Oh man, just learned that Ryan had polish (like me) grandparents. What a loss, his videos are helping people still, years after he made them. May his legacy live on, and his family be well!
@@alyssalopomo pulmonary embolism. He had a blood disorder that causes blood clots. He nearly died on 2 occasions because of it, but this time it got him. Ryan has certainly left his mark in the world of recovery, and I can only imagine what he would've done in the field in the following years.
I think the exact same way. My life was so bad on maintenance drugs that I finally was just so pumped to get off them and celebrated small victories every single day and still do. Recovery is amazing and I am never looking back man! Appreciate ya so much man. You are such a huge inspiration! ✌🏼🙏🏻
What kind of drug? I take suboxone and I am afraid if I got off it I would relapse. I dont even know what normal life without it would feel like. I got off it for a short 1 month and relapsed and got put back on sub, I always regret it. I think the lack of sleep drove me crazy.
Thank you Ryan, for always hitting on the topic I need to hear. I am around 80 day clean from drinking, Xanax and shooting 30 bags of dope. The natural high of early recovery has passed and now the real work begins. I will be leaning on you and the network of great friends from AA meetings
Great video bro glad u did this one today thought I be a lot more happy like u said so know I will do what u said keep up the great work sure a lot of us r very thankful...
Great channel, another great video and a great man to do all this for us that are still in the struggle of problematic opioid prescription medication tapering dosing and going through withdrawals.! I've respect in every aspect for Anyone that has stopped opioids cold turkey you're heroes in my eyes.!!!👍👍👍👍👍👍
You don't look comfy in your shirt but it suits you. It's been a crap year to say the least but it's alot different from were I started. If I hadn't done some work in counseling and meditation and be me. I think that's all I ever wanted. To be happy, peaceful, content with me and how I deal with life. I know there will be ups and downs, happyness, unhappiness but knowing I'm at peace and ok with that I'm happy. It's hard to explain. Meds are useful for the people who need them, not everyone needs them. I self medicated with painkillers and I shouldn't have done. I have chronic pain but that's not what makes me an addict. It's taken me years to realise this and your videos have helped, challenged and made me feel like I could beat this addiction.
and don't forget the last, final step! when you do or while you are climbing out of that god forsaken place called ADDICTION... lower your hand to the brother or sister, that is BATTLING possibly even more than you! for me... that was my ONLY path! the "pieces" of lives that we do take away from others as ADDICTS, WE MUST REPLACE! GODSPEED
I’m really glad you did this video, I can relate, been clean 17 months, n have a few mental illnesses n sorting out psych medicine n dosages , I’m very happy to be clean, but mental illnesses, is like a constant struggle with the mind
I can totally relate to you. I was an opiate addict for 12years using every day and I am now 3 years clean cold turkey. I struggle with depression and anxiety with suicidal thoughts. I can't forgive myself for my past addiction. I feel like a 44 year old loser that should just end myself. I hope you are healthy and happy sending love friend.
@@cliffkonkle3467 yes I totally understand, I’m over 3 years clean about now, I’m 56 n I’m sick of flashbacks n constantly being reminded of what I’ve done in the past from family n nearly everywhere I go I’ve used or scored, n seeing so many addicts waiting on drugs near me , n I always get the look from shop staff n people n it makes me paranoid, n wonder why? I’m not sure if I look like a ex drug addict, or someone on drugs, or what, I’m a pensioner, I stay home most the time, I’ve created my own world , I’m happy with alone at my house, I’m angry a lot around people , n no patients , but people still want to know me n I don’t know why, ( im sick of trying to pretend I’m ok n normal n fit in , ) I’m extremely relieved to be off drugs, I don’t know how I had the physical n mental strength to get through it, pity I cannot delete my past, I look back at drugs in horror, I had know idea the damage drugs does all around, even now off drugs it fucks with me mentally at times, but I’m never using that shit ever again, I’m currently trying to build up the courage to give up cigarettes that I love ,
First off rip buddy you really have made a difference in this world..... but anyways this is one of the reasons I want to go into a rehab because I make things so much worse on my self and being able to be in a facility where I can just let go of my life and hand it over to the pro’s and also just being around new people sometimes when your withdrawing or afterwards helps take your mind off of the hell your in
Got a question Ryan. I am almost 3 months clean and still not at 100% back mentally. I have never been on an antidepressant or and medication. Should I just give it time for my system to come back online or look into supplementing my mental health recovery? Thanks as always.
take one day at a time brother, u need chat im here , honestly u feel like crap and how i done it was i had too try take my mind off things tbh and best ways is have a think why u feel like u feel like? everyone is very diffrent as you may know but what id do is take my mind off stuff is i watch bit tv and documentrys but thats me, do something wht u like , ie build something or do a hobby? play pool? or chat to sobber person like this guy here on utube. but you done the worst but i had take my medz as it put me into a hospital and i died twice and i seen alot people in very bad places and yeh i wont lie to you i was sectioned for 2yres and it was because i lost my children and losing a child can , well really nearly took my life, its took me litterly 5yres and im ok better , well not 100 percent i tell u the truth, u got kids id be over the moon and back have mine back, thats what should drive you so much more but thair could be so much more then meets the eye, i dont know you personly ?all i say is take step back and look in your children and wife or partner and realise you got more then i got today, you just got to keep on trying and trust me i dont know you but i promise you , you will get more better the mths go by and the yres go by and then you be so much brighter with life, but at the end day u do how you got do it and you got too feel happy how you do it ,>? i hope u well my friend and god bless and take care and WELL DONE YOU DONE NEARLY 3DAYS .i praise that as it takes a man to talk out load on here espeacily when we feel very volumble its good u done very well buddy, you done better then i could as i had go into ,well sent into hospital like the guy on here did as i was very unwell and really wanted be with my lil ones but i know now i cant and got keep eye on my wife and look after her , thats my job for them intill then thats my life and godbless u all will. p.s dont wrry be happy, think that song evey thing be ok in the end,,,well i hope so guys, all the best will frm uk bristol.england
Your young so hang in there my friend am 46 and still fighting the battle of my life keep strong ur kid needs keep thinking about ur love ones it can help m8 u be lucky .one day at a time each day u will get stronger. try keeping your self busy n keep fit as possible u create ur own buzz one day peace out addicts peace out vegans peace be with yous all peace ✌
Im five months clean and I still can't find happiness. I should be proud of myself but I don't find joy in my sobriety. but in also not depressed. in just neutral.
Dear gawd. Week three & I am bitchier than I thought possible. Oddly, tho, for me at least, I haven't cried once. Hmmm ... not sure what the qualitative difference is between anger and sadness, but there ya go. Feeling ANYthing is a major change for me, so I'm just gonna go with howEVER I feel. (Blind rage excepted. I don't handle confrontations well, even if it's only myself I'm arguing with. I'm complex that way, LOL) Thank you for your positivity! Ordinarily, I'm deeply distrustful of looking on the bright side, but I'm willing to give it a shot. Just for today, and possibly tomorrow...
Hey Nikki are U good and clean... Just heard Ryan died from blood clots,,I relapsed it's my 5th day clean for the 5th time. I did 15 days clean last month. Just saw your comment under my old phones comment name. Hope your killing it and succeeding in every sense of the word.
Suboxone is different like I used to get hardcore punk cloud suboxone I feel great one hour like shit the next and withdrawl randomly comes back yesterday for example I was fine for 4 days then last night anxiety sweating all that shit I don't understand it
Oh man, just learned that Ryan had polish (like me) grandparents.
What a loss, his videos are helping people still, years after he made them. May his legacy live on, and his family be well!
I would hazard a guess that there is some Irish as well as Ryan surname is Irish descent.
RIP BROTHER YOU WILL BE MISSED. thanks for helping sace my life ryan
Do you know how he died ??
@@alyssalopomo pulmonary embolism. He had a blood disorder that causes blood clots. He nearly died on 2 occasions because of it, but this time it got him. Ryan has certainly left his mark in the world of recovery, and I can only imagine what he would've done in the field in the following years.
That is so sad. He has helped me so much in my recovery and helped me get clean in the beginning. Wow sad
I think the exact same way. My life was so bad on maintenance drugs that I finally was just so pumped to get off them and celebrated small victories every single day and still do. Recovery is amazing and I am never looking back man! Appreciate ya so much man. You are such a huge inspiration! ✌🏼🙏🏻
Shane Jay I Still miss Ryan.
You’re right, Shane, we just have to count our small victories.
What kind of drug? I take suboxone and I am afraid if I got off it I would relapse. I dont even know what normal life without it would feel like. I got off it for a short 1 month and relapsed and got put back on sub, I always regret it. I think the lack of sleep drove me crazy.
Damn this dude is truly a beacon of light in my dark time
Thank you Ryan, for always hitting on the topic I need to hear. I am around 80 day clean from drinking, Xanax and shooting 30 bags of dope. The natural high of early recovery has passed and now the real work begins. I will be leaning on you and the network of great friends from AA meetings
Wow, that's incredible Michael. How are you doing? Hope you're well.
Miss Mercury got my 90 day coin on Sunday and now I'm going to speak at my rehab to the guys that are in there now
+Michael Martin Amazing! Well done. Glad you're doing good
Great video bro glad u did this one today thought I be a lot more happy like u said so know I will do what u said keep up the great work sure a lot of us r very thankful...
Rusty 1 he passed away this weekend
Rest in peace Ryan
Great channel, another great video and a great man to do all this for us that are still in the struggle of problematic opioid prescription medication tapering dosing and going through withdrawals.!
I've respect in every aspect for Anyone that has stopped opioids cold turkey you're heroes in my eyes.!!!👍👍👍👍👍👍
You don't look comfy in your shirt but it suits you. It's been a crap year to say the least but it's alot different from were I started. If I hadn't done some work in counseling and meditation and be me. I think that's all I ever wanted. To be happy, peaceful, content with me and how I deal with life. I know there will be ups and downs, happyness, unhappiness but knowing I'm at peace and ok with that I'm happy. It's hard to explain. Meds are useful for the people who need them, not everyone needs them. I self medicated with painkillers and I shouldn't have done. I have chronic pain but that's not what makes me an addict. It's taken me years to realise this and your videos have helped, challenged and made me feel like I could beat this addiction.
Love your videos Ryan.
and don't forget the last, final step!
when you do or while you are climbing out of that god forsaken place called ADDICTION...
lower your hand to the brother or sister, that is BATTLING possibly even more than you!
for me... that was my ONLY path! the "pieces" of lives that we do take away from others as ADDICTS,
WE MUST REPLACE!
GODSPEED
I’m really glad you did this video, I can relate, been clean 17 months, n have a few mental illnesses n sorting out psych medicine n dosages , I’m very happy to be clean, but mental illnesses, is like a constant struggle with the mind
I can totally relate to you. I was an opiate addict for 12years using every day and I am now 3 years clean cold turkey. I struggle with depression and anxiety with suicidal thoughts. I can't forgive myself for my past addiction. I feel like a 44 year old loser that should just end myself. I hope you are healthy and happy sending love friend.
@@cliffkonkle3467 yes I totally understand, I’m over 3 years clean about now, I’m 56 n I’m sick of flashbacks n constantly being reminded of what I’ve done in the past from family n nearly everywhere I go I’ve used or scored, n seeing so many addicts waiting on drugs near me , n I always get the look from shop staff n people n it makes me paranoid, n wonder why? I’m not sure if I look like a ex drug addict, or someone on drugs, or what, I’m a pensioner, I stay home most the time, I’ve created my own world , I’m happy with alone at my house, I’m angry a lot around people , n no patients , but people still want to know me n I don’t know why, ( im sick of trying to pretend I’m ok n normal n fit in , ) I’m extremely relieved to be off drugs, I don’t know how I had the physical n mental strength to get through it, pity I cannot delete my past, I look back at drugs in horror, I had know idea the damage drugs does all around, even now off drugs it fucks with me mentally at times, but I’m never using that shit ever again, I’m currently trying to build up the courage to give up cigarettes that I love ,
First off rip buddy you really have made a difference in this world..... but anyways this is one of the reasons I want to go into a rehab because I make things so much worse on my self and being able to be in a facility where I can just let go of my life and hand it over to the pro’s and also just being around new people sometimes when your withdrawing or afterwards helps take your mind off of the hell your in
U okay now did things get better ?
RIP MUCH LOVE
Invaluable shares, Ry. Miss you
Got a question Ryan. I am almost 3 months clean and still not at 100% back mentally. I have never been on an antidepressant or and medication. Should I just give it time for my system to come back online or look into supplementing my mental health recovery? Thanks as always.
Brother I'm a young father I'm on my second n half day . Feel better than the first day.
Cano Garcia, That’s Wonderful!!! Keep up the good work! You Can Do It!!!😊♥️
take one day at a time brother, u need chat im here , honestly u feel like crap and how i done it was i had too try take my mind off things tbh and best ways is have a think why u feel like u feel like? everyone is very diffrent as you may know but what id do is take my mind off stuff is i watch bit tv and documentrys but thats me, do something wht u like , ie build something or do a hobby? play pool? or chat to sobber person like this guy here on utube. but you done the worst but i had take my medz as it put me into a hospital and i died twice and i seen alot people in very bad places and yeh i wont lie to you i was sectioned for 2yres and it was because i lost my children and losing a child can , well really nearly took my life, its took me litterly 5yres and im ok better , well not 100 percent i tell u the truth, u got kids id be over the moon and back have mine back, thats what should drive you so much more but thair could be so much more then meets the eye, i dont know you personly ?all i say is take step back and look in your children and wife or partner and realise you got more then i got today, you just got to keep on trying and trust me i dont know you but i promise you , you will get more better the mths go by and the yres go by and then you be so much brighter with life, but at the end day u do how you got do it and you got too feel happy how you do it ,>? i hope u well my friend and god bless and take care and WELL DONE YOU DONE NEARLY 3DAYS .i praise that as it takes a man to talk out load on here espeacily when we feel very volumble its good u done very well buddy, you done better then i could as i had go into ,well sent into hospital like the guy on here did as i was very unwell and really wanted be with my lil ones but i know now i cant and got keep eye on my wife and look after her , thats my job for them intill then thats my life and godbless u all will. p.s dont wrry be happy, think that song evey thing be ok in the end,,,well i hope so guys, all the best will frm uk bristol.england
xKILLBILLSx GAMINGx ...I'm not a drinker but had one just to ease and relax the pain. Good bad ?
cindy moore ..thanks so much
Your young so hang in there my friend am 46 and still fighting the battle of my life keep strong ur kid needs keep thinking about ur love ones it can help m8 u be lucky .one day at a time each day u will get stronger. try keeping your self busy n keep fit as possible u create ur own buzz one day peace out addicts peace out vegans peace be with yous all peace ✌
Loveing the 2 upload days keep up the great work man
Thank you Ryan!
Im five months clean and I still can't find happiness. I should be proud of myself but I don't find joy in my sobriety. but in also not depressed. in just neutral.
Miss u man
Dear gawd. Week three & I am bitchier than I thought possible. Oddly, tho, for me at least, I haven't cried once. Hmmm ... not sure what the qualitative difference is between anger and sadness, but there ya go. Feeling ANYthing is a major change for me, so I'm just gonna go with howEVER I feel. (Blind rage excepted. I don't handle confrontations well, even if it's only myself I'm arguing with. I'm complex that way, LOL) Thank you for your positivity! Ordinarily, I'm deeply distrustful of looking on the bright side, but I'm willing to give it a shot. Just for today, and possibly tomorrow...
Hey Ryan love all your vidoes and stories but l gotta ask did u tell your old roomy who u were or that u knew him when u saw him in line?
What if you don't remember who you used to be? What if when you do get sober you still don't remember? Or do people also remember?
Hey Nikki are U good and clean... Just heard Ryan died from blood clots,,I relapsed it's my 5th day clean for the 5th time. I did 15 days clean last month. Just saw your comment under my old phones comment name. Hope your killing it and succeeding in every sense of the word.
I am still not happy... nothing is the same
Thank you for the video👍🏼
Suboxone is different like I used to get hardcore punk cloud suboxone I feel great one hour like shit the next and withdrawl randomly comes back yesterday for example I was fine for 4 days then last night anxiety sweating all that shit I don't understand it
How did he die ?????
Doctor said he had blood clots but he ain't Jamaican man
Write a book? Wtf?!
David McC he can’t now. He passed away. Would of been a great idea though.