Well, be glad you made a video instead of another relapse followed by a disappearance with everyone wondering where you went. Proud of you. If you have to make a video every time to avoid it, please do. Hell, man start watching our channels and your own older videos.
Also what you said about my older videos was a real eye opener Man. Like i can get there again, I was there not long ago I just need to keep pushing forward. Thanks again shades 🙏
Hey Slayer, I hope you're feeling better today. I'm so sorry to hear about your mom's dog. I've had quite a few dogs in my life, and it never gets any easier to lose them. As a fellow alcoholic with a PhD in self-deception, I know very well how easy it is to create excuses to "just have one, one more time". Just don't do it, man. Remind yourself of how terrible the withdrawal process is. You don't want to go through that again. "We can't control the direction of the wind, we can only adjust our sails".
Hey thank you so much my friend. 🙏 You’re 100% right man it’s just not worth it. Y’all have really reminded me of why exactly I can’t go back to that poison. Love the wind saying, god bless 🙏
I LOVE THAT YOU CAME TO US to let off some of the steam. We are here for you Slayer. I know almost exactly how you are feeling!!! God Bless you sir, stay strong!!! ❤❤
My family somewhat recently lost two dogs also. Mine and my daughters dog. It's like losing a person. I sense the pain caused by your mind....the devils playground. Wish I had the power to make it go away. I pray that enemy talons will let go and cease and desist! God cover Slayer with the your wings of protection today and everyday. By the power of your shed blood, Lord God, set him free now! In Jesus name....Amen.
Sorry for your loss @RonsMom40, our four legged family members mean the world to us. I’ve lost mine through the years the heartbreak never gets easier…but it’s because we love them so much. Hope all is well with you.
Stay strong, Slayer, you can do this. Get through this dark night, fight the thoughts. Wish you the best that you don't relapse and the dog gets more time!
@@Slayer-7373 Great to hear! Keep going on there! These moments will always come back sometimes, but you can refuse and resist the urge to get the booze. Every time you refuse, it gets easier!
I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Our dogs aren't just "pets", they're family. Having to lose them 2 of them is something I wouldn't wish on anyone. I just pray Chancie gets better but if she doesn't, make her proud and live healthy and sober ❤ The way she would want you to live
One minute at a time. You hold on, peace will return. It’s exhausting the daily battle but I know you can get through this. Praying for you and Chancey xx
In my experience, resisting the urge to drink gets easier the more you do it. It’s like starving a demon that craves alcohol. The more you refuse to give in, the weaker it becomes. Every time you don’t drink when you want to, you’re taking power away from it. Keep going strong, and starve that demon into submission. Cheers, and stay strong! ♥
This comment is spot on!!!! I appreciate you strategicavacodo!! You’ve been here since the beginning and you always leave such amazing comments. God bless 🙏
What do you have to lose by going to a twelve step meeting? It helps to get that shit out at a meeting of other addict/alcoholics. Just keep an open mind about. Stay strong. It’s not easy, but is worth it.
I do plan to join a 12 step program shortly. I will need it, especially after I graduate from the IOP program. I’m looking forward to the friends I’ll meet. I’ve met some amazing people in the group I am now and some meetings in the past. I appreciate this comment bro, thank you and god bless.
One of the hard things in life is saying good bye to our pets. Even harder is watching a loved pet suffer. I hope you made it last night. Keep making it. ❤
It is so difficult grace, you are so right. They are family. I made it through last night 🙏, waking up today and Reading this comments has really listen my spirits. Thank you so much, god bless
Thank you for being so honest! That's why I love your channel so much. Reaching out and speaking those thoughts out is a very important thing to do and the way you talked yourself down in front of our very eyes was pretty amazing but you know as well as I do that saying it and doing it is easier said than done. I'm so proud of you for fighting this terrible craving you were having it's inspirational to me! Keep going big Dawg thanks again!!
What’s up homie! Bro i appreciate you man!! I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again but you and this community inspire me. I plan to take this channel in a different direction. I want to continue to be honest 100% but It’s time to man up. We have responsibilities as men that we need to take care of. No more whining, I just need to tackle these demons when they come with my chin held high. Which I know both of us can do man, we’ve been through crazy stuff but we keep pushing forward. One day at a time dawg, hope you’re well Man. God bless 🙏
I'm proud of you for showing your strength. Takes more than a NO to actually not do it. DO NOT DRINK! Don't backtrack your process. Some people would kill to be in your shoes of recovery or probably dead by now. You are strong. Keep going with your head held up high. God bless you! 🙏🙏💝
It's a TRAP as you said. You cannot afford to entertain the idea!!! But I get it...alc induced self delusion. So far I've been successful. But staying tuned to channels like this and LD are a regular reminder ✌️ 🙏
Absolutely Craig!!! Also it’s 100% self delusion trying to get us to go back to drinking. Super proud of you for staying sober man and I’m glad I’m helping. God bless 🙏
You got this, my friend - I'm so inspired by you sharing your vulnerability and raw emotions, it's really brave! And you're confronting those thoughts, which are just that - thoughts that do not and will not take the wheel - because you, Sober Slayer, have the wheel!! 🚦🛡️ and you are 🆓 !!!
Keep fighting! My parents were alcoholics and i swore i would never repeat that. Then i started to get very anxious and paranoic. I started to drink. It totally took away my paranoia and anxiety, but caused so many more problems. Prayers and love for you and all of us struggling ❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏
Hey mmoose thank you so much!! 🙏🖤, I can totally relate to everything you said. My anxiety y’s and paranoias is what led me to drink, that on top of depression and trauma. It’s the perfect storm for addiction. Prayers and love right back at you!!! 🙏🖤
Everything will be okay Slayer. You and your mom gave her a home with love and she gave love in return not many pets have that gift in life. Stay strong friend we are here for you 💕
Another 27 days up for me. I cannot recall how bad it was 21 days ago. I know I was sick as but can't feel it. If you felt 10 percent of that hangover now you'd be like no way. Hang in there. Sorry to hear about your dogs, I'm sure you all gave them the best life you could.
Knowing your triggers definitely helps! I've been dealing with triggers and have beat them! I'm like you I'm afraid if i ever went on another bender i might not be able to come back from it! Drinking is one of the hardest because It's so acceptable and it's everywhere
Absolutely man, overcoming moments like these only make us stronger. The more you say no the easier it gets. Booze being pushed on people will never make sense to me. It’s crazy but that’s how it goes. God bless you man 🙏
Truly felt your commentary on angel vs. the devil on your shoulder (voices) and the mental warfare you are enduring. Sending whatever strength I can muster through the wire my guy.
slayer i drank last night breaking my 9 day in a row streak and i feel kind of bad about it, i had 4 coronas, but same time i should feel good because for august ive been 22/29 days sober. it is getting easier to quit and today i woke up with a small headache and didnt sleep well. i dont think it was worth drinking last night even though it was a 'normal' amount but dont give in. you dont need it.
Hey Richard that’s okay brother, don’t beat yourself up. There is a new chance and opportunity today. It’s like LD always says we are only failures if we give up and you definitely haven’t given up. Just keep trying bro, you will get it and if you do relapse just pick your boots up and keep marching!! God bless
You had the strength to reach out and make this video. You have so much courage. Praying for you and always thinking of you. May God watch over you Slayer. 🙏🙏 I'm sorry I just saw this. I will send another email. Be safe
Hell yeah brother im glad you won this battle. Seems like everytime ive relapsed, ive already made the decision by the time that thought creeps up. I have to kill those thoughts immediately, i can't let myself indulge in them at all. Playing the tape out works well for me, i know that my life will go downhill so quickly if i pick up again. Keep making these videos bro, keep us updated on how you're doing. It helps us as much as it helps you
I can relate to this so much man, it’s definitely an entire process leading up to a relapse. It’s so subtle and just creeps right back in. Like you said man same here I have to kill those thoughts fast or they do what they did last night and fester. Let’s keep on this sober path brother. And trust me I ain’t going anywhere, I love making this videos and I love this community. God bless bro 🙏
It's absolutely like fighting a war in your head when you are dealing with that obsession. I had mine return not long ago and came so close to throwing everything away. I'm so glad I stayed surrounded by my program, and I'm so grateful to those people who got me through. Nothing is worth picking up a drink or a drug over. We can not control the intrusive thought, but we can control our 2nd thought and 1st action. Stay vigilant and keep sharing. I'm praying for you, and I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. Pets absolutely are family, and it's such a shame that we can not have them with us here on Earth forever. But they'll be there when we get to the other side. ❤ It gets better. Thanks for sharing.
I’m really happy as well that you stayed sober :), you should be extremely proud of yourself. Like you said nothing is worth picking up that poison!! I appreciate this comment so much, thank you 🙏 🖤
The mental factor is very hard for me too! When your mind starts racing and just won't leave you alone is horrible! I'm kicking subs right now! I'm tapering down and very low amount and it's getting difficult! The anxiety and messed up sleep makes it difficult but I'm tired of these invisible cuffs! Prayers brother
Absolutely man it’s a real struggle!!! Only us who have battled addiction really know how bad it is. Good on you brother for kicking subs, that’s awesome. Something you should 100% be proud of. Thank you man, god bless 🙏
Bro. I slipped on my 50th birthday dinner a couple of weeks ago. Just pulling myself back around now. Straight back there. Insomnia, days and nights all fucked up. Pissing around tapering down. Anxiety off the chain. I just need to get 3 days to get clear. Slept through the 1st day already. Stay strong bro. Don't listen. It is a trap. It is NOT EASY. I had 8 months. Prayed for you. The ONLY weapon we have is to weaken it one day at a time.
I was wondering where you were my friend, it’s okay 🙏🖤 just be happy you’re here still and have another chance. It happens, it’s 100% a trap 100% of the time. I’m proud of you for coming back and I’m happy you’re alive!!! SCREW THIS DISEASE!!! When we drink it leads us to the same place, every single time. Every time. Thank you for the prayers 🙏🙏 I will pray for you also. God bless and keep me updated. One day at a time
Hey man stay strong! I know it sounds wierd but I’ve found that certain things gave me anxiety like artificial sweeteners. They are chemicals that cross the blood brain barrier. Xylitol as well. Toothpaste and diet drinks and energy drinks are loaded with these things. Just something to look into. Having near panic attacks for no reason sucks!! Also keep seeking God! Your body is still adjusting and finding a balance and the devil is very real and will lie to you! Prayers man 👊🏼
You’re 100% right man, most of our stuff is loaded with awful chemicals that do nothing but make you feel awful/cause cancer. Wild world we live in. Love this comment bro, let’s keep saying no to the devil. God bless 🙏
Hey Slayer ❤ I'm so mad at myself because I remember seeing this video come up and clicking on the link to check it out, but not having the time to actually watch it. It has been one hell of a week, but I truly meant to come back here! I really feel you, my friend. Heartache is the worst trigger because it's draining. It just drains you of your will and life force. But I know that you've got this. Ask God to help you to live with your grief. He won't take it away, but he'll help you learn how to live with it if you keep your heart open. I'm sending you a huge hug and praying that God lends you strength in this time of grief. You have all of mine coming your way ❤💔❤️
I quit fighting alcohol and drugs and got back on methadone and now feel great and don’t use or drink. I love it. I got tired of torturing myself day after day completely sober. It was just inevitable I was gunna relapse at some point. I am excelling in life now and quit the bullshit and forgave myself for needing methadone and allow myself that comfort and anxiety relief. Love it.
You got this Slayer stay strong brother you can do it!! I know it’s got to be hard but it’s not worth starting over and having to reset. You got this just push through the day man! 💪🙏 and I saw your other post congratulations on your sobriety man I’m on day 43 now and it was the best decision I made 43 days ago!
Hey reggae child!! Thank you brother!! You are an awesome person my friend! Also we both have 43 days that’s awesome!!!!let’s keep going man! 💪💪. One day at a time
@@Slayer-7373 thank you man! I really enjoy your content and the energy keep it up man! 👍 And that is awesome we can do it one day at a time for sure! 💪💪
So real. Just two drinks tonight I tell myself. Kid, you have your whole life ahead of you. I’m not sure why you hate yourself so much but you deserve a happy life without alcohol.
Ain’t that one of the saddest parts….. we have our whole lives in front of us and we are throwing them or “p*ssing” down the drain. I defies logic though. I do think there is a real switch that needs to happen to be able to stay sober. A switch on how your Brain works.
Hey Slayer, I’m so sorry chancie is not doing well and has a host of health issues she’s facing. Please remember that they are not meant to suffer. As an animal lover, I too have been faced with the tough decisions to say goodbye when it’s time. I know it’s painful and unfair as we want them here with us but chancie knows how much she’s loved. Your mom and all those that surround her gave her an abundance of love. If it comes down to it and her little body can’t take it, you swallow that knot in your throat, let her see the love in your eyes and you tell her it’s ok to let go. She will cross the rainbow 🌈 bridge and will play with all the other 4 legged family members that are there. I have four that have passed…it doesn’t get easier. As for that awful little voice, you have to allow it to come through and then shut it down. I know I know easier said than done. But it’s possible you’ve been doing it for 41+ days. You have to associate ☠️ with the end of your life. Period! The health issues will subside, take the medication, ☠️ will not fix it. Im so glad you jumped on and put your thoughts into existence. Today is a new day and I have faith you remained sober. If you didn’t, then you start again and keep trying. There will always be bad shit that happens and the ☠️ creates more bad shit. I’m here if you need anything. I’m 💯 behind you. Much love always my friend 💜 💜 (sorry for the long post)
I’ve said before don’t apologize for the long comments!! They are very often needed for me. Your comments always get me thinking and lift me up. Give me hope. Everything you said about the animals is true. They will see one another and be at peace! 🙏 💪I did not drink, i can’t do that. Like you said I will overcome these things, we can get through anything and that’s how I have to view it. Like you said the there will always be stuff that happens, problems because that’s life but drinking wouldn’t solve any of them and most likely make them worse. Much love to you as well!! 🙏🖤 thank you micru as always!!
@@Slayer-7373you’re stronger than you give yourself credit for. We tend to see ourselves in a different lens. You got this…just shut it down and keep on moving.
Hey Slayer, im struggling with you. We owe it to ourselves to fight. Three weeks ago my dad passed and I wasnt able to win against the temptation to self-deatruct and now I am picking up the pieces from a relapse. Truth is there was no answer in alcohol, no healing; nothing but more pain and now I am far worse off than before. Now ive gotta slowly crawl my way back. Lets always remember, alcohol is a liar.
It’s the biggest liar out there, I’m so sorry about your dad brother, but booze will lie to make anything sound better. Then you drink it and realize it was all just one BIG LIE EVRY SINGLE TIME!!!!’ EVERY TIME!!!! I hate booze I hate it I hate it I hate it. F*ck you alcohol, all you’ve ever done is lie to us!!! We don’t need you!!!
So proud of you. I know how unbelievably hard it is. Always remember that after enough time the urge to drink will diminish. A good rap lyric i heard is " The plan was to drink until the pain over, but whats worse, the pain or the hangover"
Brother Slayer, it may help if you can determine why you keep relapsing and reaching for the bottle; is it boredom, anxiety, life-problems / sadness, habit or is it a physical addiction? It can't be physical addiction as you have good bouts of sobriety so it has to be something else. Keep fighting Slayer and I am always in your corner.
I’m so glad you made this video instead. I pray that you fought this all the way until bed. This IS the battle. Reaching for help, praying and asking God, reaching out of people when you’re tempted to drink IS the hardest part. It’s taking action in the moment to do something differently than to give in. To play the tape all the way through and bask in the moment of knowing how NOT WORTH giving in is, like we watched you do in this video. 🙏🏽🙌🏼 I’m almost 2 years sober and I remember exactly what your night felt like lastnight Slayer. Don’t give up, I’m so sorry about your doggies. But you’re right about them not being in pain anymore. And you will heal from losing them. I’ve been there. I have stories and stories lol I’m praying for you in Jesus’s mighty name! Reach out if you ever feel the need to!
This is a really beautiful and sweet comment Shannon 🙏🖤 thank you so very much. Congratulations on your sobriety time as well, you should be extremely proud. God bless you and thank you for letting me know I’m not alone!
@@Slayer-7373 of course! 🥹 and thank you so much! I promise it gets easier. Even when life is hard and unfair, I’m still walking with God and battling anxiety and learning how to understand how to walk in the peace of God and trust Him. But I honestly don’t desire to pick up a drink when I’ve had a bad day anymore. Cause I know how much worse it would make things. But my point is hope in the fact that the urge to do so isn’t my bodies default and it won’t always be yours🫶
It's weird you mention the heart rate thing because I have the same problem. I fucked myself to the point (along with being an ex-coke head) to where my heart is constantly stressed and I think, *"If you drink, your heart rate will go down"* I know that's only a temporary fix, but it's SO tempting just to get that slight bit of relief. I know in the end, it fixes nothing but I don't have much in the way of advice either. Except for, Chancie wouldn't want you to do it. I know she doesn't have much left but live the way she would want you to live and make her proud ❤
That’s crazy!! I’m not happy you experienced that but I am happy/relieved a bit to hear someone say this. I don’t feel as alone anymore. The damage that booze and drugs do to us is scary. I always love your comments man, like you said chance wouldn’t want that. Making her proud like you said though would make her happy. God bless you my friend!
My health anxiety used to be huge also, the heart rate thing definitely freaked me out. The thing that fixed this for me was to excersise cardio. I started very slow. I just do shadow boxing following along with”precision striking” on UA-cam. But now, I can crank my heart rate way up for 1 hr boxing seshion. So when I get worried about my heart when I’m not excersising, I know that whatever happens it can handle it, because it will never beat faster than my workouts. I’m sorry you’re struggling, wishing you the best.
I’m actually happy to see people are able to relate to the health anxiety. Because mine is bad man, like really bad. I’m the type of person who needs to know what’s going on with me 100% to be feel comfortable. Or I completely ignore the issue entirely and act like it doesn’t exist, going back to booze thinking it’s helping a health problem. It’s total insanity but that’s what alcoholism is after all. God bless you man and thanks for your comment 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 it’s all about finding healthy ways to cope. Excerise, eating really really healthy(Whole Foods, high protein). Best of luck brother, I totally know that fear of dying any moment. That fear/memorie of when I came close, is what drives me to eat boring healthy food/ stay hydrates etc.
@@RichBudski I’m sorry brother but hey that’s okay. Just don’t let it get any more out of hand. Cut it off now and get back on that wagon. Just don’t ever give up, that’s what I’ve learned and trust me I’m definitely not out of the woods myself. I’m still in deep temptation and I am worried about drinking. Proud of you for commenting on this video my friend, god bless 🙏
Stay strong, Slayer! Chancie wants you to care for yourself! She would feel bad if you hurt yourself because of grief for her! Hang in there!! May you and the angel win!!!! Sending prayers!!! Let us know in a community post how you’re doing! 😊❤🙏🙏
You’re 100% right Kathryn, she would want me to be strong and sober. I remained sober throughout the night and I’m still sober, I can’t give into the poison! I really appreciate this comment, thank you so much and for bless 🙏 I will definitely keep y’all updated.
I wouldn’t be just sitting around, because thats when you corner yourself. I would work out or go for a run, go for a long walk until you can’t walk anymore. That will help your serotonin. run out the clock until the liquor store closes. Also eat food until you are grossly full. Chug pints of water. these helped me! You are going to have these all day battles, but they will get easier so keep stacking days. You got this!
🙏hey thank you LL, the night struggle’s definitely suck and they are very real. I overcame though and that’s all that matters. God bless and thank you 🙏
Starting my journey tonight at midnight! Mostly a beer drinker, but realized that the longer one consumes alcohol, the more the negatives start to outweigh the positives. In addition to that, if someone continues to drink, they will never be able to reach their full potential in life. Wish me luck! 🤠😎
This is awesome my friend!!! 👏👏🙌🙌, good on you brother. It always make me proud when I hear something like this so If no one else has told you, I’m proud of you! Best of luck!! Keep me updated! 🙏
Hey Slay! 🖤 I'm late but I'm praying for you and your mom's fur baby! I'm super proud of you for being so strong and staying sober esp during these trying times. Sending you lots of love, peace and a big ol hug!! 🖤🖤🖤
I go through this every other day especially due to what’s transpiring in my personal life right now. I don’t want to fully blame the economy but, it’s definitely factoring in…. I’m praying heavily for you man. Fight it with every ounce of your being.
It’s rough bro trust me I know all too well, the economy definitely doesn’t help. I appreciate the prayers brother ill be sending you some as well. God bless 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Yes truly I can feel it in my spirit even when I drink, especially what happened to my significant other. Her situation and even a cousin of mine’s former experience showed me how spiritual warfare can manifest…… I’ve always been picked on and given up for superficial things so I will not die for this world. No offense to anyone.
I was hoping to hear better news. Dogs have been family members to me my whole life. At 56 I have lost Freddy, Cuddles, Tootsie, Buttons, Shultz, Napoleon, Mac, Abby and Dempsey. I quit drinking because my family needed me. Your mom is going to need you.
R.I.P to all the amazing pets that have passed, I’ve grown up with dogs too that really are family. You’re 100% correct my mom does need me right now, I can’t mess that up for a drink. God bless 🙏🙏
He's exactly right. It's like having a devil on your shoulder telling you to drink boose and you're in a constant battle to not give in to the craving, I'm dealing with the same thing.
Wishing you luck and strength brother, I know how tough it is man. Last night was a real battle, I didn’t know if I was going to make it, but I did. Hope you’re good man, god bless
I had an intense feeling last night my time that “I wonder if Slayer is struggling? I wonder if he’s messaged me” and I checked Instagram…how spooky is that? The struggle demons will happen thick and fast in the early days, you did the right thing making a video. As long as you see a drink the same as a loaded gun you’ll be ok. Unfortunately pets will die, family members will pass away and partners will cheat on you. Are you going to shoot yourself every time that happens? As in, one drink means death, like I’ve been saying you’ve pushed your luck for so long. One drink = shooting yourself in the head. I know you know that but addiction ruins our logical thinking. You stayed strong though! You DID it! And each time it will get easier, it’s like a muscle.
That is pretty insane man, someone else said this as well how weird is that? You’re spot on man and it really should be viewed that way. I remember Dirk delirium saying that he viewed going back to drinking the same as walking into oncoming traffic. I remember one guy saying he imagines booze as bleach. I think you know as well as I do once you get to a certain point with your drinking it’s extremely dangerous. Now I don’t know if I would die if I drank again but it’s very possible. It’s a roll of the dice, a gamble each time we jump back into that crazy world. It’s just not worth the risk. I’m glad I didn’t drink last night, it would have solved nothing and most likely I’d be on a binge doing god knows what. Y’all really have helped me see things more clear as well. This community is awesome man. Thanks josh, hope you’re well brother.
I started drinking a lot more often after my cat passed away march of last year it felt so hopeless and like a nightmare laying by his side as he got weaker and sicker he wasn't even that old but i still hate myself for not noticing the signs earlier i feel like if i was a actual good person i would've known instead of just being stoned all day in my own mind i think its the main reason ive become a extreme bipolar drunk im either very happy or extremely sad and angry at myself about 6 months ago i found a person im still so dead in love with and that also contributed to the i don't deserve them they are too perfect and just questioning my every move self doubting i broke my pinkie knuckle on the 29th of july when i was blackout raging at myself i been sober since then not weed though things with my love interest are going really well at the moment we talk a lot more now everyday makes me so happy but i still question if people secretly hate me or not and makes me feel really bad about myself even trying i always have those thoughts especially stoned i cringe at my sober self a lot sometimes
This is a beautiful comment man, I could relate to so many things. I’m so sorry about your cat bro, but it really sounds like your life is turning around the better and that’s awesome. Keep doing what you’re doing, one day if you want to kick the green you will be able to. Do what you need to do, keep yourself safe and killing it haha. I can relate to the cringe as well that you describe feeling ha.
It's stress and boredom and usually in the evening alone that triggers me. I had been quit for about 25 days (couple days before August) then the evenings of Aug 21,22,23 I had strong massive physiological (physical) withdrawals and I gave in, I said I can just do a little pint, did that, then ran out n went n got another pint next day then next day a 5th, then after 2 days a Handle, I'm on the last of the handle tonight hoping I won't want more thru the nite or tmrw. It's a real F'n battle!!! I quit my job in May been living off credit cards n savings I'm not getting anything done drinking except chain smoking (I make my own cigs, cheaper) n eating n sleeping. I pour about a shot n half cheap whiskey in a mug n fill with water until palatable n drink every time I'm awake. I swore to Jesus I never want to put another drop to my lips yet here I am. I hope to quit again when this handle runs out. God give me strength and will! I want to be sober like when I was a kid n didn't know the substance. Right now I've got 2 drinks left n I know I can motor to the nearby drive thru liquor store that closes at midnight, it's 9:52pm Colorado, I hope I will choose to sleep and choose to quit, again. Slayer, if u can fight the battle, fight the battle when you're drunk you'll be in the devil's loop of his piss water wishing to have held on longer n fought.
Super powerful comment. I’m so sorry you’re wrapped up in that hellish cycle. You can absolutely get out of it!!! Like you said call on the lord to give you strength. Lord help della over come this demon of alcohol, protect them from all temptation and evilness, in Jesus name, amen. Keep fighting, don’t give up. I know all too well what you’re going through right now and I was EXTREMELY close to ending up in that spot last night. If I would have drank last night I would most likely be drunk right now trying to figure out how to get my next bottle. It’s total insanity, it’s a brain disease and it’s known as one now. Crazy stuff, good luck I believe in you. Keep me updated 🙏
Just went through the same battle Labor Day. Had an argument with a family member, and decided I was going to go buy a bottle, and drink my anger away. I drove to the plaza where the store is, and I needed to get some charcoal for our hot dog cook out. So I went in the grocery store by the liquor store first. I walked back by the steaks, and thought, Devil you ain't gonna win. I bought 6 steaks cheaper than that bottle of liquor. Went home and focused on my victory dinner. Sorry so long. Slayer, just know that you are not, and will not ever be alone.
I’m so sorry about the dogs, man. It sucks your mom isn’t there too. Same with the ear. Alcohol won’t help your pets and it certainly won’t help you! Remember that! Keep doing good! Life gets hard and you’re doing good.
Hey brother thank you 🙏 ! You’re 100% right man it won’t, it would only make berthing worse. I made it through last night and I’ll keep making through. I appreciate y’all’s comments so much. I will brother, I will. One day at a time 🙏💪
YOU would likely benefit from some exercise or something to discharge this anxiety. I hear it in your Voice. You fought for several days but the HOUSE always wins as we know. We therefore must distance ourselves from the HOUSE, from the Casino. It's a place of Loss for us. I suggest you relax and get a Quiet, NON - grasping MIND. This is anxiety and Tension. I am so sorry about the pups. Heart breaking. I too am glad to see you come here instead of isolate. Good job Slayer. IF your Body- Mind receives the endorphins that exercise ( a WALK - glad to hear you walk ) releases, you will feel much, much better. I promise. Whenever you get wound like this, a suggestion is STOP and find a way to do a 30 minute ( at least ) power walk. YOU can so find the time amigo. Walking will lower your racing heart. I have that too. Walking brings a quiet mind and focus. Walking puts a calming shield or buffer around the head for hours and hours. I hope it's ok I made this suggestion. The anxiety will flatten if you get a walk in everyday. Head phones -- pod casts, spiritual stuff, music, Relaxation talks. Another benefit -- Vitamin D from the sun. Early morning sun is best -- right into your eyes. Will help sleep too. My counselor used to leave me in another room as I had a panic attack before the session started. Love your panic - allow it. Embrace it. The folks in my stop smoking group who developed a daily walking practice, guess what they did? They Effing quit killing themselves with the cancer Stix and protected their quits too. Walking puts us in a better, very chill mood. And who knows, you might meet a new friend on the trail. Walk a moderately good pace if you can. OR work up to it. The First step is the hardest. Slayer guess how I coped with panic ? WALKING EVERYDAY -- walking is the GURU
You should think about trying a livestream when you're in moments like this, that way people on here could talk to you while it's happening, instead of after the fact. Not sure if that's a good idea or not lol but i thought I'd throw it out there.
@@Shannonmt92 I’m hanging in there Shannon, my dog did pass so these last few days have been really rough. I hope to make a new video here soon 🙏 god bless
@@Slayer-7373 I’m so sorry Slayer 🥺! I pray for God to help you and your mom with peace that surpasses all understanding going through this in Jesus name🙏🏽🫂 God bless you tooo
Absolutely spiritual warfare. How are you doing now Brother? Did you end up drinking? If you did no not fret. You are correct, God will not tempt but He will test you. The devil will tempt you, he knows your every move, and familiar spirits have watched us our whole lives. You’re dealing with a fallen angel, and the flesh. But we also serve a God who is much bigger than lucifer. Your content is amazing Brother. I had a slip just recently also. When night hits - everyone’s in for the evening with their Families - you have that free time and that set of keys to run up to that liquor store. That first chug & release? Brother I completely UNDERSTAND. so I know the absolute hell a lapse causes. Especially when it’s invaded a structured routine you’ve been working so hard to keep on tacked. You got a beautiful soul Slayer. Keep up the good work man - and just know if you did slip, Gods mercy exceeds our understanding and He WILL lift you back up. Just like an eagle man. Love you Brother!!
1 Corinthians 3:13-15 “Every man's work shall be made manifest: for the day shall declare it, because it shall be revealed by fire; and the fire shall try every man's work of what sort it is. If any man's work abide which he hath built thereupon, he shall receive a reward.” Jeremiah 17:10 “I the Lord search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.”
@@Brandon77745 hey Brandon 👋 thank you for this beautiful comment my friend. I agree with everything you said, it’s awesome that you’re a “brother in Christ” as well. I did not drink thank god 🙏, I’m not out of the woods yet though. Like you said god doesn’t tempt you, that’s exactly why I said it the way I did, but the devil on the other hand that’s a whole other story. I’m definitely still being tempted with everything going on man. God bless you brother, thank you. Also amen to those scriptures.
@@Slayer-7373 so good to hear man, you got this. You don’t even understand how happy I am for you. You’re over a month, hold onto that & keep that in sight. Keep it sacred. I would give anything to be where you are right now - though no fear, I will be completely sober. Claiming this in advance, in Jesus Name. I broke a 147 streak October last year and that was heart wrenching to say the least. I’ve been “looping” ever since. Absolutely, Brothers in Christ 🤙 There hasn’t been a single thing you’ve said, that I haven’t related to. People who have never been through alcoholism will never understand the depths of hell it can bring you into. No fault of their own, and I would never ask for pity in any way, shape or form. It’s simply unexplainable though, and confusing to loved ones as to why you just don’t “stop”. Bro, I’ve been fighting damn hard, just like you have been also. I will not let this substance take my life. I’m getting sober for me first and foremost, and my loved ones. and remember … keep the streak you’re on sacred. You are in such a good space right now. You’re distanced from that snake. If you have to - fall to your face if that craving comes on and it’s too much. Fall flat on your face and scream for God man. Open the Bible in that moment. He will give you exactly what you need, if that moment arises. Many times, I only wish I would have done that. Keep it up man
@@Brandon77745 hey brother remember, “all things are possible through Christ Jesus who strengthens us”. No matter what happens we will make it through, keep pushing brother. Even if you only have a day or two sober that’s better than giving up and drinking constantly. We keep pushing forward, no matter what. God bless you my friend 🙏 thank you for the truly awesome comments.
@@Baresark damn. Yah my panc was 100 percent due to drinking. The fucked up thing is, a week later I was back at it. Took many more scary incidents to convince me to stop
That’s the wave just let it rise and crest then it goes away it will become a little bit more doable as time goes on but just don’t drink I use to take shots of apple cider vinegar to get the burn but no booooze
James 1:2-3. 2 My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; 3 Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. James 1:12-15. 12 Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him. 13 Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man: 14 But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed. 15 Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death. 1 Corinthians 10:13. 13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it. Jeremiah 29:11. 11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Stay strong man. Remember we can’t do this without God. God bless bro.
Just this video, and channel. Alcohol is a rough one my friend stays strong! I am working on vid about my best friend, like not just friend more brother! but we just turned 43, he died beginning of this year liver failure.... man, I still cry.... I'm pissed, my bro is gone! y son mom OD year and half ago people are just gone! don't be one of them! Never quit never fail! hmu if need to chat ever Addiction Recovery Life peace!
I know fear can’t stop us but I beg you try your best to get the help, I have just been through 5 days of complete insanity in alcoholic withdrawal, I am uploading my first video now, I tried to watch one of your videos when I was in DTs and your eyes turned black in a hallucination and I seen all the suffering we take for granted, but really this shit is demonic and is trying to steal our souls, I love your videos man but I am trying my best to get sober now please do not drink it is pure and utter hell. ❤️ the AA book may be right we are like on a time bomb to our next drink.
I’m so sorry that you’re going through that hell brother!!!! That’s what it is is, I know all too well it’s awful!!! PLEASE BE SAFE. Go to a hospital if need be, you are not alone and you can conquer it!!!! You’re brave for even being on here admitting this. Prayers to you. Keep me updated please!!! 🙏🙏
Oh Slayer, please stay away from Satan. Your dogs are the love of our lives. Sometimes it hurts worse to lose the dogs than to lose people. I wish I could make all of this go away for you.Im praying for you.
I deal with the same temptation almost every day. Stay Strong Slayer! You’re Not alone. Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.❤
I’m so sorry about Chancy.🙏💔
It’s a battle that’s for sure Cindy. Thank you so much, god bless
Well, be glad you made a video instead of another relapse followed by a disappearance with everyone wondering where you went. Proud of you. If you have to make a video every time to avoid it, please do. Hell, man start watching our channels and your own older videos.
I appreciate this shades, thank you brother. 🙏 you are absolutely correct.
God bless man.
Also what you said about my older videos was a real eye opener Man. Like i can get there again, I was there not long ago I just need to keep pushing forward. Thanks again shades 🙏
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@@ShadesOClarity totally!! 💯
Hey Slayer, I hope you're feeling better today. I'm so sorry to hear about your mom's dog. I've had quite a few dogs in my life, and it never gets any easier to lose them.
As a fellow alcoholic with a PhD in self-deception, I know very well how easy it is to create excuses to "just have one, one more time". Just don't do it, man. Remind yourself of how terrible the withdrawal process is. You don't want to go through that again.
"We can't control the direction of the wind, we can only adjust our sails".
Hey thank you so much my friend. 🙏
You’re 100% right man it’s just not worth it. Y’all have really reminded me of why exactly I can’t go back to that poison.
Love the wind saying, god bless 🙏
“Battlefield of the Mind”
Joyce Meyer helped get me sober
I will have to check this out Kristen!! Thank you !
Love Joyce Meyer!
I LOVE THAT YOU CAME TO US to let off some of the steam. We are here for you Slayer. I know almost exactly how you are feeling!!! God Bless you sir, stay strong!!! ❤❤
🙏🖤appreciate comments like these so much in times like these. Thanks so much pachagirl!!! God bless you!
Stay strong, for your own sake. We care about you, your family and friends care about you, and want the best for you.
I'm so sorry about the dog 💔
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Appreciate this more than you know!
My family somewhat recently lost two dogs also. Mine and my daughters dog. It's like losing a person.
I sense the pain caused by your mind....the devils playground. Wish I had the power to make it go away. I pray that enemy talons will let go and cease and desist! God cover Slayer with the your wings of protection today and everyday. By the power of your shed blood, Lord God, set him free now! In Jesus name....Amen.
Sorry for your loss @RonsMom40, our four legged family members mean the world to us. I’ve lost mine through the years the heartbreak never gets easier…but it’s because we love them so much. Hope all is well with you.
🖤🙏so sorry to hear this Ron’s mom, you are always so sweet and always showing love. God bless you
Stay strong, Slayer, you can do this. Get through this dark night, fight the thoughts. Wish you the best that you don't relapse and the dog gets more time!
Hey Jack thanks brother!! 🙏 I made it through. I will continue to make it through. Y’all have helped so much!!! God bless
@@Slayer-7373 Great to hear! Keep going on there! These moments will always come back sometimes, but you can refuse and resist the urge to get the booze. Every time you refuse, it gets easier!
I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Our dogs aren't just "pets", they're family. Having to lose them 2 of them is something I wouldn't wish on anyone. I just pray Chancie gets better but if she doesn't, make her proud and live healthy and sober ❤ The way she would want you to live
Thank you so much afterhours 🙏🥲, they absolutely are family.
One minute at a time. You hold on, peace will return. It’s exhausting the daily battle but I know you can get through this. Praying for you and Chancey xx
🥲🖤🙏thank you onlyme.
In my experience, resisting the urge to drink gets easier the more you do it. It’s like starving a demon that craves alcohol. The more you refuse to give in, the weaker it becomes. Every time you don’t drink when you want to, you’re taking power away from it. Keep going strong, and starve that demon into submission.
Cheers, and stay strong! ♥
This comment is spot on!!!! I appreciate you strategicavacodo!! You’ve been here since the beginning and you always leave such amazing comments. God bless 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 much love brother ❤️
Well said.
@@paulh2126 💯
What do you have to lose by going to a twelve step meeting? It helps to get that shit out at a meeting of other addict/alcoholics. Just keep an open mind about. Stay strong. It’s not easy, but is worth it.
I do plan to join a 12 step program shortly. I will need it, especially after I graduate from the IOP program. I’m looking forward to the friends I’ll meet. I’ve met some amazing people in the group I am now and some meetings in the past.
I appreciate this comment bro, thank you and god bless.
One of the hard things in life is saying good bye to our pets. Even harder is watching a loved pet suffer. I hope you made it last night. Keep making it. ❤
It is so difficult grace, you are so right. They are family.
I made it through last night 🙏, waking up today and Reading this comments has really listen my spirits. Thank you so much, god bless
Thank you for being so honest! That's why I love your channel so much. Reaching out and speaking those thoughts out is a very important thing to do and the way you talked yourself down in front of our very eyes was pretty amazing but you know as well as I do that saying it and doing it is easier said than done. I'm so proud of you for fighting this terrible craving you were having it's inspirational to me! Keep going big Dawg thanks again!!
What’s up homie! Bro i appreciate you man!! I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again but you and this community inspire me. I plan to take this channel in a different direction. I want to continue to be honest 100% but It’s time to man up. We have responsibilities as men that we need to take care of. No more whining, I just need to tackle these demons when they come with my chin held high. Which I know both of us can do man, we’ve been through crazy stuff but we keep pushing forward.
One day at a time dawg, hope you’re well Man. God bless 🙏
Pets really are Family!!💞
Absolutely Cindy!
stay strong buddy
Doing my best man, one day a time a time. Another day sober 💪
God bless
I'm proud of you for showing your strength. Takes more than a NO to actually not do it. DO NOT DRINK! Don't backtrack your process. Some people would kill to be in your shoes of recovery or probably dead by now. You are strong. Keep going with your head held up high. God bless you! 🙏🙏💝
🙏🖤🙏🖤 thank you nidia. You always uplift me!
Keep strong man - say no.
💪it was really tough but I did.
@@Slayer-7373 great
It's a TRAP as you said. You cannot afford to entertain the idea!!! But I get it...alc induced self delusion. So far I've been successful. But staying tuned to channels like this and LD are a regular reminder ✌️ 🙏
Absolutely Craig!!! Also it’s 100% self delusion trying to get us to go back to drinking. Super proud of you for staying sober man and I’m glad I’m helping. God bless 🙏
You got this, my friend - I'm so inspired by you sharing your vulnerability and raw emotions, it's really brave! And you're confronting those thoughts, which are just that - thoughts that do not and will not take the wheel - because you, Sober Slayer, have the wheel!! 🚦🛡️ and you are 🆓 !!!
🖤🖤thanks so much stepha
Keep fighting! My parents were alcoholics and i swore i would never repeat that. Then i started to get very anxious and paranoic. I started to drink. It totally took away my paranoia and anxiety, but caused so many more problems. Prayers and love for you and all of us struggling ❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏
Hey mmoose thank you so much!! 🙏🖤, I can totally relate to everything you said. My anxiety y’s and paranoias is what led me to drink, that on top of depression and trauma. It’s the perfect storm for addiction.
Prayers and love right back at you!!! 🙏🖤
Nice save, bro. STAY STRONG, were praying for you
Thank you my friend! 🙏🙏
Everything will be okay Slayer. You and your mom gave her a home with love and she gave love in return not many pets have that gift in life. Stay strong friend we are here for you 💕
Appreciate this so much anna, thank you 🙏🖤
Another 27 days up for me. I cannot recall how bad it was 21 days ago. I know I was sick as but can't feel it. If you felt 10 percent of that hangover now you'd be like no way. Hang in there. Sorry to hear about your dogs, I'm sure you all gave them the best life you could.
27 days is amazing man!!! Congratulations 💪👏.
Also thank you, we definitely did. 🙏
Keep doing what you’re doing because it’s working!!
I can sense your emotions. Nothing wrong with letting them out. Stay safe Slayer your dog is in my thoughts
Sometimes you have to let them out, god bless you my friend. 🙌
These comments have really lifted my spirits.
Knowing your triggers definitely helps! I've been dealing with triggers and have beat them! I'm like you I'm afraid if i ever went on another bender i might not be able to come back from it! Drinking is one of the hardest because It's so acceptable and it's everywhere
Absolutely man, overcoming moments like these only make us stronger. The more you say no the easier it gets. Booze being pushed on people will never make sense to me. It’s crazy but that’s how it goes.
God bless you man 🙏
Im praying for you Slayer! And i will not stop until this nightmare is over for you! God Bless Homie! 🙏🏻👍🏻
Appreciate you big dawg!! God bless 🙏
Truly felt your commentary on angel vs. the devil on your shoulder (voices) and the mental warfare you are enduring. Sending whatever strength I can muster through the wire my guy.
Appreciate you brother, thank you man and god bless 🙏
slayer i drank last night breaking my 9 day in a row streak and i feel kind of bad about it, i had 4 coronas, but same time i should feel good because for august ive been 22/29 days sober. it is getting easier to quit and today i woke up with a small headache and didnt sleep well. i dont think it was worth drinking last night even though it was a 'normal' amount but dont give in. you dont need it.
Hey Richard that’s okay brother, don’t beat yourself up. There is a new chance and opportunity today. It’s like LD always says we are only failures if we give up and you definitely haven’t given up. Just keep trying bro, you will get it and if you do relapse just pick your boots up and keep marching!! God bless
You had the strength to reach out and make this video. You have so much courage. Praying for you and always thinking of you. May God watch over you Slayer. 🙏🙏 I'm sorry I just saw this. I will send another email. Be safe
🖤🙏appreciate you Debbie thank you!
Keep strong looking forward to your next video
🙏💪 one day at a time. Thanks Anna!
Hell yeah brother im glad you won this battle. Seems like everytime ive relapsed, ive already made the decision by the time that thought creeps up. I have to kill those thoughts immediately, i can't let myself indulge in them at all. Playing the tape out works well for me, i know that my life will go downhill so quickly if i pick up again. Keep making these videos bro, keep us updated on how you're doing. It helps us as much as it helps you
I can relate to this so much man, it’s definitely an entire process leading up to a relapse. It’s so subtle and just creeps right back in. Like you said man same here I have to kill those thoughts fast or they do what they did last night and fester. Let’s keep on this sober path brother.
And trust me I ain’t going anywhere, I love making this videos and I love this community. God bless bro 🙏
Thank you for your honesty. You are a warrior keep fighting! ❤
This is amazing of you to say Jennifer 🙏🖤thank you and god bless
It's absolutely like fighting a war in your head when you are dealing with that obsession. I had mine return not long ago and came so close to throwing everything away. I'm so glad I stayed surrounded by my program, and I'm so grateful to those people who got me through. Nothing is worth picking up a drink or a drug over. We can not control the intrusive thought, but we can control our 2nd thought and 1st action. Stay vigilant and keep sharing. I'm praying for you, and I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. Pets absolutely are family, and it's such a shame that we can not have them with us here on Earth forever. But they'll be there when we get to the other side. ❤ It gets better. Thanks for sharing.
I’m really happy as well that you stayed sober :), you should be extremely proud of yourself. Like you said nothing is worth picking up that poison!!
I appreciate this comment so much, thank you 🙏 🖤
The mental factor is very hard for me too! When your mind starts racing and just won't leave you alone is horrible! I'm kicking subs right now! I'm tapering down and very low amount and it's getting difficult! The anxiety and messed up sleep makes it difficult but I'm tired of these invisible cuffs! Prayers brother
Absolutely man it’s a real struggle!!! Only us who have battled addiction really know how bad it is. Good on you brother for kicking subs, that’s awesome. Something you should 100% be proud of. Thank you man, god bless 🙏
Bro. I slipped on my 50th birthday dinner a couple of weeks ago. Just pulling myself back around now. Straight back there. Insomnia, days and nights all fucked up. Pissing around tapering down. Anxiety off the chain. I just need to get 3 days to get clear. Slept through the 1st day already. Stay strong bro. Don't listen. It is a trap. It is NOT EASY. I had 8 months. Prayed for you. The ONLY weapon we have is to weaken it one day at a time.
I was wondering where you were my friend, it’s okay 🙏🖤 just be happy you’re here still and have another chance. It happens, it’s 100% a trap 100% of the time. I’m proud of you for coming back and I’m happy you’re alive!!! SCREW THIS DISEASE!!!
When we drink it leads us to the same place, every single time. Every time.
Thank you for the prayers 🙏🙏 I will pray for you also. God bless and keep me updated. One day at a time
Hey man stay strong! I know it sounds wierd but I’ve found that certain things gave me anxiety like artificial sweeteners. They are chemicals that cross the blood brain barrier. Xylitol as well. Toothpaste and diet drinks and energy drinks are loaded with these things. Just something to look into. Having near panic attacks for no reason sucks!! Also keep seeking God! Your body is still adjusting and finding a balance and the devil is very real and will lie to you! Prayers man 👊🏼
You’re 100% right man, most of our stuff is loaded with awful chemicals that do nothing but make you feel awful/cause cancer. Wild world we live in. Love this comment bro, let’s keep saying no to the devil. God bless 🙏
Hey Slayer ❤ I'm so mad at myself because I remember seeing this video come up and clicking on the link to check it out, but not having the time to actually watch it. It has been one hell of a week, but I truly meant to come back here! I really feel you, my friend. Heartache is the worst trigger because it's draining. It just drains you of your will and life force. But I know that you've got this. Ask God to help you to live with your grief. He won't take it away, but he'll help you learn how to live with it if you keep your heart open. I'm sending you a huge hug and praying that God lends you strength in this time of grief. You have all of mine coming your way ❤💔❤️
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@@Slayer-7373 i hope your doing well buddy
@@Slayer-7373 ❤️❤️❤️
I quit fighting alcohol and drugs and got back on methadone and now feel great and don’t use or drink. I love it. I got tired of torturing myself day after day completely sober. It was just inevitable I was gunna relapse at some point. I am excelling in life now and quit the bullshit and forgave myself for needing methadone and allow myself that comfort and anxiety relief. Love it.
This is beautiful man. Proud of you my friend for taking that step and creating a better life for yourself, god bless bro
You got this Slayer stay strong brother you can do it!! I know it’s got to be hard but it’s not worth starting over and having to reset. You got this just push through the day man! 💪🙏 and I saw your other post congratulations on your sobriety man I’m on day 43 now and it was the best decision I made 43 days ago!
Hey reggae child!! Thank you brother!! You are an awesome person my friend!
Also we both have 43 days that’s awesome!!!!let’s keep going man! 💪💪. One day at a time
@@Slayer-7373 thank you man! I really enjoy your content and the energy keep it up man! 👍 And that is awesome we can do it one day at a time for sure! 💪💪
@@Reggaechild 🙏
stay strong brother .
🙏will do brother, one day at a time.
I really hope you can get through this struggle. So sorry about Chancie. ❤️
🙏🖤I never drank. Y’all are so amazing!
So real. Just two drinks tonight I tell myself.
Kid, you have your whole life ahead of you. I’m not sure why you hate yourself so much but you deserve a happy life without alcohol.
Ain’t that one of the saddest parts….. we have our whole lives in front of us and we are throwing them or “p*ssing” down the drain. I defies logic though. I do think there is a real switch that needs to happen to be able to stay sober. A switch on how your Brain works.
Please, please, love yourself enough to stay sober. You are so worth it!You're a handsome smart young man, please pray honey. I'm praying for you
This is so sweet of you, thank you Rebecca 🙏. God bless you, comments like these keep me going.
Hey Slayer, I’m so sorry chancie is not doing well and has a host of health issues she’s facing. Please remember that they are not meant to suffer. As an animal lover, I too have been faced with the tough decisions to say goodbye when it’s time. I know it’s painful and unfair as we want them here with us but chancie knows how much she’s loved. Your mom and all those that surround her gave her an abundance of love. If it comes down to it and her little body can’t take it, you swallow that knot in your throat, let her see the love in your eyes and you tell her it’s ok to let go. She will cross the rainbow 🌈 bridge and will play with all the other 4 legged family members that are there. I have four that have passed…it doesn’t get easier.
As for that awful little voice, you have to allow it to come through and then shut it down. I know I know easier said than done. But it’s possible you’ve been doing it for 41+ days. You have to associate ☠️ with the end of your life. Period! The health issues will subside, take the medication, ☠️ will not fix it. Im so glad you jumped on and put your thoughts into existence. Today is a new day and I have faith you remained sober. If you didn’t, then you start again and keep trying. There will always be bad shit that happens and the ☠️ creates more bad shit. I’m here if you need anything. I’m 💯 behind you. Much love always my friend 💜 💜 (sorry for the long post)
I’ve said before don’t apologize for the long comments!! They are very often needed for me. Your comments always get me thinking and lift me up. Give me hope. Everything you said about the animals is true. They will see one another and be at peace! 🙏
💪I did not drink, i can’t do that. Like you said I will overcome these things, we can get through anything and that’s how I have to view it. Like you said the there will always be stuff that happens, problems because that’s life but drinking wouldn’t solve any of them and most likely make them worse.
Much love to you as well!! 🙏🖤 thank you micru as always!!
@@Slayer-7373you’re stronger than you give yourself credit for. We tend to see ourselves in a different lens. You got this…just shut it down and keep on moving.
Hey Slayer, im struggling with you. We owe it to ourselves to fight. Three weeks ago my dad passed and I wasnt able to win against the temptation to self-deatruct and now I am picking up the pieces from a relapse. Truth is there was no answer in alcohol, no healing; nothing but more pain and now I am far worse off than before. Now ive gotta slowly crawl my way back. Lets always remember, alcohol is a liar.
It’s the biggest liar out there, I’m so sorry about your dad brother, but booze will lie to make anything sound better. Then you drink it and realize it was all just one BIG LIE EVRY SINGLE TIME!!!!’ EVERY TIME!!!! I hate booze I hate it I hate it I hate it. F*ck you alcohol, all you’ve ever done is lie to us!!! We don’t need you!!!
So proud of you. I know how unbelievably hard it is. Always remember that after enough time the urge to drink will diminish. A good rap lyric i heard is " The plan was to drink until the pain over, but whats worse, the pain or the hangover"
Appreciate this Adrian, thanks brother.
I love that saying as well 🙏
Brother Slayer, it may help if you can determine why you keep relapsing and reaching for the bottle; is it boredom, anxiety, life-problems / sadness, habit or is it a physical addiction? It can't be physical addiction as you have good bouts of sobriety so it has to be something else. Keep fighting Slayer and I am always in your corner.
I’m so glad you made this video instead. I pray that you fought this all the way until bed. This IS the battle. Reaching for help, praying and asking God, reaching out of people when you’re tempted to drink IS the hardest part. It’s taking action in the moment to do something differently than to give in. To play the tape all the way through and bask in the moment of knowing how NOT WORTH giving in is, like we watched you do in this video. 🙏🏽🙌🏼 I’m almost 2 years sober and I remember exactly what your night felt like lastnight Slayer. Don’t give up, I’m so sorry about your doggies. But you’re right about them not being in pain anymore. And you will heal from losing them. I’ve been there. I have stories and stories lol I’m praying for you in Jesus’s mighty name! Reach out if you ever feel the need to!
This is a really beautiful and sweet comment Shannon 🙏🖤 thank you so very much. Congratulations on your sobriety time as well, you should be extremely proud. God bless you and thank you for letting me know I’m not alone!
@@Slayer-7373 of course! 🥹 and thank you so much! I promise it gets easier. Even when life is hard and unfair, I’m still walking with God and battling anxiety and learning how to understand how to walk in the peace of God and trust Him. But I honestly don’t desire to pick up a drink when I’ve had a bad day anymore. Cause I know how much worse it would make things. But my point is hope in the fact that the urge to do so isn’t my bodies default and it won’t always be yours🫶
I almost relapsed yesterday. Sudden and intense desire for a particular brand. Thank you for this video.
Very happy that you didn’t my friend, we made it. God bless 🙏
It's weird you mention the heart rate thing because I have the same problem. I fucked myself to the point (along with being an ex-coke head) to where my heart is constantly stressed and I think, *"If you drink, your heart rate will go down"* I know that's only a temporary fix, but it's SO tempting just to get that slight bit of relief. I know in the end, it fixes nothing but I don't have much in the way of advice either. Except for, Chancie wouldn't want you to do it. I know she doesn't have much left but live the way she would want you to live and make her proud ❤
That’s crazy!! I’m not happy you experienced that but I am happy/relieved a bit to hear someone say this. I don’t feel as alone anymore. The damage that booze and drugs do to us is scary.
I always love your comments man, like you said chance wouldn’t want that. Making her proud like you said though would make her happy. God bless you my friend!
My health anxiety used to be huge also, the heart rate thing definitely freaked me out. The thing that fixed this for me was to excersise cardio. I started very slow. I just do shadow boxing following along with”precision striking” on UA-cam. But now, I can crank my heart rate way up for 1 hr boxing seshion. So when I get worried about my heart when I’m not excersising, I know that whatever happens it can handle it, because it will never beat faster than my workouts. I’m sorry you’re struggling, wishing you the best.
I’m actually happy to see people are able to relate to the health anxiety. Because mine is bad man, like really bad. I’m the type of person who needs to know what’s going on with me 100% to be feel comfortable. Or I completely ignore the issue entirely and act like it doesn’t exist, going back to booze thinking it’s helping a health problem. It’s total insanity but that’s what alcoholism is after all.
God bless you man and thanks for your comment 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 it’s all about finding healthy ways to cope. Excerise, eating really really healthy(Whole Foods, high protein). Best of luck brother, I totally know that fear of dying any moment. That fear/memorie of when I came close, is what drives me to eat boring healthy food/ stay hydrates etc.
I've relapsed. Everything you say is true.
Be strong.
@@RichBudski I’m sorry brother but hey that’s okay. Just don’t let it get any more out of hand. Cut it off now and get back on that wagon. Just don’t ever give up, that’s what I’ve learned and trust me I’m definitely not out of the woods myself. I’m still in deep temptation and I am worried about drinking.
Proud of you for commenting on this video my friend, god bless 🙏
Stay strong, Slayer! Chancie wants you to care for yourself! She would feel bad if you hurt yourself because of grief for her! Hang in there!! May you and the angel win!!!! Sending prayers!!! Let us know in a community post how you’re doing! 😊❤🙏🙏
You’re 100% right Kathryn, she would want me to be strong and sober. I remained sober throughout the night and I’m still sober, I can’t give into the poison!
I really appreciate this comment, thank you so much and for bless 🙏 I will definitely keep y’all updated.
@@Slayer-7373 So happy to hear!!! 👍😊🙏
_Sorry you're having to go through this. Just hope you can draw the strength you need knowing you have a LOT of people pulling for you._
Appreciate you don thanks brother. Also absolutely man, I have this amazing community behind me, what more can I ask for? God bless
I wouldn’t be just sitting around, because thats when you corner yourself. I would work out or go for a run, go for a long walk until you can’t walk anymore. That will help your serotonin. run out the clock until the liquor store closes. Also eat food until you are grossly full. Chug pints of water. these helped me! You are going to have these all day battles, but they will get easier so keep stacking days. You got this!
Love this advice, thank you and god bless 🙏
But you didn’t. More power to you, dude. You are just that little bit stronger now and more able to beat the next craving. 💪
Absolutely man, more that we say no the stronger we get. 🙏
Good job. Night struggles suck.
🙏hey thank you LL, the night struggle’s definitely suck and they are very real. I overcame though and that’s all that matters.
God bless and thank you 🙏
sending much love.
Thanks so much Alexandra 🙏🖤
Starting my journey tonight at midnight! Mostly a beer drinker, but realized that the longer one consumes alcohol, the more the negatives start to outweigh the positives. In addition to that, if someone continues to drink, they will never be able to reach their full potential in life. Wish me luck! 🤠😎
This is awesome my friend!!! 👏👏🙌🙌, good on you brother. It always make me proud when I hear something like this so If no one else has told you, I’m proud of you! Best of luck!! Keep me updated! 🙏
Hey Slay! 🖤 I'm late but I'm praying for you and your mom's fur baby! I'm super proud of you for being so strong and staying sober esp during these trying times. Sending you lots of love, peace and a big ol hug!! 🖤🖤🖤
@@natsnikkii so good to hear from you 🖤🖤🖤
@@Slayer-7373 🖤🖤🖤
Any book by
Neil T Anderson is needed
Chancie might need you Slay
I’ll have to check him out some time. Thanks Kristen
I go through this every other day especially due to what’s transpiring in my personal life right now. I don’t want to fully blame the economy but, it’s definitely factoring in…. I’m praying heavily for you man. Fight it with every ounce of your being.
It’s rough bro trust me I know all too well, the economy definitely doesn’t help. I appreciate the prayers brother ill be sending you some as well. God bless 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Most definitely we are nearing the start of the end-times I feel like. Many thanks man!
@@RellySmooveI 100% agree bro, we are definitely getting close.
@@RellySmooveand of course man, god bless 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Yes truly I can feel it in my spirit even when I drink, especially what happened to my significant other. Her situation and even a cousin of mine’s former experience showed me how spiritual warfare can manifest…… I’ve always been picked on and given up for superficial things so I will not die for this world. No offense to anyone.
I was hoping to hear better news. Dogs have been family members to me my whole life. At 56 I have lost Freddy, Cuddles, Tootsie, Buttons, Shultz, Napoleon, Mac, Abby and Dempsey. I quit drinking because my family needed me. Your mom is going to need you.
R.I.P to all the amazing pets that have passed, I’ve grown up with dogs too that really are family.
You’re 100% correct my mom does need me right now, I can’t mess that up for a drink.
God bless 🙏🙏
He's exactly right. It's like having a devil on your shoulder telling you to drink boose and you're in a constant battle to not give in to the craving, I'm dealing with the same thing.
Wishing you luck and strength brother, I know how tough it is man. Last night was a real battle, I didn’t know if I was going to make it, but I did. Hope you’re good man, god bless
You got the power...
@@MrJohnocee 🖤💪absolutely I do.
Slayer Hello u can pray to our heavenly Father it's hard. forgiveness is beautiful and the pain of loosing a Dog is really hard 😔
🙏🖤 you are so right Gloria. God bless
Live to love again 🙏🏻
Exactly. 🙏
I had an intense feeling last night my time that “I wonder if Slayer is struggling? I wonder if he’s messaged me” and I checked Instagram…how spooky is that? The struggle demons will happen thick and fast in the early days, you did the right thing making a video. As long as you see a drink the same as a loaded gun you’ll be ok. Unfortunately pets will die, family members will pass away and partners will cheat on you. Are you going to shoot yourself every time that happens? As in, one drink means death, like I’ve been saying you’ve pushed your luck for so long. One drink = shooting yourself in the head. I know you know that but addiction ruins our logical thinking. You stayed strong though! You DID it! And each time it will get easier, it’s like a muscle.
That is pretty insane man, someone else said this as well how weird is that?
You’re spot on man and it really should be viewed that way. I remember Dirk delirium saying that he viewed going back to drinking the same as walking into oncoming traffic. I remember one guy saying he imagines booze as bleach.
I think you know as well as I do once you get to a certain point with your drinking it’s extremely dangerous. Now I don’t know if I would die if I drank again but it’s very possible. It’s a roll of the dice, a gamble each time we jump back into that crazy world. It’s just not worth the risk.
I’m glad I didn’t drink last night, it would have solved nothing and most likely I’d be on a binge doing god knows what. Y’all really have helped me see things more clear as well. This community is awesome man. Thanks josh, hope you’re well brother.
I started drinking a lot more often after my cat passed away march of last year it felt so hopeless and like a nightmare laying by his side as he got weaker and sicker he wasn't even that old but i still hate myself for not noticing the signs earlier i feel like if i was a actual good person i would've known instead of just being stoned all day in my own mind i think its the main reason ive become a extreme bipolar drunk im either very happy or extremely sad and angry at myself about 6 months ago i found a person im still so dead in love with and that also contributed to the i don't deserve them they are too perfect and just questioning my every move self doubting i broke my pinkie knuckle on the 29th of july when i was blackout raging at myself i been sober since then not weed though things with my love interest are going really well at the moment we talk a lot more now everyday makes me so happy but i still question if people secretly hate me or not and makes me feel really bad about myself even trying i always have those thoughts especially stoned i cringe at my sober self a lot sometimes
This is a beautiful comment man, I could relate to so many things. I’m so sorry about your cat bro, but it really sounds like your life is turning around the better and that’s awesome. Keep doing what you’re doing, one day if you want to kick the green you will be able to. Do what you need to do, keep yourself safe and killing it haha. I can relate to the cringe as well that you describe feeling ha.
It's stress and boredom and usually in the evening alone that triggers me. I had been quit for about 25 days (couple days before August) then the evenings of Aug 21,22,23 I had strong massive physiological (physical) withdrawals and I gave in, I said I can just do a little pint, did that, then ran out n went n got another pint next day then next day a 5th, then after 2 days a Handle, I'm on the last of the handle tonight hoping I won't want more thru the nite or tmrw. It's a real F'n battle!!! I quit my job in May been living off credit cards n savings I'm not getting anything done drinking except chain smoking (I make my own cigs, cheaper) n eating n sleeping. I pour about a shot n half cheap whiskey in a mug n fill with water until palatable n drink every time I'm awake. I swore to Jesus I never want to put another drop to my lips yet here I am. I hope to quit again when this handle runs out. God give me strength and will! I want to be sober like when I was a kid n didn't know the substance. Right now I've got 2 drinks left n I know I can motor to the nearby drive thru liquor store that closes at midnight, it's 9:52pm Colorado, I hope I will choose to sleep and choose to quit, again. Slayer, if u can fight the battle, fight the battle when you're drunk you'll be in the devil's loop of his piss water wishing to have held on longer n fought.
Super powerful comment. I’m so sorry you’re wrapped up in that hellish cycle. You can absolutely get out of it!!! Like you said call on the lord to give you strength. Lord help della over come this demon of alcohol, protect them from all temptation and evilness, in Jesus name, amen.
Keep fighting, don’t give up. I know all too well what you’re going through right now and I was EXTREMELY close to ending up in that spot last night. If I would have drank last night I would most likely be drunk right now trying to figure out how to get my next bottle. It’s total insanity, it’s a brain disease and it’s known as one now. Crazy stuff, good luck I believe in you. Keep me updated 🙏
You can do it and win this war Slayer
@@janetstadius1684 I hope so Janet, I really do.
Good man for not drinking! Proud of you. I know how fucking hard it is
Hey thanks brother 🙏, it is definitely a battle like none I’ve ever fought.
Just went through the same battle Labor Day. Had an argument with a family member, and decided I was going to go buy a bottle, and drink my anger away. I drove to the plaza where the store is, and I needed to get some charcoal for our hot dog cook out. So I went in the grocery store by the liquor store first. I walked back by the steaks, and thought, Devil you ain't gonna win. I bought 6 steaks cheaper than that bottle of liquor. Went home and focused on my victory dinner. Sorry so long. Slayer, just know that you are not, and will not ever be alone.
🖤🖤🖤
Slay call LD
I plan to talk with him on Sunday Kristen!! I’m really looking forward to it!
I’m so sorry about the dogs, man. It sucks your mom isn’t there too. Same with the ear.
Alcohol won’t help your pets and it certainly won’t help you! Remember that!
Keep doing good! Life gets hard and you’re doing good.
Hey brother thank you 🙏 !
You’re 100% right man it won’t, it would only make berthing worse. I made it through last night and I’ll keep making through. I appreciate y’all’s comments so much.
I will brother, I will. One day at a time 🙏💪
Praying for u 🙏
Thanks so much emery 🙏🙏 god bless you my friend.
@Slayer-Sober you got this, stay sober it's only option for you, sipping that poison liquid not gonna do anything but harm, I want best for you
You’re absolutely right my friend, thank you as well for the genuine care. 🙏it means a lot especially in these dark times.
I dont know you but I seen few your videos and I hope you stay sober.
Hey thanks desi 🙏 so far I’ve stayed strong. Desi was the name of one of my dogs as well from back in the day. God bless
I know probably losing two dogs 🐕 in a month is potentially a trigger but it will feel worse when you’re in that hospital bed. Sorry about the dogs.
You are correct my friend.
Thank you for the condolences brother 🙏 god bless
@@Slayer-7373 all ok no relapse?
@@Redsnapper123 no relapse 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 great
YOU would likely benefit from some exercise or something to discharge this anxiety. I hear it in your Voice. You fought for several days but the HOUSE always wins as we know. We therefore must distance ourselves from the HOUSE, from the Casino. It's a place of Loss for us. I suggest you relax and get a Quiet, NON - grasping MIND. This is anxiety and Tension. I am so sorry about the pups. Heart breaking. I too am glad to see you come here instead of isolate. Good job Slayer. IF your Body- Mind receives the endorphins that exercise ( a WALK - glad to hear you walk ) releases, you will feel much, much better. I promise. Whenever you get wound like this, a suggestion is STOP and find a way to do a 30 minute ( at least ) power walk. YOU can so find the time amigo. Walking will lower your racing heart. I have that too. Walking brings a quiet mind and focus. Walking puts a calming shield or buffer around the head for hours and hours. I hope it's ok I made this suggestion. The anxiety will flatten if you get a walk in everyday. Head phones -- pod casts, spiritual stuff, music, Relaxation talks. Another benefit -- Vitamin D from the sun. Early morning sun is best -- right into your eyes. Will help sleep too. My counselor used to leave me in another room as I had a panic attack before the session started. Love your panic - allow it. Embrace it. The folks in my stop smoking group who developed a daily walking practice, guess what they did? They Effing quit killing themselves with the cancer Stix and protected their quits too. Walking puts us in a better, very chill mood. And who knows, you might meet a new friend on the trail. Walk a moderately good pace if you can. OR work up to it. The First step is the hardest. Slayer guess how I coped with panic ? WALKING EVERYDAY -- walking is the GURU
Always love your comments Judith!!! They always get thinking. Go bless youuuu🙏
Watch some Eckhart tolle videos on addiction and the pain body. Also, easy way to quit drinking by allen carr
Hey bill I’ve heard a lot of good stuff about eckhart tolle!! I will have to check him out. God bless brother 🙏
Stay strong
🙏💪one hour at a time man if that’s what it takes. God bless
You should think about trying a livestream when you're in moments like this, that way people on here could talk to you while it's happening, instead of after the fact. Not sure if that's a good idea or not lol but i thought I'd throw it out there.
This is an amazing idea man!!! I should 100% do this. I didn’t think of this, y’all are so smart on this community haha. God bless bro 🙏
Hope you’re doing well! Haven’t seen anything from you for a while 🙏🏽☺️
@@Shannonmt92 I’m hanging in there Shannon, my dog did pass so these last few days have been really rough. I hope to make a new video here soon 🙏 god bless
@@Slayer-7373 I’m so sorry Slayer 🥺! I pray for God to help you and your mom with peace that surpasses all understanding going through this in Jesus name🙏🏽🫂 God bless you tooo
Absolutely spiritual warfare. How are you doing now Brother? Did you end up drinking? If you did no not fret.
You are correct, God will not tempt but He will test you.
The devil will tempt you, he knows your every move, and familiar spirits have watched us our whole lives. You’re dealing with a fallen angel, and the flesh. But we also serve a God who is much bigger than lucifer.
Your content is amazing Brother. I had a slip just recently also.
When night hits - everyone’s in for the evening with their Families - you have that free time and that set of keys to run up to that liquor store. That first chug & release? Brother I completely UNDERSTAND.
so I know the absolute hell a lapse causes. Especially when it’s invaded a structured routine you’ve been working so hard to keep on tacked.
You got a beautiful soul Slayer. Keep up the good work man - and just know if you did slip, Gods mercy exceeds our understanding and He WILL lift you back up. Just like an eagle man.
Love you Brother!!
1 Corinthians 3:13-15
“Every man's work shall be made manifest: for the day shall declare it, because it shall be revealed by fire; and the fire shall try every man's work of what sort it is.
If any man's work abide which he hath built thereupon, he shall receive a reward.”
Jeremiah 17:10
“I the Lord search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.”
@@Brandon77745 hey Brandon 👋 thank you for this beautiful comment my friend. I agree with everything you said, it’s awesome that you’re a “brother in Christ” as well.
I did not drink thank god 🙏, I’m not out of the woods yet though. Like you said god doesn’t tempt you, that’s exactly why I said it the way I did, but the devil on the other hand that’s a whole other story. I’m definitely still being tempted with everything going on man.
God bless you brother, thank you. Also amen to those scriptures.
@@Slayer-7373 so good to hear man, you got this. You don’t even understand how happy I am for you.
You’re over a month, hold onto that & keep that in sight. Keep it sacred.
I would give anything to be where you are right now - though no fear, I will be completely sober. Claiming this in advance, in Jesus Name.
I broke a 147 streak October last year and that was heart wrenching to say the least. I’ve been “looping” ever since.
Absolutely, Brothers in Christ 🤙
There hasn’t been a single thing you’ve said, that I haven’t related to. People who have never been through alcoholism will never understand the depths of hell it can bring you into.
No fault of their own, and I would never ask for pity in any way, shape or form. It’s simply unexplainable though, and confusing to loved ones as to why you just don’t “stop”.
Bro, I’ve been fighting damn hard, just like you have been also. I will not let this substance take my life.
I’m getting sober for me first and foremost, and my loved ones.
and remember … keep the streak you’re on sacred. You are in such a good space right now. You’re distanced from that snake. If you have to - fall to your face if that craving comes on and it’s too much.
Fall flat on your face and scream for God man. Open the Bible in that moment. He will give you exactly what you need, if that moment arises. Many times, I only wish I would have done that.
Keep it up man
@@Brandon77745 hey brother remember, “all things are possible through Christ Jesus who strengthens us”. No matter what happens we will make it through, keep pushing brother. Even if you only have a day or two sober that’s better than giving up and drinking constantly. We keep pushing forward, no matter what.
God bless you my friend 🙏 thank you for the truly awesome comments.
@@Slayer-7373 absolutely. Amen Bro 🙏
How painful is Pancreatitis
10 out of 10 pain . Even after they gave me morphine I was still in agony till I just passed the fuck out
To put that in perspective I believe a natural birth is a 7/10. I nearly died of appendicitis, it was agonising and the pain came on so suddenly.
@@Baresark were you layed out in the hospital ?
@@MoonMantis-x1l oh you know it. Emergency appendectomy. Presumably all due to drinking.
@@Baresark damn. Yah my panc was 100 percent due to drinking. The fucked up thing is, a week later I was back at it. Took many more scary incidents to convince me to stop
That’s the wave just let it rise and crest then it goes away it will become a little bit more doable as time goes on but just don’t drink I use to take shots of apple cider vinegar to get the burn but no booooze
Drinking is never worth it, never.
James 1:2-3. 2 My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
3 Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
James 1:12-15. 12 Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.
13 Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man:
14 But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed.
15 Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.
1 Corinthians 10:13. 13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.
Jeremiah 29:11. 11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Stay strong man. Remember we can’t do this without God. God bless bro.
Amen brother 🙏🙏.
We can’t do this without god that’s a fact. God bless
And thank you as well my friend!
Do you go to meetings? Every day you make it is a gift 🎁✌️
3 days a week 🙏, they are a must!!! God bless you
Just this video, and channel. Alcohol is a rough one my friend stays strong! I am working on vid about my best friend, like not just friend more brother! but we just turned 43, he died beginning of this year liver failure.... man, I still cry.... I'm pissed, my bro is gone! y son mom OD year and half ago people are just gone! don't be one of them! Never quit never fail! hmu if need to chat ever Addiction Recovery Life peace!
🖤😔I’m so sorry to hear this.
God bless you
I believe she’ll be seeing Henry and Annie
You and your mom can bond together on walks
Just breathe
🙏
I’m really struggling atm
I’m so sorry I’m just seeing this, how are you now?!
Better now bro thank you🙏
Glad you didnt. Just imagine how much worse you would have felt with the withdrawal. We all know it will be a much worse living hell.
The devil comes to steal kill and destroy
100% facts.
I know fear can’t stop us but I beg you try your best to get the help, I have just been through 5 days of complete insanity in alcoholic withdrawal, I am uploading my first video now, I tried to watch one of your videos when I was in DTs and your eyes turned black in a hallucination and I seen all the suffering we take for granted, but really this shit is demonic and is trying to steal our souls, I love your videos man but I am trying my best to get sober now please do not drink it is pure and utter hell. ❤️ the AA book may be right we are like on a time bomb to our next drink.
I’m so sorry that you’re going through that hell brother!!!! That’s what it is is, I know all too well it’s awful!!! PLEASE BE SAFE. Go to a hospital if need be, you are not alone and you can conquer it!!!! You’re brave for even being on here admitting this. Prayers to you. Keep me updated please!!! 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373 it has passed now but I was to scared to go the hospital this incident but I could of died 🙏 I am 11 days of alcohol but 4 days clean
Oh Slayer, please stay away from Satan. Your dogs are the love of our lives. Sometimes it hurts worse to lose the dogs than to lose people. I wish I could make all of this go away for you.Im praying for you.
🙏🖤 thank you Rebecca!!!!! I’m staying away, it’s not worth it!
Prob a good time to call a sponsor... this sounds like my thoughts before my last relapse. Whatever u do DONT DRINK.
I hope u didnt drink.
Absolutely you are 100% correct, moment like that you need to reach out and I did. I didn’t drink, I made it through!! Thank you so much 🥲🙏🖤
@Slayer-7373 good. I learned my lesson with that lol
@@sumshine928 sometimes we gotta learn the hard way haha, it’s the only way we ever will! Definitely happened to me a few times.
Aye dude, how is there a way I can get a hold of you brother?
Yes sir!! You can dm me on instagram @slayer_youtube_73 or shoot me an email @slayersober7@gmail.com
God bless man.
dont listen to the demonic forces. the devil roams around like a lion seeking all those he can devour. just remember that bro
Amen
We have to stay sober and vigilant
You’re 100% right man.
God bless.