coming from a soldier, because I think there's need to be a little more explanation to it, you feel nothing when you are in a mission, you are trained to act like a machine, you cant start thinking about why you do it, you just have to do it. I've heard countless stories about people who shot terrorists and after they died they realized what they have done, obviously this is not a mission but you are built to act first think after. this could have so many outcomes, I think he is just lucky to have that skill to just defend himself and even if someone is dead because of it at least its not him
@@maxboi1036 The only weapon he knew he had, never know what else people have. Guy did the right thing, why let him live to possibly kill someone else for their wallet that are weaker? Especially considering the guy was a known mugger.
@@maxboi1036 That is complete BS, the storyteller wasn't armed and not threat and then killed someone in a matter of seconds. Once a weapon is introduced to the conflict (even without any weapon present) everyone is a deadly force.
Seems to me that he is completely missing the fact that he does feel a thing about it. He does sound like he is reconsidering his humanity years after the fact, so yeah, he does feel something.
i think he believes he is suppose to be overwhelmed with guilt but in the end he probably knows deep down what he did was justified it was him or the mugger so why would you be extremely upset. The fact that he has empathy for the man and the fact that he may have had a family proves human life holds value to him.
I think it is more he feels strange that the feeling isnt actually about the loss of life...but the feeling of none towards the loss of life, but the feeling of the absence of it. He says himself it bothers him that he doesnt feel towards that....HE ALREADY REALIZES THAT.
@@Spills51 I would say that this IS a feeling about the killing. It would be worry-sum If he did not raise these question and do a self evaluation. Like Julian stated; this does show he has a value in human life, especially because he can think about that man's prior life. He's able to be logical, objective and compartmentalize his thoughts. Military training probably helped here.
@@justacat.967 so if you’re in a life or death situation, would you let yourself be killed or would you fight back if you had no other choice? the ends don’t always justify the means man. it fucking sucks that it’s not always black and white but that shit happens
Naturally, we as humanity trying to preserve our species as best as we can. But we also actively harm other people as well for any reason. The power of free will.
In basic training the instructors constantly tell you that you are going to kill people so you just accept that, so when you kill someone you knew you were going kill someone
Exactly. He comments about hoping he doesn’t have to kill again & say “Well, he shouldn’t have stepped in my house..” But… that’s just facts. What else are you going to do, if there’s no choice? Sometimes you have to kill for food, sometimes you have to kill to keep from someone ruining your life. No one’s robbing me, if I can stop them.
Its the fight or flight man. Your body reacts before the mind does, its just instincts. This story of everything might’ve not even been like 5 or 6 seconds not even
@@natnaelgirma7849 its not a heroic action but i dont blame him for killing him he was probably scared and that was an insting (i dont know how to spell that) he probably had like not even a second to think about it in that situation.
@@natnaelgirma7849 some people can’t in certain situations and will had to live with it like how soilders how to kill enemy soilders no questions asked otherwise they get captured or die and had to live with it later on how they killed them with out feeling remorse so you can’t technically blame the guy for being in this situation
@@kakashi6957 except this was no mission or anything like that. He went to the slums and tried to get robbed which shouldn’t be a surprise considering where he came from and where he was atm then he disarmed the man...THEN he killed him when he didn’t need to. No remorse , taking account ability or feeling guilty for his actions to this day. Dude is pos sociopath and if he is not an idiot he realizes it by now
@@natnaelgirma7849 what i was trying to say was that he was trained to kill with our remorse to protect himself and his freind and his body acted before he did thus killing him it’s like his agent 47 is when he kills his target his isn’t traumatized or has any emotion when he kills his targets then again you could argue that he was experimented making him this way but that’s how I am putting things
I think he feels a lot more than he realizes. His feelings are suppressed so far away from his psyche, to protect himself. I understand that he feels like he could have simply disarmed the man with the knife, instead of killing him.. Thats probably the hardest part.
Its weird, hes not like, upset that he did kill someone, but hes upset he didnt take the chance to just disarm him only, and is upset that he doesnt feel upset.
It's perfectly rational. He recognizes that most people would be affected by this. But his actions were justified. Most people who go through such a traumatic event and get scarred by it would takes years of therapy attempting to reach the mental state of acceptance he already has. It's not a sign of moral facing, it's just a sign of rational thinking being employed over irrational emotional responses. I'd only find it troubling if he wasn't questioning himself at all
Yeah that is very true, but The thing is that this isn’t really war story. He killed a mugger in self defense. As odd as it sounds it’s a whole other feeling
@Jesse Rodriguez Many people who resort to crime are in places with artificial poverty. Why do I say artificial? Artificial in the sense of manmade. The people who have to rely on criminal governments either starve, or play the corrupting game. There are a lucky few who understand and have few enough attachments to leave and go somewhere else, but they are the exception that prove the rule. It's empirically proven that poverty more than any other factor affects crime rates, and also that poverty abounds in countries that are more religious. The wealth of the rich is directly chained to the poverty of the poor.
This went from talking about people’s break up story’s to something really meaningful and heartwarming he really does help people getting to talk about how they feel about it and let them express there side of the story.
he is definitely feeling shame remorse guilt and empathy. he’s going through the full gambit of emotions, it clearly weighs on him. being sad and angry are distinct from evaluating and discussing your actions. if he didn’t care he wouldn’t think about it. this guy is clearly a well trained individual as well as a thoughtful and empathetic individual
Their life does matter but ur life is priority always, but letting emotions take control of u most of time leads badly, instincts before emotion imo...
sure. in the wild. we're not animals. he got lucky bc he wasn't in a state where if you kill someone, you go in prison. In the other hand, He just defended himself, when your life is in danger, the body acts before you can even think. You need to survive. that's what mother nature left in us. And yeah, I agree. if someone wants to kill someone else, he automatically puts his life in danger too. In the end, I'm happy for him. He did wrong, but the other guy did too. He protected his friend, he protected himself. So I think that life is important, always. but when somebody tryes to kill you, he knows that he can die too. Both lives can depend on a single action, a bunch of seconds. Defend yourself. It doesn't matter if he had to steal for his family, you should NEVER try to kill someone. if you do and someone else is stronger than you... well, like in the wild, the strongest survives. So he did right, Always defend yourself and thank you for your service, dude!
@@christianmariogreco9330 I agree with you on most of what you said but that we aren’t animals. We are animals, really smart animals. Mega animals as I like to call it. Most animals adapt to their habit but humans adapt the habitat to them.
even if. he thinkin people in that country are super poor. in most poor countries scams and muggings are common but they do it for their family. he’s scared for himself cause he didnt feel emotion towards it
It's the darker part of humanity that he's talking about. When you're killing your fellow man, you numb yourself involuntarily to get through it at least in his case but, the afterwards when the dust settles and there's time to think... those are humanizing to say the least. I can't imagine what he went through but, it was like walking on a tight rope, with all that's good and wonderful about life on the other side and below is that very dark place we are all too familiar with.
In the end. I believe that the fact the guy had a knife meant that he was a threat and he most likely planned to use it on someone. As for leaving the scene, I believe that it would've been best since there could've been more danger in that area.
This is a wild story for sure. What's even more wild is that this dude legit disarmed a guy with a knife and killed the guy with his own knife. Anyone who's practiced Filipino Martial Arts, Silat, or some kind of Combatives knows just how dangerous and absolutely difficult it is to fight a guy with a knife, and even more so when you are completely unarmed.
The idea of feeling remorse and sad after taking someone's life is actually a dramatised concept from Holywood. In reality when adrenaline kicks in or simple survival instinct kicks in your choice are either fight or flight. Human are always different in dealing with this kind of situation. Some will feel guilt and sadness and some felt nothing. It's not disorder if you felt nothing. It's just how your brain and body work dealing with stress.
From all the accounts I have seen living through a knife attack is astonishing because it is very brutal and gruesome. I hope he doesn't linger on it much longer... I would grateful I was able to walk away from a crazy attack like that
Maybe the fact he can't stop thinking about the fact he can't feel anything about it, is his weird way of dealing with it maybe his subconscious is protecting him abit but that's his was of precessing the situation
@@skonk4483 when you choose to rob people for living you have already accepted that it's a dangerous business which means he already accepted everything that's gone happen to him including death
This is why being a soldier is the hardest job on planet Earth because not only are they probably getting shot at they have to just think like this and ask them selves "Why didn't I feel anything?" even though they just took a life its what gives them my respect 100% because they can just deal with this.
The feeling he was trying to describe goes like: I just killed a life, I have a life, life goes on, life can go on without me, I can go on without that life, other people can go on without my life, life will will go on without mine. It’s difficult I know
I think that fact that you are able to understand that you have no feeling for what you did is a feeling enough. Sometimes our brains cannot or do not register certain events or emotions to analyze them, therefor we feel nothing. This can be because it was born that way or from training or development. A big part of the military training is to mentally break down a soldier's thought process and how they've viewed things all through their lives and to mold it into what the line of duty calls for. That training changed your way of thinking to where you don't think about a situation, it made you rely on your body to take control because muscle memory is faster than thinking about it and reacting. Humans excel at patterns and repetition and that's what the military training does, it desensitizes your brain to something that you've "experienced" before. You're ability to understand that you felt nothing is your brain saying "This isn't right, but I don't know how to feel" and the more you distance yourself from military lifestyle and such. the more you will be able to think about what you're doing.
"You'd think there'd be some PTSD or something like I'd be sad, but I just wake up and it's like 'there's that dream again....' " Bro that's PTSD. That's 1000% PTSD. I hope you manage to find some closure.
Honestly, you had a few seconds to react. That is nowhere enough time to decide "Do I leave him alive" He could've come straight back at you, sure theres that chance he wouldve surrendered but you gotta protect yourself first
Someone tried to murder me as I was stabbed 5 times. I managed to fight my way out of the situation and had a blade of my own that I used to try and kill the guy who stabbed me. This soldier prevented further hostilities by the mugger.. He did what was needed
I believe this man is suffering from suppressive guilt. Subconsciously he suffers with the endless thoughts of the situation, and feeling no pain, guilt, or sadness about the said situation. It put you in a depressive state without you even knowing it. He was groomed to be a weapon and someone attacked the weapon.
ive never been in anything like that, but he was seconds away from killing you and your friend, had you not defended yourself, you and your friend wouldnt be alive to tell this story.
This guy has to acknowledge he had been freshly trained to kill like of course its gonna be first instinct at the time like if he acknowledges and accepts that's why he killed him he will feel better but may also grow a hate for the army for it
If you're friends with this man tell him I'm not thanking him for his service I'm thanking him for making through the struggle to this day. This shit got me crying ong
In all honesty I may not be a soldier but I understood the whole idea of life and death. When it comes to it even the wisest can't see all ends. And when he said "I felt nothing" that hit me deep
No one should ever feel bad at all for killing someone in their own defense. You just gave this guy the justice he deserved. I love when thieves, home invaders, rapists and murderers get their own. Making the world a better place.
I think there is a 99% chance your friend set you up. It was probably a friend of his that tried to rob you. Your training came in to effect, and you completely neutralized the threat. You don't know what he was capable of if you didn't stab him.
Yes. This also further complicates the question of what he should have done when he got control of the knife. If he thinks it's possible that his friend has set him up he should not throw the knife away. However, that would mean he would be fighting one handed if not trained or skilled enough to use the knife non-lethally.
"When you threaten my life, you, at that point forfeit, your life." No remorse. No guilt. You made your choice. When its an innocent life that is different.
A lot of people in the military who have killed people say they don't feel anything after and THAT is the thing that haunts them, the thought of being void of remorse or sorrow. If you are the guy in this video or another in the same situation I want you to know just because you don't "feel" sad or sorrow doesn't mean you are a monster or heartless. You are very much full of heart, thoughtfulness, and so much courage. You did the right thing and you must remember that. If you didn't they could've killed or hurt so many people for a very unjust cause. To the person in this video. That man tried to KILL YOU. You saved yourself and possibly others. You are trained to do exactly what you did in that situation and they train you to do that for a reason and must not foregt that. The fact that you are scared you don't feel remorse tells me you very much do feel disheartened about it your just thinking so hard to feel it more that you think you don't feel it at all. The second that man tried to attack you he put his own life on the line too and he knew that. Your not a monster man sp do not think that, your no where near that. In fact that man who tries to kill you was infinitely more of a monster then you. Keep your head up you did absolutely nothing wrong.
I'm Ex Canadian army, this is a classic case of training kicking in perfectly. Unfortunately training doesn't take into account how people are emotionally effected by their iactions regardless of how engrained and trained instincts are.
He was trained as a soldier. Soldiers are not trained to save a threat, they're trained to eliminate it so the ones you fight for are safe. It's not something that needs emotion yes and honestly it's best that way. Your emotions amplify your experiences and help show your expression sure, but they are not you yourself. Thoughts that come back to you, areas you go to or even people you see; whatever you allow to dwell with you shows you care for it. You care about something a lot, it's around you a lot. You don't care at all, it's not with you at all. Folks that suffer from PTSD are under stress because of experience but what breaks them are the things they care about during the initial cause of the stress be it friends, associates or just people in general; sometimes just living. Like the soldier said, he felt no emotion taking that guys life but he does care that he took his life. This is why we must stay sober in the things we do. No matter the circumstance we must have self control of all parts of ourselves at all times because giving up one part always makes it deteriorate into the worst state of itself. Emotions will become negative, thoughts will become twisted, your body becomes unhealthy. One of those things breaks down it could lead to everything else falling too if control is not regained.
its a sign of a good man if he's questioning if its right that he feels nothing. he had to kill him in order to survive. yes he could have just taken the knife, but there's always another weapon or tool the attacker is willing to use if he's going as far as to try to kill a stationed soldier. He feels nothing because he did not kill a man. he killed a monster.
a lot of soldiers (american soldiers idk about other militaries) talk about feeling the same exact way and it seems like they are in a big cycle of existential depression because they all describe not feeling anything when they had to kill someone and that’s what gets to them the most. and i’m speaking from a outside perspective when i say this but i just wanna let vets know that they’re not monsters, they are trained to be able to go into a hostile situation and take someone’s life without their emotions clouding their judgment it’s just ingrained in their brain so it’s almost like second nature. i wish they all could know this
The best way I can describe this numbness is- like it makes you feel like your emotions dont exist or there just numb and you cant feel any emotion I cant describe it-
My grandfather was in Vietnam and how this one man he was assigned to kill said in broken English before you kill me please tell my mother my wife and kid I love them
Theory of Self-Preservation is the basis of self-defense. It's how we are just built to survive and we are just in the moment that we shouldn't rationalize but let the instincts kick in. Guilt comes after.
There's only one feeling that you should be looking for after that... The feeling of your heart continuing to beat, you are alive... And had you reacted differently.. you might not be... The next guy that had to deal with the mugger might be dead... That guy made his decision.. you just reacted... You didn't even have the time to make a decision. You did the right thing
There is no problem. "I don't feel anything about the incident." Good, you should put it behind you. "I should feel something about the incident" Why? You did what you felt you had to do to protect your own life, no one can fault you for that. There is no reason to torture yourself over emotions you aren't feeling. It really baffles me on a logical level but I can understand it's a complex emotional issue. You reacted normally and continue to act normally so in the end my advice would be to stop worrying about it.
primal instinct of survival reasons in your head the justification to kill to protect yourself. remorse only come into effect when you had time to think about how the situation unravelling could be dealt differently.
It sounds like he's grappling with the fact that he did it with indifference. Thats the most unsettling part for him as most people would feel frightened, aggression, anger, disappointment, pity, or any sort of emotion regarding the act or the consequences but he treated it like he's just going to get a slap on the wrist after taking a life.
He is a better guy than most. There are way too many adults who relish the the thought of having someone one break into their home to have an excuse to shoot someone.
when someone challenges you for blood they choose the stakes of the fight. A fight to the death is just what that is. the fight wont end till one of you do in a situation like that. when you enter your instinctual mode like fight or flight you dont stop until the threat is gone or the adrenaline runs out. Alot can happen in that time and humans are pretty fragile creatures, you can end up killing someone before you even thought about what just happened
your not a monster, you would be if you didnt feel guilty, your human and were defending yourself true, but you say you dont feel anything, but the mere thought , the mere feeling of remorse proves that you are human.
u did it in self defence witch could be why u dont feel anything. u didnt have a choice to think. the guy sprinted towards u. 2-3 seconds to act. man u did the right thing. i am happy u did cuz i am so glad u are alive. who would know what would happen if u stod down?.
In the Army you are trained to act before you think. You most likely subconsciously was thinking “okay, I have the knife, what else does he have? Does he have another knife?” Your body moved on it’s own because you didn’t know what COULD happen. That’s why he feels no remorse, think about it this way, instead of being sad you took a life, be happy you saved a life.
I don't believe that the absence of feelings is a kind of problem, we usually try to compare our experience with things that we've already seen and think that is some kind of example... but this comparison is already unreal, since it's just thoughts based on your experience and morals. I didn't killed anyone, but I know how hard it is with ourselves when we try to understand why some feelings don't fit our expectations... and I think it is ok! Acceptance is the key :) (Sorry if my English is imperfect, I'm still learning ✌🏻)
There is a moment in our careers where we stop feeling we ignore all pain and emotion I feel like with what happened to him it was so extreme that he could not feel no longer
One thing that I have been told by several family members who served in various wars is that if someone forces you to the point of taking their life, their intention is to take yours and that any thoughts of how their family feels about them not coming home is something they were willing to do to you.
I’m new to your channel I’ve watched quite a few videos. They really make you think on how your day change instantly at that moment. Amazing videos as always bro!
I have high functioning autism, because of that I have trouble understanding emotions. I ask this same question almost every day because I feel so alone from people. I hope this person heals from his pain.
I get what you mean by you had the knife. Just because he lost the knife, it doesn’t mean he wasn’t dangerous. He made his choice. You neutralized the threat and possibly even saved your buddys life or the life of his future victims.
coming from a soldier, because I think there's need to be a little more explanation to it, you feel nothing when you are in a mission, you are trained to act like a machine, you cant start thinking about why you do it, you just have to do it. I've heard countless stories about people who shot terrorists and after they died they realized what they have done, obviously this is not a mission but you are built to act first think after. this could have so many outcomes, I think he is just lucky to have that skill to just defend himself and even if someone is dead because of it at least its not him
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Bro your a solider btw thanks for doing your duty and protecting us but yea true of what u said like you can’t hesitate when u are on a mission
Thank you for your service ❤️🙏🏻
Thank you for your service sir, i appreciate you.
Didn't do it in the us tho
The moment someone actually threatens your life they put their own life on the line too. You don't feel remorse because instinctively you know it too.
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Even if that person isn’t a threat to you or anyone around you anymore?
@@maxboi1036 The only weapon he knew he had, never know what else people have. Guy did the right thing, why let him live to possibly kill someone else for their wallet that are weaker?
Especially considering the guy was a known mugger.
@@maxboi1036 reflex man
@@maxboi1036 That is complete BS, the storyteller wasn't armed and not threat and then killed someone in a matter of seconds. Once a weapon is introduced to the conflict (even without any weapon present) everyone is a deadly force.
Awe poor babe. I'm sorry someone mindfucked you and your parents either helped or let them.
Seems to me that he is completely missing the fact that he does feel a thing about it. He does sound like he is reconsidering his humanity years after the fact, so yeah, he does feel something.
i think he believes he is suppose to be overwhelmed with guilt but in the end he probably knows deep down what he did was justified it was him or the mugger so why would you be extremely upset. The fact that he has empathy for the man and the fact that he may have had a family proves human life holds value to him.
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I think it is more he feels strange that the feeling isnt actually about the loss of life...but the feeling of none towards the loss of life, but the feeling of the absence of it.
He says himself it bothers him that he doesnt feel towards that....HE ALREADY REALIZES THAT.
Yes
@@Spills51 I would say that this IS a feeling about the killing. It would be worry-sum If he did not raise these question and do a self evaluation.
Like Julian stated; this does show he has a value in human life, especially because he can think about that man's prior life.
He's able to be logical, objective and compartmentalize his thoughts. Military training probably helped here.
“You aren’t killing, your surviving, and that means making sure they don’t”
Amen.
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Taking someone's life, willing or not, is still counting as a kill ya know.
@@justacat.967 but at the end of the day your both trying to go home without one stopping you
@@ant_the_man_3032 its still killing its just intertwined with survival
@@justacat.967 so if you’re in a life or death situation, would you let yourself be killed or would you fight back if you had no other choice? the ends don’t always justify the means man. it fucking sucks that it’s not always black and white but that shit happens
The fact that this guy feels so much for the mugger, even though he says he doesn’t feel anything about it, gives him the high ground.
Death is a strange enigma...truly. Whether for good or bad. It never gets easier
Naturally, we as humanity trying to preserve our species as best as we can. But we also actively harm other people as well for any reason. The power of free will.
this is the nuanced response I was looking for
How can you say that? I certainly did for me.
In basic training the instructors constantly tell you that you are going to kill people so you just accept that, so when you kill someone you knew you were going kill someone
theres nothing they can do to prepare u for that
I feel bad for him since he was just protecting himself
I’m amazed on the knife disarm, like shit - if that mugger was any good with the knife he would be dead... damn
Survivors guilt I guess
@@skonk4483 seriously though. So much can go wrong while trying to disarm a knife, that must have been horrifying to go through.
Does a giraffe feel bad when he kicks a lion in the head for attacking him for food? Might be natural to not feel remorse when you kill to survive.
Exactly.
He comments about hoping he doesn’t have to kill again & say “Well, he shouldn’t have stepped in my house..”
But… that’s just facts. What else are you going to do, if there’s no choice?
Sometimes you have to kill for food, sometimes you have to kill to keep from someone ruining your life.
No one’s robbing me, if I can stop them.
Its the fight or flight man. Your body reacts before the mind does, its just instincts. This story of everything might’ve not even been like 5 or 6 seconds not even
We should just be blessed he saved a life for a life, God bless you for your heroic action
What heroic action? He killed a man which he could’ve avoided and still feels no remorse to this day
@@natnaelgirma7849 its not a heroic action but i dont blame him for killing him he was probably scared and that was an insting (i dont know how to spell that) he probably had like not even a second to think about it in that situation.
@@natnaelgirma7849 some people can’t in certain situations and will had to live with it like how soilders how to kill enemy soilders no questions asked otherwise they get captured or die and had to live with it later on how they killed them with out feeling remorse so you can’t technically blame the guy for being in this situation
@@kakashi6957 except this was no mission or anything like that. He went to the slums and tried to get robbed which shouldn’t be a surprise considering where he came from and where he was atm then he disarmed the man...THEN he killed him when he didn’t need to. No remorse , taking account ability or feeling guilty for his actions to this day. Dude is pos sociopath and if he is not an idiot he realizes it by now
@@natnaelgirma7849 what i was trying to say was that he was trained to kill with our remorse to protect himself and his freind and his body acted before he did thus killing him it’s like his agent 47 is when he kills his target his isn’t traumatized or has any emotion when he kills his targets then again you could argue that he was experimented making him this way but that’s how I am putting things
The mugger was obviously in quite a dire situation. He’s hopefully in a better place than that.
Nah, he's dead.
@@cavecanem1741 idk how this made me laugh but I cracked up.
He’s dead and probably In hell dude lol he’s not in a better place
@@joewaten1243 broo same
@@sebastiangraham001 at least he gets to play DOOM irl
Bro I searched up scary stuff while the video was playing and all in a sudden an ad popped up with a woman whispering which scared the hell out of me😭
I think he feels a lot more than he realizes. His feelings are suppressed so far away from his psyche, to protect himself. I understand that he feels like he could have simply disarmed the man with the knife, instead of killing him.. Thats probably the hardest part.
Lets just appreciate how iListen always is there to hear their pains ❤ Its heartbreaking what some people have to go through
Says he felt nothing. Yet dwells on his actions. Sounds like a type of remorse.
No, there actually isn't any remorse he has. I'm pretty sure he is just baffled that he didn't feel any emotion when the incident happened.
@@bloodlinked8770 he thinks he should have remorse and is sad and scared that he didnt
Its weird, hes not like, upset that he did kill someone, but hes upset he didnt take the chance to just disarm him only, and is upset that he doesnt feel upset.
It's perfectly rational. He recognizes that most people would be affected by this. But his actions were justified. Most people who go through such a traumatic event and get scarred by it would takes years of therapy attempting to reach the mental state of acceptance he already has. It's not a sign of moral facing, it's just a sign of rational thinking being employed over irrational emotional responses. I'd only find it troubling if he wasn't questioning himself at all
“War is where the young are tricked by the old and bitter into killing each other” - Niko Bellic
This is true kinda, but this has nothing to do with the story so 🤷🏻♂️ respectfully
Yeah that is very true, but The thing is that this isn’t really war story. He killed a mugger in self defense. As odd as it sounds it’s a whole other feeling
I was very young....and very angry. Perhaps that's no excuse. ROMAN!!
@Jesse Rodriguez Many people who resort to crime are in places with artificial poverty. Why do I say artificial? Artificial in the sense of manmade. The people who have to rely on criminal governments either starve, or play the corrupting game. There are a lucky few who understand and have few enough attachments to leave and go somewhere else, but they are the exception that prove the rule. It's empirically proven that poverty more than any other factor affects crime rates, and also that poverty abounds in countries that are more religious. The wealth of the rich is directly chained to the poverty of the poor.
This went from talking about people’s break up story’s to something really meaningful and heartwarming he really does help people getting to talk about how they feel about it and let them express there side of the story.
So you're saying heartbreak isn't a meaningful human experience?
Honestly, he just saved the next guys life and who knows how many after.
he is definitely feeling shame remorse guilt and empathy. he’s going through the full gambit of emotions, it clearly weighs on him. being sad and angry are distinct from evaluating and discussing your actions. if he didn’t care he wouldn’t think about it. this guy is clearly a well trained individual as well as a thoughtful and empathetic individual
I’m putting this here for everyone, WHEN SOMEONE THREATENS YOUR LIFE, THEIRS DOES NOT MATTER ANYMORE. THOSE ARE THE RULES
Their life does matter but ur life is priority always, but letting emotions take control of u most of time leads badly, instincts before emotion imo...
sure. in the wild. we're not animals. he got lucky bc he wasn't in a state where if you kill someone, you go in prison. In the other hand, He just defended himself, when your life is in danger, the body acts before you can even think. You need to survive. that's what mother nature left in us. And yeah, I agree. if someone wants to kill someone else, he automatically puts his life in danger too. In the end, I'm happy for him. He did wrong, but the other guy did too. He protected his friend, he protected himself. So I think that life is important, always. but when somebody tryes to kill you, he knows that he can die too. Both lives can depend on a single action, a bunch of seconds. Defend yourself. It doesn't matter if he had to steal for his family, you should NEVER try to kill someone. if you do and someone else is stronger than you... well, like in the wild, the strongest survives.
So he did right, Always defend yourself and thank you for your service, dude!
Amen.
@@christianmariogreco9330 I agree with you on most of what you said but that we aren’t animals. We are animals, really smart animals. Mega animals as I like to call it. Most animals adapt to their habit but humans adapt the habitat to them.
@@lordbluebaron2270 that’s very well said honestly
You cant dwell on that. You saved your life and the life of a friend. That's the shit that matters.
This story hits too close to home, but it wasn't in the military.
That shit don’t start really buggin until that long awkward dinner with your family after you get back.
He didnt feel anything because it was self-defense.
even if. he thinkin people in that country are super poor. in most poor countries scams and muggings are common but they do it for their family. he’s scared for himself cause he didnt feel emotion towards it
Dude you saved your life and your friend's life. Thanks for helping out a fellow Filipino.
Stories like these show how people view different things, you and me couldn’t understand the feelings this guy went through. It’s just bizarre
It's the darker part of humanity that he's talking about. When you're killing your fellow man, you numb yourself involuntarily to get through it at least in his case but, the afterwards when the dust settles and there's time to think... those are humanizing to say the least. I can't imagine what he went through but, it was like walking on a tight rope, with all that's good and wonderful about life on the other side and below is that very dark place we are all too familiar with.
In the end. I believe that the fact the guy had a knife meant that he was a threat and he most likely planned to use it on someone. As for leaving the scene, I believe that it would've been best since there could've been more danger in that area.
This is a wild story for sure. What's even more wild is that this dude legit disarmed a guy with a knife and killed the guy with his own knife. Anyone who's practiced Filipino Martial Arts, Silat, or some kind of Combatives knows just how dangerous and absolutely difficult it is to fight a guy with a knife, and even more so when you are completely unarmed.
The idea of feeling remorse and sad after taking someone's life is actually a dramatised concept from Holywood. In reality when adrenaline kicks in or simple survival instinct kicks in your choice are either fight or flight. Human are always different in dealing with this kind of situation. Some will feel guilt and sadness and some felt nothing. It's not disorder if you felt nothing. It's just how your brain and body work dealing with stress.
From all the accounts I have seen living through a knife attack is astonishing because it is very brutal and gruesome. I hope he doesn't linger on it much longer... I would grateful I was able to walk away from a crazy attack like that
For real. Lucky, right? I didn’t even know I was cut until it was mostly over and the knife was out of the other guy’s hand
Maybe the fact he can't stop thinking about the fact he can't feel anything about it, is his weird way of dealing with it maybe his subconscious is protecting him abit but that's his was of precessing the situation
Someone tries to kill you, you try to kill'em right back.
- Captain Malcom Reynolds
The fact you can say that *"The fact I don't feel anything form that and it scares me"* mean you're still human
He knew what he signed up for but for some reason it's still sad
He knew what he signed up for but he was more trying to vent about why he didn’t feel anything and that made him feel worse
He didn’t sign up for that
@@skonk4483 when you choose to rob people for living you have already accepted that it's a dangerous business which means he already accepted everything that's gone happen to him including death
@@Nier_altruist thought you were talking about the soldier because to become a criminal you don’t have to “sign up” but k
@@skonk4483 :/
This is why being a soldier is the hardest job on planet Earth because not only are they probably getting shot at they have to just think like this and ask them selves "Why didn't I feel anything?" even though they just took a life its what gives them my respect 100% because they can just deal with this.
The feeling he was trying to describe goes like: I just killed a life, I have a life, life goes on, life can go on without me, I can go on without that life, other people can go on without my life, life will will go on without mine. It’s difficult I know
I think that fact that you are able to understand that you have no feeling for what you did is a feeling enough. Sometimes our brains cannot or do not register certain events or emotions to analyze them, therefor we feel nothing. This can be because it was born that way or from training or development. A big part of the military training is to mentally break down a soldier's thought process and how they've viewed things all through their lives and to mold it into what the line of duty calls for. That training changed your way of thinking to where you don't think about a situation, it made you rely on your body to take control because muscle memory is faster than thinking about it and reacting. Humans excel at patterns and repetition and that's what the military training does, it desensitizes your brain to something that you've "experienced" before.
You're ability to understand that you felt nothing is your brain saying "This isn't right, but I don't know how to feel" and the more you distance yourself from military lifestyle and such. the more you will be able to think about what you're doing.
"You'd think there'd be some PTSD or something like I'd be sad, but I just wake up and it's like 'there's that dream again....' "
Bro that's PTSD. That's 1000% PTSD. I hope you manage to find some closure.
Honestly, you had a few seconds to react. That is nowhere enough time to decide "Do I leave him alive" He could've come straight back at you, sure theres that chance he wouldve surrendered but you gotta protect yourself first
Someone tried to murder me as I was stabbed 5 times. I managed to fight my way out of the situation and had a blade of my own that I used to try and kill the guy who stabbed me. This soldier prevented further hostilities by the mugger.. He did what was needed
*oh shit he might have been trying to feed his kids*
Might be the thought of a sane person after going through this.
I wouldn't let someone murder me in an alley...even if they had kids at home to feed. 🤷♀️
@@shanna3148 He feels nothing after going through this, he should feel something at the very least. At no point did I say not to defend your self.
I believe this man is suffering from suppressive guilt. Subconsciously he suffers with the endless thoughts of the situation, and feeling no pain, guilt, or sadness about the said situation. It put you in a depressive state without you even knowing it. He was groomed to be a weapon and someone attacked the weapon.
He's not not feeling anything. He's feeling something and processing it in a different way. He needs to talk to someone.
ive never been in anything like that, but he was seconds away from killing you and your friend, had you not defended yourself, you and your friend wouldnt be alive to tell this story.
This guy has to acknowledge he had been freshly trained to kill like of course its gonna be first instinct at the time like if he acknowledges and accepts that's why he killed him he will feel better but may also grow a hate for the army for it
He protected his life, you’re not supposed to feel bad.
Love your vids
If you're friends with this man tell him I'm not thanking him for his service I'm thanking him for making through the struggle to this day. This shit got me crying ong
In all honesty I may not be a soldier but I understood the whole idea of life and death. When it comes to it even the wisest can't see all ends. And when he said "I felt nothing" that hit me deep
coming from a former ww1 and ww2 solider you have to stay tuff bro like when i killed hitler that was very brave of me salute me
coming from hitler himself, you didn't kill me. I am still alive you peasent
so relatable
@@sccaree wya fool square up i may be in my 20s but i can throw a punch
coming from obama sin ballen i can relate
nah bro you 200
No one should ever feel bad at all for killing someone in their own defense. You just gave this guy the justice he deserved. I love when thieves, home invaders, rapists and murderers get their own. Making the world a better place.
Why does this remind me of SAO when Kirito felt no remorse for taking a life. I feel like he's in the exact same situation.
He’s rational, but also a good person. It was self defense, but taking any life is a shame.
I think there is a 99% chance your friend set you up. It was probably a friend of his that tried to rob you. Your training came in to effect, and you completely neutralized the threat. You don't know what he was capable of if you didn't stab him.
Yes. This also further complicates the question of what he should have done when he got control of the knife. If he thinks it's possible that his friend has set him up he should not throw the knife away. However, that would mean he would be fighting one handed if not trained or skilled enough to use the knife non-lethally.
What makes you think that?
He was going to take your life for a wallet. You are a very humble person for thinking you are in the wrong.
"When you threaten my life, you, at that point forfeit, your life." No remorse. No guilt. You made your choice. When its an innocent life that is different.
Not feeling anything is different than not knowing what it is that you feel.
A lot of people in the military who have killed people say they don't feel anything after and THAT is the thing that haunts them, the thought of being void of remorse or sorrow. If you are the guy in this video or another in the same situation I want you to know just because you don't "feel" sad or sorrow doesn't mean you are a monster or heartless. You are very much full of heart, thoughtfulness, and so much courage. You did the right thing and you must remember that. If you didn't they could've killed or hurt so many people for a very unjust cause.
To the person in this video. That man tried to KILL YOU. You saved yourself and possibly others. You are trained to do exactly what you did in that situation and they train you to do that for a reason and must not foregt that. The fact that you are scared you don't feel remorse tells me you very much do feel disheartened about it your just thinking so hard to feel it more that you think you don't feel it at all. The second that man tried to attack you he put his own life on the line too and he knew that. Your not a monster man sp do not think that, your no where near that. In fact that man who tries to kill you was infinitely more of a monster then you. Keep your head up you did absolutely nothing wrong.
I'm Ex Canadian army, this is a classic case of training kicking in perfectly. Unfortunately training doesn't take into account how people are emotionally effected by their iactions regardless of how engrained and trained instincts are.
He was trained as a soldier. Soldiers are not trained to save a threat, they're trained to eliminate it so the ones you fight for are safe. It's not something that needs emotion yes and honestly it's best that way. Your emotions amplify your experiences and help show your expression sure, but they are not you yourself. Thoughts that come back to you, areas you go to or even people you see; whatever you allow to dwell with you shows you care for it. You care about something a lot, it's around you a lot. You don't care at all, it's not with you at all. Folks that suffer from PTSD are under stress because of experience but what breaks them are the things they care about during the initial cause of the stress be it friends, associates or just people in general; sometimes just living. Like the soldier said, he felt no emotion taking that guys life but he does care that he took his life. This is why we must stay sober in the things we do. No matter the circumstance we must have self control of all parts of ourselves at all times because giving up one part always makes it deteriorate into the worst state of itself. Emotions will become negative, thoughts will become twisted, your body becomes unhealthy. One of those things breaks down it could lead to everything else falling too if control is not regained.
I feel bad for this man. This is so sad.
its a sign of a good man if he's questioning if its right that he feels nothing.
he had to kill him in order to survive. yes he could have just taken the knife, but there's always another weapon or tool the attacker is willing to use if he's going as far as to try to kill a stationed soldier. He feels nothing because he did not kill a man. he killed a monster.
a lot of soldiers (american soldiers idk about other militaries) talk about feeling the same exact way and it seems like they are in a big cycle of existential depression because they all describe not feeling anything when they had to kill someone and that’s what gets to them the most. and i’m speaking from a outside perspective when i say this but i just wanna let vets know that they’re not monsters, they are trained to be able to go into a hostile situation and take someone’s life without their emotions clouding their judgment it’s just ingrained in their brain so it’s almost like second nature. i wish they all could know this
The best way I can describe this numbness is-
like it makes you feel like your emotions dont exist or there just numb and you cant feel any emotion I cant describe it-
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That man was ready to take your life for a few dollars. He didn't care if you lived or died. It fair an square.
this is so surprising to be rlly early
Yeah because a guy stabbing someone in a turmoiltuous country like Quatar is less important than being early
Shit he saved my countryman. He is a hero in my eyes. Self defense. He had control of everything, down to emotions.
My grandfather was in Vietnam and how this one man he was assigned to kill said in broken English before you kill me please tell my mother my wife and kid I love them
Jesus that would mess me up for life. I hope your grandpa is ok
@@eye4aneye760 he's fine just really messed up not from that but from war
Theory of Self-Preservation is the basis of self-defense. It's how we are just built to survive and we are just in the moment that we shouldn't rationalize but let the instincts kick in. Guilt comes after.
Wow this story is...wow
stfu you didnt even watch it yet
@@_dajo lmao. Did he post this comment like seconds after the video was posted?
@@eli_r6514 yep, "20 seconds ago" it said
@@_dajo haha. I hate it when people do that.
“Amazing video” -Some random person
*video was posted 1 minute ago*
B R U H
@@eli_r6514 yeah same, I don't understand why they do that
There's only one feeling that you should be looking for after that... The feeling of your heart continuing to beat, you are alive... And had you reacted differently.. you might not be... The next guy that had to deal with the mugger might be dead... That guy made his decision.. you just reacted... You didn't even have the time to make a decision. You did the right thing
There is no problem. "I don't feel anything about the incident." Good, you should put it behind you. "I should feel something about the incident" Why? You did what you felt you had to do to protect your own life, no one can fault you for that. There is no reason to torture yourself over emotions you aren't feeling. It really baffles me on a logical level but I can understand it's a complex emotional issue.
You reacted normally and continue to act normally so in the end my advice would be to stop worrying about it.
Get this dude to 100 likes well said my friend
If you listen long enough, you realize he definitely got PTSD from the incident.
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No, he didn't had the only weapon the other guy had, he had the only weapon HE KNEW the other guy had, subconscious working there
primal instinct of survival reasons in your head the justification to kill to protect yourself. remorse only come into effect when you had time to think about how the situation unravelling could be dealt differently.
It sounds like he's grappling with the fact that he did it with indifference. Thats the most unsettling part for him as most people would feel frightened, aggression, anger, disappointment, pity, or any sort of emotion regarding the act or the consequences but he treated it like he's just going to get a slap on the wrist after taking a life.
“No bastard ever won a war by dying for his country. He won it by making some other poor dumb bastard die for his country.”
- General Patton
He is a better guy than most. There are way too many adults who relish the the thought of having someone one break into their home to have an excuse to shoot someone.
when someone challenges you for blood they choose the stakes of the fight. A fight to the death is just what that is. the fight wont end till one of you do in a situation like that. when you enter your instinctual mode like fight or flight you dont stop until the threat is gone or the adrenaline runs out. Alot can happen in that time and humans are pretty fragile creatures, you can end up killing someone before you even thought about what just happened
He defended himself, the deceased didn't assess the situation and paid for it. Cleaning the yard one at a time
your not a monster, you would be if you didnt feel guilty, your human and were defending yourself true, but you say you dont feel anything, but the mere thought , the mere feeling of remorse proves that you are human.
I feel bad, that he feels so bad, about what situation he was put in. You gotta do what you gotta do
u did it in self defence witch could be why u dont feel anything. u didnt have a choice to think. the guy sprinted towards u. 2-3 seconds to act. man u did the right thing. i am happy u did cuz i am so glad u are alive. who would know what would happen if u stod down?.
You should feel more heroic that you saved 2 lives.
In the Army you are trained to act before you think. You most likely subconsciously was thinking “okay, I have the knife, what else does he have? Does he have another knife?” Your body moved on it’s own because you didn’t know what COULD happen. That’s why he feels no remorse, think about it this way, instead of being sad you took a life, be happy you saved a life.
Sounds like he's feeling alot of things in actuality.
I don't believe that the absence of feelings is a kind of problem, we usually try to compare our experience with things that we've already seen and think that is some kind of example... but this comparison is already unreal, since it's just thoughts based on your experience and morals.
I didn't killed anyone, but I know how hard it is with ourselves when we try to understand why some feelings don't fit our expectations... and I think it is ok!
Acceptance is the key :)
(Sorry if my English is imperfect, I'm still learning ✌🏻)
There is a moment in our careers where we stop feeling we ignore all pain and emotion I feel like with what happened to him it was so extreme that he could not feel no longer
One thing that I have been told by several family members who served in various wars is that if someone forces you to the point of taking their life, their intention is to take yours and that any thoughts of how their family feels about them not coming home is something they were willing to do to you.
I’m new to your channel I’ve watched quite a few videos. They really make you think on how your day change instantly at that moment. Amazing videos as always bro!
I have high functioning autism, because of that I have trouble understanding emotions. I ask this same question almost every day because I feel so alone from people. I hope this person heals from his pain.
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I get what you mean by you had the knife. Just because he lost the knife, it doesn’t mean he wasn’t dangerous. He made his choice. You neutralized the threat and possibly even saved your buddys life or the life of his future victims.
Humans have evolved to become top of the food chain killers. He was out into a position where he was forced to act instinctively
Instinct of survival,
nothing more, nothing less.
Just normal instinct that we have for hundreds of thousand of years.
His voice is haunted by the ghosts of the past god bless this man
He is trained to be a killing machine in the army and good soldiers do kill without thinking of the quote on quote opponent as an another human