I feel like so many people feel lonely in college because we have all these big expectations and it’s highly talked about. But no one really talks about you questioning everything in college and feeling like you know nothing.
Hollywood accurately summed up: "executives in their offices doing cocaine and people getting jobs because their dad or their cousin worked somewhere."
Yeah... Hollywood today is now CRAP... The Art of film making is pretty much gone! Just have a strong opening week - quality be damned, number of explosions per second, etc.
1- when you cried about your loneliness I felt you so much 2- I love that you support education even if the system isn't right 3-i love dan & drum and I screamed when you put "Never was alright" 4-i wanna meet u and hug u and be your best friend 5-you're so talented ashley
Wow. I feel like I just watched a mini movie. How did she manage to make me laugh, cry, feel inspired and be educated about so much all within a span of 13 minutes?! The sheer amount of hard work Ashley puts into her videos and her education/career makes me respect her so much! I see downright arrogant youtubers who's life is all about waking up at 2 pm, getting coffee, posting a video once a month with the most lazy content and get millions of views, and then there are people like Ashley, who started out as a full time college student, found ways to film in limited surrounding and still manage to give us well thought out quality content and the best part is she stays humble! Love you Ashley! Hope to see your name in the ending credits of a big Hollywood movie very soon!
College is where I saw so many people with depression, anxiety and just terrible mental health. Students joke all the time, myself included, that so and so class is killing them but it's high key reality. I've spent nights with friends crying over not knowing what's our purpose is and what's the point of a degree. My friends that have graduated already felt more anxiety for joining the workforce than actually wanting to celebrate. I have 2 more semesters before I graduate and I was fortunate enough to realize I needed a mental health break and took a semester off. In that time, I figured out my plans for my life. Sadly, i think it's such a bad stigma in the US to not finish in 4 yrs and people don't slow down to really analyze their future. If you want to go to college or are in college now, please take the time to think about how you've grown as a person academic wise, socially and how you want to see yourself in 10 years.
^^^ im a junior in college now and my mental health is shit. i know it's not just college, i was depressed before college bc of trauma & other things, but it's so hard to succeed in such an unforgiving environment AND keep your mental state intact.
I have one year left in college and tbh you couldnt have phrased all of my emotions better. Super confused about the future, super scared... just optimistic
I feel like you're Hermione Granger, being able to be at multiple places at once. You were able to double up on classes, work, do internships, and film youtube videos within 3 years of school??? :O girl you're superwoman lolol
Ermmmmm hate to break it to you. But that is the norm for every student in the UK. We start uni in September. Break up early May. And we do that for 3 years. If you total the time your actually in uni you get 1 and a half years of school (6 months a year, that’s taking out Christmas, Easter, summer break etc.) and we are expected to do extracurricular, get work experience, and anything else we want to do. However the time constraints aren’t something we can change. It’s 3 years and that’s it. We get an allotted number of classes per semester and we usually only get to choose them after first year. So will all that roughly 8 assignments per semester (that big assignments so like a final etc) so around 16 assessments per year (or 16 assessments per every 6 months) ... yeah university (which is the same thing as American college) is fuckingggg harddddd in the UK 😂 😭 😝
damn... all i gotta say is... i wish i had your talent for distilling really large and scary concepts into something that's digestible for everybody... you really do have a talent for narrative and a way with words!! much love from a college junior who Big Agrees with everything you said in this video. and thanks for being so vulnerable, it really made me think about how i feel about college, the good and the bad!
This is so cute and good. I work as a PhD researcher at the London School of Economics researching UA-cam content creators, and I think this is such a good example of someone with a lot of influence giving useful information to their young audiences about their experiences of university. Keep up the good work!
Hello Taylor. I'd definitely say that statement isn't necessarily true, and it's true dropping out of school has good benefits... but the good news is *You Can Still Succeed* in your occupation *Only* if it has good demand in the long run.
Young Papi It always depends on who is saying it and the situation they are in, she just happens to be one of the few on UA-cam that has followed through with their high school years, as well as attained a college degree.
I'm so glad you openly talk about how hyped up college/uni is and how lonely it can feel. I always thought that my life would be incredible when I got to uni but if anything it got worse, but I'm so glad that I went and was pushed to challenge myself as a person!
One of the most honest and real content creators on this platform. Ashley's really out here bringing back the sincerity in making content. Love this sosososo much, i can watch it for hours.
i feel the exact same thing about her. she just takes us all back to what youtube should really be about and still is so down to earth. gotta love one spicy ashley
I am in my freshman year and when you said that you felt lonlier than ever in college, I felt that. Honestly, all these movies about 'the college experience' build up such unrealistic expectations about what college is supposed to be like that 9 out of 10 times it ends up being disappointing. My social anxiety has drastically increased in college to the point where people have literally never heard me speak. College is not just fun parties and people minding their own business. Sometimes, people are not the kindest and they judge you and say mean things but in a way it has helped me be a better person and grow a thicker skin. Watching you tear up over your freshman year broke my heart. But you are okay inspite of it all, so I guess I'll be too. Thank you, Ashley (for improving my outfits AND my life.)
I agree to each and every word you wrote. It is my freshman year as well and error 404 friend not found. But it has only made me more independent and more confident in myself and getting all my work done myself rather than depending on others 😊
I agree! In college especially the freshman year that everyone is adapting to the new environment, it is easy to find a bunch of people to hang out and have fun with, but it is hard (actually during the whole college years) to find a person that you two are truly on the same page, share the same value and feel like a "bestie" or "true friend that can bring you up no matter you are on the highest or lowest point". I think it is because college is such a changeable place, and people's views and personalities also can be changed drastically. Also, social anxiety or any type of anxiety is normal, and I encourage you to see a counselor on your campus to talk with! I think most of the time counseling on campus is free!
@@zspov936 haha yeah I think 'the college experience' is mostly just a learning experience where you learn how to deal with adult stuff- one of them being how fuckjng difficult it is to make friends as an adult and also how lonely it can get sometimes. but lately, rather than just accepting my friendlessness I've been making an effort to get out of my comfort zone a little and go out/talk to more people, and I won't lie to you it hasn't been all that great. But it has been getting better slowly. I hope you do the same. I hope we both grow from this. :)
@@Bunnylovescoffee I'm from India so there isn't really a counselor and therapy is so fucking expensive here, mental health is more of a luxury trust me. But I've been trying to deal with it a little on my own and it has been getting better. Hope the rest of my college experience isn't as bad as this year was.
"'It makes you a stronger person, it makes you smarter, it makes you see the world in a way that you didn't before" love this last line a lot because it's so true and I guess my only reason why I still want to continue college
“so they interview everybody in person first to make sure they don’t admit any weirdos... that system failed in April of 2016 ... when they admitted me” HA
I thought when I graduate college, everything is set. I’m gonna yet a good job, no more homework, classes and just making money and living my life! And yea... I don’t have literal homework and classes anymore, they are replaced with meetings and emails and presentations and reports and metrics and .... the list goes to infinity
Same, and now with the pandemic happening and working from home is the norm, I now struggle with work/life balance, when now you work at the same room at what you used to consider a safe space free from all the corporate bullshit. *sigh
"College has become really all about the 'college experience', rather than the college education, which is what you're here to get." YES YES YES. I'm a freshman in college, and I chose to stay home and go to community college, and my junior/senior year of HS when everybody's figuring out where theyre gonna go, my heart BROKE at the thought of community college. I had been WAITING for that "fun college experience": partying, meeting hot guys, a dorm, and freedom to start fresh, but the truth is, thats all SO overrated. Half of my old HS friends who went away end up alone in their dorm every night, wishing they decided to save money going to CC. My point it, any high schoolers reading this: don't be too attached to the idea of that "college experience." Go where you'll get the best education without selling your life away. College is ridiculously expensive, especially when the first year or two are just gen-eds that you can take anywhere and have nothing to do with your major. Stay focused on what you NEED and what you WANT will follow.
your experience is different and so will everyone else's. Community College is good if you don't want to pay for lower level classes. You will have to transfer to a 4 year to get a degree. Depending on your major, going to a high profile school is worth every dime. The networking, scholarship, grants available are well worth it. If you are lazy then going to a "big" school is not for you. The college experience is good for those who can handle the balance of social and study.
Sterling Marshel Sure, the internships/possible gateways from going to a high profile school are a perk, but you mention grants/scholarships, even though you wouldn’t even need them if that college wasn’t so over the top expensive LMAO. Most likely will still be in debt into your thirties. And ur missing my point: it’s not about “balancing” the social life & studying of college, it’s that so many people find the classic, popularized “college experience”(social part) VERY overrated and not all it’s cracked up to be. And I would watch how you interject the word lazy into this discussion
oh my god Ashley, thank you for being so honest about your struggles, thank you for openly telling us about your weight gains, your loneliness, your expectations and how sometimes they aren't always met, your weight loss (in other videos), telling us about you losing your virginity, having sex. Just having an influencer be this honest helps me so much, especially at the moment when I'm feeling a bit depressed. I appreciate you so much.
this is such a wonderful real video, made so beautifully! thank you for talking so openly about the ugliness and loneliness of the uni experience that literally nobody seems to talk about, it was so refreshing as someone who's in second year and still considers dropping out every other week lmao
And once again a genuine video. It was so wholesome. You covered college life very well Ashley. And thank you so much for coming out about your hardships and struggles in college, you brave girl. It's because of you, that we know we're not alone. And you're not alone. You mix the fun, loneliness, excitement, struggles, dreams, reality and emotions in a beautiful blend to give us this video. You may or may not even read this comment but I have to say this so that you know: You're someone I relate to a lot and look up to. You've taught me self-reliance and standing up for yourself even if you're not a big someone. And smiling through it all (even when sometimes you don't want to) Pursuing your dreams consistently takes a lot of determination & courage, especially if its an uncommon path. I respect that a lot. And your summing up lines are so mature and dare I say-wise. I agree, it's the harsh truth- which is what no tells us yet its what we all needed to know. Thank you so much Ashley. Congratulations on graduating from such a wonderful college. All the best for the future! Lots and lots of love and power to you girl💕
I am always so shocked how much education costs in America!! I am from Germany and here the school, university etc is free! It all depends on your grades if you want to go to university, so you need really good grades to study for the "higher" jobs for example to become a doctor, psychologist or lawyer.. I guess in America everything is about the money, but here the poorest people could make it if they study hard enough!
Wow. Thats awesome. Do they pay for health care in your country? They don't in mine. Education at the primary level is free in my country. I'm from the Caribbean.
kilo gram that I wanted to major in theatre and go to medical school for grad school however, the prerequisites do not align and it would take forever to finish all the classes so I opted for neuroscience as a major.
kilo gram that’s amazing! At first I was certain I was majoring in theatre because many say your major doesn’t matter but unfortunately it does matter when planning to go to med school, I would rather graduate earlier and pursue my career earlier than live in a fantasy in a sense for so long which will turn out to spending more money. Also I’m going to community college and then transferring to a UC so there’s that. I will start full time summer, and I want to transfer in a year but god I procrastinated too much in what major I would ultimately chose haha but now I know! Good luck btw! We need passionate doctors!
i'm in awe of this video. the cinematography, the realness, everything! every video you post is truly a work of art and the time and dedication you put into youtube really shows. you are amazingggg :-)
wow. i’m four days from starting my college career (i’m also a screenwriting major), and this hit hard. i’ve been so scared of college not meeting my high expectations - like you, i struggled hella in high school emotionally, and i even tried to graduate early because i hated it so much, and my mom kept telling me to just keep pushing because college would be a thousand times better and i would finally meet “my people.” i super appreciate the honesty here. you put so much energy in to this video and really said what needed to be said. you’ve really built up an incredible channel for yourself, i cannot believe you did it all while attending ucla with an extra heavy course load. good luck with even more success in your future, your achievements are far weightier than you even know! you’ve inspired my filmmaking style so much! thank you!
i'm a film student with one year left in undergrad and hearing you say you got rejected by all of your studio internships made me feel so much better and that i'm not the only one this happens to !!
Same here! I have had so many rejections that it has let me down so many times, but don't give up! It's hard to get a job anywhere. Just keep pushing through.
I honestly can't explain the admiration I have for Ashley, she constantly gives out her all into making videos but still knows how to have fun in it, all the while genuinely caring for her subscribers and audience. ❤
ahh this video is so personal and professional at the same time, im shook. also ashleys general presence and commentary just makes everything so much better ngl
"i could close my eyes and disappear and nobody would even notice." this literally made me cry.............. :') this is what I've been feeling recently and when I've gone to the Netherlands to pursue my education all alone from South Korea. i also expected that college will be a lot better than high school, but I was wrong haha it was much harsher and I had to make my own opportunities while teachers at high schools provide you info about all different kinds of events and competitions that you can take part in. i suppose this is called fcking LIFE hahahahaha
You go girl! You can do this!! Trust me, it is going to get better. With time, your environment will feel more familiar to you, and you will discover some people you can vibe with :)
“....parents go to jail for it” BIG OOF anyways i feel the whole loneliness thing in college too everyone is basically just doing their own thing so i thank you ashley for sharing the REAL shit about the college experience!!
One of the few people on social media today who is genuinely kind, is humble about their MANY talents and makes raw and very creative content. I know I don’t know you personally...but I have a feeling that you have a very bright future and life ahead of you. Props to you for pursuing your dreams!!! So inspired by you and thankful for your content!!!😊
You made me cry when you cried! I felt the same way when I started college and same after when I transferred out of my community college. Now luckily I'm having the time of my life but I'm about to graduate lol
Thank you for sharing your college experience :) I never went, and now, since this video was so thorough and well done, I feel I've truly experienced the journey
I'm a high school senior right now, and I'm planning on going to school to pursue a degree in music industry. I have a lot of insecurities about my talent and abilities, and I'm nervous about college because the school I plan to attend is very expensive. I'm terrified I might be making the wrong decision, but at the same time I don't want to give up on my dream. When you talked about your insecurities and misgivings about film school, and about the industry you wanted to go into, I saw my own worries reflected back at me. Somehow, that made me feel better. You give me hope, that even if college isn't everything I expect it to be, I can still make it meaningful and learn and grow. I guess what I'm trying to say is thank you. Your videos have always been a source of happiness and inspiration in my life, and I look up to you. Thank you for showing me that life is what you make of it.
Honestly, try to avoid getting yourself into unnecessary debt that you may never be able to pay off. Really really question why you think you need to pursue a college degree for the music industry. There are many many ways to make a living in the music industry without a college degree. But best wishes to you.
I'm applying for PhD programs this year, currently doing my Master's. Undergrad was brutal, I felt lonely and trapped because I knew I wanted to go to grad school so I needed good grades. I love how this video doesn't sugarcoat or overdramatizes the college experience. I still believe it's all worth it. Thank you Ashley
Alexandra I am with you on the video it was great. I wish you the best of luck in applying for PhD programs. I know that I want to go to grad school and then go into research though I am a little stuck. Any tips you could give a junior who is in their Undergrad right now about it and the process of exploring it more.
@@christinaflinn5418 Hi! I don't know what field you're currently studying in so this may not apply to all fields (I'm a french literature grad student) but my suggestion would be to reach out to professors that inspire you and/or that you are interested in their line of work or even grad students for guidance. Basically, someone that could become your mentor; navigating the academic universe is something you learn along the way but having someone that you trust makes it a lot easier. Also, do NOT take anything personally; it's never about you! It's 99% about them and the limitations of the system. Enjoy the education you're getting and keep faith in yourself, even when it feels like everyone is working against you! Best of luck xx
i'm a rising junior in college and honestly I hate it. I thought I was missing out on something when everyone would talk about how great this "college experience" is. I'm glad that I'm not the only person who doesn't see college as this amazing fun time in life.
As a high school senior who's going to a UC, albeit not UCLA, this video really hits hard. It gives me such a genuine perspective on college that I can't find in many other college videos. Also these lowkey flexes that Ashley has dropped the past year: got into Stanford? and Columbia?? And she revealed this video that she not only was 1 out of 15 students in UCLA Film, but she also graduated early (admitted in 2016 but graduated 2019?!) Thank you for your truly honest and wonderful channel, Ashley. You're an inspiration.
I've been here for a while... I just realized! I remember your blonde hair, freaking out about your roommates coming home, being broke, tinder dates, hitting 100k, etc. It's crazy that you've come so far and I'm so proud of you! Thank you for your amazing content
I'm about to start my second year of college in a month and a half and by far what you said about feeling lonely and realizing that college can be painfully underwhelming is so true. I remember coming back home crying because I felt so shitty and a waste of human space all the time. It has surely gotten better but i'm so glad that at least one youtuber keeps it authentic and actually talks about shit that matters and things that students go through. I look forward to you videos every week. ILY Ashley
same, i felt so lost during my first semester but i started to get myself more involved in different activities like drama and choir and maybe i didn't make super close friends from those activities but i felt way more involved as a uni student and felt a stronger sense of belonging
I rewatch this video everytime when I feel lonely in college, this reminds me that I am not alone and I will most definitely get through this loneliness
Ashley, you are such an inspiration. I can’t believe how ridiculously smart, funny and hardworking you are. You are so different from other youtubers, and I honestly have no idea how you managed to make amazing content while still juggling the million other things (ahem, college) you had going on. I look forward to every video and I’m never disappointed. Although I doubt I will ever work up the nerve to do something like going to film school, I’m so glad that you got the chance to pursue your passion-you are truly talented. Thank you for everything.
No Ashley, your peak is yet to come! Your personality is so frecking great and well yeh its really fangirly bur i really love u, and for me you r like a friends, which may sound kinda sad, coming from a lonely 21 year old Swedish girl, but you really mean something to me and have helped me accept myself and my flaws and like understand that’s it’s ok to not be perfect. Well idk what my point was but it just made me sad to se you sad and I wanted you to know that your awesome and thank you for being there for me in some sort of way. 💫
You're right she has so many more successes to look forward to, her work ethic is astounding! I feel that Ashley is so open with us that she does really almost feel like a friend and I don't think that's sad at all! I'm a lonely 16 year old, hoping I'll find my tribe soon and if you are looking for one too I'm sure you'll find them. Ashley has really helped me accept myself and my flaws, as well, I think Ashley is so powerful and I love that I'm growing up in world where I have access to people like her online. Also, Christ it made me so sad to see Ashley sad but I think that's one of the reasons I love her, she's not afraid of showing that side of herself to us and we all feel like that at some point or another. :-)
I cried watching this video because it’s really nice to see someone who takes the pressure of college having to be the best time of your life. I didn’t have a good time in high school, at all, I didn’t fit in, I hated the atmosphere. I thought college was going to fix all my problems, I couldn’t wait to be more independent, so start living my life as the real me. But my mental health has really deteriorated over the course of these 2 years, and I feel so much pressure to have a good time and to take it in, everyone always says that you shouldn’t waste your twenties because you’ll never get them back and it’s the best time of your life but that isn’t helpful to me at all. I gave myself a year with a lighter schedule to take a rest and heal myself, but with the pandemic I haven’t made all the progress I wanted to, and I realised that I shouldn’t give myself a deadline on stuff like this. I’m dealing with some hard stuff, and it’s okay if it takes me a bit more time.
Hey girl, it feels soooo good to hear that going to college and having fun really isn’t that obvious and easy and making friends is hard even for someone cool and funny like you. I also cry nearly every day because of my college and how everyone is treating me there, but the difference is- I can’t even talk to teachers cuz they are also a really unpleasant people. It makes me feel a little bit better when you say that in the end it’s worth it. Thank you for this video💕
Honestly, thank you. I moved to a whole different continent to attend college and it really isn't the insane fun ride the movies promised. I do however, really enjoy what I'm studying and I feel like my world has opened up because of it. I wish it was cooler to go to college to really learn rather than to 'experience' the college life.
I also so badly want(ed) to move to a different continent, America, just to go to college here. But seeing all this and hearing stories about the educational system of America makes me rethink my decision. Plus it's so freaking expensive... I really hope they'll improve it some time soon.
As a student at UCLA I can definitely attest that friendships there are hard to come by and keep. I’m happy to see a realistic representation of our school 🖤
video idea! i would love to see you talk more about film in your videos! i’m interested in pursuing a career in film and i think it would he super interesting if you made a video on it. its honestly kinda funny that you haven’t really talked about film much on your channel since it was your major haha it kinda feels like a secret side of you i’d love to learn more about. i’m interested to hear about your favorite films, your writing projects, how you approach filmmaking, and anything else you found interesting from film school! ily keep up the good work b 😘
it really hit me when you talked about freshman year. my first year has been rough, and it's honestly really nice to hear that you went through something similar and turned everything around
as a junior in high school this video simultaneously reassured me and made me anxious. either way i’m glad it exists. thanks for sharing your experience ashley :,)
Omg I thought I was the one who felt lonely in college, I just feel the same way as you. Lonely and meaningless. Like nobody can see me, and nobody seems to care. It’s really painful. I’m glad that you made it. You graduated!!
As someone who just enrolled at college and is kinda scared about the future, this vid was really helpful and inspiring. You're right-- it's an education, in more ways than one
5:30 - 7:01 wow you’re describing my life rn. I’m at nyu tisch and I feel so lucky to be here but also I’m so f*in sad all the time and crying about how the industry basically sucks and my future will probably suck too. I’ve never related to someone’s college experience so much
i really want to get into nyu and tisch but i'm scared that doing an arts major will fuck my future up, and the arts are the only thing i actually want to do w my life,,, too bad it wouldnt get me anywhere.
ansha if you’re passionate I think you can figure it out, whatever you decide. I’m definitely stressed out about what I will do when I get out of college (how to find jobs in the industry etc) and I have definitely struggled more than those majoring in more straightforward subjects. But I’m trying really fucking hard to be hopeful about the future and you should too. I have classmates who are over thirty who came back to study what they’re truly passionate about because at the end of the day, it’s about pursuing what you love. But like also don’t stress about fucking your future up. What college you go to and what you major in doesn’t define you. I agree with Ashley saying that college is about the experience and the connections you make (friends, professors etc).
as someone who had a hard time in college (and honestly a hard first year after graduation) thank you so so so much for your honesty. I always felt like everyone around me was having the time of their life and it's refreshing and relieving to see that not everyone loved their college years.
Ahhhhh I feel that. I always thought I was doing college “wrong” because everyone looked like they were having a great time. I wish I saw this video during my first year
Hi, I'm from India and this is honestly the most informative video regarding US colleges I've seen (UCLA is my dream school too but I'm working on other things rn) Thanks, girl! :D
um let’s talk about how ashley just casually said she was one of 15 (!!!) admitted!! way to go girl!
also chose UCLA over stanford (!!!)
sarosen WHAT really?
Beep boop yeah it’s in one of her earlier videos
April Zhao yea I just saw it. Ashley is so so impressing!! We stan a smart and fashionable QUEEN
What does ''she was one of 15'' means ?!
She's the kind of person you wanna hangout with but you cant actually
Denmarynne Domingo fr 😭😭
why does this have 5.8k likes. why?
Fax
Very true
Denmarynne Domingo 😂
I feel like so many people feel lonely in college because we have all these big expectations and it’s highly talked about. But no one really talks about you questioning everything in college and feeling like you know nothing.
yes, for real.
this is exactly how I feel right now
Yea I had so many expectations for friendships and I’m mostly just working my ass off and barely seeing my friends 😂
All I do is work and do school work lol, balancing a social life is so hard omg
omg what is balance in college? 😅😅😅
Hollywood accurately summed up: "executives in their offices doing cocaine and people getting jobs because their dad or their cousin worked somewhere."
Yeah... Hollywood today is now CRAP... The Art of film making is pretty much gone! Just have a strong opening week - quality be damned, number of explosions per second, etc.
JungleYT somebody doesn’t like paying attention to movies
"uploaded 18 seconds ago"
they call me sonic
Don't know how you do it!
haha XD
lmao
Lol same
*as i'm admiring her outfit*
"i'm also slowly realizing how awful my outfit is in this video, so please don't unsubscribe for that"
omg sameee
She literally can’t look bad I admire all of her outfits
EXACTLY
I know. Her outfit is so cute. :( Even if it wasn’t, Ashley is pretty as hell so she’ll look great even in a trash bag lol. ❤️
SAME WTH😂
Okay this is such a freaking professional video
right?!?!!
that’s our ashley,,
exactly@@shadowpuppet222
Ikr!!
She went to school for it
"I did get into a couple other schools..." yeah girl freaking Stanford and Columbia LOLOLOL
Dude, really!?
@@nareelannaspiro2065 yeaaaa lol! She said it in another video. She's a smartie haha
Going to ucla over Stanford as an out of state student.. . Now THATS a bad decision.
MambaJamba Considering she was a Film major, LA is going to be a better city to strive in than the Bay Area I would assume
Simply Shravya what ??!! she didn’t choose Stanford😭
david laughing at you and not helping you while you're stuck on that bear statue is a whole mOOD
1- when you cried about your loneliness I felt you so much
2- I love that you support education even if the system isn't right
3-i love dan & drum and I screamed when you put "Never was alright"
4-i wanna meet u and hug u and be your best friend
5-you're so talented ashley
théa D. I’m in love with her
@@shir600 same omg. She's honestly my favorite youtuber and she's just so amazing
I literally cried
OMG you have expressed my thoughts better than I
honestly like damn i cried too and im always glad to see someone else talking about it. no one ever expects to feel loneliness at college
Wow. I feel like I just watched a mini movie. How did she manage to make me laugh, cry, feel inspired and be educated about so much all within a span of 13 minutes?! The sheer amount of hard work Ashley puts into her videos and her education/career makes me respect her so much! I see downright arrogant youtubers who's life is all about waking up at 2 pm, getting coffee, posting a video once a month with the most lazy content and get millions of views, and then there are people like Ashley, who started out as a full time college student, found ways to film in limited surrounding and still manage to give us well thought out quality content and the best part is she stays humble! Love you Ashley! Hope to see your name in the ending credits of a big Hollywood movie very soon!
And then graduate in 3 years!
I cried too, she‘s lovely! could relate so much
College is where I saw so many people with depression, anxiety and just terrible mental health. Students joke all the time, myself included, that so and so class is killing them but it's high key reality. I've spent nights with friends crying over not knowing what's our purpose is and what's the point of a degree. My friends that have graduated already felt more anxiety for joining the workforce than actually wanting to celebrate. I have 2 more semesters before I graduate and I was fortunate enough to realize I needed a mental health break and took a semester off. In that time, I figured out my plans for my life. Sadly, i think it's such a bad stigma in the US to not finish in 4 yrs and people don't slow down to really analyze their future. If you want to go to college or are in college now, please take the time to think about how you've grown as a person academic wise, socially and how you want to see yourself in 10 years.
Totally can relate to this life after college was daunting.
@Sunglasses poiu this isn't a generalization. I shared my experience...
^^^ im a junior in college now and my mental health is shit. i know it's not just college, i was depressed before college bc of trauma & other things, but it's so hard to succeed in such an unforgiving environment AND keep your mental state intact.
Wise words...
I have one year left in college and tbh you couldnt have phrased all of my emotions better. Super confused about the future, super scared... just optimistic
ah yes, the world-renowned 1980s film, Shark Tale
Bahaha
@@dclaire4097 amen
I love that movie lmao
Hahhaa
@@dclaire4097 it's true, that's why it's world-renowned
that sitting inside bathroom stalls to kill time bc you dont have friends part... I FELT THAT :)))))
Sakura Yamauchi same!!! and a lot of people didn’t experience that and IT SHOWS
honestly i never related to something so much lol
Yea thats real pain lol. Hopefullyeveryone here got friends... [Small sigh]
literally me, i would hide in the upstairs bathroom at the gym i worked at for like 30 minutes at a time to scroll through twitter
im still feelin it
I feel like you're Hermione Granger, being able to be at multiple places at once. You were able to double up on classes, work, do internships, and film youtube videos within 3 years of school??? :O girl you're superwoman lolol
Srsly tho I feel so lazy and a piece of shit
Ermmmmm hate to break it to you. But that is the norm for every student in the UK. We start uni in September. Break up early May. And we do that for 3 years. If you total the time your actually in uni you get 1 and a half years of school (6 months a year, that’s taking out Christmas, Easter, summer break etc.) and we are expected to do extracurricular, get work experience, and anything else we want to do. However the time constraints aren’t something we can change. It’s 3 years and that’s it. We get an allotted number of classes per semester and we usually only get to choose them after first year. So will all that roughly 8 assignments per semester (that big assignments so like a final etc) so around 16 assessments per year (or 16 assessments per every 6 months) ... yeah university (which is the same thing as American college) is fuckingggg harddddd in the UK 😂 😭 😝
@@fsgillespie2000 you want a cookie? Can’t you just let people spread positivity without being a huge buzzkill?
she just has a new york vibe. like la doesn't deserve this girl.
Sooo true! She will feel much more at home in New York
@@peachlife5118 .. that's where she lives now
@@noelleisabellia5193 yeah we know
What is the difference between ny girl and a la girl??
^ I’m curious as well
Man, you can tell you were a film student, absolutely love your laid back/astheticly pleasing/comedic film style. QUALITY CONTENT.
can we appreciate the amount of effort she puts in to every single one of her UA-cam videos?! like who tf else cares like she does? 💫
tf its just a normal youtube video
You’re not even subscribed..
Honey Pixels and how do you know that?
@Honey Pixels You don't have to be subscribed just to appreciate someone's effort that they put into a video.
@@arghunqon3774 if you ever edited a video then you know how much effort and time it takes for her to edit her video like this
excuse me ashely I see the one, the only Shark Tale up on that wall, that’s a 2000s classic!
I love that movie! I can't believe so many people dislike it. Lol
I burst out laughing when I saw the poster!
megan o lmao same
Fallon Cho I haven’t watched it in YEARS
viviandarkbloom23 SAME I was like ooh I HAVE to comment now
when u said u cried because u felt lonelier than ever, i FELT that. istg we're really on our own out here
i dont know why but ur prof pic made me fckin cackle
this is possibly the greatest video you have ever made
true
Ikr 💕
Wow you got a heart from Ashley
damn... all i gotta say is... i wish i had your talent for distilling really large and scary concepts into something that's digestible for everybody... you really do have a talent for narrative and a way with words!! much love from a college junior who Big Agrees with everything you said in this video. and thanks for being so vulnerable, it really made me think about how i feel about college, the good and the bad!
Girl you are already at 1.5 million?? I swear I JUST watched you eat all that cereal
Olivia I remember her being at 100k and I’m confused
SAMEEEEEEE GIRL!!
huhhh m2
Same I’m so confused right now
Right?! I came back after a month and was so surprised
This is so cute and good. I work as a PhD researcher at the London School of Economics researching UA-cam content creators, and I think this is such a good example of someone with a lot of influence giving useful information to their young audiences about their experiences of university. Keep up the good work!
I really love Ashley and she inspired me to start my own platform. Hope you can subscribe to my channel! 💜
@Zoe Glatt first time I've heard of a PhD program studying youtubers... cool stuff!
i go to lse!!
@@TheNewTravel what do they do?
@@aliceontheinternet123 I survived LSE! (such a long time ago tho)
Finallllyyy someone on UA-cam that doesn’t promote dropping out bc “sChOoL hAs nO usE”
*cough cough* Simplynailogical *cough cough*
Katherine Hsu Yes, you’re right! She is also great.
Hello Taylor. I'd definitely say that statement isn't necessarily true, and it's true dropping out of school has good benefits... but the good news is *You Can Still Succeed* in your occupation *Only* if it has good demand in the long run.
Young Papi It always depends on who is saying it and the situation they are in, she just happens to be one of the few on UA-cam that has followed through with their high school years, as well as attained a college degree.
@@taylorrmoriarty Well said.
I'm so glad you openly talk about how hyped up college/uni is and how lonely it can feel.
I always thought that my life would be incredible when I got to uni but if anything it got worse, but I'm so glad that I went and was pushed to challenge myself as a person!
OMG YES nobody talks ab how hard adjusting could be like when I first got into college I had so mental breakdowns lol
finally a youtuber who supports education
joana ceddia also make a video about education tho, you should watch it
ItsIsaac + Simply nailogical too lol
Amen hahaha underrated comment
i was going to say simply nailogical but someone beat me to it heh
lol
you should put a disclaimer: "don't watch as a senior in high school"
i’m not even a senior but i want to be a film major and i’m crying
crap that's me. I'll actually wait a year and then come back to watch ashdfjk
And, I turned to to be the one who required that disclaimer
I start my freshman year of college in four days lol
@@maddie3638 good luck, I start in 2 weeks
the way this was filmed. truly a film student grad
rameniscence Exactlyy 😍
One of the most honest and real content creators on this platform. Ashley's really out here bringing back the sincerity in making content. Love this sosososo much, i can watch it for hours.
i feel the exact same thing about her. she just takes us all back to what youtube should really be about and still is so down to earth. gotta love one spicy ashley
@@milenaisabellagutdeutsch307 that's so true!!! this is why i never skip her ads cause she deserves more dollarinos :))
Since when is SHARK TALE NOT A MODERN DAY CLASSIC TO BE ADMIRED
IKR WHO DISRESPECTS SHARK TALE
SINCE NEVER. SHARK TALE IS WHATS UP 🦈
@@sophiahildreth no
Borno • no offense but you’re awful for thinking that lie
😂
"the best and worst years of my life"
sums up college pretty well.
1. When you started crying I felt it in my gut!
2. Actually loved your lighter hair!!
3. OBSESSED with this videos message & story of growth
I am in my freshman year and when you said that you felt lonlier than ever in college, I felt that. Honestly, all these movies about 'the college experience' build up such unrealistic expectations about what college is supposed to be like that 9 out of 10 times it ends up being disappointing. My social anxiety has drastically increased in college to the point where people have literally never heard me speak. College is not just fun parties and people minding their own business. Sometimes, people are not the kindest and they judge you and say mean things but in a way it has helped me be a better person and grow a thicker skin. Watching you tear up over your freshman year broke my heart. But you are okay inspite of it all, so I guess I'll be too. Thank you, Ashley (for improving my outfits AND my life.)
I agree to each and every word you wrote. It is my freshman year as well and error 404 friend not found. But it has only made me more independent and more confident in myself and getting all my work done myself rather than depending on others 😊
I agree! In college especially the freshman year that everyone is adapting to the new environment, it is easy to find a bunch of people to hang out and have fun with, but it is hard (actually during the whole college years) to find a person that you two are truly on the same page, share the same value and feel like a "bestie" or "true friend that can bring you up no matter you are on the highest or lowest point". I think it is because college is such a changeable place, and people's views and personalities also can be changed drastically. Also, social anxiety or any type of anxiety is normal, and I encourage you to see a counselor on your campus to talk with! I think most of the time counseling on campus is free!
@@zspov936 haha yeah I think 'the college experience' is mostly just a learning experience where you learn how to deal with adult stuff- one of them being how fuckjng difficult it is to make friends as an adult and also how lonely it can get sometimes. but lately, rather than just accepting my friendlessness I've been making an effort to get out of my comfort zone a little and go out/talk to more people, and I won't lie to you it hasn't been all that great. But it has been getting better slowly. I hope you do the same. I hope we both grow from this. :)
@@Bunnylovescoffee I'm from India so there isn't really a counselor and therapy is so fucking expensive here, mental health is more of a luxury trust me. But I've been trying to deal with it a little on my own and it has been getting better. Hope the rest of my college experience isn't as bad as this year was.
This is so relatable, but we’ll get through it girly💖
me: omg her outfit is so cute
ashley: i just realized how ugly my outfit looks
me: o-oh..!!
Malak this was me too😂😭. Like I dress like that on a good day😭
Lol I was thinking the same thing 😂
omg sameee
Sksksksk me tooooo
Ahhhhh, the comment i was finding... Just to give it a like
"'It makes you a stronger person, it makes you smarter, it makes you see the world in a way that you didn't before"
love this last line a lot because it's so true and I guess my only reason why I still want to continue college
same!
“so they interview everybody in person first to make sure they don’t admit any weirdos...
that system failed in April of 2016 ... when they admitted me” HA
the tiny "dAviD hElp" in the intro had me laughing because it was so cute ✈️ sbdnsnd
Keris Lim
0:36
Keris Lim sameeeee
You and Joanna Ceddia are great role models on this platform for our young people today. Thanks.
Justine g agreed!
They are my fave youtubers
i am truly honored to be included in the same sentence as Joanna Ceddia
bestdressed literally tho we need a collab now
@@bestdressed YES COLLAB WITH HERRRR ID BE SO HYPED DUDE
I thought when I graduate college, everything is set. I’m gonna yet a good job, no more homework, classes and just making money and living my life! And yea... I don’t have literal homework and classes anymore, they are replaced with meetings and emails and presentations and reports and metrics and .... the list goes to infinity
Well u choose a bad job so
Same. What was your major?
college seems boring.
yeah this is me right now, it's kind of disappointing :(
Same, and now with the pandemic happening and working from home is the norm, I now struggle with work/life balance, when now you work at the same room at what you used to consider a safe space free from all the corporate bullshit. *sigh
"College has become really all about the 'college experience', rather than the college education, which is what you're here to get."
YES YES YES.
I'm a freshman in college, and I chose to stay home and go to community college, and my junior/senior year of HS when everybody's figuring out where theyre gonna go, my heart BROKE at the thought of community college. I had been WAITING for that "fun college experience": partying, meeting hot guys, a dorm, and freedom to start fresh, but the truth is, thats all SO overrated. Half of my old HS friends who went away end up alone in their dorm every night, wishing they decided to save money going to CC. My point it, any high schoolers reading this: don't be too attached to the idea of that "college experience." Go where you'll get the best education without selling your life away. College is ridiculously expensive, especially when the first year or two are just gen-eds that you can take anywhere and have nothing to do with your major. Stay focused on what you NEED and what you WANT will follow.
Well said 💜
yes CC!!!! we as a nation should advocate for community colleges more ☺️
oh another tip i want to add to this is try to go after those private schools for that scholarship money
your experience is different and so will everyone else's. Community College is good if you don't want to pay for lower level classes. You will have to transfer to a 4 year to get a degree. Depending on your major, going to a high profile school is worth every dime. The networking, scholarship, grants available are well worth it. If you are lazy then going to a "big" school is not for you. The college experience is good for those who can handle the balance of social and study.
Sterling Marshel Sure, the internships/possible gateways from going to a high profile school are a perk, but you mention grants/scholarships, even though you wouldn’t even need them if that college wasn’t so over the top expensive LMAO. Most likely will still be in debt into your thirties. And ur missing my point: it’s not about “balancing” the social life & studying of college, it’s that so many people find the classic, popularized “college experience”(social part) VERY overrated and not all it’s cracked up to be. And I would watch how you interject the word lazy into this discussion
Don't fight me on this when I say that Ashley is the big sister we all need
What if she's younger than me?
To be honest, she's still the big sister I need....
Greetings from a former film major, current full-time barista 😬 drag me, queen
DFTBEmi Not even a film major, but I'm a full-time barista as well. 😂
heyy! what are you doing now??
me: wow! Ashley is wearing such a cute outfit! I'll try to make the same!
ashley: I'm slowly realizing how awful my outfit in this video is
Ah i need to like this cmt
i thought the same haha Her outfit is gorgeous Idk why she thinks its aweful
Literally
oh my god Ashley, thank you for being so honest about your struggles, thank you for openly telling us about your weight gains, your loneliness, your expectations and how sometimes they aren't always met, your weight loss (in other videos), telling us about you losing your virginity, having sex. Just having an influencer be this honest helps me so much, especially at the moment when I'm feeling a bit depressed. I appreciate you so much.
Which videos does she talk about weight loss? Asking because I want to watch them!
@@xLiAxLiMx0207 it's in the once called: talkin bout body image // a journey down the fitness rabbithole. :-)
this is such a wonderful real video, made so beautifully! thank you for talking so openly about the ugliness and loneliness of the uni experience that literally nobody seems to talk about, it was so refreshing as someone who's in second year and still considers dropping out every other week lmao
And once again a genuine video. It was so wholesome. You covered college life very well Ashley. And thank you so much for coming out about your hardships and struggles in college, you brave girl. It's because of you, that we know we're not alone. And you're not alone.
You mix the fun, loneliness, excitement, struggles, dreams, reality and emotions in a beautiful blend to give us this video.
You may or may not even read this comment but I have to say this so that you know: You're someone I relate to a lot and look up to.
You've taught me self-reliance and standing up for yourself even if you're not a big someone. And smiling through it all (even when sometimes you don't want to) Pursuing your dreams consistently takes a lot of determination & courage, especially if its an uncommon path. I respect that a lot.
And your summing up lines are so mature and dare I say-wise. I agree, it's the harsh truth- which is what no tells us yet its what we all needed to know.
Thank you so much Ashley.
Congratulations on graduating from such a wonderful college. All the best for the future!
Lots and lots of love and power to you girl💕
dude when her voice breaks when she's about to cry, i tear up every. single. time. WHAT IS THIS
*the quality of your content is INSANE* 🙌🏼
your effort does not go unoticed girl!
Agreed!
Coco Day I definitely agree! She puts in so much time and effort. I looove her editing!!
Ashely: David help! *Dangles for dear life*
David: *Snickers*
I am always so shocked how much education costs in America!! I am from Germany and here the school, university etc is free! It all depends on your grades if you want to go to university, so you need really good grades to study for the "higher" jobs for example to become a doctor, psychologist or lawyer.. I guess in America everything is about the money, but here the poorest people could make it if they study hard enough!
Wow. Thats awesome. Do they pay for health care in your country? They don't in mine. Education at the primary level is free in my country. I'm from the Caribbean.
@@shannalese In Germany it is a law to have health insurance... so yes there is free insurance which is paid for with taxes
i want to go to university in dresden and for foreign students do you need to pay?
@@fays7309 Yes, foreign students have to pay in majority of universities in Europe
@@fays7309 not really a clue, but i'm writing you because i am from dresden and want to say welcome! we will be happy to have you :*
Im in med school and I needed this extra push to get trough my day :( college is hard but is worth it !
Hang in there.
I want major in theatre and then go to med school!!
kilo gram that I wanted to major in theatre and go to medical school for grad school however, the prerequisites do not align and it would take forever to finish all the classes so I opted for neuroscience as a major.
kilo gram that’s amazing! At first I was certain I was majoring in theatre because many say your major doesn’t matter but unfortunately it does matter when planning to go to med school, I would rather graduate earlier and pursue my career earlier than live in a fantasy in a sense for so long which will turn out to spending more money. Also I’m going to community college and then transferring to a UC so there’s that. I will start full time summer, and I want to transfer in a year but god I procrastinated too much in what major I would ultimately chose haha but now I know! Good luck btw! We need passionate doctors!
i'm in awe of this video. the cinematography, the realness, everything! every video you post is truly a work of art and the time and dedication you put into youtube really shows. you are amazingggg :-)
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Yes I agree! So great!
Sooo agree ♡ This is a masterpiece
i agree, i lovee it!!
This is by far the best college tour video I've ever seen. Your storytelling and genuineness is like none other.
Mara Techam exactly ❤️
"opportunities are not handed to you really need to go out and search for them"
~Ashley,2019
wow. i’m four days from starting my college career (i’m also a screenwriting major), and this hit hard. i’ve been so scared of college not meeting my high expectations - like you, i struggled hella in high school emotionally, and i even tried to graduate early because i hated it so much, and my mom kept telling me to just keep pushing because college would be a thousand times better and i would finally meet “my people.”
i super appreciate the honesty here. you put so much energy in to this video and really said what needed to be said. you’ve really built up an incredible channel for yourself, i cannot believe you did it all while attending ucla with an extra heavy course load. good luck with even more success in your future, your achievements are far weightier than you even know! you’ve inspired my filmmaking style so much! thank you!
How was it? It’s been a year :0
I had the same experience omg
i'm a film student with one year left in undergrad and hearing you say you got rejected by all of your studio internships made me feel so much better and that i'm not the only one this happens to !!
Same here! I have had so many rejections that it has let me down so many times, but don't give up! It's hard to get a job anywhere. Just keep pushing through.
Just do it yourself. Don't ask for permission to get real world experience. Unless you just want to become VP of Production in 20 year.
I honestly can't explain the admiration I have for Ashley, she constantly gives out her all into making videos but still knows how to have fun in it, all the while genuinely caring for her subscribers and audience. ❤
Danielle Den Flores yup I agree! She give us great content
ahh this video is so personal and professional at the same time, im shook. also ashleys general presence and commentary just makes everything so much better ngl
i know right!! it's casual but hella professional and i'm in awe
"i could close my eyes and disappear and nobody would even notice." this literally made me cry.............. :') this is what I've been feeling recently and when I've gone to the Netherlands to pursue my education all alone from South Korea. i also expected that college will be a lot better than high school, but I was wrong haha it was much harsher and I had to make my own opportunities while teachers at high schools provide you info about all different kinds of events and competitions that you can take part in. i suppose this is called fcking LIFE hahahahaha
지금 괜찮기 발해요 ㅠ ♥️ 문화 충격 힘들줘 하루하루 힘내세요!
You go girl! You can do this!! Trust me, it is going to get better. With time, your environment will feel more familiar to you, and you will discover some people you can vibe with :)
ashley: *talking about something seriously*
me: omfg she’s doing the grown up thing
“....parents go to jail for it” BIG OOF anyways i feel the whole loneliness thing in college too everyone is basically just doing their own thing so i thank you ashley for sharing the REAL shit about the college experience!!
One of the few people on social media today who is genuinely kind, is humble about their MANY talents and makes raw and very creative content. I know I don’t know you personally...but I have a feeling that you have a very bright future and life ahead of you. Props to you for pursuing your dreams!!! So inspired by you and thankful for your content!!!😊
The truth can be overwhelming but thank you for not sugarcoating anything.
Girl, here’s a hug for you. You’re amazing and so inspirational.
You made me cry when you cried! I felt the same way when I started college and same after when I transferred out of my community college. Now luckily I'm having the time of my life but I'm about to graduate lol
Crissy A I felt that too. Hardly holding back my tears🙃
Thank you for sharing your college experience :) I never went, and now, since this video was so thorough and well done, I feel I've truly experienced the journey
Hey Micarah are you looking about colleges for your ducks?? 😂
Hey!! I love your videos I was just watching some of your videos before this.
Congrats on hitting 300k!
I love your channel Micarah! Totally the most underrated UA-camrs xxx
Micarah Tewers I LOVE YOUR CHANNEL AND YOUR HUMOUR and I love Ashley’s as well!!!!!!! Idk why seeing you in her comments section makes me happy haha
I'm a high school senior right now, and I'm planning on going to school to pursue a degree in music industry. I have a lot of insecurities about my talent and abilities, and I'm nervous about college because the school I plan to attend is very expensive. I'm terrified I might be making the wrong decision, but at the same time I don't want to give up on my dream. When you talked about your insecurities and misgivings about film school, and about the industry you wanted to go into, I saw my own worries reflected back at me. Somehow, that made me feel better. You give me hope, that even if college isn't everything I expect it to be, I can still make it meaningful and learn and grow.
I guess what I'm trying to say is thank you. Your videos have always been a source of happiness and inspiration in my life, and I look up to you. Thank you for showing me that life is what you make of it.
Ember go get em
Honestly, try to avoid getting yourself into unnecessary debt that you may never be able to pay off. Really really question why you think you need to pursue a college degree for the music industry. There are many many ways to make a living in the music industry without a college degree. But best wishes to you.
"invite me when you win an oscar" HONEYYY you already got 1 mil on youtube SUPER QUICK, something amazing is gonna happen
i expeirenced about 7 different emotions in this video. ima go cry now
I'm applying for PhD programs this year, currently doing my Master's. Undergrad was brutal, I felt lonely and trapped because I knew I wanted to go to grad school so I needed good grades. I love how this video doesn't sugarcoat or overdramatizes the college experience. I still believe it's all worth it. Thank you Ashley
Best of luck to you, stranger! :']
you go queen! get that phd
Alexandra I am with you on the video it was great. I wish you the best of luck in applying for PhD programs. I know that I want to go to grad school and then go into research though I am a little stuck. Any tips you could give a junior who is in their Undergrad right now about it and the process of exploring it more.
@@christinaflinn5418 Hi! I don't know what field you're currently studying in so this may not apply to all fields (I'm a french literature grad student) but my suggestion would be to reach out to professors that inspire you and/or that you are interested in their line of work or even grad students for guidance. Basically, someone that could become your mentor; navigating the academic universe is something you learn along the way but having someone that you trust makes it a lot easier. Also, do NOT take anything personally; it's never about you! It's 99% about them and the limitations of the system. Enjoy the education you're getting and keep faith in yourself, even when it feels like everyone is working against you! Best of luck xx
@@motivatudy thx 4 the luuuuuv
i'm a rising junior in college and honestly I hate it. I thought I was missing out on something when everyone would talk about how great this "college experience" is. I'm glad that I'm not the only person who doesn't see college as this amazing fun time in life.
UCLA is known for being a relatively fun school, which explains why she is happier than all the kids at MIT
Sad how true the whole "don't see your college friends after classes start" is I experienced that too
As a high school senior who's going to a UC, albeit not UCLA, this video really hits hard. It gives me such a genuine perspective on college that I can't find in many other college videos.
Also these lowkey flexes that Ashley has dropped the past year: got into Stanford? and Columbia?? And she revealed this video that she not only was 1 out of 15 students in UCLA Film, but she also graduated early (admitted in 2016 but graduated 2019?!)
Thank you for your truly honest and wonderful channel, Ashley. You're an inspiration.
wait she got in to stanford and columbia damnnnn
I've been here for a while... I just realized! I remember your blonde hair, freaking out about your roommates coming home, being broke, tinder dates, hitting 100k, etc. It's crazy that you've come so far and I'm so proud of you! Thank you for your amazing content
Jennifer Song girl we’ve been here since day 1 and it’s been so amazing to see her hard work pay off 😭 makes me want to work just as hard as she does
She deserves all her success she has so far! Worked so hard... I see a bright future for her 100%
Am I deciding for college? No. Do I like this video? Hell yeah!
zoeyeyym SAME!!!
Btw if anyone wants to know how AMAZING UCLA’s FOOD is, feel free to check out a compilation I made!!💕💕 HOPE Y’ALL CHOOSE UCLA 💛💙
I'm about to start my second year of college in a month and a half and by far what you said about feeling lonely and realizing that college can be painfully underwhelming is so true. I remember coming back home crying because I felt so shitty and a waste of human space all the time. It has surely gotten better but i'm so glad that at least one youtuber keeps it authentic and actually talks about shit that matters and things that students go through. I look forward to you videos every week. ILY Ashley
same, i felt so lost during my first semester but i started to get myself more involved in different activities like drama and choir and maybe i didn't make super close friends from those activities but i felt way more involved as a uni student and felt a stronger sense of belonging
@Rewa Joshi Yes I am. Xavier's all the way!!
girl the fact that you were a film student makes sense because your editing is BEAUTIFUL
I rewatch this video everytime when I feel lonely in college, this reminds me that I am not alone and I will most definitely get through this loneliness
Ashley, you are such an inspiration. I can’t believe how ridiculously smart, funny and hardworking you are. You are so different from other youtubers, and I honestly have no idea how you managed to make amazing content while still juggling the million other things (ahem, college) you had going on. I look forward to every video and I’m never disappointed. Although I doubt I will ever work up the nerve to do something like going to film school, I’m so glad that you got the chance to pursue your passion-you are truly talented. Thank you for everything.
the camera quality is sooo good, this is possibly the best video you have ever made??? great editing skills Ashley!!!
No Ashley, your peak is yet to come! Your personality is so frecking great and well yeh its really fangirly bur i really love u, and for me you r like a friends, which may sound kinda sad, coming from a lonely 21 year old Swedish girl, but you really mean something to me and have helped me accept myself and my flaws and like understand that’s it’s ok to not be perfect. Well idk what my point was but it just made me sad to se you sad and I wanted you to know that your awesome and thank you for being there for me in some sort of way. 💫
You're right she has so many more successes to look forward to, her work ethic is astounding! I feel that Ashley is so open with us that she does really almost feel like a friend and I don't think that's sad at all! I'm a lonely 16 year old, hoping I'll find my tribe soon and if you are looking for one too I'm sure you'll find them. Ashley has really helped me accept myself and my flaws, as well, I think Ashley is so powerful and I love that I'm growing up in world where I have access to people like her online. Also, Christ it made me so sad to see Ashley sad but I think that's one of the reasons I love her, she's not afraid of showing that side of herself to us and we all feel like that at some point or another. :-)
I cried watching this video because it’s really nice to see someone who takes the pressure of college having to be the best time of your life.
I didn’t have a good time in high school, at all, I didn’t fit in, I hated the atmosphere. I thought college was going to fix all my problems, I couldn’t wait to be more independent, so start living my life as the real me. But my mental health has really deteriorated over the course of these 2 years, and I feel so much pressure to have a good time and to take it in, everyone always says that you shouldn’t waste your twenties because you’ll never get them back and it’s the best time of your life but that isn’t helpful to me at all. I gave myself a year with a lighter schedule to take a rest and heal myself, but with the pandemic I haven’t made all the progress I wanted to, and I realised that I shouldn’t give myself a deadline on stuff like this. I’m dealing with some hard stuff, and it’s okay if it takes me a bit more time.
Hey girl, it feels soooo good to hear that going to college and having fun really isn’t that obvious and easy and making friends is hard even for someone cool and funny like you. I also cry nearly every day because of my college and how everyone is treating me there, but the difference is- I can’t even talk to teachers cuz they are also a really unpleasant people. It makes me feel a little bit better when you say that in the end it’s worth it. Thank you for this video💕
Same
same here
i agree, college can make you feel very alone. I'm glad i'm not the only one that feels this way!
Honestly, thank you. I moved to a whole different continent to attend college and it really isn't the insane fun ride the movies promised. I do however, really enjoy what I'm studying and I feel like my world has opened up because of it. I wish it was cooler to go to college to really learn rather than to 'experience' the college life.
Ankita Kar what are you studying?
I also so badly want(ed) to move to a different continent, America, just to go to college here. But seeing all this and hearing stories about the educational system of America makes me rethink my decision. Plus it's so freaking expensive... I really hope they'll improve it some time soon.
@@em-je7zw I just saw your comment, I'm studying mechanical engineering!
Crying on the plane back to LA is such a classic LA experience.
put some respeck on shark tale's name ashley. DAMN
also amazing video as always!
i know I was like GURL ARE YOU SHADIN SHARK TALE!
PhD student here 🤙🏻 Thank you for reminding people that college is actually about education!! Great video, btw ❤️
"i didn't have friends to talk to so i'd just like hide in the bathroom and like sit on the toilet"
*same, girl, same*
As a student at UCLA I can definitely attest that friendships there are hard to come by and keep. I’m happy to see a realistic representation of our school 🖤
video idea! i would love to see you talk more about film in your videos! i’m interested in pursuing a career in film and i think it would he super interesting if you made a video on it. its honestly kinda funny that you haven’t really talked about film much on your channel since it was your major haha it kinda feels like a secret side of you i’d love to learn more about. i’m interested to hear about your favorite films, your writing projects, how you approach filmmaking, and anything else you found interesting from film school! ily keep up the good work b 😘
As a film student, it'd literally be a dream come true for me if she made a video on anyth about films
I AGREE I SECOND THAT
Yess it would be amazing!
I would love that, too. I had always wondered how she got so good at filming and editing, because it's on another level than a lot of channels.
YES THIS
it really hit me when you talked about freshman year. my first year has been rough, and it's honestly really nice to hear that you went through something similar and turned everything around
I really love Ashley and she inspired me to start my own platform. Hope you can subscribe to my channel! 💜
as a junior in high school this video simultaneously reassured me and made me anxious. either way i’m glad it exists. thanks for sharing your experience ashley :,)
im a junior too and i vibe with this
Omg I thought I was the one who felt lonely in college, I just feel the same way as you. Lonely and meaningless. Like nobody can see me, and nobody seems to care. It’s really painful.
I’m glad that you made it. You graduated!!
Not nobody can see me. Not nobody seems to care. /
As someone who just enrolled at college and is kinda scared about the future, this vid was really helpful and inspiring. You're right-- it's an education, in more ways than one
Wow! Gtfo
5:30 - 7:01 wow you’re describing my life rn. I’m at nyu tisch and I feel so lucky to be here but also I’m so f*in sad all the time and crying about how the industry basically sucks and my future will probably suck too. I’ve never related to someone’s college experience so much
i really want to get into nyu and tisch but i'm scared that doing an arts major will fuck my future up, and the arts are the only thing i actually want to do w my life,,, too bad it wouldnt get me anywhere.
ansha if you’re passionate I think you can figure it out, whatever you decide. I’m definitely stressed out about what I will do when I get out of college (how to find jobs in the industry etc) and I have definitely struggled more than those majoring in more straightforward subjects. But I’m trying really fucking hard to be hopeful about the future and you should too. I have classmates who are over thirty who came back to study what they’re truly passionate about because at the end of the day, it’s about pursuing what you love. But like also don’t stress about fucking your future up. What college you go to and what you major in doesn’t define you. I agree with Ashley saying that college is about the experience and the connections you make (friends, professors etc).
as someone who had a hard time in college (and honestly a hard first year after graduation) thank you so so so much for your honesty. I always felt like everyone around me was having the time of their life and it's refreshing and relieving to see that not everyone loved their college years.
Ahhhhh I feel that. I always thought I was doing college “wrong” because everyone looked like they were having a great time. I wish I saw this video during my first year
Hi, I'm from India and this is honestly the most informative video regarding US colleges I've seen (UCLA is my dream school too but I'm working on other things rn)
Thanks, girl! :D