Life After Xanax

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  • Опубліковано 4 бер 2017
  • After 7 Months of recovery my anxiety still continues to linger. I have made a lot of progress but I'm still not out of the woods yet.
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 390

  • @yasugi0153
    @yasugi0153 7 років тому +41

    Stay strong and together we can make it

  • @hakeemwazadally7332
    @hakeemwazadally7332 7 років тому +1

    YOU'RE AMAZING!!!! definitely a helper. just know you have an audience that looks up at you and support your videos and efforts. stay positive and healthy.
    much 💘. you're new Fan☺☺☺

  • @Joyschwartz87
    @Joyschwartz87 6 років тому +4

    Very encouraging thanks for sharing your journey and not making it a horror story!!! Keep it up

  • @AudioXVNVXTheNightLife
    @AudioXVNVXTheNightLife 7 років тому +101

    yea you can't spend to much time inside your head...scary place...

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому +9

      Thats where I'm at right now, i can't seem to find good ways to get out of my head but I'm not hopeless.

    • @AudioXVNVXTheNightLife
      @AudioXVNVXTheNightLife 7 років тому +1

      i hear you, keep up the rumble bro, it'll iron out.

    • @TimmyRayField
      @TimmyRayField 7 років тому +2

      look up eckart tolle and watch how he became free of depression- you need to move your conciousness my friend; i went through something very similiar. Trust me, it will change your life if you genuinely want help and approach it with pure passion

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому +1

      Yes, I've Read his book.

    • @kratom4389
      @kratom4389 7 років тому +1

      The suicide journal follow gods word, the Bible, gain faith in the lord and he will bless you, I have been addicted to benzos for a while and I am slowly tapering off but almost to fully! And I have never been so clear minded ever since truly I tell you..he will do wonders for you but you must have faith, good luck friend

  • @sherry866
    @sherry866 7 років тому +6

    I'm So Sorry for you and at the same time VERY PROUD OF YOU !!!!! YOU'RE DOING GREAT AND I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS !!! IM SO GLAD YOU'VE RECOGNIZED THAT YOU HAD A PROBLEM AND DECIDED TO DEAL WITH IT HEAD ON, FINDING OTHER COPING SKILLS ETC !!!!!!!! YOU GOT THIS MY FRIEND, BEST OF LUCK TO YOU AND YOURS 😇 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👏 👏👏👏👏

  • @massagebroad
    @massagebroad 5 років тому

    Thank you SO much for this. You are truly helping people with this. I am at the point where I'll be paying my doctor for 2 appointments in order to get back on Xanax and I don't even know if it's worth it. You have given me at least a bit of hope that I'm not alone. Thank you.

  • @sinikkalaura
    @sinikkalaura 5 років тому

    This video is describing what I go trough at the moment. It's good to know that you're not alone. Starting with new therapist next week, hope it will help.

  • @Cardangel
    @Cardangel 7 років тому +5

    Thank you for sharing your experience!

  • @db-yr2bi
    @db-yr2bi 5 років тому

    thank you for sharing your story.
    i find it very helpful.
    take care of yourself.

  • @caetgall3316
    @caetgall3316 6 років тому

    You rock and I’m so proud of you! If you aren’t already, you may get a lot out of aa. Especially comradory and a sense of community with other strong likeminded ppl. I can see in my minds eye you bonding with some other super chill, kind, good-looking, granola mixing, challord greens juicing young ppl like you and before u know it, you’ll be finding, ya know, a lil validation 😙 and up your self confidence even more and pls don’t think me too forward, I just get these intuitive msgs and just feel compelled to reach out to certain ppl and so I wanted to share this vision with you. If it doesn’t resonate no worries but your video really made a impression on me. I’ve only watched this one vid of yours so far and I already adore you and find you so unique, caring, friendly, and of course handsome as heck as well as adorable. Stay strong ok and never forget how far you’ve come!!! I’m so impressed by you and you have this chill soothing way about you... I’d like to say, you have nothing to be anxious about when you are out in public on a bus or wherever ... but I know to just say that is uninformed bc it’s reall nvr that easy unfortunately.. ;) Anxiety is real but you really are such an inspiration! Thx for sharing your story! Not sure if you might have an interest in maybe opening a second channel and make some ASMR content. You have the right spirit, personality, voice, rhythmic speech, and kind/caring essence. May not be your thing but I think you’d be very successful at creating asmr content, as well as what you are already doing which I love. Plus the asmr community is amazing for mental health and anxiety reduction. it’s a very loving, open, encouraging, upbeat community and I really recommend even just checking out some videos in your free time. Much of the content really helps me with fallling asleep pretty quickly almost every night ! Also look up meditations for ‘sleep’ or really anything positive for ones lifestyle. It will put you into a natural Xanax like relaxation state and you can take advantage of all the various and endless mediation topics on UA-cam plus your mind is like a sponge to any info you feed it right before you fall asleep so you can kind of be proactive like that by rewiring your brain with positive affirmations and turn thoughts into things faster for your life. Pnl Namaste! Oh yeah, and don’t underestimate the power of yoga... plus there’s nothing more attractive than a healthy dedicated yogi. 😉👍❤️💫🍀🍍🥑🍒🍌🥥🥦🥗🧘🏻‍♂️🎆 and yes think of all the freedom not tied down to monthly dr visits blah blah blah... your power is great! You are hear for great things! I’m so So happy u popped up in my recommended feed. all my best!!!! Hugs!!!

  • @muzzbrudr
    @muzzbrudr 7 років тому +6

    Careful I had bad seizures going off benzos myself as was sick going to the monthly appoinyments etc, y'know new person everytime blah blah just glad you were ok with the withdrawal.

  • @sarahrtolen
    @sarahrtolen 6 років тому

    Thank you so much for sharing your story & experience

  • @katenoone6296
    @katenoone6296 4 місяці тому

    Thank you for sharing your story. I am just beginning the journey to get off this horrible stuff.

  • @jeslynbartlett4842
    @jeslynbartlett4842 6 років тому +1

    great video! ive been almost a year off of xanax.. and i am dealing with things the same way you are explaining! its all a learning expierence and re training our brains!! we can do it and we will get through it. I wish you nothing but the best and sucess.

    • @Dee-mo3oj
      @Dee-mo3oj 6 років тому

      Jeslyn Bartlett 👏

  • @ButterflyHustles
    @ButterflyHustles 6 років тому +1

    Proud of you 😊

  • @juliannesmith2122
    @juliannesmith2122 7 років тому +61

    I quit taking 8mg of xanax cold turkey I had terrible withdrawals omg I thought I was dying! Thank God I'm sober now and mostly anxiety free but I still get anxiety at times it sucks :/

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому +3

      Glad your better. Im lucky and didn't really get horrible withdrawals.

    • @mindytice6965
      @mindytice6965 6 років тому

      How long where your w/d & how long where you taking them ?

    • @michaeleric6170
      @michaeleric6170 6 років тому +4

      julianne Smith that's sooo dangerous quitting benzos cold turkey like that! Unlike opiates where it just FEELS like you're going to die, with benzos you actually, seriously, legitimately CAN DIE from the withdrawal! Whether you die or not, who knows, Everyone is different, but you could easily slip into seizures, cardiac arrest, coma, etc..... The list goes on and on!!! I don't advocate for ANYONE TO QUIT BENZODIAZIPINES COLD TURKEY AND NEITHER SHOULD YOU PEOPLE! PLEASE STOP! Jist because you two quit cold turkey like that and everything went well as far as "well" is concerned in a case such as this, but nevertheless there have been MAAANNNYYYYY flat out DIE from benzo withdrawal! So while I support your channel suicide journal and while I support the majore of what you discuss, I simply cannot support this and as a concerned subscriber I plead with you to make known the dangers of cold turkey quitting Benzodiazipines. Thanks in advance! MuchLove and Godspeed! :)

    • @gimj1_8
      @gimj1_8 6 років тому

      Thats good if you have control of it at least. You will have triggers every now and then but its good its not out of hand

    • @2needey1
      @2needey1 6 років тому

      julianne Smith you were dying

  • @siquals8260
    @siquals8260 6 років тому +1

    am really sorry for the struggle and the pain u had

  • @robvilar488
    @robvilar488 7 років тому +10

    breathe in and out, its going to be a long time, as a parent of a drug addict, you have the best advice.. Your awesome

  • @empire0
    @empire0 7 років тому +1

    I was on an SSRI (escitalopram) for about a year for anxiety, I was having panic attacks when I was out in public, in traffic, etc.
    I decided to go off of it, thinking I was in a good place mentally. I didn't have any of the physical symptoms aside from a few brief moments of feeling really light headed. For the most part i'm doing alright, but I have been feeling super depressed for a few months. Exercise really helps, so does eating good. I never bothered with any therapy or anything like that, didn't feel like it would help me.
    You sound like you're on the right path. I find when I start to feel a bit anxious, I just take a quick deep breath, and focus on my breathing. Anxiety really throws your breathing off, you start to breath faster and it can feel like your lungs are constricted. If you take a deep breath, calm down a bit, you'll realize you are totally fine, and have absolutely nothing to worry about.

  • @AvonR
    @AvonR 7 років тому +1

    Thanks for the video. I've been wondering if I should ask a therapist about GAD/SAD and medication for it. But I think you've convinced me to stay away from pills and just try harder to exercise and eat right....The good will outweigh the bad

  • @thed00d81
    @thed00d81 5 років тому +5

    If you are having a panic attack try taking a deep breath through your nose and hold it for 15 seconds, then exhale, repeat but this time hold it for 20 seconds, repeat and hold it for 30 seconds. This always works for me and my panic attacks. Just wanted to put this out there. 😊

  • @ALLOVERNYC
    @ALLOVERNYC 7 років тому +24

    I had xanax prescribed to me last year for my panic attacks, i learned through meditating you dont really need pills for anxiety and i never meditated before, but practice makes perfect and took me about 9 months to control and get rid of my anxiety . But try to get your mind off what worries you the most & replace it with things that make you happy or make you feel better , do some push ups , run , hit the gym , it really helps allot .

    • @michaeleric6170
      @michaeleric6170 6 років тому

      Brooklyn style thanks baby! See! This is what I need! A good girl who gets it! A good girl who cares and will be there! A good girl who will push me to my limits, not because of anything other than the fact that she believes in me! A GOOD LOOKING GIRL TO HOLD ME accountable. Lol ;)
      A good girl I can hold at the end of a long, hard day when it's all said and done and we have gotten up, gone in and given ourselves reasons to be proud of ourselves!
      God!
      Lord, Jesus Christ!
      If you're listening.!.
      I NEED A GOOD GIRL!!! Amen bro! ;)

    • @ALLOVERNYC
      @ALLOVERNYC 6 років тому +1

      Michael Eric im a guy bro . Keep it up though take care.

    • @27273100
      @27273100 5 років тому

      James Carter -- Meditation is good.

    • @zekezzekekan2144
      @zekezzekekan2144 5 років тому

      Meditation can help a lot. But sometimes the chemical imbalance is too strong you do need a bit of medication depending on who you are. Whether you're on medication or not you should learn to meditate and practice it if you have anxiety. Great advice.

  • @staceyevans3578
    @staceyevans3578 6 років тому

    hey how you doing my real name is Tony Evans I'm from Columbus Ohio I watch all your videos I really Envy you because I see how strong you are when I've been on benzos for the last 8 years I have very bad anxiety from living with my parents and living with my wife at the same time and cause me to have a heart attack I got three stents I got three bypasses and I want to get off of them so bad I hate them I feel like you're control my life and whatever you put up here really help me out a lot you keep on going with it God bless you I really mean that God bless you my friend

  • @helenatorres4150
    @helenatorres4150 7 років тому +1

    thanks for this video keep posting please stay strong

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому +2

      Im going to post an update about this in a couple of months. Im still in progress so i'm sure ill be in a better place by then.

  • @TheKingraven24
    @TheKingraven24 5 років тому

    Major props bro!! I can’t tell u how proud I am of u to decide to get off that crap. Please don’t misunderstand what I’m saying here.. I know that meds like Xanax are a must for most people. And I really do believe that it is a great drug. And when used properly...it can change lives. But like u said...”U have to be ready to stop”. Otherwise it’s gonna be a bad day. I thank the good lord above that I never used that drug because I know I have an addictive personality. And I knew introducing that drug into my system could and more than likely would end badly. Instead I chose therapy and family. The bottom line is something that we all know...there is no easy solution. And it will get hard. Very hard. But and I want people to know this....BUT IT WILL GET BETTER. It sounds silly but...you’ve got to love urself first. Good luck brother! Keep fighting the good one...

  • @kindrajohnson4947
    @kindrajohnson4947 6 років тому +2

    I am trying to get off medicine and it's hard and I got to be involved with people thats positive

  • @playgrounddolls7766
    @playgrounddolls7766 5 років тому +2

    My personal opinion and only is: all problems are between ears. Take control off them and stay alive, live instead off existing. Sometimes we just need to hit ourselves on but to get back on real liferoad, stop cry for stupid thing or not changeble things etc. We have to take ourselves in arms, hug for a while and then put back on road without drugs. My personal experience is that suffering heals faster if you do it yourself without drugs. Drugs just put you on pausa.
    So yeah iff you have trouble with quitting drug(any) - stay strong, know that one day you will be back yourself. Next time make better choices - choice to not add chemistry staff in body but solve with your own mind control and power.

  • @snobunni4808
    @snobunni4808 Рік тому

    just found your channel sir. i really like you! thank you for this.

  • @michaelgauthier1435
    @michaelgauthier1435 6 років тому +1

    Bro keep it up in going thru the same you'll be good

  • @robbyberry8911
    @robbyberry8911 6 років тому +9

    Love that Pepsi hoodie !!!!

  • @brooklynrodriguez9096
    @brooklynrodriguez9096 5 років тому

    I'm soo happy 4 u! I'm on 20mg trintellix, .5 clonazepam (I use 2 take 2mgs but have been winging off it), 300mg seroquel, and 80mg ambien.

  • @reneenaynaysworld1782
    @reneenaynaysworld1782 6 років тому

    Nice video! I wish you would've mentioned the dangers of stopping xanax, especially such a high dose cold turkey, it can cause seizures and be extremely dangerous. Anyone stopping xanax should please discuss with your doctor to ensure you do it safely.

  • @moodyme7393
    @moodyme7393 7 років тому +1

    I was on them about15 years started at 2 or 3 1mg at the end I was taking 10 or 12 2mg. I stopped 3 years ago after one week in detox. It was bad but I'm so thankful I did it now. At one time I thought I never would. But when your faced with losing your kids and wife or quit. Easy choice

  • @lopolik
    @lopolik 4 роки тому

    ok here are some tips: If you are in a crowded place, always wear headphones with music that you love, that way you can ignore the people, and the anxiety might go away. Another thing, move to a small town! Big cities are terrible, I lived in a huge city in Europe, always crowded buses and trams.. Hated it, so I moved to a smaller town, and my anxiety is lesser, I just take the Clonazepam when the depression or panic attack really hits me hard..

  • @steveciacelli3523
    @steveciacelli3523 6 років тому +3

    hey I feel exactly like you and didn't know how to explain it as clear as you. I have been on 2 MIL xanaxs bars for 15 years. And now over the last few years since I lost my job and insurance and tht means no xanax and lexapro as well numerous other drugs not all narcotics such as cholesterol meds.ect. I just can't cope without the drug. I think about it daily probably because I have severe panic disorder. plus like you said no coping skills and the amount of time on the drug and dose. Wht sld I do cause I'm a strong dude but this Shit got my whole life in turmoil.

  • @exploringfloridatrails1834
    @exploringfloridatrails1834 7 років тому +12

    I hallucinated for 2 months after a year of 2 mg per day and I had to keep working, happy days lol, that was 15 yrs ago

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому

      OH GOD that sounds horrible ! or extremely fun !

    • @trane22j
      @trane22j 6 років тому

      Wow, just wow thats a one in a lifetime experience, can you tell me more about it?

    • @danpatch810
      @danpatch810 5 років тому +1

      man 2 mg did that

  • @charlestailor8218
    @charlestailor8218 6 років тому +2

    What your dealing with is Gaba-A receptors down regulation. It may take up 18 - 24 months to up-regulate. Hang in there you'll be healed.

  • @ClandestineGirl16X
    @ClandestineGirl16X 7 років тому +7

    Great video

  • @Jlss16
    @Jlss16 6 років тому +4

    I've been on xanax for 8 years. I'm trying to quit and it's so hard. I find it is extremely hard to focus or even hold a conversation with someone and I'm so scared to go back to work :(. I'm going to be going to therapy for anxiety and depression and really hope it helps me. It's so hard to get through the days when I feel this depressed and anxious and all the other side effects I'm feeling while trying to quit this stupid drug.

    • @michaeleric6170
      @michaeleric6170 6 років тому +2

      Jlss16 I'm right there with you! Medicaid is reviewing my case and I think they're going to cut me off, so there I'll be. SCREWED, because like you said...it's Soo hard to do the most menial of things. Things that use to never even be a thought or an issue in anyway whatsoever! I've developed agoraphobia because of the years of isolation..it is scary. Just know you're not alone! May God Bless you and may He make His face shine upon you! And me? Peace and Godspeed! :)

    • @Jlss16
      @Jlss16 6 років тому +1

      Thank you. I wish u the best of luck. It’s good to no I’m not alone. Stay strong !

    • @michaeleric6170
      @michaeleric6170 6 років тому

      Jlss16 you as well brother...you as well! 💪👊

  • @fugginchit1
    @fugginchit1 5 років тому +3

    I went vegan when getting sober and I thought I was screwed for life cuz i felt so shitty until I started eating meat and 2 veg and it saved me life.

  • @benjaminschimpf421
    @benjaminschimpf421 5 років тому

    More than anything it takes resolve. And faith (in anything) that u WILL get better. Im 60 days out of quitting xanax. Used klonapin for a week to try to avoid seizures. And then stopped the klonapin. I DID IT! Im starting to have good days. Even good weeks. PTSD is a bitch, but xanax is hell. Thank you for sharing! Good luck! Sub'd!

  • @rickyvaughn2868
    @rickyvaughn2868 4 роки тому

    Wow that’s a lot of benzos to get off man. Good for you, I know it’s tough

  • @salsmusicetc67
    @salsmusicetc67 7 років тому +3

    really good video

  • @haunted5311
    @haunted5311 7 років тому +1

    I got to the point where I would take anywhere from 10-25mg of xanax or the similar legal benzo called etizolam. The addiction was horrendous, and I literally couldn't even remember half of the stuff that happened throughout the week. Luckily I'm clean now. Don't go down that road, it will always catch up with you eventually.

  • @xdelboy3000
    @xdelboy3000 6 років тому +2

    Good advice , i was taking bout 4-6 mg of xanax at least 3 times a day along with codeine and quitiepine i was like a zombie . My family where concerned and pleaded me to stop so i foolishly went cold turkey day 1 was fine then desended into hell ending up with a seizure and a hospital stay . Now curently tapering of and geting therapy .

    • @Sean-xz9kp
      @Sean-xz9kp 4 роки тому

      how you doing bro? im on 1mg and half xanax for 2 years daily because of my anxiety and panic attacks and one day i thought fuck it im not into big dose i can totally cold turkey mannnn that was horrible i ended up in the er with really bad seizures i felt everything on my body going to blow its funny how even a small dose like that gives seizures and the doctors doesn’t say shit about this and give those pills like candy and ruin alot of people’s life’s

  • @calebhicks2167
    @calebhicks2167 7 років тому +71

    marijuana works better for me than xanax ever did. just sucks that it's not legal in every state for people that need it medically

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому +19

      I live in California and its been legalized for medical and recreational use. I've smoked for anxiety before but honestly it makes it worse. I get paranoid and can't sleep. I've tried all strains and quality... its all the same shit to me. Im sure there is some decent science to back up the use of Marijuana. for anxiety but it never worked for me

    • @jbird9246
      @jbird9246 7 років тому +2

      same

    • @naightz1
      @naightz1 7 років тому +16

      Marijuana makes most people anxious and paranoid, its the most common mental side effects, weed is just not an anxiolytic at all (for some it works ofc) , quite the opposite actually

    • @calebhicks2167
      @calebhicks2167 7 років тому +1

      naightz1 try strains with high CBD

    • @alickdjamirze3928
      @alickdjamirze3928 7 років тому

      Caleb Hicks still doesn't work. only cbd spry, gel works. :)

  • @PimpDomingo
    @PimpDomingo 4 роки тому +1

    Hey how was it possible to go to the gym with your fear of going to public places?

  • @yaobuckman5006
    @yaobuckman5006 7 років тому

    u should try to listening to music when you traveling in head phones and just zone out and not worrie about if people are looking at you, there looking at everyone just like you!;) best of luck! oh and a half pint helps to!

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому

      If it was up to me It'd be a couple of pints, but Im totally clean now so I need to learn to deal with everything totally sober.

  • @efizzle323
    @efizzle323 5 років тому +5

    Use CBD oil from select. It has helped me.

  • @kanyewest7221
    @kanyewest7221 7 років тому +77

    xanax is good if you don't take it on a daily basis

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому +24

      Kanye West I love you Kanye

    • @baconpusxsy9643
      @baconpusxsy9643 7 років тому +1

      Kanye West I love you kanye

    • @MrLilzman8
      @MrLilzman8 7 років тому +2

      Kanye West XanaX is never goood

    • @MrLilzman8
      @MrLilzman8 7 років тому

      Miles Romo Well yeah if it's prescribed to you, shit ruins lives like modern day crack

    • @TrevorEst1994
      @TrevorEst1994 6 років тому

      yeah but who the fuck can do that

  • @kindrajohnson4947
    @kindrajohnson4947 6 років тому

    I get overwhelmed and having trouble sleeping and I just find out I have bipolar so I got to be on med and I took all the medicines that would help my problems but no it don't

  • @almightyalan8942
    @almightyalan8942 7 років тому

    i get the same feeling in my car, i get nervous cold feel that everyone is looking at me when no one is, wish it went away over night

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому

      alan recinos oh yea that is what I get to. My anxiety comes with a bit of paranoia, its usually momentary but it feels like a lifetime when it happens

  • @l3v1at10n666
    @l3v1at10n666 6 років тому +1

    Having been addicted to temazepam and suffering the withdrawals from that, I find it near impossible now, there doesn't seem to be anything I can take that works for anxiety that isn't addictive, and however hard I could try to mask the symptoms people notice it the sweating and shaking are a dead giveaway, then u wonder if there is any medication out there that may help, then u realise that its all addictive poison crap, then u give up and try to manage the anxiety, then someone notices and viscious circle ad infinitum

  • @danielelam5513
    @danielelam5513 5 років тому +1

    When I was younger I had a doctor prescribe me clonopin as if it were candy and told me anxiety was "just something I had to live with." If anybody understands your pain, I do. But I want you to honestly reflect on this question. Why did you ever need Xanax? Is it possible it started with a belief?

  • @brendantran3312
    @brendantran3312 7 років тому

    Yeh man no one should be addicted to anything , whenever i got drunk i would sporadically take 8-12 (thinking i only took less than i thought i did). so roughly 2 days after i started getting major depression and blackouts. the headaches got so bad i wanted to jump out of my window

  • @vinnievinceQC
    @vinnievinceQC 5 років тому

    Clonazepam addicted here since 13 years... well was also on Xanax, Valium at some point... My Clonazepam dose was as high as 10 mg day and 12 mg day of Xanax... I'm doing a very slow tapering of the Clonazepam since 2 years, I'm down to 2.5 mg day... I have very severe anxiety disorders and no medication really help me and trust me I tried more than 50 different drugs. Anyway, I'm now on a SSRI, Paroxetine, it's work for the panic attack but do nothing for the agoraphobia, social phobia or general anxiety.
    I did a lot of therapies like you did, the big problem with the benzodiazepines drugs is that the psychological addiction and not being able to develop new skills to cope with the anxiety...
    What was your highest daily dose for the Xanax?

  • @spockthevulcan
    @spockthevulcan 5 років тому

    I have the same problem. The psychological dependence. I have been in therapy and on the Xanax for 6 years. I don't want to go back to how I was before Xanax, and now I am terrified of coming off, yet I'm also terrified of being dependent on a drug...the "what if's". What if society collapses and the drug stores are robbed or locked down - oe some other bizarre situation to where I'd be screwed.

    • @Sean-xz9kp
      @Sean-xz9kp 4 роки тому +1

      what was your dose bro? and tbh im on 2mg for 3 years daily and im terrified of coming off too even its a small dose i guess but one day i was like fuck it imma go cold turkey maan that was horrible i ended up in the er having bad seizures and i was anxious and scared its funny how doctors really dont talk about this before described a benzo to people and give it away like candy and just ruins people life’s im still on xanax but im differently going to taper it off

    • @spockthevulcan
      @spockthevulcan Рік тому

      @@Sean-xz9kp I’m sorry it’s taken so long, I just now noticed your reply. I am prescribed 6mg/day but I stay around 2.5mg/day. I should start shaving some crumbs off and get done to hardly nothing, but I hated life before Xanax. At least Xanax helps me live a normal life. I’ve come to think of it for me as important as insulin is for a diabetic. I hope you’re doing okay Sean. Just cross-tapering me from Xanax to Klonopin was hell, but when I was taken back to Xanax, because Klonopin gave me terrifying intrusive though, I withdrew HARD. It was like battery acid in my veins, as you know. I’m amazed you were able to go long enough to have seizures without giving in, that is strong but VERY dangerous. Those grand maul seizures will kill you. People don’t realize that benzodiazepines are harder to get off of then heroin.

  • @pound4pound740
    @pound4pound740 6 років тому

    I have severe social anxiety disorder... I have taken Xanax for 5-6 years and I recently get off of it for almost 2 months but back at it again last week with less then a quarter of the bar. Someone’ help me!

  • @Rory695
    @Rory695 7 років тому +73

    psychiatrists are professional drug dealers, they don't want to help you they want to make money

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому +9

      I agree I realize that now

    • @alexacruz5732
      @alexacruz5732 6 років тому +2

      Yesss

    • @AcidHead710
      @AcidHead710 6 років тому +3

      They shouldn't even be considerd doctors, they don't do shit except hand out pills

    • @sylviedonnet5040
      @sylviedonnet5040 5 років тому +1

      Exatly in France .it is the same thing

    • @sylviedonnet5040
      @sylviedonnet5040 5 років тому

      I think THEY ARE NEVER MIND OF PEOPLE ABOVE ALL THE DOCTORS OF NOWSDAYS THEY ARE THERE FOR THE MONEY , YOU MUST TO BE SICK BUT NO TOO FOR TO ANOYE THEM AND EXCEPT TO WRITE AND TO ORDER OF MEDICATIONS THEY DOESN'T HELP FOR YOUR PROBLEMS AND THEY HEAR THAT THEY WANT THE TIME IS COUNTING AND THE DOCTORS TO MOVE ALWAYS , ACTUALLY IN MY COUNTRY IT IS AS THAT WITH THE PSYS

  • @kindrajohnson4947
    @kindrajohnson4947 6 років тому

    Hello my name is Kindra Johnson I had took an overdose of xanies and I had asomia so in order to take not take an overdose just take one or two pills a day and I don't sleep good until I take medicine to that would make me sleepy I have anixities and panic attaacks but not no more but I could of died but I am still here I am truly blessed

  • @fabjonjon
    @fabjonjon 5 років тому

    hey, hope you are okay

  • @SAMEntalhealth
    @SAMEntalhealth Рік тому +1

    You are so so lucky for your acute stage bro lol

  • @Biggles2498
    @Biggles2498 3 роки тому

    Codeine Phosphate 30mg (although a painkiller) is excellent for obliterating anxiety but highly addictive so only come off it on a gradient.

  • @johnsilver1800
    @johnsilver1800 6 років тому

    Question, if we didn’t live in cities constantly surrounded by STRANGERS, would we be suffering from all these disorders? I have severe anxiety, and I wonder this because I know we did not evolve to live like this, we evolved to live in small tight knit communities built on trust and interdependency.
    With the industrial revolution two things occurred, we got huge quantities of food and we began living in cities surrounded by strangers. We have treated obesity with exercise (or are trying to) but what is the treatment for living in these unnatural circumstances surrounded by strangers? Drugs? Maybe community is the answer for all of us?

  • @danbuchardt8154
    @danbuchardt8154 7 років тому +1

    Some people need the odd benzo for an emergency. If your doc was smart he would have sent you home with 8 pills to last you a month so it would have been hard for you to abuse.You should still have a backup med, because it sounds like you still suffer from anxiety episodes and panic attacks

  • @christose9247
    @christose9247 6 років тому

    You sound awesome

  • @larrybird1916
    @larrybird1916 5 років тому

    I was taking well over ten xanxs a day mixing with all different drugs never opiats only percs like twice but between selling bars and taking them I just had a infinite amount it just killed my anxiety I look back at some old videos I don’t remember taking such as taking 6 bars at once and I looked thru my notes on my phone I don’t remember writing but it’s scary stuff dark times I stopped a couple times but end up relapsing until the final time I just stoped cold turkey each time it takes me past the 4th day and after that I still want them but not dependent But that’s what the weed is for. - I’m almost a month sober from bars

  • @beawhy8622
    @beawhy8622 7 років тому

    I've been on them for 15yrs and I 'm just terribly scared of having to change out my Xanax for another benzo...any help would be appreciated on what I need to do..I'm on other meds for my bipolar disorder and I'm so tired of all this crap!! Planning my life around these is just awful...

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому +1

      Totally understand where your coming from. I've been off all my meds for a year now, but i wouldn't recommend doing it cold turkey it can be pretty dangerous.

  • @zeckj83
    @zeckj83 6 років тому

    Also great video :)

  • @somethingsomething404
    @somethingsomething404 7 років тому

    Ignore this if you answered it in the video, I haven't finished watching.. But did you stop cold turkey or did you go with a taper?

  • @Shmannel
    @Shmannel 7 років тому +33

    this is why i refuse to medicate

    • @herbertrafael8001
      @herbertrafael8001 7 років тому +4

      Shmannel u dont know what u missing.

    • @rihndou
      @rihndou 7 років тому +8

      Dual lands From experience, medications and the like can be a pleasant experience, but once you get deep into using them you don't know what normal and real feels like anymore. It changes how you form opinions and judgments of things with chronic use, resulting in a weird dissociation with yourself.
      It messes you up.

    • @michaeleric6170
      @michaeleric6170 6 років тому

      Shmannel very smart!

    • @michaeleric6170
      @michaeleric6170 6 років тому +1

      My God if I only had it to do over again! :'(

    • @michaeleric6170
      @michaeleric6170 6 років тому +1

      Dual lands dude! You obviously don't have a clue what you're in for. Because if you did, there's NO WAY IN HELL you would give someone that kind of advice, unless you were just heartless and had no soul! I don't think that is the case though! I just think that you aren't really hooked and dependent YET and so you still NAIEVELY think it's a good thing...which you will soon learn that you're balls deep into something you "THOUGHT" YOU WERE MISSING OUT ON! smh! 😑
      Shmannel....Stick with what you're doing! Trust me...you are absolutely, 100%, without a shadow of a doubt, doing the right thing! God Bless you on your quest to stay strong, safe and sober!
      I would give ANYTHING to be able to go back and retrace my steps...even tho mine didn't come about from some dumb ass recreational use, rather I was in a major, MAJOR car accident and that's how I ended up hooked on narcotics. Opioids and benzos and I'd seriously, knowing what I know now and STILL being a slave to this fkin medication over TWELVE YEARS later!!!! I wouldn't have taken ANY medication to not be addicted now. The addiction in itself is more weight bearing, humiliating, painful, difficult, lonely, etc... It's way worse psychologically than the physical pain from just the car accident alone! 😢

  • @IAmLegend9291
    @IAmLegend9291 3 роки тому +2

    Can SSRIs help with the anxiety when you come off Xanax ?

  • @robertpresti7775
    @robertpresti7775 6 років тому

    anxiety is my biggest enemy. I started smoking indica marijuana. i was of benzos for 3-4 yrs almost. now im back on .05mg of xanex which is just enough to get through my stress and anxiety. I used to eat 4-6 bars a day plus other benzos. it was the worst withdrawal ever! worse than heroin and i know.

  • @lopolik
    @lopolik 4 роки тому +1

    I didn't know they prescribe xanax for sleep.. They gave me klonopin for sleep, xanax is pretty weak, but it does help with panic attacks.

    • @lopolik
      @lopolik Рік тому

      @tyrel Klonopin helps with the anxiety, and depression a bit too, I guess.

  • @cheeeebz
    @cheeeebz 4 роки тому +3

    How are you now after 3 years? I’m almost a year off of Xanax after 10 years daily

    • @cheeeebz
      @cheeeebz 3 роки тому

      John C unfortunately I got back on meds my anxiety got out of control. I switched to clonazepam and only take .25 at a time tho. So very low dose.

    • @cheeeebz
      @cheeeebz 3 роки тому

      John C tons of trouble sleeping and I did taper off for the last year.

  • @helenatorres4150
    @helenatorres4150 7 років тому +15

    make a video of how deal with the anxiety

  • @myrnatrev873
    @myrnatrev873 5 років тому

    Hi how are you doing today

  • @kirbfx
    @kirbfx 7 років тому +10

    You need to reset your brain to its pre-addcited state with an Ibogaine treatment. I assure you, it will resolve this issue and many others. Just research Ibogaine.

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому +1

      Im done with meds and drugs but thanks for the advice i did look it up.

    • @xomosmanifestos4580
      @xomosmanifestos4580 7 років тому

      PrivateAttorney,Hi, is ibogaine like ayauasca (I spelled it wrong,I know) haha..and go to Peru for a ceremony w/a shaman?

    • @kirbfx
      @kirbfx 7 років тому

      XoMo's Manifesto's Ibogaine is not a drug. It is a plant that contains Ibogaine which allows the brain and body the heal itself by triggering its own healing mechanisms. It works wonders for those who are currently addicted or dependent on substances or recovering from addiction. It only needs to be taken once (although sometimes a smaller second dosing is required). It all produces noribogaine which helps to completely restore the chemical imbalances in the brain that cause depression and anxiety.

    • @xomosmanifestos4580
      @xomosmanifestos4580 7 років тому

      PrivateAttorney Hey thank you..have you tried it yourself personally?/I'm actually going to google it right now..It sounds interesting...

    • @ladysaturn3876
      @ladysaturn3876 7 років тому

      I've wanted to try this but I'm petrified. I haven't done any type of psychedelic since my ptsd and bipolar symptoms/anxiety really sky rocketed. Mostly bc of the memories and things it will bring up in my head that I never want to think about again :/ I finally got sober after years and I only smoke weed now for my ailments if u will. But yeah, I am envious of those that it has worked for.

  • @bobkai1340
    @bobkai1340 6 років тому +1

    Were your eyebrows

  • @angelicamrcr4380
    @angelicamrcr4380 6 років тому +27

    Rip lil peep anyway

    • @robertbendik9901
      @robertbendik9901 5 років тому +4

      he overdosed on fentanyl analogues which are laced on street selled xanax bars nowadays

  • @saigeclark6866
    @saigeclark6866 3 роки тому

    Can u pls do a review on Klonopin please??

  • @natalian8051
    @natalian8051 6 років тому

    I am taking xanax right now, but you know, when I had my anxiety last weekend it didn't work as it worked. I was just empty inside, with tears on my face. So... Sometimes it helps, really, but sometimes... Not. It's difficult.

  • @gracemora8393
    @gracemora8393 6 років тому

    What u think about ambien

  • @theprayingiguanabengalmomma
    @theprayingiguanabengalmomma 7 років тому

    This question might be stupid, but r u spanish? Because u kinda have a accent.. I hope u feel better dude! God bless!!!

  • @apollyonmind999
    @apollyonmind999 5 років тому +2

    *Never* take antidepressants
    *Never* take Anxiety medication
    *Never* take any Psychiatric medication
    Side effects are always worse than the real issue
    The only pill that you should take is the fucking *REDPILL*

  • @gordonshoemaker1466
    @gordonshoemaker1466 6 років тому

    if your bi polar it may be esier to get off xanax because alot of bi polar are run on more energy than normal people so if you are truly bipolar you can get off easier than a extremely depressed person

  • @hiraymondduarte9176
    @hiraymondduarte9176 6 років тому

    you could go to the store to get some drank and self Medicate yet it's better to sav it out like your doing.

  • @666mojo999
    @666mojo999 7 років тому

    Watch out for Black Market pressies my friends... They're a nightmare to come off...
    Exercises and a daily routine is a BIG help!!!
    Antidepressants cold turkey are even worst for what people have told me... Suicide psychosis urge is fucking awful!!! The Black Market Xanax urge is bad, but nothing like the
    Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor from what I've seen.

  • @allfiredup200099
    @allfiredup200099 Рік тому

    xanax wasted 10 years of my life! been off two years now but i believe in my case i have permanent disabilities from this horrible drug . more research on this needs to be done. i wont live long eneough to see it but there will probably be a class action lawsuit on this someday . i tapered off+discontinued on my own.doctors were of no help. the worst is prob over with but again i do think for some of us the damage is permanent. cant seem to shake the tinnitus+hyper acusis . i dont miss the monthly doc visit+the pharmacy bs or the cost .

  • @calebhicks2167
    @calebhicks2167 7 років тому

    did xanax effect the way you learned? i have a sleep anxiety and i wanna go back to college but I'm afraid if i take one every night it'll cause me to be more forgetful

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому

      As long as you don't take it while you're in class you shouldn't run into any problems. It can mess with your memory sometimes but only while your under the effects.

    • @ulknatmelknatu
      @ulknatmelknatu 7 років тому

      Caleb Hicks I wonder if my new prescription for xanax is safe along with my maintenance of 50 mg of Methadone per day. I dont drink at all though so im not worried.

  • @georgesocoolnotsus8665
    @georgesocoolnotsus8665 5 років тому

    What is your first language

  • @DirtStarMaster
    @DirtStarMaster 6 років тому +1

    Where ya eyebrows?

  • @Yoooooo0909
    @Yoooooo0909 6 років тому +12

    nofap is the key

  • @BGwestwayz
    @BGwestwayz 6 років тому

    What dr do you have? Hook it up!

  • @sixfoskatin
    @sixfoskatin 4 роки тому

    Don’t know if you’ll see this but it’s my experience I used to smoke weed and it was just normal ands mellowed me out and then eventually I started to get anxiety from it like think it would be laced or something so I quit thinking my anxiety would go away and it didn’t I had panic attacks that made me feel like I couldn’t breathe and felt like I was dying i had to get my mom to sleep with me at 17 to be able to sleep and be comfortable not feeling like I was gonna die and we went to the doctor and they perscribed me Xanax and like every once and a while I would still smoke weed but not with it and would still get anxiety so I gave up on getting high and I always did research on it once I got it and knew what not to do with it but anyways the first couple of weeks I wouldn’t take it unless I felt like I was about to go into a panic attack and it smooth sailed like that for a month and then after I was starting to be more depending on it you could say like if I didn’t take it at the same time the next night I would start to get shaky so I basically had a schedule now and would take it every night before bed and one day I stayed up all night and had taken one to get some sleep then it made me high and the high wasn’t like how it was with weed so it was way better than it and I realized you could get high off then which I did not instantly go to abusing them I kept taking them normal then went on a beach trip with grandparents and started abusing them like taking 2 a day to get me high and non be bored and mellowed out and yes I know I take full responsibility for abusing it I understand it’s my fault why what happens is cause of me and then I ran out of my medican so my mom told me to talk to my grandma cause she takes the same ones so my mom called her and got her to give me one so I took it and went to sleep and go up the next day and we were supposed to go mini golfing which I have depression issues so I wanted to stay home so they left and I had none of my medican so I went into her room and found hers and only grabbed like 4 to last me until we left tommorw so I took the 2 and then when I felt it fading later I took another to go to sleep to get up for tommorw to go home and at this point just 1 wouldn’t get me high so we’re in the van otw home and I take the extra one I had and then we get to a rest stop they go in and I get more out of her bottel like 2 and take those but let’s skip ahead that’s already a lot basically i got my medican again and I was basically deep with it now like I would have to take 4-5 to get high daily and then when I’d run out i would feel like complete shit and then my mom would give me some of hers and (extra note I was 17 and just got kicked out not to long ago for being a smart mouth and lived with my gf now so I was kinda upset and all that but no excuse for taking this much anyways) and so I basically took up to 5 Xanax a day for a week till A few left and kinda looked at myself like yea I want to quit this cause I’m not this type of person. That doesn’t know how to take medicine probably cause I do so I ween down on the last 3 pills and then cold turkey it and the first 3 days were terrible I was going to Walmart and buying like all the stress helping pills and taking then for them to do nothing I was taking melatonin for it to do nothing basically trying to take something to calm me down and I was puking and stuff like that but after about 2 days it. Was alright I was fine I just couldn’t sleep to well until one night I fell asleep and woke up cause paramedics where helping me get out of bed to get into ambulance to go to the hospital cause I had a seizure but so basically after I’m disengaged I’m fine after that like went on normal with that but basically my point is yes Xanax can be a good drug if used correctly like I did in the begging but it can be bad also if you abuse it you could probably take enough of these and kill someone and wake up the next day and not remember it that’s how bad it can be.

  • @thegentlemenrat3727
    @thegentlemenrat3727 6 років тому

    Your channel is me irl

  • @hiraymondduarte9176
    @hiraymondduarte9176 6 років тому

    good video g funk.

  • @mostsatisfyingvidstube5196
    @mostsatisfyingvidstube5196 7 років тому

    Can you make a video on coping?

    • @Thesuicidejournal
      @Thesuicidejournal  7 років тому +2

      Im still going through a lot of the withdrawals, Im gong to make a video about how i've coped in a couple of months.

  • @zeusedreads
    @zeusedreads 6 років тому +5

    Honestly I can’t go a day without Xanax. If I don’t have it in my system or atleast on me I get panic attacks. I used to love the high it gave me but not it’s like scary if I don’t have it.

    • @Tracey..H
      @Tracey..H 5 років тому

      You'll have to taper

    • @tripical
      @tripical 5 років тому

      Kyle Turner sake fuckin here

  • @blackmamba2764
    @blackmamba2764 7 років тому

    SMOK3 W33D