the worst thing for me about being bipolar is all the regret i have. i've done so many bad things and have destroyed so many important relationships. i'll have to live with that for the rest of my life.
Pam Bennett I hope time heals your wounds. Taking ownership for your actions and trying to work on the issues with the people that you care about is all you can do. My sis in law is bipolar, and she's devastated the family with her lies and manipulation. She has such a kind and beautiful side as well, so it's very difficult to stay angry at times. She was diagnosed as a teen and is now 32. She refuses to get help, and says the Dr's are wrong. She's lost her children, and unfortunately self medicates, so is in full blown addiction as well. I hope she gets help, and soon! (sorry to over share) I wish you the best of luck! I know it's hard to deal with, but if you keep working hard on yourself, my guess is people will come around and forgive! You can't help having bipolar. All you can do is manage it the best you can! 💞
Yes true. You bipolar destroys relationship. I had an ex who left me for another guy that easy and showed no REMORSE. She would even ask me 'WHAT DID I DO TO YOU?' Seriously she asked me that?? I hate bipolars!!!
I had one person tell me that mental illness wasn't real and that it was a cop out. My parents also believed the same thing when I told them my diagnosis in college. No one understands how debilitating it is unless they go through it.
cheer up, calm down, slow down, what you got be depressed about, why you so happy when you should be depressed. Your on a rant, you're rambling, you're crazy, you're not sick, you're sick go get help. Just some things people say to me.
I know. People should be educated. Psychological Disorders should be regarded with more care. I known People for whom it ended lethal. You know what i mean. And at the grave everyone sais: "If only she would have seid something.... She did.... about a 1000 times. But well ... it is not a serious illnes. Right?
I have bipolar disorder II. I am hypomanic. People say it's better than BP 1, but trust me it sucks. I am so jealous of normal people... But when I am in hypomanic state I feel great. I appreciate life, the universe, I feel this life, I even enjoy breathing fresh air outside. I was able to start several successful businesses in that mode (and killed them when I was depressed). But when I am depressed I don't even go outside that much. I feel like piece of shit. So It's a gift and a curse. I can't work for someone, I am unemployable, so I simply have no choice but to do things that I enjoy and hope it makes some money.
When I'm severe depressed I always put this on. See these people, almost crying, putting their faces on, fighting the stigma, oh, this makes me feel better. These ones have balls.
Thank you sir. I am Sheldon in the video. it was very difficult to do this I still dont share with many friends, but slowly with a select few, some of my friends have found it here and told me. Hope all is well. thanks for watching.
It sucks. I hate being bipolar. I'm so lucky to be from a family that can afford my treatments. To those who are bipolar, have to get up every morning, work several jobs, and still not have health insurance and support, I salute you. You are heroes.
I have had episodes and had no support, got fired from my job due to an episode and had no income, and car broke down too, got a job while depressed so I could keep paying the bills, hated my job and going thru a year depression which was the worse, had no family support, they all live far away. So thankful for friends that listened to me while depressed. I have health insurance, but had to fight for that too. Got back on my feet, worked 2 full time jobs for a year, bought a car cash, and saved some money in case I ever have an episode again staying on my meds,and I live on my own too. I’m BP 1 And I support my father in Brazil. It’s been a bumpy road.
The woman who talks about the 40-year friendships being gone...wow, I can really relate. Add family to that, and this disorder is very isolating and lonely.
I feel like when you tell your friends that you have bipolar disorder, that's when you find out who your real friends are. My friends were surprisingly the ones who told me that I may have it in order to help me figure out how to make me feel better. For them to do the research to tell me that, it really means a lot.
One impression I have got from this Video is that the BIPOLARs are in general Intelligent and sensitive people. Thanks for the time and efforts devoted to this initiative of yours.
One thing I would like people to know about MY illness, is that I have NO violent tendencies, I think people wrongly are scared of "crazy" people. That is the stigma, we have to live with. I was adopted, and have no genetic history, and it took me until I was 43 to diagnose myself, then get the right medication and get help. I am sad to see untreated people die, such as Kurt Cobain! Don't give up helping people, there is nothing to be scared of! We aren't BAD people.
Even during the 90s, Bipolar was not an official diagnosis and it was difficult for psychiatrists to give them that diagnosis. There wasn't that much treatment in the 90s, sad to say, and for someone as famous as Kurt Cobain to see a psychiatrist, the general public would've been like, "Oh, Kurt is crazy!!" So, poor Kurt had to suffer in silence.
Lisa O. Davis I'm sorry people have stigmatized you! That isn't fair to you. Everyone that has bipolar or any mental illness is different. Your experience may be completely different from a person next to you suffering
This video was wonderful! My daughter has bipolar disorder. She is very open about having bipolar and what she's feeling. We talk every single day. It's such a struggle for people like her. She had a job at a hospital and was fired after one of her hospitalizations because she was cutting and needed so much time off work. If people in the healthcare field can't be understanding about this and other mental disorders is there any hope for people suffering from theses mental disorders? I can assure you, firing her didn't help her situation one bit! I was so angry with them. She tries so hard to be "normal". It isn't a choice!! If you know someone with a mental disorder and care for them, even a little bit, stick by them. Help them. Listen to them. Be u understanding. PLEASE!! You just might be the one person who keeps them from harming themselves.
You're so right, although exhausting as it may be, supporting a loved one with Bipolar disorder it makes a difference. Personally it makes me feel that someone loves me and I need to keep on living. Wish you all the best🌷
Having suffered with bipolar my entire life I can relate to these people. There are days when I feel defeated. The only way to escape the pain is death. Then I realize that thoughts are just thoughts. One thing I've found helpful is writing in a journal. Capture your thoughts, and then look at what you've written. It helps understand the triggers. With this disease I have learned that you have to get it into your mind that you will not be defeated by it. You have to adopt the warrior mindset. Push through the pain. There's a light at the end of the tunnel if you keep moving forward. The darkness is temporary.
Thanks for saying that. It's a hard fight when your thoughts are telling you everyone is against you one minute and a little while later you feel fine, but you've treated the ones you love like they don't love you. If that makes sense.
the woman with the short hair who brilliantly articulated the kite/anchor scenario really needs to write a book. she's so insightful, & inspirational. what a special person.
I'd love to see a documentary about the patient's family and/or caregivers, I think there is such a need for those who are affected by a loved one's mental illness to have some sort of education as well as something to support the caregivers. Because it effects so many people & that can have a ripple effect on the mental state of those around.
I wanted to let you know that eight years later you are still making an impact. Thank you for this film and helping my family understand what I go through.
I have tried the whole spectrum. ECT aswell. And tons of meds. Today I am without medication. I got worse from the meds. So it does not help everyone. I cope with gym, gaming and excersice with my dog. But its so hard some days. So fucking hard. Sending a hug to all you Bipolars watching this, and the family and friends of Bipolars.
i suffer major depression anxiety and c.p.t.s.d. both my daughters have bi-polar ..and yes education is a must for those who don't suffer ...i have also lost 7 in my family to suicide and i say we are so so strong , for us who do live with our illness ..bravo to those who were interviewed in this video and to all of us ....EDUCATION IS NEEDED
It must’ve taken so much strength to type this very personal story. I am so sorry for your losses and I love your optimism. You’ll be okay. I hope your daughters know that they will be okay as well. You aren’t alone in this ! Neither are your daughters. Keep your head up x.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 at 14 and it made me feel horrible but great at the same time. Horrible because I was part of a fraction of people who have a disorder. Great because I finally have a name to put my feelings too.
This is the best movie I've seen yet on BP disorder. I have a very good friend who has BP and I say has BP rather than is BP because I don't believe BP defines who he is. He's very brilliant, kind-hearted, talented, and so real. Yes, there's many ups and downs I've been through with him as described in the movie, some days very dark and difficult, but I just fasten my seatbelt and stay on the ride. He has been knocked down so many times in his life but gets back up...back in the fight and more courageous than ever. I admire his strength. He has taught me so much about life, love, and people, making me take a deep look inside me and learning what is truly valuable in this life...unconditional love, the important people in our life, our children, our true friends...I truly value his friendship.
I have rapid cycling Bipolar 1 and this documentary put into words the things that I could not. I plan to show this to my family and say "This is who I am. Stop trying to make me into something or someone I'm not." Thank you so much for making this!
I feel that. Endlessly having to watch your thoughts is exhausting. I would love to be able to act on my emotions without thinking like an average person for just one day. You're a badass though. Handling all this shit is like lifting mental weights and I'm pretty sure it turns into a super power.
I hope things are going well. Remember the small things and humility. You are still the same person and worthy of the same joys before learning about the diagnosis ✌🏽
My mother will deny that there is anything 'wrong'. She treats me like a mental deficient who can't look after herself. This documentary - which she won't watch - is a wonderful tool to help people know what it's like to be Bi Polar.
Sorry to hear that. I have an aunt who is really intelligent and creative, but the bipolar and her meds make living alone nearly impossible. It's a rough time.
This film is so amazing. One of my good friends showed it to me and I have never felt more understood. I have watched it numerous times now. I just want to say thank you to the person who uploaded this and to everyone involved in creating this film.
Thank you for this. I have Bipolar 2, depression and sever anxiety with panic attacks. I have shared this on my personal wall, my public page and my closed group. Please continue ending the stigma. And thank you to all of you who were brave enough to come forward and share your story. Much love and peace to you all.
thanks. this documentary is excellent in showing what living with bipolar disorder is like. I found myself crying at some moments but at the end it is very inspiring.
I was diagnosed at age 20 and have been fighting so hard to stay afloat. This documentary was the first one I've seen that really opened my eyes to the fact that my mood swings are NOT a character deficit but rather a chemical imbalance. I always knew that, but until I hearing others talking about not being able to control the intense moods just now in the video, I didn't really believe it. Incredible documentary
I was diagnosed with type 1 bipolar disorder with psychotic features in 1999 at the age of 17. It knocked my life off track as I recovered, forcing me to leave high school. I did get that diploma with a perfect GPA, obtained my college diploma in mental health and addictions, and worked in some of my dream jobs. It becomes harder to handle if you stop taking stabilizers. Find something you're passionate about, and use it as motivation to stick with treatment. I have one child and went off meds for pregnancy and nursing. It was rough, but going back on meds made me feel ok again. It's not a life sentence to a chaotic life. You have the choice to treat the chaos - give it a chance.
Thank you for this. I’m trying to become a doctor and I have moments when I want to throw it all away and couldn’t see it for myself and other times when I knew it was what I’m destined to do. Some days I want to give up and other days I feel motivated to chase this dream. I’ve recently started meds and need to remind myself that I’m doing this for me and to get where I want to be in life.
Thank you for this! As a 24 year old who has had bipolar 2 with rapid cycling most of my life (though only diagnosed about 5 years ago) this is a wonderful way to get the word out and show that we are not terrible people. What is "Normal" if not the usual state of being for the INDIVIDUAL!
My sister was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and I possibly could be too, and this was very uplifting. It helped me understand all the things I was seeing in my sister, and also accept that this is not her, it is simply her disorder. I love her more than anything in the entire world, and I will support her through anything. For anyone else dealing with this disorder personally, or with a loved one, I ask you to never give up, and to always remember that things will get better (even if they take a really, really long time).
That is a great way to be with your sister, and you helped her just by watching the documentary. Educating yourself is extremely important. Your sister is fortunate to have a person like you in her life.
As a bipolar person, I feel this was a really good documentary. I wish there was a black male and a black female doing the interview, so I could have someone who represents the background or environment that I came from. That being said, the documentary was really good. The young man interviewed wearing the hat made a commit about not being near as creative on medication is actually how I feel. Medication is a way of life for me now and I've made adjustment for the lack of creativity.
Billy Gibbs Perhaps Black males are like the one guy said. Just too proud to go on camera. As a nation, we are all together and any of us can have the disorder. I am white female and have a black female best friend that is perfectly normal and she supports me all the way. She is opened minded and understands that as humans, we all have flaws
Manchester Moon...Thanks for sharing. I really enjoyed the documentary. I would have loved to have been interviewed and given a chance to share my experience as an African American male on this subject.
My sister is a Black Psychologist. I can give you her information. There is a black Psychiatrist that talks about it. I have to look at my history to remember her name. However, race is not a necessary factor to consider when considering MI. There is a stigma in the black community regarding MI. I was raised by a Psychologist. I don't shave that stigma. This is why zI can tell you that race regarding MI is of no consequence. My husband suffers this and he is Hungarian. It sucks either way. 🌻
I found this today and its the best video I have seen yet to help explain how we as people that have Bipolar have to go through.... I have it and I hate it... I feel like a knife is going through my heart. No one knows the lonely feeling that one feels people say go out and do something go to the store or the movies. And It may help.. We want to be held but then do not touch us... My skin crawls feeling like needles, feels scared, panics, afraid to go out the door.. call someone then do not want to talk.. Sometime just hearing a voice helps. I hate all this crying and being scared. I live in a Beautiful place... I live near the water in Corpus Christi. I go out to the water and all I want to do is walk out as far as a i can and never come back. If I could live under the water that's where I would be. I get hungry but don't want to eat because I feel that I am eating food that others need.. I know silly, but that's how I feel. I am sorry to keep going on and on...
Wow, it is amazing how little the general public really knows about Bipolar Disorder. Made me a little sad really... Mood Swings seemed to be the general response but that is such a basic and vague response. Its like someone describing depression as being sadness. Yeah sadness is part of it, but it is so much more complex than that.
the general public really knows litle about Bipolar Disorder to the point of not knowing that what they have or someone near them exhibits has the name of a disorder and is not just a mood or a personality trait.
Amazing video! I recommend this 100% whether you suffer from a mental disorder or not. Really glad I watched this, this really gave me some hope. Thank you to the creator of this video and all the people who gave their time and experiences to make it possible.
I'm bipolar and my dad is bipolar too. Being bipolar is living in pain, specially when the family did not support us. Thank you for his documentary. But I think you need more examples like mine. Sometimes we are completely alone in this world.
After watching your video on a disorder I have dealt with all of my life, I'm impressed by these people's frankness in speaking about it. Their courage will inspire those who are still working through all the phases. Thank you for sharing, as I will be with the people who do know me.
Very good documentary. As a sufferer, I have struggled to fit in and try not to be self loathing. But I definitely have had my family members treat me like a special case. Like I am still a child acting out. They just don't understand
I am bipolar I. I have found that cannabis is the perfect medicine. I believe that the pharmaceutical industry is overdiagnosing the illness, but that doesn't mean that some people don't have it. I wish they would have waited until my brain had developed before they started pumping what seems like poison into it. I encourage those affected to have a talk with their physician and psychiatrist about cannabis as an aid to their medication or even a replacement. There is a careful and safe way to go about this. If you are affected with schizophrenia or have a schizophrenic subset of bipolar disorder, I do not recommend it. Be safe.
I find it sad at the continued ignorance of judgement of others towards anyone with the diagnosis of "bi-polar". Would they do that to someone with diabetes? or cancer? No. It's a disorder of the brain. There is medication and therapy available. With the continued discussion and awareness, I hope that those who feel the need to be rude and ignorant, will see that those feelings are based on their fears of not knowing. I admire the courage of all that participated in this movie and thank them for sharing their lives and experiences.
A big thanks and enormous respect to each and every one of you, for giving your testimony on this often misunderstood condition...This has helped me!!!
I was hesitant to appear in the video but reading through the comments years later makes me realize i made the right choice. I appreciate that it is helping others. ~ Sheldon
Good documentary except for one minor detail that I think is important. They never mentioned any addictive behaviors (specifically with drugs, alcohol, etc.) in this documentary. I believe that most addicts (not all) have bipolar too and the issue of addiction should be looked at while discussing bipolar.
thats exactly what i thought when i found out there is a disorder caled BP with these characteristics .i believe most are BPs self medicating on the other hand i dont like it that clear lines are drawn as if thats BP" behavior and thats" normal" behavior
I was officially diagnosed with an extreme case of bipolar disorder , this movie really touched my heart and made me tear up because it is everything ive been trying to explain to my friend and family and even myself , i feel happy and sad and i feel a huge relief , this is beautiful and im going to use it to show my friends and family so they can understand me better
Thank you Arpi-Revo for sharing this. Thank you Kyle Gehring for making this documentary. The explanation at 1:17:28 of what it's like to live with bipolar disorder was great. (while the other people in the other boats have oars in their hands, some of us are managing our kite and our anchor.)
The best by far documentary on a disorder I deal with every day of my life. I love the woman that said, " Please don't throw us away." I love that they emphasize that it is such a small, small amount of people who are violent and commit violent crime. We are not! We are great friends, mothers, sisters, brothers, sons and humans that need your love.
I stumbled across this and found it highly informative. I have lived with my Bi-Polar for some years now and I identify with all of the interviewees. I was encouraged by their stories. I am very upfront and honest when it comes to my disorder (to the point where I was actually fired from my job for being so honest) and I try to raise awareness of the condition and educate people further. Great documentary, many thanks! More non-sufferers should watch this.
Feelings of love and appreciation to all those out there dealing with this extremely difficult disorder...I have a few friends that are Bipolar and this video helped me understand them better...sensitive, intelligent, creative people and very strong humans as well.
if you know someone you love has this disorder then don't beat them and walk away, when you walk away you walk away from it , we don't ,it follows us forever ..be patient with your loved one ..educate yourself and understand your loved ones struggle with this horrible destructive disorder..
This is absolutely amazing. Right now, I am on an extreme low but this has helped me so much. I could never understand why I did the things that I did. I describe myself as a run away train and hard to control! I can be creative and motivated and want to throw it all away. I'm always to blame for the end of relationships, poor choices, etc. It's me but many times it's the disease that takes over my body tremendously! Thankful for this. I will watch when I'm sad or lonely...
The woman who shared about the effect of the shock treatments and how she couldn't remember her daughter's name....I got so choked up and and teary eyed. Just broke my heart!!!
I have a husband and a son with Bipolar. I hate this disease. I have seen a full manic episode in my husband twice. My son was diagnosed early in his teenage years. He is very artistic and musical, he can listen to a song and play it.. His airbrushing art is awesome. But from my side and my other son, it's a hard thing to see your loved one going through this. Thank you so much to the people who shared their life in this docco,
my hardest part is being on a serious low point and then coming out of it it evolves into a anger/rage or i seriously start lashing out and suddenly im back to normal it effects every relationship in my life
What disturbs me about the public opinion is, that they think, that we are permanently in the extremes. I was diagnosed in 2004. So i have a little experience. But really most of the time i can stay in Neutralmode.... It only sometimes slips away in to the extreme. In the moment i am close to the low. So i avoid things that depress me. When i am close to the high i never take my Bankcard with me and only a small amount of money. Because otherwise i d go "shopping" and spend it all in less then 1 hour.
Amazing documentary. Love the no-nonsense style and the music. One guy in the poll in the beginning said something like that all he knows is that bipolar people are pain in the ass to live with. I would like to alter: the bipolar disorder itself is the true pain to live with. I am not bipolar, but I have seen at least one side of the show (specifically, depression) and it is a thousand-fold hell. I happened to heal up completely and forever, but I will never forget the torture. So much sympathy for these people.
To anyone who suffers from bipolar (me included) or anyone who is close to a bipolar sufferer, please just give an hour of your time to watch this documentary. Bipolar (for me anyway - no generalisations!) has been really hard to try and understand and comes to terms with. Just an hour of your time can help you understand the problems that sufferers go through Please watch this
this documentary was extremely well done, one of the best i have watched. did a great job at educating people on what bipolar disorder actually is since a lot of people use the term lightly. thanks for posting.
Thank you so much for this very informative and insightful video. I believe that my son maybe suffering from Bipolar Disorder and your video has given me the strength to stop fighting his condition and be way more supportive and understanding as a father! I now look for the strength to gently coerce him into a diagnosis so that he can receive ongoing treatment in order to help even out his extremes of mood and make life much more manageable for him; not to mention those around him who suffer just as much after one of his episodes! Thank you again.
Just recently diagnosed with Bipolar, scared mostly. Actually, terrified. I don't want to lose my creativity- the highs- I hate the lows so, I suppose it's give and take. I am scared that nearly everyone will blame my feelings on Bipolar instead of trusting that I also am a human with feelings that matter. Not everything can be bipolar talking. It's the scariest thing I have ever been through. A lot of my family and friends won't understand. Especially if they don't have it or love someone who has it. The stigma is so tough to get through, even for me. I have a deep family history of bipolar. This has got me questioning every single thing, and every single decision I have made in my entire life. Ugh, so impossibly scary.
Same brah. I'm a little over a year post diagnosis at this point and the worry about that stuff comes and goes. What I've done is accepted that the bipolar shapes me, that it's a part of me, but not all of me. The highs and lows are less and I'll be completely honest with you. I miss both. I'm still figuring out how to enjoy life with a little more gray. Finally, people are assholes. A huge portion of them won't get it and you'll have to let people know with discretion. They'll dissapoint you sometimes anyway. That's not you though and you can keep looking cause man, some people won't.
Amanda McCarthy you are not alone dear. My mother had it and my sister hasn’t been diagnosed but she exemplifies the symptoms of BP I or II. I’m sorry it’s scary and just know there is light at the end of the channel. My prayers are with you dear.
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the worst thing for me about being bipolar is all the regret i have. i've done so many bad things and have destroyed so many important relationships. i'll have to live with that for the rest of my life.
I know how you feel.
i've also done that, but i dont have bipolar :I
+Pam Bennett You and me both
Pam Bennett I hope time heals your wounds. Taking ownership for your actions and trying to work on the issues with the people that you care about is all you can do. My sis in law is bipolar, and she's devastated the family with her lies and manipulation. She has such a kind and beautiful side as well, so it's very difficult to stay angry at times. She was diagnosed as a teen and is now 32. She refuses to get help, and says the Dr's are wrong. She's lost her children, and unfortunately self medicates, so is in full blown addiction as well. I hope she gets help, and soon! (sorry to over share) I wish you the best of luck! I know it's hard to deal with, but if you keep working hard on yourself, my guess is people will come around and forgive! You can't help having bipolar. All you can do is manage it the best you can! 💞
Yes true. You bipolar destroys relationship. I had an ex who left me for another guy that easy and showed no REMORSE. She would even ask me 'WHAT DID I DO TO YOU?' Seriously she asked me that?? I hate bipolars!!!
"Nobody really wants to die, they just want the pain to go away"
Kinda weird how I can relate so much with people that have the same mental illness as me, it's like we shared the same personality
True!
@@thetechnoking LOL yes!!
Yup !
True
Ive struggled with severe manic bipolar disprder my entire life.. Who else watched this while they were in a Low? It helped. Thumbs Up.
same here
Hang in there! I am bipolar myself. Just dont give up!
oh it so helped only when i read your comment stepped back and felt like i wasn't quite so heavy minded. TY
i wasn't in a low but i can understand how it would help, i feel a little clearer because of this
I am very manic and have only slept 14 hours the ladt 48 hours. I cant cobtrol it
I had one person tell me that mental illness wasn't real and that it was a cop out. My parents also believed the same thing when I told them my diagnosis in college. No one understands how debilitating it is unless they go through it.
Only one person? I've heard this crap so many times! Makes me furious!
It'd a mood disorder, not personality disorder. Most people don't know the difference
cheer up, calm down, slow down, what you got be depressed about, why you so happy when you should be depressed.
Your on a rant, you're rambling, you're crazy, you're not sick, you're sick go get help. Just some things people say to me.
I know. People should be educated. Psychological Disorders should be regarded with more care. I known People for whom it ended lethal. You know what i mean. And at the grave everyone sais: "If only she would have seid something.... She did.... about a 1000 times. But well ... it is not a serious illnes. Right?
I been told the same thing about anxiety and depression
To my friends that are bipolar, at the end of the day, know that I am still here by your side.
Thank you.
Thanks x
Thank you!
thank you....awareness and a hug is everything
Thank you
I have bipolar disorder II. I am hypomanic. People say it's better than BP 1, but trust me it sucks. I am so jealous of normal people... But when I am in hypomanic state I feel great. I appreciate life, the universe, I feel this life, I even enjoy breathing fresh air outside.
I was able to start several successful businesses in that mode (and killed them when I was depressed). But when I am depressed I don't even go outside that much. I feel like piece of shit. So It's a gift and a curse. I can't work for someone, I am unemployable, so I simply have no choice but to do things that I enjoy and hope it makes some money.
I know exactly what your talking about
same
Felt
Alex Shuster i felt this 🙏🏼.
Alex Shuster feeling every word you wrote.
I cried when I was diagnosed, it explained so much that i could never put a finger on.
Karlsburg Zekman me too
People who aren’t bipolar don’t understand how it really feels
I agree....some still assume one needs to be in an extended care unit or institutionalized
Or worse they assume we are horrible people who are out to manipulate and get people
When I'm severe depressed I always put this on. See these people, almost crying, putting their faces on, fighting the stigma, oh, this makes me feel better. These ones have balls.
Thank you sir. I am Sheldon in the video. it was very difficult to do this I still dont share with many friends, but slowly with a select few, some of my friends have found it here and told me. Hope all is well. thanks for watching.
I do this too. Just finished watching it again❤
it took me 3 years to get out of depression. now I'm picking up the pieces of my broken life. Hope I can stand up again.
yes you can
I believe in you !!!
I feel you 😙
We still believe and have that hope for you
It sucks. I hate being bipolar. I'm so lucky to be from a family that can afford my treatments. To those who are bipolar, have to get up every morning, work several jobs, and still not have health insurance and support, I salute you. You are heroes.
I have had episodes and had no support, got fired from my job due to an episode and had no income, and car broke down too, got a job while depressed so I could keep paying the bills, hated my job and going thru a year depression which was the worse, had no family support, they all live far away. So thankful for friends that listened to me while depressed. I have health insurance, but had to fight for that too. Got back on my feet, worked 2 full time jobs for a year, bought a car cash, and saved some money in case I ever have an episode again staying on my meds,and I live on my own too. I’m BP 1 And I support my father in Brazil. It’s been a bumpy road.
I'm not alone.
lou healy yes we are not alone. .must strong..
Your never alone
Exactly
Very informative documentary. To my fellow HUMANS who are Bipolar I wish you all the best in your present and future. You all deserve it.
:) I call people humans too and I'm bipolar 1! High 5!
*who HAVE Bipolar Disorder
I’m bipolar and this explained my condition so well. Thanks for your well wishes xx
Thanks
Enigma1990ad
Thank you. Knowing is half the battle.
My name is Dominique, I’m 33 and I’m bipolar. I’ve accomplished some amazing things in life but suffer a lot on my own mind. I withdraw from ppl.
The woman who talks about the 40-year friendships being gone...wow, I can really relate. Add family to that, and this disorder is very isolating and lonely.
Yes very lonely push everyone away😢
I feel like when you tell your friends that you have bipolar disorder, that's when you find out who your real friends are. My friends were surprisingly the ones who told me that I may have it in order to help me figure out how to make me feel better. For them to do the research to tell me that, it really means a lot.
You are very self aware to receive help! I applaud you! You’re beautiful
One impression I have got from this Video is that the BIPOLARs are in general Intelligent and sensitive people. Thanks for the time and efforts devoted to this initiative of yours.
+Bhaavya Gupta Bipolar disorder does absolutely not affect one's intellect!
One thing I would like people to know about MY illness, is that I have NO violent tendencies, I think people wrongly are scared of "crazy" people. That is the stigma, we have to live with. I was adopted, and have no genetic history, and it took me until I was 43 to diagnose myself, then get the right medication and get help. I am sad to see untreated people die, such as Kurt Cobain! Don't give up helping people, there is nothing to be scared of! We aren't BAD people.
Even during the 90s, Bipolar was not an official diagnosis and it was difficult for psychiatrists to give them that diagnosis. There wasn't that much treatment in the 90s, sad to say, and for someone as famous as Kurt Cobain to see a psychiatrist, the general public would've been like, "Oh, Kurt is crazy!!" So, poor Kurt had to suffer in silence.
I agree. We aren't bad people. I had a doctor who told me I can not have children because Im bipolar. WTF
Lisa O. Davis I'm sorry people have stigmatized you! That isn't fair to you. Everyone that has bipolar or any mental illness is different. Your experience may be completely different from a person next to you suffering
Its not like you have Antisocial Personality that shit is way more stigmatized.
I understand that. I have bipolar and I have no violent tendencies. People are always scared of people with bipolar because they know us as dangerous.
My girlfriend, who has bipolar, told me to watch this documentary. This will help our relationship undoubtedly. Thank you so much for making this.
I relate to when the gentleman said that it "feels like you are driving down the road without a steering wheel.."
I often feel like I'm a puppet and someone else is pulling the strings that connect to my mood, thoughts and emotions.
This video was wonderful! My daughter has bipolar disorder. She is very open about having bipolar and what she's feeling. We talk every single day. It's such a struggle for people like her. She had a job at a hospital and was fired after one of her hospitalizations because she was cutting and needed so much time off work. If people in the healthcare field can't be understanding about this and other mental disorders is there any hope for people suffering from theses mental disorders? I can assure you, firing her didn't help her situation one bit! I was so angry with them. She tries so hard to be "normal". It isn't a choice!! If you know someone with a mental disorder and care for them, even a little bit, stick by them. Help them. Listen to them. Be u understanding. PLEASE!! You just might be the one person who keeps them from harming themselves.
You're so right, although exhausting as it may be, supporting a loved one with Bipolar disorder it makes a difference. Personally it makes me feel that someone loves me and I need to keep on living. Wish you all the best🌷
Thank you. Just. Thank you. I'm having such a bad day. Its just a down day. This helped me.
You’re an amazing Mom 👏👏👏
I lost my job at a hospital too whilst I was hospitalised it really screwed me up
"nobody wants to die, they just want the pain to go away" amazing quote right there! awesome video!
Having suffered with bipolar my entire life I can relate to these people. There are days when I feel defeated. The only way to escape the pain is death. Then I realize that thoughts are just thoughts. One thing I've found helpful is writing in a journal. Capture your thoughts, and then look at what you've written. It helps understand the triggers. With this disease I have learned that you have to get it into your mind that you will not be defeated by it. You have to adopt the warrior mindset. Push through the pain. There's a light at the end of the tunnel if you keep moving forward. The darkness is temporary.
nice. more people should have this attitude. you aren't a victim of your thoughts.
Thanks for saying that. It's a hard fight when your thoughts are telling you everyone is against you one minute and a little while later you feel fine, but you've treated the ones you love like they don't love you. If that makes sense.
the woman with the short hair who brilliantly articulated the kite/anchor scenario really needs to write a book. she's so insightful, & inspirational. what a special person.
I watched this documentary 2 months ago and my life has drastically changed since then. I learned to love myself. Thank you.
I am Sheldon in the video and appreciate it has helped some. I hope all is well for you.
People need to watch this, so many people do not understand people with Bipolar.
I'd love to see a documentary about the patient's family and/or caregivers, I think there is such a need for those who are affected by a loved one's mental illness to have some sort of education as well as something to support the caregivers. Because it effects so many people & that can have a ripple effect on the mental state of those around.
Trust me when I say just love us,never give up on us and YES,education is extremely important too.
It has some of that at 1:00:33
I wanted to let you know that eight years later you are still making an impact. Thank you for this film and helping my family understand what I go through.
I have tried the whole spectrum. ECT aswell. And tons of meds. Today I am without medication. I got worse from the meds. So it does not help everyone. I cope with gym, gaming and excersice with my dog. But its so hard some days. So fucking hard. Sending a hug to all you Bipolars watching this, and the family and friends of Bipolars.
I wonder how you can dislike this documentary? WHY???
i suffer major depression anxiety and c.p.t.s.d. both my daughters have bi-polar ..and yes education is a must for those who don't suffer ...i have also lost 7 in my family to suicide and i say we are so so strong , for us who do live with our illness ..bravo to those who were interviewed in this video and to all of us ....EDUCATION IS NEEDED
Katrin Murnain im sorry for your loss. but yes. we are strong.
It must’ve taken so much strength to type this very personal story. I am so sorry for your losses and I love your optimism. You’ll be okay. I hope your daughters know that they will be okay as well. You aren’t alone in this ! Neither are your daughters. Keep your head up x.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 at 14 and it made me feel horrible but great at the same time. Horrible because I was part of a fraction of people who have a disorder. Great because I finally have a name to put my feelings too.
+carlos non-ya I hear you.
Dude yea Fr it’s terrifying not knowing why you feel so manic and can’t stop being so fiendy and addictive behaviors
Am I the only one who cried uncontrollably through this whole documentary?
no
+Michelle Martin no. me too
+Michelle Martin Nope
+Michelle Martin Me too
+Michelle Martin
no
Bipolar is hard to deal with. The Meds alone are hard to deal with such as the weight gain , no energy , lack of cognitive .
+Avianca G Agreed. Can't even play guitar anymore due to the fucking meds..
This is the best movie I've seen yet on BP disorder. I have a very good friend who has BP and I say has BP rather than is BP because I don't believe BP defines who he is. He's very brilliant, kind-hearted, talented, and so real. Yes, there's many ups and downs I've been through with him as described in the movie, some days very dark and difficult, but I just fasten my seatbelt and stay on the ride. He has been knocked down so many times in his life but gets back up...back in the fight and more courageous than ever. I admire his strength. He has taught me so much about life, love, and people, making me take a deep look inside me and learning what is truly valuable in this life...unconditional love, the important people in our life, our children, our true friends...I truly value his friendship.
Debi You are an angel ! Thank you for what you do.
I miss being manic. Bliss and agony is the closest I can come to describing it. It's a double edged sword.
that's pretty much how mania feels.
"They're a pain in the ass to live with." Man, coming from a person who has bipolar disorder, this made me laugh harder than I probably should have.
I have rapid cycling Bipolar 1 and this documentary put into words the things that I could not. I plan to show this to my family and say "This is who I am. Stop trying to make me into something or someone I'm not." Thank you so much for making this!
Feels like there's zero hope for us. I'm sick of trying to balance my moods.
I feel that. Endlessly having to watch your thoughts is exhausting. I would love to be able to act on my emotions without thinking like an average person for just one day. You're a badass though. Handling all this shit is like lifting mental weights and I'm pretty sure it turns into a super power.
Seriously!
totally relate! So, what to do eh? What are we left with knowing that? The only thing is right now!
I hope things are going well. Remember the small things and humility. You are still the same person and worthy of the same joys before learning about the diagnosis ✌🏽
My mother will deny that there is anything 'wrong'. She treats me like a mental deficient who can't look after herself. This documentary - which she won't watch - is a wonderful tool to help people know what it's like to be Bi Polar.
Christina C it hurts me to hear that . I've experienced the same things and it's sad .
Christina C my mother is the same way! I can’t even talk to her.. she is so dismissive..
Christina C ❤️🤗
Sorry to hear that. I have an aunt who is really intelligent and creative, but the bipolar and her meds make living alone nearly impossible. It's a rough time.
I have been struggling so bad and since watching this things have become SO CLEAR thank you !!!!!!
This film is so amazing. One of my good friends showed it to me and I have never felt more understood. I have watched it numerous times now. I just want to say thank you to the person who uploaded this and to everyone involved in creating this film.
You're lucky that you have such a good friend.
Thank you for this. I have Bipolar 2, depression and sever anxiety with panic attacks. I have shared this on my personal wall, my public page and my closed group. Please continue ending the stigma. And thank you to all of you who were brave enough to come forward and share your story. Much love and peace to you all.
thanks. this documentary is excellent in showing what living with bipolar disorder is like. I found myself crying at some moments but at the end it is very inspiring.
I was diagnosed at age 20 and have been fighting so hard to stay afloat. This documentary was the first one I've seen that really opened my eyes to the fact that my mood swings are NOT a character deficit but rather a chemical imbalance. I always knew that, but until I hearing others talking about not being able to control the intense moods just now in the video, I didn't really believe it.
Incredible documentary
I was diagnosed with type 1 bipolar disorder with psychotic features in 1999 at the age of 17.
It knocked my life off track as I recovered, forcing me to leave high school.
I did get that diploma with a perfect GPA, obtained my college diploma in mental health and addictions, and worked in some of my dream jobs.
It becomes harder to handle if you stop taking stabilizers. Find something you're passionate about, and use it as motivation to stick with treatment.
I have one child and went off meds for pregnancy and nursing. It was rough, but going back on meds made me feel ok again.
It's not a life sentence to a chaotic life. You have the choice to treat the chaos - give it a chance.
Thank you for this. I’m trying to become a doctor and I have moments when I want to throw it all away and couldn’t see it for myself and other times when I knew it was what I’m destined to do. Some days I want to give up and other days I feel motivated to chase this dream. I’ve recently started meds and need to remind myself that I’m doing this for me and to get where I want to be in life.
Thank you for this! As a 24 year old who has had bipolar 2 with rapid cycling most of my life (though only diagnosed about 5 years ago) this is a wonderful way to get the word out and show that we are not terrible people. What is "Normal" if not the usual state of being for the INDIVIDUAL!
I love this documentary. I wish friends and family made a point to understand what's going on with people like us.
I have Bipolar. I sent this to all of my family. Hopefully it helps.
My sister was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and I possibly could be too, and this was very uplifting. It helped me understand all the things I was seeing in my sister, and also accept that this is not her, it is simply her disorder. I love her more than anything in the entire world, and I will support her through anything. For anyone else dealing with this disorder personally, or with a loved one, I ask you to never give up, and to always remember that things will get better (even if they take a really, really long time).
That is a great way to be with your sister, and you helped her just by watching the documentary. Educating yourself is extremely important. Your sister is fortunate to have a person like you in her life.
Silvia Rosina thank you for those encouraging words!!
@@jenniferkelley4297 agree
Reading the comments and thinking "yeah, I'm not alone"...
As a bipolar person, I feel this was a really good documentary. I wish there was a black male and a black female doing the interview, so I could have someone who represents the background or environment that I came from. That being said, the documentary was really good. The young man interviewed wearing the hat made a commit about not being near as creative on medication is actually how I feel. Medication is a way of life for me now and I've made adjustment for the lack of creativity.
Billy Gibbs Perhaps Black males are like the one guy said. Just too proud to go on camera. As a nation, we are all together and any of us can have the disorder. I am white female and have a black female best friend that is perfectly normal and she supports me all the way. She is opened minded and understands that as humans, we all have flaws
Manchester Moon...Thanks for sharing. I really enjoyed the documentary. I would have loved to have been interviewed and given a chance to share my experience as an African American male on this subject.
My sister is a Black Psychologist. I can give you her information. There is a black Psychiatrist that talks about it. I have to look at my history to remember her name. However, race is not a necessary factor to consider when considering MI. There is a stigma in the black community regarding MI. I was raised by a Psychologist. I don't shave that stigma. This is why zI can tell you that race regarding MI is of no consequence. My husband suffers this and he is Hungarian. It sucks either way. 🌻
I found this today and its the best video I have seen yet to help explain how we as people that have Bipolar have to go through.... I have it and I hate it... I feel like a knife is going through my heart. No one knows the lonely feeling that one feels people say go out and do something go to the store or the movies. And It may help.. We want to be held but then do not touch us... My skin crawls feeling like needles, feels scared, panics, afraid to go out the door.. call someone then do not want to talk.. Sometime just hearing a voice helps. I hate all this crying and being scared. I live in a Beautiful place... I live near the water in Corpus Christi. I go out to the water and all I want to do is walk out as far as a i can and never come back. If I could live under the water that's where I would be. I get hungry but don't want to eat because I feel that I am eating food that others need.. I know silly, but that's how I feel. I am sorry to keep going on and on...
I haven't been able to stop crying since I started the video. Everything that's been going on makes complete sense.
Wow, it is amazing how little the general public really knows about Bipolar Disorder. Made me a little sad really... Mood Swings seemed to be the general response but that is such a basic and vague response. Its like someone describing depression as being sadness. Yeah sadness is part of it, but it is so much more complex than that.
Tina Kat
Yes
the general public really knows litle about Bipolar Disorder to the point of not knowing that what they have or someone near them exhibits has the name of a disorder and is not just a mood or a personality trait.
The comment sectiom has been help all on its own! Thank you all!
Great documentary!
Amazing video! I recommend this 100% whether you suffer from a mental disorder or not. Really glad I watched this, this really gave me some hope. Thank you to the creator of this video and all the people who gave their time and experiences to make it possible.
I'm bipolar and my dad is bipolar too. Being bipolar is living in pain, specially when the family did not support us. Thank you for his documentary. But I think you need more examples like mine. Sometimes we are completely alone in this world.
Hug. Take care.
It's amazing what people's misconceptions are of mental illness.
I am so grateful to have seen this movie, it put into words all that the disorder is.I have struggled for so long and this is really a gift.
This spoke to my heart. Thank you for it.
I feel like I'm fighting myself.
Thank you! Perfectly said😊
Mania is like a light switching on. Suddenly all these fascinating corners of the brain you barely knew were there are lit up brilliantly. Wow!
After watching your video on a disorder I have dealt with all of my life, I'm impressed by these people's frankness in speaking about it. Their courage will inspire those who are still working through all the phases. Thank you for sharing, as I will be with the people who do know me.
Very good documentary. As a sufferer, I have struggled to fit in and try not to be self loathing. But I definitely have had my family members treat me like a special case. Like I am still a child acting out. They just don't understand
I hope you can distance yourself from them. Mistreating you is a form of abuse whether they know it or not.
I HATE how people JUDGE those of us with SEVERE BIPOLAR DISORDER !!!!!!
all i have to say !!!!! 😡🔥
+Jon EC Me too!
I think my daughter has it and I just want to learn as much as I can
I am bipolar I. I have found that cannabis is the perfect medicine. I believe that the pharmaceutical industry is overdiagnosing the illness, but that doesn't mean that some people don't have it. I wish they would have waited until my brain had developed before they started pumping what seems like poison into it. I encourage those affected to have a talk with their physician and psychiatrist about cannabis as an aid to their medication or even a replacement. There is a careful and safe way to go about this. If you are affected with schizophrenia or have a schizophrenic subset of bipolar disorder, I do not recommend it. Be safe.
"On your knees in broken glass and salt" that's a great line.
Thank you so much for posting this. Hearing what others go through, really does help. It makes us feel like we're not alone.
I find it sad at the continued ignorance of judgement of others towards anyone with the diagnosis of "bi-polar". Would they do that to someone with diabetes? or cancer? No. It's a disorder of the brain. There is medication and therapy available. With the continued discussion and awareness, I hope that those who feel the need to be rude and ignorant, will see that those feelings are based on their fears of not knowing. I admire the courage of all that participated in this movie and thank them for sharing their lives and experiences.
As a person living with bipolar disorder, it was very enlightening and very frustrating, to hear people's perceptions about the disorder.
I am Bipolar for 7 years now. Its bad, I hate every second that Im depress or manic. Thnx to this program I feel there's hope
AMAZING!!!!! While watching this film it was the first time I didn't feel alone when it came to my having bipolar disorder.
A big thanks and enormous respect to each and every one of you, for giving your testimony on this often misunderstood condition...This has helped me!!!
I was hesitant to appear in the video but reading through the comments years later makes me realize i made the right choice. I appreciate that it is helping others. ~ Sheldon
Thank you very much for this production. I appreciate it. My wife has bipolar.
This definitely remind and reassure i love her just the way she is.
Thank you for loving her !!!
Thank you for making this documentary. Found myself getting pretty emotional at points. A lot of what was said was very close to my heart.
I've watched this twice. It's such am inspiration. I'm not alone.
Good documentary except for one minor detail that I think is important. They never mentioned any addictive behaviors (specifically with drugs, alcohol, etc.) in this documentary. I believe that most addicts (not all) have bipolar too and the issue of addiction should be looked at while discussing bipolar.
+Russell Hirn Good point
I know so many people who abuse drugs that have BP esp when it goes undiagnosed, they blame the addiction. I blame BP
thats exactly what i thought when i found out there is a disorder caled BP with these characteristics .i believe most are BPs self medicating on the other hand i dont like it that clear lines are drawn as if thats BP" behavior and thats" normal" behavior
true
Great point Russell. My mother had bipolar disorder most of her life. So I witnessed this first hand.
I was officially diagnosed with an extreme case of bipolar disorder , this movie really touched my heart and made me tear up because it is everything ive been trying to explain to my friend and family and even myself , i feel happy and sad and i feel a huge relief , this is beautiful and im going to use it to show my friends and family so they can understand me better
The guy who said "They're a pain in the ass to live with!" Yes. Yes we are. lol
LMAO!
Yeah because THAT dude seems like he's fun at parties... Lol
Yeah, but saying that I think it's very probably that he's a pain in the ass too but without the illness
"I am not what you think I am. You are what you think I am." -Buddha
Thank you Arpi-Revo for sharing this. Thank you Kyle Gehring for making this documentary. The explanation at 1:17:28 of what it's like to live with bipolar disorder was great. (while the other people in the other boats have oars in their hands, some of us are managing our kite and our anchor.)
The best by far documentary on a disorder I deal with every day of my life. I love the woman that said, " Please don't throw us away." I love that they emphasize that it is such a small, small amount of people who are violent and commit violent crime. We are not! We are great friends, mothers, sisters, brothers, sons and humans that need your love.
I stumbled across this and found it highly informative. I have lived with my Bi-Polar for some years now and I identify with all of the interviewees. I was encouraged by their stories. I am very upfront and honest when it comes to my disorder (to the point where I was actually fired from my job for being so honest) and I try to raise awareness of the condition and educate people further. Great documentary, many thanks! More non-sufferers should watch this.
Feelings of love and appreciation to all those out there dealing with this extremely difficult disorder...I have a few friends that are Bipolar and this video helped me understand them better...sensitive, intelligent, creative people and very strong humans as well.
if you know someone you love has this disorder then don't beat them and walk away, when you walk away you walk away from it , we don't ,it follows us forever ..be patient with your loved one ..educate yourself and understand your loved ones struggle with this horrible destructive disorder..
This is absolutely amazing. Right now, I am on an extreme low but this has helped me so much. I could never understand why I did the things that I did. I describe myself as a run away train and hard to control! I can be creative and motivated and want to throw it all away. I'm always to blame for the end of relationships, poor choices, etc. It's me but many times it's the disease that takes over my body tremendously! Thankful for this. I will watch when I'm sad or lonely...
The woman who shared about the effect of the shock treatments and how she couldn't remember her daughter's name....I got so choked up and and teary eyed. Just broke my heart!!!
I have a husband and a son with Bipolar. I hate this disease. I have seen a full manic episode in my husband twice. My son was diagnosed early in his teenage years. He is very artistic and musical, he can listen to a song and play it.. His airbrushing art is awesome. But from my side and my other son, it's a hard thing to see your loved one going through this. Thank you so much to the people who shared their life in this docco,
Thank you for giving such an accurate voice to my condition.
my hardest part is being on a serious low point and then coming out of it it evolves into a anger/rage or i seriously start lashing out and suddenly im back to normal it effects every relationship in my life
What disturbs me about the public opinion is, that they think, that we are permanently in the extremes. I was diagnosed in 2004. So i have a little experience. But really most of the time i can stay in Neutralmode.... It only sometimes slips away in to the extreme. In the moment i am close to the low. So i avoid things that depress me. When i am close to the high i never take my Bankcard with me and only a small amount of money. Because otherwise i d go "shopping" and spend it all in less then 1 hour.
Amazing documentary. Love the no-nonsense style and the music.
One guy in the poll in the beginning said something like that all he knows is that bipolar people are pain in the ass to live with. I would like to alter: the bipolar disorder itself is the true pain to live with. I am not bipolar, but I have seen at least one side of the show (specifically, depression) and it is a thousand-fold hell. I happened to heal up completely and forever, but I will never forget the torture. So much sympathy for these people.
To anyone who suffers from bipolar (me included) or anyone who is close to a bipolar sufferer, please just give an hour of your time to watch this documentary. Bipolar (for me anyway - no generalisations!) has been really hard to try and understand and comes to terms with. Just an hour of your time can help you understand the problems that sufferers go through
Please watch this
If you have good friends and family in your life it can save lives.
this documentary was extremely well done, one of the best i have watched. did a great job at educating people on what bipolar disorder actually is since a lot of people use the term lightly. thanks for posting.
It's heartbreaking. Now I understand their nightmare. My prayers and best wishes to everyone who suffers from this.
Thank you so much for this very informative and insightful video. I believe that my son maybe suffering from Bipolar Disorder and your video has given me the strength to stop fighting his condition and be way more supportive and understanding as a father! I now look for the strength to gently coerce him into a diagnosis so that he can receive ongoing treatment in order to help even out his extremes of mood and make life much more manageable for him; not to mention those around him who suffer just as much after one of his episodes! Thank you again.
Thank you for truly caring. Well done dad for watching this. Take care. Love.
Just recently diagnosed with Bipolar, scared mostly. Actually, terrified. I don't want to lose my creativity- the highs- I hate the lows so, I suppose it's give and take. I am scared that nearly everyone will blame my feelings on Bipolar instead of trusting that I also am a human with feelings that matter. Not everything can be bipolar talking. It's the scariest thing I have ever been through. A lot of my family and friends won't understand. Especially if they don't have it or love someone who has it. The stigma is so tough to get through, even for me. I have a deep family history of bipolar. This has got me questioning every single thing, and every single decision I have made in my entire life. Ugh, so impossibly scary.
Same brah. I'm a little over a year post diagnosis at this point and the worry about that stuff comes and goes. What I've done is accepted that the bipolar shapes me, that it's a part of me, but not all of me. The highs and lows are less and I'll be completely honest with you. I miss both. I'm still figuring out how to enjoy life with a little more gray. Finally, people are assholes. A huge portion of them won't get it and you'll have to let people know with discretion. They'll dissapoint you sometimes anyway. That's not you though and you can keep looking cause man, some people won't.
Amanda McCarthy you are not alone dear. My mother had it and my sister hasn’t been diagnosed but she exemplifies the symptoms of BP I or II. I’m sorry it’s scary and just know there is light at the end of the channel. My prayers are with you dear.
reading these comments and finding this video literally saved me today. thank you.