rejected from my dream college, acne tips + food binge | Glow up Diaries Episode 3

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  • Опубліковано 11 лис 2018
  • Life will knock you down and hurt you. But never give up. Get back up and just keep going.
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    Episode 3 was filmed: March - April 2018
    ABOUT THE GLOW UP DIARIES: At rock bottom I picked up a camera and began documenting my physical and mental pain that seemingly existed without meaning. From age 17 to 22 years old I recorded the “Glow Up Diaries” which is a raw docu-series of my deepest, most painful moments in an effort to find a newer, brighter existence. I openly share my difficulties despite the insistence of the media that such “shameful” feelings be kept in a closet.
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  • @aliviadandrea
    @aliviadandrea  2 роки тому +35

    ★ WATCH ALL OF THE GLOW UP DIARIES: bit.ly/37O0bX6
    ABOUT: This is a 6 year docu-series of my coming of age story. I originally thought I would end this series after a few months but ugly truths unraveled as I went further into my glow up journey. I began recording the glow up diaries at 17 years old and finished when I turned 22 years old.

  • @saracha-sauce
    @saracha-sauce 4 роки тому +7882

    "I wanna reach out for help but idk who to ask"
    I feel this.

    • @alesarkissian4377
      @alesarkissian4377 4 роки тому +31

      Relatable

    • @ryebread_draws
      @ryebread_draws 4 роки тому +47

      I recently started my glow up and I did it with a friend it really helps and motivates me it is so fun and relieving to talk about your progress with a friend and it really helps. I totally recommend it

    • @saracha-sauce
      @saracha-sauce 4 роки тому +56

      @@ryebread_draws I don't really have many friends anymore. Not ones I could do that with. We've mainly grown apart or everyone's just growing up and busy. I'm so happy that you have that support and it's working for you 💕

    • @ryebread_draws
      @ryebread_draws 4 роки тому +6

      Sara Edwards Thank you, and I’m sorry

    • @rose_millsie9287
      @rose_millsie9287 4 роки тому +24

      it's so much harder for young people to glow up. I'm 12 years old, but I have acne problems and I want to lose weight. But it's harder because I'm too young to go out running by myself, nobody wants to do it with me, and I'm obviously too young to go to the gym. I always do exercises at home, but I want to change, I want to go outside and do something else. I love cycling, but my mum only wants to do it every now and then

  • @nicolem8720
    @nicolem8720 5 років тому +7356

    It’s 12 am right now and I suddenly want to be healthy

  • @lilkmm1007
    @lilkmm1007 5 років тому +4608

    I felt TERRIBLE today, so I decided to skip school. All I did today was lay in bed and eat... it's now 5 pm and I'm watching this, I'm about to get into the shower to feel better. Thank you ALOT!

    • @sarahaurent2915
      @sarahaurent2915 4 роки тому +109

      girl same, I also skipped university today, because I was feeling bad, and I look terrible, I ordered food, and now it's 4pm, I'm rewatching this series to maybe myself feel better.

    • @nuage9727
      @nuage9727 4 роки тому +15

      Army

    • @sanity6241
      @sanity6241 4 роки тому +22

      hi army i know this is like 8 months late but i hope u feel better

    • @leahe864
      @leahe864 4 роки тому +7

      That’s me rn

    • @cinnebar
      @cinnebar 4 роки тому +6

      good luck 💜

  • @astrare0
    @astrare0 4 роки тому +377

    When she said, “I’m scared I’ll never lose weight” I cried. 🥺💜

    • @yamiart1805
      @yamiart1805 3 роки тому +8

      And she’s not even chubby, maybe a little bit... but I get her point and know how she feels. I also startet gaining a little unwanted weight

  • @ladureelover7620
    @ladureelover7620 5 років тому +13756

    This series is low-key changing my life

  • @georgiazak8992
    @georgiazak8992 5 років тому +3825

    I tried the five second thing once... I fell back asleep at three

  • @selenefae6761
    @selenefae6761 5 років тому +3371

    I was a 4.3 GPA student and had a 1440 SAT and I was rejected by over 80% of the colleges I applied to. Fun fact: I was rejected from Cal Poly SLU, but two classmates of mine who had B’s and C’s in school got in. ( I’m a straight A student ) Sometimes life isn’t fair but we work our way through it.

    • @moa6081
      @moa6081 5 років тому +141

      Selene Fae they probably had a lot more to offer and were more interesting...

    • @moneyjar4606
      @moneyjar4606 5 років тому +659

      Please ignore this rude person above me. Anyways. I feel ya. I am just reaching 4.0 and I got 1050 SAT I'm bout to cry in depression over it. Weird how things turn out sometimes.

    • @serenityrse1380
      @serenityrse1380 5 років тому +49

      @@moneyjar4606 exactly 😂

    • @lanik4072
      @lanik4072 5 років тому +249

      Selene Fae sorry about that things really aren’t fair sometimes but don’t wonder why they got in and you didn’t, they also work hard to get in. Some people just can’t get straight A’s and struggle just because you had near perfect grades doesn’t mean you’re more deserving.

    • @moneyjar4606
      @moneyjar4606 5 років тому +40

      Update: Took it again, got a 1070. But then again, I didn't study for either of them sooooo

  • @LuciferMorningStar-hj5kn
    @LuciferMorningStar-hj5kn 4 роки тому +594

    She: after got rejected in college leave her home for a trip
    Me: after got rejected also leave home but not for a trip.

    • @sk1nn1t3a2
      @sk1nn1t3a2 3 роки тому +30

      Aww what happened are you okay ? I cant imagine how hard that must have been

    • @sarabobby1984
      @sarabobby1984 3 роки тому +18

      * insert sigh * it's too hard that i still sad and depressed even after a year

    • @daniellemalgwi8440
      @daniellemalgwi8440 3 роки тому +14

      Hope your ok ;-;

    • @scarlettjersey307
      @scarlettjersey307 3 роки тому +12

      It'll be alright. Sorry

    • @revathinagarajann763
      @revathinagarajann763 2 роки тому

      Hope you are okay

  • @axelate17
    @axelate17 5 років тому +7125

    Ok, so I love the fact that she is showing her struggles in this series...but come on! please don't cry😭😭😭

    • @axelate17
      @axelate17 5 років тому +128

      @Michaela no, I'm saying I get sad to see someone cry like her...it was very touching to she her battle this way very similar to mine. I am just very proud of her for showing her struggles to show that this wasn't easy for her, as that is the real battle we would face if we began the journey like hers. I began my journey and started to get really disappointed in myself for not losing the weight I wanted or for just wasting my day binge eating at night. It's just it's so sad to watch her cry😭 it was like watching Mufasa die in the lion king, very touching moment, but also a way to show the reality of what it's like to lose a loved one

    • @sharlenerichards6140
      @sharlenerichards6140 5 років тому +41

      Honestly, I felt that hurt deep in my soul I cried too 😭

    • @vanessakennedy311
      @vanessakennedy311 4 роки тому +10

      Purpleaxelate 17 wtf, she’s human and so are you! i would expect more smh

    • @fairoadiary
      @fairoadiary 4 роки тому +29

      vanessa kennedy you just 🤦🏽‍♀️

    • @baileyhallkuro
      @baileyhallkuro 4 роки тому +15

      its okay to cry!!

  • @txehyung5405
    @txehyung5405 5 років тому +11244

    youtuber of the year award goes to....

  • @03019a
    @03019a 4 роки тому +2548

    Alivia: No one is going to force you to the morning jog
    dog: Am I a joke to you?

    • @user-mf9id6de8n
      @user-mf9id6de8n 4 роки тому +9

      HAHAHAH TRUE

    • @luciamorton8245
      @luciamorton8245 4 роки тому +12

      mine is literally the only reason i’ve been getting up early

    • @katarinavojtekova2067
      @katarinavojtekova2067 4 роки тому +8

      I felt this on a spiritual level...

    • @zeoceania2765
      @zeoceania2765 4 роки тому +12

      @Josie Hirst I bet he's having the time of his life with you

    • @mariline7891
      @mariline7891 4 роки тому +6

      @Josie Hirst omg that's so good and such an I an inspiring thing to say.

  • @V0idedChip
    @V0idedChip 5 років тому +1178

    Ur the most realistic UA-camr I've come across. Unlike all the other fitness ppl I've watched, you film your challenges and weaknesses and it made me feel so much better to know I'm not the only one who binges and breaks down. Thanks

  • @jasminebaar4640
    @jasminebaar4640 5 років тому +2296

    Am I the only desperate one? Waiting patiently for your videos?

  • @nadeneorlando7275
    @nadeneorlando7275 5 років тому +4854

    Thank you for being vulnerable.

  • @sophiamarie4880
    @sophiamarie4880 5 років тому +390

    wow... halfway through this video i paused it and went on a thirty minute run. well.. more of a jog. but at least it was something! thank you!

    • @clairefennell3230
      @clairefennell3230 4 роки тому +5

      Sophia Marie good for you girl👏👏

    • @reneehuyck5
      @reneehuyck5 4 роки тому +2

      Sophia Marie so proud of you! 🙂❤️

  • @mariumkhan9521
    @mariumkhan9521 4 роки тому +296

    Best accidental click of my life. Got rejected by my dream college as well and during the prep period, I stress ate a lot and it resulted in a very unhealthy weight. Shit treated myself the whole September, and realized that this wasn't the way to live. Starting October, I'm trying for a healthier lifestyle for better physical and mental health. These series are super inspiring. Keep the good work up.

  • @petrapredovan473
    @petrapredovan473 5 років тому +2348

    "In life, unlike chess, the game continues after checkmate."
    -Isaac Asimov
    Remember this next time you binge, sleep in, don't exercise, ...
    Losing the battle doesn't mean losing the war.

  • @barbarajasiulewicz2899
    @barbarajasiulewicz2899 5 років тому +1984

    literally the best series that exists on yt rn .... pls don’t ever stop doing them . you show such a real side of human being . I struggle with similar problems that you have . I hope one day I will get to where you are rn . One more time : big thank you for filming those kind of videos 😫❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😭

  • @alexishamilton2843
    @alexishamilton2843 5 років тому +225

    1:36 OML that made me cry. You are absolutely right nobody can force you to do that you have to push yourself. I’m only 13 and I think you just changed my life😭☺️

    • @larab2323
      @larab2323 4 роки тому +5

      Same gurl

    • @user-fk9bl2bt7s
      @user-fk9bl2bt7s 4 роки тому +8

      /r im14andthisisdeep

    • @avabaxter6583
      @avabaxter6583 4 роки тому +5

      Alexis Hamilton I just turned 12 and I feel the same

    • @reneehuyck5
      @reneehuyck5 4 роки тому +3

      I am turning 13 in less than a month, play softball, and need to make a change. 🙏❤️

    • @samridhi5799
      @samridhi5799 3 роки тому

      @@avabaxter6583 same

  • @elizabethruel9046
    @elizabethruel9046 4 роки тому +660

    she’s gonna be a great mom

  • @isaflorencio3199
    @isaflorencio3199 5 років тому +3817

    she went running at 7 a.m? My school starts at 7 a.m

    • @TheCelticer
      @TheCelticer 4 роки тому +35

      Lol. Where are you from?

    • @lottiephilpotts
      @lottiephilpotts 4 роки тому +80

      Mine starts at 8:40 lmao

    • @lauraberstler4420
      @lauraberstler4420 4 роки тому +104

      @@TheCelticer Mine starts at 7:35 am. I am from Germamy.

    • @TheCelticer
      @TheCelticer 4 роки тому +49

      @@lauraberstler4420 lol wo hat man in Deutschland denn um 7.35 Uhr Schule? 😅

    • @vago2670
      @vago2670 4 роки тому +25

      @@TheCelticer Im going on 8 grade so now its starting 8:30am but on 6 grade and 7 grade it started 7:30 am on Norway

  • @user-so4kn6hl7d
    @user-so4kn6hl7d 5 років тому +1095

    I’m literally checking this account over 5 times a day to check if there is a new video

  • @clovergirl2002
    @clovergirl2002 4 роки тому +43

    this made me want to change, i told my mom and she said when she goes food shopping she’ll stop getting unhealthy foods

  • @Gabriela-ni7dc
    @Gabriela-ni7dc 5 років тому +152

    when i red the title and saw her cry so hard when she was rejected from her dream college and all the hard work is so painful even tho u havent experience it still i know that even tho im young still and hope she stills be healthy happy and succesful with all the prayers...
    God Bless Alivia 🙏❤🙏

  • @sabnicmat
    @sabnicmat 5 років тому +1323

    Please keep going omg this is changing my life

  • @favour4039
    @favour4039 5 років тому +707

    Make sure your weight loss journey doesn't turn into an eating disorder because that is what happened to me and I have just recovered x

    • @sasgay1198
      @sasgay1198 5 років тому +4

      Favour Ajayi saaame

    • @jcb24146
      @jcb24146 5 років тому +3

      same same same

    • @shototodoroki4838
      @shototodoroki4838 5 років тому +32

      I'm twelve years old, and currently recovering from bulimia, so I want all of y'all, even thou it's no alot, to remember that the number on the scale doesn't matter until it's too low or to high. And even though I don't know y'all, I give you my respects if you have EVER struggled with an eating disorder.♥

    • @a.c.d.s
      @a.c.d.s 5 років тому +1

      xoxox

    • @Icedpumpkinchailatte
      @Icedpumpkinchailatte 5 років тому +6

      me too. no one close to me noticed my extreme weight loss and I kinda feel hopeless

  • @udochii
    @udochii 3 роки тому +136

    i bet that the school she got rejected to wants her now after this series-

    • @kiara_nights8857
      @kiara_nights8857 3 роки тому +15

      Probably that's what I thought, she's really realistic and she talks about alot of her personal life too, and most colleges like low profiles.

  • @dnrz6819
    @dnrz6819 5 років тому +74

    My heart broke for you. You are such a strong person.

  • @Meg-xq5rb
    @Meg-xq5rb 5 років тому +949

    I appreciate you for posting these. I feel like when people post a glow up diary, it almost is like taking a bath and doing a face mask and that’s it. Thank you for taking your time and being vulnerable with your emotions to inspire not only your subscribers but also yourself. One day you are going to look back on this and be so proud of yourself for not giving up. Thank you.

  • @asleeeeeee
    @asleeeeeee 5 років тому +227

    Starts video off with “ so did I eat the cookie???” 😂greatest intro ever

  • @beatriceshalani634
    @beatriceshalani634 5 років тому +110

    she’s so optimistic!! i hope i have that kind of personality, go girl!

  • @sophiejones1596
    @sophiejones1596 4 роки тому +72

    Why did I start crying when she started binging 😭 I relate so much and I need to change

    • @Agforever12
      @Agforever12 4 роки тому +4

      Sophiedoodledo Voiceovers I almost cried so I skipped it because I’ve been there a lot and now I’m trying to get my life together

  • @lordbongsesh3439
    @lordbongsesh3439 5 років тому +1358

    There’s a reason you weren’t accepted, You have something better waiting for you in your future and it’s your job to find that out, trust me just wait and be patient and you’ll be thankful you weren’t accepted :)

    • @sofiawheeler4967
      @sofiawheeler4967 5 років тому +13

      This is my favorite comment

    • @strawberryfox8819
      @strawberryfox8819 5 років тому +20

      @@zoekg7504 be careful with that saying. Not everything happens for a reason.

    • @niyabear4904
      @niyabear4904 5 років тому +7

      @@strawberryfox8819 Everything happens for a reason :)

    • @strawberryfox8819
      @strawberryfox8819 5 років тому +13

      @@niyabear4904 so if a little girl is raped by a stranger or dies of cancer, it happened for a reason?
      You gotta look at both sides of the coin.

    • @ammaniassaff6466
      @ammaniassaff6466 5 років тому

      So truee

  • @jorjatrocchio6926
    @jorjatrocchio6926 5 років тому +1373

    When are you posting again? Desperately need more inspiration. Don’t rush tho I love you Aliva

    • @aminapoljak8322
      @aminapoljak8322 5 років тому +28

      Jorja Trocchio yeah I look every day, i’m obsessed!

    • @fish-rz4xw
      @fish-rz4xw 5 років тому +11

      At the end it says she posts every Saturday but idk if that includes the glow up series

    • @CooperBurnetteBee
      @CooperBurnetteBee 5 років тому +3

      Jorja Trocchio yeah me too. I need her inspiration😅and her amazing advice!

    • @bellawahbeh2944
      @bellawahbeh2944 5 років тому +5

      I know... I need her back too!!

    • @rain_huaa
      @rain_huaa 5 років тому +1

      You can try with jusuf videos. She actually inspires you so much!!

  • @samriddhaguha6377
    @samriddhaguha6377 2 роки тому +10

    Whenever I feel low in my life, don't feel any motivation I just watch her series repeatedly

  • @peethos
    @peethos 4 роки тому +4

    1:29 Am I the only one who lowkey thinks that the way she says it, is so cute?

  • @emmapaterchak
    @emmapaterchak 5 років тому +1064

    You should be a motivational speaker

  • @miatrm7545
    @miatrm7545 5 років тому +1087

    I absolutely love this series, especially the "health journal" segments! Have you ever thought about making them available to download or maybe even to eventually combine them all in a book? I would certainly buy it and I feel like it'd be really helpful for a lot of your viewers!

    • @CandyHeadphones
      @CandyHeadphones 5 років тому +33

      I think an interactive journal with Alivia's input and ideas would be a great idea.

    • @CMA-he7pe
      @CMA-he7pe 5 років тому +6

      This is such an amazing idea, I would buy it too!

  • @quis_.khai1
    @quis_.khai1 5 років тому +335

    Alivia just make sure when you drink your apple cider drink it with a straw as it damages tooth enamel

    • @rowenaravenclaw8474
      @rowenaravenclaw8474 4 роки тому +23

      Green Flame Apple Cider vinegar tablets work really well, you can avoid the taste and the damage to your teeth.

    • @Howlite__
      @Howlite__ 3 роки тому +4

      can u have lemon instead since i dont have apple cider vinegar?

    • @lightheartedkpop4426
      @lightheartedkpop4426 3 роки тому +8

      @@Howlite__ Yes warm water, honey and lemon is really good for your health it also prevents things like colds ,cough so yeah. ( I use lemon to )

    • @Howlite__
      @Howlite__ 3 роки тому +2

      @@lightheartedkpop4426 oh thanks:)

    • @lightheartedkpop4426
      @lightheartedkpop4426 3 роки тому +1

      @@Howlite__ np :))

  • @samriddi6703
    @samriddi6703 4 роки тому +64

    That collage should be upset for rejecting such a smart, amazing, and positive girl ❤️❤️

  • @Neha-qh3uh
    @Neha-qh3uh 5 років тому +807

    Wow when you say you are cleaning your room you clean it.
    But when I say I'm cleaning my room I just keep extra things where I can not see it.😆😆😆

    • @slutat-1527
      @slutat-1527 5 років тому +1

      sameeeee

    • @reemab4241
      @reemab4241 5 років тому +1

      totaly me 😆😆😆

    • @jarkahalcinova3625
      @jarkahalcinova3625 5 років тому +5

      im deep cleaning my room for like a month but i still didnt started lol

    • @hummingbirdmp3143
      @hummingbirdmp3143 5 років тому

      WE ARE SIMILAR

    • @mayaboukhary2959
      @mayaboukhary2959 5 років тому +3

      a tip to declutter things you cant throw away: hide them in a closet for a while and if you forget about them then you dont need them

  • @dakotaa888
    @dakotaa888 5 років тому +368

    Your glow up diaries inspired me to seriously work on myself. I've been getting up at 5 in the morning everyday and doing yoga and stretching. After that I drink a huge amount of water to hydrate, I do skin care to help my acne, then moisturize and get ready for school. I've been doing work outs and running to the bus stop. My body feels so much better and when I fail (which happens a lot) seeing that there's someone out there who's struggling too and I'm not alone makes me feel so much better. I don't plan on giving up. Thank you. ❤️

    • @justicem4495
      @justicem4495 5 років тому

      What time do you go to sleep?

    • @dakotaa888
      @dakotaa888 5 років тому +3

      justice m I'm always in bed at 9:00 or 9:30 depending on when I get ready.

    • @nyiadraper955
      @nyiadraper955 5 років тому +2

      Her videos and your inspiration from her videos are inspiring me! I think I am going to try to wake up early in the morning and do some yoga.

    • @dakotaa888
      @dakotaa888 5 років тому +1

      Nyia Draper aww that's awesome. good luck!!! ❤️

    • @nyiadraper955
      @nyiadraper955 5 років тому

      @@dakotaa888 thank you! 😊

  • @nicolejarel5953
    @nicolejarel5953 4 роки тому +13

    So smart for you to go workout after receiving the news, such a healthy move mentally. I remember that feeling and it was absolutely horrible. After getting rejected from my favorite colleges, I decided to go to a community college. Two years later, i got rejected from my back up school SDSU and had a complete panic attack/mental breakdown. But then I got accepted to USC months later! I promise things happen for a reason no matter what journey you’re on.

  • @islajohnston5785
    @islajohnston5785 4 роки тому +226

    I tried the 5 second thing
    I got to 5
    And kept counting
    Fell asleep again at number 7

  • @Alexi1277
    @Alexi1277 5 років тому +272

    Just why can't we have more ppl like you, people who are encouraging, who actually know how hard it is who actually face reality, people who you can actually relate to and say "if you can do it i can do it as well" we need more people like that.
    But we've got you
    And im thankful for that ❤️😖👊

  • @arianalange3833
    @arianalange3833 5 років тому +236

    This reminded me of when I suffered from anorexia. When I would binge and then have full on mental breakdowns. One of the worst times of my life.

    • @hyunasfanboy5575
      @hyunasfanboy5575 5 років тому +7

      That's where I am currently, I'm really trying to drag myself out of it. :')

    • @savreihana5148
      @savreihana5148 5 років тому

      That was middle school me,now im a vegetarian

    • @julieprosser1779
      @julieprosser1779 5 років тому

      Well done fore being strong and getting through it ❤️x

    • @fishylove1821
      @fishylove1821 5 років тому

      STEFERINES_ SAKE so am I(:

  • @bravenboldlife2368
    @bravenboldlife2368 4 роки тому +63

    Your glow up journey actually motivated me to start one,and whenever my willpower and motivation go down I watch the whole series of yours from the beginning that's what keeps me on the right path. THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU

  • @mahirahkhalisah2222
    @mahirahkhalisah2222 4 роки тому +23

    that feeling when u got rejected 😭 i feel u

  • @lily-annegoyer1140
    @lily-annegoyer1140 5 років тому +274

    I started crying when she cried about her rejection, i dont have the best grades and i really try to push myself, i want to concentrate more. Watching your videos really inspires me to dont give up and adopt new habits. Thanks in advence💜

  • @Sara-uk8ve
    @Sara-uk8ve 5 років тому +447

    IT'S OFFICIAL SHANE DAWSON AND ALIVIA D'ANDREA HAVE THE BEST SERIES OF THE WORLD

    • @lilskrut296
      @lilskrut296 5 років тому +2

      We 👏 need 👏 a 👏 collab 👏

    • @canary7223
      @canary7223 5 років тому

      SHANE DAWSON IS TRASH ONLY ALIVIA

    • @iitsmuri
      @iitsmuri 5 років тому

      roastbang shut up

  • @tnx01
    @tnx01 4 роки тому +16

    I discovered your "this will drastically change your life" two days ago and since then I started to clean up my room a little every evening because there's nothing better than waking up to a fresh day in a fresh room 😊

  • @officialsoledad8298
    @officialsoledad8298 3 роки тому +12

    'I'm just scared I'll never lose weight.' I relate to this so much. I've been trying to lose weight for as long as I remember and sometimes I'm just scared like 'will I ever be skinny' or 'will I ever be happy with my body.'. But I'm so glad I'm not alone on this journey. Thank you Alivia!

  • @jennifere4539
    @jennifere4539 5 років тому +329

    if you're reading this, have an amazing day.

  • @jazzyfox8139
    @jazzyfox8139 5 років тому +121

    She's such a little bean I hate to see her cry or upset😫💗💗

  • @som1sauntie58
    @som1sauntie58 5 років тому +19

    I feel like this series encompasses everything that sucks when you're a teenager-- like all your efforts too

  • @kittycooper9583
    @kittycooper9583 5 років тому +566

    I wish these videos were like half an hour long omg

    • @xSavv
      @xSavv 5 років тому +2

      Same

    • @kaylaluvstheflash4897
      @kaylaluvstheflash4897 5 років тому

      Fr fr

    • @annakhabarova7956
      @annakhabarova7956 5 років тому +7

      Kitty Cooper but then you would spend time watching, and not doing.
      Be grateful

    • @kate70
      @kate70 5 років тому

      Anna Khabarova mhm🙌🏽👏🏽💯

    • @kittycooper9583
      @kittycooper9583 5 років тому +3

      Anna Khabarova
      I am grateful I would just love longer content as i love these videos so much, it was only a compliment😂🙃😘

  • @itxy4283
    @itxy4283 5 років тому +434

    This video felt way shorter than 7 minutes 😭 I’m so grateful that you showed all the things that didn’t go well because you made me remember that they will eventually pass.
    So I’m gonna apply for community college within the next few weeks and I’m super nervous😂 I don’t adapt easily to new environments so I’m worried about how I will do when I go and I’m also worried about the whole process of getting in.

    • @flippinpeachy1921
      @flippinpeachy1921 5 років тому +1

      Good luck!! I hope it goes well.

    • @jessicap9321
      @jessicap9321 5 років тому +1

      You got this!

    • @alexadavis816
      @alexadavis816 5 років тому +1

      Anyone with a high school diploma gets into community college. It’s not much of an “accepted or rejected” situation like universities. You just apply and enroll lmao.

    • @itxy4283
      @itxy4283 5 років тому +1

      @@flippinpeachy1921
      Thank you so much.

    • @itxy4283
      @itxy4283 5 років тому +1

      @@jessicap9321
      Thank you

  • @bellaswiss214
    @bellaswiss214 5 років тому +3

    I really appreciate that she’s so real. It’s a hard struggle, and it makes me feel better that I’m not the only one messing up

  • @briannahazen3813
    @briannahazen3813 2 роки тому +4

    when you said “i’m pathetic” i cried so hard because i felt that.

  • @trashkpop9006
    @trashkpop9006 5 років тому +565

    I really want to feel better about my skin and body pls wish me luck

  • @tara6624
    @tara6624 5 років тому +476

    Every week I get so excited for this xx

  • @mynameisjk5228
    @mynameisjk5228 4 роки тому +40

    Western colleges are scary. In my country, MOST of the schools will still accept you even if you failed ur entrance exam coz you'll be paying it anyway

  • @spongebobsquarepants8184
    @spongebobsquarepants8184 3 роки тому +2

    I legit cried here, 0:25

  • @abeedahfarjan
    @abeedahfarjan 5 років тому +169

    Girl, when you started crying I did too. I struggle with hormonal acne, with accepting my weight and ... also didn't get accepted into university! ( Had to rewrite my Life Science and Maths exams so I could get in but now I don't even know what I want go study)
    Thanks to your videos, I don't feel alone. There are people that have gone through what I go through and maybe worse.
    WE LOVE YOU, GIRL!

  • @durk4954
    @durk4954 5 років тому +27

    Guys, remember - binge eating is serious eating disorder and being overweight isn't better than being underweight. Don't ignore or normalize any of it ❤️

  • @nasake2307
    @nasake2307 5 років тому +5

    I'm 14 and it's been a year since I started my fitness journey. All I have to say is thank you for inspiring me to make myself a healthy version of myself. I used to have high cholesterol and now I don't have that. I exercised and ate healthy, and noticed huge changes in my skin and even helped my parents get a better life style. For anyone reading this I know you can do this, I know it's hard to start but once you do it only gets easier from there, don't beat yourself up too hard whenever you make a mistake, and remind yourself you can try again, just don't quit. Let's love ourselves together!!! 💜💜💜

  • @lale3600
    @lale3600 5 років тому +11

    Hobi always there to give hope💜 4:57

    • @babylinaxx
      @babylinaxx 5 років тому +1

      BTS ARMY he’s my Hope, he’s your hope, he’s J-Hope

  • @oliveb9007
    @oliveb9007 5 років тому +287

    Your videos r the sunlight in the darkness for me 😌

  • @cutelilly1000vedios
    @cutelilly1000vedios 5 років тому +220

    I subscribed because this is so relatable, I can be so healthy in the beginning and then when night time hits I binge, that’s why I’m so scared to try to be healthy, not mentioning the fact my mom is also aware of this and tells me that I can’t do it.
    Edit: I’m not over weight nor underweight, I’m a normal weight, but I eat so unhealthy

    • @shototodoroki4838
      @shototodoroki4838 5 років тому +1

      @anilla_md
      No matter how many people tell you that you can't do it, that doesn't matter. What matters is that YOU believe that you can do it. Even though you might not read this, and even though I don't know you, I believe in you. And as long as you're healthy, and you are comfortable in your own skin, that's all that matters. Don't let people tell you that you can't do it. Even if that's your mom telling you that, you shouldn't let that bring you down ♥

    • @clarebear3217
      @clarebear3217 5 років тому +1

      omg me too i have a healthy weight but i eat so unhealthy and it terrified of getting chubby again

    • @shototodoroki4838
      @shototodoroki4838 5 років тому +1

      @@clarebear3217 don't worry, we are here for you. Even if you have some ups and downs, you are still healthy and that's what matters. We love you ♥

    • @jemmadavis443
      @jemmadavis443 5 років тому

      anilla_md SAME

    • @jma.950
      @jma.950 5 років тому

      I feel you. I just want to be healthy and lose weight but it’s just so hard. But I know one day I’ll get there

  • @Astrologyt2343
    @Astrologyt2343 2 роки тому +1

    The fact that you’re so honest…. I am so grateful someone is talking about the fact that our paths to change aren’t linear.

  • @xle-mort-vivantx2009
    @xle-mort-vivantx2009 5 років тому +1

    I love how you’re kinda honest and show the binging and the tears and the problems that happen in life, rather than covering it up and acting like you’re living some kind of Barbie dream-life. It’s really inspiring, tbh. Also, I think seeing a video like this probably helps a lot of girls out there who have acne, to see you being so open about it.

  • @strawberry-zq5nq
    @strawberry-zq5nq 5 років тому +85

    Why is it that everytime I see you crying I cry, everytime you smile I smile? The music just made me sadder :(

  • @eunhastan6438
    @eunhastan6438 5 років тому +62

    this video should be trending on all over the world tbh

  • @peppivirta1442
    @peppivirta1442 4 роки тому +1

    When i started following you, I tought you were the perfect human. But now I see that "dont judge a book by its cover". I love seeing that I'm not the only one with this type of problems. You give me motivation. THANK YOU!

  • @keirafay4969
    @keirafay4969 4 роки тому +4

    This is like my 20th time watching this series all the way through. Thank you so much for inspiring me to change for the better.

  • @tomas3359
    @tomas3359 5 років тому +432

    WHERE IS THE NETFLIX ADAPTATION

  • @juanis8219
    @juanis8219 5 років тому +89

    hands down my favorite youtube series.

  • @diddyjade750
    @diddyjade750 Рік тому +3

    This chick is awsome, so natural and honest. Just inspires me so much and is so relatable. I LUV THIS GIRL, Thank U Alivia

  • @lali6598
    @lali6598 5 років тому

    im rewatching this in order and man, thank you for genuinely being so open and honest with us. it's so raw. I appreciate this so much

  • @nanamikents1760
    @nanamikents1760 5 років тому +174

    dang your words are so powerful alivia. you are such an inspirational girl💜✨

  • @kimmarie9652
    @kimmarie9652 5 років тому +245

    Where is episode 4?????

  • @MissKissyPH
    @MissKissyPH 4 роки тому +2

    There is something so ethereal about her videos and its editing. It just captures the essence of life.

  • @rachellong2656
    @rachellong2656 4 роки тому +22

    Coming in late to this glow up journey, but I think we are the same person. Omg everything you say hits me in the feels

  • @mlagv4045
    @mlagv4045 5 років тому +216

    Ayyyy to all y'all who may be still waiting for acceptance letters or may even have gotten rejected.
    I got rejected from my dream university last year. It was the only one I applied to. Why? Well, since literally generations of my family went there, my grades and credits were way above the requirements. Everyone told me, including my principal talked to me as if I already got accepted.
    But I'm from South Africa, and due to protests and riots of uni fees, a lot more studente applied to my uni since we barely experienced those, and it looks like basically every dream uni. (surrounded by wine farms, boutiques etc.)
    Cried for weeks, which led to me spending my 2017 stuck at home, trying to keep myself busy but to only fall into a deeper depression, especially since all my friends got it and I felt like the rejected one of the group.
    Shit happened too in that year (got attacked by dogs, lost my dog and two cats, got evicted from our home due to fucked up reasons etc)
    So, I applied for this year, a totally different course, and got it! It's not only a course that's my passion, but this year was one of the best of my life!
    I've met people who I would take a bullet for and vice versa, in 2017 my mom realized that my depression was a real thing and I got this amazing therapist who helped me so much, so now in 2018 I have amazing coping skills, medications that help me be who I know I was meant to be. I even buckled down and got my lisence and just... I actually felt worthy enough to try and lead that life one only reads or dreams about.
    And I wouldn't have done a single thing differently.
    So, yeah - I know, it sucks, it's sucks so *fucking* much being rejected, but this is your journey. You are suppose to get this obstacle now, just breathe and take it day for day, step for step and you will get through this.
    And if you need someone to just rant to, hit me up girl/boy/alien/etc. 😌

    • @cmonbruh6769
      @cmonbruh6769 5 років тому +1

      So this dream university is UCT?

    • @mlagv4045
      @mlagv4045 5 років тому +1

      @@cmonbruh6769 noooooo 😂. Stellenbosch

    • @ketrintopic8689
      @ketrintopic8689 5 років тому +2

      Sis I'm so proud of you!!! I hope things are going amazing for you

    • @Lavieenrose99999
      @Lavieenrose99999 5 років тому +1

      💗💗

    • @shototodoroki4838
      @shototodoroki4838 5 років тому +1

      Even though things are getting better, I want you to no that we love you, and wish you nothing but the best. ♥♥♥

  • @Mariposa16676
    @Mariposa16676 5 років тому +92

    Your videos have kicked my butt into gear. I’m starting slowly but my room is clean and organized and there’s fruits, vegetables, and water in my diet in growing amounts now. Each week this has been a little reminder to keep going.
    I adore your optimism and love that you are kind to yourself when things don’t go as planned.
    Basically, thank you for these!

  • @onlyemmy893
    @onlyemmy893 4 роки тому +1

    When this video first came out I cried at the part of you binging because I could relate so much. I used to sneak food into my room and eat it and every time I wasn't even hungry and it affected me badly and changed my perspective of things. I wasn't seeing the harm I was doing. Even though I wasn't even trying to binge it just ended up happening. When my mom would confront me about it I would feel so guilty. I would feel so bad about myself not realizing I was binging every day, mostly after school. I had no willpower but then I got my life straight and I became more focused and organized and found myself again. Your series helped me through a lot and probably a lot of others.
    thank you sooooo much!

  • @luke2921
    @luke2921 5 років тому +9

    Omg seeing you cry legit broke my heart

  • @byebye4857
    @byebye4857 5 років тому +187

    That happened to me i ate healthy and clean for a week then binged for a day felt so bad but i got back up and I’m on my 2nd day of eating healthy this is a journey and not an easy one you’re gonna fall and not want to get back up but you have to you have to acknowledge that you are a human and humans have cravings for love for food for emotions and sometimes it’s okay to give in a little and enjoy don’t be too hard on yourself life is balance between taking care of yourself and living 💖 I’ve lost a total of 4kg so far and have 18 to go

    • @ketrintopic8689
      @ketrintopic8689 5 років тому

      Hey sis it's been a month, how're you doing?

  • @Jonesie33
    @Jonesie33 5 років тому +88

    I'm addicted to these videos

  • @theawkwardcoconut1860
    @theawkwardcoconut1860 4 роки тому +1

    Seeing how you went from having acne to the super clear skin you have now has given me hope for my own getting rid of my own acne, so thank you for that :)

  • @jodieredfrog5173
    @jodieredfrog5173 3 роки тому +1

    Hi Alivia, this is the first video I'm watching. The minute you said you got rejected, out of nowhere I started crying. I paused the video, and I am still crying. Idk why! I think I do know... But... Idk.
    When you gave that msg of fighting and working, it... Idk... I appreciate it, I needed this!
    Much love, God bless!

  • @mi-1141
    @mi-1141 5 років тому +110

    I've never loved anyone as much as I love you :") thank you for sharing your journey with us, you literally don't know how much hope this is giving me

  • @itsmonica8378
    @itsmonica8378 5 років тому +354

    Binging is fun till u regret it :(((

    • @tiffsmith8025
      @tiffsmith8025 5 років тому +37

      Its Monica everything is so delicious and yummy when ur binging and u just cant stop

    • @bahar3474
      @bahar3474 5 років тому

      😭😭

    • @leak.9822
      @leak.9822 5 років тому +39

      the thing is, i even regret it while doing it xD this is why I want to be healthy again... To actually enjoy eating again without feeling bad about it

    • @user-db2fk3fu2v
      @user-db2fk3fu2v 5 років тому +1

      @@leak.9822 yes that's true.

    • @pinkskies21
      @pinkskies21 5 років тому +6

      fun? i was seriously bulimic and still struggle and it was never fun. it felt good sometimes to gorge on food, but i was out of control and couldn't stop myself. i was and still am a food addict. i would eat anything we had in the house. it didn't even have to taste all that good.

  • @ambunny4606
    @ambunny4606 5 років тому

    watching somebody else’s journey is so bizarre because i feel these struggles so deeply. it’s one of the hardest things i’m in the process of doing. i went through all of this about two years ago and i was fine for a really long time. this past year i had a major set back and everything felt totally hopeless. i’m so glad i found your channel

  • @justme3513
    @justme3513 5 років тому

    I love this series. It empowered me to get out of my depression and to become more active in my life by eating healthier, and exercising. Also to find purpose in living. Life is a beautiful thing and you make me realize to make the most out of it. And i want to thank you a lot. I wish you the best for your glow up journey😊♥️

  • @FurJiffy
    @FurJiffy 5 років тому +103

    4:56 i mean shes not wrong hope is literally sunshine

  • @islamlover4ever1
    @islamlover4ever1 5 років тому +109

    I love your channel it’s such a breath of fresh air and a raw and real look into being human! Thank you for sharing your truth and your story ♥️

  • @yoyo8516
    @yoyo8516 4 роки тому

    You are like my most relatable, everyday hero. Because you're so real and encouraging, even when you're going through a tough time.

  • @swinter9936
    @swinter9936 4 роки тому

    I just want to thank you for all the motivation you give me and thousands of other viewers to get up, and become healthier.
    I personally am not overweight but i lay a lot in my bed, I procrastinate a lot and I have severe acne. atm I' trying to get my life together and become really happy