Most people don’t know that smiling depression is a thing, they just usually think of someone with depression sitting in a corner crying. This deserves to be seen by every person on the planet.
This is exactly me. Everyone thinks I am always happy because I always hide my feelings behind a smile but when I am alone I cry all the time and get mad at myself for everything. I am 13 :(
Believe that everything will be ok! If this continues, don't hesitate to seek professional help, it's never your fault. Hope things will be better for you❤️
I know exactly how you feel, I had really bad depression like that when I was 12 or 13. But I got help and I did good for a long time, of course of got sad sometimes. But it's kinda starting to come back again and I'm 16 now and everyone always thinks I'm happy and nothing bothers me, but deep down i just feel depressed and numb and don't know how to feel anymore. But don't worry it will pass, and believe me I know it's soo hard putting on that fake smile and acting like everything is great.
That's good, I'm glad, it's so easy to fall into it but getting out of it and changing is always a process. I wish the best for you, and if you ever need anyone to talk to you can always talk to me and I can try to give you advice. :)
This means a lot. I have depression, however I wake up everyday not thinking about it and putting on the positivity mask. I am constantly acting happy and positive, in fact now with the happy mask I act even more positive than I was without depression. But its an annoying positive. When I first got depression, I had felt ya know, the usual symptoms: not liking things I used to love, feeling empty, and just not feeling the same. I hid it with a smile. Then later on the mask became harder and harder to take off. I didn't really think about my depression too often. I mostly just had grown used to the mask. But then there were always those times where I would drift onto the past and stay there. That ended up losing more of myself. I've kinda grown accustomed now, and I am lost. So very lost. I am complicated. However, I have hope. I have hope that one day things will get better. The thing is with the fake positivity mask (for me), the more you wear it everyday, the better you get at hiding your feelings... and the more hurt you actually get in your real self. (Ima just use this analogy cuz it's all I could think of) Think of makeup. The more you put on, the better you may appear to others. However, when using makeup, your pores may get clogged up more. But it's okay if your acne gets worse, because you have more makeup to wear. You also have more zits. (yes yes I know that was a bad analogy and you SHOULD NOT care about what others think of what you look like and also love yourself. Also makeup doesn't make you prettier i guess; sorry for being confusing aah)
@Eagles Extra Rare Footage that's really hard, we put on this mask because we want to appear "normal" to others and don't let others know our true feelings
Hi can I suggest you something Go on vacation Drink lots of water Be happy on what you have Watch something different from your daily taste like if you watch movies watch movies of other languages with subtitles Spend time with your family do something for others talk to orphans. Homeless people
AAH WOAH HEY GUYS!! I just saw in my notifs 2 years later I git a reply and HOLY HECC I did NOT expect replies and likes lol! Also here is a lil update now :-) Currently happy to say that, when I read this back, I had to really go back! What I mean by that is- I remember how bad it hurt but I no longer really feel that way :). What has helped me is my faith in Jesus most of all; but also letting go. Everyone; there comes a time where that mask is hard to take off, but in order to GROW you need to. And I did. I have lost people in my life but I could not be more blessed to have those who are. I am actually in high school now :) and I wrote that in 8th grade AND BOI O BOI 8TH GRADE WAS ROUGH LOL. But what I said was true and I remember feeling congested. How is my mEntAl health now?¿? WeLl. I am going to keep it real. Life is not rose's without thorns. Obv, now there is a global pandemic oof. So honestly it really is not good. I have been struggling with disordered eating for a couple of months which is not great, or good to say the least. I lost a lot of weight but it was not all healthy. I am currently working on getting better, which is not easy. However, I know that life can get betterm in fact reading my old comment gives me hope, and I hope it may give at least someone else help too Even though I still have battles I face everyday, even though you reading this probably has battles; life can get better! These struggles I faced EVERYDAY which left me so unbelievably DRAINED and tired are behind me! I took off that mask and honestly everything is more clear. I know it is not easy to let people in. Even I still sometimes have trouble. But with time and the inability to take it I broke free. I felt naked. Bare. It isnt comfortable. But, I promise Everything will feel free. And I know how HARD it is, how TERRIFYING it can be. Just know that you mean so much to others. Even if it is just one person, You mean so much to them. You matter. And time can help Your situation is not permanent. And there are always people who will listen, just as you all have done for me. So, thanks guys :) Peace and Love to everyone💚
Same here. I feel like i can relate to EVERYTHING you had said. I told my best friend that I get very very negative and she knows but she never really thought I had this other side of me. Because I'm good at hiding them, with a smile. The cheerful bubbly me was the me that they say, but not me when I'm just super depressed. I used to cry a lot and bursts when I'm alone. Sometimes I know why I'm sad, and sometimes I don't. They just come and go. It's been a month I've been feeling like this. I have no one to tell to because I feel like i would appear weak and I don't even wanna believe that I have depression or anything. Maybe my day has just been bad but like it's been a month. I don't even cry anymore when I'm in pain, just emotionally numb at this point. Idk if I have depression or anything but I know that I need help, it's so hard for me to reach out when ur the one who people reach out to
*_Is this mirror? Oh wait... That is video..._* You got to keep up the mask. You got to make them not dissapointed even tho you are a failure. You have to... Smile... Look happy.... You have to..... Keep...
ive done this, im 17 now soon to be 18. ive done this since I was 12... always helping others...telling them not to be depressed... helping them cope not to harm yet here I am faking a smile while crying because I cant let the mask go...because the mask gave others hope..even if it didn't give me any....
2 years later... I'm reading your comment and it fits to myself 100%. Did you get over it, if so do you have any tips for me? Sry if I'm selfish, I'm also feeling bad for you, but I hope that you already went trough it and are fine now.
It's like feelings don't matter to anyone and it never did. People don't even care about how you feel, even if you're slowly dying and it gets faster by the day life is short
I relate so much. I hide my depression because I don’t want to drag others down too. It’s so hard sometimes and at times to pretend to be alright. I get so much exhausted even :/
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my UA-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
I remember when i was in junior high school, i cryed all the time, scream a loud, daydreaming, didn't got sleep well and felt empty. Now i am 16 years old, and i still feel empty, but my cry doesn't severe as my cry in 14-15 years old I am fighting it now 😁
This is perfectly what I'm going through. I alwayd smile and get A+ from test and evrybody thinks that I am that perfect girl, but inside I am so depressed amd hate myself but I just hide it from everyone. I ma always so close to tell my parents about how I feel but then I always freak out and decide not to tell because I'm afraid they'd think I am selfish for having such great life and parents yet I am still depressed. They also struggle a lot so I know it will hurt them so I keep it inside where it hurts me. I cut myselx on my legs and then wear only long jeans with long socks so no one will see. I am stating to scare myself and I just want to talk about it so badly but everytime I open my mouth I freak out and stop rught where I started. I am getting paranoid and scaring the crap out of myself. My broyher has also suffered from really severe depression and was sucidal and he told my parents nad they were so encoragin and got him help I don't know why I keep hiding it in my soul where it is burning me little by little. Btw im 14.
When I always got a Emberssesment moment just goes off, and I hate myself for being stupid I always hate friends that betray me for no reason so I made myself a depression mask so no one can see me I hate schools.
Alberto paul You aren’t stupid. There will always be true friends out there that care for you and will understand the pain you’re going through. You just need to find them. Life does get better trust me. It won’t happen over night but it will happen.
Same. My friends describe me funny, the memer and some obsessive to anime stuff but inside I feel like dying. The reason why I'm obsessive to anime was because they're the only ones to comfort me. Until. I find this. A song. To express with it. I met this anime name Given, Idolish7 and Actors Songs Connection. Given makes me remember the memories I've been through enough. It makes sense because I'm just like Sato Mafuyu. (The guy in my profile) Actors Songs Connection gives me to express in songs. One guy name Otonomiya Saku is just like me. A expressionless person without a smile. That is me behind my smiling depression. I'm always like that. He doesn't interact with others that much ever since he had a childhood friend who trust him the most Next. Idolish7. A blonde name Rokuya Nagi suffer with loneliness after a loss of someone precious in his past. Well. He disappeared. He's an anime obsessiver as well. Always blabbing about anime to hide it. But he's an serious person when it comes he never met those strangers. Completely different person. He's very good with those magical kokona moves. I'm impressed. This word of an Anime doesn't have an end. That's why I'm living them in my life no matter they suffer just like how people experience in reality.
This is how I feel all the time I try to act happy and hide my depression but I feel soo sad and lonely I don’t wanna except it because everyone acts like there depprest but there not and I don’t want the attention but I feel like if I told people they would not believe me because I was able to hide it for so long . I want to be happy but I can’t :/ please someone help me I’m 12.
A smile is like a mask with someone with depression and the mask try that other people think you are ok and i smile everyday that the people are dont be worried about me that they thing im ok that they can ask me for help that dont thing about me that they not be sad because of me
The problem that i have with depression is that i feel guilty or selfish. I don’t tell anyone because i don’t want to seem like i want attention or to burden them. Everyone thinks I’m happy and kind, always smiling. And when i have conversations i feel like I’m very far away. Most of the time i don’t even think i have depression but If I’ve been having these thoughts for most of my life it has to mean something right?
Welp, the ending hit me close since I always do that. Practice the smiles and always nitpick so itd look genuine cause hah, I dont want to bother anyone with what im going through
I feel for this fella, but at least it has not got the better of him yet, he is still getting up, washed and dressed and making it in to work...we do really need more mental health first aiders at work to recognise the signs in someone before it's too late.
I know its hard... I am also suffering from server depression 😞😞 I also tried 5times to take my own life 🥺🥺 but now I am trying to get out from depression and tried to lead a happy life🙂 And those who are suffering from this plz belive yourself, it may be hard for all of you but trust me it will works😌😌 just be yourself , don't think about what people think and say about you, don't compare yourself with other, trust yourself and love yourself... you can do it 😄bcz you are so special for this world
I..smile not because im happy i smile so they wont be worried i smile to hide the pain im feeling i smile so no one will know im hurt .i hide my tears so they wont judge.. I smile and kept telling my self ill be fine even if this smile is... Torturing me inside..i smile..for them.. So they will think im alright..I'll fight even tho im already defeat..I'll still smile till the last day of my life😊
Everyone thinks I am always happy because I hide my feelings behind a smile but when I’m alone I cry all the time and I get mad at myself for everything.
How can I let people know? They believe that I am the happiest person they have met, but it's untrue. I have only recently found out that I struggle with this. I only cry alone, in bed, where no one can hear me. My parents would freak out if they knew, and my dad would probably tell me to grow up. I want my friends to know, but I am too scared to tell them. Help
I want to help u but How can I?! and I'm in the same position as u i struggle for a years I'm trying to fighting it but it's really hard for me all I can say "god with us just keep believing to that and love urself with or without depression good luck
I can't even explain whats going on to my close friends I on th inside late at night just want the pain the fake happy the false smile I just wanna scream. I have a 13 year old daughter and as much as I want I can't even take myself from this because she is dwpwnding to much on me. Then inside I'm mad at myself for wanting to do the one thing to hurt her that it fuels my self hate even more yet I dont know how to get rid of the pain at all
I try to do this every day and it worked for a while, but the last few years i just cant, i dont have the energy for it(anymore) the sad thing with depression is not just that you have one,that's hard enough, but your friends turn around from you. Because they dont understand the struggle that you have inside. I lost everything, after a few surgeries iv lost hope...... So i stay alone for me. That's not a solution, i know,but that's the only way to deal with it. I really don't know how long i can do this. Perhaps for me its to late, its now 15 years that i have this and the last 3-4 years where to much to handle it.
I so much relate to this But now I hv decided is better staying inside not going out than to be going out and pretending it's been four days now I haven't left my room but while alone I think alot I hurt myself but it's better than smiling when u don't want to I've decided to quit school for this year don't know if it's a good idea but school is the main cause of my depression so bin dr n jst having to smile all d tym is killing me I can't keep living like this I can't
I don't wanna live anymore. Its so hard I can't handle. Im scared of my future. I don't wanna continue to survive. I've had enough. Im fucking scare, I can't.. I can't pass it! I don't understand anything. For what I choose it!? For what I live!? I feel only pain. IM WORTHLESS! NOBODY EVEN TRY TO HELP! I DON'T WANNA CONTINUE TO SURVIVE HERE! WHY I CHOOSED TO STAY!? I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY!I ONLY SUFFER ALL LIFE! I HATE MYSELF AND ALL THIS WORLD! IM WANNA DIE.
Is it possible to have "smiling depression" without the smile part? Allow me to ellaborate: is it possible for someone with a quiet, introverted personality to have depression but no one knows because they just assume s/he is just being his/her self, when really they are slowly becoming suicidal from an inability to communicate their emotions?
This means a lot, because its me. Except, I don't have the energy to brush my teeth, I hardly ever drink water and then I go out into the world and I look happy. Its so hard to put on that mask and it drains me. I always want to cry when I get home, even when I try to sleep, I can't sleep because of all of the thoughts in my head. It doesn't help that I have social anxiety as well. I'm too afraid to tell my family and friends about this. I'm sorry for rambling
I just cant say no and sometimes this happens with dating and stuff and I just wanna make people happy and then I dont feel it and I hate to break people down I dotn want them to feel like me
I’m 13 and I’ve tried to kill myself but when I try to talk about it my parents are worrying about my brothers baby, or my sister moving in next door or my other sister with good grades or fighting or drinking
I personally had the same will but I became religious and my whole life changed. The dihkr of Uwais al karni changed my life in a wonderful way. I felt for the first time that someone was actually listening, hearing me. And sincerely loved me. Here is the address if you are interested w w w. Veysel karani. Com
Nobody likes me. I know to some people it seems like I’m overexaderating. But they hate me and talk bad about me. I eat much alone and do my best not to cry. When teachers or my parents ask what’s wrong I say I’m tired or nothing I’m fine. I always put on a smile and force myself to talk when I don’t want to. I force myself to eat and wake up in the morning. I get called so many names and am so insecure Idk what to do. All ppl say if I were to tell them I’d get a counselor, so what’s the point. I smile but behind it is a girl who wants to cry. I only break down alone so nobody knows. I want to homeschool but my parents say they aren’t smart enough. I asked to transfer schools because of how bad the bullying is but I live in a small town right next to my school with no other district buses around. I hate it...
Ive always struggled with depression I masked it being the class clown and just say shit to make people laugh and show I'm alright but really I'm dieing inside feel empty and suicidal thoughts play in my head every single day I wish it would go away chick left with my two kids the only thing I cared about since last November I just don't know how to be happy and Public makes me feel guilty cuz I ain't with them
I try to keep my friends from being sad around me because I take it to my fault if someone is sad... and because of this mind set I can't stand there and not try to help them... And I wear a mask so they don't get brung down to my level... But people, look up to me... I just don't know how they can look up do a person that is clearly faking their entire life... But they believe it, so I forced it ever since I was 10... I have only experienced true happiness only a few times in the 12 years I've been on this planet... But don't let this comment get pitied, I hate that I don't want people feeling bad for me I want me to feel bad for them... but seriously don't like it or anything just read and continue... Seriously don't.
Most people don’t know that smiling depression is a thing, they just usually think of someone with depression sitting in a corner crying. This deserves to be seen by every person on the planet.
The person who is depressed is the one you would suspect the least
The last minute...
When he look at the mirror and smile while crying
I saw myself
I feel that. .
This is exactly me. Everyone thinks I am always happy because I always hide my feelings behind a smile but when I am alone I cry all the time and get mad at myself for everything. I am 13 :(
Believe that everything will be ok! If this continues, don't hesitate to seek professional help, it's never your fault. Hope things will be better for you❤️
lifEdit thank you very much❤
I know exactly how you feel, I had really bad depression like that when I was 12 or 13. But I got help and I did good for a long time, of course of got sad sometimes. But it's kinda starting to come back again and I'm 16 now and everyone always thinks I'm happy and nothing bothers me, but deep down i just feel depressed and numb and don't know how to feel anymore. But don't worry it will pass, and believe me I know it's soo hard putting on that fake smile and acting like everything is great.
Sasha Guerra Thanks for sharing I am trying to show how I feel and I am doing a bit better than the past two years
That's good, I'm glad, it's so easy to fall into it but getting out of it and changing is always a process. I wish the best for you, and if you ever need anyone to talk to you can always talk to me and I can try to give you advice. :)
*Sometimes, the friend who puts on the best smile, and laughs and makes jokes, is the one that hurts the most*
This means a lot.
I have depression, however I wake up everyday not thinking about it and putting on the positivity mask.
I am constantly acting happy and positive, in fact now with the happy mask I act even more positive than I was without depression.
But its an annoying positive.
When I first got depression, I had felt ya know, the usual symptoms: not liking things I used to love, feeling empty, and just not feeling the same. I hid it with a smile.
Then later on the mask became harder and harder to take off. I didn't really think about my depression too often. I mostly just had grown used to the mask. But then there were always those times where I would drift onto the past and stay there. That ended up losing more of myself.
I've kinda grown accustomed now, and I am lost. So very lost. I am complicated.
However, I have hope. I have hope that one day things will get better.
The thing is with the fake positivity mask (for me), the more you wear it everyday, the better you get at hiding your feelings... and the more hurt you actually get in your real self.
(Ima just use this analogy cuz it's all I could think of)
Think of makeup. The more you put on, the better you may appear to others. However, when using makeup, your pores may get clogged up more. But it's okay if your acne gets worse, because you have more makeup to wear. You also have more zits.
(yes yes I know that was a bad analogy and you SHOULD NOT care about what others think of what you look like and also love yourself. Also makeup doesn't make you prettier i guess; sorry for being confusing aah)
@Eagles Extra Rare Footage that's really hard, we put on this mask because we want to appear "normal" to others and don't let others know our true feelings
I feel you.
Hi can I suggest you something
Go on vacation
Drink lots of water
Be happy on what you have
Watch something different from your daily taste like if you watch movies watch movies of other languages with subtitles
Spend time with your family do something for others talk to orphans. Homeless people
AAH WOAH HEY GUYS!! I just saw in my notifs 2 years later I git a reply and HOLY HECC I did NOT expect replies and likes lol! Also here is a lil update now :-)
Currently happy to say that, when I read this back, I had to really go back! What I mean by that is- I remember how bad it hurt but I no longer really feel that way :). What has helped me is my faith in Jesus most of all; but also letting go.
Everyone; there comes a time where that mask is hard to take off, but in order to GROW you need to. And I did. I have lost people in my life but I could not be more blessed to have those who are. I am actually in high school now :) and I wrote that in 8th grade AND BOI O BOI 8TH GRADE WAS ROUGH LOL. But what I said was true and I remember feeling congested.
How is my mEntAl health now?¿?
WeLl.
I am going to keep it real. Life is not rose's without thorns. Obv, now there is a global pandemic oof. So honestly it really is not good. I have been struggling with disordered eating for a couple of months which is not great, or good to say the least. I lost a lot of weight but it was not all healthy. I am currently working on getting better, which is not easy. However, I know that life can get betterm in fact reading my old comment gives me hope, and I hope it may give at least someone else help too
Even though I still have battles I face everyday, even though you reading this probably has battles; life can get better! These struggles I faced EVERYDAY which left me so unbelievably DRAINED and tired are behind me! I took off that mask and honestly everything is more clear. I know it is not easy to let people in. Even I still sometimes have trouble. But with time and the inability to take it I broke free. I felt naked. Bare. It isnt comfortable. But, I promise
Everything will feel free.
And I know how HARD it is, how TERRIFYING it can be.
Just know that you mean so much to others.
Even if it is just one person,
You mean so much to them.
You matter.
And time can help
Your situation is not permanent.
And there are always people who will listen, just as you all have done for me.
So, thanks guys :)
Peace and Love to everyone💚
Same here. I feel like i can relate to EVERYTHING you had said. I told my best friend that I get very very negative and she knows but she never really thought I had this other side of me. Because I'm good at hiding them, with a smile. The cheerful bubbly me was the me that they say, but not me when I'm just super depressed. I used to cry a lot and bursts when I'm alone. Sometimes I know why I'm sad, and sometimes I don't. They just come and go. It's been a month I've been feeling like this. I have no one to tell to because I feel like i would appear weak and I don't even wanna believe that I have depression or anything. Maybe my day has just been bad but like it's been a month. I don't even cry anymore when I'm in pain, just emotionally numb at this point. Idk if I have depression or anything but I know that I need help, it's so hard for me to reach out when ur the one who people reach out to
I smile and say I’m always sad, people think they are being tricked, well, it’s no trick, it’s a truth.
Sometimes all you can do is smile, move on with your day, hold back your tears and pretend your okay
*_Is this mirror? Oh wait... That is video..._* You got to keep up the mask. You got to make them not dissapointed even tho you are a failure. You have to... Smile... Look happy.... You have to..... Keep...
ive done this, im 17 now soon to be 18. ive done this since I was 12... always helping others...telling them not to be depressed... helping them cope not to harm yet here I am faking a smile while crying because I cant let the mask go...because the mask gave others hope..even if it didn't give me any....
2 years later...
I'm reading your comment and it fits to myself 100%. Did you get over it, if so do you have any tips for me?
Sry if I'm selfish, I'm also feeling bad for you, but I hope that you already went trough it and are fine now.
This should win some award.
The last seconds...
When he look at the mirror and smile while crying
I saw myself
This is me I always hide my tears and when I do cry I tell everyone I’m fine and tell them to not worry about me 😔😭
That's pretty powerful bro
You captured my pain...
Smiling depression, counterintuitive huh?
No one can see through it yet in reality, I wish they could.
So do I. They just can't. They believe that we are to happy to be sad
Deserves much more views.
It's like feelings don't matter to anyone and it never did. People don't even care about how you feel, even if you're slowly dying and it gets faster by the day life is short
I relate so much. I hide my depression because I don’t want to drag others down too. It’s so hard sometimes and at times to pretend to be alright. I get so much exhausted even :/
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my UA-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
i suffer from smiling depression... i just want it to stop 😔
Im full jokes in school and every i go home i cry a lot for no reason.
Same
I remember when i was in junior high school, i cryed all the time, scream a loud, daydreaming, didn't got sleep well and felt empty. Now i am 16 years old, and i still feel empty, but my cry doesn't severe as my cry in 14-15 years old
I am fighting it now 😁
I'm crying while watching this...
I'm happy at least in this part I'm not alone
It’s easy to hide behind a smile.
But in my case, it’s hard to smile.
This is a beautiful video.
This is perfectly what I'm going through. I alwayd smile and get A+ from test and evrybody thinks that I am that perfect girl, but inside I am so depressed amd hate myself but I just hide it from everyone. I ma always so close to tell my parents about how I feel but then I always freak out and decide not to tell because I'm afraid they'd think I am selfish for having such great life and parents yet I am still depressed. They also struggle a lot so I know it will hurt them so I keep it inside where it hurts me. I cut myselx on my legs and then wear only long jeans with long socks so no one will see. I am stating to scare myself and I just want to talk about it so badly but everytime I open my mouth I freak out and stop rught where I started. I am getting paranoid and scaring the crap out of myself. My broyher has also suffered from really severe depression and was sucidal and he told my parents nad they were so encoragin and got him help I don't know why I keep hiding it in my soul where it is burning me little by little. Btw im 14.
Wow this is so real. I feel this every day.
I relate on a spiritual level...
When I always got a Emberssesment moment just goes off, and I hate myself for being stupid I always hate friends that betray me for no reason so I made myself a depression mask so no one can see me I hate schools.
Alberto paul You aren’t stupid. There will always be true friends out there that care for you and will understand the pain you’re going through. You just need to find them. Life does get better trust me. It won’t happen over night but it will happen.
Lost Survivor thanks for saying that.
They think im funny, happy and childish cause i can't show how feel...
Same. My friends describe me funny, the memer and some obsessive to anime stuff but inside I feel like dying. The reason why I'm obsessive to anime was because they're the only ones to comfort me. Until. I find this. A song. To express with it. I met this anime name Given, Idolish7 and Actors Songs Connection.
Given makes me remember the memories I've been through enough. It makes sense because I'm just like Sato Mafuyu. (The guy in my profile)
Actors Songs Connection gives me to express in songs. One guy name Otonomiya Saku is just like me. A expressionless person without a smile. That is me behind my smiling depression. I'm always like that. He doesn't interact with others that much ever since he had a childhood friend who trust him the most
Next. Idolish7. A blonde name Rokuya Nagi suffer with loneliness after a loss of someone precious in his past. Well. He disappeared. He's an anime obsessiver as well. Always blabbing about anime to hide it. But he's an serious person when it comes he never met those strangers. Completely different person. He's very good with those magical kokona moves. I'm impressed.
This word of an Anime doesn't have an end. That's why I'm living them in my life no matter they suffer just like how people experience in reality.
This is how I feel all the time I try to act happy and hide my depression but I feel soo sad and lonely I don’t wanna except it because everyone acts like there depprest but there not and I don’t want the attention but I feel like if I told people they would not believe me because I was able to hide it for so long . I want to be happy but I can’t :/ please someone help me I’m 12.
A smile is like a mask with someone with depression and the mask try that other people think you are ok and i smile everyday that the people are dont be worried about me that they thing im ok that they can ask me for help that dont thing about me that they not be sad because of me
When I got bullied I feel sad and happy at the same time when I sleep well if cry the faster the sleep is
The problem that i have with depression is that i feel guilty or selfish. I don’t tell anyone because i don’t want to seem like i want attention or to burden them. Everyone thinks I’m happy and kind, always smiling. And when i have conversations i feel like I’m very far away. Most of the time i don’t even think i have depression but If I’ve been having these thoughts for most of my life it has to mean something right?
The last smile made my cried and that is myself
This hurts to watch
I relate so much
this film hits a whole lot more differently when your experiencing it...
alone is the best living!
Welp, the ending hit me close since I always do that. Practice the smiles and always nitpick so itd look genuine cause hah, I dont want to bother anyone with what im going through
I feel for this fella, but at least it has not got the better of him yet, he is still getting up, washed and dressed and making it in to work...we do really need more mental health first aiders at work to recognise the signs in someone before it's too late.
I know its hard... I am also suffering from server depression 😞😞 I also tried 5times to take my own life 🥺🥺 but now I am trying to get out from depression and tried to lead a happy life🙂 And those who are suffering from this plz belive yourself, it may be hard for all of you but trust me it will works😌😌 just be yourself , don't think about what people think and say about you, don't compare yourself with other, trust yourself and love yourself... you can do it 😄bcz you are so special for this world
god this is so relatable i started crying
I..smile not because im happy i smile so they wont be worried i smile to hide the pain im feeling i smile so no one will know im hurt .i hide my tears so they wont judge.. I smile and kept telling my self ill be fine even if this smile is... Torturing me inside..i smile..for them.. So they will think im alright..I'll fight even tho im already defeat..I'll still smile till the last day of my life😊
This is so well made, I was pleasantly surprised!
Lost my brother in law to suicide almost two years ago. He had us all fooled. Wish we were more perceptive. I’d give anything to have him back.
Great work , edits especially
True I have smiling depression
Everyone thinks I am always happy because I hide my feelings behind a smile but when I’m alone I cry all the time and I get mad at myself for everything.
The part where he was looking in the mirror as if practicing his fake smile
How can I let people know?
They believe that I am the happiest person they have met, but it's untrue. I have only recently found out that I struggle with this. I only cry alone, in bed, where no one can hear me. My parents would freak out if they knew, and my dad would probably tell me to grow up. I want my friends to know, but I am too scared to tell them. Help
I want to help u but How can I?! and I'm in the same position as u i struggle for a years I'm trying to fighting it but it's really hard for me all I can say "god with us just keep believing to that and love urself with or without depression good luck
Me too. I relate so hard
I have smiling depression, i need some help😢 the only thing who make my happy is my family and my friends and my dog,JUST THIS....
I just wanted to be happy.....
This is powerful. Very very powerful.
fam♡
I dont know what to do with my self anymore I put myself in horrible situations just cause I want to see people smile instead of seeing myself smile
This is incredible
What should I do? I am not able to cry anymore, its difficult to cry even when I feel like crying hard.
I have been doing the exact same thing for a year........
Even though I'm very young ( 11 years old )
I can't even explain whats going on to my close friends I on th inside late at night just want the pain the fake happy the false smile I just wanna scream. I have a 13 year old daughter and as much as I want I can't even take myself from this because she is dwpwnding to much on me. Then inside I'm mad at myself for wanting to do the one thing to hurt her that it fuels my self hate even more yet I dont know how to get rid of the pain at all
I try to do this every day and it worked for a while, but the last few years i just cant, i dont have the energy for it(anymore) the sad thing with depression is not just that you have one,that's hard enough, but your friends turn around from you. Because they dont understand the struggle that you have inside. I lost everything, after a few surgeries iv lost hope......
So i stay alone for me. That's not a solution, i know,but that's the only way to deal with it. I really don't know how long i can do this.
Perhaps for me its to late, its now 15 years that i have this and the last 3-4 years where to much to handle it.
Very impressive boissss!
I so much relate to this
But now I hv decided is better staying inside not going out than to be going out and pretending it's been four days now I haven't left my room but while alone I think alot I hurt myself but it's better than smiling when u don't want to I've decided to quit school for this year don't know if it's a good idea but school is the main cause of my depression so bin dr n jst having to smile all d tym is killing me I can't keep living like this I can't
Great
I don't wanna live anymore. Its so hard I can't handle. Im scared of my future. I don't wanna continue to survive. I've had enough. Im fucking scare, I can't.. I can't pass it! I don't understand anything. For what I choose it!?
For what I live!? I feel only pain. IM WORTHLESS! NOBODY EVEN TRY TO HELP! I DON'T WANNA CONTINUE TO SURVIVE HERE! WHY I CHOOSED TO STAY!? I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY!I ONLY SUFFER ALL LIFE! I HATE MYSELF AND ALL THIS WORLD! IM WANNA DIE.
Is it possible to have "smiling depression" without the smile part? Allow me to ellaborate: is it possible for someone with a quiet, introverted personality to have depression but no one knows because they just assume s/he is just being his/her self, when really they are slowly becoming suicidal from an inability to communicate their emotions?
@Eagles Extra Rare Footage that's being shy
You forgot to close the door after stepping out. :)
This means a lot, because its me. Except, I don't have the energy to brush my teeth, I hardly ever drink water and then I go out into the world and I look happy. Its so hard to put on that mask and it drains me. I always want to cry when I get home, even when I try to sleep, I can't sleep because of all of the thoughts in my head. It doesn't help that I have social anxiety as well. I'm too afraid to tell my family and friends about this. I'm sorry for rambling
That sounds like a very difficult experience...
It looks realy like my own Situation. Nowbody knows how i realy feel.
I just cant say no and sometimes this happens with dating and stuff and I just wanna make people happy and then I dont feel it and I hate to break people down I dotn want them to feel like me
Same
I’m 13 and I’ve tried to kill myself but when I try to talk about it my parents are worrying about my brothers baby, or my sister moving in next door or my other sister with good grades or fighting or drinking
I personally had the same will but I became religious and my whole life changed. The dihkr of Uwais al karni changed my life in a wonderful way. I felt for the first time that someone was actually listening, hearing me. And sincerely loved me. Here is the address if you are interested w w w. Veysel karani. Com
Genuis..
i saw myself at the end
Anybody else just looking at the clock on the wall? :)
Nobody likes me. I know to some people it seems like I’m overexaderating. But they hate me and talk bad about me. I eat much alone and do my best not to cry. When teachers or my parents ask what’s wrong I say I’m tired or nothing I’m fine. I always put on a smile and force myself to talk when I don’t want to. I force myself to eat and wake up in the morning. I get called so many names and am so insecure Idk what to do. All ppl say if I were to tell them I’d get a counselor, so what’s the point. I smile but behind it is a girl who wants to cry. I only break down alone so nobody knows. I want to homeschool but my parents say they aren’t smart enough. I asked to transfer schools because of how bad the bullying is but I live in a small town right next to my school with no other district buses around. I hate it...
Send help ... please!
I am happy ... im in flames
I cant stop smiling
My jaw will crack
Send help... please!
Hey 🤗I don't know you🤗 still Love you
Good
Ive always struggled with depression I masked it being the class clown and just say shit to make people laugh and show I'm alright but really I'm dieing inside feel empty and suicidal thoughts play in my head every single day I wish it would go away chick left with my two kids the only thing I cared about since last November I just don't know how to be happy and Public makes me feel guilty cuz I ain't with them
May be life meant just this for us, but its okay, since life doesn't last forever
Well made
I try to keep my friends from being sad around me because I take it to my fault if someone is sad... and because of this mind set I can't stand there and not try to help them... And I wear a mask so they don't get brung down to my level... But people, look up to me... I just don't know how they can look up do a person that is clearly faking their entire life... But they believe it, so I forced it ever since I was 10...
I have only experienced true happiness only a few times in the 12 years I've been on this planet...
But don't let this comment get pitied, I hate that I don't want people feeling bad for me I want me to feel bad for them... but seriously don't like it or anything just read and continue...
Seriously don't.
Remember your body proteins molecule makes you smile and laugh!!
Relatable:)
So deep
I just saw myself.
0:20 your mom yell at you, he young man close the door..
27 dislikes? That’s is 27 too many!
why does he look like miraie
Thats me 100 % 😱😱😱
I am also same like him
tis is my life
Ahaha
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What's the point in life. We're just gonna die anyway why not make it sooner
Hmmm..that's true but unfortunately I have to keep living somehow cause I can't break my mother's heart
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