Surviving In The Flames / What My Typical Day Was Like While Suffering

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  • What my typical was like during the worst days of my trial, along with encouragement and some advice.

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  • @santabala6314
    @santabala6314 6 днів тому +1

    Thank you for your help, 24 years old with debilitating anxiety and many years with strong tinnitus and palpitations, please pray for me.
    Thank you.🙏

  • @ErikFindlingMusic
    @ErikFindlingMusic Місяць тому +2

    Thanks for your videos Aaron, I’ve dealt with OCD anxiety snd depression my entire life, and actually got severely harmed by a psychiatric drug that caused lasting effects. It lead me to a place of total surrender to the Lord, that this life is his and he can absolutely do whatever he wants with it. I can’t go on pills anymore, and the OCD and anxiety is still rough everyday, but God has me right where he wants me, just in this tunnel with him and him alone

  • @godslittleprincess5454
    @godslittleprincess5454 4 роки тому +19

    I hope you know how much these videos are helping me and I appreciate you. God Bless you and your family!! ❤️

  • @itsmidtrib1569
    @itsmidtrib1569 4 роки тому +14

    Amen brother. God is good. He wants us to give him everything..all our problems, our priorities and our firstfruits. Our suffering is not worth comparing to the glory that will be revealed in us. Thank you for giving us a detailed testimony. God bless you.

  • @PoeticComments
    @PoeticComments 3 роки тому +9

    I fought the pain I tried to fix things on my own. I could not let go of what I was losing. It hurt. I cried and cried and cried out to God. Then I entertained the suicidal thoughts. I recently repented if entertaining them. I’m bored with life and felt hopeless but then I made a decision to hold on to Jesus. I fear letting go of Jesus hand. I’m holding on because He’s my only hope. Your videos have helped me. Thank you for sharing ❤️🙏

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  3 роки тому +1

      May the Lord set you free as you completely surrender, trust, and rest in Jesus alone. God bless you.

    • @margrose5
      @margrose5 3 роки тому +2

      Sounds much like where I am. Thanks for sharing. God bless.

  • @emilyshockley2294
    @emilyshockley2294 4 роки тому +15

    I feel so blessed to be able to watch your videos. I have been healed from Panic Attacks but still have bad anxiety, and your videos have helped me immensely in my faith. I really can’t go 30 minutes without repeating Gods promises or surrendering Him now. I know it was a God thing that I found your videos! Thank you!!

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  4 роки тому +3

      Praise the Lord! Thank you for sharing. May the Lord continue to bless you and bring you to complete healing and more.

    • @davemoores5945
      @davemoores5945 3 роки тому +1

      Hey Emily! So cool sister. Any update on your trial? God bless you!!

    • @emilyshockley2294
      @emilyshockley2294 3 роки тому +5

      @@davemoores5945 yes! After tons of prayer for a long time, I was healed :) I definitely think that while I was waiting on physical healing, God worked on healing me mentally and spiritually. That was the hardest trial I’ve ever been through, but I did it with community (my friends/prayer warriors were a huge blessing!) and Jesus alone, no medicine or anything :) thanks for checking in!

    • @Sirie7206
      @Sirie7206 Рік тому

      Why did you have panic attacks and anxiety?

    • @gerrycabellon9577
      @gerrycabellon9577 Рік тому

      @@emilyshockley2294 Praise God !!

  • @Sirie7206
    @Sirie7206 Рік тому +2

    It amazes me that you went seeking for help at doctors and mental hospital and you took meds and nothing worked. Your testimony is amazing. God is amazing. Thank you so much for sharing.

  • @TheApril1610
    @TheApril1610 4 роки тому +8

    Thank you for your honesty! Suffered/suffering from insomnia and illnes as well and know how tormenting it can be- but i REBUKE the spirit of illness in the name of jesus!
    jesus is so good
    i dont deserve him
    no one does

  • @jbs9012
    @jbs9012 2 роки тому +3

    Thank you for this. I had a sweet and encouraging time of relief from years of torment. The torment returned with a vengeance. I am in the midst of tapering from 30 years of antidepressants. I wish I never started but now the road ahead seems impossible. It helps to hear the key reminders..He allows the suffering, He promises to deliver and submit to God resist the devil.. I met with Dr. John as you recommended. Very helpful. Now in the wilderness. Keep it up Brother Aaron. You are a source of hope in a rather hopeless season.

  • @ansonhoward559
    @ansonhoward559 3 роки тому +4

    You have really helped me so much. Thank you. I didn’t understand what surrender was. It wasn’t pretty. I just let myself drown in hopelessness and I told God he was going to have to save me. And he did

  • @Moody90524
    @Moody90524 3 роки тому +4

    Hi Aaron I am inspired by your testimony, you have suffered a lot. God Bless you young man. I am 64 and have heart problems which cause me to suffer from time to time... I also have suffered from anxiety and panic attacks. I have returned to the Lord in the last few years and I believe that my health problems caused me to examine my standing before God. I have turned from my sin and am fighting the good fight but it is not easy as you know. God has been merciful to me and like you articulate so well the trials are real and it is hard to wait for the Lord sometimes but he is faithful! If I can only be as faithful to him I would do well. God Bless you Brother.

  • @joe2825
    @joe2825 4 роки тому +14

    Love ya brother Aaron. Hard to come by other afflicted brothers through the fire. I dont have another brother to relate to on this, nobody I know in church us going through this.
    Thanks for the encouragement again. I read alot of Spurgeon about suffering which also helps me along with the Psalms, Job ect.
    We share in Christs suffering. Ive had the same afflictions as you plus health affictions for 6 months now, totally out of the blue, to the point I cant hardly eat, gastro wont absord food from being fatigued so long with no sleep and look like death now but remeber brothers and sisters, do not be suprised at the fiery trial about to try you, but rejoice that you are partakers is Christ suffering!
    God also chastises us to make us holy and to submit to him. As the called of God, every second of our life, every second is predestined by God to conform us to Jesus. Dont resist or murmer, you are resisting your destination. It is God that works in you both to will and do of his good pleasure.
    I am still in the fire but can see Jesus formed in me now! Much more patient, loving and kind than I was 6 months ago. That is what suffering does, it purges our dross and makes us like Gold!
    Dont forget, when on earth out Lord had the continuously crushing of his own will to the Father, he humbled himself to the most severe chastisments and the Word said it made him perfect through suffering. God also makes us who are saved, share in similiar sufferings! He is conforming us to Christ so we will be glorified together with him! Praise the Lord!
    We will not be in our afflicted state 1 second more than needed!

    • @davemoores5945
      @davemoores5945 3 роки тому

      God bless your brother. So inspiring to hear the Lord working through you so powerfully in your pain.
      Any update brother?

  • @rosebloom2214
    @rosebloom2214 3 місяці тому

    Amen , good testimony, encouraging.
    I suffer from tinnitus & it causes lots of anxiety. Yes submit to God is the answer

  • @Johnorekunow272
    @Johnorekunow272 9 місяців тому +1

    Thank you. God Bless You

  • @lynnm.2019
    @lynnm.2019 3 роки тому +5

    Yes, "Forced to Surrender" The reality of knowing that our sufferings are not in vain, that He is actually using them to Drive us to His feet, where we find the Peace and His Grace to endure and best of all to come to KNOW HIM. Thank you dear Aaron. "And the God of All Grace, who Called you to His Eternal Glory in Christ, after you have Suffered a little while, will Himself Restore you and make you Strong, Firm and Steadfast." I Peter 5:10 "
    "God, who has called you into Fellowship with His Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is Faithful. I Corinthians 1:9

  • @mellowyellow403
    @mellowyellow403 4 роки тому +5

    I’m currently going through this. Sometimes I just ask God to take the pain away. Some days are better then others. I hold on to stress and pain in my back so when I’m feeling at my worst the sharp pain is unbearable. Although I say all that it has gotten better because I believe this is all for a purpose.Thank you for the reminder.

  • @pameladavis3832
    @pameladavis3832 3 місяці тому +1

    Thank Aaron for your videos. They help to give me hope in my walk with the Lord. Like a detailed map . Praise be to the Lord for being with me at all times even when I don't notice . God is good!!!

  • @drdavidfong
    @drdavidfong 4 роки тому +5

    Hey Aaron, thank you for sharing this! I've emailed you many months ago and am still living with health issues, but I can see progress both in my health and more importantly my faith, thank you for the reminder and kick up the bum to keep trusting Jesus. God bless!

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  4 роки тому +2

      Hi David, I’m glad to hear you are doing better. The Lord is faithful. God bless you.

  • @tidbitsofmylife2367
    @tidbitsofmylife2367 4 роки тому +7

    Thankyou brother I’m a believer but struggle every day with worry and anxiety.

    • @joe2825
      @joe2825 4 роки тому +5

      I do too but this takes it away. And we know that all things work together for good to those that love God, to the called according to his purpose. Meditate on that!

  • @jeffszmiett2600
    @jeffszmiett2600 7 місяців тому +1

    Thank you for sharing the fact that even after surrendering you did not get instant relief. It is sometimes a long journey and just getting through a day is a major accomplishment. Thanks for sharing your story.

  • @classy937
    @classy937 4 роки тому +4

    Thank you for your videos man of God. I have been struggling with insomnia out of no where. Will you all please pray me. I need to trust God in every area of my life. I need his sweet rest and sleep. Please pray for me.

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  4 роки тому +1

      I prayed for you. May the Lord build you up to have faith like a child.

    • @classy937
      @classy937 4 роки тому

      Aaron Kim thank you!

  • @oghoghoemwanta9708
    @oghoghoemwanta9708 4 роки тому +2

    Thank God for your life Aaron. Your messages have been a blessing to me. I trust God will turn everything around for my good.

  • @kbredderman
    @kbredderman 4 роки тому +3

    Thank you for this description of what you went through...so accurate!

  • @celeste31
    @celeste31 4 роки тому +3

    Thank you, Aaron, for sharing. So valuable. God bless you and your loved ones.♥️🙏🏼

  • @tannerworship
    @tannerworship Рік тому +1

    Great video. Suffering is inevitable but god will be with us. 🙏

  • @jesusislord9758
    @jesusislord9758 4 роки тому +2

    Thank you for sharing. God bless

  • @happyface7780
    @happyface7780 4 роки тому +4

    "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."--John 16:33

  • @mackymusic673
    @mackymusic673 4 роки тому +4

    Kinds going through that same thing. Just praying for peace in my mind and heart. The enemy knows how to hurt you, but they're NOT powerful at all. Fear is an illusion, we need to change our minds. Ask for transformation of the mind.

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  4 роки тому +1

      I prayed for you Hayden. May the Lord guide and bless you. If I may express my opinion for your benefit, I wouldn’t think of the devil as powerless. They are much more powerful than us so we shouldn’t underestimate them, but they cannot do anything without God’s permission; and God lives in us and loves us, so we have no reason to fear them. God bless.

    • @mackymusic673
      @mackymusic673 4 роки тому +1

      @@aaronkim1074 Thank you man! I'm praying for insight on God's nature, for example, why he loves us, and what Jesus would do in any situation. I guess that comes through reading and patience. My typical day was like yours too. And at times can be. But Jesus wouldn't fear. He says Fear Not, for he is literally with us at all times!

  • @arthurkoene5592
    @arthurkoene5592 Рік тому

    Aaron, it’s so good to see there are others going through the same school of the Spirit. Your messages really help me. Thanks and God bless!

  • @ysabellagranada375
    @ysabellagranada375 2 роки тому +1

    you helped so much, i' always love watching your testimony, thank you so much!!God bless ❤️

  • @lamp-stand575
    @lamp-stand575 3 роки тому +2

    I went through a similar experience for the period between 2008 and 2011. I can attest, although distressing, it WAS a time of substantial growth and gaining of understanding. But before it happened, I was given a revelation of Jesus Christ in my soul, that kept me through it.

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  3 роки тому +2

      Amen. I've heard of similar testimonies as yours. God is awesome. God bless you.

  • @2710TK
    @2710TK 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you so much for your encouraging testimony. This sounds exactly like what I'm going through right now. God Bless you for sharing and encouraging others.

  • @monalisakiti
    @monalisakiti 2 роки тому

    Honestly, your messages are saving my Life !!!
    God Bless You Always 🙏🕊

  • @may-rg7yk
    @may-rg7yk 4 роки тому +5

    G0D BLESS YOU BROTHER !

  • @lonieeethegreat2544
    @lonieeethegreat2544 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you bro shalom🙏

  • @lindawillfindit
    @lindawillfindit 4 роки тому +2

    Thank you

  • @spiritof6986
    @spiritof6986 3 роки тому

    The hotter the fire, the stronger the steel.
    🔥🙏❤️.
    And because he put you through a veritable furnace, you are now the strongest steel to support your brothers and sisters at thier time of affliction.
    Our Lords love shines out of you, brother Aaron.
    You are a beutiful soul and our Lord is the living God.
    אנגלס עוף אתה נעם ב ואתה ימי פרוטקט ימי ברותרס מיניסטרי

  • @gracegotthis3704
    @gracegotthis3704 4 роки тому +6

    Please pray for me.

  • @Anonymous-km5pj
    @Anonymous-km5pj 2 роки тому +1

    Proverbs 24 16 For a righteous man may fall seven times and rise again

  • @praywithme-godanswerspraye3423
    @praywithme-godanswerspraye3423 3 роки тому +2

    Aaron Kim please pray for me? Anxiety, insomnia, ears ringing, fear, physically tired. Please ask God to help me and relieve me in my distress.

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  3 роки тому +1

      I prayed for you. May the Lord strengthen you and comfort you through His word.

    • @praywithme-godanswerspraye3423
      @praywithme-godanswerspraye3423 3 роки тому +2

      Thank Aaron I’m at the ear dr now. I slept 10 hours yesterday. Thank you so much for your prayers. They were answered. Please keep praying for me. I would like to sleep again and have peace everyday. Dear lord Jesus answer and help me to think clearly and have peace. Aaron Your ministry is helping so many people. Your prayers for my insomnia were answered. Thank you please pray for my continued healing. I want to get to the other side.

    • @praywithme-godanswerspraye3423
      @praywithme-godanswerspraye3423 2 роки тому

      I’m still struggling but doing a little better please keep praying insomnia is still going in along with ear problems pain and suffering.

  • @colinwee9981
    @colinwee9981 2 роки тому

    I have totally surrendered to God..yet like you say it gets worst....but i will still keep trusting in God's promises no matter what...i jave nothing left of myself

  • @charitymerrill5893
    @charitymerrill5893 3 роки тому +1

    That's exactly where I'm at. I feel like I won't survive this trial. It's been 2 years of abuse (physical, sexual and extreme emotional), then one yr of court cases ( so far ) and it's still not over. The man signed his name on title to everything I own and he's saying it's all his. I never put him on title to my farm I've owned for 27 yrs OMG! He's robbed me blind. I could be homeless and I'm a widow with no one to turn to for help. I need a miracle. We go to court next on Oct. 8th. I have a TBI, Traumatic Brian Injury ( serious problems with my short term memory, math and technology ) from a motorcycle accident and I have no attorney so I'm representing myself. Are you kidding me I can't even remember what I had in my hand 5 minutes ago! This is an impossible situation and the man set me up. The stress is almost too much, just like you said. ALSO, It's a bit weird, I'm a theology major, scripture I can remember and you could be my grandson!!!! But yet I know you're right. I'm just having trouble letting all this go. Please please pray!

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  3 роки тому +1

      I’m sorry to hear of your difficulties. I prayed for you. You are in a good situation to rely on God completely and watch Him take care of all things for you. This could turn out to be a powerful testimony of God’s goodness to you. I encourage you to stay totally surrendered, trusting, and resting in God. Remember, you died, and now Christ is your life (Galatians 2:20). Let Him handle everything. God bless you.

  • @Nansherrie
    @Nansherrie 3 роки тому

    Thank you brother for sharing , so many of these things are so familiar with me ...
    I dont know how to surrender ...i tell God i surrender ...i am tired but trying to keep going .. i will sleep sometime when im exhausted , how did you rest ?
    Its good you are sharing , because so much of it , I feel like im alone ...big hugs

  • @em34ev3r
    @em34ev3r 4 роки тому +1

    Thank you for this video, God bless you. I'm going through something similar, please pray for me.

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  4 роки тому +1

      You are welcome friend. I prayed for you. May the Lord guide and bless you through the storm.

  • @toddconnell6256
    @toddconnell6256 3 роки тому +2

    Im in a mental ward going thru almost the same thing right now brother. Some things u described word for word honestly.

    • @beautifulforthee1
      @beautifulforthee1 3 роки тому

      May God grant you healing in every aspect of your life. You will be healed in Jesus Name

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  3 роки тому +2

      I encourage you to watch more of my videos if you haven't already. Hang onto Jesus alone. May the Lord bless and guide you, and give you a powerful testimony to free the oppressed and afflicted.

    • @toddconnell6256
      @toddconnell6256 3 роки тому +3

      Will do my friend. I would love this to become a testimony! It already has, because of Gods presence and power amidst some pretty intense suffering. T

    • @Sirie7206
      @Sirie7206 Рік тому

      @@toddconnell6256 how are you doing now?

  • @averagejoe7333
    @averagejoe7333 4 роки тому +12

    How months, days or years did you need to go through this. Did you also fall back in this process . Thank you for sharing your testimony. I fonf think I have ever heard someone sharing such a needed example for the hurting.

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  4 роки тому +13

      Hello friend, my trial lasted about 6 months. I went downhill to the end of myself the first 3 months, and then I started to heal by surrendering and trusting in God the following 3 months. My healing was so gradual I didn't even feel like going back and forth, but I only noticed myself getting better by looking back a month at a time or so. Hang onto Jesus alone; He is enough!

    • @andrea_echaluce4482
      @andrea_echaluce4482 3 роки тому +1

      Aaron kim 6 months of insomnia was total torture. I also hav insomnia magnesium aid somehow but there are days that it wont work and i just cry when i cant sleep.

  • @Keyfer62
    @Keyfer62 Рік тому +2

    Total surrender to the Lord is the solution, imo.

  • @Sirie7206
    @Sirie7206 Рік тому +1

    You had to go into work? God gave you great strength.

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  Рік тому +1

      Yes, it was incredibly difficult, but God’s grace was enough.

    • @Sirie7206
      @Sirie7206 Рік тому

      @@aaronkim1074 did your coworkers know what was going on?

    • @Sirie7206
      @Sirie7206 Рік тому

      @@aaronkim1074 Thanks, Aaron. I stepped out today and I was doing fine until I saw an ambulance and it triggered my anxiety. I kept saying this to myself “God’s Grace is enough for me.” It was so difficult. Please keep praying for me. I was in a good place all day until this happened. When I had my first anxiety attack, I had to call an ambulance and so when I saw it today it reminded me of that night. Please pray for me.

  • @tiffstaas
    @tiffstaas 3 роки тому +1

    I'm doing everything I'm supposed to do and I'm not getting better. I'm so miserable. My family is frustrated with me. I can't keep my commitments to work and church. I feel like it's never going to be better. I've seen therapist and nothing is working. I keep praying God show me how to trust you. I've watched all of your videos multiple times. I just started counceling with mr. Woodward. Nothing is working. Please help me. Dear Lord please help me.

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  3 роки тому +1

      Hi Tiffany, as long as you are surrendered, trusting, and resting in God, you are doing everything you need to be doing. And if you are still suffering, which was the case at one point for me as well, you just wait on the Lord Jesus to deliver you at the right time. So, just stay focused on being surrendered, trusting, and resting in God. Know that His grace is always sufficient for you at ALL times.

    • @tiffstaas
      @tiffstaas 3 роки тому

      @@aaronkim1074 Thank you for responding. I'm so scared.

    • @1cor69
      @1cor69 3 роки тому +1

      Tiffany, 4 yrs for me. Hang in there. I keep praying for all going through spiritual torment & use us for His Kingdom

  • @alexandracooper122
    @alexandracooper122 4 роки тому +5

    My trial has lasted for 11 years and still going :(

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  4 роки тому +6

      All you can do is look to Jesus. If you stay surrendered and trusting in Him, He will surely continue to provide for you and more. God bless you Alexandra.

    • @RagazzaFit25
      @RagazzaFit25 4 роки тому +4

      Hi Alexandra, lets pray for eachother..my anxiety began in 2011...so i feel you!!!! lets pray to Jesus Christ tonight..lets not Give Up! God has Victory for US!!!!!

    • @alexandracooper122
      @alexandracooper122 4 роки тому +1

      Hi Cecilia, thanks for the heads up :) mine began in 2009 (yep a very long time!) If you go to Aaron's video about the purpose of suffering, I went into more detail about my anxiety. I'm sorry that you also have this horrible affliction and i'll be praying for you!

    • @alexandracooper122
      @alexandracooper122 4 роки тому +3

      I think my trial is long because I was lukewarm and i only accepted Christ into my heart a year ago in 2019. So that's ten years turning away from God and relying on conventional treatments. I had to know Him first and the sacrifice His Son made for us all. Also I only started reading the bible properly recently so I think my spiritual journey is a long one.

  • @gdnbastia
    @gdnbastia 3 роки тому +3

    Hey Aaron
    How do you know if you are starting to take control after surrendering?
    Can you give me some examples

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  3 роки тому +1

      Hi Giddy, anytime you worry you are trying to take back control. When you worry, you are trying to control the situation and handle it yourself. When this happens, immediately surrender it to God and leave it in His hands knowing He will handle it in the best way possible.

  • @margrose5
    @margrose5 3 роки тому +1

    Trying to surrender it to Him…..

  • @charitymerrill5893
    @charitymerrill5893 3 роки тому +1

    oh man Aaron... I got served more legal papers today, now an attorney is suing me saying he helped me with my case he wants$ 30 - 100 G... he quit the first case and left me to do the work at the first hearing a yr ago. Since I had no money for another attorney I'm representing myself.. seriously! Now I have to fight two cases at once! Both fraudulent. I'm not an attorney, I have a TBI (slight brain injury) JESUS HELP!!!! ... I need prayer.. please pray the TRUTH is exposed and the Judge sees! Also pray I stand... Come on Jesus... let's burn it up together! All of it, I don't care anymore. Please pray.

    • @1cor69
      @1cor69 3 роки тому

      God loves u & knows your torment. I hang on to that promise too

  • @nicolefindlay5476
    @nicolefindlay5476 3 роки тому +1

    Surrendering is a hard thing. How do you surrender your pain when it hurts so bad!
    I have rituals... prayer, asking forgiveness for thought sins and fighting thoughts with scripture. Should I surrender that also?
    It’s not working anyway !

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  3 роки тому +1

      Yes, it is difficult; maybe the most difficult thing I have ever done in my life. So, don't be discouraged if it takes time. The hurt is what helps you surrender. Don't give into being angry with God, but trust in Him that He is using it all for your good. Also, try and not get into a ritualistic mindset where you need to do something in order to be okay with God. If you are a child of God, you will always be His kid. He won't let go of you, but will carry you through this life. It's good though to pray regularly and repent of sin. You don't repent to stay saved, but you repent to restore your relationship with God if sin hurt your relationship. It is the same as a married couple when they get into an argument. Although they argued, they are still married; however, their relationship could be damaged. But, when they apologize, their relationship is restored. So, it is with us when we repent of our sins to God. Surrender all, and follow Jesus.

  • @djentaman7009
    @djentaman7009 4 роки тому +1

    I wish I could discern the difference between what the causes of my sufferings are. I’m not trying to count the stars and understand all of creation exactly. I know I can’t see the future or why everything happens the way it does in my life. But I’m more than positive 98% of my suffering comes from my own sin as a Christian.
    Add the fact that I’ve done worse things since being saved then when I wasn’t. Bear in mind when I mean saved I don’t say confirmed by a pastor after a prayer but born again in my grandmothers backyard and receiving The Holy Ghost. I’ve come to know The Lord Jesus Christ but rarely do I honor Him with my life. I used to when I first got saved but now I contemplate how it all works and get angry. Not at God, just at myself. I have utter rage and contempt for my own being. I want the sin to end. I want to go home and be with The Lord Jesus. I don’t want to be here anymore.

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  4 роки тому

      It sounds like you hate sin. That is a blessing. You cannot live the Christian life; only God can. He must live in and through you. Galatians 2:20 makes it plain: you died, and now Christ is your life.
      Let go. Stop trying. Surrender to God with your hands up. Tell Him the truth: you can’t live the Christian life. Then invite Him to take over as you totally surrender to Him. Then, trust in His promises, and simply rest in Him to do the living through you.
      I encourage you to read a book by FJ Heugel: Bone of His Bones. It has truths more valuable than a billion dollars. Don’t give up, but continue the good fight. God bless you.

  • @Saint-West
    @Saint-West 2 роки тому

    I’ve been like this for over 3 years now…. Feel like God gave me this decree of death like He did with Moses, I don’t know what to do, or even what’s truth or deception. The Bible has been completely distorted since this started to scare me rather than comfort me. I’m so tired of whatever this is, and I pray it goes away soon.. All of my hope is in Jesus…

    • @widdlesophiah
      @widdlesophiah Рік тому

      I’m in the same trial as you from willful sin. It is horiffic. I feel close to death but desperately hanging onto the last thread of Jesus garment. I didn’t know this type of torment existed on earth. I no longer feel the Spirit, emotions, nothing, and have a hard heart. I am utterly terrified of God at this point. I just want to come back.

  • @charitymerrill5893
    @charitymerrill5893 3 роки тому +1

    Does total surrender mean you just quit trying ? Can I just go to bed and quit? Or are you saying total surrender from the heart...I've done so good to not take anything for anxiety, nothing at all... Im so tired.

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  3 роки тому +3

      Total surrender means to give yourself unconditionally to Jesus for Him to do as He pleases with you. Whether you live or die, you are in His hands. You are do what you believe God wants you to do in accordance with the Scriptures; however, you are to leave all the consequences to Him.

  • @Bill_Lima
    @Bill_Lima 4 роки тому +1

    For how long did you face it? Did it take so long?

    • @joe2825
      @joe2825 4 роки тому +2

      I think it was 6 months

    • @aaronkim1074
      @aaronkim1074  4 роки тому +1

      Yes, you are correct; it was around 6 month.

  • @user-sg9re4nx2x
    @user-sg9re4nx2x Рік тому

    'גש