I recovered from depersonalisation it took 3 months I had mild dp and gad(general anxiety disorder) ...we have taken lot of things granted...I was just patient and started enjoying moments even in dp Whoever reading this comment don't lose patience...life after dp is great ❤️❤️
You seem to have grasped the truth to recovery. You have to be ok with feeling the symptoms. You have to be patient. You can't demand that DPDR leave you immediately. Be patient, try to find something to focus on in your life. If there are any stressors, mitigate them. Then DPDR will take care of itself.
@@RealSwamyG your videos too helped me a lot in the journey specially being patient related ❤️ thanks for adding values to many lives by your experience sir
@@RealSwamyGHello plz i need an answer im obsessed with my symptoms , actually i don’t want to think about it but i just can’t stop , please what should i doo? Can i stiël recover ?
My take on this is that everyone experiences DPDR they are just not aware. Even the ones who get aware just focus in their task and DPDR goes away after they complete the task (performance anxiety goes away) I found that people with DPDR are obsessive thinkers who try to give solutions to what happened to them (panic attacks, trauma, failure etc). and that they got DPDR after months and months of not doing what they wanted to do. (It’s like normal depression/anxiety but for highly intelligent and analytical people)
Ah I love it when you take also the spiritual part into DP cause I've felt from the first day with DP that there's also a deeper layer in the suffering - while the progress is still on I can say that I'm somehow grateful for DP ! It's annoying but I know that later this experience is maybe the most important part in my life for opening my eyes🙏🏽 So thankful for you for taking so much time for all of us here.
Hey Swamy I commented on one of your old videos about what’s going with my dpdr story. It’s been just over 4 month since I had my panic attack that put me in this and I’m almost completely recovered. I still kind of think about it a lot but I’m finding myself going a couple hours a day not thinking about which is such an awesome feeling. I cherish life and my relationship way more than I did before. Anyone out there goin through this just stick to the recovery and live life it’s not permanent and you will get over this. Thanks for the videos man you have done so much for me just in the past couple months! Keep doing what you’re doing!
I’m only 14 and I’m scared i feel like I’m always high or I’m in a dream. It’s been so long since I’ve been normal, I’m convincing myself that nothing really is real. It’s like dp/dr is taking over my mind
Same my whole family got covid and it set off my health anxiety which caused me to have panic attacks daily until I got to overwhelmed and disconnected (18 male btw) I'm pretty sure I'm outta of it but it's hard to forget and sometimes i question whether I'm really in the moment and the existential thoughts are killer but I try to ground myself and think about how I'm feeling in the moment and breathe.
I went through DPDR on three separate occasions. One time when I was in my mid-20s it lasted about a month. But I didn’t have time to question what it was because I was so busy. It ended up happening again for about a week not long after that. Because once you have a panic attack, it lowers the threshold, and you’re more susceptible to getting more panic attacks. I would say that those two panic attacks were fairly bad. The first one I ever had was worse than the second. Fast forward to 36 years old, 2022 was the worst year of my entire life probably. I had a really bad fight with my husband, at the beginning of the year, then my godmother died. Someone suggested to try a weed gummy. Stupid, I know because we’d never agreed with me, but I was so anxious and upset, I was desperate. The person that had talked me into it, said that weed is more commercialized now and you know what you’re getting. if you are uncomfortable about doing any drugs, do not do them! Especially if you’re highly sensitive person. Go figure, the weed gummy brought out all kinds of inner demons that I have been holding onto since my mid-20s that I wasn’t even aware of. All of the anxiety that I had between those years came out. My miscarriage, the horrible fights that I had with my husband afterwards, feeling like I ruin everything that I come across. To add salt to the wounds, I lost nine people in the year of 2022. Loved ones, and friends. All due to different reasons. Needless to say, that year was totally a curse! On top of it all I am already diagnosed with c ptsd. I have always felt like there was something wrong with me, Even though I’m very healthy. I’ve always had a clean bill of health, I’m a healthy weight, exercise, and do not take any medication’s! This combination brought on the most insanely horrible panic attack I have ever experienced in my life. It was so bad that I felt like I was having a heart attack. And I knew that it was happening, but it got so bad that I couldn’t even control it. I even fainted and woke up in a cold sweat.. I couldn’t fight it. Because, like I said, I had all of these suppressed emotions that came out! This event brought on a bout of DPDR that lasted for 7.5 months. It started off really bad, then it was more so a situational thing. I found that whenever I got anxious about some thing I went into a dream like state. It was very uncomfortable, I would question my existence, like many people on here have said. Towards the end of having a DPDR, I started getting extremely bad anxiety after coming out of the fog! Depression and moodiness too. I felt like I was stuck in a shell for so long that coming out of it was like sensory overload. My stomach kept getting that dropping sensation. Even though it was horrible, I would still prefer feeling emotions to feeling nothing at all. I decided to find a counselor to talk to. I actually went through three of them, and I finally found a winner on Teladoc! She is also someone who is recovering from panic. She definitely understood where I was coming from. To be honest, I think that most counselors are a waste of time and just in it for the money. So, if this is something that you’re interested, please shop around until you find one that you’re comfortable with. No shame in that. what helped me the most was watching these type of videos on UA-cam, doing self hypnosis, which I have also found on UA-cam, and I did a few sessions of EMDR therapy which really pushed me forward greatly. I would say an important thing to remember is that you’re not crazy, you’re just hyper aware. And you become obsessive about it. This is some thing that you will eventually grow out of, that’s the best way I can describe it. You literally get tired of thinking about it all the time so you just start to go about your daily tasks and ignore it. The more you pay attention to it the more it lingers. That and itself is a form of negative self hypnosis. It always helps to find somebody who is thoroughly trained in trauma and PTSD therapy. Or somebody who specializes in anxiety. Sorry for TLDR, but I just figure there’s people out there who need help with this topic. And it is something that you will definitely over a calm. You won’t be stuck this way forever. Please focus on what you need to change about your life, are you stuck in a stressful situation? A stressful relationship? A stressful household? Do you often use negative self talk? That’s a big one for me. I’m still working on changing that. But as of a few months ago, I am gladly DPDR free. If I can recover from DPDR on 3 separate occasions, you can too!
Also, I would like to add, spoil yourself!!! Feel good! This is very important. I ended up getting myself a pet that I have always wanted! Taking care of her (she’s an adopted pigeon) helps me focus on something else but myself. It made me happy that I could make a great home for an abandoned animal.
Hey Swamy, thank you soooo much for creating this content. I’ve been going through this since August and had no clue of what was going on. I was so confused and thought I was going mad. My doctor said it was depression but I knew it was something else. Your videos have been soooo helpful and useful! Please keep making them. You will be helping so many people. May God bless you xx
I only experienced symptoms of depersonalization for a couple months or so but the after affect was the worst part for me which lasted over 2 years. Being in a constant anxious state and worrying that I was going crazy or becoming mentally unwell, the obsessing and constant introspection to make sure I wasn't losing my mind. Even though the DP symptoms had gone, I couldn't stop worrying about myself and checking if I was mentally well, sort of like hypocondria but for the mind. It's so draining. When I came across video's telling me it was a defence mechanism and it will eventually go, it helped so much. I did have existential thoughts too, I can relate so much to the cosmic view you talk about. I was bombarded with questions like what's the meaning of life, what's the point of it all and everything that we do can seem meaningless. At the time this only confirmed to myself that 'yes I must be going crazy or developing a mental disorder for thinking so negatively'. I feel much better these days and the DP has slowly disappeared as you explained. I do ponder about lifes big questions much more. I feel like im now a mixture of my old self and newly awakened cosmic self. I dont know if id rather be blissfully unaware of the universe like before. It is kind of cool being this woke but does cause me more anxiety than before. Great video man!
I just want to say a big thank you ! You are doing amazing work man. MY DP/DR is finally slowly wearing off after 12 years (by the way, i dont want to scare anyone with the 12 years mark ; i did not have any ressoures at the time so it slowed A LOT my progress, there is a way out way before that, no worries, you can rid of it in months if you put the efforts). The transition is kinda rough tho, i feel lost and i still have existential intrusive toughts (its like my brain is conditionned to think so much about all this stuff. Creating new neural pathways is the key), but overall the symptoms are slowly fading away, i see progress every week. I am 29 and i got dp/dr after a panic attack at 16 so my identity did not develop properly but i am working on it, i am slowly building myself up and your vids are helping a lot. I am seeing a therapist for OCD and i read about it. Your content is making me feel really good. I really want to find meaning in this suffering and your vids are really helping. Also, it feels really nice to hear someone talk about this thing so clearly. Thank you so much !
It's taught me to learn to be in the present moment. That's what brought me back to reality. I've learned to use my senses to my own benefit and enjoy life in the moment.
I feel it all the time . Which is why I think about it all the time . Which makes it worse . The more in deep thought I get with it , the worse the symptoms are . And I do that a lot randomly which is a very bad habit . But when I watch things like this , I feel a lot of relief . And after watching stuff like this I’m stuck in the mindset of “don’t let it bother you you’re okay” . And I don’t feel it for maybe 45 minutes to an hour which is great . I feel normal for a little . Having self assurance really does help ease the feeling . Self assurance is hard for me to do since I’m very doubtful and a negative thinker but these videos really do help with that . I really appreciate what you’re doing ! Watching people like you who share their story give me hope (: keep at it . ❤️
Yes, slowly you should learn to care less and less about DP/DR. Accept it's going to be there for a while, but you try to engage with life as much as you can.
To everyone that's just now going through it. It's terrifying I know. But just know when you start to recover you'll learn things about yourself that can make your life better than it was before dp/dr. It's kinda like it sucks to be dissociated but worth the benefits you get during recovery.
@@veronikastulakova hello i think we same im not drdp already today i 5 months with this feeling..i think im free from dpdr but i still numb feeling not tottally open all and my axiety still waiting for my totally recoverd..i still feel wierd about my feeling but i know i almost get out from this i feel much better than a few months i can eat can enjoy seee movie can talk with my friend already
I’m 19 years old 20 in June and I’m suffering from this disorder for half a year now . Watching this video gives me hope I would love to have a cup of coffee with you. The way you explained how you felt is amazing and I hope I can feel this way someday too ! You give me hope!
Tanya Willis I’m trying definitely trying to get the hang of stop checking in on how I feel in the morning or every other hour if I still feel Dp/Dr ! Still the same can’t lie but trying to change everyday and doing grounding techniques really help I went on a beach trip with my family and it was actually fun I took Dp/Dr with me and treat it as a doggy on a leash
@@noelle132 So I am fifteen I smoked weed had a bad trip on it then three weeks later had a panic attack cause a sugar buzz ever since that sugar buzz I haven't been the same I got dpdr cuz the sugar buzz it's been like 3 weeks I had with the dpdr it is miserable my emotions are numb and I ain't feel alive anymore I remember one night I was texting my brother and as I was typing my fingers kept going and my brain kind of froze and it was like I was in someone else's body and I was watching through their eyes I dont feel alive like I'm dreaming and my emotions are numb
Tanya Willis okah you need to know that these feelings aren’t dangerous ! Okay you need to learn how to cope with your anxiety and stop drinking caffeine and sugary things those make your heart beat up and make you feel anxious when you really not. You need to start creating a routine and trying out meditation and grounding techniques
I don’t have all the answers you need to talk to your family and tell them and to maybe even a therapist to help you with your anxiety and realize what you going through it normal! Hope I could help alitttle I know it’s tough but your not the only one in the world that’s going through this okay
Thank you so much! And thank you for replying to me on facebook, I cant thank you enough, you have got me out of this. The only thing i had left from DPDR is OCD and thats gone so now im fully recovered thanks to you and anxiety ninja🤙🏻
Haseeb Ahmed just listen to him and apply everything he says. Trust me on this. One BIG thing is you obsessing about it, dont try and stop thinking about it just accept that you do think about it a lot and it will go away. Also when you feel yourself getting better, youll naturally notice it and think about it again. But just say “yep” and go on with your life😃
@@thomast9872 Glad you got this understanding. It amazes some times as how some people are easily able to understand acceptance and then there are others who really really struggle with this simple (but not easy) concept.
Swami you are right !!! 🙏🙏♥️ I realized that when I don't thinking about it Its gone but then my mind always come back to this thoughts and boom its there again
I got DPDR from smoking marijuana 3 years ago. I was in panic mode for a few months then it went away for about 2 years, then it came back last year and at that point I had to idea what it even was. I've been going to therapy for a while and finally beginning to accept it.❤ if anyone wants to talk about what they're going through, message me! Thanks Swamy for your videos, you've helped more people than you think 😊❤
it’s been almost a month now since my weed panic attack and tbh last week i was so happy and only having thought every 15 mins or so which was great. but now this week i feel kinda off like i don’t know something isn’t right and then i start to have anxiety which causes the dr to come back. if anyone else has gone through a similar experience or is feeling what i am just lmk. ik it will get better and i will get past this and that goes for everyone else!
@@delux2two you answer it with a comeback like when you ask, “is this even real”, you say it looks pretty real to me. or, they’re just thoughts they’ll pass. dpdr is literally here just because you’re scared of it. find a way to stop being afraid of it and you’re free.
I went through a traumatic event about a month ago and I’ve been dealing with depersonalization since then, but this has given me hope that I will eventually recover and be able to live a normal life. I’m still in high school so it’s been kind of hard going to school. If anyone has any tips feel free to share :)
i was a happy person . i used to enjoy every seconds in my life. i had passion in my life . but after depersonalisation i lost my confidence , self esteem, and when i think about life i feel life is meaningless , i lost my passion in my case very old memories and dreams pop-up in my mind without any reason or trigger and it affects my mood . i cant be mindful i miss the old me can i get my old life back ?
Sreeram kk - I feel you in that one. Like I cry sometimes because I think about old times and how I just wanna enjoy life again. Being able to feel joy, love, friendship (ETC). Now I feel lack of empathy and just don’t do anything all day depending on my dpdr sometimes I feel like I’m becoming a psychopath but I know that at the case. Hopefully it end soon and enjoy life again
Don't wait for DPDR to leave you so you can "enjoy" life again. Try living a good healthy life along with your DPDR, even though it may be hard. That's when it will go away (slowly).
Bro I was the same exact way I had all the memories of (what I liked to call) my old life but I felt like they weren’t my memories or that I woke up inside someone else’s body with all these memories of this persons life before I was them! Also i would get these memories and remember that I used to be that person but now I’m a brain dead weirdo that doesn’t know who he is and it would make me so upset thinking that i was never going to go back back to that person. But guess what man it’s been 1 and 1/2 years since it started and now I’m feeling so much better!!!! Like Swamy G said u gotta get up and try to just live thru it and a lot of times anxiety makes the dpdr a lot worse and so it is also important to have time away from everyone and everything and just try ur hardest to meditate and just watch a funny movie alone this is very relaxing , laughing this the cure to everything, but a real supplement that works is lions mane mushrooms mycelium capsules!!!!! Love u and goodluck! U will feel better some day, it took me 1 and 1/2 just to feel baseline
Swamy G another thing I’m not sure if this suppose to happened but I have days where I swear my depersonalization is over and it may be just me thinking it still there. Is that a common symptom?
Yes, you are getting breaks. But then when you get that, you start "checking in". All of us do this in the beginning. It's only when you stop caring whether you have DP or not that this behavior will go away. Acceptance + indifference towards DPDR is the ultimate cure.
I am going through recovery and i have some weird stuff going on. When i have good day and feel really happy, i suddenly start worrying that i have some mental illness whose part is having good moments. And then i go back to anxiety and my dpdr triggers again. Anyone had this?
@@sveni3810 it’s been a little over a month so far it just started like mid July. I’m still going through unfortunately 🥺 but it’s happened before like 9 years ago when I smoke marijuana for the first time but back then I didn’t care too much about what was going on I ignored it and it went away but this time it came from a lot of stress !!! And I started researching and watching videos now it kind of made it hard to not think about it but I know that’s the only way it will go away
@@sveni3810 like some days are really good I feel dpdr but it’s easy to ignore then there’s days when the dpdr intrusive thoughts come in then I be thinking it’s something wrong mentally or medically so then my anxiety takes off and it’s hard to get under control some days
@@kyeleethomas8283 Same here. It happened 10 years ago but I managed to get out. But still I was never 100% out. Dr was here all the time but I dont panic about it anymore. And now I want to get rid of it because I noticed all my feelings are like 70% lower in intensity. Like I cant fall in love and such things because I live in this dreamlike state. Like all my feelings can only reach 30% of intensity... thats why I now want to get rid of it. I've had enough
I have severe depersonalization from self. I’ve been doing things I normally would do but it’s made the dp worse with everything I do like cleaning , cooking , going out , driving. Even when I wake up it changes
So is it possible to feel a bit better about the thoughts a little at a time? For instance when I really felt dpdr people looked strange now I just have the thought people look strange and it creates somewhat of a weird feeling but not as much. You give me hope thank you!!
Great video swammy. I'm having a hard time getting over dpdr as I have been struggling for two years now. I've had times where it was not as intense and it really felt like I was recovering. My emotions were returning back to me and life started to feel a bit more real. But as of lately i've been really emotionless and depressed. Life does not feel right even when i'm around my friends I feel sad. And i've been smoking a lot more weed which doesn't help my dpdr. Any advice on dealing with motivational problems? I have a lot of trauma I have yet to process i'm sure. I don't deal with panic attacks but the dp is hard
I have lots a lot of memories from the past because of dpdr not sure if that’s something that happened to you and if so did your memories make they’re way back afterwards ?
@@L26exxus i think its because of our anxious brain doesn't allow us to focus on what we want to recall . don't worry its just a anxiety symptom . it will gone
I fucking hate this disorder why cant it go away forever if you still experience it that means you are not recovered because my cousing had it and it went away completely for nearly 10 years now im in it now and almost out of it but im scared to recover and experience it again
Swamy G you know something bro? I subscribed to your channel while I was during this shit and I donnt think a fully recovered person will still talk about this I mean by talking for this you just dont stop thinking about it so Idk if all these you-tubers arr helping or what Idk If Im clear and idk if that makes sense but I suffered from dp like a loong time ago and fuck this I have my life back Just think it these way Your life hasn’t changed Your thoughts did so what do we do with unwanted thoughts? We keep them far away from our head by keeping ourselves busy with lot of things until we find ourselves back to normal
Haseeb Ahmed yessir! Theres a lot of weird symptoms, just accept them and embrace it... it wont like that and it will leave😏 dont ever lose hope tho, its a rollercoaster like he says.
DP DR happens to everyone from time to time. Some people don't know it's DP or DR. I don't experience DPDR, but at the same time I'm not impervious to it. If suddenly I were to express intense stress or trauma, I will experience DPDR. There is no escape and I'm fine with it because I know it's not end of the world. Anyone who claims they don't 100% experience any DPDR at all is lying. Anxiety, panic, DPDR are part of the biological process. But with that being said, you CAN escape from chronic DPDR, you can fully recover and not experience DPDR for extended periods of time. But that doesn't mean you will never experience even 1 second of it in your lifetime ever again. That is not what recovery looks like. Don't keep chasing that kind of recovery.
Swamy G thank you very much for the comment! Just another quick question, you commented you got DPDR when watchong movies, is that normal? Thanks for de your time Swamy great content!
@@BrangerJorge Sorry, I don't know what you mean. Did I experience DP/DR when watching movies? Yes. Did I experience DP/DR when hanging out with friends? Yes. I experienced DP/DR in various places and at various times. I don't think any particular incident was a trigger.
I wanted to ask if the recovery process is different depending on what caused it. Or is the path of recovery always the same no matter what the reasons are for it?
@@RealSwamyG I wanted to ask if it matters by your method how long it has been for me for 8 years 24/7 and it always tends to be different in symptoms and intensity A year ago it was really in a state of recovery but then it returned to the same high levels as at the beginning that I'm right in a bubble if the fears and thoughts don't stop.
Yes you do. But being recovered doesn't mean you will never experience DP again. You can experience DP after recovery, but it will just come and go and won't last long.
@@RealSwamyG I've been wondering this. How do you know that you're actually recovered, and you're not just telling yourself that you are, or you aren't aware of it even though it's still there?
You can get through this homie. You just have to start living life like if you don’t even have dpdr no matter how strong your symptoms are. Do NOT avoid your normal daily life and let it control you like a puppet. What really helped me was joining boxing, going on dates, hanging out with friends, for a new job. The minute you start to get out of your comfort zone the better you will recover. The more you occupy your mind and meditate, the better you will feel trust me.
Life has been weird for everyone recently trust me you aren’t alone with this. Times are rough right now. But let me be real about something. You will start to feel better when you stop watching videos like this and searching dpdr every second and every hour. When you stop giving a fuck about dpdr, you’ll start to get your life back.
There's no special way to get thru each symptoms. The cure is the same for all. Checkout the rest of my videos or goto my website acoachcalledlife.com for more info.
Like I can’t feel my feet attached to me or my hands and I feel like I’m going crazy I used to be happy goin fishing doing stuff with family now I don’t even feel like going out because I feel like it isn’t me
95% recovered here everything he’s saying is spot on can’t wait to be at that 100% !!!! (Went through DP/DR for 6 months)
I recovered from depersonalisation it took 3 months I had mild dp and gad(general anxiety disorder) ...we have taken lot of things granted...I was just patient and started enjoying moments even in dp
Whoever reading this comment don't lose patience...life after dp is great ❤️❤️
You seem to have grasped the truth to recovery. You have to be ok with feeling the symptoms. You have to be patient. You can't demand that DPDR leave you immediately. Be patient, try to find something to focus on in your life. If there are any stressors, mitigate them. Then DPDR will take care of itself.
@@RealSwamyG your videos too helped me a lot in the journey specially being patient related ❤️ thanks for adding values to many lives by your experience sir
@@Zabonwheels33 how r u right now??
Please help me??
I am feeling depressed and emotionally numb....
Is it ok?
@@RealSwamyGHello plz i need an answer im obsessed with my symptoms , actually i don’t want to think about it but i just can’t stop , please what should i doo? Can i stiël recover ?
My take on this is that everyone experiences DPDR they are just not aware. Even the ones who get aware just focus in their task and DPDR goes away after they complete the task (performance anxiety goes away)
I found that people with DPDR are obsessive thinkers who try to give solutions to what happened to them (panic attacks, trauma, failure etc). and that they got DPDR after months and months of not doing what they wanted to do. (It’s like normal depression/anxiety but for highly intelligent and analytical people)
Ah I love it when you take also the spiritual part into DP cause I've felt from the first day with DP that there's also a deeper layer in the suffering - while the progress is still on I can say that I'm somehow grateful for DP ! It's annoying but I know that later this experience is maybe the most important part in my life for opening my eyes🙏🏽 So thankful for you for taking so much time for all of us here.
How are u now
Ah finally, my silver lining. 😮💨
@@voltzwalker72 how r u??
Hey Swamy I commented on one of your old videos about what’s going with my dpdr story. It’s been just over 4 month since I had my panic attack that put me in this and I’m almost completely recovered. I still kind of think about it a lot but I’m finding myself going a couple hours a day not thinking about which is such an awesome feeling. I cherish life and my relationship way more than I did before. Anyone out there goin through this just stick to the recovery and live life it’s not permanent and you will get over this. Thanks for the videos man you have done so much for me just in the past couple months! Keep doing what you’re doing!
So good to hear about your recovery, Jacob.
How are you right now?
@@shkofficial7057 recovered??
I’m only 14 and I’m scared i feel like I’m always high or I’m in a dream. It’s been so long since I’ve been normal, I’m convincing myself that nothing really is real. It’s like dp/dr is taking over my mind
Hi how are you now..... Did you come out of it?
chris hutchinson I’m better now but it left a mark on me
@@nivkksjsj1492 ur completley recovered??
sIlEnT nInjA nah I’m not . It still fucked me up till this day but I’m feeling better
Same my whole family got covid and it set off my health anxiety which caused me to have panic attacks daily until I got to overwhelmed and disconnected (18 male btw) I'm pretty sure I'm outta of it but it's hard to forget and sometimes i question whether I'm really in the moment and the existential thoughts are killer but I try to ground myself and think about how I'm feeling in the moment and breathe.
I went through DPDR on three separate occasions. One time when I was in my mid-20s it lasted about a month. But I didn’t have time to question what it was because I was so busy. It ended up happening again for about a week not long after that. Because once you have a panic attack, it lowers the threshold, and you’re more susceptible to getting more panic attacks. I would say that those two panic attacks were fairly bad. The first one I ever had was worse than the second.
Fast forward to 36 years old, 2022 was the worst year of my entire life probably. I had a really bad fight with my husband, at the beginning of the year, then my godmother died. Someone suggested to try a weed gummy. Stupid, I know because we’d never agreed with me, but I was so anxious and upset, I was desperate. The person that had talked me into it, said that weed is more commercialized now and you know what you’re getting. if you are uncomfortable about doing any drugs, do not do them! Especially if you’re highly sensitive person.
Go figure, the weed gummy brought out all kinds of inner demons that I have been holding onto since my mid-20s that I wasn’t even aware of. All of the anxiety that I had between those years came out. My miscarriage, the horrible fights that I had with my husband afterwards, feeling like I ruin everything that I come across. To add salt to the wounds, I lost nine people in the year of 2022. Loved ones, and friends. All due to different reasons. Needless to say, that year was totally a curse! On top of it all I am already diagnosed with c ptsd.
I have always felt like there was something wrong with me, Even though I’m very healthy. I’ve always had a clean bill of health, I’m a healthy weight, exercise, and do not take any medication’s!
This combination brought on the most insanely horrible panic attack I have ever experienced in my life. It was so bad that I felt like I was having a heart attack. And I knew that it was happening, but it got so bad that I couldn’t even control it. I even fainted and woke up in a cold sweat.. I couldn’t fight it. Because, like I said, I had all of these suppressed emotions that came out! This event brought on a bout of DPDR that lasted for 7.5 months. It started off really bad, then it was more so a situational thing. I found that whenever I got anxious about some thing I went into a dream like state. It was very uncomfortable, I would question my existence, like many people on here have said.
Towards the end of having a DPDR, I started getting extremely bad anxiety after coming out of the fog! Depression and moodiness too. I felt like I was stuck in a shell for so long that coming out of it was like sensory overload. My stomach kept getting that dropping sensation. Even though it was horrible, I would still prefer feeling emotions to feeling nothing at all.
I decided to find a counselor to talk to. I actually went through three of them, and I finally found a winner on Teladoc! She is also someone who is recovering from panic. She definitely understood where I was coming from. To be honest, I think that most counselors are a waste of time and just in it for the money. So, if this is something that you’re interested, please shop around until you find one that you’re comfortable with. No shame in that.
what helped me the most was watching these type of videos on UA-cam, doing self hypnosis, which I have also found on UA-cam, and I did a few sessions of EMDR therapy which really pushed me forward greatly.
I would say an important thing to remember is that you’re not crazy, you’re just hyper aware. And you become obsessive about it. This is some thing that you will eventually grow out of, that’s the best way I can describe it. You literally get tired of thinking about it all the time so you just start to go about your daily tasks and ignore it. The more you pay attention to it the more it lingers. That and itself is a form of negative self hypnosis. It always helps to find somebody who is thoroughly trained in trauma and PTSD therapy. Or somebody who specializes in anxiety.
Sorry for TLDR, but I just figure there’s people out there who need help with this topic. And it is something that you will definitely over a calm. You won’t be stuck this way forever. Please focus on what you need to change about your life, are you stuck in a stressful situation? A stressful relationship? A stressful household? Do you often use negative self talk? That’s a big one for me. I’m still working on changing that. But as of a few months ago, I am gladly DPDR free.
If I can recover from DPDR on 3 separate occasions, you can too!
Also, I would like to add, spoil yourself!!! Feel good! This is very important. I ended up getting myself a pet that I have always wanted! Taking care of her (she’s an adopted pigeon) helps me focus on something else but myself. It made me happy that I could make a great home for an abandoned animal.
Hey Swamy, thank you soooo much for creating this content. I’ve been going through this since August and had no clue of what was going on. I was so confused and thought I was going mad. My doctor said it was depression but I knew it was something else. Your videos have been soooo helpful and useful! Please keep making them. You will be helping so many people. May God bless you xx
I only experienced symptoms of depersonalization for a couple months or so but the after affect was the worst part for me which lasted over 2 years. Being in a constant anxious state and worrying that I was going crazy or becoming mentally unwell, the obsessing and constant introspection to make sure I wasn't losing my mind.
Even though the DP symptoms had gone, I couldn't stop worrying about myself and checking if I was mentally well, sort of like hypocondria but for the mind. It's so draining.
When I came across video's telling me it was a defence mechanism and it will eventually go, it helped so much.
I did have existential thoughts too, I can relate so much to the cosmic view you talk about.
I was bombarded with questions like what's the meaning of life, what's the point of it all and everything that we do can seem meaningless. At the time this only confirmed to myself that 'yes I must be going crazy or developing a mental disorder for thinking so negatively'.
I feel much better these days and the DP has slowly disappeared as you explained. I do ponder about lifes big questions much more. I feel like im now a mixture of my old self and newly awakened cosmic self. I dont know if id rather be blissfully unaware of the universe like before. It is kind of cool being this woke but does cause me more anxiety than before.
Great video man!
I just want to say a big thank you ! You are doing amazing work man. MY DP/DR is finally slowly wearing off after 12 years (by the way, i dont want to scare anyone with the 12 years mark ; i did not have any ressoures at the time so it slowed A LOT my progress, there is a way out way before that, no worries, you can rid of it in months if you put the efforts). The transition is kinda rough tho, i feel lost and i still have existential intrusive toughts (its like my brain is conditionned to think so much about all this stuff. Creating new neural pathways is the key), but overall the symptoms are slowly fading away, i see progress every week. I am 29 and i got dp/dr after a panic attack at 16 so my identity did not develop properly but i am working on it, i am slowly building myself up and your vids are helping a lot. I am seeing a therapist for OCD and i read about it. Your content is making me feel really good. I really want to find meaning in this suffering and your vids are really helping. Also, it feels really nice to hear someone talk about this thing so clearly.
Thank you so much !
Hey bro, how are you doing now?
It's taught me to learn to be in the present moment. That's what brought me back to reality. I've learned to use my senses to my own benefit and enjoy life in the moment.
Thank you
I feel it all the time . Which is why I think about it all the time . Which makes it worse . The more in deep thought I get with it , the worse the symptoms are . And I do that a lot randomly which is a very bad habit . But when I watch things like this , I feel a lot of relief . And after watching stuff like this I’m stuck in the mindset of “don’t let it bother you you’re okay” . And I don’t feel it for maybe 45 minutes to an hour which is great . I feel normal for a little . Having self assurance really does help ease the feeling . Self assurance is hard for me to do since I’m very doubtful and a negative thinker but these videos really do help with that . I really appreciate what you’re doing ! Watching people like you who share their story give me hope (: keep at it . ❤️
Yes, slowly you should learn to care less and less about DP/DR. Accept it's going to be there for a while, but you try to engage with life as much as you can.
To everyone that's just now going through it. It's terrifying I know. But just know when you start to recover you'll learn things about yourself that can make your life better than it was before dp/dr. It's kinda like it sucks to be dissociated but worth the benefits you get during recovery.
Thank you so much ❤️ I can't wait to see life without depersonalization,,,❤️
How r u now
@@voltzwalker72 I feel much better, I can say I have not depersonalization anymore, only depressions and problems with emotions, 🙏🏻
@@veronikastulakova hello i think we same im not drdp already today i 5 months with this feeling..i think im free from dpdr but i still numb feeling not tottally open all and my axiety still waiting for my totally recoverd..i still feel wierd about my feeling but i know i almost get out from this i feel much better than a few months i can eat can enjoy seee movie can talk with my friend already
@@veronikastulakova how r u right now?
Recovered??
@@destinysacay3588 how r u right now?
Recovered ??
I’m 19 years old 20 in June and I’m suffering from this disorder for half a year now . Watching this video gives me hope I would love to have a cup of coffee with you. The way you explained how you felt is amazing and I hope I can feel this way someday too ! You give me hope!
How are you doing any updates 😥
Tanya Willis I’m trying definitely trying to get the hang of stop checking in on how I feel in the morning or every other hour if I still feel Dp/Dr ! Still the same can’t lie but trying to change everyday and doing grounding techniques really help I went on a beach trip with my family and it was actually fun I took Dp/Dr with me and treat it as a doggy on a leash
@@noelle132 So I am fifteen I smoked weed had a bad trip on it then three weeks later had a panic attack cause a sugar buzz ever since that sugar buzz I haven't been the same I got dpdr cuz the sugar buzz it's been like 3 weeks I had with the dpdr it is miserable my emotions are numb and I ain't feel alive anymore I remember one night I was texting my brother and as I was typing my fingers kept going and my brain kind of froze and it was like I was in someone else's body and I was watching through their eyes I dont feel alive like I'm dreaming and my emotions are numb
Tanya Willis okah you need to know that these feelings aren’t dangerous ! Okay you need to learn how to cope with your anxiety and stop drinking caffeine and sugary things those make your heart beat up and make you feel anxious when you really not. You need to start creating a routine and trying out meditation and grounding techniques
I don’t have all the answers you need to talk to your family and tell them and to maybe even a therapist to help you with your anxiety and realize what you going through it normal! Hope I could help alitttle I know it’s tough but your not the only one in the world that’s going through this okay
I really can relate with that one particular feeling that still lingers on. It's this weird unpleasant feeling with a small scale.
Thank you so much! And thank you for replying to me on facebook, I cant thank you enough, you have got me out of this. The only thing i had left from DPDR is OCD and thats gone so now im fully recovered thanks to you and anxiety ninja🤙🏻
Hey I need help please tell me how u recovered
Haseeb Ahmed just listen to him and apply everything he says. Trust me on this. One BIG thing is you obsessing about it, dont try and stop thinking about it just accept that you do think about it a lot and it will go away. Also when you feel yourself getting better, youll naturally notice it and think about it again. But just say “yep” and go on with your life😃
@@thomast9872 Glad you got this understanding. It amazes some times as how some people are easily able to understand acceptance and then there are others who really really struggle with this simple (but not easy) concept.
Swamy G definitely. It wasnt easy at first but ive just realized, i either accept it or let it ruin my life. Glad I could learn how to apply this!
Thomas T yeah it very difficult like I honestly rather have to go through challenges of life. Then having depersonalization
Another great video bro! Thank you so much for continuing to share your experience this is great - ❤️
Swami you are right !!! 🙏🙏♥️ I realized that when I don't thinking about it Its gone but then my mind always come back to this thoughts and boom its there again
I got DPDR from smoking marijuana 3 years ago. I was in panic mode for a few months then it went away for about 2 years, then it came back last year and at that point I had to idea what it even was. I've been going to therapy for a while and finally beginning to accept it.❤ if anyone wants to talk about what they're going through, message me! Thanks Swamy for your videos, you've helped more people than you think 😊❤
hey how are u now
Thank you soo much swami !! i am recovering from dpdr !! thank you ! much love ❤️❤️❤️
Suma if you are from India can we get connected on Instagram.. it will be helpful for us to share few words . My I'd prasath_ap
How r u right now??
Recovered??
it’s been almost a month now since my weed panic attack and tbh last week i was so happy and only having thought every 15 mins or so which was great. but now this week i feel kinda off like i don’t know something isn’t right and then i start to have anxiety which causes the dr to come back. if anyone else has gone through a similar experience or is feeling what i am just lmk. ik it will get better and i will get past this and that goes for everyone else!
hey, how are you now?
@@delux2two much better i almost never experience dpdr because i found a way to control it
@@AboveTheTok can you share with me how you control it?
@@delux2two you answer it with a comeback like when you ask, “is this even real”, you say it looks pretty real to me. or, they’re just thoughts they’ll pass. dpdr is literally here just because you’re scared of it. find a way to stop being afraid of it and you’re free.
@@AboveTheTok yeah i do that alot, i'm recovering but i still feel it sometimes when i get existential thoughts. is it the same with you?
How do you stop fighting with yourself mentally and just let go and let it be. That’s what I’ve been stuck on
Same dude
I went through a traumatic event about a month ago and I’ve been dealing with depersonalization since then, but this has given me hope that I will eventually recover and be able to live a normal life. I’m still in high school so it’s been kind of hard going to school. If anyone has any tips feel free to share :)
i was a happy person . i used to enjoy every seconds in my life. i had passion in my life . but after depersonalisation i lost my confidence , self esteem, and when i think about life i feel life is meaningless , i lost my passion
in my case very old memories and dreams pop-up in my mind without any reason or trigger and it affects my mood . i cant be mindful
i miss the old me
can i get my old life back ?
This video contains the answer ua-cam.com/video/GW8kxxhjU9U/v-deo.html
Sreeram kk - I feel you in that one. Like I cry sometimes because I think about old times and how I just wanna enjoy life again. Being able to feel joy, love, friendship (ETC). Now I feel lack of empathy and just don’t do anything all day depending on my dpdr sometimes I feel like I’m becoming a psychopath but I know that at the case. Hopefully it end soon and enjoy life again
Don't wait for DPDR to leave you so you can "enjoy" life again. Try living a good healthy life along with your DPDR, even though it may be hard. That's when it will go away (slowly).
Bro I was the same exact way I had all the memories of (what I liked to call) my old life but I felt like they weren’t my memories or that I woke up inside someone else’s body with all these memories of this persons life before I was them! Also i would get these memories and remember that I used to be that person but now I’m a brain dead weirdo that doesn’t know who he is and it would make me so upset thinking that i was never going to go back back to that person. But guess what man it’s been 1 and 1/2 years since it started and now I’m feeling so much better!!!! Like Swamy G said u gotta get up and try to just live thru it and a lot of times anxiety makes the dpdr a lot worse and so it is also important to have time away from everyone and everything and just try ur hardest to meditate and just watch a funny movie alone this is very relaxing , laughing this the cure to everything, but a real supplement that works is lions mane mushrooms mycelium capsules!!!!! Love u and goodluck! U will feel better some day, it took me 1 and 1/2 just to feel baseline
@@stevepan9896 thanks bro .
i feel better now
This video is awesome I have hope 😍
Thankyou for this. Is it normal to have fuzzy vision. Everything kind of looks like a static tv , like tiny flashing dots.
Yeah its completely normal! Just don’t fight it. Its like youre high :D
@@JakubEndler recovered??
I’m not sure if this is improvement but every time I have a thought of alternative reality it just sits there and I don’t have a reaction to it
Swamy G another thing I’m not sure if this suppose to happened but I have days where I swear my depersonalization is over and it may be just me thinking it still there. Is that a common symptom?
Yes, you are getting breaks. But then when you get that, you start "checking in". All of us do this in the beginning. It's only when you stop caring whether you have DP or not that this behavior will go away. Acceptance + indifference towards DPDR is the ultimate cure.
Love you brother🙏🏽✨💪🏽
i love your videos!
I’m worried because I have dpdr but I’m also scared of getting rid of it as I won’t think of things the same again
Awesome content too man great simple editing, makes it a pleasure to watch!
I am going through recovery and i have some weird stuff going on.
When i have good day and feel really happy, i suddenly start worrying that i have some mental illness whose part is having good moments. And then i go back to anxiety and my dpdr triggers again. Anyone had this?
Currently dealing with that.
@@kyeleethomas8283 For how long? I'm still in it...
@@sveni3810 it’s been a little over a month so far it just started like mid July. I’m still going through unfortunately 🥺 but it’s happened before like 9 years ago when I smoke marijuana for the first time but back then I didn’t care too much about what was going on I ignored it and it went away but this time it came from a lot of stress !!! And I started researching and watching videos now it kind of made it hard to not think about it but I know that’s the only way it will go away
@@sveni3810 like some days are really good I feel dpdr but it’s easy to ignore then there’s days when the dpdr intrusive thoughts come in then I be thinking it’s something wrong mentally or medically so then my anxiety takes off and it’s hard to get under control some days
@@kyeleethomas8283 Same here. It happened 10 years ago but I managed to get out. But still I was never 100% out. Dr was here all the time but I dont panic about it anymore. And now I want to get rid of it because I noticed all my feelings are like 70% lower in intensity. Like I cant fall in love and such things because I live in this dreamlike state. Like all my feelings can only reach 30% of intensity... thats why I now want to get rid of it. I've had enough
I have severe depersonalization from self. I’ve been doing things I normally would do but it’s made the dp worse with everything I do like cleaning , cooking , going out , driving. Even when I wake up it changes
Hi how are you doing now?
chris hutchinson still depersonalization 6 months in
@@aearls43 are you ok now?
@@banke8480 I still have it. But it’s way better than what it was before. I don’t take any medication.
@@aearls43 i don't take meds as well,so can you functioning normally?
So is it possible to feel a bit better about the thoughts a little at a time? For instance when I really felt dpdr people looked strange now I just have the thought people look strange and it creates somewhat of a weird feeling but not as much. You give me hope thank you!!
what about the last two symptoms did they went away ?!!
Hey...bro...do u took any medication at first to get rid of dpdr?
Great video swammy. I'm having a hard time getting over dpdr as I have been struggling for two years now. I've had times where it was not as intense and it really felt like I was recovering. My emotions were returning back to me and life started to feel a bit more real. But as of lately i've been really emotionless and depressed. Life does not feel right even when i'm around my friends I feel sad. And i've been smoking a lot more weed which doesn't help my dpdr. Any advice on dealing with motivational problems? I have a lot of trauma I have yet to process i'm sure. I don't deal with panic attacks but the dp is hard
Stop smoking weed. As for motivation, this might sound trite, but search for Jocko or Jordan Peterson motivation on UA-cam.
@@RealSwamyG I greatly appreciate your response. Will do! Thank you swammy
Does having psycho and weird scary thaughts sommeting What is happening because of this???
I have lots a lot of memories from the past because of dpdr not sure if that’s something that happened to you and if so did your memories make they’re way back afterwards ?
are you saying old memories pop up in your mind without any trigger ?
Sorry I meant lost*
I’ve lost a lot of memories of my past and childhood
@@L26exxus i think its because of our anxious brain doesn't allow us to focus on what we want to recall . don't worry its just a anxiety symptom . it will gone
anxiety will affect our memories, and mood its normal . your memories and mood will come back after the anxiety is gone
I fucking hate this disorder why cant it go away forever if you still experience it that means you are not recovered because my cousing had it and it went away completely for nearly 10 years now im in it now and almost out of it but im scared to recover and experience it again
Swamy G you know something bro?
I subscribed to your channel while I was during this shit and I donnt think a fully recovered person will still talk about this
I mean by talking for this you just dont stop thinking about it so Idk if all these you-tubers arr helping or what
Idk If Im clear and idk if that makes sense but I suffered from dp like a loong time ago and fuck this I have my life back
Just think it these way
Your life hasn’t changed
Your thoughts did
so what do we do with unwanted thoughts?
We keep them far away from our head by keeping ourselves busy with lot of things until we find ourselves back to normal
Hey is feeling cut off from people around you and reality a symptom of dp
Haseeb Ahmed yessir! Theres a lot of weird symptoms, just accept them and embrace it... it wont like that and it will leave😏 dont ever lose hope tho, its a rollercoaster like he says.
Hey man! Was the recovery 100%? Like, is it over 100% or does dp come to you from time time and you can manage it?
DP DR happens to everyone from time to time. Some people don't know it's DP or DR. I don't experience DPDR, but at the same time I'm not impervious to it. If suddenly I were to express intense stress or trauma, I will experience DPDR. There is no escape and I'm fine with it because I know it's not end of the world. Anyone who claims they don't 100% experience any DPDR at all is lying. Anxiety, panic, DPDR are part of the biological process. But with that being said, you CAN escape from chronic DPDR, you can fully recover and not experience DPDR for extended periods of time. But that doesn't mean you will never experience even 1 second of it in your lifetime ever again. That is not what recovery looks like. Don't keep chasing that kind of recovery.
Swamy G thank you very much for the comment! Just another quick question, you commented you got DPDR when watchong movies, is that normal? Thanks for de your time Swamy great content!
@@BrangerJorge Sorry, I don't know what you mean. Did I experience DP/DR when watching movies? Yes. Did I experience DP/DR when hanging out with friends? Yes. I experienced DP/DR in various places and at various times. I don't think any particular incident was a trigger.
Swamy G hey man! Just bought your course and send you and email, with what I mean 😊🙌🏻 Thanks for everything
@@BrangerJorge how r u?
Recovered??
I was almost Out of dpdr i had it for 10 months and now booom a big setback.. what should I Do? Any Tips will help
ua-cam.com/video/w-EzICYk3AA/v-deo.html
@@RealSwamyGthanks!
Hi ! Did you take any natural sumplement ? What you think about alcohol? Hoy it feels to be out of this?
No supplements. As for alcohol here's my article on it acoachcalledlife.com/alcohol-drinking-dpdr/
I just read your article, so you’re saying after DP goes away, you can’t never drink like before DP appears?
You can drink, but in my case I don't get the benefits, but I get the hangovers. So I actually don't drink that much and turns out, that's healthy.
@@omarlugo5526 recovered??
I wanted to ask if the recovery process is different depending on what caused it. Or is the path of recovery always the same no matter what the reasons are for it?
Good question. I see that the path is more or less the same. For some they may need to process any trauma if there something underlying.
@@RealSwamyG I wanted to ask if it matters by your method how long it has been for me for 8 years 24/7 and it always tends to be different in symptoms and intensity A year ago it was really in a state of recovery but then it returned to the same high levels as at the beginning that I'm right in a bubble if the fears and thoughts don't stop.
Bro im also tamil
You know how tamil parents rough and wild
I been in dpdr for two months
I feel like i cant be how i used to
do u actually recover & get back to normal ??
Yes you do. But being recovered doesn't mean you will never experience DP again. You can experience DP after recovery, but it will just come and go and won't last long.
@@RealSwamyG
that's really good to know ty!
@@RealSwamyG I've been wondering this. How do you know that you're actually recovered, and you're not just telling yourself that you are, or you aren't aware of it even though it's still there?
I’m going through this and I’m only 11 :(
hey bro, talk to the people around you about it
@@manjak5348 i DONT have it anymore but I don’t feel like talking too people when I’m going through tough times
@@lazyproductionsinc.2868u still have it?
Do you felt depressed sometimes because of dp dr swamy ?
Hey Swamy did u feel like u wanted to cry or like u were just depressed most of the time or anyone else feel like this
Yes, I felt like crying but could not cry. I wasn't feeling super depressed, but I did feel down from time to time.
i cried alot but mostly after the intial month of dpdr
I have been in a constant state like this since end of 2020 I believe it was weed induced I hope it goes away
If not idk
I am recoverd brotherrr🖤
Congrats, you should let people know how you did it.
Hii ,, how are you right now??
I feel depressed and emotional numbness.
Will i be normal again?
You are gem😊❤
Hey bro Swamy plz tell any tips for back pain
This is not my area of expertise. I'd say do deadlifts, but consult others who are more expert than me.
@@RealSwamyG thanks brother
Yesterday i was feel great today is very very bad
Dose it mean i start recovering?
Please reply
You had a break yesterday, that's great. Now you're facing a setback. That's how recovery happens.
More info here: ua-cam.com/video/w-EzICYk3AA/v-deo.html
You are great man ❤️
Is it part of dp to feel too emotional? Maybe in a melancholic way, I feel emotions more strongly
No, dpdr makes you numb to emotions
@@yung_777drones7 after all the bad shit I became too sensible for a while...part of the process of getting normal again
in some way - it can make you extra senstitive to negative stuff. like with me - i couldnt escape the negative existential aspects
@@yung_777drones7 is it ok to feel emotional numbness??
I am facing right now??
Please explain me...
U recoverd??
I've had Depersonalization for the last 2 years still have it, 24/7 even if I don't think about it I still have it. I'm 15, wish I didn't have it.
You can get through this homie. You just have to start living life like if you don’t even have dpdr no matter how strong your symptoms are. Do NOT avoid your normal daily life and let it control you like a puppet. What really helped me was joining boxing, going on dates, hanging out with friends, for a new job. The minute you start to get out of your comfort zone the better you will recover. The more you occupy your mind and meditate, the better you will feel trust me.
Life has been weird for everyone recently trust me you aren’t alone with this. Times are rough right now. But let me be real about something. You will start to feel better when you stop watching videos like this and searching dpdr every second and every hour. When you stop giving a fuck about dpdr, you’ll start to get your life back.
@@yxngblxdes198 thank you man, I appreciate you very much 💛
@@obaidmodz7057 nope 👁️👄👁️ working on it tho, taking meds, specifically Prozac
Hey swammy is this part of dp I feel like my eyes aren’t mine and like my hands aren’t and I look at my parents and it feel strange is that what it is
Sounds very much like DP.
What’s the best way to get through that phase I had got through it before but it came back
Hope you can reply
There's no special way to get thru each symptoms. The cure is the same for all. Checkout the rest of my videos or goto my website acoachcalledlife.com for more info.
Like I can’t feel my feet attached to me or my hands and I feel like I’m going crazy I used to be happy goin fishing doing stuff with family now I don’t even feel like going out because I feel like it isn’t me
Do you have tips for helping me out of this??
Here's a free course for that: acoachcalledlife.com/dpdr-free-course/
Can I write you on email?