I've watched your videos sine you were 17 and living in Taiwan. You've made so much progress and grown so much over the years. I'm so proud of everything you've achieved. Loveee Youuu
thank you for talking about addiction to weed. I honestly think that those who say “you cannot get addicted to weed” have either never smoked it or only smoke it socially. I used to smoke a lot of weed from the ages of 16-18 and I would have full blown panic attacks whenever I couldn’t get a hold of it. weed has so many benefits and it does help so many people, and I’m not comparing it to addiction to hard drugs, but it is possible to get addicted to it.
Did xu know that weed and spirituality are linked?🌹 Ppl who have lower spiritualty and smoke weed it has the effect of lifting spirituality level higher ~🌹 and ppl who have a high spirituality level naturally theirs get lower with smoking weed regularily 🌹~ there are articles that can explain it a lot lot better than me so Im sry if i explained it wronly i recommend to everyone who has experiences with weed to read those articles and studies about weed and spirituality 💜🌹 much luff , julie 🌹💜🌹
@@julialyra8361 I know that weed does wonders for some people, however for me personally it doesn’t work for me. I used it so much that I would have full blown panic attacks if I didn’t have any, my mood swings would be over the roof. I used it to forget my problems instead of facing them which is not good, especially at such a young age. I appreciate your comment though, I know it does wonders for so many people :)
@@illusionalmistake7251 thats not what i meant ~ 🌹actually the articles and all that 🌹 scared me away from weed more bcuz I used to have a very high spirituality level and 🌹 felt connected to the universe and nature so much more before I started smoking weed ~🌹 my spirituality is still high but surely not the same as before ~🌹 for me this is more a warning to ppl who are very spiritual 🌹 and wanna smoke weed or used to and now feel like they lost smth regarding to their spirituality ~~~ 🌹 im sry if it came of wrong ~~~ 🌹i had panic attacks and flashbacks and derealisation from weed a lot 🌹so I know where yure coming from and I defintely respect yur experiences and that it didnt work for yu ~🌹 it didnt for me either ~~~🌹 it helped me stopping reading those articles etc ~ so i thought maybe it would help others too 🌹💜🌹
i used to think you couldn’t get addicted to weed and then years later i smoked weed and now i crave the smell and i want it all the time and i just crave the feeling and i really want to just have it so i get it now
Same I hope she realizes how she has helped others around the world simply by sharing her experiences. I started watching years ago when she was How senseless death how precious life
”I was addicted to escaping my reality.” That hit me hard. I’ve been there before. Thank you for talking about this topic, it’s so important and so many of us have struggled with it 😔 Sending those still struggling lots of love - for the person needing to hear it: you can get out of it. I know it doesn’t feel like it. But you can, things can get better, You can get better, and I believe in you ❤️
When you talked about how you weren't necessarily addicted,but didn't like being sober, I felt that. I used to be very not necessarily addicted, but definitely dependent on substances and surrounded myself with toxic people and I experienced similar problems like being around people I didn't like. I'm sorry you had to go through so much while doing drugs, your experience is relatable and I'm grateful that you are starting a new path. ❤❤❤
Sometimes i cant even wait for my phone to load after 5 seconds, 5 months is great, especially when you are emotionally and physically pulling away from something
If someone is impaired and unconscious they can't make decisions. It's not your fault Ana, never ever blame yourself. If anyone is reading this and gone thru something similar IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT. I hope everyone is safe, sending you hugs! 💙💙💙 🙏🏾🌻🌻
Jesus Christ, some guys are just straight bags of dirt!! I'm embarrassed being a man after hearing stories like this 😕 I'm glad you're doing better and made it through such a rough time...
I remember your nutmeg video its one of the first i watched but ive watched every video you've posted ....you're story is more relatable than you might think. I like that you show the hard to share parts so openly and the growth along the way. Be proud You have alot to be proud of!
Omg posted 40mins ago i just wanted to say that i love you so much you helped me through my depression i am well and happy now thank you for posting videos i hope you are doing good and i wish you the best i love you💕
You acknowledge that you can be addicted to cannabis, but say you can't be addicted to psychedelics or MDMA? My best friend abused LSD to the point that he showed signs of paranoid schizophrenia & another good friend did so much MDMA that he became depressed; he had to swear off the substance for his well-being. Let's acknowledge that all substances come with the potential to be abused.
You can’t be addicted to lsd or shrooms this has been proven, ofc if you abuse a substance you’ll get negative side effects. I probably use psychedelics about 7x a month and I’m fine. Molly/ MDMA on the other hand is a different story because you really never know what you are getting, a lot of times they are cut with meth, are bath salts or just another chemical compound to replicate 3,4-methylenedioxymethamphetamine (MDMA)
You’re using abused and addicted as synonyms it seems...aaand they’re not the same. You can abuse any and all drugs, however, there are drugs that do not have addictive properties, as in physical addictive properties. Craving something mentally and wanting to experience that high is not the same as for example, opiate withdrawal when you’re addicted to dope and your body literally begins to shut down without it (you’ll start yawning, getting teary-eyed with a runny nose, then cramps and nausea, diarrhea, restless legs, severe debilitating anxiety, aches in every joint...THAT is what we refer to as an addictive drug)... you won’t get withdrawal symptoms from acid. From x, From shrooms or ketamine. You may think about needing to get it again, you may crave it mentally, yes, you may abuse it, but when we’re talking about a drug not being “addictive” that is what most of us mean. Also, benzos have horrifying withdrawals as well. Alcohol and benzo wds can be fatal, although dope wd can feel like it. Ummm don’t do drugs! 🤗🤗
I‘m sure your friend has a deep problem if he used LSD on a regular because a trip lasts about 12 hours and is super exhausting and can be so scary, but it is actually impossible to get chemical and mentally addicted to LSD because it doesn’t stimulant the serotonin part of the brain, it hast absolutely no feeling to crave. Plus if you use it on a regular your tolerance will be so high after a few trips that the dosage may be deadly.
@@yungkim5834 You most definitely CAN get addicted to every drug. However, lsd or shrooms are mental addictions, and not physical, if thats what you mean.
you can still escape on acid. it brings me an inherent sense of peace and trippy oneness and harmony. shrooms don’t let you escape and grab you by the balls and swing you into the void that is hyperspace where you feel like your world is imploding and ending or that you’re going crazy, until the part where you’re greeted by the shroom goddess who teaches you how to be a better person and you feel like you’ve discovered the key which leads to jerking many tears and bawling in pure joy and happiness to be alive and experiencing, then the scary part of the shroom trip is over as long as you face your problems.
i can relate to this so much ! because currently im trying to stay sober from meth and other hard drugs i been doing hard drugs since i was 15 and fuck i can relate to “im addicted to escaping my reality not drugs”
I can relate to you on so many levels. I am grateful for coming across your channel. I can definitely vouch for wanting to escape reality. I was in the same spot for years, self-medicating, hating reality, hating myself. It finally took a very serious OD to realize that there's so much more to life than just escaping. I am happy that you overcame your struggles. I definitely look up to you. Thank you for being here and sharing your story
Happy you beat the drug addiction beast!!! Your brave outspoken which I'm sure has helped many. May all your messages travel far!!! HAPPY HOLIDAYS to you, family and friends! Much love and press on!!! 🌟❤👍❤🌟
I remember watching your videos when I was a freshman in high school! I’m 21 now and I just want to say, I’m beyond proud of you. You’re truly glowing and seem to be in a much better place. So so happy for you ❤️❤️❤️
I used to watch your videos in the early 2010s and i’m going through something really hard right now, so i watched some old videos that gave me comfort. gurl coming back here - your voice is deeper, you’re much less scattered, your body looks great, your personality is vibrant, and it made me realise how much i miss you ♥️ SUBSCRIBED!
I hope you are aware of the fact of how much your videos help people. I watch your videos for years now and I find so much help and comfort in them. It feels so good when you share your own experiences because when you can relate to it, it makes you feel less alone. Thank you so much for everything you do for us. I love you
I wanna change my environment so bad. I always dreamt of just running away to somewhere so completely new and it took me awhile to realize it's because I need to change my lifestyle. Physical change, for me, brings about mental change as well. So one day, I'll do that. I might move to a different country if I can. I think that would do me wonders. I think that's why I find it so hard to quit drinking and abusing drugs; because it's the only way I can "change" my situation.
I used to watch you many years ago when you were younger and going through these things, this being the first video I've watched since then,,,you have grown sooooo much. I am so proud of you, addiction is a bitch. I am 4 years and 3 months clean off meth and heroin, worse years of my life, quit in a time frame of 2 days because I was almost involved in a murder case. If I can do it, anyone can. The human brain is so powerful, but sometimes your heart must take over before your brain kills you.
This is very relatable, wich gives me the tiniest of hopes. I've been following you for about like 6 years now, now that i'm 21, i've been going trough a rough patch this lasts couple years, involving several drugs and suicidal toughts. Thank you for all this years ♡. 🌻
Oh honey, I know what you're going through, trust me. I am not a judgmental person at alllllll, but that boyfriend you have in the picture, are you guys still together? If so does he enable your use of meth? If so then you both either need to cut off all "friends" that use, and get clean together, that means cold turkey. If he is not willing to do that for you, you need to break up with him love...I know how hard that can be, but if he chooses continuing to use dope over getting clean and being with you,,,,then he is a pos. Please put yourself first. You seem like a wonderful, beautiful girl. I was addicted for 3 and a half years to meth and heroin. I quit within a period of 2 DAYS. if I can, I know for a fact you can. I've been 4 years and 3 months clean now, what made me realize I need to stop was the way I acted, the way I stole money from my own mother, when I almost got involved in a murder case....it's not too late for you okay? It's just not 1)get you and your bf clean even if that means breaking up 2) *hardest part* cut off EVERYONE that enables your drug use, or does the drug themselves 3) focus on your healing, getting on your feet, and creating a new you c: I know you don't know me, but I love you so much and I know you can do this. Ice is the hardest drug to get off of I know. But you have to break your pipes and stuff, and get rid of the people holding you down. You can do this I know you can 💗 Please respond, doesn't have to be now, I just want to make sure you're okay
Thats terrible.. You mean dope like meth or something? Thats really awful. I do coke and alcohol a lot and its so fucking hard to quit. If you mean weed though.. Not saying you dont experience how hard you experience it, but weed is actually pretty easy to quite, as its not physically addicting. I smoked for 5 years, and i quit in a month or 2. Now i can sometimes take a hit without falling back in the pattern. Point is, soft drugs and psychs are easy to quit (easy, but definitely not a nice few weeks). Hard drugs are on a totally different level.. I dont think i can quit coke on myself. But im too stubborn to get help.
I have been watching your videos since you were a lottttt younger 🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️and it makes me so incredibly happy to see you happy and healthy!!! I remember watching videos where you were just so hurt and broken but I always knew how much strength you had!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🥺🥺🥺🥺I'm so incredibly happy for you and proud that you are in a better place! You deserve all the love in the world! Sending hugs xx
A dear friend of mine in high school died from DMXing. She didn’t know it but she only had one kidney, she was only born with one. Never having any major health problems she just never discovered it. Till it killed her because she didn’t have enough kidneys to process the drug. Congrats on your recovery. I really hope people use these videos as a warning. It can and will fuck up your life.
i feel like for a lot people it is so tempting to get on here to hate on how open u are but i relate to you on the fact (i think u feel this way haha) that a lot of the things u went thru play a big part in who u are today and it feels nice to share with ppl, even if its educating or giving someone a space to say they relate. thank you ❤️.
That's so cool you follow Jessica Kent! I follow her to! Addiction is such a taboo topic. I love seeing people like you and her be open about it. I'm sure in the next few years we will see more people sharing these stories. Addiction was so cool for a while but people like Juice Weld, mac miller and Amy winehouse will show us it doesn't necessarily lead to good things. Unfortunately people who can manage it glorify it and others who can't make us all sad when they pass. I don't know if you follow Big Her on youtube but he is always spreading that positivity!!! he did 10 years in prison, used to be a porn star and now he is giving others hope! Check it out! Thank you for you videos this chanel seriously makes me grow as a person! It's not just bullshit youtube drama!!!!
I'm glad you could grow up of it you know is something that most of us live but never get out I'm glad you made the right decision . Here my best wishes :)
Thanks for sharing your Story! Im depressed and abused a lot of Alcohol and cocaine in the past months.Whenever i stop for a week or more i start Feeling good again. And than i start over.....
I’m right there with you a year later. I’m a recovering heroin addict and after over 3 years clean I started injecting coke and drinking. And I hate this shit cause it doesn’t make me feel good, but I haven’t been able to stop. Hopefully today will be day 1! But, I’m over 3 and a half years clean from heroin and almost 7 years clean from meth. I kind of hate myself cause I was doing so well, but it’s all a part of my journey. I just need to figure my shit out. People, places, and things.
I know the struggle. I am an alcoholic and it sucks cuz I just want to drink like all the other young 21 year olds. But I can't, part of me still wants it but part of me wants to continue my sobriety.
also you are SO beautiful !! i always feel like people look at me and can tell i used to used drugs but i look at you and id never be able to tell so yay
Thank you for posting this. Helps me understand people with drug addiction. My form of escape is internet addiction and withdrawal which thank god that was my choice of escape. Good luck with recovery
youve grown so much, like even just hearing this lil bit of ur life an just looking at u an ur channel it sounds like you’ve grown alot an you can an have learned from everything.
I’m trying to get sober over winter break. Your videos have helped me ever since I was in middle school (ima senior now). Thank you for your poems and for sharing your experience.
8 to 12 pills "hes trying to kill me" ......youre the one taking the amount.. you can do something called SAY NO WHEN THE AMOUNT IS TOO MUCH FOR YOU......... so that shit is his fault???????? .........bro........
Don't ever say that the time that you've been sober is not that great!! It's amazing and to make the decision to be sober and give up that life is an achievement in itself!! I was with you during a lot of that time and we both know what each other went through! I'm so glad that we are both of the other side and gave up that life! for better things! I love you and miss you xxxx
I have also watched you when you still lived in Taiwan & I've been a follower for a while. growing up watching you while following your youtube channel I wouldn't watch every video you have posted but always checked in. have been apart of your Instagram and youtube, as I got older and experienced a lot of situations with drug abuse and mental health I've always wondered what your story was like..... dude when you started talking about escaping your reality and how it wasn't just about being high, you just didn't wanna be there. that shit hit home had a couple tears, all said and done I have never had any judgment for you, always loved your mindset in a way of difference. i even started to listen to la dispute an old gray, they were a few of my favorite bands i picked up from watching your videos. this video answers a lot of back-minded thoughts watching you along the way but your progress is amazing and your story was said beaufuly. i can't express enough how hard i related to this. I'm sorry this is a lot but lots of love Hannah mae.
I can relate so much. I've been an addict since I was fifteen yrs old and I'm 35 now. Currently I'm in a methadone clinic but I still have slips. Sorry about your first experience he needs to be castrated 🙏
Honestly my brother had a broken ankle and my mum told him to put on some tiger balm and let it rest haha 3 days later she took him to A&E and he got crutches and a cast lol
It's awesome you're not on that stuff anymore. I could relate with alot what you were saying. I abused anything I could get my hands on but DXM and stuff like that would completely take me outta this universe in a very strange way. I overdosed a few months ago on accident with pills but I'm recovering and your channel n stuff is pretty inspiring. Bless u🌺
I relate to your weed story sm, In a two year relationship that ended this year in June I was living with my partner at the time and never smoked before I met the person but he smoked so I wanted to try it and ended up needing it too function for basically the whole two years every day from morning before work , spending 150$ a week on it , sneaking of at lunch to smoke then soon as I got home id smoke till I went to bed doing acid and md every weekend . Now I've had a break from it constantly I can smoke occasionally and just be happy and chill. Im really proud of you for being so strong because I understand how you feel.I struggled getting out of the addiction on my own because I couldn't talk to anyone about it even my parents. Well done !!!! XOXOX
Congrats take one second at a time I'm in recovery myself my husband passed away 3 years ago of a od from H now I've been clean since we did every drug but now I have a UA-cam channel about my story and law of attraction and spirituality keep going ✨
I was cutting right now and you literally just now saved my life I have pills that I have to take every single day and I was just about to overdose you made me stop cutting and not take a bunch of pills thank you for being here
I've watched your videos sine you were 17 and living in Taiwan.
You've made so much progress and grown so much over the years. I'm so proud of everything you've achieved. Loveee Youuu
love u!!!
thank you for talking about addiction to weed. I honestly think that those who say “you cannot get addicted to weed” have either never smoked it or only smoke it socially. I used to smoke a lot of weed from the ages of 16-18 and I would have full blown panic attacks whenever I couldn’t get a hold of it. weed has so many benefits and it does help so many people, and I’m not comparing it to addiction to hard drugs, but it is possible to get addicted to it.
Did xu know that weed and spirituality are linked?🌹 Ppl who have lower spiritualty and smoke weed it has the effect of lifting spirituality level higher ~🌹 and ppl who have a high spirituality level naturally theirs get lower with smoking weed regularily 🌹~ there are articles that can explain it a lot lot better than me so Im sry if i explained it wronly i recommend to everyone who has experiences with weed to read those articles and studies about weed and spirituality 💜🌹 much luff , julie 🌹💜🌹
@@julialyra8361 I know that weed does wonders for some people, however for me personally it doesn’t work for me. I used it so much that I would have full blown panic attacks if I didn’t have any, my mood swings would be over the roof. I used it to forget my problems instead of facing them which is not good, especially at such a young age. I appreciate your comment though, I know it does wonders for so many people :)
@@illusionalmistake7251 thats not what i meant ~ 🌹actually the articles and all that 🌹 scared me away from weed more bcuz I used to have a very high spirituality level and 🌹 felt connected to the universe and nature so much more before I started smoking weed ~🌹 my spirituality is still high but surely not the same as before ~🌹 for me this is more a warning to ppl who are very spiritual 🌹 and wanna smoke weed or used to and now feel like they lost smth regarding to their spirituality ~~~ 🌹 im sry if it came of wrong ~~~ 🌹i had panic attacks and flashbacks and derealisation from weed a lot 🌹so I know where yure coming from and I defintely respect yur experiences and that it didnt work for yu ~🌹 it didnt for me either ~~~🌹 it helped me stopping reading those articles etc ~ so i thought maybe it would help others too 🌹💜🌹
i used to think you couldn’t get addicted to weed and then years later i smoked weed and now i crave the smell and i want it all the time and i just crave the feeling and i really want to just have it so i get it now
they mean you cant get *physically* addicted to it.
I’ve been watching your videos for 6 years you’ve helped me through so much
Same I hope she realizes how she has helped others around the world simply by sharing her experiences. I started watching years ago when she was How senseless death how precious life
me too
Samee she’s the best🥺♥️♥️
”I was addicted to escaping my reality.” That hit me hard. I’ve been there before. Thank you for talking about this topic, it’s so important and so many of us have struggled with it 😔
Sending those still struggling lots of love - for the person needing to hear it: you can get out of it. I know it doesn’t feel like it. But you can, things can get better, You can get better, and I believe in you ❤️
congrats on your recovery, sending positive vibes your way
**gives you a long virtual hug* * love you Ana 💜
When you talked about how you weren't necessarily addicted,but didn't like being sober, I felt that. I used to be very not necessarily addicted, but definitely dependent on substances and surrounded myself with toxic people and I experienced similar problems like being around people I didn't like. I'm sorry you had to go through so much while doing drugs, your experience is relatable and I'm grateful that you are starting a new path. ❤❤❤
Im proud of your growth ana banana. I’ve grown too , even if it feels slooow and backwards sometimes.
5 months is an amazing achievement don’t downplay it. You’re doing great ❤️
Exactly
Sometimes i cant even wait for my phone to load after 5 seconds, 5 months is great, especially when you are emotionally and physically pulling away from something
Dats what I’m saying im proud when I go a week I wish I could quit for 5 months 😭
If someone is impaired and unconscious they can't make decisions. It's not your fault Ana, never ever blame yourself. If anyone is reading this and gone thru something similar IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT. I hope everyone is safe, sending you hugs! 💙💙💙 🙏🏾🌻🌻
I think this was my "get sober" sign ♡♡ ily thank uuu
I love you! So proud of you and thank you for sharing your story. I have struggled/struggle a lot with speed and benzos, 6 months clean now ❤️
Jesus Christ, some guys are just straight bags of dirt!! I'm embarrassed being a man after hearing stories like this 😕
I'm glad you're doing better and made it through such a rough time...
I'm so sorry you were abused while using substances, it's never right no matter what the situation 😞
I’ve just rediscovered you, I used to watch you for soo long years ago!! I’m so proud of what you’ve accomplished, congrats xxx
can you do more stories abt yourself?! i love these videos
I remember your nutmeg video its one of the first i watched but ive watched every video you've posted ....you're story is more relatable than you might think.
I like that you show the hard to share parts so openly and the growth along the way.
Be proud
You have alot to be proud of!
Omg posted 40mins ago i just wanted to say that i love you so much you helped me through my depression i am well and happy now thank you for posting videos i hope you are doing good and i wish you the best i love you💕
You acknowledge that you can be addicted to cannabis, but say you can't be addicted to psychedelics or MDMA?
My best friend abused LSD to the point that he showed signs of paranoid schizophrenia & another good friend did so much MDMA that he became depressed; he had to swear off the substance for his well-being.
Let's acknowledge that all substances come with the potential to be abused.
I don't mean to come off harshly, btw! Love that you talk about these types of topics!!
You can’t be addicted to lsd or shrooms this has been proven, ofc if you abuse a substance you’ll get negative side effects. I probably use psychedelics about 7x a month and I’m fine. Molly/ MDMA on the other hand is a different story because you really never know what you are getting, a lot of times they are cut with meth, are bath salts or just another chemical compound to replicate 3,4-methylenedioxymethamphetamine (MDMA)
You’re using abused and addicted as synonyms it seems...aaand they’re not the same. You can abuse any and all drugs, however, there are drugs that do not have addictive properties, as in physical addictive properties. Craving something mentally and wanting to experience that high is not the same as for example, opiate withdrawal when you’re addicted to dope and your body literally begins to shut down without it (you’ll start yawning, getting teary-eyed with a runny nose, then cramps and nausea, diarrhea, restless legs, severe debilitating anxiety, aches in every joint...THAT is what we refer to as an addictive drug)... you won’t get withdrawal symptoms from acid. From x, From shrooms or ketamine. You may think about needing to get it again, you may crave it mentally, yes, you may abuse it, but when we’re talking about a drug not being “addictive” that is what most of us mean. Also, benzos have horrifying withdrawals as well. Alcohol and benzo wds can be fatal, although dope wd can feel like it. Ummm don’t do drugs! 🤗🤗
I‘m sure your friend has a deep problem if he used LSD on a regular because a trip lasts about 12 hours and is super exhausting and can be so scary, but it is actually impossible to get chemical and mentally addicted to LSD because it doesn’t stimulant the serotonin part of the brain, it hast absolutely no feeling to crave. Plus if you use it on a regular your tolerance will be so high after a few trips that the dosage may be deadly.
@@yungkim5834 You most definitely CAN get addicted to every drug. However, lsd or shrooms are mental addictions, and not physical, if thats what you mean.
You can 100% get addicted so psychedelics! It’s the only thing that was ever hard for me. Everyone is different it all depends on you as a person.
5 months is amazing!!! Congratulations! Coming up on my one year next week!
Psychedelics are the opposite of an escape drug lol. They’re like a face your B.s drug lol. But love you 💜💜
Facts
I dont think its that simple, i get what ur saying tho
yea never do psychedelics if you're in a bad headspace
you can still escape on acid. it brings me an inherent sense of peace and trippy oneness and harmony. shrooms don’t let you escape and grab you by the balls and swing you into the void that is hyperspace where you feel like your world is imploding and ending or that you’re going crazy, until the part where you’re greeted by the shroom goddess who teaches you how to be a better person and you feel like you’ve discovered the key which leads to jerking many tears and bawling in pure joy and happiness to be alive and experiencing, then the scary part of the shroom trip is over as long as you face your problems.
I have taken both yea i rather have psychedelics over dissacociatives
That's why Jessica Kent says "stay sober what ever that looks like to you"
i can relate to this so much ! because currently im trying to stay sober from meth and other hard drugs i been doing hard drugs since i was 15 and fuck i can relate to “im addicted to escaping my reality not drugs”
AYE YO keep doin you dude you seem to be killin it!! Much Love from Boulder CO US ✌️✌️✌️
I can relate to you on so many levels. I am grateful for coming across your channel. I can definitely vouch for wanting to escape reality. I was in the same spot for years, self-medicating, hating reality, hating myself. It finally took a very serious OD to realize that there's so much more to life than just escaping. I am happy that you overcame your struggles. I definitely look up to you. Thank you for being here and sharing your story
never minimise your progress in comparison to others’ , 5 months is a big deal and you’re doing great!! sending positively and love your way 🧚💜
Whole world got a drug problem and in denial About it: it'll get better when you feel like changing is what all matter honey
Happy you beat the drug addiction beast!!! Your brave outspoken which I'm sure has helped many. May all your messages travel far!!!
HAPPY HOLIDAYS to you, family and friends!
Much love and press on!!!
🌟❤👍❤🌟
ty for sharing your stories, and being so vulnerable online. love you ana 💕
thank you so much for sharing your story!
I remember watching your videos when I was a freshman in high school! I’m 21 now and I just want to say, I’m beyond proud of you. You’re truly glowing and seem to be in a much better place. So so happy for you ❤️❤️❤️
5 months is so huge!! Congrats. Also congrats on developing and nurturing that relationship with yourself 💜
Hope you find that perfect home soon!
I used to watch your videos in the early 2010s and i’m going through something really hard right now, so i watched some old videos that gave me comfort. gurl coming back here - your voice is deeper, you’re much less scattered, your body looks great, your personality is vibrant, and it made me realise how much i miss you ♥️ SUBSCRIBED!
this actually helped me a lot more than you could ever know
5 months is a lot!! I am so proud of you! Do not belittle your accomplishments because others opinions! 💙💙💙 you are doing wonderful
I hope you are aware of the fact of how much your videos help people. I watch your videos for years now and I find so much help and comfort in them. It feels so good when you share your own experiences because when you can relate to it, it makes you feel less alone. Thank you so much for everything you do for us. I love you
I wanna change my environment so bad. I always dreamt of just running away to somewhere so completely new and it took me awhile to realize it's because I need to change my lifestyle. Physical change, for me, brings about mental change as well. So one day, I'll do that. I might move to a different country if I can. I think that would do me wonders. I think that's why I find it so hard to quit drinking and abusing drugs; because it's the only way I can "change" my situation.
I love when you upload videos!
I used to watch you many years ago when you were younger and going through these things, this being the first video I've watched since then,,,you have grown sooooo much. I am so proud of you, addiction is a bitch. I am 4 years and 3 months clean off meth and heroin, worse years of my life, quit in a time frame of 2 days because I was almost involved in a murder case. If I can do it, anyone can. The human brain is so powerful, but sometimes your heart must take over before your brain kills you.
This is very relatable, wich gives me the tiniest of hopes. I've been following you for about like 6 years now, now that i'm 21, i've been going trough a rough patch this lasts couple years, involving several drugs and suicidal toughts. Thank you for all this years ♡. 🌻
I struggle w drug abuse hardcore. It sucks. I'm literally smoking dope as I watch this video. I just wanna end it
Oh honey, I know what you're going through, trust me. I am not a judgmental person at alllllll, but that boyfriend you have in the picture, are you guys still together? If so does he enable your use of meth? If so then you both either need to cut off all "friends" that use, and get clean together, that means cold turkey. If he is not willing to do that for you, you need to break up with him love...I know how hard that can be, but if he chooses continuing to use dope over getting clean and being with you,,,,then he is a pos. Please put yourself first. You seem like a wonderful, beautiful girl. I was addicted for 3 and a half years to meth and heroin. I quit within a period of 2 DAYS. if I can, I know for a fact you can. I've been 4 years and 3 months clean now, what made me realize I need to stop was the way I acted, the way I stole money from my own mother, when I almost got involved in a murder case....it's not too late for you okay? It's just not
1)get you and your bf clean even if that means breaking up
2) *hardest part* cut off EVERYONE that enables your drug use, or does the drug themselves
3) focus on your healing, getting on your feet, and creating a new you c:
I know you don't know me, but I love you so much and I know you can do this. Ice is the hardest drug to get off of I know. But you have to break your pipes and stuff, and get rid of the people holding you down. You can do this I know you can 💗
Please respond, doesn't have to be now, I just want to make sure you're okay
Thats terrible.. You mean dope like meth or something? Thats really awful. I do coke and alcohol a lot and its so fucking hard to quit. If you mean weed though.. Not saying you dont experience how hard you experience it, but weed is actually pretty easy to quite, as its not physically addicting. I smoked for 5 years, and i quit in a month or 2. Now i can sometimes take a hit without falling back in the pattern.
Point is, soft drugs and psychs are easy to quit (easy, but definitely not a nice few weeks). Hard drugs are on a totally different level.. I dont think i can quit coke on myself. But im too stubborn to get help.
That youtuber you look up to was once 5 months clean 💚
I love Jessica!!! Any period of sobriety is to be celebrated
Yep
I have been watching your videos since you were a lottttt younger 🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️and it makes me so incredibly happy to see you happy and healthy!!! I remember watching videos where you were just so hurt and broken but I always knew how much strength you had!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🥺🥺🥺🥺I'm so incredibly happy for you and proud that you are in a better place! You deserve all the love in the world! Sending hugs xx
A dear friend of mine in high school died from DMXing. She didn’t know it but she only had one kidney, she was only born with one. Never having any major health problems she just never discovered it. Till it killed her because she didn’t have enough kidneys to process the drug. Congrats on your recovery. I really hope people use these videos as a warning. It can and will fuck up your life.
i feel like for a lot people it is so tempting to get on here to hate on how open u are but i relate to you on the fact (i think u feel this way haha) that a lot of the things u went thru play a big part in who u are today and it feels nice to share with ppl, even if its educating or giving someone a space to say they relate. thank you ❤️.
Congrats on all of the progress you’ve made and are making I’m so happy for you!
That's so cool you follow Jessica Kent! I follow her to! Addiction is such a taboo topic. I love seeing people like you and her be open about it. I'm sure in the next few years we will see more people sharing these stories. Addiction was so cool for a while but people like Juice Weld, mac miller and Amy winehouse will show us it doesn't necessarily lead to good things. Unfortunately people who can manage it glorify it and others who can't make us all sad when they pass. I don't know if you follow Big Her on youtube but he is always spreading that positivity!!! he did 10 years in prison, used to be a porn star and now he is giving others hope! Check it out! Thank you for you videos this chanel seriously makes me grow as a person! It's not just bullshit youtube drama!!!!
I’m early🥳🌸 I love you Ana!!!!!!!
I'm glad you could grow up of it you know is something that most of us live but never get out I'm glad you made the right decision . Here my best wishes :)
strugglin w this kinda shit rn, been watching u since u lived in taiwan i believe, its been a while haha, still inspiring. proud of u
i’m so happy how good you are doing now after everything you’ve gone through ❤️
Thanks for sharing your Story!
Im depressed and abused a lot of Alcohol and cocaine in the past months.Whenever i stop for a week or more i start Feeling good again.
And than i start over.....
I’m right there with you a year later. I’m a recovering heroin addict and after over 3 years clean I started injecting coke and drinking. And I hate this shit cause it doesn’t make me feel good, but I haven’t been able to stop. Hopefully today will be day 1! But, I’m over 3 and a half years clean from heroin and almost 7 years clean from meth. I kind of hate myself cause I was doing so well, but it’s all a part of my journey. I just need to figure my shit out. People, places, and things.
5 month's is amazing! Well done girl xxx
sending so much love!!!!!
I know the struggle. I am an alcoholic and it sucks cuz I just want to drink like all the other young 21 year olds. But I can't, part of me still wants it but part of me wants to continue my sobriety.
can you make an everyday makeup routine or get ready with me? you’re so pretty.
also you are SO beautiful !! i always feel like people look at me and can tell i used to used drugs but i look at you and id never be able to tell so yay
Thank you for posting this. Helps me understand people with drug addiction. My form of escape is internet addiction and withdrawal which thank god that was my choice of escape. Good luck with recovery
Been A fan since 2016 you are soo strong 😩❤️
youve grown so much, like even just hearing this lil bit of ur life an just looking at u an ur channel it sounds like you’ve grown alot an you can an have learned from everything.
💜🌹How senseless death how precious life🌹💜 proud of who yu became 🌹ly 🌹
*VIRTUAL HUGS*
I’m trying to get sober over winter break. Your videos have helped me ever since I was in middle school (ima senior now). Thank you for your poems and for sharing your experience.
8 to 12 pills "hes trying to kill me" ......youre the one taking the amount.. you can do something called SAY NO WHEN THE AMOUNT IS TOO MUCH FOR YOU......... so that shit is his fault???????? .........bro........
Don't ever say that the time that you've been sober is not that great!! It's amazing and to make the decision to be sober and give up that life is an achievement in itself!! I was with you during a lot of that time and we both know what each other went through! I'm so glad that we are both of the other side and gave up that life! for better things! I love you and miss you xxxx
I really don’t see how any man can take advantage of any women, especially when you’re out cold! It just doesn’t make sense, bad intentions.
I discovered you in this lockdown few months ago, watched so much of your videos, they helped me a lot ❤️ Thank you!
Also, how do you get to travel? I want to go Australia to see my friend max really badly but don't know how ):
I have also watched you when you still lived in Taiwan & I've been a follower for a while. growing up watching you while following your youtube channel I wouldn't watch every video you have posted but always checked in. have been apart of your Instagram and youtube, as I got older and experienced a lot of situations with drug abuse and mental health I've always wondered what your story was like..... dude when you started talking about escaping your reality and how it wasn't just about being high, you just didn't wanna be there. that shit hit home had a couple tears, all said and done I have never had any judgment for you, always loved your mindset in a way of difference. i even started to listen to la dispute an old gray, they were a few of my favorite bands i picked up from watching your videos. this video answers a lot of back-minded thoughts watching you along the way but your progress is amazing and your story was said beaufuly. i can't express enough how hard i related to this. I'm sorry this is a lot but lots of love Hannah mae.
i’m glad you’re in a better place now and more at peace:))
Yo I’m so proud of you!! This is inspiring me to stop smoking weed
I am so sorry you went through that people like that need to die seriously... I’m so glad your much better and safe now stay amazing!
I can relate so much. I've been an addict since I was fifteen yrs old and I'm 35 now. Currently I'm in a methadone clinic but I still have slips. Sorry about your first experience he needs to be castrated 🙏
Honestly my brother had a broken ankle and my mum told him to put on some tiger balm and let it rest haha 3 days later she took him to A&E and he got crutches and a cast lol
tiger balm is my mums solution for everything lool.. got bad grades? Tiger balm. Boyfriend cheated? tiger balm.
I always see you in Natalia Taylor’s comments, and she’s an amazing inspiration to have, especially for a topic like this ♥️♥️
THANK YOU FOR SHARING ANA XX
It's awesome you're not on that stuff anymore. I could relate with alot what you were saying. I abused anything I could get my hands on but DXM and stuff like that would completely take me outta this universe in a very strange way. I overdosed a few months ago on accident with pills but I'm recovering and your channel n stuff is pretty inspiring. Bless u🌺
I relate to your weed story sm, In a two year relationship that ended this year in June I was living with my partner at the time and never smoked before I met the person but he smoked so I wanted to try it and ended up needing it too function for basically the whole two years every day from morning before work , spending 150$ a week on it , sneaking of at lunch to smoke then soon as I got home id smoke till I went to bed doing acid and md every weekend . Now I've had a break from it constantly I can smoke occasionally and just be happy and chill. Im really proud of you for being so strong because I understand how you feel.I struggled getting out of the addiction on my own because I couldn't talk to anyone about it even my parents. Well done !!!! XOXOX
I remember watching your videos back in the day... I’m proud
Early🥺✨
YAYYY
drugs r the worst. u never know when you'll have a bad trip. bad trips are traumatic.
Thank you for always being real!
Congrats take one second at a time I'm in recovery myself my husband passed away 3 years ago of a od from H now I've been clean since we did every drug but now I have a UA-cam channel about my story and law of attraction and spirituality keep going ✨
Nice video. I'm glad you're doing better and that you got away from the drug life. You look beautiful as well.
♥️ thank you for sharing. You are such a inspiration for me and I’m so happy for you that you just got a fucking house and it’s just like damn yk? 🖤🖤🖤
I am really amazed at your honesty with us about your drug issues please stay safe and strong love from John in Geelong
So sorry you had to deal with a bunch of that 🥺🥺 but thanks for sharing I've dealt with a bunch of similar experiences
I’m so happy that you have taken steps and are getting better!! ❤️ baby steps ! We are so proud of you!!!
Now your in the present and you are kicking ass girl!!!! ❤️
Proud of you.your a beautiful soul
It's so beautiful to see your growth... ♥️
I was cutting right now and you literally just now saved my life I have pills that I have to take every single day and I was just about to overdose you made me stop cutting and not take a bunch of pills thank you for being here
Im proud of u xxx
Ps.: your hair looks rly cute! And is that spooky black in the intro 🥺?
thank u for this video! this is rlly what I needed rn x
5 months is amazing!! i have 4 days
5 months is amazing, what are you talkin about girl?! silly 🤣
proud of you. 💖
i was just how you were... thank you for sharing your stories.
always loved your videos