I've had this shit for 10 years and the worst part is you cant f*cking cry, no matter how hard you try you cant cry, therefore theres literally no sense of relief until the "episode" ends...
I've felt this way since I was 15 in turning 25 in October and it's a struggle, I've looked for help but my psychologist told me "you have some depression, just look for a hobby and get your mind off of it" a "medical professional" told me get over it... The only reason I haven't jumped off a building is because I'm married and I love my husband but I'm still sad and suicidal every day.
Someone once told me that depression is internal rage that hasn’t been released... could that be true? Are you angry about any area of your life? Past or present?
Got diagnosed in 2018, I would say that the symptoms come in what I can describe as a rollercoaster, they slowly build up and then the free fall is just the worst
I was 7 at a birthday party and there was a piñata that just got busted so while every kid dove for the candy I just stood there and watched. My uncle asked me why I didn’t dive myself and I basically just shrugged and said “what’s the point?”. Later got diagnosed with this condition but I’m trying to be better. I send you all who are dealing with this my support.
It's strange when these professionals always a period of a few days or weeks!. The bigger picture is people are suffering from it for many years before they finally do something about it!.
10 years of chronic depression, lost my mind, and I'm still going. it's like having a knife in my foot and wondering why my foot hurts every time I take a step. the best part is, for me at least, music becomes a large escape from the problems.
I've been feeling like this for a few months, I'm barely functioning at all now. Obviously I should speak to a doctor. I think I've always felt like this I go through phases but it doesn't feel like it's ending this time.
I've had it for 5-6 years and I'll tell you right now, I hugely appreciate the people who tried to help me, but its only gotten worse and worse. I keep thinking I am at the tipping point or at the maximum it can reach but somehow it just gets worse. The more I think about it the less I can't think about it and when I think about it, everything goes to hell.
Watching someone talk about it is honestly what has made me do so much research on depression and bipolar disorder. Going in about a week to be evaluated because I've felt like this for over 10 years now. Knowing my mother has clinical depression and being able to track how I've been feeling and everything for the last 4 years since I had my son has helped me see that I may also have it as well. Hoping for good news the 18th ❤️
Its hilarious listening to her talk abt the duration of symptoms. When she said moods last a few hours for most people but if it persists past a few weeks thats cause for concern. But here I am like that’s describing my whole life. I havent been able to maintain any inner stability ever in my life. I’m 18 now and it feels like I’ve experienced a whole lifetime of mental illness even though Ive just reached the age where things start to get real. I’m terrified lol, it’ll be such an accomplishment if i can make it to my 30s
Same here, 24 now, nothing works.. I’ll try something to boost my mood, regulate the serotonin lvl, I fell like zombie and it goes on and on for years.
Magic mushrooms, people. Not joking. It may not help everyone but for a lot of people it’s truly the only thing that can have major positive effects suppressing clinical depression. Please consider trying! it’s the only thing that’s ever worked for me and many people I know. Go start reading into it!
I played a part in the accidental death of my older brother who was only 1 1/2 years older than me sowe literally grew up side by side. We were practically the same person, had the same friends, same hobbies, same interests. But when iwas 19 and he was 20 i ended up finding him dead on the floor at a friends house where i had placed him the night before because he got too wasted and passed out on my friends bed while the rest of us left to go to another party. We come back and my friend wants to sleep but my brothers in his bed so me and a friend move him to the floor… the floor… because of my carelessness he ended up suffocating in the pillow on the floor… ever since then ive been struggling just to get through each day. Im 31 now so its been a very long hopeless endless downward spiral and itried therapy once but the therapist was solely focused on trying to convince me it wasnt my fault but facts are facts, its WAS my fault. So that therapy session only made me feel worse cuz now ijust feel hopeless like the only possible way to get through this is if i can believe it wasnt my fault when i know for certain it was so thats impossible. Inever went back to see that therapist or any other therapist after that and it was about 4 maybe 5 years ago. I honestly just dont know what kind of a future i could possibly even have, i have only gotten this far because those around me pity me enough to let me get away with doing nothing but one day i wont have thatkind of support anymore and i will be tossed out to the wolves unprepared and i just cant get myself to care enough to try and prepare for a future where i must be independent. Im a pretty intellectual person and pick up things really quickly but ill always have this dark cloud hanging over my head thatmakes it impossible for me to ever care enough to do anything to prevent something bad happening to myself. I just dont know what if anything there is for me to even do or hope for.
Just my opinion but it doesn’t sound to me like it is your fault hindsight is always 2020 but we live in the present you weren’t the one that made decisions to get your friend into the position he put himself into however tragic the position may have been. Regardless if you feel that you may have paid played a part in his debts just know that if he was here he more than likely would have thought the same thing that it was his stupidity that got him into the situation that led to his death. I’m sure he would not want you to live in this guilt As much so as you wouldn’t want him to in your shoes. Sending love hoping things have gotten better not your fault everything happens for a reason even if we can’t understand. Sorry for typos This was dictating with Siri
Heartbreaking. In regards to it being your fault let me ask you a question, If the tables had of been turned - if it had of been you drunk and passed out on the bed and your friend had of asked your brother to move you to the floor - do you think he would have done it? Under the circumstances to me it sounds like yes, he probably would of. Both you and he were still essentially kids, barely out of your teens, conscientious in regards to the wishes of your friends and inebriated. Even many fully sober adults with many years life experience would not have foreseen this happening (I wouldn't have, and I'm 43). I hate to sound platitudinous but you've got to really _live_ your life. More than anything that's what the living owe those who have passed away, because you know that is what those who have passed on (especially the younger ones) would want more than anything if they had the chance - more years in which to live. Now you've not only got to live for yourself but also your brother. Keep a photo of him with you. He will always be there. Every step you take is a step he takes. When you exit the house on a pleasant day and the sun streams on your face, it's also streaming on his face. Your achievements will be his achievements (and - no matter how down you 're feeling now - you _will_ have some). And one day - when the time is right - you will meet again and he will tell you how proud he was to have a brother who had the strength to continue on and live life for both you AND himself.
Honey, similar to me. I have alot of guilt, regret, wishful thinking of bad mistakes from the past. Your bro.has forgiven you. U didnt do this on purpose. The only answer is forgiving oneself. Im still struggling. I keep praying.
My sister is a prostitute and she has all those symptoms and keeps talking about killing herself. She is already on prozac and huge amounts of xanax, so not much we can do.
Try some shroom, Shrooms, you see, are not just a bit of psychedelic fun, they can actually cure depression.Depression, anxiety, PTSD, and mental health issues in general are notoriously hard to treat, so why not try psychedelics and see if they worked?...they can help you fast
Addicted to alcohol and am diagnosed clinical depression, have had it diagnosed since I was 15 and 24 now. I am losing it bad though, fuck this. I'm also on Suboxone and gabapentin, so three depressants daily on top of being diagnosed clinical
*ticks all the boxes*
i am finally good at something
I've had this shit for 10 years and the worst part is you cant f*cking cry, no matter how hard you try you cant cry, therefore theres literally no sense of relief until the "episode" ends...
I've felt this way since I was 15 in turning 25 in October and it's a struggle, I've looked for help but my psychologist told me "you have some depression, just look for a hobby and get your mind off of it" a "medical professional" told me get over it... The only reason I haven't jumped off a building is because I'm married and I love my husband but I'm still sad and suicidal every day.
Chris Winters You should try a psychiatrist instead of a psychologist, they are more aware of the medical reasons of depression.
Same happened to me . I wish you the best. My therapist actually judge me and made it worse . I’m taking St. John wort and hope this helps my mood .
Someone once told me that depression is internal rage that hasn’t been released... could that be true? Are you angry about any area of your life? Past or present?
@@goldenbowl1046 I would avoid simplified formulations like this. Depression can occur for many reasons.
I hope you're ok and still out there, trying every day. You deserve to make it.
Got diagnosed in 2018, I would say that the symptoms come in what I can describe as a rollercoaster, they slowly build up and then the free fall is just the worst
I was 7 at a birthday party and there was a piñata that just got busted so while every kid dove for the candy I just stood there and watched. My uncle asked me why I didn’t dive myself and I basically just shrugged and said “what’s the point?”. Later got diagnosed with this condition but I’m trying to be better. I send you all who are dealing with this my support.
Yes, the "what's the point " has been my whole life.
It's strange when these professionals always a period of a few days or weeks!. The bigger picture is people are suffering from it for many years before they finally do something about it!.
She just described the last 3 years of my life
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Don't give up! I had this shit for almost 10 years, martial arts and Gods grace cured me ! Keep fighting!
10 years of chronic depression, lost my mind, and I'm still going.
it's like having a knife in my foot and wondering why my foot hurts every time I take a step. the best part is, for me at least, music becomes a large escape from the problems.
@@The_Indomitable_Human_Spirit_1 counselor diagnosis junior year. Called it "eeyore syndrome"
Just a funny word for manageable chronic depression.
can confirm that doing sport activity (hiking, martia arrs, running, etc.) help A LOT!
I've been feeling like this for a few months, I'm barely functioning at all now. Obviously I should speak to a doctor. I think I've always felt like this I go through phases but it doesn't feel like it's ending this time.
Jo space monkey. How are things now? 7 years later.
I've had it for 5-6 years and I'll tell you right now, I hugely appreciate the people who tried to help me, but its only gotten worse and worse. I keep thinking I am at the tipping point or at the maximum it can reach but somehow it just gets worse. The more I think about it the less I can't think about it and when I think about it, everything goes to hell.
Watching someone talk about it is honestly what has made me do so much research on depression and bipolar disorder. Going in about a week to be evaluated because I've felt like this for over 10 years now. Knowing my mother has clinical depression and being able to track how I've been feeling and everything for the last 4 years since I had my son has helped me see that I may also have it as well. Hoping for good news the 18th ❤️
I have all the symptoms I been this way for years and I keep it to my self.
7 years now..
Its hilarious listening to her talk abt the duration of symptoms. When she said moods last a few hours for most people but if it persists past a few weeks thats cause for concern. But here I am like that’s describing my whole life. I havent been able to maintain any inner stability ever in my life. I’m 18 now and it feels like I’ve experienced a whole lifetime of mental illness even though Ive just reached the age where things start to get real. I’m terrified lol, it’ll be such an accomplishment if i can make it to my 30s
Im rooting for you man
Same here, 24 now, nothing works.. I’ll try something to boost my mood, regulate the serotonin lvl, I fell like zombie and it goes on and on for years.
Suffering since 2017
Magic mushrooms, people. Not joking. It may not help everyone but for a lot of people it’s truly the only thing that can have major positive effects suppressing clinical depression. Please consider trying! it’s the only thing that’s ever worked for me and many people I know. Go start reading into it!
going 30 years strong. god help me
The last 4 years have been like that
I played a part in the accidental death of my older brother who was only 1 1/2 years older than me sowe literally grew up side by side. We were practically the same person, had the same friends, same hobbies, same interests. But when iwas 19 and he was 20 i ended up finding him dead on the floor at a friends house where i had placed him the night before because he got too wasted and passed out on my friends bed while the rest of us left to go to another party. We come back and my friend wants to sleep but my brothers in his bed so me and a friend move him to the floor… the floor… because of my carelessness he ended up suffocating in the pillow on the floor… ever since then ive been struggling just to get through each day. Im 31 now so its been a very long hopeless endless downward spiral and itried therapy once but the therapist was solely focused on trying to convince me it wasnt my fault but facts are facts, its WAS my fault. So that therapy session only made me feel worse cuz now ijust feel hopeless like the only possible way to get through this is if i can believe it wasnt my fault when i know for certain it was so thats impossible. Inever went back to see that therapist or any other therapist after that and it was about 4 maybe 5 years ago. I honestly just dont know what kind of a future i could possibly even have, i have only gotten this far because those around me pity me enough to let me get away with doing nothing but one day i wont have thatkind of support anymore and i will be tossed out to the wolves unprepared and i just cant get myself to care enough to try and prepare for a future where i must be independent. Im a pretty intellectual person and pick up things really quickly but ill always have this dark cloud hanging over my head thatmakes it impossible for me to ever care enough to do anything to prevent something bad happening to myself. I just dont know what if anything there is for me to even do or hope for.
Just my opinion but it doesn’t sound to me like it is your fault hindsight is always 2020 but we live in the present you weren’t the one that made decisions to get your friend into the position he put himself into however tragic the position may have been. Regardless if you feel that you may have paid played a part in his debts just know that if he was here he more than likely would have thought the same thing that it was his stupidity that got him into the situation that led to his death. I’m sure he would not want you to live in this guilt As much so as you wouldn’t want him to in your shoes. Sending love hoping things have gotten better not your fault everything happens for a reason even if we can’t understand. Sorry for typos
This was dictating with Siri
I'm sorry. Hope one day you can truly forgive yourself because I'm sure he has
Heartbreaking. In regards to it being your fault let me ask you a question, If the tables had of been turned - if it had of been you drunk and passed out on the bed and your friend had of asked your brother to move you to the floor - do you think he would have done it? Under the circumstances to me it sounds like yes, he probably would of. Both you and he were still essentially kids, barely out of your teens, conscientious in regards to the wishes of your friends and inebriated. Even many fully sober adults with many years life experience would not have foreseen this happening (I wouldn't have, and I'm 43). I hate to sound platitudinous but you've got to really _live_ your life. More than anything that's what the living owe those who have passed away, because you know that is what those who have passed on (especially the younger ones) would want more than anything if they had the chance - more years in which to live. Now you've not only got to live for yourself but also your brother. Keep a photo of him with you. He will always be there. Every step you take is a step he takes. When you exit the house on a pleasant day and the sun streams on your face, it's also streaming on his face. Your achievements will be his achievements (and - no matter how down you 're feeling now - you _will_ have some). And one day - when the time is right - you will meet again and he will tell you how proud he was to have a brother who had the strength to continue on and live life for both you AND himself.
Honey, similar to me. I have alot of guilt, regret, wishful thinking of bad mistakes from the past. Your bro.has forgiven you. U didnt do this on purpose. The only answer is forgiving oneself. Im still struggling. I keep praying.
Still fighting....for now
Yep, my last chance is mushrooms and ayahuasca. If it doesn’t help I’m signing out 😝👍🏻
Have you tried other remedies? Just curious
My sister is a prostitute and she has all those symptoms and keeps talking about killing herself. She is already on prozac and huge amounts of xanax, so not much we can do.
Try some shroom,
Shrooms, you see, are not just a bit of psychedelic fun, they can actually cure depression.Depression, anxiety, PTSD, and mental health issues in general are notoriously hard to treat, so why not try psychedelics and see if they worked?...they can help you fast
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Addicted to alcohol and am diagnosed clinical depression, have had it diagnosed since I was 15 and 24 now. I am losing it bad though, fuck this. I'm also on Suboxone and gabapentin, so three depressants daily on top of being diagnosed clinical
Add rumination
Please help me............
Jo man, are you oke?
Oh yea - I need to talk to you then 👀
It sux
Tms
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