intense emotions come suddenly…… yes sometimes the acute awareness that anything can happen…… like an earthquake etc…. things we don’t consciously walk around thinking about …….. i stand in the grocery store and can not make decisions 🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️……. not all the time but much of the time……. i get dizzy and sort of anxious……. this is all new within the last 6 months i’d say. making homemade mac n cheese for family visiting was like climbing mt everest! it was all i could accomplish in the day…… but i’m being kind about it…… the thought arises kate you do not own this life……. it’s like something is desperately trying to let go and hold on simultaneously….. thank you angelo and community!!! just venting……. tears come up …… oh lord …… love to all❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
This video is so valuable. Really help us to be open and authentic instead of faking self to “the awakened standards”. I used to think once awakened I’d be a great citizen - wouldn’t have any bad thoughts, negative emotions, always cheerful, helpful, loving care etc etc When that didn’t happen, it led to lots of self doubt and self judgment…
Right? I was so shocked that I still had an ego and selfish thoughts. I thought I'd be a saint, lol! 😁 There are so many mystical myths around awakening.
I am able to sense my emotions way more lately. It's something new for me. When I was younger I did not know what I was feeling or why exactly just that I was usually agitated.
Funny.. Fear was pretty much my experience before awakening. After, that is mostly gone. There's a little but now I feel super relieved of fear now. I do notice other emotions though. They feel like freaking tidal waves, and I have to just ride it until it dissipates. I never knew an emotion could be so intense.
Ubiquitous numbness? Not in the world I grew up in. This is my third time watching this, and third time at trying to make a comment. Better to stop trying and just do. The fact that I could feel everything is now seen as just how it is. The problem was my taking ownership of it. I try to stop watching, but your to dam good! 💜🙏
something just happened i feel liberation it's right here, it's precence. it's not mine in any way and has nothing to do with me it's the property of actuality itself....uncondintional freedom appearing as me haing an experiance of liberation in the present moment. i wanted to share that right away with you
it's like my whole life there was a knot or tension inside mody body that just untied or let loose and relaxed for the first time, this liberation actually happened in a moment of discomfort not a bliss state or joyful.
even though it feels like liberation has happened, part of what that means is that there isn't a me in any real way and there isn't a thing called liberation in any real way. also there isn't a real sense that a process is complete in any way there is a sense it's like the start of another process that continues ( but there isn't any sense of a process ) it's like a 1 dimensional static geometry , whcih feels like unconditional joy which is appearing as everything we call reality or the world or even the 1st person perspective. all of this seeming motion and movement is just an appearance....
Thank you for this insight!! This last week, I have experienced a few episodes of random crying-feels very “raw”. While I’ve been letting it come and go, I wondered if it was a sign of a relapse in the depression I had most of my life. (Two months ago, I tapered off medication for this). Tempting to want to find a “cause” but it’s really just FEELING. It’s ok too!!😅❤
I have to admit that I am a very emotional person, but one of the things I have noticed is just how much I try or have tried at times to repress my emotions especially recently. Now, I notice when this is happening and it's definitely no longer possible to repress these emotions. They can be very strong at times too and unless I'm at work, I just let the emotions out. It's even getting harder to repress these emotions in those situations too which I admit that there's a fear with that. I have also been surprised by fear and what things actually result in a fear response.
The timeline doesn’t line up for me, but just recently I had a feeling of fear come up while driving. I was telling one of my daughters about it while driving on the highway. I said something like, “usually I’m totally fine with driving, but right now I’m realizing how fast we are all going and how close we are to other cars.” Tons of generalized anxiety coming up lately - tight feelings in my chest that have never been there. Thankfully, I’m not making a big deal about it.
Interesting. I only drive occasionally and there was a lot of fear coming up that took me by surprise, also while knitting, if I want to venture away from the original pattern..As if there was a way that things must be done or a way I must be..I have been 'at it' long enough to just allow what arises pass through..
The anxiety about “death” is real. I had an episode the other day just trying to get the mail. A real and irrational fear came up and froze me on my porch. The fear was that a dog was gonna come out of nowhere and attack me. It happened once before and I took pepper spray to the mailbox with me. The other day though, I questioned the fear. I got curious about it. I had no other choice because it was so real in the body. I was down right petrified. I started to retreat inside to get the pepper spray and stopped myself. The curious nature of exploring this forced me to feel into the fear which gave it the space to just be. I then tested the story I had wrapped around the fear to see if it was true. Was a dog really going to come out of nowhere and attack me to death? I took a breath and walked to the mailbox. As I type this today, I can say the story was not true. This event also has me waiting for the next arising of this anxiety so I can get curious, feel into it and test the story. I am in awe of truly how terrifying this can feel. Kudos to Life and the experience of it. ❤
I have become very emotional- like a layer of skin has peeled away. Conversely I am also experiencing behaviors that arose when I was young- ways of keeping others at a distance. Protecting myself from hurt. I want to feel the feelings but sometimes I can’t see them.
This is really relevant to my recent experience in terms of unmitigated feeling, which at times has felt traumatic but is felt and processed relatively quickly. I definitely feel others emotions and animals too as they can appear from nowhere for no rhyme or reason and then later found out someone in the house was feeling off. Awakening certainly isn’t all unicorns with bells on, it’s full on feeling and that’s sometimes challenging. But theres no point trying to swim against the current. I found your sharing really reassuring Angelo so thank you. 😊🙏🏻
This is most definitely happening in my experience.😳 But I am surprised by this video. It seems like awakening would have the opposite effect on the fear of death.
Angelo I have a question regarding diet, is it important to adapt a plant based diet as a lot of non dual schools of thought advocate for or is consuming meat ok?
The % of the USA population that abstain from meat is much lower than one may presume. I am a super carnivore and try to avoid vegetables and fruits. Also I avoid refined sugar and highly processed foods. Your health is ultra important. Experiment and see what works best for you. Peace.
Many times anger surfaces as a cover up to "protect" you from feeling deeply buried stuff, such as sorrow, grief and dread. Maybe gently inquire into what anger is trying to protect you from feeling... Perhaps the discomfort of feeling vulnerable... Just let your own intuition guide you thru this rabbit hole. It knows best.
@@Unf4th0m4bl8 Thanks! Very insightful advice! I sit with anger the other day followed its guide. It brought me back to my 1st memory of being angry, revealed a lot buried stuff as you suggested. Really appreciate it 🙏
Why? Because this is the way, this is the way, we move! In the belly of the whale. In the belly of the whale, in the belly of the beast. At last supper honey, make sure you get something, something to eat and here we are ..
intense emotions come suddenly…… yes sometimes the acute awareness that anything can happen…… like an earthquake etc…. things we don’t consciously walk around thinking about …….. i stand in the grocery store and can not make decisions 🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️……. not all the time but much of the time……. i get dizzy and sort of anxious……. this is all new within the last 6 months i’d say. making homemade mac n cheese for family visiting was like climbing mt everest! it was all i could accomplish in the day…… but i’m being kind about it…… the thought arises kate you do not own this life……. it’s like something is desperately trying to let go and hold on simultaneously….. thank you angelo and community!!! just venting……. tears come up …… oh lord …… love to all❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
This video is so valuable. Really help us to be open and authentic instead of faking self to “the awakened standards”. I used to think once awakened I’d be a great citizen - wouldn’t have any bad thoughts, negative emotions, always cheerful, helpful, loving care etc etc
When that didn’t happen, it led to lots of self doubt and self judgment…
Right?
I was so shocked that I still had an ego and selfish thoughts. I thought I'd be a saint, lol! 😁
There are so many mystical myths around awakening.
The intimacy with the unfoldment of reality is truly astounding. Thanks for sharing!
I am able to sense my emotions way more lately. It's something new for me. When I was younger I did not know what I was feeling or why exactly just that I was usually agitated.
Funny.. Fear was pretty much my experience before awakening. After, that is mostly gone. There's a little but now I feel super relieved of fear now. I do notice other emotions though. They feel like freaking tidal waves, and I have to just ride it until it dissipates. I never knew an emotion could be so intense.
Having a guide like you Angelo would have helped so much a few years back, but so so grateful your here now
Everything must go into the fire, not just the bad but the good as well.
Who will be there, to know what remains in the ashes?
Ubiquitous numbness? Not in the world I grew up in.
This is my third time watching this, and third time at trying to make a comment.
Better to stop trying and just do.
The fact that I could feel everything is now seen as just how it is. The problem was my taking ownership of it.
I try to stop watching, but your to dam good!
💜🙏
something just happened i feel liberation it's right here, it's precence. it's not mine in any way and has nothing to do with me it's the property of actuality itself....uncondintional freedom appearing as me haing an experiance of liberation in the present moment. i wanted to share that right away with you
Beautiful! I'm glad to hear it :))
it's like my whole life there was a knot or tension inside mody body that just untied or let loose and relaxed for the first time, this liberation actually happened in a moment of discomfort not a bliss state or joyful.
@@johnjacquard863 that's awesome. Yah, for me it was like a huge ball of fears left out the top of my head. I finally could relax. So good, right?
@@TerryLightfoot its like its unconditional joy but every time i try to describe with words . the words fail somehow
even though it feels like liberation has happened, part of what that means is that there isn't a me in any real way and there isn't a thing called liberation in any real way. also there isn't a real sense that a process is complete in any way there is a sense it's like the start of another process that continues ( but there isn't any sense of a process ) it's like a 1 dimensional static geometry , whcih feels like unconditional joy which is appearing as everything we call reality or the world or even the 1st person perspective. all of this seeming motion and movement is just an appearance....
yes...my experience for years...
Thank you for this insight!! This last week, I have experienced a few episodes of random crying-feels very “raw”. While I’ve been letting it come and go, I wondered if it was a sign of a relapse in the depression I had most of my life. (Two months ago, I tapered off medication for this). Tempting to want to find a “cause” but it’s really just FEELING. It’s ok too!!😅❤
yes, everything passes with time :)
I have to admit that I am a very emotional person, but one of the things I have noticed is just how much I try or have tried at times to repress my emotions especially recently. Now, I notice when this is happening and it's definitely no longer possible to repress these emotions. They can be very strong at times too and unless I'm at work, I just let the emotions out. It's even getting harder to repress these emotions in those situations too which I admit that there's a fear with that. I have also been surprised by fear and what things actually result in a fear response.
The timeline doesn’t line up for me, but just recently I had a feeling of fear come up while driving. I was telling one of my daughters about it while driving on the highway. I said something like, “usually I’m totally fine with driving, but right now I’m realizing how fast we are all going and how close we are to other cars.” Tons of generalized anxiety coming up lately - tight feelings in my chest that have never been there. Thankfully, I’m not making a big deal about it.
Exactly
Interesting. I only drive occasionally and there was a lot of fear coming up that took me by surprise, also while knitting, if I want to venture away from the original pattern..As if there was a way that things must be done or a way I must be..I have been 'at it' long enough to just allow what arises pass through..
The anxiety about “death” is real. I had an episode the other day just trying to get the mail. A real and irrational fear came up and froze me on my porch. The fear was that a dog was gonna come out of nowhere and attack me. It happened once before and I took pepper spray to the mailbox with me. The other day though, I questioned the fear. I got curious about it. I had no other choice because it was so real in the body. I was down right petrified. I started to retreat inside to get the pepper spray and stopped myself. The curious nature of exploring this forced me to feel into the fear which gave it the space to just be. I then tested the story I had wrapped around the fear to see if it was true. Was a dog really going to come out of nowhere and attack me to death? I took a breath and walked to the mailbox. As I type this today, I can say the story was not true. This event also has me waiting for the next arising of this anxiety so I can get curious, feel into it and test the story. I am in awe of truly how terrifying this can feel. Kudos to Life and the experience of it. ❤
Who knew? I once was warned the floodgates were near, and I had time to get home and settle in - a convenience for which I am still grateful. 😎
I have become very emotional- like a layer of skin has peeled away. Conversely I am also experiencing behaviors that arose when I was young- ways of keeping others at a distance. Protecting myself from hurt. I want to feel the feelings but sometimes I can’t see them.
Yes exactly
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake What do you suggest?
@@siobhanmacm check out my playlist on emotion and shadow , it has many approaches.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Thank you.
This is really relevant to my recent experience in terms of unmitigated feeling, which at times has felt traumatic but is felt and processed relatively quickly. I definitely feel others emotions and animals too as they can appear from nowhere for no rhyme or reason and then later found out someone in the house was feeling off. Awakening certainly isn’t all unicorns with bells on, it’s full on feeling and that’s sometimes challenging. But theres no point trying to swim against the current. I found your sharing really reassuring Angelo so thank you. 😊🙏🏻
Wonderful.
Gratitude.
Thanks for sharing this, 🎯♥😶 🙏☮ wishing love, grace, courage and understanding for all
This is most definitely happening in my experience.😳 But I am surprised by this video. It seems like awakening would have the opposite effect on the fear of death.
It dies at deeper stages but initial awakening Jody opens the hood to see what’s actually going on so you can access it
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Okay, gotcha.
Thanks Angelo :)
Angelo I have a question regarding diet, is it important to adapt a plant based diet as a lot of non dual schools of thought advocate for or is consuming meat ok?
The % of the USA population that abstain from meat is much lower than one may presume. I am a super carnivore and try to avoid vegetables and fruits. Also I avoid refined sugar and highly processed foods. Your health is ultra important. Experiment and see what works best for you. Peace.
Everyone has different needs. Listen to your body.
How to process anger?
Many times anger surfaces as a cover up to "protect" you from feeling deeply buried stuff, such as sorrow, grief and dread. Maybe gently inquire into what anger is trying to protect you from feeling... Perhaps the discomfort of feeling vulnerable... Just let your own intuition guide you thru this rabbit hole. It knows best.
@@Unf4th0m4bl8 Thanks! Very insightful advice! I sit with anger the other day followed its guide. It brought me back to my 1st memory of being angry, revealed a lot buried stuff as you suggested. Really appreciate it 🙏
@@nevermind5228 Truly glad for you!💜
💯
Why? Because this is the way, this is the way, we move! In the belly of the whale. In the belly of the whale, in the belly of the beast. At last supper honey, make sure you get something, something to eat and here we are ..
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Crying happens easily 😢