or I simply cannot do it, driving myself into an even stronger depression, and as a result - suicide.
I already can hardly believe that these existential thoughts can let you go along with the anxiety and derealization, as other popularizers of the topic claim. This brings terrible moral torment. Still, other people in this state, it seems to me, at least hold on to something in their life, but I fell into such a pit, from which I see less and less a way out, and after all, only 3 months have passed since everything started. I feel wild guilt from all this, because if it were not for the smoked "joint", then I would be a happy person. Now I think that on the basis of such a destructive worldview for me and the whole condition in general, my life is ruined, because in the past I did not adhere to such a way of thinking, and it seems that this will be fixed in my new, not so good personality. Did we have something? What should I do in this case?
And also, a often think about existencial thoughts like: "What is the meaning of the art of creativity? What does this activity give people?" You know, many people advise to be distracted by movies, TV shows, music, and so on, in order to shift your focus from monitoring your condition. But because of such thoughts, it is extremely difficult to do it.
And, in principle, I no longer seem to understand how human society works. It seems that I am superfluous in it, but at the same time I think philosophically in the context that "everything is clear to me, and there is nothing else to do in this world." This is terrible.
@@RealSwamyG answer me, please. 🙏
Man the beggining really helped me realised I am not the only one :)
U r not alone I'm too.🤖
Hahaha yes me 2 :)
Same
Do you also struggle with solipsism?
i feel disconnected from my past memories, as they have happened in other world, but i know it is my same life
Know exactly what u mean like they feel distant but you’ll never forget them, your previous state of conscious has already embedded them before you became dissociated
Remember being in the shower and thinking "I'm going to wake up in bed any minute now" and it just haunted me, haunted me so badly the feeling of "I'll wake up soon". Then there is the feeling of "switching dimentions" like I feel as if the same people and world are around me but I'm in a different dimension, everything feels off and I'm the only one who can tell, it's like a whole new me and whole new dimension but everything is the same I just know it's "off" and it's not my "home dimension"
My biggest fear is that i will never be the way i was, i mean i will never be able to feel joy and enjoy life again
Holy Apostle hold on there buddy I’m with you
Your emotions will return. If your DP/DR was brought up as a result of some trauma, look into processing that trauma.
I totally understand what you mean. I have this fear too. When you’re in dp/dr it really feels like it’s going to be a permanent state of existence. But according to professional opinion it’s just like a temporary wave we have to ride.
Same 😔
@@pouyan_m you'll be absolutely fine man. I'm recovering as I type this :)
My biggest fear is losing complete control over my own actions because this experience has made me feel so detached it’s as if I don’t feel like I am in control of the simple actions I take. I guess control is just a big issue for me.
Yeah, the need to control is the root of all anxieties. Sometimes, you can try to challenge yourself to lose complete control. It can scary, but it also makes you call out anxiety/DP on it's bluff.
Swamy G I just discovered you last night. I really enjoyed your ebook. Thank you for doing what you do. I’ve felt so lost up until this point.
Same! I had to hold on to the barriers at the train station
same here
It might sound a bit crazy and weird I have all the really the thoughts Swami told I have solipsist thoughts , illusion thoughts , obsessive thoughts , alien , parallel world etc I am trying to get out of these thoughts but my mind keeps controlling me and I am getting disconnected with the world bruh
I feel extremely weird and things and people around me looked so weird that I cannot explain. I feel like I am looking them for the very first time as I am born now . I feel like I have lost my past memory about things . Is it normal to feel weird during derealization???
Yes I have felt just like how you feel.
How are you now
This!!! Except with also- as if I was already informed of what things were and meant/who people are. I just hadn’t experienced it for myself yet. So I knew- but it felt new.
This video saved my life. The comfort of knowing that other people I’ve dealt with this, too, is amazing. If you are reading this, you’re not alone.
The way you explain things are SPOT ON BRILLIANT
I'm going through derealization right now, I can relate to all of them! 😂
Great video, you explain it to calmly, great to know I'm not the only one!
How did you recover from solipsism?
Hearing you explaining the same thoughts I’d been having from a recovered state of mind is so relieving to hear truly. Thank you so much.
When I look at my parents I feels like why are they like this in a Human form, why am I like human. I am just freaking out due to this feeling. 😭
I have all fears that you mentioned in this video + fear of losing control over my own actions and killing somebody or myself. That's scary
How are you now?
How are you now Eryk?
Oh God same,im scared of people,myself,outside world. Like what if i go out and see people and dont know how to act and hurt them or myself. It feels like I don't recognize myself or others. This started like almost 3 weeks ago
I permanently tend to conduct self talks, which makes me afraid. It feels like I am speaking to another person although that person is still me. I know that this is the case (just me) but it feels strange and triggers fear
Idk if this helps but I’ve felt the exact same and deal w dpdr. It’s just heightened awareness and anxiety. I’ve felt this way when recording videos and hearing myself talk. I also have felt this way when I’m feeling derealized and engage in conversation. Hearing my voice or even the act of speaking seems odd even though I’ve spoken my whole life 😂 it’s just anxiety. nothing to worry about.
Hey,,swamy G. As the state of derealization and depersonalizaton is very scary and uncomfortable but Your videos greatly help me to lower my anxiety and fear about derealization.Great work.I am glad to know that i am not alone in suffering from dp.
I’ve had this on and off for the past year and i feel like im losing hope :( It gets so bad at night. I just want to feel like I used to. I never used to think about ANY of this stuff. I just hope and pray that Ill finally recover soon. Thank you for making these videos! Nobody else really talks about dp/dr
Let's pray
How do you feel now? Xxx
Were you afraid of solipsism?
Are you still afraid of solipsism?
OMG 2:50 I had the same exact fear it was so so scary I looked it up and found nothing about it, I was afraid of seeing, hearing, feeling thing in my head, it was so bizarre, Im so happy to see someone who I can relate to ❤❤
That's me to! How are you now 2 years later?
@@carminaaispuro6337 What are you afraid of dear?
Another great video Swamy! I was full of myself for far too long and it only held me back. Accepting who I am has been one of the greatest realizations in life and has structured my life in a way where I now strive to be the best person I can be instead of settings false & irrational expectations, ultimately setting myself up for failure.
I now ask questions (however dumb) when I don't understand something and seek clarity instead of pretending to know something I don't. I finally feel comfortable knowing I'm not always the smartest guy in the room. My deepest fear was not being able to meet the expectations I personified to the world but now my deepest fear is not pushing myself to become the best *I* can be. Well, that or heights. :P
the hearing my own thoughts one has been huge for me, thank you for this video cleared most of my fear of it and knowing im not alone
How are you now a year later?
I’ve been suffering from it since I’m 5 because of childhood traumas but nothing can help me as I’m obsessed with existential thoughts and while I have no answers for these questions I think like I’m crazy and nothing is real
Are you afraid of solipsism?
Only your voice is comforting me, god bless u, u r a good soul
Hey, thanks. And wish you a full recovery!
My thoughts almost exactly, DP fell out of the sky on the night of December 2nd last year for me, my life hadnt been going that well for a few years prior and I understood it as a wake up call. Im glad I discovered the youtube channels that discuss this. My fears included (im on the downward part of this now but not out of it yet) Solipsism, that everybody I had ever cared about was imaginery, fear that I was in a matrix like existence and that maybe I existed in a world outside the realm of god and god couldnt hear me or knew i existed and i would have to suffer in silence. I also would go to be every night for about a aweek feeling like I was going to wake up somewhere else, in a field, on the street, or in another universe, thankfully this fully passed. Recently I experienced a small spike in this feelings and they can basically be boiled down to the following, fear that I cant trust my sense or cognition and fear that ill be eternally separted from those I care about (or anybody is seperted from who they care about). I watched one of your videos earlier today and your description of being "bewildered by reality" is spot on, thats just what it is, its like this feeling of JAMAISE VU, that I cant shake, what is all this stuff, what is this sound coming out of my mouth, what is color shape dimension proportion space time etc, what does it mean to exist? Im on the downward, I will make it, AS WILL ALL OF YOU, REALITY IS NOT SCARY, IT IS GOOD, we all already know this, we just have to accept it.
Well said my friend
This is exactly I felt like, slowly coming out of it, hopeful to get completely relieved.
@@hamza3065 hey! How are you doing now? I’m going through the same thing currently
That last part is me to! Like omg I'm alive and what is coming out of my mouth! How are you now?
Hi, how are you now?
Mine wake me up in fear , it's worse when I try to go to bed it's annoying at this point.
Did you recover?
Are you afraid of solipsism?
@@beeberry8055 no mate
Did you or any one else with DPDR get any VISUAL symptoms???? Like floaters, or flashes of light???
Hey Swamy and anybody else active on this feed. Did anybody else struggle with any of the following (trying to determine if what I have would be considered DP) - deep thoughts about the brain (Am I just a brain? If so, does it control me or do I control it?), struggles with Somatic OCD (weird feelings like a disconnect between my brain and body, how am I walking? how am I taking deep breaths? how, how, how?), complete loss of self (Am I a brain with a body? A body with a brain? Where am I? What am I?).. I know it's a lot, but Swamy's videos have given me a ton of insight, just wondering if any others have experienced this weird existentialism?
Yes I have struggled with some of these thoughts... just today actually. I'm still trying to come down completely. How are you?
Hey @Swamy G - thanks for making this video ♥
My issue is the severe calmness and feeling of being in another dimension when I am calm. People falling in live etc, I cant feel a thing because I'm in this feeling of too much comfort I start to over think stuff.
I am afraid of getting amnesia, forgetting who I am. Please tell me how to deal with it.
I relate
I relapse after 5 years of being recovered from dpdr. I am feeling somewhat better, but I still have a lot of thoughts that are bothering me. Unfortunately lately I can’t stop thinking about death, because it’s inevitable and terrifying to me. I’ve always been afraid of it, but I can’t stop thinking about it to this degree. I just wish I could stop fearing it so much.
@itsallhushhush Hi, my story is similar. Dpdr came back after many years, and my main symptom now is existential thoughts and the fear of death or disappearing. How are you now ?
Solipsism has been freaking out too creepy as heck
Anxiety Kidd saaaaaaame
Haha yeah I had that but I disproved it in my head. Notice how you had a time gap in your memory from before you were born. That must mean your imagination didn't create the universe, because if you did, you'd be an infinite being (a sort of God). And again, you can't be that since there was missing time. You had a beginning. What created you? Someone else. Something else. Boom solipsistic thoughts gone.
@@timbitpotato2546 God created us and the universe
@@dermalion6410 perhaps.
@@cameronwalas how are you feeling now?
A: My deepest fear is waking up from a coma and seeing I have a whole different life, different family and friends ect.
But “so what?” :)
I have this scary thought of ever existing or dissappearing into nothingness how can i overcome this?
i think i have fully recovered i felt like i was living in a dream and then couple weeks it went away i think but im scared if i wake up il have these feelings again but i just have lack of motivation
My greatest fear was that what would happen if my dp/dr would change into schizophrenia. It was really very scarey.
vishal kumar same
Is it true that can't get thru without seeing a psychiatrist!
same
Omg same
That is my biggest fear right now. Been experiencing dp/dr for a few months now. Is it normal if you have dp/dr to feel weird watching TV? Feeling like it’s not real even though you know it is
this was extremely helpful and I thank you for brining my mind at peace even if its for a time.
i can completely understand these dissociative symptoms as in the beginning i had them too, when i used to walk my brain asked why you walked? When i talked my brain again said why you talked? My brain also thought that this body doesn't belong to me, and the most weirdest thought that keeps coming in was "why the hell i can't see myself" except in mirror.and then same thing i felt like i am behind my eyes, seeing was not same as before, i knew somewhere that it is the same world like before but never seemed one. I felt as if my eyes were like a camera,some gaming app's front screen. Through which i can see so many things, i saw every detail at home at roads,and keep thinking like how the hell i can see so much??? But wait!! I always see things like that before too its same so why its kind of weird to me now? Finally It took me one year to understand that it's a kind of thought that keeps coming in i have to just let it go, if it is there then its ok let it be,just ignore and do your normal work. Whole year took me to understand that it was all in mind nothing was real. I know it is scary at the beginning. But as time passes it will heal. I am sure my buddy have faith in you. You will definitely overcome it. Be in touch. If you feel like talking. Loads of love and peace your ways. Stay strong i know you will overcome that
exactly .. why the hell i can't see myself ,my whole body ..except in mirror ...this is the one of the scary weird thought i also feel. And have yo ever question to yourself that now I'm thinking and feeling this and what might other peoples are thinking or felling right now.... different peoples have different thoughts, perception ..how could people are connected to each other ?? This is so weird 😓😓
@@sharmilakhanal7849 I can understand completely but it will go, don't you worry
My biggest fear is actually the dp/dr being part of a bigger issue such as dissociative identity disroder and just because i dissociate and don t feel in control and i daydream involuntarily makes me think that it's another identity that has taken control. Does anyone have this?
I have the exact same fear, I guess its not really going to happen, since alot of us experience that, its just an other symptom
I had this fear, maybe 8 months later you don’t have this fear anymore but for anyone else seeing this, DID doesn’t feel like that, people with DID don’t know they have it in most cases, they start to notice it when they have huge black outs in their days, it’s most likely not your case
I had the exact same thought, because i saw this movie with a person having DID. changing into different personalities, really scary. this types of persons are not aware at all, and with dpdr, we are aware of every thought etc. So no worries, its the anxiety making loops in the brain.
Hi swamy. Thanks so much for your help.the point no 4 which you mentioned. The fear of the own mind..like being aware of your own voice and that you have a mind and thoughts...scares the hell out of me...could you do a detailed version of that point??
I'd say stop looking for details. Tell yourself this is just depersonalization. Simplify, don't complicate.
Me to! That is like my biggest hang up. I hate it. How are you now?
I feel like if I get better I’ll never shake the weird thoughts I’ve come up with. So so complex especially since I have ocd
Do you struggle with solipsism?
@@beeberry8055 hey there no it was a subject I never bothered looking into, at least not too deep. Im also much better and my struggles with this are hardly ever a problem these days. I don’t find it useful to look for answers any longer so diving into solipsism isn’t something im interested in. I might have been when i was struggling.
@@louc8554 did you take any medication?
@@beeberry8055 I was coming off of medication when this first started not sure it had anything to do with it but I Wasn’t on any meds when I started feeling better.
@@louc8554 what were you afraid of?
SO WHAT DP✌🏻?!
Thanks for all the help swammy. And btw that hat is dope
Thanks brother.
I’ve literally had all of these lmaoooo #3 is the literal worst one, you explained it very well cuz i tried explaining this before and it’s sooo hard haha
I know, right? It's terrifying to feel like you are just gonna disappear.
How did you recover from solipsism?
@@RealSwamyG did you also have, at any point, a fear of death (perhaps sudden death - it's a similar type of fear to the fear of disappearing) ? Is it quite common during dpdr? Does it fade away along with other dpdr symptoms/OCD existential thoughts?
My biggest fear correlates with #5; I fear solipsism (I didn’t know there was a name for this theory until I looked it up and now I regret learning it) and my panic attack that started my DP/DR again was the realization (while I was on an antidepressant that I had to stop) that “Oh my gosh, I’ve only ever experienced my life through my own eyes and I exist in THIS body”. It’s such a weird thought that shouldn’t invoke anxiety but it’s been destroying me and making me question everything outside my mind :(
Have you asked yourself why you get to be the special one who gets to exist while everyone else is a figment of your imagination?
Swamy G I will try to ask myself this and hopefully the thought dies down with it. Also, is it normal to be “hyper aware of your existence” during DPDR? Like when it was really bad I had this “realization” that was like “Whoa I actually exist and I’m human” but for some reason it made me more anxious?
Samantha Cooper I’m going through this now. In fact I’ve watched this vid multiple times, it’s torture to live as I’m so aware of my own existence and mortality. A lot of this comes from the fact that my brother died a few years ago when I was 10-I need to process that trauma, and I’ve reached out for help in order to do so. And hopefully, through bereavement counselling and other possible therapies, I can forget being hyper aware of existing, and the obsessional instructive thoughts-especially the existential, solipsistic ones-will go once I find happiness and meaning in life once again. It’s made me super depressed, but I wanna live man. I’ve had literally every fear he’s mentioned here, I’m still dealing with it, but like he says they’ll slowly lose their power over me once I process my childhood traumas. Life is too good to be like this-help is hope :)
@@haydenluckett255 were you depressed because of solipsism?
Did the antidepressant help with solipsism?
My main fear rn is that I’m repeating lives because some evil demon god entity is punishing me 😭
i literally have had this same fear for the past few weeks and i don’t know why it feels so real, like i genuinely try not to believe it logically but my irrational anxious side comes up with these new beliefs everyday. this plus the solipsism really makes it feel like there’s no escape for me. how are you doing now??
do anyone felt strange about his thoughts or how the thought come from or going be crazy, or how I talk and think and always، And he always turns his actions and thoughts and wants to escape from them because they disrupt his life. Am I alone or someone like me?
I constantly think about vastness of Universe, what is Universe, what is reality, how can something even exist, what is existence, where existence took a start itself, what goes after death etc. I started feel hatred about stars, space because space and the whole elements of it scares me. I'm also petrified about death, I've lost the sense of my life, I dunno why should I even live. Nevertheless, I'm petrified about living my life. I'm scared of my OWN EXISTENCE. I cannot understand how can I even exist, live because I don't understand what is life at all. I think about infinity, the distant corners of the Universe, another dimensions etc but I live in a tiny planet the Universe even doesn't care about. The entire world scares me a lot. I lost my enthusiasm about life, my goals seem meaningless because I constantly think about death.
Is it okay during this disorder?????
Its normal, dont worry :) It will pass. Its all just fear and stress. Think about it.
Its hard, but it gets better. Trust yourself.
Omg same how are you now???
Thanks for sharing your fears and thoughts. I felt today especially that I am here and aware of everything around me but it's not real. It causes panic. Because somewhere I know it's real and I'm real and I have a history. It feels disconnected. I am afraid that I will succumb to these thoughts and believe them as true.
I know how scary that panic can be. How are you now girl?
BRO U ARE SPOT ON
Why do I feel like life’s a video that will end and that nothing is really happening, nobody is living. Like, imagine theres nothing inside everything. Times not real, so is the universe. I cant trust people, or things.
My biggest fear is the fear of going crazy
Yup, that was my biggest fear as well. But it never came true.
@@RealSwamyG but when ever I hard a dream, I'm always normal in my dreams
@@aishaibrahim9719 oh same, its kinda weird, isnt it ?
Hey Swamy. So I stopped experiencing derealization and that out of body experience. Existential thoughts are gone.
My problem is that I still don't feel like I'm me.. My personality, the person who I used to be. It's gone. Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy. I still can't stay alone with my thoughts. I just can't get myself back like I forgot who I really am.. Will this also disappear?
It takes time. Also, your personality isn't set in stone. Every experience changes you a bit. Eventually, everything will be integrated once again. You will take in these new experiences and add it to your old personality to make something newer.
Due to the current state of anxiety and derealization, I instilled in myself such a worldview based on existential thoughts that all human activity in life is built on the secretion of certain hormones (or brain biochemistry, the essence is the same), so more and more I do not see the point in human relationships, in art, study, career, travel, yes and throughout life, because all this in the context of such thoughts is fake, ephemeral.
Because of this, I experience a terrible depression, and it seems that I will never be able to be as happy as before. That this stupid "philosophy of nihilism" will become entrenched in my personality, and either I have to somehow morally come to terms with it, or I simply cannot do it, driving myself into an even stronger depression, and as a result - suicide.
I already can hardly believe that these existential thoughts can let you go along with the anxiety and derealization, as other popularizers of the topic claim. This brings terrible moral torment. Still, other people in this state, it seems to me, at least hold on to something in their life, but I fell into such a pit, from which I see less and less a way out, and after all, only 3 months have passed since everything started. I feel wild guilt from all this, because if it were not for the smoked "joint", then I would be a happy person. Now I think that on the basis of such a destructive worldview for me and the whole condition in general, my life is ruined, because in the past I did not adhere to such a way of thinking, and it seems that this will be fixed in my new, not so good personality. Did we have something? What should I do in this case?
And also, a often think about existencial thoughts like: "What is the meaning of the art of creativity? What does this activity give people?" You know, many people advise to be distracted by movies, TV shows, music, and so on, in order to shift your focus from monitoring your condition. But because of such thoughts, it is extremely difficult to do it.
And, in principle, I no longer seem to understand how human society works. It seems that I am superfluous in it, but at the same time I think philosophically in the context that "everything is clear to me, and there is nothing else to do in this world." This is terrible.
Hey you are here too.. i had seen your comment on shaan kassam post on facebook ..hope you are feeling good 🙂
@@sharmilakhanal7849 oh, really? Shaan blocked me there. I don't understand what's reason it. Maybe for frequent commenting)
And, did u have something? How are u now?
@@sharmilakhanal7849 I wrote this comment everywhere, because it worries me the most, u know? And and more recently, issues related to human purpose, implementation. Like where we are all going, for what. And what I need in this life. Before, I somehow understood what was needed, lol)
@@sharmilakhanal7849 I remember you it seems. In general, nothing has really changed yet, but I already work remotely with a good psychotherapist. He will prescribe me a prescription for drugs, and we talked with him, sorting out many points (but these have not yet been sorted out).
He argues that for the most part, these various kinds of existential and philosophical questions arise from a lack of feelings and emotions. There is no feedback from life events, do you understand? And this state, no matter how we analyze it from a scientific point of view, still seems to us very diverse in its specifics, and such questions arise from this.
Well, I hope so, and I will get rid of it, and not lay hands on myself. 🙂
@@livuair yeah I'm also going through these weired philosophical and existential thoughts and question but as i learned to accept and surrender myself to this I'm feeling better ,, I'm suffering this from 10 months . It is not gone completely but some reliefs i can feel nowdays .. I'm having my setbacks again and again thas why i checkout swamy g videos that makes me some releif to know I'm not only one who is suffering this .. please don't worry you are not alone .Dont react your weird thoughts..they popup randomly i know how unpleasant and daunting feeling is and other people just don't understand us .. now our option is don't to react those nihilism philosophical thoughts. Dont block them too .welcome them to come and go but just don't react and fight .. learn to ignore them ..and yes you can do . you learn to do . They are not gonna be done overnight . It takes time. Yes it will go slowly . Less your stress .🙂
Thank you so much you really helped me a lot🙏😭
how do u start healing from derealization..
Hi, i just see my eyes, all focus is on eyes ..its been 3 months of dp/dr..i feel as if my eyes are camera, seeing things is not same for me now i feel strange seeing same things that i use to see before..what to do
I have the same thing, you're not alone in this!!
@@InspirePulse1111 how u deal with it
@@meenudangalgirl just accept it, although it seems so hard to accept! When you do it will get better🙏
wow same here i focus my eyes movements i have a question like how my eyes are moving what if i cannot move my eyes i have these thought and it make me really anxious.
@@popoooo09 i would suggest to ignore such thoughts i know its nt easy..but its nt impossible, i am ignoring these thoughts and feeling better
Hey Swamy thanks for your videos :) They help a lot. So I wanted to ask if someone else has had this: apart from the feelings of dp dr and irrational fears such as 'life doesn't feel real, im in another dimension, what if i stop existing...' I also have a super big fear of not being able to connect with my memories and being scared of time. Like, I question myself constantly what the meaning of 'future', 'past' and 'present' mean and I feel like I am trapped in the present. In an irreal present. I mean, I can remember everything and I can talk about the future but everytime I think about what I'm going to do or a memory comes to my mind, I feel scared cause I can't understand the meaning and nature of time. What if time stops suddenly? Also, it actually doesn't exist cause we made it up... idk I am aware of how crazy this can sound but it scares the shit ut of me. Is this an existential thought? Thanks :)
How are you now girl?
Hi, how are you now? I get similar existential thoughts.
Have you recovered?
@@ashleyriosrizo i'm great :) it's been a journey but don't worry, even though they seem like 'crazy thoughts', i learnt that they're just thoughts. If your going through this, I know it sucks but keep this in mind: it's just your head going on panic mode. In the end, none of this matters, it's just a lot of anxiety. But the same way you got yourself there, you will undo the knot in your head. You just need time, patience and stop looking for answers cause YOU ARE OKAY. YOU'RE JUST SCARED OF EVERYTHING. Anxiety is not something static, it changes and the more your body gets used to that feeling of fear, the more it understand there's actually nothing to be afraid of. Don't look for answers, but look for a therapist for example, someone you can trust and talk about these thoughts that bother you. You've had quiet and happy moments innyour life and I assure you first hand that you will have them again. You're just afraid of life cause it's your brain thinking you're in danger when you're actually not at all. But you have to learn it the hard way: by being scared and accepting that you'll have to keep having this veery uncomfortable feeling for a bit of time until your brain learns that it's actually a bunch of irrational thoughts. Trust me, you'll be okay. Just stop looking for answers cause actually everyone has these same questions about time and life... But they only bother u cause you're scared and anxiety has taken over. But you'll get better
@@marial3301 hey so I was obsessed with recovery at that time and do you know what actually helped me? Not wanting to recover. Instead, with a bit of help and a lot of patience, I learnt to live with those questions. It was damn hard because for me, these thoughts meant i was losing my mind and that meant something terrible would happen. But that was the way: showing yourself that yeah, anything can happen and maybe i lose my mind. And while i lived with that fear, i made my body feel all those uncomfortable sensations and thoughts. You will find your peace but maybe you'll first need to lose your fear and even though it's a tough process, it's a training for your mind and you'll definitely become waaaay stronger and happier once you learn how you feel fear and the tricks that your mind plays on you. You'll get better I know it, cause I am ♥️ asking yourself if you'll ever get better seems like a reasonable question for your agitated mind right now, but it's the same as asking yourself 'will i ever get better?" after a break up. You don't know, but you probably know that you will, since most people do. And also that's not the point. The point is that you listen to your body to understand yourself better and grow into the wonderful person you're about to be rn. Way less scared and way braver than who u are now 🔥 listen to your body, understand that it's just scared. The little kid within you is asking for help for some reason and it's the time in your life that you need to start paying attention to yourself and learn to live with fear for a bit cause that's what ur body needs rn.
@@ashleyriosrizo hi, how are you? :)
I cant bear my thoughts they are like an imagination i obsess over them being like this but i learned rhat a noisy mind isnt helpful lol most people want a quiet mind.
Swaami sir i have no blurr vission and no existensiol fears but from past 2 months i feel detached from everything .im just 17 and im not able to understand what i should do plsssss help mee that how can i recover i ve watched many videos but i dont understand im sooo depressed😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
Hey Sammy , i had dp/dpr 2 months ago and it went a way for like a week and then it came back with all these fears of going crazy and i sometimes feel like the walls are moving and everything is moving and it gets really scary. Will i get over this?
Did you??
Thank you for this video brother ❤
Jesi se oporavio?
Hey Swamy
I have the symptoms of dpdr from few months but the symptoms now changed now the dream like is reduced but the places are looking wierd.
I went to pyschaitriast i tell him that i feel detached then he asks me questions like do u hear noise , that somebody is calling u . Do u see faces etc we'll i don't hear or see things that he said till i gone to him but after going to the pychatrist i developed a fear what if i developed those symptoms and the fear is so intense that sometimes i hear that somebody called me when i surrounded by people s or i hearing some thing I'm in state of fear crying in my bed.
Please help that these are my only perception or something else
So I am fifteen I smoked weed had a bad trip on it then three weeks later had a panic attack cause a sugar buzz ever since that sugar buzz I haven't been the same I got dpdr cuz the sugar buzz it's been like 3 weeks I had with the dpdr it is miserable my emotions are numb and I ain't feel alive anymore I remember one night I was texting my brother and as I was typing my fingers kept going and my brain kind of froze and it was like I was in someone else's body and I was watching through their eyes I dont feel alive like I'm dreaming and my emotions are numb (just want to say I appreciate you❤)
Are you okay now?? I'm 15 and kinda the same as you rn.. it's getting really better though
Thanks a lot!
Just thanks
Swamy i feel weird looking at my wife..n all people
..how long time u have all this?
Are you afraid other people are not real?
To be honest i wish to forget everything in the past when dpdr happened. I regret so much mistakes i have done and i just want my life back. These thoughts and feelings are like slowly consuming me or should i say fear is. But question. If dpdr is gone and anxiety does it mean these symptoms are gone. If so when im fully recovered and I remember these things can it put me back to dpdr?
thanks swamy g
Thank you 💌
Thank u swami g
Did you have thoughts that what if depersonalisation isn’t even real either
All the time! That’s my current fear
i fear not i will not love my family as before
Hi Swamy! You have great content. I was just wondering what your take on medication for DPDR is? I know there’s no specific medication that’s supposed to treat this condition but anxiety and depression are closely tied to it, at least with my experience. Since I’ve been taking an SNRI, an atypical antipsychotic and beta blocker..my symptoms have not been as severe and I’ve been able to eat again, sleep more and not wake up each morning shaking in fear. I feel like medication has been what has helped me to think a bit more logically in order to recover. I really did not want to start medication but I felt like I was going to die from not eating or sleeping enough :( not to mention, I was suicidal each day as well which has subsided quite a bit as well. Did you take any medication during your recovery? Just curious. Thanks.
Medication is fine. Especially in some cases, meds can be a boon. But my understanding is that medication doesn't treat the underlying root cause. It only helps you not feel the symptoms anymore. This is good if you are feeling super overwhelmed that you are non-functional. But the problem I think is that meds after a while stand in the way of recovery.
I believe you recover by letting yourself feel these feelings. This is why I never took any medication.
Anyway, this is just my opinion and not professional medical advice.
Swamy G Thank you for your opinion and your advice 🙏🏻
Swamy G Without any meds, I am on full fight or flight mode 24/7. It literally felt like it was killing me slowly every day. I was shaking so much all throughout the day, pupils dilated and stomach and chest in knots. Muscles were tensed up all the time too. Plus I was crying and freaking out all the time and barely able to function at all. Have you heard of people recovering despite being on medication? I’m worried I won’t be able to get better because of the fact that I’m on medicine but I don’t know how else to survive right now. Also, the medicine hasn’t taken away my DP symptoms, it’s just made them less severe/debilitating.
@@amethystclouds8750 maby working with a very good therapist would be helpful if you want to really get off meds and recover. Some intense therpay at least twice per week. Also look up SAMe, it's a over the counter you can get that people swear by for reduction of depression and anxiety. Right now I'm at the exact same state as you are , like we sound exactly the same :'(
kassie p Wow, I’m so sorry that you’re suffering too :( I am seeing a therapist but only once a week and it’s not helping that much yet honestly. Are you on any medicine? Thank you for your advice and kind words 💕🙏🏻
Swammy,is it normal to like get weird about day night ; derealizing what night is what fay is
Yes nightime can have a special hold on DPDR sufferers. I remember feeling very uneasy as the sun starts to set. But I don't feel like that anymore.
@@RealSwamyG so glad you recovered.I too want this to be over soon,kinda doing measures ...
What if this video isn’t real an what if everything else isn’t real
I used to think same ,i still remember this shit😭 .. nowadays everything is gone I'm back to my normal life again .
@@sharmilakhanal3377 I’m jealous, you lucky mf
@@bibizaman2347bro how u doing. Im very jealous too😂
Dude!!! same feelings!!!
#4. Omg that's what I trip about!
Hey how long does it take to go when your in the recovery stage
It's different for everyone. You can't predict it. Also, wondering about how long it's going to be will cause you to add more stress to your recovery. ua-cam.com/video/lnMTk1hSgC4/v-deo.html
Oh wow. I remember when I thought I was an alien
My thoughts tell me you're not real 😂. I know and feel this is real but the thoughts popup harder when i watch videos like this.
I know exactly what you're talking about. It's all about breaking the "but what if" cycle. You're enjoying life, feeling like you understand that this thought or possibility is impossible, but then the thought comes up "...but what if? If this is all a dream world or a simulation or whatever, does nothing matter? My loved ones, my work, and accomplishments, nothing matters if this isn't reality." And so on. Break this cycle. I can assure you right now that you're not in some other reality or simulation or any of that. You're not some brain hooked up to a machine that is generating world for you. The people around you aren't robots. Notice how all of these thoughts came once you heard about them and thought about them. They weren't always in your head, but now it's "totally real and impossible to prove wrong." No, my friend. It's DPDR or Existential OCD or something along those lines that is messing with your thoughts. But it's okay. I'm going through the same sort of thought cycle now when I thought I had finally been done with these thoughts over 2 months ago. If you want the thoughts to be true, they will seem true. If you believe they aren't, then they aren't. And no I'm not also a figment of your imagination or something along those lines, I'm a human typing this out to you since you suffer from the same thing I suffer from. But it's okay, because now I'm recovering, and you can recover as well. I'll be back in a few months fully recovered. Bye :)
TimbitPotato I’m not OP but thank you for commenting this. I keep having scary thoughts about being the only one who exists and being controlled by a scientist or something and that my whole life hasn’t been real. I’m so scared but this comment brings me relief somewhat
@@samanthacooper9398 can I ask what you mean by being created by a scientist? I sort of get it, because I had a "what if I'm a brain hooked up to a machine in the real world" sort of thing. Believe me btw, these are all disprovable if you give it some thought
TimbitPotato Basically it’s the brain in the vat/hooked up to a machine idea, I just didn’t phrase it correctly haha. It’s just so hard for me to disprove it to myself, though, probably because of the “what if” thoughts like “What if you’re just trying to tell yourself you’re real because the machine your brain is hooked up to wants to keep you in line” and I don’t believe these thoughts but it’s always the “what if”
@@samanthacooper9398 yeah, I get what you mean. It's like you're stuck in the middle, and it can cause a lot of anxiety when there's always that possibility in your mind. Personally, I don't believe that it's possible for that to happen, and I can't believe I was stuck in that thought loop. Basically, why would some scientist want to create you? Let's set a baseline first. This world that the scientist is in, must be very similar to your world, because of the law of similarity (which I call it). Because, just like how you can't think of a new number or colour, a person from another world can't just randomly think of another world with different physics and reality entirely. So they must be a future human. Okay, but why would a future human make some human think they are in the past, a time where no humans could possibly do something like this (we don't even know how the brain works very well yet, and simulating conciousness may be impossible). Well, in truth, there is no real reason why this would happen. Unless of course, your conciousness is a "back to the past" theme, but we're literally in the most boring time compared to that civilization. We're not close enough to their tech, and we're far from the early days of humans. Also, I don't think it's possible to trick the brain into thinking it's a different reality entirely. I'm a firm believer in that, there absolutely must be a reality to expietence, for you to actually experience it. Also, if you're someone who believes in God, why would God allow these types of worlds to happen in the first place? God would want you to be present in base reality. Even if you don't believe in God, just really think for a second which is more probable. You're in base reality, where conciousness is the one mystery, and there are others just like you that you've known your entire life. Or, some scientist created you for whatever reason, which is probably illegal in that world because humans care for other humans and there would be laws against created concious beings, but you didn't know about it until you got DPDR or something along those lines. And don't even get me started about the computer simulation garbage. How do you create another simulation within a simulation, if the only people experiencing the simulation are in the simulation? Come on... please don't listen to those things.
Perhaps I can't compell you with just this one comment, but imagine a future human race. Why would anyone create you in this exact situation. Soon you'll realize, the universe was meant to be this way. If you wanna talk u can send me an email at ram.dib2000@gmail.com
If there's anything I can confirm for you, it's that I'm real lol and my back hurts so imma stop typing this comment and go lie down
I had a full blown panic attack bc I was with friends and my bf one night and a friend said « we had a crazy week damn » and I tried to remember my week and especially the day before and I couldn’t so I started to think « what if I have DID ?? » so I asked my bf « what did we do yesterday ? » and he looked at me and said « um idk I don’t remember » (like a normal fucking human being lmao) and I started freaking out bc my anxiety told me « ok your bf doesn’t exist, he is in your head so he can’t remember yesterday too » and I told my anxiety « no ! He exists our friends see him! » and my anxiety respond « they might not exist either ! » and I started to panick, next thing I knew, I was sleeping in the psychward for a night lmao
How did you recover?
I've been having this for 9 days now. It all started with the great panic attack of October 9th, one day before I would go to my new university after I dropped out of my other one. My experience has been hell, especially the first days. You feel like reality as whole is gonna split open any second now and you will face nothingness, god or whatever in the eye and you're not gonna like what you see. It feels like you are gonna drop dead any moment now. I always ask what the fuck are humans, what is humanity, what the fuck is what I'm seeing right now? And when I can't answer my head hurts and I can't concentrate on anything. I've been like that 24/7 for the past 8 days. I've seen some improvement in the form of starting to get annoyed at it rather than scared. I catch myself saying things like "come on then show me the thing I'm most afraid of" or "CONSUME ME IF YOU CAN"... I can't even remember what it means to be normal anymore. I just hope that I can get through this as soon as possible and I forget how it even was... I just want to be like I was before.
Yup this is me! We will get through this. 💪🏼
@@DanielMartinez-hr2zu Hey man. You are right it will get better. It's been going on for 2 months now but it's not always the same. Sometimes it's worse and sometimes is better. I think today I had a major breakthough because I realized it can't do shit to me. Everything stays and will always stay the same, I'm still the same person regardless of the thoughts I make or how anxious I am. Once I actually accepted that it seemed to lift kinda significally for the first time. I mean I could recognize my voice again after 2 months. I believe that this is the attitude we must have if we want to become 100% better. Basically a IDGAF mentality and just ignore it. I mean regardless of how bad I felt nothing ever happened to me. I didn't die, I didn't go crazy, I didn't fade out of existence. So yeah it's just anxiety and we just HAVE to let it go .
That’s awesome man! Great attitude! I’m the same way some moments are bad but some I can feel relief. I’m to the point where it’s like “well you haven’t hurt or killed me now don’t think you ever will” excepting
is key to beating this and just keeping your mind busy! Also I like to write in a journal every day. I know it may sound silly but it’s good to write down my days in a note book so I can look back at my progress. 🙏🏼
I think a BIG thing that helped me was knowing I’m not the only person who goes through this. Makes me feel human if that makes sense lol and most people I meet that have gone through this are some of the chilliest people because I think they just appreciate life.
@@DanielMartinez-hr2zu That's so true man. The day I say "Holy shit I have not thought about DPDR in a while and I feel normal" I'll probably appreciate every morning I wake up and not feel like I'm losing my mind also I will set goals and actually do everything in my power to accomplish them. Generally I think that after this hell is over you probably don't fear anything anymore.
Man it’s killing me slowly😔
Are you also struggling with solipsism?
I feel alien to humans
Swarmy, do u think anxiety is the reason of DP DR?
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Sounds abit like a Psychosis 🤔
My experience is a bit the same, except that I forgetting things so fast like what I have did for about 3 min ago or become fast confused. Sometimes when I watch a Movie I can't understand what the interaction is like I lost for a moment my cognitive skills. It's so scary I'm trying to tell myself it's the DPDR not Dementia or something like that. I'm 24 years old and very young to get Dementia or something similar to that. DPDR is really the Biggest Challenge in my Whole life Mentally speaking. I'm even Afraid to go out, my fear is to get confused and never find back home or go Insane🤕
It's not psychosis. It's just IRRATIONAL thoughts. In psychosis, AFAIK, you don't ever question or challenge your delusional thoughts. You just think they are true and act accordingly. In DP/DR, we know these are just thoughts, we don't really believe in them.
@@RealSwamyG Yeah you are right, hadnt thought of that
Same here ill forgot what i just did or think i didnt do it and then I got to a theater and watch a movie abd completely forget what i just saw
check lyme disease
@@martamoure7372 why?
I know this sounds funny, but is it normal if you have DP/DR to watch this and feel like you aren’t real even though I know you are?
Yes. I feel like this video isn’t real and I just made it up in my mind to convince myself derealization is real.
@@teresawhiteindependentscen4238 I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels that way. Mine is now coming and going. Before it was constant, so that’s a good sign at least. I know everything goes around me is obviously real, it’s just a feeling and feelings aren’t facts 💯
@@teresawhiteindependentscen4238 same, i had suicidal thoughts because of dp/dr and my brain thinks this comment is just made by my mind to convince me
@@MCcLc23 how are you now?
@@Nuts58-t9x I’m so sorry that you have experienced suicidal thoughts. DP/DR has a way of totally controlling your life and making it feel so horrible. Do you still feel that way? I was at that point a few times myself.
Notice how you brush aside your fear of solipsism by making up an emotion that seemed others are separate from you and feeling which is what you were doing before the fear began. Its a cope
I have 100 % recovered now I even smoke weed again
Bro how long u been with dip from weed?
Pls let me know and how u got recoverded?
Were you afraid of solipsism?
Thank you so much ❤