Art Saved Me.
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- Опубліковано 22 вер 2023
- In this video I will be discussing my life and the ways that art has helped me through tough times. Warning: This video touches on some sensitive subjects such as bullying, abuse, poverty, and depression. The artwork being shown in the video is a recent commission I did of a fireweed flower in colored pencil. I got the reference by (Erik_Lyngsoe) on Pixabay. You can find that here: pixabay.com/photos/leaf-firew...
Materials (affiliate:)
Holbein Artists' Colored Pencils- shrsl.com/48jq7
Faber-Castell Polychromos- shrsl.com/48jq9
Prismacolor Premier- shrsl.com/48jq8
Derwent Lightfast- shrsl.com/48jqa
Caran d' Ache Luminance- shrsl.com/48jqb
Koh I Noor Polycolor- shrsl.com/48jqc
Soho- www.jerrysartarama.com/soho-p...
Prismacolor colorless blending marker- shrsl.com/48jr6
Fluid 100 Hot Press Watercolor Paper- shrsl.com/48jr7
This video is not sponsored by any of the companies mentioned.
Please note: Product links used in description are often affiliate links, this means I earn a small profit when someone uses my link to purchase a product. However, there is no additional charge to the person who is purchasing the product.
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Music:
Piano sound in the beginning is my own.
Editing programs:
Corel VideoStudio Ultimate 2021
CapCut
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It is not a depressing topic! It's the truth, I came from a poor, abusive background. If it was not for my grandparents, I don't know where I would be today. They became a grounding force. You never have to let your past keep you down. You can do this, you are good enough! Thank you so much for sharing. I know how hard this must have been for you. ❤
Thank you, Teresa. I'm sorry that you had a rough upbringing, too. I'm glad you had your grandparents and that you made it through. You're awesome, and I appreciate you. It is a tough subject to talk about and a bit nerve-racking. But I hope it reaches the people who need to hear it and that it helps them feel less alone in this world.
I want to apologize to you Teresa, there had been a nasty response left on your comment. I'm not sure if you saw it or not, but I have removed it and blocked the user.
Shana, thank you for putting my name on your list of supporters. It has touched me deeply!
There's a lot of common ground between us from the point of view of background, and I honour you immensely for telling your story, encouraging others to believe in themselves, to find, each one, that special gift, and to use it, no matter who says what about us!
I, too, was supposed to fail, but I, too, have certain gifts which have carried me through the dark dark times. As I look back over 73 years, there have been some extremely bleak times, but in spite of that (in fact, because of that!) needing to use those gifts for others, plus my faith, have brought me through, and the threads of pure joy weave a shining pattern through all of that.
It's telling our story, or relevant parts of it, straight out, which is a lifeline that we can offer to others, and so many can be helped just by the telling - helping them to realise that they aren't abnormal, aren't useless, are far more than "whatever" " whoever" said to us! I'm deeply thankful that you've had the strength and courage to tell it out here. Shana, you may never know who you've helped, but you can be sure there will be many, many more than you ever dreamed of. 🤗
Thank you. Your words mean so much to me. I was nervous about posting about something so personal, but I'm glad I did. My hope is that this video will find the people who need to hear it. Others like us. Thank you for sharing some of your experience with me as well and making me feel less alone! I'm glad you overcame the obstacles and that we can communicate with one another on this level. It means a lot!
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Thanks for sharing your story, very uplifting! Proud of you!❤
Thank you, Lindsay. That means a lot! 💖
Hi, I am one of those classic UA-cam ‘lurkers’. I’m always here, but generally silent. Despite being 56, it’s still a confidence thing with me. I found myself nodding along whilst both listening and watching your beautiful art appear before my eyes. It’s an odd fact that I did not feel too surprised at your life story. I think that may be because you have always remained humble about your art, and perhaps because my own life has been unkind, and that alone allows one to spot a fellow striver. I have been physically disabled from the age of 12, but on top of that, and by far the worst, was my crippling shyness, and a violet, cruel family life. I too just kept on going, and, despite the nay sayers, I have a beautiful, kind daughter of 34 who I am immensely proud of. Married and widowed twice before the age of 37, and becoming more sick as the years went on, I experienced a lot of deep depression. People would tell me I was/am strong and resilient, and I can agree, from the outside at least. Inside, I still battle my demons from the past, along with the somewhat unfair set of genetics that seems to try and kill me off every year or so. I used to paint and sketch with my 2nd husband, who was himself a talented artist, but when he died 9 years into our marriage, I hung up my pencils and paintbrushes. I do regret it, but at the time, I felt I had my very young daughter to help through the loss of both her Dad and Stepdad. We only had each other. Looking back, I now realise that was not the best way to go about things. You must feed your own soul first, before looking to feed another, or you simply run out of the will to trudge on. In the last two years, I have begun to pick up my paints once more. I still have the Cotman set of watercolours given as a gift by my husband, but I keep them safety tucked away, as they have been used a lot, and I want to save the remains as a physical memory. Instead, I bought a small Rosa Gallery single pigment set. Unlike yourself, I am not talented, nor am I particularly artistic, but the process of putting pencil, or paint to paper is slowly but surely beginning to heal, and not just hide, my past traumas. Life is still tough, and I am now confined to a wheelchair, but my arms still work!! I shake if I paint too long, but that’s ok. I feel it’s good to take a break from a project, especially when feeling frustrated with myself, or worse, allowing the demons of my past room in my head to put me down, or ridicule me.
Thank you so much for sharing a little of your life. It will, I feel sure help many such as myself feel much less alone. I wish you nothing but success in life. As for me, I shall most likely go back to simply being a lurker on your channel, but I am here with you. 🖌️🎨👩🏻🎨🧡
Thank you so much for commenting and sharing your story with us. I really appreciate it. Your's is a story of true preserverence, both for you and your daughter. I'm glad that you have found your way back to creating and that it gives you some solace. I appreciate your support, even if it is in silence, and I am glad you are here! I would feel the same way as far as the watercolor palette from your husband goes. We need to cherish those special memories. Thank you so much for reaching out and making me feel recognized. I was nervous to post this video, because it's a sensitive topic, but seeing all the kind comments and being able to relate to others who have similar backgrounds has proven that I made the right choice. I wish you and your daughter all the peace and happiness in the world. Thanks again, it means more than you know. 💖
I’m 63 now and am retired with a studio full of art supplies. I have a loving husband now, but when my husband before died it was art that helped get through that and now makes living with lupus so much easier. I always loved art but didn’t really start my serious journey until I was 48. I’m so glad you didn’t buy into the lies you were told.
I'm so glad that art helped you through. I couldn't imagine how hard that must have been losing your husband. And living with lupus on top of it all. I'm glad you have found happiness again! Thank you, I'm glad I didn't buy into it all either. I had a rough start, but I'm excited to see where the future will take me.
@@CautionArtistatPlay I’m especially impressed you went to art school. Often humble beginnings and the willingness to standup to negative messaging make us even more determined to succeed. I made a pact with myself I would see this life long dream through, and you are making a very successful living. And your art is beautiful and inspiring 😊.
I agree with what you have said here about determination, and I am glad that you made that promise to yourself! I went to school later in life, I was out of high school for 10 years before I went to college. It was a big step for me as far as healing goes. I still deal with anxiety, and going to school was something I needed to prove to myself that I could do. I know I don't need a degree to be a professional artist, but I really needed that experience in other more personal ways. It was an amazing experience, and I am so glad that I did it...for me.
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Thank you for sharing your story, Shana. To know what you have overcome is so inspiring! And as a side note...I really enjoy your UA-cam channel and learn from your perspective/style of art, ideas, techniques and supplies. 🙂
Thank you, Michele! I'm so glad you enjoy my videos, I always appreciate your comments and support! 🥰
A lot of us grew up without much in the way of extra money! I grew up in a one parent, one income home. But as you said, the moment you see something you want, you start figuring out how to make it coz you knew you weren’t buying it. Now I have way more art supplies than I need and I feel so fortunate to be able to share supplies with friends who maybe can’t afford them because I’ve seen how much they can help mentally and physically. I really didn’t care for school and my mom was a teacher lol. My brothers way to brainy (no common sense of course!) but I was the wild child. I can’t say I felt like my life was lacking as a kid. My life kinda went sideways after I married. But everyone has struggles, it’s how you walk away in the end that matters. I wouldn’t be who I am today and you wouldn’t be who you are without going through the things we have! Be proud girl, you’re an inspiration to a lot of souls and a damn good artist to boot! PS.. Doublewide blues!
Thank you for sharing your story Bel! It's nice to be able to relate you in this way. I agree, you make do when you want something bad enough! I don't think people fully understand until they have been through it. I'm glad you are in a better place now! Thank you as always for your kind words and support. It means more than you know!
I stumbled across your channel when searching for reviews on the Golden Open Acrylics. I was instantly a fan. Your whole demeanor and authenticity of who you are is magnetic. You have a positive energy. This video really hit home with me. I've been struggling with my mental health for a few years now. Diagnosed as bipolar II. Lately I've been finding it hard to look in the mirror and love the person I see. I have always loved art and started college with the intention of becoming an art teacher. I was in honors art and art club in high school. Like you that's the only time I felt relevant. Then my disorder got the worst of me and I dropped out of school in 2019. I haven't picked up a paint brush since. I felt like making art on and off over the years but just never felt good enough. Recently I've felt the pull to start painting and sculpting again. That's why I've been doing research on some products. Fate lead me to you, which lead me to this video. It was like the universe wanted me to hear everything you said here and remember who I am as an artist. You don't have to have the best of the best right off the bat and you can't expect yourself to be Picasso. But you can create art and it can heal you. So thank you for this. This entire channel but especially this video. We tend to forget that we are not the only ones who are struggling and that failures are not final. So thank you for making my heart feel creative again. It really means a lot.
I am so glad you have the desire to create again Mallory. Life certainly has a way of throwing hurdles at us. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I'm humbled to know that my videos have made an impact on you and that this video has made you feel less alone. Your comment makes me feel seen, and I am sure that your story will also help others who are feeling alone. It means more than you know. I wish you much strength and success in life and your art journey, whatever that may look like to you! Sending many positive vibes your way!
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is so much like mine. I also grew up in a trailer park and like you I had some good memories. We played outside a lot! We definitely were looked down upon by teachers and other kids for living in “the trailer park” but my art and music is what got me through it. I’m 56 now and have every art supply I could want, but growing up I had to work to buy clothes and shoes and sometimes my school supplies. I never invited anyone over except my very best friend who knew where I lived. My parents did the best that they could. It was easier for them after my sister and I graduated and moved out. My much younger brother had a very different life than we did. I’m glad that you overcame all those obstacles and are doing well. Art has helped me get through some very tough times in my life! It always brings me joy! This was a great video and it is so reassuring to know that I’m not the only one who has experienced so much of what you talked about. I do feel it has made me a very strong and opinionated person and If anyone says something derogatory about trailer parks I always tell them I grew up in one. It shuts people right up! Mess with me, you mess with the whole trailer hood!
Thank you for sharing your story. It's nice to have someone to relate to. I'm the same way when I see people putting down others who are in similar situations to where we come from. I get protective, lol. I find I am able to joke a bit about my own life at times, though. I think that growing up the way we did can lead to a bit of a dark sense of humor! Thank you so much for watching, I'm glad my story resonates with you, and I am happy that you made it through! Thank you for making me feel less alone. 😊
I admire your courage to share this with us 🧡
I am in the process to find out who I really am. I have always adjusted myself to others. In my early childhood it was survival and I never learned who I was as a person.
To be able to (really) feel how another person is feeling and adjust to thát feeling can be a skill and it was for many years in my work as teacher. I’ve helped so many kids with their issues, but forgot one important person…myself.
All that adjusting and adapting left a scar…I honestly don’t know who I really am; what makes me (instead of others) happy.
Art saved me two years ago. I found something I am good at and I can be in my own bubble. Often I think that I am not good enough to sell something. I don’t have a clue what I should ask to a customer. I know where it comes from…It feels I have to put a value on something I created and for me that is so hard. I prefer to ask someone else to give it value…but in psychology that isn’t really healthy is it 😅
I can relate to so much of what you have said here! I am also an empath and a people pleaser. I think it comes from living in survival mode for so long and having to learn other people's body language, so that we can plan our next move to either deescalate a situation or protect ourselves somehow.
I also have a very difficult time charging what I am worth. I was taught never to ask others for things. Also, growing up without a lot of money can make it difficult to fathom someone being able to spend hundreds or thousands on an item that isn't considered a necessity. But I have to remind myself that there are others who are able to afford luxury items such as art. And my art and my time are worth something!
I am glad you have found art and that it gives you a sense of purpose! I wish you all the best in your future creative endeavors! Thank you for watching and for sharing your story. 💖
Aww sweetie you have come such a long way! Sending you many gentle hugs, I've got your back!
Thank you so much, Heather, that means more to me than you know. 💖💖💖
Your artwork turned out amazing! I commend your bravery sharing your story, I know it will resonate with many and offer hope to some who are in similar situations to what you have dealt with. Keep creating Shana, it’s a joy to see your work.
Thank you so much, Angela, I appreciate your kind words and support. 🥰
Shana, I appreciate your sharing this with us. I was fortunate enough to have an almost idyllic upbringing, and it is good for me, even at 62 years old, to be reminded that not everyone has had life so easy. This, in turn, reminds me to always be aware of and sensitive to others' problems and worries resulting from previous or existing hardships. You have clearly come a long way over a difficult road, and now you are deservedly enjoying the better things in life. So, thank you for sharing these personal things, and most of all, thank you for sharing so much of your talents and knowledge of art with me and many others. I have been following you for some time now, and you have taught me a great deal. I'd like to think that I, too, am one of your core followers. I suppose you should never really forget the past, but I am certain you must always find happiness in the now. My best wishes and regards to you and your family.
Thank you so much for your kind words, as always. As soon as I saw you had commented, I thought, oh darn, I should have listed his name as well! I was worried I would leave someone out, so I am truly sorry about that because I think of you as one of my core people as well. Thank you so much for your support after all this time. I really do appreciate it! 💖
@@CautionArtistatPlay You are most welcome, Shana. And don't worry about the omission. I wasn't intending to point out anything like that. Just that I'm still around, still watching your videos, and always rooting for you. Keep up the great work!
Thank you, I appreciate you! 💖
you have no idea how much I needed to hear this.. thank you
I'm glad my story has helped you in some way. Thank you for watching. 💖
I am 70 and grew up poor. I was bullied because I was french living in Ontario. I would make Barbie dresses out of holy socks, no I didn't have a Barbie, just a cheep doll. I had a teacher in high-school who told me to always do art because I had a gift. Anyhow it has taken this long to get here, but I'm here and I am happy. So yes good for us, we made it.
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I also used to make doll clothes out of old socks and clothes that I had outgrown! It just speaks to our innovation! I'm glad you are here and that you are happy now! 🥰
I'm sorry for the hard times that you've suffered through. I feel like you are a very strong, determined individual, that won't let anything stand in the way of what you want to achieve in life and I'm sure that comes as a result of your upbringing...kudos to your perseverance. You are an amazing artist, with a good head on your shoulders and will continue to do many more fantastic artwork creations in your lifetime to come. Hopefully one day soon, I will own one of your pieces of artwork and proudly display it in my art room. Keep up the awesome work you do Shana! 🥰
Thank you so much, Cheryl. I really appreciate your words of encouragement! I always enjoy interacting with you in the comments section, and I appreciate your insight and support. 💖
You're welcome Shana, and thank you for your kind words as well. I always enjoy your videos and interacting with you too. BTW, I hope your beautiful Leo is doing better now.
He is, he's much better now! We still aren't 100% sure what was going on. We were worried he had a blockage or something, but they couldn't see anything on the x-rays. The vet gave him something for his appetite, and he is acting like himself again! Thank heavens!
@@CautionArtistatPlay I am so glad to hear your Leo is doing better. I love cats, but unfortunately where I live at, I'm not allowed to have pets and it breaks my heart. A lot of commercial cat toys have objects attached to them that aren't really safe for them to play with. Like a small bell, glued on eyes, foil type of fabrics. I would always have to inspect all the toys before giving them to my fur babies. My Mom's cat chewed on and ate some of the 6-foot long tinsel that you'd drape down from the top of the Christmas tree and had to have surgery to remove it from his intestines. He almost died because the tinsel didn't show up in the X-Rays and it ended up being an exploration surgery, when the tinsel was found. After that, we never had any kind of tinsel on our Christmas trees again.
@cheryl6716 Ugh, I couldn't imagine not being able to have pets! Leo has an unfortunate habit of chewing the straps off of reusable shopping bags. We have them all out of reach from him, but we were worried he somehow found one since he likes to get into everything and is awfully sneaky as most cats are. Thankfully, this time, he came out of whatever was ailing him, but it's always a worry for us. Unfortunately, he absolutely hates going to the vet, so the whole ordeal was quite stressful for him. I still have scratches on my wrist and hands that are healing from him, lol. But he's home and all better now!
Thank you for this video. I have been feeling empty lately, and have realized it is due to a disconnect from the Lord. I love your morning prayers, and am inspired to do the same.
I'm glad my video could inspire you in some way. I hope that you find the peace and the connection that you are looking for! ❤️
Beautiful story ❤
Thank you. 💖
Wow! Shana, Many thanks for sharing your story!!! it's very touching! I want to tell you that your story touched my heart❤ because I have depression too, a long, long time ago, until now. And I understand you, because it's not easy! and I also understand what poverty is. Let me tell you, If I admired you, now, I admire you more! because you can work with those serious situations, and you be able to turn the impossible into something possible and real! ❤ I am not yet where you are, right now, and I do not know if I can do it one day, but, I'm in the process. But your story gives me motivation, it inspires me to tell myself that I can do it too. And your words are worth gold to me. You are a great Artist Shana! and a great person!! I love your humility 😊 Thanks for what you do. I always love your artwork, and I always want to support you, big hug for you, from me and from Puerto Rico 🇵🇷
Thank you so much, Claritza. I'm sending a hug back to you! I'm glad that you found my story to be touching, and I'm happy to hear that it gives you some hope. I have no doubt that you can be whoever you want to be and do whatever you may want to do. Your words always bring me sunshine, and I can tell you have a kind heart and a good soul. Thank you as always for your kind words and support, I always look forward to our interactions, and I am so glad you are here. ❤️❤️❤️
@@CautionArtistatPlay awww! Thank you so much for your beautiful words Shana! For your motivation!❤❤❤Thanks! you're so lovely person!🥰🤗 your words mean a lot for me, I hope I will do it🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
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First time here. Probably because of the Rourke and because it's art. Beautiful work. Question: is a colorless blender the same as an alcohol blender?? Also found out that i also have cptsd. Also had (and so do have) low self esteem but got attention from my artistic abilities in my younger years. After I became a parent I kinda put that all away and went to work. Now, I'm making greeting cards, partly because it's, to me, like little mini art pieces that I can sell. But I wish I'd have stuck to my fine arts. I try sometimes to draw and such but I can see that I'm really rusty and kinda stuck back in an unrefined style. Anyhow, just wanted to say, yup, we're out here😅 and thanks for reaching out with a positive message😊
Hey there, and welcome to the channel! Yes, the colorless blending marker is a colorless alcohol marker! It works great for blending colored pencils! Rubbing alcohol and q-tips also work if you are in a pinch! I'm glad that my message resonates with you. I'm also happy to hear that you have found a creative outlet with card making, I bet your cards are beautiful and bring a lot of joy to others! It's never too late to get back into fine art if you decide you want to! It may feel a bit uncomfortable, and you may feel rusty at first, but the skills will come back to you eventually. UA-cam is also a great place to learn! I'm sorry to hear that you have cptsd and have dealt with low self-esteem. It can be such a battle, and it can affect parts of life that seem to be unrelated to the trauma. I'm currently reading "The Body Keeps the Score" by Bessel Van Der Kolk, and it's amazing. It comes at trauma from all angles and really gives a better understanding of just how deeply we as people are affected by the trauma we have endured. I highly recommend it. Thank you for watching, and I hope that you continue to grow and heal, and you have the life that you have always deserved to have. 💖
I was supposed to fail! But I blew it!
I'm not good at failure!